Chapter 1: Prologue/Author's Note
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Greetings.
Welcome to Drowned...a story about ink and gay people and drugs and gay people and the author being unapologetically cringe and Fall Out Boy references and other silly things.
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This is the first fic in the Drowned series, with the others as follows:
Drowned - main story, from Henry's leaving to just as he returns - ongoing
Drenched - continuation of main story, from what happens after Henry returns - will be written after Drowned (the first story) is completed
Drought - backstories of the main story's characters - first part (Joey) has been written, may or may not be written/finished in future
Drained - fix-it AU for main story - may or may not be written after main story is completed
Bolded titles denote fics that will be written for certain, while unbolded titles denote fics that may be cancelled due to not being essential to the main story and/or lack of interest.
Updates will be slow because we live in a society (/hj about the reason, but /srs that chapters will take a while to write).
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We ensure that we update our trigger warnings with each chapter publication, so please pay special attention to warnings for any topics/scenes/lines that may disturb you.
- Substance use/abuse and addiction is a major theme throughout the fic.
- Later chapters contain some heavy violence, most of which is canon-typical. There is one major torture scene, and some implied instances.
- There is one suicide attempt/self-harm scene.
- Some characters refer to abuse in their pasts, both emotional and physical. Many characters have some form of childhood trauma.
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Other details of this series include:
- Homophobia and transphobia do not exist because nah.
- The timeline is wonky--just kind of go with the flow.
- The fic is not completely historically-accurate, and becomes significantly less so as it goes on. Additionally, it is rather canon-divergent. We kind of stopped caring about canon. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Okay, I think that's everything.
Finally, I would like to add a shout-out to my fantastic friend and writing helper @King_Of_Paradoxes from Wattpad. Please go follow him immediately right now at this minute at once right away!
Also...King_of_Paradoxes is making me put a shout-out to myself in here. Sobs.
So shout-out to the Static System, I guess. They definitely are.
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One last thing...
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It's okay for dreams to fade away.
It's okay to let go of them, or to find new ones.
But even if they don't come true...remember what they were.
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Thank you.
Chapter 2: [Picrew Face Claims/LGBTQ Log (Updated)]
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Hello, darling readers. So...here is Picrew Face Claims, 2.0; with this one, I used Icon Maker + Star Wars WIP by Kmerolzzzz. And, um...I won't add any silly or annoying comments this time around...heh...
Also, I realize now that using the yellow background for all of them was not the best decision, and I highly regret picking that color.
Anyway, here are the designs~
Joey Drew
Henry Stein
Sammy Lawrence
Susie Campbell
Jack Fain
(The Picrew didn't have hats. (◕︵◕))
Norman Polk
Allison Pendle/Connor
Thomas Connor
Wally Franks
Shawn Flynn
Grant Cohen
Abby Lambert
Bertrum Piedmont
Lacie Benton
Emma Lamonte
Buddy Lewek
Dot
Johnny
Nathan Arch
LGBTQ Log:
~ Norman is gay and grey-ace (he/him).
~ Wally is gay and genderfluid (he/they/she).
~ Lacie is a butch lesbian (she/he).
~ Abby is a lesbian and demiwoman (she/they).
~ Jack is bi, with no preference (he/him).
~ Bertrum is bi, with a slight preference for women (he/him).
~ Shawn is pan, with no preference (he/they).
~ Joey is abro, and switches between gay, bi, pan, and aro/ace (he/they).
~ Grant is aro/ace, a combination of averse and indifferent (he/him).
~ Johnny is agender (they/them).
~ Nathan is trans (he/him).
~ Henry is demisexual (he/they).
~ Sammy is multiromantic/sexual in some way (he/they).
Any characters not specified are not necessary cis, straight, and/or allo. Pronouns may not reflect what is written in the fic because I didn't decide on them until later. </3
Chapter 3: Chapter One - Dreams Come True
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In the bustling chaos of New York City, two men, both gleaming with pride, stand front of a colossal building. One of them, with slicked-back auburn hair, and wearing a navy-blue a robust physique, steps towards the door of the new construction; he drifts his hand a bit on the dark wood, hesitantly, before grabbing firmly onto the gold-painted handle. He turns it with a satisfying *click*, and opens the entrance to reveal a grand maze of rooms and hallways. He smiles and turns toward his business partner, a soft-spoken, slim man with wispy blonde hair, donning a white suit.
"Come inside, Henry...it's perfect," the auburn-haired man says to him; seeing the excitement in his partner's bright blue eyes, Henry Stein steps forward into the building.
It's even more beautiful than he had imagined; the walls are a soft sepia color, blending flawlessly with the brown-tone furniture. The mere height of the building is majestic, and the atmosphere flutters with ambition and self-fulfillment. Henry feels a warmth in his chest; after months of planning, hoping, and waiting, his partner and him had finally created the animation studio they had been wanting to form ever since they first put their pencils to paper. The blonde smiles at his best friend, and the mutual pride sits between them for a moment.
Another man enters the premises: a lawyer. He carries some papers, and says to the new owners, "Well, guys, all you have to do is sign, and it's all yours." Henry pulls out the pen he always kept in his pocket, and writes his name on the lines of the permits and certificates; he has been vying for this moment for oh, so long. He hands the official documents to his partner, who follows suit to Henry's actions.
When all is settled with the legal work, the lawyer shakes the men's hands. "That makes it official: you two now are the owners of this studio. Congratulations, Mr. Stein and Mr. Drew."
The man in the navy suit laughs. "I've told you, sir, there's no need for that 'mister' stuff. My partner's name is Henry, and please, call me Joey."
Chapter 4: Chapter Two - The Daily Grind
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Three months later...
Henry rises from his desk, grabs his finished drawings, and starts on his way to the music department. While he walks, he ponders the last few months; despite the time that has passed, he still feels that warm sense of pride in the creation of he and Joey's animation workshop, Joey Drew Studios (Henry had wanted to call it Stein-Drew Studios, but Joey had insisted that it be named after himself, and Henry had relented). The two of them had managed to hire a small group of people, and though their team was tiny, both Henry and Joey felt certain that soon, their studio family would grow.
The animator's pale, almost washed-out blue eyes fall upon his sketches; Henry's new character, a little devil darling named Bendy, stares back at him, his cheesy smile and pie-cut eyes popping out of the canvas. Henry gives a soft grin to himself and continues on his journey.
In the music department, Samuel Lawrence is practicing his violin. With shoulder-length dark brown hair, lilypad-green eyes, and a toned body, Sammy is what many people consider handsome--and he knows it. He puts down his instrument and greets his boss.
"Hello, Henry." His voice is gruff and annoyed; the first time Henry met him--at the interview before Joey hired him--the animator was confused on why he seemed so irritated, but had come to learn that that was just the way Sammy was all the time. He was always just a bit angry about something.
"Hi, Sammy. How's your new composition going?" Sammy had been working to the bone on his newest musical piece, although he refused to reveal the title of it.
Sammy grunts. "It's going along, but I don't have the harmony that I want. Maybe if I switched the violin part to a flute..."
Henry patiently waits while Sammy digs through some music sheets; the animator had also learned throughout the months that you shouldn't distract Sammy when he is concentrating. "Is Jack here?" he asks when the composer rises up with the sheet he was searching for.
A head pokes out of a doorway down the hall; the timid Jack Fain, Sammy's lyricist, says barely audibly, "I'm here, M-Mister Stein, sir." Jack's bosses make him nervous--as do many things--but he trusts Henry more than Joey. Jack hadn't been much for words at his interview with the two, and while Henry had seemed to understand his shyness, Joey kept trying to coax a sentence out of him. In fact, Jack suspects that it was probably due to Henry that he even was hired.
Henry turns towards the poet and smiles warmly. Like his musical partner, Jack has green eyes, but his are a darker type of green --"emerald," as his mother had called them--dusty brown curls stick out from under his yellow bowler hat, and a bridge of freckles is painted over his cheeks and nose. When Joey had wanted to reject this kind, quiet soul, Henry had stepped in and convinced his partner to hire him. Henry saw something in Jack that Joey did not; beneath this young man's shy exterior, there was a spark of courage and integrity, and that was what the studio needed.
The artist starts up the stairs to the projector office; once he is arrives, he scours the room for their projectionist.
"If you're looking for Norman, he went to the break room for coffee!" Sammy calls from below.
"Thanks, Sammy!" Henry yells back, and sets his sketches on the table near the camera. He heads back downstairs, waves goodbye to Sammy and Jack, and leaves the music department to go back to his desk and create more scenes for the studio's cartoons.
He runs into Joey in the hallway; noticing the direction that he arrived from, Joey says to Henry, "Hello, old friend. Tell me, how is everyone doing? Working hard, I presume?"
Henry nods. "Sammy's still composing that new piece, and Jack is in his office. Norman went out for coffee."
This report satisfies his partner. "Great, great! Work hard, work happy! Yes, sir!" Joey puts a hand on Henry's shoulder. "All of these things are the steps to victory, to fame. We are improving, Henry, and the future is in our hands."
The artist merely grins at his business partner. This was the trait that made Joseph Camden Drew truly special: he was always looking to the future, toward the completion of his dreams. However, Henry knew in the back of his mind that this was also a flaw; Joey was known to be an idealist, and he could become controlling if things didn't go as planned. But that was what Henry was there for. He saw details that Joey passed over, and could calm down his co-owner if he started going overboard.
Joey pats the animator's back. "Well, I suppose then that all is good; our workers are working hard to make dreams come true. And that is all we need." He dismisses Henry, who continues on to his desk.
Henry pulls out his trusty pen and grabs some paper. While he draws, he ponders Joey's words; while he too hopes for the best, he can't help but disagree slightly with his partner. The future wasn't completely up to them; the current events could definitely change.
And they could change quickly.
Chapter 5: Chapter Three - An Animator's Animosity
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(I finally figured out how to italicize and center and such! I'm sorry, I'm just super proud of myself...heh heh...)
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Three more months later...
Joey drums his fingers on his desk, his mind racing and his heart aflutter. Today is going to be a special day--he just knows it. Of course, every day in his studio is a special day according to him...but today, there is a feeling floating through the air, pulsing in his body, and developing in his soul that promises that this day has something in store. Joey leans toward the microphone on his desk and straightens it out, preparing to speak.
Down in the music department, everyone is hard at work on the studio's newest cartoon, featuring Bendy and his wolf buddy, Boris; the workshop's latest show, Fishing Frenzy, had been a smashing success, so Joey had begun pushing his team to produce similarly eminent pieces. Additionally, Henry had created a new character: a cute little angel named Alice. Once a voice actress for her was hired and she made her debut, Joey felt positive that his studio would prosper greatly.
However, the owner had instructed his workers to continue conducting shows with Bendy and Boris while Alice's future voice actress is being decided, which is why Sammy is leaning over his piano, testing for the right melody.
The composer's pointy fingers hover over the B flat note; he presses it down, then moves on to a high D. Every note counts--one wrong sound could ruin his piece. His hand drawls along the keys for a few more moments...and then, suddenly it's there! He plays his melody again: B flat, high D, low D, E flat, low B flat, F, G.
He needs to write this down! Sammy rushes over to his desk and grabs some staff paper. Now...where is his pen? He rummages through his drawers, but nothing turns up. With a growl, he remembers that he left it on the piano, so back he goes.
Finally, with everything where it needs to be, he can start writing his melody. What was it, again? he mentally asks the piano. B flat...D...
"HELLO, MY STUDIO WORKERS!" Joey's voice booms over the intercom, causing Sammy to drop his pen and staff paper; he scrambles to pick them up, and tries to remember what note comes next, while Joey continues to yammer over the loudspeaker.
"A wonderful Tuesday morning it is today! I have no announcements at this time, other than the usual: keep making dreams come true!" Joey says joyfully before the speaker turns off with a *click*.
Sammy's eyes narrow in silent frustration--his boss's morning greeting has wiped the composer's mind. It's not that this occurrence is unusual; in fact, it only happens every single day. Joey just can't take a hint that maybe blabbing through a radio will distract his workers. The music man sighs; that's another tune he'll never get back. He leans back over his piano and attempts to regain his focus, but his mind wanders to something Joey had said.
No announcements, huh? Henry hasn't told him yet, then. About a week ago, Henry had passed out letters to all of his studio workers; in fact, Sammy still has his on a music stand:
Dear my wonderful friends and workers,
I am sorry to announce that I will be resigning from my position of co-owner; I want to spend more time with my wife, Linda, which has been difficult to do ever since Joey and I established the studio. I also plan to create and maintain my own private artist workshop, where I will take commissions. I will officially leave Joey Drew Studios next week, on April 14.
I implore that you do not tell Joey about my plan to depart; I will talk with him separately. I hope and trust that he will continue to lead the studio into successful times.
On a happier note, Joey and I have hired a voice actress for Alice Angel. You will all be introduced to a bright young woman named Susan Campbell quite soon.
In conclusion, I am sorry to leave Joey Drew Studios so soon after its establishment, but I know that you, my friends, will be okay without me. Trust in yourselves and others; dire and stressful situations can often be overcome when you have each other.
Thank you for allowing me to be your leader; I appreciate you all more than you will ever know.
Sincerely,
Henry Stein
Sammy's first reaction to the note was one of confusion and dejection. Surely Henry wouldn't abandon his studio--his dream--so soon after its creation? But then again, Sammy suspects that Linda isn't the only reason his boss is leaving.
Actually, the composer is quite surprised that everyone has kept their lips sealed in front of Joey. The rumors and gossip on Henry's departure were circling the workshop here and there, but if Joey happened to be passing by when a group was discussing that subject, everyone suddenly became silent. Joey himself didn't mind this--he took it as a sign of respect.
Today is April 14, and Sammy has a nagging suspicion that today will be the day Joey finds out about his partner's plans.
As if on cue, Henry strides into the music department for a final goodbye. Sammy rises from the piano and shakes his now former boss's hand, as the projectionist, Norman, emerges from his work area.
Despite only being in his late twenties, Norman has a few traits of the aged, such as the dark circles under his deep brown eyes and his lanky, slouched posture; his hair is black and permanently frizzy (no matter how much he combs it), and he has smooth, shiny dark skin. He is an intelligent man, with a flaw of being overly curious--he always needs to know more, no matter what the stakes are.
Norman too shakes Henry's hand and says in his Southern accent, "I'm sorry to see you go. You were a great boss; I wish you luck with your private workshop." Henry thanks him as Jack rushes from seemingly out of nowhere into the room. Jack has done this strange disappearance and reappearance before, but the other workers' knowledge of where he goes off to is naught.
"M-Mister Stein..." Jack stutters, anxious and out of breath--he had entered at a run. "I - um - sorry - I - are you - ?" The lyricist mentally cringes at himself. He hates when he can't find his words; it happens all too often, both when he writes and when he talks. "I-I just wanted to say g-goodbye. I'm s-sorry I was late." Suddenly aware that everyone in the group is staring at him, he focuses his eyes on the floor as he blushes and wrings his hands, embarrassed.
"It's perfectly okay, Jack," Henry replies kindly, placing a comforting hand on the poet's shoulder. He wishes he could tell Jack not to be so hard on himself, but he also knows that it's not as easy as that; he himself had been known to overwork on projects, so he knew the struggle.
"So, uh, Mister Stein," Norman begins, "is this your last stop? I mean, have you already visited the other departments?"
Henry nods, and removes his hand from Jack. "Yes, it is. Why do you ask?"
"No reason," Norman responds, attempting to sound nonchalant.
"Well, then, I suppose I should be going. Thank you, everyone," Henry says, nodding at each person. Jack waves as the animator pivots and starts on his way to Joey's office.
Norman carefully observes each of Henry's steps, and when the artist has completely left the music department, he sneaks along the hallway, following him.
"Where are you--?" Sammy begins, but the projectionist is already gone.
Norman stalks Henry through the winding corridor, peering around the corners surreptitiously so that the drawer won't notice him; his footsteps creak on the wooden floorboards, but luckily, his boss doesn't arrest his travel in suspicion. Finally, Henry arrives at a tall, mahogany door, with a large arch sign above it that declares the room as The Office of Joey Drew.
The projectionist waits for Henry to enter before sliding along the wall and pressing his ear to the door. He just has to hear this.
Inside, Joey looks up from a tax paper and calculator on his mess of a desk at Henry's lengthy figure.
"Well, hello, Henry."
"Hello, Joey," the animator replies, and sighs--he's perplexed on how he wants to word his message. "I have some news."
Joey's eyes immediately sparkle; this must be the news he has been waiting for--the reason for his impending sense of anticipation. He rises to his feet. "What is it?"
"Well...I'll be frank. Joey, I'm leaving." He hands a copy of his letter to Joey, whose face has fallen and eyes have dimmed. Joey grabs the letter and reads it over carefully...then once again... and then just one more time. This can't be right.
"Henry...I...," Joey falters, as he paces around his chair nervously. "Are you sure that this is what you want? This studio was your dream--our dream. Think of all the effort we put into this...it's not too late to change your mind."
"I'm absolutely certain that this is the right decision," Henry insists, as Norman shifts himself so he can peer through the keyhole. "Maybe it wasn't a good idea for me to start so large—I need to downgrade. Besides, once I'm gone, you can do as you please." Henry's true feelings about his partner begin to emerge, and his voice takes a bitter tone. "There will be no me to hold you back. You can hire whoever you please; you can spend the budget however you see fit. You can do anything and everything that you desire, Joseph, and I will not be there to stop you."
The animator pauses to catch his breath, surprised at himself--he didn't know that he had so much bottled up, and for so long. Joey, however, is being bombarded by his thoughts on all of this. Come on, I'm not THAT controlling! Why didn't he tell me about this sooner? Did he think that I would react badly? He settles on asking one of the lesser burning questions.
"So, then, the reason you put down--about wanting to spend more time with Linda--was that just-?"
"An excuse?" Henry interjects. "No. That is one of the numerous reasons I'm leaving. I don't want to worry our employees."
"But you have no problem worrying me?!" Joey almost yells, grasping Henry's letter. "You didn't think that maybe I might want to know that you have decided to completely desert our studio?!" He crumples the paper up and tosses it angrily into the trash; his heart pounds furiously in his chest as he rounds back behind his chair. "Or is it that you just didn't care?"
Norman, enjoying this drama immensely, leans against the door to get a better picture of the scene; he observes that Joey is gripping his chair so tightly that his knuckles are turning white.
"Joseph, you're blowing this totally out of propor--," Henry begins.
"No," his partner replies callously. "No. I'm not the bad guy here. You're the one abandoning your dream. You're the one leaving me to my own devices. You're the bad guy. You want to leave, Henry? Then leave." He turns so the animator can't see the tears welling in his eyes. "Just go."
Henry sighs--this was what he feared would happen. Seeing that there is no possible way to bring Joey to his senses, the artist follows his request and puts his hand on that golden doorknob.
Norman attempts to jump out of the way before the door hits him, but he's too late; the hard wood hits his head with a resounding *bonk*. Henry glances toward the sound and sees the projectionist crouched on the floor--he had been eavesdropping. Tired of arguing, the animator says to his former employee, "Norman, I'll forgive you for this, but I'll warn you that Joey will not take spying so lightly."
"Yes, of course, Mister Stein. My apologies," Norman says, rising from the ground and dusting himself off. "It won't happen again." I won't get caught again, his mind continues.
"Thank you." Henry nods, then goes on his way to his desk to grab his things. As he packs up, his mind spins with all the events of the day, and with memories of good times in his studio. But now, he would leave it all behind.
Henry slings his pouch over his shoulder, walking to the studio's exit; he passes a cardboard Bendy cutout. He stops at it, pondering. Then he lightly touches its head and whispers sadly, "Goodbye, Bendy."
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Joey spends the next few hours glooming in his office, staring at the clock; a thousand thoughts whirr through his brain. He thinks he can just run away like that? What about the cartoons? What about our new voice actress? What about me?
He decides that he will go join the studio audience to watch the newest cartoon--maybe that will clear his mind.
Taking a seat in the dark (and somewhat ominous) projector room, Joey's eyes focus on the cheerful dancing demon on the screen. Then, it happens--the gears in his brain start to turn.
What if he can bring this little devil to life? Not just on the screen, as a moving picture...but in reality--physically. Joey grins as he imagines of all the smiles on the faces of children when they can meet their favorite characters. Henry would be so proud...but then again, Joey reminds himself, Henry doesn't matter. What matters now are the final goals.
Bring cartoons to life. Make dreams come true.
Chapter 6: Chapter Four - Alice Hits the Stage
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It's a chilly day outside the colossal door of Joey Drew Studios, where a blonde woman stands. She pulls her bolero jacket more tightly around her shoulders in an attempt to fend off the howling wind, then places her hand on the golden doorknob of the studio door; with a *creak*, it swings open invitingly.
Thankful to be out of the cold, the woman steps into the well-lit hallway. Under her white jacket, she dons a bright orange knee-length dress-- it's easy to see that fashion is important to her. She walks in white high heels, and her face is heavily covered with the most expensive makeup she can afford; red coloring lines her lips, and brown eye shadow sets off her hazel eyes. Her shoulder-length, wavy blonde hair is styled profoundly.
In confusion, she glances up and down the immense amount of corridors, not sure which one she should head down, but she soon spots someone who might be able to help.
Sammy is over beside the punch card stand; he ruffles through the card stack until he finds his, then pops it into the machine with a *click*.
"Excuse me, sir-can you help me find Mister Joey Drew's office?"
The composer turns toward the voice of the woman. "Uh, sure," he replies, a puzzled expression crossing his face.
"Oh! I'm Susie--Susan Campbell, Alice Angel's new voice actress," the woman explains quickly, and a smile dawns on Sammy's face.
"I see," he says. "Well, nice to meet you, Susie." He extends a hand, and Susie shakes it. "I can show you to Joey's office."
With that, he leads her down the leftmost hallway, to that sign The Office of Joey Drew; Susie observes that the "o" in Joey's name is detailed with a star in the center, and that the office door is slightly ajar; the pair walk in to see Joey with his head in his hands.
His desk is even worse than normal--papers are strewn everywhere, and the file cabinets behind Joey's desk are wide open with their contents scattered mish-mash across the floor. Sammy sniffs at seeing such an awful dump of an office, but bites his tongue.
Hearing the *squeak* of the door open propels the boss to lift his head. "Ah! Hello, Susie! Hello, Sammy!" he says in a false voice evidently meant to be cheerful--Sammy sees through this act due to the fact that Joey's eyes are puffy and red.
Susie notices, too. Has he been crying? she wonders, but decides to play along in Joey's game of pretending that he is okay. "Hello, sir! I--"
"Yes, yes, of course," Joey interrupts, not knowing what she was going to say. "Everything is all in order; your paperwork is done, and..." he trails off tiredly. Come on, Joey, he commands himself. Keep it together. With a sigh, he sits up with a forced smile. "I see you've met Sammy--Sammy, why don't you show Miss Campbell around? I'd do it myself, but..."--he struggles for an excuse--"I'm busy. Now, I'm sorry to have to ask you to depart posthaste, but I have work to do." He practically pushes the duo out of his office and shuts the door on them; he slouches and drags himself back to his chair, sitting in it with a sad *thump.*
Back in the hallway, Susie gives Sammy a confused look. "So...uh...that was odd. He was much nicer at the interview."
Sammy gives a thoughtful sigh as he contemplates on how he should phrase his answer. "He's a bit...distraught. You see, three days ago, his business partner--and my boss--left the workshop to start his own private business; Joey isn't taking it too well." He leads her to Henry's desk, which has not yet been removed from the building. "This is where he worked--he didn't get an office. But he was an extraordinarily caring and humble man, and I am so honored as to have worked with him." But now he's gone, he thinks as he runs his fingertips on the rough engraving of Henry's name.
"I'm sorry..." Susie says, remembering the blonde man at her interview who had introduced himself as Henry Stein; she places a compassionate hand on Sammy's arm.
"I am, too," is all Sammy says in reply.
There is a melancholic moment of silence.
Susie removes her hand from Sammy. "So...um, what all is in this place? I mean, what rooms are there to visit?"
Sammy smiles, comforted; he counts the rooms of the studio on his fingers as he mentions them. "Well, there's the music department--that's where I work--and the animation department, and the writing department, and the toy department, and--"
"Okay, okay," Susie cuts him off, giggling. "How about you show me the department entrances, but you don't have to go through every single room--I'm sure I'll figure them out as I begin working."
He nods. "All right, then--first stop, the music department. The greatest part of the studio!" The composer slips his arm under hers, and leads her prom-style to the area.
Jack is sitting at one of the desks, his nose almost touching the paper he is furiously dictating on; when he sees Sammy leading a stranger towards him, his mind goes into a panic as he ducks under the table.
"Jack, you don't have to be scared," Sammy tells him, laying a hand on the table.
Easy for you to say, Jack thinks bitterly as he crawls farther under the wooden surface. You, unlike me, are a man of infinite social confidence. He exhales in sadness--it always seems to him that the music composer is superior to him, whether that be from his self-assured stride down the halls of the workshop to his witty comments in the company of others. What had once been admiration from Jack in his beginning work days had hardened into envy; no matter what the lyricist did, Sammy could do it better, which in turn gave Jack feelings of self-doubt and anger at himself. Just once, he would like to prove that he isn't always second to Sammy.
Sammy sighs, realizing he isn't going to persuade the lyricist out of his hiding spot; he turns to his tour partner. "Well, Susie, this is Jack Fain, our lyricist. If you haven't noticed, he's quite shy." One hundred percent maturity there, Jack, his mind continues on. He knocks on the wood in a last attempt to coax the timid man out of concealment--in compromise, Jack sticks his head out from under the desk, his thoughts whirring. He says shy like it's a bad thing...is it really that childish? It probably is, according to him. His anxiety starts to creep into his mind as his green eyes fall on Susie. Does she think I'm weird because I'm hiding? I guess she wouldn't be wrong...who is she?
"Hi..." the poet mumbles taciturnly as his face grows red. She's really beautiful. Oh God, do I look stupid under here? He scrambles to his feet in front of the blonde woman (Finally, Sammy exasperates. He made it awkward for everyone.). "Um...I'm J-Jack-but y-you already know that--sorry--I just--table--uh..." He sighs, angry at himself for sounding so incompetent. "Um, who are you?"
Susie gives him a kind smile to ease him, but her mind remarks, Poor guy. He's so shy, can't talk to anyone. "I'm Susie Campbell, the new voice actress for Alice Angel." Jack mentally facepalms himself. Duh, Jack, you utter idiot. After a moment of hesitation, Susie extends her hand for Jack to shake; when he shrinks away, she passively places her arm back at her side.
Norman, who had been covertly observing this entire episode from up in his projector booth, decides to introduce himself to this fashion-conscious, poised young woman--and give the lyricist a break; Jack sees him stroll down the stairs, and the poet is glad to see that his turn of 'talk to the new employee' is over--he speeds down the hall, on his way to his regular secret hiding area. Thank you, Norman.
Susie stares at the tall man in front of her, and extends her hand again. "Hello, sir! I am--"
"--Susie Campbell," Norman finishes for her. "I heard you from up there." He jerks his head to the projector booth and smirks as he shakes her hand. "Nice to meet you. I am Norman Polk, the projectionist."
"I see! Well, nice to meet you, too, Norman," she answers joyfully. This place is full of such colorful characters! The handsome music composer, the timid lyricist, the mysterious projectionist...wow! She is truly happy to be around so many different people, and her encounter with Joey is completely wiped from her memory. Turning to Sammy, she asks, "Where to next?"
The composer considers for a moment. "Let's go to the animation department, and then I'll take you to the toy department." He links to her again, and they start towards their destination.
Norman smiles and shakes his head as he watches them leave. I know that they've just met, but they're already smitten--how cute.
The animation department is drastically different than the music department in that it is bustling with workers--Susie has to dodge at least three that race past her. The department is also much more cramped, with the desks shoved against each other. The majority of the artists seem to be a joyful, fun-loving crew--they are all chattering and teasing each other playfully, while a teenage boy with light brown hair watches them forlornly. In the center of the room is a sharply-dressed man with neat black hair, keeping tabs on their doings and reminding them when necessary to keep working.
Susie approaches the black-haired man, who seems to be in charge of this particular division of the studio, and once again extends her arm. My hand is going to fall off from all this shaking! "Greetings, sir! I'm Susie Campbell, Alice Angel's new voice actress."
"Ah, yes," the man replies silkily, giving her a rare smile. "I'm charmed; I am Terrence Dail, head artist of the animation department. I hope you will find happiness and success in your career here." He turns to his energetic co-workers, pointing them out and naming them for her. "That over there is Dave, that is Richie, and that is Jacob." The group proceeds to loudly call out greetings to the new worker, and she waves at them.
Another soul sprints into the drawing wing; this one is a slim male with hair the color of caramel, and his bangs are styled in a swirl that flips above his forehead. He has a small mustache above his shiny smile--Susie also observes that he has beautiful long eyelashes.
"Hey, Sammy," he says in a Brooklyn accent, "have you seen my keys?" He notices Susie. "Hiya, miss!"
Susie waves cheerfully as Sammy gives a disappointed sigh. "Yes, Wally--they're on my desk. You left them in my trashcan...again."
Realization dawns on Wally's face. "Ohhhh, yeah. Thanks!" He pivots his brown eyes to the head artist. "Hi, Terry!"
Terrence scowls. "I told you not to call me that."
"Whatever you say, Terry." And before Susie can say anything, Wally bounces off towards the music workshop.
Terrence's expression softens as he looks back at the voice actress. "Nice to meet you, Susie." With that, he grabs some sketches off of his desk and unleashes a dutiful gaze at the teenage boy. "You, um, gofer?" He points to the teenager and searches for a name he can't find. "What is your name again?"
"Buddy, sir," the boy replies diligently, brushing his bangs out of his face. He doesn't even remember my name...
"Buddy, take these to Mister Drew," Terrence dictates, handing the boy the sketches; the latter skips off in the direction of demand.
Susie turns back to Sammy, who is fixated on a speaker above one of the artist's desks. I never thought that I'd miss them, he thinks--Joey had stopped preaching his announcements in the morning the day after Henry left, and though they were a distraction, the composer can't help but expect them again. He is pulled out of his reminiscing when Susie taps his shoulder.
"Oh, uh, that was Wally Franks--the janitor," he explains, gesturing down the hallway the man had ran into; he lowers his voice as he continues, "Bit of a scatterbrain, I think, but at least he gets the job done."
The voice actress nods--it is coming to light for her that Sammy may not think too highly of most of his co-workers. "What about that Terrence guy?"
"He just got promoted to head artist because of Henry's leaving," the music man clarifies. "Definitely the most mature of the group, but a bit boring; much better than those other ones and their shenanigans, though." A pause, and then, "Are you ready to see the toy workshop?"
"Yes!" She hitches to Sammy.
The duo walk into the colossal toy department, and Susie gasps at its beauty. It's a miracle world--toys of every size sit picturesque across the shining floor. Plush Borises, Bendys, and Alices peer at the new employee curiously, permanent smiles sewn on all of their faces; behind them is a giant fountain streaming clear, reflective water, with a sign at the top declaring the room as Heavenly Toys.
It is indeed heavenly! Susie raves, then perceives the only person in this amazing room; his messy red hair is the only thing visible, as his head is lying on the desk and he is sound asleep.
Sammy gives the sleeping person a slight shake, and the latter groans a bit as his eyes flutter open. "Oh, hi, Sammy," he says drowsily, squinting at the composer's companion. "Who's this?"
"Susie Campbell, the new voice actress," Sammy replies. "Susie, this is Shawn Flynn, our toymaster." A big sleeper, too, if you couldn't tell , his mind continues on; he has caught Shawn napping on the job three times throughout his time working at Joey Drew Studios. At the second instance of this event, Henry had happened to be traveling with Sammy, and the animator had merely awoken the toy maker, not making a fuss about it. Since his former boss seemed to understand Shawn's unusual sleep patterns, Sammy presumed that it probably wasn't his place to tell the ever-exhausted man off.
"The job's a bit boring today, huh?" Susie jokes.
"Um, sure," Shawn mutters. In truth, he has a condition: "narcolepsy," as his doctor calls it. But the craftsman has only told three people in the studio about his illness--Henry, Joey, and his one closest friend--and he plans to keep it that way; it's not so much that he is embarrassed by it, but more that it just really isn't anyone's business but his. I'll take an excuse when I can get one.
The voice actress continues to gawk at the sheer exquisiteness of the toy department. "You have such an amazing work environment--I would love to stay in here!" She spins on her heel to view his desk; in front of Shawn is an Alice plush, newly sewn. "What is this?" Susie asks, pointing to a lime-green pile of knitting to the left of this stuffed toy.
"Oh, uh, that's...just something I'm working on for...someone," Shawn replies somewhat bashfully, as he rapidly shoves the pile in question into a drawer. Susie and Sammy exchange confused looks, but decide not to pursue the subject any further.
The toy maker stands up and stretches, and Susie notices that he is about two inches shorter than her--not tiny, but nevertheless still a bit small for an adult male.
"Well, it's a pleasure to meet you, Susie," he says, grabbing her hand. "Good luck on voicing and everything."
"Thank you!" Once again, she rotates to Sammy. I can't decide which is more fun to look at: him or this awesome place. So many sights! "Writing department next, if I remember correctly?"
He nods. "You ready?"
"Of course." And down the corridor they go.
The writing department is set up like the animation department, with the desks scrunched against each other, but there is an unmistakable hush in the atmosphere that is a sharp contrast to the always-noisy one in the art wing. Susie searches around for someone who might be the lead writer, but stops after Sammy tells her that, for some reason, Joey never hired one.
"The authors pretty much take care of their jobs without disorder, though, so I guess we really don't need one. Still, I have always found it a bit strange." He sighs. "But that's just Joey's way." He directs her toward the workers. "That one is Madison, that's James, that's Peter, and that is Dorothy." A couple of the writers poke their heads up at their names, while the other two--James and Dorothy--keep centered on their work. "Everyone," Sammy continues, "this is Susie Campbell, the new voice actress for Alice Angel."
There are a few "Hi, Susie"s and "Welcome to the studio"s from the authors, but not much else is said. They certainly are a quiet bunch , Susie thinks.
Sammy taps her shoulder. "Well, that's the end of the tour, unless you want to see the administration department." He grins. "But that's a bit boring, and the only people who work in there are Joey and Grant Cohen, and both of them stay shut up in their offices so much that it's futile to introduce them."
Susie can't help but beam, too. His smile is so infectious, she ogles. "Thank you so much for showing me everything; you're an remarkable tour guide."
He laughs. "Well, I wouldn't say that, but thank you, too. You're a remarkable studio tourist."
They stand in blissful silence for a moment before Susie blushes a bit and they both giggle, realizing that they are staring. "I better get back to work, then," Sammy says as he dismisses himself. "Oh, wait--you work in the recording studio, too. I guess we'll be seeing a lot of each other, then."
"I guess we will," Susie agrees, as she strides next to him.
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Joey rises from his swivel chair with a melodramatic sigh. The work day has ended, and now he can finally travel the hallways without being stopped to have a question answered or papers approved; of course, those are the normal tasks of a manager/CEO/owner, but sometimes Joey wishes that he could just have some peace and quiet.
Now is the best time to get that very thing, but he has work to do first. He slides down the eerie, dark corridor in silence, eventually reaching a tiny office in the administration department; he pounds lightly on the door using the brass knocker.
"Come in," says a hoarse voice from inside.
The owner shuffles in. This office is much more organized than his--every document and file is in alphabetical order on the metal shelves, the floor is vacuumed so well that not a crumb remains, and everything that can be polished is. Joey directs his eyes to the man in the chair in the center of the room.
Grant Cohen is a elderly human seemingly made of circles, from his round body to the bald spot on the peak of his head. "Hello, Mister Drew. What can I do for you?"
Joey sits in one of the chairs opposite of Grant. "How many funds do we have saved up, Grant?"
The bookkeeper bends over with some struggle and opens a file cabinet, shuffling through the pages inside until he finds the one he wants; he brings it out and reads it for a bit before answering, "After expenses, about $15,438."
The owner nods. "Very well, then. Thank you." He stands up and prepares to leave the room before Grant stops him.
"Sir, can I ask why you ask?"
Joey pivots on his heel and places his fingers at the edge of his muttonchops. "Well, Grant, I don't want to spoil anything...but some things are going to change here." He pauses in the doorway, causing the shadow of the hall to cover his face. "And what wonderful changes they will be."
Chapter 7: Chapter Five - Boys, Toys, and Secret Ploys
Notes:
[From the original Wattpad chapter]
Shout-out to @King_Of_Paradoxes for being the world's greatest first fan ever! Please, readers, I beg you to check out his FNAF x BATIM AU book! Don't be scared; he's an extraordinary person, and he definitely won't bite (though I can't promise the same for his animatronics (///^∇^///) )! Thank you!
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Indeed, a lot did change in the days that follow Susie's arrival; the voice actress adjusted well to her new work environment, and especially to her co-workers--but something even more interesting (and strange) came up just a week after her entrance.
Joey had been standing by the door all morning for no coherent reason, and when his employees questioned him on it, he had merely given them a sly smile and answered, "We have some important guests coming." The workers all had their guesses as to who these guests could be: Norman suspected potential candidates for a lead writer, while Sammy and Jack figured that they would be major businesspeople coming to speak with Joey on whatever boring topics businesspeople speak about. Susie feared that they would be inspectors who would check each of the workers to see if they were doing their jobs adequately, and worried how she could possibly make a good impression with such little experience; Shawn thought that they were public speakers his boss had chosen to "lighten up" his crew, like the ones he had hired before Henry's dismissal. The studio gang bounced these theories off each other, never figuring out which was correct--but with a *creak* of the main doors, their questions were answered.
Four construction workers had trudged into the workshop; Joey immediately began animatedly communicating with a muscular, black-haired one who seemed to be in charge. All of the constructors donned pale blue shirts with a silver cursive "GENT" stitched in the left corner pocket.
Since then, the construction workers have spent almost all of their time in a closed-off section of the studio; to prevent his other employees from peeking at the surprise they are building, Joey only provided keys to the room to the GENT members. This action caused a mutual frustration among the studio staff, in Norman especially--despite his ceaseless efforts to listen at the door, the little information he has gathered is not enough to describe what exactly the artisans are intending to create.
Thus, the only actions the projectionist can really do at this point are do his job, surreptitiously stare down at the recording studio below for thrills, and/or contemplate the reason for the GENT workers using the evidence he doesn't have; right now, he is in progress of the second activity. Blended into the shadows so well that the two workers below don't even notice him, he observes whatever drama he can from in his balcony.
Down in the recording section of the music department, Sammy and Susie are chatting earnestly; the composer and the voice actress had graduated from frivolous flirting and now were launching into learning more about each other. However, it's time to work right now.
Sammy is seated at his piano, practicing vocal warm-ups with Susie, who is leaning against the instrument.
"La-la-la-la-la-la-la!" he sings as he presses the corresponding F scale keys, then does the same down the scale. The voice actress copies this exercise, and the two of them harmonize; Susie decides to test Sammy's vocal range by ascending higher and higher--she laughs when he squeaks out D5.
The female states, "You are truly quite an amazing singer; who taught you?"
"My father," he replies. "He absolutely loved music, whether it be Beethoven or jazz on the radio; he was also my piano tutor."
"Aw," Susie coos while clasping her hands, "that's sweet. Did your mother enjoy music, too?"
The composer's smile falters for a moment before he answers in a voice Norman has to strain his ears to hear, "She...passed away at my birth."
He never told us that, Norman reflects. He really must trust her. Then again, he notes that Sammy never seems grouchy or annoyed around Susie; yes, he still makes the occasional snide comment on whatever subjects bother him, but he almost always smiles when he's with her...a bit like a certain eternally-happy Dancing Demon. I guess that makes sense.
"Oh...I'm so sorry," Susie sympathizes, reaching down and placing her hand on his. Poor him, growing up without a mother, her mind continues as she remembers her own parents--her father, a butcher, and her mother, a hair stylist.
"It's quite all right," Sammy reassures her. "I was told that she loved singing with my father while he played the piano," --his face tints pink--"a bit like we are doing now." His fingers lace around hers. "You're an amazing singer, too." This sentence brings a grin to her face; the composer fixates on it. That smile...it's a different kind of beautiful. No melody could ever be that sweet. They sit in amorous silence for a moment, and Norman finally quits spying.
The projectionist leans back and sighs in boredom; yes, Sammy and Susie's budding romance is interesting, but he can only watch them make goo-goo eyes at each other for so long. Where does Jack go at times like these? he wonders, resurfacing a question he considers regularly. One of these days, when he thinks I'm not watching him, I'm gonna follow him to...wherever he runs off to.
But for now, it's back to the old grind.
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In Heavenly Toys, Shawn is hard at work knitting the green article he is ever-so-secretive about; he's been weaving it for three weeks now, and is glad to observe that he is almost finished. The toy machine is at full swing, popping out ready-to-be-packaged identical plushes at top speed. The toymaker is watching the rickety elevator shaft that enters through his department through the corner of his eye, and gives a happy jump when he hears the telltale *clunk* of it escalating up the floors.
He scrambles to shove his knitting into a drawer before a smile crosses his face as his favorite janitor exits the elevator.
Wally's heart skips a beat at the site of Shawn--for four months, the janitor has visited with the toy maker while he cleans his floor, and he has fallen in love with him; however, there is reasoning behind why he has not confessed to him.
The maintenance worker is the middle child of five kids--with a brother and a sister on each side. Vivian--the oldest child, and a giver of advice that most of her conversational acquaintances don't ask for--had gotten married about a year ago; at her wedding, the majority of her other siblings had squirmed out of sitting down with her and hearing the "information of life" that she was planning to quite graciously disclose to them. Wally and his younger brother were the ones who ended up stuck with the know-it-all bride-in her spiel about love, she stated to them, "When you two meet your special someones, make sure that you are certain that they love you too before you tell them about your feelings; you'll know when the time is right." This was only a small section of the speech she delivered, but it was also the only part Wally remembers--he had zoned out during the rest of it.
Applying this advice to his relationship with Shawn makes sense according to him; he still isn't positive that the craftsman loves him back, but Wally throws hints about his feelings toward him in the form of compliments and flirtatious gestures (only a portion of which Shawn seems to notice). He'll wait forever for that 'ah-ha' moment, though he questions what it will be like--will he just suddenly know? Or will it be gradual? Of course, there's the prospect that the craftsman doesn't like him like that...but Wally tries to not think about that scenario too often. At the present, he's staying hopeful.
Shawn, on the other hand, is less certain about his emotions regarding Wally; the toymaker suspects that he might be crushing on him, but he isn't sure right now. The artisan does know that he cares greatly for the janitor...he doesn't know how much yet. Besides, if he does, he frets if the other doesn't feel the same way--he's a sweet guy, but isn't that just the way he acts around everyone? What if Shawn is just reading the signals wrong?
Indeed, Wally was the third person Shawn disclosed the information on his narcolepsy to--in return, Wally revealed a secret of his own: he wears makeup (specifically mascara, and sometimes brown-tone eye-shadow if he is feeling bold). The acknowledgement of these hidden facts in turn strengthened the relationship between the two.
Wally constantly attempts to work as slowly as possible so he can spend as much time with Shawn as possible (most of his work schedule is set after everyone has deserted the studio, but he makes an exception for Shawn); whenever they have free time, the two are bound to be together.
As the custodian begins sweeping, Shawn starts conversation. "Top of the morning, Wally. How are ya today?"
Wally makes a neutral noise and shrugs. "Okay, I guess; it's just the same old, same old. More feet walkin' 'round this place, which means more work for me. And Joey's sayin' that he might add to my load-might have me go help those GENT workers with whatever they're buildin'. I swear, if I don't get a raise soon, I'm outta here!" He sighs; a raise would indeed be beneficial to him-he is just managing to scrape by with his current salary...but he doesn't want to worry Shawn with that information.
"Ah, I'm sorry," Shawn responds. I could use a raise, too; hell, we all could. But no--all the money belongs to Joey. "Has he told you what they're making, then?"
The janitor shakes his head as he attacks a particularly bad cobweb in an upper corner with his broom. "Nope--still a secret. But I'll remember to tell you once I find out." The cobweb decides to fall on his face. "Ahh!"
The toymaker giggles as Wally wipes the offending entity off.
"Yuck, I got some in my mouth. If you ever have a desire for something new to savor, Shawn, I do not recommend spider webs." Shawn laughs even harder, all of his body awake--an odd occurrence in most scenarios, but not when he's around his best friend. Wally makes him feel alive.
"Oh my God, are you okay?"
"Me, yes. My taste buds, no."
The two of them struggle to catch their breaths before Shawn adds, "At least the spider wasn't in it," and they burst into giggles again.
Changing the subject, Shawn begins, "Even if you do get your workload pressured, you'll still have something to look forward to next week."
Wally grins. "You're probably the only one who remembers...but I shouldn't be surprised. You're amazing like that." He gives him a wink.
"Thanks..." Shawn answers, vaguely wondering what the wink was for. Is he hinting at something?
They continue to chat throughout their work; when Wally moves on into the next section of the toy department, Shawn follows him and begins packaging plushes into the flimsy cardboard boxes Joey provided for him.
The time flies too quickly for the duo, and soon Wally has to leave for his next destination; he packs up his supplies and steps into the cage of the elevator. The craftsman gazes as his friend travels up, up, up from his level.
Shawn's smile falters as a sudden wave of loneliness washes over him.
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Joey prances around the hidden section of the studio in GENT worker territory--his new plan to bring cartoons to life has invigorated him with a sense of pride and purpose.
In the center of the room is what appears to be a bulky metal box with pipes attached to the sides of it; the surface closest to Joey has a curved spout connected to it, which the muscular man from before is currently tightening.
"Thomas!" his boss greets him joyfully; the other mentally groans. "Hard at work, I see! Wonderful!" Joey slaps the side of the box like a friend would slap another's back.
"Don't hit it like that--it's not completely stable yet," Thomas warns gruffly. "A bit like that lift of yours, I might add; I tried to use it yesterday, but it just skipped my floor and kept going up. You can't cut corners like that, J--Mister Drew."
In the week he had worked for Joey, Thomas had observed that the owner wasn't quite stable himself--sure, Joey has an idea...but he doesn't work out all the details in that idea. He just relies on others to figure it out themselves, and if he falls, he wants them to catch him. Gradual dislike for his payer has piled up inside of Thomas, even though Joey hasn't yet wronged him. There's just something I don't trust about him. He's going to do something awful with this, thinking that he's helping, when he doesn't know what he's doing. However, he keeps these thoughts to himself and does his job without complaints.
"Ah, it's fine, Thomas; it was probably just a malfunction or something," Joey says, brushing the advice off. "You can't be careful with everything, you know. If you spend all your time sweating the small stuff, you'll never achieve the big picture." And don't be so pessimistic, either. The future is ours to create. He slaps the box again, causing a pipe inside of it to fall onto the floor with a *clank*. "Oops."
Thomas sighs as he dives below the contraption to fix whatever had fallen apart. Good job, Joey.
His boss beams in an futile attempt to cheer his conversational pal up. "Think about this, Thomas: you'll change thousands of children's lives with this machine. It's a step toward a brighter future...a step in the right direction."
Chapter 8: Chapter Six - More Distractions
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Another week begins; today, the music department is teeming with busy orchestra workers preparing to perform; a part of their jobs is to accompany their musical pieces with the cartoon to test how they sound. Flutists scurry to deposit the correct number of stands, banjo players struggle to rearrange their music sheets, and trumpeters hurriedly tune their instruments--all of this chaos creates a variety of awful sounds.
Standing tall at the forefront of the room, Sammy impatiently yells over the noise, "Chop-chop, people! We have much to do, and so little time!" He claps his hands to emphasize his words; a ripple of stress surges through the crowd as they attempt to carry out their tasks even more rapidly. The composer emits a frustrated growl. If Joey gave us more time to achieve our deadlines, all this...pandemonium wouldn't be necessary.
After about five more minutes (Five precious minutes we could have been working in! Sammy exasperates), the ensemble are all settled into their places, instruments at the ready. The songwriter calls out to the projectionist, "We're ready, Norman!"
Norman, who had been calmly drumming his fingers on his desk during all this discord, sits up and turns on the already-assembled projector with a *click*.
The wall of the music department transforms into a theater, with Joey Drew Studios's introduction logo bouncing along the screen--this image smoothly transitions into the title of the film, "Bendy, Boris, and Alice in... Garden Gala!"
Sammy lightly taps his baton on his stand in a moderate tempo--*dink dink dink dink, dink dink dink dink*--then mouths, "One, two, three, four."
He lifts the baton, and the orchestra plays a peaceful, serene melody; on screen, it's a cloudy day, and the Little Devil Darling is walking to Boris's house. When he reaches it, he stands on his tip-toes and rings the doorbell repetitively (a triangle plays *chi-chi-chi-chi* to represent this).
The wolf answers the door; Bendy waves cheerfully to him, and beckons him to come outside. The melody changes to a peppy, happy-go-lucky tune.
Once his friend is outdoors, Bendy receives a confused look from him--in response, the devil hands him a book with a plant on the cover. Boris opens the book, but is still visibly puzzled; Bendy grabs a nearby watering can and hands it to his buddy.
The demon leads the wolf to a garden patch, with unique flowers budding throughout--with some difficulty, Bendy pulls a bag of soil to Boris's feet, and pours it. He then seizes a pot with a sunflower in it, and carefully places it into the dirt.
Boris tilts the watering can, and drips of water fall to the ground with *ding*s. Much to the confusion of the friends, the flower droops. Using one of his gloved hands, Bendy attempts to hold it straight; the minute he lets it go, however, the plant sags again. The music again alters, this time to a slow, suspenseful assonance.
The Little Devil Darling frowns at Boris, who just shrugs his shoulders; Bendy is ready to give up when he suddenly spots another friend of his passing by: Alice Angel.
The demon gestures to the heavenly creature, and she bounces over to the duo--a light, airy refrain echoes throughout the department as she gets closer and closer.
"What's going on?" Susie's voice asks out of Alice's mouth.
Bendy dismally points to the failed plant.
"How odd," remarks the angel. "You watered it, right?" When both of her friends nod, she places a dainty hand on her chin. "Hmm.." After a pause, she abruptly perks up. "I know what's wrong!"
She floats to the sky, and says in a sing-song voice, "Oh, Mister Sun! Come out, Mister Sun!"
At Alice's beckoning, the clouds part, and a smiling sun beams down at the trio. A successful tune chimes as the sunflower immediately erects.
Bendy hugs his friends with a large smile plastered across his face; the cartoon ends with *bing-bong-bing* noise, and the credits roll.
Sammy releases the breath he didn't know he was holding as he cuts the band off; the orchestra begins to chatter as they pack up, and the composer starts toward his office.
Sammy's office is a tad bit smaller than Grant's; the walls are lined with a bold, black border. The rough carpet is grayish-blue, and resting on it are Sammy's two favorite instruments-a violin and a banjo. His desk is horizontally aligned with the left wall, and in the center of the room is a fat, ugly pipe.
Sammy shuts the door with a *bang* behind him, and locks it with a *cht*-- he glares at the pipe as he perches in his desk. The tube had been installed three days ago by the GENT workers; apparently, it's part of the machine they are constructing. The music man hates it with a passion.
Sammy rummages his desk for some blank staff paper as the pipe lets out a gurgle.
"Shut up," he snaps at it.
The tube *clank*s rudely in response.
The composer sighs heavily. Just what I need...more distractions.
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In the GENT room, Wally peers past his fellow construction workers, who are chatting casually; he is waiting for the right time to sneak out so he can visit Shawn.
Up until now, he could waltz into the toy department during the day, since he worked predominately after everyone else had left; however, Joey had altered his schedule--he now had to join the construction crew during the day, and do his maintenance duties after hours.
Evading notice by his new co-workers isn't terribly difficult; they don't particularly care for Wally--Thomas especially--and thus only sparingly watch over him. The janitor himself makes an effort to get along with the cantankerous craftsman, but to no avail--Thomas is completely convinced that Wally doesn't have any brains whatsoever, and since he's the ringleader of the team, the rest follow suit in his belief.
Wally tries to not let this bother him too much, but it's tough. Between them and Sammy, I'll never get a break. If they would just get to know me, they would understand...
The workers are blocking the exit to the room; from behind the odd machine they have been constructing, Wally sighs impatiently. Could they have found a less convenient place to blab? He normally isn't one for sarcasm, but constantly being trodden on by these guys has shaped dislike within him.
Eventually, the group disperses. With one last glance at the disgruntled employees, Wally stands up and slithers to the door.
What a feeling it is to be free! He hadn't realized just how frustrated he was at being locked up in a musty, airless chamber with his rather irritable company. I'll never take these hallways for granted again! A deep breath of the fresh air, and then he starts to the elevator.
Up in the toy department, Shawn hears the wonderful *clank*s of the lift ascending. My Wally is coming... he muses dreamily, then corrects himself. I mean, not my Wally--he doesn't belong to me.
But you wish he did, whispers another voice inside of him. Shawn doesn't have time to respond to this sudden thought, because the janitor is bounding out of the lift and heading to him.
A bit out of breath, Wally states, "I-I don't know how much time I'll have with you today--I had to sneak away. They'll figure out that I'm missing soon, though." A hesitation...and then, "I can promise ten minutes."
"Let's cut to the chase, then," Shawn smiles, placing a blue bag in front of the janitor. "Happy birthday!"
His friend is stunned for a minute before answering, "Y-you didn't need to get me anything!" Nevertheless, he makes quick work of tearing into the parcel.
As Wally lifts the lime-green sweater with his name in black thread sewn on it out of the bag, Shawn adds, "I know it's a bit loud, but--"
"I. LOVE. IT. Thank you so much!" the maintenance worker interrupts, then in one move wraps his arms around the toy maker's shoulders.
The hug is like a blanket Shawn didn't know he needed--he folds his own arms around Wally's waist. This is so amazing...
The hug doesn't seem to last long enough for either of them; as they finally stop entwining, they observe each other's bright red faces.
Aww! He's blushing...he's so cute when he blushes, Wally pines.
Shawn doesn't think anything at first--he feels a bit dizzy from this whole interaction...but it's a good kind of dizzy. Is there such a thing as that?
"Uh--" Wally begins, attempting to reorganize his thoughts. "Okay, um, so...I won't be able to visit you a lot during the day anymore...because, um--you know--Joey and my job and all." Ugh, I sound like an idiot.
"Yeah..." Shawn replies vaguely, also lost in his own mind. "Oh, um, I could just stay after hours, and help you clean or something."
The janitor feels his face heat up again. "Y-you don't have to-"
Thomas's voice rings from the stairs. "Wally!"
"Ah, that's my cue," the janitor tells his friend. "Seriously...thank you for everything."
"Of course...and I will wait for you after hours. Have a great birthday."
"WALLY!" Thomas yells again.
"Okay, I better go--see you tonight," Wally finishes quickly, winking at his crush as he clutches the sweater. "I'm outta here!"
He dashes to the stairs before Thomas can discover where he was; the latter conveys a confused look to him.
"Where the hell were you? You're supposed to be regulating the pipe pressure!" Thomas scowls. He's trying to get out of work, I just know it.
"Mmhm..." is all he gets in reply; Wally practically floats past him.
"Hello? I'm talking to YOU!" Thomas asserts, snapping his fingers in front of the maintenance worker. "Hey! Wake up!"
Wally is too caught up in dreams of Shawn to answer.
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Norman is standing by the one thing that keeps him going throughout a stressful work day-the coffee machine. He inspects the way it dispenses out the liquid, smiling at it as if that will persuade it to pour faster; it finishes its cycle with a *chrtttt*, and the projectionist lifts the cup from out of it. He scans the break room for his usual condiments--he'll only drink the coffee if it is prepared exactly the way he likes it: with a tablespoon of sugar and just a dash of milk.
He hums as he attentively administers the correct amount of each product, then hears some footsteps behind him.
Jack, who had tried to walk as quietly as possible as to avoid any conversation, is perceived by the projectionist; the latter notes that the former is carrying a set of keys.
"Hi, Jack," Norman greets as he picks up his cup and sips it. "Whatcha got there?" Of course, he already knows the keys are Wally's--probably left behind in Jack's office-- but he wants verification. It's so satisfying being right.
"Um, uh," the lyricist mumbles, "Wally's keys. H-he left them--"
"--in your trash can, and you were just about to return them," Norman guesses, an idea forming in his head. When Jack nods, he continues, "Well...you know that Joey just made him join the GENT workers."
Jack can already tell where this is going. What do I say? "Y-yeah..."
Norman goes on in a casual-sounding voice, "So, then, obviously he has the key to that secret room, am I right?" A mischievous expression crosses his face. "Quite interesting...you know, Jack, I'm sure you're curious as to what they're building. Hm?"
The lyricist is silent for a moment; indeed, he is very curious as to what exactly those new employees are creating. He hopes that whatever Norman plans to say next, it won't be what he thinks it is. "Uh...yeah, I guess..."
"Well then...what if we were to,"--Norman pauses for dramatic effect--"I don't know, sneak in there and see what they're up to?" Please say yes, his mind begs.
"Uh..." Jack begins. No, no, no, no, no. "I-I don't think that that would be a very good idea. We could get in trouble."
"Not unless we get caught," Norman points out. "And if we're careful, we won't." I'll just have to slightly push him out of his comfort zone...sorry, Jack.
The offer is definitely tempting, and the lyricist struggles to assemble a reason on why they should not, in fact, enter the forbidden room. "Uhhh...b-but maybe it's supposed to be a surprise. I mean, Joey clearly h-has a reason for not telling us what i-it is."
Norman sighs. "He isn't doing us any favors by not giving us any information on whatever it is...and I doubt he is going to surprise us with anything. Come on, Jack...would it really be that bad?"
Jack is biting his lip so hard he's afraid that it will start to bleed. "I--uh--maybe--um..." Damn it, Norman. "All right," he obliges hesitantly. "We can take a tiny look." His stomach turns at the thought of the taboo deed he and the projectionist are about to perform. But if it makes Norman happy...
Indeed, the projectionist's face lights up at Jack's approval. "Great!" Finally, I get to explore the wonders beyond that door! Thank you, Jack! He seizes the keys from the lyricist and heads over to the door, then halts. "On second thought, you should unlock this while I watch for anyone, since you're shorter and easier to guard.
He hands the keys back to Jack, who proceeds to mentally berate himself for being such a pushover. This is a terrible idea--why can I never just say no? He presses the key into the hole; with each turn, the lock *click*s, while Jack's mind warns, No, no, no, NO, NONONONONO. We are going to get caught. We're going to get in trouble. I'm going to get fired. My job is at risk here! And Norman's, too!
Nevertheless, he pushes the door open with great care, cringing at the *creeeeeak* it makes; he places the keys in his pocket. The first thing he notices about the room is how stuffy it is. Yuck...working in here all day would be torture. The lyricist's heart leaps to his throat as he recognizes three GENT workers--two men and a woman--with their backs to the duo; one wrong move, and they would be caught.
Norman firmly clutches Jack's wrist and draws him into the shadows; his eyes point to a balcony just above the workers--the projectionist pulls the poet along with him as he tiptoes up the stairs, each one causing an eerie *squeak*. Jack does not object to these maneuvers--it's coherent that Norman has done this kind of thing before. I hope he knows what he's getting into...
Don't turn this way, don't turn this way, Norman psychologically pleads to the GENT craftspeople. Thankfully, the workers don't suspect a thing, and the duo manages to slide to against the wall at the end of the balcony without alerting anyone.
Norman crouches down as best as he can and squints between the bars of the balcony's rail; Jack, who is about two heads shorter than the projectionist, hunches next to him with much more ease.
Down on the ground, Thomas is speaking with Joey, and Norman can see that the former isn't very happy about the subject, while Joey appears to be puzzled.
"Mister Drew, I told you that electricity will not be enough for this machine; if we even so much as plugged it in, it would overload the conduction system, and none of your machines would work," Thomas declares. "I advise that you install a separate generator if you plan to use it regularly." I sincerely hope you won't use it that often, though, his mind continues; the mechanism is frightening enough without Joey's volatility in control of it.
Joey considers for a moment. "Is there any other energy source that you could create?" It isn't so much that there isn't adequate room in the studio for a power generator, or that it would be too pricey...I have plenty of space and money. It's just that...there has to be an easier way. Jack can practically see the gears in his brain turning.
"I'm afraid not, sir. Like I said, a generator would be the best option."
Another period of silence, and then the owner has a swift idea. Hopefully, this will work. "Thomas...you're a construction worker, so you know how there are many, many different types of energies out there."
The other frowns and crosses his arms. What is he trying to get at? "Yes...I suppose there are..."
"Right. So, an example of a different energy is like food, for example," Joey continues, pacing along the floor. "Living things consume the food, and receive energy from it."
"If you are suggesting feeding a machine, I can tell you straight away that it's not going to work," Thomas deadpans. In case you haven't noticed, devices don't eat.
"I'm not finished yet!" his employer informs, waving his hands. "Anyway, there's a great number of energies in the world...so I was thinking..."
Just spit it out already! Quit with the hemming and hawing! Thomas mentally cries at him.
"What if...we were to harvest the energy of ambition?" Joey finishes, extending his arms in a 'eh, what do you think?' gesture. I'm a genius, aren't I?
Thomas has to force himself not to facepalm. That's the most ridiculous statement I have ever heard. He takes a breath before answering, with slight acrimony in his voice, "That won't work. You can't 'harvest' ambition; it's not a physical substance."
"But you said you can create life with that ink!" Joey protests. "Surely you could work that little bit of magic into powering the machine."
Ink? What ink? Norman questions. What exactly did these guys manage to do?
"I didn't say we CAN. I said we MIGHT be able to," the craftsman explains curtly. "And it sure ain't magic; it's just a theory."
"I'm not paying you to theorize," Joey remarks callously. "You said that you could form life with it; it really shouldn't be that hard, then, to grant energy from ambition." And we have plenty of that!
Thomas huffs. "All right, then; just how do you plan to 'harvest' ambition?" He pictures Joey strapped in a chair with wires attached to him. Apparently, I'm no longer the expert here.
His boss smirks a bit. "I have my ways..." He clears his throat as he turns to the rest of the workers. "I want you guys to establish some podiums in that next room over there." Joey points to the desired location. "Those will become the energy source for the machine."
The workers exchange confused looks, so Thomas slides over to them and mutters, "Just build them; he can't accept that he's wrong. Once he sees that they won't work, maybe he'll let us do our jobs...the right way." I can't wait until that revelation, his mind goes on.
Joey claps his hands in earnest. "Perfect, perfect! You guys and gals just keeping on trucking, then! You're doing great! Oh, and I should add here that your food dispenser thingies will be here soon." A rumble of approval follows this last statement.
He treats them better than he treats us, Jack detects; it had been a great age since Joey had even attempted to inspire or praise them. What food dispensers?
Meanwhile, Norman speculates on the event what he had just witnessed. There's definitely more to the picture here...but what is it? Life out of ink? Magic? Harvesting ambition? What does that all mean? Never in his lifetime had he come across such a wrenching situation; he pivots his head to his spying partner, whose eyes are wide with inquisitiveness. The projectionist's mouth curls upward. He's enjoying this.
Indeed, the lyricist has a thrill running through his veins, although he still feels a bit sick at the action. I really should not be doing this...I can't become used to it.
Two GENT workers meander to the bottom step of the balcony, and it's clear to both parties on top that it's time to leave. Jack allows Norman to guide him to the exit, and when the duo are safely out of the fortress, he delicately seals the door.
The projectionist and the poet heave sighs of wonder and relief.
"Well, wasn't that fun?" Norman asks Jack as he regains his thoughts.
The lyricist doesn't want to disclose what he truly believes: that the spying absolutely was interesting. He almost wants to do it again. Almost. Instead, he merely shrugs at the ground and replies quietly, "Maybe..."
"You're cute when you're shy," he hears Norman tell him--it's a genuine compliment.
That makes one of you, Jack's brain dictates. Between Sammy's disappointment and Susie's pity for him, he struggles to cope with his anxiety on what they think about him; he highly appreciates Norman's acceptance of his personality. "Um...thank you. For this--uh--adventure thing, I mean."
"Of course. If you ever want to sneak up on someone again and watch them, you can call on me," Norman rejoinders, then realizes how odd that sounds. "I mean, you're welcome." A slight pause, and then, "Oh, I got something to ask you, but I guess you don't really have to answer it if you don't want to."
Jack braces himself for the worst.
"Where exactly do you go off to during the day?" When the poet doesn't reply, Norman resumes, "All right, then. Keep your secrets." I'll find out on my own.
Jack stares up at the projectionist, whose expression is one of slight curiosity...with a tad bit of slyness. He said I don't need to tell him...but I have a bad feeling he'll figure it out soon. "Norman...you are a mysterious man."
"You don't know it, Jack, but you're quite mysterious yourself," Norman responds. With that, he remembers something: I never finished my coffee. He steps into the break room. "See you later."
The lyricist merely watches him walk away, a thousand thoughts flurrying through his already-nervous brain. I'm not that mysterious...am I? What about all that stuff we saw? What was that about? I'm so confused...
The *clink* of Wally's keys in his pocket snaps him back to reality; he pulls them out. Oh, I better get these back to him.
Jack doesn't have to travel too far before he nearly smacks into the janitor, who had exited the hallway of a run. "Uh--," he hesitates.
"Ah! There's my keys! Thanks, Jack!" Wally announces as he seizes the keys, and Jack looks up and down at the garment he's wearing.
"Um, yeah, no problem...I-I like your shirt."
"Thanks," Wally answers. "Shawn made it for me; it's my birthday."
"Oh. Happy birthday, then. H-how old are you?" the poet asks.
"Twenty-six," the janitor conveys proudly, as if no one had ever achieved such a feat as living for twenty-six years before.
Jack nods a bit, hurriedly looking for a way out of the conversation. I've had enough talking for one day. Sorry, Wally. "Oh, uh, nice. Um, h-hope it's a good one," he mangles together before speeding away without so much as a 'goodbye'.
Wally glances down the corridor as the poet races by him. "Oh, bye then, I guess." Huh...I suppose I was wrong. Two of them! That's a new record.
Jack settles into his desk in the music department with a sigh--his brain is exhausted from all of the day's events. With Norman, Joey, the GENTs, and me all in it, this place has too many mysteries.
Is it even possible to solve them all?
Chapter 9: Chapter Seven - No Questions Asked
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Despite the secrets the studio hid, life still went on; in fact, an inkling of these mysteries were brought to light in the following week.
Jack found out that the 'food dispenser thingies' Joey had mentioned were actually 'Tasty Eats' vending machines; oddly, all that they contained were Briar Label Bacon Soup cans. Sammy had questioned how exactly the workers were supposed to consume the soup if bowls and spoons were not available, and Wally had come up with the solution: drinking the soup straight from the can. The lyricist was and is still confused on many facets. Why do we need these? How long are the GENTs going to be here?
The GENT workers and Wally were informed of Joey's plan to 'harvest ambition'; the boss had them construct the podiums, which he explained were like counterparts to batteries, although he didn't provide details as to how they would operate. These daises were then wired to a lever that would activate the machine. Thomas continued to be irritated with Joey's scheme. This isn't going to work; he's wasting his money and our time.
Unfortunately, as often as he puzzled over it, Norman could not infer why the machine was being built, how ink was involved, or even his boss's intention for how to operate it. I need more information...
That vital information, in fact, stays between Joey and the GENT workers--on this rainy Tuesday morning, the former announces to the the latter that they will attempt to start the machine that day.
"We don't have enough ink yet to begin using it for its purpose," Thomas warns Joey. "So...if your plan does work," --Which it won't, his mind adds--"we won't be able to...do what we are going to do with it. You'll just have to be patient."
"I can be patient!" Joey assures him. "Yep, definitely!"
I sincerely doubt that, Thomas thinks, but bites his tongue.
Joey nods proudly and heads toward his office; for the first time in months, he speaks into the intercom.
"Hello, everyone!" rings throughout the workshop. "I would like an individual from each section of the studio to bring an object that represents their work area to my office--except for the Writing Department. I've got you guys covered. Thank you."
Bewilderment floods the employees at this vague statement; however, it is an order, so they have to follow it. A line soon forms at Joey's door: Sammy, Wally, Shawn, Thomas, and Terrence.
"Enter, enter," Joey beckons joyfully as he opens the door.
