Chapter 1: Chapter One
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Kravos Redwind, the Last Dragonborn, had done much in his fifty-two years of life.
He slew Alduin, quelled a civil war, and crushed the Forsworn under his boot. He’d fought the Altmer and the Silver Hand, bringing them both to heel. He’d become a thane several times over and always did his best to serve the people of his holds. He’d conquered the Labyrinthian and tangled with over half-a-dozen Daedric Lords, coming out on top nearly every time. He’d defeated Lord Harkon of Clan Volkihar and overcome the Gradous with the down of his own Thu’um. He’d learned to sing prettily in three languages.
He’d raised ten children so they were proud and strong. He’d worked hard to ensure that they’d grow into better people than him, that they’d never need to shed as much blood as he had. And, in Kravos’ own admittedly biased position, he’s succeeded spectacularly.
Alesan had become a sea trader and now had himself an entire fleet of ships under his name, in addition to a beautiful Redguard wife. Runa was an honored member of the Companions and best friends with Aela’s daughter, Berengaria, though Kravos often felt the two were something more. Blaise became a wealthy farmer, owning wide stretches of lands with many workers under him. Sofie had perhaps been elevated the highest by wedding Emperor Titus Mede III’s second son, perhaps she would never sit a throne but she’d always have a comfortable life. Hroar opted for a simpler life as a hunter, running a prosperous shop in Whiterun with his family.
Sissel followed her passion and talent for magic to the College of Winterhold, Kravos was sure she’d be a fine Arch-mage one day. Samuel was now a decorated Legate in the Imperial Legion and married to the grand-niece of General Tullius. Lucia, who could sing like a lark, studied rigorously at the Bard’s College and eventually became so renowned that courts all over Tamriel, catching the eye of many admirers. Francois had, with a heavy heart, decided to return to Cyrodiil to search out any signs of the parents who had abandoned him at the Honorhall Orphanage, though he never found them he eventually made the decision to stay and study in Leyawiin. Kravos was even proud of Britte, his most difficult child, who’d made herself a comfortable life as a blacksmith.
From these ten amazing children, he’d also been given thirteen wonderful grandchildren that he thanked the Nine for every day for them. He cherished each one and looked forward to their visits, which were fewer and far between these days. As every one of his children endlessly commented on, Kravos was a doting grandfather and admittedly spoiled his grandchildren whenever he saw them, if for no other reason than there was little else to do with his vast wealth these days.
Yes, the Last Dragonborn lived a good life… A fulfilling life… A life to be content with.
But, by the gods, he was so bored with it.
Kravos had only been nineteen -just a boy barely able to grow anything more than a patchy beard- when he was revealed to be the Last Dragonborn, when he slew Mirmulnir, when saw Alduin the first time and, after so many years of adventure, the peaceful life he’d once welcomed eventually turned stale and tiresome.
So he trained future generations of soldiers, bred dogs to create the greatest companions Skyrim had ever seen, performed his political duties with the utmost seriousness, answered every question curious young aspiring author showed up to his doorstep with and watched his all those he knew grow old around him -Balgruuf was gone now and his eldest son ruled Whiterun, Kravos hoped to meet his old friend in Sovngarde when the time came- while he looked for something to alleviate his boredom.
Aaaaand that is what brought him here.
Of course, where exactly ‘here’ was remained a mystery of the moment.
Kravos didn’t recognize the small island his manor had landed on, nor did he recognize the settlement he could scarcely make out on the mainland that he estimated to be about two miles away. Though that might because of the thick fog that loomed over the town.
‘To any other man, this would probably seem quite strange,’ Kravos admitted to himself. But he was no ordinary man and his life had long since led him to stop questioning such magical events. So, after attaching his favorite sword to his hip and slinging a quiver over his shoulder with its respective bow, he set off to explore what would presumably be his new home.
A few hours later, with the sun just on the cusp of setting, Karvos had come to the conclusion that the island he landed on held nothing of particular interest; it was small, less than a square mile, and was only more of an islet. He noted a few small animals that looked similar to the birds and rabbits he was familiar with, but they all looked...odd, sickly, and made him very grateful about the hefty supply of preserved foodstuffs stored in his manor.
‘I’ll export this one last area, then turn back,’ he decided, setting out towards an outcropping of rocks that lined the inner east edge of the islet.
Notching an arrow, he made his way through the small maze of boulders; most only came up to his waste but there were a few piles that cleared the top of his head by a good four feet. Picking through the grass and rock, Kravos managed to find a few interesting plant and stone samples but mostly he just found more nothing. Somewhat disappointed, he turned to leave… only to stop when he heard the faint, but very distinctive, sound of someone exhaling.
He pulled the bow taut. “Show yourself,” he demanded, voice caring loud and clear through the outcropping. “Show yourself and I will not harm you; I swear that I have no ill intentions to anyone!”
Everything was silent...until there was a faint sob and a small figure emerged from what appeared to be a little ‘cave’ created by boulders stack and pressed together just so.
A child- small, filthy, and painfully thin.
“Please don’t hurt me,” she sobbed, tears creating clean streaks on her dirty cheeks.
The grandfather in Kravos urged him to immediately sweep the sobbing child into a hug and comfort her… but the father of many adopted children in him was reminded of how guarded and frightened they could be. He had to approach this carefully.
Re-shouldering his bow, he crouched so he was at eye-level with the girl. “It’s alright child, I mean you no harm. Come out please, I can’t see you.”
Kravos kept his voice low and soft with one hand extended towards the child but the girl just shook her fiercely. “Alright, alright. What about your parents then? If you tell me where they are then I can go get them.”
Another head shake. “Mama… Mama is gone and Papa doesn’t… Papa doesn’t want me anymore.”
Kravos’ heart ached with a pang of understanding and anger. "Are you hungry? If you come with me I can get you something to eat.”
The girl seemed conflicted but eventually looked up at him with cautious green eyes, “I can’t walk, hurt my ankle.”
“Oh, is that right? I can carry you then if you don’t mind.”
Another conflicted silence before he eventually got a small nod. Giving his gentlest smile, he went to pick her up but the second his fingers touched the girl back, she winced hard with a loud yelp.
He pulled his hands away immediately, “What’s wrong?”
“My back, it hurts!”
Kravos went to soothe the girl when he noticed a clear, sticky fluid on his fluids. ‘Pus,’ he realized. Giving the child a better once over, he took notice of the half-a-dozen large, swollen blisters that dotted her upper right arm and the damp circles on the back of her ratty, sleeveless shirt. ‘Blisters, the ones on her back must have popped.’
“I’m going to try and pick you up again, alright? But I want to avoid hurting you so can you tell me if you have any blisters on your lower back?”
Wiping the pained tears from her eyes, the girl shook her head, “No, just on the backs on my shoulders and arm. But they all really, really hurt!”
“I imagine,” Kravos nodded sympathetically. “Once we can get to my home I can clean them and wrap them up so they’ll heal up much quicker.
“You can do that?”
With another nod, he carefully slipped an arm around her waist from her left side and lifted her up so she was balanced on his hip. “Better?”
He was rewarded with a small smile before the girl buried her dirty face into his shoulder. ‘Still, small blessing,’ Kravos considered even as he registered the unnatural amount of heat the little girl was generating.
‘A fever as well? Poor child.’ he mentally sighed as he started back in the direction of his house, quick as he cool. It wasn’t like the extra person slowed him down at all; the girl scarcely weighted more than a sack of flour.
The first thing Kravos did when he got home after plopping the child down on an armchair and locked the front door was to get the poor girl a drink. “Here you go,” he said, handing her the cup.
She took it but didn’t drink, giving the glass a dubious look. “Is it safe?”
‘What an odd question, she saw get it out of the barrel.’ But rather than voice the thought, he just gave a reassuring smile, “Yes, I always purify my water before drinking it.”
He didn’t even get to finish what he was saying before the girl began gulping down her drink so hurriedly that about half of it slipped down her chin. “Hey, hey, be careful! Small sips, sweetheart, otherwise you’ll get sick.”
The girl pulled the now-empty glass from her mouth with a gasp. “Can I have more please?”
“Of course,” Kravos reassured, smoothing a hand over the girl’s head, fighting a wince when his fingers caught in the tangled mess that was her hair. “It’s in that barrel there, have as much as you want. I’m going to go prepare a bath; we need to get you cleaned up before I can treat those blisters.”
He only got a nod from the girl but it was good enough. He went to the back room of the main hall and retrieved the old wooden tub he used for when his grandchildren were particularly small. Kravos had a far nicer, proper bathing room in the cellar but figured trying to take the girl down there would probably frighten her something awful, so this was an ideal compromise.
With the right mixture of spells, he filled up the tub with steaming-warm water. Sprinkling some crushed Blue Mountain Flower petals into the water for their pleasant scent and healing properties, he left the water to settle as he went to gather up some items. Going from room to room, he grabbed two bars of lavender soap, a few washcloths, a large towel, a hairbrush, the smallest nightgown he could find with a matching pair of slippers and from his alchemy tower he retrieved clean bandages and a clay pot with a spoon that he set by the lite fireplace to heat what was inside.
Once all was ready, he returned to where he left the girl. “Are you ready for a bath? I promise the water isn’t too hot.”
“I like hot baths,” she mumbled, even as she allowed herself to be picked up once again. Still, she perked up in his arms when she saw the steaming tub. She began stripping down when he sat her on the ground but Kravos stopped her when she was about to take off her shirt.
“Your shirt is stuck to the open blisters on your back,” he explained. “It’ll hurt when it is removed but I’m going to do it as quickly as possible.”
The girl looked afraid but steeled herself and gave a sharp nod. Smiling at her grit, Kravos set at cutting off the child’s shirt, pangs of sympathy hitting his gut whenever she winced in pain. Once that was done, he scooped her up and placed her in the warm water, careful of her ankle. “Here,” he said, handing over a washcloth and one of the bars of soap, “you wash your legs, privates, and front while I get your hair and back.”
It was quiet work, cleaning a dirty, sickly child. Kravos had bathed many children in his life and knew what he was doing but this was different; he didn’t know this girl, not even know her name, so there was definite awkwardness to bathing this poor, strange child. Gently he washed the open, oozing blisters that festered on the girl’s shoulder blades as he took in her visible ribs and the knobs of her spine.
‘She looks only a few days away from starving to death.’
Kravos massaged soap into the girl’s hair and then slowly, carefully brushed it out; the dirt and grime coming away to reveal hair the color of copper that was brittle and thin. “What is your name, child. My name is Kravos Redwind.”
“I’m hungry,’ the girl said shortly.
‘Alright, that is fair’ Kravos though. “We’ll have supper after your bath. I’ll have to be something light, otherwise, your stomach might not be able to handle it.”
“Okay.”
Once the bath was finished, Kravos wrapped the girl up in the soft towel, leaving only her blistered back and arm uncovered. He picked up the clay pot, taking off the lip to relieve the thick salve made of blisterwort and corkbulb. “I’m going to apply this salve to your blisters; it will feel very hot, but I promise that it will not burn you.”
“Will it hurt?” the girl asked.
The old Dragonborn paused; he didn’t want to frighten her but he also knew that children remembered lies far longer than brief bouts of pain. “Aye, it will likely sting, especially on the open blisters. But the pain will be brief and, after that, the mixture will dull pain and help them heal.”
“Okay, I’m ready.”
Methodically, Kravos spooned a dollop of the hot salve onto each blister, wrapping each with bandages as the girl hissed in pain. Still, once he was done, she turned to him and smiled, “Thank you for telling me the truth.”
“Of course, sweetheart.”
“Ashe,” the girl stated. “My name is Ashlyn, but everyone calls me Ashe.”
Chapter 2: Chapter One
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No matter how much Ashe tossed and turned, no matter how close she pulled the covers, she could not get warm. She turned her face into the pillow under her head, twisting her fingers into the warm dyed-blue wool of a woven blanket, and shut her eyes tight, trying to force herself to fall asleep. But after a long moment, maybe a minute and maybe an hour, Ashe opened them again and sighed, fighting a shiver. The night was not cold, it was mid-spring after all, but Ash just couldn't shake the chill she'd had ever since Mama died.
With another sigh, Ashe sat up in bed and caught one of the many blankets she'd piled on top of her as it slid to the ground. It was soft, as was the bed she was in; in fact, it was probably even comfier than her old bed back home had been.
'Mr. Kravos must be very rich to have a house this big and fancy,' Ashe thought. 'I wonder if he has a TV I could watch until morning? Probably not, I guess it is hard to get power out on a little island like this.'
A small candle lamp flickered by her bedside, illuminating the darkness just enough for Ashe to be able to make out the five other beds each with a wooden chest at the foot of it that were arranged in a half-circle around the big room, along with the various wardrobes, dressers, and many, many toys. More toys than Ashe had ever even seen.
"Whose room is this?" Ashe asked, looking around the room Mr. Kravos had carried her into.
It was night time now, the full moon barely visible behind the cover of fog that always surrounded Far Harbor; Ashe was just able to get a glimpse of it before Mr. Kravos closed pulled the curtains of the room's windows shut.
He put her down in a rocking chair and turned to turn down one of the bed's covers, "It was my daughters' bedroom."
"You have daughters?"
Mr. Kravos nodded, "Aye, five of them. I have sons as well, their bedroom is on the other side of the house."
"Oh," Ashe said, taking in the colorful blocks stacked neatly in a corner and the rocking horse tucked neatly between a dresser and a bookcase. "Where are they now?"
"Grown, living their own lives apart from me," the nice man answered. "They still visit everyone once in a while though and now their old rooms are used by my grandchildren."
"This is a lot of beds."
"Well, I have five daughters and six granddaughters, so I needed a lot of beds." With that, Mr. Kravos picked her up again before tucking her in with the practiced ease of someone who'd done it thousands of times before. "Will you be alright for tonight? I can stay until you fall asleep if you'd like."
"I'm fine."
Mr. Kravos seemed kind and genuine...but so had others before him and it'd been a while since Ashe trusted so easily.
It appeared he took her answer in stride, simply nodding, "If you need me than my bedroom is down the hall to your left; it is the room with the red door."
Then he had just lit the candle lamp, snuffed out the rest of the lights, and left her alone in the darkness, but not before showing Ashe how to lock the bedroom door from the inside.
She did lock the door; even if she wasn't sure it would do much good, Ashe appreciated that Mr. Kravos gave her the option. It would help her sleep, knowing there was a layer of security between herself and the stranger man who'd taken her into his home.
Or, at least, it should have helped her sleep. Even after being tucked under three warm blankets and in the nicest bed she'd ever seen, Ashe couldn't fall asleep. At first, it was because her belly felt weird, all tight and heavy. For a couple of minutes, Ashe panicked, thinking that Mr. Kravos poisoned her dinner… but then she realized that she'd just forgotten what it felt like to be full.
The dinner they shared was nice. Mr. Kravos had served her a big bowl of warm, tasty broth that he said was full of herbs and spices that would make her feel better along with two bread rolls and a tall glass of water that he refilled without hesitation whenever Ashe asked for more. She couldn't eat anything too heavy, he warned, otherwise she might become sick and throw up everything in her stomach; Ashe didn't want that, this was the first real meal she'd had in… wow, at least over a month, but she'd managed to eat the whole bowl in one sitting, soaking the last bits of broth up with the rolls, which Mr. Kravos said was a good sign.
He'd eaten the same thing as her, sitting at the opposite end of his super long table from her. Ashe hoped he just did that to make her feel better and that he'd eaten something else after seeing her off to bed; he was too big for just a bit of broth and bread to fill him up.
After a while, the tightness in her belly stopped and Ashe thought she might finally be able to get some sleep. After all, if she managed to sleep on the cold, hard ground of her tiny cave, why not in a big, comfy bed with a full stomach?
But, of course, that was never actually real sleep. Rather, it was passing out whenever the exhaustion finally outweighed the pain and hunger and fear before she came too, restarting the whole cycle all over again.
The cold began to seep back into her body and Ashe started shivering; she was sick, sick like Mama and Uncle George and Jimmy Howard had been, but she didn't have the bottle caps to buy RadAway or RadX like Jimmy's parents did so Ashe knew she'd was going to end up like Mama and Uncle George. So that left Ashe to do what she could to make herself comfortable until the time came.
She hobbled from bed to bed and gathering up as many blankets as she could carry, stacking them in a mountain on top of her in an attempt to get warm. It was all in vain though; even with a dozen blankets, quilts, and comforters on top of her, Ashe still felt as if she'd been dunked in ice water. What made it all worse, Ashe considered as she pressed a hand into her growling stomach, was that she was now hungry again.
'The apples,' she recalled, remembering the wooden bowl full of bright red apples that had sat in the middle of the dining table. 'Could I take one?'
She didn't know the rules here. Did she have to wait until morning to eat again? Would she even get breakfast in the morning? Would she be allowed to take her own food? Would she be punished for it? Would Mr. Kravos beat her if he caught Ashe out of bed like Papa had done whenever he found her trying to sneak food?
GGGRRRrrrrrr
Ashe clutched her growling stomach, 'If he caught me…'
She slid out from under the covers, wincing when her toes hit the chilly wood floors, and crept to the bedroom door. Ashe was careful to put as little weight as possible on her left ankle. Mr. Kravos had checked it over and wrapped it in white bandages after declaring it, "Badly sprained, but thankfully not broken."
'I wonder if he is a doctor? He seems very smart.'
The hallway was even darker than the bedroom with the only light coming from glowing blue stones that lined the walls every few feet, casting strange shadows on all the weird things Mr. Kravos had as decoration. Ashe slid her hand along the wall as she made her way through the strange house, trying to remember her way back to the staircase.
Evidently, she wasn't doing a great job because, without warning, the floor under her foot when she took a step vanished. Ashe screamed and fell into the darkness below.
It felt like she fell for just a second.
It felt like she fell forever.
But then something grabbed by the back of her nightgown and yanked her back until she landed flat on her butt, sore and scared but safe.
"Ashe? Ashe, Sweetheart, are you alright? What are you doing out of bed?" Mr. Kravos asked, holding up a lantern so he could see her better as the firelight caught in his silver-streaked red hair and beard.
Ashe burst into tears and buried her face in her hands. Through her sobs, she managed to cry, "I'm… hungry! I… just… wanted… an… apple! Please… don't-"
Something hot, wet, and rough rubbed against her ears and Ashe shrieked, taking her face out of her hands to scurry away for a big, white monster.
"No! No, it is alright! Calm down, Sweetheart! Rena won't hurt you, I swear," Mr. Kravos comforted as he knelt down and wrapped his arms around her.
Ashe blinked away her tears and squinted into the dim light until the scary monster became a large, fluffy white dog with bright blues and red markings on its face, chest, and legs. The dog took a step closer and lowered its head with a concerned whimper.
"See," Mr. Kravos said softly, "Rena is as gentle as a newborn kitten. Hold out your hand and let her sniff it so she can get to know you."
Ashe was hesitant, she'd met plenty of mean dogs who growled and bit before, but did eventually do as instructed. She reached a small hand out to the animal, palm up like Mama always said to do when meeting someone's pet, and the dog, Rena, gave it a small sniff before licking her palm.
"Look, she likes you already," Mr. Kravos smiled as Ashe giggled. Then he hoisted her up in his arms as he stood up, "Now, let's get you back to bed."
"But I-"
"Yes, yes, I forgot about the all-important midnight snack. My fault, that was a huge oversight," Mr. Kravos reassured as he took her back to the bedroom with Rena's claws clicking against the wooden floor as she followed them. "I'll bring you something once you're back under the blankets, sound good?"
Having no complaints about the promise of more food, Ashe just smiled into his shoulder. That caused him to give a chuckle that then faded into a confused silence. "What is all this all about?"
She blushed when she realized he was talking about her mountain of blankets. "I… got really cold."
There was silence… but then Mr. Kravos just gave a hum of understanding and sat her back down on the rocking chair before beginning to rearrange the covers on the bed. "If you're trying to stay warm then it is actually better to put some blankets under you as well as on top of you; it allows your body heat to circulate better."
"Really?" Ashe asked, even though she didn't really need an answer. "I didn't know that."
Mr. Kravos just gave another hum before picking her up and set her on the bed. "Careful with your ankle now. We'll prop it up and ice it down tomorrow; a few days of that and your ankle should heal right up in no time. How are your arm and shoulders feeling?"
"Oh, better," Ashe nodded. "they don't hurt right now."
Just as Mr. Kravos had promised, her blisters had stung horribly at first but after that bright, hot, burning pain had subsided, the medicine he used had turned them warm and numb.
"Good to hear," he said with a smile, tucking the covers around Ashe. "Now, give me just one quick moment and I'll get you a snack."
And with that, he walked back into the darkness of the rest of the house. Rena stayed though, hopping up on one of the other beds and stretching out like a giant, white house cat.
"Naughty girl," Mr. Kravos chided with a laugh. "You know you're not allowed on beds."
Rena just sneezed and rolled over so she was facing away from her master, who just rolled his eyes and smiled. He turned to Ashe, "My granddaughters spoil her, so she associates this room with having no rules."
Mr. Kravos had returned carrying a small bowl with a spoon and a cup, the latter of which he set down on her bedside table. Then he gave her the bowl, "Applesauce, it's light enough on the stomach but sweet enough to make up for my denial of any desert."
"Thank you," Ashe said, already stuffing a spoonful into her mouth. "Sorry for putting you through all the trouble."
"Oh, it's no trouble at all," Mr. Kravos waved her off, crouching by an empty fireplace and leaning close to it. "Besides, there have been plenty of nights when my kids, and then my grandkids, kept me running back and forth between their rooms all night. So don't worry your little head for a single moment, this was nothing compared to all that frustration."
Then he stepped back from the now roaring fireplace that flooded the bedroom with light and heat. "There," Mr. Kravos said, satisfied, "that should keep you warm."
Ashe let the warmth from the fire rush over her as she continued to shovel the applesauce into her mouth. "Thank you," she repeated.
Mr. Kravos just gave her another soft look. "Will you be good for the rest of the night?"
It took Ashe a moment to answer, remember his previous offer to sit with her until she fell asleep, but eventually replied. "Yes, I think so."
With a nod. Mr. Kravos reached out and looked like he was about to smooth her hair back… but then he pulled his hand back. "Alright then, I'll see you in the morning. Rena! Let's go girl."
The dog gave a snort and refused to move, causing another eye roll. "Are you fine with her being in here with you?"
Ashe gave the dog a sideways glance, being met with a friendly tail waggle and an opened mouth smile. "Yeah, she can stay."
"Alright, goodnight then."
Mr. Kravos closed the door behind himself, leaving Ashe to her thoughts and applesauce. That she finished off quickly, chasing it with half of the glass of the water, and rubbing her now-full belly. It was comfortably full too, not tight and uncomfortable like it had been earlier in the night.
Ashe put her now empty dishes on the nightstand and rolled over so she was facing the fireplace. She stared into the flickering flames, letting the fire's heat wash over her, as she felt her eyelids begin to droop.
'If I die tonight, that would be okay,' she thought, snuggling even deeper under the covers. 'I ate some yummy food and got a nice bath. Mr. Kravos would probably bury me and might even be a little sad.'
That sounded really nice.
Chapter 3: Chapter Three
Chapter Text
Ashe was woken the next morning by nothing in particular. The sunlight the broke through the closed curtains of the room was just as pale and weak as any other morning in Far Harbor. There were no bird songs or bug buzzing or animal calls coming from the forest of the small island that broke through her walls of dreamland. No voices or sounds echoed through the giant house either; in fact, if she didn’t know any better, Ashe would think she was the only one there.
But awoke she did, sitting up and smoothing her brittle hair back from her face. Ashe rubbed her stomach, feeling the boney bumps of her ribs; she was a little bit hungry, but not so much that it hurt. She looked around, the room was empty; Mr. Kravos’ dog, Rena, was gone, leaving just a fur-covered bed where she once was. Then she winced when the soft fabric of her nightgown and bandages chafed against her blisters.
“Ouch,” she hissed, reaching back to brush her fingertips against one of them before yanking her hand back when the lightest touch caused fiery pain to shoot through her entire back. ‘Will Mr. Kravos give me more of that medicine if I asked?’
But that made Ashe realize that she didn’t know what she was supposed to do. Was she supposed to wait in bed for Mr. Kravos to come and get her? She wasn’t even sure if he was up yet. Was she allowed to go downstairs and get breakfast whenever she wanted? She didn’t even know where the house’s kitchen was but she would be happy to eat all those shiny red apples she’d seen. Maybe Mr. Kravos was going to bring her breakfast in bed? He did say he wanted Ashe to stay off of her ankle.
She’d brought Mama breakfast in bed a lot, especially after she’d gotten sick, but no one had ever done it for Ashe.
‘Mr. Kravos wasn’t angry when he found me out of bed last night,’ she considered. ‘So he probably shouldn’t be upset if I do it again.’
That decided, she shoved off the covers and swung her legs over the bed, wincing against the cold wooden floor and wishing she had a pair of socks; Ashe wasn't as cold as she had last night but the fire was dead and there was frost on the windows. Shivering, she looked around the room for something warmer to put over her nightgown, which was so big that the neck hole slid off of one of her skinny shoulders.
A flash of burgundy caught Ashe’s eye and she spotted a robe hung over the back of the rocking chair Mr. Kravos put her down on the night before. Hobbling over, careful not to put too much weight on her sprained ankle, she picked up the robe and rubbed it against her cheek, relishing the feeling of soft, velvety fabric on her skin.
‘Mr. Kravos must have left it here for me,’ she smiled, slipping it on. '
'I bet it belongs to one of his older granddaughters,’ she noted, rolling the sleeves up over her hands and glancing down at the robe’s hem that pooled around on the floor around her ankles.
Creak!
Ashe looked up to see the massive, white-furred head of Rena poke through the door and yipped when she saw Ashe. She gave the dog a scratch under the chin, giggling when it got her a long lick across the face. “Hey there, sweet girl! Is Mr. Kravos awake?”
Rena gave a bark, jumping up and down on her front paws.
“I’ll take that as a yes,” she laughed and began limping out of the room, the dog trailing behind her, claws clicking against the hardwood floor. Ashe leaned heavily on the walls as she stumbled to the staircase, plopping down on the top step and frowning.
‘I don’t want to scoot down these stairs on my butt like a baby but I guess it can’t be helped,’ she mentally grumbled, rolling her sore ankle; the wrapping Mr. Kavos put around it had come loose in the night.
Rena’s wet nose nuzzled at her ear and hot doggy breath blew across her face. Ashe scratched the dog behind her ear, “What’s up, girl?”
The dog shoved her head under Ashe’s arm and nudged her against the ribs, pushing the girl to her feet. “You want to help me down the stairs, huh? How helpful! Let’s go for it!”
So down the stairs, they went, one at a time; it was awkward, Rena was so big that she barely fit on a step, and slow going. Ashe almost slipped a few times but her tight grip around Rena’s neck kept her from taking a tumble to her doom. Eventually, they reached the bottom and she gave the dog a hug, “We did it!”
“Ashe?”
Mr. Kravos rounded a corner and blinked when he saw her standing there. “I didn’t realize you were awake.”
Wilting under his words, she turned away, “Sorry, I didn’t know that I was supposed to stay in the bedroom.”
“No, no,” he said, shaking his head and his voice softening. “That isn’t an issue at all; I would have come and gotten you earlier but when I checked in, you were still dead to the world so I just put out the robe and let you sleep. But you shouldn’t have gone down the steps, it is dangerous with your ankle.”
‘Good, he isn’t angry with me,’ Ashe though, relieved. She gave Mr. Kravos a little smile, “It got down okay, Rena helped me.”
Mr. Kravos chuckled and patted his pet on the head, “She is a good girl, that’s what I bred and trained her to be.”
“What kind of dog is she?” Ashe wondered. At first, she’d thought the red markings on Rena were painted on but, after a close enough cuddle, she knew that wasn’t the case; they were either dyed on or natural and Ashe had never seen any dog like looked like Rena before.
“She’s a Lakeview Shepherd; it is a breed I created by mating a Karthwolf Shepherd and a White Markarth Bear-Dog. Rena here is actually a grandpup of that original mated pair,” he explained.
“That’s neat,” Ashe said, not really sure what any of that met but it sounded important. “She is a very pretty dog.”
“Aye, that she is- strong, loyal, and protective too.”
Rena was preening under the praise and pets, so she whined when Mr. Kravos stopped and turned to her, “Are you ready for breakfast?”
Ashe rocked back and forth on her feet, “I guess I’m a little hungry, but its no big deal. I can wait if I have to.”
“No need for that,” Mr. Kravos said, hoisting her up to his hip. He was very strong for being an older man, Ashe noted. “I already have the food ready. How do you feel about porridge?”
‘I don’t know what it is,’ she thought, but instead shrugged. “It’s okay.”
“It is heavier than the applesauce and broth, so you’ll want to eat it slowly,” he said, putting her down one of the dining chairs before vanishing into what Ashe assumed was the kitchen. He returned a moment later with a bowl and the mug in hand, putting them down in front of her.
“I want to start getting meat into you, along with some fresh fruits and vegetables,” Mr. Kravos seemed to be talking more to himself than her, so Ashe just picked up a spoon and prodded at her breakfast.
‘Oh, porridge is oatmeal,’ she realized, taking a bite. It was good oatmeal too, not like the luke-warm, clumpy stuff Papa used to give her; it was warm and smooth with honey mixed in with small, tangy red berries on top. “This is very good!”
Mr. Kravos nodded but Ashe wasn’t sure he actually heard her. “Maybe if you can keep this down we’ll try some boiled chicken and greens for supper.”
“Sounds good,” Ashe said with a smile into her mug of milk. Watching the man talk to himself was funny.
He gave another strong nod and began peeling an apple for himself. They lapsed into silence for a while, just the sounds of chewing and Rena’s snuffling around the table for bits of food between them.
“How are your blisters feeling?” he eventually asked.
Ashe swallowed a bite of oatmeal, “They hurt again, not as much as they did yesterday but I think the medicine you put on them wore off.”
“Not surprising, it has been at least half a day since I applied it; I’ll reapply it after your bath and that should take care of the pain for now.”
“I get to take another bath already?” she asked, surprised. Baths were rare treats and, usually, people had to make do with some boiled water and a washcloth. Maybe things were different if your family had a lot of money or their own water purifiers, but back when she lived in her small farming settlement with Mama and Papa, Ashe got a bath once every two weeks when times were good.
“Yes, of course,” Mr. Kravos blinked at her, looking confused by the question. “Why, do you not want to take one?"
“No… it's just that it seems kinda wasteful,” Ashe replied softly, wondering if refusing would be rude. “I mean, I’m still pretty clean.”
“Don’t go concerning yourself with that, sweet child. Just finish your porridge and milk; I’ll get your bath ready.” He started walking away before pausing and looking back over his shoulder, “Oh, I’ll also grab some clothes for you. Which color do you prefer: blue, green, gray, yellow, or red?”
“Uhhhhh…” A vision of Mama helping her into a little yellow sundress with white flowers on the shirt flashed into Ashe’s mind. “Yellow, I guess.”
“Excellent, it’ll look nice with your hair.”
Ashe’s hand immediately went up to her messy hair and she twirled a lock around a finger. It was so dull and brittle now; that hadn’t always been the case though, she remembered Mama brushing her hair out until it was silky soft and so shiny that it looked like fire when the sun shone on it.
At least it smelt like flowers now, after Mr. Kravos used that nice soap to wash it yesterday, and it wasn’t a tangled mess either. Maybe she could braid it?
True to his word, Mr. Kravos had a tub full of hot water waiting for her once Ashe was done eating. Only this time, he left her alone to bathe, explaining now that he was sure that she wouldn’t ‘faint and sink to the bottom of the tub,’ he trusted Ashe to clean herself.
“I’m just going to be through those doors there, though, so feel free to shout if you need anything at all,” he explained earnestly as he delicately cut the bandages off her arm, ankle, and shoulders after setting out a towel, washcloth, and bar of soap for her. “Call me when you’re done so I can rebandage your blisters and ankle, alright?”
“I’m not a baby, Mr. Kravos,” Ashe grumbled, eager to get into the bathtub; once she realized what she said, however, she winced and peeked up at him through her hair. ‘I hope that didn’t make him angry.’
Thankfully, Mr. Kravos just laughed and ruffled Ashe’s hair. “No,” he said, “I suppose you’re not. Still, I want you to call me when you’re ready to get out of the bath; if you try to climb out yourself then you might slip and completely break your ankle.”
Ashe gave a solemn nod, “Yes, Sir, I understand.”
With a nod and a pat to the head, Mr. Kravos left Ashe to enjoy her bath, so enjoy it she did. She splashed around, dunking her head under the warm, soapy water over and over again. Ashe scrubbed her hair and body squeaky clean, rubbing so hard with the washcloth that it turned red and sore. She was careful when washing her blisters though, mostly because they flared with pain whenever anything touched them.
For now, life was good.
“This is one of my granddaughter, Antosa’s, favorite dresses. Or maybe it's Aniskja’s? I can never remember and they always share clothes anyway, so I suppose that it doesn’t really matter,” Mr. Kravos explained as he helped Ashe fashion the brown leather belt around her waist. Upon seeing her confused expression, he added, “They’re twins, identical down to the last freckle and curl in their hair.”
“It is a nice dress,” Ashe offered, rubbing her fingertips against the soft fabric. The ‘dress’ was actually a floor-length, lavender-blue skirt under a two layers shirt- the bottom being a long-sleeved and dark blue while the outer layer being a short-sleeved yellow wool shirt. She especially liked the while lace that ran along the skirt and shirt hems, even if it was a bit too big for her; Mr. Kravos had even given her a pair of slippers to use so her feet didn't get cold. Still, it felt weird wearing someone else's clothes. “How old are they?”
“Five winters; they are the youngest of all my granddaughters,” he replied, gently pulling Ashe’s hair from the dress’ collar.
‘A year younger than me,’ she thought, ‘but they’re bigger.’
“They spend most of planting and harvesting seasoning with me so they won’t be underfoot while their parents -my son, Blaise, and his wife, Beika- oversee things on their farm,” Mr. Kravos continued. “So I have plenty of dresses and toys for them here.”
“It is nice that you look after them so much.”
“Well, it is more for my benefit than anyone else,” Mr. Kravos chuckled. “They keep me young and hardy.”
“Oh.” No one ever wanted to look after Ashe like that, not since Mama; she didn’t even know her grandparents, they died long before she was born. But she didn’t want to think about that. “How long do you think it will be until my blisters heal?”
“Hmmm,” Mr. Kravos thought, scratching his beard. “They’re drying up, which is a good sign, but it will still be a week or so until they are gone, especially the ones that are still closed. I’m going to see what I can do to prevent scarring but, unfortunately, they’ll probably leave marks.”
Seeing the disappointed look on Ashe’s face, he quickly added, “The pain should only last another day or two, though.”
That made her perk up; it had been almost immediate relief when Mr. Kravos applied that medicine to her blisters, after the initial rush of stinging pain, and now they’d returned to that nice numb, warmth.
Then, without warning, a giant yawn fought its way out of Ashe’s mouth.
Mr. Kravos cocked an eyebrow as she rubbed her eyes, “Sleepy?”
“Yeah,” she realized, feeling exhaustion sweep over her body. “But I just woke up a few hours ago!”
“Your body is healing and it needs plenty of energy to do that, which it gets from food and sleep," Mr. Kravos said gently. "You’ll likely feel hungry again soon as well. So, how about I wrap up your ankle and then you can take a nap on the couch?”
Ashe, fighting another yawn, just nodded and soon found herself curled up a plush couch in front of a roaring fireplace under a heavy quilt. Her ankle was wrapped by a bandage that was cool to the tough and had been propped up on a pillow.
She didn’t know how long this was last, how long it would be until Mr. Kravos got tired of looking after her or wanted something in return, but for now, she was warm, full, and comfortable. Ashe closed her eyes, let the heat from the flames rush over her, and drifted off to sleep.
Chapter 4: Chapter Four
Chapter Text
There was a problem.
Ashe’s fever would not break.
In the week since the little girl had come into Kravos’ care and, in that short amount of time, her health had improved by leaps and bounds. Ashe was eating better now, instead of seven or eight small, light meals a day, she was eating four or five larger, heavy meals and keep them down… usually; Kravos would admit that he’d rushed to get her on solid foods, on eating meats and heavy starches, a little too quickly. After a bad reaction to some boiled chicken and seasoned tomato sauce, he’d decided to stick to soups -mixing it up between vegetables, fish, chicken, and beef so no one got bored- with the switch to heavier stews one the horizon.
Ashe was also sleeping less, five naps throughout the day had lessened to only about three, each lasting around an hour. Unfortunately, that didn’t mean her sleep was better; Ashe had started waking up with screaming nightmares but whenever Kravos went to check up on her, she’d deny anything was wrong.
Finally, he was pleased to note that the girl’s body seemed to be healing nicely. The blisters had gone down from a dozen to only three, all still closed and nearly healed; it was a nice sight, even if the healed ones had all left swollen, purple-red scars all over the backs of Ashe’s arms and shoulders, especially the ones that had burst open. But the pain was nearly completely gone, she attested, though the scars were starting to itch.
Ashe’s color had improved, less pale and the dark bags under eyes had all but vanished. Her ankle was also better; Kravos sometimes say Ashe rubbing it at dinner or after she and Rena roughhoused for a while, but she could walk around the house and climb the stairs with little issue now.
And yet, despite all this, the girl’s fever refused to break.
Now, Kravos knew that fevers were tricky things; well over a dozen different things could cause one -infection, stress, allergies, a common head cold, season flu- and the precise methods of treating them were few and far between.
He also knew that prolonged fever could boil the brain like a crab in a pot.
So he needed to do something soon.
“We should cut your hair off.”
Ashe pulled from his hands that were brushing out her tangles, turning to stare up at him with tearful green eyes; her tiny hands came up to grip at the thin strands of her brittle red locks. “What?”
Kravos gave himself a mental kick to the head; he knew that he needed to be gentle whenever talking to the girl. “No, no, no. What I mean is… Well, all the hair on your head right now is dead and if we cut it all off then new, healthy hair will grow back quicker.”
The little girl frowned, but it was a thoughtful expression instead of an upset or disappointed one. She turned to a nearby mirror and tugged at one of the tiny braids Kravos had put in.
“We don’t have to cut it all off at once,” he offered. “We could cut it off at the chin or ears for now and do the rest once your hair starts growing out again.”
Ashe’s small face scrunched up in thought as she tugged at her hair, examining it in the mirror for different angles. A small chunk came away in her hands and the little girl looked down it in dismay, brittle strands clutched in her fist.
“Can I think about it for a while?” she asked. “Cutting my hair, I mean.”
“Of course, sweetheart,” Kravos replied, smoothing a hand over Ashe’s head, the fever’s heat burning against his callous palm.
Despite Ashe’s physical health improving by leaps and bounds, her emotional health was still cripplingly low. She’d scamper away whenever Kravos so much as accidentally raised his voice and then run off to hide, sometimes for hours on end. The girl always spoke to him cautiously; it was like pulling teeth to get to ask for anything and, even when Kravos gave her permission to do anything -even something minor like having a snack, getting some milk out of the jug he kept in the kitchen cold chest or a drink from the water barrel or playing with the many toys up in the girls’ room- she’d always be sure to ask again the next day.
Of course, none of this surprised Kravos.
Each of his children had been taken in from bad situations and each of them came with their own pains and quirks that were especially raw when they first came into his care. Blaise felt too hot sleeping next to a fireplace, Alestan had a hard time sleeping on a bed, Francios would lapse into days-long silences, Samuel hoarded food, and Hroar had a tendency to bite if Kravos go too close too fast.
The girls probably had it the worst. Runa, his first daughter, slept clutching the dagger under her pillow. Sofie used to watch him warily out of the corner of her blue eyes and never turned her back to him, reality clearly heaving been a harsh teacher. Sissel had collapsed into a fit of open sobs and wailed apologies when she’d accidentally broken a cup. Lucia was overly eager to help with household chores and insistent on being useful, clearly terrified she’d been thrown out on the street again. Britte had been the worst; vicious, disobediently and combative, the girl had hit and bit and screamed at not only Kravos but the other children. Eventually, it got so bad that he broke down and sent her to apprentice as a blacksmith under Adrianne Avenicci for everyone’s sake.
Kravos’ felt like a failure as a father when he made that decision, but Britte had thrown hot ash in her twin’s face, put a snake in Samuel's bed, and choked Sofie, only letting go when Runa hit her over the head with her wooden sword. The girl needed a firm hand and more individualized attention that Kravos could give at that point.
Where was he?
Oh, yes... Ashe.
It would be easier on the girl if there were other children, specifically other girls, were here. Having more little girls around would let Ashe rest easier knowing that she wasn’t alone with some strange old man.
But, alas, that wasn’t an option.
So Kravos would be careful. He’d speak softly and calmly. He’d move slowly and always telegraph his movements. He’d make sure to never come up behind Ashe unknowingly. He’d walk hard on the wooden floors so the girl could hear him coming and Kravos would never surprise her.
And, hopefully, Ashe would eventually learn to trust him
“Do you have any family, Ashe?”
“Huh?”
The little girl looked up from the picture book -Gilwara Ulmorine’s Capturing the Capital Cities of Tamriel - that she plunked off the girls’ bookshelf and had been pouring over all morning. “What do you mean, Mr. Kravos?”
“Your family,” Kravos asked as he finished washing the last of the dishes. The pair had shared a lovely chicken and potato sew with seasoned bread as a side and apple dumplings for dessert. Ashe had a little trouble near the end of the meal, struggling to finish the last few bites even after he assured her that it wasn’t necessary, but, all-in-all, it was quite nice. “I know you said that your mother is gone and your father is… absent, but do you have grandparents? Aunts or uncles? What about older siblings?”
Ashe scrunched up her face and fiddled with the edge of the page. “Mama’s parents died when I was really little and she had a brother, my Uncle George, but he’s gone too. Papa’s parents live all the way in Bunker Hill and his uncle, Norman, lives in Salem, which is closer to us but he is a Bad Man ; he visited us once and Mama told me to never be in a room alone with him.”
‘Her father and his family sound like real winners,’ Kravos though, hanging up a pot and crossing them off his mental list. “Is there anyone else?”
“No one that I can think of. Why do you ask?”
“Well,” he kept his voice steady and calm, “I was thinking that, after you’re all healed up, you might want to go live with one of them.”
At his words, Ashe just stood him with a blank, ashen face. This lack of reaction caused him to continue forward with his proposal. “It wouldn’t be until you're feeling better, of course, and I’d see you there. I’ll make sure it is a safe place to stay; you won’t be put in a bad situation again.”
More silence and then…
“You don’t want me either,” Ashe cried, green eyes filling with tears.
‘Shit!’
“Nonono,” Kravos denied rapidly, stepping forward with his hands raised as he tried to comfort the girl.
Alas, it was too late. Ashe all but lept from the chair she’d been perched on and ran upstairs, crying her little eyes out.
Kravos watched her go before sighing and rubbing his tired old eyes. ‘Great going there, Savior of Skyrim.’
Rena huffed and gave him a judgment look.
“I don’t need your criticism,” he snapped, to which the Lakeview Sheppard just flopped down and put her paws over her eyes.
A small sniffling came from underneath the display case, the source of which remained hidden by the red velvet skirt that hung down from it.
Kravos knelt down, wincing as he settled on the hard wooden floor -he really was getting old; gods, he hoped he didn’t live as old as Miraak- and slid a cup of water underneath the curtain. “Here, I thought you might be thirsty.”
He’d given Ashe an hour to work out her feelings rather than go after her immediately; doing that would make her feel cornered and that was the last thing he wanted right now. So he waited, dusted some shelves, stuck the leftover food in the icebox, and then decided to track Ashe down.
It had been surprisingly difficult to find her; she was small, able to tuck herself into small spaces and Kravos’ house had many, many nooks and crannies to hide in. Using the survival skills undoubtedly taught to be by a cruel, harsh life, Ashe hid away carefully and sobbed her little heart out until all the tears were gone.
Some of his other kids were hiders too -Sissel, Samuel, Lucia, and Sofie had dozens of spots scattered across his many properties that they’d tuck themselves into whenever things got tense. Hroar, Runa, and Britte were fighters, prone to scratch and bite when upset. Blaise and Francois were climbers in the habit of climbing trees when startled. Alesan, on the other, tended to burrow down when frightened, hiding under piles of laundry or in stacks of hay.
There was more sniffling but then Kravos heard the sound of messy drinking, followed by gasping and then slower sips of water.
“Ashlyn,” he said softly, “I didn’t intend to make you upset; I just thought you’d be happier living with someone you knew than a random stranger but I swear that I’ll never force you to go anywhere you don’t want to.”
A whimper. “You promise that I can stay here?”
Her voice was wobbly and meek, like she was scarcely able to allow herself to hope such a thing.
“As long as you wish it,” Kravos said solemnly, “this will be your home.”
“Really?”
Kravos nodded, though he was the only one who could see it. “I swear to it. There will be some conditions, of course, you’ll need to start doing some chores -nothing major, just a little sweeping or dusting- and you’ll need to do small things like make your bed and clean up any toys you use but these are things I expect from all my children. This is only once you get better though, for now, your only job is to heal.”
There was a sob and Ashe crawled out from under the display case, curling up in his lap. “I’m not going to get better Mr. Kravos.”
The words were like an arrow to the brain.
“What do you mean, child?” he asked, pulling the girl close.
“Do you understanding?” Ashe cried. “I’m sick , just like Mama and Uncle George!”
Kravos’ brow furrowed, “Are… are you saying you have a family disease?”
She shook her head, “No, it is poisoning , radiation poisoning! It is in me and I’m going to die because the medicine is really expensive!”
The little girl then devolved into more sobs, burying her face in his chest.
Kravos looked down at the poor child, unsure what to make of what she just said; he’d never in his many years heard of such thing as radiation poisoning but one thing was clear, Ashe was sick and needed to be healed.
He hadn’t wanted to use any magic in front of Ashe, at least not until he had a better handle on where he was, but with the girl’s life on the line, Kravos had no choice.
“Oh, Ashe,” he said, pulling her into a warm embrace. “I have an idea.”
The bottle was full of steaming red and white liquid.
Ashe took it from Mr. Kravos and scrunched up her face; it smelt really bad. Her toes brushed against the wooden bucket at her feet.
“You’re going to want to drink it quickly,” Mr. Kravos instructed, giving a sympathetic wince. “Try to get it down in one go.”
“Will it hurt?” she asked.
“No, I don’t think so...but it won’t be pleasant.”
Ashe looked down at the bottle, ‘This or death? I guess that isn’t really a choice..’
Down the hatch.
At first, Ashe just puckered her cheeks at the bitter, unpleasant taste. But then a fire started burning in her gut that rapidly spread through her body and up her throat.
“BLAH!” Clutching her stomach, Ashe fell forward and vomited a mass of black slime into the bucket. More and more came until, eventually, there was only darkness.
Ashe woke to a cool, callous hand on her forehead and Mr. Kravos’ smiling face hovering above her.
“Your fever broke.”
Chapter 5: Chapter Five
Chapter Text
THE TWENTY-THIRD PERSONAL JOURNAL OF KRAVOS REDWIND, THE LAST DRAGONBORN:
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Day One: After expelling those mysterious toxins from her body -Note to shelf, consult my medical texts for any reference of ‘radiation poisoning.’- Ashlyn fell into a deep state of unconsciousness. She is completely non-responsive but her heartbeat is strong and her breathing is shallow but steady. Ashe still has a fever though; I hope this doesn’t even up being a horrible mistake.
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Day Three: Ashe is still unconscious but has become responsive to things like a tickle to the foot or blowing air onto her face, it seems like the process of expelling toxins was so strenuous on her body, which was already in a dangerously weakened state, that it is now simply in a stage of deep exhaustion. I'm confident she'll awaken, hopefully soon. Her fever carries on, unfortunately, but I believe it will break in the coming days.
***
Day Four: Rena has refused to leave Ashlyn’s bedside. She whines constantly, licks at the girl’s face, nibbles her hand, and I’ve caught her trying to climb into Ashe’s bed; I think she is trying to wake her up. It is adorable but I’ve never seen Rena get so attached and protective of someone so quickly; she never even seemed to be that affectionate with my particularly young grandchildren. What is different about Ashe?
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Day Five: I have taken to feeding Ashe through rag suckling, mostly water, milk, and broth. Despite being more responsive than ever, I have begun to grow worried that this did more harm than good. Perhaps I should have spent longer researching a different way to help her? This whole situation reminds me far too much of the summer that Alesan, Blaise, Runa, and Sofie all came down with Brain Fever; poor Alesan had it the worst, he was unconscious for almost an entire month.
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Day Eight: WHAT AN EXCELLENT DAY! Not only did Ashe’s fever finally break, but she even awoke briefly. Even if it only lasted for a few moments, it was a great relief!
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Day Twelve: Ashe woke up five different times today for a period of about two minutes each. She has yet to speak clearly but looks around when she hears noises and even nodded and grunted when I asked if she was thirsty. I’ve started stretching and massaging her muscles so they don’t lose what little strength she has gained.
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Day Fourteen: Ashlyn’s recovery has been painfully slow but she IS improving. Today, she was awake for nearly a half-an-hour and even spoke a little, mostly yes or no answers. Ashe says she isn’t in pain, which is good, but she also says that she can’t move her arms or legs or sit up under her own power. She can still feel her entire body but says her limbs are just ‘too heavy to move.’
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Day Sixteen: Ashe was up for two hours today, one in the morning and one in the afternoon. Her responsiveness is ever-improving and she was even able to keep down a bowl of applesauce, though she needed to be spoon-fed. This, and the sponge baths, seem to grind on Ashe. I suppose it makes sense; she only just started to regain her strength and is now bedbound once again.
***
Day Eighteen: It has gotten to the point where Ashe can sit up, completely close her fists, and stay awake for three hours. This is all good news, of course, but I’m worried the effect laying around on her back so much will have on her blisters and hair.
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Day Nineteen: Ashlyn has taken to throwing a ball across the room for Rena to chase after. It is a good way for her to build up strength once more -Note to self, remind Ashe to alternate between the arm she is throwing with; it won’t do her any good to have one arm stronger than the other- but I’ve already lost count of how many things that dog as knocked over since this had started. Still, it could be worse; between Blaise, Samuel, and Hroar I’ve replaced twelve windows and that sum went up by quite a bit when Lyon and Caicius decided to take after their fathers. Not that the girls were innocent, of course; Runa broke plenty of things with her wooden sword, I put out many fires started by Sissel playing with fire magick, and most of my granddaughters are just plain old hellions. Glatea is the worst, but I suppose being born into the royal family will do that to you.
***
Day Twenty: She can stand now but only while holding onto the bedpost for support and we’ve decided to put off trying to walk for now. Apparently, the worst part of being stuck in bed is the boredom. I suppose it is time to break out that old story; hopefully, it can entertain Ashe as much as it has the others.
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Day Twenty-Two: Ashe stayed awake for ten straight hours today, an accomplishment for sure, but the girl is getting restless. She has been demanding AT LEAST three stories a day; I’m happy to oblige, of course, as it reminds me of the old days but I still wish there was a way to keep her more entertained.
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Day Twenty-Three: It took a while, but Ashlyn has finally started to feed herself once more. Not solid foods but soups, applesauce, and soft fruits are better than nothing. It was hard watching her though, it took her nearly an hour to eat one bowl of chicken soup. I pretended not to be watching, but I can tell that she is frustrated by her own weakness. I can relate, I've been in similar situations.
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Day Twenty-Four: I was hesitant to do so after the violent reaction Ashe had to the last potion I gave her, but, after careful consideration, I’ve decided to risk giving the girl something that will speed up the healing process. It will be a minor healing potion, nothing too heavy, and I’ll mix it in with her supper the hope for the best. I am thinking venison stew tonight.
***
Day Twenty-Five: Ashe walked from the bed to the door and back again for the first time. I believe that is a cause of celebration -Apple Pie and Cream for supper it is!
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Day Twenty-Seven: I had to replace a window. Magick is truly a life-saver. I’m not angry but Ashe feels guilty and dealt with that by lashing out at me. Children are so small and yet their emotions are so large, sometimes they have nowhere to go but out.
***
Day Thirty: It has been a month, a long and HARD month, but I think the worst is behind us. Ashe was able to walk to the staircase, down them, and then back up again. It tired her out but she is at least back to where she was before. I think that I will finally be able to sleep soundly again.
It was funny that despite being technically healthier than she’d been in at least a year, Ashe had never felt weaker or more terrible in her life.
Ashe had been sick before, she’d even been SICK before, but never so much so that she’d been unable to lift a cup her mouth, let alone get out of bed. Okay, so maybe she was strong enough to stand on her own two now, but trying to walk just a couple of steps from the bed had her falling flat on her face.
Who knows how long it would be before she could run around again? She’d lost track a while ago -day and night had little meaning when your life was just an endless cycle of sleep for who knows how long, wake up and eat a little, then fall back to sleep- but by Ashe’s own estimate, she’d been like this for at least two weeks.
‘It has probably been longer than that,’ Ashe acknowledged to herself, ‘but I’m not really sure I want to find out.’
Mr. Kravos gave a courtesy knock before pushing the door open, a tray with a bowl of soup (god, she was getting so tired of soup), something to drink, a roll of bread, and what looked like a small pastry in his hands.
“How are you feeling, Ashe?” he asked, helping her sit up and balancing the tray across her lap.
“Bored! Just like yesterday and the day before and the day before that!”
The old man laughed, “I thought you might say that, so I’ve decided to break out something very special to keep you entertained.”
She cocked her head to the side, trying to ignore the small wave of nausea the action caused. “What is it?”
Mr. Kravos said nothing, instead pulling the rocking chair over until it was by her bedside and then, with great flourish, drew a small book with an extremely worn leather binding out of his pocket.
“A book?” she asked, eyebrows growing up. Ashe liked a good story as much as anyone else but Mr. Kravos made it to be something super epic.
“That's right,” Mr. Kravos nodded, “ A special book. You see, when I was your age, this was the book my father used to read to me when I was feeling sick or sad or scared, and later I went on to read it to all of my children and then all of my grandchildren; this is even the same copy my father used. So today I'm gonna read it to you."
It was nice to be put on the same level as the man’s children and grandchildren. No one had cared for her like that since Mama had died. “Well, what is it about?”
“Oh, all sorts of things,” he said, pulling a small pair of spectacles and balancing it on his nose; ‘It makes him look like a giant owl,’ Ashe thought with a grin. “Fencing, fighting, torture, revenge, tragedy, pirates, giants, monsters, chases, escapes, true love, miracles…”
Ashe poked at her soup; it was something with fish and a lot of onions. “That doesn't sound too bad, better than just sitting around doing nothing.”
“Well, thank you very much, very nice of you to say,” Mr. Kravos said, jokingly rolling his eyes, as he settled back into the chair. “Your vote of confidence is overwhelming. Now, listen to the brilliance of The Lost Lady's Love and shhhhh...”
Mr. Kravos seemed to enter a weird trance as he opened the book and thumbed to the first page. Ashe relaxed back into the small mountain of pillows he’d given her -the blisters on her back barely hurt anymore- and closed her eyes, letting his voice wash over her.
“Daisy Dunlain was raised on a small farm in the region of Rivenspire, many days' ride from the capital city of Shornhelm…”
Ashe took careful aim, pulled her arm back, and let the small ball fly as Rena, who’d been bouncing excitedly on her front paws, took off after it while barking her head off. It soured through the air, threw the open doorway, and out of sight; she heard it ‘thunk’ against a wall before bouncing off and rolling down the hallway.
She gave a sigh and crossed her arms; now she had nothing to do until Rena brought that ball back. After breaking the window, she was surprised Mr. Kravos even let her have the ball back -saying it was a good way to improve her arm strength and hand-eye coordination- but, after over a week of playing around it, challenging herself by trying to throw it in certain directions or distance, Ashe’d grown bored with it.
She’d grown bored with EVERYTHING!
Mr. Kravos had a lot of awesome stories about all sorts of things -dragons, noble heroes, magic, fierce yet beautiful heroines, fantasy lands, dashing rogues, ghosts, wise leaders, epic battles, dastardly villains, swordfights; Ashe often got the feeling he was gentling the stories for her sake, but she got that and had ever taken to filling in the blanks herself- and was always more than willing to entertain her with them when asked, but even that had grown dull.
Ashe had found herself growing short-tempered recently; anger would come like a flood of red-hot fire and she would scream at Mr. Kravos for something as little as saying she couldn’t have apple juice with dinner or nearly hitting poor Rena when the dog snored too loud.
She didn’t want to be angry and she didn’t want to be stuck in bed anymore.
Tears began tickling at the corners of her eyes and Ashe hiccuped, trying to hold them back, when there was a knock to the door.
“Come in.”
Mr. Kravos came in, ball in his hand. “You’ve started getting good distance with this thing; I found it near the top of the stairs.”
Ashe sniffled and rubbed her face, “I was trying to get it downstairs.”
“A noble task,” the older man nodded before cocking his head to the side, staring at her with a concerned look. “Is everything alright?”
“No- Yes- I… I just…”
Ashe sighed, unable to finish, and dropped her face into her hands.
Mr. Kravos gave a sympathetic hum. “I have an idea that might Would you like to learn to juggle?”
"Could you tell me a story?" She asked, getting comfortable as Mr. Kravos tucked the blankets around her. Ashe didn't feel as cold as she used to, only needing three blankets to keep her warm; that was nice, at least.
"Of course, sweetheart," the old man said with a smile. "Do you want to hear something new or one of my classics?"
Ashe gave it a moment of thought; it was really tempting to ask to hear The Lost Lady's Love again. It was such a good story but she'd asked for it five times already.
"Hmmm, I want something new," she decided. "I want something kinda scary; it doesn't have to be a long story or anything, but I want it to be surprising. I want it to have a twist."
Mr. Kravos looked unsure, "You're a little young for a scary story, Ashe."
She scowled, "I think things are scary enough for me that I can handle a little story, don't you?"
He didn't look completely happy about it, but Mr. Kravos gave a reluctant nodded. "Alright, I suppose that is fair... but don't go blaming me if you can't sleep tonight."
Ashe gave an excited nod as the old man took his place in the now ever-present rocking chair.
"Now, this is something that happened with one of my daughters, Runa...
She woke me very late one night. My family and I were staying in the city of Markarth because, horrible place it may be, I had buisness there. It was summertime and she came into my bedroom to wake Anwen-"
"Anwen?" Ashe cut in. "Is that your wife?"
"No, I never married," Mr. Kravos shook his head. "Anwen was one of several... companions I've had over the years. She worked at a temple in the city so, whenever I was in Markarth, we'd... spend time together. Now be quiet and listen..."
"She came into the bedroom late at night and woke Anwen and I up. At first, I was angry because it had been a long day; I had picked her up from the home of her friend, Adara, where she'd spent the previous night, and she threw a massive fit, so she was sent to bed without supper.
I went to scowled her but before I could, she tugged at my shirt sleeve and whispered, "Papa, guess how old I'm going to be next month."
"I'm not sure," I replied as I struggled to wake up. "How old?"
I knew how old she'd be, of course; though being woken up in the dead of night had definitely made me confused.
She smiled and held up eleven fingers. It has been decades and Runa still refuses to tell me where she got them."
It took a moment for the ending of the story to sink in but, when it did, Ashe shivered. "Oh... that was scary. But it was just a story, right?"
Mr. Kravos said nothing, just waggling his eyebrows at him in a joking manner, and then reached down to pull the covers up under her chin. "It is time for bed."
Ashe considered asking him to stay until she fell asleep... but she wasn't ready for that yet.
After the anger subsided, the tears came. Sometimes they would sit heavy in her hearts and eyes all day, Ashe could just imagine a dark rain cloud hanging over her head, and sometimes they would come quick and hard. She'd stumbled while walking her laps around the bedroom -Ashe still couldn't bring herself to call it her bedroom, the idea still felt scary; no matter what Mr. Kravos said, there was always the possibility the man would grow to think of her as an annoyance or burden, like Papa always said she was, and throw her out.- or spill her drink on the floor and just burst into tears, crying for what felt like hours.
Today it was her hair.
Over a month had passed since Ashe had stopped being sick and, while her hair had grown longer, it still wasn't any healthier. It was still thin, stiff, and brittle, sticking out from her head like red-colored straw. To make this worse, it still came out in clumps whenever she so much as brushed it.
"Mr. Kravos," she sobbed into the man's chest, "I want to cut my hair! I want to cut it all off right now! Can we cut it right now? Please?"
"Yes," he soothed, rocking her in his arms. "Yes, of course."
Chapter 6: Chapter Six
Chapter Text
Snip. Snip. Snip.
"Hold your head still, Ashe," Mr. Kravos instructed, callous fingers firmly, yet gently, straightening her head as he clipped away a couple of uneven locks of hair. "Squirm too much and you might accidentally lose an ear. Kidding! Kidding!"
He added the last part when he saw her eyes go wide with fright.
"Don't you worry," he comforted. "I've cut enough hair that I could probably knit myself a whole new set of children and grandchildren."
Ashe met his eyes in the mirror, "And you've never cut anyone?"
"I've never drawn blood."
"That doesn't make me feel better!"
Mr. Kravos laughed, "There were a couple of mistakes in the beginning, I'll admit, but the worst thing that really happened is that my oldest daughters got really bad hair cuts for the first few years. The boys were easy; I just cut it really short until they were old enough to care for it themselves -which is a sign of manhood where I'm from- but I had no idea how to care for little girls' hair. I remember the first time I cut my Sofie's hair and, even though she said she liked it, the next day she went to the mother of her friend, Mila, to get it fixed. I got better though."
"I suppose you needed to," Ashe considered. "It would have been easier if you had a wife."
"Yes, probably," Mr. Kravos nodded, a touch of sadness entering his voice, "but sadly it wasn't to be."
Ashe looked down at the piles of dry red hair that had already been clipped off and left to fall to the floor like little embers on the wood. Though she'd been hesitant about the hair cut, Ashe would admit that she felt better; her head felt lighter now and the breeze coming through an open window tickled her exposed ears.
"There we go, it's done!" Mr. Kravos declared, brushing the back of her neck off with a towel and removing the sheet he'd wrapped around her. "What do you think?"
Ashe ran her fingers through her hair, it had been cut short around her ears and now stuck out around her head like a little lion's man. It was still brittle and there were patches where the hair was thinner than it should be, but it did look a lot nicer.
"I like it," she said with a smile, tugging at one strand. "Thank you."
After being back on her feet, Ashe, ironically, found herself bored.
'Such a weird problem to have after everything,' she acknowledged.
And it was. After surviving abandonment, exposure, a couple of close calls with anglers and the other many dangerous animals around in this little island and Far Harbor as a whole, people who looked at her like she was dinner, dehydration, starvation, and radiation poisoning the idea of simply not having enough to do seem liked an extremely mundane problem.
But, strange as it was, that didn't change the fact Ashe found herself bored with the many toys and picture books. The thing about most toys is that they only really stayed fun if you had someone to play with; dolls were best enjoyed with friends, after all. Even if the ones here were far nicer than the crude straw creations Mama had given her and Papa eventually sold but they still couldn't play with her.
