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Rain wasn't sure how to feel about this move. On one hand, he was ecstatic. It was a chance to start fresh, none of the kids in his new school would have any preconceived beliefs about him and most importantly, they wouldn't know he's trans. On the other hand, he was scared. New town, new home, new school, new people. Rain was a pretty solitary boy, he didn't really care to make friends that he could hang out with outside of school but that doesn't mean he doesn't want any friends. He had a total of two close friends back home but now he doesn't even have them. Rain had never been good at meeting people and now he'd have to do it all over again. His big brothers had always been social party animals, they made friends with everyone and Rain could never really understand how they did it.
What if he didn't make any friends at this new school? What if the whole student body turned against him once they found out he was trans? Would they bully him like his last school did? Even his best friends had turned on him the minute the rest of the school did. They might not have bullied him but they had stood by and let it happen. Maybe it was better that he just kept his head down and tried to finish his senior year as fast as possible.
"Aren't you excited, my little HoneyBee? New school, new friends! I'm so excited for you!" Morgan, his hormone monster squealed, shimming his shoulders. "Maybe you'll even get a boyfriend this time!"
Rain groaned, breaking apart the empty cardboard boxes, having finally unpacked and set up his room completely. "Morgan, I'm not looking for a boyfriend."
"Oh come on Rain!" Morgan whined, "you've never even had a first kiss, just indulge your hormones for once."
"Morgan, teen boys are extremely immature and I really don't think telling them I'm trans is gonna go over well."
"Or, maybe, you might just find the man of your dreams who doesn't care about what's between your legs and will go down on you regardless."
Rain wrinkled his nose. "Gross, don't say stuff like that!"
"Fine," Morgan smiled, patting the boy's head gently, "We'll talk about this later, for now, I'm gonna see what other hormone monsters are in this city." With that simple statement, the horned monster disappeared within the blink of an eye.
Rain couldn't help but smile and shake his head fondly. Morgan had first arrived when he had been only ten. That had been the start of his realization that he was a boy, not a girl. Morgan, for all his vulgarity, had helped him through his realization, transition, and coming out to his family. The menstruations and body dysmorphia had thrown him into an extremely dark place. Through all of that, Morgan had helped keep the shame demon away and made him finally feel comfortable in his own body. Morgan was his ride or die and the day he left would break Rain's heart.
Maybe that was why he was holding off on losing his virginity. But, a bigger part of him knew it was because he was a coward. His family had accepted him and did their best to help him through his transition, although it took some time for his father to truly understand what being trans meant. His friends and classmates had instantly turned on him in the worst possible way. Some of them had bullied him, constantly misgendering him and shoving things down his pants to make him into a 'real man.' Those that didn't bully him had simply turned a blind eye to the abuse. Rain was terrified to open himself up to new people again, it was safer with his family.
Although, sometimes, when he watched his parents together or his older brothers weaving in and out of relationships, he liked to imagine himself in a relationship too. He wanted to know what it felt like to be loved, to be touched and cradled. To have his hair played with, to be kissed softly and hear the words 'I love you' whispered in his ear. Those fantasies had invaded his mind in the lonely hours.
Rain shook his head, pushing away the thoughts. As nice as it would be to be in a relationship, it wasn't likely that Rain would find someone and he had to accept that.
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Rain took a deep breath, staring at the blue building, the word 'Bridgeton' scrawled onto a slab of rock on the side.
"Are you gonna be okay, Adrian?" Rain huffed at Levi' use of his full name.
"Yeah I'll be fine," Rain reassured his brothers, over the sound of his little sister's cartoon playing in the backseat, her backpack cradled in her lap, legs kicking in anticipation.
Unlike Rain, Sofia was excited to start fourth grade. She'd spent the past week planning out her outfits and chattering about all the new friends she was going to make.
"Alright well," Ronan spoke from the backseat, "you know I've only got one class today, I'll be home by eleven so if you need I can pick you up early. Just call."
"I know guys, I'm just anxious. First day jitters y'know?" Rain said, halfway out the door.
"Adrian!" Sofia called for him, rolling down the window. "Have fun! Make lots of friends okay?"
Rain chuckled, "Alright but only because you asked me too, okay?"
Rain leaned over the open window and pressed a quick kiss to her forehead. "Bye guys! Have a good first day!" He waved, walking backwards towards the school as his siblings returned the sentiment before Levi sped off.
Rain had only turned halfway around before he collided with a warm body, forehead knocking into the sturdy unknown cheekbone.
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