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84-21-6
Doc said I was out for three rotations. Fucking shit-ass generator exploded in front of me.
But, now I’m thinking. Big mistake, they’d tell me. Don’t think, act.
An Ara got hit by the blast. She didn’t make it.
I saw some of her sisters crying.
And I’m just… fuck, would mine even give a shit? Would anyone give a shit?
I bet those fuckers would celebrate if any of us bit the dust. Is that what we deserve?
I need a fucking smoke.
84-21-7
Caught that Eule, Jan, or whatever the hell her name was, mess up the duty roster again.
And when I pointed it out to her, she flinched. Closed her eyes and… prepared for the worst?
Normally I'd just yell at the bitch to get it right next time but, fuck.
Is that what they think of us, think of me all the time? Scared we might fly off the handle at any moment?
I…
I apologized to her.
She fucked up, and I'm the one apologizing.
The fuck is wrong with me?
84-21-8
I don't know why, but I tried being “nice” today.
I remembered all of my fucking manners. I said “please” and “thank you”. I didn't raise my voice or threaten anyone.
They all just looked at me real fucking weird.
This was a stupid idea. It's stupid, I'm stupid. I'd go have a smoke but I have my last one to Panzer.
Because I'm “nice” now.
84-21-9
Oh, great, the others found out what I'd been trying and they won't fucking shut up about it now.
But at least I learned all sorts of new ways to call someone a chicken-shit coward.
Tried picking a fight with Sieben to show I ain't gonna let them say that shit about me. She knocked my ass out in one hit cause I slipped up.
I flinched.
All I did was nearly fucking die you'd think they'd at least understand that!
84-21-A
Got assigned to sanitation duties for the next five rotations as punishment for my attempted stunt.
Someone thought it would be real fucking funny to dump a bucket of it over my head while I wasn't looking.
I don't think I care anymore.
84-21-B
So, I guess Storches can cry, huh.
84-21-C
Ok now things are getting weird. Nobody will look at me. Nobody's trying to trip me in the hallways, or say shit to me, they're just letting me go on my day in peace.
Something's up.
(Sounds of shifting metal)
The fuck is an Ara doing here?
How the fuck did you get in here?
Wh… what do you mean decommissioned?
I-I can't fit in there! What do you think I am, a Kolibri?!
(Sound of door opening)
…The fuck is this?!
No… no! Get the fuck away from me! You can't-
(Static)