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• A Love for Suffering by RSWA_bob

  Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel (Comics), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Black Widow (Movie 2021)  

  • Explicit
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Multi, F/F, F/M, Gen
  • Work in Progress

  30 Oct 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Clint Barton & Natasha Romanov
  • Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanov
  • Natasha Romanov & Tony Stark
  • Yelena Belova & Natasha Romanov
  • James "Bucky" Barnes & Natasha Romanov
  • Bruce Banner & Natasha Romanov
  • Natasha Romanov & Melina Vostokoff
  • Marina (Black Widow)/Natasha Romanov
  • Nikolai (Black Widow Comics)/Natasha Romanov
  • Natasha Romanov/Alexei Shostakov
  • James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov
  • Natasha Romanov (Marvel) & Anastasia Nikolaevna Romanova (1901-1918)
  • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
  • Yelena Belova
  • Clint Barton
  • Steve Rogers
  • Red Room Trainee Characters (Marvel)
  • Tony Stark
  • James "Bucky" Barnes
  • Bruce Banner
  • Wanda Maximoff
  • Nikolai (Marvel Comics)
  • Marina (Marvel Comics)
  • Rose Romanov - Character
  • Alexei Shostakov
  • Melina Vostokoff
  • Original Male Character(s)
  • Psychological Trauma
  • Implied/Referenced Mind Control
  • Mind Control Aftermath & Recovery
  • Age Regression/De-Aging
  • Human Experimentation
  • Triggers
  • Clint Barton & Natasha Romanov Friendship
  • Natasha Romanov Is Called Natalia (Marvel)
  • Bucky Barnes Calls Natasha Romanov "Natalia"
  • Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanov Friendship
  • Natasha Romanov & Tony Stark Friendship
  • Past Bucky Barnes/Natasha Romanov
  • Wanda Maximoff & Natasha Romanov Friendship
  • Bucky Barnes & Natasha Romanov Friendship
  • Bisexual Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
  • Team as Family
  • Moral Ambiguity
  • Grief/Mourning
  • Survivor Guilt
  • Confrontations
  • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
  • Canon-Typical Violence
  • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
  • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
  • Natasha Romanov Needs a Hug (Marvel)
  • Graphic Description
  • Implied/Referenced Character Death
  • Comic accurate Natasha Romanov
  • POV Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
  • POV Yelena Belova
  • Yelena Belova Needs a Hug
  • Aromantic Asexual Yelena Belova
  • Sibling Love
  • Red Room (Marvel)
  • Moral Dilemmas
  • Redemption
  • Implied Sexual Content
  • Mental Health Issues
  • Minor Wanda Maximoff/Natasha Romanov
  • I Wrote This While Listening to Radiohead's Music

  Summary

  To love is to suffer and there can be no love otherwise.
  Natasha Romanoff’s life was never her own. Trained, weaponised, and manipulated from childhood, she survived a world that rewrote her past, erased her losses, and forced her to wear masks for everyone’s benefit.
  She survived a life stolen from her; now her family is coming to collect the debts of the past.

  Or what if I mixed Natasha's comic backstory with MCU cannon?

  Language:

  English

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