Mr. Kravos might have been more than willing to play with her if she'd asked, but -despite everything he'd done for her- she still didn't feel comfortable asking him to do something so indulgent and childish. He still told her stories every night; sometimes long, winding epics that stretched over a week while some were quick, quirky tales that left Ashe giggling so hard that her sides hurt. There were the scary stories too, but Mr. Kravos hadn't told her one of those since she'd woke up screaming from a nightmare about trying to cross a fog-covered bridge and hearing a crying baby while a half-man/half-ram monster chased her down with an ax.
Rena was usually there for a fun wrestling match or game of tug-of-war or a chase or some fetch but sometimes she went out for long 'walks' with Mr. Kravos or would just need some time by herself. Mr. Kravos asked if she wanted to go on these walks but Ashe knew far too much about the vicious creatures that roamed about to think that was a good idea.
'He doesn't seem too worried about them though,' Ashe realized. 'Mr. Kravos doesn't seem to be scared of anything.'
She'd never seen anyone like that before; even the scavengers or mercenaries that used to roll through her small settlement always slept with their guns by their sides and never went out at night if they could help it. Yet Mr. Kravos always walked around like they were completely safe here in this massive house on this tiny island.
'I hope that is the case,' she worried, peering out a window to the fog-covered ocean and rocky shore of the island.
But all of that still left her with the problem of being bored.
Ashe had spent the past few days exploring the areas of the house she'd avoided so far, still afraid that the slightest misstep would get her thrown out like trash. That wasn't to say she'd seen all of it yet, of course, there were a couple of locked doors that sealed off different corridors, rooms, and towers; Mr. Kravos had given vague mention to some of them, said that one contained dangerous objects and another held valuable books, for example.
If anything, these vague answers only made Ashe more curious about the secrets of Mr. Kravos' home... but she also knew better than to try and sneak into places that she was clearly not supposed to be; after all, that would be impolite and Mama had always taught her to be a good, respectful girl. Ashe also wasn't sure how Mr. Kravos would react if he found her snooping; he'd never gotten angry with her before, not when she yelled at him or broke a window while playing catch with Rena, but she also had never outright disregarded one of his rules before.
But...there was no rule that said she couldn't go into the unlocked library, was there?
'If there was Mr. Kravos would have told me, right?' Ashe though. 'Or least locked it up himself. Yeah, it'll be okay.'
There was a large shelf of books in the bedroom full of beautiful picture books, illustrated stories, and somewhere full of math problems. She'd gone through all of the pictures books, probably five times each, and spent longer than that staring out the words of the storybooks, trying to will the words into making sense. But they never did and now she was hoping to find something new.
The open library was a curricular room with bookshelves lining the walls and a large, plush armchair in the center. Ashe walked around the room, running her fingers along the leathery binding of the books before eventually deciding on a thick, heavy brown tome with a gold border. She climbed up into the armchair, setting the book in her lap and opening it to the first page.
In the shtlahevyd of the year, Prince Oapnrgfs Paevut , son of Prince Meahu Paevut II, who is son of the Wahbkoi Agijep , who is the niece of the great Xcilopt Qazed Paevut , came to the Dfgi Rock city- cvbnm of Plmoki to pay rfvgy to the edcyhnik of King Xswcdevf .
Ashe was able to read some of the words, more than she thought but less that she'd have liked and she was forced to struggle through the first couple of pages before slamming the book shut with a huff.
"Oh, Ashe, there you are," Mr. Kravos said, poking his hand through the doorway with Rena by his side. "Find something to read?"
"Kind of," Ashe responded hesitantly. "Is that okay?"
"Sure, no problem," he shrugged. "What book is that?"
She held it up so the front cover was exposed.
"Oh, The Wolf Queen Vol.I; it is a good series but a little intense for someone your age. How are you liking it?"
Ashe blushed hot with embarrassment and ducked her head. "It is alright, I guess..."
She was clearly not that impressive of a lier because Mr. Kravos just frowned and gave her a soft look. "Ashe, can you... read?"
"...A little," she reluctantly admitted, forcing the words out through her teeth. "I know my letters and numbers; I can write my name and read small words... but that is it. Mama died before she could finish teaching me."
"Oh," Mr. Kravos said, "that is understandable. Would you like me to finish teaching you?"
"You could do that?"
"Yes, of course. All of my children came to me at different stages in their education and I taught them all a great deal before things calmed enough to send them to a schoolhouse."
Ashe lept to her feet, "Can we start right now?"
Mr. Kravos gave a warm smile," That sounds wonderful. The first thing we'll need to do is establish what you know and what we need to catch you up on. Why don't you down to the dining room? I need to grab some supplies and I'll meet you there shortly.
"Alright, sweetheart, it is time to test your progress," Mr. Kravos said for his seat across the table. He set a book down in front of her, "I want you to try reading this; you don't have to do the entire thing yet, just try to get through the first page."
Ashe reached out, letting her fingers curl around the end of the book's cover as she tried to read the title, sound out the words in her mind. ' K...Klob and the Drag...dragon. '
"I'm not sure I can do this," she said, shaking her head hurriedly and pushing it away.
"You'll do fine," Mr. Kravos encouraged, sliding it back towards her. "You've made amazing progress in only two short weeks. Just sound out any words you struggle with and I'll be right here to help."
The gentle words calmed Ashe even as she nervously gnawed at her lip and, after a moment of hesitation, she opened the book.
"K... Kolb-" she looked up at Mr. Kravos who smiled and nodded at her pronunciation. "-was a brave No... Nord war...ri...or. One day his Chi...chie...f asked Kolb to slay an evil drag...on that-"
Ashe froze at the seemingly endless word before swallowing her fright. 'This is isn't anything to worry about,' she told herself firmly. 'After all, long words really aren't any different than short ones; in fact, most are just a couple of short words stuck together.'
She steeled herself and glared down at the word, daring it to trip her up. "-th...rea...ten...ed their vill..village. "Go through the m...ou...n...tain mount...ain pass, Kolb,” his Chief said. "You will find the Dragon on the o...ther side."
Having reached the end of the page, Ashe's heart soared with excitement and she looked up at Mr. Kravos who beamed with pride.
"I did it!" she exclaimed.
"You did," he nodded. "And very well, I might add. So well, in fact, that I think you deserve a reward. Now, what do you want for dessert tonight? Pick anything you'd like and I'll make it for you."
Ashe's eyebrows flew up and her face split into an even broader smile as her mouth began to water. She knew that Mr. Kravos was an excellent cook -especially since Ashe was finally able to eat most of the food he made; no some soup and applesauce for her... hopefully ever again- and she was eating better now that she'd even been before, even when Mama had still been alive. That fact that she could have dessert every night instead of maybe once a year if it'd been a good harvest had nearly made Ashe cry.
"Hmmm," she wondered out loud, thinking through all of the delicious treats Mr. Kravos' had made for her over the past weeks. "What about those things you made last weeks? I think you called them...crosettes?"
"Do you mean to crostatas?" he asked, to which she nodded. "Okay, I can do that. No problem; I was planning to make chicken dumplings for dinner and they'll pair rather excellently together. Do you want juniper crostatas or ones with snowberries?"
"Which did we have last time?"
"Snowberry. I prefer using them because their natural tartness offsets the sweetness of the sugar used."
"Those then, please,” Ashe said as she went to work straightening the materials they used during her lessons. Many loose pieces of paper covered the tabletop, most covered with oversized, shaky attempts to write out the alphabet which, when she'd mastered that, morphed into attempts to write out different simple words like cat, wolf, water, strong, mother, and house. Other pages were filled with crude arithmetic, mostly just one digit addition and subtraction.
Mr. Kravos had her write with some weird kind of pencil - he said it was made from charcoal- that was hard to write with because it made the words all smeared and got everywhere, including on her hands, face, and clothes.
She fiddled with the book again. "What kind of book is that?"
"Oh, it is quite fun," Mr. Kravos called back from the kitchen. "It is called a Choose Your Own Adventure book; you're given choices at different points in the story and have to turn to different pages that correspond with those choices. There are many different endings you can get depending on what you choose but it is hard to get the good ending when Kolb defeats the dragon. I've used that book to teach all my kids to read; because there are so many different paths you can take, it never got boring for them."
"Did you use any other books too?" she asked, thinking back to the many books in the bedroom.
"Sure," he replied. "Sissel and Francios especially liked these two books of riddles, though that is probably what resulted in their mutual love of puns, and Sofie loved A Children's Anuad. There were other books two but those were the main ones. As they got older, they moved onto the main library; I had to keep my copy of The Lus -"
He trailed quickly and, though Ashe couldn't see his face, she was sure the man was blushing with embarrassment. Not that she knew why.
'Adults are weird,' she thought. "Can I help make the dumplings? I want to learn."
"That would be great!" Mr. Kravos said, turning to face her with a wide grin. "I started cooking with my mother when I was about your age. Pull a chair over and wash your hands then I'll show you how to make the dough."
Later that night, with a belly full of chicken dumplings, snowberry crostatas, and apple juice, Ashe pulled The Wolf Queen Vol. I out from under her pillow.
In the au...tum...n..tide of the year, Prince Oapnrgfs Sep...tim, son of Prince Ur...ie...l Sep...tim II, who is son of the Em...press Agijep , who is the niece of the great Em...per...or Ti...ber Sep...tim, came to the High Rock city-s...t...ate of Plmoki to pay c...our...t to the da...guh...ter of King Xswcdevf .
'Good,' she thought, 'I'm getting a lot better, it is just the names messing me up now. The names from where Mr. Kravos grew up are really weird. Still, I'd like to see it one day.'
Chapter 7: Chapter Seven
Chapter Text
"Kolb s...wung his axe as hard as he could, but the g...hos...t hard...ly seemed to no...tice. The gho...st d...rift...ed into Kolb, and a deep sleep took him over, from w...hi...ch he never a...woke."
Ashe slapped the table and slammed the book shut, letting out a trusted growl. "I died again! Why is this so hard? Am I the idiot or is Kolb? If he keeps dying so many stupid ways than I doubt he'll be a good dragon slayer!"
Mr. Kravos chuckled, "All my children said the same thing, so much so that I even tried it out myself and, I'll admit, it is harder than I thought. Still, try not to get too frustrated; remember, we're just using it as a way to practice your reading."
"Well, considering how many times I've read it, I'll never for sure never forget any of the words in it!" Ashe declared.
"That's not necessarily a bad thing," the older man noted. "When you think about it, we really only use a few hundred words in our day-to-day lives and most of them are small, simple ones like 'the' or 'and' which is why continuing to practice the basics is so important."
Ashe had never considered that but, after giving it a moment of thought, decided he was right. "I guess so... but Kolb is still dumb for dying so much."
"Be that as it may, we'll still be revisiting him tomorrow; maybe that will be the day you both triumph over that dastardly dragon," Mr. Kravos said, taking the book from in front of her. "Now, to wrap up our reading lesson you still need to read me a passage from one more book; pick any that you'd like."
Biting at her lower lip, Ashe scanned the small selection of reading books on the table before narrowing in on one, in particular, pulling it from the stack.
"The Yellow Book of Riddles ? Oh, that is a good choice," Mr. Kravos noted with an approving nod.
Ashe felt a tick of pride, this was one of the books that two of his children -Sissel and Francios- loved and she wanted to be as good as them so Mr. Kravos would love her too.
She flipped it open to a random page and took a deep breath, tracing a finger down the page.
"If you l..ie to me I will s...l...ay you with my s...word. If you tell me the t...ru...th, I will s...lay you with a spell.
What m...u...st you say to stay a...li...ve?"
Ashe glanced up to Mr. Kravos from feedback.
"Excellent," he said with a smile. "I know that I keep saying it but you really are getting better every day."
"I feel smarter," Ashe admitted with pride. "I feel like I've really accomplished something major."
"You have," the old man assured, giving her hand a comforting squeeze, "and don't you ever forget it. Now, to finish up your lessons for the day I want you to write out five things you like and five things you don't like then attempt to do the sums problems on this-" he opened the big book of arithmetic to a random page, giving it a quick glance over "page. I have work to do but when you're done just knock on the door so I can check them over, alright?"
Ashe nodded and watched him go into his back 'office'. Now that she was feeling healthier and was more about to look out for herself, Mr. Kravos seemed to work a lot, vanishing into one of a dozen locked rooms for hours at a time; she wasn't sure what he worked on and never asked but he'd always came out without issue or annoyance if Ashe knocked on the door.
When she heard the door to his back-most room, the bottom floor of a large tower, close and sighed, pulling a pencil and blank sheet of paper close. Tapping the pencil against her chin, she began to write,
I like dogs.
I like Mama.
I like apple juice.
I like hearing stories.
I like baths.
I do not like cats.
I do not like rain.
I do not like the cold.
I do not like nightmares.
I do not like Papa.
She tried her hardest to write neatly, keeping her sentences straight and not smudging anything; it was only partly successful but Ashe finished the paper confident that Mr. Kravos would be impressed by her work.
Then she turned to her math work and sighed, this was definitely her least favorite part.
"So, how do you feel about spicy food?"
Ashe shrugged, most of the people she knew used spices to hide the taste of food going slightly bad and that was it. To be honest, the idea of having preferences for specific types of food was really a new concept for her. Most of her life she ate what she was given and was grateful for it, knowing that she was lucky to almost always get at least one meal a day. Ashe thought certain things tasted better than others, of course, but that was it. Choices were a new part of her new life with Mr. Kravos and, despite what he said, she didn't want to allow herself to get comfortable with it.
"I guess I like it well enough. Why?"
"I'm thinking of making a chicken and vegetable dish for supper that has a sweet and spicy sauce but I wanted to check with you first," Mr. Kravos explained, pulling a chair up to the kitchen counter so she could stand on it and help him prepare the meal as had become the new norm.
"That sounds yummy," Ashe offered, helping to drag over a large bag of rice. "How can I help?"
Mr. Kravos put a pot on the stove and handed her a measuring cup. "First off, put a cup of rice in here, then three cups of water, and then put the lid on so it'll boil faster. The rice will be the base of your supper; it'll fill our stomachs right up."
Ashe did so, being extra careful to level everything. "Okay, now what?"
The old man looked up from the chicken he was grilling with butter on a skillet, nodding towards where he kept the vegetables. "Can you get me one cabbage, one onion, one clove of garlic, and five leeks?"
Ever the dutiful helper, Ashe went the 'cold chest' where Mr. Kravos kept his fresh foods. It was a large stone thing that was built into the floor; coming up to her mid-chest and with sides at least an inch thick, it was hard for her to wrestle the lid open.
"Can you get it?" Mr. Kravos asked over his shoulder. "Do you need help?"
"I'm fine," she called back then, with a deep grunt of effort, finally shoved the lid open. "Ah-ha!"
Ashe smiled as a blast of cold air washed over her. 'How does he keep it cold? This doesn't seem like it is hooked up to electricity. In fact, why doesn't he just use a refrigerator? Does Mr. Kravos even have a generator?'
It didn't seem so. She'd never seen one and, now that Ashe thought about it, nothing in the house that she'd seen ran on electricity. He used candles, lanterns, and weird bits of glowing blue stone for lighting, there was no radio or television, all the cooking stuff in the kitchen was wood-burning, and just about every room had a fireplace for heating.
'Wierd,' Ashe gave a mental shrug, brushing it off. Plenty of people didn't have power and Mr. Kravos still had the nicest house she'd ever seen.
'Still,' she thought, gathering up the requested vegetables, determined not to make more than just one trip, 'it would be nice to be able to watch some television... or at least listen to the radio.'
"Can I help chop stuff?" Ashe asked hopefully, eyeing the sharp knife laying on the cutting board hopefully.
Mr. Kravos gave a chuckle, "That would be a no, Little One; maybe when you're older."
'Older,' Ashe turned the word over in her mind carefully. 'He said 'when you're older'... which means he wants me to stay.'
"Ashe?"
The little girl blinked, the call of her name shaking Ashe out of her daze. "Hmm?"
"Everything alright?"
She gave a quick nod, "I'm fine." Then she looked towards the food. "Where did you learn how to cook so well?"
"Well, my mother owned a bakery in Wayrest; it was one of the best in the entire city, everyone said so," Mr. Kravos explained as he carefully chopped the leaks. "I had no sister, no siblings at all, so Ma passed all of her secrets down to me; she taught me how to make all sorts of buns, loaves of bread, rolls, and cakes during the day so I could help her manage the shop. Then, at night, she taught me to cook stews, roast different types of poultries; why, I must have learned a thousand recipes for fish from her. Say, who do you feel about fish pie?"
She didn't get the chance to answer; the way her nose scrunched up at the idea spoke for itself though and Mr. Kravos burst out laughing.
"I've never been a fan of it myself," he admitted. "Anyway, my father was an old-fashioned type of man and wasn't too thrilled with me learning so much 'woman's work' even if he knew it was important but Pa was a soldier and was gone often so he didn't get much of a chance to complain."
"So your Mama taught you to cook?"
"Aye," he answered, a warm smile spreading slowly across his face. "I have many fond memories of helping her in the kitchen and selling sweet rolls to customers; it taught me a lot about patience and how to talk to people."
Ashe tried to picture what Mr. Kravos' mother must have been like. She decided that the woman was probably tall, like a queen, and also had his red hair too; she probably had a kind face with soft eyes and smelt like flour.
"I have a painting of my parents," the old man, who always seemed to be able to read her mind, offered. "I can show it to you before bed if you'd like?"
"I would," Ashe nodded, carefully checking on the rice. "Did you teach your children how to cook too?"
"Yes, some of them. Sissel, Lucia, Francios, Samuel, and Blaise all liked learning but Britte, Sofie, Hroar, Runa, and Alesan didn't have the patience. The grandchildren vary; some like to learn, some just like to watch, and some find the whole thing boring... though all of them eat like you wouldn't believe! "
Ashe watched as Mr. Kravos stirred all of the chopped up vegetables into the pan he'd been grilling the pieces of chicken in, adding in some water and a thick sauce from a jar. "Well, I like learning," she offered.
"Aw, that's good to hear," he said, reaching over to ruffle her hair. "I like teaching. In fact, I made sure that even the kids who didn't like cooking knew how to at least make the basics; it is an important skill to have. There-" Mr. Kravos declared, putting a lid over the pan, "- now we just wait for this to boil down, and then we can eat!"
Ashe smiled, broad and bright, "Great! What about dessert?"
"Hmmm," the old man rubbed his face, before snapping his fingers as inspiration seemed to hit him. "I've got an idea; I think it's time to try something new -Thrice-Baked Gorapple Pie!"
"What's that?"
"You'll like it; it tastes a little different than regular apple pie, a touch tarter, but it's good," Mr. Kravos explained, already gathering up the ingredients. "How would you like to learn how to roll pie dough?"
"I'd love to!"
"So what else did you teach your children?" Ashe asked as she helped Mr. Kravos was the dishes. "Besides cooking and how to read and stuff, I mean."
"Oh, all sorts of things," he replied with a shrug. "Hunting, first and foremost; Hroar took to it most of all, though Blaise and Runa weren't far behind. I also taught them how to protect themselves; they'd had such hard lives, I was terrified someone else would try to hurt them in the future."
"Anything else?"
"Plenty, I like to think. I had plenty of Lady friends and companions to help but I really had to be both mother and father, which included teaching things sewing and cleaning."
'I must have been nice to have a father so devoted,' Ashe thought, thinking back to her own Papa's drunken rages. They hadn't always been incredibly bad; Mama used to be able to control him but after she died, it became unbearable. "You are a really good father, Mr. Kravos; they were lucky to have you."
The old man gave a bashful grin. "Aw, thank you."
Ashe was only kinda right about Mr. Kravos' mother. She was a tall woman, yes, -or, at least, that is how it looked in the painting, especially since she was depicted sitting down- and a soft, motherly face but she had strawberry-blonde hair and big blue eyes that seemed to pop out from the faded color of the framed painting.
"That is my mother, Belladiana," Mr. Kravos said, reaching out to trace the frame. "One of the kindest, strongest, and most cunning people I've ever met, even after all these years."
"She's beautiful," Ashe offered, staring up at the painting; it wasn't a big thing, only about a square foot and was clearly old with scratches and stains. She nodded towards the man standing next to Mrs. Belladiana. "Is that your father, the one who read you the story?"
"Aye, good old Mercard Redwind," Mr. Kravos said with an amused chuckle. "A hard man, in a lot of ways, but a good husband and father. A fantastic military commander as well; I learned a lot from him."
Ashe eyed the red-headed little boy in the painting while Mr. Kravos followed her gaze.
"That was me," he said, confirming her suspicions, "Many, many years ago."
"Are they...?"
Mr. Kravos nodded, "Ma died only a few days after I turned seventeen, absolutely broke my heart. I tried for another year to keep her shop open but it just didn't feel right so I eventually turned it over to my aunt, uncle, and cousins. Pa had died a few years earlier when I was fourteen so there was nothing left for me there; he wasn't a rich man but he had the ear of several important individuals and that got him killed."
Ashe felt her eyebrows shoot up, "Wow!"
"Mmhmm," the old man sighed, "that is the way things are in High Rock and, while part of me will always miss my childhood home, it was a large part of why I decided against raising my children there."
The little girl paid with a lock of her slowly growing red hair, comparing it to the shade of Mrs. Belladiana. 'It's a little too bright but the color is close enough, I suppose.'
Chapter 8: Chapter Eight
Chapter Text
"Hey, Mr. Kravos, what is in this room?"
Ashe started up at the large wooden door, bigger than just about any other one in the house, that had a painted design of a red-leafed potted plant and a large, heavy-duty metal lock. Over the past few weeks, she'd steadily been exploring more and more of the closed rooms in the manor -with Mr. Kravos' permission, of course- but she hadn't been inside this one yet.
"Hmm? Oh, that is my greenhouse." Her guardian looked from where he'd been dusting off various knick-knacks on a high shelf.
Ashe had been assisting him in this task but the door had drawn her attention. She tucked her feather duster into her elbow and squinted at the lock. 'Greenhouse? Like for flowers? Why would a bunch of plants need to be kept locked up?'
"Can I go in and look around? I like flowers and stuff."
Mr. Kravos' face did that little twist it always made when he was about to say no to her. "Well... I'm not sure if that is a good idea."
"Please!" she pleaded, giving her best puppy-dog eyes. "I grew up in a farming community; I know how to take care of plants. Mama even kept a little garden with some flowers and I used to help her with them."
Papa had always said that tending to those few delicate little buds that sprouted each spring was a waste of time and energy, said that because the flowers couldn't be eaten they were of no use to anyone. Mama disagreed -always quietly though, so as not to anger Papa- and would tell Ashe how the flowers symbolized life and rebirth. She believed that as long as flowers still bloomed there would be hope in the Commonwealth. So, even after Mama died, Ashe did her best to keep the garden going; she'd labor for hours each day until she got too weak to do so.
'It's probably all dead now,' she thought, 'there is no way Papa looked after the flowers.'
Then Ashe winced, hating herself for even thinking such a thing.
"It's not that I don't trust you, Sweetheart, it is just that I grow more than flowers in my greenhouse," Mr. Kravos explained.
"So, like, fruits and vegetables and herbs?"
That would explain why they always seemed to have a steady supply of fresh food. Not the meat though, Ashe still wasn't sure where that came from.
"Yes," the old man nodded, "I grow all of that, but I also grow plants that produce toxins that can hurt you and that need to handled with care."
Ashe rolled her eyes, something she never would have done a month ago, "So I can't even look at them?"
The question stumped Mr. Kravos, who gave it a long moment of thought. "Alright... I suppose that is okay. Keep your hands in your pockets though; don't go touching anything and listen to what I say. Got it?"
"Yep!" She chirped back, bouncing on the balls of her feet and making a big show of shoving her hands down deep into the pockets of her red skirt.
Mr. Kravos chuckled at her antics and pulled the heavy ring of keys from his belt, each with a different colored ribbon tied around the head; sorting through them, he eventually selected one identified by a dark green ribbon and slid it into the lock. The door opened and Ashe was hit with a humid wave of warm, earthy air.
"Now, you stay over on the right side of the room for now; there isn't anything dangerous over there," the old man instructed, waving her in.
Ashe nodded absentmindedly as she took in the large space, eyes wide with wonder. It was a big rectangular room that was absolutely filled to the brim with planters big and small, flower pots, containers, and cupboards with shelving and decorative mounted animal heads, some of which Ashe had never seen before, lining the walls. A glance upwards at the wooden rafters with long strands of moss hanging down as well as bird nests, butterflies, little bugs that little up brightly, beehives, and small buzzing bees.
In one corner there was a large stone fountain of water and around its base were several wooden buckets and metal watering cans. There were several panes of thick glass built into the ceiling which let thin, weak beams of sunlight shine through onto the large planters. From the rafters also hung large chunks of the same glowing blue stone used to provide light to the rest of the house.
"Wow," Ashe breathed, tilting her head back to look at as much as possible. Of course, this meant that she wasn't watching where she was going.
"Oomph!"
She stumbled forward, one hand rubbing her stomach where she'd run right into the rim of a large flower pot and the other catching herself with a hand in the damn dirt.
"Everything alright?" Mr. Kravos called from where he was examining some nearly fully grown cabbages.
Ashe ripped her hand from the dirt and stumbled back, "Sorry, I didn't mean to touch it!"
"Ashe, it's okay! Those are just flowers; I don't mind you touching them," he reassured, holding a hand up to calm her.
"Oh... okay."
She turned back to the yellow petalled plant and leaned forward, giving them a sniff and basking in the sweet scent. "What kind of flowers are these?"
"They're called Dragon's Tongue; if you brew them with tea they're held make your body stronger, though they add an odd tangy taste to everything," the old man hummed. "Oh, if you want to help out some then could you water that planter there? Just pull out one of those watering cans, fill it up in the fountain, and douse them real good."
"Sure, no problem."
Ashe picked up the first one she could grab but, when she went to fill it up in the fountain, something caught her eye -scratched into the side was a name.
'So...f...ie,' she sounded out in her mind. "Sofie?"
"Huh?" Mr. Kravos looked up and saw the watering can she was holding. "Oh, yes. Sofie loved helping me in here; she had quite the green thumb, could make flowers grow in even the coldest, rockiest soil. I was honestly surprised she didn't become an alchemist or herbalist when she grew up."
Ashe put the watering can back down and grabbed one of the buckets instead. It was a petty thing, to be jealous of a girl who was grown and gone and with children of her own, but more and more Ashe found herself growing upset at any mention of Mr. Kravos' children or grandchildren.
'I know that they're no threat to me and I know most of them came from the same position I did,' Ashe thought, as she filled up the bucket, 'but I can't help but think that Mr. Kravos will always compare me to them.'
Forcing those nasty worries from her mind, Ashe dragged the bucket -it was really heavy; she probably shouldn't have filled it up all the way- over a planter full of red, blue, purple, and yellow flowers.
"What are these?" She called over her shoulder.
"Mountain Flowers," he replied. "They come in four different verities, each with different properties, but the yellow ones are the rarest. For a long time, it was actually thought to be impossible to cultivate them by hand -you had to find them in the wild. Sofie worked on it for years but she eventually found a way to grow them in a planter; even now, they're her pride and joy. Her children even joke that she loves those flowers more than them."
Ashe fought the urge to frown as she watered the plants; she did take special care to distribute the water evenly though -they were very pretty flowers, after all, and they smelt nice.
"When you're done with that, come over here; I have something to show you."
At those words, Ashe let the damp, empty bucket clatter to the floor and skipped over to Mr. Kravos. She hadn't noticed it before, but the furthest back part of the left half of the room was sealed by a large glass wall with a double-locked door. Ashe peered through the glass, taking in the rows of plants that were each contained in their own glass containers and sealed away from the outside world.
"This is where I store the most dangerous plants; some of these other ones out here could hurt you if you ate them but some of the plants could kill you if you even breathed too close to them," Mr. Kravos explained gravely. "What I'm saying is that you must never go in here, Ashlyn. I have to wear special protective clothing when I tend to these plants and it is still dangerous for me. Do you understand?"
‘I bet Sofie was allowed to play with them,' Ashe internally pouted. But she still nodded and said sweetly, "I understand, Mr. Kravos; I won't touch them."
"Excellent," the old man grin. "Now, do you want to help me harvest some of these carrots for supper? I think of making Falkreath Meat Loaf; it's an old specialty of mine, I might add."
"Sure, I can do that. Hey, do you have any books on plants that I could read?"
"There was a time when it would be con...sid...er...ed trea...son to pick one of these grapes without ex...press per...miss...ion from the Emperor himself. It is my un...der...stand...ing that al...though grow...ers in Sky...rim were suc...cess...ful in im...prov...ing the fruit's sur...vi...va...bil...ity, it came at the cost of fla...vor. No longer is it quite the prize it once was. And yet, growing a...mid...st the vol...can...ic tun...dra of East...march, it is still im...mense...ly useful for con...coct...ing po...tions. It is still valued as it can be com...bined with simple gar...lic to en...han...ce the re...gen...er...at...ion of en...er...gy. While no longer again...st the law, picking these grapes in large a...mounts is best kept to oneself."
"Very good, as always," Mr. Kravos nodded warmly.
She smiled, keeping her eyes down on the page she'd been reading. The book, Herbalist's Guide to Skyrim by Agneta Falia was a thick tome and clearly well-loved or, at least, well-used; she'd watched the old man thumb through the worn pages, seeing that there were many marks made in dark ink with notes scribbled in the corners and words or entire sentences blacked out.
The page about the Jazbay Grapes wasn't as marked up as the others had been, only a few words crossed out with what she realized was fairly fresh ink.
"What did you mark this up?" she asked, holding up the book.
"Hm? Oh, some of the information was out-dated, biased, or just plain incorrect," Mr. Kravos explained, taking a pause from peeling the carrots they had just harvested. "It's a pretty good source of information for beginners but I'm hoping to write my own textbook on the subject; that is what all the notes are for -they're my thoughts of what should be included. I was actually planning on starting it soon, maybe within the month."
"That's neat," Ashe offered; but even so, she frowned as she ran her fingers over a section of blotted out words that still felt somewhat damp to the touch. 'Why was this covered up?'
"Perhaps not the most glorious addition to my legacy," Mr. Kravos admitted with a chuckle, going back to the carrots, "but I believe that the education of future generations is as noble of a goal as any other."
"You'll write the best textbook ever," Ashe declared with utmost certainty. "I can't wait to read it!"
"Aww, aren't you sweet," the old man reached out to ruffle her slowly growing out hair, careful not to nick her with the peeling knife. "Most of my kids keep telling me I'm getting boring in my old age; Sissel still appreciates my brains though. Maybe I'll make you into my writing assistant; it would help with your reading and writing skills."
With a rush of pride and embarrassment, Ashe slinked down into her chair and decided to change the subject. "This book says that Jazbey Grapes aren't as good as they used to be, but the ones we've been eating are plenty sweet. Why is that?"
"That is a little complicated," Mr. Kravos replied. "We've been eating Skyrim Jazbey Grapes, which are a bit tarter than the ones in High Rock, where I'm from, but that is only comparatively -the ones I grew up eating were as sweet as honey and just about anything would be tarter than that. To be completely honest, I think these are a little better for cooking with -their taste isn't so overpowering- which is part of the reason I keep a healthy crop of them growing."
"What else can you use them for?" she asked, propping up her chin in her hand and settling in for one of Mr. Kravos' 'stories.' They weren't real stories, of course, but the way he talked -the way his smooth voice washed over her- made Ashe feel like she was listening to an old fairytale.
"Oh, many things," he started. "They can be used in baking, of course, you can use them to make syrups and jellies or jams; Lucia always loved jazbey syrup on her griddle cakes. Some people also make juice but I've always found it to be far too sweet -Francios liked it though, at least when he was young. The berries are also used in making cloth dyes, creates a lovely indigo color. Grinding the berries into a pulp and mixing that with soil is an excellent way to re-energize it; a friend of mine, Avrusa Sarethi, swears by this technique when cultivating something called Nirnroot -which is almost impossible to grow by hand. The leaves are also quite good in certain dishes; I'll make you some stuffed grape leaves one of these nights."
"Leaves? You're going make a dinner out of leaves?" Ashe piped up, wrinkling her nose; from her place by the fire, Rena lifted her head and gave a low whine at the mention of food.
"Oh, hush. I'll feed you soon," Mr. Kravos jokingly scowled his dog, who gave an annoyed huff, before turning back to Ashe. "The grape leaves are just what gives the dish its flavor; the base of it is some sort of meat; I usually like to use poached fish."
"Sounds... nice," Ashe said, shifting in her seat and trying to be convincing about it.
She clearly failed but Mr. Kravos just laughed anyway. "It tastes good, I promise," he chuckled. "But I'll make sure there is something else to eat if you don't like that."
'To think, I can actually turn down food in favor of something else now,' Ashe thought, still somewhat flabbergasted by the change her life had taken.
Giving her head a brief shake to clear those thoughts away, she smiled sweetly at her guardian. "Can we have some boiled creme treat for dessert? I want to learn how to make the creme."
"Far too often, no...ble vis...it...ors from Cy...ro..diil see little more of Skyrim than the vi...ew from their carr...i...age. To be sure, this co...arse, un...civ...il...ized pro...vince is far from hos...pit...able, but it is also a place of fi...er...ce, wild beauty, with grand v...is...tas and in...spi...r...ing nat...ural wonders a...wait....ing those with the will to seek them out and the re...fine...ment to truly app...reci...ate them. If you are of a mind to see Skyrim for yourself, I re...com...mend be...gin...ning your ad...ven...ture as I did, by seeking out Stones of Fate."
Ashe slowly made her way through the first paragraph of the book she swiped from the library before being sent off to bed, An Explorer's Guide to Skyrim. It was a heavy book and full of a lot of words that she didn't know but she was determined to read it all.
'If I learn more about Mr. Kravos' home than I can adjust better when he decides to go back,' she reasoned, never once letting herself think about the horrible possibility that the old man would leave her behind.
Chapter 9: Chapter Nine
Chapter Text
It started with growls in the night. These growls were deep, guttural things that rolled over the small island, piercing the thick walls of Mr. Kravos' house and putting Rena on edge. Ashe would watch the Lakeview Shepherd pace through the house, sharp teeth bared and hackles raised; rather than sleeping in the bedroom with her, the pooch had taken to spending nights directly in front of the main entrance.
"Why is she doing that?" she'd asked Mr. Kravos, eyeing Rena who, at this point, had been aggravated for nearly a week.
"She is guarding us," he explained, a deep frown on concern lining his face. "Rena believes there is something dangerous out there and is doing as she has been taught."
"There is always something out there," Ashe whispered to herself.
That had been one of the few pieces of good advice Papa had ever given her.
"There is always someone or something out there that can get you, Brat," he explained once in-between sips of alcohol, "so don't ever let your guard down."
Mr. Kravos reached over and pulled her close to his side. "You'll be alright," he reassured. "Just make sure you stay close to me or Rena; don't leave the house if one of us isn't with you."
'That'll be easy, I haven't left the house in months,' Ashe thought to herself. "Of course, Mr. Kravos."
Later that night, once the growls started again, Ashe would duck under the covers and push a pillow down over her head in a hopeless attempt to drown out the sound.
'Go away. Go away. Go away.'
That was the lullaby she chanted to herself until she fell asleep.
"I gave you a sock, not un...like a box,
With hamm...ers and nails all a...round it,
Two lids open when it k...nocks."
Ashe peered over the book, " Hhhmmmm , what do you think the answer is, Miss Sally?"
She was obviously too old to believe the doll with yellow yarn hair would respond, she wasn't a baby after all, but, by this point, Ashe was honestly bored enough to return to the childish habit of talking to her dolls.
"Oh, it looks like the answer is -It must have been a great hit. Now that was a fun riddle, wasn't it?"
Miss Sally just stared back, painted blue eyes unblinking. The two other dolls she'd brought down and set up at the dining table also stood with their friend in silent solidarity.
'I wish there were more kids around,' Ashe mentally sighed. Part of her felt bad for complaining, even in the safety of her own mind. Considering what she had come from and what she knew other children lived like, this was paradise but even her own guilt couldn't change the fact she was LONELY.
'I mean, Mr. Kravos and Rena are great and all but they aren't friends -they're my new... guardian and his dog.'
WHAM!
Speaking of Mr. Kravos, Ashe all but jumped out of her seat when the old man thundered through the front door, slamming it closed and pulling the safety bar across. His loud stomps and the obvious anger radiating off of Mr. Kravos' body had shivers of fear creeping down Ashe's spine as she fought the urge to hide under the table.
'He'd never hurt me,' she reassured herself, digging her fingernails into the wood of her chair and keeping her eyes fixed unblinkingly on the man.
Mr. Kravos, oblivious to her fears, gave a low growl of frustration and rubbed his forehead. Then, finally, he realized she was there; taking in the three dolls Ashe had set up, he smiled broadly, "A tea party, eh? My girls had those all the time, used to rope me and their brothers into playing along too -Lucia used to make the best tea. Actually, she still does... good for the vocal cords."
Ashe gave a little grin, already feeling herself blushing in embarrassment. "I guess I've been getting a little lonely. Rena hasn't been playing with me as much... plus, she is a dog."
"That she is... still smart them plenty of men that I've met though," Mr. Kravos chuckled, giving her hair a ruffle. Then he turned somber and thoughtful, "However, you should probably have more companionship than just an old man and his dog. After all, it's not good for a little girl to be all alone. Maybe I should just find more orphans to take in?"
Ashe felt her eyes go wide at the suggestion; she never meant to imply he should do anything that and, quite frankly, Ashe didn't want to share Mr. Kravos' attention with anyone... selfish as that was.
Seeing the look on her face, Mr. Kravos cracked another grin. "You're right, that's probably not the greatest idea. Still, I wouldn't be averse to finding some live-in help, maybe a single mother with some young children who needs employment and a place to say. It wouldn't be the first time I've hired someone on for a similar arrangement, especially when my own children were young."
Ashe knew it would be easy to find someone like that in Far Harbor but her own possessiveness kept her from offering that bit of information. Instead, she merely asked, "What has you so upset?"
"Oh, right..." Mr. Kravos sighed, dropping down heavily into one of the chairs. "Something got another one of our chickens last night."
"Another one?"
"I didn't want to scare you so I didn't say anything but for the past week two -and now three- of the hens I keep have disappeared," the old man explained. "I thought I had them all locked up tight but I guess not. I found some blood and feathers but there wasn't a body, I'm guessing it got dragged away."
"Oh, that isn't good," Ashe said softly, her mind whirling before- "Wait? We have chickens?"
Mr. Kravos looked surprised by the question. "Yes, of course. I keep a flock of eight... well, there are only five now. Where did you think all the eggs we've been eating came from?"
Ashe had assumed they were seabirds' eggs, gathered from all the nests that dotted the rocky outcrops of their tiny island. Chickens were rare and, as such, extremely expensive. Only one of Ashe's neighbors at the farming community had one and they guarded it far more fiercely than they did their three children, it was actually something of a joke among all the community children. To have eight... hell, to even have five seemed like a ridiculous indulgence.
"Can I see them?"
"Keep your hand flat and say as still as possible," Mr. Kravos instructed, pouring some feed into Ashe's palm.
She crouched down and reached her hand out towards one of the chickens, nose wrinkling at the bad smell of the chicken pen. It took a while but, eventually, one of the feathery creatures took a cautious step towards Ashe, it's head bobbing as it moved. It moved slowly but soon enough...
" Ouch! "
Ashe yanked her hand back to her side, shaking it and flinging feed everywhere as the chicken ran off. "That hurt!"
Mr. Kravos fought back an amused chuckle, "Their beaks can be rather sharp. That one there-" he pointed to a large one with a rather spectacular set of tail feathers "-enjoys pecking at me whenever I go to collect the eggs; she likes to go for the eyes, so watch out!"
Ashe eyed that particular fowl suspiciously, edging away from it.
"Collecting and cleaning off eggs was never one of my children's favorite chores, they used to bet against one another to do it. It did teach them responsibility though, whenever Sofie visits she makes her children do it as well... we've dealt with a lot of temper tantrums over that."
Ashe found herself giggling at the thought. 'I guess I do like hearing some stories about Mr. Kravos' family.'
She took a deep breath, inhaling the cool sea air through the chicken stink. This was the first time she'd been outside in... wow, in so long. Though Ashe was still afraid of what was out there -the night-time growling still hadn't let up in the slightest- but the feeling of the grass and dirt under her feet was amazing.
'I can't believe I'd forgotten what this feels like,' she thought, bouncing up and down on the feet as the moist dirt started to give way. 'I used to play outside all the time with my friends.'
Her friends... Sherry Thompson, Isaac Moore, Francis Gull, Missy Tyler... It had been so long since she'd seen any of them. Ashe wondered how they were doing. Were they okay? Did they ever think about her or wondered where she'd gone? Their community had been a fairly safe one but bad stuff always happened.
"Alright, Ashe, its time for you to go back inside and do your schoolwork."
“ Awww , but-”
“I know, I know. How about I make you a deal? If you write at least sixteen sentences about what did today, you don’t have to do any mathematics work for three whole days.”
Writing sixteen sentences was a lot of work but if it got her out of doing math… “Deal!”
Mr. Kravos laughed and passed her a basket of eggs. "Take Rena with you and start thinking about what you want for supper. Oh, and don’t forget to lock the front door, just the key lock."
"But what about you?" She asked, not wanting to go alone but also not wanting to leave her guardian without his loyal canine protector.
"Oh, don't you worry- I'll be fine."
There was that smile again, the private little one that Mr. Kravos always seemed to do whenever he thought she wasn't paying attention. The one Mr. Kravos always did when he seemed to know something she didn't.
It was frustrating, but Ashe could acknowledge that all adults did that. Adults knew a lot, some of it kids weren't ready to learn about, but that never made it less annoying.
'Especially since I'm smart,' she grumbled to herself. 'Mama and Mr. Kravos always say so.'
But, reluctantly, Ashe just nodded and left the chicken enclosure; it was a big thing, a large half-circle area of grass sealed off from everything else with a thick stone fence that was twice as tall as she was. Any animals inside should have been well-protected but...
'They just managed to slip out,' Ashe told herself. 'They're birds, they probably just flew over the fence and got gobbled up.'
That being said, she all but ran around the house and to the front door as Rena raced alongside her -the dog’s powerful strides easily keeping up with the young girl’s tiny legs. Ashe rushed inside, Rena and slammed the door behind her, leading against it with all the weight in her tiny little body as she locked the door while Rena pressed tight against Ashe’s legs.
It was embarrassing, but Ashe hated the idea of being alone outside. She was stronger now, yes, but she was still small enough to be snapped up by any number of monsters. Ashe eyed the door suspiciously; it was made from thick wood and plenty heavy so it was probably sturdy enough but you could never be too cautious.
Place a hand on her chest, Ashe closed her eyes and breathed slowly as she tried to calm her racing heartbeat. Rena whined, nosing at the girl’s hand; she scratched the dog behind the ears and smiled. "It's okay, it's okay."
Deciding to distract herself, the tiny red-head started the loooong process of dragging the heavy truck where Mr. Kravos had been keeping her learning materials to the dining table. Sure, she could have just made a couple of trips but that would take forever. Everything set out, Ashe smoothed out a piece of semi-crumpled paper and picked up her favorite charcoal pencil, beginning to write as Rena curled up at her feet and under that table.
I had eggs and apple sauce for breakfast.
I decided to wear a green dress today.
I decided to not drink milk with breakfast today.
I dusted some bookshelves.
I bushed Rena's fur, she didn't like it.
I combed my hair, it is finally growing out.
I tried to braid it but it is still isn't long enough.
I bit my nails again, I'm trying to stop.
I ate some chicken and rice for lunch.
I asked Mr. Kravos for some apple pie too but he said no.
I was upset by that.
I felt better when he gave me some apple juice though.
I decided to play tea party since l was lonely.
I used three dolls I found in my bedroom.
I also read them some riddles out of a book.
I did very well and only messed up a few times.
I haven't been sleeping well, the growling has been keeping me up.
Satisfied, Ashe put her pencil down and read over her work.
'Oops, that is one too many sentences, ' she realized, scratching out the last one. It was a bit of an embarrassing admittance anyway and Ashe didn't want Mr. Kravos thinking that she was a big baby.
But with that, Ashe packed up her school materials -putting the dreaded mathematic book at the bottom and burying it with just about everything she could find- and went to clean the charcoal dust off.
'So messy,' she thought, cleaning away the dark smears in the cool, sweet-scented water of a washbasin. 'I wonder why he just doesn't have any pens or pencils.'
BANG!
Ashe lept a good foot in the air as the front door rattled. Rena was on her feet, hackles raised, immediately and she let out a loud, dangerous growl that Ashe could feel in her chest. Fighting the urge to flee and hide under her bed, she took a step forward and -very bravely, in her opinion- called, "Mr. Kravos? Is that you?"
There was no response.
There was no... anything .
Hours could have passed with Ashe staring the door down and, eventually, even Rena seemed to finally relaxed. Though every hair on her body was still standing on end, Ashe decided to take her queue from the ever-loyal pooch and tore her eyes away from the door -Mr. Kravos had asked her to pick something else for dinner.
In the kitchen was a shelf of books, each full of yummy recipes. One of them, a heavy red-bound thing that she'd been asked not to touch, once belonged to Mr. Kravos' mother and her mother before it.
"One of my most prized professions," he had explained.
So, instead, Ashe pulled a slim blue book down and set to thumbing through the pages until something caught her eye.
"Mush...room and Veg...e...table Ri...so...tto: Ver...s...ions of this dish can be found all a...cross Tam...ri...el, but using four ty...pes of Bal...more...an mush...rooms can give this dish a special re...gi...on...al flav...or. This dish is also pop...u...lar in Skyrim, where its stick-to-the-rib qual...ity makes it a common dish from farmer's cott...age to Jarl's hall. After all, in a land of per...pet...ual winter, every...body needs a bowl of warm com...fort food from time to time."
" Mmmm , that sounds-"
RAAAAAHHHHHHH!
Chapter 10: Chapter Ten
Chapter Text
RAAAAAHHHHHHH!
The deep, guttural roar seemed to rattle the building itself, shaking the glass panes of the window about the kitchen sink. Ashe dropped the cookbook in fright, running and diving under the dining table to hide. She tucked herself into a little ball and Ashe clamped her hands over her ears in a desperate attempt to drown out the sounds of roaring from outside.
But there were more sounds too; Rena was growling and barking her furry white head off as she desperately scratched at the front door, trying to get out. Ashe usually found comfort in the dog's presence but now she sounded absolutely vicious and it actually made her scared.
"FUS RO DAH!"
Even more so than before, the house rattled with an absolutely massive BOOM and Ashe felt her eardrums pop. Rena immediately stopped her scary behavior and whined, turning tail to run and join Ashe under the table. She pushed herself into Ashe's side and the little girl immediately forgot the fear she'd just been feeling towards the dog, instead opting to bury her face in Rena's fur as she waited for the house to be blown apart by some terrible monster.
That never came thought; Ashe wasn't sure how long she stayed curled up in her fearful little ball, trying her hardest to ignore that the sounds from outside. But, eventually, all the noise seized and she felt the tense muscles in Rena's strong body relax as the dog perked up; this shift in her furry friend's demeanor led Ashe to, almost unwillingly, drop her guard.
Slowly, Ashe unfolded herself, even as she remained extremely alert to all sounds around her; she crawled forward, lifting up the edge of the long tablecloth to stare suspiciously at the front door.
' Everything seems clear but-'
BAM!
Ashe all but lept back, being in such a rush to scramble backward that she fell over her own limbs and wacked her head hard on the wooden floor. Pain shot through her body and she was seeing starts, a thick wave of nausea rushing up her throat. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Rena shoot out from under the table like a fuzzy bullet.
"Hey girl, I'm alright."
She’d never heard Mr. Kravos sound so... tired, so drained before, even the few times she'd accidentally woken him up with a screaming nightmare.
"Is Ashe okay?"
Rena yipped and there was the tell-tale sound of her nails clicking against the floor as she jumped up and down in joyful excitement.
"Of course she is. I knew you'd take good care of her," Mr. Kravos said, his voice soft but full of warmth and pride. "Ashe must be hiding right now. Can you do me a favor? Go keep her company while I get patched up, I don't want her to see me like this."
As Mr. Kravos walked... limped away , grunting slightly with every other step, into the vast winding corridors of the house, Ashe continued staring up at the underside of the dining table.
The underside of the table was covered in nicks, scratches, and faded little paintings. Over a dozen names were carved into the wood: Blaise, Hroar, Runa, Samuel, Lucia, Francios, Antosa, Aniskja, and many others she’d heard before. Those were just a few of them. The names were connected by carved wooden lines and the painted webs of faded red paint.
'Bloodlines,' she realized, tracing one of them with her pinky finger.
Surrounding the crudely-made unofficial family was what looked like fish, cats, and little bees along with what looked like rough depictions of people, each with names Aela, Lydia, Barbas, Mjoll, J’zargo, Annekke, Serana, Balgruuf, and many more.
'This table has seen a lot of history,' she thought, only now coming to realize how many people had come through this house and Mr. Kravos' life.
Rena poked her head back under the table, lifting the tablecloth as she did so, and gave a friendly yip, pressing her cold, wet nose into Ashe's ankle. The girl pushed herself back up, rubbing the back of her head with one hand and scratched the dog under the chin with the other.
"I'm alright, girl," she mumbled. "I guess everything is safe now?"
That got her another yip and a lick to the cheek.
"Fine, fine. I'm coming."
She crawled out from under the table, her knees uncomfortably digging into the floor, and rolled to her feet. Driven by pure instinct, Ashe wandered over to the front door, double-checking that it had been securely locked and bolted. It wasn't necessarily that she doubted that Mr. Kravos would do so, he always came across as very protective of her and had the habit of going through the house every night and carefully making sure every opening was locked uptight, but it definitely seemed like something was... off about him right now.
"What happened to Mr. Kravos?" she asked Rena, who cocked her head to the side. "Did he get hurt? What was loud noise earlier? Did the growling monster attack him?"
Predictably, she got no answer; instead, the dog's ears just folded down and she whined. Then she started pawing at the ground.
Ashe frowned and did her best to comfort the pooch with a rub behind the ears. "It's okay, Rena. I'm sure everything will be fine."
Surprisingly, Rena shook her head off and pawed at the ground harder, ducking her head and nuzzling the floor.
"What's bugging you, doggy?" she asked crouching down and sliding her fingers over the polished grains of the wooden floor. When she pulled them back, they were damp with a dark liquid.
'Blood,' Ashe realized, her stomach sinking at the implications. 'Mr. Kravos was hurt.'
"Ashe! Good, you're here!"
The girl jumped up, whirling around and tucking her hands behind her back. "Mr. Kravos, you're okay!"
"Of course, why wouldn't I be?" The man looked completely fine, the only difference being that he had changed his clothes and his face was wet like he had just washed it.
She gave a shaky smile, "Oh, no reason. I just heard some weird noises outside."
There was the slightest widening in Mr. Kravos' eyes, the slightest stiffening in posture, the slightest raising of his eyebrows, the slightest pause before speaking, and the slightest hitch in his voice when he did so.
All signs that someone was lying.
"Really? Hmmm, it must have just been the wind," the man said, forcing a nonchalant shrug. "The real question is, are you okay?"
'Don't lie to me,' she hissed mentally; Ashe had been lied to by plenty of people before, by plenty of people, and there were few things she hated more in the entire world.
"Oh, I'm fine... I did bump my head though," she replied, forcing a bashful smile and rubbing the back of her head.
Ashe was a liar too, had been for a long time. It was the only way to survive in the Commonwealth as a lonely, unloved, and sick little girl.
"Come here, let me see." Mr. Kravos waved her over, tenderly tapping at the goose egg growing on the back of Ashe's head. "You knocked your head good, got a little blood here. Wait a second..."
The man grabbed a clean washcloth and dunked it in a nearby water barrel before ringing it out and folding the cloth up. "Here, hold this to the back of your head."
Wordlessly, Ashe did so, flinching a little at the cool pressure against her smarting wound and the feeling of water droplets running through her hair before disappearing down her neck and the back of her dress. Then she watched as Mr. Kravos lit a small kindling twig on fire and held it up.
"Keep your eyes on the flame," he instructed, moving it slowly from side to side.
"Wh-"
"I need to check your eyes."
Despite his early lie, Ashe still trusted Mr. Kravos and did as he said without question. Valuently, she refused to blink against the bright, burning light as her eyes tracked the little flame with her eyes.
"Alright, it doesn't seem like you have a concussion," Mr. Kravos declared, tossing the twig into the fire. "Do you feel any nausea, like you need to throw up?"
"No," she said, shaking her head. "In fact, I'm a little hungry."
"Good, good. That means you'll have a good bump for a while but nothing that will do any lasting harm."
With a grunt, Mr. Kravos hoisted himself up from his crouched position and turned to go to the kitchen as Ashe followed along. He picked up the cookbook she dropped from the floor and looked it over, giving a little huff of laughter.
"Mushroom and Vegetable Risotto, huh?" he asked. "Good choice."
Ashe felt herself blush, "Yeah, I thought it sounded yummy."
"It is," Mr. Kravos nodded, "I personally like to make it with bits of bacon mixed in... but it takes a bit of time to properly prepare and I'm a little tired tonight so, unfortunately, we'll have to save it for another night. I'm thinking of re-heating some of that soup we had the other day for supper; would you be alright with that?"
"Sure."
Tired as she may be of soup and stews, it had been tasty, if a bit on the salty side, with a thick broth, big chunks of salted beef, and vegetable chunks. Add some bread and whatever sweet treat Mr. Kravos had tucked away, and it would be a perfectly serviceable meal.
"Sure, that sounds fine."
Later that night, gnawing on the long piece of taffy that she snuck out of the kitchen -Mr. Kravos only ever allowed her to have one piece of it per day. How unfair!- Ashe pulled out the most recent book she'd been making her way through.
Honestly, she was quite proud of herself. In the past month, Ashe had read through seven of the books in Mr. Kravos' library in addition to many of the children's books in the bedroom. Of course, she didn't completely understand some -most- of what was in those books and Ashe found the idea of going to Mr. Kravos about these questions embarrassing. Instead, she just wrote a list of questions about each and tucked them away in the little desk that had been set up for her.
"Alright, Children of the Sky by... huh, there is no author, that is weird," she mused, thumbing the book open to where she'd left off the night before.
'The breath and the voice are the vi...tal ess...ence of a Nord. When they de...feat great en...em...ies they take their ton...gu...es as tro...phies.'
"Ewww," Ashe said, wrinkling her nose and giving her own tongue a little nibble to make sure it was still there. "Who'd take someone's tongue? That is just gross."
'These are wo...ven into ropes and can hold speech like an en...chant...ment. The power of a Nord can be art...ic...u...late...d into a "dragon" shout, like the kiai of an Aka....vi...ri swordsman. The strongest of their war...ri...ors are called "Ton....gues." When the Nords attack a city, they take no sie...ge en...gine...s or ca...valry; the Tongues form in a wedge in front of the gate...house, and draw in breath. When the lead...er lets it out in a kiai, the doors are blown in, and the axe...men rush into the city.'
Ashe felt her eyebrows creep further and further up her forehead as she read on. There was no way this could be real! This had to be some sort of legend or fantasy story, people couldn't just use their voices as weapons; not in the physical sense, at least. Ashe knew well and good that words could hurt as much if not more than a fist or wooden spoon to the leg or the tip of a sharp knife digging into her hand.
But one word caught her interest more than any other.
"Shout..." she whispered into the darkness, remembering the early events of that day. That sound, those strange words... Fus Ro Dah. They had sounded like a shout, they and the massive bang that had followed certainly weren't the wind, no matter what Mr. Kravos said.
It was that thought that kept Ashe up late into the night, tossing and turning in her bed as the moon crept across the night sky -a luminescent silver disk only just discernible behind the thick mist of Far Harbor- until the beginnings of sunlight started to peek out from the east. She was so restless that eventually Ashe just decided to stare up at the interesting little baubles and trinkets that had been hung from the ceiling, the glass and metal ones catching the dim light of her lantern and twinkling like stars -it was actually a little hypnotic.
Hours passed and thin, weak beams of light started coming through Ashe's window. Distantly she heard Mr. Kravos' door open and the wooden floorboards creaked as he walked down the hall, passing her room and heading downstairs. It was a familiar enough sound, Ashe always heard it whenever she woke up early enough or the noise itself woke her up; she always counted the steps Mr. Kravos took, twenty-seven in total, until she heard the creaking of the stairs -fifteen steps in total.
Ashe was never able to hear her self-appointed guardian once he was on the first floor but when she closed her eyes she could easily imagine him going into the kitchen to put some tea on the stove and start making breakfast.
This morning was different though; there were the standard fifteen steps down the stairs but, instead of silence, there was the very distinctive creek & thud of the front door opening and closing.
'What is Mr. Kravos doing?' she wondered, sliding out of bed and creeping over to the window.
At first, there was nothing but then, through the dark gloom, Ashe was able to make out the figure of Mr. Kravos hurrying towards the back of the house with something propped against his shoulder. 'Is that a shovel?'
Curiosity and, quite frankly, sleepiness outweighing her own fear and cautiousness, Ashe found herself sliding into her slippers, picking up the lantern, and rushing downstairs. She was half-way out the front door when the echoing shriek of some strange bird finally brought Ashe back to her sense. Staring out into the thick, early dawn fog, dread began pooling in the pit of her tiny stomach.
'I shouldn't go out there,' she told herself. 'Mama always told me to never go out after dark, that things were always more dangerous at night, and Mr. Kravos said I'd be safe so long as I stayed inside.'
Something cool and wet pressed into her hand, causing Ashe to jump; only for a moment though, one quick glance reassured her that it was just Rena. The dog yipped and gave Ashe a slobbery lick across the face.
The action was, somehow, incredibly reassuring and Ashe found herself with a determined grin on her face. She grabbed a squared her little shoulders and held up the lantern to illuminate the darkness. "I can't hide forever. Come on, Rena!"
The ground was soft and uneven under her feet as Ashe followed Mr. Kravos' footprints around the house, Rena padding along by her side. Her furry companion and the light from the lantern doing wonders to chase away Ashe's fear.
Well... at least some of it. Ashe turned the corner, spotted Mr. Kravos, then screamed.
"Ashe!" the old man said, eyes going wide and dropping his shovel down on to the body of an absolutely massive albino deathclaw that he'd been burying. "You shouldn't be out-"
" Grrrrrrr. "
The low growl cut Mr. Kravos off and they both turned to see a small baby deathclaw coming at them.
Chapter 11: Chapter Eleven
Chapter Text
"Kill it! Kill it!" Ashe shrieked, throwing herself backward and scrambling up a pile of crates that were stacked against the house.
Deathclaws were vicious, deadly beasts, capable of tearing through armed militia caravans like wet paper. Mr. Kravos being able to take down an adult one was a miracle in and of itself; while the juveniles were far less dangerous, they tended to swarm and could still easily take down an adult man with their razor-sharp claws and teeth.
The deathclaw lunged at Mr. Kravos, who nimbly -especially for his age- jumped aside, causing the creature to trip over the mounds of loose dirt.
"Rena, GRAB!"
The growling dog lept at the order, tackling the juvenile deathclaw to the ground and sinking her teeth into the back of the creature's neck.
"Good. Now, Rena, HOLD!" Mr. Kravos commanded.
Rena pinned her prey face-down in the dirt, her front paws pressing down on the deathclaw's arms and teeth still holding firm at the beast's neck. She didn't seem interested in killing the snarling, squirming creature -Ashe was pretty confident that Rena could have certainly ripped its throat out at any time- and was instead just... holding it in place.
"Excellent!" Mr. Kravos praised, going over the stack of crates Ashe was still perched on. "Now, keep him there, girl."
The old man dragged over an empty barrel and pried the lid off, bending it over. "Okay, bring the little beast over."
"W-what are you doing?" Ashe demanded as the man and dog fought to get the juvenile deathclaw safely into the barrel. It swiped and snarled and bit at them, even drawing blood a few times, but, eventually, it dropped to the bottom of the barrel and sealed inside. "That thing is vicious, you need to kill it!"
"If it comes to that, then so be it," Mr. Kravos agreed. "But I'd rather try a bit of an experiment first."
The barrel shook as the little deathclaw tore away at the wood from the inside. Ashe eyed it warily, waiting for the moment it broke free. "What do you mean?"
"I've trained, raised, and domestic all sorts of dangerous, wild creatures. In fact, it became something of a hobby of mine, much to my family's dismay. Anyway, I want to give it a try with this little guy."
"You're insane!"
"Probably," Mr. Kravos agreed. "You should head back inside now, Ashlyn. There are still a few more hours before morning; I'll be in soon and I'll get you something to help you sleep."
"But-"
"But nothing, it is still far too early to be out. I'm not letting you out of doing your chores and lessons just because you decided on a little night time romp," the old man chided. "Off to bed with you now; take her inside, Rena. I still have to figure out what to do with this-" he patted the barrel "-little one."
She wanted to argue, opened her mouth start, but was stopped by Rena pawing at her foot and giving the hem of her nightgown a nibbling tug. Though she didn't want to, Ashe obeyed her guardian's instructions -though she was sure to huff, stomp her feet, and pout the entire way.
Rena was sure to follow the girl all the way back to her bedroom, watching with her sharp, knowing eyes as Ashe slid back under the covers. Then, to be extra sure that she would stay put, hopped up onto the bed and stretched out across her legs.
'That dog is too smart for her own good,' Ashe mentally grumbled, annoyed that her plans to slip back out so she could spy on Mr. Kravos.
What was the man thinking? You couldn't... tame a deathclaw! Sure, people had tried but it never lasted; even if, theoretically, you raised one up from when it was a baby it would eventually get so big and vicious that it would kill it's 'master' by accident.
Not to mention, feeding and caring for it would be a nightmare.
Reluctantly, the little girl closed her eyes hard and, in her mind, started going through all of the steps in making an apple pie. 'Select five large apples, they should still have some amount of tartness. Core and slice these apples thinly; remove the skin if desired.'
Halfway through the process of rolling out the pie dough, a hand on her shoulder caused Ashe's eyes to flicker open. Groggily, she could make out the silhouetted form of Mr. Kravos; wordlessly, he slid a strong, callous hand under her neck and gently pushed her up until Ashe was propping herself up on her elbows. The lip of a cool glass bottle was pressed against her mouth, causing it to fall open; it was tilted up and Ashe found herself swallowing several mouthfuls of a slightly bitter liquid.
"Close your eyes, little one," Mr. Kravos whispered, wiping off the spilled liquid with the back of his hand and carding his fingers through her growing hair. "The dawn always comes."
'But is that a good thing?' Ashe wondered as her eyelids grew heavy.
It was mid-day when Ashe's eyes reopened, the light coming through the window as bright as it ever was in Far Harbor. As her mind came back to her, Ashe became aware of the pain in her legs; wincing, she flexed the stiff muscles.
'Rena must have slept on them all night,' she thought, sliding out from under the covers and wobbling over to the robe she'd discarded last night.
Out the door and down the steps Ashe went, closing her eyes and taking in a deep breath to inhale a wonderful smell that filled the air. Hunger didn't scare her as much as it did a few months ago; she'd finally started to accept that even if Mr. Kravos wasn't in the immediate vicinity, so long as Ashe was in his home, she'd always have food.
"Mr. Kravos?" she called out, hearing the tell-tale clattering of pots and pans coming from the kitchen. "Can I help with anything?"
The old man's smiling face emerged from behind the kitchen door. "Hey there, Sleepyhead! Are you ready to eat some lunch?"
