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March 13, 2:27PM

Unknown: gerard

Unknown: yo 

Unknown: I got a new phone dude

Unknown: oh btw its farnk

Unknown: fank

Unknown: omg

Unknown: frank

Unknown: lmao finally

Unknown: gerardd

Unknown: g pls answer meeeeeee

Gee: Fanks for blowing up my phone while I was in class, farnk

Gee: That’s gonna be your new name on my phone js

Farnk: LMAO I FORGOT YOU HAD CLASS AGDKFJD

Farnk: just hs drop out tingz, yknow

Farnk: also dude no

Gee: Get over it farnk you brought this upon yourself

Farnk: fine then youre gerald in my phone

Farnk: or jared

Farnk: which one do you hate more? ill use that one

Gee: I mean gerald is more of an autocorrect thing, jared is just being an asshole

Farnk: jared it is then

Jared: Fun

Jared: Also can you pick me up after school btw I walked here this morning and didn’t realize it was gonna rain later on

Farnk: dumbass

Farnk: and yea what time

Jared: What time tf you think school ends??

Jared: Right. Drop out.

Farnk: mhm

Jared: 3:30

Farnk: k

Jared: k

Farnk: for kock

Jared: your such an idiot dude

Farnk: **you’re

Farnk: SEE I DONT NEED SCHOOL I CAN DO THIS SHIT ON MY OWN MANNNNNN

Jared: Ok

Jared: Speaking of school I gotta go to class

Farnk: last class of the day im guessing?

Jared: Yepp

Farnk: thats exciting

Jared: Mhm

Jared: Okok gtg

Farnk: aight love you no homo

Jared: love you too no homo

March 13, 3:31PM

Farnk: im in the parking lot

Jared: Coming just gimme a sec

Farnk: ew I see you

Farnk: and bert

Jared: Bert’s not that ew frankie

Farnk: nah hes not, the ew was for you

Jared: Asshat

Farnk: I CAN SEE HIM READING OFF YOUR PHONE

Farnk: HI BERT

March 13, 10:49PM

Jared: You left your hoodie at my house btw

Farnk: tbh im still getting used to having ‘jared’ in my phone and its really fucking with me

Farnk: im gonna change it back lmao

Gee: You do you honey but your hoodie’s still here

Farnk: ill just go get it next time

Gee: Oof, or just come back rn:(

Gee: Mikey just got home and moms yelling at him

Farnk: again? why?

Gee: Idk I can’t understand anything they're saying

Gee: Wait nvm I think its cuz he got home late plus he smells like weed or whatever

Farnk: need me to come over again?

Gee: It’s fine ig, they stopped

Gee: I can tell mikey’s mad tho, he slammed his door

Farnk: I can still come over yknow

Gee: Nah, I’ve got your hoodie and that’s enough for me:)

Farnk: gay

Gee: love you too bb

Gee: I’m gonna go talk to mikey gtg

Farnk: alrighty im gonna sleep anyways

Gee: Kay, night then frankie 

Farnk: night

March 15, 6:10PM

Farnk: dude I havent texted you in over 24 hours whats happening to the world

Farnk: uh oh and gee is taking over 2 minutes to answer on a weekend?? this is unimaginable

Farnk: gee?

Farnk: 20 minutes usually isnt a long while but like

Farnk: idk im concerned

Farnk: aight its been an hour im coming over gimme a min

Farnk: heading over now

Gee: AH NO it’s fine!! Sorry I was just talking to my mom and she would’ve gone all Exorcist on me if I took out my phone

Gee: I’m here tho

Farnk: you sure? im in my car gee I can head over there if you want

Gee: Not td, sorry

Gee: Wanna come over tm tho? Usual time, I don’t mind it

Farnk: tm works

Farnk: but everythings for SURE ok right?

Gee: Spick and span, frankie:)

Farnk: aighty

Farnk: well I guess since im in the car im gonna go for a drive so you know what they say about texting and driving

Gee: Okay, I’ll talk to you later tho?

Farnk: definitely

Farnk: love you no homo

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March 16, 11:01AM

Gee: Still coming over?

Farnk: oh shit

Farnk: shittttttt

Farnk: fuck im sorry gee I completly forgot and made other plans td that I cant back out of

Gee: Oh

Farnk: god shit im sorry

Gee: It’s okay lol it was only gonna be like a lil hangout anyways, we can do another day

Farnk: ik but the day before you seemed really off and I feel like I shouldve at least been able to see you td but I was being stupid

Gee: Frankie it's literally fine lmao

Farnk: still:/

Gee: So whatcha doing td then?

Farnk: me and the band are gonna like talk to this guy about “our future as a band”

Gee: Fr? That’s awesome frankie!

Farnk: ikik, I still feel iffy about it tho

Gee: Wym?

Farnk: I love pencey prep and I sort of do want us to get somewhere big ig but I feel like were just...not gonna get there?