Sammy struts in first, a record entitled "The Lighter Side of Hell" in hand; he delicately sets the object on his boss's desk.
"For what reason exactly are we doing this?" the composer asks, a hint of pique in his voice--Joey's announcement and demand had interrupted an important musical piece he was working on.
Joey gives him an unfathomable smile. "It's for a little something I'm working on. These here objects will...appease the gods. Keep things running, you know."
He receives a blank stare from Sammy. That...doesn't make the least bit of sense, the music man ruminates as he turns--with a inconspicuous glare at Joey--and strides out.
Wally enters in next, placing a wrench before Joey in silent puzzlement; he quickly makes his way out and stands against the wall behind the line, in hopes of having a bit of time to talk with Shawn after his delivery.
The toymaker deposits a Bendy plush on the desk, his tired eyes glancing over Joey's figure. I don't want to get involved in whatever you're planning, he mentally tells him, then trudges back in the hall to chat with his best friend.
As Thomas makes his way inside, Shawn questions Wally, "Why is he included in this? The GENTs aren't part of the studio."
Wally shrugs, wincing a bit as he does so. "Wish I could tell ya. Joey just told him to bring something, too."
"Are you okay? You seem as exhausted as I am," Shawn inquires, his voice deflecting a mixture of amusement and concern.
"Yeah...I'm okay. Carryin' heavy things around all day just makes me sore is all; really, I'm fine."
"All right, then," the craftsman replies, but Wally can see that he isn't entirely convinced. "Well, I'll see you tonight." The two head their separate ways.
In Joey's office, Thomas plants a gear on the desk. "I'm telling you, Mister Drew, this is not going to work."
Joey smirks. "You doubt me, Thomas." I hope it works...yes, it will. Keep believing, Joey, and everything will come together.
The construction worker huffs and swings back to the hallway.
Lastly, Terrence arrives in with an inkwell. "I hope this may suit your needs, Mister Drew." Whatever they are, shimmers through his mind; he isn't one to question, though. It's none of my business...just do your work, Terrence. Just do your work.
"Thank you, Terrence." Joey grins, packaging as many of the objects into his arms as possible--he has to leave the inkwell, the record, and his own item for the Writing Department behind.
Thomas is waiting for him in the podium room; Joey positions his articles on three of six daises, and heads off to retrieve the last three.
The inkwell and record are rapidly placed upon their corresponding stands, but Joey halts for a moment to gaze lovingly at the book he chose for the Writing Department--his own personal narrative and animation guide, The Illusion of Living.
The owner and author reminiscences to a time when he and Henry had been working as interns for a small animation studio; this is where he had first found the idea for the autobiography. The boss of that particular studio had spent three years writing his own book, and Joey had 'rearranged' quite a few passages from that one to use in his own.
It wasn't plagiarism--he will never admit that. He had merely 'tweaked' the book a bit...made it a bit more Joey Drew.
He hadn't originally told his business partner about his project, and definitely not where he had received his 'inspiration' for it--he had already imagined Henry's response. Henry would say in a calm, but not necessarily accusing voice, "Isn't that a bit insensitive, Joey?"
Just like he did when, back in college, Joey had 'adjusted' someone else's artwork to use as his own.
And he had asked it the time Joey had suggested copying a plot line from a different studio's cartoon.
Insensitive...
That isn't fair; he is NOT insensitive. He just takes other people's ideas and makes them better...a win-win situation for all parties involved. There is no insensitivity to it.
Yet another reason I'm glad he's gone, Joey ponders vengefully, carefully laying the book, with its black cover and fancy silver script, on the stand. No one to tell me that what I do is wrong.
A pause, and a glance at his primary construction worker. Well, except for you, Thomas. But you'll see soon enough...Joey Drew is rarely wrong. "All right, Thomas. Switch it on!"
The GENT employee sighs aggressively, but lowers the lever with a *chuck*.
A minute passes, and nothing happens. Thomas smiles as Joey's confident grin begins to slide. Schadenfreude.
"You see, Mister Drew? It didn't work. Now--"
"Shush," Joey silences him with a gesture. "I might be on to something here..."
Thomas has a great urge to scream angrily. Why can't he see that HE IS WRONG?!
To the confusion of Thomas, Joey rushes over to the GENT room; he arrives back with a plug wire, which he attaches to one of the podiums.
"NONONONONONO!" Thomas yells hurriedly, running to stop him--but it's too late: the plug is inserted with a *cht*.
The lights of the studio flicker off, drenching the workshop in darkness...then, after about three seconds, they turn on again. A thumping noise emerges from the machine room, and Joey makes a loud noise of happiness.
The two of them travel to the machine, Joey in a spurt and Thomas at a doubtful trudge. Indeed, the contraption is up and running.
Joey turns on his heel to Thomas. "Ha! Look who was right!" He dances around a bit and sings while pointing at the construction worker, "I just haaarvested aaaambition! And yoooou said it couldn't be doooone! IIII was right and yooooou were wrong!" I AM A GENIUS! Take that, Henry!
Way to be a braggart, Thomas considers bitterly.
The owner gives a hearty laugh before stopping to catch his breath. "I-I did it, Thomas. I created the energy of ambition."
"We...not you..." Thomas corrects under his breath.
Joey slaps Thomas's back. "Yes, sir, just leave it to Mister Joey Drew! Now, let's get this baby working!"
"We can't, remember? No ink," Thomas growls.
"Oh...yeah." Damn. "Well, the minute we get that ink, Thomas..." Joey pauses. "We're gonna make dreams come to life!"
§
Sammy swaggers out of his office and almost smacks into his favorite worker, who had just exited from the recording room.
Susie giggles, twirling a piece of her hair. "Hello, handsome."
"Hello, angel," Sammy replies smoothly. "Whatcha doing?"
"I just finished recording for the next cartoon," the voice actress answers. "Now I'm going out for a smoke. Wanna come with?"
Sammy nods and follows the female out the studio doors.
The rain from before has stopped, leaving the air smelling musty and the grass dewy.
Susie reveals a pack of cigarettes and hands Sammy one; she then grabs one for herself and a lighter. The composer leans down so she can light him.
After a draw, Susie asks Sammy, "So, what do you think Joey has planned with that stuff you had to bring with him?"
The music man shrugs moodily, wafting his cigarette around. "I don't know...and I don't care. I'm so sick of his bullshit at this point." He clearly doesn't know what he's doing.
Susie's hazel eyes turn on him. "What if it's a good thing, though? Maybe whatever it is will be beneficial for the studio." Ooo, I wonder what it could be!
Sammy draws meditatively. "I doubt it; Joey wouldn't know beneficial if it bit him in the nose."
"Sammy..." Susie begins. "Can I suggest something?"
The composer's light-green eyes meet hers. "Yes...of course..." I'll listen to whatever you say, my angel.
She hesitates for a moment. "Maaaybe...you could try to put some faith in people?" I want them to see the Sammy I see.
His response is a sad smile. "Susie...not everyone is as heavenly as you are; there are a lot of jerks out there who will use any means necessary to achieve their ends, even if it means hurting others. You can't trust everyone." He takes a puff. "It's a cruel, cruel world."
Susie frowns. But surely not everyone in the world is like that...I mean, aren't most people decent? However, she decides to change the subject. "Sammy...is it normal to be afraid of rejection? I mean, I feel like if I do something too wrong...I don't know...Joey will kick me out."
Her conversational partner chuckles a bit. "No, I don't think he'll go to that extent; yes, he's a bit impatient, but I don't think he'll let you go that easily." And if he does...I'll have some words with him. "You're stuck with us." He nudges her playfully.
Greatly comforted, Susie brings up another question for the composer. "You are honestly so confident...it's radiant. How do you do it?"
He shrugs. "Well, I'm human just like everyone else; I just don't let my fears get in the way of my life, I guess." It comes naturally, his mind jokes.
"Fears, huh? The great Samuel Lawrence has fears?" she coos.
He nods, but there's something hesitant about the action. "Uh, yeah. You know, just the normal things...failure, tight spaces..." Ah, I suppose I can tell her. "Okay, so maybe not all normal ones; promise me you won't laugh at this one."
"I promise," she vows, wondering what it could possibly be.
"Okay...um...well, I really, really, really hate lizards. They're creepy."
Susie attempts and fails to obscure a giggle.
Sammy looks hurt. "You said you wouldn't laugh!"
"Okay, okay, I'm sorry," she asserts, letting out her final snicker. "But why are you afraid of lizards? They're harmless!" Her mind grants her an image of Sammy shrieking on top of his desk at a tiny reptile.
"If you really must know," he wavers, "when I was five--I don't know how--a lizard snuck into my house and crawled in my bed. So I go to bed that night, and I feel something slimy squirming on my chest, so I open my eyes...and there is this giant lizard ON MY FACE, STARING ME RIGHT IN THE EYE. Needless to say, I was scarred for life. I won't even get close to lizards now...they'll probably bite my fingers off, or something." Nasty, awful, gross buggers...
Susie smirks. "I'm pretty sure lizards don't eat humans."
"I'm pretty sure they do!" Sammy retorts. "They're so disgusting with their little sticky feet and weird little tongues...ugh." He shudders and turns to her. "But please don't tell anyone--it'll ruin my reputation as Sammy the fearless composer."
She giggles again as she smashes her cigarette in the ashtray. "I promise, and I mean it this time."
"Thank you." He follows suit to her action, and the two head back into the studio.
From the projector booth, Norman observes the duo as they stride in, laughing and flirting. They get along so well. He himself is waiting for Jack to emerge from his office and run off to wherever he goes, but it hasn't happened yet. I think he knows that I want to know...
After Sammy and Susie say their parting words and the actress slips away, the projectionist speaks up. "You should ask her out."
The composer turns to him. "Huh? What are you doing here?"
"Uh, doing my job," he responds semi-amusingly, gesturing to his camera. He's caught up in his Susie la-la land. "I work here, too, you know."
"Right...yeah..." the music man responds vaguely. "You said something about me asking Susie out?"
"Yeah. You two obviously are meant for each other; I can tell that you're just dying to date her. So ask her."
"Huh..." Sammy contemplates; he smiles at a mental image of Susie and him enjoying themselves at a restaurant. "Maybe I will."
Norman nods, then asks, "Have you seen Jack?"
The query snaps Sammy from his daydream back to reality. "He's in his office, I think. Why?"
"No reason."
"Mm..." the musician muses. There's definitely a reason. "Well, have a good day, Norman."
This phrase is a bit unexpected coming from the usually griping composer. I could get used to this in-love Sammy; he's nice. "You, too."
The projectionist watches Sammy march away, then continues on his attempt to mentally coax the lyricist from his office.
Come on, Jack...don't let me down.
§
The workday is drawing to a close, and Wally and Shawn are making their cleaning rounds; despite the former's constant assurances that he really doesn't have to help, the latter insists.
Tonight, though, both are drowsy and lethargic--however, Shawn still wants some answers as to Joey's odd behavior; he figures that it has something to do with the machine Wally had told them they were constructing.
"So what was the whole episode this morning for? With the items and all?" he asks, rubbing at a gray spot on a window with a cloth.
"Well, Joey had this idea to start the machine with those things--he's calling them the "Products of Ambition" now--and I guess it all worked, though I don't have the foggiest idea as to how," Wally replies, yawning a bit. "Now he's practically exploding with the urge to use the thing...which means I'll have to be in there with it after hours, too." His voice takes a cranky turn. "I don't know how the hell he expects me to get all my jobs done!" Wally, do this! Wally, do that! Wally, mentally and physically exhaust yourself so I can get what I want!
Shawn glances at the janitor in pity. "You poor thing...he's working you to death." He scoots a chair over to him. "Here, sit down...I'll rub your back and try to loosen your muscles a bit." I know what it's like to work in that kind of pain.
"You really don't have to do that..." Wally answers, but nevertheless sits on the chair. Shawn's hands against his back send delightful shivers up his spine. "Thank you..." I love you, Shawn.
"Of course." The toy maker smiles at him.
"I-I'll rub your back, too; I know that you go through these kind of aches everyday." He tilts himself forward a bit so Shawn can reach his shoulders. "But yeah, as I was sayin', Joey's pretty pumped to use the machine. I still don't know what it's supposed to do, though...and Thomas sure as hell ain't gonna tell me."
"I want to have some words with this Thomas guy," Shawn dictates. "He obviously can't see how wonderful you are." He doesn't know what he's missing.
Wally is happy that he's facing away from the toy maker, as his face goes bright red. "Heh, I'm afraid to say he probably won't listen to you, either. He's grouchy." Honestly, who can blame him? He works with Joey all day. "I'll do your back now."
The two switch places, and Shawn feels great relief during the massage. "Last n-night was rough...I woke up in the middle of it with paralysis." Sleep paralysis was another side-effect of his narcolepsy; basically, his muscles all tightened up, and he couldn't move, but he was still awake. It always went away after a while, but the whole ordeal was nonetheless frightening.
"I'm so sorry..." his friend replies, running his fingers through Shawn's red hair a bit in an effort to comfort him. "I really wish I could say that I know what it's like, but..."
"But you don't, and that's okay," Shawn finishes for him kindly. "I would never wish it on you, or anyone--it's nice to have support through it, though." He hesitates, then lays his head on Wally's shoulder.
The janitor blushes profusely.
"Ah, sorry, was that too weird?" the toy maker apologizes, lifting his head.
"No no no no," Wally assures him, flustered. It was the opposite of weird; please keep doing it. "I like it--I mean, you can do that. It's fine."
Ah, shit, I made him uncomfortable. Way to go, Shawn, the craftsman berates himself. "I'm sorry...I'll just stop...sorry about that."
"No, I--uh..."
There's an awkward pause.
"Um...maybe we should get back to work," Shawn finally says, dying to fracture the tension.
Wally agrees, and the two begin cleaning again.
The sun slowly sets, giving the studio an ominous atmosphere. After organizing the final room, the duo arrive at the double door entrance.
"Um, thanks for everything. Really, " Shawn tells his friend.
"It's my pleasure," Wally replies.
There's another silence, then Shawn hugs Wally--an extremely welcome gesture. They stand like that for a moment before the toy maker lets go (No, please don't do that..., Wally wants to say) and heads out.
"Goodbye," the craftsman remarks sadly.
"Goodbye..." the other responds; it's coherent to both parties that neither wants to depart.
As he observes Shawn's steps, Wally moons, Don't leave me, my love...
Chapter 10: Chapter Eight - The Ink Machine
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As Thomas had expected, Joey endured much difficulty over staying patient through the next three days; however, the holy Friday ultimately arrives, and the truck of ink parks outside. The studio owner and the GENT worker stroll out to collect their crates.
"You know, Thomas," Joey begins as he grasps a box, "I didn't think of it before, but it's a bit ironic that an animation studio didn't have enough ink--I mean, it's the primary component to drawing! Bit silly that we didn't have it before, huh?"
The construction worker's response is a noncommittal grunt. Maybe if I don't say anything, he'll shut up. Thomas has also had to endure pain throughout the last week, mainly in the form of Joey's constant nagging and questioning.
However, Joey has a special talent of holding a conversation with himself. "But it's all here now! And we can finally use that wonderful machine of mine!"
Thomas drops his taciturn demeanor. "It's not yours, it's mine; I'm the one who planned it and built it." The crate of ink in his hands lands on the ground with a *thunk!*. "You're just the consumer."
"I don't appreciate you disrespecting me," the businessman retorts, releasing his own crate just as violently. "As long as you're under my roof, I'm your boss...not your 'consumer'." The two had been rubbing elbows since day one, and Joey was sick of it. He'll learn to honor me if I have to reprimand him every two seconds. He has absolutely no right to treat me the way he does. I'm the leader. Joey casts aside these vengeful thoughts for a moment and pushes to crack a smile. "And your boss is telling you that we are going to use that machine this morning."
No...not yet... Thomas firmly instills. "No, we wait until after hours to use it. It's too..." He searches for the correct term. Dangerous? Unpredictable? Too much like you? "We don't know exactly if it will work, and that might put your other workers in peril. After hours. Take it or leave it."
Disagreement shimmers through Joey's mind, but he reciprocates, "Fine. But no changing plans on me...I want this done tonight. Our dreams get further and further from our grasp the longer we wait."
Will he stop with the whole 'dreams' thing?! Thomas's brain objects.
It's not OUR dream! It's only his!
The GENT worker takes a couple deep breaths (in...out...in...out) to calm himself down. "Let's just get this truck empty; we'll talk about the rest tonight."
Oh, we'll do more than talk, Thomas. Just you wait and see. Joey smirks at the worker's retreating back.
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Much to Norman's dismay, Jack had not emerged from his office on Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday; this added to the projectionist's suspicion that the lyricist is purposely evading him. But he isn't about to give up yet. I'll figure you out one day, Jack.
Today, Jack is currently being crushed under a mound of writer's block. He stares in anguish at the blank paper in front of him--it seems to be mocking him. Maybe if I can just get some peace and quiet, I could work, his mind commences as he revolves his head toward the ever-noisy music department. But that's hard to come by here.
He has the idea of sneaking off to his hidey hole when he remembers Norman. Maybe at this point...he's forgotten about me? Jack tries to convince himself, but knows better than that; he rises from his desk and grabs his sheet. Eh...whatever. He'll find out eventually; he's probably just dying to stalk me.
Nevertheless, Jack attempts to be as clandestine as possible while he slithers along the corridors; up in his booth, Norman spots the lyricist against the wall out of the corner of his eye. Ah, Jack! My refuge! he mentally praises him melodramatically as he skulks close behind.
The poet's eyes scan for any sign of the projectionist; not seeing any sign of him, he continues on until he reaches the end of the hallway. A flight of shallow stairs awaits him.
Norman tiptoes behind Jack--every once in a while, he heads down a different section of the hallway as to not arouse any skepticism from the passersby, eventually ending up in the shadows about three feet from the stairs.
The steps *creak* as Jack hurriedly descends them; after a pause, Norman too travels down them.
The projectionist pivots at the corner of this unfamiliar territory and takes it all in. Firstly, there is an foul stench that he cannot place about the area; additionally, a river of grotesques colors floods down the center chamber of the room. The area itself has a tall ceiling supported by colossal pillars.
Sewers...these are the sewers, Norman pieces together. Why in the world would Jack want to be down here? The projectionist glances straight across from him: over the gross estuary--Norman shudders as he thinks of what is in it--there are two solid wooden beams, leading to the passageway on the other side. In a hollow place in that side's wall is a desk...and Jack.
Jack expresses a tiny grin as he notices Norman peering at him from the shadows on the opposite side of the river, then frowns. Oh God, he probably thinks I'm disgusting now. But...I guess there's nothing I can do about that at this point. He pivots in his chair to face the projectionist; it registers with the latter that he has been spotted, and he is quick to round the corner again.
"N-no...don't go..." Jack calls to him. "I can e-explain, I p-promise."
Norman lurks outward. "I'm not judging you, if that was what you were thinking; my ego's just a bit bruised from being caught." His eyes follow the boards as his mind produces a terrible image of them breaking.
"Oh...okay...thank you." Jack sighs. "Um, you can g-go across those...t-they're a l-lot sturdier than they seem." His stalker hesitates, then carefully steps on the end of the board; indeed, it holds up. Norman makes quick work of scurrying over to the other side.
The two pairs of eyes meet in silence.
"Um...so, uh, I-I figured you would follow me d-down here," Jack discloses. "I mean, um...okay, uh, the reason I come here is because I like the quiet, a-and since no one really ever wants to, um, stick around here...yeah..." Ugh, that sounded stupid!
Norman nods and surfaces a warm smile to help calm Jack. "That makes sense."
The lyricist shuffles nervously, then asks in almost a whisper, "You don't think I'm weird for this, do you?" His heartbeat quickens as his mind declares, Yes, yes he does.
"What? No, of course not," Norman replies. "It's just your little quiet spot. Like...a sanctuary, kind of. There's nothing weird about it." It's actually a really smart idea.
"T-thanks..." the poet responds, relieved. "B-but please don't tell anyone...please?" His mind flurries with images of what Sammy or Joey would say and do if they found out.
"I won't. I promise."
Norman's reward for this vow is a shy smile from Jack. Okay, I didn't notice this before, but he is really adorable, the projectionist realizes. Like, I honestly want to hug him right now.
Jack turns away in bashfulness, and Norman recognizes this as a signal that the lyricist doesn't want to be looked at--he glimpses at his desk instead. On it is the paper Jack had been concentrating on before, as well as a stack of music sheets; Norman also observes many chocolate bar wrappers strewn across the workspace. Chocolate and Jack go well together, I think--they're both sweet.
"Jack?" he asks suddenly.
"Y-yeah?"
"Uh, weird and somewhat spontaneous question...can you sing? Like, you don't have to do a whole song or anything, but like a verse or two? Unless you're not comfortable with that--if that's the case, it's totally fine. You don't have to." Bleh, I sound like I can't decide what I mean.
Jack is silent for a moment before answering, "I-if I could s-sing, it would be okay in front of you...'c-cause I trust you and like you. But...I can't sing, because of m-my stutter."
Wait, he has that all the time? Not just when he's nervous? Norman wonders. I mean, it doesn't matter either way...it's just interesting. "Oh, okay."
As if he read the projectionist's mind, Jack adds, "I have i-it all the time, but it gets worse w-when I'm nervous, and I would definitely get r-really nervous if I h-h-had to perform in front of people." I sound like a broken record. "So I just stick t-to the writing p-portion. I-I know how ironic that is." A lyricist that can't sing...I really am a pathetic disappointment.
The poet recalls a time he had heard Sammy sing in the recording room; Jack had thought and still thinks the composer has a beautiful voice. That's something I'll never have, he envies. Why do you always have to be so perfect, Sammy? He instantly regrets the thought--it isn't Sammy's fault that he knows how to do everything right. But I'll never be like him...
The projectionist snaps him back to reality. "So, uh...thanks for expecting me, I guess." Am I really that predictable?
"Y-y-y-yeah...um...thanks for keeping m-my secrets a-and everyt-thing."
Norman creeps back over the boards--more confidently this time--then shifts back to examine the lyricist. "Wait, one more question."
Jack lifts his head.
"How do you take your coffee?"
Huh? "Um...with lots of sugar. Why?"
Norman yields an unfathomable grin. "No reason. Have a great day, Jack."
"You too..." He slouches in his chair. Even after that conversation...he's still mysterious.
I wonder what he thinks of me.
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After another stressful workday of rushing to new deadlines, the employees of Joey Drew Studios are more than happy to go home at the end of the day.
Wish I knew what that was like, Wally pines as he watches Sammy depart out of the double doors. They complain about their nine-to-five shifts, but at least it always ends at five for them! No Joey screwin' up their schedules, sayin', "Hey, I've changed my mind, you have to stay after hours tonight so I can fiddle with this machine thing without getting in trouble." I should be with Shawn right now! I swear, if Joey keeps this up, I'm outta here!
He heads over to the machine room, where Joey and Thomas are already in full discussion as to how the machine works and how they will be using it.
"Basically," Thomas explains, gesturing with to the contraption with an inkwell in hand, "we use this normal ink--we'll call it 'static ink'--and put it into the machine. In theory, it may bring cartoon lifelike qualities, since cartoons are drawn with it. Essentially, living ink." He strolls over to a skinny slot on the side of the machine. "This here is where I will input a picture of the cartoon we intend to 'bring to life,' so that the machine knows what to create." Thomas stalks over to Joey and glares at him, pointing a finger into his chest. "Under no circumstances are you to use this without my permission and supervision. I don't care if you're the boss; this is MY machine, and you will adhere to MY rules." Whether you like it or not, his mind adds.
A thousand complaints bounce around Joey's brain at this direction, but he fizzles them out. "Fiiiiiine." I can do what I want--I'm the captain of this ship. Not you.
The janitor has both doubts and fear toward the idea of bringing cartoons to life with this contraption. How is that even possible? And why do we need living cartoons, anyway? Isn't animation enough? His eyes scan the machine; it almost seems to him that it is warning him, "Beware...stay away...I'm hazardous..."
Joey harshly pushes Thomas away, preparing his happy-go-lucky voice. "Well, what are we waiting for? Let's get her running!"
Thomas and Wally share worried looks, and for the first time both make an agreeable connection. This guy is crazy. However, Joey IS the boss; Thomas forcibly grabs Wally's arm and leads him to an odd apparatus in the corner of the room.
"Your job is to keep an eye on this gauge," the GENT worker directs, poking the glass protector of a dial on the appliance. "It references the ink pressure. If it goes over 45, you unhook this safety switch over here." He gestures to said switch. "If it is getting low--like at 15 or something--you tighten the bolt over on this side. 20 to 40 is the happy medium. Understand?"
Sorry, what? "Umm...if the pressure goes over 45, I tighten the bolt?" Wally guesses. You explained it too fast.
Thomas scowls. "NO. Are you even listening? If you do that, you'll burst every pipe in this damn place! You unhook the switch if it goes over 45!" Stupid janitor...honestly, I've met dogs smarter than he is.
"Right, okay," Wally agrees, trying to loosen the situation's agitation. "Over 45, unhook the switch. Less than 20, tighten the bolt. Now can you please release my arm?" You have an iron grip.
The construction worker thrusts him away, muttering about the lack of common sense in the world.
Joey is hopping slightly in anticipation, not even acknowledging the feud between his workers. Oh, this is so exciting! Just think...I'm about to have a real, live Bendy!
"I have a question for you," Thomas speaks up. "Just where exactly do you plan to keep these cartoons at if they indeed do live?"
"Ah, I'm glad you asked!" Joey bounds out of the room for about five minutes, and returns dragging a tall, black, metal cage that *screeeeee*s against the wooden floor.
A pause ensues as his workers observe the cage.
"You plan to keep them in that?" Thomas finally asks incredulously. That's a bit inhumane.
"Well, not all of them in one cage. Duh," Joey sasses. "I have more."
You're missing the point here, Thomas mentally contends.
I'm confused...where did he buy that at? What kind of store sells those kinds of cages? emits from Wally mind.
"Ugggghhhh, enough standing around and staring!" Joey whines. "Hurry up!" This time, there's a steely edge to his voice. You people are SO SLOW.
Thomas rounds the machine one more time to ensure that all preparations are in order. "All right...let's get this going," he eventually sighs. I have a terrible feeling about this.
He slips a picture of Bendy into the slot and signals to Wally to flip the lever.
"Eeeeeep!" Joey skips in celebration around the room, sounding like a little girl.
"Will you shut up?" Thomas grumbles under his breath. The Ink Machine emits a sound similar to a groan of despair, and ink begins to flood out of the spout.
All eyes land on this flow--Thomas and Wally's anxious and foreboding, and Joey's bright and excited.
Out of the puddle on the ground emerges something shaped a bit like Bendy...but it isn't truly him. His eyes are covered by dripping ink, as is the rest of his tall, skinny body. One of his hands is the traditional glove, while the other is composed of sharp, black claws; a bowtie hangs askew on the creature's chest. His smile, instead of warm and cheesy, is pointy and frightening.
"Bendy" stares at the humans gazing in awe at him, and shakes the loose ink off of himself. Two minutes into the world, and all he knows is the agony and pain that creeps within his veins and his existence.
"Gah--," Joey begins painstakingly. "Why--? He...?" This isn't my Bendy! "What did you do to him?! Why is he so..." He rapidly searches for the right word. Ugly? Scary? Inky? "...drowned?"
"Hell if I know!" Thomas replies bitterly. "I told you this wouldn't work!" But nooooo, Joey Drew knows ALL THE ANSWERS.
"No, you said you made living ink, and that it would bring cartoons to life!" Joey snaps back. "Perhaps you forgot to mention that it would do THIS to them?" He frantically waves at "Bendy."
"I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WOULD!" the worker roars. "YOU'RE THE ONE WHO CAME UP WITH THIS SHITTY IDEA ANYWAY!"
Joey lunges toward him. "OH, YOU WANT TO BLAME IT ON ME NOW, HUH? DIDN'T I HEAR YOU MENTION THAT IT'S YOUR MACHINE?" He pokes Thomas in the chest like the latter had done to him before, mocking him. "YoU'Ll hAvE tO fOlloW mY rUles, 'cAuSe I'm tHe OnE wHo cReaTed thIs FuCkiNg tHinG! BuT if sOmeThiNg gOes wRonG, yoU'rE the oNe liAblE, JoEy!"
Wally backs up from the clash nervously. "Uh...guys?"
Both eyes shoot sparks at him, simultaneously answering, "WHAT?"
"Um...what exactly are we suppose to do with him now? Bendy, I mean." I don't like the way he's glaring at me. Indeed, the creature's head pivots and follows the janitor's movements.
"Oh, I don't know, maybe you should ask Thomas!" Joey snarls. "After all, it's his machine!" I'll put that ugly inky thing in his office! We'll see how he likes that!
"It's your cartoon!" the construction worker retorts. You've only mentioned that twenty-thousand times!
"Both of you, knock it off!" Wally commands. "We aren't going to figure out a solution if you two keep bickering!" PLEASE STOP GLARING AT ME, BENDY! I'm not the bad guy here! he mentally directs to the drowned demon, who is creeping closer to him by the second.
"I'll take care of this," Joey huffs, opening his cage and switching his tone to a voice that one might use if they were addressing a baby or a puppy. "Here, Bendy! Come on, little demon! Get in the cage!"
The demon stares blankly at him.
"Come on, do it for me!" the owner urges; Thomas sighs furiously.
"Move it." The GENT worker shoves Joey out of his way and takes hold of Bendy's horns--the demon screams/gurgles in animosity and panic. "GGGGRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"
"Don't treat him like that!" the creator objects.
"Oh, you're one to talk," the other barks. "You're the one who suggested putting him in a jail cell!" Why did I even agree to work for you?!
It's clear to Wally that he needs to step in again. "Maybe if we place some ink in the cage, he'll be attracted to it and follow the trail," he ponders out loud. It's worth a shot. The janitor scans the room for an inkwell, and it doesn't take him long to find one--he slides over to the desired object and picks it up.
Thomas and Joey pause their quarrel to scrutinize the ink as it hits the floor with a *bloop!*--Wally pours it past them and positions the inkwell into the cage.
"Bendy" contemplates for a moment, then stands up with some difficulty and trudges along the ink path; the humans hold their breaths.
Eventually, the demon stands straight above the inkwell--Joey takes this opportunity to slam the pen's door with a *cht!*.
Wow...that worked? Wally relishes.
Huh...guess Wally does have some brains after all, Thomas admits mentally. Mayyyybe I was too quick to judge...
"Great job, Wally!" Joey congratulates. "Clearly, you're much more useful to this whole scenario than SOME person is."
"I don't appreciate your digs at me, Mister Drew," Thomas grumbles, then lowers his voice and turns to the other. "You did good, Franks."
The janitor swells with pride. Finally...approval!
"Well, that's a wrap for tod--," Joey begins.
"Wait, are we just going to keep him here?" Thomas interrupts.
His response is an vile leer from his boss. "Oh, Thomas...he'll be placed in your office. After all, he came from your machine."
Thomas draws himself up...then exhales. He's not getting into another argument with this arrogant man. I'll never win. "Fine. I'll keep an eye on him." More than you could ever do.
Joey frowns a bit at not provoking a better response from the construction worker, but carries on. "All right, then. We'll test him later and see why exactly he ended up...like this." He seizes two bars of the cage and lugs it along, carefully monitored by Wally and Thomas.
After Bendy's cell is solidly floored, Joey dismisses Thomas and Wally--both are glad to finally leave.
The boss's eyes fixate on the odd, nightmarish cartoon in front of him. "Well, Bendy, I guess it's just you and me. Don't worry, we'll find out why you're drowned. You know, I'm gonna call you the Ink Demon...it suits you."
The Ink Demon just stares at him.
This is a one-sided conversation...obviously he can't think, Joey realizes, then turns away with one final glance at his creation.
As the office doors costively shut for the last time this night, the demon is gradually drowned in darkness.
Chapter 11: Chapter Nine - Coffee and Quiet
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Joey informed Wally and Thomas that they would be "testing" the Ink Demon after hours on Monday--he figures that this might bring forth some possible explanations as to why Bendy is...drowned. Both workers have their doubts on the whole situation, but as Joey had questioned them, what else are they supposed to do with him?
Everyone else, however, is blissfully unaware of the inky creature lurking in Thomas's office. On the bright and sunny Monday, Susie waltzes into the music department with a pep in her step.
"Someone is happy today," Sammy calls out to her.
"Something great happened on Saturday!" she replies excitedly. "But I don't want to spoil the surprise...what time is it?"
Surprise? Sammy checks his watch. "8:56."
Susie claps a bit. "Good, good, good!" She practically twirls over to a small radio and picks it up, setting it gracefully in front of the composer. "It should be airing soon!" With a *click*, the radio switches on. Oh, I hope he thinks I did it well!
Wow...did she get an interview or something? Sammy ponders, smiling proudly. She deserves it.
"Good morning everyone!" booms a male genial-sounding voice over the radio. " I hope you're having a wonderful Monday! Welcome back to Loud and Lucky Larry Live! Now, folks, on Saturday, I had the pleasure of meeting and interviewing one of the best upcoming voice actresses." Susie squeals a bit.
"You may have heard of her...she's become quite popular among the children. In fact, one might even call her angelic..." Loud and Lucky Larry pauses dramatically. "It was one and only Susan Campbell! And yours truly got to talk with her about life and times at Joey Drew Studios!"
"Wow, that's gre--!" Sammy starts before Susie hushes him with a flap of her hand; her sparkly red fingernails create a blur in the air.
"So today, folks, I'll be playing the recording from Saturday!" A *click* is heard. "All right! Here we go, ladies and gentlemen!"
A pause, and then a scratchy-voiced version of Larry says, "Hello, Miss Campbell! How are you this fine morning?"
"Great!" Susie's voice replies out of the speaker. "How are you today, sir?"
"Wonderful, wonderful!" Larry cheerfully responds. "Now, let's cut to the chase. How do you enjoy working at Joey Drew Studios? It must be quite interesting."
"Oh, it is indeed!" she confirms. "So many colorful personalities! Especially the music composer, Sammy Lawrence!"
Susie flushes a bit as she peers at Sammy, anticipating his reaction--she's relieved to see that it's a smile.
"I really do love Alice's character," recorded-Susie continues. "I think this is the first cartoon I've voiced that I feel a true connection to."
"All the better for you to become her!" the host comments. "If you want to play the character, you must be the character!"
"Very true, Larry," the voice actress replies.
"Beautiful, beautiful," the other continues--Susie had noticed that he had a habit of repeating words for emphasis. "I must say, Miss Campbell, it's quite clear that you have talent! Especially for a relatively new voice actress! And you are perfect for the role...absolutely perfect."
"Aw, you're making me blush," Susie giggles. "Really, you should be thanking Mister Drew--he's the one who suggested me to be Alice's voice in the first place."
"Ah-ha! That leads us into our next question!" Larry announces. "You have, of course, met the acclaimed Joey Drew...now, tell your fans...what is he like?"
There is a significant pause--Susie had hesitated, debating what exactly to input. "Well, uh, he is quite the man...he keeps us all on our toes, you know? Very ambitious and inspirational and intelligent, too. He always has a surprise for us."
"Would you say that you like him?" the host presses.
"Hmm...yes, I would say that I do," Susie had responded, trying to ignore the memory of him on her first day. "He's a bright man that I look up to." It was the fear of what Joey might say to her that provoked her to add that last comment--she definitely did not want to talk trash about her boss.
"Interesting..." Larry muses. "Do you have any advice for any children who may be listening, Miss Campbell? Maybe a few girls out there who aspire to be like you?"
Susie knew what she was supposed to say. "Dreams come true. Don't ever give up." Although those were the words she knew Joey would want to hear, she couldn't help feeling like a fake. Like a clone of something he wants me to be.
Larry claps his hands. "Yes, yes, you heard it here, folks! Dreams come true! Indeed, indeed. Now, Miss Campbell, I'm sorry to say that is all the time we have, but prepare to listen to yourself on Monday!"
"Thank you for having me," the voice actress replies.
"Thank you for coming," Loud and Lucky Larry had declared, and another *click* is audible--it's back to live recording. "Ah, what a woman," Larry asserts, much less staticky this time. "Interviewing an angel! That's a once in a lifetime opportunity! Now, onto Chad with the weather."
As a mumbling Chad delivers today's forecast (sunny with a 10% chance of rain in the evening), Sammy speaks up. "That was great! Congratulations!"
"Thank you!" I'm so glad that he liked it! It's almost as if his opinion is worth more than anyone else's. Susie swoops the composer into a hug; he's a bit taken aback at first, but wraps his arms around her once he realizes what she's doing.
"You know, I really liked the part where you mentioned the dashing Sammy Lawrence," he teases as she releases him; her response is a red blush. Something else lingers in the music man's mind that tells him she wasn't entirely honest about Joey, but he pushes that out.
Now's the time to ask.
He shifts a bit in his seat. "Um, Susie?"
Her hazel hues shine luminously upon him. "Yes?"
She is so beautiful... "Okay, um...I just want to ask you...would you like to--?"
"Susie!" Joey's enthusiastic voice interrupts, causing Sammy to jump--he hadn't observed the boss slink into the music department. "Can I steal you for a moment?"
She pivots to face him. "Oh, uh...sure." It's okay, Susie, you're not in trouble, she reassures herself. I mean, he doesn't seem mad... "Sorry," she quickly adds to Sammy. "I'll see you around."
"Yes...of course..." the composer replies, glowering at Joey. He has to ruin EVERYTHING. Sammy sighs at their retreating backs.
As Susie accompanies him down the hall, Joey begins, "Amazing interview, Susan! Perfect! You know, that Loud and Larry guy is big in the radio biz! And you caught his attention with your stellar performance!" He smirks. "And great job putting in a good word for me." Lord knows I need it, his mind continues. I hope Thomas heard the part about me being extremely intelligent and ambitious and not grumpy like he is.
"O-of course," she answers vaguely, slightly flustered. Oh, good, he's satisfied.
"I loved the bit on "Dreams Come True," too; after all, it is our motto!" the owner blabs on. "Say, Susan...why don't I reward you for this? Would you like me to buy you dinner tomorrow?"
The voice actress feels her face heat up again. Dinner with the Joey Drew? It's...a miracle. "Ah, you don't have to do that..."
"But I insist. My treat, Miss Campbell."
Susie is positively spinning from all this flattery. "Oh...well, then, yes!" Wow! I guess dreams do come true! Suddenly, she feels a bit guilty for thinking that she was just another clone of Joey's logic. Maybe it really is as simple as he says...
The other nods and claps once--Susie is reminded of Larry. "Great! Then it's set! Tomorrow at Joe's Fine Dining at 7:00...Alice!"
There's a pause as Susie continues to glance at him wondrously. "Oh, you're dismissed."
The voice actress starts back to the music department and meets Sammy again.
"So what did he have to say?" the latter questions. If it was anything bad... He chooses not to finish the thought.
"He said I did absolutely splendid in my interview!" Susie enunciates. "And he invited me to dinner tomorrow." She takes a moment to catch her breath. "H-he even called me Alice."
"Oh..." is all Sammy says in reply. That's not fair! He rapidly strives to regain his demeanor. "Well, congratulations!"
"Thank you!" She hugs him again, but this time it's shorter--her mind is brimming with ideas of what she should wear at her and Joey's meeting. "Okay, so what did you want to ask me?"
"Uh..." Sammy hesitates--a rare occurrence for him. "Never mind...it wasn't really that important." Joey...stole Susie...why? Why is he like this? he thinks, filled with jealousy--yet he tries his best to be as visually unemotional about it as possible.
"Oh...well, then, see you later." The voice actress gracefully exits.
And once again, my angel flies away, Sammy languishes, getting back to his work again.
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Wally intends to inform Shawn that he will once again not be able to meet him after hours--he's even donning his Shawn-made sweater for the occasion; after another close escape from the GENT workers, he steps into the rickety elevator.
Joey is ruining my love life.
When the lift signals to him to get off with a *sqeeeeaaalll*, the janitor follows its order; he glances over the toy department to find Shawn asleep at his desk.
The worker smiles lightly as he approaches the toymaker, and strokes Shawn's hair. He's so cute when he's sleeping. But...I need to tell him, and I don't want to wake him up.
An idea forms in his head. Wally promptly seizes some paper from nearby (It's everywhere in this place! Honestly, if that Ink Machine ran on paper, it would be pumpin' twenty-four-seven!), a pen, and a few plushies--he scribbles a note on the paper and arranges Boris, Alice, and Bendy plushie into a scene with it. Pride at his creation emits from him as he sneaks back to the elevator.
About twenty minutes later, Shawn awakens to Plush Bendy staring at him. Oh...hi there, I guess. He lifts his head with pain and observes the other two sitting on either side of the stuffed demon--he perceives that Bendy is holding a note in his tiny plush arms. The craftsman squints to read it.
Hi Shawn!
I hope you enjoyed your nap; I didn't want to wake you up. I just need to let you know that I can't clean with you tonight again--Joey's got something planned with the Ink Machine and Bendy. I'm really sorry.
I'll try to talk to him tonight and see if I can take the night off or something, I promise.
That's all. Have a great day! I'm outta here!
- Wally ❤
Shawn blushes upon seeing the heart, and takes a moment to witness the scene Wally had created for him. Aw, he did this all for me? His heart beats amorously. I should probably reply...
Shawn doesn't have to search too far before he locates a pen. Huh? This isn't mine...where did it come from? He answers his own question: Wally.
The page is flipped with a *wooshk*--the toy maker writes on the back of it, and grabs a piece of tape (which he does have on hand). He sleepily plods across the toy department to the elevator, and hits the floor-level button--it depresses with a *cht*.
In the middle of the journey, the elevator groans--*hhhhnnnnnnnn*--and abruptly halts, much to Shawn's confusion; he kicks the side wall of it, and it starts up again. Eventually, the toy maker arrives at his desired floor.
He slinks out of the lift toward Wally's closet and tapes the note on the door, giggling like a little girl. He's going to love this. The craftsman slithers back into the lift and heads back to work.
An hour passes before Wally visits his closet again, and is pleasantly surprised to find the note on his door.
Hi Wally!
You have permission to wake me up if you want to talk to me; I'd much rather chat with you, no matter how tired I am.
It's okay if you can't convince Joey to change your schedule. I can call you when you get home.
You have a great day, too!
- Shawn ❤ ❤
I love that man so much, Wally pines, hugging the note against his chest; he perceives Thomas's footsteps in the ambience.
"Franks? What are you doing?" the latter asks, leaning against the wall. "You're supposed to be regulating the pressure." Quit this nonsense of running off when you're supposed to be working.
"Yeah, yeah, I'll be over there in a minute," Wally replies, folding up the letter and placing it in his pocket--Thomas notices his voice has changed to that dreamy tone again.
Why does he do that? he wonders.
The janitor bounds over to the construction worker. Soon as we finish this stupid science project, I'm outta here!
§
Jack is minding his own business as usual at his desk in the sewers when he spots a certain someone prowling in the shadows towards him.
Norman. It's both a hope and a fact.
The projectionist, carrying two cups (one in each hand), smiles as he steps upon the boards. "I hope I'm not intruding on you or anything; I just brought you some coffee. With plenty of sugar."
Jack fails to suppress his own grin and blushes a bit. "N-no, it's fine. Y-you can come v-visit me when y-you like; I-I trust you."
I'm glad that he likes me, both parties think simultaneously as Norman sets the coffees on the desk.
They sit in silence for a moment, savoring their beverages.
Norman is studying Jack without realizing it. He is just so cute...how come I didn't notice it before? He tints pink at the thoughts, then goes on to count the freckles on the lyricist's face. One, two, three, four, five...
Jack doesn't turn away as he normally would. For some reason...I like when he stares at me. It's...reassuring, kind of? I mean, it's not the creepy or angry or pitiful kind of look. He lifts his head to observe Norman's warm brown eyes. I feel...safe.
...nineteen, twenty, twenty-one, twenty-two... "You have exactly twenty-three freckles, Jack." The projectionist pauses. "Okay, that was a bit random and weird. Sorry 'bout that."
Jack giggles (Even his laugh is adorable! Norman reflects). "I-it's okay."
"Hey, wanna know something interesting?"
"Hm?" Jack sips his coffee.
Norman's eyes gleam mischievously--the same way they had when the projectionist had convinced the poet to help him spy on the GENT workers--and he clasps his hands. "Okay, so you probably know that Sammy and Susie are mad about each other."
The other nods, wondering where this is going. Are they officially dating now? Leave it to Sammy to be the first one to gain a sweetheart; Jack had been sure that Shawn and Wally would be the studio's first couple--it is common knowledge among the workers (apart from the GENT employees and the two involved, of course) that the janitor and the toymaker like each other.
"All right," Norman continues, "So I'm up in my projector booth, and Sammy is just about to ask Susie out, when suddenly Joey comes in and beckons for her. She comes back after a bit and tells Sammy that Joey invited her to dinner. Can you believe it? You should've seen the look on his face--he was just writhing in jealousy."
I can believe it. Jack would have probably cried had it happened to him. "M-Mister Confident isn't so c-c-confident a-anymore, is h-he?" He slaps his hand over his mouth.
Norman raises his eyebrows--that is an unusual statement coming from kind Jack.
"I-I-I-I didn't m-m-mean th-that!" the lyricist sputters in embarrassment. "I-I mean...um..." His face goes bright red. "I...uhhhh..." Ahhh! Now he thinks I'm a jerk! Stupid, stupid, stupid me!
The projectionist wants to tell the poet, It's okay, Jack...it's okay, but is silent so the latter can collect his thoughts.
"Um, w-what I mean is..." Jack sighs. "I-I-I envy S-Sammy. A lot." The floodgates of his mind open as he rambles on, "H-h-he is just s-so confident a-and really self-assured a-and e-e-everyone l-likes him a-and I-I know I-I'm being a b-baby a-about it b-b-but I-I will n-never b-be like t-that!" He's on the verge of crying, but he doesn't want to furtherly embarrass himself. Nononono, don't start tearing up, Norman is watching, nononono!
"Jack." Norman lays a hand on the lyricist's shoulder. "You don't have to worry. Sammy has flaws, too." He gives Jack that cordial smile. "You want to know what I think?"
The poet looks up at him. "T-That I'm p-pathetic? J-just admit it." I'm a terrible, awful, stupid failure.
"No," his friend asserts firmly. "You are anything but pathetic. I think you're better than Sammy will ever be--he doesn't know what it's like to be humble, and all he ever does is complain. But you, Jack, are one of the best people I know. You don't need to have the spotlight on you, and you're extremely wary of others' feelings." He places his hand on Jack's. "Don't ever think you aren't enough...you're perfect just the way you are." It hurts me to see you put yourself down like that...
Jack sniffs a bit--he had let the waterworks loose during Norman's speech. "T-thank y-you..." I wish I could believe you... "T-thank you for e-everything...f-for the c-coffee a-and listening to m-my rant a-and...a-all of t-that..."
"It's my pleasure, it really is," Norman assures him, then realizes he still has his hand on Jack's--his cheeks turn rosy as he lifts it off. "Sorry." He didn't pull away when I did that...did he like it? No, Norman, that's not the point. "Are you okay?"
"Y-Y-Yes..." the lyricist stutters--he watches the doubt swirl in his companion's eyes. "I-I'm okay...I-I just needed t-to get that o-out there." He acknowledges Norman's blush, causing himself to redden--Jack attempts to hide his crimson cheeks by lifting his cup to his mouth again.
There's more silent tranquility before the projectionist speaks up, "You know, I really like this...it's like a break from the world. Honestly, you had a great idea, coming here--can we...um...do this regularly? This little coffee and quiet thing? Or am I getting in the way?" I hope I'm not being too invasive...
To his relief, Jack nods. "Y-yeah...we can." Our little dates...I mean, not that! They aren't dates! They're just...private rendezvous. His stomach suddenly feels fluttery. "Coffee and quiet...t-that would make a g-good title for a-a s-song." He reaches over and grabs a piece of paper, then fervently scribbles down the idea.
Should I leave? Norman wonders. "Um, I'll just leave you to work then...I feel like I've overstayed my welcome."
"You haven't," Jack whispers--a part of him wants...no, needs the projectionist to stay. Please...stay here and be my friend. He sighs again. I'm overthinking all of this...
He just doesn't want to hurt my feelings, Norman decides. "No, it's okay--I have to get back to work anyway." He pauses. "Same time tomorrow?" Pleeeease say yes!
"Yes." Jack hits Norman with that sweet smile--it drives the latter wild.
He's sooooo precious...I might have a heart attack or something at this rate! The projectionist can't help but beam back, with a smile he kept only for a few people. "Well, I'll see you then." He wavers across the wooden makeshift bridge and glimpses once again at Jack, feeling awkward but jubilant at the same time. "Bye."
His friend waves, but Norman lingers beside the stairs--he almost doesn't want to leave. No, Norman, go do your work. He'll be fine...you're being clingy. He ascends the steps and tries to think about something, anything else.
Nevertheless, his brain is still swimming with Jack, Jack, Jack when he reaches his projector. I'm obsessing over him; I need a distraction. The projectionist scans the music department--Sammy is still composing his music, albeit rather forlornly; he lifts his head at the entrance of Norman.
"What are you looking at?" the composer snaps--it's coherent that he is still upset about Joey and Susie. It's not fair! I finally get the chance to ask her, and Joey Drew has to swoop in and do it first!
But those thoughts suddenly stop: jealousy turns into slight worry. What if she falls for him? What will I do?
He attempts to remain as cool about it as possible.
"Don't you have something else to be doing?"
Norman backs up. "Um...yeah...I'm just..." He fails to produce an excuse. "Sammy, are you okay?"
"What do you think?"
The projectionist doesn't reply. Maybe I should just leave him be... He already wishes he was back with Jack.
He's so interesting...I'd rather watch him all day than work. Even if I do get paid for the second one! He giggles to himself softly, then becomes aware of the piercing glare Sammy is yielding upon him. "...Sorry."
The music man snorts and turns back to his instruments.
Come back, in-love Sammy, Norman mentally begs. You weren't nearly as moody. Despite his efforts, his thoughts revert back to Jack.
He's like a song stuck in my head.
§
The end of the day is fast approaching--Joey, Thomas, and Wally meet up in the median's office to discuss what to do with the inky...abomination they had created.
Joey had thought in advance to bring an inkwell, which he is currently gesturing with as he talks to the Ink Demon. "Hi, Bendy! Today, we're going to find out just why you are like this...and hopefully fix you!"
Ink Bendy gurgles as he gropes for the inkwell with his gloved hand.
"No, you can't have this yet," the owner declares. It's a surprise tool that will help us later!
Thomas speaks up. "No promises on fixing him--you need to find out the problem before you try to implant a solution." He is still fuming from Friday, but is keeping his anger under wraps--he longs for his wife, Allison. I wish she was here...she would know what to do. With both the monster and the inky thing.
Wally isn't exactly leaping for joy at this whole episode, either. Please just let this be resolved quickly...I don't know how much of Joey and Thomas jumping down each other's throats I can stand.
The GENT worker shoves Joey out of the way. "Let me handle this." I know what I'm doing.
"Why should I? You're the whole reason he's like this in the first place!" the other retorts. "I'm this close"--he separates his finger and thumb about a centimeter--"to firing you, so I suggest you don't provoke me any further." And I will fire you. Don't think that I can't do all of this by myself. It's my machine.
Thomas scowls, the anger bubbling inside of him--but he stops himself before he overreacts. "Fine." Ruin it, Joey. Actually, no--that's impossible. You've fucked up the plan so much that there probably isn't much more you could do.
Joey smirks. I'm finally getting through to him! "Good." The cage door is swung open with a *schreeeech*--its captor stumbles out, immediately heading towards the inkwell. Joey places the object on Thomas's desk, and the Ink Demon follows it. "That'll serve as a distraction while we do whatever we're doing."
Or we could have just left him in the cage, Wally has on the tip of his tongue.
Thomas forces himself not to think anything.
"Now then," Joey continues while pacing to the creature, "We'll just do this..." He just barely touches Bendy's head.
The Ink Demon screeches and pivots violently. "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" The hand with the claws swipes across Joey's face.
"AHHHHHHHH I-IT BUUUUUUUURNS!" the owner cries--indeed, the living ink feels like fire on his face. "OWWWWWW! WHYWHYWHYWHY?" He covers his face.
"I don't think he likes being touched," Thomas reveals to no one's benefit--his voice is calm with a touch of spite. He had it coming to him.
"THOMAS! WALLY! I'M DYING HERE!" Joey yells in excruciating pain. "DO SOMETHING!" WHAT IS IN THIS STUFF?!
"Oh, you're fine," Thomas sneers, but Wally races to his boss and pulls him back from Bendy.
"Are you--?" The janitor halts mid-sentence once Joey removes his hands from his face. Holy shit. "--o-okay?" His voice has become shaky.
The businessman takes a moment to catch his breath--the burning has started to subside. "Y-yeah...I think so." He runs his fingers against his face. "Is it...bad?"
"Uhhhhh..." Wally hesitates. "Maybe?" Yes. It's bad.
Joey senses the dishonesty in his voice. "Let me see." He trots to the doorknob--shiny enough to reflect him--and uses it as a mirror. His jaw drops.
Across his face are three black scars dug from Bendy's claws, running downhill from the left side of his physiognomy to the corner of his chin; Joey isn't even sure what to think.
He pivots darkly to Thomas. "You...this is all your fault!" What have you done to me?! The anger builds up, which raises Joey's pitch higher. "YOUR MACHINE MADE HIM DO THIS-" --he points to his face-- "-TO ME! HIS CREATOR!"
The net holding back all the animosity in Thomas snaps. So that's the way he wants to play? "I'M NOT THE ONE AT FAULT HERE! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO TOUCHED HIM--AND NOW THIS MACHINE BECAME MINE ALL OF A SUDDEN?!"
Meanwhile, Bendy is calmly caressing the inkwell, not paying the least bit of attention to the feuding workers.
It was only a matter of time, Wally comprehends. They always end up arguing. "Both of you, stop! We aren't going to find out why he's like this if you two KEEP SCREAMING!"
The two pairs of eyes--one blue, one brownish-green--meet his.
"He's right," Thomas gruffly admits to Joey; the latter huffs. "Hey, I mean it--no more fighting...for both of us."
Why should I listen to you? Joey's brain objects, but he bites his tongue. "All right, then. Why is he so inky, since you know all the answers?"
"I have a theory," Thomas replies coldly. "All living things need to have one thing: a soul." He sighs. I don't want to give that man any ideas, but... "I believe that since Bendy didn't have a makeshift soul or something similar...his formation didn't go right. And that is why he is like...this." He limply gestures to the creature. I never thought I would ever doubt what I was saying, but here I am.
Wally and Joey digest this.
"So all we need to do is put a soul in him," Joey conveys. "And then he'll be okay." Huh...I expected a more complicated explanation. "Easy enough, then--I have plenty of souls here!"
"What? No!" Thomas protests. "You can't use your workers' souls! That's crossing the line!" He's insane...
"What else would I use?" Joey deadpans. "What do you suggest?"
There is no reply.
The owner leers. "That's what I thought."
"Okay, question," Wally speaks up. "If we convince someone to...let us use their soul for Bendy..." His stomach turns at the thought. It's not gonna be me...or Shawn. I'll make sure of that. "...then how exactly are we going to put it in Bendy?"
I say scrap the whole damn idea, Thomas asserts--but he knows he'll never convince Joey to do that.
A rare moment of hesitation slides over Joey. "Umm...we'll figure that out later." It will all become clear. I know it will.
He can't keep stalling like that, the GENT worker wants to say.
But how will we figure it out? The janitor is still puzzled.
"Don't worry about it...I'll take care of it. We'll be done for today," Joey replies. All this information is too much to grasp for all three. "Wally, you can leave--Thomas, I have one more question for you."
As the maintenance worker slips out of the office, Joey approaches the grouchy construction employee. "How come, when you touched Bendy's horns, the ink didn't do THIS to you?"
Thomas smirks. "Simple." He lifts a hand. "I had gloves on. Safety first, Mister Drew." It serves you right.
The owner's eyes narrow as he frowns. Smug bastard. "Get out of my sight."
Thomas stomps out. I don't trust him...he's too...volatile.
Once again, it's Joey and Bendy; the latter is still nuzzling against the inkwell.
"Well, Bendy, I guess that's it. I know you didn't mean to hurt me...you couldn't help it. But don't fret--I'll get you a soul!" Even if it takes a few sacrifices.
He picks up the inkwell and tosses it into the cage--the Ink Demon chases after it, and Joey shuts the door behind him.
"Goodbye, Ink Demon." The room door *click*s, and Bendy is once more blanketed in darkness.
He tilts his head against the cell's entryway--it *creeeeeak*s open.
Joey had forgotten to lock it.
The Ink Demon crawls out into the office, leaving his inkstand behind; there's so much to explore out here. The black liquid oozes from his head as he slams it against the office door...and after about five minutes or so, the exit latch breaks.
Bendy is free.
Chapter 12: Chapter Ten - Thinking of You
Chapter Text
The markings left from Bendy's claws on Joey's face bring about a brand-new problem--one that needs to be solved before his meeting with Susie. On Tuesday, the owner approaches Wally and Thomas at the studio entrance and questions them on ideas for an answer.
"Concealer," the janitor immediately suggests. "To cover the scars, I mean."
"I don't have any concealer," Joey counters.
Just let them show, Thomas thinks callously, crossing his arms. Admit that you did something stupid and now you're stuck like that forever, all because you wouldn't listen to anyone else.
Wally hesitates before answering, "Um...give me two minutes." He dashes off down a corridor.
Joey raises his eyebrows at Thomas, who is deliberately avoiding his gaze.
"Hey. Look at me," the former demands. "Look at all the damage you caused." I should just fire you now. But he can't...he still needs Thomas to find out how to place a soul in the Ink Demon. But as soon as we figure that out, I'm taking over this whole operation.
Thomas's swamp-colored eyes blaze over Joey. "I believe you mean, look at all the damage you caused. I'm not the problem here."
Before Joey has time to snap back, the maintenance worker's steps echo back to the duo; he is carrying a tube of peach-colored liquid, which he hands to Joey. "Here." Please don't ask any questions...
The businessman scans the label of the bottle: Clara Bow's Liquid Concealer. "Where did you find this at? Did you just happen to have it on hand?"
Wally doesn't answer, but instead tugs at his collar and blushes at the ground.
He wears makeup, Thomas realizes--he peeks at the janitor, suddenly noticing the cosmetic details. He's got guts.
Joey frankly doesn't care: he's merely glad to have something to hide the scars. He squeezes the tube, and the concealer squirts into his open palm--he vigorously rubs it on the injured areas. "Did it work?"
There are still faint black lines along his profile, but they are not nearly as palpable or unsightly as before.
"Yeah, I think it hides them well enough," Wally confirms. Hopefully Susie doesn't look too closely.
Thomas gives a noncommittal grunt. You can't hide your scars all the time, Joey...they'll show up when you least expect it. "If we're done here, I'm going to go check on...Bendy." He stalks down the aisle.
There's a pause before Wally changes the subject. "Uh...so...Mister Drew?" He wrings his hands. "Would it be possible to maybe edit my schedule? Like...can I have my after hours shift back?" Can I have my Shawn back?
"I'm afraid not," Joey replies almost immediately. "We need to dedicate that time to Bendy and the Ink Machine." Huh, that would make a good title for this whole adventure.
Oh, so Bendy's more important than me now? Wally envisages, then sighs. Obviously, in Joey's mind, he is. It was worth a shot, though. "I understand..."
The brooding GENT worker abruptly reappears, panicked. "Mister Drew...we have a problem." A big one, too.
"Spit it out," the owner snarls. A pipe burst or something?
Thomas glowers at him. This is all due to your incompetence.
"Bendy has escaped."
§
Sammy is staying locked up in his office this morning, brooding over yesterday's events.
Susie can't possibly like him...I know she said that in the interview, but that was a lie. Right? I mean, I'm so much better than him in infinite ways! Maybe I need to be more direct with my feelings, so she sees that I'm after her? Or is she just playing hard-to-get? I wouldn't even have to worry about this if it hadn't been for him! He exhales all this confusion and misery out. Just focus, Sammy.
However, this proves to be difficult, as he is finding it quite a feat to even play his compositions without forming a new worry.
While he strums the banjo, he frets, Would she notice if I changed my style? She likes fashion, so perhaps if I wore something different, she would realize that I'm perfect for her. But what if she is too busy staring at Joey to even give it a thought?
As he fiddles with the fiddle, the acrimony and dread consume him further. Joey doesn't deserve Susie; she's too good for him. She's too trusting...and he's too untrustworthy. Maybe I can sabotage something that would make them cancel their date? But what would I damage? The composer considers this entire plan for a moment as the instrument screams in A minor. No...that's too petty. Besides, if she ever found out that I was the cause of...whatever I did, she'd be extremely disappointed in me. And I'd rather not have that. He doesn't even consider what Joey would do if he found out. But then what should I do?
During his flute solo, the music man comes to a conclusion. I guess I can't really do anything but hope she doesn't like him like that. Perhaps I'm overthinking all of this, and she still is dedicated to me despite him. I hope that's true. He recalls what Susie had suggested over their smoke.
"Maybe...you could try to put some faith in people?"
Sammy ponders this point. Perhaps she's right. Maybe I need to put some faith in her.
She won't let me down.
Out of nowhere, the pipe in the office gurgles.
Sammy's green eyes shoot daggers at it. "You shouldn't have anything to say about this."
The conduit communicates its disagreement with an exhaustive *rrrrrrrrggghhhh*.
"Shut up," the composer dictates. What the hell? I'm talking to a pipe...I really am losing it.
On cue, someone knocks on the composer's office door--*thunk thunk thunk*.
"Come in," Sammy beckons.
The voice actress pokes her head through the door. "Hi! I was wondering where you went!" I didn't see your handsome face greeting me... "Who were you talking to?"
"Just hiding in here." He attempts to smile, but Susie can sense that there is something wrong. "I was talking to...that thing." The songsmith jerks his head to indicate the pipe. "All it does is *clank* and *srrrr* and *grrrrriiiisssipppllll* once a day, every day, all day long."
She giggles at his demonstrations of the noises. "Ah, but why are you in here? Having trouble focusing?" The voice actress gracefully ambles over to the composer.
He is silent, which bewilders her. There's definitely something off here.
"You could say that," Sammy eventually responds. The only thing I can focus on is you. However, he doesn't want to place any more attention on this. I don't want her to worry. "Are you prepared for your and Joey's...date?"
He fails to obscure the slight covetousness in his voice when he states the last word; she acknowledges this, and the reason for his superficial standoffishness becomes coherent.
He's jealous, Susie realizes.
And he's trying to hide it. That's adorable! She flushes magenta and grins. He likes me!
"Hello?" Sammy waves his hand in front of her face. Damn, am I really that boring? I bet she thinks Joey is so much more interesting. He forces himself to go back to believing her fidelity. No, Sammy--stop thinking like that. Have faith in her.
The starlet is snapped back to reality. "Oh, sorry about that--I zoned out. Yes, I'm ready for our meeting," she replies, placing special emphasis on the final word. "It's not a date."
Sammy is quiet once more, drilling a hole with his eyes into the gray carpet.
She lays her hand on his. "I don't like Joey like that...and I'm pretty sure he isn't interested in me, either. He's just happy that I advocated for him during the interview." She pauses to watch his reaction, but he continues to stare at the floor.
I guess I'll have to play my trump card.
Susie's hand lingers up Sammy's arm. "Besides...I'm into someone else. A musical someone else." She bats her eyelashes at him in a hint.
His heart pounds in his chest. Oh, thank God...she likes me. All that worrying for nothing. The composer strikes a casual-cool pose by leaning back on his desk. "Oh, really? The angel has a crush on a musician?" he teases. "Is it a celebrity crush? Jimmie Rodgers? Louis Armstrong? George Gershwin?"
That's the Sammy I know, Susie muses, tittering and playing with a strand of her hair. "No...he's much more acquainted with me than those guys are. I would say I actually have a chance with him."
The music man smiles. "I think you would have a chance with any man." For a moment, he pivots on asking her out right this minute...but decides not to do it just yet. I mean...she already has the thing with Joey tonight, so it's hardly appropriate to set up a date now. Maybe I should wait until next week, just to be safe.
The duo continue to chat for about a half-hour before the voice actress remembers that she has a recording to get to.
"I'll see you later, handsome," Susie says as she departs, fluttering her fingers.
"Bye, angel." Sammy waves. We are so cheesy.
He stalks over to his piano--their session has awoken the inspirational fire within him. As his fingers drum upon the white and black keys, the musician has one phrase in mind.
"Thinking of You."
§
Up in his projector booth, Norman is fixated upon the clock. One twenty-six. It's almost our time...
Normally, he would be focused on the drama among the members of the music department...but someone else is stuck in his mind.
I'm thinking about him way too much...it's like an infatuation. I need to stop; I don't know him well enough to develop a crush.
Meanwhile, a certain flustered lyricist is racing to the projectionist, a cup of coffee in each hand; he arrives at his destination out of breath.
Norman perceives Jack at the other side of the stairs of his booth. "Oh, uh, hi." Did I somehow summon him? his brain jokes before he notices his friend's huffing. "Are you okay?"
"Y-y-y-yeah...I came on a run. And I-I guess I-I'm not really s-sure why." Jack hands the projectionist one of the coffees. I'm always in a rush...both mentally and physically. "Sorry..."
"Ah, don't be sorry. If anything, I should have been the one in a hustle...apparently my clock is off by a few minutes." He glances at the time-keeping object. You have failed me, he mentally jokes at it. How could you? I trusted you... "How late was I?"
"Nononono," the poet hurriedly clarifies. "Y-you weren't late or a-anything...I-I j-just thought that...um, since you a-always come t-to visit m-me...t-that maybe I should t-travel t-to you i-instead. L-Like a c-change of s-scenery." You do so much for me...now I should return the favor.
"That's extremely sweet of you," Norman remarks. He's always putting others before himself...what an amazing guy. He grins as he observes the blush sprawl on Jack's cheeks. And so humble...
The lyricist is a bit uncomfortable in the spotlight; he sits on a nearby barstool and changes the subject. "Um...okay, so w-what's n-new with you?" Why do I always have to sound like an idiot in front of people?
The projectionist shrugs. Hmm...let's see here...I've been obsessing over you for the last five-ish hours. "Not much...just the same-old, same-old. I'm not super interesting like you are."
Jack goes bright red. "I-I-I'm not in-t-teresting..." He rubs his sweaty palms on his pant legs. It's boiling in here. "I-I'm a-actually really, really b-boring. I-I just w-write a l-lot." Duh, Jack. Say something worth saying.
He just doesn't understand how awesome he is, Norman comprehends. "Well, I think you're immensely intriguing."
The lyricist displays the ghost of a smile, which he expeditiously covers with his cup--he is in the process of taking in the music department when something odd catches his eye.
The something is black and slimy-looking, slithering along the wall; it cocks its head toward the poet and flashes its sharp, ostentatious teeth at him.
Jack releases a noise somewhere between a squeak and a shriek as he jumps from his seat.
"What is it?" Norman questions him. You look like you just saw a ghost.
The lyricist points at the strange organism--Norman pivots to glance at it...and goes silent.
What...is that thing?
The black viscous thing skirts against the wall as it moves left with its skinny legs.
Norman has to get a closer look; he turns back to his friend. "We should follow it."Why is that...abomination lurking around the studio?
Jack is torn between two choices: agree with the projectionist, or escape as fast as his legs will carry him. It looks dangerous...and he'll pursue it no matter what the stakes are. But I can't let him get hurt! Do I dare put myself in harm's way and go with him?
He already knows the answer.
Yes. Because I'll be safe if and when I'm with him.
"O-okay...we can d-do that. B-but...p-please stay n-near m-m-m-me." He definitely does not want to face the monstrosity on his own. We need to protect each other.
"Of course," Norman replies casually, grabbing Jack's hand. "I would never leave you."
Is he brave...or just cool under stress? Jack wonders. Probably both.
The lyricist lets the projectionist guide him surreptitiously through the corridors--as they approach closer and closer to the creeping horror, the former's hands quake in fear.
Norman clenches tighter. Don't fear, my little songbird. A mental pause. Wow, that sounds romantic. No, Norman, stop thinking like that!
The Ink Demon skulks about the corridors, leaving inky trails behind him, until he reaches a certain door--the art closet. He slathers himself against it with a *blop* and grazes along the hinges.