Ashe rubbed her eyes, "Wow, is it that late already?"
"Mmmhmmm," he nodded, "I decided to let you have a bit of a lay-in since you were up so late... or early, I suppose."
'Not letting me out of doing my chores and lessons, huh?' she thought, a smile creeping onto her face. "Yes, please. What are you cooking? It smells really good."
"I'm pan-frying up some onions, potatoes, green peppers, and sausages -you'll like it," Mr. Kravos explained. "I've also got a leftover pie that needs to be eaten before it goes bad. Now go wash up and get changed. The food needs a little more time."
With a nod, the little girl scampered back up to the bedroom and began pawing through the dresser full of clothes that Mr. Kravos had set up just for her. She eventually decided on the green dress with red flowers embroidered on the beige skirt. Pulling the belt tight, the back of Ashe's fingers brushed against her ribs, and she, for the first time, realized how much weight she'd put on in these past months.
Standing in front of the room's floor-length mirror, Ashe twisted around to view her body from different angles and pinched her side. There was a comforting layer of skin and fat cushioning her ribs and legs and arms. Her face was full and round, eyes no longer sunken in, and Ashe's formerly chapped, dry lips were now soft, smooth, and pink. Her hair was longer now too, the stiff, brittle ends curling around Ashe's chin while the healthier new hair tickled her ears.
'I finally look like an actual child instead of some sick, stray animal Mr. Kravos dragged in off the streets,' she thought, slipping her shoes on. 'I look more like someone he cares about instead of just a charity case.'
A massive plate of food and mug of milk was ready for her when Ashe slid her butt into the seat, grabbing a fork and automatically going for a chunk of seasoned potato.
"Mmmmmm," she moaned. 'Crispy on the outside and soft on the inside.'
Mr. Kravos laughed, "Eat up, I have plenty more."
Usually, meal times were filled with conversation but today they were strangely silent, just the clattering of forks against plates. There was a palpable awkward in the air and the many questions Ashe was mulling over in her mind, trying to figure out how to best word them, only made things worse.
She swallowed a huge mouthful of three-day-old pie with some milk and turned to her self-appointed guardian. "Can I take a bath later? I didn't get around to washing up today and getting a little grimy."
"Sure, I think it's time for you to start using the washroom in the cellar," Mr. Kravos said. "I'll show you how to set things up later."
"Okay, thank you."
There was another lapse of silence. Ashe pushed some crumbs around on her plate, wondering if she should say something else.
She gnawed on her lower lip for a bit before taking a breath and starting up with a, "I-"
"I have that... creature locked up somewhere safe, I'm going to see if I can try and tame it," Mr. Kravos stated bluntly, clearly having had the same thought about breaking the silence as she did.
Ashe felt her eyes widen with shock and her jaw drop. "You can't be serious! You should drown that thing! It's dangerous!"
"I will if need be, but I'd rather that not be the default choice," the older man said. Then he gave her a gentle look, "Maybe it is aggressive, but that little creature is now completely alone in the world with no one to care for it; I'd think you'd understand that better than anyone."
'Ouch, he really went for the heart with that one,' the girl winced, tapping her fork against the edge of her plate. Then she sighed, "I don't want you to get hurt."
That made Mr. Kravos smile and ruffle her hair. "Trust me, trying to tame a knee-high vicious little beast is basically at the bottom of the very long list of dangerous things I've done and possibly stupid ideas I've had -my friends, comrades, and family can tell you all about that when you meet them."
'Meet them?' Ashe's heart sped up, "Y-you want me to meet them?"
"Huh? Of course!" Mr. Kravos declared, seeming surprised that she even asked the question. "It might be a bit of time before that can happen, but I definitely am looking forward to introducing you to all of them."
Feeling her face heat up, Ashe ducked her head and chased more crumbles. "You're going to be careful, right? Even juvenile deathclaws can be dangerous. Once I met a caravan guard and he told me they can be even more dangerous than the adults if you're not careful because they're harder to hit and tend to go for the female artery in the inner thigh."
"Female artery? Oh, you mean the femoral artery," Mr. Kravos said, mostly to himself as he scratched at his beard. "Hmm, that is good to know; I'll be sure to wear some armor when I enter the pen."
"Mr. Kravos!" she snapped, annoyed that man wasn't paying attention to her warnings and concerns.
"It will be fine, Ashlyn; I've cared for many, many dangerous animals and I know not to rush into anything," he comforted, using the pad of his thumb to wipe away some apple pie filling from the corner of her mouth. "Now you called those animals 'deathclaws,' right? Can you tell me what you know about them? I want to know absolutely everything so don't hold back; no detail is too small."
Unsure as she was, the eager look on her guardian's face weakened Ashe's resolve. "Fine... Okay, so the first thing you need to know is-"
In the months that she'd been living in the house, Ashe hadn't ever been in the cellar. She'd seen Mr. Kravos open the hatch and climb down the ladder into the darkness many times but it had always seemed so scary. Sure, there were probably a lot of fun secrets down there -Mr. Kravos was always ducking through the hatch and returning with some cool toy or shiny knickknack- but it never seemed worth the potential of being written by a giant rat or something. But, to her surprise, the cellar was not only large -several sprawling rooms, some locked and some opened for her exploration- but clean, tidy, well-lit by those blue-stone lanterns, and comfortable. The rough stone floor was covered by thick, woven rugs and even the walls were prettied up with stone, panes of wood, and nice decorations.
One of the rooms was the nicest washroom she'd ever seen. Sure, there were probably prettier ones out there but Ashe certainly had never seen them. The gray slate-like stone it was made of was kept scrubbed clean and the tub she was currently soaking in was far larger than any she'd ever experienced; so large, in fact, that she could completely lay down in any direction. It was definitely bigger than the portable one that Ashe had been using and that thing was extravagant compared to the metal barrel she'd grown up using.
That bath, easily three feet deep, was built right into a corner and tucked neatly into the corner of the room. Mr. Kravos has shown her how to pull a series of nozzles on the wall to fill the tub with hot and cold water -"Make sure you always test the temperature of the water before you get in, Ashe," he warned. "Otherwise you could scald yourself something horrible."- before giving her a bottle of sweet-smelling oil. When she asked what it was for, Ashe had gotten a sly wink and instructions to pour a little bit into the water while the tub was filling up.
So, of course, Ashe had promptly upended half of the bottle into the water then all but had a heart attack when a tidal wave of floral-scented bubbles rushed upward and overtook everything.
Okay, so not really. But they did spill out of the tub and cover the washroom floor with a fine layer of subs.
'A problem for later,' she told herself, sinking down into the water until the bubbles tickled her ears. After all, aside from hanging the floor mats over the room's small fire to dry, there wasn't much that could be done. The floor would be sticky once it dried, sure, and he'd probably have to mop up afterward but Ashe doubted Mr. Kravos would be all that angry with her. He rarely even raised his voice at her.
'He's a strange man,' Ashe thought, not for the first time, as she enjoyed the feeling of her warm, wet hair sticking to her skin. 'He'd have to be to try and tame a deathclaw.'
Still, if anyone could do it, Mr. Kravos could. After all, while Ashe had long since realized that her guardian was a strange individual, she was beginning to suspect he was far stranger than anything she'd ever considered.
Chapter 12: Chapter Twelve
Chapter Text
Once upon a time, Mama had told Ashe that the best way to answer a question was to first gather up as much information as possible.
So that is what she did.
She started with the chunks of glowing blue stones that Mr. Kravos used as a light source throughout the house. They were nothing like anything Ashe had ever seen before and, though she grew up in a fairly sheltered community for most of her young life, Ashe also thought she'd seen plenty of strange things. The stones seemed to hum or buzz slightly, vibrating against her skin when Ashe touched them.
None of the chunks of stone was the same size either and all looked like been chiseled out of a much larger rock. There were also somewhat see-through; not entirely, looking through them just showed off-colored blobs, but light definitely shown through them. Finally, the stones gave off no heat, which was probably why Mr. Kravos kept fires going in most rooms.
They were beautiful, fascinating, and confusing all in one.
Ashe needed to have an explanation for them, sure that they were connected to the larger mystery that was Mr. Kravos, the weird things it seemed he could do, and the strange place he came from. She wasn't quite ready to label it 'magic' -Ashe had seen far too much of the Real World to believe in magic anymore- but it was something!
So, it was off to the library.
While Mr. Kravos had basically given her free rein of the library -the lower floor at least, she was still locked out of the upper-level because Mr. Kravos said, "that was where I keep my rarest books."- he stacked roughly twenty books on a long, low table for her, stating that they were the most age-appropriate, reading level-appropriate, and informative that he had.
Ashe spent a solid day of free-time, which had significantly increased ever since Mr. Kravos had started working on his new 'pet project' -and, yes, the man had actually called his insane idea of taming a juvenile deathclaw, a 'pet project' and then had the nerve to laugh at his own joke. Ashe rolled her eyes and beamed him with a chunk of roasted potato in response- and needed the time to keep a close eye on the carefully locked up creature. That meant Ashe could reasonably justify spending all day poring over the different texts, trying to find something, ANYTHING, that matched the description of the blue stone, as 'educational.'
And, yet, twenty-six books and many hours in, Ashe still had made no progress.
"Tell me your secrets!" she begged the chunk of stone clutched in her tiny hands. "I just want to know what you are!"
"Ashe, do you want-"
Mr. Kravos rounded the doorway into the library, his words dying as he spotted her sitting cross-legged on the floor talking to a glowing rock. "What are you... Why are you... Where did you get that?"
A rush of guilt and embarrassment over being caught came over her and Ashe's eyes went wide. "I didn't break anything! This is just the one from the lamp in my room!"
"Okay," Mr. Kravos said slowly, amusement evident in his face and voice. "But what are you doing with it? Is there are not enough light in here?"
She shook her head, relief rushing over her when she was -once again- reassured that Mr. Kravos was not angry with her. "I was just want to know what it is. I've been looking through all the books you left out for me but I can't find anything."
"Oh, yes, that does make sense. I can imagine you'd been curious; hell, even most of the people back home are stunned when they first see my little rock-lamps," the man nodded. "You could have just asked, though."
"Sorry," Ashe said, feeling the tips of ears burn slightly. "I just didn't want to bother you, you've been so busy these past few days. Can you please tell me about these stones?"
"Sure, I'd be happy to."
And with that, Mr. Kravos seamlessly slipped into what Ashe had come to call 'Teacher Mode', settling himself in one of the library's comfortable armchairs and setting the bowl he was carrying down on the top of a stack of books.
"Now, let's see... those particular types of rocks are from a massive underground cavern called Blackreach. It is an extremely dangerous place so few explorers dare to venture down into it -even if you can find a way in, there is no guarantee you'll be able to find your way out afterward- and, as a result, not many have ever seen these stones."
He held his hand out for the rock she'd been fiddling with, to which she handed it over. Mr. Kravos took a moment to roll the stone between his hand before holding it out again and pointing towards one specific grove on the surface.
"See this? Well, all the pieces of stone I use had to be chiseled out of much larger geodes -some of which were bigger than me!- and that took a long time because the geodes are very hard, much more so than regular stone."
"Wow..." Ashe couldn't help but stare at the rock in awe. This chunk was only about the size of her fist so to imagine that it came from a much bigger stone was amazing; Mr. Kravos was not a small man, easily six feet tall, so the geode sources must have been huge! "What are they called? They have to have a name, being so special."
Mr. Kravos gave her a warm smile, "I call them Star Stones, but I have been told that name is silly... My kids can be cruel."
He gave a small chuckle of fondness but Ashe frowned, 'From some of his stories, I swear that his children and grandchild sound like a bunch of rude, disrespectful brats. They should be a lot more grateful to Mr. Kravos for all he has done for them.'
Then she smiled, pretty and broad. "Thank you for telling me that! It is very interesting to learn about all the neat stuff you have in your house."
The raised eyebrow she got in return told Ashe that she wasn't much of an actress. Still, Mr. Kravos chuckled, ruffled her hair, then got up and grabbed the bowl he'd been carrying, "Come on, put down the books for now; let's get some fresh air."
Silently, Ashe stood up -her legs were all wobbly, she'd been sitting cross-legged on the floor for so long that they'd gone numb- and followed him out of the library, down the stairs, and to the front door. Standing at the threshold to the outside world, Ashe froze in her tracks; the cool, moist air blew over her, and that intense, instinctual fear of the outside world returned in full force. She was safe inside the house, safe from all the monsters and dangers, and the outside world was filled with things that could hurt her.
"Ashe? Everything alright, Sweetheart?"
Looking up at Mr. Kravos' concerned blue eyes and feeling Rena's soft, warm fur brush against her side, Ashe found the strength to smile and step over the threshold. "I'm fine."
"He seems kind of stupid," Ashe mused, cocking her head to the side as she watched the positively furious juvenile deathclaw charge headfirst into the thick stone wall of its enclosure. Though fairly strong, even the youngest of its species were, the wall far too tough to be broken through; instead, it just bounced off and back onto its butt. The collision seemed to leave it dazed; it shook its head for a minute before getting back to its feet and charging towards another wall to predictable results.
"He's just a kid, of course he doesn't know any better.... but, then again," Mr. Kravos let out a huff of laughter as they both watched the creature run in circles until it got dizzy and fell down, "he may just be stupid. So, do you want to feed him?"
"What?" Ashe turned to him, wide-eyed and in shock. 'Does he expect me to get in there?'
Mr. Kravos held up the bowl which, for the first time, she could see was filled with scraps of raw, red meat. "In my experience, the best way to any beast's heart is through their stomach -that is how I got Aela to like me, after all- so I'm trying to figure out what kind of meat he likes best. This-" he wiggled the bowl a bit "-is some leftover rabbit. I've already tried beef, fish, and squirrel, all of which he ate but our little guest here has yet to be particularly enthusiastic about any of them."
"How can you tell if the deathclaw likes one type of food more than the other?" she asked, nose wrinkling as she picked up a tiny piece of raw meat with her thumb and pointer finger.
Her guardian tossed a chunk of rabbit into the enclosure and the juvenile deathclaw automatically pounced when it sensed movement, but then sniffed curiously at its prey.
"You feed the animal a different kind of food every day for a week then, the next week, you repeat that order," Mr. Kravos explained. "After a few weeks, the creature should develop a preference. If it has any sort of individualized intelligence, that is."
"Huh, that is cool," Ashe hummed, tossing her own piece of meat into the enclosure. "Do you think you're making any progress?"
"Well, for the first few days, our little guest here wouldn't even eat so-" he nodded toward the young death claw who'd plopped down on his butt and was gnawing at the chunks of meat rather placidly "- I'd have to answer yes."
"Mmhhhh." She wasn't sure how she felt about that even as she chucked some more rabbit pieces over the fence and a peaceful silence settled between them.
"Oh," Mr. Kravos eventually piped up, "I was thinking that it might be time to give this little guy a name, what do you think?"
Ashe's scowled and she gave Mr. Kravos a weird look. "It's not a cat," she said. "Don't go getting attached. You might still have to kill it."
'It'd be safer for all of us,' she mentally added.
If her guardian was disappointed, he didn't let it show. Instead, Mr. Kravos just passed her the bowl, "I've to go grab him some water. Do you mind sitting tight for a moment?"
Ashe just shrugged, tossing in another piece of meat as she watched the old man around the corner. Then she turned back to the deathclaw, who'd finally decided that running headfirst into the walls and was now curled up in a patch of grass, glaring at it.
"You are a monster," she hissed. "I should grab a hammer and beat you to death right now, otherwise you'll just grow up to attack people and settlements."
Obviously, the deathclaw didn't have anything to say in its defense. It did let out a gurgly chirp thought.
"Don't try to be cute," she snapped, leaning forward to throw a pebble at the beast's head... and missing by a mile. It did, however, nearly caused her to fall off the overturned bucket she was standing on. "Ahhh!"
The bucket wobbled dangerously but she was able to regain her balance. "Wow, that was close!" she sighed in relief, glancing down at her feet and taking note of the loose construction materials scattered across the ground. Spotting a piece of thin rope, a devious idea took root in Ashe’s mind.
"Hmmm."
Hopping down from the bucket, Ashe grabbed the rope, which was about four feet long, and tied one end to a thick stick with a knot Nicky Becker -whose father was a fisherman- had taught her. Then she pushed a bent nail through the other end of the rope, finishing her make-shift fishing pole.
"Alrighty," she said, "let's see how well this works."
After Papa threw her out, Ashe got extremely used to talking to herself, be it to ward off the loneliness or to quell the fear when she huddled in some tucked away nook for the night. Now that she had Mr. Kravos to talk to, Ashe found she didn't do it as much anymore... though she still talked to Rena more than was probably healthy.
Hopping back up on the bucket, Ashe skewered a chunk of the rabbit on the nail then 'cast' the 'rod' over the wall and into the enclosure. At first, the deathclaw only gave her 'bait' a curious glance so she wiggled the rod a bit, bouncing it up and down to make the meat look more enticing.
And it worked, the beast gave another low gurgle, cocked its head to the side, and stood up, taking a few steps forward. Ashe watched carefully as the muscles in its body tensed and then...
"RHHhhaaaa!"
The deathclaw pounced and Ashe yoinked the rod up, causing the beast to fly through the air only to land on its face without anything to show for its trouble. After pulling itself up, the deathclaw looked down at its paws and then on the ground around itself, seemingly confused by the lack of food.
Ashe found herself laughing out loud at the creature's expression and lowered the bait back into the enclosure again. After months with only books, storytime, and playing fetch with Rena for entertainment -who knew she'd miss television so much? Ashe's family certainly never had one, they were far too expensive and, when she wanted to watch it, she and the other children would have to go watch the community hall. They did have a radio though and she missed listening to all the music and dramas; she remembered dancing around to song with Mama, holding onto her hands and balancing on her feet as they went around and around the kitchen- Ashe had decided that she was going to make her own fun.
So she wiggled the bait again and waited for the deathclaw to pounce so she could yank the line back up.
And again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
By this point, Ashe was shrieking with laughter -a noise that seemed to confuse the deathclaw- as the creature got angrier and angrier by its lack of success. It was growling loudly now, scratching at the ground and walls as it tried to scamper up the wall of its enclosure after the bait.
Then the mistake happened, she didn't pull the rod up fast enough.
"Ahhh!" Ashe yelped as the stick was nearly tugged right out of her hands.
The deathclaw had grabbed a hold of the string and pulled downward with all of its strength which, even though it was a juvenile, was quite impressive. Ashe pulled back but her skinny arms weren't strong enough and, when it gave another sharp tug, she found herself pitching forward, over the top of the stone fence and into the enclosure.
She screamed as the ground was getting closer and closer... only for something to grab ahold of the back of her dress and pull her back.
"Umpf!" She found herself on her butt in the dirt with the wind knocked right out of her and a racing heartbeat. Gasping, she looked up into the disappointed blue eyes and the sad frown of Mr. Kravos.
Chapter 13: Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Text
"Make sure you wash your hands well with soap and water; it can be dangerous to handle raw meat so don't go touching anything until you've gotten clean," Mr. Kravos instructed, his voice stern and colder than she'd ever heard it before
'Except when he was putting on voices for storytime,' Ashe thought glumly, realizing she probably wouldn't be getting storytime for a while.
Keeping her eyes low and head bow, Ashe let out a quiet, "Yessir, Mr. Kravos."
The man said nothing and just gave her one final excruciating disappointed look before walking off and vanishing behind the kitchen doors. What made it even worse was how Rena's silver-blue eyes seemed to shine sadly as she let out a low, mournful whine, and licked Ashe's clenched hand before turning to follow her master.
The dog may like Ashe, may be protective of her, but Rena's loyalty would always be with Mr. Kravos first and foremost.
This left Ashe alone to, much like a kicked puppy, limp her way over the nearest washbasin, her butt still sore from the tumble she'd taken early. The soap smelt like lavender and the water was warm but Ashe couldn't enjoy it due to the shame she was feeling. She still took care to scrub all the way up her elbows, making sure to get between her fingers and under her nails though. Whenever she helped cook at home, Mama had been sure to tell Ashe that raw meat could get her sick -which was why it was better to overcook it than undercook it; they couldn't afford to see a doctor, after all- so Ashe had already known she needed to wash her hands really well, even if she didn't say anything.
'How could I have messed up so badly?' she berated herself. 'How could I have forgotten myself like that? I didn't just goof around with Mr. Kravos project, something I know is important to him, I could have gotten hurt! I nearly did get hurt! If I had fallen in with that deathclaw, it would have torn me apart! God, imagine how horrible Mr. Kravos would have felt if that had happened when he had his back turned?'
Shame sat heavy and cold in her gut; the knowledge that she had disappointed Mr. Kravos, that she all but mocked what he was attempting to do, made Ashe feel like she needed to throw up! She didn't expect to be punished... or, at least, not like Papa used to punish her, and Ashe knew that Mr. Kravos wouldn't do something as drastic as throwing her out but there was sure to be some consequences to her actions.
And Ashe wanted there to be.
If she were to be punished, if Mr. Kravos was to give her the belt or cut her off from meals for a few days, or gives her a lot of extra chores that Ashe would have to complete in a short time than she could just take it and this bad feeling inside her would go away.
"What can I do to make it up to him?" she wondered out loud.
Well, to start off she'd have to be perfectly polite and obedient; she wouldn't talk back or misbehave until the air cleared. Ashe would also take extra care when doing her chores, she'd do them before even being asked or reminded and would go beyond what was expected of her. The times when she had to placate Papa after messing up and getting him angry had taught Ashe that few things made someone happier than finding out a task they didn't want to do was already completed.
'Maybe I can get up really early one day and bring him breakfast in bed too?' Ashe thought. 'Papa always liked that.'
Mr. Kravos had recently begun trusting her to be alone in the kitchen to make herself simple meals so long as she'd asked permission first. Before she'd been allowed to go get as much water as she'd like and would even leave out different snacks for it she'd get hungry, especially after he'd first take Ashe in and she needed to put on a lot of weight, but she hadn't been allowed to handle any of the cooking knives or make anything the required fire to make.
Ashe had spent a lot of time showing Mr. Kravos that she could be responsible in the kitchen, hoping to earn the right to use the stove and oven by herself. After all, she spent years helping Mama in the kitchen and then cooking most of Papa's meals for him. Ashe was confident she could manage to make the basics like eggs & toast or grill some meat in a skillet, even if the appliances in Mr. Kravos' kitchen were really weird compared to what she'd had back in her community.
Even if the breakfast Ashe made was only some eggs and toast with jam, she was sure Mr. Kravos would appreciate it.
"That is a good way to start off, but what more can I do?" she mused, scratching her chin and splashing warm soap suds everywhere. "I know this project of him is really important, so maybe if I..."
Just then, a lightbulb went off in her head and Ashe's voice trailed off as she was struck by a brilliant idea.
"Ashlyn, its time for supper!"
Fighting to get her massive smile under control, Ashe folded the two pieces of paper she'd been working on and tucked them under her arm before bounding down the stairs to the dining room. Mr. Kravos was setting out plates of what smelled liked grilled beef steak and boiled vegetables all covered in a thick gravy with a small bowl of piping hot bread rolls, a butter dish on the side.
Still trying to fight back the urge to giggle, Ashe pranced right up to her guardian and held out the papers.
"What is all this?" he asked, bright blue eyes glancing down.
"A present."
With a low hum, Mr. Kravos took the papers and unfolded them. After looking the first one over, he asked, "Is this a list of names?"
"Mmmhmm," she nodded eagerly. Raising up on her tippy-toes, Ashe peered over the top of the paper and pointed. "I know you said the deathclaw should have a name, right? So I decided to come up with some ideas."
Even upside-down, Ashe was able to re-read the list of eight possible names scrawled in her own messy handwriting.
Jax
Spike
Ankle-Biter
Dave
Ribbon
Rush
Scales
Blue
"Ribbon?" Mr. Kravos asked, cocking his head to the side in amusement. "What made you come up with Ribbon?"
"Papa always said that deathclaws are super dangerous because they can 'slice you to ribbons,' so I thought it could be a good name in case it's a girl," Ashe explained with a shy shrug. "I think it's a boy thought."
"I do too," her guardian agreed. "Still, it was good of you to cover all the bases."
He topped that compliment with a ruffle to Ashe's hair that had her heart jumping for joy. Then Mr. Kravos looked at the second paper, "And what is this?"
"It's a chart to keep track of how many pieces of meat the deathclaw eats each day. I figured that it will help you... help us figure out what kind of meat he likes best," she replied, internally wincing when it occurred to Ashe how messily she'd drawn the chart. 'I should have done better.'
But Mr. Kravos just smiled.
"That is an excellent idea, it will definitely come in handy," he praised. "Thank you, sweetheart."
Ducking her head to hide her blush, Ashe just mumbled out that "It was no big deal," and slid into her chair to poke at her dinner. The food was delicious, as usual, but it was noticeably plainer than most of the meals they'd been having lately. The noticeable difference meant that Ashe couldn't help but wonder if that was simply because Mr. Kravos didn't feel like cooking something more complex or because he was upset with her.
Then again... Ashe was getting juice with her dinner, so he couldn't be too angry with her.
Mr. Kravos cut into his own steak, running a piece through the gravy puddle before popping it into his mouth. "So, out of all of these wonderful names you've suggested, which do you think would fit the best?"
Ashe froze, the bread roll she was in the process of tearing in half still in her hands. 'This has to be a test. He must want to see how invested I really am, to see if I really care about this project.'
Swallowing hard and dabbing at some gravy with half a bread roll, Ashe replied, "Hmmm, the name has to be just right... so I want to spend some more time with yo- with our new friend first before deciding."
Clicking his tongue, Mr. Kravos gave a satisfied none and cut another piece of his steak. "An excellent point."
Smiling down at her plate, Ashe was confident she said the right thing.
'This is probably a bad idea but I have to know,' Ashe thought to herself as she crept down the stairs towards the library. She had to know more about the star stone. Ashe couldn't explain it, couldn't put it into words, but somehow she just knew it was the key to discovering more about Mr. Kravos and where he came from; if she could learn more about them, then she could learn more about him.
So Ashe returned to the library, tip-toeing through the dark halls so as not to make noise until she could safely close herself in the room. Not that she was particularly worried about that, honestly; a massive thunderstorm -one big enough to rattle the glass window panes in their frames with every boom of thunder- had rolled in after dinner and continued on into the night. There could have been an epic gunfight going on in front of the house and between the wind, rain, and thunder, it would be impossible to hear it.
The storm would also provide a convenient excuse for if Ashe was discovered out of bed. "I'm sorry, Mr. Kravos," she could say, "but the storm kept me up and it was really frightening. I wanted to read some books so I wouldn't be so scared. I know I should have just come to you for help but I didn't want to disturb you. I hope I'm not a bother."
Yes, that would be a good, believable explanation.
Despite the sound cover provided by the thunderstorm, Ashe was very careful to close the library quietly. The room was dim, light only by the star stones lanterns on the walls and the small lantern she was carrying. She put that down on the little table, gave a little shiver, and pulled her robe on her tighter; the small fireplace wasn't lit so the room was cold.
A bolt of lightning cut through the cloudy night sky and briefly illuminated the room through the narrow library windows. When Ashe was smaller and still lived at home, this would have scared her; it would have sent her running into her parents' room to face Papa's annoyance and Mama's comforting hugs.
She was brave now though and Ashe knew there were a lot scarier things in the world than a bit of thunder and lightning.
"Blackreach. Blackreach. Blackreach," she mumbled under her breath, scanning the spine titles of the many books. "I need to find a book on Blackreach."
Aaaaand... there was nothing.
"Plan B, then."
That meant starting at the beginning and working her way through aaaalllll the books.
My research suggests a much different cause, however. In the decades preceding their fall, the dwarven cities of Skyrim had been decimated by internal disputes and infighting over a most surprising cause: Aetherium.
Modern scholars know Aetherium as a rare, luminescent blue crystal found in some Dwemer ruin s.
Ashe's bored brain stuttered to a stop, words clicking into place. Her eyes, which had just been lazily scanning page after page, not really reading or understanding anything and just hoping to find the word 'Blackreach, zeroed into the description she'd just read.
'...a rare, lumi...nes...cent blue cr...ys...tal.'
Automatically, Ashe's eyes flickered over to the star stone lantern that was casting the library in a cool, blue glow, providing the very light she was using to read.
'Well, that description certainly fit,' she thought, flipping back to the title page of the book and using her thumb to mark her spot. "The Ae...th...eri...um Wars by Tar...on Dre...th. Ded...i...ca...ted to Katria, my Friend and Col...lea...gue."
Ashe sounded the words out carefully; despite the instruction she'd been receiving, a lot of her guardian's books contained strange names and words that she still struggled with. She'd definitely been doing a lot better when it came to reading though. Mr. Kravos even claimed that she made 'years of progress' in just a short time. The praise was welcome but Ashe often doubted if it was really true.
"Katria, huh? That is a pretty name," Ashe mentioned to no one, flipping back to the page she'd been on and re-reading it more closely.
My re...search suggests a much dif...fer...ent cause, however. In the d...ec...ades pre...ceding their fall, the d...war...ven cities of Skyrim had been dec...i...mated by in...ter...nal dis...put...es and in...fight...ing over a most sur...pri...sing cause: Aeth...eri...um.
Mod...ern s...c...hol...ars know Aeth...erium as a rare, lumi...nes...cent blue cry...stal found in some D...wem...er ruins. Most con...sid...er it little more than a curi...os...ity, as it has proven all but im...poss...ible to work with: while it has a strong magical au...ra, it is al...chem...ic...ally in...ert, and no known pro...cess can en...chant, s...melt, mold, bind, or break it.
To the dwarv...es, of course, such problems were mere...ly a chal...len...ge. In the years following King Harald's reign, the Dwe...mer dis...cover...ed a con...sid...er...able source of Aether...ium in their deepest del...vings.
Dwarven.
Aetherium.
Dwemer.
Magical.
Enchant.
Alchemically.
What was Mr. Kravos hiding?
Chapter 14: Chapter Forteen
Chapter Text
"..sh...Ash...shhh...Ashe?"
An annoying voice in her head and a light pressure pressing at her shoulder, causing her little body to rock from side-to-side, interrupted Ashe's sleep. Fighting the urge to wake up, she forced her eyes to remain closed, scrunched her face up, and swung a tingling arm out towards the source of the noise.
"Wow, calm down, sweetheart!" the voice chortled, amused. "Take pity on an old man in spectacles, won't you?"
The question kicked Ashe's mind into gear and she reluctantly opened her eyes to see a chuckling Mr. Kravos staring down at her, his bright blue eyes indeed shining out warmly from behind his reading spectacles.
"What are you doing sleeping in here, Sweetie?" he asked, glancing around the disheveled library. "And why are there books all over the place? Did you decide to do some 'light reading' during the night?"
A rush of panic and embarrassment at being caught rushed over her and Ashe found herself scrambling to get out the excuse she'd come up with the night before.
"Well, you see, the storm last night was so loud that it kept me up," she lied. "All the wind and rain and thunder and lightning were really frightening. I know I should have just come to you for help but I didn't want to disturb you so I decided to read some books to keep me from being too scared. I'm sorry for the mess, Mr. Kravos. I'll clean it up right away, I promise."
"It's not a big deal, they're just books; they can be put back without any hassle," Mr. Kravos reassured. Then he gave a gentle frown. "You really should have let me know you couldn't sleep though; I could have given you something to help you sleep."
"I'm sorry," she repeated. "I just didn't want to wake you up."
"I know, you're such a thoughtful girl," her guardian said, giving Ashe's hair a quick ruffle, "and I understand that you were on your own for a while. I can't imagine how much of an adjustment it must have been for you to start living here with me. So, Ashe, I promise that you never need to apologize for trying to be independent."
Heart swelling, Ashe fought against the urge to cry. To be shown so much kindness, so much understanding, in the face of her lie was painful. Part of Ashe wanted to throw herself into the man's arms for a big hug and part of her wanted to confess everything so she could be punished for her lie and let go of the guilt eating at her stomach.
'He probably can imagine,' Ashe realized suddenly. 'After so many kids, most of them coming off the streets like me, he's probably had to go through this adjustment period a bunch of times. They all probably had their own issues after being taken into a safe, loving home .'
Mr. Kravos slid his hand down from the top of Ashe's head to cup her cheek. "What is this? Charcoal?" he asked, rubbing a thumb against Ashe's cheek. "Decided to take some notes too, I see."
Ashe's eyes darted down to the list of terms she'd written up to research later.
Dwarven.
Aetherium.
Dwemer.
Magical.
Enchant.
Alchemically.
The words were badly smudged due to Ashe having slept on the paper, to the point of being unreadable, though she obviously still knew what she'd written.
"Oh... yeah," she laughed nervously, quickly folding up the sheet of paper and sticking it in her pocket. "Just some stuff I want to look up later."
Then she caught a glimpse of her reflection in the window. There was charcoal dust smeared all over the side of her face, down her neck, and up the side of her arm. " Ugh ," she groaned, wrinkling her nose, "I need a bath."
That need doubled when the girl stood up and nearly fell flat on her face as just about every joint in her body let out a loud ' POP! ' and every muscle screamed at her for sleeping in such an unnatural position.
" OOooooowwww! " she moaned pathetically.
Mr. Kravos gave Ashe a sympathetic -yet still amused, though he was trying hard to hide it- look, "That is what happens when you fall asleep at a table... believe me, I've done it plenty of times; I'd bet good money that it is part of the reason my back hates me. But you are still young so a long, hot bath should fix that right up, and it will give you the chance to wash off all that charcoal dust. Are you feeling particularly hungry?"
" Hmmm ... No, I'll be good for a while," Ashe replied, shaking her head.
"Alright, how about you have a warm soak while I prepare breakfast? After eating you can get to work putting all of these books back; it looks like you've done enough studying to be excused from any lessons today," her guardian offered.
"Really? That sounds great!"
The man just gave a half-smile and shrugged. "It works out well for me too. That storm last night was pretty bad, I need to walk the property with Rena and check to see if any damage has been done."
Then his eyes strayed downwards to a very particular book and he scowled.
The Aetherium Wars by Taron Dreth
Ashe swallowed hard as she watched Mr. Kravos pick up the book and started through it aggressively, praying her investigation wasn't about to be discovered and halted in its tracks before it could even really begin.
"This book is a load of rubbish," he growled. "That bastard Dreth took all of Katria's work, chopped it to bits, and then claimed it for his own after she died."
'Katria, who is that? Wait a minute, I know that name!' Ashe realized, thinking back to what she'd read. 'Is he talking about that same Katria mentioned in the book?'
Deciding to risk it, she cautiously asked, "What do you mean? Is the book telling a bunch of lies?"
Mr. Kravos was slow to answer but eventually nodded. "The aetherium forge is an old tale... a little morality fable about the destructiveness of greed. It doesn't exist, obviously, but even the most outlandish of myths and legends typically have a kernel of truth to them; something has to start the story, after all. Katria, a... a very good friend of mine, was doing research into the different possible origins of the story when she died. Dreth was her assistance and rather than honor her properly, he stole all of her work and presented it as his own."
'Some of that is the truth,' Ashe realized as she carefully studied her guardian's somber face, 'but you are also lying. You are still lying to me.'
It did make sense for Mr. Kravos to mix half-truths and little white lies to create his explanations. In general, the best lies were mostly the truth. The real question was what was Mr. Kravos lying about and what was he being truthful about?
"It's pretty mean of that guy to lie to everyone," she offered, partly to see Mr. Kravos' reaction and partly because he did seem genuinely sad whenever he mentioned Katria. "Did he ever get in trouble for it?"
To her surprise, the question got a dark, legitimately creepy sounding chuckle out of Mr. Kravos.
"Oh yes," he said, a twisted kind of amusement dancing in his eyes, "he definitely came to regret his acts, in the end."
There was a story there and it was probably a bloody one, Ashe realized. Then, as a shiver ran down her spine, she came to another realization- Mr. Kravos wasn't just a strong, strange man, he was a dangerous one.
Maybe it was the look of concern on her face or maybe Mr. Kravos realized what he just said because he seemed to shake himself out of whatever he was reminiscing about.
"Anyway," he started, "why don't you go hop into the bath? I'll start whipping up breakfast. I don't particularly want to make some eggs, bacon, and toast with jam sound good?"
"Yeah, that sounds yummy."
"What were you lying about?" Ashe wondered out loud, her words mixing with the clouds of steam that rose from the hot water of her bath. "Why were you lying, Mr. Kravos? I want to trust you, I've come to trust you with so much, but you're still lying to me. Why?"
Questions turning through her mind, Ashe couldn't relax. Despite the warmth of the water and the sweet smell of the burning candles, doubts and worries nagged at her mind. With a frustrated huff, she flopped backward, fully submerging herself under the water and splashing it over the edge of the tub.
It was not that Ashe thought Mr. Kravos was trying to hurt or deceive her, exactly. It wasn't as if she thought that Mr. Kravos took her in was part of some sort of long, particularly cruel trick. But even if the lies were mundane little things or he told them because Mr. Kravos didn't want to scare or worry her, a lie was still a lie.
'And until I know what you're lying about, I can't fully trust you either,' Ashe thought, doing her best to let the warm water soothe her into a state of peace as the heat worked to relax the pains in her tiny body.
When the water had cooled enough that it was no longer comfortable to be in, Ashe reluctantly dragged herself from the soapy pool. Careful not to slip, dried herself with one of the many luxuriously plush towels Mr. Kravos had laid out for her. Taking care to work out all of the knots in her hair, Ashe was happy to see that her hair was now long enough to snip off the still-dead ends.
"I should ask Mr. Kravos for a trim," she thought aloud, tugging a lock of hair forward so she could see it. Her hair would be short, just under her ears, but Ashe really wanted all that dead hair -and everything it represented- gone. "It's long enough now."
Dressing in a clean dark purple and pearl gray dress, Ashe made her way to the main room of the cellar. It was a large, square room that seemed to be mostly used for storage; there were large barrels of water, grain, and salt, shelves full of glass jars filled with strange concoctions and metal locked boxes that surely head fun secrets.
Then there were the toys. These were playsets with built-in slides and ways to climb on or into it, mock treasure chests, and a trio of beautifully carved rocking horses, all far too big to fit in even the large bedrooms upstairs. From the ceiling hung two swings that been rolled up so they could be latched to the ceiling and kept out of the way. All of them were also covered by a thin layer of dust; no one had been played within a long time, which made Ashe a little sad, for some reason. They were truly beautiful and clearly made with love.
'Would Mr. Kravos mind if I played with them?' she wondered, easily imaging her guardian's half-a-dozen children and a dozen grandchildren playing on all these different toys. 'All of this seems like it would be more fun if there were other kids around though.'
Still considering this train of thought, Ashe started up the first rungs of the ladder before something caught her eye and captured her interest enough that she dropped back down to the floor to investigate it.
Tucked in the corner was something -or, upon closer inspection, two somethings, covered by a white canvas tarp. Curiously, and with more than a touch of caution, Ashe grabbed a hold of the tarp and pulled with all of her might. It was heavier than she thought it would be, so it took Ashe a while to pull it completely off, and that only made her curiosity grow.
What she found underneath was... well, Ashe couldn't entirely say it was worth it, but what she found was definitely interesting.
One of the objects was some sort of straw dummy made up to look like a standing person with a target painted on it's 'chest' and 'head.' Ashe went closer, running her fingers over the dusty, tightly spun straw surface of the dummy, and realized that this thing had been around for a while and it looked like the poor thing had been through hell.
Some chunks of straw were a different color. Some areas had straw that was lighter and just looked... newer. It was like these sections had been replaced recently. The wooden frame holding the dummy up was also cracked and patched up in places.
"Someone beat you up pretty bad, huh?" Ashe wondered aloud, cocking her head to the side as she imagined the dummy with two black eyes, a busted nose, and a fat lip.
Leaving that behind, she moved to the second object, which was a wooden chest. The chest was a solid thing, far too big or heavy for Ashe to move. It was nearly as wide as Ashe was tall and clearly old with faded blue and gray paint. Many painted names covered the surface, some so old that the red paint had worn and faded to a dull brown while other names still stood out proud with bright, poppy red coloring.
Alesan
Runa
Blaise
Sofie
Hroar
Lucia
Samuel
Francois
Sissel
Britte
Cyruson
Kelengar
Lalotta
Caicius
Lyon
Malia
Hedlar
Glatea
Kravia
Tarno
Volmer
Antosa
Aniskja
'His kids,' Ashe realized, tracing the name 'Kravia' with one finger. 'These are his kids and grandkids, whatever is in here was theirs.'
The chest wasn't locked, there was just a pair of brass twin latches. Biting her lip nervously and her heart pounding, Ashe grabbed a hold of the latches, undid them, and threw the chest's lid open.
Chapter 15: Chapter Fifteen
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"Swords?" Ashe whispered, tilting her head to the side in confusion.
Not real swords, of course, these were wooden swords made for play. Ashe had seen them before; toy swords weren't as popular as toy guns but some of the other kids back in the community had them. One of her best buddies, Isaac, loved those all pre-Commonwealth stories of pirates so much that he and Francis used to stage epic 'pirate battles' for the amusement of her, Sherry, and Missy. When she thought about it, Ashe understood why such toys were so popular and widespread among the little boys of the community.
'Real, fancy toys are expensive. Most families could afford televisions or computers -Mama also said we were blessed to be able to afford a radio and some books- but some wood scraps, nails, and a few splashes of paint? Even the poorest families in the community could afford that,' she realized. 'It's just like how Sherry, Missy, and I all had rag-dolls instead of porcelain ones like Gretchen Harich. Being the mayor's daughter does have its advantages, I suppose.'
But the toy swords that belonged to her friends and the other boys of Tough Seed Farming Community, were crude wooden things, not particularly smooth or detailed or pretty no matter how much work the boys' parents would put into making them. Isaac's sword, which he insisted on naming 'Bluefin' for its bright blue paint job, was made from the bits of wood leftover from when his dad needed to patch up some holes in the roof of the family home. Despite the care that Mr. Moore had put into making it, the wood was poor quality and prone to splintering; it got so bad that Isaac had to wrap an old scrap of canvas held in place by thick tape around the handle to keep his hands from getting hurt.
These wooden swords, however, were much nicer; in fact, they were absolute works of art. The toys had been beautifully created with a perfectly carved handle and in the 'blade' with a thick layer of protective finish to protect from weather damage. They were clearly old though, the finish had yellowed slightly and there was a thin layer of dust collected in the groves of the different carvings, but they were also clearly created with much love, skill, and care.
'They've also been played with a lot,' Ashe mused. She ran her thumb down the 'blade' of one of the play swords as the pad of her small finger caught on the subtle dips and bumps in the wood. Her brow wrinkled as she examined them; Ashe had seen marks like this before, back when she had to help Papa repair the fence around their crops once. 'These types of marks are made when wood knocks up against something real hard.'
Ashe lifted the top-most sword so she could see it better only to drop it almost immediately, quickly stepping to the side so it wouldn't land on her foot.
"Wow, heavy!" she exclaimed, crouching down and trying to pick it up again. Her arms shook under the weight of the heavy wooden toy, "This must have been a toy for a very big kid!"
Deciding to leave the toy sword where it was, for now, Ashe returned her attention to the chest and began sifting through the rest of the fake weapons. There were more toy swords, each one as beautifully detailed but beat up as the last, but there were other types of weapons too. There were fake knives with the edges smoothed just enough to prevent any real injury -though getting 'stabbed' by one would still probably leave a nasty bruise. A couple of really big hammers that could definitely hurt someone -Ashe didn't even risk trying to pick one of them up, she'd certainly drop it and the little girl didn't want to risk any broken toes. Some axes that were as pretty as they were scary look. Buried at the bottom of the chest, protecting three child-sized bows, each with a small matching quiver of blunted arrows, was five wooden shields, each only a little bigger than one of Mr. Kravos' serving platters.
It took some work but Ashe was eventually able to pull out a shield painted silver with dark blue flowers that had been morphed and misshapen by repeated blows that left the surface covered in dents. It was heavy, Ashe noted as she slid her thin arm through the two leather straps fastened to the inner part of the shield, but not overly so and round in shape.
"Too big for me," Ashe grumbled as the shield swung limply from her arm. "But I can hold it up... which means I'm getting a lot stronger! Still, I wondered who this belonged to?"
Sliding the shield off, Ashe turned in over in her hands to examine it from every angle. Eventually, a small name scrawled in black ink caught her eye.
"Runa... Runa Fair-Shield," she read aloud. "Huh, I guess it makes sense that a girl's shield would have flowers on it. Most girls don't like playing with swords and stuff, not of my friends ever did."
All this talking out loud to herself probably wasn't healthy, Ashe really wished she had another kid to play with.
Ashe could only imagine how Papa would have reacted if she had asked for a fake sword and shield for her birthday. He'd have probably taken her over his knee for such a ridiculous suggestion; in an admittedly dark way, it was actually kind of funny to imagine.
Still, I wasn't like Mr. Kravos' daughters and granddaughters didn't have more traditionally 'girly' toys; after all, the bedroom was packed to the brim with dolls, dollhouses, pretty dresses, tea playsets, rocking horses, and the like. But the fact that there was a chest full of toy weapons with all of his kids and grandkids name on them proved once more that there was something very different about Ashe's guardian.
"Ashe, sweetheart, you still down there?"
'Speak of the devil...' she thought, watching Mr. Kravos climb through the cellar hatch and down the ladder.
Mr. Kravos hopped down the last few feet of the ladder, landing nibbly as a cat despite his more advanced age. As he turned around Ashe began to squirm as she realized that the evidence of her snooping was everywhere, plain to see. Again, Mr. Kravos had never shown any anger towards her and her curiosity-filled adventures had only ever been met with bemusement. The closest he ever got to anger was whenever Ashe tried to sneak her way into one of the various locked rooms of the house, a stern warning that if a room was locked then it was probably for a good reason.
'The chest didn't have a lock, so I am probably good,' Ashe reassured herself. 'Right?'
And, once more, Ashe was proven right when Mr. Kravos looked around at all of the scattered toys...and smiled brightly.
The man laughed and picked up the silver-painted wooden shield, turning it over in his broad, callous hands. "Oh, it's been years since I've seen this thing! Runa's first training shield... ahhhh, I made this for her as a gift when I adopted her. She outgrew it in less than two years but was so attached to it that Runa refused a new one for a long time. She was stubborn like that, still is."
He said that last part with a fond, low chuckle, rubbing his thumb over the name. Ashe was unable to resist smiling as well. Mr. Kravos' voice was just so warm, so affectionate, and caring that it made her feel relaxed and loved just listening to his words. But then a certain word stuck out to her.
"Training?" she repeated back. "So these aren't toys?"
"Hmmm... no, not exactly," Mr. Kravos hummed, scratching his beard. "My kids and grandbabies played with them, of course. They played with them more than they should have to be safe; the kids were always smacking one another around, left awful bruises on each other and I even had to patch up a couple of broken noses. Oh, and don't even get me started on everything those rascals broke! By the gods, they could be absolute terrors, especially when I had to leave for a week or so to take care of business.
But, anyway, no. Technically speaking, these are not meant to be used as toys. All of these-" Mr. Kravos gestured to the still-open chest and the scattered wooden weapons "-were meant for martial training. That is why they are so heavy; I made them from solid wood so using them would help Runa and the other kids build-up the strength they needed. Then, once they'd grown a bit bigger and gotten strong enough, I'd make them a newer, heavier one so they'd keep getting stronger."
"Why?" Ashe asked, deciding that this may finally be the opportunity she needed to get some damn answers. "Why'd you wanted them to get stronger fighting with all these swords and stuff?"
"Because I was worried about them," Mr. Kravos answered plainly. "I... I lived a dangerous life when I was younger, Ashe. Skyrim is a dangerous enough place as is, full of vicious wildlife and bandits, but I was also an important man, someone with a lot of enemies, and I knew that my children could have easily become a target so I wanted them to be able to protect themselves. Unfortunately, my fears were proven valid more than once. I'm just thankful that my kids were strong enough to protect themselves in those situations."
She felt her bottom lip quiver, but she pressed on, "...And your grandchildren? Why did you teach them?"
"Many of the same reasons," Mr. Kravos shrugged. "But, with them, sometimes it was just for fun. Some of them asked me for lessons so they could show off to their friends. I'll admit that it was a lot more fun teaching my grandchildren, even if they did rarely take it as seriously as their parents did."
"Did they enjoy learning to fight?" Ashe asked, recalling back to how Mama would always reprimand her whenever she caught Ashe wrestling or roughhousing with her friends. Ironically, her 'feisty spirit' was one of the few things Papa had praised Ashe for, even if would he still punish her for it more often than not. "Your kids, I mean."
"Some took to it all a lot quicker and with more enthusiasm than others," her guardian replied with another amused grin. "Samuel, Runa, and Hroar threw themselves into training the most, though Hroar came to prefer a bow as his primary weapon over a sword or ax. Alesan was also pretty dedicated to his training, though he was far more interested in learning how to sail than how to fight. It makes sense, I suppose; the boy was brought up as a sailor, after all, and any sailor worth his salt needs to know how to fend off pirates.
My little Blaise was tough and strong, he had to be to look after animals much bigger and stronger than him, but he's always had a gentle heart and wasn't much for violence. Britte was very... aggressive but was not willing to listen to instruction, so I was extremely hesitant to teach her. Francois could take care of himself well enough, but neither he nor Lucia or Sofie were exactly born warriors; they all preferred to explore other areas of learning. Francios could easily spend an entire day curled up in the library reading, Lucia was deeply devoted to her singing lessons, and Sofie was always tending to the greenhouse or her private little garden.
They all still learned, of course, I made sure of it no matter how much they whined or grumbled. But years of training passed and they all developed their own specialties, coming to prefer one weapon over the others. But they all did learn and most even came to enjoy it."
The old man nodded then, seemingly to himself, and looked lost in thought for a long moment. Then his eyes slid along the piles of wooden training weapons before flicking towards the straw dummy in the corner and finally looking back to Ashe.
"In fact..."
Ashe collapsed on her butt on the floor, leaning back against one of the cellar support beams, and panted, completely exhausted. Even this brief training session had left every muscle in her body burned, and she was sticky with sweat to the point that her hair was soaked with the stuff. She reached up to smooth back some loose, messy bangs and winced, her face scrunching up in disgust.
"Uck!" she whined, "I'm going to need another bath!"
Mr. Kravos laughed, a touch of sweat on his brow shining in the light as he swung his own wooden practice sword down around his legs. "I did warn you, martial training is hard work. Did you enjoy it though?"
Ashe panted and tapped her fingers against the training sword she'd been using. It was the smallest on that had been in the chest, lighter and thinner than all the rest with a dark red handle and slim, narrow 'blade.'
"Yeah," she breathed, pressing her forehead against the cool wood of the support beam. "It was fun."
"Excellent," Mr. Kravos nodded as he turned and begun climbing back up the ladder. "Now, why don't you go and get washed up again? I still have to prepare our meal, and you should eat some meat after a work out like that. Water too! You should drink plenty of water after all that sweating."
"Okay," Ashe answered simply, already heading back into the washroom.
It wasn't until she was nearly finished did Ashe realize that she missed her chance to question Mr. Kravos.
After the meal, a hearty scramble of eggs, bacon, onions, mushrooms, and chicken with a side of leeks and jam with toast, and cleaned up, Ashe pursed her lips, folded her hands, and stared Mr. Kravos dead in the eye.
"Mr. Kravos, may I ask you a question?" she asked politely.
"Hmmm?" the man hummed as he dried off some wet plates. "Oh, yes, of course? What would you like to know?"
"I... I was wondering," Ashe swallowed hard and forced the question out. "I was wondering why you decided to train your kids and grandkids with all those weapons, with swords and axes in shields? Why did you train them to use guns? Those are far more common, wouldn't it be more useful for them all to learn to shoot?"
"Guns?" her guardian repeated, his voice sounding confused. The man hesitated for a long moment, his back still to Ashe, but continuing to dry the dishes. "Oh, well, I suppose I just trained them to use the same things I grew up learning to use. There weren't many... guns were I was born, so I never learned how to use them."
'More half-truths,' Ashe thought, her anger rising. "And where was that again?"
"Wayrest."
"I've never heard of such a place, which is weird since you said it was a big city," Ashe continued, pushing forward. "So, it must be pretty far away, right?"
Mr. Kravos let out a dry chuckle, "Yes, I suppose that is an accurate statement."
"Then how did you get to Far Harbor, to this island?"
The man froze once more before letting out a long, low sigh. "Ashe, I-"
"NO!" Ashe shouted, that bubbling anger finally rising to the surface. "I'M TIRED OF BEING TREATED LIKE AND IDIOT! NO MORE LIES, MR. KRAVOS! YOU EITHER TELL ME THE TRUTH OR I'LL... OR I'LL RUN AWAY FROM YOU!"
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The old man let out another sigh, pinched the bridge of his nose, and said, "Fine."
Chapter 16: Chapter Sixteen
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The old man let out another sigh, pinched the bridge of his nose, and said a defeated but firm, "Fine."
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Ashe blinked, surprised that Mr. Kravos had actually agreed with her demands. "Oh... really? I mean, good! I deserve to know the truth!"
"That you do," her guardian nodded solemnly.
Then he gestured towards one of the plush armchairs in front of the massive stone hearth of the manor's main fireplace. Silently, Ashe padded over and hopped up onto it, folding her hands in her laps and waiting as Mr. Kravos went into the kitchen and returned with a dark green glass bottle. He uncorked it and Ashe was hit by the strong, painfully familiar stench of alcohol.
'Mr. Kravos isn't Papa,' she reminded herself as she fought the urge to squirm as a hundred terrible memories flashed through Ashe's mind. 'He is a grown man. Of course, he has a bit of booze every now and then but you've never even seen him drunk. There is no reason to believe he'll hurt you after he drinks a little.'
She forced herself to remain as still as possible as Mr. Kravos took a long drink from the bottle, sat down, rubbed his face, and took a deep breath as he began his story.
"Alright," he sighed, "this is going to be a long, confusing story and much of it will seem unbelievable. You will be confused, and you will have questions but I merely plead that you wait until I am finished before asking. After that... well, I'll do my best to answer any questions you have."
Forcing down her own confusion, curiosity, and excitement, Ashe nodded while digging her fingernails into the arms of the chair and rocking back and forth ever so slightly.
Mr. Kravos took another swallow of his drink and started. "The story of how I came to be in this land is a complicated one but most of what I have told about my past is truthful, if not the complete truth. I was born in Wayrest, a city in the country of High Rock, to a baker and a soldier. I grew up helping my mother, Belladiana, in the bakery, helping her run the shop and learning to make all manner of delightful things from her. My father, Mercard, used to read me The Lost Lady's Love whenever I was sick or felt sad and died when I was fourteen. That was all true."
"You must understand, Ashe, my childhood was completely normal," Mr. Kravos said earnestly, with a vigorous nod of his head. "It was normal and generally uneventful, aside from the occasional important political figure accompanying my father home for supper. Even when Pa was murdered... well, it was sad but, as I say, he had the ear of several important people and, in High Rock, that isn't exactly unusual. I had no reason to believe that my life... that I would be anything special."
The old man breathed a hard, shaky breath and his voice nearly broke, “"When Ma... when Ma died, I felt lost; I didn't know what to do with my life. For a while, I tried to keep the bakery going in her memory but it never felt right, nothing I ever baked tasted right, so I passed ownership of the business off my aunt, uncle, and cousins. My uncle, Cedlius, suggested that I join the military; honestly, I just think that he wanted to get me out of the way so that there'd be less of a question about their ownership of the bakery. Ma never did get along well with that side of the family.
But I could have done it, joined the military I mean. I would have done well in it; Pa had put me through martial training when I was younger and I had excelled at it, even if -at the time- it wasn't anything I was particularly interested in. I was of age, seventeen, so I could have easily joined the local chapter of the military and spent the next few years rising through the ranks and creating a reputation for myself. After some time, I could have found myself a proper wife, probably the daughter or younger sister of a superior officer, and started a family. It wouldn't have been hard; I would have been a good catch, after all, my family name was respected in the area and I had inherited a decent amount of money from my deceased parents. I could have had a nice, normal life.
But I didn't do that.
I didn't want anything to do with the military; I didn't want anything to do with High Rock in general. Don't get me wrong, it is a beautiful land and wonderful country in many ways, but things like my father being assassinated for the people he knew and the political opinions he had are not uncommon. I didn't want that to be my future.
So I left.
For the next two years, I just wandered about the different countries of Tamriel. When I needed money or became ill or just got tired of being on the road I would stop in different places, sometimes in towns or cities but sometimes just in little farming settlements or fishing villages. I'd stay for a while -days, weeks, or even months- and do whatever work was available to make some money. I learned many skills and made a lot of interesting friends during this time. It was a decent way to live, lonely at times but far from unpleasant.
Then, when I was nineteen, I tried to cross the board into the country of Skyrim. You have to understand, I had been avoiding it during my travels because there had been a great deal of civil unrest due to religious differences between the Nords -that is the people of Skyrim- and the Empire, the greater governing body of Tamriel. A civil war was brewing; the people and families were torn apart by the growing conflict. The only reason I decided to risk crossing the border was that an old family friend was nearby the bordering crossing.
It went badly.
There was a skirmish between the rebel soldiers and those loyal to the Empire. Even though I had nothing to do with the conflict but caught up in it anyway and, in the end, was knocked out and captured."
With that, Mr. Kravos parted a section of his hairs and bent over to show off a white, long-healed scar. "Needless to say, that wasn't a fun day. Even less so when I woke up in a cart surrounded by several other prisoners.
We were to be executed.
The soldiers took us to a town called Helgen and one-by-one, they began beheading us. They were ready to kill me too, despite the fact that my name was not one the list of scheduled executions; one of the soldiers, Hadvar, tried to protest but was overruled. He was a good man, Hadvar, and one of my closest friends for years until he died about a decade ago; he even named one of his sons after me, the old sap."
Mr. Kravos' voice was wistful and his smile was sad as he recounted his old friend. It was at that moment that Ashe came to the realization that her guardian had not only outlived his parents -which, in and of itself wasn't too unusual- but had undoubtedly outlived many friends and lovers.
'That has to weigh on you,' Ashe thought mournfully.
Obviously, she knew that her guardian was an old man, one of the oldest she'd ever seen, but Ashe had never really considered what that meant. How many funerals had Mr. Kravos attended? How many bedsides had he stood vigil by as someone he loved slipped into the afterlife? How many graves had he put flowers on? How many loved ones had he said goodbye to?
Ashe doubted the man would ever truly say, ever truly share his grief, and anything she'd ever learn would have to come from the odd anecdote or story someone else would let out.
'If I ever do get to meet the other people in his life,' she added mentally. 'There is no telling he'll actually want to keep me after the fit I just threw.'
"So there I was, with my head on the chopping block and staring up at the sky for what I honestly believed would be the last time ever, and then... chaos. Fire, death, destruction... it was everywhere. The screaming, the shouting... it was so damn loud! But I managed to escape in all of the confusion, with Hadvar, actually, and made our way to a nearby village.
The story after that is very, very long... far too long for me to tell you all of it in only one day and, please excuse me for saying so, much of it is much to mature for you to hear. But, eventually, I ended up in the closest city and warned the local ruler, a very important man, of an incoming threat. The man, Jarl Balgruuf the Greater, was thankful and asked me to complete another pressing task for him. I did so -quite impressively, I might add- and Balgruuf was even more grateful. My shoulder was injured though, quite badly, and even with the... medics available in Whiterun, it would take a while for me to recover; that meant I couldn't leave the country as I originally intended. Feeling bad about the injury and as thanks for my assistance, Balgruuf invited me to stay in his palace with his family until I recovered, which wound up taking a while. During that time, Balgruuf decided to take me under his wing. In so many ways, he is responsible for shaping me into the man I am today, even more so than my own father.
While recovering, I took to spending my time just wandering the city and meeting its people. The Nords of Skyrim are stern, taciturn, and gruff -they are rarely welcoming to outsiders, even those who are a personal guest of their Jarl- but, after a few... let's call them minor favors, they started warming up to me and I to them. Pretty soon I found myself growing fond of Skyrim, despite the dreary weather and the often tasteless food, and, after about half-a-year, I realized that I didn't want to leave.
So I decided to buy a house in the city; by that time, I had saved up enough payment from the different tasks, favors, and odd jobs I had done that I could afford to buy a small home. The house, Breezehome, was a bit of a fixer-upper, the outer-walls were thin and full of cracks that needed to be patched up and re-enforced, but I didn't mind the project. So Lydia... the bodyguard Balgruuf hired to protect me, and I got to work fixing the place up by cleaning out the cobwebs, putting up shelves, decorating, scrubbing the floors, adding a new fireplace, fixing the walls, bringing in new furniture, and the like. Pretty soon I was like a brand new building.
It was a good thing we worked so quickly too because it seems that almost as soon as the new layer of paint on the walls had dried, I ended up adopting my first child -Lucia."
Mr. Kravos said the name with a reverent kind of warmth, like those five letters were the most valuable thing in the world to him. Ashe couldn't remember anyone, aside from maybe Mama, had ever talked about her like that.
"She was a little Imperial girl -only nine years old at the time- that I met while she was begging in the park. I gave her a coin and asked her why she was begging, only for her to run away. It took a while, a good amount of money, to earn her trust but, eventually, Lucia told me how her father was a Legion soldier who'd had a brief relationship with her mother whilst stationed in Skyrim; she'd never met him and only knew his name.
So Lucia was raised by a single mother who'd recently died, and that her aunt and uncle kicked her out when they took over her mother's farm. At only eight years, Lucia hitched a ride with a traveling salesman into Whiterun, thinking that, because it was a walled city, she'd be safer there. But she still had no money, so a local drunk, Brenuin, helped her and taught Lucia how to beg. She lived on the streets for a year before she became my daughter.”
Mr. Kravos trailed off, his eyes distant. The man looked lost in his memories; it was the same look Papa always had whenever the baby he and Mama had and then lost before Ashe was ever born came up in conversation with neighbors. The only difference was after Papa finished being sad, he drank and then got mean. Mr. Kravos was never mean; he was stern sometimes, sure, but never mean.
"I developed a life in Skyrim, one bigger and grander than I ever imagined, as the years passed. I met friends and lovers; I made enemies and allies. Some friends turned to enemies and some enemies turned to allies. I joined various factions and worked my way up the ranks, coming to lead many of them. I did many favors for many important people, earning money and a sizable reputation for myself. A civil war did eventually break out and I helped fight against the rebels. We -the Legion, I mean... though I was a part of it, a high ranking officer by the end of it- squashed the rebellion and I killed the leader, Ulfric Stormcloak. I took no pleasure in doing so; while I disagreed with him on many things but I also admired how fiercely Ulfric was willing to fight for what he believed was best for his people.
Before I knew it, I was an important man as well. With that status came even more money as well as property and political perks. Using those assets, I tried to help as many people as possible; I had come to love Skyrim and its people so deeply, I wanted to do whatever I could to protect them. As it turns out, part of this was taking in more children. There were so many orphans in Skyrim... I couldn't adopt all of them, of course, so many ended up at an orphanage that I provided for. But there was a handful that I just couldn't bring myself to turn over, so I ended up raising them myself. By this point, I'm sure you've heard enough about them to drive you mad."
Ashe let out a soft huff of dry laughter at that. I was a true enough statement, Ashe did get tired of hearing the stories of his kids and grandkids. But, honestly, some of that was just due to her own jealousy.