Farnk: dont get me wrong tho im proud of what weve got and what were doing

Farnk: idk its just like, it doesnt feel like were gonna BE something, yknow?

Farnk: and even if we did become something big itd be such a responsibility and im only like freshly 18 

Farnk: plus being the frontman of it all feels weird

Farnk: and "something big" would probably mean having to move around a lot, so leaving jersey

Farnk: leaving YOU specifically

Farnk: sure, I could leave jersey and never look back but the only thing stopping me would be you

Farnk; I mean youre my best friend, youve helped me through more shit than my own family has and that means a lot to me, I couldnt just up and leave you

Farnk: and yeah you could come with me but I seriously doubt youd leave everything you have here just to go with me, especially considering Id be so busy I wouldnt have time to spend with you, and anytime I did Id be way too drained

Farnk: imagine that?

Farnk: anyways yeah idk im rambling like hell but I dunno what to think about whats gonna happen with pencey prep honestly

Gee: Frank

Gee: Don’t let me stop you from going places

Gee: You’re right, I can’t leave jersey yet, not now, but you can!!

Gee: You have a lot ahead of you, don’t let your geeky best friend keep you from leaving this shitty town and doing big things

Gee: And yeah, it'll come with a responsibility especially as a frontman, and I get how draining that might sound, but I remember meeting you two years ago and you telling me that you dreamed to play on a stage with a band, and you have a chance to do that

Gee: Hell, you HAVE been doing that already and look where its got you

Gee: You’ve got a future, frankie, don’t let little things like me stop you from doing what you love. Yeah?

Farnk: yea

Farnk: but you are a lot more than a little thing, gee, youre my best friend

Farnk: but if you really want me to take this, and something comes out of it (which we dont even know if something will) then you gotta promise me something

Gee: Hm?

Farnk: youll be here when I come back to see you

Gee: I’m not going anyw here frankie, promise

Farnk: :)

Farnk: hey neil texted me, I think I gotta go

Farnk: id say perfect timing but I honestly wanna keep talking to you, its been a while and I still feel bad for messing up plans

Gee: Might as well consider it perfect timing now, cuz my moms calling me lol

Gee: And frankie its fine dw

Farnk: alright then:( wish me luck

Gee: As if you need it, bb

Gee: But good luck anyways, I’ll talk to you later frankie

March 17, 4:32AM

Gee: I seriously doubt you’re awake but I need you

Gee: Please I just wanna talk to you I’m having a really bad time

March 17, 5:40AM

Farnk: fuck I didnt see this until now

Farnk: im an hour late is everything ok???

Farnk: gee

Farnk: gerard its been almost another hour answer me

Farnk: mikeys at my door crying and hes holding a note from your room

Farnk: I dont like what this says, G, where tf are you

Farnk: gerard you need to answer me right now because im scared out of my goddamn fucking mind man

Farnk: gerard

Farnk: youre declining my calls gee so I know you can see these

Farnk: you gotta talk to me please

Farnk: dammit gerard pick up

Farnk: I have mikey, alright? and hes okay but were both so fucking scared so please just say something

Farnk: weve been out looking for you for hours now, the police is involved

Farnk: its cold bb please pick up

Farnk: gerard I need to know youre okay

Farnk: im not listening to whatever this fucking note is talking about ok? I wont, I cant

Farnk: please

Farnk: talk to me please

Farnk: im going to the lake where we hung out that one time, if you arent there then I dont know what else to fucking do

March 17, 10:46AM

Farnk: gerard Im honestly terrified please I dont know where else to look

Farnk: im back at home, mikeys here too, we need you here

Farnk: theres cops coming up to my door, G

Farnk: if you arent standing there with them..

Farnk: I dont even know what to say

February 28, 10:23PM

Farnk: hey. I was going through my phone and didn’t realize I still had this number. It’s been almost a year, so I’m not surprised I forgot about it. Mikey said I should send a message before I delete it, he said it’d like give me a sense of closure or something like that. Kind of like a goodbye, I guess is what he means. He’s been like my therapist these past few months honestly, but hey, no charge so why not? So yeah. I guess I should start explaining what's happened then, huh? Uhh well I mean, the band signed with Eyeball Records, so thats cool. It made me a little sad tho. I wish you could’ve been there. Also, I met this girl Jamia. She’s a really good friend honestly, she’s awesome. I dunno, I can kinda see myself spending a lot of time with her. She’s helped me a lot, same with Mikey. Ray’s been cool too, he kind of left NJ so I don’t talk to him much. Anyways yeah, its been a weird year. It’s weirder not having you here tho. Really weird. I wish I could still talk to you. You know, you lied to me that day when you said you weren't going anywhere. You left me, and it sucked. I forgave you anyways tho, cuz there's no way I couldn't. I miss you a lot too. Yeah. Yeah, that’s it.

Message not received.

Farnk: yeah. thought that’d be the case..miss you and love you G

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