"What is it doing?" Norman wonders out loud--he and the lyricist have their backs to the wall and are snooping around the corner.
"I-I-I...think i-its trying t-to get i-inside of i-it," Jack answers; as he scrutinizes the misshapen cartoon, it comes to light for him that the creature is made of ink.
More sounds bounce in the ambience--this time they are footsteps.
"There he is!" Thomas's gruff voice rings out; Norman peers around the edge and observes that the GENT worker, Wally, and Joey are heading towards the detestation, each with an inkwell in hand.
Thank God we finally found him, Thomas's mind continues as he waves the inkwell at the Ink Demon, not noticing the duo against the wall. "Hey! Come here, Bendy!"
The businessman rudely shoves the construction worker out of the way. "Yes, my little devil darling! Come to Joey!" He'll probably listen to me, since I'm in charge. I'm like his father!
Tired of all this nonsense, Wally merely wants the Ink Demon to listen to one of the two and follow them--he doesn't even bother beckoning for the frightening creature. Are they actually vying for attention from him?
Of course, Bendy trails after the human that isn't yelling at him; he stumbles over to the janitor and hangs over him lankily, wordlessly asking for the inkwell.
"Wow, I guess he likes me," Wally states to Joey's and Thomas's disgruntled faces. Not that I really want that.
"Now that we got him, lead him back to the office," the owner directs. "Your dream came true, Wally: you can have your after-hours shift tonight--you'll need it to clean up all this inky mess. And besides, I have a meeting to get to, so we won't be doing anything with him today."
Excuses, excuses, Thomas thinks bitterly, clutching his own inkwell in aggravation. I can't stand this man.
The maintenance worker, however, is the happiest he has been in quite a long time. I get to see Shawn! He fights back the urge to break into a dance--but nevertheless, he hops out of there, hoping to see Shawn again.
As the trio exits with the monstrosity in tow, Norman finally speaks up.
"What do you think that was all about?" Definitely something fishy going on here. He recollects on the phrase Joey had mentioned earlier: "ink machine". Did they create that...thing they're calling Bendy with an 'ink machine'?
Jack shrugs; he doesn't want to think about all of this. Why can't we all just work in a secure, safe environment, without all the scary inky things?
The answer is simple: Because Joey.
"Maybe we should leave in case one of them returns and figures out that we know about that thing," the projectionist suggests--he has a nasty suspicion that the organism they had named 'Bendy' was supposed to be kept under wraps.
The lyricist nods, but the duo barely step forward before they are greeted by another soul: Susie.
"Oh, hi, Norman and Jack," she begins, skipping toward them. "What are you two doing wandering around he—?"
She recognizes that they are holding hands and gasps in wonder. Aww!
"Are you two a couple?" That is so cute! Were they having a little romantic meeting here?
Both parties flush red as they rapidly unlink themselves--Norman cogitates quickly to come up with an explanation.
"Nonono, we actually don't know each other that well...we were just...um..." Spying? Eavesdropping? Pretending? No reasonable excuse formulates. "Um..."
Jack, too, is in doubt as to what to input. Comeoncomeoncomeon...think of something! Why won't the words come?!
Oooh, it's a secret relationship! Susie gathers from the lack of an answer. "It's okay, I won't tell anyone." Maybe I should set them up on an official date to make them more comfortable. Alice will play Cupid for the projectionist and the poet! She giggles and waltzes away.
Dumbstruck, the other two stand in confused and awkward silence for a moment.
"What just happened?" Norman asks.
"I-I don't know..."
Another embarrassing pause.
"Our coffee is getting cold," the cameraman remembers out of nowhere.
Jack almost laughs at this sudden comment. "Y-y-yeah...you're right. We s-should head b-b-back." Let's pretend that whole episode didn't take place.
They meander back to the projection booth, both of them endeavoring to ignore the new thoughts bombarding them.
I've never thought of Norman like...that, Jack muses, but I suppose it makes sense. Maybe that's why I feel so...okay around him. Like nothing can hurt me. But he did mention that we don't really know each other that well...is it too soon to see? Can people just skip past the 'friends' part and dive straight into the 'dating' phase? It's times like this he wishes that he was more social--perhaps he would know the answers to these burning questions if he had that trait.
Meanwhile, the projectionist contemplates, Now Susie thinks we're an item. I mean...that would be great, but it's not true.
I wish it was like that. Yes, I don't really know about his past...but that can be solved. I'll ask him. I'll find out. A spark of hope ignites within him. Maybe we could actually be a couple someday.
No, I have to stop thinking like this...he probably isn't even remotely attracted to me like that. Like I said, I'm not interesting. And besides, I might be taking this crush-- or infatuation-- or whatever-- too far.
I need to wait until he's ready. Keep myself open-minded to the idea that he might not be comfortable dating me...that we might just have to stay friends.
Back in the music department, the pair finishes up their beverages with little conversation: they are too immersed in their own minds, and realize that the other also is.
When their "Coffee and Quiet" time has ended, Jack gets back on his feet and scans Norman with his dark-green irises.
"T-thank you for t-this. H-hopefully that...thing we saw i-isn't g-g-going to be a p-problem..."
"Hopefully. Thank you for taking time out of your day to come here," the cameraman replies. I highly appreciate your visits.
Jack beams shyly at the ground before scurrying away to the sewers to work again.
His latest task is to compose lyrics for a song for Alice to sing in the newest cartoon. Focusing on his writing is a struggle, though, as his brain keeps wandering to the calm, understanding projectionist.
I'm just a lonely poet without him...sitting here at my desk.
I'll never give up hoping that he'll still come along...
Out of the blue, there's inspiration! He reaches over his desk to grab his pen and scribbles a single phrase onto his paper.
"I'll Be Your Angel."
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The rest of the workday went well for Wally due to his optimism granted from finally being able to see Shawn--the clock hands finally *tick* to the five o'clock position.
The toymaker and the janitor practically run to each other, meeting in the middle of their paths at the music department.
Subtle hinting forgotten, Wally sweeps Shawn into his arms. I've waited so long for this moment of bliss. "I missed you."
Shawn, at first taken aback at the hug, discerns the gesture--wrapping his arms around the maintenance worker, he responds, "I missed you, too." It's been a quiet Heavenly Toys without you.
They release each other, but Wally's hands travel down his crush's arms and meet his fingertips.
The toymaster blushes a bit, clasping Wally's hands.
They stand like that for an enchanted instant before the janitor remembers what they're supposed to be doing.
"Right, um, we have a lot to do," he begins--his mouth can't seem to form the words correctly. "There's a lot of ink from when Bendy escaped...and we have to clean it and stuff. Bleh, you know the drill." Caught up in the toymaker's aquamarine irises, he mediates, He has such beautiful eyes...I won't be able to focus at all today, I just know it. With eyes like those, anyone could get distracted.
"Yeah..." Shawn replies vaguely. Actually, can we just stay like this the entire time? It's nice...
However, they gather the essential cleaning supplies and get to work; at one point, Shawn struggles with a rather irritating ink spot--no matter how much he rubs it, it doesn't wash off.
"You need help?" Wally asks, and receives a nod; he heads over with his mop and attacks the said ink spot, but the stubborn stain absolutely refuses to leave. In fact, it decides to crawl up on the wall to avoid the cleaning instrument.
Huh? How did it do that? the craftsman questions, giving a confused look to the janitor, who shrugs.
Readying his mop, Wally prepares to strike the splatter again--but just before he does, it moves farther up on the surface.
So that's the way you wanna play, eh? the janitor challenges it. Well, two can dance to that jig. He slips out of the room, arriving back with one of the chairs from the music department, which he places under the spot.
"Be careful..." Shawn warns, situating himself behind the chair and helping Wally climb on it.
"Don't worry, I got this." The custodian unsteadily clambers onto the seat of the piece of furniture.
Holding his mop like a spear, Wally points it sharply at the blot--he gets in a couple of hits before the ink once again slinks upward.
Damn. He isn't about to give up yet, though; he positions his foot against the wall in order to reach the spot.
Noticing how unstable his friend is, Shawn motions kindly but firmly for him to return to the floor. "Just forget about it--I don't want you to fall."
"No, I allllmost have it," Wally replies confidently, finally stretching far enough to pounce his mop head on the spot. "Ha! Gotcha!" He vigorously abrades the ink stain, and it subsequently disappears. I should win the Best Janitor Ever award for this move! "I got it, Shawn!" he calls...then stumbles as he removes his foot from the wall.
"Shit!" He frantically waves his arms in an attempt to balance himself, but to no avail; he dips downward and shuts his eyes to brace for the impact.
But the impact never happens, as he lands in Shawn's outstretched arms--the toymaster holds him up and helps him to his feet.
"Oh, thanks," Wally expresses as he opens his eyes. My hero!
"Of course," Shawn responds. "Did ya really think I was just gonna let ya fall?"
"Nah, you are so much better than that. I think my life flashed before my eyes during that--like a near-death experience," the other jokes. "I'm gonna sue Joey for creating the Ink Machine, and say that I had a 'near-death experience' cleaning up from it. The lawyers won't be able to deny it!" Maybe I should actually do that...
The craftsman laughs. "Well, I'm glad you're okay."
"Only due to you. I probably woulda broken my neck or something if you hadn't caught me." For the second time this day, he hugs the toymaker.
"You're quite affectionate today," Shawn acknowledges. "I mean, not that you aren't usually, but today you're really..." 'Lovey-dovey' is the first word that comes to mind...but that's not what I mean. Right? "...mushy?" He phrases it like a question. "Is that the word I'm thinking of?"
Wally takes it that he is being too clingy--he lets go of the craftsman. "Sorry..."
"No, no, you're fine. It's a good thing!" Honestly, I need your hugs to get me through this life.
The janitor blushes pink. He's just saying that...I keep finding excuses to touch him, and it's making him uneasy. "Yeah...right. Um, let's get back to work."
Luckily, the duo manage to tidy up the studio without running into another conundrum...and the time to leave arrives all too soon.
They approach the entrance doors, and Wally has a moment of déjà vu.
Here's the point where we leave each other rather reluctantly.
"I'm glad we could do this again," the toymaker begins. "It feels like forever since we've seen each other." And it probably will be an even longer wait before we can meet again, his mind reminds him.
"Yeah...maybe Bendy will run off again, and we can spend after-hours sprucing up again," the custodian replies. Am I wishing that he will? I mean...yes, it was a mess trying to find him, but in the end, I got to see Shawn!
There's a tranquil pause before the two bid each other adieu.
Shawn walks over to his car at a relatively slow pace--it seems as if his legs don't want to go that way...as if they are saying, "Hey, go back to Wally, and stay there forever." In fact, a phrase from a popular play that fits the scene quite well comes to the toymaster's mind.
'Parting is such sweet sorrow.'
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The work routine has at last finished, so Joey and Susie arrive at their official meeting spot: a fancy restaurant named Joe's Fine Dining.
The eatery is relatively miniature in size, with a royal blue color scheme about it; the majority of the dining area is composed of booth tables, and three gold-tone chandeliers hang from the dark-oak ceiling. In entirety, the atmosphere emanates an aura of exquisiteness and sophistication.
The businessman holds one of French doors open for the voice actress; he has changed into a money-green suit provided to him by Buddy's mother.
Susie is donning a silver-sequined peplum dress, complemented with dangling chandelier earrings and brown-tone eyeshadow.
As they slide into one of the vinyl-coated cerulean seats, the former starts, "Wonderful that you could make it, Alice!"
What would have happened if I couldn't have made it? Susie wonders, then notices, He's still calling me Alice.
I like it!
Additionally, she perceives three very slight, but nevertheless still apparent black marks on his face. What are those? However, she isn't about to ask him that.
"Of course!" Susie replies instead. "Thank you for inviting me!"
"You deserve it," he answers. "Such a spectacular interview!" Joey Drew Studios is going to prosper greatly from it!
A tired-looking waitress arrives at the table. "May I take your order?"
After placing their food orders (Joey, filet mignon with peppered asparagus, and Susie, a green salad topped with lobster pieces coated in vinaigrette), the entrepreneur continues, "Not only are you setting yourself up for fame, you bring the crowds to us! The studio's angel has fans!"
A spark of an idea ignites in his head.
Susie is Alice...Alice is Susie...
He pushes the thoughts aside for the time being as he goes on, "Think of the thousands of little girls out there, Alice, that you are inspiring! Future voice actresses in the making! You" --he points at her-- "are making dreams come true." As I would expect from all my employees, but apparently they don't understand that. Do they ever wonder why I plaster Bendy all over the walls, on every poster, every board? Because he's our logo, our mascot! And they need to follow his philosophy!
The waiter returns back with their orders as Susie responds, "It feels good, knowing that I'm helping the world by just doing my job." She twirls her fancy fork between her fingers.
"Yes...it does, doesn't it?" Joey echoes...but the starlet notices that his voice has shifted slightly.
There's something malicious under there...or maybe I'm just imagining it?
Don't worry about it, Susie, she commands herself. Just enjoy the moment.
Most of the dinner is eaten in silence, with the exception of a few sentences from Joey about the same-old 'you're doing great, dreams come true, etc.'
As much as she tries to focus on his declarations, Susie keeps drifting off mentally. I wish Sammy was here...
Furthermore, she continues to be bothered by the slight acrimony she had detected in his dialect. It was probably nothing...right? Should I be worried?
Eventually, the dinner ends--the voice actress and the businessman rise from their seats, with the latter scribbling in the black check binder to pay for the meal.
"Thank you for everything," Susie obliges.
"Thank you for the kind words during the interview!" Joey responds joyfully. I'm going to rub those all up in Thomas's face, just wait and see!
Exiting Joe's Fine Dining, the starlet reflects on the events of the day.
Making Sammy un-jealous...
Finding out about Norman and Jack's...relationship?
And now this.
She approaches her car, pondering over the infliction in Joey's voice that had been gnawing at her.
He really does seem kind, though...
I want to trust him.
And I do.
Chapter 13: Chapter Eleven - The Projectionist and the Poet
Notes:
A/N (Late October) - ("Not another one!" scream the readers. I'm so sorry about this...I truly hope that this is the last one.)
You may have perceived that the preview of The Illusion of Living was released--I would like to clarify tidbits of information that I know other AU creators are being asked about.
I have already planned out what my Joey's backstory is, and I do not intend to change it, despite the book; I know that I'm not the only creator who decided to do this.
While I love the canon storyline, I don't want to deconstruct what I have previously arranged--it is an "Alternate Universe," after all.
Thank you for understanding.
On a different note, this is your friendly reminder to check the description regularly for any trigger warnings that I may have added; I don't want anything to come as an unpleasant surprise. I care about you, my precious readers!
Enjoy the story (and sorry for interrupting you again)!
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The next six days fly by with little issue—Joey had instructed Wally and Thomas that they would not be experimenting with Bendy for the remainder of the week. He had mentioned that he had formed a "great idea" over his dinner with Susie, and that he needed time to work out how exactly he was going to go forward with it.
He's stalling again! Thomas's mind had objected, but he had followed orders without complaint...like he always does. I'm sick and tired of this job. One of these days, I'm gonna snap.
Thankfully, weekends exist--all of the workers, tired of rush! rush! rush!, were quite pleased to go home and rest.
That is, except for a certain composer.
Sammy had spent his weekend dreaming up his plan to ask Susie out, from what words he would say to where he would take her.
I have a plan, and no one is going to ruin it.
Indeed, the composer enters the studio this Monday with a strut to his step--and his peers notice. With a smirk, he continues on...but not to his office. Instead, he travels straight to where he knows Susie will be: the recording room.
Start with some small talk, he instructs himself for what seems like the millionth time. Then slide in a few words about romance or a date...and then ask her.
And hope she says yes.
As the music man rounds the corner, however, he realizes that the voice actress is not present. What? Where can she be?
Calm down, Sammy...maybe she's talking to someone else or something. She'll be here soon.
He awkwardly stands in the doorway for ten minutes—although to him, it feels like an eternity.
Maybe I should go look for her? That appears to be the best solution to this unexpected calamity.
The songster paces down the corridor, his eyes scanning the interiors of the rooms he passes--but no Susie.
Is she at home sick?
He eventually rounds to the break room, and to his surprise, the musician finds the woman he has been searching for.
"Oh, hi, Sammy!" the voice actress calls out to him--she is sitting on one of the wooden chairs at the leftmost table, tapping her fingers to the beat of a catchy swing tune that a record is spinning out in the background.
Breathing a sigh of relief, Sammy blitzes over to her and sits down. "You had me worried, because I couldn't find you; I thought you were gone or something."
Susie giggles. "Yes, I was hiding from you," she jokes. "Nah, I'm just taking a break--even angels need rest!" It's so sweet of him to worry about me!
The musician breathes in and out in an attempt to calm the butterflies that have taken flight in his stomach. Come on, Samuel--what the hell happened to your confident self? Do it already!
"So...Susie?"
The starlet is immersed in the music in the atmosphere--and suddenly has an idea. "Hold that thought..." A pause as she stands up and clasps his hands. "I know it's a tad...unusual for the woman to ask the man...but will you dance with me, Sammy?" Say yes, and I'll ascend to heaven.
Caught off guard, the composer halts before affirming with a "Yes." That's even more romantic than what I had planned--she never ceases to amaze me.
He too rises and swoops her into his arms; soon, the duo are flowing gracefully across the floor. The diva leans her head against Sammy's shoulder, and the tune guides the dance.
They continue their slow, peaceful sway until the end of the song, then the voice actress asks the musician, "Do you know how to jitterbug?"
Sammy's face reddens as he nods and smiles. "I presume you know how to, too?"
"Yes..."
They release each other and settle into the dance's positions--she places her hand on the middle of his arm and slides it down.
The pair launch into a series of twists, turns, and spins, with the female laughing childishly the entire time.
However, the rhythmic melody ends all too soon, so they have to quit; Sammy, now sweating from all the movement, huffs and stumbles back into a chair--almost crashing into the wall in the process.
Bleh, that wasn't graceful at all. She's a marvelous dancer... "That was...wonderful. The angel really knows how to spin."
Susie beams; she had been rather unsure of herself during the episode, but is glad to see that she did well in his sight. "Aw, thank you! You're really skilled at it, too!" Handsome and talented...he's the package deal!
Sammy decides to heed the ever-present nagging from his mind: ASK-HER-ASK-HER-ASK-HER-ASK-HER! Catching his breath, he begins, "Okay...so what I was going to say before..."
The voice actress's hazel hues light up curiously.
"Um..." he continues nervously, scratching the back of his neck. "Would you like...to go on a date with me?"
The musician suddenly realizes with horror that he never came up with a plan for if she happens to reject him. I need her to say yes...
She gasps softly and winds her arms around him. "Yes!" Ha! I knew he would ask! Honestly, Susie had been preparing herself for this moment. It was only a matter of time!
OhthankGod, Sammy resolves in one scrambled phrase. "Thank you for saying yes; I was extremely worked up about this," he admits. "So, is there any specific place you would like us to go?"
She ponders this for longer than he expects, and for a moment, the composer is troubled that she is reconsidering her acceptance of the date; however, she soon speaks up and eliminates this worry.
"Can I bounce an idea off of you?"
"Um...yes, of course..." Did I do something wrong? He forces himself to remain as outwardly calm as possible.
Another delay ensues--and this time, Sammy can't read the voice actress's expression, which in turn worries him more.
No. Stop freaking out about every little detail, he tells himself firmly.
Meanwhile, Susie is debating whether she should continue on with her plan. I did promise that I wouldn't tell anyone...but if it's just him, that would be okay, right? Besides, it would be good for them to go out in public, so that they're more comfortable. They won't feel the need to hide.
I'll go for it.
"Okay...so I came across something surprising yesterday--I was walking along to the recording room, and I passed by Norman and Jack..." She stops just to be dramatic "...and they were holding hands."
Sammy raises his eyebrows. Okay, great, but what does that have to do with us?
"They were really awkward about answering when I asked them what they were doing--and after thinking about it for a moment, I realized that maybe they were having a secret date or something." The starlet drops her voice to an excited whisper. "I think Norman and Jack are a couple." They make a good one, too--they're so cute together!
The melodist reflects on the day the projectionist had questioned him on Jack's whereabouts. I suppose that makes sense--he wouldn't give me a straight answer as to why he wanted to know. "That's interesting...but why are you—?"
"I'm getting there," she interrupts, leaning on the back of the chair. "I was just thinking"--she twirls a strand of her blonde hair within her fingers--"what if we were to make it a double date? Like, we would each get our own tables, but we would be at the same restaurant with them; maybe it would make them more comfortable with themselves. We could be...an example of sorts."
Her companion is silently shocked for a few minutes. That...definitely isn't what I had planned...but I would hate to see her disappointed...
"I...guess that would be okay," Sammy finally responds. "Just as long as we do get two tables." While it would be fine in most cases to be all together, it's still a date--meaning that he doesn't want to share. Just her and me.
The voice actress nods. "We will, I promise." Her hand lingers on his, and he takes it.
"That also means that we'll have to set it up so it works for them, too," he reminds her.
She rises, letting his hand slide off of hers and run down her arm. "You're right; I better go get that all worked out."
As she marches down the hallway to the projector booth, the doubts of this plan begin to creep in. What if they don't want to come with us? Am I rushing things for them?
No...I'm doing the right thing; I'm poking them out of their shells.
Who knows? Maybe they'll even thank me later!
Confidently, she leans against the wall and glances at the tall, secretive projectionist. "Hi, Norman!"
Of course, the cameraman had perceived her promenade in--although he hadn't expected her to talk to him, as she was usually joined at the hip with Sammy. Wait...what if this is about what she saw, with Jack and me? He hopes that she forgot about it--and adopts his skill of keeping his cool. Let's think rationally here: it's completely possible that it's not about that. Instead, he answers calmly, "Hello, Susie."
She displays a clever smile that arouses his curiosity.
What is she planning?
"Sooooo," she sing-says, peering at a light-orange fingernail, "I was just thinking...since you and Jack are...a thing..."
Oh no... the projectionist mulls.
"...I was merely wondering...would you two like to go on a double date with Sammy and me?" She twirls around in a 'now, isn't that just an amazing idea?' gesture.
Norman isn't positive as to what to say. I can't tell her that we aren't a couple...she's got it fixed in her brain that we are...
But I know Jack probably won't be comfortable going out in public...
Not to mention that he possibly doesn't like me like that...
I would kind of like to do it, but only if he wants to do it, too...
"Umm..."
"You two can talk it out together," Susie assures him. "It'll be much more romantic for you to ask him than for me to bring it up." She imagines a sappy scene between the projectionist and the poet. Romance is beautiful!
The projectionist hesitates before replying, "Okay...I can ask him. I'll get back to you as soon as possible." But what will I do if he says no?
"Great!" Susie conveys pleasantly. "Good luck!" And with that, she flutters away. I'm a matchmaker!
Norman sighs to himself softly. What am I going to do?
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The cameraman still doesn't have a plan when he arrives in the sewers with the coffee at two o'clock.
There doesn't seem to be any way around it...
Seeing that precious grin cross Jack's face gives as Norman traverses over the boards gives the latter those familiar warm and fuzzy feelings.
I'll just stick to the conversation, and then ask him--but I'll make sure that he knows that he can reject it. I don't want to sound forceful.
The lyricist, on the other hand, is both jubilant and anxious at the entrance of his friend; last week, the two had agreed to exchange information on their pasts.
The projectionist had disclosed that he, like Sammy, had lost a parent--his father had been in the military, and the news that he had been killed in action reached the mother and son when Norman was five.
Jack had sympathized, "I'm sorry..."
"It's okay," Norman had replied. "I don't really remember a lot about him, anyway..."
Additionally, it turned out that Norman had embraced his curiosity and habit of spying as a child when he had hunted down and retrieved a thief who had stolen a woman's purse--an act the lyricist deemed extremely brave.
The cameraman had continued that the reason he had accepted the projectionist occupation at Joey Drew Studios not only because it paid well for a rather simple job, but also because of his work environment.
"It's just the nature of us projectionists to seek out the dark places," he had explained to the puzzled poet. "Sure, they'll say, 'That projectionist, sneakin' around--he's just lookin' for trouble.' Well, trouble or not...I see everything."
Jack finds Norman extremely fascinating. He says he isn't interesting...but I don't think he realizes how captivating he really is.
However, this time it is the lyricist's turn to reveal his own story--he's a tad bit hesitant, but remembers that it's Norman he's talking to. He'll accept me no matter what.
The poet recognizes worry in his friend's eyes as the latter sits down. "Are you okay?" he asks, suspecting the projectionist's answer.
"What? Oh, yes...I'm okay," Norman responds blankly, but Jack can tell that the reply is a bold-faced lie. He's generally honest about his feelings...so maybe he just doesn't want to talk about whatever is eating at him. I mean, he has the right to privacy.
Despite his efforts, the projectionist is bombarded by anguish about asking Jack out. No. First, we talk about his past, and then we'll figure that out. Stay calm.
The duo engage in small talk for a few minutes before Jack tells Norman that he is ready to talk.
"You don't have to disclose anything that you don't want to," the projectionist assures him.
"No...it's okay. I-I trust you." He inhales deeply before continuing. "Okay...so I lived with my parents in Pennsylvania--my d-dad was a freelance writer, a-and my mom was a cook. We weren't exactly r-rich or anything, but we got by."
"I had a b-b-b-brother named Aaron...and for a long time, I got along with him." He reflects over his sibling's personality prior to what Jack calls 'The Change.' He was so carefree and joyful...
"But after A-Aaron moved out...things changed; he j-joined a street gang, a-and it was like he was a completely d-d-different p-person. Suddenly he had all these b-bruises and scars from f-f-fighting...and we t-thought he may have--" The lyricist halts, not wanting to say the word. "--h-h-hurt some girls in very, very bad ways." His voice shutters as he continues, "A-a-a-and when we t-tried to g-get him back on track, t-towards a better p-path...h-he said we w-were controlling him t-too much...and that w-we didn't own h-him...and h-he went out and b-basically t-t-tarnished the f-family's reputation." Jack takes another deep breath to calm himself down. It's okay. He's not here. You're safe.
"So w-we moved here, t-to N-New Y-York, in hopes t-that maybe we could g-get our l-lives back together...and I t-think that's when I-I stopped s-s-socializing with people and d-developed my stutter." I didn't want to become like him. "A-a-and we tried our b-best to pretend we had n-normal lives...and we haven't heard f-from him s-since. So...that's h-how I ended up here," he concludes, then lays back exhaustingly--it was...almost ingratiating to get that all out of him.
Norman doesn't say anything for a moment, processing this information--eventually, he speaks up, "I'm so sorry...it's awful that he would do that to his own family." I really wish I could relate...but being an only child, he truly cannot. "Can I hug you?"
The poet expresses a comforted smile as he rises and whisks over to the projectionist, wrapping his arms around him; Norman cloaks him under his own arms, blushing slightly.
He is such a sweetheart...
After a blissful moment, the two untwine...and the poet rests his hands on the projectionist's.
The former's heart accelerates in his chest. "T-T-Thank you..." This...is really nice.
"You don't need to thank me," the cameraman replies. "Really...I like learning about you--you're a darling."
A crimson wave appears across the lyricist's cheeks and nose, causing Norman to vex that he had been too direct in that last statement--but both parties are comforted when Jack unleashes his smile.
There is a dreamy silence only broken by the projectionist's restless thoughts. It's okay...I can do this.
"Um...so, Jack..."
The writer's dark green eyes meet the other's--the former notes that the uncertainty he had witnessed in the brown hues before has returned.
"Uh..." Norman is frustrated at himself for not knowing what to say. "Okay...so, Susie and Sammy kinda sorta want to set up a double date with us..." Actually, I suspect it was probably more of Susie's idea than his. "...and so...I guess what I'm saying is...do you want to go on a date with me? You can say no." But if you would, please, please, please say yes.
Jack doesn't respond at first, each anxious thought spinning through his mind more worrisome than the last. A double date? In public?! With people?! And Sammy is going to be there?!
In nearly any situation, the lyricist's reply would be a solid NO.
But...these aren't regular circumstances, and a tiny--and powerful--part of him wants to say yes.
Because I'll be with Norman...and he's like my stronghold.
What could there be to fear with him around?
Actually, he can come up with numerous answers to that question--but Jack chooses not to focus on those. If he is beside me, I'll be okay.
"Y-y-y-y-yes. I want t-to go with y-y-you."
The projectionist releases a sigh of relief he didn't know he had been holding. "Thankyouthankyouthankyou!" Ugh, that sounded a bit desperate. "Okay...so what days work for you? I can't do Wednesday night, but other than that, I'm free."
"I'm free any day." Wonder what it's like, leaving one's house and going somewhere.
"Then does Thursday at 6:00 work for you?"
The poet grins and nods, which of course creates a flurry of ecstatic emotions in Norman. Such a precious smile! I must protect it!
The rest of the Coffee and Quiet time goes placidly, with both workers attempting surreptitious glances at each other and giggling.
An hour flies by, so the projectionist gathers the mugs and treks across the boards--he reminds himself to get back to Susie about the date.
In the end, it is decided that Thursday at six will work for everyone...
...and now it's merely a matter of holding out until then.
§
Wally was thrilled to hear Joey's flimsy excuse for not working with the Ink Demon; it gave him the freedom to have his old schedule, and--even better--his Shawn.
The janitor makes quick work of arriving at the toy department to find the craftsman asleep in his desk once again.
He said I could wake him up... Nevertheless, Wally is a bit hesitant before shaking Shawn slightly.
"Umnhhh?" the toymaker stirs. "Is it already time to go?"
"It's me," the other whispers.
Oh! Wally! Shawn lifts his head--with some difficulty--and faces the maintenance worker. "Hi...sorry, I think I nodded off at--" He yawns. "--I don't know, 4:30 or something..."
"Ah, I don't wanna make you force yourself to clean or anything," Wally tells him patiently. "And nothing really great happened, so I don't have much to say anyway. You can sleep if you want, and I'll wake you when I'm done."
"You...don't have...to do that..." the toymaker attempts to reply, but howbeit lays his head back on the desk and closes his eyes.
Sweet dreams, my love, Wally mentally apprises him, and continues on to do his work.
It is a serene scene for the penultimate event of the day with the janitor's calm humming in the atmosphere and Shawn snoozing in the luxurious plush room.
The same effect takes hold of both of them when it's time to depart, but something else suddenly strikes the toymaker as he roves over to his car.
He's so nice to me...
I don't know what I would do without him...
A glance at the studio doors...
I think...I might be in love with Wally Franks.
§
One final person remains in the workshop: Joey Drew.
He had remained locked up in his office, not so much working as dreaming up his plan he had conveyed to Thomas and Wally.
What if...I could convince Susie to place her soul into Alice?
The businessman has a suspicion that it might work well--indeed, Susie loves her role as the heavenly creature. Just a bit of...pushing from her boss to become the character.
Think of the popularity she would get! And the fame I would receive! A real, live angel...
...sent from above!
Chapter 14: Chapter Twelve - Dreaming > Scheming
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Tuesday and Wednesday come and go with little disturbance--both studio couples are euphoric (but meanwhile rather nervous) for their date.
While everything goes moderately smoothly for the duos, the case is not the same for other studio workers.
Daniel "Buddy" Lewek had been hired as a gofer by Joey and Henry just before the latter's dismissal, and although the young man definitely has suspicions regarding his current boss, he does his work efficiently and without gripe.
Though it would be nice if people could remember my name, he thinks, remembering the slip of Terrence--or as Buddy is ordered to call him, Mister Dail.
"You, gofer...what's your name again?"
Despite the fact that the event happened months ago--Terrence had managed to remember the boy's name since then--it continues to bite at the aspiring artist. I wish I could be promoted...maybe I wouldn't be so pushed around. Indeed, the few of the eternally-grouchy workers can be thorns in the gofer's side with their demands, Sammy especially; however, Buddy reminds himself to be satisfied with his conditions--it would be what his mother would want.
And I'm doing this all for her.
His current task is to deliver a stack of papers to the accountant Grant; he scans the sheets to perhaps decipher what they may contain, but it's all a mess of numbers.
So much math...I'd hate to have his job. I bet Dot would understand all of this. Dorothy, or "Dot," is an intern writer at the studio, and one of Buddy's few friends in the place.
The gofer arrives at the financial department and locates (with some difficulty) Grant's office. With a *creeeeeak* of the door, he peers inside.
The flustered auditor is muttering to himself absentmindedly while scribbling furiously on a paper. "Doesn't add up...taxes..." I tried to warn him...
Stepping foot into the office, Buddy mumbles, "Um...Mister Cohen, sir?"
Grant lifts his head and fixes his glasses, finally noticing the delivery boy. "Oh, um, Buddy. Yes?"
He remembers me! "These are for you." The gofer hands the stack to the accountant, who sighs.
Not this again... "Ah, thank you." He lowers his voice and begins talking to himself once more. "I told him we couldn't afford to keep paying them like that...but no, it's 'they won't stay if I keep their salaries low, that Connor is just looking for a reason to quit, you're worrying too much, we have plenty saved up.' As if he knows..." Seeing Buddy's confused gaze, the bookkeeper realizes he is ranting. "Oh, sorry. You're dismissed." I'll have to set up a nice long meeting with Mister Drew.
Buddy awkwardly stumbles out of the office. Wonder what that was about.
No, Buddy, mind your own business. You have work to do...or as Mister Drew puts it...
'Bring dreams to life.'
§
It's five o'clock--Thomas, Joey, and Wally meet in the Ink Machine room, where the middle one had informed the other two that he would disclose his "master plan" to them.
The owner paces along, enunciating his words with numerous dramatic gestures. "So, we have the Ink Machine...and we have the souls."
Thomas wants to stop him right there. What the hell is the matter with him? What kind of madman would be willing to use his workers like that?
The janitor is rather discontented at this whole scenario--he had gotten used to seeing Shawn after hours, but that right has once again been revoked from him. All because the dreamer had another dream! If he keeps doing this, I'm outta here!
"And," Joey continues, "we have a talented individual who just might be willing to place her soul into a living Alice! All I have to do is talk to her...motivate her into the right direction."
No, that would be the VERY WRONG direction, Thomas mentally argues, and he tells Joey so. "Besides, you will never convince her to do that--she's not stupid. Just forget about this...idea you have; we've got enough on our hands with Bendy." His mind drifts to how the inky creature has acted throughout the past days. He's quite calm usually, but the minute you touch him, he goes into a flurry.
I wonder why.
Meanwhile, Wally is only loosely paying attention to his boss's oration--Joey had made him start thinking of Shawn, and now he's stuck on that subject.
The toymaker had seemed to come to a revelation over the last three days (though the janitor's knowledge of what it could have possibly been is naught), and Wally had noted that his friend was quite nervous lately.
Something is worrying him...I wish he would tell me what it is. I hate to see him so agitated like this.
"Wally!" Joey directs, dragging the maintenance worker out of his thoughts. "Help me out here!"
"Huh?" the other answers vaguely. "Oh, um, no...it won't work. Like what Thomas said, Susie isn't gonna fall for that. And we have our hands full with the Ink Demon...and stuff..." he trails off.
"Hmp," the businessman grumps. "It's not a matter of 'falling for it'; she would sacrifice herself willingly." And based on what I've observed, she would be more than glad to take the role.
Thomas steps menacingly in front of Joey. "You asked for our opinions, and we said no. End of story."
The owner turns away. They aren't believing enough! If they would just trust me, they would see that it would work!
I'm always steering the boat, as a leader should. I guide our destiny, keeping the big picture in sight.
All they have to do is trust in me...
...but apparently that's too difficult.
"Fine. Go home, both of you. Forget I said anything." I'll take care of this myself.
The GENT worker and the janitor stand there, dumbfounded.
We actually convinced him?! Wally thinks incredulously.
Meanwhile, Thomas contemplates, Forget you said anything? No problem--been doin' that from the beginning.
"Go! Out with you! Now!" Joey waves them out.
All three parties exit the building--before they head their separate ways, Thomas and Wally share puzzled looks.
The construction worker kicks a gray pebble on the ground and pivots to glare at Joey. He's planning something...I can feel it.
However, this is approximately the hundredth time he has had that suspicion. I'm used to it by now...
Besides, what can I do about it? He'll shut me down in an instant.
Wally, on the other hand, has mentally left this subject--he's back to worrying about Shawn. Maybe I should call him when I get home.
Joey warily observes each person drive away before getting into his own car and heading home.
He enters his medium-sized apartment--the walls in his living room are an orange-red that blends well with the green carpet. On the walls are abstract paintings and an old-fashioned-looking clock, as well as a "Dancing Demon" poster--additionally, there is a desk in the rightmost corner of the room with sketches plastered upon it. To the left of the area is a bulletin board with reminders and notes pinned across it.
However, the businessman travels straight past this room and heads into his kitchen; here, there is an island counter in the center, a refrigerator, and windowed cabinets lining the wall.
So they think I can't do it, the man continues to gripe. Well, I'll show them. She'll become Alice...whether she wants to or not.
He turns toward his cabinets and subconsciously peers inside, still grumbling mentally, until he realizes what he's staring at.
The cupboard door is opened with a *squeak*, and Joey reaches for the object inside:
Château Mont Exquisite Wine.
The beverage was given to him back in 1917--nine years ago--when Joey was twenty-one. He was advised to "let it set," because wine gets better with age.
If he is honest with himself, he had forgotten about it--especially after Prohibition had been implemented.
But it's still legal to have it in your possession...
And obviously I'm not going to sell it or anything...
Might as well put it to good use.
He opens a different cupboard and pulls out a tall glass, then carefully fills it up with the crimson-red liquid.
I deserve this.
The businessman lifts the glass to his lips and sips it.
Wow. They were right...this is great.
As he continues to drink it, the effects of the alcohol begin to set in, giving him a soothing, calming...and rather reckless feeling.
I should do this more often!
I feel like I can do anything!
Nothing is out of my reach!
After he pours himself another glass, Joey places the bottle back in its cupboard; he turns to his small kitchen window and glimpses at his reflection, savoring the grape flavor.
The businessman wipes his face, and Window Joey copies this movement--some of his concealer comes off, revealing the bold, black scars.
He doesn't care.
Why would Tommy and Wally ever doubt me?
I know what I'm doing...
I'll show them.
§
The couples agreed to meet at a restaurant called "Sardi's"--this was Susie and Sammy's idea, as the other two had heard of the place but had never been there.
As he exits Norman's car--the projectionist had acceded to picking him up--Jack can immediately discern that this establishment is an ornate one. The building has a maroon theme to it, with the title of the restaurant written in white, curly script.
The lyricist glances toward Sammy and Susie, the former of which is currently bragging about his car.
"She's a Nash Touring," he explains to his date, running his hand along the silver exterior like one might pet a puppy.
Jack's eyes scan the composer's and the voice actress's outfits. Apparently, they had planned them together--Susie is donning a sparkly purple flapper dress, while Sammy is wearing a tuxedo with a matching purple tie.
Once again, the poet envies Sammy; looking over Norman's and his own casual clothes, he feels extremely out of place.
I guess we missed the memo that we'd be going somewhere fancy...
The only way Jack had prepared for the date was by dabbing on some Pour Un Homme...but now he sees that it wasn't enough.
Is this one of those super high-class places that'll reject you if you aren't wearing a suit? he worries.
Meanwhile, Norman is rather unconcerned about the elegant atmosphere, but he can see that his date is anxious; the projectionist throws him a comforting smile.
Please don't worry, songbird...
Of course, the cameraman's heart is aflutter at the thought that he is actually on a date with Jack, but he attempts to keep his composure.
Do it for him.
After a bit more chatter from Sammy, the duos enter the restaurant; along the walls of the place are various frames of art by famous artists--Jack recognizes da Vinci's La Bella Principessa on the leftmost façade. The area itself has the same red coloration as the outside, with narrow black tables. The room is lit by tiny circular bulbs that are strewn along the window panes, giving the entire space a tranquil atmosphere.
Sammy and Susie step earnestly forward, while the other two linger slightly behind them; the lyricist tries to focus on the hum of the radio in the background in order to somewhat alleviate himself.
Next to Jack, Norman detects the cologne. He smells nice. A mental pause. Okay, that sounded a little creepy.
A waiter in a white suit walks toward the group.
"Two tables, please," Sammy directs almost immediately, while mentally congratulating himself for choosing this place to have the date. She's very impressed--I can tell.
Indeed, the starlet peers at the restaurant in awe. It's so pretty! Almost as much as Heavenly Toys!
The waiter leads the couples to two black marble tables, set up so that Norman and Susie are on either side, with Jack and Sammy back-to-back.
The lyricist drums his fingers nervously, staring a hole into the table. People...everywhere...
"Jack," Norman whispers.
Anxious dark green eyes meet steady brown ones.
The projectionist hesitates slightly before laying his hand on the lyricist's.
"It's okay. I'm here."
Jack smiles slightly, but Norman can still spot the uneasiness shifting in his eyes.
Meanwhile, the composer and the starlet are engaged in elated conversation.
"This place is magnificent!" the female reflects. He has such a great sense of style! "How did you find out about it?"
"Well, it is pretty well-known," he replies smoothly, "and of course I want the absolute best for my angel."
Jack fights back the urge to roll his eyes at this cheesy line. How come it's so easy for them to relax and enjoy themselves?
Wait, I should be paying attention to Norman, not them...
I've already failed...
As if he read the poet's mind, the projectionist says, "Don't mind them--this is you and I. We're a different story." Even if Susie is trying to put us on the same page.
That's...a really good way of wording it, Jack ponders. Wish I could phrase my sentences like that.
The dinner carries on quite smoothly--or at least until Sammy spills his soda onto himself.
The musician swears under his breath as he hurriedly grabs some napkins and wipes his white tuxedo shirt off. Susie, if you would, please forget that this incident ever happened.
Norman has to giggle as he sees the smirk cross Jack's face.
However, once that particular scene has passed, the composer regains his confident poise; and once again, Jack and Norman are left feeling as the inferior couple in this situation.
He keeps comparing himself to them, the cameraman worries, picking at his horseradish-flavored potatoes. How can I convince him that he's better?
Eventually, after much waiting for Sammy and Susie to finish up their conversation, the pairs are ready to leave.
As each get into their corresponding vehicles, they have one question in mind:
What will the rest of the night bring?
§
Sammy parks his car outside Susie's house and escorts her onto her porch; she turns gracefully toward him at her doorstep.
"I had a great time tonight," she begins. "Thank you for everything. I'd love to do it again." Dreams do come true!
"I did, too," he agrees. "And you're welcome." Such a charming woman...
Suspense hangs in the air above them for an awkward moment.
Come on, just do it, Sammy pushes himself.
"Um...Susie?"
"Yes?"
A moment of silence as he leans a bit closer to her.
"Do you kiss on the first date?"
The starlet bats her eyelashes coquettishly. "Hmm...only if the first date is with a remarkable composer named Sammy Lawrence."
She too inclines towards him...and lets his lips meet hers.
For an enchanted moment, they kiss--then release.
Red-faced Sammy thinks, Wow...that was amazing! And much easier than I thought it was going to be!
Susie smirks. "How was that for a first kiss?"
"Yes..." is all he gives for an answer, and she giggles.
"Have a great night, Sammy," she beckons him, wrapping him up in a hug before she whisks inside.
The composer merely stands there for a blissful moment.
Yay! I did it! I win! We win! The angel is mine! And I'm hers!
He stumbles off of her porch, almost falling over at one point--his legs have turned to jelly.
I never knew Cloud Nine was a place on Earth...
§
At the same time, Norman stops outside of Jack's apartment.
Should I escort him? the former wonders before noticing that his date is already opening the car door.
I thought I would feel good about this...but I think I may have forced it onto him too much.
Have I ruined it before it has even begun?
The cameraman shoves the worries aside as he catches up to Jack at the lyricist's door.
Projectionist and poet stare at each other in puzzlement of what to do next.
"Um...I—" Jack attempts to begin. JUST SAY THE WORDS, his mind screams at him. "I-I-I-I liked t-that. T-t-thank you." Please just read my mind, he mentally begs Norman. You'll see that you don't have to worry.
You were the best part.
"Yeah...of course." Norman smiles slightly, scratching the back of his neck.
There's a hesitant moment for the writer before he decides to go for it. "C-c-can you l-lean d-down?" Don't-be-nervous-don't-be-nervous-I'M-VERY-VERY-NERVOUS-AHHHHHHHHHH!
Huh? Albeit being a bit confused, the cameraman crouches down to be eye-level with Jack.
The latter's heart pounds as he hastily plants a kiss on his date's cheek.
Norman goes bright red as he stands back up--on the outside, he's calm...but inside, he's screaming like an overjoyed little girl.
"S-s-s-sorry..." the lyricist apologies. I should have asked him if he'd be okay with that before I WENT AND DID IT. Why am I so stupid? And now he's gonna think I'm insensitive...
"Don't be sorry," the projectionist hurriedly reassures him. "It was good—better than good—I mean—um..." Damn, now I'm losing my words...but I love what he does to me! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Jack grins shyly. He doesn't hate me for it...
"Heh...um...h-h-have a good night, N-Normie. I-I-I mean N-N-Norman! Sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry!" Ugh, why am I so awkward?!
He called me Normie! He is SO cute! EEEEEEEEE! the cameraman mentally squeals--but keeps his mature aplomb. "You too, Jack."
Jack starts into his house while Norman practically flies back to his car.
THAT WAS AWESOME! the latter mentally yells in the safety of his vehicle.
I needn't have worried so much...
Maybe...
Maybe everything will work out okay for us.
Chapter 15: Chapter Thirteen - Seeing is Believing
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Three more days pass, leading to a fresh new Monday.
In the music department, Sammy and Susie are immersed in a carefree chat.
"...so I said to her," the composer continues his story, "'You have the flats mixed up.' And she kind of squinted at the paper, then said, 'Ohhhh, you're right.' So I said, 'Yeah, I know I am.' We both laughed for a bit, and when she played it again, it sounded fine."
"That was sweet of you to help her," Susie responds.
He shrugs. "Eh. It's what I get paid for...just doing what I do best."
Much to the surprise of his peers, a great change had come over the musician--he has become considerably more social and less likely to complain about or snap at his coworkers.
I actually feel good for once...
Weird.
He mentally moves on to the next subject...the action he has been waiting for:
Asking the voice actress on another date.
And this time it should be easier, since I did it once.
Right?
He clears his throat and leans back in his chair nonchalantly. "So...my angel?"
Susie blushes. "Yes?" I love it when he calls me that!
"I presume you enjoyed our little...social engagement on Thursday?" He smiles knowingly.
She giggles. "Why ask such a silly question? You already know the answer is yes--I was with you!"
"Right, of course," he replies, still using that playful tone. "How inane of me. So then...I daresay you would be willing to go on--?"
"Susie!" calls Joey's resounding voice; once again, the owner has sneaked up on the two. "Sorry to interrupt this little moment here--"
No, you're not, Sammy thinks bitterly, his pessimistic attitude beginning to return. Why does he always have to barge in?
"--but I would like to speak with our Alice here," Joey continues, ignoring the visually frustrated instrumentalist and pivoting to Susie. Time to turn on the charm. "Miss Campbell...after hours, would you please meet with me in my office?"
Susie scans the businessman's grinning face, realizing how indecipherable it is. That smile could mean anything...
Ah, but why am I worrying about that? It's not like he'll do anything bad!
After all, he put me in this wonderful position!
Where would I be if it weren't for him?
But the memory of his sudden shift in tone at their last meeting suddenly breaks into her mind.
I'm sure that was nothing, she tells herself--nevertheless, she peeps at Joey's face again. Those lines are still there...
No, Susie. Stop thinking like that.
You have to trust him.
"Sure!" she reciprocates joyfully. "But can I ask why?"
Joey struts along for a moment in a 'I-know-something-that-you-don't' manner; this perturbs Sammy.
What is he planning? the latter speculates indignantly. There's something sinister brewing in that eccentric mind of his...
The entrepreneur lowers his voice so Sammy can't hear him. "Well, let's just say I have an...opportunity of sorts for you." His blue eyes shine in feigned kindness. "It's actually a bit of a secret...like an experiment. But I'll reveal, Alice, that if you follow through with it...you'll make so many more dreams come true. Even more than you are now."
He draws himself up to his full five-foot-eight height, watching the confusion swim through her hazel hues. "It'll all make sense later...that is, if you so choose to agree to its conditions." Joey steps toward her. "And of course our angel would help us, right?"
Inside his mind, however, the businessman fears what he is doing. Is this manipulation?
No, he decides. I'm helping dreams come to life. It's not wrong. I'm not the bad guy.
I'm the hero.
The owner remembers Wally and Thomas. I need to prove them wrong.
All they have to do is believe!
And once they find out I made Susie into Alice...
Well, seeing is believing.
Meanwhile, Susie debates this entire concept. Why is he being so mysterious about it?
Maybe it's a surprise! A promotion, maybe?
But what does he mean by 'conditions'?
No, I have to stop questioning him! He's shown me that dreams can come true...
Besides, how bad can it be?
"Yes. I'll stop by after hours," she finally agrees.
Joey gives her that unfathomable smirk again. "Thank you. I'll see you then."
Sammy's light green irises follow his boss's footsteps until the latter is out of earshot. What did he say? Why is everything such a secret with him? "Susie...I..." He sighs and searches for the right words. "Just...please be careful."
The voice actress is puzzled at this dictation. "Huh? He's not going to do anything bad. I think whatever it is will be a good thing!"
The composer is definitely not sure about that; he tells her so. "I don't know...something about how he acted wasn't right." He clasps her hands into his. "I don't want you to get hurt. Promise me you'll be cautious." She trusts him too much...maybe I should go with her, just in case. But what would I do if I got caught?
Get fired, probably.
The starlet replies, "Okay, I promise. But I think you're stressing about this too much..." Maybe he's jealous again. Yes, that would make sense...
He exhales once more, not knowing what to say to that--he decides to change the subject. Take my mind off of him. "So, um, on what I was talking about before...would you like to go on a second date?"
She smiles brightly and hugs him. "Yes!"
That was easy! "Great, thank you. How's Friday?"
"That works out fine for me."
That phrase releases a weight off of his mind. "Then it's settled." He releases her. "Good luck at your and Joey's...whatever." Ugh, I don't want her to go, though!
But I'll never convince her...
She thinks he knows what's best for her...
"Thanks!" Susie stands up; elegantly, she strides away from her date. Don't worry, my love--I've got this.
Sammy is still vexed, however, as he observes her dainty walk.
What is Joey going to do to my angel?
§
Jack is in his office, tapping his paper with his pen--he should be focusing on lyric composing, but instead he is fixated on the clock.
He'll be here soon...whose turn is it to bring the coffee?
I think it's mine...I suppose I should get that, then.
He scoots off his chair. Besides, it's not like I'm doing anything. Lately, the lyricist has been in a writing slump; despite his attempts to force himself to create something, he can't seem to get in the groove of it. Why does this happen so often?
I feel so useless...
The poet shuffles into the break room, glancing around the room in hopes that he won't be captured into a conversation with anyone--to his relief, no one is around. After grabbing two styrofoam cups and placing one under the spout of the coffee machine, he observes the brown liquid *plinksrrrr* into the container.
Since their date, the projectionist and the poet have been stuck in a type of relationship limbo--they're more than friends, but less than lovers. Jack frets that if this continues, their friendship may suffer.
I don't want to taint what we already have...
But...
What if this is a good thing? Maybe we're meant to go farther.
Like it's our destiny or something.
Fate is not exactly the poet's favorite subject; he figures that if everyone is destined to go one way or another, what's the point in choices?
And if it is real...then does that mean that no matter what his family could have done differently, Aaron still would have selected the path that he did?
The lyricist shoves the memories of his brother out of his mind.
I don't have to be like him.
He thinks back to Norman--elated emotions sparkle throughout his body.
Well, destiny or not...it feels right.
After depositing the correct amounts of each ingredient in the coffees, the writer seizes the cups and scrambles back down the corridor.
Wait, we never worked out where we are going to meet.
Umm...
He decides to head toward the projection booth and ask--but luckily runs into his friend on the way.
"Hi," Norman says, grinning giddily. "Fancy meeting you here." Was that funny? Or did it just sound stupid?
Jack smiles, which the cameraman takes as a good sign. "H-h-hi. Um...i-i-it's my turn to bring this, right?" He lifts the containers in his hands slightly.
"Mm, I think so. I mean, you already have it, I guess." Wow, way to state the obvious, Norman.
"Okay, g-good. Where do you want t-to go to?" the poet presses.
He's stuttering a lot less, the projectionist notes. He must be getting used to me...maybe I can quit worrying so much then. "We can do your office this time, since we haven't really been there." A hesitation. "Just, um, let me grab something--I'll meet you there."
Somewhat puzzled, Jack continues on to his office and sets the coffees on the table. What does he need to get? No, never mind--it's none of my business.
After a couple of minutes, Norman arrives at the room, blushing slightly; the lyricist catches a glimpse of something he is holding behind his back.
"Um..." the projectionist begins nervously. "I realize that it's a bit of a cliché...but I brought you something." He withdraws his arms to reveal a red box of...
Chocolate! Jack discerns joyfully--he eagerly puts his hands on the package. "Thank you so much!" He feels himself blush as he lets go of the chocolate box and clings to Norman instead.
The small wave of magenta crossing the cameraman's face spreads. Maybe I'm not as bad at this romance thing as I thought...
Eventually, the projectionist and the poet release each other and settle into their chairs--Jack delightfully opens the chocolate box and insists on sharing the contents with his friend.
"Y-y-you know, I've been t-thinking," he starts, letting the sweet taste linger on his tongue. "If S-Susie is so rapt on bringing c-couples together, then I t-think she should send W-Wally and Shawn on a date. I b-bet they wouldn't say no."
"That's true...maybe I'll have to hint that to her," Norman acknowledges. "I mean, technically I brought her and Sammy together--I'm the one who suggested that he ask her out." He sips his coffee meditatively. "Speaking of which, Sammy's a lot happier than I've seen him in a while. I think Susie is good for him."
"S-She is really nice..." the lyricist esteems. Though just as confident as her boyfriend...I guess that's a good thing. Two self-assured people together...never having to worry about anything...
They carry on in their chatter, and the subject turns to the GENT workers.
"So what do you think they're gonna do with that 'ink machine'?" Norman questions. "I mean, it seems like Joey bought it, and now it's just sitting around." He recalls the inky Bendy-like abomination he and Jack had witnessed earlier. "Do you think it made that...thing we saw?"
"It would m-make sense," his friend discloses. "I think w-w-whatever it was...whatever it is," he corrects himself, "it is made of a black substance... I-I think it's i-ink." I really don't like the looks of it though...it's scary.
"But what is it supposed to be?" the other wonders. Wow. I've been so caught up in my love life that I haven't been thinking about this.
I need to know. Bad things will happen if I do not figure this out.
Perhaps it's time for another...stalking.
Jack detects the mischievous flicker in those brown eyes--he reaches over and places his hand on Norman's.
"If y-you're thinking about s-spying again...I-I'll come with you. I-I-I'll go with you...we'll p-protect each other." But also because you've incited a curiosity in me.
We need to find out why Joey is pulling the wool over our eyes.
The projectionist beams. He's such a sweetheart! "Thank you...songbird."
Jack flushes at the mention of a pet name. "I-If I let you c-call me that, you have to l-let me have a n-nickname for you."
"Deal. I presume it's Normie?"
"No...s-s-something more c-creative than that," the poet muses. "How about...flicker? B-because projections flicker, and y-you kind of g-get a flicker in your e-eyes when y-y-you are thinking a-a-about spying." He laughs timidly. Is that too weird?
Norman leans closer to Jack. "I love that." He's so talented and creative and precious and kind and everything! "Um...can I do something? Something like kiss your forehead? Just for a second?" Or is that going too far?
The lyricist nods, and the cameraman swiftly pecks him under his curls while mentally screaming in ecstasy.
This action throws Jack into a fit of giggles; he's more joyful than he has been in quite a long time.
I really, really like this...him and I.
It doesn't need to be fate...we're automatically drawn to each other. And I feel safe around him.
Like I don't have to hide...
I'll be his songbird, and he'll be my...flicker.
And together...maybe we'll figure out the mysteries of this studio.
§
It's 3:40 p.m.--Shawn is down in the toy department, attentively fixing an eye of an Alice plush.
Joey gave me a lot of this angel whatchamacallit...but it ain't selling! What am I supposed to do with it? Wish he would tell me that.
Might have to melt it all down in the end to rid myself of it...
He punctuates his stitches with a sigh--then to his glee hears a marvelous noise: the *clank*s of the elevator.
Wally!
The toymaker hurriedly fixes the neckline of his shirt and skips over to the lift, immediately shrouding the janitor in his arms when the latter emerges.
"Oh, good afternoon to you, too," Wally laughs, hugging the craftsman back; he had grown weary of pining for his crush and had decided to visit despite his work. If they need me, they'll have to come and get me.
I don't know how much more of this all-work-no-Shawn I can stand.
Once Shawn is finished hugging--or as Wally regards it, cuddling--the maintenance worker, the latter examines the former. "Where's the fancy party?"
"Huh?"
"You combed your hair, and you're wearing a collared shirt. You hate collars!"
"Oh..." The toymaker blushes and wrings his hands. "I...did it for you. Do you like it?"
Wally hesitates. He did it for me? "You want the truth?"
"Please." It's a no, isn't it? Shawn's mind deadpans.
"Well...no," the janitor finally answers. "It's not...you. I like your hair all messy." He runs his fingers through the red mane to return it to its normal untidy state--delightful shivers travel down the toymaster's spine. "You don't have to change for me; I lo--I mean, I like you just the way you are."
"Aw, thank you," the other responds semi-anxiously. Gah, why am I so nervous? I've been in love before...why is this time different?
"Shawn?"
The aquamarine eyes focus on the concerned browns. "Yeah?"
"You're worrying me." Wally takes the craftsman's hands in his and rubs his thumbs against the other's fingers. "You've been really agitated as of late...what's wrong? Did something happen?"
It's really that obvious? Shawn comprehends. Shit, now I've got him all in a dither about me. "I'm okay, really--please don't worry. Just stressed with work is all."
"Have you been sleeping enough?" his crush presses. I just want to make sure my Shawn is okay.
"Yeah. Wallace, I'm fine. I promise."
The janitor considers that since the toymaker used his full name, he must be serious. "Okay, I believe you. But really, if anything is ever botherin' you...please talk to me." I want you to be happy.
"I will," Shawn vows, caressing the other's hands. "But enough about me—how are you?"
Wally pauses. "I'm good...I guess. Joey's puttin' my schedule in flux again—he's got somethin' planned, but he ain't tellin' Thomas or me. Says he's got this meeting right after hours, but that it won't take long, and we'll be lookin' at Bendy again. I don't know why he can't be straightforward with all of this." He sighs a bit, then smiles at his crush. "But I'm happy since I'm with you. You're the light of my life." And the whole reason I still work here.
The craftsman goes red and draws closer. I... "Really?"
Wally leans his forehead on Shawn's. "Yes."
For a moment, both blushing parties sit like that—head-against-head and hand-in-hand—until they're rudely interrupted by the *click*ing lift.
"Wally!" calls a voice, but it isn't Thomas; when the elevator finally reveals the source, the maintenance worker recognizes her as one of the other GENT workers, though he can't place a name.
She halts at the sight of the two, becoming aware that she is interfering with something. "Oh, um..."
Already time to go? Wally mentally whines. I haven't even been here ten minutes! "I'm coming." He releases Shawn, who holds his beloved's hand as long as he can before the former ambles away. "I'm sorry," the janitor whispers. "I'll visit you again soon, I promise."
The two construction workers walk into the lift, the female at a saunter and the male at a reluctant shuffle.
As the elevator noisily descends, the woman speaks up. "Is that where you always sneak off to? To see him?"
Wally nods.
"Ah...so then...are you two--?" She gestures loosely with a couple of her fingers. "Is he your boyfriend?"
A smirk crosses her co-worker's mouth.
"No..."
The smirk gets wider; it is visible, even in the dimly-lit elevator.
"...not yet."
§
The day churns on, finally leading to closing time; Susie bids her date goodbye as he packs up.
"Please remember what I said," Sammy reminds her somewhat desperately. I hate to leave her...
But what can I do about it?
The starlet gives him one last goodbye kiss on the cheek. "I will. But like I said, you don't have anything to worry about. It's not like you'll never see me again." It's really cute when you get jealous, but you're taking it too far. Please don't fret.
I can't convince her, Sammy is forced to accept. "Well...good luck, and have a good night."
"You too." She watches him walk away, then hums as she makes her way to the businessman's office.
The door is slightly ajar when she arrives, but nevertheless she knocks. "Mister Drew?"
"Come in, come in," Joey beckons from inside; she follows the order. "Please, take a seat."
The voice actress does so--although the owner can sense slight suspense about her.
She's about to get the opportunity of a lifetime.
"What is it?" She finally asks the question she has been pondering all day.
"I'll cut to the chase," Joey discloses. "I know how much your Alice part means to you, Susie--believe me, that little angel means the world to me too. All of my characters do!"
He pauses dramatically.
"You see...I've got this little idea--or as I say, a dream--that we may be able to bring those characters to life. Our fans would be able to talk with them, shake their hand...and bask in our success."
The owner lowers his voice the same way he did around Sammy.
"Now, onto this little...project of mine. I have cultivated a plan to make that dream a reality; call it a ceremony or a ritual. And if it works--which it will--then you'll be making so many dreams come true.
"What do you think?"
Susie eagerly listens to this whole speech, lightly noting the businessman's emphasis on "will."
It sounds like the tone he used at the restaurant...
No! I can't keep thinking like that!
I'll never get anywhere if I continue to be suspicious of him.
"Can you tell me more?"
Joey rises from his chair and paces around his office. I've got her hooked!
"As much as I would love to..." Joey begins, with a tone of a mysterious yet intriguing storyteller, "I think you'll have to perceive it yourself to understand. See to believe." He pivots to her. "If you could put aside time tomorrow after hours, I'd be glad to let you witness the contraption so eloquently created." Another dramatic pause. "What do you say...Alice?"
The starlet's heart pounds excitedly in her chest--she doesn't even consider the possible details to this plan. "Yes! I'll be here! I want to see." Sammy didn't have to trouble himself! I told him it would all be okay!
He nods, more to himself than to her. "Great. Just one more thing, then."
She inclines forward curiously. "Yes?"
"You must not tell anyone about this little plan of mine," Joey dictates. "It's a surprise...and we wouldn't want to spoil it, would we?" Otherwise we'll have Thomas 'You-Have-Absolutely-No-Clue-What-You're-Doing-Joey' Connor on our case.
The voice actress hesitates. "Can I please tell Sammy, since he's not involved?" Just to soothe his worries about all of this?
"No," the owner answers almost immediately. "It's best if no one else knows, and that includes him." He wavers for a second. "When it all is finished...then you may tell him." But by that point, he'll have figured it out himself.
Because seeing is believing.
Susie agrees to keep the scheme under wraps, and Joey dismisses her.
"Have a nice day, Alice."
"You too!"
He gazes at her as she leaves, then enters the corridor to Thomas's office. That went along quite well.
And Tommy said I couldn't do it! Shows what he knows!
Onto the next task, then.
He appears at the GENT worker's door; inside, Thomas is adhering a Dancing Demon poster to the wall near Bendy's cage.
This isn't going to work, the construction worker grumps. 'Exposure'...what a bunch of bullshit.
"Um, so what exactly are we trying to do here?" Wally asks from the corner.
"I'll be glad to explain," Joey speaks up. "I came up with a solution to our little soulless Ink Demon here; while we may not have a soul for him--"
Yet, echoes his mind.
"--we do have resources, and we're going to use them. We'll expose him to the posters and projections of how he's supposed to be, and maybe he'll understand, 'Oh, that's supposed to be me,' and begin to operate like a Bendy should...instead of being a helpless blob. Exposure is key--seeing is believing."
I've said that quite a lot today.
The janitor has doubts on this. But he doesn't have a mind to think with! "Um, then what should I do?"
"Set up a projector," the businessman commands, "and put it over by him--just don't block the poster. We need to surround him."
Wally frowns, but does what he is asked to. Okay, I'm not gonna be the one to tell him that this ain't gonna work.
The projector is switched on with a *clkt*--suddenly, the Little Devil Darling himself is prancing along the wall.
The Ink Demon turns toward the Dancing Demon and stares.
"See? I told you so! He's already starting to comprehend that that's him on the screen," Joey enunciates. Can't they trust me? They know I'll be right in the end. "That's all we'll do for tonight. Just leave him here."
"Hey, wait," Thomas breaks his silence. "What am I supposed to do with all this in my office--the projector, I mean? It's in the way." Kind of like you.
Joey simpers obnoxiously. "Deal with it--you're the one who knows it all. Figure out how to manage it yourself." Ha! Put that in your pipe and smoke it!
The dark glare emerging from the construction worker's face is palpable--so much that Wally asks if they're dismissed just to shatter the atmosphere.
"Yes," Joey answers simply, still smirking at Thomas.
The GENT worker storms out of the building, followed by Wally.
I'm a fifth wheel here, the latter thinks.
The owner smugly watches his employees depart before stepping outside himself and heading home.
They haven't seen anything yet.
§
Back in his kitchen, Joey immediately opens the cupboard and withdraws his wine bottle.
I deserve this after all I do.
The entrepreneur realizes that there's only about a third of the bottle left once he's finished pouring his glass.
Where'd it all go to? I only had a little bit each day.
Maybe you're getting too carried away, says a voice in his head that sounds an awful lot like Henry.
Shut up, Joey retorts. I can quit when I want. It's not like I'm addicted or anything.
He sips his wine and lets the warm sedative flow through him.
This is nice...why did I never think of this before?
I should get some more...
But there's something standing in the way of that goal.
Oh...right. Prohibition.
That would mean if I were to buy more--which I'm not saying I'm going to--it would be illegal.
But I'm not that desperate.
He shakes the glass slightly--the last few drops of red liquid swirl around the circumference.
I'll have to enjoy it while it lasts.
Joey tilts his head backward and practically inhales the rest, gasping a bit when he lowers the cup.
Soon, I'll have a real live Alice...and hopefully a working Bendy.
Then Tommy will see.
And he'll believe.
Chapter 16: Chapter Fourteen - I'll Be Your Angel
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The next day, Susie strolls into the recording room, closely scrutinized by not only Sammy, but also by Jack and Norman hidden surreptitiously in the projector booth--the latter two hope to gain at least a tidbit of knowledge on the...rather strange happenings of the studio.
And according to them, what better way to find out than by spying?
"So how'd it go?" the composer asks his beloved. Tell me every little detail.
"Um..." she wavers. What do I say? "It went well."
A pause ensues as Sammy waits for her to expound--when she doesn't, he questions, "That's it?" She's not willing to go any further with it?
What exactly did he tell her?
"It was like he said--an opportunity for me," the voice actress hurriedly clarifies. Please don't ask any more questions...
"Yes, but what kind of 'opportunity'?" he presses, stepping closer to her. "You can tell me."
She is again silent--Norman digests this whole episode. She's being awfully secretive...why?
He eyes Jack, who shrugs.
"It's a surprise," Susie finally answers, enunciating every syllable. "You'll just have to wait and see." I'm sorry...I would tell you everything if I was allowed to.
The musician frowns. "So you mean to say you accepted this...possibility he offered to you?" What is it? I have to know! Pleeeease tell me! he mentally begs.
I suppose I can disclose that much. "Yes...well, kind of." She lowers her voice--Jack strains his ears to hear her. "We're going to go over more details after hours tonight. But I promise that it's a good thing. Please don't worry about me."
That...tells us nothing, Jack ruminates, looking over at Norman's curious eyes.
My flicker is alight again.
"W-We're staying after hours, I-I presume?" He smiles at him, already knowing the answer.
"But of course. You know me so well." The projectionist beams back. I--we--need to know what she's getting at.
Jack doesn't reply; he is focused on Norman's face--specifically his mouth.
Suddenly, the poet has a strong urge to kiss the projectionist.
Like a real kiss...not just on the forehead or the cheek...
My lips on his.
It's a beautiful thought.
Wait, is it too early for that?
Ah, I don't care anymore!
Norman observes the lyricist's expression for a moment. He looks so peaceful...what's he thinking about?
Jack ever-so-slightly leans closer to his crush and shuts his eyes; the latter finally figures out what's happening.
He's going in for a kiss!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
The projectionist follows suit to his love's actions.