"Time dragged on and the land turned peaceful. My children grew, they became adults and eventually started their own lives; some got married, had kids of their own, some started their own businesses, and some decided to travel just as I had done. Friends, allies, comrades, and lovers aged around me... some died, some just moved away but my life still changed. It grew stale and I became bored. I took up many challenges and hobbies in an attempt to re-energize my life but they never satisfied me for long.
Recently, I grew desperate and decided to try something... extreme, something that was only ever rumored to be possible. That something brought me here."
He went quiet then, the conversation carrying off into the air and dissipating like the mist of morning dew evaporating under the hot sun. Rather than continuing on with his story again, Mr. Kravos just stared at her, his brow drawn tight and pensive with his hands threaded together and pressed to his mouth. It took Ashe far too long to realize that he was waiting for her to speak, that he wanted Ashe to say or ask something.
Still, it took Ashe far too long to find her words. But, eventually, she managed to stutter a few out.
"I... I've never heard of most of these places," she started. "Are they very far away?"
Mr. Kravos snorted, "Yes, that is one way of putting it. But I know that isn't what you really want to ask. You can speak freely now, Ashe. Ask whatever you need."
Ashe swallowed hard, her heart nearly thudding out of her little chest. "H-how did you get here?"
The man frowned, suddenly seeming older and more tired than he ever had before. But then he opened his mouth and tore everything Ashe knew apart in one word.
"Magic."
.
.
.
"You're lying."
Mr. Kravos' looked startled, "What?"
Ashe felt tears start to form as her throat swelled and grew hot, "You're lying! You promised me that you'd tell the truth but you are still lying to me!"
"No, Ashe, I swear that I'm being honest. I know it is hard to believe but everything I said is true!" the old man stood up and went to hug her but Ashe lept up from her chair and bolted toward the front door.
"Ashe, don't leave!"
Despite the genuine pleading in Mr. Kravos' voice, the little girl threw the door open and, through her tears, shrieked, " I HATE YOU! "
Then she ran.
Ashe ran faster than she ever had before, darting through the trees. She stumbled one, falling to her hands and knees in the mud, before forcing herself up as continuing in her flight. But, seeing as the island wasn't particularly large, it wasn't long before Ashe found herself collapsing on the thin, rocky shoreline.
She wept openly; heavy, fat tears rolled down her face as her choked sobs echoed across the inlet. Ashe had never cried more in her life, not even when Mama died or Papa hit her for the first time or when she was thrown out of the house. Which was weird, because, logically, those things should be far worse than a couple of little white lies told by a kind man who'd gone above and beyond taking care of Ashe.
Still, she just felt so betrayed!
'I trusted him!' Ashe screamed into her mind.
As the tears continued to flow, the sun inched its way across the sky until it was late afternoon. Finally, the sobs turned to sniffles as it seemed that Ashe had cried out all of the water in her body. Every part of her body ached and she was thirsty but still refused to go back to the house. She was still angry.
"I'll sleep outside if I have too," Ashe grumbled defiantly to herself, huddling in on herself to fight back the nighttime chill that was already setting in. "It is not like I haven't done it before."
Crunch! Crunch! Crunch!
The sounds of footsteps on rocky sand caused Ashe to freeze... then the anger returned.
"I'm not talking to you!" Ashe snapped, definitely glaring towards the water and refusing to look behind her.
Crunch! Crunch! Crunch!
The steps got closer.
"I said that I'm not- errmmmphf! "
A massive hand covered Ashe's mouth as a hairy arm wrapped around her waist, lifting the girl up into the air as she kicked out desperately.
Hot, smelly breath blew over Ashe's face as a male voice rasped out, "You look worth a pretty penny."
Chapter 17: Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Text
" LET! ME! GO! " Ashe shrieked, having finally forced the gag out of her mouth using her tongue and teeth to leverage it free. Her hands and ankles were still tied and she was still blindfolded with a rough strip of canvas tied behind her head. " MR. KRAVOS, HELP! HELP ME, PLEASE! "
"Shut up, brat!" the harsh, vicious voice of her captor growled as he slapped a rough, callous palm over Ashe's mouth.
She promptly bit down with all her might.
" OW! " the man roared, jerking his hand away. "You little bitch! I'll teach you a le-"
"Carver, knock it off," another male voice cut in sharply.
"The brat bit me!"
"What part of 'leave it' don't you understand!"
The second voice was strong and steady, dominant like the mayor of Tough Seed Farming Community, old Gerald Harich, had always been. Ashe got the sense that Voice #2 was used to being obeyed, a feeling that was confirmed when Voice #1, her captor, stood down with a grumbled agreement.
"We can't go damaging the goods."
Ashe's blood ran cold.
Goods.
That is what they were calling her.
She remembered what Voice #1 had said to her earlier -"You look worth a pretty penny."- and her heart sank as Ashe's stomach twisted into tight knots. It wasn't as if she knew what a 'penny' was -Mama said that it was a phrase from before the Commonwealth existed- but Ashe knew that it was about money. Voice #1 was talking about her worth and that meant one thing.
Slavers.
Slavery was rarer in the Commonwealth than in other parts of the country, but Ashe, even with her young age and relatively sheltered upbringing, knew that the practice was still alive and well. Papa had warned Ashe of it often; he had explained that the Tough Seed Farming Community was fairly safe from such things because the mayor paid not only a 'protection' tax to a group of slavers to keep them away from the community but also a fee to a freelance militia group to patrol and protect everyone. He warned her that, if Ashe were to ever stray from the borders of Tough Seed, she'd surely be snapped up by some unsavory character in a heartbeat. Warning her of that had been one of Papa's few kindnesses to Ashe throughout her entire life, even if he just said it to scare her.
In the end, though, the danger of slaver caravans didn't stop Papa from throwing her out.
Ashe was dropped to the ground like a sack of potatoes, her knees hitting hard against a rusty metal surface, and she let out an "Umpf!" even as the girl tried to gather her wits.
Though she couldn't see or even move well, due to her hands and feet still being bound, Ashe tried to scramble away from the voice. She wiggled with all of her might but only managed to get a foot or so before being grabbed by two sets of hard, grubby hands. The hands groped at her body, pulling at her hands, feet, arms, and legs. Ashe squirmed, feeling sick as the touch. Perhaps it was a summation of the sucky situation but she felt grateful at the almost... professional feeling of the hands as they examined her.
"She has all of her hands and toes," Voice #1 declared, "and her skin is good, a couple of scars maybe but no open sores or lesions. No signs of illness or radiation poisoning either, and she is in good shape."
He actually had the gall to sound proud , the bastard!
"Good catch, must have been a rich kid," Voice #2 mumbled as he forced a callous thumb into Ashe's mouth. Ashe bit down as hard as she could but this time she got no response; the man seemed completely unbothered by her actions. "She has all of her teeth too, that is rare."
Ashe growled -it felt better to be angry than it was to cry- and bit down hard. She couldn't say if this had any real effect but the thumb was pulled from her mouth, leaving behind the bad taste of salt, dirt, and spit. The respite was only brief though because then there was a hard hand in her hair, pulling it and examining her scalp.
"The color of her hair is unique," he observed. "Some buyers take pride in having a collection of unique looking slaves so that'll add to her value."
'Value? I am not a thing!' she thought spitefully, doing her best to fight back the tears and the fears.
Then the blindfold was pulled from her eyes and Ashe was forced to squint as the light hit her suddenly. She blinked hard a few times and her stomach turned as she looked up at the two grinning faces that leered down at Ashe.
"Well, that is a pretty part of baby blue eyes," Voice #2 cooed grossly as he roughly cupped Ashe's chin. Horribly, he didn't look anything like the monster he was; the man had neatly trimmed hair and was clean-shaven, matching in simple yet durable clothes he was wearing. But there was still something dark in his eyes, a malicious gleam that set him apart from any other average-looking middle-aged man living in the Commonwealth. "Why don't you smile for us, Sweetheart?"
Ptooey!
Summoning all the courage Ashe had in her little body, she glared viciously as the wad of spit landed square on Voice #2's cheek. It was a small, petty, almost certainly foolish thing, but it all she could do to take back any power in this situation.
The smirk slid off of Voice #2’s face and his expression went stony. He didn't look angry, exactly, even as he wiped the spit away, but rather there was a deep intensity that scared Ashe more than anything so far. She felt her knees shake as Voice #1 grab her by the shoulders, pinning Ashe in place, as Voice #2 pulled something about the size and shape of a candy bar out of his pocket as he approached like a stalking predator.
"Now, Sweetheart, I want to make something extremely clear," Voice #2 growled, his face still impassive. "I will not tolerate any disrespect or troublemaking on my watch. You will be obedient and respectful to me and my men. You will speak when spoken to and obey any instructions you are given. Do I make myself clear?"
Ashe glared up through her bangs and hiss, "And if I don't?"
That got her a mockingly sweet smile, "Well, there are many ways we can make your stay with us harder... and plenty of ways we can hurt you without damaging your value."
And with that, he pressed one end of the small metal device he pulled out of his pocket against the bare skin of Ashe's arm and pressed a button.
"AHHHHHHHH!"
Excruciating pain, like nothing Ashe had never experienced before, shot through her body. It only lasted a few brief moments but the agony was overwhelming. Despite everything she'd been through in her short life, all the hardships she had faced, this was the first time that Ashe ever wished she was dead. Then, hopefully, the pain of being shocked full of electricity would end.
Even when Voice #2 pulled the device away and the shocking stop, the pain was still there. Ashe's body ached and tingled; she could barely keep her eyes open and nausea curled in her stomach, threatening to bubble up her throat. Ashe held it down though, figuring that throwing up would probably get her punished.
Ashe's knees gave out, leaving Voice #1's grip on her shoulders as the only thing holding her up, and her eyes started to droop.
"Now, I think it is time that you learn that to be quiet and obedient," she heard Voice #2 declared smugly. "It'll serve you well in the long run."
Then Ashe passed out.
"Is she still breathing?"
" Shhhhh , Westley, don't poke her!"
'Mama?'
An older female voice broke full the bleak fog of Ashe's fitful sleep, dredging up memories of her mother's soft kisses and warm hugs. "Ma..." she croaked, her eyelids starting to twitch open.
When she was finally forced into the harsh, uncaring arms of consciousness, the first thing Ashe noticed was a bare, lite lightbulb hanging from the ceiling that was rhythmically swaying back and forth. After another long moment, Ashe realized that she too was moving up and down in a constant rocking motion.
'A boat,' she realized. 'I'm on a boat.'
That made sense, Ashe supposed. After all, Mr. Kravos' little island was out in the water, at least a mile from the docks of Far Harbor. The only way her captors could have gotten there and then gotten her away from it was by boat. But...
'If I'm on a boat then how will Mr. Kravos find me?' she wondered. 'You can't track something over water!'
'If he even cares to find you,' a spiteful voice hissed. 'He might not bother after you were so awful to him.'
The very idea of being forgotten, the very possibility of being discarded by another... by another father made it feel like something inside Ashe's chest broke, causing her to curl in on herself. The internal admittance that she'd grown to love Mr. Kravos compounded the hurt even more because she was faced with the prospect of losing that bond.
"No," she whispered. "No, I refused to believe that. Mr. Kravos is a good man; he cares about me and would never let something happen to me. I bet he is out there right now, tracking me down with Rena at his side."
Saying the words out loud made them more real. It was a shallow comfort, but it was comfort nonetheless. Ashe squeezed her eyes shut and imagined wrapping the words around herself like a blanket as she rolled onto her side. There was a thin matt under her body that was just soft and thick enough to be relatively comfortable. In fact, before the months she spent sleeping in her cozy bed at Mr. Kravos' house, it would have probably felt like a dream but, after being spoiled for so long, it felt comfortable and cold.
'I'll be alright,' she told herself. 'I just need to endure until Mr. Kravos finds me.'
Trying to remember the bedtime breathing techniques that her guardian had taught her, Ashe tried to relax and slow her breathing. She didn't necessarily want to sleep, but Ashe knew that she needed to calm down as soon as possible so that she could be better at gathering information about her situation. The more level-headed she could be meant that when Mr. Kravos inevitably came to save her, Ashe could be of more use to him.
Then something touched her shoulder and Ashe let out a blood-curdling scream, very nearly jumping out of her skin as she scrambled away.
"Nonono! Don't scream, Sweetheart! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you!"
Ashe turned and looked up, every nerve on end, to see a brunette woman holding her hands up in the universal sign of non-aggression. She had a nervous look on her pale face and kept holding her finger up to her lips in the ' shhhhhh ' motion as her eyes kept darting upward. The look on her face caused Ashe to pause; the woman didn't look threatening -slender, short, and in maybe her late twenties wearing a light blue dress- but that didn't mean much.
If Ashe had learned one thing in her short life, it was that appearances didn't mean much in the grand scheme of things. After all, Papa had been a handsome, clean-shaven man who always took pride in looking clean and tidy; he'd always done more than his fair share of work around the community and was often the first to volunteer for difficult projects. To most in the Tough Seed Farming Community, Henry Rydinger had been a dependable neighbor, a good family man, and a model citizen.
If only they knew...
Still, there was something in the woman's blue eyes, something that seemed truly genuine, that gave Ashe pause.
"Who are you?" she asked, her voice low and suspicious.
The woman smiled, small and fragile, as she crouched down closer to Ashe's eye-level. "I'm Wendy, Wendy Parks. You can call me Miss Wendy if you'd like; that is what my students called me."
"You're a teacher?"
"I wa..." the woman trailed off before biting her bottom lip and nodding. "Yes, Sweetheart, I am. Can you tell me your name?"
Ashe bit the inside of her cheek, uncertain. "...I'm Ashley."
Miss Wendy nodded enthusiastically and it was only now that Ashe realized that the woman had a large red mark that stretched from her left temple to the corner of her mouth and down to underneath her ear. It didn't look like a bruise or slap mark or anything like that, instead, it looked like that patch of skin was just tinted red. She was still very pretty though, Ashe decided, even if she seemed very high strung.
Though, all things considering, that was probably to be expected.
"Where are we?" Ashe decided to risk asking. She still wasn't sure she couldn't trust the woman and figured this question would allow her to gauge how much else she should reveal. "Where are we going?"
"We're on a boat, of course," Miss Wendy replied, her voice so high pitched and chipper that it actually made Ashe cock an eyebrow. "We are all going on an adventure together. Isn't that exciting?"
"An... adventure?" she repeated, dubious.
"Absolutely!" the woman nodded enthusiastically. "We're playing a game for now though. We've got to be as quiet as possible."
'Does she think I'm an idiot?' Ashe wondered incredulously. But, rather than ask such a thing, the girl instead asked, "What do you mean, 'we'?"
"Oh, I forgot to introduce you," Miss Wendy muttered to herself before turning. "It's alright, come out you three."
For the first time, Ashe truly looked around. She was in a large room, the walls, ceiling, and floor all made from the same rough, gray metal. The room was sparse, with only several of the same blue mats she was on and a couple of crates. There was a single door in the room... well, doorway; the empty door frame was only covered by a simple white sheet.
At Miss Wendy's call, the sheet was pushed aside and three children emerged from the other room. Two of the children, a little brunette girl, and a blond boy, both younger than Ashe, immediately ran to Miss Wendy's side.
"This is Ethan and Cindy," the woman said warmly, smoothing a hand down each of the children's heads as she pulled them close. "And that-" she nodded toward the final child, another boy but this one older than Ashe with dark skin and curly black hair "is Westley."
The boy, Westley, still hovered by the doorway. He watched Ashe with suspicious dark eyes but, after a moment, seemed to deem her acceptable and gave her a small nod.
"Everyone, this is Ashley," Miss Wendy said. "She is going to be our new friend."
"Hi Ashley," Ethan and Cindy both said shyly. Then Cindy looked up at Miss Wendy, "Mommy, I'm thirsty."
'Mommy?' Ashe's eyes went wide and she fought the urge to cry.
"Okay, sweetie," Miss Wendy nodded, cupping her daughter's cheek. "Let's get you some water. Do you want something to eat or drink, Ashley?"
"...No, I'm fine." She still wasn't ready to trust anything the woman gave her.
With another nod, Miss Wendy waved Ethan and Cindy into the other small room. Ashe and Westley both watched them go then, after an awkward moment of staring at each other, Westley shuffled over to her.
He sat down by her side and leaned close, "You know the whole 'adventure' thing is bullshit, right?"
Ashe scoffed, "Yeah, obviously."
Satisfied that she wasn't an idiot, Westley nodded, "Miss Wendy is just trying to keep us calm, especially the little kids, but these guys are going to sell us soon. And that is just if we're lucky and they don't have something worse planned for us."
"Yeah, probably," Ashe sighed darkly, curling back in on herself. "How long have you been here?"
"Not sure... I think three full days but I'm probably on my fifth," Westley replied, scrunching up his forehead. When Ashe gave him a confused look, he pointed toward a closed square hatch in the ceiling. "They lower us down food on a pretty regular basis. I figure that three meals equal a day, right? They took me mid-afternoon and I got one meal before I passed out. Then I had nine meals which I guess equals three days. We'd already been fed twice before you were tossed down here, so I think this is day five for me. I'm not sure how much longer Miss Wendy and the little kids have been here though."
"Oh." Well, if they'd been eating the food for that long without issue then it was probably alright.
"So, where did they get you from?" Wes asked. "I think we've been heading south, but I'm not sure."
"A little island off of Far Harbor," Ashe shrugged. "I can't give you the exact location on a map or anything though."
Despite her answer, the older boy perked up. "Far Harbor? That is only a few days away from my folks' farm! I can get back to th..."
Westley trailed off and slumped down, any hope re-sparked within him having been harshly snuffed out.
Ashe frowned and scooted closer. "We'll be alright, I know it. My guardian is going to be looking for me and he... he is really strong."
All she got in return was a scornful snort.
A trail of translucent, pale blue magical energy hung in the air, stretching out across the water from the rocky shoreline where the old Dragonborn stood, clad in armor and ready for battle. He looked down at his loyal canine companion who sat at attention, muscles tense and teeth bared with her own leather armor covering the Lakeview Shepard's vital organs, and growled, "Let's go get our girl."
Chapter 18: Chapter Eighteen
Notes:
This chapter deals with some dark themes like human trafficking, s*xual abuse, and slavery. Proceed at your own discretion.
Chapter Text
Just as Westley had said, sometime after Ashe had woken up -there was no way of knowing for sure how long had passed, but Ashe suspected it was about two hours- the ceiling hatch opened, revealing the cloudy night sky, and a thin platform was lowered down via a pulley system. The chains clinked against in the pulley and, once the platform got low enough, Ashe caught a glance of Voice #1's hairy, ugly face.
The slaver noticed Ashe's glare and gave her a nasty smirk that he coupled with a dirty wink. A shiver of disgust ran through her body, his leering eyes crawling over the girl's skin, and Ashe snarled, her lips curling in disdain and she gave him a rude gesture.
"Stupid bitch," she overheard Voice #1 grumble and Ashe bite back a nasty reply. 'Poor Mr. Slaver, getting his feelings hurt by little old me.'
The platform landed on the metal floor with a small crash that had the little basket full of wrapped food packages and five bottles shaking with the impact. Silently, Miss Wendy scrambled to gather up the bottles and the basket, putting those to her side before retrieving another basket from beside another sleeping mat -presumably her own- that was filled with food wrappers and four empty bottles. She placed the basket on the center of the platform and called up towards the still-open hatch, "Thank you!"
'She is thanking those bastards? ' Ashe wondered, grinding her teeth together in a snark. 'Why?'
The one nice thing about the hatch being opened -aside from the food delivery- was the rush of fresh sea air that swept into the room. For a brief moment, Ashe let herself relax and breathe it in deeply; it was a hollow imitation of peace, and she knew that, but it still felt nice to pretend.
It didn't last long, however, as Miss Wendy's expression of gratitude went unanswered and the platform was quickly pulled up. Once it was finally completely raised, the hatch was closed with a harsh, metallic thud , returning their little room - PRISON! - to the dim light provided by the single glass bulb and the stale air of an enclosed space. The metallic clattering echoed through the room, eventually fading into silence; a silence that turned so sense and palpable that it could've been cut with a knife.
The four kids and Miss Wendy all stared up at the hatch, quiet as the grave, until Miss Wendy's took a shuddering breath and forced a smile. "Well, who is hungry?"
Westley and Ashe said nothing but little Ethan and Cindy both starting to squawk out pleads for treats, scrambling towards her with their small hands outstretched. Miss Wendy indulged them patiently, patting their heads and cooing, but after a moment she tutted out, "Now, now, that is not polite. You both know how to ask for things properly."
Ethan and Cindy were both quiet for a second; they looked at one another, and then looked back to their mother. "Can we please have some treats, Mama?"
"Of course," Miss Wendy replied sweetly, smoothing a hand down Ethan's cheek, "We'll all have a nice supper together. But you all need to go wash up first."
Then she patted the two little kids on the back, gently pushing them in the direction of the second room, before turning back to the basket of food. Ethan and Cindy padded off to do as instructed; Ashe watched them go but had no intention of following, at least not until Westley took her by the arm and pulled her up.
"Come on," he mumbled, nodding his head in the direction of the door. "Let's go wash up."
Ashe raised an eyebrow and opened her mouth to argue, but Westley just shook his head and whispered. "Just... play along. It makes Miss Wendy and the kids happy."
Despite not feeling any particular obligation to continue the facade that Miss Wendy was putting on, Ashe still didn't feel cruel enough to break it just yet so she just nodded her head and followed the boy. If nothing else, then everyone remaining calm would make it easier for Ashe to formulate an escape.
'An I will escape,' Ashe vowed to herself. 'Even if Mr. Kravos can't find me... even if my words hurt him so badly that he doesn't think to come after me, I will escape and make my way back to him. If it is the last thing I do, I will apologize and thank Mr. Kravos for all he has done for me.'
The vow firmly imprinted in her mind, Ashe followed her new... friend? Companion? Fellow prisoner? Potential ally? into the next room. To her surprise, it was a small bathroom with a toilet, sink with mirror & bar of soap, and even a skinny little shower stall.
"For a slaver ship, this place is nicer than most of the places I've lived," Ashe mumbled, reveling in the little bit of gallows humor.
Westley snorted, "Same. My family home does have running water. My guess is they want to keep us calm and... in good shape."
Ashe glanced at Westley out of the corner of her eye, looking him over. He looked like a normal, healthy boy. There were no boils or lessons on his skin, he had all of his hair, and didn't look starved or ill; if she didn't know any better, Ashe could have 100% believed that he was a boy from Tough Seed.
"Did they say you'd sell for a high price too?" she asked, being to go through the motions of washing her hands.
"Yeah," the boy grunted. "They said that I'd be a valuable laborer, especially since I already knew about farming."
"Well, it is good to know that my father was wrong when he said I was worthless," Ashe tried to joke, forcing a weak smile.
Westley just gave her an unamused look... then burst out laughing. "I suppose that is one way of looking at things."
"Westley? Ashley?" Miss Wendy called out. "Are you two alright?"
"We're fine!" they both called out.
"Okay, come on out. I've got the food ready."
Ashe wasn't entirely sure that she was willing to eat anything the slavers provided just yet, but she was still curious to see what kind of meal Miss Wendy had whipped up. So, without complaint, she trailed after Westley back into the main room where she could see that the teacher had arranged some of the crates into a mock table, even dropping a sheet over them like a tablecloth. Miss Wendy had arranged it so everyone's 'place' had a small stack of ration bars in addition to a bottle of mystery drink, and a tin cop of some sort of steaming soup that, at the very least, smelt nice.
"Oh good," she smiled at them. "Come sit down and eat. You especially must be hungry, Ashley."
"I'm fine, just a little-" Westley elbowed her in the ribs and Ashe trailed off. She looked up at Miss Wendy's painfully eager face and forced a smile, "Yes, I am. Thank you."
And that was how Ashe found herself sitting cross-legged and staring at the pile of food in front of her. She didn't want to touch it; for one, Ashe obviously didn't trust the source it came from, and, secondly, her pride was doing battle against her stomach; she didn't want to feel any gratitude towards the people who'd taken her.
Ggggrrrrrr!
But she was hungry and, well, Ashe needed her strength.
"Ashley, are you alright, dear?" Miss Wendy asked, her eyes soft with concern.
Not wanting to deal with any coddling or pressing, Ashe forced a smile and picked up one of the ration bars. The wrapping was a shiny blue and tore away easily, revealing the insides; Ashe inspected the food carefully, it looked fresh enough -at the very least, there was no mold- and didn't appear to have been tampered with in any way. So, after a moment of stealing her resolve and taking in a deep breath, Ashe took a big bite.
'Not bad,' she thought to herself as she gnawed on the tough bit of food. It was some sort of nut base mixed with a -probably artificial- fruit paste that held it together. 'Doesn't taste poisoned, at least.'
It took a long time to chew the bit into a swallowable mush and force it down her throat. It wasn't that the food tasted awful -far from it, actually; it tasted like a pleasant enough combination of sweet and salty- but it was tacky and hard to chew, sticking to her teeth and forming into a ball at the roof of her mouth.
After eating only half of the bar, Ashe was forced to pick up the bottle and, after a long moment of hesitation, take the smallest sip possible. The liquid tasted like a thin, extremely watered-down fruit juice with a dash of salt mixed in. Ashe's lip puckered but she swallowed hard. 'Not awful... but not tasty either.'
The very thought actually made Ashe snort with amusement. How spoiled she had gotten during her time with Mr. Kravos? Before coming to live with her guardian -and even at some points when she was still residing at Tough Seed- Ashe would have gladly scarfed down this entire bar without a second thought. Hell, at one point, she'd even survived by stealing a giant box of some similar ration bars from a construction site. The workers had caught her and pelted Ashe with rocks as she scrambled away; the bruises from the encounter had lasted for weeks but Ashe hadn't starved that day and that was all that mattered.
So, keeping that in mind, Ashe ate everything in front of her, not wasting a single crumb. 'It could always be worse.'
'Five meals. Five meals and two 'nights' sleep.'
Ashe hugged her legs closer to herself as she stared up longingly at the hatch above her, a thin crease of light pouring out from cracks in the metal.
The past two days -as much as she could figure, Westley was right about it being hard to track the passage of time in their cage- had been hard. She wasn't ever completely hungry, but she never felt completely full either. They could keep themselves clean and always had water via the sink in the bathroom, but it always tasted a bit strange and Ashe didn't want to risk drinking too much of it. Their captors were 'kind' enough to provide some blankets and pillows for sleeping, but she still felt too cold and too uncomfortable to sleep well. There were even some toys for entertainment, a couple of dolls and some bouncy balls.
It could be worse... It HAD been worse for Ashe in the past, but that didn't change the fact she was still being held captive by slavers.
"I wonder how much further we are from home?" Westley whispered, curled up beside her.
Ashe shrugged, "I wonder how much further they are going to take us?"
Try as she might, Ashe felt the hope she had for rescue... for escape slipping away. Sure, she'd probably have a better chance of escaping captivity once -and if- they reached land again, but that wasn't a guarantee and, as the days passed, the weaker and more compliant Ashe felt herself getting.
'I have to hold on,' she reaffirmed to herself. 'I owe Mr. Kravos that much.'
Ashe felt trouble the moment she heard the hatch creek open. Hard as it was to gauge the passage of time, Ashe's internal clock told her that it was too soon for the 'mid-day' meal... which meant that it was opening for another reason.
She highly doubted those reasons were anything good.
The little girl hadn't survived alone for over a year after being tossed out by her father without developing some survival instincts. And it was those very instincts that had Ashe on her feet before the gas canister had even completely been tossed through the hatch.
It hit the floor of the room with a loud clatter and a pale green gas immediately began spewing out, clouding the room in a poisonous fog. Westley, Miss Wendy, Cindy, and Ethan all began coughing. Ashe yanked the collar of her shirt up over her mouth and nose and stumbled towards the bathroom. On her way there, she could make out the small, hazy figures of Cindy and Ethan collapse on the floor, quickly followed by Westley. Miss Wendy crawled towards her children on her hands and knees but never maid, passing out.
Ashe had been further away from the canister, so the gas didn't hit her so quickly. She managed to get to the bathroom and grabbed a stray washcloth. Remembering something one of the old farmers in Tough Seed had told once -that if you were ever stuck in a situation where you needed to walk through a smokey than you should soak a piece of cloth in water, hold it to your nose and mouth, and stay close to the ground- Ashe turned on the faucet -and left it on. It was petty but she wanted to waste these assholes' precious water supply- and stuck the rag under it.
Once the cloth was significantly soaked, Ashe pressed it hard against the face. She was light-headed now and swaying on her feet; she collapsed into the corner of the little shower and waited. Ashe knew that she had no hope of fighting off the gas but just wanted to breathe it in as little as possible.
The darkness still came.
It was hot.
Hot and dry and windy.
Ashe felt the familiar feeling of sandy windy hitting her in the face. Her eyes, their lids heavy and tired, flickered open... only to slam back shut as a bright, harsh light assaulted her senses, and grains of sand got caught in her eyes.
" Ugggghhhh ," she groaned, reaching up to rub her face. A hard, rough piece of metal brushed against Ashe's mouth and the strangeness of the sensation caused her to open her eyes again. Ashe blinked hard a few times, fighting the urge to vomit as her head pounded and the world spun, but, soon enough, her hands came into focus.
Well, not really her hands. She was mostly focused on her wrists, specifically the heavy metal cuffs that bound them together in front of her.
A scream started to build up in Ashe's throat and the urge to fling herself around, to fight, kicked in but, before she could do anything, there was a voice from somewhere above her.
"Oi, looks like Lil' Red is awake," Voice #1 commented, his ugly face swimming into view above Ashe.
"Oh yeah?" Voice #2 asked with a chuckle. "Little brat is tough. That's good, that means whoever buys her will get more use out of her body. Maybe she'll even live long enough to learn to like."
"You're sick," the other man snickered. "When are the buyers arriving?"
"Two days. They're coming from far and wide too, word of our high-quality product has definitely spread."
"Only two days? That is no time at all."
Chapter 19: Chapter Nineteen
Notes:
This arc is taking longer than expected but WOW I can't believe it is already half done!
Chapter Text
The small rowboat bumped against the shore, the bottom of the vessel scraping against the rocky sand. Rena jumped from the boat with a yap, running a quick lap around the little cove to check for any suspicious scents or critters. Kravos grunted as he followed the dog, tugging the boat to shore where he tied it secularly to a nearby tree trunk.
With a quick, muttered clairvoyance spell, a trail of translucent, pale blue magical energy confirmed that Kravos was still going in the right direction. It still stretched out over the water, but the waves had been too rough to continue on in the small boat. The threat of capsizing left Kravos with two options: finding and stealing a large boat or, as he decided, going by land.
'Of course, there is no guarantee this will lead me to Ashe,' he mused, 'but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. I can always get another boat if need be.'
Shuffling around some supplies into different knapsacks and burlap sacks -it was likely this would take a few days at least and Kravos didn't trust any food or water that wasn't from his own supply. Plus, Ashe would probably want a change of clothes once he found her- Kravos whistled, signaling Rena to his side and looked up to the sky. It was later in the day, but there would still be a couple of hours until nightfall.
Desperate as he was, Kravos was unsure about traveling at night. This land and its creatures were so strange, so foreign; he knew nothing about them. While the old Dragonborn was confident that he could handle anything thrown his way, there was the undeniable fact that his magic was weaker here. Back in Skyrim and the rest of Tamriel, magical energy filled the air with its intangible power, just waiting to be converted into any number of spells. Some places innately had more magical energy than others, in Blackreach it was so thick in the air that Kravos could almost taste it, but no place was completely without it.
But here, the air was... stale , all but completely devoid of any sort of magic. It was as if all the life and energy of the world had been killed by something! All of the magic Kravos performed had to be powered by his internal reserves, which, yes, were vast, but still limited. And what he was about to do would be draining.
"Arvak, I summon you," he chanted, his hands and the ground before him glowing a dark, spectral purple. "Come forward and aid me!"
With a flash of light and a rush of dead cold icy air, the skeletal, undead horse appeared, his eyes glowing white, and his mane and tail burning with a purple flame. He was a terrifying sight to behold, a figure from the nightmares of small children and grown men alike, and Kravos was so happy to see him.
"Helll ooooo , Rider," Arvak said, stretching his unnatural body out. "Co mmmm ing here felt wrong. Was something different thi ssss time?"
Well, perhaps 'said' wasn't the right word. Communication between Kravos and his summoned steed was a strange thing. The sounds coming out of the horse was a strange combination of raspy hisses and the clicking of boney teeth and, to this day, Kravos wasn't quite sure if he was the only one who could hear the animal's speech.
It didn't help matters that Arvak was a uniquely odd creature. Once he was a normal horse but, after spending who knows how long trapped in the Soul Carin, the existence of his very being was twisted and warped. His intelligence was expanded, as was his understanding of the world, but Arvak was still an animal deep down, and the way he thought or felt or interpreted things was different than a human would. It was important to remember that.
"Yes, we are in... a new place," he explained, rubbing Arvak's nose, enjoying the sensation of warm bone. "It is hard to explain."
"Then wha ttttt can I a ssss ist you with, Rider?" the horse rasped, tilting his head to the side.
"I've taken in a little girl, Ashe, and now someone has taken her from me," Kravos growled, already fastening the burlap sacks and his bedroll to Arvak's saddle. "We're going to go get her back."
"A hhhhh , you've picked up another little r iiiiiid er. I wonder if this one wi llllll be braver than the other sssss ?" Arvak pondered, causing Kravos to chuckle. Many of his children and grandchildren found the spectral horse too frightening to ride or even get close to, especially when they were young. For the most part, Arvak found this nervousness amusing; sometimes the horse even went out of his way to stomp his hooves and act extra frightening whenever they were watching because he found their reactions funny.
As they grew older, some of them -Runa, Blaise, Hroar, and, later on, Tarno, Glatea, Lyon, and Kravia- had grown used to the Arvak, even becoming fond of him and, for his part, Arvak accepted them easily. Then there was Sissel, who had never shown any fear toward Arvak. But, then again, she was somewhat of an outlier; Sissel had always been a very special girl.
"Ashlyn has had a hard life," Kravos explained, pulling straps tight. "She can be shy and sensitive, especially when she first came into my care, but under all those scars and fear is a will of steel. It's just, she is... new to the idea and ways of magic, so I think you'll definitely be a shock to her."
Then, after a moment, added, "A welcome one, hopefully."
Kravos didn't like to imagine how Ashe was being treated by the scum that had her, it wouldn't do him any good in the long run; anger would just cloud his mind and throw off his focus.
'And besides, there are much better uses for my mental energy,' he thought with a dark grin. 'Like imagining all the different types of torment I can rain down upon those who took what is mine.'
"I can feel the darkne ssssss inside you pulsing, R iiiiii der," Arvak rasped. "Your i nnnnn er beast wants to be r eeeee leased."
"You know me too well, old friend, and soon it will be time for others to learn that you do not touch what belongs to the last Dragonborn," the old man chuckled, swinging himself up onto the horse's saddle and whistling Rena over to his side. "Now, let's ride."
Hours later, just as the sun was setting over the horizon, Kravos pulled Arvak to a halt so he could survey his surroundings. There was very little of note, just a small outcropping of rocks that dotted the beach, some dry shrubbery, and a strange, rectangular structure. It was this structure that, upon a moment of closer inspection, Kravos decided would make an acceptable enough shelter for tonight.
They had made good distance, riding along the shoreline, and, when he gave it a quick test, the clairvoyance spell revealed both that he was traveling in the right direction and that they were closing in on Ashe's location. Part of him wanted to press on -Arvak didn't slow or tire like a living horse would, after all- but his own tiredness from keeping the summoned horse on this plane of existence and Rena's tired panting told him that it was time to stop.
"This is far enough for tonight," he said, sliding off Arvak and immediately setting to undoing the packs tied to the horse's saddle.
Rena just gave a bark of agreement and collapsed in an exhausted heap on the ground, kicking up a cloud of dust. Kravos smiled as his long-time canine companion and set the packs to the ground before giving Arvak a pat to the boney side. "Time to say goodbye, for now, old friend."
Arvak nickered, stretching his body out one last time. "Until ne xxxxxx t time, Riderrrrrrrr."
"You'll be back before you know it," the old Dragonborn assured as he released the binding on the summoned spirit, causing Arvak to vanish in a flash of dark purple light.
Kravos felt a rush course through his body as soon as the connection of Arvak was severed and he went light-headed for a moment. It was his own magical reserves that fueled the horse's presence in this world and, after riding for several hours, they were significantly depleted. Kravos let himself lean against the structure for support as his breathing evened out and his heartbeat returned to normal.
One of Rena's eyes flickered open and, after a moment, the pooch forced herself up and trotted to his side, kindly licking one of his hands.
"I'm fine, girl," he said, scratching Rena behind the ears. "I'm just tired... and old."
Gods, was he old! No longer was Kravos the strapping young Breton who could take on an entire army single-handed or satisfy five women in the same night. Perhaps he hadn't needed to take up a cane in his old age and he hadn't grown fat around the middle and his mind was still as sharp as ever, but the effects of time were still present.
"Let's get settled in for the night and then I'll heal up you, sound good?" he asked the dog, who just barked.
Plans for the immediate future decided on, Kravos turned to give the structure a more thorough inspection. Running his hand over the side, he frowned. 'Metal? I've never seen craftsmanship like this. The hinges and bolts are so delicate; they're old, sure, and poorly cared for, but the structure is still standing. This land is truly strange; nothing like Tamriel in the least.'
The shelter, which appeared to be some sort of larger container, was dark green in color, surrounded by a thick patch of bramble bushes, and covered in a thick layer of rust, so thick that he couldn't even pull the rolling side door all the way shut. After tugging at it unsuccessfully, Kravos gave it up; while there was a chill coming off the water, this land wasn't as cold as Skyrim and a small fire would keep him and Rena plenty warm.
'Get a fire going. Prepare camp. Set up proper protection. Cook food. Eat. Tend injuries and bodily strain. Sleep.'
It was a series of actions that Kravos had performed hundreds, perhaps thousands of times, in almost as many places and with as many different people. With the routine came a sense of calmness and control. His hands and muscles and mind knew what to do; there was no need to think about anything and, given the past few days, it felt incredibly nice to give his mind a break.
He gathered a series of similar-sized rocks and some sand to create a make-shift fire pit, found some old, gnarled piece of wood, and, with a quick spell, got a fire going. The heat from the flames already warming up the enclosed space of his temporary shelter and providing enough light to work with, Kravos secured his supplies and -taking his poor, old back into consideration- laid out a thick, comfortable sleeping pad in the warmest corner of the shelter, spreading his bedroll out on top of it. The next order of business was to lay out a large fire rune trap outside the entrance of the container to protect himself and Rena while they slept. The Lakeview Shephard had been thoroughly trained to be aware of and avoid such traps, so Rena would be perfectly fine if nature called during the night.
By now the fire was hot enough to cook with, so Kavos set up a small travel pot and, using the provisions he'd brought along, got a quick stew going. That taken care of, Kravos took one of the bowls he'd brought and poured a healthy amount of water into the bowl, mixing in a half-bottle of a standard health potion.
Rena's keen yet tired eyes watched him work and, when Kravos slid the bowl over to the exhausted canine, started lapping at the water. The old Dragonborn smiled warmth and lovingly gave Rena several long scratches behind the ears before he muttered a healing spell, running his hands over the length of the dog's body, massaging and manually stretching Rena's lead muscles. Kravos had specifically bred Lakeview Shepherds to be able to run or swim long distances with little issue, but Rena wasn't a young pup anymore and Kravos was worried about the strain this trip was causing her body.
Rolling onto her back to enjoy the final moments of his rub down, Rena sneezed and licked his hand again. The stew now bubbling in its pot, Kravos gave the dog a small pile of jerky for a meal and took the stew off the fire. It was hot enough to burn his tongue and the roof of his mask, nor was it particularly tasty, but it and some hardtack bread got the job done. Kravos' stomach filled and happy, he poured the rest of the stew into Rena's bowl for her to enjoy.
'Now, for some sleep.'
But that was easier said than done and Kravos found his head filled with worries about all the horrid things Ashe could be going through.
'It isn't as if this was the first time a child under my care has run off,' he thought to himself, 'and it isn't even the first time one has ended up in danger because of it.'
This was true. Runa, Hroar, Samuel, and Francios had all run away at least once after coming into his care, usually in fear after getting into some minor bit of trouble. Blaise had never fully run away, exactly, but sometimes -if he felt Kravos was angry with him- would slip out of the house to sleep in the barn or stables, and Alesan, so used to having next to no supervision, would wander off for entire days at a time if he was upset. Then there was Britte, who ran off so often that there was a time Kravos seriously considered putting the girl on a leash.
But this was... different . He was in this new, strange place and had no idea who it was that had Ashe. The clairvoyance spell told him that she was still alive, at least, but alive didn't necessarily mean well.
'I can't let myself think about it, ' Kravos told himself. 'I need my sleep. Ashe needs me at my best. I can't let her down because of some stupid mistake.'
Ignoring the protests of his old bones, he settled into his bedroll and closed his eyes. Kravos heard Rena get up and pad over to him, her nails pinging against the metal floor of the shelter; the dog curled against his side, lending him her warmth and support.
'I'll be there soon, Ashe. Stay strong for a little bit longer.'
It was half a thought and half a prayer, but it managed to lull the old Dragonborn to sleep nonetheless.
Chapter 20: Chapter Twenty
Chapter Text
It was not particularly hot, but the sun beat down heavily on Kravos head and shoulders to the point he could feel the skin on his neck tingling -the first sign of sunburn. On top of that, the wind coming off of the water, combined with Arvak's hooves against the ground, kicked up a heavy cloud of dust that got in the man's throat and eyes.
After a hard day of travel, Kravos pulled Arvak to a halt -Rena coming to a stop beside them. The Lakeview Shepard panted heavily, her fur coat undoubtedly making the heat even worse for her. Rena followed loyally, of course, but after a long day of running, she was clearly exhausted. Kravos frowned, he'd been hoping to travel for another hour or two but they'd only stopped briefly for quick meals and to check if they were still going in the right direction, making adjustments as necessary. The magic of the clairvoyance spell showed they were getting closer; it was only a matter of time before they could up with the people who had taken Ashe.
Rena flopped down on the ground, her tongue flopping out as she continued to pant.
"Alright, let's stop for the night," he said, already sliding off of Arvak's saddle. 'Ufff, I'm going to be dealing with these saddle sores for weeks.'
Pulling the scarf he'd wrapped around his lower face in an attempt to keep from breathing in the dust down, Kravos took a quick few gulps of water from his canteen. Rena's eyes watched him, her ears perking up as he pulled her dish from a saddlebag and poured her a drink.
Over the loud sloshing sound of Rena lapping up water, Kravos turned to address Arvak. "It looks like this is where we part for today."
"O hhhhh , so ssssss oon? I'd hope we'd cove rrrrr more di ssss tance today, Rider," rasped the spectral horse, an edge of teasing in his voice. If Arvak had eyes, Kravos suspected they'd be glimmering with mischief.
"I'm afraid so, old friend," Kravos chuckled, smoothing a callous hand over Arvak's boney muzzle. "But, rest assured, I'll summon you again soon."
But before Kravos could complete the incantation to release the binding of the horse's soul, the sound of crying echoed over the landscape. Kravos leaped to attention once the sound reached his ears, quickly followed by Rena's ears perking up and standing up once more. The dog looked southward, further down the coast, her head cocking to the side.
It was a woman crying, Kravos could tell that much, and not that far away.
And despite having more pressing matters to attend to, Kravos could not, in good conscience, leave without checking on the situation.
"Got a fix on it, girl?" Kravos asked, already re-saddling Arvak.
"Oh good, more adventure," the horse snickered, shifting his body as Arvak prepared to run.
"Alright. Rena... LEAD! "
They only travel about another mile when a small homestead came into view. It was nothing particularly grand or elaborate, just a small farm with a singular house and two outer small outer buildings. The entire settlement was surrounded by a tall, strange fence made up of many small links.
As he closed in, Kravos' sharp eyes spotted four figures -three human and one canine- standing near a gateway. Even with his sensitive ears, he couldn't quite make out the conversation they were having -only that two were quite distressed.
He slid from Arvak's back, pulling over his primary knapsack from the horse's saddle. "Say close," he instructed, "but say out of sight."
Arvak nickered, "Perhap sssss I will go start sssssome tales."
Before Kravos could reprimand the summoned beast, Arvak trotted off, quickly vanishing from sight. He was still on this plane of existence, the old Dragonborn could tell this due to the magical bond between them, but Arvak was a strange creature... who knows what he could be getting up to?
'Well, it is not like he'll hurt anyone,' the man eventually decided, pulling on the knapsack. "Come on, girl. Let's see what is going on."
"Freeze! State your business!"
Kravos cocked his head to the side, fighting back a smile, as he stared at the woman threatening him. She was -in his humble opinion- exceptionally beautiful, with large deep green eyes and shoulder-length dark red hair tucked up a dark, brimmed hat with a small scar running through the middle of her left eyebrow. Dressed in a simple light blue button-up shirt under a tattered jacket with rolled sleeves worn over it with dark, beat-up trousers and mud-splattered boots, the woman leveled a strange, metal device that vaguely resembled a crossbow at him with a fierce look in her eyes.
"Kravos Redwind," he said, deciding to humor the woman. "I have no buisness in particular, just heard a crying woman and thought I'd investigate to make sure all was well."
"Well, that is quite chivalrous of you," the woman replied, her eyes still narrowed. The dog by her side growled, baring his yellowed teeth in a snarl, and Rena growled back, her white and red fur standing on its end. "But, as you can see, everything is under control so you can move right on."
The old Dragonborn cocked an eyebrow, turning to the couple; they were both Redguards and had the look of someone who'd tilted the soil as a farmer for years, sun-hardened and worn out. Grief was clear in both of their eyes and the woman was half-collapsed, leaning against the man for support.
"Do you want me to leave?" he asked.
The man blinked at him, "Oh... yes, that is fine."
"Very well then," Kravos nodded, turning to walk away. "Come along, Rena."
He only got a few paces away before...
"Wait!"
Kravos turned, looking at the woman called out to him. "Yes? Can I help you?"
He didn't get an immediate response, the woman stuttering for a moment; if Kravos had to guess, she didn't honestly know why she called him back. But, eventually, she decided on something to say.
"We know everyone who lives around us for miles, but I've never seen you before. Men your age don't travel often-" Kravos fought the urge to scowl, he wasn't that old! "-so what are you doing here?"
"Well, for your information, an unknown party has taken a child in my care. I am tracking them down to retrieve her and... apply the appropriate punishment for their actions," the old man replied simply.
The other three all sucked in a breath at his words, their eyes going wide. Kravos frown, "Is something wrong?"
"Our- our son, Westley, he was-" the woman burst out in tears again, falling against her husband's chest.
The man pulled his wife tight against him, offering what comfort he could.
"Our son, Westley, was taken by slavers a week ago," he explained. "He'd gone down the beach to do some fishing; I was there too but he'd rushed ahead of me. I got to the shore just in time to see their ship sailing south and my boy gone."
There was a quiver in the man's voice and, as a fellow father, Kravos picked up on the guilt, shame, and terror the other man must be feeling with painful clarity.
"It sounds like we have the same enemy then. Not to worry, I shall retrieve your son as well and return him safely to you as soon as possible. You have my oath," Kravos swore to them and turned once more to leave.
He got a decent distance away before he was, once again, called back.
"Hey!"
This time it was the red-headed woman and her canine companion. She's jogged to catch up with him, grabbing Kravos by the shoulder and spinning him around. "What the hell are you doing?"
'Ah, to be that young and hot-headed again,' Kravos reminisced, a fond smile pulling at his lips. "I thought I made that incredibly clear -I'm going to get my daughter and young Westley."
"And how do you plan on doing that?" the young woman questioned. "Do you know where the slavers' base is? Do you have any way of getting there? Do you have any way of getting the kids and anyone else who might be there out safe? Do you have any way of getting the people you save back home?"
"I plan on taking back what is mine," Kravos reiterated, voice calm and level. "I do not know where their base is but I do have a way of finding it. Once there, I intend to kill those who took Ashe and Westley. Everything after that... well, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it."
His attempt to leave was once again blocked by the woman.
"No, you see, here is the thing -Westley's parents contacted the Minutemen to save their son and bring him. Getting him home is my responsibility, not yours!"
The woman's green eyes were burning with conviction and her jaw was clenched, one finger jabbed into his chest. Seeing her determination, Kravos felt his respect for her rise and he nodded.
"Very well, then you shall be my companion on this venture."
"W-what?" the woman stuttered.
"Since I have no intention of stopping my mission and you insist that it is your priority too, you shall be accompanying me," Kravos explained. "As I said, I have my own way of tracking down my child. You have no way of stopping me -and rest assured, despite what you are about to say, you cannot stop me, you could never stop me- from slaughtering those who have taken what is mine, so it is in your best interest to just follow along with me."
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"...Fine!"
Kravos smiled at the woman's reluctant, spiteful reply. "Then we are partners, Miss...?"
He held out his hand. The woman eyed it suspiciously for a moment but eventually shook anyway, her grip was strong and firm but the callouses on her palm and fingers were new. Kravos suspected that this was a person new to physical labor.
"Natasha," she said. "Natasha Green. Of The Commonwealth Minutemen. Nice to meet you."
"And you as well, Miss Green," the old Dragonborn nodded. "Now, since you've been hunting this scum, I assume you have some information about our prey?"
Natasha nodded, pulling a map from her pocket and handing it over to him. "There!" she pointed to a circled spot on the map "The Minutemen got word that there is a slave auction taking place in two days at a place called Reavers' Cove. That is where I'm headed; we can get there in one day if we hustle."
Kravos had never seen a map so pristine and precise -though, admittedly, it lacked the artistry of the maps back home; once more he was amazed by the difference, both big and small, that existed between his home and this new land- but he was still able to understand the great distance between the slavers' location and their approximate location.
" Hmmm , how do you propose-"
"Grwahr!"
Both he and Natasha turned at the playful canine growl. Rena and the woman's dog and apparently come to their own understanding, which they were now sealing with a wrestling match. They pounced on one another, nipping at one another's neck and ears. Rolling around in the dirt, Rena soon pinned her opponent down, giving a bark of victory.
With a chuckle, Kravos whistled and slapped his thigh. "Rena, come!"
Giving a final nuzzle to the other dog, Rena obeys, trotting to his side. The other dog followed, coming to press himself against the woman's legs.
"Great minds think alike," he commented, giving Rena's ears a scratch. Then he cleared his throat, "I must return to my campsite and gather some supplies before we depart -it will not take long."
His magical tie to Arvak was ever-present, tugging at his gut and using his energy. Traveling with this woman meant that it was better to release that tie for now; her trust in him was barely there as is, a fiery undead horse would not help.
"Do you want me to come and help?"
"No!"
Natasha blinked at him, startled by his outburst. She started to say something but Kravos cut her off with a shake of his head. "No, you stay here and see if you can get more information from the parents. I'll meet you back here soon. Then we can go after the scum."
The woman still seemed unsure and suspicious but said nothing as Kravos gave her a wink and trotted off.
Arvak hadn't been happy about being 'released' back to the Soul Carin so soon but still kept the grumbling to a minimum as Kravos severed the summoning bond, especially after Kravos promised to ride him around when he was patrolling the islet he was living on. But only after he saved Ashe.
"Not exactly traveling light, huh?" Natasha asked, cocking an eyebrow when he returned with his arms full of burlap sacks.
"I was going by boat at first and, since I didn't know how long I'd be gone or what Ashlyn would need when I found her again, I was ready for the long haul," he explained.
" Hmmm ," the woman hummed. "Good thing I came in a truck. C'mon, let's get loaded up."
Kravos said nothing, just following his new partner, but he couldn't help but wonder what a truck was.
As it turned out, a truck was something like a metal, horseless carriage. It was large, heavy, with four doors and a long, box-like structure sticking out from the back of it. It was red, though covered in rust, and full of large dents. Kravos stood back, unsure what to make of such a contraction, but Natasha just opened the second of the left-side door -allowing him to see a small interior which consisted of two rows of two seats- and gave another sharp whistle. Her canine companion immediately leapt into the back seat, giving a content bark as Natasha shut him inside before sliding into the front seat herself.
Despite the woman's nonchalant attitude and smooth, practiced motions, Kravos couldn't help but eye the strange carriage with suspicion. This doubled when Natasha fiddled around with something on in front of her and the 'truck' seemed to shake itself to life! It let out a low, persistent rumble that was not unlike a giant cat and Kravos felt himself unconscious beginning to ready a lightning spell.
"Hey, what are you waiting for?" Natasha asked, poking her head out of a small window that he could have sworn was covered in an unnaturally clear pane of glass was just a moment ago. "Throw your stuff in the truck bed and get in. Your pooch can go in the back seat too. We've got to get going."
Kravos hesitated, but found himself copying the motions Natasha had done. He didn't want to risk the woman leaving him behind, which she would definitely do if she became suspicious of his behavior. In Tamriel, other planes of existence were well-known thanks to contact with the Daedric Lords. This led to a question among the academic circles -were there other worlds? Other places inhabited by man and mer and beastfolk?
Well, now Kravos had the answer to that question and, by the gods, was he going to be a smug bastard about it when he got back to Tamriel. There would be so many papers to write and lectures to give at the college of Winterhold. Urag gro-Shub was going to be so pissed when he learned about Kravos' adventures.
But, despite his own excitement, he highly doubted that the inhabitants of this world would react well to the existence of others. So it was best to keep that secret for the moment.
He put the back into the 'box' -figuring that it was the 'truck bed'- and noticed that she had some supplies back there as well -several crates and trunks of different sizes but all locked. He'd investigate them when the time was right but now was not it. Rena hopped up next to Natasha's dog without hesitation -even now, she was far more fearless than he was- but Kravos paused, eyeing the door handle.
'Come on, you've ridden a dragon before,' he reminded himself. 'And besides, this is for Ashe. Ashe and the other boy, Westley. They need to be saved and brought home.'
Brave and terrified as he was the day he faced Alduin for the first time as a cocky twenty-four-year-old, Kravos shoved himself into the front seat beside Natasha and said, "Let's go."
Chapter 21: Chapter Twenty-One
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While not as rough as a dragon ride, riding in the 'truck' was far from a pleasant experience.
"Not much of a traveler?"
Kravos glanced over to Natasha, still maintaining a death grip on the seat below him, and grunted, "Oh, I travel plenty. Just not like... this! "
The red-haired woman laughed. "Yeah, I've had to get used to driving this thing too."
The old Dragonborn had no response to that; it was better to keep things simple, after all. Instead, he glanced over his shoulder to the two pups who were engaged in a light bout of wrestling.
"How long have you had him?" he asked, jerking his head towards the woman's dog.
"Oh, he isn't really mine. I just found him... or, maybe it is more accurate to say that he found me," Natasha replied, a soft smile playing on her face. "No, Dog Meat- Don't look at me like that! I didn't give him that name, he came with it! -is his own man. He goes wherever he pleases and it just so happens that he usually prefers to stick by my side. What about you? I've never seen a dog like that in my life."
'Oh, you have no idea how right you are,' Kravos thought, fighting back the urge to snort. "And you aren't likely to see one again. She is a Lakeview Shepard, a breed I specially created for some very particular purposes."
Natasha glanced at him out of the corner of her eye. "You're a peculiar man, Kravos Redwind."
"And you are a peculiar woman, Natasha Green," he smiled back. Then Kravos sighed, his head dropping back against the seat cushion as he stared out at the dying sun ahead of him. "But, to tell you the truth, I'm not from around here. I'm from... far away. All of this-" he gestured out the window at the desolate landscape "-is so very unfamiliar to me.
The woman nodded, "Well, we're in the same boat there."
When Kravos cocked an eyebrow in her direction, Natasha continued, "I guess you could say that I'm ... a long time ago. I woke up in one of the abandoned vaults a couple of months ago and I'm still trying to adjust. In between just trying to survive, of course."
'Vaults?' the old Dragonborn wondered. 'What could that possibly mean?'
But he said nothing, just letting the woman continue her tale.
"The Minutemen were the first friendly faces I encountered after leaving, so it was easy to stick with them," she explained. "They do good work for the people and even if Preston -that is my superior- can be a bit... much at times, he always means well. Still, sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough."
"You're surviving, Natasha, and that is more than plenty can do. Take pride in that."
His reassurance got him a smile. "You can call me 'Nat.' All my friends do."
"I consider it a privilege to be included in such a surely illustrious group," he smiled back.
That got him a warm grin, but it only lasted a brief moment before it fell. "I'm lucky, in that regard; I was a housewife before... all of this and most of the other women I knew wouldn't be able to survive. But my husband, Grant, was a retired soldier, and the things he saw in the war left him paranoid that, if something ever happened to him, I wouldn't be able to protect myself. So he taught me to shoot his guns, dress a wound, hunt, fish, skin a deer and clean a trout with just a pocket knife, chop wood, get a fire going and make a campsite, basic wilderness survival... That kind of stuff. The women in our neighborhood all tutted and gossiped while the men all 'joked' to Grant if he was okay with having such a 'butch' wife. Admittedly, I even found it annoying when he'd drag me out into the woods to practice shooting instead of going to the country club with the Wilsons' but now... I just wish I could thank him."
Kravos glace with the thin metal band on one of Natasha's slender fingers. "Your husband? Is he..."
The hand with the ring clenched into a fist. "He's gone... killed. And I wasn't able to do anything to protect him."
Then she brought her fist up to her mouth, kissing the ring.
What is there to say in this situation?
'Nothing, there is nothing I can say to make her feel better,' Kravos mused sadly.
So he said nothing and stared out into the horizon.
Night had only just fallen when they reached the outskirts of the slavers' camp.
"Okay, the base is about a mile away," Natasha said, pulling the truck off of the road and parking in a thatch of large, brown bushes. Eyeing the map, she continued, "We should continue on foot from here; with the engine being so loud, taking the truck would draw too much attention."
Kravos had no objections to that, so he followed her lead. The hounds at their sides, they crept their way through the darkness, careful not to make too much noise and keeping an eye out for patrolling guards. Before long, they reached an outcrop overlooking the camp that gave them an excellent view of the illuminated outpost.
The fenced-in area wasn't large, with only five buildings in total with smaller structures dotted around with two gates, one on each side. At each corner of the outpost, there was a guard tower to oversee the area -that, combined with the relatively flat landscape- gave them a near-perfect overview of the land. Sneaking up on them would be almost impossible. Most worryingly of all, was the crude stage that had been constructed in the exact center of the slavers' camp.
'Bastards!’ The Old Dragonborn burned with an internal rage, fire tickling the inside of her throat. 'I'll see them all suffer before the end of the day.'
"If I had to guess, that-" Natasha pointed towards the smallest, center-most building "-is where they are keeping everyone."
"Make sense, it would be the easiest to guard," Kravos nodded, already mentally plotting out how to infiltrate the complex and slay all of the slavers. 'Perhaps I'll just summon Durnehviir and let him be a distraction while I'll free everyone."
"Preston told me that this group is known to have about fifty members, but I'm only counting about 30. It's hard to see, though," Nat noted, brow scrunched up in concentration.
"The rest are probably sleeping," Kravos theorized. "Groups like this usually keep shifts so there are at least a few people that are fully rested."
"Makes sense. I wonder if-"
But before Natasha could even finish that thought, Kravos was on his feet and heading down the outcropping with Rena at his heels.
"Wait! Wait! Wait! Where the hell are you going?" the red-haired woman hissed, grabbing Kravos' arm and pulling him to a stop.
"I'm going to get my daughter back," Kravos growled, a little annoyed now. He was so close now and he refused to be stopped!
"You can't just barge in there! You'll be killed!"
"Trust me, I've gone up against far worse odds and come off on top!"
Natasha stepped in front of him, putting a hand on his chest. "Maybe that's true... but this isn't just about you! It is about your daughter, Westley, and all the other people who've been taken! If you go in there guns blazing then there is no way to guarantee we can get them out safely."
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'You know that she is right,' a voice that sounded eerily like Paarthurnax whispered, just a tint of teasing mixed in with the wisdom. 'All these years and you're still the rash young Dovah you were when we first met. It is not surprising, but you should listen to your new companion.'
"Alright," Kravos said, drawing in a deep breath. "What would you suggest we do?"
Natasha bit her lip, brow furrowing as the young woman's mind raced. "...You said they're probably sleeping in shifts, right? Maybe... maybe we should attack at dawn, just as the sun is starting to come up? That should be right when the guards are changing shifts, some will be tired and some will be groggy from just getting up. We can use that confusion to our advantage!"
Loathed as he was to admit it... "That is a good plan."
Rena gave a yip of agreement, tongue lolling out of her mouth. Then she yawned and shuffled closer to Kravos, leaning against his leg.
"I don't like having to wait but, quite frankly, we could both use some sleep," Kravos said, eyeing the dark bags under Nat's eyes.
"Food too," the red-haired woman agreed. "We both need to be at our best and we can't do that sleep-deprived and exhausted.
Back in the truck, Rena and Dogmeat curled up together in the backseat, Natasha and Kravos ate pitiful road meals in silence. For Kravos, this was a canteen of herb-mixed water -for taste and healing purpose- and some deer jerking with dried fruit and mixed nuts for 'desert,' and, for Natasha, this was some sort of canned beverage and several strange bars of foods wrapped in a thin, shiny material. The sun had long since set by this point, with the only light coming from the half-moon and stars high above them and the dim illumination of the slavers' compound just on the horizon. Nat had said that there was a light she could turn on inside the truck but they both agreed against it, not wanting to potentially draw the attention of any patrolling guard.
"Hey, Kravos?"
The Old Dragonborn was startled by Natasha's voice, the silence having lulled him into a daze. "Yes?"
"The girl... Ashe, you call her your daughter but you also said that she was 'in your care.' Does that mean..."
"She isn't my daughter by blood," he said quickly. "I found her about half a year ago now. She was this skinny, sick little thing, probably only a few days away from starving to death."
Natasha gave a hum of understanding, "Sadly, that is a pretty common state to find kids in around here. The Minutemen take in and try to find homes for as many as possible, but there are just so many and...
The woman trailed off somberly, so Kravos continued his story.
"As soon as I saw Ashe, I knew I had to protect her. So I took her in," he explained. "It took a long time to get her back to full health -at one point, she was unconscious for seven whole days- and longer still for her to trust me. But, eventually, she became my daughter."
Then after a short pause, Kravos let out a huff of laughter. "Look at me, an old man with a little daughter. I never expected to have another one of those, let me tell you!"
"You have other children?"
"Ten of them."
"Ten?!" Natasha exclaimed, eyebrows shooting up. "Oh dear, I can't imagine that!"
"It was a madhouse at times," the Old Dragonborn chuckled in agreement. "They're all adopted too. Well, they're all grown and moved out now. Most have families of their own. Perhaps I've just been lonely, missing the sounds of little feet and childrens' laughter? My grandchildren visit often enough, sometimes for months on end. But it isn't the same."
"With ten kids you must have a whole gaggle of grandbabies," Nat said. "You and your wife must have a hard time keeping up."
