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DAY DREAM ((zuho×youngbin))
"there's no killer for this case.you should leave it be.just forget it kim youngbin."
his boss's voice was echoing in his ears.
how could he let go of a important case?
why didn't his boss give him another chance to find the killer?
he wasn't a detective but he could find anything he wanted.
he drank another glass of alcohol with a hopeless gesture.
he put his hands on the table in front of him and rested his forehead on his hands.
unlike the other people he didn't have any purpose to be a cop.
he didn't know why he studied for years just to be a cop. he was just enjoying arresting the theifs and nothing else.
but he didn't know why he couldn't leave this case.
he stood up while feeling dizzy and totterring around. he hated to drink and lose control but it was the only way that he could forget his problems. before he falls on the floor he got caught by someone.
he looked up to see the person who caught him. he couldn't see clearly.he had a headache.
"you must come with me."
the guy in front of him seemed deadly serious.
youngbin nodded.
what was happening for him?he didn't know what he was doing himself.
he found himself dragging by that guy. he almost fell sleep while dragging with him but suddenly became wide awake when the guy pushed him and caused him to fall in the floor.
he cursed the guy and sat to relax. "why's a cop in my club?"
he heard an unfamiliar voice broke the silence of the room.
"what's with that?"youngbin asked while hiccoughing.
he couldn't go to any club 'cause he was a cop?
"leave." the unfamiliar voice ordered but the problem was that youngbin didn't know if the guy was talking to him or to his guards.
when his guards left youngbin found out that the guy was talking to them. youngbin stood up and looked around. "you seem like a gangster."youngbin said not caring about the guy watching him.
pair of hands curled around youngbin's waist and sat him on the table that was in front of the window with a high height showing how the club was luxurious.
youngbin felt like he was flying when the guy sat him on the table.
dizziness was controling him.he couldn't understand anything.
"a gangster huh?"the guy smirked. youngbin could see his handsome face now.
his blonde hair on his forehead,his model-like nose,his pink lips..
he wasn't gay but the guy in front of him was really something more than super handsome.
youngbin hoped that the guy won't see just a cute youngbin in front of him. youngbin hated to be seen cute.
"it's redicilous that a handsome guy just sit in the club except being a model."youngbin pouted and petted the guy's cheek.
maybe the guy just needed youngbin's touch to kiss him.
with the guy's lips landing on youngbin's lips youngbin felt a sweet flavor in his mouth.
Youngbin hated bitter things such as alcohol or bitter chocolates but the guy's lips were so sweet..
youngbin could feel that he was doing wrong but he couldn't reject..
he was enjoying and that was the only important thing at that moment.
***
he openned his eyes as the sun shone on his face.
he frowned and closed his eyes again but all of a sudden remembered that his room was never facing the sun.
he sat on the bed paniced but at that moment he felt a sharp headache. "fuck."he held his head and breathed out. he was feeling awful..
the worst feeling was that he noticed that he had to go to the police station,his day fucked up.
he stood up but he felt dizziness again. "what's wrong with me?"youngbin asked himself and put his hand on his right naked chest.
he breathed out once again but wait.. why was his chest naked??
he stared at his naked body shocked. he didn't like to sleep naked even if he was living alone!
he didn't remember anything.he thanked god that he was wearing a underwear.
he looked for his clothes and then he realized that he wasn't in his room.
he crossed his hands over his chest while he was shivering from fear and looking at the floor with his wided eyes,still not realizing what was happening.
when the door of the room openned he scared more.
he was humming that he's a cop and shouldn't scared of anything but he was freaking out .
he could hear footsteps getting closer to him. he really wanted to look up to see what was happening but he couldn't.
with his nude body he couldn't think about good things.
Wasn't he in danger?
Shouldn't he escape?
When the person stood in front of him youngbin stopped breathing.
that person covered youngbin's torso with a white dress.
youngbin looked up this time to see the handsome guy in front of him. "Good morning."the guy smiled and ruffled youngbin's hair.
"why..am I here?"youngbin wasn't curious about the guy's name.he wanted to know the reason of being him there.
"that's a long story."the guy shook his head.
"I wanna know.tell me."youngbin frowned seriously.
"don't frown like that.you become cuter."the guy smiled.
all youngbin knew was that the guy was running on his nerves.
he hated to be seen cute.