Closer and closer...
The two are about an inch apart...when the moment is ruined by a frustrated yell from Sammy.
The cameraman and writer snap back in surprise.
"What was that?" Jack asks what they are both wondering. It sounded...bad.
And it interrupted our...moment...
Norman takes his beau's hand in his. "Let's go find out." I'll kiss you later, I promise.
The duo treks toward where they think the noise came from; they are led to the art closet, and in front of it is a certain composer drenched in ink.
Susie appears behind him. "What happ--oh..."
"I go to grab something, and the whole damn works spills on me!" Sammy gripes loudly--a few of the workers from the art department emerge to see what's going on. WHY THE HELL CAN'T THINGS GO RIGHT TODAY?!
His eyes fall upon the ink-covered floor, then travel up himself, then shoot toward the crowd he is drawing in.
"You!" He points callously to Buddy, who shrinks back a bit. "Clean this up! Now!"
The gofer raises his eyebrows. It wasn't my fault! But nevertheless, he does what he's told--he rushes out to grab cleaning supplies. I can't afford any arguments...especially not with him.
"Samuel," Terrence speaks up strictly. "Please calm down--this is not something to throw a fit over."
The musician directs a sharp glare to the head artist while Susie withdraws a cloth and begins wiping some of the ink off of her date.
"Are you okay?" she asks.
His expression softens as he peers back at her. "Yeah..." The bitter but slight taste of ink lingers on his tongue--one of the ink bottles that had landed on his head had broken, spewing ink on his face. Yuck.
The composer suddenly becomes aware of a burning sensation on his neck and cheeks.
What? Ink is supposed to be cold! Not stingy!
"Give me that cloth," he demands, and Susie hands him the material; he briskly wipes off his face and hair, the irritation subsiding dramatically as he does so.
From the corner, Norman and Jack exchange puzzled and doubtful looks.
"I can't do much with your shirt," the voice actress tells the composer. "It might be permanently stained." I'm sorry about this, darling.
"That's fine..." Sammy growls, although it's coherent from his tone of voice that it is most definitely not fine. With another fierce glower at the gofer at his feet, he stalks off; Susie follows him.
The poet and the projectionist stand there, dumbfounded.
"Uh...t-that was a thing," Jack finally declares. He didn't need to lose his temper over some spilled ink.
"Yes...it was."
An awkward pause.
"Um...so are we s-still on for t-tonight, then?" the lyricist questions. Gah, that makes it sound like a date.
I mean, I guess it sort of is...like a creeping-around stalky sort of date.
"Hm? Oh, yeah," Norman replies. "We're gonna find out what Joey and Susie are planning..."
His eyes take on that mischievous shine again.
"...no matter what it takes."
§
As the day goes on, Buddy finds time between hassling with requests from his superiors and avoiding the ticked-off composer to chat with Dot. He slides as sneakily as he can into the writing department and pulls up a chair next to her.
"Hey. Whatcha working on?"
The female pivots in her seat to him; she is around eighteen, with dirty-blonde hair that looks like it might have been curled at one point, and she has wide circular glasses over her tired eyes.
"Just the usual cartoon transcripts." The writer pushes her typewriter towards him so he can read it.
Cheap Seats
[Camera opens on Bendy, whistling as he walks down the street. A paper flying through the air hits his face, causing him to spin into the air and fall onto the ground--after getting up, he peels the paper off his face to reveal its message: "Movie Tonight."]
[Bendy smiles and rushes to a payphone to call Boris.]
[Scene Switch: Boris's Living Room]
[Boris is napping in his chair when he is awoken by the phone. Bendy's arm goes through the phone to show Boris the paper, hitting Boris in the nose by accident. Boris rubs his nose and grunts disapprovingly, before quickly hanging up the phone and going back to sleep.]
[Scene Switch: The Street]
[Bendy plops onto the ground, tears trailing down his face--when someone comes along and wipes them away.]
[Alice
The script abruptly ends there.
"That's all I have done so far," Dot explains. It's been a busy week. We have deadlines here and there--I suspect that Joey doesn't understand how long it takes to do this kind of thing.
Then again, he created the studio...so he should know.
She leaves it at that.
"It's good, it really is," Buddy tells her, wishing he had a better word than 'good.' Because it's a lot better than good. Really, it is. I'm proud of her. "I've been busy, too--Sammy spilled ink on himself and the floor, and he made me clean it. So he's not exactly in the best mood."
She smirks. "Buddy...I don't think Sammy is ever in the best mood."
He laughs. "Yeah, that's true, I guess. But there's something else." The gofer quickly glances around the department in an attempt to see if there's anyone eavesdropping. Nope, noses in their work. Good. "Yesterday, Mister Drew had me deliver some accounting papers to Mister Cohen...and when I got there, Mister Cohen was really stressed about something." I mean, I guess that's probably normal for him, but still. "It got even worse when I handed him the papers--he was muttering to himself and everything."
Dot digests this for a quiet moment. "I want to say that it's probably nothing...but it might be something." Dot, you can use words better than that. "I mean, maybe Joey is investing in a new project."
"Besides whatever the GENTs are here for?"
"Perhaps...although I don't have the foggiest idea as to what it can be." He's always dreaming up things, but he doesn't tell anyone until it's too late.
"Hm..." Buddy contemplates. Does this place have enough money to afford a new project? Maybe that was the question Grant was asking--the thing he's so worried about.
"'Hm' indeed," the writer concurs. "I'd go as far to say that Joey had surprised Grant with whatever the new idea was...it's even a possibility that he hadn't warned him about it." It's definitely sketchy--no drawing pun intended.
Time to add that to my notes.
She digs into the nearby pouch she keeps slung around the backing of her chair and withdraws a spiral notebook with her name neatly written in the rightmost corner.
"Is that your writing notebook?" her friend asks.
A pause. "Yes and no. It's for...personal records, rather than my job." Records that I hope to bring to light one day. She flips the tablet open to a specific page and grabs her pen--Buddy leans over and catches a glance of the contents previously written inside.
Grant Cohen
- Stays locked up inside his office--antisocial, or just doesn't have time to wander around?
- Nervous all the time. Why?
- Married to his job.
The intern hurriedly scrawls down:
- Frustrated at his boss for spending money--why? Was he unaware of the new expenses/project? Joey kept secrets from his own accountant?
She snaps the notebook shut and observes her friend's confused look.
"As I said, just some personal records." The writer smiles, but according to Buddy, it's quite an ambiguous expression.
Those are her observations on Grant, he realizes. I bet she has a page dedicated to each worker.
It's no surprise to the gofer that his colleague is extremely intelligent, but even this bit of information--that she keeps tabs on everything happening in the studio--is rather bewildering.
Is she trying to find out what's going on behind closed doors? Or is it just that she wants to get everything straight?
"Buddy?"
He snaps back to reality. "Oh, um, thanks for letting me bounce that off of you. It's good to get a second opinion."
"Of course." Thank you for calling this to my attention.
She peers back down at her journal.
One day, she tells it mentally, I might have to give you up.
But let's hope it doesn't get to that point.
I'd like to keep both of you around for as long as I can.
§
At the end of the day, Susie prepares to once again meet her boss--this time, however, she sets off for her destination without a word to Sammy.
He's going to try to convince me not to go, and I can't have that.
He needs to trust Joey like I do.
It's for the best.
The owner is already waiting for her--rather smugly, she regards--at his door.
"Alice!" He says it as if he has been itching to finally show her what he has planned. "Are you ready to see the project?"
"Yep!" she responds cheerfully. Oooh, what could it possibly be? The anticipation is killing me!
Such a nice change to see someone so full of ambition like myself, the businessman contemplates. "Well, then, let's waste no more time. Follow me."
As the entrepreneur and the voice actress clamber down the visually barren halls, from around the corner two pairs of eyes follow them--one brown and one dark green.
"Are you ready?" Norman whispers to his songbird.
Jack nods; the poet and the projectionist track the other pair's footsteps as the latter stroll through the maze of corridors.
The duos arrive at the door of the GENT worker room; Joey pulls out a key and unlocks it, then ushers Susie inside.
We aren't going to be able to get inside, Jack realizes to his horror as his boss enters the off-limits room.
The lyricist is proven wrong, however--subsequently, his crush reveals a set of keys belonging to a particular janitor.
How did he get ahold of those? Jack is astonished. Wally was in the GENT room all day! "Wha--how--?"
The projectionist fails to hold back his smirk as he silences Jack with a "Shh...I'll tell you later." He waits for a moment just in case Joey and Susie decide to exit...then inserts the key into the slot with a *cltck*.
I'm having déjà vu of when he and I first did this, Norman reminisces as he and the lyricist slither in.
Up on the balcony, the starlet's eyes take in the bulky machine in front of her. Wow...
I guess I should be impressed, she presumes from her boss's proud expression. But...it looks kind of ugly.
"I know it's not the prettiest thing in the world," Joey begins as if he had read her mind. "But it'll work like a charm." Or it should, anyway.
"What does it do?" she questions--Joey hears just a tad of doubt in her voice.
"Brings cartoons to life," he answers casually, as if this is the most normal and obvious subject ever. "But more importantly...it brings dreams to life."
The owner starts pacing like he had in his office the day before.
"Now, this Ink Machine will only work correctly if it has a soul to place within the character it intends to create," he continues, decidedly not mentioning the Ink Demon. "So I would like to ask you, Alice...will you be our angel?"
Under the balcony, Norman and Jack exchange fearful expressions.
Susie is stunned.
How...how is that possible?
"I don't understand--how is it supposed to work? How would I put my soul into a cartoon?" It just doesn't seem achievable...
"Um...well," Joey falters; the hidden workers correctly conclude that their boss isn't exactly positive on that aspect, but the latter rapidly regains his poise. "I believe that you would physically become Alice--like a walking, talking, real-life version of her."
But that doesn't explain how it works! "Yes, but--"
"Enough questions," he interrupts, and this time there is a steely edge to his voice. Not everything has to have a logical explanation. "We'll cross that bridge when we get there."
Jack bites his lip. I'm no law expert, but I think turning someone into a cartoon character using their soul is some kind of illegal. He glances at his spying partner, who is still concentrated on the conversation.
He's really cagey about the entire process, Norman considers. Something is definitely not right here.
"How would I live my normal life, then?" Susie questions.
"Uh, just the way you do now," Joey responds as if people wake up as cartoons and go on with their lives every single day. "But you would take the identity of Alice Angel instead of Susan Campbell."
The voice actress ponders this. Would I really be willing to change myself just to become a star?
I mean...ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to be famous...to have my name in shining lights...
But would it really be me?
And what would my family think? Or my friends? Or Sammy?
"Alice," her boss enunciates softly. "All you have to do is believe, and it will all work out." Each sentence after this statement is like a separate point.
"Belief can make you succeed."
"Belief can make you powerful."
"Belief can make you rich."
"Why, with enough belief...you can even cheat death itself!" What a beautiful...and positively silly thought.
"Don't you want that...Alice?"
She is still hesitant. Yes...I want all those things...
His bright blues meet her hazels. "Then believe in me."
The starlet shrinks slightly under his heavy gaze.
Say no, Susie, and run far, far away, Norman mentally begs her.
Meanwhile, the voice actress thinks, I...
Yes. I know what I have to do.
It doesn't matter what anyone else says.
I want to be happy.
I want to be beautiful.
I'm Alice Angel.
"Mister Drew...I'll be your angel."
The words are worth saying to see his shimmering smile.
Oh no...ohnoohnoohnoohnoNONONONONONO! Jack panics.
"Wonderful," Joey declares. "Then we'll start the procedure on Friday."
She raises her eyebrows. "That soon?" But Sammy and I have our date! "Can't we delay it--?"
"No." The icy tone returns. "It's been delayed long enough." Susie doesn't understand what that last line means--images of Thomas flash through her boss's mind. "If you want to be Alice, you have to earn your halo as soon as possible. I'm being generous by letting you have the days leading up to Friday; cancel any appointments or meetings you might have. I'll regularly stop at your house and pick up your mail so I can drop it off here--."
"Wait, I won't be able to go home?" Maybe I shouldn't have chosen this...
Joey's mouth forms something between a smile and a frown. "No, not at first--but once everything is set up, you'll be able to go out in public. But until then, you'll have to stay here."
Susie has a thousand questions--she rushes to ask them all in one breath. "Where will I live? What will I eat? What about my job?"
"Alice, slow down!" The businessman lifts up fingers as he answers each of the questions. "You'll live here, in the studio. I have a cag--I mean, I have a...secure enclosure that you will inhabit. You can eat the bacon soups in the Tasty Eats machine." He jerks his head to indicate the dispenser in question. "It might become a bit bland, but it's what we got."
A pause ensues, punctuated by Norman's and Jack's heavy breaths.
"As for your job...I'll have to hire a replacement--but she will be temporary. Just until we're ready to put our angel on stage."
A...replacement? Susie's mind echoes with a tad of jealousy for her job. "You promise that she'll be temporary? And the minute I'm revealed, she'll be dismissed?"
Joey's eyes meet hers again. "I promise. Alice, you have to trust me." Believe in me.
Before, the voice actress had enjoyed being called her character's name...but suddenly, it seems like an omen.
I'm split on this...
I want to do it...I really do.
But I guess there's a lot more to it than me saying, "I'm Alice Angel" and transforming into her.
I have to take a chance.
He'll make my dreams come true...and I'll make millions more come true.
It's a win-win situation.
Ignoring the slight voice in her head telling her to reject this whole plan, she finally gives her answer.
"Okay. Let's do it."
Susie...no... Norman has a desire to unveil himself and step in to stop her. But...there's nothing I can do about it...
"Wonderful!" Joey announces. "Then it's set--prepare yourself for Friday."
The cameraman senses the lyricist cling to his arm in terror as the entrepreneur and voice actress bid each other adieu and exit; the door is locked with a *cht*.
There's a moment of silence as the projectionist and poet emerge from their hiding spot and run over what just happened in their minds.
"T-That...t-that is terrible," Jack says finally. "W-What are we g-going to do?"
Norman sighs. "I hate to admit it, songbird, but I don't think that we can do anything. She's got it set in her head that this is what she wants--all we can really do is try to change her mind by hinting that maybe she shouldn't go through with 'whatever opportunity' he had offered her, while still pretending like we don't know the details." But that won't fly...
"It's im-p-possible..." We just witnessed Susie agree to her doom.
"You're right."
There's another silence, this one more sorrowful--despite the fact that Susie will be with them for the rest of the week...it already feels like they have lost her.
The two exhale dejectedly.
"Well, I guess we should go home then," Norman suggests. That's the end of the show.
Speechlessly, the duo traverse up the stairs, and the projectionist unlocks the door.
"Wait--y-you were going to explain h-how you got ahold of t-those," Jack remembers.
His friend smiles, but his eyes are still sad. "Ah. Well, I started chatting with Wally just before he left...and I took them right off his hip. It was really awkward, especially because I had to distract him so I could grab them." It would have been awkwarder still if I had gotten caught.
"That was b-bold of you...b-but it was worth i-it." I guess, anyway...at least we figured out what is going on.
"Yeah..." is all the other says in reply.
The two walk to the studio doors, still sneaking around despite the fact that Susie and Joey have already left.
Norman scans the horizon as he holds the door open for his crush.
I'm not good at goodbyes.
"Um...well, see you tomorrow, I guess."
"You too."
As the projectionist shuffles over to the street to hail a taxi, he continues to think about what he and Jack had witnessed.
I hope we can convince her to not become...something she is not.
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Joey strides into his kitchen, on his way to his favorite bottle.
I just need a little bit to numb the stress...just a little buzz. To drown out all the anxiety.
Then I'll be okay.
He doesn't even bother getting out a glass this time--after popping the cork, the man lifts the container to his lips.
I'm the only one who drinks out of it, so what the hell?
The familiar grape taste splashes onto his tongue, but it takes a few more sips than usual to achieve the warm feeling.
Huh. Guess my body's a bit slow on the uptake.
His mind drifts to the events of the day--particularly what had happened after hours.
If she keeps her end of the deal up, it should all work out.
She just has to believe in me.
A mental pause.
Unlike some people who don't.
Yes, Thomas comes to mind...but someone else breaks into it, too: his stepfather.
Joey reminisces of the time he had with his mother--for years, it was just her and him.
She had explained to him when he was seven that Joey's father had left her once he had found out she was pregnant.
"He was a very kind man," she had said to her son when he had asked about his absent parent. "He...just wasn't ready for children." Joey had thought there was more to add to that statement, but never questioned it out loud.
The young Drew had often wondered what his father looked like--Joey presumes that he must have inherited his dad's traits, as he didn't look much like his female parent apart from his eyes.
However, mother and son were happy together for a long time, even without a male adult's presence.
"Always believe, Joseph," his mother had always told him. "Believe in magic, believe in others, but most importantly, believe in yourself." That's where Joey had come up with his philosophy.
But everything changed when his mom announced that she had met a man--this statement was odd to her son, as she had never beforehand expressed interest in finding another partner.
"A boy should have a father figure to look up to," she had explained passively to him.
Some father he turned out to be, Joey thinks, drinking his wine.
His mother's boyfriend--and later husband--seemed to always be disappointed in his partner's child, whether it be from his grades in school to his drawing hobby.
He never believed in me...
Whenever his stepfather addressed Joey around others, the latter was always "my wife's son."
Never "my son." Joey swallows. Though I guess that's a good thing--I'd have hated to be related to him.
Bitterness and resentment boiled between the two men, but they kept it a secret from the female of the house.
We both loved her enough to do that.
Then his mother became abruptly and extremely ill--college-age Joey had put aside his classes to come visit her for about a month.
That was the worst month of my life. His stepfather, bereaved, had gotten after him for every little mistake--a week before her death, Mrs. Drew finally became aware of the coldness between her son and husband. The two men, after being tearfully told off by the woman they loved, agreed to put their petty fights down and take care of her.
But after she passed away, the tension grew even worse...until one day Joey got in a particularly bad argument with his stepfather.
I don't even remember what it was about...but I remember what he said.
"YOU'RE NOT MY SON!" his stepfather had yelled.
Joey had seethed, "WELL, YOU'RE NOT MY FATHER, AND YOU NEVER WILL BE!"
The older man then kicked the younger one out of the house; back at college, Henry had tried his best to comfort his business partner, but to little avail.
After he graduated, Joey took the first chance he came across to travel away from his small hometown in Michigan and live in the Big Apple. Henry soon followed suit, and that was how the location of the studio was decided.
I had to get away from him.
He never believed in me or anyone or anything else.
The businessman realizes he is attempting to pour an empty bottle--he had drunk the rest of the wine while he was flashing back.
Shit. So much for enjoying it while it lasted.
At least I feel a little better.
He gazes somewhat forlornly at his reflection in the bottle.
It's like I've lost a friend...
I really want some more...
But the kitchen is beginning to look a bit blurry.
Ugh...I might be a teeny bit tipsy.
But it's a good kind of tipsy...
His thoughts begin to become slow and delirious.
Alice...
Believe...
She will be the angel.
The angel of this world's stage.
Chapter 17: Chapter Fifteen - No Cancellations
Notes:
[From original Wattpad edition]
A/N - Hi, everyone. So...despite not being the world's best artist (that's an understatement--I'm positively awful), I decided to draw headshots for the Drowned characters. I published the art at the beginning of Chapter One.
Thank you, and have a spectacular day!
[Since I obviously can't publish art on AO3, this doesn't really apply--I merely kept it to inform anyone who may want to see the picture. Sorry, but you'll have to go to Wattpad to see it. (*^_^*) ]
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The next day--Wednesday--Susie steps into the music department...but today, instead of being her normally chatty self, she is rather quiet and troubled.
I can't accidently let anything slip...
But I need to tell Sammy...
How do I explain it without explaining it to him?
On cue, the composer earnestly strolls over to her, arms open wide. "My angel! I missed you!" Are you finally going to tell me about whatever it is you're planning?
Please...I need to know...
Just ease my worries...
"Hi, handsome," she replies, trying her best to sound casual. Well...now's the time. Think, Susie, think!
"I figured I'd visit you before I get the band going," Sammy continues, hitting the end of the baton in his right hand against his left. "How did last night go?"
She falls reticent for minute before answering, "It went well...and I'm taking the opportunity he's offering. But--"
"That's great!" he congratulates her. Maybe I didn't need to worry after all--she's still here.
"Samuel, wait." The starlet hesitates. "There's...more to it than that. I...you...you're not going to see me for a while."
She feels positively awful as she watches his face fall. I'm so sorry, honey...
"What?" The musician's voice is despaired and weak. "You're...you're leaving?"
No! That can't be right! She only just started working four or five months ago! He couldn't have fired her!
"Nononono!" Susie hurriedly clarifies. "I mean, I'll be here for the rest of the week, then I'll have to leave. But I will return." Another falter. "But...I'll look a bit different when I come back."
His forlorn expression mutates into perplexity. "Huh?" Is she going to get a makeover or something? "Susie, I don't understand--"
The voice actress sighs. "You can't understand; well, moreover, you won't be able to understand until it's finished."
"Until what is finished?"
She doesn't know how to answer that. "...the thing I'm going to do." Please...I need you to stop asking questions. "I'll be okay, I promise." The female puts her hands on the male's shoulders. "And you'll be okay too--I know you will. Remember, your angel will return." And in her best form.
The conductor analyzes this before asking, "How soon?"
A moment of silence.
"I...I'm not sure. But it won't be long." Trust me. "I'll be back with you as soon as possible."
After a bit more scrutinizing, he decides to believe her. "Okay..."
The voice actress lays her head against her boyfriend's chest and listens to the *thunk thunk thunk* of his heartbeat.
"I'll be fine, and you will be too," she vows as he wraps his arms around her.
"Right," he agrees, more to appease her than to convince himself. It's fine...it's all fine. Everything will work out.
But...why do I still feel a sense of impending doom?
Like there's something I don't know about all of this...
He releases her and studies her exit.
This is all too much, the musician exasperates as he heads toward the recording room to get the orchestra started.
Meanwhile, Susie passes by the projector booth, where Jack and Norman are already waiting; the starlet halts at the mention of her name from the latter.
"Yes? What is it?"
The projectionist and the poet exchange nervous glances. "Um...so whatever thing you're planning to do--"
How do they know about that? Susie mentally questions. I guess that they were eavesdropping on Sammy and I...
She is not angry at them for that, however. It's nice of them to care so much about me!
"--just...know that you don't have to follow through with it," Norman finishes awkwardly. That sounds so vague...but what else is there to add? "I mean, you have the final say."
The males are dismayed by the female's confounded expression.
Jack decides to speak up in an attempt to clarify. "S-Susie...y-you sh--"
"Alice!" interrupts Joey all-too-audibly. "Our angel! If you'll just step aside for a second, I would like to give you something."
"Sorry, I have to go," the voice actress apologizes to her flabbergasted co-workers. I never realized just how popular I am with everyone here! Ha!
She darts over to her boss, who turns his back to the other employees. "What is it?"
He smiles that mysterious grin--the one that could mean anything--and drops his voice. "I'm afraid to admit that I forgot to mention a certain aspect of the scheme we have arranged; since you ever-so-willingly agreed to be the angel of this world...I believe you should be rewarded."
The businessman surreptitiously hands her a small rectangular piece of paper--when she unfolds it, it is revealed to be a check.
"Huh?" she utters as her eyes take in the little details of this stationery, from the fancy swirls printed upon it to Joey's loopy signature in the corner. My payday isn't until Friday... "I don't--"
"You do," the owner finishes for her. "I have generously decided to double your salary--just one of the many perks you'll get from this job." A dramatic pause ensues, and his voice shifts slightly. "Of course...if you are thinking about taking back your agreement, I can easily revoke it." He clenches onto the check with three fingers. "...But you aren't debating such things...are you, Alice?"
His tone is somewhat threatening, and she knows what she has to say. "No, no, of course not." Wow...fame and fortune! "I definitely want to do this--no cancellations."
That's right, Joey confirms. No cancellations. Keep that in mind, Alice; I can't have a fickle angel. "That is all, then--you are dismissed."
Susie heads on her way with a spring to her step--she's finally completely happy with her decision.
Who would ever pass up a chance like this?
What could possibly go wrong?
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Sammy continues to anguish over his beloved as he impatiently waits for the studio band to finish setting up.
I don't think she knows what she's getting into...
But maybe it's nothing to fret about...
She seems really sure of herself...
But she's always like that, despite any future consequences...
Back and forth go his worries, like a mental seesaw.
Maybe I should just put this aside and get to work. "Come ON, people! We don't have all day!"
The composer's eyes hit an inkwell near his music stand--evidently left there by a careless Art Department worker--and a sudden jolt convulses through him.
It's almost as if the ink is calling his name...
"Sammy...Sammy..."
Even odder still is the craving the musician is having...a craving to...get the ink inside of him.
Like thirst...
I...want to...consume it...
He recognizes how terrible that sounds.
No! Why would I even think such a thing? Ink is poisonous!
What the hell is wrong with me?
He sharply pivots away from the inkwell...but still it seems to mock him.
Ignore it, Samuel.
Ignore this crazy feeling...
Ignore the worries...
And focus.
In the projector booth, Jack and Norman are still perplexed as to what to do about Susie.
"We...c-can't just l-let her go through with i-it," the former enunciates dismally. There has to be a way to stop her...
The cameraman scoots closer to the lyricist. "I think we've done all we can--there's no changing her mind." He sighs as images of a walking, talking Alice Angel flutter through his mind. "She'll just have to deal with the consequences after it's finished. In the meantime, we just have to live our lives..." And pretend we don't know a thing.
"Yeah..." Jack replies vaguely as Sammy calls upon Norman to switch on the projector; all the lights go out as the familiar *click* is heard.
The poet takes a deep breath.
"Um...flicker?"
Those steadfast, warm brown eyes focus on the greens as the orchestra begins their first piece. "Yes?"
The writer feels himself blush as he reaches into his pocket and withdraws something. "I-I-I...want to give you s-something...since you g-gave me that c-chocolate..."
He reveals the object: a black, fabric-woven bracelet with a pearl in the center held in place by a silver clasp. "I-It's a gift I got f-from Aaron...before he..." A pause. "Um...anyway...he told me t-that p-pearls symbolize r-rarity in the w-world...and t-t-that they're r-really special..." Come on, Jack--quit with the hemming and hawing and give it to him! "So...I-I want to g-give it t-to you b-b-because--"
The last words come out like a flood.
"--you'rereallyreallyspecialtome." Red-faced, the poet thrusts the bracelet toward its recipient.
Norman feels his own face heat up as he carefully places his hand on the pearl in the center--it's satisfyingly smooth. "Jack..."
The cameraman wraps the lyricist into a hug.
"Thank you, songbird." I love it, I love this...
I love you.
When they untwine, both of their faces are bright crimson; Norman hands drift down Jack's arms as he moves closer.
The other leans forward slightly...
"Is Sammy watching?"
Norman also inclines, throwing a glance toward the orchestra; indeed, Sammy is too caught up in his work to be paying attention to what is going on in the dark booth. The brown eyes meet the dark greens again.
"Would it matter if he was?"
The poet and the projectionist are about two inches apart.
"No..." Jack whispers, closing his eyes.
Then their lips meet...and it's amazing--fireworks explode in their hearts, and glitter douses their minds.
The instrumentalists are still playing when the two finally separate.
EEEEEEEE! Norman's mind celebrates. I JUST KISSED JACK FAIN! WHAT A FEELING!
The lyricist is at more peace with himself than he has been in a long time. That...was marvelous. He realizes he still has the bracelet in hand. "Here..."
Norman extends his wrist, and Jack winds the jewelry around it.
"Thank you...really..."
The poet smiles that shy smile. I'm glad he likes it...
As the band blares out their final note, the two draw closer once more.
Let's forget about the world for a while, the projectionist mentally tells his partner, knowing that Jack is figuratively reading his mind.
Forget the chaos...and the lies, and the secrets...
Just let it be you and I for now.
§
In a different and romance-free part of the studio--Heavenly Toys--Shawn is painting smiles on ceramic Bendys while debating how to solve his own love dilemma.
I guess it's not exactly normal for friends to hug and coo and cuddle as much as we do...
And I made that sweater for him...do friends knit clothes for each other?
It's finally becoming clear to him.
I've loved him for a long time...and I'm just now noticing it.
I can't believe I didn't recognize my own feelings...
The toymaker sighs as he brushes a tooth onto the current Little Devil Darling.
But what if he doesn't like me like that? I don't want to put him in an awkward position if I confess.
But I also don't want to hide my feelings forever...
Shawn's mind is flourishing with thoughts of Wally, Wally, Wally.
He's amazing...
I want him. I want him so badly.
But...what if he doesn't want me?
The craftsman finally glimpses at his work; he perceives that he had messed up.
Shit...the smiles are crooked...
Ah well. It's just a few of 'em.
His attention drifts back to the janitor.
I miss him...
But he'll be back soon. He always comes back.
For now, I guess I'll have to deal with what I have:
Smirking toys and a lovesick heart.
§
Back at his house, Joey heads for his kitchen.
It all worked out fine! Good job, me! he mentally congratulates himself.
And now...time for my reward.
He remembers that he had consumed the rest of his wine the day before.
Oh yeah...
Well...I guess it's not like I need it.
But there's a lingering, unquenchable thirst in his throat.
I'm...dry...
I...just need a little bit...
Just a little.
Scouring his house for whatever little bit of alcohol he can find, his mind drifts to the voice actress he has in mind to take over Susie's position--temporarily.
I trust that she hasn't told Thomas yet--otherwise I'd have gotten a talk from him.
Probably will get one pretty soon, though...
But I'm the boss. I'll show him.
To the man's delight, he finds his desired liquid--in the form rather squat bottle of vodka.
Wonder where I got this from.
Bah, who cares? Joey makes quick work of twisting the cork off and tipping the vial.
The owner gets an unpleasant surprise, though; the liquid burns as it goes down, and he almost spits it out.
Yuck!
Another glance at the bottle.
Okay, what was I expecting? he realizes. It's a mixer, not an aloner. It's going to taste terrible by itself.
But...
He takes another swig; although it still stings, it's not as bad as before.
You're getting pretty desperate to drink that, chimes in that Henry voice.
Where did you come from?! Joey thinks back aggressively. And I'm not desperate, by the way.
Considering what happened yesterday, I would advise you to quit while you can, the Henry voice continues.
Shut up! You don't control me! Joey's own thoughts shout back--it's times like this he's glad Henry had left. He was so naggy. Always "advising" me. I don't need advice! And I can quit if I want, when I want. The last point is more to himself than to the phantom voice.
He sets the bottle back on the countertop. See, I'm quitting right now. I'm fine.
Shoving the bottle back and feeling relieved to be back in his own brain, the businessman focuses his attention to the future Alice Angel once more.
Remember what I said, dear Alice...
No cancellations.
Chapter 18: Chapter Sixteen - I'm Alice Angel
Notes:
A/N - Ha, so...um, funny thing. Up until this point, I didn't know about the rich text option on this website...so while I was moving this all over, I manually added the HTML codes for italicizing/bolding/underlining/etc. in that format.
*laughs in wasted time* Dear God, I feel dumb.
Thank you to BoredKidLikesBATIM for pointing out this feature to me (Seriously, I don't know where I would have been now if it weren't for you)!
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Finally, the formidable Friday arrives...
Sammy vows to himself to spend all of this day with the departing voice actress--but unfortunately, she isn't around right at this moment.
Where...where is my angel?
The composer feels absolutely pathetic without her...like a piece of him is missing.
I need to find her...
Before she...
No.
No more wasting time.
He rises from his desk and starts toward his door.
Opening it produces a *creak* and reveals a surprise: a certain toymaker is on the other side.
Hm? "Um...hi, Shawn," the musician greets him, confused. "What brings you to this neck of the woods?"
Shawn scratches the back of his neck nervously. How do I word this? "Um...well...I...I need some advice."
Half-flattered that someone is asking him for his opinion, and half-annoyed that this whole scenario is getting in the way of him searching for Susie, Sammy huffs before asking, "What kind of advice?"
There's a slight hesitation from the other before he answers, "...Love advice." You just seem like the guy to ask. A deep breath. "Um...so I kind of have this...interest in someone--."
"Wally," Sammy interrupts--it's not a guess, but rather a statement.
The craftsman's eyebrows shoot upward as he tints pink. "Uh, yes. How did you know?" It's really that obvious?
"Shawn," the composer begins softly, "everyone knows. You two spend every moment you can with each other."
The toymaker's face flushes a shade of red akin to his hair. Even the other workers figured out that I like him before I did...
"Now, what is it you need?" Sammy continues. "You two have a fight or something?"
"Nonono," the other rapidly clarifies. "It's just...I realized that I love him...and I don't know what to--."
Once again, the musician cuts him off. "Tell him. He loves you, too--again, it's really clear to the rest of us. So tell him, Shawn...before you lose the chance to."
Listen to yourself, Sammy, the composer's mind points out. You have a special phrase to say to a certain angel in your life, too. Go! Now!
"Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go." Sammy dismisses himself.
"Oh...um, thanks then," Shawn expresses to the other's retreating back. Well...that was easier than I thought. He's in quite a hurry, though.
So I just have to wait until our next meeting...and say the three little words.
Easy...
...right?
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Sammy eventually finds his sweetheart in the break room and continues to stay around her throughout the rest of the day, even pushing aside his work just to spend time with the starlet.
I can't let her go yet...
No final regrets. I have to tell her.
On the other hand, Susie is finding Sammy to be a bit clingy; however, she doesn't say anything, because she knows the reason why.
He's too worried about me...thinking he's going to lose me.
But how do I get him to understand that it'll still be me?
A mental sigh.
I never realized just how... inconvenient ...secrets are...
At last, howbeit, the end of the day arrives--it's time to bid the angel adieu.
The female pulls the other close to her in a rather futile attempt to comfort him.
"It'll all work out fine, dear. I promise."
The musician frowns as he internally runs over all problems that had developed in the past week: the ink spilling on him (and the strange cravings he has been having), Joey being obnoxious, the unexpected visit from Shawn...and of course, Susie leaving.
It's all happening too fast...
Too much going on at a rapid pace...
Make it stop! Someone! Please!
But he refuses to let his beau down.
No. I have to be brave.
For her.
"Yes...yes it will." How I hope that will be true... "Good luck."
She shines that glamourous smile. I've finally got through to him! "Thank you..."
The voice actress leans in and kisses him for a marvelous two seconds, then pulls back and grasps his hands. "Remember...I promise to be back."
Hold up! Sammy realizes something that had previously slipped his mind. How could I forget?!
I even told myself no final regrets!
"Susie, wait!"
The female pivots. "Yes?"
SayitsayitsayitSAYITSAYIT! the composer's brain screams at him. "I love you."
She races back to him and throws her arms around him. "Aw, Samuel...I love you too." I'll always be your angel, forever and ever.
That one little phrase alleviates his worries significantly. There...now it's done.
Now...I just wait for her to return.
After flashing that grin one last time, she glides away elegantly; visions of her future form dance in her head.
Alice and I...we're going places!
§
It takes a tad longer than usual for Joey to arrive at their agreed meeting place--the door of the Ink Machine room. Susie checks her watch.
Did he forget?
No, that can't be...you don't just plan something as big as this and forget about it. Besides, we agreed on no cancellations.
*Tick, tick, tick.* The ever-moving second hand punctuates each moment that the boss doesn't show up.
After what feels like an eternity to the starlet--but in reality is only about five minutes--Joey's footsteps foreshadow his entrance.
"Hello, Alice--I apologize for my tardiness," he conveys almost immediately. "I'm afraid to say I got caught up in a...slight disagreement with one of my workers." Tommy should have known I would crush his complaints in an instant. I don't care if he has anything to say about it--she agreed to the job. I'm the boss, and it's my decision. "But it's all worked out now--we may continue our little ritual."
Susie clasps her hands in excitement as he unlocks the door. This...this is incredible! I'm going to be a pioneer in the field of angels!
The duo enter the semi-ominous room, with the female surveying the area in thrilled curiosity and the male mentally piecing together what exactly they plan to do.
"We'll make this as simple as possible," he begins, gesturing to each component of the Ink Machine as he mentions them. "First, I put this picture"--the owner proudly holds up a sketch of Alice Angel--"into this little slot over here. You will be sitting under this spout, which will drench you in magical ink--"
This bewilders Susie; what Joey is ever-so-casually speaking of seems fanciful...even impossible. Magical ink? That's a thing? How...?
"--which then will turn you into a real-life Alice Angel!" the businessman finishes enthusiastically. If it works out, anyway, continues his mind; he shuts those doubts down with, No. All we have to do is believe. Believe, believe, believe, and it will happen! "Understand?"
There's a pause before she replies hesitantly, "Not exactly..." (Joey exasperates, How much more straightforward could I possibly make it?) "Firstly, what is magical ink?"
A marvelous substance, he muses--but instead he answers, "Exactly what it sounds like."
"Yes, but--"
The businessman's tone shifts to a slightly colder one. "Why does it matter, as long as it works?" That's like questioning why alcohol makes someone calmer--it doesn't matter. If the shoe fits, wear it. "Just believe, Alice."
Maybe it is the thing that caused those scars, she contemplates. Realizing that he's not going to give her a better answer, the ex-voice actress moves on to her next question. "So...this magical ink...it'll one hundred percent turn me into Alice?"
"Yes," he affirms. "The illusion of living."
"Huh?"
"The illusion of living," Joey repeats. "The ink will turn you physically into Alice--giving you the appearance of her." Now please stop asking silly questions so I can get home and...
He doesn't finish the thought.
"Right..." she says rather unsurely. I hope it's more than an illusion, though. I want to be the real deal. "One last thing, then."
His eyes narrow, causing her to hurriedly inquire, "I just want to know if the ink will stain my clothes."
A stunned silence.
"A chance to bring Alice to life...and you're worried about the ink staining your clothes?!" the owner questions incredulously. Stalling, stalling, stalling!
"Well, yes," Susie responds, considering that it may have been better to not bring the subject up. "I mean, this is an expen--"
"You'll be fine," he deadpans. "Now, no more of this--get into your place."
The woman shuffles over to the hideous Ink Machine spout and slides under it, with her back facing the contraption. This is much more awkward than I thought it would be...
But it will be worth it.
I know it will.
Meanwhile, Joey ambles over to the slot in the machine and slips the sketch in it. See, Thomas? I can do it all by myself.
I don't need permission to become successful.
"Are you ready?"
His voice has returned to its normal tone--the ex-voice actress cheerfully replies, "Yes!"
So now it happens...
I...
A drip of ink on her forehead drowns out that thought.
Then there's more drips, and they begin to burn; Susie shuts her eyes, almost wanting to scream as it gets worse and worse.
He...never said...pain!
The ink floods over her...more aches gather near her head.
From the outside, Joey observes this entire scene.
It's like she's drowning...but for a good cause.
A tiny spark of greed glints in his blue eyes.
Soon, the angel will rise from the ink...and at the same time, descend from the heavens.
And it will be me who receives the glory for bringing her to earth.
Me,
me,
me
,
me.
The agony finally subsides...and the female's eyes flutter open.
"I'm...I'm Alice Angel."
A great euphoria glows throughout both parties.
"Indeed you are," Joey agrees. See, it worked out! Was there ever a doubt? "That was simple, right?" He answers his own question. "Yes, it was."
Alice extends her arms and examines them--from her fingertips to just after her elbows are dark stains representative of gloves. As her eyes move onto her torso and legs, she realizes that the ink somehow changed her old clothes into a simple ink-black flapper dress with a white bow attached on the back.
I guess that must be because that's what she--I mean, I--wear.
I didn't even have to worry about the stains, then...but does that mean I won't be able to wear anything except this, then?
The angel discerns that her boss has disappeared. Huh? Where did he--?
Her question already receives its answer: Joey arrives back with a hand mirror retrieved from a drawer in his office.
After handing her the object, she looks into its reflective surface...
She's--I'm--beautiful.
Hovering above her head is a shiny white halo.
I'm really an angel!
"You love it?" the owner asks, already knowing the answer from her glimmering smile.
"Yes! Definitely!" I'm even better than I thought I would be!
I'm Alice Angel!
"Now then," Joey continues, "I originally planned to put you into that 'enclosure' I had mentioned before...but since no one is going to be here over the weekend, I'll allow you free reign of the studio--as long as you get into your cage before anyone enters on Monday. We can't risk anyone seeing you just yet." I'm looking at you, Tommy.
Cage? the heavenly woman questions. "Wait, I thought you said as soon as we were finished making me into Alice, I could go back to living my life normally."
"Yes, but also no," he answers swiftly. "We have to train our angel to act as she does in the cartoons--and that will be our mission next week."
"So when will I be able to return?"
Two seconds of silence. "I'll just say that the quicker you 'pick up' the right identity, Alice, the quicker you can go back. It's up to you to decide how long that will be." And I still have to show you the theater, don't I? Ooo, next week will be fun.
It sounds like acting with extra steps, Alice contemplates, but vows to herself to learn as promptly as possible.
"Everything is settled then," Joey decides. "Feel free to help yourself to Bacon Soups and the like--you'll be the only one here." He beckons for her to follow him out of the Ink Machine room.
Should I tell her about Bendy? he wonders.
Nah, it's better if she doesn't know. Ignorance is bliss.
The two say their goodbyes, and the boss steps out into the parking lot.
She'll do well as long as she stays true to the cause.
Good luck, Alice Angel.
§
Back at his house, the owner engages in his usual routine of walking straight into the kitchen--where his 'bottle of happiness' is waiting for him.
He didn't have any to drink on Thursday in an attempt to prove to that arguing voice in his mind that he is not overdoing it...but today, Joey's mindset is different.
I have the right to celebrate my achievements, he thinks as he opens the container of the strong-smelling liquid and tips it up.
Dear vodka, you taste awful...but DAMN , do you make me feel good inside!
Feeling extremely pleased with himself for bringing a cartoon to life successfully, he keeps 'rewarding' himself...
I'm on top of the world! The king! Best king!
Henry would have never let me do this...never would have experienced this level of success...
"IsN't tHaT a BiT iNsEnSiTiVe, JoEy?"
No, no it's not--it's the path to success! No matter what Tommy or Henry or whoever says!
I'm in control!
...until the liquid is gone.
...Huh? Whyyyyyyy?
That sedative sensation starts to be replaced with a headache...and the room is spinning...
And suddenly he's feeling really, really tired...
Joey clings to his table to steady himself; he sets the now-empty bottle back on what he thinks is the counter.
I...I'mma have the hangover from hell tomorrow...
He drunkenly stumbles into his bedroom, trying to ignore the growing pang in his head and the blurry revolving of his world; after touching his sheets to make sure they're still there, he crawls into the mattress and lies down, not even bothering to change clothes.
I...I'm okay...
The man hits his head on the headboard. "Ow..."
While shuffling downward in a futile effort to make himself comfortable, he tightens the blankets around him...
...and finally falls into an uneasy sleep.
Chapter 19: Chapter Seventeen - Mistakes and Miracles
Notes:
A/N - I apologize profusely for the great delay in publishing this; the editing process took much longer than expected due to unforeseen and unavoidable external factors. I assure you that it usually does not take this long; to make it up to you, I'll try to publish Chapter Eighteen early. Once again, I'm so sorry.
However, you will be seeing new content from me soon--I am working on BATIM Christmas one-shots! I will have them posted by December 25 (and they don't go through editing, so you won't have to worry about a delay ( ;;^ ω ^ ) ).
Thank you, and have a marvelous week!
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It's a sunny day outside the colossal doors of Joey Drew Studios, where a woman with long brown hair stands. She turns and looks back at her husband, who is closely sauntering behind her.
"Now if he makes you uncomfortable--" Thomas tells Allison, "--or sad, or angry, or absolutely anything at all, you just come straight to me--I'll take care of it. Joey Drew is no match for me.
"I will," she vows calmly, squeezing his hand. He definitely has some vengeance for Mister Drew...
She recalls all the times Thomas had returned home fuming at his employer, whether it be from his sheer stubbornness ("He won't listen to a word anyone else says!") or due to his suspicious nature ("He's planning something...I just know it. Meddling in things he shouldn't...").
Indeed, the construction worker had seethed once he had found out that Allison was to be Susie's replacement.
"It's not you, it's him ," Thomas had assured her. "He's off his rocker!"
"Tom, you know that I will take care of myself," she had peacefully expressed. "I always do--and if anything happens, I'll do what I have to."
Thomas trusts his wife's judgement on that. She knows what she's doing...
If there's a problem, she can solve it.
Still...
I cannot afford to let him hurt her.
Allison holds open the door for him and asks where to go first. "I presume his office, to check in."
"I suppose so..." he answers, with Joey's smug face already looming in his brain. She had it great at Archgate's...what did he do to convince her to work for him?
A pay raise, maybe? I could use one of those.
What's worse, he had the guts to even think of hiring her for himself...
But maybe...he did it just to spite me.
Yes. That sounds just like him.
The two journey over to the owner's office; the voice actress knocks on the door.
"Mister Drew, sir?"
Silence.
And then the door *creeeak*s open to reveal a very exhausted-looking Joey.
Can't a guy take a nap in pe--oh, it's them. Despite his fatigued demeanor, the businessman's voice is bright and cheery. "Ah! Miss Connor! Right on time!" He pays absolutely no attention to Thomas. "Well then, I suppose a tour of the place is in order--even if the position is temporary, I want you to get the feel of this magical stu--"
" I can show her around," the construction worker interrupts coldly. The last thing I need is you messing with her brain with your dream mumbo jumbo. Besides...I want to stay with her for as long as possible.
Less of a chance of things going haywire that way.
Joey debates arguing with Thomas...but decides that it's not worth it. I'll let him have his way... for now .
But only because I want to go back to sleep--you're lucky, Tommy. If I had more energy, I'd show her more than you ever could!
He smugly smirks at the other man. "Fine--you just do that, then."
Hmm...why didn't he bite back? Thomas wonders. There's something else...he couldn't have just let me win.
The GENT worker menacingly leans closer to the owner and lowers his voice. "We will." I'm not playing your games anymore. He turns back to glance at his wife. "Let's go, Allison." Let the trash take itself out.
The couple exit the hallway, and Joey goes back into his office--before he goes to lay his head on his desk again, however, he skims a box in the corner of the room.
It isn't necessarily part of his job, but Joey likes to 'check over' the products made by his workers.
I expect the absolute best from them--a tiny mistake can mean big sale loss.
The box contains the ceramic Bendys that Shawn had been working on before; Joey slides over to it and plucks one out.
The poor piece of pottery smiles cheekily through its suffering under the boss's bitter glare...but something is wrong with that grin.
What... what is this?! the businessman analyzes the toy harshly.
No...no. This won't do at all.
§
After a rather short tour of the new workplace, Allison and Thomas prepare to go their separate ways.
"There just really isn't much to the place," the latter explains. And while I admit I haven't seen all of it...I know what it's like without experiencing it.
It's not the "magical" studio he says it is.
Just a jumble of winding, never-ending corridors that reek of broken dreams...
A place only he could love.
A mental pause.
But I won't let him break your dreams... I'll make sure of that.
I can't let him take away what means the most to me.
Despite all of this running through his mind, all that the construction worker says is, "Good luck with everything...if you need me, just ask and someone will come get me." He had decidedly not directed her to the Ink Machine room during the tour--instead, he just told her that the GENT workers had a special top-secret area.
I don't want to worry her with...that thing .
Allison wonders what exactly her husband is working on, but doesn't question it. I'm sure he has a good reason for not telling me.
With that, Thomas watches the voice actress walk down to the music department.
Maybe...
Maybe I don't have to worry...she'll be okay.
She's smart. She can handle it.
Allison steps into the composition section of the studio and takes it in--her eyes travel from the neat wooden floor up to the top of the projector booth, where Jack and Norman are having an informal date with coffee and chocolate. The former's green eyes flash with anxiety and confusion at the sight of the stranger; he ducks behind his boyfriend.
Norman speaks up, "Hi, miss. Who are you?" Wait, let me think about this--maybe she has something to do with Susie's dismissal. A replacement?
"Allison Connor." She smiles brightly. "I'm temporarily taking over Susan's spot as Alice's voice actress. And you are?"
Jack peeks out from behind the projectionist as the latter answers, "Norman Polk--the projectionist." Temporarily, huh? the cameraman contemplates. She did say that she would be back...but how long will she be gone, then? Obviously more than a few days, otherwise she wouldn't really require a substitute. He rubs the poet's shoulder to help calm him down.
"I see," the voice actress replies. "Nice to meet you, Norman." She bends her head slightly and waves at the hiding man. "Hi!"
A hesitation...then Jack emerges timidly, still clinging to the projectionist. "Hi...I-I'm Jack Fain...um, t-the lyricist." Come on, why can't I just talk normally? "N-Nice t-to meet you...Allison." Wow...I already miss Susie.
I mean...there's nothing wrong with this one...
But...
It just doesn't feel right without Susie's...Susie-ness.
He picks up a piece of a chocolate bar and pops it in his mouth. This Allison seems nice, though...so maybe I can get used to her.
Besides, it's temporary...
Right?
"Ah, then hello, Jack," Allison greets him. These two seem cute.
Her blue eyes hit the other person in this vicinity--the crabby Sammy Lawrence plucking at a banjo, with an inkwell sitting on a music stand next to him.
He notices the new worker noticing him, and shifts his back to her.
That's a bit rude, Allison ruminates, but strolls over to him. "Hello, sir. I'm--"
"Allison Connor," he cuts her off coldly. "I heard." Now leave me alone.
The female is stunned for a silent moment before regaining her speech.
"Um, well...who are you, then?" She maintains her pleasant voice. Remember, Allison--you don't know his whole story. There's a reason for his behavior.
There's always a reason. Even when you can't understand it.
"Samuel Lawrence," the composer answers curtly, still not looking at her. "Now go away--I'm busy."
She stole Susie's job! he thinks grievously. My angel is gone...because of her !
A few seconds pass before Allison calmly heads back to the projector booth. I would really like to help him...he seems a little stressed.
But I also think that he doesn't want help.
Maybe once he adjusts to my presence, he'll warm up to me.
"He's kind of upset about Susie leaving," Norman explains. "He and her were a couple." Still...that doesn't really give him a reason to act like that toward you.
Oh, that makes sense , the voice actress considers. "I understand. Well, I'm sure he'll get to see her soon--I'll only be here for as long as she is gone."
From his corner of the room, Sammy scoffs. They act like I can't hear them! And I think I have a right to be upset! The composer eyes the projectionist and the poet enviously. I mean, how would those two like it if one of them suddenly disappeared?!
Jack detects that the instrumentalist is fixated on him--and comes to an odd realization.
Is he...envying me ?
The poet reflects on all the times he himself had turned discontent eyes upon his fellow musician...but now, he suddenly feels guilty for even thinking like that.
I always thought he had it better than me...
But...
Norman is right--Sammy has flaws, too.
I guess both of us have green eyes...literally and figuratively.
Sammy pivots in his seat and snubs the group once again; the envious, light-green eyes focus instead on the inkwell at his side.
Guess it's just you and I.
"Is that so bad, Samuel?" it seems to taunt.
The composer considers this point.
No. Really, it isn't.
Ink doesn't steal people away.
Ink doesn't manipulate workers.
Ink doesn't whisper behind others' backs.
Ink is just ink...and that's enough.
He glances back at the trio for two seconds to make sure they aren't still watching him--sure enough, the projectionist and the poet have moved off the subject of him and are immersed in the new worker.
Delicately, Sammy picks up the jar and turns it around in his hand, absorbing all of its little details--from the ashy color to the faded label.
You know...we could be friends.
I trust you more than half the people in this hellhole.
Another glimpse at the other workers...and then he lifts the edge of the container to his mouth.
The bitter taste of ink slides onto his tongue; he jerks the inkwell back.
Yuck! Why did I just do that?!
Oh no...
Nonononono, what if I get sick from it?
Well...
It was just one swallow. I should be okay.
In fact, the composer actually feels a bit...empowered.
I...
I feel...
…
... great.
§
Once again, the *brrrr*s and *clank*s of the noisy lift signify someone descending--Shawn lifts his head from his desk and rushes over to the contraption. My Wally!
Taking a deep breath, the toymaster thinks, Okay, calm down. Just say the words--that's it. One and done.
However, he's worried about the potential reaction if the janitor doesn't love him back.
But...Sammy said that he likes me...
And usually that guy isn't wrong...
Focus, Shawn.
He extends his arms, preparing to hug his crush as soon as the latter emerges...
...but that doesn't happen.
Instead, the craftsman's arms fall limply to his sides at the sight of his boss.
...What? Why?
Oh no...he looks mad.
What did I do now?
Joey doesn't notice or care about his worker's apparent disappointment; Shawn observes that the owner has something in his hand.
"Shawn," the latter dictates simply with an edge to his voice.
The toymaker doesn't reply right away, still confused by his boss's presence. "Yes, Mister Drew?" He looks kinda tired...
Joey clears his throat and reveals the object--the flawed smirking Bendy from before.
"Care to tell me why this toy is...like this?"
Shawn doesn't know what to say, so he doesn't reply. Shit...now I'm gonna get told off. Oh, why couldn't you have been Wally?
I miss him...
The owner's frown deepens at the lack of an answer. "I see. You've been slacking on the job, then?" You know the rules.
His worker is still silent.
A sigh. "Shawn, I understand that you have your...condition--"
You act like it defines me! the toymaster mentally retorts, his eyes narrowing. I'm more than my narcolepsy!
"--but that doesn't mean you're allowed to turn in work like this ." An impatient pause to let this sink in. "Do you know how this could affect sales?"
"It can lower them, sir," the other responds obediently, but thinks, It was just a tiny mistake--I was distracted. I do have a personal life, you know!
Besides, it really isn't that big of a deal; it was only a few of them!
"You realize that, and yet you let yourself sluff off?!" His lack of sleep (among other things) intensifies Joey's overreaction to the subject. "I deserve better than this !" I need employees that work as hard as I do!
Well, maybe it's not all about YOU! Shawn struggles to bite his tongue.
The businessman shoves the rejected plaything at the toymaster. "Fix it. Now. And that goes for the other ones you messed up, too!" Failure is not an option!
He's blowing this way out of proportion , the other considers, but nevertheless holds his piece of work against his chest. And he's crabby.
"Mister Drew?" he beckons as Joey heads back to the elevator.
"Yes?" His voice is still irritable. What now? Going to try to apologize? It's too late for that.
A hesitation from the other end. "Are you okay?"
"...What?"
"Are you okay? You seem a little..." Cranky? Testy? "...out of it today."
Joey scoffs. "I'm fine. Get back to work--and do it right this time." I shouldn't have even had to do this!
Why can't my workers be as... superlative as me?
Then again, most people aren't...
Reality is disappointing.
That's why we make it a dream instead.
§
The weekend had been a long and lonely one for Alice--being stuck in the studio full-time was just as uncomfortable as it sounded.
It's kind of spooky at night, even.
However, she managed to maintain a semi-satisfactory standard of living--the Tasty Eats machines provide suitable (if rather tiring after a while) meals, and the angel keeps herself clean enough.
Though it's still kind of gross that I haven't showered in a few days.
But...
If it's for the greater good, I can sacrifice that bit of luxury.
Besides, it's only temporary.
Before anyone entered the building this Monday morning, she had silently slid into her cage, bringing along a soup can for her lunch.
Thankfully for her, however, the workday is finally over. I'm free to fly!
Wait...what if I actually can fly, since Alice does in the cartoons?
Her anticipation just can't wait--the minute Joey enters the dark, dismal room he had placed her cage in ( I can hear people's footsteps...but I can't see them. Why did he choose to put me here, I wonder? ), she promptly *creeeak*s open the door and steps to him.
"You're in for a treat, Alice," he dictates. "I'm going to show you today where you will be practicing--and in the future, performing." You will quite literally be the angel of the stage!
The angel clasps her hands in excitement. Finally...I'm a true performer!
It's everything I ever wanted to be!
"What are we waiting for, then?"
He gives her a tired smile. Okay...maybe not all of my workers are that bad.
She definitely has the energy to be what they all should be...a true dreamer .
The businessman leads the heavenly host along a few familiar hallways...then turns toward what she perceives as a normal section of wall.
Huh? Alice is puzzled briefly before her boss shifts this portion of "wall" aside--the piece is not actually a part of the surface, but instead a pseudo-entrance of sorts.
"Why--?" she begins.
"So nosy individuals don't accidentally or intentionally wander in here," he explains. "It's a bit of a secret right now--I only just purchased this addition. So keep the surprise a surprise--only you and I know about it." Well...and Grant. But that was inevitable.
The angel follows the owner through his hole; it's big enough for both of them to easily slide in. As Joey fixes the wall-door back into its place, Alice steps forward to take in the secluded room.
The floor is rounded and made of oak wood; a thin, gray banister stands tall on either end of this ground. On the rails hang sweeping dark-red drapes. From the center of the room, the haloed human discerns that the upper left side is indeed a balcony, but that the entirety of the right is nearly indistinct due to the darkness that it is blanketed in.
It's...a theater.
A stage.
Joey appears behind her. "It's beautiful, isn't it?"
"Yes..." More than I ever could have imagined it...
And I get to act here!
She promptly blitzes to the frontmost segment of the arena. "I'm already ready to go!"
Good, good , the businessman concludes, satisfied--he marches over into the dark part of the theater. "Now then, what we'll be doing here is preparing you for your future acting career--real acting, not just with your voice." At this point, his worker hears him fully...but just barely sees him.
In the shadowed section, Joey seats himself in what Alice thinks is a director's chair; the object next to him is too obscured for her to guess what it is.
However, she soon figures it out--a *clkt* is heard, and on the wall behind her, cartoon Alice appears.
The projector had been taken from Thomas's office after Joey had decided that training the angel would be more important than "training" the demon.
Bendy can wait a little bit longer--it's not like he'll care.
And I'm sure Tommy's happy to have this thing out of his place. "iT gEtS in tHe wAy!"
Have it your way, then... because I'll go further with it than you could ever dream of!
"The procedure is simple," he directs to the heavenly host. "Just try to copy her movements as best as you can--the quicker you figure out what to do, the closer you are to finishing your practicing."
Though if I get to work in this gorgeous theater...maybe I don't want to leave it that soon, Alice contemplates.
But...I told Sammy I'd be back as soon as possible.
And I can't break that promise.
Another disagreeable aspect of her weekend was the fact she had no one to talk to--at some points, however, she had heard odd noises coming from a different part of the studio.
Like growling noises...and drips...
But maybe that was just my imagination...
Just the darkness playing tricks on me...
She forces herself to go back to focusing on her work--when a thought from before breaks into her mind.
"Mister Drew?"
"Yes?"
Her voice wavers just slightly before she asks, "Do you think that...since Alice can fly in the cartoons...that maybe I can fly too?"
She makes a good point , the owner considers. "Well, why don't you find out? Try it!"
"Okay..." Alice breathes in deeply, bracing herself...
...then takes a leap forward...
...and lands back on her feet again.
What? No... She is truly disappointed.
"Don't give up yet!" Joey calls from the overcast section. "Just believe !"
Yes, Alice...believe , the other attempts to convince herself.
Another rise...and another fall.
The angel tries three more times, but achieves the same result.
So that's it...I can't fly...
I...guess I just have to accept that...
But that is extremely hard for her to do. I really want to fly, for real! But why can't I?
Joey isn't terribly bothered by the lack of aerodynamic talent in his worker. "It's okay, Alice--we can make-do. We'll figure it out eventually." Maybe we could install trapezes? Or perhaps--
While his mind goes on with possible solutions to this paradox, the haloed human is much less certain. An angel who can't fly...how is that any good?
However, they continue on with the training--for the most part, imitating her cartoon counterpart's actions comes efficiently for the real-life Alice.
Be that as it may, she continues to be bothered by the matter of her not being able to at the very least hover an inch above the ground. It's a minor imperfection...but what if there are more of them? What if I suddenly can't sing or something?
Angels are supposed to be perfect --nobody wants a flawed heavenly host.
She manages to conceal these worries, nevertheless, as she says her goodbyes to her boss after finishing the day's training.
Instead of delightfully striding back to her cage like she had thought she would, Alice puts on a disconcerted trudge.
I suppose that it really isn't that big of a deal to him...
But...
It is to me!
If you're sainted, you can NOT be tainted.
§
At last, Joey arrives back in his kitchen.
The place itself is always here for me...
But the thing I want from it isn't.
The weekend hadn't been very nice to the man--sometime around midnight on Friday, he had woken up and gotten sick from the vodka; as he had predicted, he was hungover most of Saturday.
But when Sunday rolled around...the same thirst overtook him.
He needed that buzz.
But...I don't have anything that can give me that...
Why? Whywhywhywhy why ?!
Stupid fucking Prohibitition!
I'm sick of playing by the rules.
What if...?
That Henry voice in his head shuts the idea down before it has even become conceived with a firm "NO."
Why not?! Joey's own mind retorts.
Because you'll get caught and be arrested! Do you really want that, Joey? Is it so bad that you would be willing to risk your independence for it?
As much as he hates to admit it, the businessman understands that the voice has a point...but that desire--stronger than it has ever been before--to have something in his mouth is definitely still there.
Maybe I should eat something...
Bacon. His favorite food.
It might not have the same effect...but it'll have to do.
For now.
Preparing the food doesn't take too long--soon, the owner has the plate of sizzling meat in front of him.
That was quick , the Henry voice chimes in. It just shows how desperate you are.
It has nothing to do with desperateness , Joey's true mind argues back as he bites into the pork. I'm just hungry.
Hmm... the other expresses significantly, then disappears.
Finally , Joey exasperates. Why does he always need to interfere?
A glance at the meat in front of him.
It's good...but not as good as a drink would be.
You know, maybe some rules are meant to be broken.
I mean, I'll only buy it once--then I'll quit forever and ever. I promise .
But...where am I going to find it?
He stops himself--months ago, he never would have foreseen himself planning to purchase illegal alcohol from what the public called "rum runners" or "bootleggers".
Is it really getting that bad?
He spends about five frustrated minutes debating this entire concept and eating his bacon.
Ah, if it's only once...
It can't be that bad.
I mean, think about it. If I do get caught--which there's a really slim chance that I will, because I'm better than that--I'll just offer to reveal the source I got it from in exchange for not being arrested.
It will work.
And it'll just be that one time.
He pauses, waiting for the Henry voice to add some opposing comment to this--when it doesn't, he smirks.
Not that it really could have stopped me.
It might think this is a mistake...but it's a blessing in disguise.
One might call it...a miracle.
Chapter 20: Chapter Eighteen - Who Could Love You?
Notes:
A/N - Let's play a game, just for kicks! The first person to find the Fall Out Boy reference in this chapter gets a shout-out! The reference is only one line and is the title of a song; this 'game' will go on for however long it takes for someone to find it (and it goes for Wattpad, Archive of Our Own, and Tumblr, so you have competition)!
Now ignoring my immature shenanigans--enjoy the rest of the story, and have a marvelous week!
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The days go on...but much to Sammy's dismay, Susie does not return.
She said that it wouldn't take that long...
I mean...I guess it's only been three days since Monday...
But it just...doesn't feel right without her.
He angles his neck toward his newest friend, the inkwell. You must have a great life.
Or maybe not? I guess what I'm asking is, do you ever miss your other inkwell buddies? Do you have an inkwell girlfriend?
Obviously, the jar does not reply; the musician realizes what he's doing.
Gah! Talking to an inanimate object! What is wrong with me?!
It comes to light for him that many things have felt wrong ever since Susie's dismissal.
I just miss her so much...
His eyes scan the department...and land on the one and only Allison Connor.
This...this is all her fault!
They all like her so much...why don't they understand?!
The animosity that Sammy normally only directs to the new voice actress suddenly becomes relevant to the rest of the workers--he recalls quotes from them.
"Oh, she's SO nice! She's a real angel!"
"Have you met that Allison? She really is something, huh?"
Great, it's all fine and dandy that you like her-- but I don't, so STOP forcing it on me!
...
Susie is unforgettable...and yet they act like she wasn't even here...
I won't let them forget.
No one knocks my angel off of her podium without me saying something about it.
Too frustrated to even attempt to work on his music, the agitated composer subconsciously reaches for his jar of ink.
Meanwhile, Norman and Jack observe this entire scene from up in the booth--lately, the two have been nearly inseparable ( Just like Susie and I were! Sammy whines).
"Bit stuck on her, isn't he?" the former recognizes. I mean, I get where he's coming from...but he's taking it to extremes.
Jack nods. "W-why has he been k-keeping that inkwell with him lately?" Sometimes he just stares at it...like it's important to him.
Is he planning something with it?
His partner shrugs, debating whether or not it is fact worth considering. It just might be another one of his tics.
He's been really distraught lately...so maybe it's a source of comfort? I guess I don't know how that works, but then again, it's Sammy.
The projectionist wants to tell the songwriter that it will be okay... but he won't believe me...
As long as Susie is out, he'll be grouchy.
Jack contemplates on his fellow musician's behavior toward Allison. He ignores her...acts like she doesn't exist.
Is it possible that maybe he is directing all of his lovesickness at her?
It would make sense...I guess.
He peers at Norman, then takes his hand. I'm glad he's here for me...I'd probably be pretty distressed too if he wasn't...
But still, the inkwell thing is kind of...weird?
The lyricist recalls a phrase from his former boss: "Trust in yourselves and others; dire and stressful situations can often be overcome when you have each other."
"We n-need to keep an eye on h-him," he tells Norman, and they both know who he is talking about. It would be what Henry would want.
Sammy's angel is gone, but we'll watch over him in her place.
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Wally steps out of the terribly stuffy Ink Machine room, and rather gladly at that. Not only is it hotter than the flames of hell in there, but the heat makes everyone cranky! And the smell! I'm tellin' ya, if someone doesn't put at least a fan in that place, I'm outta here!
It's quite a relief to finally be able to get a breath of fresh air--Thomas (who seems even more cantankerous than normal as of late) had instructed his team to go out and take a break.
But of course I have another job , the janitor mentally complains, heading to his closet. A break? What's that? I'm sure I've never had one before!
However, a fluttering piece of paper taped onto the door stops his bickering in its tracks; confused, Wally reads it.
Hey Wally --
If it's possible, could you meet me after hours? I have something to tell you, but it's not so important that you have to stop in or anything.
If you can't meet me, that's all right, too.
Anyway...have a great day!
-- Shawn ❤❤
The note is scribbled on the page rather disorderly, as if its writer was in a desperate rush to dictate the words.
After hours? I can't wait that long , the maintenance worker decides almost immediately. Who cares about work? I want to see my Shawny now .
He turns the paper over and briefly sneaks down the hall to grab a pen; when he returns, Wally scrawls onto the back of the sheet:
If you guys need me for gauge reading or whatever, you'll just have to wait--something important came up, and I have to get to it. I don't know how long it'll take, but don't go looking for me. I'll come back when it's done.
I'm outta here!
-- Wally
Hopefully they won't ask questions, the janitor regards as he adheres the note to the side of the Ink Machine--where all of the GENT workers will be sure to see it.
With that out of the way, he ambles over to the elevator and depresses the K button.
Shawn of course detects the *rrrr*s resound in the ambience before the lift arrives at its destination; he pivots in his seat. Joey coming to chew me out again?
Or maybe...
And this time, the craftsman's hopes are correct.
The two practically fling into each other's arms...and stand there in blissful silence.
Still hugging his crush, Shawn speaks up, "You really didn't have to quit working just to--"
"Yes, I did," the other interrupts. "You're much more important to me than that dumb machine." Always have been--but Joey can't understand that. Wally releases the toymaster. "Now, what is it? I'll stay here with you as long as it takes."
Shawn doesn't reply--he feels himself blush, as well as a slight stinging sensation in his eyes. He's so nice...willing to halt his life just to help me with mine...
The tears threaten to fall, and he lets them. I...don't know how to say it...
"Shawn? What's wrong?" The janitor laces his fingers around the other's. Did I do something wrong? Damn, why do I screw things up? And of all things, this! "Please don't cry; talk to mmh--"
His words are interrupted by the toymaker's mouth meeting his--a red wave crosses the former's face as he releases Shawn's hands and pulls him closer.
When the couple finally separates, the craftsman says in a jumbled phrase, "IloveyouWally—!" Damn, why was that so difficult ?
Wait...
I probably shouldn't have kissed him out of the blue like that...