"Thirteen and counting. My daughter, Sofie, was with child last I heard of her, as was the wife of my son, Blaise. I think he's hoping for a boy this time; he has twin girls and loves them dearly but is tired of being 'outnumbered.' Most are close in age to Ashlyn, so I'm hoping she'll get along with them when they finally meet. But the oldest, Gwentha, is fourteen winters and she is stubborn as a mule, just like my Alesan, so that may cause some tension," he replied. 'There I go, rambling about my babies again.'
Still, he felt the need to add, "And I'm not married."
"Sorry, did she..." Natasha trailed off, brilliant green eyes glance down at his hand.
"No, no, I never wed,” he shook his head. "There were plenty of good women, women I loved deeply, but ... the timing was just never right. It is one of my greatest regrets now; not getting to grow old with someone by my side, not getting to devote myself to someone so deeply, not giving my children a proper mother."
A strange somberness filled the truck as both Natasha and Kravos fell silent, staring ahead into the night. If Kravos had to admire something about this strange land, it was that you could see the stars beautifully. Not the same stars of his home, but they shone brightly nonetheless.
"You know, I have a son too," Natasha whispered, quiet and weary. "His name is Shaun."
Kravos didn't let his surprise at the confession show. He could read people better than that.
"That is a good name, very strong," he replied gently. "Where is Shaun now?"
The red-haired woman let out a strangled laugh, "I don't know. The same people who killed my husband stole my baby while I couldn't do anything to stop them."
The Old Dragonborn said nothing, just watching as the woman clenched her fists and bit her lip so hard it drew a dark red bead of blood.
"But I know Shaun is alive," she continued, frantic energy seeping into her voice. "Call me crazy if you want but a mother knows! I know that Shaun is out there somewhere... and I'm going to find him."
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"I know you will."
"...You are the first person to say that to me," Natasha said, voice still strangled.
Kravos reached over and squeezed the woman's hand. "You've been through something horrible and yet you keep pushing forward. That means you are stronger than most of the people in this world. If Shaun really is out there, I have no doubt you'll find him."
Nat gave no response to that, but the sweet smile she sent Kravos' way spoke volumes.
"You should get some rest," she said. "I'll keep watch and wake you up in a few hours so we can trade-off."
"I'm not that old," Kravos scoffed. "You get some sleep, young lady. I'll take the first watch and wake you up in a few hours."
"Okay okay, I'm not going to argue," the woman laughed, leaning her seat back and kicking her feel up onto the wheel. "But promise that you'll wake me up if you start dozing off."
"Deal."
It didn't take long for Natasha's breathing to even out as she slipped into dreamland. Kravos watched her body go limped and relaxed, smiling; she reminded him of Aela. Looking back out the window, towards the dim glow of the slavers' compound, Kravos gave a half-thought/half-prayer.
'Hang in there, Ashe. You'll be free soon.'
Chapter 22: Chapter Twenty-Two
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As the first lights of dawn began peeking over the horizon, Natasha, Kravos, and the dogs were already on the move. Sliding out of the truck, Kravos rolled his stiff shoulders and neck, wincing at the chorus of 'pops!' that came from his sore muscles.
"Never get old," he half-joked to Natasha. "It's a terrible idea."
The red-haired woman smiled but it didn't reach her eyes. Kravos wasn't surprised, they were about to undertake a task of immense importance. There was no time for japs and games.
By his side, Rena yawned and stretched. Kravos scratched the pooch behind the ears and knelt down, beginning the process of putting on Rena's armor; there was no way he was taking her into a battle without it. The armor was based on the kind used by the Dawnguard for their war hounds, a layer of durable yet flexible leather designed to protect the neck, back, chest, shoulders, and upper legs. But Kravos had made some modifications, mainly, adding a layer of black and red dragon scales for extra protection. It made the armor heavier and cut back on Rena's maneuverability, but offered her vastly more protection.
Fastening the last strap, Kravos pressed a kiss against the dog's muzzle. "Are you ready to get Ashe back, girl?"
"Woof!"
"Good."
"Those two get along then, your daughter and Rena?" Natasha called from the other side of the truck, where she was suiting up Dog Meat.
"Oh, yes. They're always getting up to mischief together," he called back. "I know Rena misses her terribly."
'As do I, ' was the unspoken addition.
"Well, then let's get those kids back," the woman smirked.
Back up on the outcropping, Kravos and Natasha surveyed the camp.
"Alright, we need a plan of attack," Nat said, holding up a strange device up to her face that looked like two small spyglasses welded together. "Even if we take them by surprise, there is no way of infiltrating the compound without drawing attention."
"Oh, I have a way; I just need a distraction," Kravos said. Then he turned to the red-haired woman, "Think you can cover that?"
"...Yeah, I can," Natasha said, kneeling down to open a long, flat case she'd brought with them.
Inside, against a blue velvety material, was a metal weapon of some sort. It looked vaguely like a crossbow, like the other weapon Nat was carrying, but much larger with a long metal tube attached to the front of it.
"As much as I hate the idea of being away from the action, I must admit that I'm more effective at a distance," Natasha said, picking the weapon up and lifting it so she was staring into a short tube atop the device. Lowering it again, she looked up to him with her dark green eyes, "Get into position, you'll recognize the distraction when it happens."
Kravos nodded, "When I save Ashe and the others, we'll need to make a quick escape. Will you be there with the truck?"
"As fast as I can be."
With a nod, Kravos turned to start towards the compound... only to hesitate.
Turning back to the woman, he started, "During the rescue, you may see... things that you cannot explain, things that will seem very mysterious to you."
"What do you mean?" Natasha asked, cocking an eyebrow.
Kravos shook his head, "I can't explain it. At least, not at the moment. But, rest assured, you will not come to harm from any of it. So... just trust me."
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"I do," Nat nodded, her face serious. "Do what you have to have to get the kids back and I'll focus on giving you the backup you need."
With a mutual nod of understanding, the two went their separate ways -Natasha and Dog Meat up to the vantage point up on the outcropping and Kravos and Rena towards the heart of the Slavers' hive. Trudging through the dusty landscape, he waited until Nat was out of sight before casting an invisibility spell on himself and Rena. His plan hinged on getting as close as possible to the compound and then unleashing pure chaos upon all the slavers inside, using that as cover to free Ashe, Westley, and anyone else who may be inside. Ideally, he'd see every man and woman who engaged in such a horrifying act punished as cruelly and brutally as possible, but Kravos kept reminding himself that the safety of the Ashe and the victims was the most important thing.
'And, besides, I can always come back and finish the job if need be,' he thought, allowing himself to consider indulging his darker impulses.
Though he couldn't see her, Kravos could feel Rena brush up against his leg and he could imagine the Lakeview Sheppard was licking her chops, ready for the taste of blood on her mouth. He reached down and smoothed a callous hand over her fuzzy ears.
'Time to have some fun.'
Just as planned, Kravos and Rena were able to walk right up to one of the gates without being noticed. The darkness of the early dawn hours kept their footprints from being visible on the hard, dusty ground and even when Rena stepped on a stray, dry twig, causing it to snap, the two men standing guard on either side of the gate didn't even bother to look in their direction. It made them easy prey for Kravos.
A quick paralyzation spell froze them in place and quieted their screams as he snapped their necks with a telekinesis spell. Kravos considered not wasting the magical energy and just slitting their throats but this way he could prop the bodies up and avoid suspicion... at least for now.
The lock on the gate was odd, box-like, and with no visible keyhole; Kravos had never seen anything like it. He frowned as he inspected it; this presented a potential problem -if he couldn't get the lock open with magic, then he'd have to either climb the fence (which wasn't ideal, if only because of the barbed wire on top of it and that it would be hard to get Rena over) and or blow the gate open.
Kravos summoned magic to his fingertips, tapping them against the locking device.
"Ah!" he hissed, yanking his hand back and a sharp, jot of pain shot through it. 'What is this thing?'
But then, a thought occurred to the old Dragonborn. The pain he felt familiar; it felt like he'd been hit with an extremely minor lightning spell. If what powered this device was anything similar to lightning, then he might be able to overpower the device.
Another spell had lightning dancing between Kravos' fingertips and he gripped the lock, feeding the magical energy into it.
ZAP!
Smiling, Kravos caught the gate before it felt too visibly open. Slipping inside alongside Rena, he propped it closed behind him. He needed to leave it unlocked for later; they would need a point of escape after he'd freed the captives. But, for now, he just needed to find them... and thin out the slavers' ranks as much as possible.
Thankfully, the early morning hours were on his side; it seemed as if Natasha had been right about this being when the guards were changing shifts. As Kravos made his way through the compound, picking off any slavers he managed to catch alone and hiding their bodies, he couldn't help but wonder when the distraction Nat had promised would occur. After all, he couldn't keep skulking around the outskirts of the compound.
He didn't have to wonder long, however. Just as he was running his ebony sword through the throat of a rough-faced female slave, her blood running down the front of dirty clothes, and kicking her limp, lifeless body into a pile of rubbage...
BOOOOOM!
The explosion shook the ground and had Kravos dropping to one knee, his hands clamped over his ringing ears. By his side, Rena whined -the noise undoubtedly more intense and painful- and pressed herself against him searching for comfort. He put his hand on her neck and started to say something, only for his words to fade into the shouting of the slavers as the compound came alive.
At the sound of someone rushing towards them and the protection offered by the invisibility having been lost when the shock of the explosion had severed Kravos concentration, the Old Dragonborn gave a sharp whistle and herded Rena into a narrow alleyway between two buildings. When someone ran by, Kravos grabbed them by the scruff of the next and hauled them into the shadows. His prey was a young, muscular man but the element of surprise was on Kravos side and it didn't take much to pin him to the ground.
Digging a knee into the man's gut and a forearm over his throat, Kravos knocked the strange, crossbow-like device in his hand away. When he grabbed at it again, Rena sunk her teeth into the man's wrist, causing him to let out a scream that Kravos had to muffle.
Holding the tip of his favorite dagger to the man's eye, Kravos leaned in close and growled, "I'm going to give you one chance -tell me where you're holding your captives!"
Frightened mud-brown eyes stared up at him but the slaver bared his teeth and snarled, "Already gone, old man! We fed them to the sharks!"
Fire tickling his throat, Kravos gave a feral smile. "I guess I have no use for you then."
Any remaining color drained from the man's face and he started sputtering, though that was silenced when Kravos slit his throat -deep enough that severe the man's vocal cords but shallow enough that it would take the slaver some time to bleed out.
'It leaves him with enough time to think about his life choices,' Kravos thought darkly as he watched the blood flow down and soak into the dirt.
"Woof!"
At Rena's warning bark, Kravos was back on his feet. Not more than a moment later, two other slavers rounded a corner. Seeing him, they both let out a shout of surprise; they scrambled for their weapons but...
"YOL TOOR SHUL!"
A powerful, all-consuming burst of flames exploded from Kravos' lips, spreading through the air and lighting everything it could reach alight. Including the two slavers.
The screaming the two men unleashed as their flesh was burned away was a guttural, horrifying sound that Kravos paid absolutely no mind to. As he stepped around the withering, soon-to-be-corpses, Rena shot forward in a flash of red and white and tackled an approaching guard to the ground. He started screaming and trying to hit the dog over the head with his weapon, but then there was a wet, crunching sound, and then there was silence.
The next man who came fell to a bolt of lightning through his heart. As did the two after that, the magical bolt bouncing back and forth between their twitching, twisting bodies until it dies along with them. The next one -who came from the left side, trying to get into Kravos' blindspot- got tossed back into a rusty pile of rubble with a telekinesis spell, ending up impaled on a metal pipe through the mid-section. Three more fell to the winter chill of ice magic.
Well, they could still be alive -cold didn't also kill quickly, after all- but Kravos paid the possibility no mind. Their limbs were blackened and useless now, covered by a layer of frost. If he were to kick them, Kravos knew for sure that they would shatter.
Through the waves of meat and bone coming out, fear palpable as they had no idea of what they were experiencing. Their shock proved to be Kravos' biggest advantage; allowing him to cut through the slavers like a hot knife to butter. He pressed forward towards the centermost building, more determined now than ever to-
BANG!
A burning pain ripped through Kravos' shoulder, sending him falling to his knees as he grasped at the bleeding wound.
'That wasn't an arrow,' he thought over the pounding of his own head as his callous fingers found a small, round hole in flesh.
Already channeling healing magic to his fingertips, Kravos forced himself to look for his attacker. Thinking through the pain, Kravos saw him. A tall man with neat dark hair matching his dark, simple clothing. But even as the man lifted his weapon once more, Kravos was struck by how utterly normal he looked.
Perhaps that wasn't a surprise though. True monsters rarely wore their sins openly.
The man cautiously stepped towards the still-kneeing Kravos, "What the hell are you?"
Panting, the Old Dragonborn flashed a dragonic grin, "Just a father hellbent on saving his daughter."
The slaver chuckled, "You're not the first. But I'm afraid you're shit out of-"
BANG!
With an explosion of bloody red mist, the man's gloat was abruptly cut off as he jerked to the side and hit the ground... now missing his head.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Kravos' eyes jerked around as three more slavers who were attempting to rush him, each fell to a mysterious explosion of the head. In the distance, a strange sparking caught his eye. Looking up towards the outcropping of rocks that overlooked the compound... Kravos smiled.
'I knew I could trust you, Natasha,' he chuckled. 'Now, let's go free those hostages.'
Rena by his side, her fur caked with dark, sticky blood, the Old Dragonborn summoned three Flame Atronachs to his aid. The strange, feminine fiery figures looked at him silently for a moment, before each floated off to cause chaos and bestow a burning kiss on those unlucky enough to cross their path.
Satisfied that his fiery friends would be more than capable of keeping the slavers, even with their strange weaponry, busy, Kravos once again forced himself forward. His shoulder was still sore, but it had been healed enough that it was still usable.
By his blade, by his magic, by the power of his thu'um, by Rena's teeth and claws, by the strange bang! bang! bang! of Natasha's long-range weapon... One by one, the slavers fell, feeding the land with their blood. This same blood completely coated Kravos by the time he reached the building at the center of the compound. There he was greeted by a series of large chains and padlocks.
Growling, Kravos readied a spell to rip the massive metal doors away when a low, metallic whirling caught his attention.
Vvwhirrrrrr-cra-crac-CRACK!
Spinning around, Kravos' eyes widened as a large 'truck' rapidly approached him, running over the crude stage that had been constructed in the courtyard.
"You think that impresses me?" he scoffed. Taking in a deep breath, he reached for the power of the thu'um inside of him. "FUS RO DAH!"
The metal 'truck,' which was far larger and heavier than the one he'd ridden in with Natasha, was blown back, sent into a violent roll that had it crash through the main small structures of the compound, completely destroying them. Eventually, it crashed through one of the fences and rolled into the water.
Kravos paid no attention to any of this, however, because Rena was pawing at the metal door to the center building and he was now more certain that ever his girl was inside. Reaching for his now-waning magic (gods, he was old! ) Kravos cast another telekinesis spell and ripped the doors straight off their hinges.
"Ashe?" he called. "Ashe, I'm here!"
Chapter 23: Chapter Twenty-Three
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Ashe had woken up to find herself bound to a wall by a chain attached to a collar around her neck. The chain was long enough that Ashe could sit, lay down, and ever walk a short difference away from the wall; similarly, the collar was loose enough that it did not choke Ashe and, when she prodded it with fearful fingers, found it didn't appear to rigged to explode or electrocute her or anything like that.
But that was about the only thing positive Ashe could say about her situation. She was still chained up, she was still scared, and she was still going to be sold as a slave.
Well, at least she wasn't alone.
There were eleven other people locked up with her, including Westley, Miss Wendy, Ethan, and Cindy. The other people were a mix of adults and teenagers, no other children thankfully; Ethan and Cindy's crying was annoying enough as is.
It wasn't that Ashe didn't feel like crying; the container they were being kept in was probably a converted metal shipping container and far from comfortable. Being made of metal, it became unbearably hot, especially when it reached what Ashe suspected was midday; their captures only gave them enough water to keep them alive and heat delirium was a horrible thing... though an effective way to keep them compliant.
The heat also meant that the walls and the floor of the container were hot to the touch and it burned any bare skin; each of them had been given a rough, dirty mat to sleep on and that was it. To make matters worse, the slavers had taken all of their shoes, meaning that, if Ashe wandered off the mat, the soles of her feet would be burned.
She learned quickly not to do that.
Ashe always had been a smart girl.
But even that didn't matter much because on the rare occasion that their capture let them out to use the bathroom -one at a time, always with the person being escorted by one guard while two others held the rest of them at gunpoint- they'd have to walk across the hot metal floor anyway.
But, bizarrely, the worst thing was the boredom.
Ashe never thought she'd wish to be back in the haul cage of the slaver's ship, but there they'd had unhindered access to water, the means to clean themselves, and even a few small toys.
Here there was nothing.
Her fellow captives attempted to pass the time by talking with one another, mostly sharing stories of how they'd been captured, and Miss Wendy even attempted to lead everyone in some songs to keep their spirits up. But as time dragged on and they all became weaker from the heat and lack of proper food or water, all the talking faded away aside from brief snaps of incoherent rage or broken sobs.
In the beginning, there had been more tears than anger, but, eventually, people started snapping at each other more as the time for their sale grew closer.
For the most part, Ashe tried to avoid drawing attention to herself; she stayed silent as much as possible, only speaking when Westley or Miss Wendy spoke to her first, and, even then, only briefly. And, hard as it was, she acted shy and submissive when the slavers were around; Ashe kept her eyes on the ground when they were delivering food or water and never reacted when they said crude or scary comments.
'If I'm going to survive, I have to stay calm,' she reminded herself, fighting the urge to clench her fist and snark when one of the guards mocked Miss Wendy for pleading to be allowed to hold her children.
They'd all been spaced far enough apart that, no matter how much they stretched and twisted, no two people could touch. As much as Ashe tried to harden her heart, even she couldn't help but internal weep. Knowing you and your children were about to be sold into slavery was horrible enough; she couldn't imagine not even being able to hold or comfort them in the little time you had left together, especially while they were suffering from heat and hunger.
Still, Ashe forced away the sadness and pity; it would do her no good now. Laying on the filthy mat, she stared up at a particular spot of rust on the ceiling of their holding cell; if she turned her head a little and let her eyes go out of focus -which was progressively easier as heatstroke set in- then it kind of looked like a rad rabbit.
"Ashley? Hey, Ashley," Westley whispered, a thin layer of sweat covering his entire body.
It took a moment for his words to cut through the delirium that clouded Ashe's mind. "Huh?"
"I overheard something when the guards were letting me use the bathroom," he said. "We're going to be sold tomorrow morning; I even saw the stage where they're holding the auction."
He said this plainly and without emotion; like he was just talking about the weather. Any hope had left the older boy's eyes and, as he hugged his legs to his chest, Ashe realized that Westley had come to resigned acceptance of their situation.
Ashe envied him.
'Mr. Kravos, where are you?' she thought, a single tear sliding down her face.
No matter how much time passed, no matter how hopeless things seemed, Ashe could not give up on Mr. Kravos. Through all the doubt and fear, in her heart of hearts, she believed in her guardian. A man who'd taken in and raised so many children as his own, who had all the love in the world to give, wouldn't just give up on her?
Would he?
"Maybe we'll get lucky and they spray us down beforehand," she joked, swallowing hard against her dry throat. "I doubt we'll sell for much if we look all gross and sweaty."
Westley chuckled dryly and then started crying. Ashe said nothing, just rolled over and fell into a feverish sleep.
"...ake up! Ashl... wake up!"
Something hard and small bounced off Ashe's forehead, knocking away the last dredges of fitful sleep.
"Huh?" she grumbled, squinting through the gloom towards Westley. "What's going on?"
"How the hell have you been sleeping through all of this?" the boy snapped. "Something big is going on outside! It sounds like a war!"
Gone was the emptiness in Westley's eyes; now the boy was on his feet again, bouncing up and down as he tugged on the chain attached to his slave collar.
"I think someone is coming to save us!"
Despite the pounding in her head - 'probably a side effect from all the heat' - Ashe rolled up into a sitting position and focused.
Past the whispers of her fellow captives, the sniffling of Ethan and Cindy, and soothing shhhhh from Miss Wendy, Ashe could hear shouting -loud and terrified- and gunfire coming from past the solid metal of the cell door.
"What is-"
"FUS RO DAH!"'
BOOM!
Everyone hit the ground, hands clamped over their ringing ears to block them from the strange noise that seemed to rattle the very earth and vibrated in their very souls. Ashe has never heard anything quite that loud.
Except...
'Yes, I have heard something like that before!' she realized, thinking back to months before...
Ashe leapt to her feet, almost toppling over from a dizzy spell that nearly overtook her, and cried out, "MR. KRAVOS, I'M IN HERE! HELP ME! WE'RE IN HERE! HELP US!"
She didn't know if her weak, croaky voice could be heard outside but she had to try, she didn't want to be a victim any longer.
Taking another breath in, she screamed, "MR. KRAVOS, PLEASE! HELP-"
BANG!
The doors to the holding cell were thrown up, bouncing off the walls, and there, outlined against the pale dawn light, stood Ashe's savior with fierce, loyal Rena by his side. Holding her breath, Ashe could only take the sight of the man in; she couldn't say exactly how long it had been since they'd seen each other -a week at least- but there was something... different about him now.
Dripping in blood and sword in his hand, there was something terrifying about the man that Ashe had never seen before. It was something in the eyes, she thought; where she had always known them to be warm and kind with just a touch of mischievousness, there was now something vicious and cruel and animalistic in them that had never been there before.
But it didn't make her feel afraid, not in the least. Despite the blood, despite the weapon, and despite the situation, this was still Mr. Kravos. And Ashe would trust him with her life.
"You did come!" she wept, tears starting to stream down her face.
"Oh, sweetheart, of course I did," the old man said, stepping forward and cupping her cheek, whipping some of the tears with the callus pad of his thumb.
But then he hardened again, sleeping back and surveying all the captives. "Is everyone alright? Can everyone walk?"
There is a stunned silence that hangs in the hair for a tense moment as all of Ashe's fellow captives stare at Mr. Kravos in wide-eyed surprise, as if they weren't entirely sure he was real or if he was a hallucination brought on by heat and desperation. But then, all at once, the quiet -not quiet; the sounds of violence and battle and bloodshed were still ringing outside- broke and everyone began talking -yelling- at once. They begged for help, demanded to know how he was, tugged at their chains, and pleaded to be released immediately.
Their voices echoed off the metal of the cell, bouncing around and multiplying in volume. Mr. Kravos blinked, taking a step back, and raised his hand, "Quiet down!"
His voice boomed from deep in his chest and easily overwhelmed the noisy chattering, cutting it off abruptly.
"I am here to rescue you all but we do not have much time; anyone who has an injury that prevents or slows mobility needs to speak up now."
Slowly, cautiously, a few people piped up with remarks about twisted ankles and broken toes. Thankfully, there were no major injuries; Ashe supposed that their captors wanted them in prime condition for selling, and unsightly, debilitating injuries would lower their value.
Taking in the complaints, Kravos nodded and came to Ashe's side with strong, purposeful strides. Ashe's heart thundered with immediate fear as he raised his sword but that faded immediately when he slashed straight through the metal chain, fearing her. The collar was still there, but now she was free to move around. She wanted to throw herself into the old man's arms and beg for forgiveness but held back for now; there was no time for that and Mr. Kravos immediately went to free the other captives, starting with Westley.
That didn't mean no one was there to comfort her though. Almost immediately, Rena was on her; the pooch whined loudly as she pushed her massive head into Ashe's chest. A fresh wave of tears came as she hugged the dog back, not caring one lick about the blood covering her fur and muzzle. "Hi girl, I missed you!"
A warm, wet tongue dragged up Ashe's cheek and, through her tears, she giggled for the first time in what felt like ever.
"So this guy is the one you were talking about? Your guardian?" Westley asked, coming up beside her.
"Yeah!" she grinned, scratching Rena behind the ears. "He came! Just like I told you he would!"
"I can't believe it," the boy whispered, hopefully returning to his eyes. "We're really going home! I can see my mom and dad again!"
But they couldn't get too far ahead of themselves; they still had to escape.
Soon Mr. Kravos had everyone free and ready to go. Miss Wendy had Cindy held tight in her arms while Ethan was being carried on the back of a large burly man. Those who had injuries that prevented them from moving easily were being assisted by others.
"Everyone, gather around," Mr. Kravos instructed, waving everyone closer. "There is someone outside of the compound who is waiting to perform an extraction but we need to get there first. We're going to need to run and move as tightly as possible, like an animal herd; the children and injured should be in the center where they'll be the safest. Everyone understands?"
Concerned murmurs broke out among the crowd once more but only one spoke up.
"What about all the slavers?" a woman asked. "If we stay close together then won't we be an easy target for them?"
"Most of the slavers have already been taken care of," Mr. Kravos replied. "But, aye, that is a valid concern. However, everyone staying together is the best way for me to protect you all."
"You? Protect all of us?" someone scoffed. "You're just an old man! I say we all scatter -every man for himself!"
'As if he did just kick in the door to save us all,' Ashe mentally growled. ' It isn't like you were doing anything to help anyone, you jerk!'
"That is your right, young man," Ashe's guardian said gravely. "But it is also your risk. If you die, it will not be on my heart or mind. Do as you wish."
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"Alright, alright... I'll stay with everyone else," the man grumbled, stepping into formation and causing the old man to smile.
"Rena, to the front!" he barked, ordering the Lakeview Shepherd to his side. "Listen up! I know this isn't going to be easy but you'll all need to pull yourselves together and focus on what's in front of you! Rena here-" he gestured to the dog, who barked "- will lead the way! I know what you might be thinking but, let me assure you, she is more than smart enough for the task. I'll stay at the back of the pack to protect everyone. Any questions?"
There were probably plenty but no one had time to voice everyone as another explosion from outside signaled that it was time to go.
"Alright, everyone! One... Two... Three... Go!"
They moved as quickly as a group of scared, injured men, women, and children could, huddling close together as they followed Rena as she wove through the buildings and burning piles of rubbles.
And bodies.
There were a lot of bodies littering the ground, some burned, some blown apart, and some bleeding out in the dirt. More than once, Ashe nearly slipped in the bloody mud that covered the ground.
But they pressed on through the tears and the fears and the pain of twisted ankles and sharp bits of glass and gravel biting into bare feet. They pressed on because the only other choice was to lay down and die. And, pretty soon, they saw one of the gates to the compound blown wide open. On the horizon, speeding towards the group, was a red truck that Ashe had never seen before.
'Did Mr. Kravos make some new friends?'
It felt a weight had been untied from Ashe's neck the second she passed through the gate; never again would she take freedom for granted. She didn't stop running though, not until the truck spun around and pulled to a hard stop around them. The driver's side door was thrown open, revealing a beautiful redheaded woman and a dog.
"Kravos?" she shouted out "All these people-"
"Never mind," the old man shook his head. "We need to get away from here! Everyone get in!"
It was an uncomfortable fit; the truck was simply not big enough for fourteen people and two large dogs. Ashe, Westley, Ethan, Cindy, Miss Wendy, and two of the most injured were squished into the cab of the truck while everyone else piled into the bed, hanging on for dear life.
"Is everyone in?" The woman called out, already gunning the engine. She glanced out the mirror, growled, and shouted out the window, "What the hell are you doing, Kravos? Get in the bed now!"
"No, one last thing!"
The old man stood away from the truck, took a deep breath, and shouted to the sky, "STRUN BAH QO!"
Instantly, as Ashe and the others watched on in horror, the sky itself seemed to open up. Clouds filled the sky, darkening until it looked as if it could have been night, and heavy sheets of rain poured down on the land as lightning began darting through the darkness.
"What the hell?" someone shouting, nearly drowned out by a clash of thunder so loud it rattled the truck.
Despite the fear coursing through her veins, Ashe pushed herself up to the window; her heart leapt when she saw Mr. Kravos running toward the truck. He took a running jump, landing in the bed. Mr. Kravos slapped his hand on the outer cab and shouted, "Go! Go! Go!"
Without a word, the red-haired woman slammed on the gas and the car flew away from the slaver's compound.
Chapter 24: Chapter Twenty-Foru
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The truck tore across the dusty landscape at the highest speed Natasha could force it to go. The peddle was already pressed against floorboards, which grew hot under her boots as the old engine strained to handle the pressure she was putting it under. Still, she urged the vehicle forward, eyes on the calm blue strip of sky at the horizon. When Nat glanced at the reflection in the rearview mirror, she saw a raging storm that unleashed sheets of pelting rain down on the land, massive bolts of lightning that struck the ground again and again, and rolls of thunder so loud that they rattled the eardrums and caught inside her chest.
'This is no normal storm,' she thought to herself, ignoring the screams of women and children mixed with the howling of Rena and Dog Meat.
While Natasha's view of 'normal' had been shattered and rapidly reconstructed since waking up in the vault, nothing she had seen while wandering the Commonwealth suggested that men had gained the power to summon massive storms with the power of their voices.
'What the hell is he?'
In the back of her mind, Nat remembered what Kravos had said early about how she may see things he couldn't explain. And she certainly had! Fire women, chains of lightning, explosions... Natasha had watched it all from the scope of her sniper rifle, picking off slavers whenever she could, and not one of those phenomena had come from any sort of weapon she could see.
As a girl, Natasha's Nana had told her myths and legends about the heroes and gods of the old times, before science and religion replaced magic and wonder in the hearts and minds of those who live in Ireland. As a child, she'd listened with awe and excitement to stories about Medb, Queen of Connacht, Cú Chulainn, Brigid, and, of course, the sinister Morrígan with her blood-splattered wings; this gradually faded away as Nat grew older, but now she wondered...
'The second we're somewhere safe, I'm grilling that man for all he is worth!' Natasha promised herself, jerking the steering wheel to the side to avoid hitting a tree that had been torn from the ground and thrown in their path by the gale-force winds. 'He ended up being able to save everyone, so I'm glad he did... whatever that was but I deserve some answers, damnit!'
But, as it turned out, Natasha didn't have to wait as long as she thought because, almost as suddenly as the storm came, it vanished.
The rain peated out, the winds died down, the lightning stopped, the clouds dispersed, and the thunder ended with one last long, low rumble. All that was left was a bright blue sky, a muddy ground, and the wreck wrought upon the landscape.
Thud! Thud! Thud!
Nat jumped in surprise at the noise, glancing up in the rearview window to see Kravos face staring at her.
"Stop there!" he mouthed, pointing a finger at a small outcropping of rocks ahead of them.
Natasha pursed her lips and looked over their surroundings with narrowed eyes. Seeing no immediate danger, she lifted her foot from the gas pedal and let the truck slow to a crawl until they came to a rest.
"Is it... over?" the little redheaded girl asked.
The boy sitting next to her peaked out from between his fingers, hands still clamped over his face. "Are we safe?"
"Yes, I think so," Nat said, cautiously rolling down her window. The air was cool and damp, fresh and clean smelling. It would have been nice if not for... "Well, the storm is over at least. Everyone out, I want to talk to everyone!"
All the rescued would-be slaves blinked at the order and hesitated for a moment, looking at Natasha with a combination of fear and distrust.
'Considering what they've gone through, I can't blame them,' she thought. 'Oh, what would Grant do? He was always better with people than me.'
Forcing a smile, Natasha tried again. "It's alright. I'm with the Minutemen, I was sent to rescue you all. Of course, I had some help from my friend, Kravos, back there but I swear that I mean you no harm."
"Minutemen?" the woman with the port-wine stain asked, holding the two small children with her close. "Thank the heavens!"
She kissed the crown of the little girl's head. "See sweetheart? I told you someone would come to help us."
"Yes, we got news of some slavers kidnapping people from the coast and I was dispatched to help," Nat explained, glad she was getting somewhere. "Now, I want to work on getting you all home but first I need to take stock of who is here and where they're from."
"Some of us are injured," the woman said. "I hate to be a bother, especially after you've done so much to help up but..."
"Say no more, I'll get everyone matched up as soon as possible," Natasha explained. "I've got some drinks and snacks too; I'll pass those out once we get everything situated."
'And after I talk to Kravos.'
Natasha had never been good with words but, once in a blue moon, she seemed to say the right thing. Thankfully, now was one of those times.
"Thank you, Miss," the woman said before turning to address the children. "It's alright everyone, we can trust her."
The red-headed girl raised her eyebrow and gave the woman an unamused look but obeyed nonetheless. The boy reached past Rena and Dog Meat to open the door; the dogs hopped out immediately, shaking themselves out and stretching as they ran circles one another. The boy -'This must be Westley,' Nat realized, the resemblance between the boy and the couple from a few days ago only now dawning on her. 'I guess I've been under a bit of tunnel vision.'- followed, as did the rest.
'This is better weather than I've seen since waking up in that damn vault,' Natasha thought as she stepped out, tilting her head to catch some warm rays of sunlight and enjoying the cool weather.
The other rescued prisoners were climbing out of the truck bed, comforting one another and checking over their own bodies, searching for injuries. Kravos was helping a young woman get into a comfortable position, her ankle propped up on one of the canvas sacks he'd brought along when the little Ashe threw herself into the man's arms.
"I'm! So! Sorry!" she sobbed. "I! Was! Such! A! Brat!
Kravos smiled and hugged the girl closer, smoothing her disheveled hair back. "Oh, sweetheart, there is nothing to apologize for! If anything, I should be begging for your forgiveness; it took me so long to rescue you."
Ashe just shook her head, wrapping her arms tighter around the man and sniffing into his shirt. Natasha watched the scene play out and had to fight back tears as memories of Grant and Shaun flooded her mind. She was glad Kravos had her family back and the girl was now safe in the arms of someone who could protect her, but all Nat could think about was how her family was gone and how they could never come back. No matter how many slavers or raiders she killed, no matter how strong Natasha got, she could never turn back the clock and save the ones she loved.
'I'll let them have this,' she thought. 'Let's hold off on the interrogation for now.'
She reached into the truck bed, pulling out a crate of ration bars and protein shakes. "Alright, who's hungry?"
"I'm Nancy O'Brian and they got me from Dock Port, it's a small fishing settlement about five days east of here. We're so small that no one really bothers with us. We don't even have a real defense force, just some men who patrol once or twice a day. They probably weren't even out to hear me scream."
Nat nodded sympathetically and added that to her note. Handing over her map of the surrounding area, she asked, "Can you mark where your settlement is? That'll help us get you home easier."
On top of saving those abducted and putting an end to the slavers' operation, Preston had given Nat the tertiary mission of trying to discern the routes used by the slavers' to travel and find victims. Safe travel routes were a valuable thing and, if the Minutemen could secure them for their own use, it would give them a major advantage. And, even if they couldn't manage that, then, at the very least, it gave them an easier way for snuffing out other slaver caravans.
The scruffy, dark-haired young woman shoved the rest of her ration bar into her mouth and nodded, taking the map and pen.
"I'm afraid I was so preoccupied with my own worries that it never occurred to me to ask," Kravos said, appearing by her shoulder, "but how are you planning to transport all of these people home? They won't all fit comfortably in your carria- truck, and you don't strike me as the type to just leave them here to find their own way home."
"What? Of course not," Natasha snapped, offended by the very thought. But, after a minute, she sighed, "But I don't know. There were more than I expected. Preston thought there would only be four to six victims tops; it would have been a tight fit in the truck but doable. I could radio back to our settlement and call for backup but it would take them a few days, maybe even a week, to get here. And there isn't anywhere nearby that we can hole up in for that time."
"You'd all be vulnerable camping out here," Kravos nodded, scratching his scruffy chin. "There has to be a way to transport everyone safely."
For some reason, it was that line that snapped Natasha back to reality. She glanced around his shoulder to make sure Ashe had wandered off to cuddle with Rena and then grabbed Kravos by the sleeve, "Hey, we need to talk."
The man didn't resist as Nat pulled her away from the crowd and his face was calm when she started in on him.
"What the hell was all of that?"
"I assume you are referring to the storm?" he said gently, like he was addressing a frustrated toddler.
For some reason, that sent a sudden hot rush of anger coursing through her body. Natasha was not stupid and she wasn't a child; Kravos had no right to treat her like one, "The storm, the fire, the disappearing. And that scream, for god's sake! I've never seen anything like it! Was it some sort of technology? Or some sort of... some sort of..."
"Magic?"
The words left Natasha's lips.
"Magic isn't real," she sputtered, shaking her head. "You can't honestly expect me to believe that is what happened."
That got her another gentle smile, "Perhaps... but you can believe in what you saw with your own eyes. What did you see, Natasha?"
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"Something indescribably incredible," she eventually admitted, shaking her head. "Look, Kravos, I don't know what it is but... maybe it isn't worth questioning? Whatever it was helped you save all these people and that is really all I care about."
"Don't sell yourself short. You did just as much as I did," Kravos said. He chuckled, "You remind me of an old friend, Aela -right down to the hair. She was a long-range fighter too, though more than fierce enough to rip a man's throat out if they got too close. A true she-wolf, that one. A little more hot-blooded than you though; she wouldn't have stopped me from running headfirst into that camp without a plan. In fact, she'd have done it with me."
A misty look filled the man's eyes and Nat had to wonder if, maybe long ago, Aela had left this world.
But the look was gone before she could ponder it too deeply. "But, putting all that aside, we still don't have a way to transport all these victims back home. And I'm afraid that I have no... tools at my disposal that can help up. I mean, I'm a decent enough sailor but..."
'A sailor? Huh...'
"I think I may have an idea."
"We're going back there?" One of the men shouted, horror filling his eyes. "Why in the hell would we do that?"
"Because we need supplies," Natasha explained. "And, like it or not, that base is the only place around for miles likely to have any."
"But-"
"Every piece of scum slaver there is dead now," Kravos said, cutting the man off. "Any any who would have survived will be of no threat to you all, of that I swear. However, if you have any better ideas than Lady Natasha and I would be glad to hear them."
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"Alrighty then, everyone back into the truck!"
It was an eerily quiet ride back to the base, the only sounds being the soft whimpering from the two little kids and the soft cooing of their mother. Even Dog Meat and Rena had relocated to the truck bed, which at least left things a little less cramping inside the cab.
"Excuse me, miss?" piped up the little redhead. "Can I ask what you and Mr. Kravos are planning?"
"...To be honest, going back was my idea," Nat said. "As for why? Well, call it a hunch, but most of the victims were kidnapped from somewhere along the coast so, logically, the slavers were traveling by boat."
"Yeah, they were!" Westley exclaimed. "They grabbed me from a ship, Miss Wendy and the little kids too!"
Wendy met Natasha's eyes in the rearview window and nodded silently.
"Yeah, me too!" Ashe added. "They grabbed me right off of Mr. Kravos' island! Of course, it was my own stupid fault for running off like an idiot."
Wendy stumbled over herself to assure the girl that no, nothing that happened was her fault. And she was right, but Nat bit her own tongue. As someone who carried her own mess of irrational guilt, she knew that disagreeing with what Ashe was feeling would do no good right now.
"My hope is that there will still be at least one ship left at the base that is seaworthy," she said instead. "I understand that it may be-" Natasha glanced out of the corner of her eye at Ashe, who'd gone pale under her many scrapes and bruises "-uncomfortable to get back on board one of them, but it would be our best chance to get everyone home safely."
"Maybe," Westley whispered. "But it still sucks."
Nat sighed, desperately wishing she'd never given up smoking. "That it does, kiddo. That it does."
"Listen up, here is the plan. We will form four groups and scavenge for supplies: one to stay at the truck with Rena, one to come with me, one to come with Dog Meat, and one to go with Lady Natasha here. Does everyone understand? Good, those who are injured will stay at the truck but, other than that, divide up."
Natasha felt a twinge of jealousy about how easily Kravos assumed control of the situation. There was simply a calm, easy air about him that everyone seemed to instantly respect and turn to. She'd never felt comfortable in any leadership role she blundered into and still didn't.
"Alright people, let's move out," she called out, waving her small group of four people closer. "Give a shout if you find anything. We'll check down by the docks first."
The docks were just as decimated as the rest of the compound, wreckage every, but they were able to pick out some decently in-tact fishing supplies and cans of gasoline -a truly good score. But the best thing of all was the small shipping vessel half-overturned and one high tide away from being pulled out into the sea. Sure, it was banged up and had taken on more than a little water.
"But it'll work," Natasha said to herself with a smile. "We can get everyone home."
Chapter 25: Chapter Twenty-Five
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Staring out onto the horizon, Ashe tilted her head back to catch the warmth of the sunlight, and her hair caught in the sea breeze. She'd only ever been on a boat twice before; the first time when she was hiding on a dingy that accidentally went adrift, which is how she ended up on Mr. Kravos' island in the first place, and the second was, of course, when she was held captive on the slaver ship. Needless to say, neither had been pleasant experiences.
But this time was different. Sure, she was still technically on a (repurposed) slaver's ship, and, honestly, this one was less comfortable than the one Ashe had been on earlier. Yet she still felt safe and relaxed, almost like she was back home with Mr. Kravos and Rena. Looking out towards the sun, she felt hopeful for what the future would bring.
Of course, all that hope didn't detract from the fact the two people in charge of the ship didn't actually seem to know what they were doing.
"Alright, I think this thing here is the navigation system," Ms. Natasha said, fiddling with a small console. "And if I... put... in the... location coordinates to the Bakerville farm, then we can drop Westley off there. After that, we can backtrack to your house. I checked out the fuel gauge and I think there will be enough left to make it to your place and then loop around to a Minutemen settlement at Nordhagen Beach. It is a pretty small base but from there I can contact Preston and we can work on a plan to get all these people home safely."
She glanced over from the screen to Mr. Kravos, "Keep the wheel straight. We don't want to drift off course."
Mr. Kravos cocked an eyebrow, "I do know how to steer a ship, you know."
"You've sailed one of these?" Ms. Natasha asked with a grin, tapping a finger against the computer screen.
Ashe fought the urge to snicker at Mr. Kravos' affronted grumbling. The man said nothing, only adjusted his grip on the helm and changed the subject.
"If I recall correctly from when you showed me the map, then some of our new passengers were taken from places between here and the settlement," Mr. Kravos said. "How do you plan on dealing with that?"
"Well, I was considering just coming ashore and dropping them off; however, I'm also worried we might be fired on if we approach some of the larger settlements in an unknown ship," Ms. Natasha admitted. "So maybe it would be better if I just took them all back to Nordhagen first and then got back up to see them home. It would take up more time and resources but would also probably be safer overall."
Mr. Kravos gave a thoughtful nod, "Would you prefer to change up our course and go there first? That way I could be there as protection and a second pair of hands."
Ashe's breath caught in her chest and all of her joy turned to horror. 'What? That wasn't the plan!'
"But I want to go home!" she screamed, hot tears prickling in her eyes. "You said we were going home!"
Her outburst got her a shocked look from both Mr. Kravos and Ms. Natasha, even Rena raised her head from her paws and gave a concerned whine. Their surprised and concerned looks had Ashe flushing as red as her hair.
"I'm sorry," she stuttered, immediately backtracking. "That was bad. I don't want to be selfish, it's just that..."
Mr. Kravos gave her a sad, sympathetic look, "I understand completely, sweetheart."
"Thank you for the offer, Kravos, but that is unnecessary. Getting Westley back safely was my original objective and one I want to see completed quickly. And you really should be getting Ashe home; she has been through a horrible ordeal," Ms. Natasha said, reaching over to smooth a motherly hand down Ashe's hair.
"Of course, she is my primary concern," said the old man, pulling Ashe into a one-armed hug.
Ashe nuzzled into his side, taking comfort in his warmth and the soft arm fabric of his shirt. They silently relished in one another's presence for a moment while Ms. Natasha respectfully returned her focus to the ship's control.
After a moment, Kravos patted Ashe and ruffled her hair. "Now, I need to speak with Lady Natasha about something. Can you help get supper served? After helping me for some long, I trust you more than anyone else to turn out something edible."
Despite the obvious ploy to send her away, Ashe felt a rush of pride at being given the responsibility. She'd once heard Prudence Miller's grandfather, Old Man Octavian, say that keeping people fed was the second most important job while on a ship, and he used to be a cargo ship captain so it must be true.
"You can count on me," she said, standing up straight and jutting her chin out.
The ship was not overly large, probably only a little bigger than the one she'd been brought in. But with fourteen people, two large dogs, and Miss Natasha's truck, it felt crowded. Ashe had only taken a few steps out of the cockpit, Rena trodding along at her side with her claws clicking against the metal boat floor, before she bumped into Westley.
"Hey, Ashe. Going for a walk?" he joked. Now that they were out of immediate danger, the boy's spirits had lifted immensely and he proved himself to be quite the jokester.
'Now if only the jokes he told were funny,' Ashe thought to herself, fighting the urge to roll her eyes. "Mr. Kravos asked me to help make dinner."
"Oh right, I think one of the ladies is making some sort of soup. I'm not what it is, but it doesn't look all that good," Westley said. "Still, I'm not going to complain. Considering, you know..."
Ashe flinched, her eyes automatically glancing out across the water in the direction of the now-destroyed slaver camp. Westley looked similarly uncomfortable, staring down at his oversized worn work boots and tugging at a loose thread of his shirt. Despite his renewed happiness and hope for life, Wes still looked like he'd been through a rough time, there were still dark bags under his eyes, smudges of dirt and grime behind his ears and around his elbows, and the clothes he was wearing were oversized and mix-matched with there only real benefit being their state of relative cleanliness.
There was a good reason for that. Mr. Kravos had ordered the destroyed camp stripped of anything useful like food, water, medicine, money, and clothes. After being kidnapped, held captive, and stuck in a hot shipping container, Ashe and the other captives' clothing had been dirty, covered in dirt and blood, and drenched in sweat. Everyone had felt absolutely filthy, in more ways than one, and wanted to get clean. Despite this, no one felt comfortable using the slavers' washing facilities and washing off in the ocean risked a dangerous amount of radiation exposure. This meant they all had to resort to sponge baths on the ship, using soap and water scavenged from rain barrels before changing into the best fitting clothes they could find.
Ashe, at the very least, had been lucky in that respect. Mr. Kravos had brought her some clean clothes, including her favorite yellow dress, and putting it on had felt indescribably good. While she always liked the green and gray dress she'd been captured in, she immediately chucked it into one of the barrel fires that had been lit on deck to provide warmth after changing out of it.
'I hope Mr. Kravos won't be mad at me for that. Despite everything, it wasn't nice of me to destroy something that could have belonged to his daughters and granddaughters.'
"So... did you talk to your old man and the Minutelady about what the plan for getting us all home is?" Westley asked, still visibly uncomfortable.
Though he didn't come out and say it directly, it was obvious that he was anxious to get home. Which was understandable, it was all Ashe's fellow former captives could seem to talk about. Everyone wanted to get home first, as selfish as that seemed -including Ashe herself.
"Not really," she admitted. But, when Westley visibly deflated from disappointment, she quickly added, "But I did hear Mr. Kravos and Miss Natasha talking about it. From what I hear, you might be dropped off first!"
Wes immediately perked up, face splitting into a broad grin. "Really?"
"Yes, I think so," Ashe nodded. "You should go talk to them. I'm sure they wouldn't mind."
Westley didn't even bother saying goodbye before rushing by Ashe. In fact, she was pretty sure he was gone before she even finished speaking.
"Boys!" she huffed, rolling her eyes.
"Hey, kid," greeted the ship's self-appointed cook from over the rim of a simmering pot. "What do you need?"
She was one of the older women in the group, though not nearly as old as Mr. Kravos. Ashe didn't know much about her, except that she had the hard, tanned skin and sun-bleached hair of a field worker -Ashe had seen plenty of women with the look back in Tough Seed- and apparently been taken while tending some crops alone. She hadn't even bothered to remember her name -knowing would only make it worse when the time came for everyone to be sold.
"Mr. Kravos said I should come help with dinner," she explained, rocking back and forth on the balls of her feet with her arms clasped behind her back. "Is there anything I can do?"
The woman chuckled. "This? I'm not sure I can really call it dinner. Your old man was smart enough to have us collect all the food in the camp before we left and, combined with what he and Green had with them is enough that we aren't in any danger of going hungry but there also aren't enough of any one thing to make a cohesive meal. Honestly, I was just planning on tossing a bunch of odds 'n' ends into the pot and seeing what we end up with."
"Can I see it?"
"I don't see what good that will do," the woman said, cocking an eyebrow.
"Oh, let her do it," Miss Wendy said, looking up from the shirt she was doing her best to patch with a small sewing kit she'd managed to find in Miss Natasha's car. Beside her, Cindy and Ethan slept curled up together on a mat, their breathing coming out in soft, puppy-like pants. "How much harm could it do, Daisy?"
It appeared to Ashe that the school teacher had decided that her role on the ship would be that of a caregiver. After getting Ethan and Cindy calmed, fed, and settled in, she'd gotten to work tending to minor wounds, helping to get all of the scavenged supplies organized and accounted for, cleaning different parents of the boat, and generally fussing over everyone. Some people welcomed her hovering, most tolerated it, and some had already started going out of their way to avoid her.
"Well... I guess if your old man asked you to help then it isn't my place to stand in your way," the woman, Daisy, eventually said. "Come hop up here and take a look. Maybe all this stuff will jog something in your noggin."
No waiting around for permission to be revoked, Ashe didn't hesitate to climb up onto the counter. Miss Daisy had laid all of the ingredients out and, after looking them over for a moment, she could understand why the woman had been so incredulous!
'It looks like Mr. Kravos just threw one of everything he had in a bag,' she thought.
But Ashe had studied Mr. Kravos' recipe books more vigorously than her math books and she'd watched the man cook elaborate meals out of what appeared to be the most random of ingredients.
'I can do this,' she told herself, scanning ingredients once more.
It wasn't long before something clicked.
"Oh, we have the stuff to make mushroom and vegetable risotto," she said.
"Risotto?" Miss Daisy laughed. "I think you're doing some wishful thinking there, kiddo."
"No, seriously! We have everything here!" Ashe insisted. "Rice, mushrooms, leeks, garlic, and an onion. Sure, we're missing vegetable stock and some seasonings, so it won't taste quite the same but it should still be good."
"It has been a long time since I had a good rice dish," Miss Wendy commented, grinning a little in Ashe's direction. "Probably since... Oh, it must have been before I got married."
Miss Daisy bit her lip, "It's been years for me too but I'm not sure everyone will be satisfied with just that for dinner, especially after everything."
"We can add some meat too," Ashe said. "It would probably even give it more flavor! I think that salted horker loaf would probably work."
"What's a horker?" Ethan asked, barely lifting his head off the mat to blink at her sleepily.
Ashe shrugged, "Some sort of big animal. Mr. Kravos says they are dangerous to hunt but their meat and hide are really valuable. I don't really like it that much but it's better than nothing."
"Alright, alright!" Miss Daisy said, holding her hands up. "I give! We'll have risotto for dinner! But you're going to have to take the lead here, kid. I haven't the slightest clue how to make something like that."
"I can handle it," the girl said with a firm nod. Balancing on an overturned crate, she pulled over a small cloth sack. "Well, first we have to boil the rice. While that is going we can work on chopping up the vegetables, mushrooms, and meat. You'll have to help me with that though. Mr. Kravos won't let me use a knife yet."
"So where do you and the kids call home, Wendy?" Miss Daisy asked.
"A little town called Grathston," the other woman explained. "I doubt you've heard of it but it's situated in this rocky outcrop of a small bay. It doesn't have much in the way of luxuries but is a nice place to live; we've got quite a few families which meant that my skills as a teacher were well-appreciated."
Miss Daisy nodded and, not looking up from stirring the rise, continued, "And your husband? What does he do?"
"Oh, Matthew... isn't working at the moment due to some health issues. But he used to be the best electrician in town.”
"He must be worrying about the three of you," Miss Daisy said. "And I can't imagine how excited you and the kids must be to get back to him. I lost my Edgar two years ago and I know I'd give anything to see him again."
Out of the corner of Ashe's eyes, she watched as Miss Wendy wrung her hands together, lips pressed tightly shut. At her feet, Ethan and Cindy both went still under their blankets, similarly silent.
'What is happening there?' she wondered. 'Do they not want to see their dad again? I mean, I don't want to see my dad either but...'
Could that mean...
Oh.
'Yeah, I guess that makes sense.'
"We all have Ashe here to thank for this wonderful dinner so you all better be grateful to her," Miss Daisy said, spooning heapfuls of steaming risotto onto plates to be passed out.
"Indeed, this all smells delicious, Ashe," Mr. Kravos said. "I'm very impressed."
Ashe blushed, "I just did what you asked me to, Mr. Kravos. Nothing special."
"Yes, but you did it very well," the old man said. "And that itself is worthy of praise."
"Yeah, kid, you should be proud of yourself," one of the men chimed in.
"This smells amazing," another spoke up.
Miss Natasha stood up, raising her glass, "So we're all in agreement? Alright, TO ASHE!"
"TO ASHE!"
With cheers echoing around her, Ashe's felt a smile threaten to split her face. She felt so happy! So loved! So important!
And yet, out of the corner of her eye, she couldn't help but watch Miss Wendy fiddling with her wedding ring, a fearful look on her face.
Chapter 26: Chapter Twenty-Six
Notes:
Sorry this took so long, I was focusing on getting the latest chapter of 'A Dovahkiin Spreads His Wings' out.
WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS REFERENCES TO DOMESTIC AND CHILD ABUSE!
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It was obvious to Kravos that something was weighing on Ashe's mind.
This, in and of itself, was not surprising. The poor girl had been through a harrowing experience these past few days, on top of having a short, painful life. So it was only natural that there'd be ghosts that nagged her thoughts. He tried, both recently and shortly after she'd come to live with him, to get Ashe to open up about what she'd gone through, only to be met with deflection, platitudes, and silence. So Kravos let her be for now; years of raising children that the world had beaten down and left behind had taught him that attempting to force Ashe to speak of her pain before she was ready would only lead to tears and a loss of trust.
But this was different.
It wasn't so much that Ashe seemed sad or scared, it was more that she was concerned or deep in thought about something. Out of the corner of his eyes, Kravos has seen her staring across the ship deck at some of the other rescued victims. Or, rather, he'd caught Ashe staring at the young woman with two small children. She’d watch the woman play with the little ones or assist in the various chores that needed to be done on the ship. Occasionally, she'd be beckoned closer but Ashe would rarely accept, seemingly preferring to keep her distance.
'Is she thinking of her mother?' he wondered.
Ashe rarely spoke of her past but, when she did, it was more often of her mother and friends back in her home village. Kravos knew the girl's mother was dead, as was most of that side of the family. So perhaps Ashe was searching out a maternal figure to give her that gentle, unconditional love all children craved? It wouldn't be a surprise. All of Kravos' children had felt this way to some degree and, thankfully, he had enough lady friends and female companions or housecarls to give them the attention they craved.
Sure, it was often a gruffer type of affection than a mother would typically give -Rayya and Aela weren't exactly gentle in anything they did- but that didn't make it any less real.
Unfortunately, that was not the case here and it would be at least four more months until the spell to return Ashe and himself back to Skyrim was ready. While many of Kravos' friends had aged and passed on, there were still plenty who'd want to dote on Ashe and would love her without question. Perhaps he could even send Ashe to Blasie and Beika for a few months? Ashe was close in age to the twins. Perhaps Antosa and Aniskja would like to have a 'big sister' around?
Quite frankly, Ashe needed more companionship than an old man and his dog. A girl her age needed to be other children with whom she could bond and play. Hard as her life may have been when she was living with her parents, Ashe had always spoken happily about the friends she'd had and, though she'd never admitted it, Kravos knew she missed them.
'Should I approach the subject?' he wondered, staring up at the rusted metal ceiling of the room.
The ship wasn't large and most of the rooms it did have weren't meant for sleeping. The result was shared quarters -if not shared bunks- and people using the softest bits of whatever could be found as mats, pillows, and blankets. There were sleeping cabins -and the young and injured got first dibs on those- but few felt comfortable sleeping in the same beds where the men who'd kidnapped and tried to enslave them had laid their heads.
He, Rena, and Ashe had ended up in the supply closet, a small, poorly lit space that was nevertheless nearly empty with only one easily defendable entrance and therefore was an appropriate place to sleep. While Rena had claimed an old canvas tarp in the corner of the room for herself, Kravos had made up two beds with the bedrolls and sleeping pallets he'd brought along stretched across some empty wooden crates to keep them both up from the damp, slightly sticky floor.
Was it particularly comfortable? No. But Kravos had slept in the worst places and was willing to bet that Ashe had too.
He glanced over at the girl, finding her lying too still and too stiff to truly be asleep.
"Ashe?"
The tiny form shifted and, after a moment, Ashe slid out of bed and padded over to him. Rena poked her furry white head up as she watched Ashe, alert and ready to defend. Hesitantly, she tugged at the top of his blanket, her little fingers knotting in the thick woolen fabric. Through the dim gloom of the room, Kravos could see the hope in her eyes... and the worry for the rejection she might receive.
'She's never asked to sleep with me before.'
Kravos wordlessly pulled the top of his bedroll open and help Ashe crawl up to cuddle against him. Her tiny head was a featherlight weight on his chest and her cold, bare toes curled against his calf. The old Dragonborn carded his fingers through Ashe's hair, his callous catching on strands of fiery red tresses. It was getting longer, he noted, and was now curling around the tops of her narrow shoulder blades. Seeing that neither her master nor charge was in danger, Rena put her head back down on her shoulders and curled up, ready for sleep.
"Mr. Kravos?" Ashe whispered.
"Yes, sweetling?"
"I think there is something wrong with Miss Wendy."
That certainly wasn't was Kravos had been expecting to hear. He lifted his head to look Ashe in the eyes. "What makes you think that?"
The girl bit her lip and she squirmed, trying to get comfortable, and Kravos stayed silent, waiting for her to speak again. Ashe had brought this up herself and, if he'd learned anything about the girl, it was that she was cautious with her words. If she chose to use them for this, it was for a good reason.
"I've been watching her, her and the babies," Ashe explained. "I've been watching how she acts when other people talk about going home. Like last night at dinner, everyone was talking about what they wanted to do and the people they wanted to see when they got back home but did you noticed that none of them said anything?"
Kravos let out a thoughtful hum. He had noticed how silent the little family had been; though, admittedly, he hadn't thought much about it. He'd been busy helping Natasha chart her course -while he may not know these waters Kravos could still give his opinion about possible dangers to avoid while traveling along a coastline- and had passed it off as a tired mother with two sleepy children. Now though...
"You are an amazingly perceptive little girl," he commented.
Ashe smiled against his chest, snuggling closer before growing sober again. "I know Miss Wendy has a husband, she mentioned it to Miss Daisy, but she never talks about wanting to see him again. I even had Westley ask Ethan and Cindy if they were excited to see their papa again, but they didn't say anything."
The girl's fingers knotted tighter in Kravos's shirt and the man fought a wince; the fabric of his tunic was old, worn, and soft but it felt rough against his previously injured shoulder. Kravos had healed the small, round wound sustained during the raid of the slaver camp quickly but, as a sign of how his body was aging, the shoulder was still sore. Kravos couldn't let Ashe see the pain though, it wasn't her place to worry about him.
"And?"
Ashe bit her lip, "And I think that Miss Wendy is scared of her husband, Mr. Kravos. I think he is a Bad Man, just like Papa."
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"Well, I suppose you would be a better judge of that than I, sweetheart," Kravos said softly, dropping a kiss on the trembling girl's head. "Do you think we should do something?"
He had to let Ashe lead the conversation. If the girl was right then this situation was undoubtedly dragging up all sorts of horrible memories. Kravos wanted to help this woman and her children too but he had to let it be Ashe's idea; he refused to put Ashe in a situation that would undo all of her healing.
"I don't want them to have to go back Miss Wendy's husband, not if he is going to hurt them again. It isn't fair that they get saved from becoming slaves but have to go back to a Bad Man," Ashe declared. "I know I shouldn't get into other people's business but... is there any way you can help them?"
'Such a brave, sweet girl,' Kravos thought adoringly. 'Despite everything you still care for others. You never let the cruel hand life has shown you snuff of the warmth of your heart.'
"I can't force them to do anything,' he said, feeling Ashe stiffen beside him, "but I may have an idea."
"What?"
"We give her somewhere else to go," the old Dragonborn said. "For now though, you just worry about getting some sleep. I'll speak with Lady Wendy in the morning."
"Alright, I trust you," Ashe nodded, eyes already shutting she nuzzled her cheek against his chest. With a sleepy sigh, she said, "Goodnight, Daddy."
Though he'd never heard the word before, something deep inside Kravos knew what it meant and it made his old heart soar.
The next morning, having left Ashe to have a bit of a lay-in, Kravos approached Lady Wendy as she sat out on deck stitching together an old shirt as her children played nearby with young Westley. He approached slowly, with a relaxed gait, gentle smile, and a plan.
"Good morning, Lady Wendy," he said. "I hope the dawn is treating you well."
"As well as can be expected," the woman laughed. "And I've told you that you can just call me Wendy, I'm far from a lady."
"My apologies, I merely wish to show the proper courtesy." Kravos nodded to the bench she was sitting on, "May I join you?"
"Oh! Yes... of course. Please, sit."
Permission granted, he sat beside the woman and took ample notice of the way she stiffened, ever so briefly, when he did so.
'Poor woman, it looks like Ashe was right. I wonder, did he hit your children too?'
"I wanted to thank you, Wendy," Kravos said, needing to put her at ease if he was to accomplish his goal.
"Thank me?" The woman blinked at him, surprised. "Whatever for?"
"Ashe told me how kind you were to her during that horrible endeavor," Kravos said. "Even in such a terrible situation for you and your children, you still had the internal strength to be kind enough to attempt to comfort a frightened young girl."
Wendy blushed and waved him off, "Oh, think nothing of it. Your girl has a core of steel, never once showed how scared she must have been. To be totally honest, I'm not sure how much help I was to your daughter -she didn't even tell me her real name. She told me it was Ashley."
Kravos gave an awkward chuckle. "Aye. Sadly, Ashe has had a hard life and does not trust easily. Please don't take it personally."
"I don't," Wendy said, her eyes fixed on her children as they played. "The world is a dangerous place, especially for the naive and trusting."
It didn’t escape Kravos’ notice the way the woman tugged at and fiddled with the small, dented ring on her finger. “So, once again, I would like to thank you for being king to Ashe.”
“Think nothing of it,” Wendy said, eyes still glued to her children. “You and Natasha saved us in the end. I’d say that makes us more than equal.”
“Still, I’d like to offer you something in return for your good deeds.”
The woman finally looked back to Kravos, her eyebrows shooting up. “Excuse me?”
Kravos smiled kindly and continued, “I would like to offer for you and your children to come live with Ashe and me at our home. You could stay briefly as a guest, just stay until you can decide on your family’s next move, or you could stay longer and I would employ you as a teacher for the children. Your living space and food would be free, of course.”
Wendy reeled back and stammered, “Oh… That is an incredibly generous offer b- but my children and I already have a home to return to. My husband is- He's waiting for us.”
“Wendy, do you really want to return to him?” Kravos asked, gentle but firm. His voice was low so they would not be overheard. “Would returning to him be best for you and your children?”
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“You have a lot of nerve!” Wendy snarled, jolting to her feet and glaring down at him. “You don’t know anything about me or my husband! You have no right to question me about my marriage!”
Internally, Kravos sighed. ‘I was afraid of this. Until they’re ready, people refuse to admit the truth to themselves or others.’
“I was simply suggesting that-“
“Have a good day, Mr. Redwind,” the woman cut him off. “And keep your mouth shut around me and my children. If I see you speaking to them behind my back then I won’t hesitate to shove you overboard, got it?”
