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- hyungsik had a huge fat crush on you.
- scratch that,
- he had the hugest fatt est crush on you.
- he has known you since childhood
- wait, now that sounds creepy
- actually, you both have known each other since childhood
- and by the time you both were 16, he’s had a crush on you
- it’s not like he didn’t try to confess even once
- in fact, he had tried more than once but always at the peak point
- some guy would come and sweep you off your feet and take you away from him
- he was so used to this feeling that even after your last breakup he just never had the courage to confess to you
- he had this weird thinking regarding you two
- he thinks he is cursed or something so every time he conjures up the courage to propose
- some guy comes in your life and proposes before him
- and after dating for a few months that guy leaves you shattered and broken
- and he is the one who gets to watch you cry
- he thinks it’s all a chain reaction and as a result after your last breakup
- he never even thought of confessing
- as for your case, your mutual friends had once or twice mentioned that hyungsik has a crush on you
- but that was after he debuted in ze:a
- you’d brush it off every time as “yeah, sure an idol would have a crush on me.”
- you liked him too, you weren’t sure if it was just infatuation since he’s always been by your side or something more
- when he debuted as an actor and garnered a lot of popularity, you were so happy for him
- you both watched the movie together cuddled up on his couch eating some popcorn
- but when he was busy watching his scene, you caught yourself staring at him
- and felt yourself realize how far he was drifting away from you
- your eyes travelled from his shining forehead to the arch of his nose and then onto the curve of his lips
- it’s like you stopped there and just stared
- hyungsik felt your gaze at him and looked at you causing you to move your eyes to the screen
- you bit your lip nervous since he caught you
- fidgeted with your fingers and now felt his gaze piercing through you
- gathering up the courage, you looked up at him and he was closer than before
- you could feel his breath fanning your face
- he leaned in and so did you but before you could kiss him since you’ve always dreamt of, his phone went off
- he sighed softly, closing his eyes and felt the shuffling of the couch beside him
- opening his eyes, he saw you on your feet now, grabbing your phone and other belongings
- he stood up too but said nothing and walked you out to your car wordlessly
- you left too without a word
- you were afraid it was just a rebound phase and hyungsik was your best friend
- the last thing you’d ever want was to hurt him
- after that incident maybe you guys didn’t meet for a month or two but then again you were back to being the best buddies
- neither of you ever mentioned that night again
- at present, it’s been a while now since strong woman do bong soon came out and suddenly you received a call from hyungsik
- you were in office at the time
- “hey what’s up?”
- “are you free tonight?”
- “after work, yeah sure”
- “wanna go to take a walk along han river like old times? i miss it very much and i get a break after a while”
- “please, i’d love to. work has been so hectic lately, a refreshing walk would be rejuvenating”
- “awesome. i’ll see you after work.”
- so that’s how after work you found yourself walking along the shore of han river with your boy best friend
- your shoes in your hands and your work pants folded up till your ankle
- hyungsik was holding his shoes in his hand too, his jeans folded up till his calf
- “do you remember that night?”
- you were lost in watching the small ebbs and tides of the water as it washed against your feet and his voice brought you out of your reverie
- “yeah?”
- “that night when we’re watching the movie.”
- “you’ll have to be specific sik, we have watched so many movies together.”
- when he didn’t reply you looked at him and caught him staring at you
- you knew exactly what he was talking about but decided to change the topic
- “why ask me? why don’t you ask your park bo-young noona?”
- “excuse me?” he quirked an eyebrow smirking
- “oh i don’t know. isn’t she your celebrity crush, all the kissing scenes must have felt like a dream come true for you!” you said in a taunting voice
- hyungsik chuckled, “oh yeah? are you jealous?”
- “hmph, why would i be jealous?” you asked puffing up your cheeks but your smile faded with his as he hit you again with his serious look.
- “you know exactly what i’m talking about so why change the topic?”
- you sighed, “why are we talking about that after so many years?”
- “i never understood why you left that night. you never mentioned it too”
- “i could ask you why you leaned in”
- hyungsik looked straight ahead and you guys kept walking for a while
- as the shore came to an end after a while, you both starting walking on the sidewalk of the road now
- still barefoot, he could feel the pebbles under his skin and it gave him a tingling sensation
- when you still didn’t talk, hyungsik looked at you and took a deep breath
- “i leaned in because i wanted to feel you against me.”
- “why?” you asked mindlessly
- “because you’re a dumbass.”
- “what?” you stopped and gave him a look
- “are you really that oblivious or do you keep up this front just to piss me off?”
- “what are you talking about?”
- “wow, i can’t believe i’ve to spell it out for you,” he rolled his eyes and put his hands on your shoulders
- you stared at him confused, “what is it?”
- “look up since i really have to spell it out for you!” hyungsik exclaimed sighing in defeat
- you looked up at the sky and saw a jet which flashed a pair of searchlights forming images on the cloud
- they spell out, “will you be mine?”
- you just stared at it with your jaw open
- hyungsik was waiting patiently for an answer and even after the jet flew away you kept staring above and he grew more nervous, “y/n?”
- “huh?” you looked back at him, “oh my god. you freaking idiot.”
- “what the hell? why am i an idiot when you were the one who never understood it?”
- “did you ever understand my crush on you?!”
- “ye- what no,” he was his turn to be tongue-tied now
- “freaking idiot, always making my life difficult with your unending cheesiness,” you fumed before grabbing him by the collar of his shirt and kissed him finally.
- his eyes went wide before he started kissing back, he didn’t close his eyes
- his eyes were on you, trained on your beautiful face
- you felt him smiling in the kiss and smiled too before pulling back
- “so like is that a yes?”
- you glared at him grabbing his arm, “no. it’s a no. idiot.”
- hyungsik grinned walking, swaying this and that way on the sidewalk with you, his hand on top of yours where you kept it on his arm.
- “seriously such a kid,” you giggled staring up at him grinning like a fool.