"I swear to god if I slept with you last night,you'll be dead."youngbin warned. the guy was really lucky that youngbin had to leave to the work.
"wanna leave now?no breakfast?"the blonde guy smirked.
"breakfast my ass!!I'll kill you later."youngbin yelled while finding his pants and wearing them and running out.
he wanted to memorize the address but he didn't have enough time.
he had to head the home to change his clothes.
he hoped that he'll remember what happened to him last night.
***
his headache started again.
maybe he worked too much?
he put his wrist on his eyes to rest his eyes for a moment.
maybe a cup of coffee helps?
he stood up and made coffee for himself. he wanted to drink his coffee in peace but his co-worker disturbed him.
"the boss wants to see you."
with that his day fucked up once again. maybe he wanted to inform him again that he shouldn't interrupt the case.
he already knew his boss's words.
he knocked the door and entered the office.
the atmosphere was so unusual and youngbin really hated it.
"sit."the boss ordered.
youngbin didn't want to sit but finally sat on the chair in front of the table of his boss's chair.
"you know why you're here,don't you?"the boss asked.
"I do."youngbin nodded.
"all I ask you is not interrupting the case.I know how curious you are about everything but you should leave this case.we have a skilled detectives and I bet they'll find the killer so you don't need to waste your time."the boss said.
youngbin didn't show any reaction.
he knew his boss will say those things. "I'm sorry.but the only way to stop me is firing me."youngbin stood up and left the room as soon as he could.
he didn't have any dream so quiting those stuff wouldn't be so hard.
***
he followed the way he was thinking that might be right to find that guy's house.
fortunately he found it easily.maybe he was always chasing thiefs.
he pushed the ring more than 10 times in 3 seconds.
"who is-" the guy openned the door but youngbin didn't let him finish his words and pressed him against the wall.
the guy seemed shocked at first but he looked calm after that.
"Who are you?why was I here?what did you do to me?"youngbin asked with his serious face and made the guy laugh. "how cute could you be?"the guy laughed and switched their position in a second.
youngbin shocked but didn't show it.how could he do that?
"listen kid."the guy got closer.
youngbin could feel his warm breath was hitting his face but didn't blink at all.
he couldn't handle pressing his arms by the guy's hands.
he frowned from pain and tried to push the guy away but the guy held him tighter.
"you can't push me away youngbin.I know."the guy said.
youngbin shocked and stopped moving.but the scariest moment was when the guy kissed youngbin's ear and hummed near his ear.
"I know you more than you do yourself."
youngbin freaked out.
how did he know??who was he??
"I know you lost your mother when you were 16 and your father left you by yourself.I know you well..I know you're weaker than me.I know you're looking for the killer and I-"
"you think..you know me more than that?"youngbin asked.
the guy seemed shocked,seeing youngbin's head down and a scary shadow on his face wasn't what he expected.
youngbin knew the guy didn't know him as much as he did himself.
no one knew about him that much.
no one knew how much he's been suffering.
no one ever tried to know.
"I know how much you hate to be seen cute.you love to eat vanilla ice cream in the cold weather.you love to play with kids.you never drink milk with anything."
youngbin could confess the guy had so much information about him but that wasn't enough.
"you knew I hate to be cute and yet you called me cute?"youngbin asked coldly.
"it's not my fault that you're cute even if you don't do anything."the guy smirked.
"who-are-you?"youngbin asked trying so hard to control his anger.
"my name's zuho.and I'm here to help you find the killer."the guy aka zuho said.
he couldn't be a cop.he coulf be everything except a cop.
"you're not a cop.who are you?"youngbin asked once again.
"I didn't say that I'm a cop but..you know.it seems funny if I say I would find the killer because of you."zuho laughed a bit.
'because of me?'
youngbin didn't know what to do.was frowning enough?
"you-" youngbin was about to say something but a soft kiss landed on his lips as fast as possible.
youngbin's eyes widened shocked.
he didn't know what was happening..wait..
he was..blushing.. how could blushing be so redicilous for him?
did that handsome jerk kiss him now?
"you'll be mine anyway."zuho smirked and ruffled youngbin's black hair.