Wendy didn’t even wait for an answer before storming off, scooping up her children and vanishing into the ship’s kitchen.
“What was all that about?”
Kravos looked up to see Natasha step out from the ship’s cockpit and sighed. “Just someone afraid to accept the help they need.”
When Nat cocked an eyebrow in his direction, he continued. "Ashe and I have reason to believe Wendy's husband mistreats her and their children. I obviously don't want them going back into that situation, so I offered her the option to come live with the two of us at our home. But, when I tried to speak of her about it, Wendy reacted poorly."
"I had my suspicions too. It's always sad to have them confirmed though," Natasha said with a sad sigh. When Kravos gave her a questioning look, she explained further. "Back before... before the war, I was a lawyer. I graduated from Suffolk County School of Law and intended to go into Criminal Law but ended up in Family Law. A choice I often ended up regretting."
Kravos was familiar with lawyers; High Rock had plenty of them and Francois briefly considered studying to become one when he was first starting his studies in Leyawiin. It was a noble, if often frustrating, pursuit. He did have one question though.
"I thought you were a housewife?"
Nat laughed, "I was a housewife, a mother, and a lawyer, all in one. My friends used to call me the 'Ultimate Modern Woman.' But, yes, I was taking a year off after Shaun was born to focus on caring for him. Anyway, when I was practicing, I dealt with a lot of battered women trying to leave their husbands. I remembered that I used to get so frustrated when, after everything these men would put them through and how much work I put into helping them, they'd almost always end up going back.
Then, one day, I was venting my frustration about a particular case to an older lawyer, and she gave me an important piece of advice. She told me that she understood my annoyance but to remember that victims are always trying their best. I won't say I never got angry at a client again, but I did always try to keep that in mind. So that is what we remember about Wendy now -that she is doing her best."
As wonderful as that advice was, it didn't do them much immediate good. "I don't suppose you and your fellow Minutemen can do anything?"
"Unfortunately, we can't do much without proof of wrongdoing on the husband's part or Wendy actually asking for help," Nat said, shaking her head. "I can try talking to her though. Maybe she'll feel more comfortable talking to another woman."
Kravos nodded, "That is a good idea. Thank you."
"I do my best."
Later that night, after Kravos tucked Ashe into bed and was getting ready for sleep himself, there was a knock on the door. When he opened the door, expecting to find Natasha or one of the men he'd assigned to patrol the ship deck, Kravos was surprised to find Wendy standing there.
The woman looked up at him and pulled the thin blanket tighter around her trembling shoulders and said, "Can we talk?"
Chapter 27: Chapter Twenty-Seven
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The deck was empty aside from the few patrolmen pacing the ship. Wendy eyed them suspiciously and, after a moment, pulled Kravos into a private corner away from onlookers. She didn't say anything at first though. Instead, the woman stood there, looking around and tugging the thin blanket tighter around her shoulders to fight off the cold ocean breeze blowing over the deck.
"We can find a place inside to speak if you're cold," Kravos offered. "I don't want you to be uncomfortable."
"Oh, there is no way to avoid that," Wendy sighed, gnawing on her lower lip to the point that Kravos was sure he could see some pin-pricks of blood. With a frustrated groan, tangled a hand into her hand, and collapsed down on a crate. "I married young, you know? Only seventeen."
That didn't sound young to Kravos, close in age to when most young women in Skyrim got married -Sofie had only been eighteen when she married into the royal family- but he nodded anyway, saying nothing and allowing all the space Wendy needed to tell her story.
"My parents were worried that they'd never be able to get me married because of, well-" she gestured to the red mark stretched from her left temple to the corner of her mouth and down to underneath her ear.
"Where I'm from, we call birthmarks like that a 'Dibella's Kiss'," the old Dragonborn explained gently. When Wendy gave him a questioning look, he continued. "Dibella is part of the religious pantheon of my people. She is considered the goddess of beauty, love, art, and music, so the story goes that sometimes babies are born so beautiful that Dibella herself had to kiss them, leaving her blessing behind."
Wendy let out a humorless laugh, "It is good to know I'm considered blessed somewhere on this god-forsaken planet. But not in my hometown. In Grathston, I wasn't so lucky. Some considered my birthmark a sign of mutation so, even though I was otherwise healthy, most weren't will to take the chance. It worried my parents because they were older and knew they wouldn't be around much longer; they wanted to be sure I had someone to protect me after they were gone."
She paused, drew in a shaky breath, and pushed forward. "And that is when Matthew came along."
"He seemed like a good catch at first. He was older, already thirty, but that just meant he was established. Matt was an electrician, the best in town, and was well-respected. I should have been flattered he chose me of all people to pursue but I wasn't sure; something about him seemed off, even then. My parents pushed me to accept his proposal though. Matthew had a livelihood, after all, and a good one at that. He could take care of me."
Wendy shrugged, "So I married him."
"When did he start hurting you?" Kravos asked, gentle and fully prepared for the woman to completely shut down.
"Not a first," Wendy shook her head. "No, for the first five years of our marriage things were... fine, I suppose. Matthew wasn't a particularly warm or affectionate husband -we didn't have many heart-to-hearts- but he was a good provider and, when I went to work as a school teacher, the two incomes kept us very comfortable. After a few years though, the problems began -kids."
The woman wrapped her arms around her stomach and hugged herself. "We both wanted children. I'm not sure I was ready at that moment, I still wasn't even twenty, but I still wanted them. But I couldn't stay pregnant."
Kravos felt his heart clench with sadness when he saw Wendy start tearing up. "You lost a child?"
"I lost three children!" Wendy cried. "I lost three babies and Matthew blamed me!"
She swallowed hard, regaining her composure. "After the second loss, Matt started drinking harder than normal. I wasn't thrilled but he kept it at the bar so... But then the twins were born and something inside my husband snapped. I thought he'd be excited! After all this time we had two beautiful, healthy babies but, no, instead he was furious.
Matt was convinced that there was no way that the twins could have been his. In his mind, since all my other pregnancies had ended with losses, I had to have cheated on him to create a viable pregnancy. I didn't! You have to believe me, Mr. Kravos, I was always faithful to him! I swear-"
"I believe you," Kravos reassured. He wanted to hug the young woman but doubted it would be well-received.
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"No one's ever said that to me before," Wendy admitted, swallowing hard. "Thank you."
"Would you like to take a break?" Kravos offered. "I can make you some tea, or perhaps even some wine."
The woman waved him away, "No, I swore to never drink; I can't risk it. And, besides, if I stop talking now I might never start again."
"Of course," the old Dragonborn nodded. "Please continue."
"As I said, Matt drank from pretty early on in our marriage. It wasn't happy but most of the men in the town did so I also didn't think it was anything unusual," she said. "And, for most of the marriage, it wasn't a problem. I mean, sometimes Matthew would get belligerent and yell at me or sleep too late, but nothing that bad."
"Until the twins."
"Until the twins," Wendy agreed. "After that... I swear, it was like Matt changed overnight! Three days after Ethan and Cindy were born, Matt locked me outside the house after an argument. He left me out there all night! It was so cold and the babies just kept crying and crying but he wouldn't let me in!"
This admission seemed to be too much for Wendy, nearly doubling over and tears starting to run down her face. Her breathing grew heavy and shuttering as Kravos let himself give the young woman a comforting hand on the shoulder. He said nothing as Wendy fought to wrestle herself back under control.
"After that night, I was determined to leave Matthew. When he was off at work, I grabbed the twins and went to my parents. I told them what happened and I thought they'd understand but..." Wendy sighed, "But they didn't. They sympathized, I suppose, and comforted me. Then they told me I should go back to Matthew. This was just a one-time thing, they reassured me, and, at the end of the, he was still a good provider."
Wendy huffed, rubbing her face and letting out a humorless chuckle. "I was such an idiot."
"You were vulnerable," Kravos reassured. "You were a young mother and, when you turned to the people you loved and trusted to protect you, they told you to go back to your husband. You cannot blame yourself."
"Maybe not. Maybe I can't blame myself for being stupid enough to stay with Matthew," the woman said. "What happened in the coming years, though? I'll always blame myself for that."
"Days ticked on and... Matt got worse, a lot worse. He drank more, yelled at me more, and worked less. Within two years, he wasn't working at all. Making matters worse was that both of my parents died; they were poor so they didn't have much to leave me and, what little they did, Matt took and spent on liquor. I was still working as a teacher but the bills were piling up -two kids and a lot of booze are expensive- and I didn't have enough caps to cover everything. So I asked him to go back to work. That was the first time he hit me."
"And it wasn't the last."
Wendy nodded, "No, he hit me... and worse. But I wasn't strong enough to leave him, not yet. Not until Matthew hit Ethan for the first time, actually knocked out one of his baby teeth. Then I left for real. In the middle of the night, I packed up the twins and we fled to the school I taught at. Maybe that was a bad hiding place but we employed a security guard during the day and it was the only place I could think of going. I couldn't turn to friends -I didn't have any left."
We hid there for three weeks, Matt wasn't willing to make trouble in a protected building but I knew it wasn't sustainable. Neither was going to another settlement; traveling with two small children was difficult, traveling at all is dangerous, I didn't have the caps to pay for transport or setting up in another town."
Another pause.
Another shuttered breath.
Another choked back a sob.
"Is it a surprise that I went back again?" Wendy asked, even if it wasn't a question. "Matt had a letter passed on to me, asking to meet. And, like an idiot, I agreed. Within two days, the twins and I were living back at home. I almost couldn’t believe it but Matthew apologized, he groveled, he charmed me, and I fell for it. For two weeks, things were great but you want to know how it all ended up?"
This did actually seem to be a question, judging by the way Wendy was staring at him. The answer, to Kravos, seemed obvious, but, if it was what she needed then...
"What did he do?"
"HE FUCKING SOLD US!"
The floodgates opened and Wendy began to sob, turning and slumping against Kravos' chest. He held her close, smoothing a hand through her messy hair. Perhaps, to an outsider, it would look strange that he was comforting a grown woman but Kravos didn't see that. To him, this was no different from comforting one of his children, granddaughters, or Ashe. If someone innocent needed his kindness, Kravos could never deny them comfort.
"He fucking sold us! His own wife and kids and he fucking sold us to slavers to make some caps," she sobbed.
"It's not your fault."
"I took us back into that situation!"
"It's not your fault."
"I should have never agreed to marry him in the first place!"
"It's not your fault."
"I ignored so many warning signs and just went along with what people told me to do like an idiot!"
"It's not your fault."
"He hurt my kids and I still went back to him."
Kravos paused then. He couldn't, in good faith, claim that Wendy bore no responsibility for that. Tragic situation it was, parents needed to protect their children. Still, it also wasn't right to condemn this poor woman.
"Yes, you did. And you regret it," he said slowly. "You were in a bad situation that seemed inescapable and, sometimes, it is easier to let the tide sweep you away instead of fight against it by swimming upstream. But, even in the worst situation imaginable, you still managed to be kind to a scared young girl. And now you have the chance to change your situation. So, what will you do? Got back into a situation you hate or take a risk and start over?"
Kravos stepped back and pulled out a handkerchief, passing it to the hiccupping woman.
"I don't want to go back," Wendy said, fighting to calm down as she dabbed tears from her eyes. "I never want to see Matthew again. If I did, I wouldn't be able to stop myself from killing him."
"Do you want him dead?"
"What?"
"I'll kill him if that is what you want," Kravos offered. When Wendy looked at him with pure disbelief, he continued, "Matthew is a bad man, the world wouldn't weep if he were to suffer a... tragic accident, either at my hands or someone else's. I'm sure Natasha would be glad to offer assistance. All you'd have to do is say the word."
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"No," Wendy shook his head. "Don't get me wrong, I hate the man and think the world would be a better place without him but... I just want to leave him in the past. I don't want to think of him anymore. I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. I don't want to make any decisions involving him anymore. I just want to leave him behind so my kids and I can move forward."
"I understand. If you choose, your... former husband will never be spoken of again," Kravos said. "But, I have to ask, how will your children react to not returning home or ever seeing their father again?"
"It... is complicated," Wendy sighed. "They don't truly know their father -Matthew always left the childcare to me- and, honestly, Cindy has told me she is scared of him. But he is their father and I feel that, on some level, they still love him. What if they have questions about where Matt years from now? How do I explain everything to them? What if they blame me? What if-"
The poor woman was working herself up into another hysterical fit so Kravos took her by the shoulder and said, "Take a deep breath. There is no use dwelling on the far future and, if I'm being completely honest, your twins are young enough that they might not remember their father. And you are young enough to find someone else -someone who is good and kind and reliable and will be a good partner to you and a father for your children."
Wendy shook her head, "Oh, no no no! I don't want to even think about getting remarried! I couldn't risk leaving Ethan and Cindy open to be hurt again! For now, I just want to focus on getting us somewhere safe and comfortable, somewhere we can start over. I have so much to make up for."
"If you take me up on my offer, then you can have that," Kravos offered. Then he paused and, after a moment, "I'm sorry, that makes it sound like I'm bribing or manipulating you. I do want you all to come and live with Ashe and I; I feel like my home would be a safe place for you all to recover and get re-established. I also want to repay you for what you did to Ashlyn during your harrowing ordeal. I know you say that is unnecessary but my own sense of honor demands it.
However, if you feel uncomfortable with coming with us, you could always go with Natasha. She is a good woman and I trust her to do right by you. She and the group she works for would be able to get you established and protect you if, for some reason, Matthew is stupid enough to come after you. I understand that, at the end of the day, you must do what you feel is right for you and your family."
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"You know, Mr. Kravos, you are the first person that I felt like I could trust since I was young," Wendy whispered. "Why can you be so sure about everything?"
"Because I know I am more than capable of handling any challenge that comes my way," Kravos answered easily. While he would never claim to be sure of everything -life was far too unpredictable and full of the unexpected- but that was something he knew without a doubt.
She turned away, looking up at the stars, and took a deep breath. "Alright, let's do it."
Chapter 28: Chapter Twenty-Eight
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The sun was bright, breaking through the thin layer of cloud cover when they approached the Coleman farm. The repurposed ship was too large to pull completely ashore, meaning someone had to take a small dinghy to the shore and then walk the two miles inland to the homestead. There were discussions as to who would go and if it would be safer for a group to go instead of one person but, in the end, it was Mr. Kravos who agreed to go, grinning mischievously when someone asked if he'd be able to make the journey quickly.
Ashe watched from the deck of the ship as the small figures of Kravos, Rena, and Dogmeat vanished over the horizon. By her side, Natasha and Westley watched with her.
"Do you think he'll be okay?" Westley asked, bouncing up and down on the balls of his feet. "Pop always said that there are a lot of dangerous animals around."
"I doubt there is much in the world that could harm that man, let alone the Commonwealth," Miss Natasha replied. "He'll be fine."
"I'm surprised you let Mr. Kravos take Dogmeat with you," Ashe said.
"I don't let Dogmeat do anything; he is his own man," the woman shrugged. "Kravos suggested it though. He said that it might be good for him to stretch his legs back on land again. I saw no reason to argue and, when the time came, Dogmeat wanted to go. I'm confident he'll be back soon; Meaty never wanders far for too long."
She looked down at Westley and smiled. "How does it feel to almost be home?"'
The boy froze, gripping the taffrail so tight that his knuckles grew pale. "Like a dream," he admitted. "I didn't think I would ever see my parents again."
He looked up at Miss Natasha. "This is real, right? I’m safe? I'm going home?"
Wordlessly, the redhead pulled him into a hug. "Oh, sweetie, this is absolutely real! The slavers are dead and the Minutemen are going to wipe the rest of their cohorts out. I can't promise that nothing bad is ever going to happen again and I can't tell you tomorrow is going to bring, but today you're going home to your family."
Ashe said nothing, respectfully looking away as Westley started sniffling. After a long moment, the pair pulled apart and Miss Natasha addressed her once more.
"So I hear that Wendy and her twins are coming home with you and Kravos," she said. "How do you feel about that?"
"I'm... happy they're going to be happy," Ashe said after a moment of thought. She didn't know how much Miss Natasha -and Westley for that matter- was aware of the situation and didn't want to share secrets that weren't hers to expose. "It will be nice to have other kids to play with, even if they are babies."
"I always wanted a younger brother," Westley said, rubbing his red eyes with the back of his hand. "I think Mom and Pop wanted more kids too but it just didn't end up working out."
Ashe wrinkled her nose. In Tough Seed, having more than one child was a sign of (greater) wealth; the town council was very strict about making sure no one had more children than they could afford due to worry that the rest of the community would have to provide for the extra mouths. In all honesty, Ashe was pretty sure her parents could have afforded a second child but Papa hadn't even wanted her -something he'd always been more than happy to tell Ashe whenever she'd done something to annoy him- so he'd never let one Mama have a second one either. Mr. Kravos liked kids though -he must like them to have taken in and raised so many of them as his own.
'Does he want Ethan and Cindy to be his kids too?'
Shoving down the fear, Ashe scolded herself for the thought. 'Ethan and Cindy came from the same situation you did! Of course, Mr. Kravos would want to save them too, it's why he is a Good Man.'
"I don't have brothers or sisters either, so it'll be weird to have other kids in the house," she admitted. "What about you, Miss Natasha? Do you have any?"
"...Once, a long time ago."
Something about the way she said it told Ashe that the conversation was over.
The tears had started before Shannon and Marcus Coleman even arrived on the ship and they didn't stop until long after Westley reunited with his parents.
"My beautiful baby boy," Shannon cried, kissing her son's face over and over again and again. "I thought- I thought- I just can't believe you're back!"
Marcus said nothing, gripping Westley's shoulders tightly as he cried.
Everyone -Natasha, the dogs, Mr. Kravos, and all the other freed captives- watch on from a respectful distance. Everyone was either smiling or tearing up themselves and Ashe could only imagine that they were picturing themselves in Westley's place, reuniting with the loved ones they'd been ripped away from.
But Ashe was seeing something else -a happy family.
'Mama used to hug me like that,' she thought. 'Papa never did.'
"It's understandable if you don't feel happy for Westley."
Ashe looked over at Kravos and frowned, whispering back, "I am happy for him! I'm glad he gets to go home! It's just..."
"It's just that seeing him with his parents is making you think of your family?"
She looked down, ashamed.
"They were so worried about Westley and they're so happy to have him back. Papa threw me out and doesn't know if I'm alive or not, probably doesn't care either way," Ashe said. "And you know what? I don't know if he is alive or dead either! And I don't care."
Ashe looked up at the man who'd saved her and showed more love to her in under a year than her own father did in her entire life. "You're my family now, right Mr. Kravos?"
"I am," he said, soft and gentle. "Forever and for always. Until my dying day and beyond, I will love you as my own."
At that moment, Ashe felt like crying. She ducked her head, happy others were crying because it meant no one would pay any attention to her. "I love you! I love you so much, Daddy! Thank you! Thank you for loving me too!"
Mr. Kra- Dad's heartbeat was steady, comforting music against Ashe's ear as she was cuddled against his chest. She didn't think she'd ever get tired of being hugged like this, even if she got a hundred of them every day for the rest of her life. And she didn't want to.
"Thank you," she whispered again. "Thank you."
"So, are you going to miss me?"
Ashe rolled her eyes at Westley's teasing. "I'm not going to miss your jokes, that's for sure."
The older boy laughed, "Yeah, you will! Especially since you're about to just have a dog and some babies for company."
"Rena is better company than you."
Westley only laughed harder for a moment before growing serious. "You know, I'm going to miss everyone. Miss Wendy, Miss Nat, Mr. Kravos, you... I never really had friends before. I mean, I played with the kids in town when I helped Pop take the harvest to market, but that wasn't often enough for us to be close. But we've been through something big together so I'd like to think that we're friends now."
"Me too," Ashe said with a smile. Sure, it wasn't the same as her friendship with everyone back in Tough Seed but, annoying as his sense of humor could be, Westley had become important to her. "Maybe I could convince Mr. Kr- Dad to bring me over for a visit sometime?"
The word 'Dad' felt odd on Ashe's lips. She'd never called anyone that in her entire life; oh, she'd said it before -talking about her friend's fathers or the vague position in life- but that was very different. It hadn't had personal meaning before.
'I like saying it but it'll take some time to get used to.'
"That would be cool!" Westley said, perking up. "There isn't much to do at my house but we've got a radio and I can show you some of the cool spots around the farm that I like exploring."
"Or maybe you can even come to visit us on the island!" Ashe suggested, excited at the possibility. She used to love having sleepovers with her friends back at Tough Seed. And this time, she could have others at her house instead of going somewhere else. She'd have a lot of room and food and toys to play with.
Westley chuckled, "I'd like that but I don't think my folks are going to be letting me out of their site anytime soon."
"Well, they can come too."
"Are you sure that Mr. Kravos would let you?"
Ashe opened her mouth to say, "Yes, of course." but then paused. While she was certain that the man would allow it, the fact that she was so confident and so comfortable with offering such a thing made her hesitate. Was that really her place?
'Mr. Kravos is my dad now,' she reminded herself. 'And his home is mine now too. I have the right to invite people over, even though I'd still have to ask first.'
"Yes, I think he will," she said. "I'll have to ask first but I don't think it will be a problem. Mr. Dad's house is really big; there are a ton of rooms and extra beds. He’s mentioned that he used to have friends over and host parties all the time. He might even like being able to host company!"
Westley cocked his head to the side and grinned evil, "Mr. Dad, huh?"
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"Oh, shut up!" Ashe punched the older boy in the arm as he cackled. Her face was bright red, "I'm still getting used to calling him that!"
After he was done laughing at her, which wasn't for a good long while, and gave her a contemplative look, "So you're really calling him Dad now?"
Ashe shrugged, trying to make it seem like it wasn't as big of a deal to her as it was. "I guess so. It feels right and I- I love him. I want him to be my dad, not just my guardian."
"Let me guess, you're an orphan?"
"...My mama is dead, yes."
The question caused a noticeable shift in the atmosphere between the two of them, turning the warm, friendly energy turning stilted and awkward. in many ways, this final stretch of her journey back to Mr. Kravos'… to her home was symbolic of Ashe accepting her new role as the man’s daughter. Her new life was being and Ashe wanted to, despite her love for Mama, leave her past in the past.
To his credit, Westley seemed to recognize this. He scratched the back of his neck, looking away, and said, "Sorry... That must have been hard on you."
"It was... and thank you."
The silence the two lapsed into was not an unpleasant one, just staring out over the ocean and enjoying one another's presence. Ashe leaned against her friend's shoulder and let herself relax, happy and safe.
It was hard watching the Coleman family walk out towards the horizon, once again accompanied by M- Dad and Rena. Once again, Ashe was out on the deck, balancing on her tiptoes to keep them in her sights for just a little bit longer as the sun began to set. She hadn't wanted Westley to leave and, selfishly, hadn't wanted Mr. Dad to go with them. Not that she'd said anything about either.
"I wish they'd stay here tonight and leave in the morning," Miss Natasha said, appearing by her side. The red-haired woman draped one of the thick wool blankets they'd found onboard around her shoulders. "Here, it's getting cold out."
"Thank you."
The woman sighed, looking on towards the land as well. "I know Kravos has nothing to worry about -he's tough enough to handle anything that comes his way- but I just..."
"Worry? Yeah, me too." Ashe crossed her arms on the taffrail and slumped down, "M mmmmmy dad said that he'll probably end staying the night at the farm. That means this will be the first night I've been alone since we were rescued -even Rena is gone."
It was a silly thing to complain about, Ashe could admit that, but she was dreading it nonetheless.
"Oh? Will you be alright?"
Ashe shrugged. "Sure, I've done it plenty of times before."
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"You know, maybe it would be better if I said with you tonight?'
"Huh?" Ashe blinked at the woman.
"Kravos asked me to keep an eye on you until he gets back and that'll be easier to do I spend the night in your guys' room," Miss Natasha said. The woman smiled at her, "What do you say?"
"So.... it would be like a sleepover?"
"Yeah, I guess so."
Ashe ducked her head and grinned, "Yeah, that would be fun."
"Hey, I just realized I never asked how you and Kravos met," Miss Natasha asked, reclining back on Kra- Dad's cot. "I know he adopted you from a bad situation but... Sorry, you don't have to tell me. I understand if it's hard to talk about."
Ashe fiddled with the fraying edge of her blanket, "No, it's fine. After my mama died, my... my not -papa didn't want to take care of me anymore, so he threw me out. I wandered around, finding food and places to sleep where I could. It wasn't easy but I got good at hiding and stealing. Still, by the time I got to Far Harbor I was so sick and hungry that I was going to die soon."
Miss Natasha's green eyes went wide with horror, "Oh, sweetie, I'm sure it wasn't-"
"No, it was. I had to drink water from rivers that I had bad radiation poisoning, and I wasn't eating that much," Ashe shrugged. She wasn't sad about it; that was simply the way things had been. "One day, I was trying to steal some food from one of the docks, but the workers caught me. They started throwing things at me and trying to grab me. I ran away and jumped into one of the little boats tied to the dock. I guess this one wasn't tied down right, and the boat ended up drifting off into the water. It was scary, but we drifted onto the island where Mr. Kravos lived before it got too dark. Two days later, Mr. Kr- Dad found me."
The woman gave her a thoughtful look that caused Ashe to look away -she hated pity.
"You've had a hard life, Ashe," she said gently. "I'm glad you found somewhere you can be safe."
"I found someone who will keep me safe," Ashe corrected. "As long as I'm with Dad, no matter where we go, I'll be safe."
That got her a wide smile, "Ain't that the truth! I'm guessing you're still excited to be getting home, right?
"Definitely," Ashe said, nodding her head. She would wait to be back in her own bed, surrounded by toys. She couldn't wait until could be in the kitchen with her new dad, helping him make dinner. She could wait to nap in front of the fireplace with Rena. She was even happy about being able to help feed the deathclaw again.
"Well, we should be there soon. It'll just be a couple more days now."
Chapter 29: Chapter Twenty-Nine
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There was a definite sense of relief in the air as the ship pulled up on the small dock Kravos had installed in the first months of arriving at the islet. Ashe had started bouncing up and down on the balls of her feet as soon as their home had come into view, very nearly pitching herself over the railing more than once. Wendy and her children hovered nearby, all filled with nervous excitement. Her children didn't quite understand the intricacies of what was happening but knew that this was to be their new home. As for their mother? Kravos suspected it would be years before Wendy could truly relax or feel safe.
There was definite excitement amongst the others too. For many, the chance for a bath, proper meal, and real bed after everything they'd been through, including over a week on an uncomfortable re-purposed slavers' ship, sounded like paradise. Then there was Natasha, who seemed more... curious than excited. When he had mentioned this to Ashe, the little girl just nodded and said she'd noticed it too.
"She probably wants to know more about you and thinks poking around your house is the right way to do it."
Kravos chuckled and ruffled her hair, so much longer and healthier now than when they'd cut it. "Then it is a good thing all the important rooms are locked up -we can't have anyone getting hurt poking their noses in places they shouldn't be."
Then he paused, "When everything is calmed down, I'll give you the full tour of the house."
Ashe looked up at him with wide eyes, "Really? Even the locked rooms?"
"Even the locked rooms. You've more than earned that right," he nodded. "There will still be rules, of course. Entrance into those rooms is a privilege, not a right, one that can be revoked should you abuse it. Those rooms are locked for a reason; the things in there are dangerous or delicate and easy to break. But now that you know more about me and my life, I have nothing more in my home to hide."
"I'll be good, I promise! I just want to learn more!"
"And you will, sweetling," Kravos pulled the girl to his side. "In these coming weeks, I have so much to teach you."
"Alright everyone, come on in and make yourselves comfortable," Kravos said, waving everyone into the main hall of his home. "I'll get everyone some food and drink while you rest, then we'll sort out sleeping arrangements and bathing orders."
"And how will we do that?" one of the men asked.
"By drawing lots, that is the fairest way to do things."
"But-"
Kravos cut off any arguments with a raised hand, "There is plenty of clean, warm water and soap to go around. But, unless you want to strip down out here and scrub yourself with a washcloth for all to see then you will wait your turn."
There were some grumblings from the group but no one said anything, instead slumping down in various chairs and sofas -some already starting to drift off. Kravos looked over this ramshackle, worn-down group he'd brought home. Their bruised bodies and tired eyes told so many sad stories, stories he'd seen play out a thousand different times and a thousand different ways. He couldn't heal their minds or banish their nightmares, he could only heal their wounds, give them a safe place to sleep, and put a hot meal in their bellies.
And, for now, that would have to be enough.
"Wendy? Could you and the little ones come and help me in the kitchen?" he asked, jerking his head towards the kitchen door. "You too, Ashe."
Nat cocked an eyebrow and Kravos just nodded at the group in a, 'Keep an eye on them,' gesture before turning away.
She'd get her answers, one way or another -of that Kravos was sure. She may have let there be peace for the sake of traveling together but Natasha Green was not the kind of woman to let sleeping dogs lay for long.
The kitchen was cold, a thin layer of dust sticking to the counter surface and on the stone hearth of the fireplace. Kravos had left in such a hurry that there were still dishes in the drying rack and knives out of place. There were no lingering smells of baking bread or roasting meat in the air either -so completely unlike Kravos' unusual domain.
'By Akatosh, I've missed being home,' he thought, pulling out a cutting board and a serving tray. 'And never thought I'd get a chance to cook for a group in this world either.'
In his mind, he was already planning a feast for supper. Everyone here more than deserved to be treated to the best he could provide.
'There was that goose I've been meaning to cook, that would be a fantastic main. Some potatoes and leeks with garlic and butter for sides with some boiled cabbage. Bread, of course. You've got to have bread. Maybe clam chowder to start off with. Now, what about dessert? Apple pie? Or is that too common? I could mix it up, use jazbay or juniper berries instead.'
"Kravos? Is there anything I can do to help?" Wendy asked, shaking him out of his thoughts.
"Oh, no. I'm perfectly alright," he said. "Ashe, sweetling, can you take Wendy, Cindy, and Ethan down to the washroom and show them how it works? I don't want you three to feel rushed by the others so you should bathe first."
"I can't accept that," Wendy said, waving her arms. "That wouldn't be fair to the others! We can't be a-"
The old man put up his hand again, "I insist. I'll find some clean clothes for you all too. This is your home now, you should be as comfortable here as possible."
"Yeah, being clean is important!" Ashe piped up, grabbing Wendy by the hand. "C'mon, the bath here is awesome! Follow me!"
She dragged the older woman through the kitchen's secondary door so they wouldn't be seen, Ethan and Cindy trailing after them like little ducklings. Kravos let himself be amused by the mental image for a moment before setting himself back to task. He grabbed a bag of apples, slicing them with less care and precision than usual, and lined up the pieces on a large serving tray. Next was some rolls -not as fresh as he'd prefer but certainly not bad- and some nice cheese. He topped it off with some honey nut treats and taffy; after such a hard few weeks, a sweet treat was well-earned.
"Here you are," he said, coming back into the main hall with the tray in his hands. "It's not much but a few snacks should tide us all over until supper."
Predictably, those in the group who were still awake swarmed him. They grabbed at the food, shoving what they could in their mouths. Kravos stood patiently and only hoped they didn't upset their stomachs.
"There is a water barrel over there. It's safe to drink, of course, " he said, nodding towards the corner. "You'll find a pitcher, ladle, and some glasses in the red cupboard. Help yourself. Now, if you'll excuse -I'm going to gather some clothes and prepare rooms for everyone."
No one really paid him much mind, too busy eating, getting water, or sleeping away. It was only when he headed for the stairs that Natasha stopped him, grabbing his wrist.
"We need to talk," she said, a determined look in her pretty green eyes.
Kravos nodded. "Aye, but not now. I have much to do."
"You can't avoid me forever."
The old man chuckled, "You know what I like most about you, Nat? Your determination. Once you latch onto something, you never let it go."
Natasha's lips twitched and amusement began to creep into her eyes. "Grant used to say the same thing; he claimed it was why I made a good lawyer."
"And I have no reason to doubt him," said Kravos. He softened, "I swear that I'm not intentionally avoiding speaking with you, it is just that-"
"You're juggling a lot. Yeah, I know. I'm just... sick of being out of the loop on everything." Nat let out a frustrated sigh, "I'm a smart woman, I know I am. But ever since I woke up in that vault I've felt like a useless idiot, just trying to catch up with everything happening around me!"
Kravos squeezed her hand. "I won't give you false reassurance; you're too good for that. But I would tell you that we all-" he gestured to the small group milling about "- wouldn't be here without you, Natasha. Trust me, I've met and fought along plenty of fine warriors in my lifetime. I know that you are stronger than you think you are and more than capable of facing the trials ahead."
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"Why is it so easy to believe everything you say?" the woman asked, a small smile playing on her face.
"Because I'm always right," he replied with a wink. "Now, would you care to help me gather some sheets?"
"This place has so many rooms," Natasha said, arms full of clean bedding. "I couldn't imagine having to clean a house this big."
"To tell you the truth, it's become more of a hassle than a blessing in these more recent years," Kravos said, looking around the three-bed guest bedroom. It is one of five in his manor, each of various sizes and different amounts of beds. "When all my kids were young, I needed the space but now that they've moved out and living their own lives, I have a bounty of empty rooms gathering dust. "
These days, the guest rooms were usually only used by his visiting adult children, an old friend, or a visiting scholar. On the rare occasion that Kravos would be stuck hosting an unwelcome guest, they'd be confined to the drafty, cramped room on the third-floor attic -loving coined the 'unwanted guest room' by Hroar. But the beds were still in good shape and, though the linens might be a little dusty, they'd be soft and warm.
"I'm reserving the smallest guest room for Wendy and her children," he said. "It would make the most sense to have Cindy share the girls' room with Ashe and then put Ethan in the boys' room. But I doubt Wendy feels comfortable enough to let her children be that far away, nor do I think the children would want to separate from their mother."
Privately, Kravos also wasn't sure how Ashe would react to being asked to share what had been, for the past few months, completely her own private space. She'd seemed mostly okay with sharing the house with the single mother and children but sharing a bedroom was another matter entirely.
'Time may change that,' he thought. 'But, then again, perhaps not. I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.'
In the meantime, that particular guestroom had a bed more than large enough for a slight woman and two young children. They'd be comfortable there.
"There should be some spare clothes in that wardrobe, can you pull them out?"
"This entire place is so... medieval," Natasha said, pulling dresses and tunics from hangers. "If I didn't know any better I'd say you're a time traveler out of the far past."
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"You're not a time traveler, are you?"
"...No," Kravos shook his head. Or, at least, he didn't think he was. "But you aren't far off. I did travel here from somewhere else but instead of traveling forward it is more like I traveled sideways."
"What?"
"I'm from another world. One with far different rules than her."
"..."
"Natasha?"
Oh Akatosh, did he break her?
"My god, string theory is real," Nat gasped, all but collapsing down on a bed. "Is that why you can do... do all of those crazy things?"
"...More or less."
There was no need to overcomplicate his explanation.
"How did- how did you get here then? Did you take a... spaceship or teleporter? Or-"
"Magic, I used magic."
"...Magic," Nat laughed. "I really have found myself in a land of madness."
"I've faced Madness head-on, it isn't so bad."
The woman shook her head. "But why? Why did you come here?"
"Boredom, mostly."
"Boredom?"
Kravos sat down next to her on the bed and sighed. "I've lived an... adventurous life. After all the war and adventure, I settled into a life of raising him and teaching the next generation. Parenthood was a compiling and mysterious adventure in its own right, don't get me wrong, but children grow up. When they left the house, I was left alone. The grandchildren visiting was always a treat and helped chase away the silence but it never lasted. I suppose you could say I started to go a bit stir crazy."
Nat chuckled, "Going to another world is a hell of a way to deal with empty nest syndrome."
"Had I not found Ashe, I'd probably be running around -fighting bandits and gathering specimens for study. You know, having myself some grand old adventures," Kravos continued. "But I did and now I have to start planning for my return to Skyrim. I never intended to stay forever and now that she is in my care, I have to step up my plans. This is no place for a child to grow up."
"On that, we agree. Sometimes I lay awake at night thinking of how I'll care for Shaun when I find him," Natasha said. "This is a world where only the strong survive and he's just a baby."
"He is also your son, which tells me that he'll be plenty strong enough to make it in this land."
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"How do you manage to stay so good after everything you've gone through?"
Kravos blinked. What a strange question.
"To tell you the truth, I don't think of myself as being particularly good," he said. "I like to help people, yes, and I believe in being generous whenever possible. But good? No, I have too much blood on my hands for that."
"You killed slavers and criminals, Kravos. That is hardly something to lose sleep over."
"I don't. You misunderstand," Kravos shook his head. "I've killed... hundreds, maybe even thousands of people in my life and, no, I don't regret most of them. Bandits, rapists, murderers, and all manner of scum died at my hands and I don't regret it. But... war can be different. There was a war for Skyrim -the Legion vs the Stormcloak; the Empire vs Skyrim. I fought alongside the Legion."
"And you regret that?" Natasha asked.
"No, he said. "Though I hated the Thalmor as much as anyone, I still believe it was the best call for all of Skyrim. But... I understood the Stormcloaks. I sympathized and even supported their cause to a degree; plenty of them, I knew personality. Killing them and stopping their Rebellion, killing good men wanted what was best for their land and families? That was hard. That is what keeps me up at night."
"Grant always said that war never changed," Natasha said softly. "That, no matter how noble the cause, people always suffered."
"Yes, and I suppose I'm still trying to find a way to heal the land with the good I do," Kravos finished. "If the world isn't going to be good to us, then we must be good to the world."
Creek.
Both Natasha and Kravos jumped, startled by the sudden sound. Looking towards the door, the old Dragonborn saw Ashe's tiny face peering around the doorframe.
"Mr.Kr- Dad, can you help me with something?"
So this story is in it's final act, hard to believe we've gotten this far. DOn't fret though, I do have something very special planned that is on the horizon.
Chapter 30: Chapter Thirty
Notes:
So I'm predicting that this story will probably have another 10-12 chapters. Hard to believe we're nearing the end. My secret hope is that this story will be a TvTropes page at some point, that'll put be up to two.
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Ashe led Kravos away from the guest room into one of the small alcoves dotted around the house. Yet it seemed that, with every step they took, the girl's desire to talk faded away. She kept opening her mouth like she was trying to say something but nothing ever came out; Kravos could only imagine that Ashe was trying to formulate her thoughts but nothing ever quite sounded right so words would fail her. Kravos could sympathize, when he was younger, he often stumbled over his words. Knowing the right thing to say was a skill that took time to develop and hone.
"Anything on your mind, sweetheart?" he asked.
The girl gnawed on her bottom lip and looked away. "I need to bring Miss Wendy and the kids some clothes. They'll be finished with their bath soon."
"Aye, I have some picked out for them," Kravos said, playing along. He held up the bundle of cloth in his arms, "They might not be the best fitting but at least they are clean."
"Right. That's good."
"Yes, it is. Do you have anything else you want to talk about?"
It was time to push just a little harder.
"...How do you be a good person?"
"What?"
That certainly wasn't what Kravos was expecting to hear. Nor was it something he had an easy answer to.
"Well... I suppose you do that by being kind and helpful to others."
Ashe's face fell. "I knew it."
'Oh no, where is this going?' Kravos thought. A worry that he'd said the wrong thing was settling in the pit of his stomach. Somethings never changed.
The girl curled into herself, hiding her face with her hair. "I'm not... I'm not a good person."
"Oh, sweetheart!" Kravos sighed, kneeling down to hug Ashe. "Why would think such a thing?"
The girl pushed his hands away. "After Mama died, I had to take care of myself. Papa wasn't going to help me. My friends and their family sometimes tried to help me, had me over for breakfast or dinner every now and then, but they didn't have much to offer -no one did. And I think that, over time, I got so used to looking after myself that I forgot to care about other people."
A sharp pang hit Kravos’ heart. It was a simple fact that one's own image of themself could be completely different from how others saw them. And, sometimes, the best people thought themselves horrible, selfish monsters. When he looked at Ashe, he saw a sweet little girl who'd suffered horribly at the hands of life but managed to survive everything thrown at her. Ashe, however, obviously saw something different.
"When I was with the slavers, there were times I could have helped the others. I could have a least tried to comfort them. But I didn't. I was more worried about keeping my mouth shut and my head down so I wouldn't be hurt more," Ashe said, ducking her head in shame.
"That doesn't make you bad, it makes you smart," Kravos tried to reassure Ashe. "You had no way of fighting back against them. No matter what you did, there wasn't anything you could have accomplished."
Ashe shook her head. "I'm jealous too! I get jealous whenever you bring up your other kids and everything you've done for them. I'm jealous of all the time they got with you. And now I'm jealous that I'll have to share you with Ethan, Cindy, and Miss Wendy, even though it was my idea that they stay with us in the first place! That isn't a good thing, so I'm not a good thing! I'm not a good person!"
She started to cry, "I want to be one. Mama was good, your good. I want to be good too!"
"Oh, Ashe," Kravos pulled the girl into her arms. "Being good doesn't mean never putting yourself first and doesn't mean that you never have negative feelings. Emotions are emotions, sometimes they aren't logical but that doesn't mean they make you a bad person. Being a good person just means... it just means that, when the time comes, you choose to do good. Maybe it’s not every day, maybe it’s not every week, but when it's important, you choose to do the right thing. Just like you did with Cindy and her children. Despite your jealousy, you wanted them to come to stay here with us because you knew it was the right thing to do."
He tilted her chin up so he could look the girl in the eye. "And when the time comes to make a choice like that again, I have no doubt you'll do good once more. Now, let's get these clothes to Wendy. Then you can help me make supper."
The smile on Ashe's face told Kravos that, if nothing else, he'd managed to comfort her. Would it last? Probably not but permanent peace would be something the Old Dragonborn could never give her. Ashe would have to find it on her own.
"Now, before I carve this goose, I wanted to say how happy I am to have this meal to share with everyone. Though we've only known each other briefly, know that your faces and stories will always be in my heart," Kravos said from his place at the head of his long, formal dining table. "A toast, to our time together!"
"Here, here!" one of the men called out, lifting a half-full tankard of ale into the air.
In addition to the feast, Kravos had been more than happy to dip into his alcohol stores. Wine, beer, ale, and mead would all flow freely that night. For no other reason than it would help everyone sleep better.
"Here's to the best meal of my life,” someone else added.
There was a festive mood in the air. While Kravos and Ashe worked on cooking supper, everyone else had time to bathe and rest. Clean clothes were also a blessing everyone seemed eager to take on, even if they looked different than what they were used to and didn't quite fit. He'd deal with the pile of dirty, messy clothes later on.
One woman smiled at Kravos, "Here's to our savior!"
"And his little helper!" Wendy said, hand on Ashe's shoulder.
The girl beamed at the praise, even as her cheeks flushed with embarrassment. She said nothing but the broad grin on her young face spoke volumes.
"Here's to the Minutemen!" Kravos called out, nodding towards Natasha. "And all the good they do for us!"
"Here, here!"
Everyone was still cheering and toasting when Kravos sliced into the goose, steam rising from the well-seasoned meat. His mouth already watering, the Old Dragonborn ignored his own hunger to finish carving the bird. He doled out generous portions to everyone, especially the children and injured, and saved a drumstick for himself. The sides were numerous and plentiful; there'd be more than enough for everyone.
"Just make sure you save room for dessert," he warned the table, half-joking. "I've got three different pies in the oven."
"Fuck, I never want to leave this place," one of the young women said. "What are you making for breakfast? No, no! Don't tell me! I want to be surprised."
"Don't get too comfortable," Natasha spoke up. "We're only staying here for a few days, a week at the most. Once everyone is recovered and we've loaded up on supplies, I'm taking you all home."
"Ugh, back to a life tending the fields," a man grumbled, already deep in his cups. He was a large man with a potbelly and leathery skin that only came from a life working under the sun. "This whole thing might as well have been a vacation."
"I doubt others see it that way," the red-haired woman replied coolly.
Kravos decided to change the subject before things got too heated. "Ladies and gentleman, let's not sour this festive atmosphere! Tonight I want you all to think of my home as your own; eat, drink, and relax to your heart's delight!"
There were more cheers at that. It was only when everyone was happy and satisfied that he tucked into his own supper.
It was a good night.
After the feast had been finished and cleaned up -Wendy, Natasha, and two of his other guests having insisted on doing the dishes- Kravos allowed himself to bow out. The guests had either turned in for the night or were relaxing by the fireplace with a cup of tea, lethargic and content -they would not miss him. Even Rena was relaxing, full from a hearty dinner of fresh meat that was well-earned. So it would just be him that took a walk tonight.
Or so he thought.
"Where are you going?" Ashe asked.
A bath, quick nap, and full belly had done wonders for the girl. She'd only been separated for Kravos briefly but some of the weight Ashe had worked hard to gain was already gone. Kravos made a mental note to start her own heavier meals immediately. Ashe would need to be at full strength for the trip back to Skyrim.
"I'm going to go check on our little project," Kravos said, holding up the bowl of meat scraps.
Ashe perked up. "You're going to visit Scales? Can I come? I thought about him a lot when I was gone."
"Really?" Kravos always thought her investment in the juvenile deathclaw was more for her benefit than any true interest. "I'm surprised you are so eager."
"Yeah, I want to see him."
"Alright then." Kravos held out his hand, "Let's go."
Ashe slid her tiny, delicate hand into his large, callous one and followed him outside.
"Scales has gotten bigger," Ashe noted, tossing a chunk of meat into the pen.
Kravos nodded. The deathclaw had grown at least a foot taller since it had been caught, its hide and claws growing in size and thickness. Its temperament still wasn't the greatest but that might have more to do with his absence these past days than anything else. Still, pretty soon he'd have to raise and reinforce the walls of the enclosure.
"I stocked him up with food before I left -meat and eggs mostly. That likely helped with the growth," Kravos said. He turned to daughter and grinned, "So, we decided on 'Scales' as a name?"
Ashe blushed. "Well, it fits! Like I said, I thought about him while I was away. It isn't fair he doesn't have a name."
"That is true, names are an important thing."
Kravos certainly had been known by plenty throughout his life.
"Do you think he'll ever be friendly?" Ashe asked as she watched the death- Scales pace the perimeter of his enclosure.
"Hmmm, it's hard to say. The domestication of any animal can take generations, and, no matter what, an animal is still always an animal; under the right circumstances, they can almost snap and lash out," Kravos said. "But... he does seem to have a decent level of intelligence, which means he can recognize that we are feeding and caring for him. That might make him friendly towards us. But only time will tell."
"Oooh, I guess it would be cool to have a pet deathclaw," Ashe hummed. "It would be like Rena, but bigger and scarier. They'd be good protection."
Kravos ruffled the girl's hair, "Don't let the pooch here you say that. She'll get jealous. Now, come on. Help me feed the chickens and collect the eggs; there should be plenty for breakfast tomorrow. Then it's time for bed."
"But I'm not tired," the girl said, rubbing her eyes.
"I'm sure you'll feel differently once you're tucked back into bed."
"It's nice to be home again," Ashe said, snuggling under the thick covers of her bed. "I never thought I'd miss a house this much."
"It's normal to miss a place of safety and comfort," Kravos replied, settling into a seat beside her. "But, now that we are on the topic of home, I have something to ask you."
The girl lifted her head from the pillow, "What is it?"
"You understand that I am not here, correct?"
"Yeah."
"Well, I have been thinking that it is nearly time for me to return to Skyrim," Kravos said. When he saw the panic flood Ashe's eyes, he quickly added, "And I want you to come with me."
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"Thank you," Ashe whispered.
Kravos cocked his head to the side, "For what?"
"For not abandoning me."
"Oh, sweetheart..." Kravos pulled the little girl into his arms. "Listen to me, Ashlyn. Until the day I die, I will never leave you. On those, I swear my soul."
Ashe nuzzled her cheek against his chest. "I know. I just wish I could stop being scared."
"Everyone is scared of being alone, of losing the people we love."
"No," the girl shook her head. "Not just of that. I'm sick of being scared of loud noises. I'm sick of being scared of people raising their voices. I'm sick of being scared that I'll get hit. I'm sick of being scared of being left alone. It's everything! I'm sick of being scared of everything!"
Kravos nodded thoughtfully. That made far too much sense. Ashe had been knocked down and kicked around by life far too much for her young age. It was only a matter of time until she decided to stand up and kick back.
"Then what do you want?"
"...I want to be safe," Ashe said. "And I know I am, so long as I'm with you and Rena. But I can't always be with you. So I want also want to be strong, strong enough that I can protect myself. Other people too; part of being good is being able to protect other people, the ones who can't protect themselves."
Again, the Old Dragonborn nodded. "I can teach you how to fight, how to hunt, and how to not only survive in the wilderness, but thrive. I've taught many before, including my children and grandchildren, you would be no different. I can even try to teach you magic; I'm not sure if you could learn it and this world would not be the best place to learn, but I can try."
"Yes, I want that," Ashe insisted. "I want that so much. Please, teach me! Teach me everything you can. I want to know everything!"
Then she frowned. "But... what about Miss Wendy and the kids? Are they coming with us too?"
"Well... that is a complicated question," Kravos admitted. "I'm going to offer her the opportunity, though it'll take time to explain the complexities of the situation. If they do wish to come, then I will of course support them as well. The children are young enough that I'm certain they could adjust easily; Wendy... I'm sure she could be happy there."
'If nothing else, she'd be sure that her scum of a former husband would never be able to darken her life again,' he added mentally.
"And if they don't want to come?"
"Then I'll find a way to make sure they are secure in this world as well."
Ashe gave a satisfied nod. "Good. We promised to take care of Miss Wendy and the babies, so we can't just abandon them."
Feeling a rush of paternal warmth, Kravos ruffled the girl's hair. "I'm glad you approve."
"So, when will we leave? Will it be soon? If it's soon, I need to read more about your home. I don't want to be a weirdo who doesn't know anything when we get there! Oh, and you'll need to tell me more about your family and friends so I can talk to them too!"
"Slow down! Slow down!" the Old Dragonborn laughed. "I am still preferring the spell that will take us back to Skyrim; it'll take another two months or so. But, yes, I can help you prepare."
"Good. I can't wait!"
Chapter 31: Chapter Thirty-One
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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Sharing her space and things was an... odd experience for Ashe. Of course, all the toys and clothes and snacks in Dad's house weren't really Ashe's, they were his or his children's or grandchildren's. No matter how much free reign Dad gave her of the house and reassured her she was welcome to use anything that wasn't locked up, that truth was always in the back of her mind. Nothing she had here, in this house, was actually, completely, truly hers. And that didn't bother her exactly. Ashe had grown up with very few possessions, just like everyone around her, and what she did have she was happy to share with her friends. In anything, having so much at her disposal and not having to share with anyone was an unusual, almost lonely experience.
But now, with their home playing host to so many people, Ashe was wondering why she ever complained about being bored. As the days ticked by, Ashe found herself chafing against all the people in her home. Even if most of them were nice, they kept trying to treat her like a little kid. Which she wasn't! Ashe might be young, but she'd survived on her own for a long time, taken care of herself for even longer, and while she loved it when Dad doted on her, she didn't need it from anyone else.
So she spent her days watching Dad work with the other men, with the occasional assistance and oversight from some of the women in their group. In the week since the group of freed would-be slaves had arrived on their little islet, most of that had been devoted to resting, planning, and building new amenities on the islet. While some of the older and more injured members of the group were content to spend their time indoors, sleeping and helping with small, basic chores like dusting, sweeping, dishes, and the washing -they had a lot of that to do with so many people in the house- in thanks for all Dad had done for them, others had volunteered to help Dad 'upgrade' his house.
Using wood planks, beams, metal rods, and other things that Ashe had once seen while exploring one of the home's outer buildings in combination with supplies scavenged from the ship and the slaver camp, Dad and some of the men constructed something called a watermill, a large, makeshift radio antenna on top of one of home's towers, some electric wires, a water pump, and generator. Her dad didn't seem to know much of what they were building, but he was a willing student, paying close attention to everything that was taught or suggested. He listened to everything that was told to him, took notes, and make suggestions on how to work these, "new amenities" into his home.
Sometimes, Ashe would do little errands like running notes and baskets of nails or rope to and from different people. She'd bring out lunch and water from the kitchen before taking the dirty cloth napkins and plates back for washing. Ashe liked being useful, liked being praised for what she did in ways that weren't pandering. When she wanted to do something, Dad or one of the men would find some task or other for her.
Other times though, she just watched from a safe distance, usually with Rena or Dogmeat laying in the grass with her or wrestling nearby. Ashe would watch them plan, toil, build, pause to consider a problem that came up, figure out a solution, and start working again. When the project was done, they'd step back, admire their work, and congratulate each other for a job well done. Then they'd rest for the remainder of the day, Dad would bring up a bottle or two from the cellar, and tomorrow they would start a new protect. As she watched, Ashe couldn't help but notice that, despite clearly being the oldest of the men, Dad was easily able to keep up with his younger peers -sometimes even outpacing them. Dad wasn't the tallest or most muscular of the group, not by far, but he never once faltered when lifting heavy wood and could scale the outer walls of their home with ease, never falling or needing rest when the others didn't.
It made Ashe feel... proud. Proud that her dad was so strong and impressive. She liked that the others could see it too, even putting aside that he'd saved them all with the help of Ms. Natasha.
"There you are, Ashe. I've been looking for you."
Speaking of the devil, the red-haired woman plopped down in the grass beside Ashe. She looked over at all the work Dad and the others had done in the past week and let out a low, long whistle. "Wow, they've gotten a lot done in a week."
Ashe nodded, "They work well together. Did you know Mr. Richard use to be an engineer? He was the one who came up with ways to build all of this."
"I didn't, but that makes sense. While slavers will grab whoever they can get their hands on, there is a premium for skilled laborers and builders."
'Pretty people too,' Ashe mentally added. She understood why Ms. Nat didn't want to say that but Ashe wasn't a stupid girl, she understood what her fate would have been if Dad hadn't rescued them. 'Pretty people are at a premium too.'
"I noticed you've been avoiding being inside lately, is everything alright?" the woman asked, trying to catch Ashe's eye.
Ashe shrugged, still staring straight ahead. "It's been loud in there. Busy."
"It's busy out here and this crew is hardly quiet," Ms. Natasha said. One of the men, missed a hammer swing, clipping his thumb instead, and swore loudly. The woman winced, "I'd cover your ears but that would be patronizing."
It would be. Papa had said far worse to her, to Mama, to anything and everything that caught his ire. Ashe didn't protection from bad words.
"Some of the other ladies keep treating me like a kid," she offered. Ms. Natasha was nice. Papa liked her and she'd help him save everyone. She also talked to Ashe like she respected what she had to say, not like Ashe was a stupid baby.
When the woman gave her an amused look, Ashe rolled her eyes and continued. "I know I'm a kid. I just don't want to be treated like I'm helpless. I'm not."
"Oh, believe me, I know that," Ms. Natasha said. "Everyone else does too. If I had to guess, you scare some of the other women. They worry about the stuff you went through and want to baby you a little. They don't mean any harm but I get how it could be annoying."
"Hmmm..." That made sense. Dad doted on her for similar reasons, though he always seemed to know when to back off.
"Actually, I was hoping to borrow a little bit of your maturity."
Ashe blinked at the red-haired woman in confusion. "Huh?"
"I've been talking to Wendy and she is worried about how Ethan and Cindy will settle in here," Ms. Natasha said. "She is happy they have somewhere safe to live, of course, but little kids can have trouble adjusting to a new environment, especially when it is like nothing they've ever seen before."
She cocked an eyebrow at Ashe. "I don't suppose you have any experience in that area?"
Ducking her head, the little girl refused to answer. Yeah, she knew what that was like. It wasn't until she'd been snatched away from it that Ashe realized how comfortable she'd become in Dad's home.
' Our home,' she reminded herself. 'It's mine as much as it is his. And it is Ms. Wendy and the kids' home now too.'
"What do you want me to do?"
"I was hoping you could take the kids under your wing," Ms. Nat said. "You know, show them around, make sure they know where not to go... Maybe even play with them every once in a while. I get that they're younger than you so it would probably be boring but I think they'd really appreciate it. I know I would."
The girl frowned, her brow wrinkling in thought. It had been a long time since she played with other children, not since she lived back in Tough Seed. Even then, most of Ashe's friends had been the same age as her. There was no need to play with the babies, except if they were someone's younger brother or sister.
Still...
'Ethan and Cindy are probably scared, just like I was,' Ashe thought. 'They don't know anyone here except their mom. I can help them. Mama and Dad would help them. I should help them. It would be a Good Thing, I want to do Good Things.'
"Okay. I can do that," she said, standing up. "I can do that right now. Where are they?"
Ms. Natasha gave her a wide grin. "Upstairs, in their room."
"Okay, so this is the girls' room," Ashe said, holding open the doors so Ethan and Cindy could follow her inside.
They hesitantly inched their way inside, holding one another's hands tightly. The twins had been reluctant to leave their mother's side, only doing so when Miss Wendy had urged them to go with Ashe and promised them an extra sweet after dinner for doing so. Even then, the two moved so slowly that every step away from their new room might as well have been a mile. Ashe did her best to be patient with them and left the bedroom door open behind them.
That would have made her more comfortable.
Once inside, it wasn't long until something caught Cindy's eye.
"Dollies!" she squeaked. Most of her fear forgotten, Cindy rushed over to one of the toy shelves that housed a dozen different dolls, nearly losing her grip on Ethan's hand as she tugged him along. She reached out to take one from its place on the shelf but, before she could touch it, Cindy yanked her hand back so fast she could have been burned.
The little girl turned to Ashe, brown eyes wide with fear. "I wasn't going to touch it!"
'Ouch. Is this how Dad felt whenever I freak out?' Ashe wondered, rubbing her stomach in hopes to get rid of the painful, twisty feeling in her gut. 'What would Dad do? C'mon, Ashe! Think, think! Thi- Oh!'
She walked over to the shelf, standing beside Cindy, and looked at the doll that caught her eye. Unlike some of the fancier ones, this doll was completely made of cloth with a yellow dress that matched the bow tied in the toy's long brown yarn hair and dark button eyes.
'Wait a minute...' Ashe gave Cindy a once over before looking over the doll again. 'Oh, I get it. The doll looks like her!'
With great confidence, she plucked the doll from the shelf and held it out to Cindy. "I think we have some yellow ribbon. If you want, I can tie them up in your hair so you two can match even more."
Cindy stared at the doll for a long time, then back up Ashe like she was expecting her to yank it back and laugh or hit her. After Ashe kept holding it out -she had to be patient with the babies, they didn't know any better. She had been like them too- and kept smiling, Cindy finally felt safe enough to take it.
"Yes! Yes, please! Thank you!" she said, clutching the doll to her chest and smiling wide enough that Ashe could see the gap between her front teeth. "Thank you, please."
'Aw, she is kinda cute.'
Taking that as a 'yes,' Ashe rustled through a dresser draw she'd found to be filled with hair ornaments -fancy pins, combs, ribbons, barrettes, hair nets, headbands, and colorful bandanas- and rustled around until she pulled out a piece of lacy yellow ribbon.
"Ah-ha! It doesn't match exactly," she admitted, holding it up in comparison to the doll's own hair ribbon and the dress Cindy was wearing. "But it will still look pretty. Turn around?"
Cindy had thick, wavy brown hair that was hard to work with. The end result of Ashe trying to wrestle it into a ponytail tied by the ribbon was awkward and lopsided but Cindy seemed happy with it. If the way she ran to the nearest mirror to admire the way it looked was anything to go by. But, as Cindy squealed over her new toy and accessory, Ashe remembered that there was someone else in the room.
"Ethan?" she asked. "Are you okay?"
The little blond boy said nothing, just looked at the hand Cindy had let go of when she rushed to the mirror. After a moment, he looked up at her and blinked his sad dark eyes.
'Alright, challenge #2,' A she thought, scratching the back of her head. "I guess none of the toys in this room aren't that cool to you. If you'd like, we can check the boys' room for something else."
Ethan nodded again, still saying nothing.
It was weird to think that Ashe had never been in the boys' room before, despite having lived in the house for almost a year now -baring the time she'd been taken by the slavers. It was on the opposite side of the house as the girls' room, though on the same floor. And, where the girls' room was painted red, the boys' room had a blue door. On the inside, the layout was much the same -many beds arranged in a half-circle, shelves filled with books and toys, dressers and wardrobes filled with clothes. More toys were on the ground, some stacked in neat piles and others scattered on the floor as if their owner had just been playing with them.
The toys in the boys' room were slightly different from the ones in the girls'. There were fewer dolls and tea sets, for one, and more blocks and lovingly handmade models of ships, wagons, and animals. Ethan found himself a yellow ball to play with and was amusing himself by tossing it up to catch. Near his feet, Cindy was playing with some carved wooden horses, her new doll seated in her lap.
Ashe, on the other hand, was more interested in what was hanging above the center-most bed. She recognized it as a bow and arrow set; some of the boys back in Tough Seed would make crude ones out of sticks and pieces of springy cord. This one was different though, it was small and painted bright blue. The thing that held the arrows -the quiver? Ashe was pretty sure it was called a quiver- was made of that soft, fuzzy leather with small pictures of birds sewed into it. And, when Ashe climbed on the bend to get a closer look, she saw that even the arrows were different. Rather than a sharp rock or even the sharpened wooden end like her friends had made to mess around with, these arrows had round, heavy ends wrapped in a piece of cloth.
She pulled the weapon from its home and turned it over in her hands.
'If I asked, would Dad teach me?'
Notes:
It looks like Ashe has found her weapon. I wonder what this will mean for her? ;-)
Chapter 32: Chapter Thirty-Two
Notes:
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As the sun set, a calmness had settled over the islet that Kravos was thankful for. While he deeply enjoyed once more having a motley group in his home, it was undeniably far more hectic than the piece he'd come to expect back when it was just him, Rena, and Ashe. Now there were always people bustling about doing chores, helping cook meals, bickering with one another, building the new additions to his home, and all other manners of things. The only time Kravos had any quiet whatsoever was when the night came and everyone settled in bed.
Even this wouldn't last long though. At first light overmorrow, Natasha and the others would be boarding the ship to return to their homes -something not everyone was happy about. Kravos could understand the sentiment. After all, if their time in the slaver's custody had been a nightmare, their time at Kravos' home had been a dream. But now the time to return to reality was drawing close and reality was rarely kind.
That was a problem for overmorrow though. For now, Kravos was happy to relax in bed with a cup of tea and write in his journal. The poor thing had been severely neglected these past weeks and it was time to catch it up on all that had happened. It was important to leave a record for future generations, after all.
It was then I tracked the slavers to their headquarters with Natasha Green and our dogs. The base was heavily
A soft knock at the door broke Kravos' concentration. "Come in, the door is unlocked."
The door creaked open and Ashe's small face poked around the corner, followed by Rena's furry head. "Dad, can I come in?"
"Of course, sweetheart. What troubles you?"
The girl didn't respond. Instead, she just silently wandered further into the room with Rena by her side, letting the door swing close as her eyes darting around like she wasn't sure what to look at first. Ashe's hands were tucked behind her back, awkwardly hiding something. While Kravos couldn't make out what it was exactly, he caught the reflection of something blue and long in the mirror.
"You've got a lot of neat stuff," she said, admiring some of the enchanted jewelry that Kravos kept securely locked in a glass case.