Meanwhile, Wally thinks, I've been waiting so long to hear those words. "I love you too, Shawn."
A pause.
"Really?"
The janitor laughs. "Yes, really. I've loved you for--" (he counts on his fingers) "--like forever. Didn't you notice the signs?"
The toymaker takes a moment to reminisce on all of his time with Wally--from cleaning after hours to their sneaking-off-to-see-each-other rendezvous. All those days when I couldn't see how I loved him... "So wait...those little gestures you did--like the winks and stuff--was that you flirting?"
"Yup." He's adorable when he's confused!
Indeed, the realization dawns on the other's face. How could I not notice?!
Smirking, Wally speaks up again. "Shawn?"
"...Yeah?"
"Kiss me again."
Recognizing that it is futile to keep spinning his mind in circles, the craftsman puts aside his puzzlements and embraces his boyfriend.
Neither of them is sure how long it has been before the janitor says he has to leave.
"Can't you just stay a little bit longer?" Shawn begs. I finally got the chance to spend time with you...
"I wish I could, but I have to get back." The disappointment in the other's voice is quite noticeable. "But I'll call you as soon as I get home. Deal?"
"Deal."
The two declare their affections for each other once more before Wally steps into the elevator.
A surprise is waiting for him back at the Ink Machine room, however--Thomas is standing at the door, his expression unreadable.
Ugh, what now? Wally mentally complains, but begins, "I--"
"How was your little date with Shawn?" the GENT worker interrupts.
A silence.
"How did--?"
Thomas reveals the note Wally had written and flips it over. "If you're going to make an excuse, make sure it's not on the same paper as whatever summoned you." Despite this, he doesn't sound angry.
"Oh--" is all the maintenance worker replies at first before adding, "Sorry."
"It's okay," the other answers, to Wally's surprise. "I, too, have a love--I know what it's like."
The two share smiles.
Ya know, Wally contemplates, he may act all grouchy and tough sometimes, but Thomas isn't so bad.
Maybe we're more similar than we think.
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Once more, Joey and Alice meet after hours to practice.
The angel notices during her imitation of the cartoon's movements that her boss seems a bit distracted today. I wonder what's on his mind...
He should be focused on me , though. I'm the angel of the stage!
What subject could possibly be more important than this?
However, she decides to not mention it--soon enough, the 'training' is over, and without so much as a "goodbye", the owner saunters down a hallway.
That's not the way to the exit, Alice recognizes. Something is definitely off here.
Letting her curiosity get the best of her, the heavenly host follows Joey; the two arrive in Thomas's office...and Alice finally finds out what had been uttering those odd sounds in the night.
Before her is the Ink Demon in all of his inky glory.
At first, the angel isn't sure how to react. It's so... monstrous ...
But at the same time, the inky abomination doesn't seem too dangerous. I'd even go as far to say it looks at peace...
The businessman becomes aware of Alice approaching the horrifying abnormality, but chooses to not respond with annoyance. She was bound to find out about him eventually.
The haloed human goes to pet the Ink Demon like one might a puppy, but Joey forces her to halt with an exclamation of, "Don't touch him!"
She faces her boss. "Why not?" He seems kind of lonely.
"Because...he'll hurt you," the other produces. "He doesn't like being touched."
A pause, and then, "I know from personal experience."
Alice contemplates this. Is this thing the reason for the lines on his face? Are they scars?
"Now that's enough of the Ink Demon for you," Joey states as he shoos the heavenly host out of the office. "I have him under control--don't worry about it."
The angel still isn't sure on all of this, but nevertheless does what she is told and exits the hallway. It's weird that a beautiful creation like me has to share a studio with that...thing...
How did he even get made? Was he from the Ink Machine, too?
Meanwhile, Joey glances one more time at his failed creation. You know, something needs to be done with you.
But since Thomas won't let me test you further, I'll have to take this into my own hands.
After all...no one loves nightmares. We make dreams come true here.
Staring the Ink Demon in the eyes (or where the monster's eyes would be if he had any), the owner mutters a single phrase.
"Who could love you?"
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Thankful for that workday is finally over, Joey heads down a different street than the one he uses to go home.
After much surreptitious searching, the businessman had eventually locked in the location of a speakeasy.
And now...it's time.
Joey had been suffering from withdrawal the past few days--the normally slight urge to drink was much, much sharper lately. Even at the mere thought of alcohol, his blood pumped fiercely...wanting...demanding.
And the only thing that can calm me down is that magical stuff.
He had decided to don a long black duster coat in the hopes that it might obscure him, thus making him less likely to be caught. Not that that is very probable--I know what I'm doing.
With that, he slides into a dark alley between two rather tall buildings, a map with a messy red circle on it in hand.
It should be over here...somewhere...
Already, his heart is pounding--both from the thrill of sneaking around and for his reward at the end.
Then he sees it--the dim blue light of the secret bar peeks out from a door with a somewhat-obscured and rusty sign above it declaring the place as Fredrick's Lounge.
The man stumbles inside; to his surprise, the place is much more conventional than he had expected. The establishment is actually quite clean, and there are a number of personalities--from flapper girls to men in suits like himself--sitting on black barstools near the counter.
I guess I figured it would be less...well-known? I mean, I anticipated fewer people.
But based on this, I suppose this kind of thing is pretty common.
Nearly all of the guests turn to look at the newcomer--Joey notices that a few are squinting at him...as if they find him somewhat familiar.
A silence ensues, broken only by the *clink*ing of cups hitting the long wooden table.
The bartender, who Joey presumes is Fredrick, suddenly speaks up in a rumbling and deep voice, "You must be--"
No! I'm not Joey Drew! Not the famous, brilliant, awe-inspiring animator and founder of the wonderful and marvellous studio which makes dreams come true! the businessman's mind panics.
"--new to this sort of thing," Fredrick finishes with a rather incomprehensible smirk (Joey breathes a sigh of relief at not being recognized--or so he thinks). "So why don't I give you the lowdown? Come here." The rest of the crowd continue their chatter as the rumrunner gestures to the entrepreneur with two fingers.
After a scanty hesitation, Joey slides up to the counter.
"First and foremost," Fredrick begins, "you must not tell anyone about this place." ( Well, duh , the other thinks.) "Because I will always find out--and you better believe that I will not be the liable one." He gives the businessman a dark glare. "Snitches and talkers get stitches and walkers."
Joey isn't sure how exactly this bootlegger would 'find out' about and handle his customer's betrayal...but considering Fredrick's muscular, almost frighteningly brawny physique, he isn't sure he wants to know.
That unfathomable sly smile returns on the bartender's face. "But if you can keep a secret--"
"I can," the studio owner vows. I'm really good at that--I've had plenty of practice.
"--then we'll be just fine." Fredrick pivots around smoothly and grabs a shot glass with a brownish, strong-smelling liquid in it, and places it in front of his customer. "First one's on me. Welcome to the club."
Finally! Grateful to have his addictive drink before him at last, the businessman makes quick work of tipping the glass's contents down his throat.
He gasps as he sets the now-empty cup down. Like the vodka, this stuff burns--perhaps more so--and it has quite a strange taste to it.
But as long as it works...as long as he gets that calm feeling, Joey doesn't really care about the flavor.
He orders another shot...and another one...and then maybe two or three more? Or was it four? He isn't quite sure.
The rumble of gossip and chit-chat presumes; Joey picks up on subjects of jazz music, fashion, President Coolidge, gangsters, Prohibition, and something that sounds like 'mah-fee-ah'.
When the studio owner eventually decides that he has had enough, he waves Fredrick over.
"Hey, Freddy, ya got any of that stuff to take home?" He wasn't expecting himself to sound so... unsteady? Is that the word I'm looking for?
Then again, he could care less.
The bootlegger gives a rather blank expression, clearly unfazed by his client's drunkenness. "Well...yes. But due to the limited amount of the travel-size bottles, I don't recommend buying them and taking them home--it's much more convenient to just come here, drink, and go home." A washcloth from seemingly out of nowhere appears in his hand; he begins to wipe the counter. "So I'd advise you to save that idea for a...special occasion."
Joey frowns. I really want some to take home...
But then again, his mind is too intoxicated for him to argue. "Okay...whatever..." The man slides what he thinks is the right amount of money to Fredrick. "Keep the change."
The other smirks as he counts out the money--his customer had given him about two dollars extra, but the bartender isn't about to disclose that.
With that, Joey stumbles off the barstool...and tries to remember the way to his house.
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Ultimately, the businessman makes his way home--although he isn't sure exactly how.
After an awkward stagger onto the couch, Joey reminisces over the past event.
That...was much easier than I thought it would be...
And the Henry voice didn't talk! I scared him away!
In the end, it knew I would win.
I always do.
Chapter 21: Chapter Nineteen - Lonely Angel
Notes:
A/N (12/22/2020)- Greetings, glorious readers! I just want to announce here that I am going to be on my winter break, so Chapter Twenty may or may not be delayed--it depends on how much I can write at home.
That's all! Have an astounding week, and happy holidays!
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She's still...gone...
Sammy glooms about in his office on this Wednesday; he can barely force himself to exit it lately. It's as if every time he steps out, something is there to remind him of the one he loves--whether it's the sound of her voice from the old cartoons or Alice smiling lightly at him on the posters.
Yet...my angel still has not returned...
How long has it been? Two, three weeks? A month?
It's just not fair!
He takes a hearty swig from the ink bottle next to him--he knows that he should be ashamed of himself for acting like this...but for some reason, the bitter liquid makes him feel better.
It makes the pain go away...and gives him something to grasp on to, despite the chaos.
I don't even care at this point...it isn't hurting me, so it must be a good thing.
It's not poison...it's power .
The composer sighs to himself. It seems that everything has been spinning, accelerating out of order--and he can't even place when it all started.
I just want Susie back...is that so much to ask?
The musician's muscles are cramped up from sitting and brooding for far too long--he figures that he should probably stand up and walk around a bit (even if he mentally does not want to) to get the blood pumping.
Worried eyes turn upon him as he does the unthinkable: leaves his hidey-hole. Sammy attempts to ignore them, but that proves to be a difficult feat.
They can pretend like they understand, but they don't.
They all love that Allison. They all see her as a "suitable replacement."
She doesn't need a replacement, and she never did!
Abruptly, the studio owner's face appears into the composer's mind.
Joey . This is all his fault! If he hadn't...taken her away, none of this would have happened!
From his projection booth, Norman observes Sammy's huffing and dark glare. Do I say anything? He might bark back...but on the other hand, maybe he needs to vent.
"Samuel?"
The crabby conductor tilts his head at the other, but only barely. "What?"
It's normal for Sammy's voice to shift when he is frustrated...but the projectionist notices that this is different even from that standard. It's like he has something in his throat, but is also growling at the same time. "Um, you seem kind of...bitter lately--"
How observant of you, the other snarks.
"--so I'm just wondering if maybe you want to talk about what's bothering you," Norman finishes. Or not.
There is a tense silence...
"You wouldn't get it," the instrumentalist finally replies. Moreover, it's completely the opposite of how you see it.
The cameraman goes to ask, "Is this about Susie--?" before being interrupted with a snappy "Don't say her name!"
Another quiet moment ensues, this time fractured by the projectionist.
"Okay then...well, if there's anything you need to let out--"
Sammy finally completely turns to face the other and declares coldly, "Norman, do us all a favor, and quit nosing in everyone's business. This isn't about you."
Norman is stunned for a brief moment before an offended red blush appears on his cheeks. "Fine." I was just trying to help.
The composer huffs once more and pivots back to his original position. This is why I didn't want to come out here--people are so intrusive.
His brain shifts back to the 'oh-poor-me' attitude. I miss my angel...
Sammy blinks once--up until this point, he wasn't really paying much attention to his environment...
He is staring at a Bendy poster.
At first, the music man gives it that sinister glare he has been donning all day...but then he softens.
A voice in his head different from his own frantically whispers unintelligible phrases...
He only catches one word from the confused mess: sacrifice.
...What? Who are you?! Sammy's real mind demands.
The whispers die away...and the voice fades away.
Am I losing it?!
A mental pause...and then:
"Embrace this, Samuel."
A headache gradually forms...and he feels dizzy.
Norman witnesses his fellow worker mumble fearfully to himself, and goes to ask him what the matter is...then closes his mouth. What's the point? He doesn't want help. A sigh. "Nosing in everyone's business." Ha!
Still, he can't help but worry a bit at Sammy's slight trembling. Is he all right? Is this some sort of nervous breakdown?
Meanwhile, Sammy mentally cries, What is the matter with me?! What was that voice?! Did I just imagine it?
His veins throb sorely...like there's more than blood in them.
"I..." Sammy stumbles on both his words and his footing; he slowly turns toward the infirmary. "I think...I'm just going to..."
Wide-eyed, the projectionist watches as the composer staggers across the room and grasps onto the railing of the stares to the clinic.
Once the musician disappears down the steps, Norman ponders, Well...that was odd. One minute, he's fine, and the next, he's stumbling like he's drunk or something.
Is this all over Susie? If so, isn't he being a tiny bit overdramatic?
Maybe I should tell Jack about this...see what he thinks.
Still...
This man is weird.
Crazy weird.
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In the infirmary, Cheyenne the nurse flips through her seemingly endless booklet of paperwork--when a certain conductor bumbles down the steps.
She is actually quite thankful to finally have a patient; it gets lonely in the depths without any other nurses or doctors to talk to.
Then again, since people don't get sick a whole lot here, there really isn't a need for any more than one.
It's kind of strange--the lack of illness, I mean. I barely have a job at this point.
Anyway--
"How can I help you?"
"I just..." Sammy begins, then starts over. "I'm feeling dizzy, and I have a headache." He decidedly does not mention the strange voice in his head.
If I tell anyone about that, they'll send me to the asylum.
The medic nods as she grabs her medical supplies. "Is that all? Any nausea, coughing, chest pain, or the like?"
He hesitates before answering, "No." Ugh, now it's going to sound like I'm faking it. There is a strict policy on pretending to be ill in the studio: if someone gets caught, that person is docked a week's worth of wages.
As the sign says: Not sick. Not paid.
But I am sick--or kind of...right?
"Okay," Cheyenne speaks up. "We'll just do a normal check-up, then, to see if everything is working the way it should."
As the medical practitioner examines her patient, the latter contemplates on this whole scenario. Why is my life falling apart before my eyes? First, Susie leaves, then I get all these weird feelings and murmurs in my mind for no discernible cause.
None of the flimsy solutions he attempts to apply to the situation make much sense to him.
At last, the nurse finishes tending to the music man and discloses that she does not find anything wrong with him.
With a passive smile, she tells him, "It might just be a reaction to stress; I noticed that you are quite tense. Try to relax--deep breaths. And don't forget to stay hydrated."
Relax...right, Sammy considers. Maybe that's all I need to do...
With that, the doctor sends the other on his way; the latter ascends back up the steps, much more steadily this time.
Relax...
He trots back into the music department, feeling Norman's eyes watching him--the agitated composer deliberately avoids the projectionist's gaze and heads straight to his office without a word.
So he's okay now? the cameraman questions, now aiming his eyes at Allison, with whom he had been conversing with on Sammy's condition. "I don't know--it seems like he's all right now, but before, he was shaking and whispering to himself."
"That definitely is odd," she reflects. Maybe he isn't physically sick, but his mind isn't well. Is it just stress, or something more?
Suddenly, an idea strikes the voice actress.
"Perhaps...we could set up a 'break' of sorts for him; like a party, but not a party. Just something where all of us can have a breather and socialize a bit."
Norman frowns. "That's a good idea, but Mister Drew would never allow it." He's far too controlling--if he was ever the President, he would have probably made weekends illegal.
She is quiet for a steady minute.
"Maybe..." Allison smirks lightly, "...he doesn't need to know. You can't cancel something you didn't set up. Besides, it'll be good for us--and Sammy--to take a break."
The projectionist still has his doubts on this...but how can I say no? She has a point.
The worst Joey can do is call it off, and even then, we could just finish it somewhere else after work.
A smile crosses his face. And maybe this will make Sammy like Allison a little more--he'll find out that she set it up for him.
That...might just actually work.
"When do you intend to set this up?" he asks.
"Hmm...could we aim for Friday? It won't take much to arrange, but we could go the extra mile and buy some food. Does that sound reasonable?"
"Yes. Let's do it."
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I'm still gone.
Alice sits in her cage and stares at the ceiling. I really thought that I'd be back into the swing of things by now.
However, Joey still won't let her reveal herself to the world.
At this point, he's just making excuses! I have all the 'practicing' I need!
Thus, when the owner eventually beckons her to join him at the stage, she laments marginally.
"J--Mister Drew?"
His somewhat-distracted eyes finally focus on the angel. "Yes?"
The heavenly host wavers before inquiring, "How much longer do I have to do this? I think I've been doing really well, and--"
"You'll be finished when I say you're finished," he cuts her off. Some things take longer than others--besides, I have other things on my mind.
"But--"
"No, Alice..." The businessman exhales melodramatically. "Not right now."
Offended at the way he snubs her off, the female huffs and stalks semi-annoyedly behind the other. He won't even listen to me at this point...
I just want to see Sammy again...and move on with my new normal life...
During her rehearsing of cartoon Alice's movements (It was fun to begin with, but now it's just nauseating. And stalling!), the physical Alice angrily perceives that the owner isn't even paying attention to her--he's just staring up into space.
Testily, she stops her 'practicing' steps forward; when he doesn't react, the angel reaches toward the projector and switches it off.
At the sound of the angry *cht* from the camera, Joey sits up. "What are you doing?"
"Getting your attention," she retorts sourly. "What are you doing?" Besides ignoring me?
"I'm just...thinking," the other replies. No need to get so bent out of shape about it. "Is that a crime now?"
The angel doesn't answer his question; she instead goes on, "I can work for weeks undercover, with you promising me fame and fortune in the end--and yet you just sit there and act like I don't exist! You said it yourself at the beginning of this endeavor: 'no cancellations.' So don't cancel me!"
A thought breaks into her rant: Unless...this is all some sort of scheme. Like it's all a lie...
What was the phrase he used? 'The delusion of living', or something like that?
Is that all that this is?
Joey returns the heavenly host's glare with a fiercer one. "Excuse me, but I'm doing this for you. You just have to be patient."
Then...an idea sparks in his mind.
Alice figures that his excuse is so flimsy, a feather could fall through it. When is he ever patient? It's a bit hypocritical to ask me to be something he can never be, is it not?
But before she can rebut, he speaks up again. "What if I made you a deal?"
She crosses her arms. "You already did before--this whole plan was a deal, and you're not keeping your side of it."
"Just hear me out on this," the owner dictates. "What if...I could bring you Sammy?"
A pause...
How would he--? "What do you mean, 'bring me' him?"
Joey gives her that smug expression. "As in you and him would be undercover, together--at least until I'm ready to reveal you two." And perhaps, with someone to accompany you, you'll be less likely to complain.
This is still perplexing to Alice. You mean, like kidnapping? No, I don't want that! "I--"
"Let me expound," the businessman directs, rising from the director's chair and pacing--as she has noticed that he does when he's about to go into a lengthy explanation. "You already saw the failed thing we call 'Bendy.' Obviously, we can't go about showing him to the world; we need a replacement, and a real one."
Replacement. The word resounds in Alice's mind as she remembers her own 'replacement' with a twinge of jealousy. If I'm not wrong, she is currently receiving all the attention I should be getting!
But back to the task on hand--Bendy needs a replacement? What does that have to do with--
Oh... no...
"Sooo," Joey goes on, "what if I could bring you Sammy? Maybe he'd be in a different form than what you're used to...but on the same token, you'd look different than what he is used to. It might be a bit strange at first, but I'm sure you'd eventually get used to it." And even if you don't, I'm still going through with this.
The angel takes a moment to run this through her mind. "So what you're saying is...you want to use the Ink Machine to make Sammy into Bendy?"
"Yes and no. I am going to use the Ink Machine to make Sammy into Bendy--there's no want to it," he states decisively. Even if you object, I'm going to do it.
This is probably one of the best ideas I've ever had! I get a Bendy and an Alice, and Sammy and Susie get each other!
Alice waves her arms panickedly. This can't be right! "Wait, wait, wait. How can you ensure that--"
"That he'll agree to the reformation?" Joey finishes for her, clearly proud of himself. "Just leave that part to me--I'll convince him." Whether he wants to or not.
The angel wants to argue with the boss, and convince him not to do this...but she doesn't know what to say. And he might not even heed my words--I mean, he's been ignoring me this entire time!
Am I sending Sammy to his doom?
"Alice." Joey uses that soft voice again. "This is a good thing for both of you--don't fret about it. I have it under control."
Believe in me.
The female sighs, torn between trust and doubt. Something about this is...Just. Not. Right.
Nevertheless, the duo continue on with the work--the businessman allows the heavenly host to quit early.
When the telltale *chkt* of the studio doors shutting indicate Joey's departure, Alice meanders into Thomas's office and sits with her back to the Ink Demon's cage.
"You know..." she tells him. "You and I, we're caught in similar situations. We both are being replaced by someone else...and there's nothing we can do about it."
The abomination merely stands there passively.
He's a better listener than Joey is, the angel considers. And this one doesn't argue back, either.
She turns toward the inky creation...and slightly reaches between the bars.
The Ink Demon pauses for a moment...then reaches toward her...
Wait--I can't let him touch me! Alice suddenly recalls, bringing her arm back to her side.
Ink Bendy seems a bit surprised at this unexpected maneuver.
"I'm so sorry," the heavenly host apologizes. "But I can't risk it."
Putting her back to the monstrosity once more, the haloed human sighs. I know I agreed to becoming Alice...but I didn't know it would be like this.
I'm just a lonely angel...
But maybe...I can trust Joey's words...
After all, if he succeeds...I'll see Sammy again.
And I won't be a lonely angel anymore.
§
Joey returns to Fredrick's Lounge, as has become his newest habit.
It's like my home away from home.
This time, the bootlegger fashions the businessman a dry martini; as the latter savors his beverage, he plans out what he will do concerning Sammy being 'drowned' into Bendy.
He'll probably be much less willing than Susie was...but I can find a way around that.
Even if it takes force , I'll make him into that Little Devil Darling.
Another subject pops into his mind: Boris.
After I finish with Bendy and Alice, who will I make into Boris?
Someone quiet, no doubt...
Someone...forgettable...
Joey contemplates these points until his drink is finished; he beckons Fredrick over, and the bartender sets another glass in front of him.
Perfect...just as all things should be.
Perfection needs to be achieved--correctly this time. No more Ink Demon.
Speaking of which, what am I going to do with that thing?
Eh, I guess it's not important at this very moment.
For now... it's time for Bendy and the Ink Machine!
Chapter 22: Chapter Twenty - A Songwriter Scorned
Notes:
For AO3 and Tumblr: I apologize for the delay again...editing takes a while sometimes. (◠﹏◠✿) I'm sorry...I feel like I'm disappointing everyone if I don't provide some clarification as to why there are delays. Anyway, as these chapters get longer, they take my editor more time to go through; while I have Chapter Twenty-One almost done now, it may take a few days to a week before it is officially published.
Thank you for understanding, and have a marvelous week!
From original Wattpad edition:
A/N - Greeting, dear readers!
Did you think Drowned couldn't possibly get any more LGBTQ+? If so, I'm afraid to say that you were wrong. (≧▽≦) I have updated the LGBTQ+ log in Chapter Nine to include new headcanons/characters!
That's all! Thank you, and have a fabulous week!
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Thus, Friday arrives...
Allison, Norman, Jack, and others set up the break room for exactly what it should be used for: breaks!
The voice actress had prepared several goodies, as well as Sammy's favorite food--a large chocolate cake--just for the occasion...and Wally had (not knowing that it is for the composer) taken a piece from it.
Carefully squishing the sides of the cake together so that the cut is hidden, the janitor assures the rest, "He'll never suspect a thing!"
Norman gives an amused grin, then asks, "Wait--you have to confirm a certain rumor for me." He leans closer and drops his voice to a whisper. "Did you and Shawn finally couple up?"
The other scratches the back of his neck while blushing and smiling bashfully. "Yeah..." Is it really that well-known already?
The cameraman smiles, then looks over longingly at the lyricist on the opposite side of the room. Jack...
He's such a sweetheart--I'm lucky to have him.
Indeed, those fuzzy feelings still sparkle within the two every time they see each other...but now that the projectionist and the poet are officially together, Norman isn't exactly sure what to do with their romance.
There has to be more to dating than just meeting up and kissing every once in a while...
Then again, most relationships probably aren't developed over spying and coffee...
And I don't want to rush it...
Jack notices Norman's fixated stare and beams at him.
You know...maybe we're okay right where we're at, the latter reflects.
We can take our time.
He archives the thoughts for the time being and questions, "So where's Sammy?" What a shame it would be for him to miss his own party.
"Still locked up in his office, I think." Dot pipes up. She has a pen in hand and her notebook in her lap; the intern had arrived not so much to have a break, but to perhaps study the odd behavior of the composer.
Right now, however, Dot has her journal opened to Susie's page.
Susan Campbell
- Kind, star-struck, but also a little too trusting.
- In a relationship with Samuel Lawrence; either does not notice, ignores, or has not experienced his sulkiness.
- Cares deeply about physical appearance.
- Abruptly disappeared--why? Fired, quit, or otherwise?
She flips to Sammy's sheet.
Samuel Lawrence
- Invariably irritated--why?
- In a relationship with Susan Campbell, one of the few people he seems to be able to handle.
A rapid motion of hand dictates:
- Extremely distressed over Susan's dismissal--stays in office most of the day, and is even more snappy than normal.
A pair of light-brown eyes follow the inking; the writer realizes someone is reading over her shoulder.
"What are you writing?" Johnny, the organ player of the Music Department, asks passively before a *pt* signals Dot shutting the notebook.
"...Nothing."
The other smirks. "Clearly, it's not nothing." Their eyes light up childishly as they lean on the back of the chair. Oooo, secrets! Fun! "Are those notes on Sammy? Are you spying on him? Do you spy on other people, too? Can I help you? Do you--"
"No, it's not spying," the female cuts them off. At least, not really. "It's...personal notes."
"So why--?"
Thankfully, Dot is spared from having to answer whatever question they are about to ask--Thomas enters the room in all his trademark grumpiness.
A semi-official break for all of the workers? he considers. That is...a rather good idea, I suppose.
She always has the best ideas...
I'm happy to have her here...but yet, I don't trust him around her.
Speaking of that, he hasn't asked about the Ink Machine in quite a while...what is he planning?
He better not be using it without telling me.
The familiar anger froths within the GENT worker...then subsides. It just isn't worth it.
It's like banging your head on a rock over and over and over...that's what it's like, working for him.
But after the dust has settled...and Joey has played his cards...
...you just learn to go with it.
As Thomas rounds over to his wife, the cranky composer finally arrives.
"What's all this?"
"Just a little break of sorts that we set up," Norman clarifies, then corrects himself. "I mean, Allison set it up--she thought you seemed stressed lately--"
That's one way to put it, Sammy crabs.
"--so she decided to do this for you and us."
The musician is silent at that point.
Oh...
Maybe she's not as bad as I thought...
Ah, what am I thinking?! In the end, she stole Susie's job!
Nevertheless, his expression softens slightly as he takes a seat and glances over at Allison.
But...maybe I'm...
He doesn't want to think about that right now; Sammy's eyes move on to another corner of the room, where Wally swipes Shawn's cookie from him and takes a bite from it.
The composer feels like he should be smiling as the toymaster giggles and reaches for the confection...but he just can't force himself to.
With a sigh, he determines, It's like I can't be happy anymore...
Everything reminds me of her...
But...
Maybe I'll see her again soon...
After all, how much longer could it possibly be?
A mental pause.
How much longer can I possibly stand it?
Thus, as much as he tries to, Sammy fails to enjoy himself--he is stuck stewing in his heartbroken misery.
After about an hour and a half, the crowd disperses into their separate areas; Wally and Thomas rather reluctantly head back to the Ink Machine room, while Shawn returns to Heavenly Toys, Dot to the Writing Department, and Johnny to the organ room.
This leaves just Sammy, Allison, and Norman. As the melodist rises from his seat and trudges back to his office, the cameraman whispers to the voice actress, "Do you think it worked?"
"I'm...not sure," she answers, flipping the chairs neatly onto the table. "He still was...hesitant to join in on anything." But that may be inevitable, since his sweetheart is still gone.
But I'm sure she'll be back soon.
He'll be better next week.
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Alice meanders within her allotted territory for the majority of the day, pondering and worrying about Joey's plan for Sammy.
He couldn't have possibly been serious...
It was just a suggestion...
...right?
But he then again...he did say that he would do it...
No . I have to stop this.
When the businessman finally drifts into her area of the studio--earlier than he usually does, she notices--the angel immediately declares, "I've changed my mind about Sammy being made into Bendy. He...doesn't deserve to have his body stolen from him like that." Why didn't I think of that before now?
Besides that...what if it doesn't work? Will my Sammy turn out like that Ink Demon?!
It's not worth the risk!
Wringing her hands desperately in front of Joey's disapproving expression, the heavenly host begs, "Don't do it...please..."
The other is silent for a moment before eventually responding (each sentence with just slightly more anger within it than the previous), "You've changed your mind about Sammy? You don't want to be with him right now? You want to wait until you're released?"
"Yes! I'll wait as long as it takes! Just please don't--"
Her mind wants to finish that sentence with 'hurt him' (Because that's actually what the Ink Machine will do!); however, Alice knows that would not come across as she needs it to.
"...Please don't make him Bendy..." I want him to be my Sammy.
Not a Little Devil Darling...
Just Sammy the fearless composer.
Joey is again quiet, and for a moment, Alice anticipates that she has convinced him--but to her dismay, he promptly asserts, "You have one thing incorrect in your request...Alice."
With wide eyes, the haloed human contemplates on what that could possibly be. Is he just saying that to scare me? "What is it?"
The owner leans closer, the darkness of the room casting a shadow over his smirk.
"That decision isn't yours to make."
The female falters. "But--"
"I figured you might do this--try to convince me not to follow through with my plans," Joey continues snobbishly, pacing about in the way only he does. "My dear Alice, you must understand that love requires sacrifice." Dreams require sacrifice.
Just how much does he think he knows about love? the angel wonders. "Mist--"
He raises his voice to speak over her interruptions. "You--among countless others--continue to look at the possible flaws in the plan, yet fail to see the big picture. You aren't dreaming hard enough!"
But...if you dream too much, Alice contemplates, your head's going to hurt. "Please--"
"No," the businessman cuts her off coldly. "I'm going through with the plan, and there's nothing you can do about it." Maybe you'll actually be grateful once it's completed! 'Oh, Mister Drew, you were right! I wasn't dreaming hard enough!' "Now, get in your cage."
The other refuses the order; Alice merely stands there and glares at her boss. He thinks he can just take advantage of Sammy and me like that?!
What kind of--
"Alice," Joey testily pronounces the name. "Get. In. Your. Cage."
"No! I won't--"
"Yes you will!" The boss shoves the angel harshly into the structure and slams the door--a *bang!* resounds.
Alice struggles to free herself before Joey can lock the pen, but to no avail; he pushes her back and finally *click*s the entrance shut.
"You can't do this to me!" the female screams with a glower nearly as threatening as the other's.
He whips around and ignores her. She is getting in the way! She's going to ruin it all if she keeps this up!
One last cry of despair escapes the angel as the owner crashes the door of the room behind him.
He...
Alice sinks to the floor and buries her face in her hands.
She just needs to think about this.
He just pushed me away! How could he?!
After more whirlwinds of thoughts and emotions, the angel calms down a bit.
Maybe a part of his spiel was right. Definitely not all of it...but maybe one section.
Maybe I am looking too much at the flaws.
Forcing herself to focus on the positive, she ponders, I don't have much hope lately...but maybe things will work out...
Maybe I'll still get to see Sammy... since apparently Joey's going to make him into Bendy regardless of what I think!
A sigh...
What will I do?
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Out in the hall, Joey leans his back against the wall and catches his breath...then takes out a tiny bottle from his pocket.
Fredrick had suggested saving bottles for a special occasion...but this occasion is special enough, I think.
It's probably what gave me that bit of an adrenaline rush just then.
Too bad it's so small...
The owner knows deep down that he should probably be feeling guilty for drinking at work and letting his 'little habit' get this bad...but he trusts that he won't let himself get caught.
It's only a little bit.
The businessman takes a swig of the drink while considering what just happened with Alice.
I suppose I didn't have to push her...but I did it because she wasn't listening! She has to understand that!
...
She'll forgive me once I bring her Sammy--I know she will.
With that, he tucks the bottle back and heads off to the Music Department.
Sammy isn't out in the open, so the businessman peeks into his office.
The composer is getting ready to go home; at Joey's entrance, he greets, "Oh...hello, Mister Drew. What can I do for you?"
"Samuel..." The boss gives his employee that ominous smirk as he rounds near the former's desk. "I daresay that you have nothing planned tonight, am I correct? Or anything tonight and all nights after it, I should say.
"...No, sir." Confusion creeps into the musician's voice. "Why? Do you need something?"
A tiny spark of hope flickers within Sammy: Do I finally get to see my angel again?
Joey's sly smile grows wider. "Just come with me...I have something to show you."
After a brief pause, the employee finishes packing up his things and joins his boss at the door. What could he possibly have planned now?
The two walk down the hallway, Joey at a pompous stride and Sammy at a despondent trudge; the former glances back at the latter's gloomy face.
"Smile, Samuel."
He receives a sulky glare in response.
My, what a frowny Bendy we have here, the owner regards. That will change when he sees Alice.
"Where are you taking me?" the scorned songwriter finally speaks up-- when "You'll see" is the only reply returned, he considers, Why can't he just give me a straight answer?
This becomes the first in a series of burning questions as Joey leads Sammy to the otherwise-forbidden door of the Ink Machine room.
"What--?" I thought we weren't supposed to be in here.
His boss hushes him with a "Shh" and holds the door open; the musician wavers before entering in.
What's he trying to--whoa.
What the hell is that thing?
Before him is the clunky, clanky, calamitous Ink Machine--Sammy's green eyes take in all the little details, from its boxy design to the unsightly spout.
Observing his employee's doubtful expression, Joey promptly and proudly announces, "My Ink Machine--bringer of cartoons to life... but more importantly, maker of dreams come true."
Did he practice that spiel in the mirror this morning? the composer wonders bluntly. "Ooookay then...but what does that have to--?"
"You're Bendy."
This is such an unexpected sentence--not only a sentence, but a matter-of-fact statement--that Sammy is completely thrown off.
"...I'm sorry, but what?" One minute, I'm in my office getting ready to go home, and the next...I'm 'Bendy'?!
"You. Are. Bendy," Joey sounds out the words like one might to a little kid. It really isn't hard to understand! "I'm going to make you into Bendy."
"Whoa, whoa, whoa!" Sammy holds up his hands. "Where did this whole idea come--?" How's that even remotely possible?
Impatiently cutting the other off, the businessman dictates, "Get under the spout." I'm sick of explaining everything to everyone--why can't they just trust me? Just do what I say!
God damn, I need a drink.
"Just hold up one second," the songwriter asserts. "I never agreed to any of this! You can't just waltz up to me and say, 'Hey, I'm going to somehow turn you into a cartoon with this machine thing I have--'"
The alcohol from before finally kicks in with his acrimony, and Joey snaps, "Yes I can!"
Fiercely grabbing the other's arm ("Ow! Ow!") and leading him to the Ink Machine, the boss mentally snarks, Why won't people follow my orders today?!
"Now stay!" he commands, shoving Sammy onto the floor near the contraption's spout. Let's just get this over with...
The composer attempts to scramble away from this scene--for the second time today, Joey forcibly pushes his employee.
Horrified at the owner's conduct, the condemned conductor yells, "What the hell is wrong with you?!"
He doesn't even care about how that sentence might negatively affect his job or even get him fired--It won't matter if I don't survive this!
This place has a madman for an owner!
With Sammy stunned back at the duct, Joey plods over to the lever on the side of the machine.
Lights...camera...
His eyes flash with ambitious mania.
...Action!
The lever is switched with a *cht!*...and the drowning begins.
The tears dripping down the musician's face are siphoned away and replaced with ink; Sammy wants to scream as the liquid drenches him, burns him.
Whispers resound from all around the scorned songwriter...
Embrassyordeemize...
Heewoolethusree...
Where are they coming from?
Screeminwellavoysays...
They sound like they may be trying to tell him something...
But he can't even think his own thoughts...
LIARLIARLIARLIARLIAR!
Then...silence.
Blankness.
Nothing.
Joey races over to the other end of the Ink Machine when he hears Sammy's gasp.
Come to me, Little Devil--wait--
Sammy is not Bendy; the businessman isn't sure exactly what he is, but it's clear that he is one hundred percent not Bendy.
The dazed employee actually looks quite similar in size and shape to his human counterpart...but he is encapsulated in ink.
Like a shell...a liquid shell...
"...What?!"
After rapidly running over everything he just did in an attempt to find out where he went wrong and ended up forming this...inky version of Sammy, Joey comes to the conclusion that he had forgotten to insert the sketch of Bendy into the slot of the contraption.
"Shit." The boss wipes his forehead and scans the second failed Bendy with his glassy eyes. Well...at least I can try again. "Samuel, get up; we need to ret--"
The composer, however, had already risen from the ground and is currently shaking the doorknob of the room rather panickedly.
"Hey, I'm talking to you! Get over here! I'm not done with you yet!" Joey marches over to stop him, but Sammy expeditiously pounds on the exit...
...and it opens.
Joey Drew has a habit of forgetting to lock doors.
The inky man rushes out hysterically, full of confusion--everything is falling apart.
Sammy is not Sammy.
After being drowned, the composer forgot.
He forgot...about everything before this.
Where am I?
Why am I here?
Why is that guy after me?!
Who am I?
But...he somehow knows the answer to that last question--Samuel Lawrence.
Now that he thinks about it, he also knows somewhat about...other things.
He remembers...music. Notes. Pianos. Banjos. Violins.
I know how things work...like knowledge .
But when he considers how exactly he was brought into the world, how he was raised, how he arrived in this place, who he met along the way...he draws a blank.
How?
It's as if...he forgot his past.
But he also has this...feeling that he's not the same as before.
But who was he before?! And was there even a before?!
There's pieces missing to this puzzle...
A yell snaps him back to reality: "Sammy, listen to me!"
The musician turns to the strange man that is chasing him. How does he know me?
Never mind that--I need to escape!
"Get away from me!" Sammy rapidly gathers up all of his strength and dashes down the hallway.
Left, right, right, center aisle, left...right?
The composer isn't sure where he's running to or how to get there--he just needs to get out of this place.
Then he hears crying...muffled crying.
...What?
The musician is torn between continuing to search for an exit or finding the source of the weeping--however, the man pursuing him is getting closer.
...Is there even a choice?
With that, Sammy speeds off in the direction of the sobbing; it leads him to the Ink Machine room door.
After some hesitation, he knocks. "Hello? Is someone in there?"
There's a pause...
"Sammy? Is that you, my love?" Alice calls out.
'My love?' the composer questions--then is abruptly pulled backward.
"Aha!" Joey cries as he finally seizes his drowned worker. You thought you could escape from me?! Let me tell you, this is going to affect your job dism--
"Let me go!" Sammy nudges against his boss in an attempt to throw him off--for reasons he can't explain, he just needs to rescue that disconsolate damsel in distress.
"No!" The other struggles to pull back. "We! Need! To! Try! Again!"
"Sammy!" the angel yells once more.
Seeing that Alice is now involved in the drama, Joey growls and releases the composer. "You want to see her? Fine! Just please make it quick so we can get back to the--"
Another cry from beyond the door interrupts: "Let me see him!"
The boss irritably fiddles with the doorknob until the entrance *CREAK!*s open; he drags the ink-covered employee inside.
"Here! Happy now?" However, the answer is clear from the heavenly host's upset gasp.
"What did you do to him?!" Alice grasps the musician's hands, much to the confusion of the latter.
He said he would make you Bendy...but this ...
"Um--" Sammy begins, although he's not sure what he is going to say.
"There was a...slight mishap," Joey clarifies; his next words come out like a flood. "But don't worry--we'll get it fixed up. We just need to--"
The angel interrupts coldly, "I think you've done enough." My poor Sammy...what did he do to you?
"But--"
"No! I'm not going to let you hurt him any more!" The female's voice wavers on the edge of crying as she guards her boyfriend. "I said I didn't want anything to happen to him, but you--!"
"Alice, be reasonable--"
In the midst of the two trying to talk over each other, Sammy slips back into the corner.
... What is going on?
The haloed human and the businessman continue to bicker until the latter finally asserts, "Fine! Keep him like this! Since you can't possibly be persuaded to let him go, I'll...wait"--he says the word like it's some disgusting anathema--"until next week to fix him."
"This isn't about fixing him!" Alice retorts. "I thought you were doing this for me--so I could have some company!"
Joey scoffs. "You really think the world revolves around you? You do realize I have plans outside of you, right?"
She doesn't immediately respond to that.
So all that talk about my dreams coming true...
And the promises...
And the plans...
Were those all lies ?
"I..."
Crossing his arms, the owner directs, "So are we done here?" Or are you going to continue to oppose every detail I come up with?
Because in the end...well, you already know.
I win.
Alice sighs. Was it all an illusion? "...Yes." She debates adding that Joey has no right to do anything more with Sammy...but that won't change anything.
What have I gotten myself into?
With a sinister scowl, the businessman glooms over to the door; at the last minute before he exits, he delivers a glare to the heavenly host.
"Remember this, Alice...if anything happens to him, you're liable."
She returns an evenly fierce stare...and finally, Joey is gone.
Alice takes her beloved's hands in her own. "I won't let anything happen to you...I promise." I'll protect you...
The befuddled instrumentalist merely gives her a puzzled look, wondering how and why he got involved in all this drama.
What happened?
Why is she...?
"Sammy?" The female touches his inky cheek--oddly, it doesn't burn like the ink normally would if touched by itself. "I know he scared you, but it's okay..."
The scorned songwriter swipes her hand off. Why is she acting like this? "Stop--why?"
"...What do you mean, why?" You mean, why did Joey do this to you? I think I can explain that much--
"I mean..." Sammy wavers. "Who are you?"
The musician knows that sentence is the wrong answer by the way Alice's face falls.
"...What do you mean, who am I?"
A heavy pause.
He...really doesn't remember?
Is this a side effect of the ink?
No!
She tries to convince herself that it's just a product of aftershock...but that nonplussed expression on her sweetheart's ink-covered face is all too real...
"Sammy...remember?" For the second time today, ink-black tears stream down Alice's cheeks.
"It's me...
Your...angel..."
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Joey's route after leaving the studio is sadly predictable...
At the speakeasy, he beckons to Fredrick, "Give me something strong." I'm gonna need it.
Did I give up too easily? Just leaving him like that with her?
But she wasn't working with me! What was I supposed to do?
As the glass of whatever-it-is is set in front of him, the businessman tells it, Just drown out the pain...
Drown out the doubt...
The tears start to fall...
The madness...
The
anger
...
Drown it all.
Chapter 23: Chapter Twenty-One - One of the Drunks
Notes:
A/N - Before anyone says anything--yes, the title is a Panic! at the Disco reference. I actually alluded to that song in an earlier chapter...heh.
Anyway--this isn't terribly important, but I will tell you while I'm here...I got Tumblr! The link is on my profile.
That's all! Have a wonderful week!
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Well...this is strange.
Much to Norman's surprise, Sammy does not return on Monday. Is he avoiding all of us now?
...Or is there something else...something sinister going on?
Both Susie--or now Alice--and Samuel, gone without a word...
Coincidence? I think not.
It's definitely fishy...
He has the idea of sneaking off after hours with Jack to search for the voice actress...but where is she being kept? I mean, where do you hide an ink angel?
Besides, how are we supposed to operate with Sammy gone? Unless there's a replacement on the way...
Wait...
Am I going to be replaced, too?
Will my poet be replaced as well?
Will all of us eventually get replaced if we don’t meet Joey’s criteria?
Nonono, let's think logically here--
Round and round go the questions in the projectionist's mind to the point where he isn't sure what the original problem was in the first place. Why did Samuel even disappear?! Where did he disappear to? Does it have something to do with that Ink Machine?
Thus, Norman goes to the one person he knows he can trust.
Over their coffee in the sewers (where they haven't been in quite a long time), the projectionist poses the situation to the poet.
"I-I don't know..." Jack shrugs. "Maybe Sammy's just sick or something." More like...sick of us.
"But what if he's not?" Norman rebuts, fidgeting nervously with his bracelet. "I mean, we saw Susie basically agree--and embrace--her demise...what if something similar happened to Sammy?" And it all leads back to that man...Joey.
I don't know...it feels like Sammy is still here...somewhere.
A different thought comes to mind.
My life could possibly be at stake! Why do I still work here?
He knows there are two answers to that question: Jack, and the fact that we need to figure this out.
I won't let Joey or anyone else take Jack or me... I promise.
We just need to stay wary .
The cameraman focuses on his sweetheart and takes his hand; the latter flushes slightly and smiles.
Ahh, he's SO precious...what would I do without him?
...
Maybe I shouldn't force him into this--I mean, I've pretty much dragged him along throughout all our 'spying'...but have I ever really given him the chance of refusal?
"Jack?"
The dark green eyes meet the brown ones.
"...If we were to look for Sammy after hours--I have a suspicion that he's wherever Susie is--would you be willing--"
"Y-yes."
Norman is briefly stunned at the prompt response. "Are you sure? I mean, of course I want you to go with me"--he pauses to search for the right words-- "...but this might be more dangerous than the times before."
Jack smirks, running his fingers against the other's. "S-since when have you b-been afraid of d-danger?" My brave, confident, handsome flicker?
"I mean," the projectionist muses, "I guess I'm not afraid of the danger...but I'm afraid of losing you. I...feel like I'm not giving you the option to say no...like I'm being too forceful--"
"Norman..." It's the lyricist's turn to debate how he wants to communicate his point. "I-I know how much f-figuring stuff out means to you...a-and I want to be with you d-d-during all of it." Leaning closer to his boyfriend, the poet assures, "I'd follow you to the en-ends of the Earth, no matter what the stakes w-were."
Norman feels his face heat up in amour; when he finally speaks, his voice is weak, yet affectionate. "Really?"
The response is a shy nod. Always...
The lyricist has a certain phrase on the tip of his tongue...
"I-I-I...I...um--"
The projectionist leans closer in curiosity. What is it?
"I-I-I-I..." The words won't come out! "I…”
"I-I-I'll always be with you."
But that's not the sentence he wanted to say...
I...couldn't do it... Jack berates himself.
I need to say it, though...
I don't know how much time I have...
Why do I have to be so incompetent ?!
"Awww, thank you, Jack." Not being aware--of course--of what the poet truly wanted to say, Norman is nevertheless grateful for the reassurance. He's the best...I love him so much.
Maybe...maybe I should tell him that...
"Um...so, uh," the projectionist begins awkwardly (Wow...easier thought than done.) before changing courses. "We'll snoop around and see what we can find." Who knows? Perhaps we'll actually find them.
But if and when we do...then what? Would we convince them to join us and escape?
I guess it'll be up to the circumstance. I'm prepared for anything.
Norman peeks back at that cute little smile, his heartbeat immediately speeding up.
After a moment of wavering, the projectionist bends closer to his beau.
Jack recognizes the signal and repeats the action until they share a clumsy kiss; they break off and explode into giggles.
But for now...let's just absorb the moment.
§
During her free time in the Writing Department, Dot catches up on her notes on the strange studio staff and circumstances.
So many secrets to solve...
And so many people in this place...
Sometimes I wonder why I do this.
From behind the writer, an excited voice startles her, "Hey-hey, Dot! Nice notes!"
She whips around to face Johnny. "Ah! How did you get--why are you here?" No...
They shrug. "'Cause I wanna be here. Sammy's gone, so there really isn't anyone to tell me what to do--and honestly, I just wanted to see what you're doing!" Bouncing up and down like an energetic little kid, the organist questions, "Are you still spying on everyone?"
Dot sighs. "I told you, it's not spying."
"Then what is it?"
The screenwriter has to pause at that. It's complicated... "It's none of your business. How about that?"
"Ah!" Johnny enunciates. "Yet by spying on others--”
"It's not spying!" the other protests.
"--are you not poking into their business...es?"
A pause followed by a sigh from Dot.
Johnny smiles smugly and leans on the chair. "Sooooo, can I help? Pretty, pretty please, with ice cream on top?" I promise I'll keep it all a secret!
The female shakes her head. "There's nothing to help with." I can handle it by myself.
Wait.
"Hold on a second--you mentioned that Sammy was gone?"
Johnny nods. "Yeppers. I dunno, he might be sick or something."
Before they're even finished saying the sentence, the gears in Dot's brain are turning.
He might just be absent for today...
I'll wait for a few days--perhaps it isn't something to be overly concerned about. But if he doesn't show up...then I'll begin researching.
"Actually...you can help me."
The musician's eyes sparkle joyfully as they bound upward. "Really?!"
"Yes..." the writer considers. "I want you to tell me how long Sammy is gone."
A silence.
"That's it?" Their voice deflects disappointment--I'd thought I'd be doing more.
"For now, yes." She wavers, then adds cautiously, "But if you do that correctly, I'll give you more beneficial tasks--"
"Ooh! Will I get to write notes?"
"Ummm...maybe in the future." But for now, leave that part to me. "Just focus on this for now."
"Okay!" Johnny smiles brightly and speeds out of the room, mind alight with this entertaining new task. Yayyyy! Secrets! Spying! Fun!
Dot can't help but grin at the organist's youthful approach to the entire situation. There is a true child at heart.
She turns back to her notes. Maybe if Buddy is willing, I can have him help me with this, too--he already knows about the notebook, and of course he is quite observant.
Maybe we can piece this puzzle together...together...
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Joey stride down the halls to the closed-off room where he had left Sammy and Alice over the weekend.
Maybe they'll--I mean, she'll--be willing to work with me this time.
We can fix the error easily; this should be obvious to her...
Or is she going to continue to block the way to dreams coming true?
Honestly...I find that I care less and less each day about what they all want or think.
Needless to mention, the businessman's drinking spree over the weekend was not exactly beneficial to his overall health--even when he isn't drunk, he hurts. The longer his headaches last, the shorter his temper becomes...and lately, he has become fidgety.
And I never used to be like that before.
Of course, Joey definitely is not the world's most patient person...but this isn't that kind of fidgety.
I just have energy that I need to release.
What attributes to these changes within him? He knows the answer...but denial is so much easier.
I'm fine. It's not a problem.
Besides, the drinking helps--it calms me down.
It's not a problem.
From behind the dazed owner, the projectionist and the poet peek out from around the corner.
So this is where it happens, Norman contemplates; he shifts his gaze toward his companion. "Are you ready?" After Jack confirms, the two surreptitiously linger down the corridor.
The boss and his followers continue on to the destination--the door very nearly shuts on the stalkers, but Norman stops it with his foot.
"Where's Sammy?" they hear Joey ask; from against the wall in the hall, the lyricist squints into the tiny crack.
Alice crosses her arms as she steps out of her cage--it's clear that while she's trying to act tough, something has happened to sadden her.
There's no mistaking the heartbroken look in her eyes.
"I...I don't know." Her hands travel up her arms nervously. "He's hiding here somewhere--I know he didn't leave the room..." But that's not what I want to talk about... "Why didn't you tell me that he...forgot?"
"Huh?" the boss responds dully.
A pause...
"So you really don't know?"
The projectionist shifts next to the poet and scans the two on the other side. Well...at least nothing bad happened to Susie. She looks just like her cartoon counterpart...
But what does she mean, 'Sammy forgot'?
"He...he..." Swallowing her animosity and anguish, the angel attempts to explain, "He acts like he doesn't know me. Over the weekend, I tried to jog his memory...tried to bring back some times that we had together...but he just doesn't understand!"
"Alice, you have to understand that you look different--"
"This is not about that!" The heavenly host clings to the businessman desperately, inky tears streaming down her cheeks. "Why don't you understand?! He doesn't remember me! Or you! Or anything!" It's like he's lost!
My wonderful, handsome Sammy...a lost one...
I can't let this happen to anyone else.
"But no matter where he is, I am not going to let you hurt him anymore." Biting back a sob, she resumes, "You obliviated his mind completely--"
"Whoa, Alice, slow down!" Joey pushes her off. "I'm sure that I can fix this--"
"You're sure?"
Norman and Jack exchange perplexed glances.
At Joey's silence, the angel grasps his collar and continues hotly, "Just say it! Say you don't know! Say that you're just making this up as you go! SAY THE TRUTH!"
"But--" The owner stumbles backwards.
There's more here than just making cartoons into humans, the cameraman considers as he witnesses the scene. We've missed a lot of the show.
Meanwhile, Jack worries. Is Sammy okay?
"I'M DONE WITH ALL YOUR PROMISES THAT YOU'LL NEVER KEEP!" Alice finally snaps. I just can't take it anymore! I did nothing to deserve this!
First, he made me wait AND WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT!
I just wanted to be beautiful, with a beautiful life, and a beautiful boyfriend, and eventually husband, and probably some beautiful children...
But that's never going to happen now! My dream is NEVER coming true!
IT WAS ALL A LIE!
"Alice! Stop this, now!"
"NO! I AM SO DONE WITH YOU!" I AM NOT GOING TO BE YOUR SCAPEGOAT ANYMORE!
The projectionist and the poet shuffles backwards in alarm--this is not something they should get involved with.
"N-Norman?" Jack's voice is unsteady and whispery. "I'm s-scared..."
It's going to be okay, my songbird, the other wants to say, but he himself isn't sure about that. Instead, the cameraman winds his arm around his boyfriend and holds him close; Norman can feel Jack's anxious *thump-thump-thump*ing heartbeat against his own.
Joey sighs. So this is how it's going to be? Well...let her get her way.
"We agreed on a plan, and you have fought me every step of the way, Alice. Is this the way you truly want it to be?"
There's a silence as the female continues to glower at the male.
"Fine," the latter dictates decidedly, waving his arm at the other. "You're on your own, then--do what you want. Go out and the world and show them what you're like now. But when they all laugh and stare and whisper about you--well, don't come crawling back to me."
I don't like to give up...but I guess I'm forced to give up on you .
Whoa, whoa, Norman thinks. Where did that come from? He can't--she--? Where's the logic to all of this?
Then again, I guess Joey isn't exactly the most logical person in the world...but he can't just kick her out like that!
Maybe she's right--he's just making this up as he goes...
But--
"Now, tell me--where's Sammy at?" the businessman's voice interrupts the stalker's contemplation.
"I told you, I don't know," the heavenly host bitterly answers. "And if I did, I wouldn't tell you."You've hurt him enough!
"Then I'll look for him myself." Joey marches toward the door.
Norman rapidly grabs Jack's hand and whirls around the corner before the boss can spot them.Damn, that was close, the former toils. But now...
"Do we follow him, or stay here?" he asks in a whisper to his spying partner.
"Umm..." Jack debates, loosely aware of Joey's gradually-fading footsteps. Alice probably won't do anything while we're gone...so... "F-Follow him."
With that, they wait until their fixation has rounded into another corridor before slinking along in his tracks.
So Sammy's had free range of the studio the entire time? the poet questions. Or did he just escape...
Or did Alice help him escape?
The businessman seems to lead his stalkers on a wild-goose chase, entering a daunting series of rooms, calling the composer's name--it appears the desired employee doesn't care to answer him. Norman and Jack are at the point of being frustrated when Joey finally enunciates, "Ah ha!"
The owner strolls into Thomas's office to find Sammy gaping at the Ink Demon; standing next to the Lost One, Joey asks passively, "What are you doing, Samuel?"
The other does not reply; scanning the scene from behind the door, Jack considers that Sammy is acting like he didn't even hear him.
However, the inky instrumentalist does speak after a moment. "He's..." Just like me...trapped in an abyss...
Bendy merely stares at the people opposite of him.
"...understandable." Sammy finishes. What if...
What if we're connected?
What if...he's the key?
What if...
He reaches out to touch the abomination, but Joey quickly slaps his hand back.
"Hey!"
"Sorry--I can't let you touch him. It would be bad."
Who are you to tell me what to do? The musician glares at the other. Keeping me from...
He is once again distracted by the failed Bendy before him. What if...he can control me?
It makes complete sense to the composer--two inky beings...one doomed to an eternity in the disgusting chasm he calls a body...and one who can set him free.
Maybe...he can free me from this place...
But not while everyone is in the way...and not while he's trapped in that cage...
"Are we done here?" The impatience begins to slip into Joey's voice.
Sammy doesn't reply. Maybe...if I set him free...he'll set me free...
Like a savior and his prophet.
"That's enough now, Sammy," the boss states, pulling his employee's arm. "We have things to do." Firstly, we'll turn you into the perfect version of what you are looking at, then--
"No" is the only answer, but it's a defiant one. I've already decided; I have to be here.
"Samuel Lawrence," Joey pronounces testily, "do what I say." Don't be like Alice.
The scorned songwriter is silent.
"He's the mistake," the businessman speaks up again. "You don't have to worry about him--he'll be taken care of in due time."
His employee still refuses to move.
"Listen to me--" the boss suddenly hears rustling and releases the music man; peering at the location he thinks it came from, he comes to a discovery: he is being watched.
Behind that tiny crack of the door, there are two familiar people struggling to look in on the scene.
Joey knows...and Norman and Jack don't know that he knows...and Joey knows that they don't know that he knows...and the other two don't know that he knows that they don't know, knowingly.
Regardless, Joey knows.
Well, well, well...what do we have here? Some spies, it seems? Some sneaky employees, trying to find out things behind closed doors?
Some...wanderers?
Wandering is a terrible sin.
He has the idea of confronting them right this moment...but then he has an even better idea.
They'll be punished for their sins, then...and I'll get some new cartoons...
And Sammy...he can play a part, too...
See Alice? I don't make it all up!
"Okay, Sammy--I'll tell you what." That smirk appears on his scarred face. "You want to mingle with Bendy? Then...you'll have to do a few tiny tasks for me."
"Why should I?" the Lost One retorts, not lifting his gaze from the Ink Demon.
"Because..." Joey wavers, "yooou...have to prove that you're worthy to meet with him."
Sammy finally breaks his fixation and looks at the boss rapturously. "I'll do whatever it takes." I must have him notice me... "What is it that I need to do?"
The other blinks. Wow. That worked? Not that I'm complaining or anything.
Jack tears his eyes away from the scene long enough to wonder, What's he getting at? I don't think that demon thing can decide who he wants to meet...
Regaining his thoughts, the owner proposes, "Come back with me to your cage, and I'll tell you."
A pause.
"Can't you just tell me here?"
"No," Joey answers a little too quickly. "Do you want to...consort with him, or not?"
"Of course I want to!" Someone so similar to myself, that may free me--
"Then just follow my requests."
Why won't he disclose anything? Norman ponders. Does he keep it all a secret until the end to keep them suspenseful? To keep them interested?
It's almost as if we're in some sort of book where the author keeps trying to draw in the audience by giving just enough information to keep them guessing.
The composer is silent for a moment before agreeing. "Okay...fine." This had better--no, this will be worth it.
After he notices me, maybe I can introduce him to that angel. She seems nice.
The projectionist and the poet are much more prepared for their swift transfer to a different corridor before the one they're stalking arrives at the door this time.
Sammy rather reluctantly follows the owner after one last longing glance at Ink Bendy; the projectionist and the poet pursue in their path once they're sure neither is going to turn back.
Alice is crouched by her cage when the others arrive; she lifts her head at the composer's entrance.
My Samuel...
"You brought him back."
"Not for you, of course" Joey retorts coldly. You think I would just leave him there, and not put him to any good use?
Scratch that--I don't care what you think or thought.
This is my story.
Pivoting back to the Lost One, he continues, "Now stay here--really. Don't go bothering that--"
Mistake is the first word that comes to mind.
"--Ink Demon. I have him separate from you two for a reason."
"Okay," Sammy agrees almost immediately.
Well, that was easy, the businessman considers. What exactly does he see in that...thing?
I mean, it can't think or be friends with him or anything.
Maybe this is part of the whole 'forgetting' thing she was getting at?
As long as he follows my orders, though...it doesn't really matter. I'm not the one being affected.
"I'll tell you what you have to do for me later," Joey goes on. "Then I'll let you do whatever with Bendy." I'll have to maintain distance between them, I suppose, so Sammy doesn't get hurt...or will he be invulnerable to inky scars and such, since he's made of ink, too?
His hand subconsciously drifts to the scars upon his own profile. Still...
The musician's voice recovers the other back to reality. "You can't tell me now?"
Ignoring the angel's piercing glare directed at him, the owner replies, "No; it's important that I wait until later to tell you." At a time when we aren't being watched. "Don't worry--you'll understand tomorrow. But until then, you'll just have to trust me."
What's he trying to manipulate my Sammy into doing now? the heavenly host speculates, but doesn't object right at this moment. I'll wait until he is gone before I say anything.
Both Norman and Jack are quite confused at this whole sight and conversation.
Everything is so loosely connected, the former acknowledges. Is there even a plan? Or is he just trying to get Samuel on his side?
Why is Samuel so concerned with that Ink Demon? the poet scrutinizes. And...why does Joey encourage it?
Apparently, it all makes sense to the Lost One, for he merely answers, "Well...okay then." If that's what it will take...
At least someone here follows my orders, Joey determines, turning back to the rebellious angel. "As for you--get in your cage."
Alice goes to open her mouth to argue...then thinks better of it; she makes quick work of darting into her enclosure. Talking to him will do nothing...I need to take action when he isn't looking.
The angel will be set free.
The boss smirks menacingly as he locks the cage. "Thank you for finally doing what you're told. Keep it up."
Sammy figures out that he should follow suit, and does; once both inky creatures are sealed up, Joey starts toward the door.
The cameraman and the lyricist scurry over to a different hallway, still unaware of the boss's knowledge of their presence.
Then Joey is finally gone.
§
Once she is moderately positive that her boss has exited, Alice speaks up to her former lover.
"Sammy...don't listen to him. Please...he'll do whatever it takes to get his way, even if and when that includes hurting you." And he's already done enough of that.
The other doesn't say anything.
"Please...Sammy, I'm the one you need to trust. Not him."
Again, she does not receive an answer.
No...he can't possibly actually be considering this...
What are you going to do, Alice? she asks herself, but the question sounds an awful lot like something Joey would ask; the angel returns to her position on the ground.
I...don't know...
§
The stalkers decide that they have seen enough...actually, probably more than enough.
Silently, they trudge to the double doors...
"W-What are we g-going to do?" Jack finally questions. Is there anything we can do?
"I wish I could tell you," Norman responds dejectedly...then has a possible solution. His eyes flicker with that mischievous shine as he suggests, "We...we could help them escape."
"B-But how? And w-what if Joey figures out i-it was us?" Would he be so crazy as to hurt us?
"He won't. I promise," the projectionist vows, slinging his arm around his partner. "I'll do whatever it takes to make sure we escape with them."
It's a good idea...but a risky one, Jack considers, hesitantly leaning his head against the other's chest. I don't know if it could really be possible--so many things could go wrong...
I never would have thought months ago that I would be putting my life on the line by helping ink people break out of this place...but here I am.
But...
I can't have any regrets.
"Flicky?"
Norman thoughtfully glances down at him.
"Um...i-in case this d-doesn't go right...uh..." Come on, just say it! "I-I-I-I love you."
"Awwww, I love you too!" The projectionist leans down and plants a kiss on the lyricist's red cheek. Such a sweetheart...
Although finally revealing his feelings is a great weight off of his shoulders, Jack is still doubtful.Do we really want to get involved with this? Maybe it would be best to just leave it be...
But we can't just let them suffer, either...
The poet knows that he should be getting ready to leave...but he doesn't really want to.
There's too much going through his mind...
And he's comfortable right where he's at, with his head on Norman's warm chest...
"I-I don't want to go home..." Especially alone...
"Me neither," the other agrees, then hesitates before asking, "Um...would you--do you want to go home with me? Like, to my house? I could cook you dinner or whatever you want, and take you home after a while..." Is that rushing it?
Snuggling further into the projectionist's chest, Jack smiles. "That would be nice."
Thus, the two head off into the parking lot; as his boyfriend enters his vehicle, Norman ponders on what tomorrow might bring...
But...I need to stay in the moment, with my songbird.
It's going to be fine...
We're going to be okay...
I hope.
§
It's repetitive...but I can't help myself.
Arriving at the speakeasy has become something of routine for Joey...as has calling cabs right after he leaves the studio and hoping the driver doesn't ask too many questions...and trying to ignore the staring from the other customers inside who he fears might recognize him...and skipping dinner so he can drink...and denying the obvious.
So this is what it feels like when you become one of the drunks.
He's well-aware at this point that it's a problem, but what can he do about that? Quitting would probably require that he tells someone about his issue, which he is not going to do.
Never .
Not only would revealing his (Joey hates the word) addiction prove his faults, but it with no doubt would have disastrous effects on his reputation.
And I can't have that.
Additionally...there's a part of him that doesn't want him to quit--moreover, it won't let him quit. The influence is too strong.
I don't think I could even stop myself if I tried...
But...is it really that bad?
...
Denial is easy.
Taking a seat at the counter, the businessman recognizes that the inevitable is to come...and he is not going to even attempt to prevent it.
There are six shots, and six thoughts.
One.
It's not my fault--any of this. It's Alice's fault. It's Sammy's fault. It's Norman and Jack's faults.
It's Henry's fault.
That sounds right..if he hadn't left, none of this would have happened.
Then again, I guess dreams wouldn't have the opportunity come true if he was still here...
Two.
Dreams--no one else seems to understand them! Can't they see how nearly everything rounds back to them? The inventions of the mind, the wonders of imagination; none of that would be here if it weren't for someone having a brilliant idea!
But I guess geniuses have a habit of going unnoticed...or do their peers just doubt them? The ones that surround them, too blind to see the final goal...
Three.
I know a lot of people who can never see the final goal: my employees, my former co-founder...my stepfather.
That fucker. He had to take away the one thing I loved. He did not deserve her. And he never, ever believed!
Four.
All you have to do is believe--it's that simple! Why do they all question it?! Don't they understand?! WHY DON'T THEY GET IT?!
My head hurts...
Five.
What's in this shit, anyway?
I miss my mother...
Why did she have to go? She would have supported me the whole way, I just know it.
Whyyyy did she have to go?!
Six.
Owwwwwwwwwww--everything hurts--make it stop--why does it hurt so much?! It was only a little bit!
Joey rises unsteadily and wipes his eyes.
His impulse is finally satisfied.
The street is blurry and wriggles like waves in the ocean when he gazes at it--the lamps along the sides of the road are little floating suns.
The next thing the studio owner knows, he's at his house--but how did he get there? After some aggressive fumbling with his door-handle, the entrance finally gives way.
The headache from before is much worse, and now is coupled with nausea--Joey isn't sure if that booze is going to stay down.
A preview of the hangover I'm gonna have tomorrow...
It hurts...
Why...why do I do this to myself?
He staggers over to his medicine cabinet and takes out a bottle of aspirin; four little white tablets disperse into his hand.
Moonshine might not taste wonderful to him, but water and pills aren't exactly a delicacy, either.
Fuck it all.
Joey lies on the couch with his hand on his hot forehead and closes his eyes.
It's...not my...fault...
Joey lies to himself.
Lying is easy.
Chapter 24: Chapter Twenty-Two - Wait and See
Notes:
A/N (2/3/2021)- Do you remember a time where I tried to avoid having these every single chapter? I guess that never worked out... (^ω^;;)
Anyway, this one is going to be somewhat longer than normal--I have a few announcements.
First and foremost: I'm truly sorry for the delay in publishing this; I'm afraid to admit that I was stuck in some sort of writer's block for Drowned (despite knowing exactly how I want the story to go--weird, I know) during the first few plotlines. This time, it wasn't the editing that took a long time--it was just me. Again, I apologize.
Second: Going hand-in-hand with the previous point--another reason for my sluggishness is that I am also starting on an original novel called Before He Broke Me. I haven't decided whether I'm publishing it chapter-by-chapter like Drowned, or bi-chapterly, or otherwise; I can tell you, however, that it will definitely be posted on Wattpad, probably on Tumblr, and maybe on AO3 (I'm hesitant with the last one because while AO3 lets you post original works, it was created for fanworks--we'll see how it all goes).