"and good night."zuho added and closed the door and left youngbin alone.
youngbin was still standing there not knowing if the earth was still rounding. maybe he was dead.he couldn't feel his heartbeats!
he put his hand on his chest,wishing that was just a dream.
he walked to leave the house.he didn't want to think about zuho.
youngbin didn't even know zuho well! he stopped by someone before he leaves the house.
he dragged into someone's embrace. "don't leave."zuho whispered but youngbin was just looking in front of him.
what was happening?
did zuho stop him now?
"why are you acting so weird?"youngbin asked but when he was thinking carefully he could feel he liked that warmth..just a bit..a bit!!okay more than a bit.
"I don't know.I feel like if I let you leave now I'll miss you."zuho held him tighter.
he knew youngbin for a long time.
maybe since youngbin arrested one of his followers.
he wanted to destroy him.
he wanted to smash him.
he told his best guard to get some information from youngbin for him.
at first it was just a little game.
watching youngbin from a cctv which was in their police station.
he wanted to know youngbin so much.
he needed to trick him carefully. everytime he was watching youngbin,youngbin was smiling and treating his seniors politely.
everytime zuho was watching him he would smile at the lap top like a fool.
it became his daily work.
watching youngbin and smiling .
he knew much about him but never showed up.
he couldn't talk to youngbin. he was shocked that day.
why youngbin was in their club? not any club but their club!!
and that night he fucked up in front of him.
he couldn't control himself.
could he just kiss him and tell him that he loves him?
he closed his eyes as he remembered the fact that youngbin didn't know him as much as he did.
he liked the cute boy that was in his embrace.
he liked everything about him.
of course he would catch the killer for youngbin.
it seemed crazy but he would do anything for him. that wasn't just liking youngbin.
he could admit that he loved him.
"how can you help me to arrest the killer?"youngbin asked and made zuho to became to himself.
zuho smiled and kissed youngbin's cheek.
"I can.trust me."
***
many gangsters were surrounding him and staring at youngbin like they never saw a human.
but youngbin was sitting there like a good boy watching zuho who was looking at a map.
"do you want me to-"
"no.I don't need your information."zuho cut youngbin as he wrote an address on the blackboard which was behind him.
how could he find the killer without youngbin's information?
"but I can help."youngbin said.
"no need."zuho shook his head.
"you're meaner than what I was thinking."youngbin pouted and kept his head down.
zuho stared at him exhausted.youngbin didn't know what was happening right?
he left the case on the table and put his hands on youngbin's knees and stared in his eyes seriously.
"youngbin-ah.I hate those eyes staring at you but I can't help.I noticed that there's a spy in our clan and if I don't allow them to watch you they'll infrom my boss and I can't let that happen.I don't say I'm weak.I'll fight the world because of you.I won't lose you.trust me and keep quiet okay?I know it's hard but stay with me."zuho whispered.
youngbin didn't think about how stupidly could trusting to a gangster be for once.
he liked the charisma that was in zuho's eyes. he showed zuho one of his bunny like smiles and nodded. zuho felt excitment and smiled a bit and went to work again even if it was hard to just look at youngbin acting cute like that.
he could lock youngbin in his house and kiss him and do whatever he wanted but that could be so harsh.
he couldn't hurt youngbin. he loved him after all.
"I found it."he turned his head to youngbin and informed him.
"lets go then."youngbin stood up. "where?you should stay here."zuho said seriously.
"WHAT??WHY??"youngbin almost screamed.
"I'll take him to you.you won't go there.it's dangerous.I leave my guards to protect you here."zuho said and put his army in his pocket.
youngbin stared at him while he was biting his lips.
how more annoying zuho could be? but wait..youngbin still had an excuse! "then.." youngbin stood in front of zuho and looked a bit up to stare in his eyes cutely.
"you wanna leave me with your guards?"youngbin asked and tried to be as cute as hell.
he didn't have any other excuse but!he could use zuho's love for him!
"you little.."zuho frowned.
watching youngbin cute like that and can't kiss him?
by the way..was he using his love?how mean could he be? zuho leant his forehead to youngbin's forehead.
"all right.you come with me but not allowed to go anywhere.and.." zuho cut his words.those big eyes in front of his eyes..
they could fool him as easy as drinking water.