"Aye, it's a side effect of having an adventure-filled life." Kravos patted the bed beside him, "Now, why don't you climb up here and show me what you're hiding?"
A bright red blush lit up the girl's freckled face. Ashe flashed a bashful grin as she held out Hroar's old practice bow and arrow set.
Kravos laughed, picking the bow to give the old string an experimental tug. It wasn't in great shape, but the fact the bow itself was still holding together was a testament to the craftsmanship it had been made with. "It's been years since I've seen this anywhere other than the wall."
"You're not mad at me for touching it then?" Ashe asked as she climbed up onto the bed, flopping around as she struggled. "Agh, got it! I was really careful taking it down, didn't want to break anything."
"Well... I would have preferred if you asked first. After all, this belongs to my son, not me." Seeing the worry creep into Ashe's eyes, Kravos quickly added, "But, clearly there has been no harm done so, no, I'm not mad. I am , however, curious as to why you've brought it to me."
"I was..." Ashe trailed off for a moment before pausing, closing her eyes, taking a deep breath, and starting again. "I was hoping you could teach me how to use it. Playing swords with you was fun, but I don't think it's something I'd be very good at."
"And you think you could be a good archer?" Kravos asked. When Ashe nodded, Kravos scratched his beard and mulled over the idea. "Hmmm, it's possible. Archery is not the best choice for many women, it takes great strength to properly draw a powerful bow. However, all the best archers I've ever met -Agni, Sorine, Janessa, and Aela- are all women. And, even more than strength, patience and precision are important for an archer to have. All traits I find that women are better at than the average man."
"So you think I could do it? You think I could be good at it?"
Kravos nodded. "Yes, I do. In fact, we'll start practicing tomorrow. I'll need to tune up this bow and put a few things together first, but that won't take any time at all."
Ashe's blue-green eyes went wide with excitement. "Really? That's awesome!"
"Be warned, the training will be hard. Your arms with ache and your hands will blister," Kravos said. "Now that you've chosen your weapon, you'll find I am a firm teacher. And, just the same as all my other children, I will not go easy on you, Ashlyn. There will be times you hate me for my instruction, but try to remember that I am always fair in both my criticism and praise. Do you understand? Do you want this?"
"...Yes, I do," Ashe nodded, her little voice low and serious.
"Good, I can't wait to see how far you can go with a bit of training."
"Me neither," the girl agreed, seemingly more to herself and than Kravos. Her eyes slid to the journal propped up in his lap. "What's that?"
"Oh, this? It's where I write down all my adventures."
"Why? Are you worried you'll forget? I've heard that can happen when you get really old."
Kravos laughed. "That is true but, in my case, I want to leave a record of my life for future generations. We've all got our stories to tell and I want to make sure mine is told correctly."
“Are you really that important?"
"To many people? Yes," Kravos said. "And, when we return, you will be as well by virtue of being my daughter."
"Ugh, I don't think I like that idea," Ashe shivered, her face scrunched up in disgust. But, after a moment, she relaxed again. "Could you tell me about one of them? Your adventures, I mean."
"Well..." Kravos gave it a moment of thought, trying to remember a child-friendly one. "Ah-ha, I know just one."
He held up one arm, letting Ashe tuck herself under it. She nuzzled her head against Kravos' shoulder and snuggled up under the blankets. Rena leaped up on the bed too, curling up at their feet.
"It all started one cold winter morning..."
Early the next morning, before anyone else was up, Kravos woke and slipped out of bed. Leaving Ashe and Rena to sleep, the old Dragonborn made his way outside to the pile of leftover wood and building supplies. Dragging what he needed further into the tree line, Kravos went to work using some paint, wood, old hay bales, and sandbags to set up a series of ground and hanging targets.
'Crude,' Kravos thought to himself, stepping back to take in his handiwork. 'Nothing like the one I have back in Skyrim, but it will have to do for now.'
He glanced at the horizon, the sun half-above the water now. It would be another hour or so before his visitors started waking up, expecting breakfast. Multiple people had expressed to him the desire to sleep in so they could truly enjoy this last day of their 'vacation.' Kravos didn't quite know what that meant but was content to let them sleep, both because they deserved the sleep and because it allowed him to have the privacy needed to finish his project.
While training his children, grandchildren, and others, Kravos had set up a series of obstacle and shooting courses for them. He found it tended to be a useful training tool as it allowed the users to practice a variety of different skills at once, while also making the experience enjoyable. Runa, Hroar, and Samuel even made a competition of seeing who could complete the course the quickest and with the most accuracy.
'It's a shame there is no one here for Ashe to run against. A bit of compaction is always good for skill development.' Kravos hauled the makeshift balance beam into place, making sure it wasn't too high off the ground. ‘Wendy's children are still too young to start training, even if their mother would even allow such a thing. Perhaps I can convince Wendy to allow Cindy and Ethan to learn the basics? Even if they don't come with us back to Skyrim, it would be good for them to learn how to handle a dagger and survive in the wilderness.'
The sun creeping ever higher in the sky, Kravos continued to work.
"I hope everyone enjoys this," the old Dragonborn announced to the group gathered at the table. "Seeing as this will be our last leisurely breakfast together, I thought that I should prepare something special. We have banana bread, plenty of eggs -both boiled and scrambled, bacon, sausages, some sweet rolls and boiled crème treats, griddle cakes, and plenty of juice. Everyone... dig in!"
Without another word, the group descended on the platter of food. Kravos slumped back in his chair, letting himself relax as he took in their happy faces. Happiness was a rare commodity in this world, he felt. By his left side, Ashe stacked her plate up high with bacon and sweet rolls. Usually, Kravos limited her sweet intake but, for now, he'd allow her to indulge.
Besides, she'd come to regret it soon.
"Ashe, I have something to show you after we eat," he said.
The girl looked up, mouth stuffed full. "Huh?"
"Don't talk with your mouthful," he scolded.
Ashe rolled her eyes but swallowed. "What do you mean? And where did you go this morning?"
"You'll see later. Enjoy yourself for now."
After a moment, the girl just shrugged and turned to talk with Wendy.
"What is that about?" Natasha asked.
Kravos leaned over. "Ashe has decided she wants to learn to fight. I'm going to see how devoted to that idea she is."
"That's ominous."
"I suppose. I'm not a gentle teacher. If Ashe wants this, she is going to have to work for it."
Green eyes narrowed. "You're not going to hurt her, are you?"
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"How could you ask me that?" Kravos demanded. "After everything I went through to get her back!"
Natasha sighed, backing down. "Sorry, of course not. I just... After everything that happened with Shaun and Grant, I feel protective of... everyone, Ashe included."
"That is a noble thing. I don't think it will do you much good in the long run though."
"Don't I know it," the red-haired woman agreed sadly.
"Where are we going?" Ashe asked as she and Rena followed at Kravos' heels. "I promised Cindy that I'd show her where the play paints are, so I can't be out here too long."
"You won't be. I just want to show you something."
"Something in the woods? You didn't find another weird animal out here, did you?" Ashe joked. "I don't think Scales would like sharing his pen."
"No," Kravos chuckled. "This surprise is purely for you."
Ashe stumbled in her step, giving Kravos a strange, almost fearful look. "I don't like surprises."
For a moment, Kravos wondered if he'd said something wrong. Or, at least, worded it poorly. Whatever the case may be, it was best to clarify.
"What we were talking about last night, about you learning to shoot a bow. You'll need a place to learn how to do that," he explained. "I made one."
Ashe looked relieved at his words, though her confusion clearly lingered. "Can you just prop a target up against the house?"
The old Dragonborn laughed, "I'd rather avoid having holes in my walls! And, besides, learning to hit a target is only part of what you'll need to learn."
"What do you mean?"
"See for yourself."
Having arrived at their destination, Kravos stepped back to allow Ashe to see her new training area. There was a line of straw archery target butts of different sizes and shapes, some hanging and some grounded, a balance beam, a pair of angled stepping boards, a rope climbing ladder, a climbing frame, a crawling net, and swinging rope.
"You made this all in one morning?" Ashe asked, gapping at it all. "How?"
"I've made many of these over the years for various purposes," he explained. "This one is for you. This is how you'll start learning to-"
"Shoot?"
Kravos shook his head. "No, this is where you start learning how to survive. More than that, this is where you start looking at how to fight!"
At Ashe's confused look, the old Dragonborn pulled Hroar's old bow and quiver from where'd he left it hanging from a tree limb. Standing in front of the girl, he held the weapon out and continued.
"Tamriel is a dangerous land, Ashlyn, and I won't always be there to protect you. There will be times when you'll need to defend yourself. You'll need to grow stronger to do that. I'll help you get there but it will be hard. So, I'll ask again, are you sure you want this?"
Ashe reached out for the bow, hesitating for only the briefest moment because wrapping her small hand around the grip. She pulls it out of Kravos' hands, arranging the practice weapon in her arm. Kravos watched silently as Ashe gave a practice draw. It's sloppy and, had Ashe actually been trying to fire an arrow, it would have done more damage to her own arm and shoulder than good.
They could correct that though.
"When do we start?" Ashe asked.
Chapter 33: Chapter Thirty-Three
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"Will you be able to make it to your destination safely?" Kravos asked.
Natasha's pretty lips quirked into a smile, teasing and thankful at once. "You know, I managed just fine before meeting up with you, right?"
Kravos chuckled. "That is true. Even in the short time we've known one another, I've seen how capable you are. I have no doubt you'll protect these people and find a way to save your son."
"Flatterer." Nat ducked her head, still smiling. By their feet, Dog Meat and Rena sniffed and pawed at each other, saying their own goodbyes. "I appreciate your faith in me though. You've been through so much, it makes me think I can make it through my story in one piece."
"It'll be hard. I won't pretend otherwise, yet I always managed to find joy in the bonds I made with others and the people I was able to help on my journey."
"I'll keep that in mind."
Kravos took note of the woman's wistful smile. He offered his own before untying a small pouch from his belt, tossing it towards her. "Here, I have one final gift."
"What?" Nat caught the pouch with impressive ease. She pulled the drawstrings open to peek inside. "Are these... seeds?"
"Yes," the old Dragonborn nodded. "I can't guarantee they'll take here but, if they do, the plants they grow can help with the ra- radiation sickness Ashe tells me troubles this land."
"That sounds unbelievable but I suppose that is par for the course with you, so instead I'll just say thank you," the woman smiled. "If this works then you may have given a lot of people hope for the future."
"I do what I can."
Natasha crouched down to face Ashe, who crossed her arms with an adorable huff. "Will you miss me, Ashe?"
"I wouldn't have to if you didn't leave," she pouted.
"Aw, I wish I could stay longer but duty calls." The woman wrapped Ashe up into a hug, "Maybe I can visit someday?"
Ashe flinched -an action Kravos internally mirrored- but said nothing as she hugged Natasha back, burying her face in the woman's shoulder. They wouldn't be around if Natasha visited again. No, by that point they'd be back in Skyrim. And Kravos was excited about that, he couldn't wait for the day he could teach Ashe to ride horses, brew potions, climb the beautiful mountains and fish in the gorgeous lakes, and introduce her to all his friends and family. But that didn't mean he didn't regret that he'd been leaving good people behind in this withered, unhealthy world.
"I'll protect the little kids, I promise," Ashe said, voice tight and choked. "And I'll make sure they can protect themselves too."
"I know you will."
When Natasha pulled away from Ashe, she looked up to meet Kravos' eyes.
'Protect her.'
'Of course.'
"Alright everyone, last call! Everyone, all aboard!" Nat called out.
Despite the order, the next hour was filled with goodbyes and final safety checks. When it became clear that they could no longer put off setting sail, everyone gathered on deck to wave farewell to Kravos, Ashe, Rena, Wendy, and little Ethan and Cindy.
When the ship vanished over the horizon, Ashe pressed herself against Kravos' side. "They'll be okay, right?"
"I have no doubt," he said, smoothing her hair back. It was long enough to braid now. He looked over, catching Wendy's eye. "Ashe, why don't you take Ethan and Cindy to meet Scales?"
The girl gave him a confused look. "Isn't that dangerous?"
"So long as you all keep the appropriate distance and do nothing foolish, I have faith you can handle this responsibility. Besides, Scales has been increasingly calm this past week."
Ashe shifted, looking half-frightened by the task and half-proud to have been given it. "...Alright. Come on, kids. Follow me."
Taking a hand of each of the twins, she led the two off the dock and around the back of the house, out of sight and earshot with Rena trotting alongside them. When they were gone, Kravos turned and offered his elbow to Wendy.
"My lady, would you care to join me for a walk?"
Wendy gave him a confused look before laughing and tucking her hand into the crook of his arm. "Lead the way."
He walked them along the rough, rocky shore of the islet. For a while, they stayed quiet, enjoying the returned tranquility of his temporary home; as much as Kravos enjoyed the company of everyone, the gently rolling waves and the sea breeze were vastly preferable in many ways.
"I want to thank you for taking us in again," Wendy said, rolling her head to soak up some rare rays of sunlight. "I never knew just how wonderful being able to relax and enjoy times with my kids would be. It's only been a few days and they're already so happy here. Not to mention they absolutely adore Ashe; Cindy told me that she wants to 'paint her hair red' so she looks like her new big sister. She really is a remarkable girl, you should be proud."
"I am," Kravos chuckled, a warm bloom of affection growing in his chest. Of course, he knew Ashe was wonderful, but it was always nice when others acknowledged it. "I'm glad you think so because I have something I'd like to ask you."
As soon as the words left his lips, the old Dragonborn felt Wendy go rigid.
The woman swallowed hard and forced herself to keep walking. "Oh?"
"Yes, you said that you were a school teacher once, correct?"
"...Yes."
"Well, unfortunately, Ashe's education was severely neglected as she grew. I've managed to fill in as many gaps as I could -she's incredibly intelligent, absorbs information at an amazing rate- but I also have much I need to do, things I need to prepare. Even with that, I want her schooling to continue. More specifically, I want you to continue it."
The tension in Wendy's body drained away. "I'd- I'd be flattered! I loved teaching, you know? For a long time, it was my only real joy in life. I'd like to go back to that."
"Well, I have an entire room set up for teaching in my house. I used to use it to teach my children when they were all young," Kravos said. "I'll need to dust it off and stock it with more supplies, but it is free for you and your children to use."
More than that, Wendy's words had the wheels in Kravos' mind turning. If Wendy desperately wanted to teach, then there were plenty of potential students in Skyrim. Kravos had personally funded several public schoolhouses across Skyrim but there was always room for more, especially in the little town that had sprung up around his manor in Lakeview. There'd be room for Wendy and her children there, if she wanted it.
'This is not the time to ask,' he told himself. "So, are you up for the task?"
"Of course," Wendy said. "It would be an honor."
"Excellent! Now, shall we join the children?"
"I'd love to. I've been wanting to see this 'Scales' for myself."
"I promise you won't be disappointed there."
Later that day, with Wendy and the children having retired for a midday nap, Kravos once more led Ashe into their makeshift training arena.
"You'll be working on hitting the hanging targets today," he said, double-checking that the training bow was in proper shape.
"But it's windy out, that'll make them harder to hit," Ashe pointed out, gesturing to the swaying branches.
"Yes, it will. Now, show me how you put on your arm guard. Then we'll go over proper drawing techniques."
Ashe eyed the closest target, bit her lip, and nodded. "Okay. Whatever you say, Dad."
Before he even let her fire the first arrow of the session, Kravos put Ashe through all matters of drills. Archery would easily backfire, especially when performed by someone so young. Taking all those risks into account, he'd do everything possible to keep this safe while Ashe's strength grew. Even if that meant forcing the girl to practice the same draw hundreds of times.
It was something that clearly frustrated Ashe, though she refused to complain about it And Kravos could understand that. He remembered what it was like being young and brash and eager to learn. In his earlier years, Kravos would push and push and push his body and mind until they nearly broke down on him due to exhaustion and overuse. It had taken years of being lectured by his mentors on the importance of rest and pacing to finally accept the lesson.
He hoped that Ashe would be quicker on the draw. Torn or pulled rotator cuffs, tendonitis, string slap, chest bruising, strained muscles in the arms, wrists, hands, shoulders, and neck, bruising, and hand cuts and punctures were no fun to deal with.
"How was that?" she asked, wiping the sweat off of her forehead.
"Adequate," Kravos replied because that was what her performance was. Not excellent or flawless, not even particularly good, but adequate enough to move on to the next step. "Alright, it's time to ready your bow."
As soon as the words left his lips, Ashe pulled a practice arrow from her quiver, her thumb brushing against the feathers. The girl was practically vibrating with anticipation and nervousness for what was to come.
Kravos knelt down beside her. "Take me through the steps for shooting an arrow. As much detail as you can remember."
Ashe took a deep breath. "First I assume the shooting position." She shifted her stance into one more ideal for shooting. "I need to stand at a right angle to the target with my back foot slightly forward and my feet shoulder-width apart... How is this?"
"Close," the old Dragonborn reached out and adjusted her body ever so slightly. "You're a little too tense. The stance should be solid and steady, yes, but it also needs to feel comfortable and balanced, so that the energy of the recoil dissipates through your body instead of tearing through it."
"Got it," the little girl nodded seriously. "Okay, step two... I mock an arrow-"
"Nock an arrow."
"Right, I nock an arrow while pointing and holding the bow in a safe direction, either toward the target or the ground. The nock of the arrow is placed at the nocking point, which is marked in black on this bowstring but can be marked by other stuff on different bows. The nocking point needs to be in the same place every time you shoot."
Kravos said nothing, just let the girl follow her own advice. The practice arrows were old and though in good shape, would probably need to be replaced soon. For now, he'd keep a close eye for splintering or cracks in the wooden shafts.
"Now I need to draw and anchor the bow," Ashe continued, gnawing on her bottom lip in concentration. "Grip the bow handle-"
"Its technical name is 'riser,' sweetheart."
"That's too complicated to pronounce. Bow handle is a better name."
Kravos chuckled as Ashe slowly started raising her practice bow.
"I grip it firmly but don’t squeeze it, then I present the bow to the target as I get ready to shoot. With my bow arm straight, I raise the bow until my arm is parallel to the ground. At the same time, I draw the string back to my... my anchor point with my shooting hand."
"Straighten your wrist," he advised gently. "I know you're starting to feel the strain of the bow's resistance, but you need to keep your wrist straight or risk injury."
Ashe nodded silently and obeyed. "My anchor point is the position where my shooting hand always comes to a normal rest on or near your face. You suggested lower lip-
"So long as the string doesn't cross over your nose. That's a good way to lose it," Kravos said, only half-joking. Judging by the glare Ashe shot at him, she did not find it humorous. He cleared his throat and continued, "Now, to ensure the best accuracy, you'll want to make sure that your bowstring hand comes to the same point each time you shoot."
"Is that why you've been making me practice drawing so much?' Ashe asked.
Kravos nodded. "Aye. I want you to develop the proper muscle memory for archery."
Ashe's little face scrunched up in thought. "Hmmm, that makes sense." She shook out her head and refocused on the target hanging in front of her. "Time to aim. I need to learn instinctively to shoot where I look, especially since I don't have any aids to help me on this bow. Try to factor in this like wind and how the arrow will fly."
"Done be alarmed if mastering those skills will take time," Kravos said. "It took me years, it took every master archer years. Yet, if you practice and pay attention, the time will come when you can do it without thinking."
The girl nodded, though she was staring at the target ahead of her with such intensity that the old Dragonborn wasn't sure she actually heard him.
He smiled. "It's time."
Ashe swallowed, her blue-green eyes narrowing. "Once I've locked on to my target I relax my fingers and... RELEASE!"
The practice arrow flew through the air with a sharp sound and embedded into the straw target with a soft thwump!
"I did it!" Ashe turned to him with a blindingly bright grin on her freckled face. "Look, Dad! I made the shot!"
Kravos returned the grin with a small smile. "You did, you remembered most of the steps and executed them quite well."
Ashe's grin floundered a little. "Most?"
The old Dragonborn clicked his tongue. "You forgot the follow-through. You dropped your bow too quickly; unless circumstances mean otherwise, try to hold your position until the arrow has hit its mark."
"...I lost my focus," Ashe said, frowning now. "Damn it."
Kravos let out a loud laugh, reaching over to give his daughter a light, playful thump on the back of her head. "Don't swear like that, sweetheart! Where'd you pick up such language?"
The girl gave him a blank look. "I've known words like that a lot longer than I've known you."
'Yes, of course,' Kravos thought as he fought back a wince. "Apologies, Ashe."
His daughter simply shrugged and nodded towards the target. "How was my shot? Be honest with me. I can take it."
"Hmmm..." Kravos scratched his beard. The arrow had landed on the middle ring of the target. It wasn't a bullseye, far from it. But it wasn't terrible, they could work with this.
"If you were hunting and this target was a small animal like a quail or rabbit then you would have dealt a fatal wound," he said eventually.
Ashe shifted awkwardly, like she wasn't sure how to take that news. "Oh."
"But," he added gently, "it wouldn't be an instant kill. They would die from bleeding out or some other injury-related cause. A surely unpleasant way to go."
Kravos pulled the arrow from the target, bringing it back to Ashe. Holding it out to her, he said, "In the hunt, we owe our prey the dignity of a quick, fair death. To cause them the least amount of pain as possible and then honor their death by using every part of them. Do you understand?"
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"Yes," Ashe whispered. She took the arrow, turning it over in her hands. "I'm not... excited to kill things, but I want to be able to take care of myself and help others. And I want to do it the right way, no matter how much practice it takes."
She looked up at him. "I want to go again. I want to go as many times as it takes to get it right."
Kravos grinned, 'That's my girl.'
Notes:
So we've officially said goodbye to Natasha and the others. It's sad but she has her own story to complete and I know she can do it. On the bright side, the islet has gained several new full-time residences.
This chapter was a lot of fun for me to write. I used to do a lot of archery when I was younger (it runs in the family) so I got a chance to be nostalgic with my old knowledge and skills.
Chapter 34: Chapter Thirty-Four
Notes:
And now it's time for something... or SOMEONE a little different!
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Wendy Schäfer -it felt strange to use her maiden name once more, even though it fit her better than Sauer ever had. Perhaps she could talk to the children to see if they'd like to change their last names as well. Ethan and Cindy were so young, she doubted they'd fully understand but it still felt wrong to do so without asking first- was used to early mornings. It was a habit instilled in her at a young age when she had to wake early to complete her chores, and later followed her into adulthood. As a teacher, Wendy had to go in early to grade papers and set up for the day.
For better or for worse, it had also served as a way to keep Matthew happy too. By getting up early and quietly as possible, Wendy could prepare breakfast and coffee so that it would be hot and ready for the man when he awoke from his drunken stupor. And, if luck was truly on her side, she would be able to get the kids up and dress for the day. Then they could all eat together in relative peace before hurrying off to the school where Ethan and Cindy could have fun playing with other little children in the daycare room while Wendy taught her daily lessons. When the school day was done, Wendy would find any excuse to stay as late as possible so that, when she and the kids arrived home, Matthew would either be gone or passed out again.
Now, all this time later and despite now being in a safe place, Wendy still found herself awake and aware early in the morning. When her eyes shot open, instinct took over and the woman froze up; laying still and quiet, Wendy listened for her husband's breathing beside her. If it was slow and steady, then it had a chance of being a good morning. If Matthew was already up and moving then...
'Idiot, you aren't at home anymore. Matthew can't hurt you, not now and not ever again.'
Glancing out the bedroom's small window, Wendy saw the sky was still a pale gray; it was early dawn, the house was quiet and still. Peaceful. Glancing back down to see that Ethan and Cindy were both still asleep, one curled up on either side of her, the woman smiled.
' This is really it. Our second chance,' she thought, leaning down to kiss the foreheads of her sleeping children. ' I can't let it go to waste.'
Deciding against trying to get more asleep, Wendy carefully slid out of bed. Once more, she moved quietly. This time though, she did so out of love for her children instead of fear for her husband. Making her way through the small, yet comfortable and well-furnished room, Wendy came to the large wardrobe and pulled the doors open, breaking in the comforting smell of cedar, cloth, and the mint used to keep insects away.
"Alright, Kravos... You said you stocked us up with some clothes. Let's see what we got," she muttered, pulling out the first dress she grabbed.
Of course, Wendy would be thankful for anything lent to her. Clothes, especially nice clothes, were expensive. She wasn't about to complain about a new wardrobe, even if it was a hand-me-down.
'Hmmm, not bad,' Wendy thought, holding up an outfit that was seemingly already assembled for her.
Glancing at her children to make sure they were still asleep, Wendy stripped off her nightgown and changed. The outfit was a royal blue, multi-layer dress with half-length sleeves over a white slip and a matching long-sleeved underdress, both of which had a slit in the sides that went up to the knee. As she pulled it on, Wendy was surprised to find the fabric was soft and silky, with enough stretch that she could still move comfortably. However, it lacks any... support , in the chest area.
'I suppose that's what this is for,' Wendy mused, holding up a slightly worn brown leather bustier and giving it a bemused look. 'Well, when in Rome...'
It was strange how sayings could survive far longer than the people who created them.
After fumbling with the laces on the front of the bustier and topping off the outfit with a matching pair of brown leather boots, Wendy found herself standing in front of a vanity mirror.
"If the people at home could see me now," she said out loud, fighting the urge to laugh. She turned to examine herself from different angles; the fit wasn't perfect but it could have been a lot worse. 'Well, I may look like a character from a storybook but... it's not bad.'
"You look pretty, Mommy."
Wendy gave a startled little jump when the small, sweet voice pulled her from her thoughts. She turned to see Cindy sitting up in bed and staring at her, the yarn-haired doll Ashe had given her clutched under the girl's arm.
"Aw, thank you, sweetheart," she cooed. "But what are you doing? It's still early, you should go back to sleep."
"I'm too excited to sleep!" Cindy exclaimed, throwing her head back. "Ashe said we could go looking for flowers today. She promised Ethan that they'd play with fake swords too but-" she shot a look at her still sleeping brother "-I asked first, so Ethan doesn't get her until later."
Wendy fought the urge to giggle. Even after such a short period, her babies had already become so attached to the older girl. "I'm sure there'll be plenty of time for all of that, kiddo, but you all also have some learning to do today."
"Aw, really? I thought we didn't have to do that anymore!"
This time Wendy really did laugh, so loud that it caused Ethan to shift in his sleep.
"Unfortunately, you and your brother will be stuck learning until the day I die."
"I don't wanna!"
"I know, I know. Having a teacher as a mother can be so hard," Wendy said teasingly. Now,-" she held her hand out to the girl- "if you're insistent on staying up, then how about we check to see the kind of outfits Mr. Kravos picked out for you?"
Instantly, all of Cindy's annoyance at the thought of having to sit down for a bit of basic schooling vanished. "Okay!"
'This is so cute,' Wendy thought to herself. Glancing back over her children, she fought the urge to coo. The matching blue and gray outfits she'd dressed them in were simply adorable! And, if she was being honest with herself, they were far nicer than anything Wendy had ever been able to give them.
"Mommy, I'm hungry," Ethan said, tugging at Wendy's skirt.
Smoothing a hand over her son's hair, Wendy glanced out the window again to see that the sun had inched higher in the sky. "Hmmm. I suppose it is about that time. Alright then, let's brush our hair and teeth real quick, then we'll go see what we can make for breakfast."
Kravos had given Wendy full permission to enter the kitchen and pantry whenever she wanted to. According to him, there was little in there that he'd miss so, as long as she cleaned up after herself, she had full reign of it.
The kids grumbled for a moment -still at the age where they hated getting their hair brushed- but the promise of breakfast had them in a more agreeable mood than usual so pretty soon the little family was making their way down one of the house's grand staircases.
"You two wait here," she said, pointing towards the couch in front of the unlit fireplace. Tucked up against its side was a toy box that Kravos had dragged down so Ethan and Cindy would have something to play with while downstairs with her. "You can play while I rustle up some breakfast. Just remember to stay quiet; we don't want to wake up everyone else."
"Yes, Mommy," her babies chirped simultaneously.
Breaking away from her side, Ethan pushed the lid of the toy box up so he could dig through the inside. Cindy, on the other hand, curled up on the couch with the doll still cuddled in her arms. After a moment, she tipped to the side so she was laying on the couch.
Wendy smiled at the sight, it looked like Cindy was more tired than she'd let on. Well, that was what naps were for. "Alright, I'll be right back."
The woman pushed through the kitchen door, pausing for a moment to admire the room. It was far different, far more archaic than anything she'd ever seen before. The room was large and rectangular with a massive stone fireplace -only just smaller than the central hearth in the main hall- taking up the majority of one wall, matched in its size by a stove built into a row of counters and an oven in one of the corners. Aside from the main amenities, a butter churn, there was a giant washbasin for cleaning dishes, shelves filled with books, pots, pans, and other cooking implements, and anything else a chef might need. Hanging from the ceiling were wracks of pans, ladles, and dried herb bundles. Built into the floor in another corner was a strange stone box that felt cold to the touch.
On one particular shelf were several jugs of liquid; a quick check revealed them to be milk, apple juice, water, and some sort of light, sweet-tasting alcohol. Deciding that Ethan and Cindy were deserving of a little treat, Wendy pulled the jug of apple juice from the shelf and set it down on the counter.
'Okay, we've got drinks taken care of. Now, what about actual food? Damn, I wish I'd asked Kravos to show me where everything was,' she thought. Wendy glanced at the narrow door tucked in between two wall-shelves. 'Is that the pantry? Might as well check. Maybe I can find some fruit or-'
Creak!
"Ah!" Wendy squeaked in fright as the door abruptly swung open, revealing Kravos.
"Oh dear!" the old man said, nearly dropping the small crate he was carrying. "Wendy, dear, are you alright?"
"I'm fine, I'm fine," Wendy promised, hand on her heart as sighed. "You just surprised me."
"And you, I," Kravos laughed. Then he gave her a confused look, "What are you doing in here though? Not that you aren't welcome, of course."
"I was hoping to find something for breakfast." Wendy tried to force back the familiar rise of anxiety and fear that was forcing its way up her throat. Even though she knew she wasn't doing anything wrong, years of Matthew flying off at the slightest, most ridiculous thing left its mark. "Ethan and Cindy were hungry and I thought it would be nice to make breakfast for everyone!"
"How thoughtful," Kravos' smiled. "You and I had the same idea, it appears. Why don't you rest and let me cook this morning? After all, you'll have enough on your plate with this being your first day back to teaching."
"Are you sure?" Wendy asked. "You've been so generous, I want to pull my weight here."
The old man gave her a serious look. "This is your home now, Wendy. Yours and the children. While I'll always appreciate having help, you don't need to prove or earn anything.”
Wendy smiled softly, ducking her head. "I know, and you've been so great to us all. I just..."
She trailed off. Even after spilling her shame and sins to Kravos back on the boat, putting what she was feeling into words wasn't easy. No one liked being the victim, no one liked having to be pitted for their victimhood.
"I understand. Do what you can, and try to remember that you're always doing your best," Kravos said. "Now, go rest. Let someone take care of you for once."
"Thank you," Wendy said with another, brighter smile. A strange, comfortable warmth filled her chest and, for the first time since she was a child, she felt safe.
"Alrighty, is everyone hungry?" Kravos asked as he put another covered tray down on the table.
"Yes, yes!" Cindy cheered. By her side, Ethan bounced in his seat as he stared at the secret feast laid out in front of him. Wendy considered telling him to calm down but, honestly, everything smelled so delicious that she wanted to cheer too. Still...
"What about Ashe?" she asked. "Shouldn't we wait? I hate to eat without her."
Kravos glanced upward towards the second floor. "Hmmm, I knocked on her door earlier and she said she was getting up. That was some time ago, however."
"Oh no, I hope she isn't sick."
"I suspect that my poor girl is just tired," the old man said, shaking his head fondly. "She has been pushing herself so hard in her archery practice."
"Right..."
Wendy couldn't quite say that she approved of the little girl learning to use a weapon like that, though she acknowledged that it wasn't her place to say so. For as dangerous as the world could be, wasn't that just another reason to let kids be kids for as long as possible?
'Not to mention, what if Ethan and City decide they want to try it too?' Wendy shuttered at the thought. "Should I go check on her? She might need-"
Bump! Bump! Bump! Bump! Bump! Bump!
The familiar sound of someone hurrying down a flight of wooden stairs cut Wendy off and, a moment later, Ashe rounded the corner into the dining hall.
"Ah, there you are, sweetheart!" Kravos said happily. "We were worried about you!"
The girl said nothing, just flashed her adoptive father a quick smile before heading towards her seat. When she passed Ethan and Cindy, Ashe ruffled both of their hair, causing them to let out excited squees at the attention.
"Smells good," she mumbled, taking her seat.
"And I like to think that it will taste even better," Kravos said. He pulled the cover off of the first of five trays theatrically, "Let's see, we have... Grilled slices of honeyed ham, apple griddle cakes covered in honey, soft-boiled eggs, toast with a variety of jams, and diced breakfast potatoes with onions."
Wendy felt her mouth-watering as she took in all the food before her. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she wanted to pinch herself to see if this was just a dream. Even after a week of living here at the manor and eating Kravos' cooking, it was still unbelievable. When Kravos passed her a plate piled high with food, she nearly cried.
While Wendy was able to restrain herself and eat at a calm, respectful speed like Kravos, Cindy and Ethan wasted no time diving into their breakfast, eating so quickly and messily that Wendy was certain that more food was getting on their face in their mouths.
'Well, they were due for a bath anyway,' she thought with a mental shrug. Then she noticed that Ashe was picking at her food and seemed more focused on massaging her shoulder than eating. "Ashe, is everything alright?"
The girl shrugged. "Yeah, just not that hungry."
Out of the corner of Wendy's eye, she saw Kravos frown. Deciding to press a bit, Wendy smiled at the girl and gestured to her messy hair. "Would you like me to braid your hair after breakfast?"
That got her a strange, almost stern look from the girl. " Dad does my hair."
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'Ah, so that is how it's going to be.'
Notes:
So, what do you think of Wendy's inner thought?
Oh, and if anyone remembers the surprise I mentioned a while back, it's almost here :-)
Chapter 35: Chapter Thirty-Five
Notes:
Hi everyone, I hope you've been enjoying this story's side quest: The Wounds We Carry
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"You are unhappy with Wendy being here."
Ashe bit her bottom lip, tilting her head to the side so Dad could more easily braid the locks of hair there. "That's not true," she said eventually. "She's nice. And her kids are cute."
"But you do not like having her here," Kravos said. Said, not asked. "Do you regret agreeing to house her here?"
"No!"
Through their reflection in the mirror, Ashe saw Dad cock an eyebrow at her outburst.
She sighed and shook her head. "No, I'm happy to have Ethan and Cindy here. And I'm glad Miss Wendy is safe now. But... she's not my mom."
"Ah."
"She's a good teacher!" Ashe insisted. "I like learning from her… most of the time. It's just-"
"You don't have to explain yourself to me, child," Dad said gently. "Emotions are complicated. A household's dynamics are even more so. If you allow me to speculate... Wendy is a mother. Even when everything else was stripped from her, she was still that. She can never turn off being a mother. Wendy sees you, a girl with no maternal figures in her life, and likely feels the urge to give you the love she believes you are lacking."
"Well, she should butt out!"
Dad clicked his tongue. "Ashlyn-"
"No! Mama is dead. There is no changing that! But she was here! She was alive, and she loved me! She loved me so much, too much for anyone to ever replace her!"
Ashe swallowed hard. "Miss Wendy is nice. I like her. But I don't want to play pretend with her."
"...Alright," Dad said with a slow nod. Without another word, he tied off the end of Ashe's braid with a piece of green ribbon.
It wasn't enough for the girl. Annoyance and agitation still boiled under her skin, demanding that she get the last word.
"Make sure you tell her that for me."
"One plus one is two. Two plus two is four. Four plus four is eight. Eight plus eight is..." Ethan trailed off, face scrunched up in deep concentration.
"Come on, sweetie," Miss Wendy encouraged. "I know you can do it."
"Eight plus eight is... fourteen?" the boy finished hesitantly, looking up at his mother with big eyes.
"That's close, but not quite. What about you, Cindy? Do you know?"
The girl crossed her arms. "Hmmm... Fifteen!"
Ashe bit back a chuckle at how confident Cindy sounded. She looked down at one of the old worksheets Dad had made for her, nearly scoffing at the simple questions. Math still wasn't her favorite thing to learn but Ashe still took pride in how far her skills had come.
'Better get this done,' she thought to herself. 'The sooner I get finished with my lessons, the sooner I can get back to practicing.'
Dad had forbidden her from even touching her bow until he gave the okay, claiming that her arm needed time to heal from all the strain Ashe was putting on it. While Ashe had grumbled about it, she couldn't deny that her arm and shoulder had been hurting. Practicing her archery for hour after hour, day after day had left her arm and shoulder sore and swollen, slightly hot to the touch. The swelling had gone down after a few days of Dad rubbing her arm with a thick, nasty smelling paste, but some of the pain still lingered.
Almost unconsciously, Ashe rolled her sore shoulder to stretch it out. 'At least I don't have to drink any more of that gross medicine to help me sleep.'
"Ashe, why don't you help Cindy and Ethan out? Ashe? Ashe!"
The girl flinched at the raised voice. She looked up from her worksheet at Miss Wendy, blinking at her. "Huh?"
"Why don't you help Ethan and Cindy find the answer to the question? What does eight plus eight equal?" Miss Wendy asked in a sickly sweet tone of voice, a big smile plastered on her face.
'What are you smiling at?' Ashe couldn't help but think, both angry at the woman for raising her voice and embarrassed at her own reactions. "That question is easy."
Miss Wendy gave her a strange look. "Oh... Would you like to explain how you got there to Ethan and Cindy then?"
The two kids turned to face her with wide, expecting eyes. Their silent trust was so uncomfortable that Ashe shifted uncomfortably in her chair.
"Uhhh, I'm not sure how to explain it," she said eventually, scratching the back of her neck. "You just... doubled eight? I don't really think about how to do it; my mind just adds them together."
"Are you sure you can't explain it any better than that?"
Another flash of annoyance. "Can you explain how you add things together? I mean, do you think of every step when you add things together in your mind?"
Now it was Miss Wendy's turn to look uncomfortable. After a painfully long moment, the woman forced a laugh. "I suppose you're right, sweetheart. Still, I would like you to participate more in the lesson discussion. Alright?"
'Don't be a brat. Don't be a brat. Don't be a brat. She is just trying to help,' Ashe took a deep breath and held up her worksheet. "I've already learned how to add numbers. I'm on mutilation now. It's okay though, you can focus on Ethan and Cindy while I work on this.”
A strained smile. "Well, that is very nice. Still, don't you think working together to learn math will make it easier."
This time Ashe didn't even bother to hide the annoyance in her voice. "Why? It's not like we're working on the same thing. I already know how to add, and learning how to multiply would confuse those two."
"But-"
"Look, Dad is the one who taught me! Dad is the one who made this worksheet!" Ashe didn't know why that had been the breaking point. But something about the way Miss Wendy had basically called her stupid made Ashe snap. She glared up at the woman. "And I'm sure he's much smarter than you."
"..."
'Come on, say something. I dare you.'
It was then that Cindy decided to break the agonizingly tense silence by blurting out, "SIXTEEN!"
When all eyes turned to the little girl, she ducked her head but repeated her answer -though far quieter this time. "Sixteen. The answer to eight plus eight is sixteen. Right?"
"...Exactly!" Miss Wendy explained, fake cheer back in place. She rushed to her daughter's side, coddling over her. "I knew you could do it, sweetheart. You've always been so smart."
Ashe rolled her eyes but said nothing. Instead she turned back to the paper in front of her. Tuning out everyone else in the school room, she started on solving the problems. Maybe if she finished quickly, then Dad would let her leave early.
3 x 3 =
9
4 x 5 =
20
7 x 2 =
14
8 x 2 =
16
'Huh, that's funny,' Ashe thought, a charcoal pencil hovering above the worksheet. 'Different question, same answer. I guess life can be weird like that sometimes. Alright, next question...'
"So, are you going to bring it up or shall I?"
"Huh?" Ashe looked up from the cabbage she was carefully tearing into appropriate sized chunks.
Rather than answer immediately, Dad took a second to carefully flip the thick slab of cooking beef onto its other side. The meat hissed and sizzled on the skillet, smoke rising in a delicious smelling cloud. Dad pursed his lips, considering something for a moment before sprinkling some more salt and shredded herbs on the meat. Eventually, he said, "Wendy told me that you reacted poorly to her instruction in your lessons today."
"Oh... that!" Ashe rolled her eyes, "She wasn't even teaching me! She was teaching Ethan and Cindy how to add, which I can already do, and tried to get me to do their problems with them. And it wasn't like I was daydreaming or anything! I was doing one of the multiplication sheets you made for me. I don't know why I should have to dumb myself down to make her job easier."
"Ah."
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"I... shouldn't have yelled at Miss Wendy," Ashe admitted after an agonizing moment of silence. "I know she is doing her best, I just hate that she thinks she can tell me what to do. I was here first; this is your house, and I'm your daughter. And I know that is stupid because I wanted her and the kids here! I just- I just-"
"Have conflicting emotions?" Dad offered. When Ashe sighed and nodded, the man gave her a small smile. "Such turmoil is never fun. Yet it is understandable, especially in this situation. Wendy and her children being here is quite a change to the equilibrium we had established. You are right that it isn't appropriate for you to lash out at Wendy, and I expect you to apologies to her, but I am not going to condemn you for it."
'Ugh, that won't be fun,' Ashe internally cringed at the thought. Still, if that was all Dad asked if her... "Alright, I will. But I want to do it when it's just her and I. It would be weird to do it at dinner."
"That is acceptable." Dad propped the meat again, checking how done it was. "Admittedly, I feel somewhat to blame for this friction. I was the one who asked Wendy to take over your educational instruction but did not consider the complications such a change would create. On top of it being new for you, I did not take into consideration that it would be difficult for her to teach you and her children at the same time."
"Well, how did you teach your own kids?" she asked, genuinely curious. Ashe knew that Dad had taught all of his kids, but it also seemed like he was busy most of the time. Did that mean his kids... her soon-to-be adopted siblings had a teacher too? Or were their educations more scattered than she thought?
"Hmmm. Let's see, that was so many years ago..." Dad said, a small smile of remembrance on his face. "When I first took them in, one of the first things I'd do was give each child a simple test. Just to see how much they knew about their letters and numbers. Mind you, intelligence is not limited to the purely academic sphere. Alestan knew much about sailing, especially for someone so young. Blaise had quite the talent when it came to caring for animals and crops. Lucia could sing like a nightingale, even without any training, and Sophie could identify just about any flower I put in front of her."
Listening to all of this, Ashe couldn't help but wonder if Dad had noticed any special talent or skill in her. Sure, she could cook and clean well enough but the only thing Ashe had ever thought herself good at was managing not to die when she probably should have.
"But, getting back on track, after I had the base evaluations of their abilities, I'd do my best to tailor specific help to each child's need," Dad said. "Of course, there was only so much I could do. Especially when they were all very young. I had so many duties to attend to that we had to move around every few months. Eventually, I broke down and hired a few tutors to travel with us. Then, when they got older, and things weren't so chaotic, I was able to put them into schoolhouses or apprenticeships; whichever suited them best."
"That's nice."
What else was Ashe supposed to say?
Another silence lapsed over the two. Dad pulled the slab of beef from the skillet and began carving it up. Ashe tossed the shredded cabbage into a bowl and went to pull more off, wincing when the motion irritated her sore arm.
"Eh!" she hissed, fighting the urge to massage her shoulder.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing!" Ashe said quickly, forcing a smile. 'Dad was right. I needed more rest; I shouldn't have snuck out earlier to practice.'
"Hmmm." Dad looked dubious at her reassurance. He didn't press though, dumping the bowl of shredded cabbage and chopped vegetables into the still-hot skillet. "How about we make a deal, Ashlyn? If you agree to keep attending lessons and try to... mind your annoyance, I will speak with Wendy about how best to address the issue of how to attend to the academic needs of all the children. In the meantime, you can keep working your way through those worksheets. You just need to present them to Wendy at the end of the lesson so she can check them. How does that sound?"
In all honesty, Ashe would prefer if Dad could keep teaching her. Hell, she’d probably learn more just hanging out with him all day than she would having Miss Wendy talk at her for hours on end. Still... Ashe knew better than to ask for things she couldn't have.
"I guess that is okay."
Late that night, after tossing and turning on her bed trying to get comfortable, Ashe found herself down in the washroom trying to soothe the pain in her arm.
"Errr," she growled, half in pain and half in a twisted kind of sweet relief as she draped a rag soaked in icy water over her naked shoulder. The cold from the damp cloth helped to take the edge off, chilling her hot skin slightly. If she did it enough times in a row, Ashe's shoulder might even go numb. Which would definitely make the next part of Ashe's plan go easier.
'And if it doesn't, at least I have these. It won't be fun, but I can do it. I've been through worse,' Ashe thought to herself, eyeing the two containers that she managed to steal from the tower where Dad made his medicine.
She knew she had to drink the stuff in the red bottle, which would be easy enough. But the other container, the blue jar, had the thick, nasty-smelling salve that Ashe needed to massage into the skin of her arm. Her arm hurt so much though! Ashe was alright dreading the very idea. Dad had always been the one to apply the medicine before, speaking gentle platitude to sooth her. His hands were callous and firm as he did so, not leaving her pull away no matter how much Ashe whined, whimpered, and squirmed.
But he isn't here now. And asking him for help would mean admitting to Dad that Ashe had gone against his advice.
'No, that would make him disappointed,' she thought. Shaking her head out, Ashe grabbed the red bottle. "Okay, let's do this!"
Using her teeth, Ashe pulled the cork from the bottle and chugged the contents as quickly as she could. The medicine inside was thick, almost syrupy, and sickly sweet. It didn't taste good , but it wasn't bad either.
"Okay, got that out of the way." Ashe stared at the blue jar and tried not to cringe, "Now I've got to-"
Creak!
Ashe jumped as the washroom door opened, revealing a sleepy-looking Miss Wendy.
"Ashlyn?" the woman asked, confused. "What are you doing?"
"Uhhhh..."
Chapter 36: Chapter Thirty-Six
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'As it turned out, there are definite downsides to living in a house so large,' Wendy thought ruefully as she slowly made her way through the dark halls of Kravos' opulent home.
She squinted through the darkness and raised the lantern she was carrying high so that the dim ring of light created by the strange, glowing blue stone would illuminate the floor in front of her just a little bit more. With her free hand, Wendy groped around at the walls and furniture around her. The last thing Wendy wanted to do was walk right into something that was undoubtedly extremely expensive and either break it or trip right over it and end up sprawled on her butt with a busted ankle.
Still, her parched throat and the insistent nagging of hunger in her stomach urged Wendy onward towards the kitchen. Wendy had never been a particularly heavy sleeper, even as a child; years of constantly having to be aware of every little hitch and shift in Matthew only enhanced that habit. This time though, Wendy didn't have to fear waking her husband if she so much as breathed wrong. No, in her new home, Wendy felt comfortable enough to leave her sleeping children behind as she slipped out from under the warm covers, pulled on a thick robe, and headed downstairs.
Thump!
"Shit!" she hissed, hopping up and down on one foot as she rubbed her now aching shin. "Damn, that's going to leave a bruise."
For some reason, the thought made her pause. A bruise... A bruise she didn't have to hide or cover with make-up or clothes. For once in... so fucking long , Wendy saying "oh, I just bumped into something," wouldn't be a lie.
It was the little things you miss while living in hell.
'Like being able to go get a midnight snack,' Wendy thought to herself with a smile.
Pushing the kitchen door open, the woman re-light the lanterns of the room to fill it with warm, flickering orange light. When her eyes adjusted, Wendy took a moment to simply breathe in the lingering scents from the spicy chicken, herb rolls, and apple pie that Kravos and Ashe had made for dinner. More than just the delicious smells, Wendy couldn't help but appreciate the sight of the kitchen. For her entire life, Wendy had never known anything to be in abundance -so long as you didn't count suffering. Even the richest in Grathston merely didn't have to fight as hard for survival.
But Kravos? He had so much! Seemingly endless halls full of wealth and unique curiosities that Wendy had never seen before. More than that, no matter how much they all ate or drank, the amount of food and supplies Kravos had never appeared to dwindle. Though she had no proof, Wendy thought they could all live here safe, comfortable, and well-fed forever.
'That being said, there was no need to be wasteful.'
With that thought in mind, Wendy pried open the heavy stone lid of the ice chest to pull out the leftover chicken from dinner as well as a fresh loaf of bread. Putting it on the counter, she sliced off a thick piece of bread and smeared it with some raspberry jam from a nearby jar before tucking a piece of cold chicken inside to make a quick sandwich. Perhaps the combination sounded strange to others, but the combination of spicy and tart-sweet made Wendy's mouth water. Finishing the sandwich with a glass of milk and an apple 'n' chestnut pasty, Wendy sighed in relief, rubbing her stomach. After taking a quick moment to clean up the crumbs and wipe off the knife she used -Wendy hadn't lost her manners or sense of cleanliness, after all- the woman went to blow out the lanterns when she spotted something through the still-open kitchen door that stopped her dead.
'Why is the hatch to the basement open?' she wondered. Grabbing her lantern, Wendy went to investigate. Lowering the light source into the open hatch, Wendy saw nothing unusual, but nor did she see anyone. Her heart rate starting to speed up, the woman attempted to reassure herself. 'It's fine. This is fine. There is no reason to be concerned.'
Why should she be concerned? After all, the basement was where the main washroom was located. While there were more dotted around the massive house, it was understandable that someone might prefer to use the largest, most comfortable washroom. It was also the only one with a tube, and there were any number of reasons someone might need to wash up at night.
'Do you really believe that?'
Wendy shoved the nagging voice that sounded suspiciously like Matthew away. 'Yes. Yes, I do. There is no reason to be concerned. There are a thousand reasons why the hatch could be open.’
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Except if someone accidentally fell down the ladder while trying to climb out? Or slipped on the wet floor of the washroom? Or hit their head while taking a bath and drowned? Or...
"Stop it!" Wendy hissed to herself. "You can't lose yourself to your paranoia and worry. You've got to be better now. You're safe! The kids are safe! We're all safe now!"
But, all logic aside, the worry still nagged at Wendy's mind and, before she knew it, she was heading down the ladder. Grumbling to herself and fully ready to be absolutely humiliated when whoever was down here -if anyone was down here at all- got annoyed by her noisiness. As she made her way through the dark basement and approached the washroom door, Wendy noticed two things: that the door was half-open, and that there was light coming from inside the room.
The reassurance that someone was down here was almost enough to send Wendy back to her room -Cindy and Ethan were light sleepers too. She didn't want them to wake up and find her missing- for the rest of the night. But before she could head back up the ladder, Wendy heard the soft sound of pained grunting. More importantly, she recognized the voice.
'Oh, there is no way she is going to appreciate this,' Wendy thought to herself as she crept closer to the door. 'But I wouldn't forgive myself if I didn't check on her, even if it makes her hate me even more.'
She gently pushed on the washroom door, letting it creek open further. "Ashlyn?" she called out. "What are you doing?"
"Uhhhhhh..."
When she finally poked her head into the washroom, Wendy was greeted by the confused, blue-green eyes of the little red-haired girl. Ashe was staring in front of the washroom mirror and stripped half-bare, with her nightgown pulled off and bunched up around her waist. Ashe's hair was pulled up into a messy ponytail and there was a large, wet washcloth draped over one shoulder. After a tense moment of the two locking eyes, neither quite certain what they should say or do next, Ashe's face turned bright red and twisted in anger, annoyance, and embarrassment.
"Get out!" Ashe screamed, grabbing a nearby washcloth and flinging it at Wendy's head.
"Sorry! Sorry!" Wendy yelled back, ducking away. "I thought you were hurt! Please, is everything okay? Are you hurt?"
"I'm fine!" Ashe growled back, still inside the washroom. "I was handling it myself!"
'Handling it herself? So that means she is hurt?' Wendy thought. "Oh... Do you want me to get Kra- your dad to help you?"
"No!" There was a rustling, and then the door creaked open again revealing Ashe who was now covered in her own oversized red robe. "No! I don't want to worry him."
Wendy bit her lip. "I understand that, sweetheart, but your father will want to-"
"No!" Ashe repeated, grabbing Wendy's wrist to stop her from leaving. "I. Said. No."
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After a long, tense moment of the little girl glaring up into her eyes, Ashe sighed. She looked away. "If- if I let you help me, and you see that it isn't that bad, will you promise to keep things quiet?"
'Success!' Wendy fought back a triumphant smile. "Alright. You've got yourself a deal."
It was a reluctant win. Ashe clearly hated every moment of leading Wendy back into the washroom, stripping down until one arm and shoulder were bared to her. Wendy averted her eyes as the girl did so, allowing her little privacy.
"I pushed myself too hard while practicing my archery, hurt the muscles in my arm," Wendy explained. She pressed a blue glass jar into Wendy's hand. "You've got to rub that cream onto my arm. Hard. No matter how much I try to wiggle away and whine. Understand?"
"...Are you sure about this?"
Ashe rolled her eyes but nodded. "Yes, that is the stuff that Dad rubs on my arm my it hurts. I swiped it from his room. But I think I can put it back before he notices."
Wendy decided not to mention that Kravos was almost certainly sharp and aware enough to know that the medicine was missing. It would get her no further in bonding with Ashe. Instead, she opened the jar, wrinkling her nose at the pungent, herbal odor the cream instead emitted.
'Ugh, what is this stuff?' she thought, scooping some out and rubbing it between her fingers. Soon enough, she felt a tingling numbness spreading over her skin.
"Start with my shoulder then work your way down to my fingers," Ashe said. Then, after a moment, added, "That's how Dad does it."
"No need to doubt the expert then," Wendy replied with all the cheer she could muster. She got more of the cream on her hands and went to touch Ashe's shoulder... only to hesitate. "Let me know if I hurt you, okay?"
Her request was met with a long moment of silence, Ashe refusing to look at her until... "The pain starts right at the bottom of my neck."
Wendy bit back a frustrated sigh. 'It feels like every step forward I make with her, I feel like I take two steps back. Then again, would I be any different? When you're used to no one helping you, it gets hard to accept that there are people who want to.'
After clenching her hands to calm the shaking, Wendy steeled herself and took Ashe's shoulder in hand with one palm on each side, pressing down with as much pressure as she felt comfortable with. Almost immediately, Ashe sucked in a tight breath as she shut her eyes tightly. Wendy forced herself to ignore the reaction, digging her fingertips into the muscle above Ashe's collarbone. As she massaged the cream in, Wendy she couldn't help but notice that the muscles of the girl's arm were
surprisingly strong for a little girl. Perhaps that was the result of archery?
'She wasn't kidding though. I can feel the damage,' Wendy frowned when Ashe let out a strangled whimper. The muscles were tight and felt swollen, almost inflamed to the touch. It was most evident around the shoulder though, as Wendy worked her way further down Ashe's arm, she also noticed that the issues were far from isolated. "Out of curiosity, do you have a full range of motion in your shoulder?"
Ashe gave her a confused look, clearly not understanding the question. Wendy fought back a chuckle, and instead demonstrated what she meant, rolling her own shoulder as an example. "Like this. Can you roll your shoulder like this?"
"Oh. Yeah, I can do that... It hurts a lot though."
"Sounds like a rotator cuff injury," Wendy said, rubbing her hands with more cream. Once more, Ashe appeared confused by her statement. "Okay, so the rotator cuff is a group of four muscles and their tendons around your shoulder joint, all working together while you move. It’s no surprise this area is prone to injury when practicing archery. When you pull your bowstring-"
"Draw," Ashe interrupted. Her voice was quiet though, not rude or harsh. Just insistent. "You draw a bow."
"...Right," Wendy nodded. "When you draw your bow consistently, you put pressure on the muscles and strain them. It can cause swelling, which in turn causes pain and makes it so you can't move your arm as much."
While she didn't ask for an explanation, Ashe also didn't immediately cut her off. Something Wendy counted as a win. She continued massaging down the girl's arm, working the dream into her elbow. With every press of her fingertips, Ashe whimpered and hissed in pain. When Wendy pressed down on what must have been a particularly sore spot, the girl sucked in a breath and closed her eyes.
Her free arm lashed out, reaching over to grab ahold of the nearby counter in a white-knuckled grip. Wendy's heart clenched at the obvious distress the girl was in. She swallowed hard, "Ashe? I know-"
"Talk to me," the girl said, cutting her off once more. "It hurts! A lot! But I need the medicine, so just... talk to me! Tell me what you think is wrong with me!"
That was... a good idea. Surprisingly so.
"W-well, your elbow is in pretty bad shape," Wendy said quickly. "The muscles here are pretty swollen too, just like your shoulder. If I had to guess, you have some tendonitis in the elbow. That is when a tendon, that is what attaches muscle to bone becomes inflamed due to repetitive or excessive strain thanks to overuse. I always got it in my hand and wrist when testing season came around and I had to do a lot of grading but you can get it anywhere."
"It hurts."
Wendy nodded, "Yes, it does. But, if you rest up and treat it properly, the swelling will go down and the pain will stop."
"Good to know. What about the rest of my arm?"
"Definitely muscle strain. Lots of muscle strain," Wendy said, working her way down Ashe's arm and to her wrist. "I'm sure you don't want to hear this but you really do need to rest up this arm. Otherwise, it's only going to get worse. And cause you more pain."
Ashe let out a little huff of laughter. "Dad said the same thing."
"Oh? We should listen to the expert then."
For a long moment, Ashe said nothing. It went on so long that Wendy suspected that would be the end of the conversation. But when she started working the numbing creaming into Ashe's hand, the little girl spoke up again.
"You know a lot of this," she said. "Being hurt, I mean."
Wendy flinched at the phrase. She didn't mean to, and, judging by the look on Ashe's face, the girl didn't mean for her words to sound as bad as they were.
"Sorry," she grumbled. "I... I meant to say that you must be really smart to know all of this stuff. It was just like what Dad said, even if he called the parts of my arm different things."
That made sense, considering how... different Kravos was.
Wendy nodded gratefully. "Thank you for the compliment, Ashlyn. And... there! We should be done. How does your arm feel?"
Ashe gently flexed and moved her arm around. The entire limb was shiny from the slick cream that now covered it, the moisture glistening in the washroom light. "It feels... good. Not sore, at least. I should be able to sleep now."
"Good, let's get you to bed then."
But Ashe didn't move. Instead, she just stood there gnawing on her bottom lip and staring at her bare toes.
"Ashlyn? Is everything alright?"
Ashe bit her lip again. "Can you... Can you walk me back to my room? Please?'
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'Damn, it looks like I'm making headway after all.'
Chapter 37: Chapter Thirty-Seven
Notes:
Welcome back guys! I've returned after a month long break and it's good to be here. This is the last chapter before we finally enter the last arc of the story. Hard to believe the journey is almost over. As such, expect the final chapters of the fic to be a little longer. I'm sure that won't be a problem though :-).
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Ashe wasn't sure why she asked Miss Wendy to walk her back to her room; it wasn't as if she couldn't navigate her way through the dark house by herself. In fact, moving around silently in the dark of the night was a skill she long since perfected, both because it was the only time Ashe could walk around the house without risking her father's wrath, and then because it was the safest time to steal food and supplies when she was on her own. So, yeah, she could have made it back to her room just fine. It probably would have been smarter to do that anyway, since Ashe could have just gone to sleep without any muss or fuss. Inviting Miss Wendy up meant the woman would probably be expecting them to have some sort of heart-to-heart, or at least that they'd talk.
And yet...
'She helped me when she didn't have to,' Ashe admitted to herself as they padded through the dark halls, the only illumination being those blue rocks lamps of Dad's and Miss Wendy's lantern. She glanced up at the woman who was walking slightly ahead of her, leading the way. 'I'm not sure she actually intends to keep her promise not to tell Dad about me breaking his rules, but she did help. I have to do something to thank her for that.'
Affection was often a strange thing for Ashe. She had it in abundance for her mother; sometimes she thought it was the only thing that kept the pair of them sane while under Papa's rule. Even then, it was rare they could be open about it in front of the man. For some reason, Papa always got angry if Mama were to hug or kiss Ashe in front of him. Maybe it was jealousy, or maybe resentment that he could never scare them into loving him like that? Even after all this time, Ashe couldn't be sure. Hopefully, she'd never find out.
Beyond Mama, Ashe had affection towards the friends she'd grown up with in Tough Seed. But it was always a cautious kind of warmth. After all, one of the first things kids in the Commonwealth learned was not to get too attached to any friends. People died easily, or they got sick and were forced to leave the community to prevent the illness from spreading, or their parents were caught breaking one of the rules and were thrown out. Or they simply vanished. No matter how much you cared for someone, there was always the possibility they'd be gone the next morning. Ashe learned not to get attached to people; a lesson that hit hard when Mama died, resulting in Ashe swearing to harden her heart against such things.
Then, so much later, Dad came along and things changed. Piece by piece, the man had chipped away at Ashe's shell until the suspicion and fear that he would hurt her faded away. Worry about losing him still remained, and it likely always would. She no longer feared him; more than that, she no longer feared loving him. Then there was Rena and she was easier to love, dogs were good and pure and strong -she more so than most. Ashe had little issue letting the Lakeview Shepard into her heart until it was filled with love once more. When Ashe first called Mr. Kravos 'Dad' -finally breaking down and admitting what she'd felt in her heart for a long time, it had been a relief. At that moment, when Dad rescued her and accepted Ashe as his own, Ashe felt so full of them that she felt as if she was about to burst.
But that brought her to the current issue: letting Miss Wendy in.
Much like Rena, warming up to little Cindy and Ethan was easy enough. They were little and sweet, the human version of puppies basically. Affection for them was simple and uncomplicated. Their mother though... She pushed and pushed and forced herself where Ashe wasn't ready for her to be yet. And it wasn't that Miss Wendy was a bad person or even completely unreasonable! No, it was more than that...
'I don't know how to deal with her.'
Ashe let out a low sigh, her head dropping low. 'I wonder if-'
Her thoughts were cut off as she bumped into something warm and soft, sending her stumbling back. "Umpf!"
Hands were instantly on her shoulders, steadying Ashe back to her feet. "Wow, careful there. Don't want to hurt yourself even more."
Ashe just blinked up at the woman before looking down at the hand on her shoulder, which was swiftly withdrawn.
"Sorry," Miss Wendy said. When Ashe didn't reply, the woman shifted awkwardly before nodding at the door in front of them. "Well, here we are. Your door. To your room. Where you can sleep. I'd offer to tuck you in but I think both know you wouldn't like that."
'I owe her at least a conversation.' Ashe bit her lip, avoiding Miss Wendy's gaze. "... You can come in and talk for a bit. If you want, that is."
She opened the door, not waiting to see if the woman was following her. If she wasn't, then fine. Ashe could put off that awkward conversation for another day. If she did... Well, Ashe was good at playing things by ear. Pulling the covers of her bed back, Ashe flexed her injured arm, rolling her shoulder and shaking it out. Between the medicine and the massage Miss Wendy had given her, it was feeling a lot better, the muscles looser and noticeably less swollen than they were just a few hours ago. A yawn forced itself out of her throat, a sure sign that the sleep properties of the medicine were doing their job.
Behind her, Ashe heard the familiar groan of the wooden floorboards and looked away to hide her grin. "I'm feeling pretty sleepy. I don't think I'll be able to talk for long."