Third: As I'm sure you know, The Illusion of Living came out! Woooo! (*^▽^*) Yes, I am reading it-- Shortielikestoart pre-ordered it for me as a late Christmas present--but as I stated when the preview was released, I'm not changing anything in Drowned in accordance to the new content (I mean, I might reference a few quotes or events, but nothing hugely plot-changing will occur). I'm sorry, but also not sorry--it's my AU, so I think I have the right to implement or not implement whichever canonical aspects I choose.
That's all! I'm sorry for the long note, but I figured I should justify my delay and set the record straight regarding new content.
Have a marvelous week!
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"Hey, Dot! It's your favorite spy ever!" Johnny calls out to the writer the next day. "Guess what?"
The other lifts her eyes to them with the ghost of a smile. "What?" The grin disappears as she considers, It's about Sammy, isn't it?
"Sammy didn't come back!" they announce with their hands on their hips proudly, not mindful of how problematic this proclamation is.
"Really?" Dot takes out her notebook and scribbles the information down. So something is actually going on--between Samuel's and Susie's--
Johnny interrupts her train of thought. "Yeah, and you know what else?"
"Hm?"
"Mister Drew is acting kind of weird--I passed him this morning, and he looked really tired. I tried to ask him what was wrong, but he just walked on past me. He was pale. And green. Pale and green at the same time."
"Ah...that is kind of strange," she agrees, then notices the organist's bright smile. "What is it?"
"Aren't I the best spy ever? Are you super proud of me?"
"...Sure. Good job, Johnny. Keep it up."
While the other basks in their approval (Weeee! This is SO much more fun than working!), the writer continues to chew on this new information.
So the music department leader and the primary voice actress go missing without a word...
And they just happened to be together...
And Joey isn't looking well--is it illness...or guilt?
There's too much here for it to be a coincidence...
But I can't risk getting myself involved--I may be curious, but I'm not that brave. If there is something really going on...Joey would never let anyone sneaking around get too close.
That man loves his secrets...and he isn't apt to reveal them until it's convenient for him.
Or until it's too late, judging from Grant's reaction before.
But what is it that's missing?
You can't prove a case without evidence.
I'll wait and see what Buddy says.
Later during lunch break, the gofer in question arrives in the Writing Department with a puzzled expression.
"I don't know...I didn't see him around," Buddy discloses, referring to the missing musician. "But Norman and Jack were acting kind of weird--muttering to each other and stuff up in the projector booth, like they were planning something. Maybe they know something about all of this?"
"That's a good theory," Dot replies, once again pulling her writing tablet. I'm not sure about Norman and Jack's involvement in this, but Joey's a different story--no pun intended.
Joseph "Joey" Drew
- Co-founder of his namesake studio; wrote the animation guide and autobiography The Illusion of Living.
- Overly ambitious, almost to the point of being forceful; also bossy and snarky, especially when irritated. Probably has a good side somewhere in him, but his ego usually prevents others from seeing it. Early employees suggest that he was nicer before Henry's dismissal. Possibly lonely and/or insecure?
- A workaholic...mostly toward his employees. Does he work that much himself? Or is it just all talk?
- Absolutely obsessed with his company's slogan: "Dreams come true." Seems to believe that magic exists, and that there's always something more to achieve.
- Has ruffled a number of employees' feathers: Grant, Samuel, Thomas, Wally, etc. Stresses out even the most level-minded workers with imminent deadlines.
- For all his talk, he's quite secretive...is it just distractions for his true intentions?
While it may be true that the boss's page is one of the few with numerous notes, Dot isn't completely confident in all of them--most of her notes about other workers are based on her own conversations and interactions with them, but Joey's page is greatly dependent on what others say about him.
Then again, I suppose I'm being dependent on what Buddy and Johnny tell me about others, as well...
At least I know that they're reliable sources.
She updates the statuses of Sammy and Susie, adding questions of how and why they are missing.
The disappearances are connected, I just know it...
But as we cannot get further information just yet, I think we'll just have to keep watch at what happens.
We'll just have to wait and see.
§
Up until now, Thomas and Wally haven't had to fiddle with the Ink Machine or the Ink Demon after-hours--Joey had prohibited them from being in the studio following its closure.
While it is nice to finally have a break and go home when he is supposed to, the GENT worker can't help but be suspicious: There's a reason for this--he's planning something.
He always is!
But heaven forbid that he would tell me what it is!
Still...at least he only has to deal with that odd contraption for eight hours, as opposed to the nine or ten that Joey can stretch it to.
But it's still my machine!
And I warned him...
Wait...
What if--
"Mister Connor, sir!" interrupts the construction worker's contemplation; Thomas whips around to notice Buddy.
"Ah...gofer...what is it?"
The teenager hands the other a piece of yellowish paper he has with him. "From Mister Drew."
Thomas's dark-hazel eyes scan the note:
Thomas and Wallace --
Meet me in Thomas's office as soon as possible. You two are going to be experimenting with Bendy.
Joey Drew
His eyebrows ascend at the ambiguous language. Experimenting? What the hell?!
What does he think I am? I'm a reputed GENT worker, not some doctor-magician; I have other clients, too.
Ah, there's no time to question it now.
"Thank you," Thomas responds shortly to the gofer, giving the note back to him; the latter nods once and darts back down the hall.
Well, I guess I'll just have to wait and see what this brings.
The GENT worker is somewhat surprised to perceive that his office door is already unlocked--he frowns at the man inside.
Joey counters the glare with that smug little smirk that the other detests so much as he finagles with Bendy's cage.
"So what exactly are we doing with him?" Thomas questions sharply. I thought we were done with this.
"You'll see" is the only reply returned; the boss scurries behind the construction worker as the Ink Demon steps out of the enclosure.
He's scared of getting hurt again, the employee realizes with a smirk of his own. I said it before, and I'll say it again: he deserved those scars.
Meanwhile, Wally peeks around the corner at the scene.
"Come in," Joey beckons him; the janitor observes something of an ill air about the owner, with his bloodshot eyes and sickly complexion.
He's kind of antsy, too, his mind automatically adds at witnessing the other's slight fidgeting. But how can someone be tired and restless at the same time?
The boss claps his hands once (perhaps in an attempt to wake himself up) and states, "Okay, you two--I have a little task I want done." He begins pacing--much to the irritation of the other two--and continues, "We all know that this Ink Demon is...rather useless. Impractical. Counterproductive. But" --he places emphasis on the word-- "we can...change that..."
Joey is already out of breath by the end of the sentence, and his migraine isn't helping matters. I feel like shit...
Inhaling deeply, he goes on, "So I am going to have you guys do a little...procedure with him."
Procedure? Wally questions. What exactly is there to do? He's just a living blob of ink.
Thomas merely crosses his arms and waits for the certain flimsy, incoherent explanation that is to come.
But the summary doesn't arrive--instead, the businessman begins rummaging through the GENT worker's desk.
"Hey, what are you doing?!"
"Getting some ink," Joey deadpans, as if this should have been obvious; after removing the jar, he beckons for the other two to follow him.
Thomas's eyebrows shoot upward as he glances at Wally, who returns a shrug.
The Ink Demon trails behind the humans, forever wearing that cheesy wide smile.
I know he can't think, the janitor muses, but...can that thing feel? Like, does he have emotions?
Does he ever get tired of smiling?
Maybe he's a little more than a living blob of ink...
Joey leads the failed cartoon and the employees to a closed-off room (How many of them are in this place?! Thomas questions); the door is opened to reveal a rather cramped room consisting of a table with various metal instruments upon it...and what looks like a surgery table.
Whoa, whoa, whoa--where the hell did he get all of this?! Wally inquires, then considers, Probably the same place he got that cage for Bendy.
This is really, really weird...
"Now then," the boss speaks up, narrowly dodging Bendy skirting around him, "we--that is to say, you--will be...operating on this thing. Perhaps...you might be able to fix him..."
Did he forget about the entire explanation regarding souls and this Demon?! Or that whole thing he did with the projector?! Thomas doubts. Obviously so.
"What exactly do you want us to do?" Just spit it out!
The businessman sighs melodramatically. "Isn't it obvious?" Swiping a sharp, scary-looking apparatus similar to scissors off of the table, he answers, "Cut him up! See what's in there that we might be able to use! Op-er-ate! And put him back in the cage when you're done!"
Joey frowns at the shocked, disgusted expressions that are returned to him.
"Wha--we aren't Ink Demon doctors!" the construction worker cries, throwing his arms up. "This is completely out of the question!" Where the hell does he come up with this shit?!
The blue eyes stare sharply into the green-brown ones. "It is not! It might help us figure out what to do with him!"
"But--"
The owner flushes and pokes the other's chest angrily. "Quit complaining-- you're working for me! This is an order given by me, your leader, so you must obey!" Pivoting to Wally, he snarks, "And that goes for you, too!"
The janitor puts his hands up defensively as Joey harshly shoves the tool into his other's employee's hands and storms out.
There's a dumbfounded silence.
"What the fuck just happened?" Wally finally breaks the tension.
A frustrated sigh from the other...
"I have no idea." His voice shifts to something of a growl. "But...better get to doing it, I guess. Whatever it is that we're supposed to do with him--dissection, or something--"
"Umm..."
Neither of them is sure how exactly to go about this task...
"Well...for starters," Thomas begins, "you're going to want gloves when dealing with this...thing. You go get those, and I'll try to move him onto the surgery table." If that is at all possible.
"Right." The maintenance worker dashes out.
Staring into the Ink Demon's non-existent soul, the GENT worker braces himself with a deep breath. "Okay--now work with me. Please."
He hesitantly places his hands on the sides of the abomination...and surprisingly, Bendy doesn't object.
All right...so far, so good.
Thomas lifts the Ink Demon very, very slowly; the latter still doesn't react.
Great--now just stay calm, and I'll--
"EEERRRRRKKKK!"
The human panics at the sudden screech and releases the failed cartoon, almost falling backwards as he does so.
Ugh, it was only a matter of time.
Damn!
Wait...
This plan might work.
Thomas grabs the inkwell from the metal instrument table and pours its contents onto the surgery table.
Indeed, Bendy almost immediately pivots toward the ink-covered medical platform and rubs against it.
Close enough, Thomas decides as Wally enters back in.
"You got him on there?"
"Not without some trouble--but yes."
The other human nods and grasps one of the sharp tools. "Alright, then...you ready to get surgeried, Bendy?" I'll say that your doctors certainly aren't ready...
Silence follows the question; the janitor squints his eyes and slightly pokes the inky monster.
"EEEEEE!"
"Sorry, sorry--"
Bendy continues to shriek as the humans struggle to lock him onto the platform with the wrist straps--eventually, they are able to secure him down.
I'm sorry about this, Wally mentally apologizes to the demon as Thomas reaches for the knife on the other table and cuts the horror's chest open.
"NNNNNNNN! EEEEEEEEE! RRRRGGGG!" Ink Bendy growls and scratches in his constrained misery.
Had to do that is the only reaction from the GENT worker.
Both human parties feel sorry for the inky abomination (more so Wally than Thomas), but they also keep in mind that they don't want to do this, either.
If it's true, the theory that Ink Bendy has emotions, the janitor regards, then...I don't want to even know how he's feeling.
Apparently he can feel physical pain...
Then again, Bendy, I'm not exactly jumping for joy at this prospect--I was forced into it.
After what feels like too long, the maintenance and construction worker figure that Joey isn't returning and give up on this 'dissection'.
We didn't even gather any information from the experiment! Thomas gripes. Just a ton of ink on our clothes!
If Joey wants something done correctly, he should just do it himself.
Wally unstraps Bendy from the medical platform, and the two ink-lead him back to Thomas's office; the Ink Demon is significantly more reluctant to follow them this time, and the other two understand why.
Pain isn't subjective to humans.
The pair is out of breath by the time they finally convince and lock the monster into the cage.
The GENT worker finally speaks up, "Let's never do that again."
"Agreed."
A pause...
"So, um...how's Shawn?"
"Huh?"
"How's Shawn?" Thomas repeats.
"Oh, uh, fine," the janitor replies with a tad of surprise--the construction worker has never before expressed interest in Wally's personal life, never mind his love life. Maybe it's because he's aware of our relationship... "Been able to take him on a few dates outside of work since Joey hasn't been making us do anything after-hours." That dreamy, in-love smile appears on his face. "I'm glad we're finally together." Wally sighs in amour before considering that he should return the question. "Um, how's Allison?"
"Fine," is at first the only response before Thomas adds, "But...I'm concerned about her safety here--especially regarding Joey." I just can't place why he even hired her, if not for malicious reasons.
Wally nods. "You really care about her--I can tell."
"Well, of course! She's..." His voice shifts to a lighter, reflective tone. "...my everything. So kind and mature..."
"Heh. I guess her role as an angel suits her."
"Yeah..."
An awkward silence...
"Um, so...I guess we're done," the janitor finally says. "Thanks for puttin' up with me."
"Mmhm."
Oh...I guess it's back to the strong-and-silent thing again, Wally thinks. It was good while it lasted...
Maybe he has trouble talking to people? I mean, he seems confident, but maybe he just doesn't really know what to say. Not shy--but like, socially limited.
I dunno. That guy's a mystery.
But...I guess there's something under that shell.
It just takes time to see.
§
Sammy and Alice are surprised to see that Joey arrives a bit earlier than usual--before the studio has completely closed down.
No...no, the angel immediately thinks. He's here to screw even more things up--as if he hasn't done enough already!
He's taken away everything I care about...
My love...
My life...
My humanity ...
But...at least I still have myself...
My personality...
My thoughts...
My soul.
And...my beauty.
Beauty...the one thing he cannot possibly take away from me, no matter what he does.
No matter what form I'm in--my human form, my true angel form, or otherwise--I'll be a pretty sight...
Charming...just like Sammy used to say.
But...this is just another reminder that human Sammy--handsome, driven, salty Sammy--is never returning.
Now...he's lost. Lost to himself...lost to the world.
So confused...with no idea of what's going on or why he is here...
Alice hears Sammy's excited voice ring from the other cage. "Are you here to bring me to the--the--"
"To the Ink Demon?" Joey finishes for him. "Yes and no."
And with no clue of what could be in store, the heavenly host goes on. But...he's very interested in Bendy...
Why? Doesn't he have questions about all of this? Like, why is he in a cage? Why is he trapped? Why is he in this studio in the first place?
Doesn't he have questions?! Or does he not remember? Is he confused as to why he doesn't remember?!
...
I never used to be a worrier before...before...
"There's a little something you have to do for me before I...'introduce' you two," the owner continues with a tad of smugness. "You see, I came here earlier than usual because I figured I might be followed if I waited."
A puzzled expression crosses the Lost One's inky face. "Wha--"
"Two of my employees were spying on us last time; I decided to not confront them when I found out, however. But today...today they will be getting their comeuppance." No one sees MY plans before I show them!
The angel--who up until this point had been facing toward the wall--angles her head just slightly toward the other two. No...
"There are two of them, and I'm certain that they will be back tonight; they cannot possibly stand not being in 'the know' about our personal issues."
The angel stares at that smirk--that predictable, innocent-enough-looking, secretly-sinister smirk.
If only I had seen that before...
If I had known what that stupid, smug smile meant...
I could have stopped all of this...
But I will. I just need to wait for the right time...once he is gone...
He'll see.
Just wait...
"You, Samuel," Joey resumes, "are the central gear in this machine." Heh heh, Ink Machine puns. "You will be the one taking care of our little investigators."
The composer is silent for a moment. "But..." How will that help me get the 'Ink Demon's' attention?
Maybe...
Should I even question it?
It doesn't matter, as long as he notices me in the end!
He changes the sentence's course. "Okay. What do I need to do?"
No, my dear, Alice mentally cries. No...
"First, we need to move rooms--I'll explain the plan there."
Sammy readily rises and jaunts over to the businessman's side.
The smirk directs to the heavenly host. "Are you coming too, Alice?"
There is a sharp silence as the angel's despondent hazel irises glare into the exhausted blues.
"No."
"Fine," is Joey's terse reply. I don't need you anyway.
"Samuel, let's go."
§
About an hour later, Jack and Norman prepare their spying course...still unaware of the trouble that is to come.
"W-Where exactly are we going t-to go this time?" the former questions. "I-I mean, we haven't seen J-J-Joey all day..." Who knows what he's been planning all this time?
"I guess we'll just have to wait and see," the projectionist responds. "Just listen for voices or footsteps that signify where they might be." We're going to put a stop to this--
"That rhymes."
There's a silence as Norman ponders this sudden statement...then laughs.
"When did I become the poet?" He wraps the giggling lyricist in his arms and brushes the latter's bangs off his forehead.
It's nice to forget the world...even in the midst of chaos.
Back to a more mature manner, the cameraman asserts, "Okay--time to be serious. We just need to be perceptive, and we'll figure out where they are."
"Y-Yeah...ok-k-kay..."
Sensing his boyfriend's anxiety, Norman squeezes the other's hand and reaffirms, "Songbirdy, I promise, we're going to be okay. We'll find Alice and Samuel and maybe Bendy, escape from this hell of a studio--or even this city--and report Joey to the police...and at the end of the day, I'll buy you some chocolate and we can cuddle as we watch a movie. And we'll leave all of this mess behind--it'll be you and me, and no more ink or weird demonic thingies or anything like that. Just us."
"B-But...what about S-Sammy and Alice and B-B-Bendy? After we help t-them escape?" If that's possible...
But...maybe it is possible with my Flicky...
This time, the projectionist hesitates. "Well...I guess I don't know--but we'll try to form them back to their original selves, and maybe regain Samuel's memories."
Maybe use the Ink Machine before we turn Joey in? But would it work in reverse?
Ah, I don't know! This is almost too much...
"Okay, I admit that I don't know how it'll all work--it's kind of up in the air..." Norman's voice cracks slightly, like he's on the verge of crying. "...but Jack, if we work together, it'll all come together--just wait and see. Please...are you with me?"
The poet leans against the other's side, concerned at the latter's worry. He usually keeps it all in...he's usually my stronghold...
But now it's the other way around...
And I have to stay brave. For him.
"Of course. Always."
Norman pulls Jack closer, letting the lyricist snuggle into his ribcage. "You know I love you so, so, so much, right?"
"Yes...and I-I love you, too."
The poet hears an odd noise...like sniffling.
"Nonono, F-Flicky, don't c-cry!" Or I'll cry with you!
The projectionist wipes his eyes and smiles softly. "Sorry, sorry--just--got a little emotional there."
The couple stands in blissful silence for a moment, just hugging each other...
"Are you ready?"
"Yes."
With that, the duo set off down the hall, not really sure which way they should go.
"M-M-Maybe we should t-try to remember where Alice and S-Sammy were and g-go there?" Jack suggests before a fearful, familiar-sounding cry rings through the corridors.
The projectionist's and the poet's eyes meet, and both have a single, concurrent thought:
Samuel.
Sneaking put aside, the two break into runs and dash toward the source of the noise--the screams continue, this time adding, "Help! Help! You can't do this to me!"
The composer sounds like he's struggling for his life!
Norman and Jack are led to a closed door, behind which the yells are coming from.
"Samuel!" the former dares to call, flattening his hands against the dark wood. "Is that you?!"
"AHHHHHHHHHHH! HELP MEEEEEEE!" is the response.
They waste no more time--the door screeches out a *EEEEE!* as it is ripped open and the lyricist and cameraman dash inside...
...and are seized by two separate parties, one drawing forcefully on each side.
"Norman!" the poet shrieks as their hands are gradually pulled apart; something covers his mouth when he tries to scream, and he attempts to wriggle out of his inky captor's clutches--to no avail.
"Ja--!" the other tries to yell back before his voice is too suppressed; the projectionist kicks somewhat aimlessly in hopes that he'll hit his holder.
Joey struggles to keep Norman still and silent (the latter is significantly taller than him); the owner hisses at the Lost One, "Here, you take this one."
"Can't," Sammy responds shortly as his own prey futilely fights to get free--the composer binds his arm around the lyricist's neck. "Knock him out."
"Don't suffocate him!" The boss attempts to gesture at Jack, which proves to be a difficult task to undertake when hassling his strong worker. "What do you mean, knock him out?"
"Just--!" The inky man growls in frustration. "Never mind, I'll handle him--take this one to the Machine." In an all-too-swift move, he shoves the poet at Joey and snatches the projectionist by the collar.
A shriek escapes from the lyricist while he is transferred only to once again be muted by Joey and told sharply, "Shut up! Screaming isn't going to help you!"
Norman tries and fails to escape from Sammy's grasp, forced to witness his lover being dragged away to that atrocious, ominous, evil contraption. "Jack!"
"Quit squirming! It's the end of him--and you." the Lost One sibilates, pulling the cameraman toward him forcibly.
The next thing Norman sees is the wall rushing towards him--
--and then it all goes black.
§
"Stop it! Stop! Please!" Tears stream down the poet's face as Joey bends his arms back and pushes him through the hall.
"I told you to stop screaming!" the boss snaps back. Goddamn, if I had known it was going to be this hard...I wouldn't have--
"Y-Y-You're h-h-h-hurting meee!"
This time, Joey rounds to face Jack, the former's fatigued blue eyes suddenly alit with malice. "Boo-fucking-hoo! You think you're the only person that suffers in the world?! Well, let me tell you--I've gone through so much more agony than you, and you don't see me whining! Besides, you should be thanking me for being so generous with your punishment! Believe me, I can think of something much worse, if that's what you desire!"
Before the lyricist can even consider responding, the owner claps a hand over his mouth.
Enough chatter--let's just get this over with, Joey determines, shoving his employee under the machine's spout. "Don't even think of moving. Stay. There."
Jack doesn't even entertain the idea of escaping at this point; he falls to his knees under the nozzle and cries at the floor.
It's all my fault!
If I had convinced Norman not to spy from the very first time, none of this would have happened...
Norman...
He's...he's...
Samuel has him! And...and...
That means he's in danger! Or worse...
He doesn't want to even think of the word.
This is it! He's...gone!
There's never going to be a 'just us' now!
It's all my fault! I ruined it all!
"Will you stop?" the boss gripes. "It's not the end of the world!" What was I thinking, letting Henry hire such a blubbering baby?
Henry...
No. He is not going to think about that.
"You are going to be--" Joey begins before Sammy enters...lugging a certain projectionist with him in one arm, and something sharp in the other hand.
"Norman!" Jack cries out, making to stand up and rush toward him. He's alive! OhmyGodhe'saliveohmyGodwhyisn'themovingWAITISN'THEALIVE?!
"I told you not to move!" the owner yells, pushing the lyricist back down; at the same time, Sammy slides forward and holds a knife--one from the table in Bendy's dissection room--at the unconscious cameraman's neck.
"Do what you're told, or he gets it."
The poet shuffles back under the spout and sobs, "N-N-Nononono! P-p-p-please don't h-hurt him!" It wasn't his fault!
"Then stay under that nozzle," Joey directs acidly, then mutters at the Lost One, "He's not dead already?"
"No--just unconscious." Are all people this heavy when knocked out?
From around the corner, Jack observes a shadow sneaking along the wall. Nononono!
"Right--and when exactly did I give you permission to steal my surgery tools?" Joey asks with a tad of annoyance. That wasn't part of the plan.
"I didn't steal it; I'm just...borrowing it for now," Sammy claims. I needed some way to force the small guy to obey. "I'll put it back. Who are you cutting open?"
"Be--nevermind." The businessman loops back around to the side of the Ink Machine--where the slot to insert the picture of the desired cartoon is--and slips in a sketch. "Just watch this one so he doesn't move."
The familiar *clank*s and *grrrr*s and *gloop*s of the contraption resound through the area...Jack prepares to accept his fate...
The shadow on the wall creeps closer...
Then a *CLANK!* suddenly resonates from the other corner; Joey and Sammy's eyes drift to the source--a shelf had collapsed in on itself.
"What the hell?" the former says under his breath; to his inky employee: "Go take care of that."
Jack suffers within the drizzles of ink spewing out of the machine--it burns so much!
I'MONFIREI'MONFIREHOWDIDIGETSETONFIREHELPPPP!
Waitwaitwait--it's just the ink--
But why does it hurt?! His thoughts began to become disconnected. Like--blazing--fire--ink--no--happening--Norman--cannot--no--he--possibly--I--
Unintelligible whispers surround the poet, begging him, yelling at him, advising him--but are they really whispers...or just illusions?
What is he even being turned into? Sammy had cut off Joey's explanation...
Late--now--matter--but--
Then there's a rush...like something is pulling him...pulling him out of the ink-flames...
It's over...or so it seems...
...or just briefly halted?
Jack tries to open his eyes, but there's nothing to open--they were never closed...?
He could have sworn he had shut them in fear and pain just before the drowning...
The lyricist glances upon his arms (or where he thinks his arms might be) and down his body...
It's...
It's ink.
Just like Samuel--nonononono!
Yet...there's still a slight burning sensation--not nearly as bad as before, but still there...
His gaze continues on to the floor--wait, why is there a floor?
Where are his legs?!
It's as if he's an ink blob stuck onto the floor!
NONONONO!
As this wasn't enough to worry about, that pulling feeling is still here--and as Jack slowly regains perception of the area, it hits him that he's being dragged away from the machine.
"LET ME GO! AHHHHH!"
He tries to scream, but no words or sounds come out; the poet flails his inky body panickedly in hopes that he'll wave off whatever is tugging him.
"STOP! I'M SORRY! I DIDN'T MEAN IT! PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! PLEEEEASE!"
"Shush, shush!" Alice silences him in a whisper. "I'm trying to save you! Sammy's going to hear us if you keep yelling like that!"
What?! The lyricist is extremely puzzled. "You can hear me?" But I can't hear myself--at least not physically!
"Yes--now shhh."
The heavenly host's eyes flash with speedy persistence as she shoves the partial-Lost One (or that's what Jack thinks he might be) into a strange, tall box of sorts; after being sure that he cannot be seen, Alice goes to turn away.
"Wait!" Jack beckons her back desperately. "How--why--please--?!" There are too many questions overlapping over each other--the lyricist starts over. "I'm really confused--how can you hear me?!"
"I don't know," she responds shortly, fencing the box in with her body. "You're not really talking, but I can still hear you--"
"Like reading my mind?"
"I told you, I don't know."
The poet puts the question aside; there's more important matters. "Norman! He's in danger--Samuel has him! They're going to drown him! We need to save him--"
"I can't save everyone," Alice tries to explain. "It was hard enough distracting them long enough to get you out of the ink--"
"But we can still get him, right?! Right?!"
"No, Jack, we can't." This time, she actually pivots to face him, her voice reflecting genuine pity. "Believe me--if I could have, I would have." That was part of my plan. "But with him being knocked out and in Samuel's grasps, and you under the Ink Machine...I just couldn't do it all at once. I'm sorry...really."
The inky lyricist is shocked beyond belief--he had been saved, but the projectionist was left to his doom...
He wishes it was the other way around.
"But--but--"
"If they are doing what I think they're doing with him," the angel interrupts, "he will still be alive--just in a different form." Like...me.
"Like a cartoon? Like you are?"
"Yes, exactly. But he'll still be alive, Jack." She tries to smile, but it's more of a worried expression.
A pause...
"Alive...that's good enough. That's all I want, for him to be alive. It doesn't matter what he looks like in the end."
Should I tell him about the 'possibility-to-forget-their-entire-past' thing? Alice debates.
Would I have wanted to know?
Not now--it's not the time.
Jack fires off another question: "What am I?"
The haloed human gazes back at him with a puzzled expression. "What do you--oh, you mean like what kind of ink creature are you?"
"Yes."
"Well...I'm not really sure," Alice contemplates. "I mean, I pulled you out of the machine before it finished drowning you...so like a legless Lost One? That's what I call Sammy..." Though now that I think about it, that's probably a bit insensitive... "You're all inky like he is--but you still have your hat for some reason."
Another slight silence...
"Really?" The lyricist reaches for the headwear; sure enough, it's still there. Caressing it in his hands, he thinks, The last remaining part of my identity...
"Wait--did you hear that last part? After 'really'?"
"No--did you say something?"
So she can't read my mind...and it's not physical speaking, since I don't stutter... "No...nothing. Um...so where am I?"
To Jack's surprise, the angel chuckles a bit. "Just a little hideout thing I made. It's actually an empty Tasty Eats Machine with the back panel cut out--I call it a Little Miracle Station. Get it--because I'm an angel, and I create miracles, and it's a hiding station...heh heh..."
The lyricist attempts to laugh, but nothing comes out--he's not sure if that is due to his lack of a mouth or his emotions regarding this whole ordeal. "So you planned this whole thing? Saving me, I mean?"
"Yes...but no," Alice hesitantly replies. "I wanted to save both of you...but as I said before, that was impossible." A smirk crosses her face. "But there's more to the plan--we just need to wait."
"Wait? Wait for what?"
"Wait until Joseph leaves--that's when the real escaping will begin."
"Okay...so what should I do between now and then?" Besides worry about my Flicker?
I...really, really hope he's okay...
As long as he's alive...
Please...
The heavenly host puts a finger to her lips and utters a single phrase.
"Just keep quiet...and wait."
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Thus, Jack waits...and waits...and waits...
After a significant amount of time (How long has it been? Thirty minutes? An hour? Two? Too long, that's for sure...), Alice kneels down to the lyricist's height and confides, "Okay, I think I hear them coming--I'm going to go back to my cage so they don't figure out that I left. Stay here...and wait."
"Okay..."
"I'll be back to tell you when you can leave."
"Okay..." So much waiting...I just want to know if Norman is all right...
The angel hesitates, then awkwardly pats the half-Lost One on the hat. "Be good, Jack."
"I will."
The last of her smile disappears through the door, and the poet can hear her footsteps linger in the next room.
Then two sadly-familiar voices echo through the corridor towards him:
"Did you find him yet?" The impatience rings out in Joey's voice. Make a plan, and someone causes it to all go to hell! A perfect candidate for a Boris--gone! Disappeared without a trace! Wasted!
"No," Sammy replies, sounding exhausted. "I swear, he was there one second, then the next, he was gone! It wasn't my fault!"
"Oh really? Strange...I remember specifically telling you to watch him so he didn't escape!"
A heavy clomping noise resounds behind the two as the Lost One retorts, "But you weren't watching him either!"
"BECAUSE IT WAS YOUR JOB!"
"All right, all right, calm down!" All this work to get Bendy to notice me? How does it all add up?
Still...
Someone like me...
It will be worth the arguments and trials.
He will set us free.
Free from this bossy grouch, no doubt.
The boss growls. "We'll find him soon enough, I suppose--take this one to the cages. Think you can handle that without messing up?"
Norman! Jack anticipates hopefully. He's alive! Oh my God--
Pleasedon'tlookherepleasedon'tlookherepleasedon'tlookhere--
Sammy makes a seething noise in response, and the plodding resumes.
Then it fades away...and once again, it's back to silence...
After another expanse of time, Alice re-enters the Little Miracle Station room (I never noticed it until now, but this place is HUGE, the poet regards).
"Is Norman okay?" he asks almost immediately.
"Umm..." The cartoon-human wavers, which stresses Jack. "Yes...he's alive. But he looks different...like, really different--"
"Doesn't matter--can I see him? Is Joey gone?"
"Yes and yes." She waves her hand in a 'follow-me' gesture, and the lyricist is surprised to see that even without legs, he can still 'walk' in a way.
Like sliding...I slide instead of walk...
Weird...but I guess I'll have to get used to it...
The haloed human leads the half-Lost One to the ink creatures' room--Jack immediately recognizes a cantankerous Sammy brooding in his cell...but the other...thing...
"Jack!" it joyfully proclaims, rushing to the lyricist and swooping him into an inky hug. "You're okay! I was so worried--I woke up and didn't see you, and I was afraid that they had--well, never mind! You're here and alive!"
So he didn't forget... Alice ruminates somewhat enviously. Why couldn't Sammy and I be like that? Why did he have to forget?!
Maybe...it's only a 50/50 chance...and those two just got lucky...
"Norman?" The poet glances upward at the tall, ink-covered thing in front of him.
Yes...the body of it is Norman-shaped...but there's more...
Instead of a head...the cameraman's neck is connected to a projector, with reels and all.
How?! Jack questions, staring directly into the too-bright light streaming from his boyfriend's face--or where his face would be; however, the lack of real eyes on the former prevents any discomfort that would normally be present from gazing into the blinding lens.
Not only that, but in the center of the projectionist's chest is an odd, circular device...like a glowing speaker. But...I don't hear his voice out of it...at least, not exactly--
Meanwhile, Norman examines his drowned lover. He's like Sammy...but not completely...
How?
"What did they do to you?" the shocked couple inquire simultaneously.
Alice goes to speak, but remembers that Sammy is here, and shuts her mouth again.
"I'll explain later," the lyricist promises, hoping that the Lost One won't be too suspicious of this declaration. "You go first--what happened?"
"That's just it--I don't know," the Projectionist discloses. "Samuel" -- he gestures to the composer -- "knocked me out, and when I woke up, I was like this. I don't even know what cartoon or whatever I'm supposed to be--"
"I had to do it!" The scorned songwriter rises and faces the other two with his hands on his hips. "It wasn't like I had a choice! And since you absolutely need to know, you're supposed to be...oh, what's he called? The one guy from those comics that man showed me...the Cameraman--that's it."
"Oh, you can hear me?" Norman asks with just the tiniest bit of spite. "Then why didn't you say anything when I was screaming for you to let me--"
"Because I was following orders! Besides, I don't think that other guy--what-his-name--can hear you and that little crybaby anymore."
"Don't call my boyfriend a crybaby!" You can't even make decisions or have opinions for yourself--you need to have someone else tell you what to do and think! Insulting my songbird like that--
"Well, he is!" Sammy bites back. "Bawling his eyes out when I led him to that machine--"
"That's enough, both of you!" Alice interrupts. "Why can't Joey hear these two?"
"Hell if I know! Must be a thing where only ink creatures can hear each other!" It suddenly hits the composer that the very creature he had been reprimanded for losing is RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. He points at Jack and cries, "Hey, you're here!"
Thanks for noticing, the lyricist thinks but doesn't say.
"Yes, he's here," the angel pipes up. "I saved him from the ink--"
"WHY?! DUE TO YOU, I NEVER GOT TO HAVE HIM NOTICE ME!"
Alice firstly cowers somewhat under her former lover's rage...then stands up straight. It's like I don't even know him anymore!
He's...not even Sammy.
That means...I don't have to deal with this.
"Why are you so obsessed with meeting or whatever with Bendy?! He's just a mistake!" Unlike me, your perfect-no-matter-what-form-I'm-in angel! Your Alice!
Your...Susie...
But...not anymore.
"I did what I had to do." She sighs. "Samuel...you have to pick your loyalties. A very handsome and intelligent man once told me that there are a lot of jerks in this world that will use any means necessary to achieve their ends, even if it means hurting others--Samuel, Joey is one of those people. Do you really want to side with the manipulative, self-centered jerk who's going to lie and betray you just so he can win, and you can lose?"
Sammy doesn't immediately respond to that point.
"We don't have to listen to him. You can still meet with Bendy--" Although I still don't understand why that part is so important "--if you just follow us. We can be the ones to set ourselves free."
"So...what do you say? Are you with us?"
The musician hesitates. "I...I..."
But...what about the Ink Demon? The way he is so...understandable...
What about what I think?
"Yes..."
Alice's face lights up. I finally got through to him--
"But also no."
A pause...
"What do you mean, 'no'?" the Projectionist questions. It's just yes--that's it.
"I mean...I'll escape with you, but without you. You guys go one way, I'll go another," the Lost One clarifies rather drily. "I'll forge my own path." Preferably with the Ink Demon--the one who understands what it's like...
"But--but..." Alice struggles to add a point that might persuade her former lover to join them. We...we could start over!
We can fix this!
We...
"...Please?"
"Wait--so are we leaving this place? For real?" Once again, Jack is confused. How? I mean...obviously we can't go out in public like this...
"Not exactly," the angel expounds. "We're going to be stuck here--that part is inevitable--but we should at least try to make the best of it..." If that's possible. "We'll just need to keep hidden--"
"All day? All night? Forever?" Norman inquires. So we're never going home? At all?
All the things I had planned...
My future...Jack's future...
Joey took it all away!
"I...I...I don't know!" she cries. "There's only so much I can figure out!" We were all doomed from the start! "If you guys have any other great ideas, now's the time to speak up!"
A dead silence emanates...
"That's what I thought." The heavenly host sighs and tries to steer the conversation back. "There's nothing else to do--we either suffer under Joey's wrath...or we change the story. We do what we want! We don't have to play the parts in his book anymore! Cells no more!"
"Cells no more!" Norman agrees, and his boyfriend soon follows suit.
"Cells no more!"
It's up to Sammy now.
"Please, darling..." Alice begs. "Run away...run from all of this...and live." Even if it's in secret.
The Lost One takes a deep breath in...
"Okay, I'll run off--but I still want to go my own direction."
"Fine--just as long as we all stay out of Joseph's grasps. Okay?"
"Yes...cells no more."
§
Thus, the foursome release themselves from their cages and each head their separate ways...
Alice, who due to her lonely nights in the dark studio knows the place better than almost everyone, almost immediately heads down the corridors where she knows most don't linger.
I...wish I could have taken Sammy with me...
But he's so fixated on that Demon...
And I still don't know why !
Maybe...maybe I'll find out. I'll interact with that...ugly thing--see why he's so important.
...What am I going to do before then, though?
I guess...I can only wait.
Norman and Jack, for a moment, aren't sure where to go--just this morning, it was all normal...and now...
"Well..." the former speaks up after a long, thoughtful silence. "I guess that little nickname for me became a self-fulfilling prophecy...heh..."
"Yeah..."
Another pause...
"Well...what are we going to do now?" the lyricist worries. "I mean--like Susie said, there's nowhere we can go..."
"I know...but I guess we'll just have to make the best of it," the Projectionist responds. "We're good at hiding and sneaking around--that's what got us into this mess in the first place." Even so...I don't regret any of it. "Maybe we should search for a place in the depths of the studio where the other workers don't usually go? There seems to be a lot of them."
"Right..." Jack agrees, then hesitantly adds, "Flicker?"
"Yes?"
"Um...you're really brave. Even if we didn't end up escaping and helping Sammy and Susie...we still tried. And that would have never happened without you."
"Awww, thank you! You're making me blush--or, uh, at least mentally!" Not physically anymore...
But...at least I made a difference in one person's eyes--in the best person's eyes.
Even...even if I couldn't keep my promise of a happy ending...he still loves me.
The poet nervously laughs at that last comment. How is he so...accepting about his new condition? I don't know if I can get used to this... "And, um...I just want you to know that...even though we're like...this...I still love you. I mean, when you were knocked out...I was just so worried that you wouldn't come out alive--I didn't even care about what you might have been turned into--I just wanted you living. Do...do you...still love me? Even though I'm all inky?
The reply is almost immediate. "Of course! Jack, I don't care what you look like--you're still my precious, adorable little songbird. Nothing--not the Ink Machine, not the changes of our surroundings, not Joey--nothing can make me stop loving you."
It's Jack's turn to think that if he could blush, he would be bright red. "Thank you...really."
"No, thank you. You still trust me...even after I failed you--"
"You didn't fail me--I failed you!"
Another pause ensues, this one much shorter.
"How about we agree that neither of us failed?" Norman offers. "We couldn't control all of the circumstances...no matter how much we tried."
"...You're right. At least we tried...and we can still try...
It's not over yet. "
Lastly, Sammy treks to a very intentional spot--Ink Bendy's cage.
"If we get to go free, so do you," the composer tells the abomination as he unlocks the pen; the latter glides out of the enclosure rather thankfully. "Cells no more goes for all of us...my savior." The word tastes wonderfully on his lips. It's the perfect way to describe it.
I don't need anyone else...because he will set me free.
"I'll go wherever you go." Sammy is convinced that Bendy can think for himself...
Thus, when the monstrosity lumbers down random corridor after random corridor, the Lost One doesn't question it in the least bit; he readily follows along.
But...why won't he communicate with me?
Maybe...maybe that one guy was partially right--even if he was bossy. Maybe I need to appease him...
A phrase from 'that one guy' enters the scorned songwriter's mind: "Love requires sacrifice."
Sacrifice...
That must be the key.
But what would I--ohhhh...
I...need to make him comfortable. I need to make more of...his kind...
Humans go in the Ink Machine...and come out inky...
Sammy suddenly knows what he has to do.
§
There's a change of redundant plans today...
Joey goes home instead of to the speakeasy.
However, this is mostly due to the fact that he isn't sure how much his body can take--last night's drinking session granted him a sort of hangover-induced exhaustion no amount of coffee can cure.
Is this what dying feels like?
Not to mention that the events from today have him worn out and feeling uneasy.
I did what I had to do--to make dreams come true.
...
That phrase...it's starting to get kind of irritating. Dreams, dreams, dreams--I can do so many takes of that trash in a day! Belief! Magic! Wonders! Etcetera etcetera!
Nevertheless, that desire to have something in his mouth to replace the would-be alcohol is still there. Like I need to trick myself into thinking I have it...
The boss is a bit hesitant to prepare food, however--he's still somewhat nauseous from yesterday's spree. Maybe something easy on the stomach...
Soon, a pan of rice is simmering on the stove; while it cooks, Joey picks up the newspaper on the table and scans the headline:
Archgate Films Releases 150th Episode: Owner Celebrates Achievement With Open House Event
Well, isn't that just dandy? Joey thinks spitefully, recalling his main rival in the visual entertainment business: Nathan Arch.
The two had met in college--Nathan was two years ahead of Joey, and the latter always had something of an envious grudge against the former...despite the fact that Nathan was invariably polite and even amiable towards the other.
Why did he get to have it all? I'm worth so much more!
Henry, however, had consistently returned the cordiality, and advised Joey to do the same. "It'd be good for you to make friends while we're here--they'll be there for you in the future. You never know, Joey--there's always the possibility of deficiency in business, but the friends you make now might save you in the end."
"I get that, but I can't be his friend!" the other had insisted. "I mean, he gets everything--"
"So you'll be able to profit off his success, because he trusts you! I'm sure he'd be willing to share--"
"I don't want to share! I want my own success! I don't need to barter off of some popular parvenu!"
"...That's a bit insensitive, Joey."
The owner pushes the past conversation from his mind and continues on.
On November 7th, Nathan Arch's company, Archgate Films, published its one-hundred-and-fiftieth motion picture; this show was the fifth installment of the one of the studio's ten short series
Blah, blah, blah. Joey skips down the article.
Nathan joyfully proclaimed in an interview at the open house, "I truly find it hard to believe that we have achieved such an accomplishment in such a short two years; I'm extremely proud of my studio team for working with me during these hard, long months. I'm very hopeful for the future of the company as we continue to film our new series
He folds the paper up.
Like I said, he gets everything !
What makes him so special? Just because he started first--
The rice finishes boiling; Joey transfers it to a bowl and seasons it.
Why should I have to prove myself?
Trick question: I don't .
Nathan may have multiple series, but he doesn't have imagination in those series...not enough dreams .
Wait.
What if...I could prove them all wrong? I could show that JDS is better!
But with what? An expansion seems feasible...but with what?
Something new...
Something that would attract old fans and new ones alike...
Something...wonderful...
Something... colossal .
The fork hits the table with a *clink* as the perfect idea hits him.
Yes...that would be perfect! Amazing!
Dreamlike!
Invigorated by his new plan, Joey finishes up his rice and begins planning out what he will have to do to set this new expansion in motion.
He's proud of himself; yes, for coming up with the idea...but also for not falling into his addiction (today).
Now that he's actually eaten as opposed to skipping the meal...he feels a little bit better.
A slight hope that he'll be able to stay that way tomorrow flickers within the owner...but...
That doesn't matter now. What matters is the final goal:
Plan and establish the new infrastructure. Make dreams come true.
Just wait and see.
Chapter 25: Chapter Twenty-Three - Lights, Camera, (Adverse Re)action!
Notes:
A/N - I'm super sorry for the l o n g delay! Basically, Wattpad temporarily suspended my editor for literally no reason, so he couldn't access the Doc to edit--well, never mind that. It's all worked out now! (✿◡ω◡) Since I already have Twenty-Four written, it tentatively shouldn't take too long for that to be edited and posted.
Side note: I updated the LGBTQ log again!
That's all! Have a phenomenal week!
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Chapter Text
It happened again ...
Dot just cannot piece together the disappearances of the studio's workers; not only are Sammy and Susie gone, but now Jack and Norman haven't shown up all week.
And again with the couple thing--is that a factor? Is Joey trying to rid the place of romance or something?
That part doesn't seem feasible...maybe it is a coincidence? But the vanishings certainly aren't...
She poses the questions to Buddy and Johnny, neither of whom provide any useful insight.
"Is there a chance that one of us might end up disappearing?" the gofer questions worriedly as the organist blows bubbles into their plastic cup of milk ("Where did you get that?" "From the break room--it's supposed to be for coffee, but I just like milk by itself. Though I wish there was some chocolate syrup to stir in it.").
"I don't know..." the writer responds despondently. And I certainly wish I did...maybe we can prevent more of these--do I dare say 'kidnappings'? But they can't be that...can they? "I certainly hope not..."
Johnny briefly halts the childish action and chimes in, "Maybe they'll come back--'cause, you know, Susie said she'd be back. Eventually. I hope Sammy returns; I've been having to do more work 'cause he's gone, and we can only reuse his old pieces so many times."
Maybe this job isn't all it's cracked up to be... Buddy toils. But...I'm doing this for Mother.
I need to stay strong and alert.
Meanwhile, Dot contemplates, Do we report Joey for this? But what is there to report? Again, we don't have evidence!
Evidence...how do we gather some? Perhaps I could use accounts from the other, adult workers themselves--see if they think anything weird is going on...
I wish there was something we could use to pick up what they say...like recorded thoughts, in a way...
Hmm...or maybe I have to make--build--something that will do that. I mean, I'm definitely not a techy person...but I can try.
And try to act normal...like I don't know anything about all of this...while reality is the opposite.
The organist thinks, This milk is making me hungry. Wonder what that bacon soup tastes like?
Eventually, the group disperses, all three individual parties perplexed by the situation--except for Johnny, who is much more concerned about getting a bite to eat at this point.
There has to be a solution...but it's very well-hidden; Dot regards, There will be a way to find it--we just need to try harder.
No more waiting--we need action, and now.
As they say in the theater business: lights, camera, action!
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"Mister Drew, that just won't work."
In the finance department, Grant attempts (rather unsuccessfully) to dissuade his boss's new idea of the extension.
Unfortunately, it is a cold, hard fact that Joseph Drew is stubborn.
"Why not?" the owner inquires, eyes illuminated with euphoria at this fresh prospect--definitely a better mental and physical feeling as compared to yesterday's--as he gestures into the air. "Think about it! An amusement park with all the bells and whistles merrily singing with each other! Coasters! Carnival games! Prizes! Food! Merry-go-rounds! Those fast, spinny things with carts! And all with our little devil darling plastered onto it!"
"I agree that it's a wonderful idea, sir, but we just don't have the funds!" the accountant tries to explain. "I mean, between paying the taxes, providing wages for the studio employees (as well as the GENT workers), promoting the company..." He trails off only to bring up a new point. "Another thing--I noticed a fall in wages for a number of workers--"
"Don't worry about that," Joey brushes off. I have it handled, of course.
"But, sir, this is problematic! A lack of employees means a lack of products, which means absolutely no chance of--what did you want to call it?"
"Bendy Land." The owner flourishes his arms above him and says the words in an airy, triumphant tone, as if the plan is some sort of god-sent concept.
"Right--without our normal workers, 'Bendy Land' is out of the question." The financer drops his voice and leans closer in hopes that his boss might heed the next few phrases. "Mister Drew, there's been some...suspicion directed at us. Employees are disappearing and not returning; because of Samuel's--and now Jack's--vacancies, we've been forced to use old music in our new cartoons. And now with Norman's absence...you can't have cartoons without a projectionist. Not only that, but...Mister Drew, the public is losing trust in us. People are asking questions that I just cannot answer."
"So don't answer them!" the other answers, as if this is obvious. "Just tell them that we're working on it--whatever 'it' is--and that there's something cooking in the kitchen! That'll distract them, and we'll have journalists breaking down the doors wanting more inf--"
"Sir, that's exactly the kind of thing we don't want! And like I said, we just don't have the funds!" You have to understand--
"Who are you to say what the company does and doesn't want or need?" Joey interrupts coldly. "Besides..." -- a sneaky inflection creeps into his tone -- "you can...perhaps...finagle the numbers for the taxes, right?"
Grant doesn't respond, his heart beating rapidly in his chest at the mere thought of tax evasion. No...I can't do that--
"Right, Grant?"
"I...I..." The accountant just might crack under the stress... But...
He rises to his feet with much more confidence than he feels. "No. I can't do that, sir--for both moral and legal reasons. You want to create an expensive theme park? You're going to need to wait--it's possible in the future...but not right now."
Wow...did I really just do that? Stand up to the genius upstairs?
However...another cold, hard fact about Joseph Drew is that he does not like being told to wait.
"But--but--I already have it all planned out!" Now his voice is reminiscent of a whiny, petulant child's; Grant half-expects his boss to stomp his foot and throw a fit. "I'm in contact with the head of a company that specializes in this sort of thing, and--"
The auditor sighs. Can I continue this little burst of courage? Come on, Grant! "Then you're just going to have to postpone it. I'm sorry, but that's the way it is."
There's a silence, and for a moment, Grant prides himself for finally getting through to the other.
I never thought I could do that--stand up to him like that--
I usually just let him walk all over me...
But not today. I did it! For once in my life!
I'm the one in control! And I said no to his stupid plans!
Go me!
"...but that's not the way it absolutely has to be," the boss halts the accountant's mental celebration curtly.
Ah, come on! Grant new-found assurance rapidly dissipates. I thought I finally convinced him...
But no. How could I have been so foolish? It's never that easy.
It was nice while it lasted...
"Yes, it is, sir."
"No, it is not. Or...it doesn't need to be." Joey's eyes shine mischievously as he scowls. "Just why are you refusing to do what I say?"
"You mean, about tax evasion? Because--"
"Don't call it that...just think of it as...'cutting off unnecessary expenses'."
Why doesn't he understand? the other torments. Or does he, and he's just trying to twist it into his own version of things? "It doesn't matter what you call it--it's illegal...and..." He takes a deep breath. "...I am not going to do it."
Another heavy pause ensues. The financer doesn't dare think anything, just in case his boss is debating how to counter the refusal again; he feels the confidence slowly draining from him and his legs becoming weak as the silence becomes longer and longer.
"Well, then..." the owner eventually speaks up, a dark shadow forming over his eyes. "...if you aren't going to do what I say..."
Oh no... Grant nervously anticipates. I screwed up, didn't I?
I shouldn't have said anything...shouldn't have defied him...
"...then I'll just do it myself." Joey too rises and asserts his dominance with a 'I'm-the-boss-and-you-know-it' smirk.
"Wait--you mean--"
"You're fired."
Grant is briefly stunned. Wait--WHAT?! "But--but--sir--you can't possibly--"
"Yes, I can. You won't do what I ask? Then there's no use for you here." That smirk creeps onto the businessman's face as he gathers a collection of loose papers off of the desk (despite not really knowing what they contain). Clean out your desk--and go."
"But--" No, please! I need my job! How will I feed myself?! And my cat?!
"No buts. I'm officially releasing you, and there's nothing you can do about it. I'll handle the finances from here on out." Joey rounds over to the door. "I expect that your office will be emptied by the end of today." I'm so sick of defiance from everyone!
"Mister Drew--please--wait!" the former auditor tries to draw his boss back to no avail; the door harshly slams shut with a *BANG!* He can't be serious...no...no...
He can't do it all by himself...he, he needs me!
What have I done?!
All because I couldn't follow orders...but the orders weren't reasonable!
The poor man just wants to curl up on the ground and cry; he honestly wishes he had just agreed to tax fraud, so that this wouldn't have happened...
But I couldn't! I just couldn't!
After another ten-ish minutes of cleaning out the area, feeling sorry for his doomed-from-the-start self, Grant sighs and prepares to accept the inevitable.
Between the purchase of the theater (WHICH HE DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT!) and this, and the stress...
What am I going to do now, with no job?
Maybe...I'll find a better one. With a company that actually appreciates me, or something...
A rustling from the other side of Grant's room halts his thoughts. Huh?
Who can that be?
No one usually visits him in the finance department...it gets awfully lonely most days...
But...
"Who's out there?"
The only reply is more susurration.
"Hello?" Grant calls out.
Silence...
And then a triumphant voice: "Hello...dear sheep!" followed by footsteps rapidly becoming louder and closer...
"Wha--what did you call m--" the former accountant goes to ask before he is pulled backwards. "Ah!"
Sammy glances down at the frightened-to-the-point-of-being-pale human in his arms and declares way too calmly, "Ah, you will do perfectly."
"I--bu--who--?!" Grant is too horrified for words--he's never seen such a...Confusing abomination?! Strange, creepy living thing?! Inky person?! in his life.
"Shhhh." The Lost One places a delicate finger on the other's lips. "Quiet now, little sheep. I'm about to shift your entire perception of the world--call it an enlightenment. You're about to witness the greatest creature known to Earth..." My dear lord... His voice deviates to a light, warm tone. "Well, after you wake up, anyway!"
The weird murky being lifts what looks like a dustpan to the fired worker above his head--Grant barely has time to panic.
"Sheep, sheep, sheep...it's time for sleep."
Then it all goes dark.
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Joey is in for an unpleasant surprise as he treks to the ink creatures' room...
Now that Alice has finally accepted that I'm the one in control, perhaps we can finally work on getting her introduced to the public...as well as the others...
But damn ! I could have had a Boris! But no! Samuel had to let him escape!
But he can't hide forever.
Once he is found (and he will be), we'll--that is to say, I'll --try again.
Like what I was supposed to with Samuel in the first place...but I was stopped there, too!
Maybe I'll do it all in one go--
The door swings upon with a *creeaak*...and the inevitable realization finally occurs.
...
"WHAT?!" They're gone?!
What the hell?!
They...they couldn't have just disappeared--
This can only mean one thing...
NO. Joey doesn't even want to accept the fact.
They...escaped. THEY ESCAPED!
THEY JUST LEFT !
AND NOW I HAVE NOTHING! NOTHING!
His breaths become heavy and furious as he paces around the room, searching for perhaps the tiniest clue of where the Lost One, angel, Projectionist, and Searcher possibly diverged to.
But there is nothing...not a trace.
FUCK!
WHY COULDN'T THEY HAVE JUST LISTENED?!
A great adverse reaction threatens to overtake him--he just wants to punch a wall...or cry...or something!
But...Joey takes a deep breath and manages to stay level-headed--for now.
Like I said before: he--as well as the rest of them--can't hide forever.
Besides, Alice won't be able to cope with life outside of this project--she's too obsessed with her new form to let it all go to waste...and as for the others...what can they possibly do? They're stuck like that.
A twinge of guilt flutters within him...it's finally becoming apparent that he, with his selfish dreams, has ruined thei--
No. It's all for the greater good.
She'll be back. They all will.
I just need to give them time to realize it...
Ah, but I HATE waiting!
This whole situation is much more stressful than he ever would have anticipated...the boss really, really, really, really, really wishes he had some form of alcohol with him at the moment...to drown out and drink away his pain...
It would calm me down...
I'd only need one...
Just one...
Just a little, teeny bit...
Yesterday's success doesn't matter--the urge is too strong now.
He needs it...heneedsit...heneedsitHENEEDSITHENEEDSIT!
So...trying to forget all of this mess, and hoping that his employees-gone-cartoons will return (Otherwise, I'll need to start all over! ALL OVER!)...Joey just leaves the barren room and goes to obtain the chemicals he needs so desperately.
No lights, no camera...just...just an adverse reaction.
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No--this can't be happening--what is happening--someone please--please help me!
A certain confused (and now drowned, with no idea of how he became that way or what it means) former accountant finds himself being dragged along by that ink-covered man from before--the one who had called him "sheep."
"Let me go! Please! I don't know what you did to me, but I don't like it! Turn it back! Pleeeeease!" Grant cries. "What did I do to deserve this?!" How did I end up like this?!
He...he said something about 'sacrifice' when I woke up...
NOTIMETOTHINKMUSTLEAVEESCAPE!
"Hush, little sheep," Sammy responds, pulling the other so that he doesn't escape--the cursed composer is more focused on his destination and goal than on his prey. My lord...perhaps he will finally notice me after he sees what gift I have for him!
His face...it's all over the walls...
This is destiny. I was meant to discover him, to forget all that had happened before...
I needed to forget...so that I could know .
I was meant to be his...his...prophet. His disciple.
His shepherd, to gather all the sheep…
...and offer them to him...like he rightfully deserves. We must honor him... we must .
"Why--what--how--?!" The trapped Lost One doesn't even know what to ask--not that he'd receive any intelligible answers. I just want my job--my life--my home--my cat--everything back! To reverse this morning!
I could have done it differently--I could have said yes to tax fraud--it would be much better than this!
What is he going to do to me?!
Grant is at the point of weeping inky tears. "Please--I just want to go home! When do I get to go home?!"
"I said shush!" Sammy snaps back this time. "We're almost there...almost to him..." Soon, you will understand--you will have no desire to return 'home'.
He will be your home.
The disgruntled fired worker and the thunderstruck 'prophet' arrive in Thomas's office (after months, the Ink Demon has become adjusted to being there); the former gasps in fright at observing the grisly, failed horror staring at the opposite.
"What is that?!"
"It's not a 'what', it's a he!" the musician reprimands, then decides to answer. "He is a miracle...a wonder...
An abomination comes to the dismissed auditor's mind. "W-why are we her--"
"Shh!" the other silences again. "Just watch."
A moment passes by...then Bendy very slowly turns around...
Grant lets out a squeak and crouches behind the other Lost One. "Wha--why--what happened to him?!" It kind of looks like Bendy...but--
How?!
How does he exist?! Why does he exist?! Why is he so...mutilated?!
"Pleeeease just let me go hoooome...I don't want to be here!"
From the hallway echo footsteps; poor Grant anticipates the worst. Nononono, I have enough on my hands now--please don't let that be anyone--
"Sammy!" Alice treks into the room. "There you are! I've been searchi--" She notices the second Lost One. "Who--" did you drown now? "--is that?"
The composer shrugs--he hadn't even bothered to ask the name of his sacrifice. It doesn't really matter. Nothing matters...except for the Ink Demon.
"Grant--Grant Cohen," the fired auditor clarifies. And what are you? Almost...like Alice? What's going on?!
It all seems like a terrible dream, but he can't wake up...what happened?!
"Who are you?"
"I'm Alice Angel," the heavenly host declares somewhat showily, then considers the trapped Lost One's answer. Grant...that name sounds familiar...
I know he was one of the studio workers--but for what? Was I ever introduced to him?
"Remind me what exactly your position is?"
"I was the accountant," Grant explains with a bit of suspicion. How does she know I work here? How is there a living Alice Angel?! "B-but not anymore. I was fired." And kidnapped by this guy!
Realization dawns on the angel's face. Oh! He's the one that Sammy said stayed locked up in his office all the time!
But wait...he remembers his past! So why doesn't Sammy?!
Is it subjective to only him? Or is there more than a 50/50 chance?
"I--"
Grant can't take it anymore--his eyes widen in panic as he spouts off all the questions in his mind. "How did you know that I worked here?! Who are you?! Are you really Alice?! How are you alive?! Who is this inky guy?! Why did he kidnap me?! What is that creepy Bendy thing?!" Once again, he begins crying. "What happened to me?! Why did you do this to me?! Whycan'tIjustgobacktothismorningwheneverythingwasnormalllll?!" WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY?!
"Shut up!" Sammy snaps, gesturing at the Ink Demon. "You're disturbing our lord!"
"He's not our lord, he's only yours!" Alice cries as the 'prophet' coos apologies at the monster. And soon, I'm going to find out why. "And I don't see why you got Grant involved in this!"
Apparently, the discharged accountant is not going to get his questions answered.
"He was the sacrifice!" the inky musician affirms, as if this properly explains his deeds.
"Sacrifice?" Alice repeats (as does Grant with a terrified tone). "Why--what is that supposed to mean?"
If Sammy could roll his eyes, he would; in lieu of this, he puts his hands on his hips. "So I could get him to notice me!"
It always comes back to the Ink Demon, the haloed human finally realizes. "Just why do you like him so much?"
Grant is in full-on anxiety attack mode as the scorned songwriter expounds, "Because...because he will set me free! He will set us all free! We just need to appease him!"
A pause...then Alice sighs. "Samuel...Bendy isn't going to do anything. He can't set you free, or 'notice' you, or even talk to you." Why did you even need to meet him?
The composer merely directs a doubtful and slightly angry expression at his former lover--both are still ignoring the clearly-distressed newest Lost One.
"You don't believe me," the female enunciates as she steps closer to the trio. "Here--I'll prove to you that he doesn't do anything special."
Alice stands firmly next to the Demon and challenges him, "Okay, Mister Bendy. If you are indeed the answer we've been looking for--the one we expect to 'set us free'--then show us where to go first."
Predictably, the Ink Demon just stands in silence.
"See?"
Sammy still refuses to accept the facts; he crosses his arms and snubs her with a "Hmp!"
Ijustwanttogohomewhycan'tIleavethisisallabaddreamWAKEUPME! the scared ex-auditor torments.
Why isn't this working?! the cartoon-woman anguishes. "Now you're just refusing to understand! Samuel--Bendy. Will. Never. Set. You. Free!"
The abomination's grisly head pivots toward the frustrated angel in curiosity...
"You are being closed-minded!" the musician bites back. "Just open your eyes--"
Ink Bendy gradually lifts his hand closer and closer to Alice...
"No! You need to open YOUR eyes to reali--AHHHHHHH!"
A great burning sensation--exactly like the one she experienced when being drowned--overtakes the right side of her face.
The Ink Demon's touch has struck again...but this time, the result isn't a few mere scars.
The blaze subsides as he jumps back from her scream--the angel gasps partly in pain and partly in shock. Grant shrieks at the heavenly host while Sammy claps happily at finally getting a reaction from his savior.
"What--what happened?!" Alice demands, and notices a change within her voice. ...Huh?
Up until this point, she had almost always used her acting 'Alice' voice (except for in bursts of anger, in which her normal 'Susie' voice would break through)...but now, her tone has a dark, almost creepy wave to it. And an echo...
The sacrificed Lost One stammers incoherently, while the sacrificer Lost One actually answers the question quite passively: "He changed you."
A pause...
"He WHAT?!" Nonono, this can't be happening! "What exactly did he do?!" Was this what he was getting at--about not touching the Ink Demon?
"Ehhh...he kind of...what's the right phrase? Stretched your face out? Distort--"
"WHAT?!" the angel repeats, once again with the odd voice. "I--let me see!" With that, she dashes off, leaving behind a very confused and anxious Grant and a way-too-indifferent Sammy.
Another silence...
"Please...please just let me go..." the captured Lost One whimpers. I...I just...
The composer utters one of those laughs that isn't really a laugh. "Heh. Well, since I'm done with you...I guess I could...but let me ask you: just where are you going to go?"
Grant goes to respond, then hesitates; as much as he hates to admit it, the other drowned human has a valid point. I can't let anyone else see me like this...and now that I've lost my job, I would have to start over in making a living...
"You could join me," Sammy offers slyly. "We could change our destiny and release ourselves from these 'bodies'. We could appease him!" Of course, he motions at the Ink Demon.
"But--but--" There must be a--
"Old man, where else could you possibly go?"
The former accountant doesn't take too kindly to being called 'old man' (In this...ink, will I even age with time?) but realizes that it's futile to remind this strange, sacrifice-crazy ink man of his proper name. I mean...he's right about not being able to escape...
Dear God...what have I gotten myself into?
But like he said...where else could I possibly go? What else can I possibly do?
I shouldn’t have joined…
With a defeated sigh, Grant reluctantly assents. "Okay...I'll come with you. But please don't hurt me anymore..."
"Deal," Sammy agrees with a smile, overjoyed at not only getting the Ink Demon to notice him, but at 'inducting' a new follower. "Now, back to the task at hand."
As the Ink Demon trudges out of the room and his 'prophet' beckons for the other Lost One to accompany him, the latter agonizes over the situation.
It all seems like a dream...a terrible dream...a nightmare .
I just want to wake up...
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NO! HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?!
Alice shrieks at herself in the bathroom mirror; the right side of her face has become horribly disfigured--almost 'stretched', like Sammy had described--as well as her haloed skewed.
No...NO!
My BEAUTY!
THE ONE THING I HAD LEFT!
NOOOO!
Now it's her turn to cry. I...I just wanted...
I don't know what I wanted. It might have been fame. It might have been love. It might have been to be Alice.
But...now...I just want to be perfect again...
...
No. I have to do something. No more crying and feeling sorry for myself.
The angel wipes away the last of her inky tears and faces her ghastly reflection.
I can't go back to the way it was before...back to him .
I will be perfect again. I will be perfect again. I will be perfect again. I WILL BE PERFECT AGAIN!
Whatever it takes.
If you're sainted, you CANNOT be tainted.
§
In a dark spot of the workshop in which neither of them really know where they are, Jack and Norman reside and try to...do anything.
How could life change so quickly, so markedly...so tragically?
All traces of their humanity--gone in a day...
What is there to do? Feel sorry for themselves? Try to accept and accommodate the situation?
"We never asked for our...human lives to be stripped away," Jack says out loud without realizing it. "We never wanted this misery..."
"I know..." his partner empathizes. And just how exactly is the studio going to function without me? You can't have cartoons without a projectionist. "But we can't go back to the way it was before--no matter how hard we try. I think we'll just have to...adapt to it. The best of us can find happiness in misery."
A pause...
"But...what is there to be happy about?" the lyricist responds rather dejectedly. I mean, everything that was then now isn't.
"Well...we have each other," the Projectionist puts forward. "And isn't that enough?"
"Yes, I know..." You can only repeat that so many times, though... "But...I just miss having a normal life--"
"I do too, love, but you have to let go of it. There's just no turning back--"
"How can you be so okay with all of this?!" the Searcher questions desperately, letting his high-strung emotions get the best of him. "You act like it means nothing to you--that you're perfectly fine with being turned into a who-knows-what and leaving it all behind without warning! You act like everything we did was for nothing!"
"It wasn't for nothing!" Norman argues. All those little meetings, and the spying...and the Coffee and Quiets... "We at least figured some secrets out--"
"But if it weren't for you having to know anything and everything about the secrets, we would still be human!" The whole flood of sadness, anger, bitterness, and emotions Jack can't even identify spill out. “Everything we did was guided by your unshakable desire to know more, more, MORE! And look where it got us! I--I wish I would have stopped you from opening that Ink Machine door in the first place!"
"You think this is MY fault?" the cameraman cries. I thought we agreed that-- "You're the one who had the keys!"
"But you're the one who urged me to use them!"
"But YOU'RE the one that LET me urge you!"
"BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO HAD THE STUPID IDEA IN THE FIRST PLACE!"
A very dead pause...
"What do you want me to say?" Norman finally speaks up, his mental voice now weak and shaky. "That I messed up? That I sent us to our dooms? That I just couldn't let go of the feeling that something was off? That I just wanted to make things right? That I was trying to play hero?
...
That...I'm sorry?"
"Nonono--I'm the one that should be sorry..." Jack realizes, his own voice becoming faint as he wraps his inky arms around himself. "I--I shouldn't have blown up like that at you--"
"No--you're right...it was my fault. You have every right to be mad at me..."
"But you didn't deserve that..." Why did I say that? Why did I start a fight? Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut? "I'm so sorry..."
"I am, too..."
Once again, there's silence--but Norman decides he has had enough of the quiet. Too much thinking--more action--
"Come here."
His boyfriend hesitates...then slides into the bright light of the Projectionist's lens; the latter wraps his arms (Jack notices a circle spot wound around his lover's wrist, and suspects what it might be...) around the Searcher and holds him protectively.
They sit like that for a while--neither is sure how long, exactly.
But it doesn't matter.
Finally, the poet lifts his head from the other's cold inky chest and whispers, "Really...I'm sorry..." You are right--I'm just going to have to let it go... "I--I...I don't regret any of our time together--any of it. Sure, the whole spying thing ended up being futile...but that doesn't matter. I just want you."
"Me too..." Norman agrees, then adds, "I love you."
"I know...and I love you, too."