"and you don't dare to use your damn aegyo against me ever again."zuho stepped back and left with his guards. when youngbin came to himself he understood that he had to go with him. he followed zuho to nowhere.
could they find the killer?he didn't know but well..
he trusted zuho.
***
he was hiding behind the wall scared. he was shivering from fear.
he didn't know what to do.he was a cop and shouldn't be scared but he was. the killer caught zuho and now youngbin didn't know what to do. he could leave and go back with help but he couldn't leave zuho like that in the other hand.
he gulped his own saliva.he had to stay.
zuho told him that he'll help him that was why he trusted zuho.
he couldn't leave zuho now.
he wasn't a coward.
he looked at the gun that zuho gave him to use at emergency situation.
he held the gun tighter and closed his eyes.
'Live or death.lets do both of them together zuho.'
he jumped out and shot as fast as he could and hoped that he didn't shot zuho.
unfortunately the bullet didn't hit anywhere and made youngbin to shot once again.
he realized the situation and found out the killer wasn't there.
where did he go?
he looked around shocked.
"are you looking for me?" he heard a voice near his ear.
he stopped moving.
but..it was okay if the killer caught him..
he wasn't that idiot to get caught without being armed.
***
"look what we have here." the guy in front of them was on youngbin's nerves so bad.
youngbin was looking at him frowned while his back was facing zuho's back and their hands were touching eat other.
youngbin knew he might get caught so..thank to his good luck he had time to get a small knife.
he took out the knife from his pocket and gave it to zuho from back.
"you really thought that you're smart?"the guy held youngbin's chin and forced him to look up and face him.
"I don't think you have anything but your beautiful face."the guy shook his head and that was the time when youngbin hated the killer's mask.
"why don't you face me and take off that hilarious mask? "youngbin asked and hoped zuho to cut the rope sooner.
"why should I?I know this is the time for him to cut the rope so I won't take the mask off!"the guy said and freaked youngbin out.
he knew..
he took the knife from zuho and grabbed youngbin's collar and pulled him up.
zuho almost cut the rope but when he took the knife he pissed off. youngbin was looking at the guy with his wided eyes trying hard not to show how scared he was.
"you're so cute.you know?"the guy pulled him closer and curled his arms around youngbin's waist. youngbin..could remember something..
wait..
did this moment happened in the past? like someone holds his waist and..kisses him?
he seemed more scared.
he could remember something that never happened before or did it?
but did the killer forget?
zuho was watching!zuho could see them! all zuho knew was that he didn't want anyoe to touch someone that belonged to him.
the guy was touching his youngbin.
he didn't feel anything except burning. he pulled his hands to opposite sides and cut the rope and before he does anything more he punched the guy and grabbed youngbin his side.
"have I ever allowed you to touch my youngbin?"zuho asked and stared at the guy coldly.
he didn't want him alive but maybe youngbin did.
he held the gun which was on the floor and shot the guy's leg fast.
youngbin had to stop zuho but he was just standing there like a fool.
"z-zuho.."he finally held zuho's sleeve and pulled it weakly.
zuho knew at first.he knew youngbin might become his weakness but..
he liked the feelings.
he liked youngbin to be his.
***
'everything finished now..'
youngbin stared at the building in front of him while he was covered with a warm blanket around his body,sitting on the ambulance looking around.
by the way where was zuho?
did he hurt?
youngbin started to shake his feet like a kid from the height and playing somehow.
"youngbin."
someone called his name but when he looked up he dragged into someone's embrace.
zuho..
"I'm glad that you're all okay."zuho hummed and kissed youngbin's hair. youngbin smiled even if he didn't know why zuho was kissing him all the time. but he liked it.
his lips were warm..
"are you hurt?I was looking for you..with my eyes."youngbin laughed a bit.
"I'm okay.thank you for your anxiety cutie."zuho laughed after him.
"you're welcome."youngbin smiled widely.
he didn't care about zuho calling him cute anymore.
maybe he wanted it..
"you know.I held myself so hard not to sleep with you last time but I don't think I can this time."zuho shook his head.
"what happened that night?"youngbin asked half curious and half shocked. "it's not important."zuho smiled and left a soft kiss on youngbin's lips. youngbin could feel like..
he loved the kiss?
maybe he had to start loving zuho?
but before he knows he's been started it..