"That's fine, I need to be getting back to Ethan and Cindy anyway." Miss Wendy took a seat in the old rocking chair, smoothing out the skirt of her nightgown. "So, what did you want to talk about?"
"..."
"Alright then, I suppose I can start," Miss Wendy said, rocking the chair back and staring up at the ceiling for a moment. "I'm sorry."
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"Wait, what are you sorry for?" Ashe blurted out. "I'm the one who has been a massive brat!"
She winced at her own words, turning red at how truthful they were. A truth she hadn't wanted to acknowledge until now.
Miss Wendy mirrored her expression. "You have been a bit... difficult . But I'm sure that I haven't been easy to deal with for you either. I wanted to change so much of what you're used to so quickly! What kind of child could adapt to those kinds of changes without a problem, even under the best of circumstances? So, yes, I am sorry. Even as a teacher, my kids complained about how stern and controlling I could be. It was always with the best of intentions; I had so little control over my own life and what was happening to me, I just wanted to protect my students. Especially since-" the woman paused and swallowed hard "-I couldn't protect my own kids."
Her voice wavered enough in the last sentence, enough so that Ashe felt a deep ache of pain fill her chest. Despite the warmth of the fire going and the thick blankets Ashe still habitually piled onto the bed, she shivered.
'I get it,' Ashe wanted to scream. 'She pushes at me for the same reason I push her away.'
"Habits are hard to break," Miss Wendy continued, completely oblivious to Ashe's internal revelation. "So, even now, even after the kids and I have been somewhere safe for over a month now, even though I genuinely believe your father would never allow any harm to come to us again, I find myself pushed to control the world around me. It isn't fair to you, or the other kids, but it's where my mind is stuck right now. Maybe it'll be stuck there forever."
Ashe bit her lip, wringing her hands in the wool, woven blanket. She toyed with a loose fiber, 'I want to do good things. I want to be a Good Person.'
"My mother died when I was little," she said, the words tumbling out of her mouth. Miss Wendy gave her a shocked look, but Ashe forced herself to keep speaking so she couldn't chicken out. "Well, littl- er . Radiation poisoning, just like her brother. We didn't have the caps to treat it and, even if we did, I'm not sure Papa would have anyway. My papa was... bad, he was a Bad Man. But Mama did her best with me; she did her best to protect me, to keep me happy and safe -both from the outside world and from Papa's temper. It didn't always work but she never stopped trying, even if that meant being super strict with me. I had to be at certain places at certain times, always do my chores right the first time, always be polite, well-mannered, and grateful, and I especially always had to do what Mama told me to do the first time she told me."
When Ashe paused to take a breath, she saw Miss Wendy's eyes go wide with understanding. "So you don't like me because I... remind you of your mother?"
Ashe shrugged. "Maybe? I mean, it's all those things you mentioned too. I hated that you tried to change everything around here. I hated that you tried to act like you were in charge, even though you were my teacher. Most of all, I hated that you acted like you knew me. Because you don't!"
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"You're right," Miss Wendy said after a moment. "I'd like to though. I'm not expecting you to ever think of me as 'Mom' or anything, much less call that. But I'd like us to get along, to be close if you'll allow it. I think... I think we could be good for each other, Ashe. I've always believed that the best teachers are the ones who can learn from their students. I guess it's time I put my money where my mouth is. So, what do you think?"
Another bite to her lip, Ashe was going to rip them open at this point. Still, the pain gave her something to focus on while she thought. Every memory she had of Miss Wendy flashed through her mind. The woman's kindness when they were on that damn slave ship, how she'd done her best to keep Ashe, Westley, Ethan, and Cindy's spirits up. What Ashe had, at the time, dismissed as dangerous softness and naivety was actually the woman's way of trying to make sure they didn't completely fall into despair. Looking back, Ashe could only imagine how scared Miss Wendy had been.
'She's strong,' Ashe thought, chewed-up lips tilting upward into a small smile. 'She is Good. Difficult maybe, and not always right. But I am like that too.'
"Back when I was super little, I used to get mad at my Mama about all the rules I had to follow. I wished that I could go play with my friends whenever I wanted. I hated that I couldn't talk in anything louder than a whisper whenever Papa was sleeping, and it resented that, whenever he was awake, I either had to stay in my room or be outside. I hated him, and I hated that Mama always seemed to be on his side when Papa got angry about something."
Ashe pulled at the blankets again, smile getting bigger even as the sadness came. "But after she died and I was... I was alone with Papa, I started to understand. She was going to do what she could to protect me from Papa, to make my life as easy as she could given the circumstance. Maybe she didn't do it the right way, but... I got it. Especially after I met Dad. Living around him made me smarter, I think. It helped me remember how to care about people."
When Ashe was on her own, just trying to survive, it had been easier not to care about anyone else. She forced herself not to think about her friends back in Tough Seed, not to think of any of the other starving, sick and homeless kids she'd come across. When she had any extra food, rare as that was, Ashe forced herself to hang on to it instead of sharing it with anyone else in need. Holding onto an extra ration bar now could mean the difference between life and death a week down the road. Dad's unending kindness and generosity had worked to undo that mindset, to restore the parts of Ashe's heart that she locked away. It reminded her of the kind, compassionate person Mama wanted her to grow up to be. But when the slavers caught her, Ashe forced herself back into the mindset to keep herself from doing something stupid that would get her killed or worse.
Once it had felt like she was turning her back on everything Mama tried to teach her.
But now?
Now Ashe recognized it for what it was.
"Survival," Miss Wendy said. "You did what you had to do to survive. I guess we have that in common. I think your mother would be proud of how you managed to make it on your own without completely losing yourself. I know I am; I hope Ethan and Cindy would be able to survive like that if anything ever happened to me."
"Do you really mean that?" Ashe asked. 'I hope that's true, I always wanted her to be proud of me. With Dad, I might end up growing into someone Mama might not have wanted, but the life I'm going to live is going to be different than anything she could have imagined. I still want to be Good though, even if it is a different type of Good than Mama intended.'
"I do."
"Thank you," Ashe said, closing her eyes and picturing Mama's face. In her mind, she was smiling. That was how Ashe liked to remember her. Opening her eyes, Ashe shook herself back to the present before she started crying. She was too tired to be getting all emotional. "I guess what I'm saying is yes, I'd like us to try again. I would like us to be friends, for Dad and the kids' sake if nothing else."
"Great!" Miss Wendy said. She rocked forward and, for a moment, looked like she wanted to try and hug Ashe but restrained herself. Probably a good thing, they weren't there yet. "Well... that is good to hear. I'm happy about that."
"Me too," Ashe said. She wiggled further down under her covers until comfortably snuggled under the cover. "You know... you should be proud of yourself too, Miss Wendy. You survived a lot. I think you're right about us learning from each other. You can practice not being so controlling on me, while I can practice not-"
"Not being a brat?" Miss Wendy asked, cocking an amused eyebrow.
"...Yeah, that."
A massive yawn forced itself out of Ashe's throat, causing Miss Wendy to chuckle.
"That is my cue to leave," she said, standing up and heading for the door. "Goodnight, Ashe."
"Goodnight, Miss Wendy. Thank you for helping me."
"Thank you for letting me help you."
Notes:
It looks like Ashe and Wendy have managed to bury the hatchet. I'm happy for them, one can always use more love in their life.
Admittedly, this chapter is kind of a mess. But, in my defense, I write a good chunk of this while dealing with a fever. Still, see everyone back next month.
Chapter 38: Chapter Thirty-Eight
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Kravos was happy to report that, after their little nighttime adventure, a new peace seemed to have settled between the women of the household. And it certainly helped that he had sat down with Wendy and Ashe to devise a new schedule that would suit all.
From breakfast to luncheon, Wendy would focus on the education of her own children -simple reading, mathematics, and the like- while Ashe tended to her chores and morning exercises. This included simple sweeping, dusting, and cleaning dirty dishes, as well as her newer, more specialized duties like feeding Scales, collecting the eggs from the chicken coup, and maintaining her bow. After a bit of light exercise outside -allowing the little Ethan and Cindy to work off excess energy- everyone would meet to enjoy the mid-day meal. Luncheon would be followed with a nap and some quiet playtime for the youngest children. During this time, Wendy would instruct Ashe in a series of topics that Kravos had put together. This typically involved three or four different worksheets, and some out-loud reading. Finally, Ethan and Cindy would be brought back to participate in some group activities with Ashe.
The new schedule was working out well for everyone, including Kravos. As much as he loved spending time with Ashe and their guests, it was nice to be able to work on various projects without interruption.
'It also means that I can keep certain things a secret,' the old Dragonborn thought, taking a step back from the new series of targets he'd created for Ashe. 'I may be moving a little more quickly than usual with her, but we'll be leaving back to Skyrim soon. Ashe will be ten by the time we arrive, and of age to join and participate in hunts. She needs to be ready for that.'
Looking over them once more, Kravos nodded approvingly to himself, wiped some paint off on an old towel, and started back to his home.
Supper that night was a lovely spread of hare and potatoes covered in a creamy garlic sauce, with a side of cabbage soup, and seasoned, grilled leeks along with the customary bread and cheese. Wendy and Kravos split a bottle of White-Gold Tower mead, while the children were left to enjoy chilled apple juice. Kravos did not often prepare hare as a main course, finding the lack of fat meant it wasn't particularly filling. Still, paired with the right side-dishes (and plenty of bread), it settled nicely in the stomach.
"Mmmmmm, delicious as always," Wendy said, dabbing at the corner of her mouth with a napkin. "I don't know how I ever survived with your cooking in my life, Kravos."
Kravos was happy that Wendy now felt comfortable enough to make small, light jokes about her past. Though he rarely acknowledged them as such, Kravos saw these japs as a sign of healing. And the way Ethan and Cindy nodded in agreement, shoving the last few bites of their dinners into the mouths, only cemented this opinion. Kravos offered the table a small smile. "I'm flattered. Though I do hope everyone still has room for dessert?"
"Absolutely!"
"Definitely!"
"You better believe it!"
"I did!"
Kravos laughed. "Good to hear. Let me just clear these dirty dishes then I will bring it out. Oh, and I decided to try something new tonight."
There was a choir of interested noises as Kravos gathered up the dirty dishes on a serving trey, all completely empty. He hadn't made massive portions, yet the lack of any remaining food warmed his heart as much as it saddened him. The nearly licked-clean dishes were a reminder that everyone here, aside from Kravos himself, had been deprived of something as necessary to human life as food.
'It will never happen again,' Kravos promised himself. 'I will ensure no one here will ever be without. Even once I am gone, my funds and resources are vast and far spread. Carefully cultivated, they should never run dry.’
He was so invested in his thoughts that a plate, still slick with garlic sauce, slipped from his hand. Before Kravos could react, Ashe dove for the plate.
"Got it!" she said, clearly pleased with herself. Ashe carefully stacked the plate on top of the other dirty dishes. "Here, let me help you."
Kravos nodded and allowed Ashe to follow him into the kitchen. When the door swung shut behind them, he turned to his adopted daughter. "Those were some impressive reflexes."
"Huh?"
The old Dragonborn took a moment to answer. He filled the wash tub with soap and water, heating it up with the snap of his fingers before adding the dirty dishes and leaving them to soak. "You caught that plate faster than I did. As someone who prides himself on being quick on their feet, it was impressive to witness."
Ashe ducked her head, trying to hide the blush spreading up her neck. "Yeah, well... I guess all the training you've been having me do has paid off."
"Speaking of which..." Kravos let his voice trail off. Perhaps it was horrible, but he couldn't help but be amused by the look of unrestrained excitement and curiosity that took over Ashe's small face.
"Yes?" she urged, blue-green eyes wide.
Kravos decided to be merciful. "I have a new challenge set up for you today. You've advanced far enough in your training that I feel we must... switch things up a little bit. You'll see what I mean later."
For a moment, Ashe looked confused by the lack of details. Still, this was quickly overtaken by the elation of having a new challenge.
"When can we do it?" she asked, bouncing on the balls of her feet. "Can we go now? Like, right now? Or-"
"Calm yourself, little one," Kravos laughed. "You will get your chance to play soon. But first-" he gestured to the pot on the stove. "-we have dessert. And don't you pout! I know you'd regret missing it if I let you."
At his words, Ashe immediately uncrossed her arms.
In hindsight, Kravos should have probably waited to tell Ashe about the surprise waiting for her in the training grounds. While her old timidness could still flair up in new situations, Ashe loved to be presented with new challenges when it came to her budding archery skills.
'I can only imagine how excited she'd be when presented with her first real bow,' Kravos thought, smiling at the idea. Ashe's skills and strength were developing fast; that, and the fact that Ashe was likely going to experience her first growth spurt soon, meant that she would soon outgrown Hroar's old practice bow. 'I doubt she'll ever get particularly tall or muscular, even without a childhood of sickness and malnutrition. When the time comes, she'll need something... more elegant than a standard Nordic boy, eleven or glass perhaps. Perhaps even an ebony one like me, once she is a little bit more mature.'
Clang!
"Okay, I'm done!" Ashe said, pushing her bowl away.
Kravos cocked an eyebrow at his adopted daughter. "Did you even taste that?"
The sicky remains of the honey pudding was smeared around Ashe's mouth. She wiped it off on the back of her sleeve and nodded. "Yeah, it was really good! I still like pies and crostata more, but I wouldn't mind having it again. Still, I'm done now. Does that mean we can go?"
Ashe was so excited that she was practically vibrating in her seat. Kravos glanced down at his empty dish -he only served himself a few spoonfuls, knowing he would not have long to eat- and then over at Wendy. The woman met his eyes, gesturing her head at the still-eating Ethan and Cindy before nodding. She understood, she would not be upset by their departure.
"Fine then," Kravos said to Ashe. "Take our dishes to the wash tub, clean up, grab your practice bow, and meet me by the front door."
The girl up and moving before the old Dragonborn was able to finish the instructions. "OKAYTHANKYOU!"
Wendy watched her disappear through the kitchen door before looking to Kravos. "She's got something on her mind."
Kravos nodded. "There is a new archery challenge awaiting her tonight. Ashe always finds those exciting."
The woman's lips pursed ever so slightly. "Kravos... I know it isn't my place to interfere, and I definitely know that Ashe wouldn't appreciate me trying to say anything but... Are you sure about teaching Ashe to do... things like that?"
"Use a bow? Yes, of course. In my homeland, the skill is so common that it is practically necessary for survival." Kravos cocked his head to the side. "Why do you ask?"
Wendy pursed her lips. "It's just that... There is an... anger inside of Ashe. Understandably so, of course, given everything she's gone through in life. I just worry that putting a weapon in the hands of an angry little girl will teach her to hang onto hurt and fear rather than learn to let it go."
Kravos waved her concerns off. "Weapon's training is all about learning control. When one learns what they're doing, they can control the violence rather than let the violence control them."
"Maybe, but still-"
"I'm ready!" Ashe said. She skidded to a stop next to Kravos, grabbing his hand and tugging on it firmly. "C'mon! I put my stuff by the door already! Let's go, we're losing light!"
Sending Wendy a, 'see what I mean,' grin, Kravos put on a big show of standing up and lumbering towards the front door. "Alright, I'm coming, Little One. You must be patient with me, these old bones can only move so fast."
"You're not that old!"
Letting out a snort, Kravos couldn't help but laugh. "You haven't even met them and yet you're becoming more and more like your siblings and their children every day. They have no respect for their elders either!"
Ashe skipped alongside him happily, the practice bow and her quiver bouncing lightly with each step. A few dim rays of sunlight fought their way past the cloud cover, shining down on their little islet and setting Ashe's hair ablaze in shimmers of red and gold. It was so much healthier now -the last three inches of dead hair had finally been cut off last week- and had grown into a thick, full mane of beautiful red hair that nearly reached her mid-back. More than just the hair, nearly all physical signs of the hard life that Ashe once lived had faded in almost nothing. Her eyes were bright, her cheeks had a healthy flush, and her body was covered by a healthy layer of fat and muscle.
"What are you smiling at?"
Kravos blinked. "Pardon?"
"You were smiling at me just now," Ashe clarified. "Why?"
Indeed, a bright smile split Kravos' face -one that grew only larger at the question. He reached down to ruffle Ashe's hair. "Is it not enough that you make me smile?"
"No," Ashe grumbled, jokingly shoving his hand away.
"Very well then." Kravos put his hand under Ashe's chin, tilting her head up so their eyes could meet.
"I am happy at how far you've come, how much you've grown and how strong you've become. And I'm excited to see the young woman that you'll grow into."
Ashe's eyes went wide, and her little face turned bright red. She pulled away, just slightly though, and she reached up to take his large, callous hands in her smaller one as they started back towards the training range.
"It is hard to believe I've been with you for almost a year now," Ashe said after a moment. "It feels like I'm a completely different person than who I was when you found me."
Kravos scratched his beard. "Hmm, I firmly believe that people are who they are, and only ever get better or worse at being their true selves... So I suppose that I should be grateful that I was able to help you be that person."
"I don't know if that is true, but I think I get what you mean," Ashe replied. "Still, I can't wait to see how I grow when we're in Skyrim. You said we'll be going s-"
The girl's voice trailed off as she stared at the new targets. "What are.. what are these?"
"Well, that one-" he pointed to the first, smallest target "-is a rabbit. That one there is a boar. The one next to it is a deer. And that final one is a human." Kravos patted the 'shoulder' of the final target. "Do you like them?"
"I..." Ashe swallowed hard. "What am I supposed to do with them?"
"Shoot them," Kravos said simply. When Ashe turned to him, eyes went even wider as her face grew pale. "Did you believe you'd be shooting at round, straw targets forever?"
"...No, but-"
With a sigh, Kravos knelt to look Ashe in the eye. "Sweet girl, you must understand that, when we get to Skyrim, you will be shooting things much bigger and more dangerous than any of these targets. Now, you asked me to train you to shoot, to fight. Have you changed your mind?"
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"No," Ashe said quietly but firmly. She jutted out her tiny chin and squared her shoulders, "Show me what you want me to do."
Kravos smiled and tapped the girl under the chin. "Very good. Alright, so today's lesson will be a little different. I am going to tell you where to shoot, and you will do your best to hit that location. Understand?"
"Yes."
"Good. Now, ready yourself."
Ashe was silent as she went through the standard preparation of tying her hair back, stretching her body out, and making sure her bracer was securely in place. "Okay, I'm ready."
Leading his youngest daughter to the shooting line, Kravos knelt down once more and whispered into her ear. "Rabbits are small and timid. A sloppy shot either ends up with a mess of spoiled meat or a rabbit hiding in a thicket far away and you needing to find new prey. You'll want to aim for the head or heart. Are you ready?"
They were close enough that Kravos could hear Ashe swallow.
"Yes," she whispered.
"Then take your shot."
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Thwunk!
Ashe sucked in a breath. "Damn!"
Kravos found the urge to chuckle at the swear. He cocked his head to the side as he observed when the arrow had landed -straight through the 'rabbit's' throat. "Not bad. Rabbits are so small that landing a clean shot on them is difficult. Don't worry, it is a skill you will develop with time. For now, just take comfort in knowing that an arrow to the throat is still fatal, though it would take longer than one to the head or heart."
"Oh... Good to know," Ashe said, face taking on a green tint. "What's next?"
"The boar! A personal favorite of mine. Now,-" they moved down the line so they were standing in front of the swine shaped target, and Kravos crouched down once more "-wild boar are incredibly dangerous. I've seen ones that are three times the size of this target here, and their tusks can slice through a man's guts like a hot knife through butter. So, it is important to keep your distance, preferably from a raised position, and keep your shot accurate enough to down or immediately incapacitate it. Therefore, the best way to down a wild boar is the quartering away."
"What's that?"
"Ah yes, my apologies. We've been so focused on working on your aim that I've neglected hunting techniques. Not much time or opportunity here, I'm afraid," Kravos said. "Still, a quartering-away shot is when your target is facing away from you, and at an angle. Shooting here gives the hunter the best opportunity to penetrate the vitals without being concerned about the shield of meat and muscles on their front shoulders."
"Hmmm." Ashe glanced down at her feet before eyeing the target. "So... I'm standing in the wrong spot?"
"You are absolutely correct, my extraordinary girl," Kravos said, ruffling her hair once again. "So, keeping that in mind, where do you think you should stand?"
Ashe bit her bottom lip and scanned the clearing with narrowed eyes. After a moment, she walked over one of the raised balance platforms Kravos had constructed for her. When Kravos gave her an approving nod, Ashe climbed up onto the platform. Finding her balance, Ashe took a knee and knocked another arrow.
Joining her, Kravos returned to his place by her ear. "The hide and meat of a boar is thick and strong. While a rabbit will always run, boars will often choose to fight. Only shoot when you are sure you can kill it."
"...So I should aim for the armpit?"
'Armpit?' Kravos cocked his head to the side, examining the target and trying to figure out what the girl met. After a moment, he laughed. "Yes, I suppose you could consider that the boar's armpit. You're actually hoping to pierce the heart or lung. Aiming for the 'armpit' should get you there though. Now, with that in mind, make your shot. When you're ready, of course."
With a small nod of her head, Ashe drew her bowstring back and held -the tension coiled through her body- and held and held until…
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Thwunk!
"Hmmm... Not a kill shot, yet not bad. As long as you stay out of the way of its flailing or can finish it up with a killing blow, you'd be bringing home fresh boar for supper."
Ashe gave a shaky smile. "Good. I think. Onto the next one then?"
"Ah yes," Kravos nodded. "Deer are a major food source in Skyrim; they're everywhere and, as you get older, you'll find yourself hunting plenty of them. Best you start learning how to bring them down now."
"How big do deer get?" Ashe asked.
"A large male deer can look me in the eye. Though I suggest you start by hunting female deer; they are more likely to bolt, while a male's antlers can be quite dangerous, especially during mating season," Kravos said. "Still, can you guess why deer are excellent game?"
It took a moment for Ashe to respond, seemingly lost in her own thoughts. "Huh, what? Oh, no."
'We'll have to work on being able to stay aware of the world even while keeping a mind focused on the target,' Kravos thought. "Well, venison is a lean, rich, flavorful meat -perfect for any variety of recipes. Their bones or antlers can be turned into tools, furniture, and art pieces. Their fur pelts are useful for rugs, clothes, blankets, and the likes. Even their organs can be useful for cooking or as bait for fishing."
Ashe looked up at him, a confused and slightly sick look on her face. "You've... fed me animals’ organs?"
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"No, of course not. Those are for very specific recipes," Kravos said, deciding now was not the time to tell Ashe how the sausages she was scarfing down that morning were made. Or the part of hunting that involved gutting and skinning the dead animals. Best save the bloodiness of all that mess for later.
Ashe nodded and turned her eyes back to the target in front of them. "Deer are big, they must be strong too. I'll have to choose where to shoot them carefully. Should I do it the quar- quartering way, just the boar?"
"You can do that, and some certainly sing the praises of the right-in-the-shoulder-crease shot placement. Yet I find that such a technique leaves you no margin for error due to how strong a deer's shoulder blade bone is. As your skills are still developing, we want to go for somewhere a little more vulnerable." Kravos pointed out the various sections of a deer the best he could with the crude, sculpted target. "Now, our goal with every shot should be to take out the heart, the lungs, or some combination of the two in order to give the animal a quick, respectful death. Look between where the shoulder blade and the last rib would be. Somewhere between those two lies everything you need to hit in order to do your job as an effective hunter. The main obstacle is, as I said earlier, the shoulder blade."
"I'll shoot under it then," Ashe said, already going to nock an arrow.
Kravos laughed and held up a hand to stop her from firing. "Hold! As much as I appreciate the enthusiasm, I am still giving instructions. You must always wait for your instructor to signal that they are finished with instructions. Is that clear?"
"Yes sir, sorry sir."
"You can show your regret by not repeating the mistake," the old Dragonborn said. "Where were we? Ah, yes, where to shoot a deer. You will do well to understand that the space the lungs take up within the animal is behind the shoulder and the ribs. If you aim about a hand's width back from the shoulder crease, it vastly increases the margin-of-error on a broadside deer. Can you find that spot on the deer?"
"...Yes, I've got it."
"Good. Next, you'll need to draw an imaginary vertical line through the main part of the deer’s body. That halfway point will put you in the sweet spot; that is where you want to aim. Understand?"
"Yes," Ashe repeated, soft but strong.
"Good. Then take your shot."
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Thwunk!
"Excellent!" Kravos exclaimed, beaming in pride as he took in the location of the embedded arrow. "A perfect shot!"
"Really?" Ashe asked sheepishly.
"Aye, you gave that animal an honorable death with a shot like that," Kravos replied, clasping the girl on the shoulder. "There are a lot more facts to consider when it is a real hunt, but we can save that for a live hunt. For now, you should enjoy your victory."
"Thanks!" Ashe toed the ground for a moment as she studied her handy work. After a moment, she admitted, "It was easier to get the shot in with a bigger... animal. It made me think I had a better chance of landing the hit I needed."
"Larger prey does provide certain advantages, that being one of them." Kravos passed Ashe a water skin. "Here, drink."
Ashe grabbed it quickly, gulping down the liquid so quickly that it spilled down her chin. She wiped it away. "Thank you, I needed that."
"You also needed a small break before your last test of the day."
"My last t- Oh, that." Ashe's eyes turned to the final target. She bit her lip but readied herself once again. "I'm ready. Let's do it."
"Are you sure?" Kravos asked. "You can take more time if you'd like."
"No!" Ashe shook her head, "No, I want to get it over with."
"...Fine then. Take your place at the shooting."
This time, Ashe followed his instructions without issue. "I should aim for the head right?"
Kravos knelt down by her side. "No, not yet, at least. Enough damage to the head is lethal, yes, but the head is a small target and easy to miss. Instead, you should aim for the chest. That way, even if you miss the heart, you'll still pierce something important."
"Makes sense," Ashe said. She drew an arrow from the quiver, "Do I need to know anything else?"
"No, not yet. Take your shot, Ashlyn."
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Thwunk!
"...AAAAaaaaaAAAAAHHHHH!" Ashe shrieked, dropping her bow in fright as she scrambled away from the red liquid that exploded from inside the straw target -spraying the ground in front of it and pooling in the grass beneath. "I didn't-! It's not-! Is that-?"
"Ashe, Ashe! It's alright," Kravos said, catching the girl's shoulders to stop her from running. He dipped his hand in the red pool before kneeling down, staring her dead in the eye. "It's paint, just red paint. Look."
The old Dragonborn held his hand up, showing her the bright red -too bright to blood, and lacking the strong, thick smell.
Despite his words, Ashe's eyes were still wide with horror. "It- It looked like blood!"
"Aye, and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for not telling you, but it was a necessary lesson," Kravos said. "When the time comes, and you trade your practice bow in for a real one, your targets will bleed. It isn't easy to see, and I simply wanted to ease you into that reality the best I could."
Though she was still pale under her freckles, Ashe gave a shaky nod. She reached out, touching her fingertips against the red smear. Rubbing it between her fingers, Ashe checked the tackiness and smell. "Paint," she said. "It's just paint."
"Just paint," Kravos repeated. He wiped his hands off once more before pulling a small, rectangular box out of his knapsack. "I have a present for you."
His daughter's blue-green eyes went wide, shock and horror being replaced by excitement. "Really?"
"Yes, a very important gift. One I am incredibly glad to finally be able to give you." Kravos passed Ashe the box. "Here, open it."
There was no hesitation in the way Ashe ripped the lid of the box open.
"Wow!" she breathed, picking up her new glass dagger. She turned it in her hand, admiring the delicate golden detailing and the way the malachite blade caught the weak sunlight. After a moment, she spoke up again. "It's sharp."
"That's because it's real," Kravos said. He pointed to Hroar's old practice bow. " That is a toy, something to train and play with. This -" he tapped the flat of the glass dagger "-is a weapon. It's sharp and dangerous, and I will not hesitate to take it away if I think you're not being responsible with it."
Ashe's brow furrowed. "Responsible?"
"That's right. You are going to learn how to fight with that dagger." Before Ashe could respond, Kravos put a finger under her chin, lifting her head and forcing her to look him in the eyes. "Now is when your training truly begins."
Notes:
I've never been hunting so I hope you'll all forgive me on that front as we enter these final, extra long chapters of Ash in the Wind.
Chapter 39: Chapter Thirty-Nine
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
As the day of their departure neared, a palpable... No, uneasy wasn't the right way to describe it. No one appeared unhappy or scared of the coming events. It was more of a sense of tension. Everyone in the house seemed to be aware on some level that something would be changing soon. Ashe knew the most, having been on the plan for a good long while now. Wendy, by virtue of her age and hard life, could pick up changes in Kravos' routine. As for the children? Well, they were close to their mother and, since Wendy knew something was up, they could tell it too.
With that in mind, it wasn't a surprise that a soft knock on Kravos' solar door came earlier one rainy morning three weeks before the intended departure date.
"M- Kravos, I need to speak with you," Wendy said.
Kravos fought the urge to grin at the way she jutted out her chin, trying to appear more calm and cool than she no doubt was. That being said, the fact that Wendy was even here in front of him showed that she was rediscovering her backbone and personal strength. It made him happy. She would need that strength to survive in the world.
'Whichever world that may be.'
"Of course, of course. Come in, I have a pot of tea I'd be happy to share," he said, waving the woman inside.
Wendy hesitated, but only for the slightest moment. Another sign of her growing strength. Settling into one of Kravos' spare armchairs in front of the fire, she waited silently until Kravos served up a mug of herbal tea. Bringing up the cup, Wendy inhaled the steam deeply.
"Thank you," she said. "The rain's chill is sitting quite heavily today. Hopefully, this will chase it off."
"Indeed," Kravos hummed, pouring himself a cup. "Where are the children?"
"Ashe agreed to entertain them for a while. I think she is reading to them."
"That will be good for all of them. Out loud reading is excellent for strengthening both reading and comprehension."
Wendy looked up at him, a half-smiling playing at her lips. "I know that, Kravos. I'm a teacher."
Kravos laughed. "Yes, yes you are. I apologize. Now, what is it I can help you with?"
With that, there was a sharp turn in Wendy's face. Her eyes narrowed, mouth tightening. "Something is going on, Kravos. Do not deny it! I can feel it in the air, I can see it in the way you and Ashe look at each other! So tell me! What are you planning? I agreed to stay on your island with your family because you promised a safe place for my children and I! Are you taking back that promise? Because I will leave if that is so. I will pick up our things, grab Ethan and Cindy, and walk out the front door immediately!"
"Oh, my dear," Kravos said. He wanted to reach out to take Wendy's hands but doubted such a gesture would be appreciated. "I promise that I am not taking away your safe haven. Quite the opposite, in fact."
"What do you mean?" Wendy asked, eyes narrowing even further.
'Time to take this from the top, I suppose.' The old Dragonborn sighed, settling into his own armchair. He specifically chose the one across from Wendy instead of the one behind his desk, allowing them to remain on a somewhat even footing. "Tell me, Wendy. Where do you think I am from?"
"Why is that important?" the woman demanded, grip on her mug tightening.
"Because I intend to return there in a short time."
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Wendy's face went white at his words, but she swallowed hard and took a deep breath. "Oh... And where will that be?"
"Within a few weeks. Perhaps a month. Now-" Kravos leaned forward "-back to my question. Where do you think I'm from?"
"Well... I..." Wendy bit her lip, staring down into the dark liquid of her tea.
"It's alright, take your time," Kravos said. "Don't worry. There aren't any foolish answers here."
"I... You're not from here. Not from Far Harbor and not from the Commonwealth. I know that for sure," Wendy said after a moment. "You speak differently. You dress and act differently from anyone I've ever met. This house is different from anything I've ever heard of. And you just seem too... unbothered by everything around you. You're so different that, if I didn't know any better, I'd say you were from a... from a..."
"From a different world?" Kravos asked, cocking an eyebrow at the woman.
Wendy huffed, rolling her eyes. "I'd rather you not mock me, Kravos. If I'm wrong, just tell me. I don't need to be..."
She trailed off, eyes going wide as she watched the small magelight Kravos had conjured bob around the room. When it drifted closer to Wendy, the woman nearly climbed out of her seat.
"W-what is that?"
"Magic. A relatively minor spell used to generate light, I mostly use it to read at night. Don't worry, it will not hurt you," Kravos said. "And, yes, I am from another world."
Eyes still wide, Wendy nodded slowly. "Oooh, okay."
Kravos waved his hand, dismissing the magelight. "Yes, anyway. I am from a land called Skyrim. I came here with magic to experience a new adventure -empty nest syndrome gotten out of hand, I'm afraid. However, after I arrived here I found Ashe on this islet and decided to devote myself to caring for her. After that, we lived here mostly in peace until those terrible events that led to our meeting. You've been here for the rest."
Wendy swallowed hard. "I think it says a lot that I can accept that without question. Fuck, I'm dressed like some sort of... fantasy barmaid! The only other option I can think of is that you're an uber-rich, delusional old man who decided to role-play for the rest of your life! But you just show actual fucking magic, so that obviously isn't the case. So I- What is- So, the only question I have left is... what's next?"
Kravos leaned backward in the chair. "Well, as I said, I'm planning to take Ashe back to Skyrim soon. Despite the safe bubble I've managed to create for Ashe here, this land is not a safe place to raise a child. I never planned on staying permanently. Coming here was more of a... adventuring vacation, a temporary amusement. I still have my family back home that I need to return to, as well as far too many political and social responsibilities to ignore. But caring for Ashe made the need to return even more urgent."
"And me? And my children?" Wendy asked, pulling herself back under control.
"You all are more than welcome to join Ashe and I," Kravos said with a shrug. "I always intended to offer you the option, though I was hoping to ease you into it. I would of course support you all, you still be able to live here in my manor with Ashe and I and be her teacher. Though I could also arrange for you all to have your own home. The hamlet I live in has a schoolhouse where you can work to earn your own wages."
The woman took a large sip of her tea before glaring down at it like she wished it was something stronger. "That is... generous. It should be expected by this point, but part of me still feels the need to treat it with suspicion. What if we don't want to come with you? What if we don't want to run away from everything we've ever known to go to this other world of yours? What if I don't want to rely on your goodwill and charity for the rest of our lives? I don't want to think that you'd ever hurt us or change your mind, but things happen and I've learned that trusting people is an excellent way to get hurt."
"Then you don't have to," the Old Dragonborn said. "Natasha left me with the means to contact her. If you do not wish to follow Ashe and I to Skyrim, I can call her. I'm sure she and her Minutemen could find a safe place for you and the children. The choice is yours."
For a long moment, Wendy did not speak. Instead staring back down into her tea. "Do I have to decide now?"
"Of course not," Kravos said. Now he did reach out to give a reassuring squeeze to the woman's knee. She didn't flinch away, which the Old Dragonborn took as a good sign. "I understand that it is a large decision to make. So, please, take your time to rest and think things over. I'll also be more than happy to answer any questions you have."
Wendy nodded, fiddling with her half-full mug of tea before passing it back to Kravos. "It's growing cold."
"I'll find you something warmer."
Kravos dropped down to the cellar floor, ignoring the last few rungs on the ladder. He breathed in the familiar smell of straw and damp, earthy air. The straw smell was stronger than usual, due to the brand-new practice dummy Kravos had constructed for Ashe. He gave a quick glance at the dummy standing in the center of the room. He'd dressed it in old clothes to make the entire experience more realistic, with the clothes adding an extra bit of resistance. In the week since Kravos had set it up, it had acquired a dozen slash marks across its surface, most light, short, and hesitant, though a couple were deeper and more confident.
"Ashe," he called out. "Are you down here, sweetling?"
"Yeah, over here!"
Ashe was slumped on the ground, back against one of the storage barrels, and a thick pad of paper balanced on her legs. A charcoal pencil in her hand, Ashe tapped it against the side of her face -smearing dark marks across her cheek- as she stared down at the paper pensively. When Kravos took a step closer, something crunched under his foot. Glancing down, he was surprised to see at least a dozen balled-up and discarded pieces of paper.
"Are you working on something?" Kravos asked.
"Mmmmhmmm," Ashe hummed, still not looking up from the paper. "Can't get it right though."
"I could help," he offered, trying to lean down to see what his littlest daughter was working on. To Kravos' surprise, it wasn't a drawing Ashe was working on but rather writing.
He didn't get a chance to read any of it though, Ashe pulling the pad of paper close to her chest. When Kravos cocked an eyebrow, the girl gave him a sheepish grin. "Sorry. It's just... personal."
"Hmmm." Kravos dropped down to the hard stone floor, biting back a groan as various aches and pains shot through his back and knees. 'Ugh, there are days I think that I should have died young.'
Still, he forced that thought away as he settled next to his daughter. "How so? If you don't mind me asking."
It took the girl a moment to answer, biting at her lower lip. "I- It's something I want... No, it's something I need to finish before we... move."
Move. What a strange name for the adventure they were soon to depart on. Yet, what else would a child call it? Interdimensional magical travel was certainly a mouthful.
"It's silly," Ashe continued. "I know finishing this thing won't change anything. It won't fix the past or make anything better. Honestly, it's been frustrating me so much that I've been wondering if things were worth it."
"If finishing this project will make you feel better, then, yes, it would be," Kravos said. After a moment, he decided to venture a question. "How do you feel about... moving? I know I've explained to you how the physical process will go, but we have yet to speak about the emotional process. You are leaving behind everything you've ever known, that must be difficult."
The bouncing of the charcoal pencil stopped, and Ashe now finally looked up at Kravos with those beautiful blue-green eyes. "I'm not everything behind," she said. "I'll have you. I'll have Rena. I'll have Scales, this house, Wendy, and her children. I'll have everything I know, it'll just be in a different place."
Kravos gave the girl a small smile, reaching over to stroke back a lock of her fiery red hair. "It warms my heart to hear but still... This world has all of your memories, good and bad."
"Mostly bad," Ashe said. "What am I supposed to miss about this place? The lack of food? The bad water? The lack of sun? The dangerous animals? The radiation poisoning that nearly killed me?"
Ashe scoffed. "I love Mama, but she's gone. She has been for a long time. I'll miss my friends from back in Tough Seed, but I haven't seen them in over a year. They probably think I'm dead! For all know, they're dead too. There... there isn't anything for me here."
The girl blinked away pooling tears and a fragile, yet bright smile grew on her face. "You've told me about the kind of things in your home. Grass, sun, all sorts of animals! And magic too! It's everything I heard about in old stories. I know it won't be perfect. No place is, but I think that I'll like it there. I'm ready to say goodbye to this place."
Glancing down at the paper again, the face slipped away. "Once I finish this."
"Hmmm, shall I sit with you for a while then?" Kravos asked.
"If that's what you want."
"Always, my dear. Always."
And, with that, Kravos closed his eyes, rested his head against the nearest wall, and let the soft scratching of Ashe's pencil against the paper lull him into a snooze.
Kravos woke to the familiar sound of a sharp blade slicing through fabric and straw.
"Ah!" Ashe shrieked, swinging her arm wildly. The small glass blade clutched in her hand caught the light as she swung it once more, leaving a shallow gash down the chest of the dummy. "Ah! Ahhhhhh! AHHHHHH!"
"Ashe? Ashe! Ashlyn, stop that right now!" Kravos demanded, shooting to his feet and grabbing ahold of her wrist. "What has gotten into you, child?!"
Ashe looked up, face flushed red and twisted in anger. She weakly tried to pull her wrist -and the dagger- free, only for Kravos to tighten his grip.
"Ashlyn, if you do not tell me what is going on in this right now then I will take your dagger and your practice bow away from you right now!"
And, with that, all the rage in the girl's tiny body fled. She went limp, collapsing against Kravos' side. "Sorry," she whispered. "I just got... really angry."
"I can tell!" the Old Dragonborn said. "What happened? Did you have another fight with Wendy?"
"No, not it was-"
"Your project," Kravos finished, nodding slowly.
Ashe nodded silently. "After you fell asleep, I was still struggling. And, the more I struggled, the more frustrated I got. And then I got angry, and worried, and even scared! I started thinking... What if I forget something important when we leave? What if Ms. Nat comes back for us and freaks out when we're gone? What if Wendy comes with us and then hates it? Will she hate us then? What if... What if I'm not good enough to be your daughter in Skyrim? What if your family doesn't like me?"
"Oh, sweetling..." Kravos hugged her tight, "Those fears are natural! You do not need to hide your feelings or put up a façade of strength around me! Ashe, I could not love you more if you were my own daughter. Whatever lies ahead -and I will not promise that things will always be perfect or conflictless- you can remember that, for it will always be true. And, yes, Skyrim will be very different from anything you've ever experienced before."
"I will be there with you, helping you to learn and understand your new life. As for my family? I will not lie, they are all much older than you. I cannot promise your relationship with them will be extremely close. But they are good people, many of whom have children of their own, and they will be good to you. As for everything else... How about we talk about them tonight before you go to bed? I do have plans for most of it, and am happy to explain them to you."
Ashe nodded again, face rubbing against his tunic. "Yeah, I'd like that."
"Oh, and do not worry. With the person I am, no one with half a brain or working survival instinct will speak or act poorly to you," Kravos said, a small smile playing on his lips.
"...Okay."
"Good, how about we get started on our midday meal?" he asked. "I'll let you pick it this time."
That got him a smile. "Thanks! I want something with beef."
"Beef it is then." Rubbing Ashe's shoulder, he started to lead her towards the ladder when something caught Kravos' eye. "Ashe? What did you do to the dummy?"
The bright red blush returned to the girl's face. "I tore it up pretty good, huh? Sorry. I can help you fix it."
"No, that isn't what I'm talking about." Kravos sighed, crouching down to point out the various 'wounds' that decorated the dummy. "You indeed sliced this poor straw soul up, yet none of these slashes would be fatal on their own. If this were a real man then you would have doomed him to a slow, agonizing death. Not to mention the energy you would have extended inflicting them. Remember this lesson, Ashe: Never inflict a thousand wounds when a single stab to the heart, throat, or eye will do. So, I must ask, why didn't you go for the killing blow?"
The girl stared down at her feet, seeming to wild in on herself. "It was... staring at me."
"Ah, I see." Kravos glanced up at the dummy's crudely painted eyes before sighing and rubbing his face. He gestured Ashe over. "Come here, child."
Ashe made her way over, a touch of hesitation in her step. When she got close enough, Kravos took her hands -one still clutching the dagger- in his, wrapping them both tight around the hilt of her blade. She sucked in a sharp breath as Kravos positioned her with the tip of the dagger resting against the dummy's 'heart'.
"What do we owe your prey, Ashe?"
She swallowed hard. "A respectful death."
"Exactly." Kravos leaned down to whisper in the girl's ear. "Look it in the eye."
As soon as he was sure Ashe wasn't going to look away, Kravos put his hand overtop of Ashe's and pushed forward sharply, burying the blade into the straw.
"Here," he said, feeling Ashe's small hands flex under his. "From now on, it will be easier to take the killing blow. Now, you mentioned wanting beef for lunch. I have an excellent recipe for Stir-Fried Garlic Beef that you might find interesting!"
"...Okay," Ashe said softly. "Let's good."
Notes:
So, what did you guys think of the penultimate chapter of Ash in the Wind?
Chapter 40: Chapter Forty
Notes:
A little late but I wanted to get it perfect. Hope you don't blame me too much, this is a big event for me! :-)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The day before their departure was... utterly unremarkable, as far as the weather went. It was the same dreary gray skies with intermediate drizzle that Ashe had grown used to over the past year. It was only in the behavior of those around her did anything seem off. For one, meals had been lighter, and far less complex than usual.
"Apologies," Dad had said as he served up bowls of porridge with snowberries and drizzled honey. "I became so obsessed with preparations that I completely forgot about breakfast, and this was all I had time to make."
"Hey, you don't need to apologize. Food is food," Miss Wendy said. "You know, I'm happy to take over some of the cooking responsibilities. I did all the cooking back h- I used to do all the cooking, so I don't mind. It might even be fun."
"Yeah, I could even help!" Ashe offered. She'd never admit that it partly came from her protectiveness of the kitchen and all the memories it held. It wasn't that she didn't like or trust Miss Wendy, or even that she thought that the woman wouldn't be a good cook, it was just that... the kitchen was a special place to her, as silly as they sounded.
Dad smiled warmly. "A wonderful, generous offer. One I am sure to take you up on in time. Yet, for now, I only ask that you bear with me for a little while longer."
Ashe shrugged and pulled the bowl of porridge close, digging in. There was a lot to be done today. On top of her regular chores, Dad had requested her help in all the last-minute little preparations. Then there was her own little side project.
'I only have one more night to get it finished,' Ashe thought. As she shifted on the cushioned wooden seat, the crumbled-up remains of her latest attempt shifted in the pocket of her dress. Taking a deep breath, she promised herself that the next one would be perfect.
"So you just have to paint the symbol on the ground and then say some fancy words?" Ashe asked. She glanced down into the tub of red paint she was holding. The weight was starting to hurt her arms, but Ashe gritted her teeth and hoisted it into a more comfortable position. If this was all Dad asked of her, she'd do it gladly.
'Funny thing is, if I didn't do all that archery training, then there is no way I'd be strong enough to hold it up for so long,' Ashe thought.
"That is... a highly simplified explanation of how the process will work, but yes," Dad said. With his thick-bristle paintbrush, he made one more line on the ground before sitting back on his knees and wiping his forehead off on his sleeve. "Though... I suppose that is appropriate."
"Huh?"
"At its core, magic is very simple, my dear," Dad explained. "It is a matter of picturing what you want or what you want to happen clearly in your mind's eyes and then allowing yourself to get it or let it happen by saying or doing the right thing."
"Sounds easy enough." Ashe thought back to all the times she's seen Dad do magic. While there were definitely times it seemed like he had to focus or like the spell left him winded, she'd never seen him actually struggle.
Dad rolled to his feet and led Ashe to the spot the last symbol needed to be painted. "Easy and simple are two very different things. For one, focusing well enough to perform even the simplest of spells can be quite difficult. Maintaining that focus so as not to lose the spell's effect or let it get out of hand is another skill entirely. One must have the appropriate level of willpower to fuel a spell. Then there is the matter of learning to read and speak the incantation perfectly, or else face disastrous results. Many intelligent, confident people never manage so much as a basic Candlelight spell, even after years of study."
'That all sounds so overwhelming. I didn't think it would be easy, and I guess Dad has had a long time to practice but the way he describes it makes it seem almost impossible.' Ashe bit her lip, peering at her father through her neatly trimmed bangs. "Do you... Do you think I'll be able to do magic? Eventually?"
"Hmmm," Dad scratched his chin, smearing red paint on his beard. "It is hard to say. Being from another world might mean you are unable to connect with Nirn's natural magical energy at all, in which case the answer would, unfortunately, be no."
Ashe felt herself wilt at the man's words. Secretly, she'd tried repeating the special words Dad said to make fire and light appear. Nothing had ever happened, and while Ashe had always hoped that was because she was doing it wrong, maybe it was because Ashe couldn't do it at all!
"Then again," Dad continued, pulling Ashe out of her thoughts. "It could simply be a matter of you being too young, too untrained, and living in a place with too little ambient magical energy."
"So what does that mean?"
Dad shrugged his shoulders the best he could while painting the final symbol right outside Scales' pen. "It means... we will have to wait and see."
As if sensing Ashe's disappointment, Dad smiled at her. "Do not let it take up too much of your mind, Little Ashlyn. In the end, magic is just a tool. Many powerful, skilled warriors in Tamriel have never cast a single spell in their life."
Ashe hummed in consideration as Dad got to his feet once more, wiping his hands off and taking the paint can from her hands to put it on the ground. "Alright, that part is done. So long as the paint dries properly, all that encapsulates this ring of symbols will be transported back to Skyrim."
"Will it hurt?" Ashe asked, blurting out the first thing that popped into her mind.
A look of contemplation crossed Dad's face. "Hmmm. I don't believe so. It will likely feel... strange, and there will almost certainly be some physical side effects. But I have done extensive calculations and preparations to ensure no physical harm will come to any of you."
Glancing at Scales' fence, she asked. "Not even Scales or the chickens?"
Dad ruffled her hair. "The chickens and Rena made it through the first time without any issue, did they?"
"I don't know, did they?"
"Excellent point!" Dad laughed. "Not to worry, Ashe. I am extremely confident that all will be well tomorrow. You trust me, don't you?"
Ashe's eyes went wide, and she immediately hugged the man tight around his waist. "Of course I do, I'm just a little-"
"Scared?" Dad knelt down to hug Ashe back, his strong arms squeezing tight as she buried her face into the man's shoulder. "That's perfectly understandable. Most new experiences are quite scary. But have faith, Ashe, that it'll all be worth it in the end."
"I do," Ashe said honestly. "I want to see Skyrim. I want to meet your family. I want... I want to start over."
Dad stood once more, hiking Ashe up onto his hip to carry. "Well, your new life is only a day away."
Ashe giggled. "Dad, you don't have to carry me!"
“I know I don’t but you’re growing taller every day! Soon enough, you’ll be too big for me to carry at all,” Dad said, pressing a kiss into her hair. “So allow an old man to do this one thing for a little while longer."
Ashe nuzzled her face into the soft fabric of the man's shirt. "Sure. I can live with that."
Dad only chuckled as he carried Ashe back to the front door. Along the way, Ashe's eyes traced the ring created by the painted symbols. When they passed the path that led to her training arena, something popped into her head.
"Wait!" Ashe shouted, startling Dad so badly he nearly dropped her.
"What's wrong?!"
Pulling back so she could look him in the eye, Ashe pointed into the trees. "We forgot about my targets! All that stuff is going to be left here when we go."
"Oh, is that it?" Dad looked relieved. "There is a maximum area in which the spell can safely encompass, and I'm afraid that part of the islet exceeds it. Not to worry though, I have a far more extensive training area set up back home. I need to keep my own skills sharp and my kin need a place to train when they visit."
"But..." The complaint died on Ashe's lips as she tore her eyes away from the trees. 'This one was mine.'
"Ashe?" Dad's blue eyes met her own, so intense that, even in their gentleness, Ashe felt as if they were staring into her soul.
She forced a shy smile. "But that means I'll have to say goodbye to it. I know that sounds weird, I just-"
"Am going through many changes at once," Dad finished with a nod, starting towards the front door once more. "Yes, that is understandable. Saying goodbye to what has been a large part of your life recently cannot be easy, so take all the time you need. Just so long as you are in bed before dark and then properly prepared to leave on time."
"Okay," Ashe said softly.
At the threshold, Dad set her down. He went to open the door... only to pause, turning back to Ashe so he could tilt her head up so she was looking at him. "And Ashlyn? Never feel strange about such emotions. Feel what you feel, then deal with it. Understand?"
"Yes." Eyes drifting back towards the tree line, Ashe nodded. "I understand."
Knock! Knock! Knock!
"Come in," Ashe called out, eyes not leaving the paper in front of her. After tapping her charcoal pencil against the surface of the desk for a moment, Ashe painstakingly wrote out the next sentence, taking extra time and care with each letter. This would be her final draft, and it needed to be perfect.
The bedroom door creaked open, and she heard Miss Wendy's voice. "Ashe, your father wanted me to get you. He said dinner was almost ready."
"Really?" Ashe glanced out the window to see the dark gloom of early evening. "Wow, I didn't realize how late it was."
"Yes, he figured you go caught up with your 'special project'." Miss Wendy leaned against the side of Ashe's desk. She glanced down at the paper but didn't stare long enough to read anything. A small act of respect that Ashe deeply appreciated. "Care to share what you're working on?"
"Are you going to call me up to read it in front of the class?" Ashe asked, grinning up at the woman teasingly.
Miss Wendy rolled her eyes. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I just thought you might want to talk about it."
Tapping the pencil again, Ashe bit her lip. "It... a goodbye letter. Or, at least, I think it is."
"Is it for someone in particular or..."
"I guess so," Ashe said quickly, nearly stumbling over her own words. "It's also to the entire Commonwealth, if that makes sense? I know most of my life has kind of sucked here, but it's the only life I've ever had, so I want to say goodbye to it before we leave."
"I get the sentiment," Miss Wendy nodded. "I had to do the same thing, mentally at least, when I was deciding whether or not to join you and Kravos."
That perked Ashe up. It hadn't occurred to her that Miss Wendy might have struggled to make the choice to come with them. Ashe had never given it a second thought, her troubles came from elsewhere. "Was it a hard choice?"
"Hmmm. Yes... and no," the woman said, pulling the rocking chair over to sit down. "I considered staying and starting a new life at one of the Minutemen settlements. I thought that surely they could find a use for a school teacher. I could give back to the people who had helped me. More than that, I thought staying would prove to myself that I wasn't a coward."
"What do you mean?" Ashe asked. When the woman looked unsure about answering, she pressed a bit. "It's okay. I know I'm just a kid, but I get what happened to you. Ethan and Cindy's Papa was a Bad Man. He hurt you guys, and that is why you are here with us. You can talk to me about stuff."
Miss Wendy smiled and ruffled her hair. "I forget how much you've been through sometimes, Ashe. Alright, I spent... a long time trying to pacify my husband. When that didn't work, I tried running. And that went pretty bad. I got it in my head that coming with you guys would be running away again, that it would be admitting that I'd always be afraid Matthew would come hurt us once more, as illogical as that might be."
"Well, what made you change your mind?"
"I realized that living with that fear for the sake of being 'strong' was stupid, and might even be dangerous," the woman said. "I realized that giving my children a safe future and a way to completely start over somewhere new, was far more valuable than my foolish pride. And, when I was able to work through all that, I was able to finally let go of the hold Matthew had on me. I'll always have the scars, but he has no power over me or the kids anymore."
'No power...I like that idea.'
Without warning, Ashe leaped out of her chair to hug Miss Wendy around the middle. "Thank you!"
"Aw, I'm not sure what you're thanking me for, but you're welcome, sweetheart," Miss Wendy said, hugging back. "Now, are you coming down for dinner, or should I buy you some more time to work on your project?"
"No," Ashe shook her head. "It's almost done. I want to spend time with all of you now."
The next morning, after an eerily quiet and tense breakfast, Ashe slipped out the front door, waving Rena away when she tried to follow. Dead leaves crunched under Ashe's feet as she made her way to the training ring, one hand tucked in her pocket as Ashe tightly clutched her project. Stupid as it sounded, even to her, Ashe was certain it would disappear if she let go for even one second. When she finally reached the clearing, Ashe stopped in front of the first-ever target Dad had her shoot at. But when she tried to pull the paper out... her entire body froze up.
'C'mon, Ashe, you gotta do this,' she told herself. 'You don't have a lot of time. Dad is going to come looking for you soon, and you need to do this alone. So get it together and DO IT! '
Closing her eyes, Ashe sucked in a deep breath and yanked the letter out of her pocket. Before she could lose her nerve, Ashe unfolded the paper, exhaled, and started to read.
"Dear Papa, tomorrow I'll be leaving the Commonwealth for somewhere far, far away. I don't know if you're still alive, and maybe that makes me a bad person, but I don't really care. I have someone else now. I have a new Dad. He is amazing in ways you couldn't even imagine. More importantly, he did more for me the first day we met than you did in my entire life. He says I'm part of his family now, and even though I haven't met any of them yet, I can't wait to be around them and learn about who they are. But, before I go, I have some stuff I want to ask and things I need to say.
Do you wonder if I'm still alive, Papa? I know you probably don't care, not so long as I don't come home and tell everyone what you did. But do you ever think about me? Did you ever want me in the first place? Or did you hate me from the minute Mama got pregnant? She used to defend you, you know? She used to say that you hadn't always been so mean and angry. Mama hoped you'd get better one day. But maybe she was lying to me so I'd feel better. Or maybe she was lying to herself? I think she did love you, somewhere deep down. I never did though, I hated you for as long as I can remember. And when I couldn't hate you, it was because I was terrified of you!
You hit me, Papa. Me and Mama. And you liked doing it. Part of me wants to ask you why, but I know you could never give a good enough answer. Because there isn't a reason for doing something like that! I know that now, and it's part of why I wrote this letter that you'll never get. I need to say goodbye to everything you represent to me. My new life starts in a couple of hours, and I don't want you to have any place in it. I don't forgive you for what you did to us, and I never will, but I'm saying goodbye to it.
You can't hurt me anymore."
By the time she said the final word, Ashe's hands were shaking so bad that she could barely hold on to the paper. More than that, her version was so blurry she could barely read the words now knew by heart. When she blinked, a single hot tear slid down Ashe's face.
And yet, there was a strange lightness to her body that Ashe had never felt before. She couldn't be sure it was a happy feeling, but Ashe never wanted to go back to how she felt before.
"ASHLYN!" Dad's powerful voice cut through the trees easily. "Come back! It's time!"
"Coming!" she shouted back. Before she went though, Ashe took in the clearing one last time. It had helped her grow in so many ways, and she'd miss it dearly, but it was time to go. Letting the letter slip through her fingers and flutter to the ground, Ashe turned on her heel and headed back towards the manor.
'Goodbye.'
"Is everyone comfortable?" Dad asked. "Is everyone ready? Once I begin the spell, I cannot stop."
Ashe nodded silently, her limbs feeling heaving with apprehension, and whatever was in the tea Dad had them all drink.
From her place in Dad's favorite armchair, Miss Wendy mirrored her actions. "We're not supposed to move once you... start, right? That is why you gave us the tea, so we stay still?"
"Ideally, yes," Dad nodded. "I'm not expecting either of you to be a statue, but it will be better for your bodies to remain as still as possible. And I gave you that tea both to calm your nerves and relax your bodies. The more at ease you are, the less jarring it will be for your bodies when the magic goes through it. I swear you are in no danger, but the process can be quite frightening. That is also why I have those two-" he jerked his head towards the sleeping Ethan and Cindy, who were curled up together on the couch "-an extra strong dose. They're so young and easily frightened, I thought it would be better if they slept through everything."
"Can't argue with that," Miss Wendy mumbled, looking longingly toward her kids. With a sigh, she gave Dad a tired smile. "Let's do this. I'm ready."
"Me too," Ashe said, smiling like she wasn't having to fight to keep her breakfast down. "I want to see your home."
"It will be your home too, soon enough," Dad replied warmly.
Rena added her own two-sense with a loud bark, earning a chuckle from all.
"Okay, Ashe... Wendy... Close your eyes."
Part of Ashe wanted to disobey. She wanted to see everything, to be aware of every step of their journey. She obeyed in the end though, because this was her dad, and he knew best. She closed her eyes as Dad began chanting strange words. Soon the air felt... different , almost electrical in the way it seemed to hum against her skin.
Then it was going through her! Through her muscles and lungs, her bones and hair. It was in her brain, making it spin and shift and burn with something new. Ashe tried to breathe, and it didn't work! Whatever was in the air froze her in place! Even from behind her eyelids, the room seemed to explode with bright blue light and-
"Ashe? Ashe, sweetheart, wake up!"
Ashe considered wiggling away and begging for a few more minutes of sleep, but the hand on her shoulder shook Ashe once more, forcing her to open her eyes to see Dad's smiling face. Then everything came flooding back.
"Are we here?" she demanded, sitting up so quickly that she nearly headbutted Dad in the nose. "Did it work?"
"Perfectly," he said. "You were only unconscious for a short time."
Behind him, Ashe could see a woozy-looking Miss Wendy kneeling beside Ethan and Cindy as she tried to wake them. Rena was there too, nosing and licking at the kids in concern. She glanced toward Ashe and Dad though, giving a friendly, happy sound bark. They'd play together later, for now...
"Well, come on then! I want to see what things look like!" Ashe demanded. Grabbing Dad's hand, she jumped from the armchair. "I want- Ow!"
"Be careful, your body is feeling the effects of the spell. You'll feel tense and sore for a while," Dad warned, putting his hands on her shoulders to steady her. "We can wait for-"
"No! I want to see it now!"
"...Alright, my strong-willed girl. One look, then rest," Dad said.
He took her head and started leading her towards the front door, cautious of Ashe's smaller, wobblily steps. They were almost there when-
BAM!
The door was flung open, revealing a tall young man with short blond hair, a strong build, and pale blue eyes. Blue eyes that widened at the sight of them.
"Pa!" the man exclaimed. "Where... where have you been? I- We thought you were-"
"Hello, Hroar. I hope I didn't worry you," Dad said calmly.
"You've been gone for a year, Pa! Of course, I was worried!" the man shouted before his eyes slid to Ashe, who shifted until she was half-hidden behind Dad. "And who is this?!"
Then he spotted Miss Wendy and the kids. "Who are they?!"
" They are friends of mine who will be staying with me for now, and this ," Dad nodded down at Ashe, "is my newest daughter, Ashlyn."
"...Pa, you're too old for this." But despite his exasperated tone, Hroar's expression softened when he looked at Ashe. He knelt down until they were at eye level and said, "She is pretty adorable though. Hello, Ashlyn, I guess I'm your new big brother."
Ashe smiled shyly. "It's nice to meet you... and you can call me Ashe."
"Hroar, I promise I will explain everything and answer any questions you may have soon. I just have something to show Ashe first."
Though he didn't look happy about it, the man nodded and stepped aside. Dad squeezed Ashe's hand. "Close your eyes again, Ashe. Don't open them until I tell you to."
"Okay..."
She didn't understand it but, once more, did as she was told. Now sightless, Ashe clung to Dad's hand tighter than ever as he led her forward. After a moment, the ground under her feet became soft and uneven, there was sun on her skin, and the air around her was cold and... clean! Cleaner than anything Ashe had ever experienced before. When she breathed it, it was like she had a brand-new set of lungs.
Eventually, they stopped walking and Dad said, "Okay, open them."
After only a moment of hesitation, a moment of doubt where Ashe couldn't help but worry that this was all a cruel prank or trick, Ashe opened her eyes and say for the first time...
Green.
Green grass and leaves and plants. More green than Ashe had imagined, more green than she ever thought possible! Not even in fairytales or stories for life before the war. Sun, bright and beautiful but not harsh or dangerous, shone down from the clear blue sky and reflected off every surface. And there were flowers! More flowers than even Dad had in his greenhouse. When her mind finally caught up with her eyes, Ashe heard birds singing, she heard the sound of water somewhere in the distance, and the distance chattering of people. Looking down the hill that Dad's house was situated on, Ashe saw a small town and a crowd of people approaching. Ashe wanted to look at all, she wanted to look at everything forever and she fear that, if she blink, this paradise would disappear.
'This could be heaven,' Ashe thought, remembering the word from things people had said after Mama died. ' I could be dead and it would be okay because it is so beautiful. Maybe I was d-'
Strong hands slide around Ashe's waist and she was lifted high in the air until Dad settled her on his shoulders. From this new high, she could see even more of this new world. And every last inch of it was more wonderful than the last.
"Welcome to your new home, Ashe," Dad said. "Are you happy?"
"Of course I am," she said immediately. "I can finally start my new life!"
'And I can't wait for all the amazing adventures it will have!'
Notes:
Well? Hard to believe I finally wrote that last line. This story has been part of me for... so long now! I've learned a lot about myself and writing in general while working on it, and it will also be part of me. I want to thank all the readers who have been with me through the entire thing and, of course, Peppy for being the reason this story was created in the first place. What can I say but, it's been an adventure?
And to anyone who will miss this story, don't worry. Like she said herself, there are plenty of adventures with Ashe yet to come. There is already a crossover with my good buddy, Delta-Bot's own fic and I highly recommend checking them both out. But, for now...
Goodbye.
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