"I know." God, we're sappy. I love it.
A peaceful, romantic moment ensues...
...which is then ruined by a ink pipe bursting with a *PCHTTTTTT!*; it startles the two, and they jump back.
"You think anyone is going to fix that?" the lyricist asks as they passively observe the spewing tube.
"You want my honest answer?" the Projectionist poses, and the Searcher confirms. "Nope."
The couple decide it's not anything to worry about--who cares if this place gets flooded with ink? At this point, it's on its way no matter what we do. Besides...they have each other, and that's enough.
That's enough.
§
Old habits die hard.
Yesterday is gone...today's a new day...
Yayyyyyy.
Fuck.
Joey is not going to stop this...
I cannot stop this.
Again with the vicious drinking...it's abhorrent...but it numbs him so...
Wash away the guilt...and the anger ...
Why did they do that?! Whose idea was it?!
I bet it was A--
"Hey." A gruff voice interrupts the owner's self-pity. "Move it."
Joey pivots in his seat to face a hunky, furious-looking drunk at least half a foot taller than him. "Excuse me? I wasssherefirst!" he slurs, his face flushing red--from both anger and the alcohol.
"No, I was!" the other insists, going to shove him off--the other stands up unsteadily and pushes back.
"Oh, so that's how it's gonna go?" The buff man twists Joey's arm; the alcoholic lets out a squeak, then challenges, "Fightttt me!"
Fredrick calmly observes this little escalating bar fight with a smirk before finally jostling between the brawlers with, "All right, all right, you two--break it up."
"NO!" the businessman retorts, letting his anger at the world fuel the clash. "I'MGONNAFINISHTHISSONOFABITCH--"
"WHY, YOU LITTLE--" The other delivers a punch to the boss's stomach, which the latter returns with a blow to the skull--
Fredrick eventually manages to separate the two; after a bit more furious glaring at each other, Joey decides that enough is enough...and goes home...alone...again...
Back in front of his mirror, the businessman notices a dark circle around his left eye formed by one of the jabs from the other man. Shit...
Hopefully that heals before...before...what's-his-name, the amusement park guy, sees me...
Ehhh...it goes with the scars, I guess...
A sigh...
I...
Why...
Why did they leave? Why didn't they stay?
Why don't they trust me…?
…
Why did Mother have to leave?
Why...why do I always end up alone?
He comes to realize that there have been quite a few adverse reactions over the course of his life--and not just with the ink creatures and with his drinking spree.
And now I'm gonna have an adverse reaction to that...heh heh...
Fuck .
Why...
Questions are exhausting...work is exhausting...life is exhausting.
Maybe it'll get better once we get that park built...I'll be happy.
But...I'm happy right now...about planning it...
I'm happy...
...Right?
Chapter 26: Chapter Twenty-Four - Colossal Dreams
Notes:
A/N - "Why are you torturing us with long Author's Notes?!" the readers cry. "We just want to get back to the story!" Merely because I need to clarify a few things again...I'm so sorry... (づ◡﹏◡)づ
Anyway--first of all, I want to give you some information on an aspect in Drowned that's never going to be explicitly stated; a side effect of the Ink Machine is that when a person is drowned/inked, they have a 25% chance of losing memories of their past. This percentage increases by 10% each time they are 'inked' again (which we'll get to much later)--thus by the ninth time, it is absolutely certain that they will not remember anything up to that point. As I said, this isn't going to be mentioned exactly in the story (I mean, they'll figure out that more inking = less likely to remember, but not to the extent of them finding out the math part), so I thought I should let my beautiful readers know. (◕ω◕✿)
Second of all--another differing part of canon versus Drowned (besides absolutely everything) is that I'm ageing down Bertrum significantly. "Why?" ask the readers. Because... *dramatic music* I'm going to ship him with Joey (*insert my readers crying because this is not what they signed up for* But...surely you w̶e̶r̶e̶ ̶w̶a̶r̶n̶e̶d̶ knew about this beforehand? I put it in the description of the book, sooooo--) Anyhow, he's going to be about thirty-six in Drowned, as opposed to being sixty-ish in canon. I'm also aging Lacie down Just Because I Can™ (I don't think we were ever given a canon age for her, but the wiki says she's middle age, which I don't want). I completely understand if you want to abandon this..."story" now--the exit is located at the little red 'x' in the upper rightmost corner of your screen (or the back button if you're on mobile). (ㆁωㆁ)
[You can ignore this part of the A/N if you wish] Third of all--I finished The Illusion of Living (actually, I finished it while Twenty-Three was in editing)...and let me just say...WOW. I've never read such a beautiful yet very-easy-to-get-frustrated-at-the-narrator-because-he-always-contradicts-himself-but-I-suppose-that-was-to-be-expected book in my life; I mean, I could go on a full-on rant here, but I'll spare you the agony. (◡ω◡) But as I communicated before, it's not going to change anything...so let us just ignore the fact that I messed up on literally every personality, timeline, canonical aspect, and character design in the entirety of BATIM. Heh heh…
Lastly--I was going to add this to the next chapter’s A/N, but I’ll put it here in case the next one is delayed. Drowned Joey’s birthday is March 28th (it’s not March right now in canon, but I’m putting this out here in reference to real-life time; and no, Drowned itself and Joey do not share a birthday [Drowned’s is June 9th]), so be sure to wish him a happy birthday...or not.
That's all--as always, I'm so sorry for interrupting. Have an amazing week, my darling, marvelous, perfect, invaluable readers!
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Chapter Text
Two weeks later...
Over the next expanse of time, plans are created, meetings are arranged, questions are asked and ignored...and cartoons and workers alike are still suspiciously absent.
But it's all a matter of keeping it on the down-low and carrying on as if nothing had happened...nothing at all.
However, not everyone cares to stress about the situation--or better yet, are completely unaware of it.
In Heavenly Toys, Shawn works on a Bendy plush upon his chest with his head in Wally's lap. With little more to do than check ink pressure every once in a while, the janitor has much more free time on his hands--and surprisingly, Thomas has been rather slack on letting him 'escape' to see his boyfriend.
That guy's been acting kinda weird lately, the janitor considers as he strokes Shawn's hair. Like, less bossy or brooding or something. Muttering to himself like he's got something planned...
Maybe he's finally had enough--might call the whole thing quits 'cause of how Joey's been treating him. Maybe he'll leave, and I'll get my old hours back.
Definitely not complaining--more free time for me! I'd be outta there before you could say 'Ink Machine'!
Hopefully that's the case.
But...even if it's not...I guess that's fine, too. After all, I have my everything right here with me.
Unfortunately, his everything soon has to rise from the other's legs to go maintain the toy machine; as Shawn struggles to pull out spare toy parts lodged in the contraption (Why do they always get stuck in here?), he hears a slight rustle.
Of course, he doesn't really think much of it at first; it's only when a muffled female voice--like someone futilely trying to reassure herself--echoes from behind the wall. The toymaker, curious, leans his ear against the wall and catches the fragments "Fix myself", "I need...", "His fault", and "Why?"
She's definitely wracked about something, whoever she is, he acknowledges. Allison, maybe? But why would she be down here? And who's 'he'? And what is his fault?
Shawn debates going to get Wally and asking him about this...but...eh, maybe it's nothing. It's not really my business...
Despite this assertion, the craftsman presses back onto the wall...
...but this time, there's silence--no whispers, footsteps, or even the slightest creak of the wooden floor.
That's...weird.
I could have sworn someone was behind there...but she couldn't have just disappeared? Right?
Maybe I just imagined it...?
"What's takin' ya so long, Shawny?" Wally's teasing voice from the doorway startles the toymaster.
"Oh, um, nothing," the other replies, decidedly not mentioning the muttering female voice. I don't need to get him involved--I guess I really musta imagined it...
But it sounded real...
"I'm coming, hun." The two break into smiles as they join hands, and Shawn manages to shake off the concerns over the strange speech.
However, after Wally ever-so-romantically bids Shawn adieu ("I'll see ya tonight, Shawny-boo! I'm outta here!"), the latter journeys back to the toy machine room and listens to the wall again.
Silence...
...but then...there's another rustle (Ha! I knew I hadn't made it up!)...
...and a passage of black and white flurries behind a hole in the wall; the toymaster rushes over to the opening.
Wait, why are there holes in the walls? Does this place have termites? Or rats?
I wouldn't be surprised...
The aquamarine eyes peer through the crack...and observe a human-shaped something...
...but it's not completely human...
In fact (as the creature draws closer), Shawn thinks it actually looks a little bit like--
A pair of hazel eyes suddenly appear and stare back at the craftsman, causing him to jump back. "Ah!"
That...that face...
He may have only witnessed it for a second, but the image is imprinted in his mind: a deformed profile, the right eye looking as if it was gouged out and the side of the face spread as if it was a hardened liquid.
"Ew!" Shawn utters out loud without realizing it; hesitantly, he reapproaches the hole...
The irises and disfigured features are still there...and (although the toymaker hopes he's just imagining it) it looks a bit offended.
A few tense seconds pass as the two merely stand there and stare--Shawn can feel himself sweating nervously...
Then...the female on the other side of the hole silently whisks away.
The toymaster stays frozen in place just in case she decides to return...and when she doesn't, he stumbles backwards with a gasp.
That was no little bitty rat...that was a person.
Or...I think it was...
In any case, WHY DO WE HAVE HUMAN-MONSTER THINGIES LIVING IN THE STUDIO?!
Holy shit...maybe I wasn't supposed to know about that...
Shawn is at odds as to what to do. I mean...I could tell Wally about her...
Wally! He might know about this! Maybe she's a result of the Ink Machine or something!
But...surely he woulda told me that they made another thing besides Bendy, right? So maybe that's not the case...?
Whatever it is, it's really fishy...
Good God...
Maybe things aren't so picture-perfect as they seem around here...disappearing workers, freaky abominations...
As the toymaker rounds back to his desk, he comes up with a solution.
No. Ya know what? I just won't get involved. Mind my own business, and keep Wally from worrying 'bout it. He's got enough on his plate as it is.
Just keep my nose out of it, and I'll be fine.
Ri ght?
§
After about a week of pelting letters back-and-forth with his future theme park constructor, Joey finally managed to set up a meeting--and now...it's time.
Paperwork that was scattered upon his desk and files that were haphazardly stacked on the cabinet are rapidly shoved into the drawer--as the businessman checks his reflection (thankfully, his black eye did heal up in time...And I guess I'm just going to have to hope the scars are hidden well enough. Eh...I'm sure it'll be fine.) in the little mirror on his wall, he has no doubt regarding the session’s success.
Everything's all prepared...wonderful!
Now then--
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK* resounds the door.
That's him! Joey breaks into a grin as he opens it.
Before him stands a well-dressed tall man (about six foot four) with spirally, jet-black, shoulder length hair and a little mustache and VanDyke beard; like the boss himself, he's built heftily--but the architect has is more muscular, while Joey is more...soft.
The owner finds himself blushing slightly, although he isn't quite sure why. "Mister Piedmont--please come in!" Joey beckons Bertrum in with an overly-grand sweeping gesture, and the latter places the slim black briefcase brought with him on the desk.
The boss claps a single time. "Now then--let us get started! First off--I see from your letters--" (he picks up the papers in question and flips through them) “--and sample designs that you are quite experienced...known for your creative eye...ah, and the inventor of the Willy-O-Whip?"
"Whipper-Will-O," Bertrum corrects. "And yes--it's no great boast that I myself am the designer and engineer behind many colossal wonders, such as--"
"Wonderful!" Joey interrupts. "It's great to meet someone as genius as myself--I can tell you and I are going to get along very well." Before the architect can respond, he continues, "Now--let's get designing! I want--"
"Wait--so I'm hired?"
The owner smiles brightly and stares into Bertrum's amber eyes. Ooo, they are pretty. I've never seen--no no, that's not the point. "Yep."
That was a quick decision, the designer regards as he slightly smiles back. But I suppose that was to be expected--I'm a shoo-in with any case.
The other nods. "I needed little time to think over it. You see, Bertie--"
"Bertrum."
Joey doesn't even register the correction. "--I know talent when I see it. And while you obviously have talent, you also have something else I love--ambition. So I don't think I'm wrong when I say you're perfect for me--I mean, for my job."
The designer puffs up proudly at the praise, and the owner notices, He's one to love flattery.
Amazing what charm such as mine can do.
"Now, as I was saying--onto planning!" When the architect withdraws a little notepad and a piece of sketch paper from the case as opposed to the blueprint paper Joey had thought he would take out, the latter remarks, "Aren't you going to want more than that? Like building drafts or something?"
"We'll get to that part later--right now, I'll just take note of what you want the general scape to be as well as the rides you are certain about having within it." Because you very well may add or remove some in the final draft. "After that, we'll start designing the rides and plan where they'll be situated in the park; that's where the blueprints will come in."
"And then the building begins?"
Bertrum nonchalantly flips his long curls off of his shoulder, an action that Joey finds...slightly attractive. "Yes--then the building begins."
Wow...I guess there's a lot more to this than I thought, the businessman reflects. A lot more steps, I mean. No problem, though!
"Just curious--how long will this take?"
"The planning, or the building?"
"All of it."
The park designer taps his pen against the spiral of the notebook and leans back in the chair with an exhalation that is not exactly a sigh. "Well, arranging the outline of Bendy Land and creating the blueprints can take anywhere from a couple of weeks to months--depending on how fast we work. As for the construction...that will take years--"
"Years?" Joey attempts and fails to hide the surprise in his voice.
"Yes. Assembling simple parts like booths and such will probably only take a few months," (He says that so casually! the boss wavers. I didn't think this thing would take THAT long...) "but coasters and large-scale rides may take months. You can't rush these things."
"Oh...right, right." The owner tries to act like he was aware of this information, but Bertrum sees right through it.
"Are you changing your mind?" I certainly hope not--if so, then I'm wasting my time.
"Nonono, of course not. Years are fine. I can handle that." Though...I guess I won't have as much time after-hours to see if I can work with the ink creatures...
But they still haven't returned...
At this point, it's a certain fact: they are not coming back...and I'm done looking for them.
So I guess that means I really do have to start over.
...
Damn them!
But with this...
Maybe I'll have to postpone that whole experiment, at least for a bit.
I deserve a break anyway.
"Good." Bertrum's curt British accent transports Joey to reality. "Now, go on with what you have planned."
The elation of having a park--even if it's going to take a while to create--lights up the boss's blue eyes. "Okay--first of all, I want the place split into four separate parts--Big Land, Tiny Land, Light Land, and Dark Land."
Joey observes the architect's right hand rapidly flourish along the page as he scrawls down the titles of the four sections; the businessman turns his focus to the left one wrapped around the pad. No wedding band...
"Go on."
"Oh, um, right. Okay, I want little offices in the corners of each land. And I definitely want one of those Whipper things--the biggest one you can make--somewhere in it, and a coaster (probably in Big Land), and a haunted house in Dark Land...oh! And a big old tower in the center of the entire park--you getting all of this? It's not too much for you, is it?" I hope not, because we're dreaming BIG! Colossal!
"Yes to the first question, and no to the second." You underrate my abilities, Mister Drew. I can work wonders.
"Great--now, I also want lots of booths--we'll get to the specifics in a bit--and a--"
On and on--the owner rattles off all the bells and whistles he wants, the only sound in the room the slight scratch of Bertrum's pencil; occasionally, the latter adds a suggestion to the plan, only to be shut down by the former--which of course he doesn't take too kindly to.
He's not all the charisma he makes himself out to be, Bertrum clips. And those scars...what did he do to get them?
Though...something about how he's looking at me...and the way he's acting...
A slight suspicion forms within him, but he pushes it to the back of his mind. We'll see if that's really it.
Once Joey finally finishes his exhaustive lists of requests and confirms that the architect is at last free to leave, the latter rises and shakes his hand. "I look forward to working with you, Mister Drew."
"You can call me Joey."
A mysterious smile creeps onto the other's face. "Do you let all your employees call you that?"
Joey returns with a smirk of his own. "No...just you, Bertie."
The smile suddenly dissipates. "Don't call me that. Please." It sounds...childish.
The owner gives a noncommittal grunt, his hand still in Bertrum's. What's wrong with it? I think 'Bertie' suits him. "Thank you for seeing me."
"To you as well."
An awkward moment ensues as Bertrum struggles to pull his hand back--Joey has a pretty tight grip on it--and silently exits.
The boss releases the breath he wasn't aware that he was holding, and his body temperature gradually turns back to normal. Well, that went smoothly.
Although I didn't think it would take that long to make a park...
But...I guess that's okay. Instead of arguing with stubborn, rebellious angels, I'll be spending time with him. And that's definitely an improvement.
I'm sure he'll be glad to do what I say without question!
This...this will be fun.
§
I was looking out.
And he, on the other side, was looking in.
From the clandestine area of her new home, Alice toils over what had happened earlier this morning.
Now he knows I exist...
And the way he jumped back! Like I had scared him! Like I was a monster !
...
I am...
I'm disgusting! Atrocious! Abominable!
And it's all that INK DEMON'S FAULT!
And now...now someone knows.
Someone has seen. And someone is going to tell other someones...
No. I can stop this.
I just need to work quickly...
I will restore my beauty... whatever it takes.
There...there has to be a way.
The angel has the idea of returning to the Ink Machine and 're-drowning' herself...but what if that doesn't work? Would I be stuck as an...inky thing like Samuel?
The idea is probably correct, though...because the 'living ink' is what made me into Alice into the first place...
I'd just need to find a way to only put it on my face...
And then I'll be beautiful again!
And...I'll find a way out!
No...no. First... I'll make Joey feel what I feel.
I'll beat his--
As for right now, however...she needs to take care of the snooper from the other side of the wall.
I could drown him...that might erase his memory, like it did with Samuel's...
But what if it didn't? Then I'd be stuck with an inky toymaker following me around.
This concept reminds her of her former boyfriend and his plan to 'worship' the Ink Demon--tagging Grant along, no doubt.
I don't need that...although I admit that it would be nice to be worshipped--
No...
I need to...lure him to me. Talk with him myself...
Wait...
Maybe a 'follower' wouldn't be so bad...
...
It's going to be a struggle to do anything I want to do behind the scenes...besides, I need to focus on my beauty.
Maybe...I could kill two--no, three--birds with one stone...
...
I would get to focus on myself...but enact revenge at the same time.
Revenge...it was never something she would have had ever thought she would execute.
In the past...it had almost seemed petty, in a way.
Just like him.
But...the shred of consciousness still within the tainted saint is doubtful on this...
What other choice do I have?! Just stay here and ACCEPT this?!
NO!
It doesn't matter if whoever doesn't deserve whatever--it's MY turn!
They did it to me first! They had me, and then they let me go!
And they ruined me! HE ruined me!
Her chest heaves with enmity...her sanity is on the brink...
I didn't deserve this!
It's ME! ME! I was supposed to be the center of it all!
I'M ALICE ANGEL!
...
And I WILL be seen as such!
Don't forget, world... I'm the angel of the stage.
I call the shots!
I am the beauty you cannot possibly fathom!
ME! ME! ME!
It's time...for the angel to rise.
Maybe I got mine... but you'll all get yours.
Alice roams into Heavenly Toys, the place she had once thought was so beautiful; however, with the studio deserted and the darkness drenching the area...it's not the same.
The heavenly host recalls her first time in this area...
There had been noises...delightful noises--the chugging of the toy machine, the muted hum of the moving parts...the glorious sound of Sammy's voice guiding her along...
But now...the manufacturing room gives off an ominous silence...broken only by the slight *creak*s of the wooden floor beneath the angel's feet.
The shiny waterfall in the center has been turned off for the night, and it's only now that Alice realizes that there isn't actually water in it--it was merely a trick of the lighting.
An illusion...
The illusion of living...
Yet it was all fake...all lies .
Still...even in the shady atmosphere...and even with the phony rapids...she still finds the place dazzling.
A dark kind of beautiful...
This...this is it. This will be mine.
Everywhere you look around...it's my domain...
No one else deserves it more...
It's in my name.
But first...I must claim it.
It WILL be mine.
A yellow-tinged paper from the Art Department with an ink-scrawled message is delicately placed upon the toymaster's desk.
As for you, Shawn...
A demonic, echoey laugh shatters the silence in the gorgeous room...
Here you are only my toy!
And you'll be--
You must be--
You'll trust me--
They'll all see--
It will be...mine.
§
Everywhere I look, all that I see...
...is projections of what I used to be.
The pipe that had burst before in Jack and Norman's designated area had never been fixed, causing the ink inside of it to gradually flood the room...
Eh. It's not hurting anyone... the Projectionist shrugs off, trudging through the thick, cold liquid. Which, now that I think about it, is kind of weird...because when we drowned in the Ink Machine, it burned...
Perhaps it's a different kind of ink...
Meanwhile, Jack leans against the wall listlessly, wishing he had a book to read or some sort of feasible entertainment...
...or maybe...some food.
The Searcher had become aware of the fact that he no longer needs to eat (And I don't know if I could if I tried--I don't really have a mouth...) quite soon after being drowned...and if he's honest with himself, he kind of misses the action.
"Flicky?"
Norman's bright light, which had been melancholily focused on a Bendy poster on the wall, shines upon the Searcher. "Yeah?"
"Do you ever...feel hungry? I mean, we can't really eat or anything...but surely our bodies have some sort of reaction."
A silence ensues as the cameraman considers this. "I guess I don't really know what to call it...but I do feel something. Like a dull ache in my abdomen-ish area...so I suppose it is some sort of hunger reaction."
Another pause...
"Do you think we might starve?"
"I...I don't know. Since we don't really need any form of energy--like food or sleep or anything like that--I think we should be okay...
...but it's weird."
"All of this is weird," Norman agrees. "Crazy weird." I can still remember the day that I drowned...but I never even died.
The former lyricist nods, not really sure what to add; he directs his attention to the broken pipe near the right corner of the room.
"What if..." He slides towards it...
"What is it, birdie?" the Projectionist asks as Jack reaches the tube...
...and is rapidly whisked away before his very lens.
"Jack?!"
The only reply is the slight bubble of the ink...
Norman lumbers over to the pipe and grasps the opening. "JACK?!" Nononono, please come back!
Tension fills the air as the Projectionist illuminates the insides of the tube in despair...
...then a torrent of ink that he narrowly avoids spews out with a familiar hat on it.
"JACK!"
"Norman?" the poet calls back disorientatedly. That was painful...
"What happened?! You were going toward the pipe, and the next thing I know, you disappeared!"
"I..." Jack's inky hand goes to his head. "I think I travelled through the ink. I mean, I felt like I was being constricted in the pipe when I touched it...and when I finally regained my senses, I was somewhere else."
"That's...interesting," the cameraman acknowledges, then holds his beau against him. "In any case, I'm glad that you're back and okay."
"Me too. It was scary...and made me dizzy..." I don't want to do it again...but if I ever needed a quick way to transport myself from one part of the studio to another...I guess I could get used to it. I'd just need to memorize the layout of all the pipes to get where I needed to.
At the very least, it would give me something to do.
The lyricist divulges this plan to the other, but Norman is somewhat hesitant. "What if you get hurt?" My little birdie...so brave...you've grown mentally so much...
"I won't--or, I'll try not to. The most I could get is a little bruised up from hitting the metal...but even then, I don't have skin to bruise. So...I think I'll be okay."
The cameraman is still tentative, but he trusts his boyfriend's judgement. "Okay...but if you're ever gone for too long, I'm going to come looking for you." Or does that sound clingy?
"Thank you."
As the two separate to their corners, Norman--for the millionth time--examines their situation.
We're doing the best we can...and that's enough.
And as long as Jack's okay...I'll be okay.
Just stay alive...that would be enough.
§
What's...going...on?
Voices mutter, whisper, hiss, spit in the heavy darkness...the world is a tunnel...a black tunnel...and it's spinning...
Memories...being torn out like pages in an artist's sketchbook...
Then...it's over.
"Hello, sir!" Sammy jovially greets the newly-drowned human as if nothing had happened. "Do you remember your past?"
"Oh my God, Sammy! You don't just ask someone if they remember their past!" Grant cries from the corner. WhydidIagreetothiswhydidIagreetothiswhydidI--
The prophet tilts his head melodramatically in lieu of rolling his eyes as Terrence glances around the room in confusion...
He's under a spout...and two people covered in what looks like ink are before him...
...What?
"Where am I?"
"You didn't answer my question, sheep," the creature closest to the art director snarks--the latter notes that the former is donning a strange mask...suspiciously similar to the head of the cartoonish-looking cutout leaning against the wall. "Do you or do you not--"
"I don't think he does," the pouty Lost One in the corner interrupts, adjusting his glasses. "I mean, he seems really confused--"
"What's going on? Who are you people?" Terrence questions, not letting the panic pounding through his veins slither into his voice.
"We," Sammy places a hand upon a proud puffed-off chest and announces, "...are the great Ink Demon cult!"
A pause...
"Isn't a cult more than two people?" the newest Lost One asks bluntly.
Sammy utters an annoyed noise as Grant thinks, I beg to differ--there's only one person in this 'cult', and it's that crazy man!
"That's what we need you for, sheep!" the masked songwriter asserts. "You, among others, shall join us as--"
"Why are you calling me sheep?" Why am I here?
"Because I am your shepherd!" Sammy explains with a tad of pomp. "I will be the one to lead you, to enlighten you, to show you the ways of our lord!"
"...Who?"
Grant and Sammy both sigh, although for different reasons; the latter expounds, "Our lord and savior, the Ink Demon...Bendy, as the uneducated ones call him! Hush now, little sheep...you'll hear him crawling above! Crawling! Soon, he will set us free!"
Before Terrence has time to respond, the prophet grabs his hand and lugs him along to the door of the Ink Machine room (It was never locked, Grant notices. Did that janitor--oh, what's his name--lose his keys again?); as they migrate through the hallway, the former art director observes the poor beheaded Bendy cutout from which Sammy had received his mask laying what would be face-first against the floor.
What's the studio going to do without a projectionist, a lyricist, an accountant, a musician, and a head artist? the fired auditor frets as he lags behind.
Fail. That's all there is to it...
In fact, it already is--I don't even need to experience it to know.
We're all doomed...
Unless Joey starts hiring REALLY quickly...
Sammy, filled with satisfaction regarding the induction of yet another cultist, prospects to immediately continue on with the expansion. But first... "Every group needs a leader! And I, your headstrong shepherd Samuel Lawrence, will be just that! I...need to assert my dominance! I need something to symbolize my position! Hmm..."
Terrence and Grant exchange 'so-done-with-this' expressions; then again, where else could they go?
It's join...or suffer the consequences.
"A cape!" the leading Lost One proclaims. "I need a cape!"
"The mask isn't enough?" the accountant clips, only to be shushed.
After a few minutes of passing corridor after corridor with his 'followers' searching for a makeshift 'cape', Sammy yanks down some gray curtains from a rather fancy meeting room. "With some adjustments, these will be perfect!" I need a...symbol on them...a logo of sorts...
"Since we are also part of this 'cult'," Terrence interrupts the other's planning, "may we also have capes?" Maybe this guy has a point...
I don't remember how I ended up here...but this mask-and-cape...person seems to know the way out.
Perhaps this...'Ink Demon' knows what's going on...
"Not you too!" Grant cries. "I thought you were on my side! I thought we agreed that we're just" -- he remembers Sammy's presence -- "...ah, never mind..."
Casting a suspicious glare at the objecting financial advisor, the composer answers the artist's question. "No. I'm the only one who gets it, since I'm the leader and worthy of attention. I want to be the one he notices."
Terrence nods understandingly--he's not one to argue--while Grant releases a low groan.
Why did I ever agree to this?!
As Sammy folds the material in his arms and mentally designs out a emblem for the cape (Something...powerful...inspiring...holy.), the artist strides up next to him, leaving the poor accountant lingering behind as usual.
This is going to be a mess, he anguishes. All of it--both the working studio, and this 'cult' thing. Pretty soon, it's all going to fall apart...crumble to rubble...
...and I'll be here, watching it all burn .
§
Control yourself...
As long as I get enough...and don't go overboard...I don't need to have any regrets...or headaches...
Making sure to avoid any scary-looking drunkards who might give him another black eye...Joey settles where he always does.
Except...this time, it will be different.
This time...he'll only have enough to get that buzz...and nothing more.
Nothing more...
But distractions arrive far too easily...thoughts flood the mind...
The escaped ink creatures...
Worries about the studio's future...
Bendy Land...
Bertrum...
...There's something about him...I don't know what it is...
The brown liquid in the glass is mocking him...
Take me.
I am...
More. You need MORE. I'm the remedy that numbs all your feelings. You know this.
But...
Please! Now...it's begging him. You know you need me! Don't deny it! You need me!
I know...but I don't want to go there again...
But it's so good! WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN?! DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?!
Now...it's raining on the countertop. Why? Joey notices that he's getting some odd stares. Why?
Why?
He knows why.
Again...
I...can't let it happen again...
He takes a leaf out of Alice's book: Escape.
A flash of auburn dashing out of the door is all that Fredrick witnesses; before he goes to yell after it, however, the barman checks the countertop...and to his pleasant surprise, a crisp twenty-dollar bill greets him.
It doesn't matter if it was a mistake--it's his now.
He'll be back. They always run away...and they always come back.
Wait and see.
Joey cries into his pillow back at his house.
I just want it to end--
But I'll never get enough!
It always hurts me...why do I keep doing it--
IneeditIneeditIneedit!
No, I don't!
YesIdohowcouldIpossiblylivewithoutitallitdoesissoothemethehurtisjustalie!
The fabric soaks up the tears...it would almost make things a little better...but...
I can't stop it...
Why...
Why is my worst enemy...myself?
Why can't I let go?
Chapter 27: Chapter Twenty-Five - A Saint Tainted
Notes:
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§
Careful...
Got to be so careful...
I've never been so prayerful in my life...
But nothing's gonna slow me down or break my stride.
Buddy hasn't changed anything in his normal routine...but lately, there seems to be an...omnipresence of sorts.
Like something--or someone--is watching me...
...Maybe I'm just getting paranoid? With the disappearances and such, I think I have reason to be...
Then again, perhaps it is a guilty conscience? I've been snooping and questioning and poking around in all of this...and now it's getting to me. But I haven't done anything bad! I'm just worried...
Worry...
Be brave, Daniel. Be brave for Mother. Be brave for Grandpa. Be brave for Dot.
Just keep in line and do your work.
Act naturally.
This is too much thinking--Buddy stops before he drowns in the anxiety; making way to the art department worker who has just beckoned him (I wonder where Mister Dail is...oh no...), the gofer recalls what Dot had implored during the trio's last lunch meeting:
"Listen--just listen. You'll be surprised at what you can find out. I'm working on a little something that might make things easier...but it's going to take a while, and I'm going to need some help. In the meantime, you two just keep your ears peeled for any tidbit of information anyone lets slip."
I won't let you down, Dot, Buddy vows, only half-listening to the directions of the animator before him. I have a knack of listening...and a knack of going unnoticed.
I can do this.
This studio's future looks grim and dark...
...but with Johnny's and Dot's help, we might be able to evade it.
In the dark...I will survive.
§
Last night's bout of weeping, Joey found, helped him a bit--yes, his situation hasn't changed...but releasing it made me feel a little better...
Fortunately, he's in significantly better spirits now--the busy workday has finally ended (Meetings and checking on work and paperwork...and stressing about Thomas's goddamn lawsuit...), and now it's time for--
Bendy Land!
Excited butterflies take flight in his stomach as the businessman enters the designated planning room; a wave of warmth spreads throughout Joey as he discovers an early-bird Bertrum setting up what looks like a miniature city on a round table.
"Already ready to go!" the former greets; when viewed closer, the props on the table are revealed to be small wooden versions of their theme park counterparts, such as a tiny tower and a little merry-go-round. Joey grins as he notices the tiny Whipper-Will-O near the edge of the planning board. "These are adorable--did you create them?"
"Yes. I--"
"Perfect, perfect," the owner interrupts, rounding to the opposite side of the table. "Just perfect for my park--"
"Your park?" Bertrum fails to hide a scoff. You really think that this is your--
With that trademark smirk of his, Joey places his hands on either end of the table and leans a little too close to the other. "Yes. My cartoon. My Bendy. My park."
The designer frowns and leans forward as well--their foreheads are almost touching...
...and Bertrum notices something...and it's not the scars...
No...
He pushes the thought aside.
"I'm afraid that last statement is...how do I want to say it? Wrong," the architect states with an air of snooty pride that rivals Joey's smugness. "Yes...you are paying me to create this wonder, Mister Dr--Joseph...but that doesn't mean you receive the credit. This is my park. My glory. So before you go taking any grand bows...know that this grand achievement will belong to me." And to me alone.
The boss's smirk doesn't falter in the least bit at these lines; staring deeply into those beautiful brownish-gold eyes, he replies passively, "Why are you so quick to defend your work? You think that I, of all people, would steal it? Of course not! It's unthinkable!"
The amber eyes narrow in suspicion, but Bertrum doesn't expound immediately. We'll see about that.
Pull that innocent voice all you want--you cannot fool me.
Your true intentions are an open book, Joseph...and I can read them.
I'll know.
"I'm not suggesting that; I am merely asserting my position on this. You gave me full creative control, so I implore that you give me full credit when all is said and done."
Joey goes to agree before the architect interrupts, "And if you do not, I reserve my right to pull the plug on the entire project and deny you my services."
"Wait, what?" You can't just--
Bertrum flips his hair (It's so curly... the businessman admires). "You read the fine print in the terms and conditions in my agreement to work with you, I presume?"
Silence speaks volumes; the designer sighs and continues, "Well, it clearly states that I have the right to stop offering you my services for any reason I see fit--"
"But you wouldn't do that, would you?" Joey lets a little whine slip into his voice. I'd really like to keep you around.
"Not unless I had to." As long as you don't make me have to. "But just keep in mind while you work with me that I'm a privilege, not a right. You have to prove that you are deserving of me."
"Deserving of me"? Ha! the boss mocks. Of course I'm deserving! I'm Joey Drew! The marvelous, brilliant household name!
I'm the one in control here, Bertie--you'll soon come to accept that.
Now...let's turn on the charm.
"Ah, now don't you play hard-to-get!" He winks and wags his finger at Bertrum, who chuckles a bit.
"No...I'm not that kind of date." Maybe not hard to get, but more...hard to keep.
The butterflies in Joey's stomach are raging now, and he feels his face heat up--the flirty comment is significantly better than its previous tense conversation. It worked! I mean, not that I'm surprised or anything. It always does.
The boss rounds next to Bertrum, standing so close that their shoulders threaten to meet. "That's good to know. Now, let us start."
Thus, the two begin their planning--Joey is overjoyed at moving all the little carnival parts around the map--with the slightly-more-often-than-occasional hiccup.
"You can't place them so close to each other," the architect directs, relocating the tiny Ferris Wheel to the opposite corner of the design plan. "They need room to move around--either that, or I'll have to make them smaller..."
"No, don't do that," Joey insists, yet for some reason situates the Ferris Wheel back to its original spot. "The bigger, the better. Big is good. I like big." Bertrum pretends to not notice the other wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.
The theory that the architect had formed on his first meeting with Joey is definitely close to being confirmed...
"You don't need to hint. It's obvious."
Joey's thick auburn eyebrows shoot upward. "What is?"
"You--" Bertrum wants to believe that his employer is pretending to not know what he's referring to...but he looks genuinely confused...
Does he not realize it? Surely he's at least somewhat aware--otherwise he wouldn't bother trying so hard...
"...Never mind." The Ferris Wheel is once again moved to the right corner. "I just said you can't put it over there--"
"What is obvious, Bertie?" The boss flashes a shiny smile. "Don't leave me hanging--"
He's definitely aware, the designer surmises. He's just teasing me.
I mean, I understand where he's coming from. I know I'm gorgeous.
"Nothing important. And I already asked you to not call me 'Bertie'."
"Awww, do you not like it?" Joey's voice is dripping with artificial sweetness as he goes to return the miniature park ride to its former position again--however, Bertrum holds fast, leaving a hand of each man on either side of the Ferris Wheel. "Would you prefer Bert? Or B? Or Berty-Werty?" The owner tugs the prop towards his side of the map, with neither letting loose of the wooden object. "Bertzee? Beetle? Betty? Berry?"
Bertrum pulls the Ferris Wheel back towards the left corner--Joey's hand still upon it--and glares. "Stop." Push me further--I dare you--
"Why?" The Ferris Wheel is dragged to the right. "I think it sounds cute--suits you well--" You were just flirting with me a second ago--what happened?
"It's immature." Back to the left. "And we're not nearly that close."
"But we will become closer over time, Bertie~." Right. "You said it yourself: this'll take years--"
"That doesn't give you permission to treat me like a child." Left, more forcefully this time. Besides, I can do much better than you.
"I'm not! It's an affectionate gesture!" Right, with equal force. You're really sending mixed signals here. "What do I possibly have to do to appease and attract the great Bertrum Piedmont?" He really thinks he's all that?
He really thinks he's all that? "Oh, please." Left! "I'm too good for you."
"Says Mister Not-Hard-To-Get. " ♫ Bertie, Bertie, Bertie, Bertie, why won't you be mine? ♫ "I daresay that it's the other way around--I'm too good for you." Right!
"Don't flatter yourself." You're not going to get very far with an ego like that. Left!
Right! Joey merely smirks...then tightens his grip on the object, lacing his fingers in Bertrum's as he does so...
The other finally pulls away and releases the Ferris Wheel; the boss revels in his success with a boastful "Ha! I win!"
The architect hopes the heat flooding his cheeks isn't outwardly apparent. "I--no--this isn't a game!" Bertrum swipes a different piece too close to the Ferris Wheel and relocates it to his side of the board without breaking his venomous gaze at the boss. "Did you not listen to anything I said before?!"
"Hm?" Joey's dreamy, flirty expression doesn't change as he leans closer. "You mean the part when you said you weren't 'that kind' of date? Or the part about 'it' being obvious--whatever 'it' is? Or--"
"...The part where I said I can stop working for you for any reason I choose."
This time, the owner's self-confident smirk falters--it's clear from the architect's cold tone that he's past the point of impatient. Okay...maybe I poked a little too much... Stepping backwards, Joey replaces the coquettish inflection with a seemingly mature and agreeable one. "Right--yes, I do recall that. My apologies, Bertrum. You're right--it's not a game."
The designer sees right through this phony persona and notes the lack of an agreement to cease the pet-naming. He's only sorry because I threatened to leave. "I highly advise you quit pestering me--it's only going to push me away."
"Yes--I mean, I'm sorry..." It might just be Bertrum's imagination...but it appears that the other is blushing a bit in embarrassment...and he even sounds a little...shy?
At least I brought him down from his high horse. Even if it's only for now...
Approximately another half-hour is spent arranging (and rearranging...and rearranging again...and rearranging maybe just one more time) the minute carnival parts; Joey keeps the threat of dismissal in mind and refrains from riling up Bertrum for the time being (although, to the other's disappointment, he continues addressing him as 'Bertie'. I suppose you can't have it all...especially not with this man.)
The boss finds that when the planning is finally completed for the day ("We'll make adjustments over the next week or so before I create the final design plan," the architect assures him.)...he doesn't really want the other to leave.
I like his company...
Yes, we argue a bit...but...
...it's nice having him around.
It kind of reminds me of He--
No. He is not going to think about that.
This is different.
...Stay with me, Bertie. Stay here...so I don't have to go home and face the tru--
But it's too late; they're already packing up...and saying their farewells...and Bertrum is already halfway to the door...
...and then a *pht* of the door shutting shatters Joey's sad silence.
A sigh...
Well...it was nice while it lasted...
...And now...
...
I don't want to do it.
I need to stop...
I need to force myself...
But his hand is already starting to tremor...
No...I can't give into it...
It only hurts me in the end...
A deep breath...he reaches for the door...
I've made it this far...
Just...need...to...control...myself...
Meanwhile, Bertrum watches the other exit from the side wall outside the studio, not quite sure why he's doing that...
It's not like I care that much about him--we've only just met--
But...the designer can't help but worry a little bit about Joey...
When they had put their heads together (quite literally) during the planning...he had noticed something...
...but not something physical.
A scent.
A scent he knows a little too well...
Because of...
Bertrum doesn't want to remember that.
A scent...
Alcohol.
§
I saw you peeking through
Curiosity not abstained,
But quickly you with drew
All courage soon drained.
Don't you know that hurt?
I didn't ask to be this way
Soon I shall assert
and soon you shall obey.
I was once beautiful
before he stole it all from me.
Now my actions become undutiful;
my victory he shall see.
So come quietly, little errand boy,
and I'll help you pull through.
Trust me when I say you're merely his toy.
But you don't need to worry, Shawn.
Your angel is watching over you~
...Um, what?
That was the toymaster's original reaction to the odd note found on his desk this morning; at first, he had almost wanted to say it was from Wally...
But it's way too...creepy...
Shawn had chewed over this amateur poem all day, questioning who and where it might have come from. Maybe Jack? But he hasn't been around for a while...wonder why...
Keeping in with his resolution to not worry his boyfriend, he hadn't brought it up with Wally. It must be someone's idea of a practical joke--probably one of those devilish Art Department workers--
The 'drew' is emphasized--that's probably a pun on Joey's name...
But why are they calling me 'little errand boy'?
Not able to come up with a reasonable solution, the craftsman goes to throw away the mysterious verse now at the end of the day and go home to take a long nap...when an echoey, high voice speaks up.
"I see you there~"
...
No...the walls are talking...that must be it.
Even Shawn himself doesn't believe that flimsy excuse.
Just ignore it...it'll go away...
"Shawn~"
It almost sounds familiar, in a way...like the speaker was someone he might have known at one point...
"Shawn Flynn." Now the voice sounds demanding.
The toymaster's hesitant trudge morphs into a bolt; hoping that Wally is still around and that he might be able to run into his arms and explain this creepy situation, Shawn realizes, It--she--knows who I am. That's the thing behind the wall. That's the thing that sent the note.
Holy shit-- I'm being stalked!
At my workplace!
The craftsman only just reaches the exit of his department when the angel's voice beckons him even more menacingly, "Don't make me come and get you~"
Shawn darts down the corridor--farther--farther--anything to get away from that voice--
When he leans against the Art Department wall to catch his breath, he thinks (or perhaps hopes) that he's finally escaped it.
Then...a *crash!* blasts behind him, making him jerk upright with fear.
OHSHITOHSHITOHSHITOHSHITTTTTT!
Shawn doesn't even have time to formulate an escape route before the ghastly tainted saint emerges...
"Hello, little errand boy."
The toymaster quakes in place, afraid that he might pass out; the angel's shadow is just barely visible in the darkness.
Alice smiles maliciously at the other's fearful silence. Definitely a much better alternative to Mister Talk-On-and-On-But-Never-Say-Anything. "There's no need to be scared, Shawn."
"I--but--you're--" The words won't come out.
"I'm Alice Angel!" the heavenly host declares with the air of a queen. "The real and true Alice!" A slight hesitant pause... "However...due to a series of unfortunate events...I have fallen from my...rather…" --she stops momentarily, searching for the correct words -- "...divine pedestal."
Shawn isn't sure what to think about this. W H A T? A--A living Alice? How?! And why does she look like--like whatever she is? Like--like THAT?!
I must be asleep--this must be a weird dream--a horrible nightmare--
Come on, me! Wake up!
But there is nothing to wake up to...
"But I will prevail despite these temporary disfigurations!" Alice continues on, with a strong tone in her voice (Shawn feels a life-story rant coming on). "I was once perfect--a beautiful, flawless, impeccable, immaculate angel...but it was all taken away from me." By him. "My love doesn't remember me...my position was stolen--have you seen her?! Have you noticed the attention she's receiving?! That attention is supposed to be mine! MINE! I'M THE ANGEL!"
The craftsman attempts to slip away surreptitiously, only to be reprimanded by the tainted saint. "Don't move! I'm not done with you!"
It's not a dr--nightmare… he realizes as the angel takes a deep breath and resumes. It's absolutely evident I'm not asleep...
"But they will all see! I may have been casted aside and left to rot...and corrupted by that dreadful demon...but I WILL overcome this! I WILL fix this...face of mine! I WILL be beautiful again! I WILL GIVE JOEY WHAT HE DESERVES!" It might just be the toymaker's imagination, but it appears that there are what look like black tears forming in the corners of the angel's eyes.
Geez, former-angel-woman, calm down. What does any of this have to do anything with me? Working for Joey doesn't make me a Joey! Shawn is tempted to say, but bites his tongue in fear of being yelled at...or worse. She seems like she could actually hurt me...
But if she's really Alice, she wouldn't do that. Alice is a sweet little thing--wouldn't hurt a fly...
Right?
"That's where you come in, little errand boy. You will assist me in my quests--"
The toymaster finally breaks his taciturnity. "You're gonna make me your slave?!"
Alice seethes. "Don't think of it like that." (How can I not? You're the one calling me little errand boy!) "We're helping each other--you do what I say when I say and how I say, and I save you from your certain downfall under Mister Joseph Camden Drew's authoritarian rule."
"Save me? Angel-woman, I know that this job stinks, but I don't need to be 'saved'!" There are reasons why I'm still here! "Especially not by you!"
The heavenly host sighs again and steps closer, causing Shawn to of course step farther back. "You fool! You don't understand! I'm trying to help you! Anything I have planned for you is better than being oblivious and brain-washed to what he will do to you!" It’s me you should be believing, because he’s deceiving you with lies.
"What do you have against Joey?" An inkling of courage drizzles into the toymaster's voice. "What'd he ever do to you?!"
Apparently, this was the wrong question to ask; Alice scowls and clenches her fists. "Everything! He's the reason all of this happened! My life would be perfect if it wasn't for him!"
She's so obsessed with being perfect, Shawn considers with a frown, the fear drained from him enough that he dares to tread closer. She's...so different from how she should be--and not just physically. She's...crazy... "That's not my fault. I don't need to be saved or anything--in fact, I'mma just move on and pretend none of this ever happened." Or something like that. "Leave me out of it."
The angel's eyes narrow in frustration, and for a moment, the craftsman thinks he has won...
...but soon that glower upon her unholy face morphs into a creepy smile.
"No," she denies sweetly, but the echo of her voice adds something sinister to the phrase. "No, I won't. You are not the one in control here. You are powerless! You are going to serve me whether you like it...or not."
Images of his day-to-day life flash in Shawn's mind: his house, Heavenly Toys, Bendy plushes, Wally, his parents...
I can't leave it behind.
"No! You can't make me!"
A pause...
...then Shawn feels something close around his wrist.
"YES. I. CAN!" Alice pulls on the chain that has suddenly appeared in her hands, and the cuff around the toymaster's wrist draws him closer to her.
"How--?!"
"A magician never reveals her secrets," the tainted saint cuts him off with a tad of smugness. "I didn't want to force you, but I had no choice. Now come along, little errand boy...we have some work to do."
Shawn struggles to pull away as the angel practically drags him down a somewhat familiar hallway--the entrance of Heavenly Toys. "No! You can't do this to me! LET ME GO!"
He doesn't receive a reply. Why me?! Why was I thrown into this?! Was it because I saw her through that hole?!
No...I can't...
My life...my Wally...
I'll find a way to escape. I will .
…
I hope...
This...nightmare's coming true...
What have I got myself into?
Alice steers her servant into a cramped room that she explains will be his new home; the walls are in the beginning stages of being rotted-away, and a thin, not-very-warm-looking curtain lies on the ground--Shawn figures that this material will probably function as a blanket of sorts.
...
How can someone made out to be so angelic be so...cruel?
She may call herself Alice, but she's no angel...
With that, the tainted saint releases the toymaster from his cuff; the latter shivers when she directs, "Now behave, Shawn--never forget that your angel is always watching~"
What a creep...
How does she even exist in the first place? Is she a product of the Ink Machine?
He figures that he might as well try to nap if Alice doesn't have anything for him to do right now; after shuffling the drab curtains into a makeshift bed, Shawn lies on them, still able to feel the cold hard ground beneath him. What a luxury.
It'd be better if I had some company...
God, I wish Wally was here to help me...maybe I can find a way to secretly get in contact with him...
What do I do now?
It's too exhausting to think about...Shawn feels himself drifting off despite his worries...
Monsters born from ink...they're stalking me...
It's getting harder just to know if I'm being saved...
...or drowning slow. [sic]
§
Two things are certain in life: death and taxes.
I've encountered both.
Grant passively stands back and observes Sammy's demonstration of a 'proper' sacrifice; in the center of the cramped room, the latter paints in ink a strange symbol similar to a pentagram on the ground.
"Candles, Terrence," the prophet directs at his sidekick as he whips around, revealing the same pie-cut-eye/pentagram symbol drawn upon his cape--the former artist obediently delivers the requested tapers (Where did they find those at? the fired accountant wonders), and Sammy places them along the ground symbol's border.
"And now..." The composer smirks. "We gather our sheep."
"From where, Grand Shepherd?" Terrence questions, referencing Sammy's new 'title'. "And who?"
Sammy places a hand on his hip sassily. "Anyone! Any human! They shall come to us; we need to offer them to him--and lead them on the correct path! Make him feel welcome--turn all these lost sheep into enlightened followers!"
For someone who hates being inky, Grant thinks, he's not at all hesitant to drown others.
"Do we really have to do this? Can't we just...I don't know...leave them alone?"
The prophet makes a "Hmp!" noise as he turns to his significantly-less-eager-to-worship disciple. "You would dare suggest not appeasing our lord?! You would leave the helpless sheep to graze?!"
Your lord--not our lord. "N-N--I just mean--"
A clatter from above cuts him off; it almost sounds as if it's emanating from the pipes. Sammy shushes the other two and whispers, "How convenient! This very well may be our newest offering!"
The *clang*ing continues for a bit, followed by a whooshing noise similar to that of running water...
...then what looks like a cascade of ink spews out of the pipe the composer had opened to acquire the dye for the pie-cut-eye pentagram.
You really thought a human was going to come out of that? the auditor deadpans.
But it's not just any puddle of ink--gradually, it morphs into a slightly more human shape.
"Ugh...I'm still not used to that. Now where's my--"
The pipe emits a *pop*, and the Searcher grabs the yellowish hat that shoots out of it. "It's still in good condition--nice!"
He finally becomes aware of the three Lost Ones staring at him and jumps--or does the closest thing to jumping that a legless, stuck-to-the-floor ink creature can do.
"Ah--sorry--didn't see--I mean--um--"
"Who are you?" Terrence squints at this new arriver. It almost looks like the same 'species' we are...but...
"Jack...Jack Fain. I was the lyricist..." The poet stares at the trio. "I know you, Sammy...but who are you other two?"
Terrence steps forward with deliberate fanfare and places a proud hand upon his chest. "I am Terrence, right-hand-man of our Grand Shephard!"
"Grant...Grant Cohen." Jack notes that the accountant sounds exasperated. "So this is what happened to you too...was it Samuel who drowned you?"
"Yes, but it was Joey's idea--except I escaped before the cycle finished. I was supposed to be a Boris. Why did Samuel drown you?"
"So I could sacrifice him to our lord!" the prophet answers. "He offered himself willingly to the Ink Demon's needs!" Jack gathers that this explanation might not be one-hundred percent truthful at a piqued head shake from Grant.
Terrence pipes up, "How did you do that--appear out of the duct? And what are you doing here?"
The lyricist shrugs his inky shoulders. "I don't know--I just learned how to do it. When I go near a pipe, it sucks me in like it would with normal ink...I'm not sure if it does that with Lost Ones as well, though. I've been travelling through the pipes just to explore the studio and learn what I can about this mess we've found ourselves in."
None of the three cultists are jumping at the prospect of being pulled into a tiny tube and spat back out--it sounds terribly uncomfortable.
"Well," the Grand Shephard enunciates after a pause, "you're not going to find anything here--unless you're looking for the Ink Demon Cult. If you were, then welcome! Thank you for being interested in our gro--"
"Thanksbutnothanks," Jack rapidly cuts the other off. "I'll just be on my way--"
"But wait!" Sammy goes to halt the Searcher, but the latter is already being absorbed by the pipe; after Jack has completely 'drained' from the room, the prophet yells into the tube, "I didn't even get to tell you all the special benefits of membership!"
"What 'special benefits'?" Grant asks, leaning against the wall exhaustedly. There aren't any...
"Hush, old man. Keep up that complaining, and I might kick you out of the cult. The Ink Demon doesn't want or need fickle worshippers."
I wouldn't be opposed to being kicked out, the accountant thinks but just barely refrains from saying.
After one last glance at the duct, the Ink Demon Cult continues on; their leader declares with a bright smile, "Let us search once more for our lord and offer our presence to him!"
I'm so sick of chasing that Demon thing around all day, Grant toils. I'm sick of being stuck here, I'm sick of being told what to do...
I hate all of it!
I...just want to go home...
...and be taken out of this inky whirlpool...
...
Someone...please save me...
I don't want to drown anymore...
§
I don't want to drown anymore...
Joey wills himself to not go down that sketchy street, to not travel to that creepy alley, to not swing open that *squeak*ing door, to not embrace the speakeasy's dilapidated atmosphere, to not sit at that filthy counter, to not pick any fights with other bar-goers...and to not consume those cheap chemicals he so desperately craves...
Not today...
But that's much easier said than done; even now, just thinking about it at home...it doesn't seem feasible--not after all his previous attempts.
It's impossible...
But...maybe if I just...believe?
Let's make the impossible possible...
Heh heh...
...
He's already stressed enough as is, with all of his ink creatures escaped and never returning...as well as other employees that have disappeared to who-knows-where (probably due to the aforementioned beings)...
There aren't others to take over their original positions...I mean, I found an artist...but...
I don't know what to do with the rest.
And I need to come up with a solution quickly...
But...
It would be so much easier if he had something to calm him down...
Joey sighs as he places his face in his hands.
Why is it so goddamn hard?!
Why?!
...
I just need to say no to myself...need to gain some self-control...
And it will all be over...
Right?
I'll be fine...
I hope.
Chapter 28: Chapter Twenty-Six - Withdrawal
Chapter Text
Four days later...
"Mister Arch, sir? There's a letter for you."
From his desk, Nathan Arch smiles slightly at his secretary. "Ah, thank you, Miss Flores. Send it in."
A piece of rather fancy stationery is placed before the owner; Nathan adjusts his glasses as he reads it.
Dear Mister Nathaniel Arch,
Good morning, dear sir! I hope you and Tessa are doing well--did you enjoy your vacation?
I'll cut to the chase; as we discussed in our previous letters and phone calls, my studio has hit some...unprecedented times. Of course, struggles are to be expected as a part of life--but in hard times, one calls upon his friends!
We're friends, Nathan, and you of course know that I would never ask anything of you if the situation wasn't absolutely dire. Perhaps you could possibly spare that money I mentioned in my call? You're known as a very generous man, Nathan--surely a little bit of your studio's pocket change wouldn't be missed. It would be put to good use, and we can negotiate the numbers if needed.
Thank you for the support. I wish you and your family the best.
Sincerely,
Joey Drew
Nathan's secretary leans over her boss's shoulder to read the letter, flushing a bit at the curious smile he gives her when he notices.
"Joey Drew..." The female enunciates the name. "The same Joey Drew at your rival studio?"
"That's him," Nathan confirms. "But don't consider him a rival--yes, we compete in business, but I'm sure that he and I have a mutual understanding that it doesn't expand to our personal relationship." There's no room for jealousy.
"Right..." Miss Flores agrees with slight hesitation. "I just think that it's...interesting that he's requesting funds from us. I've been hearing some...odd things about his workshop lately; apparently, there's some suspicion regarding workers disappearing, with their last known location being the studio. You know my friend Maxine, the journalist? She said her company has been trying to extract information from that place for quite a while, but they're keeping their mouths shut."
The owner nods while his worker discusses this. "I...I suppose that is worrisome...but they may just be coincidences, or rumors. You know how people are--if there's so much as a moved bench in the park, people are gossiping about what could have possibly caused it. I'm sure Joey has everything under control."
Miss Flores still isn't one-hundred percent convinced at that (In any case, it seems a little shady...), but doesn't go on to question it. "Do you intend to send money, then, sir?"
"Indeed. In fact--" -- he opens a creaky drawer in his desk and withdraws his checkbook -- "--you can send it out to him now."
The assistant frowns as she takes the withdrawal check from her boss and brings it to her own desk. Something about this just doesn't seem right...
Nathan leans back in his chair and gazes outside his window thoughtfully. It feels nice to do an act of kindness for someone...for a friend.
I'm sure he'll use it wisely.
§
"Who is she?"
"Why is she here?"
"What happened to Terrence?"
"What happened to Sammy? Jack? Norman? Grant? Shawn?"
"Does Joey know about this?"
"Where is he?"
"...Should I be worried?"
These are merely a small selection of a plethora of questions Buddy hears from his fellow workers at the entrance of a new head artist.
Things are starting to become strange here--not that this is new. Even regularly-bubbly Wally has suddenly become despondent, even depressed.
Why?
People are still disappearing, the gofer toils as he watches Allison approach the smartly-dressed animator, and the others are finally starting to notice...
What took them so long?
"Hello!" the voice actress greets the other and shakes her hand. "Welcome to Joey Drew Studios--I'm Allison Connor, and I'm relatively new here as well."
"Abigail Lambert." They smile. "Well, Allison, I look forward to working with you."
"And to you as well." Allison scans the other's brownish-pink pinstripe suit and cute classy shoes. "I like your style."
"I do too." The two laugh and head off toward the music department, leaving Buddy withdrawn in the shadows, sweating nervously.
They didn't see me--good.
Although...that little conversation didn't give me any information on the disappearances...
But that Abigail seems to be an interesting character...maybe she might be in the know about things.
I have to get closer...
A wave of guilt washes over the teenager as he clenches the little microphone in his hands.
What does Dot plan to do with these?
What are we going to do if and when we figure it all out? Release it to the public? Keep it private?
There are so many pieces...
...and we never asked for a puzzle.
Well...guess I have to do what I have to do...
Buddy trails Allison and Abby's path, practically hugging the wall as he does so.
It feels like I'm doing someone else's job...
Who would be really good at sneaking around? And where are they?
This place isn't going to stand without its founding workers...heh...there's some irony...
But...when it all goes to hell...
...will we be able to tell?
§
At last...it's the time of day Joey looks forward to most...
Bertrum had only had to deal with the owner's relentless flirting for one day--Joey was not (to quote him) "swinging that way" on Friday, and the weekend gave the architect a break from the constant adjustments to his construction plan that his employer always seems to have.
Changes! Corrections!
I thought you hired me for my designer's eye, Mister Drew...so why do my notes always come back drenched in your critical red pen?!
It is a constant frustration, to say the very least.
But of course Joey has more surprises in store...the designer feels his heart race and his face heat up at the smug entrance of that annoying smirk.
"What a nice change of scenery," the boss begins smoothly, glancing around Bertrum's office--they had agreed to meet at the designer's American warehouse (his main headquarters is in England) for convenience. When the other doesn't respond, he asks, "What's the matter, Bertie? Cat got your tongue?"
The only reply is the slight shuffle of the blueprints being withdrawn...
"...Bertrum? Is something wrong?"
"What do you think?"
The smirk grows wider as Joey draws closer. "What is it? What are you upset about?"
"Oh, I don't know. Maybe it's that you keep editing my designs?" the other snarks, enunciating his point by tapping at the inked-up blueprints with his pen. "You agreed to give me full creative control, yet you insist on altering them! I can understand slight and occasional changes, but this is too much."
Now Joey's expression becomes a bit thoughtful--is he legitimately heeding the architect's complaints, or just humoring him?
After a pause, the businessman responds with a phrase that sounds like it means something but actually means absolutely nothing.
"I'm sorry you feel that way."
...
"That's it? That's all you're going to say?" You little son of a--
"Do I need to say anything more?"
"Don't answer my question with a question!" Bertrum snaps. "I don't appreciate the way you treat my intellectual property--and me myself. You may be paying me, but you don't own me."
"Bertie, Bertie, calm down," Joey says sweetly, his head almost leaning on the other's shoulder. "Don't think that I don't appreciate all that you do for me--out of all the designers I could have hired, I chose you, and I feel very glad that I did. Yes, I add some corrections to your plans, but it's nothing you should take personally. You're smart and talented--I am aware of it, I know it, I believe it, and you know it. Don't think that I would ever try to steal that away from you."
A tense pause issues as Bertrum glares at his boss...
"I'm not going to fall for your charms, Joseph."
The boss's reply is a shiny, sleazy smile--Bertrum has a desire to wipe it right off his face.
"No one's forcing you to, Bertie." You already have.
Joey suavely slides his arm around the architect's waist, and both men let out a sigh--Bertrum's in irritation, and Joey's in love.
*Click*. The door suddenly swings open.
"Mister Piedmont, sir--oh--"
A stocky woman with very short black hair glances into the office; her eyes light up and a mischievous grin crosses her face when she sees the two men.
"I'm not interrupting something, am I?"
"No, not at all," the designer answers apathetically, swiping his employer's arm off. "But what did I tell you about knocking before you enter?"
"Right--sorry," the worker brushes off casually as she steps inside--Joey perceives that she is dressed in suspenders and a tight black shirt (with the company's emblem sewn in the left corner upon it) underneath.
Bright green eyes focus on the man next to her boss. "I presume this is the acclaimed Joey Drew?"
Bertrum answers "Yes" at the same time that Joey answers "The one and only"; the latter strides forward and shakes her hand. "And you are?"
"Lacie Benton," Lacie replies with a funny little smile. "Nice to meet you, Mister Drew--I've heard a lot about you." It might just be the businessman's imagination, but it seems to him that she just threw a wink at her supervisor...
"Nice to meet you as well, Lacie," Joey addresses. So he's talked about me, hm? What has he said?
"What do you need, Miss Benton?" Bertrum questions, gesturing for her to follow over to the other side of the room; Lacie does so, and the two launch into a muttering conversation.
Joey hums as he waits for them to finish, editing a few of the designs before him while he does so...
After a bit, Lacie and Bertrum finish working out whatever inquiry the former had; as the designer walks back to the planning table and the worker towards the door, Joey pipes up, "Bertie, I know you don't want me changing your designs, but I want this Bendy face on the booth to be a little larger."
Bertrum flushes slightly pink as Lacie whips around with a curious, teasing expression; determined to keep his composure, however, he merely nods and silently shoos the woman out.
"Right...okay..." Somewhat abashed, the architect rounds back to the boss's side, and the two return to their work.
Seeing that Bertrum has calmed down significantly, Joey goes to speak with him again.
"So, that Lacie--how long has she worked for you?"
Bertrum doesn't even look up from his blueprints. "Since the establishment of my company--she was one of my very first employees."
"I see--what drew you to her?"
Bertrum notices that Joey's fingers are tapping the table (*tap tap tap tap*), and he even seems a bit fidgety. A nervous tic?
Or...
"She's got spunk. Yes, she isn't the best at working in groups, and yes, she slacks at the rules sometimes, but she's powerful. You wouldn't believe the things she can do when she puts her mind to it." *Tap tap tap tap*.
"Ah..." is the other's tired reply--suddenly, Joey isn't feeling too well...
Damn, it's hot in here...
...and my stomach kind of hurts...
Fuck...
*Taptaptaptaptaptapta--*
"Hm?" The owner glances up at feeling something stop his trembling hand, then blushes when he realizes it's Bertrum's hand.
"Are you okay?"
"Mm--no--I mean, yes--" The employer struggles to gather his thoughts. "Why...?"
"You were holding your head and groaning--"
"J-Just a headache." Joey tries to smile, but it looks incredibly painful. "It hit me out of nowhere...but really, I'm fine."
Bertrum is still concerned; he finally notices the dark circles under the other's (really brilliant blue...) eyes. "And the tapping?"
No answer...
"Joseph, are you--"
"YES! I'M FINE!" The words come out harsher than intended. "I--I mean..."
...
"Just...I just need a bit..."
Joey stumbles past the architect and out of the room...
...
Bertrum awkwardly waits for him to return...
...
He's not all right. And if that's what I think it is...
*Click* The door opens once more, and the boss finally re-enters.
"...Okay, all good now. Sorry--probably gave you a bit of a scare."
You think? the designer half-deadpans, half-worries. "You're completely okay now?"
That familiar shiny smile returns, and this time Bertrum is glad to see it. "Completely." Just a bit of...withdrawal...
But why did it just hit me out of the blue?
"Positive?"
"Yes, Bertie." Joey smirks at the predictable blushing from the other. Aww--under that tough demeanor, he really cares about me. "Positive."
With that, the two finish up on editing (and un-editing) the plans; the owner, suddenly feeling bold, reaches up...
"What--" Bertrum begins, feeling a slight pull behind his head--a glimpse in Joey's direction reveals the latter twirling a strand of his hair around his finger. "Stop that."
"But it's so curly and pretty!"
"I know, but it takes a lot of work to keep it neat, so please don't touch it."
Joey releases the curls...then proceeds to grasp them once more...then release them again just to watch them spring back.
"I asked you nicely to stop."
"But it's soooo bouncy!" I want to touch the pretty boing-boing hair!
The designer tosses his hair to his opposite shoulder and sighs.
"I understand what you're trying to do, but you're going about it the wrong way."
"Hm?" ...Trying to do...? "What do you mean?"
A pause...
"You really--" Bertrum starts, then thinks better of it. Maybe it's best if I wait until he figures it out himself. "Never mind."
Joey raises a single eyebrow, but doesn't push any further.
After the two men finally finish their designs and Joey exits...a certain spunky worker peers into her boss's office (without knocking).
Bertrum lifts his gaze from the blueprints. "What is it, Miss Benton?" What does that smile mean?
Lacie slips in with a sly grin. "Ah, nothing much--just wanted to talk about that Joey Drew."
As if he doesn't talk enough about himself. "What about him?"
"He's an..." -- the construction worker searches for the correct term -- "... interesting personality."
"Yes...yes he is." Lacie notes the exasperation in the designer's voice.
"He's in love with you, sir." Even in the little time I saw him interact with you, I knew. It's so obvious--the way he stares and swoons and--
"I know." I'm extremely captivating.
"And you're in love with him as well."
Bertrum jerks forward in his desk. "What? I am not!" We haven't known each other that long! He doesn't even know me!
Besides, he's an asshole. Why would I be in love with an obnoxious man like that?
He's blushing, the woman notices, her grin growing wider. "He calls you Bertie--and you let him!"
"He has called me by that nickname so much that it is really futile for me to correct him. I've learned to numbly accept it. Anyway, I don't think he knows that he loves me--he flirts and flirts, but is completely clueless whenever I mention anything about it. Perhaps he is confused about his feelings."
"Or maybe you're confused about your feelings."
A tense silence follows as Bertrum frowns at his worker...
"Get back to work, Benton."
"Okay, Bertie," Lacie teases, silkily sliding out of the room before her boss can lecture her.
The architect leans back in his chair and glares at the ceiling.
I know exactly what my feelings are, thank you very much.
And no matter how...weirdly he acts, Joseph Drew is not-- never --going to change them.
§
She's heartless...
Every step, I battle with an angel...
Withdrawn from his normal routine and life, Shawn struggles to...what's the right word? Survive? Thrive? Do anything?!
...How did things end up like this?! I never asked for...
Things are even more exhausting than usual...lately, it's hard...for him to...even...finish his thoug...
"Errand boy! Wake up!" A sharp tug at the back of the toymaker's neck provides a rude awakening--literally.
The hard wooden floor is swapped with cold air rushing into his face...which unfortunately forces him to open his eyes to nightmarish reality. "Mm?" Can it just be a horrible nightmare? Please?
I just want to hug Wally...
Alice drags Shawn onto his feet--a relatively easy feat due to the latter's small stature--and barks, "Now's not the time for naps! We--that is to say, you--have work to do!" Why does he sleep almost all the time, I wonder?
"Nnn--stoppp it!"
The tainted saint seethes. "Laziness won't get you anywhere! Up! Now!"
"Fine, fine! I'm going!" What torture will I be subjected to today?
*Clank*. Metal wrist cuffs close painfully tightly around the toymaster's wrist--he thought by this time, he'd be more used to it...but it hurts just as much as it did in the beginning.
The angel practically drags Shawn to her premises as if he is a stubborn mule; too tired to pull away, the latter merely shuffles along...
The two enter through the clanky metal doors into Alice's Heavenly Toys area--an expansive, dim chamber with a long couch and table towards the left side and a collection of inkwells scattered on the ground towards the other. On the center wall is a collage of Alice Angel posters, surrounded by ominous candles.
"Stay here," Alice directs, shoving the craftsman into the corner.
Like always. Shawn just sighs in response and watches the tainted saint trek to the inkwells...
Delicate hands pick a half-full jar from the floor...at this point, the toymaker knows what is about to happen...but it's still strange to witness...
Black drops drip down like blood or tears down the angel's face...she shivers from the almost icy coldness of the ink...but no...it should be burning!
"It...it doesn't work!"
It never works, Shawn deadpans from the corner. You always try, and it never works.
Isn't that the definition of insanity--doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result?
Alice seethes...like always...and stalks over to the table...like always...
Wait...something is different. Usually, she trudges back to Shawn...
No...
The tainted saint shoves something metal at the toymaker--a doubtful glance at it reveals a syringe. Where--oh, probably the infirmary...
"Let's have a small...alteration to our usual routine, errand boy." Alice sounds much more powerful than she feels. I can fix this...I can fix it all. I just need the right kind of ink.
I don't care who I hurt.
I don't care how they feel.
I don't care about anything...
...except becoming perfect again.
And now...
"Take this and find the other ink ones--the failures. The mistakes. The--"
"The who, exactly?" Shawn interrupts. There are more of them?! But--but--Wally never said--
"The...the Projectionist. And the failed one--the Searcher." Norman and Ja--
No. She must not remember them like that; it will only get in the way of her plans.
Forget what I've known before...this is now. I am Alice Angel!
I don't care about them...they have what I need, and I will get it.
"They are in the depths...skulking in the darkness..." As abominable creatures of the ink. Disgusting! "Find them and gather the living ink from them!"
The toymaster just stands in stunned silence. How--what--why?! "But--"
"NOW!" Alice barks, shoving him out of her sight. "Appease your angel...for she is watching over you...
Oh, and try not to die on the way back~"
"WHAT?!" Shawn screams into the ominous empty hallways. DYING?! I can't die now! Especially not by ink monsters! I'm too young!
But...she's here and there and everywhere...
I'm in the depths of dark despair...
I can't succeed...
Thus, the poor abductee shuffles over to the elevator--once a source of happy arrival, it has now become a creepy, *creak*y transit. Like it's sending me down to hell...
*Squeeeeeeeeeepffffffchtthunk!* The lift descends to the lowest level--the sudden halt at the end sends a jolt through the man.
He stumbles out and takes in the scene--despite not having been down here very often in his career, Shawn knows that this inky abyss wasn't always like this.
My God...what happened?! How?!
Maybe...maybe a pipe...or two...or three burst...and no one bothered to fix them...
I guess ink creatures feel most at home within ink...which is kind of weird... I mean, isn't that like walking through your own blood?
The thought is sickening--the craftsman determines that he will get this job finished and leave as soon as possible.
Okay, where fir--
A sparkle of light--a flicker--in the corner of the chasm catches his eye. What--
He dares to step closer...and gasps.
Before him is what must be the Projectionist--the giveaway being the blinding camera upon the creature's neck. His (Shawn doesn't know why, but something tells him that this...thing is male) body even seems vaguely familiar...
"Shawn?" Norman asks incredulously, forgetting that humans cannot hear him. "What are you doing here?"
The toymaster's knees become weak as he stares at the strange circular piece on the cameraman's chest...
No...it can't be...
Norman?
"How did you fi--" the inky one begins before Shawn dashes away. "Wait!"
When he thinks he is deep enough into the room to be safe, Shawn leans against the wall and catches his breath.
I'm supposed to take ink--ink that is required for survival--from HIM?!
I can't do that...no...
But...but maybe that isn't Norman...kind of like that angel person isn't really Alice...
Oh my God...
The *chrrrr* of ink flowing through the pipes breaks the eerie silence...
She's watching...and waiting...
I...I need to keep going...
Just try to avoid him, Shawn.
It'll be fine.
I am fine.
The ink is getting deeper. That is fine.
It's getting darker. That is very fine.
...
*SPRRRRRRRRRR!* Apparently, many jumpscares are in this area--Shawn is startled once again by a bursting pipe.
An inky something flows out of the pipe...oh nonononono...
And then...a hat?
Much more used to this, Jack re-orientates himself rather easily.
That's it, Shawn concludes. That's the thing I have to get the ink from.
Waitwaitwait...why does it have Jack's hat?
No...no...it can't be...
It's fine, Shawn. Just close your eyes and poke him. It doesn't even have to hurt.
It's not Jack. You're just imagining things.
It's fine, it's fine, it's fine.
"Huh? Is that y--" The Searcher remembers that non-ink creatures can't hear ink ones as the toymaker blindly steps closer. Shawn? Why--how? What is he--
"OW!" A mild but unexpected jabbing pain shoots into Jack's side...but just as soon as it had begun, it's gone. ...What?
The craftsman pivots around and bolts away--the lift is getting closer--closer--
*Pmmt*. Shawn runs into something...someone.
"What the hell did you do that for?!" Norman cries. "What did you put into him?!"
"Flicky, I'm fine," Jack tries to reassure him. "It was just a little poke--I feel okay, I promise--"
"No! I can't let him hurt you!" The Projectionist lets out an ear-piercing scream and trudges through the thick black liquid after Shawn, who runs as fast as his legs will carry him to the elevator.
*Bt bt bt bt bt!* "Come on, go!" the toymaker yells at the lift buttons--thankfully, just before Norman reaches the elevator, it ascends with a reprimanding *CREAAAAKKKK!*.
Shawn can't dash down the corridor fast enough--it what seems like record time, he reaches Alice's premises.
The doors don't even open; instead, the display case formerly used to show off new toys opens.
"Put it in here," the angel's voice resounds, although Shawn cannot tell from where.
"I was almost killed!" The servant's voice is hoarse from fear.
"Yes. That's why you, not me, are doing this. Think of it as a good thing, though--it's much better than being under Joey's rule. You might die that way, too." Alice says this quite pleasantly, as if the two are discussing the weather.
"But--I--no--ugh!" There's no use arguing--he isn't going to win.
Stuck in a factory of toys, the fallen angel's errand boy with fading hopes to ever get out...
But...there has to be a way. I need to find a way.
I...I have to get in contact with someone. Wally will save me...
The tainted saint speaks again. "And you aren't even close to finished yet--I have much more for you! Little errand boy, this is a new chapter...I have the stage, you can't turn the page." All eyes on ME!
"My dear Shawn...the story has just begun~"
§
...
Just distract yourself--you'll forget about it...
More distractions...
Thankfully, there are numerous things to think about--worries about the disappearing workers and the ink creatures...the lack of a plan to fight Thomas's work ethics lawsuit (He's the problem, not me! Though I can definitely outlawyer him...)...Bendy Land preparation...Bertrum's mixed signals...Bertrum's pretty eyes...Bertrum's hand on his...
Joey lets out a loving sigh and snuggles deeper into the couch. Bertie...❤
Why doesn't he like me? I mean, sometimes he acts like he does, but then gets annoyed at me...
But I want him to like me! I want that man!
And...I am going to get him!
But how?
The owner considers this for a few minutes. Could I ask him on a date? But he's bound to say no...
Maybe...I could talk to someone who knows him better? But wh--
OH.
Joey rises from the sofa and shifts through his files in a drawer...and finds it!
Piedmont Enterprise's business card!
*Brrrr.* The boss wrings at the busy signal ring...
*Click*. A high female voice answers. "Piedmont Industries. What is your inquiry?"
"Hello--can I speak to Miss Lacie...Lacie...Be...?"
"Benton?"
"Yes, that's the one."
"Okay--just a second." *Click*
A moment of silence...
*Click*
A much lower voice: "Lacie Benton." Then a pause... "Who is this?"
"Joey Drew--I--"
"Oh, Mister Drew--okay, okay. What can I do for you? You wanna talk to Ber--I mean, Mister Piedmont, I assume?"
"Actually, no." The boss leans back onto the armrest of his couch and fans his face--one of those unexpected withdrawal fevers is coming on again. "It's you I want to speak with...about Bertrum."
"Oh...oh, okay." Joey thinks he hears a little chuckle on the other end. "Sure--what do you want to know?"
"...It's...kind of an awkward question."
"Shoot."
A deep breath...
"How do I get him to like me and date me?"
This time, there's a full-on laugh fest on Lacie's end; Joey feels himself blush. "It's not funny!"
"Heh heh--no, it's not--you're right...heh. It's just that I knew you liked him...and it's kind of funny that you're calling me for dating advice."
"Hardy har har. Now answer my question."
"Well, whaddya wanna know?"
The boss gives a semi-frustrated sigh. "Like, how do I...I don't know...impress him? Please him? One minute he's flirting with me, but the next, he's annoyed with me. What do I have to do?"
Silence from the other end...
"Hello? Are you still there?"
"Yeah, yeah--I was just thinking." Another pause... "Well, I'm no expert in Bertrum psychology...but based on what he says about you when you're not around, I think you make him kind of mad sometimes. But then, he also kind of likes you, so he gets flustered."
"He does like me?" He's not great at showing it.
"Yes, I think he does. You know when him and I were talking in the corner? He kept glancing at you...so yes, I would say he likes you at least a little bit. But like I said, you sort of confuse him. Like, he complains about you editing his plans and treating him like a child...says you have a bit of an ego."
"I do not--he does!" Now the headache is coming on... "I'm not the problem!"
Lacie makes a doubtful noise. "I wouldn't say that...but...just maybe try to treat him nicer? You said that you flirt with him--he doesn't really strike me as that type. He's probably looking for something more serious."
No answer...
"Mister Drew?"
"...Yeah?"
"You have been in a serious relationship before, right?"
Once again, the boss doesn't answer--he recalls his college and early adult life. While Henry had chosen to settle down as soon as possible with Linda, Joey had slept around with various people...but that was just it. He never really went any further than one-night stands or friends-with-benefits in anything...
But that's not what I'm looking for here...
Maybe...maybe I do have to change. But just a little bit.
I just need to prove to him that I'm worth his time.
"...Well...that doesn't matter. I'll figure it out. What do you mean by 'be nice' to him? What does he consider nice?"
"Compliments--he loves compliments." (I've noticed, Joey thinks). "But probably not teasing flirty ones--like real, I-mean-it ones."
"All right...then should I stop calling him Bertie?"
"Nonono, please keep doing that. He loves it." Again, there’s a soft giggle on her end.
"Are you sure--"
"Yes. Trust me."
"Okay then...how do I get him to open up to me? He said I don't know him well enough..."
"That'll probably take a bit of time. He's not the most...expressive person in the world--"
"Do you know a lot about him?"
She hesitates. "Yes...but I don't think I am at any liberty to reveal his past. He doesn't really like to talk about it."
Like me. "Okay...okay, I think that's it. Thanks for the help."
"Of course. I look forward to attending your wedding."
Joey laughs...but the thought of that seems rather nice... "Wait--one more question."
"What is it?"
"What kind of flowers does Bertrum like?"
"I don't know. Sorry."
"It’s fine. Thanks again."
"Yep. Let me know how it all goes. Bye." *Click*
Joey releases the breath he didn't know he was holding. Well...I guess that was a thing...
…
His heart is going ninety miles per hour...it feels like it might burst out of his chest…
And the sweating...
Ughhhhh...I want alcohol...
...But I shouldn't...
It honestly makes him want to cry...again...
Distractions...
What should I do with Thomas?
Wait.
I think I know...
He's not the most...ideal soul for him...but...
That can wait, though...
What else is there?
...
You know what I haven't done in a long time?
Drawn.
Indeed, when the studio was established, Henry had become part of the animation division while Joey had taken over most of the administrative parts...
It's been so long...
Thus, he opens that drawer once more...and takes out a sketchpad and a pencil, knowing exactly what (who) he wants to sketch.
He'll be beautiful...
He didn't know what else to do...so Joey drew.
Chapter 29: Chapter Twenty-Seven - The Rise...
Notes:
A/N - Hello, my darling readers!
Alas, the end of my school year is quickly approaching--May 18--and thus changes in uploads for Drowned (and my writing in general) are going to be vastly affected. I write, copy and paste, and upload all of my long works on my school laptop...but unfortunately, I have to turn it in at the end of the year; while I can write on my phone, it is harder to do so (both because of keyboard size and distractions), and when you copy and paste on a phone, italics/bold/underlines don't copy with the text...which means I would have to copy everything into the editing Doc, re-italicize/bold/underline anything that needed to be, then when it was finished, do the same thing THREE times for each time I upload it (for Wattpad, AO3, and Tumblr). It will/would be an EXTREMELY slow and time-consuming process; plus, I'm not going to be online during summer nearly as long as during the school year, so writing itself will be delayed.
Anyway--I have decided that Drowned is probably going to be on a hiatus of sorts during the summer, with very occasional uploads (I'll try my best to write and re-do everything when I copy and paste...but...I just don't know). I'm going to try to squeeze in as many chapters as I can before the school year ends--I'm hoping I can get Twenty-Eight in... (because its chapter title is a bit important in order to understand this one's...hint hint...)
For shame, too...because these next few chapters are all terrible places to end! Things are just beginning to get interesting...and I have a lot more in store... (・ω<) ~ ☆
HOWEVER--this is not the end! I plan to undertake a mini-series; I think I want to call it 'Drought' to fit the 'Dr' theme (and it probably will be written a little bit differently and not contain direct thoughts, so I don't have to re-do the italics all the time). It will expound on backstories of the characters as well as contain parts I wanted to add to the story but could not...and perhaps much more! I don't know if I'm going to do anything for Drowned's birthday in June just yet...but what will be will be!
Please...don't give up on me just yet...
I need you guys...
I've made it this far...I can keep it going...
I won't let you down. I promise.
And of course, we'll pick off where we left off in August! So be prepared~!
Thank you for understanding...I'm sorry that it has to be this way, but I'll do all in my power to keep this updated as rapidly as I can.
You are all amazing, beautiful, perfect, sweet, angelic, talented, marvelous individuals. Please, if over the summer you remember anything that I've written...please let it be that...because it is 100000% true.
I love you all. ❤
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You never know how lonely lonely is until you're truly lonely.
There are people all around...but I still feel...off.
Everything feels off without him...
"No dilly-dallying, Wally! I want this place spick ‘n span!" Joey's commands interrupt Wally's self-pity. "Not a speck of dirt, not a slight smudge, not a tiny little stain anywhere! Do you understand me?"
The janitor merely gives a sad grunt in response. Why is he so insistent on everything being perfect here? It's just a storage room.
In fact, Joey himself has been acting...differently today--he's dressed in one of his nicest suits, keeps checking his appearance with a little mirror...and is clearly very stressed about something...
Got a hot date in here or something? Kind of an odd place to choose.
...
I wish I had Shawn...
He just left without a word.
Wally is convinced that he is the reason the toymaker hasn't shown up to work in quite a while. What did I do to make him mad?
And how can I make it better?
...
Things are getting weird here lately... maybe I've been somewhat blind to it.
"Wally! Quit moping around! Get back to the goddamn work!" the boss snaps, slicking back his hair for what Wally is sure is the thousandth time.
"I'm going..." Wally responds in a shaky whisper. No...don't cry...not in front of him...
Thankfully, Joey exits soon after this; the janitor gives up on the relentless cleaning.
I'm sick of being overworked for his sake…
I miss him so much...
Something...a feeling...is driving him to check on Heavenly Toys...
Almost as if he hopes Shawn will still be there...
...
Believe, believe, believe ...
But what if it's a very false and misguided belief?
A sigh...
*Chttttttttt*. The elevator rises to the toy department floor; Wally steps out.
The room emanates dead silence...
Strange...things are moved a bit. Wally's brown eyes scan the once-impeccably-stacked toys now scattered about and the display case, which for some reason is wide open.
So someone was here before...
Where are they now? Working? Hiding?
...It doesn't matter...
I just want him back...
Wait--what if...
He steps toward the desk...that comforting place he had long since watched Shawn sleep...
...and a flutter catches his eye.
Wally doesn't even think--he rushes to the paper upon the hard oak wooden.
I saw you peeking through
Curiosity not abstained,
But quickly you with drew
All courage soon drained.
The poem continues on, but it doesn't contain the answers the janitor needs--it merely brings up more questions.
Did Shawn write this? If so, why?
But...this doesn't sound like him at all...
It seems... threatening ...
So did someone give it to him?
IS MY SHAWNY IN DANGER?!
…
But you don’t need to worry, Shawn.
Your angel is watching over you~
'Angel'...
Like Alice Angel? Allison? Susie?
Obviously Allison didn't send it...and Susie was fired, I think...
WAIT.
Wally’s thoughts follow a sequence now; his breath gets more narrow and rapid as he realizes something...
Joey hasn't made us work with the Ink Machine in a long time...
Susie is missing...
Susie was Alice…
Why would Joey make a machine and not...use it?
...Or would he not tell Tom that he's using it?
NO.
Nonononono...that can't be it ...
It's all crashing down...
Is Susie...Alice?
Wally rapidly turns the paper over--a message in familiar, panicked scrawl on the other side reads:
Wally--
I knew you'd find this.
I'm alive, but she has me trapped, and I can't escape.
DO NOT come looking for me. DO NOT stay after hours. It's dangerous--she will hurt you.
I'll find a way to get out and meet up with you soon, I promise. Check here for future notes.
Stay alert and say NOTHING. DO NOT TELL ANYONE--ESPECIALLY JOEY--ABOUT THIS.
If a female voice speaks in the walls, DO NOT listen to it--GET OUT AS FAST AS YOU CAN.
BE VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY CAREFUL.
She's coming--I'll write more later.
I love you.
Shawn
It is too much to process...for a moment, Wally is sure it must be a joke...or a coincidence...
No...it can't be...
It must be him!
He's alive! OHMYGODHE'SNOTMADATMEHE'SALIVE!
Who is she?! Alice?! Susie?! WHY DOES SHE HAVE MY SHAWN?!
I'LL KILL HER, I SWEAR--
Nononono, I can't...he says be careful...
The worker quivers with fear...the note threatens to fall to the floor...
I'll be safe, Shawn...I promise...
Please be okay...
Please don't...die...
Wally haphazardly folds up the note and stuffs it in his pocket.
Tears are threatening to fall...
I love you too, Shawn.
And one day, we'll be out of here...and never return...
We will be safe.
The custodian takes a deep breath and attempts to return to a steady mindset...
Stay calm.
He's okay...
He will be okay...
I’ll find him...or he'll find me...
I'll see him soon...
And together, we'll end the angel.
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Things are not going well in Joey Drew Studios.
Cartoon production has become slower than the pace of the sleepiest sloth...people and fans are getting sick of waiting...critics are noticing repeats in the musical scores...Thomas is completely refusing to work on or communicate with his employer...money is going down the drain...bankruptcy is inevitable...workers are still disappearing...Joey is still convinced that he can overcome his addiction and withdrawal symptoms without any help...
...and yet, he's more worried about impressing his love interest than prioritizing the persistent perpetually-piling problems.
For everything else...well, denial is SO much easier.
It's not denial, the boss denies, straightening his suit jacket. I'll handle it all...I'm sure...
...if the withdrawal and anxiety doesn't drain all the energy from him first.
Enough with the worrying--I'll do one thing at a time, and it will all fall together.
Like it always does.
Why doubt myself? I'm the marvelous Joey Drew! I can do anything!
It just takes some time to get it all done...which is reasonable.
Procrastination is SO much easier.
Anyway--
Let's charm the hell outta this man!
Joey grabs something from his desk and heads to the designated Bendy Land storage area...
The Bendy Land crew are in full swing setting up--Lacie passes by carrying a toolbox and flashes a knowing smile at the boss.
"He's in the planning room--good luck."
Joey smirks back (much to the confusion of the other workers) and steers himself in the specified direction; remembering how Bertrum scolded Lacie for not knocking before, he stops himself from entering unexpectedly.
*THUNK THUNK THUNK*
A tired sigh sounds from the other side. "Come in..."
Joey pompously swings the door open with a wide grin, unable to not blush bright red at the sight of the designer.
"Bertrum! How are you this fine afternoon! How is your team adjusting?"
Not 'Bertie'? the other questions as he fixes the blueprints onto a board and briefly glances at the unidentifiable object behind the other's back. Maybe there is hope. "I'm fine--the team is doing well like always. They have experience with this kind of thing." Unlike you.
"I see, I see" is all the owner says in reply, intently watching--almost staring--at Bertrum. Oh, maybe I should-- "Um, I--I got these for you." Bertrum turns around to see Joey presenting a bouquet of roses.
"Oh...okay. Thanks." Bertrum willingly takes the flowers, but Joey is nevertheless somewhat disappointed and embarrassed at his reaction.
Not even a smile...
I guess it was a bit awkward and out-of-the-blue...
Well...then I'll try harder!
"Soooo..." Joey struggles to come up with casual conversation--a glance around the room reveals a box of interestingly-shaped metal parts. "What are those for?"
"You mentioned that you wanted your cartoons to be almost 'real'...I believe the phrase you used was 'the illusion of living'--"
The owner practically jumps in joy at hearing his trademark phrase and nods.
"--and you'll recall that I mentioned creating an animatronic?"
Joey considers the two's very first conversation...but that long word doesn't come to mind...
Bertrum reads the other's confused expression. "A robot that looks like Bendy--it would walk, maybe dance--"
"Ohohohoh, right! So that's the beginnings of it? How long will it take to finish?"
"Two to three months--I still need to mold all the parts to it, put it together, and paint it." You'll just need to be patient.
"I see..." A pause... "Bertrum, I know I've said this before, but I don't think that was enough. You never cease to amaze me with your skill and smarts..."
The designer casts his eyes to Joey--the latter is happy to find that he finally has his attention.
"...and I just want to say that I'm sorry for how I treated you. You deserve much more than that, and I intend to act accordingly."
...
For a moment, the two just stare at each other, Bertrum skeptical and Joey hopeful.
"...You're just saying that." Pretty eyes, pretty lies...baby, don't tell me you're so sorry...
Like hell you are.
"No, I'm not. I mean it, really. I'm sorry." Please...just believe in me...
Another silence...then the designer places his hand on the boss's cheek.
What...oh... Joey feels himself heat up as he leans closer...
...but Bertrum puts his hand down and backs up.
"Huh?" The other fails to hide the surprise and letdown in his voice. "Um--I--what were you doing?"
The architect smiles, but only just slightly. "Checking your temperature--are you sure you're feeling okay?"
"Oh--um, yes." ...Why? Despite his confusion, Joey smiles back. "Yes, I'm fine...Bertie."
This statement relieves Bertrum significantly (That sounds much more like him.) as well as the fact that the other's dark circles are gone...and the smell of alcohol isn't present.
But that doesn't mean things will stay that way...
"What were you trying to do?" Of course, the designer knows exactly what Joey was trying to do--he just wants to see if he'll admit it.
His employer merely blushes even redder in response...
Not so confident now, are you?
Wait...
Why should I care if he's okay? Or how he feels? He's probably faking it!
Still...
Maybe feelings can change.
Desperate to change the subject, Joey asks, "So, um, how long have you been interested in amusement park designing? Was it a childhood interest?" WHY IS IT SO HOT IN HERE?
"Yes, although back then I was interested in anything related to building," Bertrum responds, returning to smoothing out the blueprints. "It wasn't until I was older that I began focusing on parks and rides."
"I see...so does it all come easily to you, then? Or is it like art--practice makes perfect?" Although...sometimes the practice doesn't pay off. Sometimes people are too busy praising your best friend and can't see that you put in just as much--if not MORE--work than him.
... He always got all the attention...him and Nathan...
The architect takes a bit longer to reply this time. "A little bit of both...yes, the construction gets easier the more you do it...but there's more to it than that. A grand idea is one that requires care and attention...a well-calculated understanding between creation...and creator. That part takes time--beginning from the formation and concept to the finished product. The park is a story, and every piece is a detail."
The owner nods and adds, "Like a dream brought into the world...brought to life. So real--so palpable..."
"Right--but it's important to be within reason." Bertrum picks up the animatronic part box and shuffles through it. 'Yes, you have your dreams, but you also need to face reality. Life isn't bound to go exactly how you want and plan it to; you can't define your existence according to fallacies."
Joey doesn't reply to that.
Bertrum doesn't seem fazed by the silence (it's almost as if he was expecting it...) and passively carries the animatronic part box out of the planning room.
Unable to take his eyes off the designer, his employer follows and ponders, Now if I can just get him to be open...to talk about himself...
Heh, that shouldn't be too hard to do.
"So, Bertie!" Joey says in a casual tone as the other sets up all the pieces of the robot on a table. "Ambitious from the start...did your parents support your interests as well?"
A pause...the architect directs a glance that is almost an accusing glare at the owner...
"Why?"
"Oh, no reason. I was just curious." Joey maintains his nonchalant tone. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to."
No answer...
He likes stroking his ego, but doesn't like sharing anything besides his achievements...
What did his parents do to him? Were they mean? Abusive? Neglectful? Or was it something that he did?
Or...maybe his past is complicated...
...like mine.
"Well...I know I didn't always receive support--from one I did...but the other..."
Still no reply comes--Joey takes this as permission to continue.
"My father left before I was born, so my mother raised me on her own...or for a while, anyway."
Bertrum, still adjusting the robot, tries and fails to pretend like he is not interested in this account...
Joey smiles at those beautiful amber eyes. I've finally got him!
...He really does care...
The smile, however, falters as the boss remembers his stepfather. "Then...I don't know why...she changed her mind about things. For years, just her and I were always enough for her--we didn't need anyone else. But...then she met someone...him...and suddenly, it's all, "Joey, I know it's been you and I forever, but a father figure for you would be great," and there's this new guy--Darrell--visiting us, staying with us, moving in with us..."
Joey stops temporarily. It's...almost strange to be open about all of this--the past that upsets him so much.
It...
He forces himself to not think of a certain animator...the first one he told this to...
Bertrum finally breaks his taciturnity. "Go on."
A deep breath... "Okay, so I didn't like this new guy--he was always putting me down, and if he wasn't doing that, he was pretending that I didn't exist. No friendly comments or support; just ‘Don't do that’, ‘Nobody asked for your opinion’, ‘Don't you have a brain? You surely don't act like it’, ‘Drawing isn't a real job--why don't you actually do your mother proud and create a sensible plan for your future?’, ‘I'd be ashamed to have a son like you’, ‘Don't do that either’, ‘Stop that, stop that, stop that, stop that’...and just, everything."
And the worst one..."Dreams don't come true--that's a little-kid thing to believe."
"I couldn't do anything right in his eyes--damned if I do, damned if I don't. And...he changed my mother. I don't know how--he just did. It's like she didn't even realize he was like that--when I tried to tell her about it, she just sighed and said he was just doing that because he cared about me...that he was a nice guy on the inside, really. She was convinced that he was so damn perfect, and he let her think that."
"They got married when I was sixteen, and it was like that--the whole tension between him and I and her not noticing--until I went off to art school. I still loved my mother--she was always there for me and promoted my interests, even if Darrell had the wool over her eyes--so I sent letters to her regularly." Don't say anything about Henry...he's not important in my story anymore.
Bertrum had given up the feigned indifference during this spiel and faces toward the other. "You say 'was'...did something happen?"
"...Yes." The owner struggles to keep his emotions in check as he goes on. "She...she got really sick when I was a sophomore in art school...and at first, we couldn't figure out what it was...but...the doctor eventually did a biopsy on her...and diagnosed her with pancreatic cancer..."
Joey pauses and stares at the ground...the tears must not come...but they want to...
"She was okay during my junior year, but during the beginning of my senior year...things got bad...really bad. I missed a lot of my classes so I could visit her...and during the summer, I moved back home. Darrell was still there...and things got even worse between us...and she found out...and I think it was too much for her..."
Remembering the tears of his mother...her begging the two men to get along...them promising that they would...but they didn't...
It was all his fault!
Crying...he can hear crying...Joey doesn't want to accept that it is himself...
"And...and...she..." He doesn't want to finish the sentence...he can't finish it...
What if she saw me now?
What if she saw what I've become?
No...
Something warm grasps the boss's hand...and he feels his tears being wiped away...
...
Joey looks up at Bertrum's sympathetic expression...
"I'm sorry." It is only two words, but it is enough.
The other tries to smile and wipes his eyes with his free hand while squeezing the architect's in the other. "Thank you...I apologize, I shouldn't be getting like this..."
"It's okay."
For a moment, the two just stare into each other's eyes...then eventually realize how much time has passed...
Joey laces his fingers in Bertrum's (And this time, he's not pulling away), feeling very warm at him being so close...
But...it has to end...as all things must.
The two release and attempt to re-focus on what they were doing previously...
The owner opens, then shuts his mouth multiple times...what should he say?
Maybe it's best to go straight to the point.
"Bertrum, are you free tonight?"
Silence...Joey considers that Bertrum might not have heard him and prepares to ask again before the answer comes.
"No...I'm not." For reasons he himself doesn't completely understand, the designer wants to add 'I'm sorry.'
...
"Oh..."
Another pause...
"But don't you have somewhere to be tonight?"
That is definitely not the answer Joey was expecting; he is confused...even a bit insulted. "What? What do you mean?"
"I think you know what I mean." There's more that you're not telling me.
*Thunkthunkthunkthunk*. The manager's heart pounds in his chest...but not from love...
No, this is fear of being found out.
But...but....how would he know about that?
And...I'm trying to control it...
Nononono, he has to be talking about something else...it can't be...
"No, I don't. What are you talking about?"
Bertrum doesn't answer; Joey decides that he's had enough of this dancing around.
I get him the flowers, I be nice to him, I flatter him, I tell him things I don't tell anyone else--but still, it's a no !
This is too much work! How could I have thought that he appreciated it?
"You know what?" Joey stalks to the door in a flurry of anger. "Forget that I asked. I tried, but obviously that's not enough for you."
*BANG!* The door slams...and Bertrum is alone.
...
Finally. He's gone.
...
...
It's awfully lonely...
But...didn't I want that? For him to leave me alone?
...
...I guess not...
Lying to himself about his feelings isn't going to work...
In the end, all we do is lie...
As Joey stomps away from the planning room, Lacie sees him once again and performs a "What happened? Good? Bad?" gesture; the former just slightly shakes his head and continues on.
Lacie frowns. Something happened...
Is it over before it even began?
The boss returns to his desk...and sighs.
I like him, I really do...
But acting like he's always better than me...being suspicious without reason...
And now...the withdrawal is returning...he needs something to do with his hands...
Here you go with symptoms of illness...
The flowers in your head, they mock at your work...
He recalls the art he had begun last night...
Although there's money to count and papers to file...they can wait.
Procrastination is SO much easier.
Joey stares at the sketchbook he had brought from home...
Maybe...
He sits down and opens it...and sees the beginnings of his sketch--
*Click* The door swings open (without anyone knocking)--Joey panickedly shuts the sketchbook at Bertrum's entrance.
An awkward silence ensues...
...
"Joey..." It's the first time the architect has referred to his boss with his preferred nickname.
More silence...
"I wanted to apologize for my... behavior regarding your request for a date, and for the interrogations that followed. It was unprofessional and uncalled-for...and I'm sorry."
The boss merely stands there for a moment and considers this...
I...
But...
I...I guess I am a bit at fault...
And...
He stares at the man before him...the beautiful, handsome, determined, intelligent man that he pines for so much...
What was I thinking?
Anything--all the time, effort, pain, whatever...it's all worth it for him.
I love him so much...
"It's okay...and...I'm sorry for barking at you like that...and for acting like I have been. Really."
"Thank you. Joey...if there's anything that you are worried about or that you need to talk about...I'm here."
...
Did I really just say that? Am I really going to let him vent at me...and trust him?
They say that the devil you know is better than the devil you don't...
...
Why am I a sucker for all your lies?
Why do I come back to you like I don't mind if you fuck up my life?
...
I--
A warm, slight pressure upon his body interrupts Bertrum's toiling--Joey is hugging him.
"Thank you..." Joey practically melts into the other and leans his head on his shoulder.
"Uh--" The designer hesitates...then wraps his arms around Joey's waist.
Well...
Maybe...he's not everything he has said...
...
He looks so peaceful...
Indeed, this is the most calm the boss has experienced in quite a long time...Bertrum's warmth and scent is so comforting...
And...he needs me. Especially if what I think he's hiding is true...
He's been through a lot...
Bertrum's curls once again catch Joey's eye--the latter twirls a strand around his fingers--
The designer releases the other, although Joey doesn't immediately let go; he lifts his head and stares lovingly into those amber irises...
"You have such gorgeous eyes, Bertie..."
Bertrum isn't immediately sure how to respond to that...then flashes that smile Joey is so in love with. "So do you."
The owner is on the verge of releasing more compliments (And your hair is so curly and shiny and you're so smart and your accent is so se--) before the architect speaks up again.
"I'm sorry that I can't go anywhere with you tonight. I--"
"It's okay," Joey assures him. "I mean...if you want to...um, tomorrow you can have lunch with me--b-but only if you want to. I mean, you can say no--"
Bertrum smirks. "That would work...but I'll only come on one condition."
"What?"
"You give me that picture of me you're working on when you're done."
Joey flushes as he remembers all the hearts he had drawn on the paper. "I--okay. Yeah, you can have it."
"Thank you." Bertrum opens the office door and shoots one last smile. "I'll see you tomorrow, then."
Joey just barely whispers "bye" at the *thunk* of the door closing...
Fuck--I got nervous while I was asking him--
But hey! It worked!
He...he does care. He's just not great at showing it.
And he thinks my eyes are pretty!
There are still things to do...but of course the boss isn't thinking about them.
I've got him--now I just need to keep him. Easy enough.
It only goes upward from here!
§
*Clank*! *Shrrrr*! *BINGBINGBingbingbing*!
Shawn never realized how loud the studio is when everyone is away...until now.
But...also quiet at the same time. It's...creepy...
Thankfully, Alice hasn't been forcing him to 'steal' ink from Norman or Jack lately (And I don't want to think about what will happen if they ever see my face again...), but has now replaced that task with other, seemingly-useless chores.
The sharp, cold metal of the gears scrape against the toymaster's arms--the tainted saint had sent him to find and retrieve them...but what could she possibly need them for? In any case, they were difficult to track down and are even clunkier to carry.
She's just making me do work to watch me suffer. There is absolutely no way that she actually wants or needs these...
But...I don't want to provoke her. She seems quite capable of destroying me...much unlike her kind cartoon counterpart...
If I let her catch me slacking, she would hack me up and add me to the carpet made of carcass in this dark uncanny valley...
It's absurd, man! Characters are crawling up the walls...
Shawn arrives back at his former workplace--now Alice's 'heaven' (and my hell)--and drops off the equipment.
"Good, good, little errand boy." the angel's voice resounds; even after all this time, the toymaker still isn't sure where it comes from. Like she's actually watching over me...haunting me...
But...where does she go in the day?
He recalls the many times during the workday the tainted saint had left him in chains in his 'room', only freeing him temporarily for food and bathroom breaks. Otherwise, the craftsman is always left in the dark, dismal area while the angel does...something--he isn't sure what. But at the end of the day (that is, the end of the working day--the start of his day), she always enters back in all of her glamourous depravity and sends him on her stupid 'errands'. Having his sleep schedule completely flipped and mangled, of course, doesn't help Shawn's case at all.
Why does she do it? I mean...I guess she can't show herself to anyone else--that's how I ended up here in the first place--but where does she go? What does she do?
Why do the monsters come out at night?
Why do we sleep when we want to hide?
...
She doesn't care whether I survive or not...
...
I miss him so much…
You never know how lonely lonely is until you're truly lonely…
"Now," Alice speaks up again, "I have a new task for you." The display cases shutters as it opens to reveal...an axe?! "You are to go along and rid this...place of those hideous demon cutouts."
"Wha--why?" Where did she get that thing from?!
"Because I said so." Is it because the angel is envious of Bendy's fame, wishing it were hers? Is it because she's quite aware that this action will disturb her cultist ex-boyfriend--maybe enough to return him to his senses? Is it just a way to release anger at Joey? Perhaps all of this is correct... "Now, off with you! I have things to do!"
Sure, sure, Shawn deadpans sarcastically, very carefully removing the weapon from the slot. Well...at least I won't be attacked...I hope...
I apologize if I haven't mentioned it before, but brandishing an axe is not a tactic I adore!
Thus, the toymaker goes on his way, to find that the chopping of the cardboard (*Cht!*) is actually oddly satisfying. I'll just pretend that they're--wait--
His aquamarine eyes turn upon an Alice--the real Alice--cutout; he lifts his axe with a devious smile. Heh...well then, bye-bye, an--
"Do you really want to do that in front of me?" His kidnapper's voice startles him; although it's just as deceivingly sweet as normal, Shawn senses the insulted, spiteful undertones.
With a sigh, he glares at the inanimate picture, who of course doesn't waver from her permanent angelic expression.
*Clickclickclick!* *Shhhhrrr!* The background noises echo on as Shawn adds the *chft!* of the cutouts breaking to them.
Just when he thinks he might finally be almost finished with this task (Why are there SO many of them?!), breaking yet another Bendy before him...a clear, somewhat-proud-sounding voice cries, "What are you doing?!"
The toymaster whips around to face three men completely drenched in ink, the one closest to him donning a Bendy mask of sorts.
Everything seems to go in slow motion--at first, there is no action...then before he knows it, someone yells, "Terrence! Grab him!"...and Shawn's axe is pried from his hands....and he's blindly being dragged along by something (or someone) cold and...damp?
The craftsman tries to scream, but a hand (or he thinks it's a hand) over his mouth prevents him from doing so. Footsteps echo in front of and behind him...what?! Nonononono, not this again! I was already kidnapped once! What could they possibly want?!
Terrence and Sammy push the human onto a chair in the middle of the pentagram-pie-cut-eye and struggle to tie him up.
"Stay still, sheep!"
"Mm--no--let me--stop!" I'm an errand boy, I'm a sheep--what's next?! "Please just let me goooooo!"
"Nope!" Sammy responds happily, twirling his new weapon. "You're just perfect for a sacrifice for our lord--especially since you were DEMOLISHING his images! Evil sinners must be punished!"
Shawn panickedly makes eye-contact with the Lost One next to the Grand Shepherd, hoping he might read his fear--but the right-hand man stays stoic and serious. The toymaker turns his attention to the other inky man somewhat broken-away from the duo; this one gives him a worried look...
"Sam--I mean, Grand Shepherd?"
The leader turns around dramatically, intentionally flopping his cape. "Yes?"
"You can't start a sacrifice without the proper tools...you...y-you need the right words! Like...like, um, certified text! A sermon of sorts! We can't just give this sheep to our lord without context!"
Sammy is doubtful. "We've never read anything before a ritual before--"
"But now would be a great time to start! All for our lord!"
"Hmm..." After a moment of consideration, the composer decides that he agrees. "You make a fair point! Yes, yes--all for our lord! I shall find the proper text--"
"A-And Terrence! Maybe you should get some of those cutouts this human was trying to destroy--I'm sure the Ink Demon would love to see the images of him that we saved!"
The former artist turns a pending-approval side-eye at the Grand Shepherd, who excitedly nods.
"My, my, old man, how you've improved!" Sammy praises as he and Terrence head to the door. "You're on your way to becoming a true worshipper--perhaps a Grand Shepherd yourself!"
"But--but what about me?" Terrence sounds upset. "I've worked and agreed with you from--"
*Pcht*. Finally, the door closes...and Grant bumbles over to Shawn, who flinches.
"I'm not going to hurt you--I'm on your side." It is to Shawn's great relief that he unties the restrictive knots. "They're crazy--best if you stay out of their sight." And they think they and their cult are important. You can set yourself on fire, but you're never going to burn. "Speaking of which--why and how are you down here at this time?"
The toymaster stands up and stretches. "It's...a long story."
Grant nods. "Mine is too..."
A silence stirs the air--there is a mutual wish of escape between them.
"Thank you for saving me."
"Yes, yes...of course. I'm...actually pretty surprised that that worked." I...guess I'm not completely useless. "You're Shawn, right? The toymaker?"
"Right--and you are...?"
"Grant. Financial coordinator. Or was, away." Now I'm stuck here...
"Ah--nice to meet you then, Grant."
"You as well..."
A shuffling sound emits from the other side of the door--the Lost One leads the human past it to a different exit.
"Good luck," Grant whispers with a smile as the door *creeeeaakk*s open.
"You too..."
Suddenly, Sammy's angry yells fill the atmosphere--after one last grateful glance, the two dash off in opposite directions.
He's in for trouble, Shawn toils as he glances down the corridors, searching for the right one to head down. I...I wish I could help him somehow...
...but I'm in just as much trouble as he is...
Secrets are unlocking...but too bad the exit ain't!
The craftsman arrives at Alice's premises...
Oh shit, I forgot that--
"Where is the axe?" the tainted saint's voice peals.
Shawn doesn't answer...
"I see that I can't trust you with my toys. How ironic."
"I WAS ALMOST SACRIFICED!" the toymaster shrieks. "I THINK I'M A LITTLE MORE IMPORTANT THAN A GODDAMN AXE!"
Alice lets out a sound similar to a chortle. "Ah--I see you met my ex." Shawn hears a slight gasp--the angel had let something slip. "I mean--arrggh, never mind that! I wouldn't have cared if you hadn't returned! You are nothing to me!"
Feeling brave, Shawn sasses, "Oh, but without me, you wouldn't have anyone to boss around! No one would be here to do your dirty work!" Wait...Alice has an ex? W H A T?
"Ah, but isn't it nice to be in control? Oh wait--you aren't. I am. Now, I would suggest not arguing any further with me." Before the craftsman can respond, she continues, "Onto the next task! Step into your cage, little errand boy!"
Shawn growls and glooms his way to the elevator--much to his confusion, it ascends without him pressing the buttons this time.
Alice hums a familiar song...
"Have you ever wondered what heaven is like? I like to dream that it is quite beautiful...a soft valley of green grass blanketed by the warmest sun. I don't think I'll ever get to see it..."
The lift *brrr*s and *clank*s menacingly...forebodingly...
"Are you ready to ascend, my little errand boy?
The heavens are waiting~"
§
Just. Don't. Think. About. It.
It's okay...I'm okay...
Joey takes a deep breath...
He's very fidgety...having something to do with his hands would be nice...
There are still things--very important things that should be top priorities--to do...but of course...
Maybe I should update Lacie on everything--think I might have given the wrong--
*Riinnngggg* The phone is right on cue.
*Click*. "Hello?"
"Hey. It's me again."
The boss smiles at hearing the low voice. "Good--I was just thinking of contacting you. How did you know what number to call?"
"We keep record of the numbers of our employees--and since I'm supposed to be working, I don't have a lot of time to talk today."
"Okay--well, then, let's start--"
"What happened between you two? You weren't happy when you passed me, and Bertrum went looking for you after you left."
"Oh--nothing, nothing. Just a little spat--it's all worked out now."
"You're sure?"
"...Yes."
*Clank*s and *sprrr*s of machinery sound from Lacie's end. "Okay, then...what else happened?"
"We just discussed...um, personal things. Like my past...because I wanted to see if he'd talk about his if I talked about mine."
"And did he?"
Joey feels an all-too-strong compulsion to drink... "No...and he doesn't really respond when I try to ask him about it."
"That's normal for him--like I said, he doesn't like to talk about it. Just be patient with him."
Patient...I can be patient... the owner concludes, his thirst growing stronger by the minute.
"So you told him about yourself--then what?"
"Then...we got into a little tiny quarrel...but then he came to my office and apologized. I mean, I guess we both apologized, but it's okay now."
"And? Anything else? Did you get a kiss~?"
Joey stares fixatedly into the kitchen, the phone cord being the only thing preventing him from entering it. "I wish. But he let me hug him...and we set up a date."
"Wait, really? He HUGGED you?! And you're officially going on a date?"
"Yes and yes--well, kind of. We're having lunch together."
"Hey, it's a start! Good job! Oh--and you know how you brought those flowers?”
“Yeah?”
“He has them in a vase in his office now.” Joey can hear the smile in her voice, and feels himself smile as well.
“That’s good--he seemed kind of--”
Muttering is heard from Lacie's end, followed by, "I gotta go. Good luck!"
"Thanks--" *Click*
...
The owner hangs up the phone and--almost by force--stands in front of that cupboard door...
...where he remembers a certain something is at.
It seems so long ago...he was struggling to maintain control over Alice...and something had given him enough 'boost' to drown another one of his employees...something he never finished...
In some sort of addictive frenzy, Joey digs through the cupboard...and finds it.
Fredrick had advised his customer to purchase small bottles as opposed to large ones that would be more difficult to hide...
And it's still here.
...
I know I shouldn't...
But...
But...
But...
I need it! Just a little bit! And I'll be okay!
And everything will be OKAY!
And dreams will come TRUE!
And my ink creatures will return!
And Bertie...will fall in love with me!
And I'll be okayyyy~!
The sickening greed finally wins...the bottle is empty before he knows it...
It's not enough to get him drunk...but it's enough...enough to make him regress...
I'm...okay...
All things that rise must fall.
Chapter 30: Chapter Twenty-Eight - ...and the Fall
Chapter Text
*Bonk!* *Cht!* *Dingdingdingding!*
Youthful laughter fills the storage room.
"Never gets old!"
"Wait, wait, let me try!"
*Bonk!* *Bonk!* *Bonk!*
"Ahhh, come on! This thing's rigged!"
"You musta been the one that rigged it!"
More laughter rings out.
"Hey, you two! Door won't open!"
"Push on it!"
"That's what she said!"
"...What do you mean? Who's she?"
"Um, nothing! Never mind!"
One of the Bendy Land workers pounds on the warehouse door. *THUNK THUNK THUNK!* "Still won't budge!"
"Well, get that janitor guy to help you!" another one over by the game booths yells back.
Footsteps resound...
Wally gives a frustrated sigh as he follows the all-too-playful Bendy Land worker into the storage room...
I remember when I used to be like that...
...but I can't be happy now. Not without him...
"Locked out again?"
"Hey, it's not like we mean it! It just happens!"
The janitor huffs as he reaches for his keys...then thinks of something.
"Look guys--you're smart, right? Here's an idea--why not rig up these 'games'" --he glances at the unfinished, unpainted structures hardly worthy of being labelled games at this stage -- "to knock open the door if ya win? It'll be fun for you guys, and it saves me the trip down here every day."
This answer is greeted with confused expressions before realization dawns on the construction workers' faces.
"Ooooh, I guess that makes sense."
"Sounds like a plan to me."
"Yay! I get to play games! Wheeeeee!"
Wally merely grunts as he leaves them to it...
I don't even care anymore...
I just want to save him.
I just want him back.
I--
*Squish*
The custodian lifts his foot to reveal a wet, black substance...
Ink...
An Art Department mess? Or...
A glance up the hallway reveals even more stains along the walls and floor.
What the hell happened? This is clearly no human-made mess.
Nevertheless, it's more work for--
Wait...
Wally recalls the last time there were inky blotches like these up and down the corridors--and what the cause of said blotches was.
No...
He can't have escaped again!
The custodian dashes to Thomas's office...and passes a certain, curious gofer nearby.
Buddy hesitates, torn between following Wally or checking on the recording device he had hidden near the storage room's entrance.
If I go after him, I might find out firsthand what he's so panicked about...but if I listen to the...whatever Dot called it...I could find out the same thing without causing suspicion. And that way, I wouldn't have to stop what I'm doing.
This might actually work.
Wally reaches Thomas's office as the gofer (still back in the Art Department) finishes his current duty and heads toward Bendy Land.
Luckily, Thomas is at his desk as opposed to in the Ink Machine room; he peeks up from an expensive-looking bill at the other's entrance. "What?"
"Where's Bendy?" The GENT worker notes the odd worry in his co-worker's voice.
"Not here anymore. Drew moved his cage a long time ago and told me to not go looking for it. Not that I'd want to--he should handle that damn demon thing on his own. Why?"
"There are ink spots in the hallway--like the ones he made the first time he escaped."
"Do you know where he is?"
"What? No, of course not! I just saw the stains!" Who knows how long he's been out--coulda been days!
Thomas leans back in his chair with a crabby sigh. "So what do you want me to do about it? We can't go chase after him--"
"We need to!" Wally insists. "What if he hurts someone?!" My boyfriend already has an evil angel after him! The last thing he needs is that abomination lurking down the halls!
"I don't know! There's nothing we can really do if it does!"
"But--but--" Doesn't Joey know about this? And if he does, WHY ISN'T HE DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT?!
IS HE JUST GOING TO LET IT HAPPEN?!
Thomas sits upright and makes direct eye contact with the janitor. "Wally. It's useless. Haven't you noticed by now? This place is going to hell, and any action that we could possibly take at this point would not be enough. Your best option would be to do exactly what you have said again and again."
Wally finds the GENT worker's serious tone intimidating. But...surely there's more to it? There has to be something we can do... "Exactly what I have said? What do you mean?"
Thomas tries to smirk, but it comes out as a strange silly simper of sorts. "Get outta here. Get out of here as quickly as you can." The custodian backs up as the other unexpectedly rises. "And that's what I'm gonna do--I'm gonna leave this place as soon as possible." And make Joey pay for what he did--literally. "If I can get my shit together, I'm gonna run away and never see any of you again. And I advise you to do the same--take your boyfriend with you, and get out of here."
Wally merely stands open-mouthed as Thomas passively exits his office.
But...nonono, I can't do that! I really want to...but I can't!
I have to find Shawn. We need to end the angel.
I don't care how dangerous it is--I can't wait any longer.
If I die and he lives...well, it will be a worthy sacrifice.
While Wally treks determinedly out of the room...Buddy feels his fearful heart race.
That was tense...
The gofer considers the cheerful tones of the Bendy Land workers he had heard from the audio log he had concealed. And they have no clue what's going on...
And Wally got really panicked about...something not being where it's supposed to be...right after talking to them...
Well, that escalated quickly.
Maybe...maybe I should leave, too...especially if there's danger...
No. I have a case to prove. I have friends to help.
I have a studio...to save .
But...who is to say that he can or will save it before it's too late? Is it too late already?
All things that rise must fall.
§
*Tick* *Tick* *Tick*
It's finally here.
The moment Joey has been waiting for.
There will be food.
And Bertrum.
In that order.
And it will be beautiful.
The boss's heart skips a beat as a knock on the door reverberates...
It's himmmm!
Joey overexcitedly beckons in the architect, who (after giving a tiny smile that sends butterflies up and down Joey's stomach) gazes around the office.
"Where do you want me to sit?"
"Oh--um--" The owner, too distracted by just the thought of a 'date' with his love interest, hadn't really come up with an actual plan for it. But we can adjust! He quickly pushes a long, mahogany table next to the office's couch. "How's that?"
"Okay, but don't you want me to sit across--"
"No, next to me is fine." Joey pats the spot on the couch and flashes a charming smile.
Bertrum seats himself, and the two dine in relative silence (the manager having a Reuben sandwich and potato chips, and the designer a steak salad)...although Joey has a hard time focusing on his food...
The boss's blue eyes start at that curly hair he loves so much...which, to his slight dismay, is tied back.
He was probably working and had to tie it back...
I like it better down.
Joey's hungry stare moves on to Bertrum's chest...and down...and down...
He has really nice legs...
They're so... long ...
His mind turns to wondering if another certain part of Bertrum is lon--
"My eyes are up here, Joey."
"Oh--uh--I--no--I wasn't--"
"Don't lie." Joey is thankful to see that the designer seems smug as opposed to offended. "You know exactly what you were doing."
The boss is forced to admit that he has been caught. "Okay, I was staring. But you make it hard not to."
Bertrum gives a complacent sort of laugh as Joey attempts to surreptitiously wipe the sweat that has suddenly formed on his forehead.
The two finish their lunches; as the manager rustles through his chip bag to get the last of that salty deliciousness, the architect eyes the ceiling listlessly.
"What now?"
"Hm?"
"We're done. So what now?"
Joey shrugs nonchalantly and leans back with a smile. "Whatever you'd like. We have another hour-and-a-half--you can go back to working...ooooor you can stay here with me." It is clear which one of those options the businessman would prefer.
"Hmmm." Joey tenses up, feeling Bertrum's eyes take him in (not unlike he had just done to the other).
Then...well-aware that this action will give his employer a shock...Bertrum puts his arm around Joey.
The boss makes a happy, surprised noise somewhat unintentionally, then covers his mouth; luckily, Bertrum doesn't seem to notice.
God, he's beautiful... Joey leans closer...
They're so, so close...a strong desire to kiss the architect overtakes Joey...
...and he might just get his wish; Bertrum is leaning closer as well...
The manager closes his eyes...
But then...Bertrum hesitates.
It's there again...the thing that drove him away the first time...
I thought he was getting better!
But no. The sickening scent still lingers...
...and he just cannot do it.
Joey feels a slight pressure on his chest, and opens his eyes to find that he's being pushed away.
Oh-- Embarrassed blush spreads upon his cheeks...Bertrum won't even make eye contact with him...
But...but he wanted me to kiss him! He was coming closer!
Why did he change his mind?
...
Probably thinks he's too good for me--yes, that's it! He thinks he's all high and mighty and that I'm not worth romancing...despite the fact that he's obviously and hopelessly in love with me!
However, the designer still has his arm around the boss, so the latter bites his tongue.
Semi-desperate to push the rejected kiss from his mind, Joey brings up a different subject. "Um--okay--I'm thinking of scheduling the Bendy Land reveal party within the next two weeks--"
"The what?"
"The reveal party--where we'll announce to the public that the great colossal wonder of Bendy Land is being created--"
"But don't you--we--want to wait until it's closer to being done? I told you that it will take years to finish--"
"Nonono, I--we--want to hype up our fans long before that--give them something to look forward to!"
Bertrum still looks doubtful, but doesn't argue. "...Okay. If you say so. But you'll want to wait to plan it--I'm board the boat to Britain in a couple of days--"
"You are?"
"...Yes. Did you not receive the note I sent to you?"
Joey's mind draws a blank for a moment before he remembers said note (Bertrum can practically see the lightbulb flicker above his head).
"Ooooh, right, right! Two weeks off--yes, I got that message." Only now does Joey realize to his dismay that he won't see his love interest for quite a while...
"I'll try to return as quickly as I can--then we can discuss the reveal party."
"What if we set it up right after you got back?"
"Would we have enough time?"
"I'd make time."
"Then that will work."
A pause...
"Bertie?"
"Yes?"
"...Can you call me when you're in Britain?" If I won't be able to see you, I want to hear that beautiful voice of yours.
"...Sure..."
Joey's smile grows even wider...then disappears.
Still...I won't get to see him...
It...might...get kind of lonely...
Nonono, what am I thinking? I'll be okay!
I'll be okay...
...
Well...at least I'll have some free time...
Maybe while he's gone...I can handle Thomas...
And I'll handle this one differently. I'll make sure he stays.
But then...what about A--
"Joey?"
That voice the boss loves so much pulls him from his thoughts. "Yes?"
"Do we still have time?"
"Yes, plenty of it. Do you want more? I can rearrange some things and--"
"No no, it's fine. I can finish this in what we have."
Joey shifts himself slightly toward Bertrum. "Hm? Finish what?"
The architect sighs...the manager raises a single eyebrow.
"Just listen, okay."
Joey nods...silence falls as Bertrum debates how to word this...
"...You know how you were raised with your mother, because your father left?"
Another nod. "Yes...did yours leave, too?"
"...Not exactly. He was there...but..."
Another pause...
Bertrum starts over. "Everything was fine when my parents first had me--they were wealthy and happy...or that's what my mother says. But all my early memories of my father are of him being seclusive...and tired. Really tired. But he always said that he was okay, just a little stressed--and we didn't question that. He went on many business trips and didn't come home until late at night, so my mother primarily raised me.
But as the years went on, things changed. He stayed out even later--usually, he'd be home at most midnight, but now it was at three or four in the morning. He became irritable and prone to yelling at us...and I think my mother suspected that he was cheating on her, but she never said anything about that to me. She just tried to push it all off and assured me that my father was just under a lot of pressure in his job, and that he'd act better after things settled down a bit."
The designer stops to take a breath, and Joey leans his head on the other's shoulder in an attempt to comfort him.
So he didn't have his father around for most of his life, either...
...
Bertrum pauses for a moment before he continues.
"But he didn't get better--he just got worse, to the point where he'd disappear for days on end to avoid us. And one day when he was at home, my mother confronted him...and there was a lot of shouting. I was nine at the time and supposed to be in bed, but I snuck out to see what was happening; my parents screamed at each other, and my mother was crying and throwing accusations at my father. He denied cheating on her and said that she wouldn't understand why he was acting the way he was--she bawled and begged him to tell her. She just wanted the kind man she had married back.
There was a tense silence...then my father whispered something...a lot of somethings. My mother gasped and started crying again; he got mad and yelled that this is why she wouldn't understand. She berated him through her tears, but I couldn't make out exactly what was being said...but I know I heard the word 'why' many times. This only made my father angrier...and...he lashed out. He slapped her until she fell to the ground...and I couldn't watch any more. I ran upstairs and hid under my covers.
I don't know what else happened that night, but the night after that--one of those where my father wasn't home--my mother came into my room and told me to pack my bags. I didn't question it, I just did it. We took my father's car and drove away...I don't even know if my mother really planned out where we were going. We just needed to escape.
We settled down in an apartment a few cities away--it was a bit of an adjustment for me to get used to such a small living area when I had lived in a mansion for most of my life. My mother later explained that my father had abused her before...and that he had disclosed that he was an alcoholic. And everything started to make sense--how he always seemed tired and angry all the time, how he didn't come home until morning...how he had a strange smell about him sometimes...how he would get sick when he arrived home..."
Joey's heart pounds in his chest guiltily as he lifts his head and tenses up.
No...
Nononono, there's no way he could know...I've kept it hidden well enough...
But something tells him that if he did tell Bertrum about his addiction...he might understand.
But he might not...because he and his mother were indirect victims to it. He might try to push me away...
No. I can't tell him. I won't tell him.
I won't let him find out.
Bertrum doesn't seem to notice the other's sudden rigidness. "Apparently he had been struggling with it since I was a baby...but he kept it a secret..."
The boss feels the architect's eyes on him...the former hopes the latter doesn't sense his uneasiness...
"Anyway--after a few months, my mother got into brief contact with my father and demanded a divorce. He obliged, and after a couple of years or so, the papers were signed. My mother got full custody of me...and the rest is history. I developed my grand engineering empire from scratch...built colossal wonders that stagger the imagination...and earned my legacy with sweat. I became renowned for the genius I am, my attractions becoming the talk of--"
Seeing that the designer is about to go on an ego-flaunting spiel, Joey interrupts, "So do you still communicate with your father? Did you ever visit him after the divorce?"
"Yes and yes, although I was always accompanied by my mother during visits, which were often brief. I occasionally send him letters or call him, and we exchange gifts and cards during the holidays, but it's not a close relationship."
"How about your mother? You keep in touch with her, I presume?"
"Yes, and I visit her when I go to Britain."
"And are you planning to do that when you're away?"
Bertrum doesn't respond right away, seemingly embarrassed about admitting this...
"Yes."
"That's adorable." Joey smirks at the other's slight blushing, then changes courses. "I'm sorry that your father was like that...really. Did....did he ever...hit you?"
"No..." The architect's voice sounds a bit...off.
Joey notices this and goes to ask something else...then stops himself.
That's probably why he doesn't like to talk about it...
But...wait...
"Um...Bertrum?"
"Yes?"
"Okay, um, so...you know how, um, your father had...his problem since you were a baby?"
The other nods...
"Was...was he like that before they had you? Did your mother ever mention that?"
"No, he wasn't. She said he used to be very friendly--sometimes to the point where he'd talk for hours on end and she'd have to drag him out of the conversation."
'Friendly'...kind of like the way my mother described my coward of a father before he left, Joey puts together. "Right...so...I was just thinking..."
Joey Drew should not say this.
"...maybe, um, the stress of a new child...maybe...led your father to..."
The boss halts mid-sentence at seeing the other's offended expression...
Joey Drew should not have said that.
"You think..." Joey can practically feel the animosity in Bertrum's voice stab his heart...and there's no arm around him now. "...that I drove my father into addiction?!"
It finally dawns on the owner that he messed up...big time. "I...I just.."
Bertrum swiftly rises and heads to the door. "You're so insensitive! I can't even..." He doesn't even finish--the *bang* of the door sounds...and then...
"Bertrum! Wait!" Another *bang* of the door, and Joey is out in the hallway.
The flood of questions and requests hit him almost immediately.
"Mister Drew! There you are! The Music Department needs to kn--"
"Mister Drew, can you sign thes--"
"Sir, the pipes of the In--"
"Move, I need to talk to him first!"
"Sirsirsir, I've been waiting for days to receive appro--"
"SHUT UP! ALL OF YOU!" The boss shoves his way through the confused employees.
Panicked glances up and down the corridors don't reveal his love interest...
Nononono, where is he?!
Joey reaches the storage room in record time, but still no Bertrum in sight...
...but there is a Lacie.
She drops her tools at the sight of the clearly-distressed owner. "Wha--"
"Lacie, I really, really, really fucked up. You need to talk to Bertrum and--"
"Whoa whoa whoa, slow down. What happened?"
"I said something really stupid and ruined everything..." It's broken, and I broke it...
'Insensitive...'
"Okay--so what did you say?"
"Um...so he explained his past to me...and I may or may not have...kind of said...that maybe his father became an alcoholic because of him..."
Lacie's astonished expression makes Joey feel even worse...
"Why would you say that?! What the hell is wrong with you?"
"I don't know--everything! Just please, please, please help me get him back!"
"...Do you really think you deserve him after saying that?"
Joey's eyes sting terribly...he can barely respond... "I didn't mean it..."
Another voice speaks up: "Mister Drew?"
The boss whips around to see the impatient-looking head of the Art Department. "Abby--can it wait? Please? I'm a little busy at the moment."
So it seems, Abby thinks, eyeing the masculine woman next to Joey. "Yes, I can wait."
Lacie's eyes follow Abby as they disappear into the hallway. "Who's that?"
"Abby Lambert. Art Department. But can we please get back on topic?"
"Right." The construction worker is a bit distracted. "Um, okay, I'll talk to him, but I don't know if it'll work. You'll need to apologize to him yourself."
"I can't if he won't talk to me!"
Lacie sighs. "...I'll see what I can do."
It's not a very sure response, but it will have to do...
Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut?!
Joey trudges out into the hallway, where Abby is standing against the wall; before he can say anything, she asks, "Are you okay?"
The manager sighs. "Not exactly. What do you need?"
"We need a lot of things, sir. Our workers are not arriving, animation production is halted, we're running out of funds...and that's just the start. What have you been doing all this time?"
'Nothing' is the correct answer, but of course Joey will not admit it.
"I'm working on it. Just--"
"You'd better be working on it." Abby's tone is serious and somewhat accusatory. "Your studio cannot survive in this state--if you hurry, you might be able to fix it."
"I know, I know--I'll fix it, don't worry." Fix...break...fix... "I have some plans and meetings today that will get us back on track. I'll handle it; just keep up with your own work, and everything will be fine."
Abby is still doubtful...
'Everything will be fine...' I wouldn't say that at all.
Has he not seen the toil? The chaos?
What illusion is he living in?
...but doesn't press any further--perhaps because they know that nagging at their boss won't change anything.
Or...perhaps...
"Who was that other person with you?"
"Lacie Benton--a Bendy Land worker. She was pretty interested when you walked in." You're welcome, Lacie.
The artist smirks slightly. "I see." Then it's back to professional: "Please think about what I said; we need to get things straightened out now."
Joey watches his employee strut away and returns to worrying about Bertrum.
I hope Lacie can get through to him...
...
Meanwhile, Lacie is trying her best to convince her boss to forgive Joey.
"No! He's mistreated me for the last time!" He doesn't have the guts to love me like he wishes he could...
I'm going to find someone to make me feel the way I should .
"He's sorry, Bertrum. He didn't mean it."
"Yes he did!"
"Just give him another chance!"
"No! He's had enough chances!"
"But..." The worker falters for a moment, only to come back with a stronger tone. "You may not want to admit it, Bertrum, but you're in love with him! And he's in love with you! Are you really going to throw away what he--and you--have worked so hard to get to?"
"Lacie, it's more complicated than that. He's hiding something, and I think I know what it is."
"Are you really sure? Maybe it's just your ima--"
"Yes, I'm always sure! You're only listening to one side of the story, Lacie! And this isn't your fight!"
"But--but--"
"No. It's over, and this conversation is over. Now get back to work."
Lacie knows that it's useless to keep arguing--she exits Bertrum's office downheartedly.
He'll forgive him...he has to!
And Joey won't stop until the two of them get together...
God, they are so stubborn! Both of them!
But...I guess there's nothing I can do now. It's up to them.
Let's hope that Joey can fix this.
All things that rise must fall.
§
I'm left face-to-face with an abomination...
The mirror is both Alice's greatest friend and worst (or...perhaps second-worst) enemy...
There she is...so beautiful...
...yet so tainted.
Nothing can sate my desires for perfection.
Take the horrid bits from out of me...
Replace with what I want to be.
She knows that she's correct (at least partially) regarding her plan to fix herself...living ink is probably the solution...
But I can't send my little errand boy back and forth to take injections from that little blob all the time.
There has to be a different way...a way to get it directly...
The tainted saint puts aside the thought for now and heads over to Shawn's 'room'; she goes to open the door...however...
There seems to be some whispering coming from the other side...
Oh dear. Who are you talking to, my toy?
We can't have you revealing anything, now, can we~?
Without warning, Alice swings open the door to find...Shawn laying on his bed, apparently asleep.
What? "Little errand boy--get up! Who were you talking to?"
The toymaker groggily raises his head and groans. "Mmmmm, what? Talking?"
"Yes. I heard whispering--who are you talking to?" And don't you dare lie to me.
Alice, oh, she doesn't like liars.
Shawn rolls over, sits up, and rubs his eyes. "I wasn't whispering...maybe in my sleep, but not to anyone. I swear."
"Do I need to check the room?"
"If you want to, ya can. I'm not hiding anything, angel-woman." Not that I ever could hide anything here--there are no places to put anything.
Alice makes a "hmp" noise and scours the area--just in case--while Shawn takes to his feet.
"So? Does it meet your approval?"
Forced to admit that there truly isn't anything (or anyone) here, the angel merely gives a sharp nod. "Fine. But know, little errand boy, that if you ever have any communication with anyone...I will find out."
"I know, I knooow." Shawn rolls his eyes. "Now can I have my soup?"
Alice glares at her servant for a moment before she exits...then returns with a cold can of bacon soup. "Hurry up and eat it--I've got a new...adventure for you today."
The angel has a plan.
If Sammy can get away with sacrificing workers...and no one notices...
What if I snatched one for myself? She would use Shawn...but he's her designated 'assistant' (Truly an honor for him, if I do say so myself.)...and Joey might fight back and is too out-of-reach...for now...
No...the knife is above someone else.
Someone...forgettable...
And...and when I get him...maybe it can be my turn to use that little Ink Machine.
Ink--living ink--runs through the ink creatures veins...and the only way to get it is to remove it...
Then...Alice remembers.
She remembers her father...the butcher...
She remembers the shiny blades of the knives slicing deeply into the flesh of recently-killed animals....
She remembers the sickening smell of...blood...
She remembers the finished cut meats...hung, salted, dried, iced...hung, salted, dried, iced...
Such a gross process...but in the end, it gave the customers their anticipated products...and kept everyone fed. The sacrifice of the animal was worth it to keep the human alive.
As a child, Susie had always tried to avoid going in her father's butchering shop...the terrible sights, the disgusting smells, the general unnerving aura of the area...if it weren't for constant denial of the process behind, it would almost make her not want to eat meat...
Such an ugly place to be...
She remembers...
...but now, she's different.
This is not Susie. This is Alice.
Maybe...maybe those sights happened with reason...
There are so many terms for what she has in mind...
Disembowelment...
Evisceration...
Surgical removal...
Butchering...
Words often used so negatively...but in the end, have positive outcomes...
Living ink...inside ink creatures...
But where? Ah, but of course...
...where all blood and ink flows.
The heart.
It's all coming together...and someone is in danger...
...
Meanwhile...Shawn peers through the door in his room...
...and he does something he hasn't done in a very long time...
He smiles.
"Okay, she's gone."
A *chrt* sounds from below the ground...something pushes two floorboards near the corner...they lean, lean, lean, break...and from the newly-created hole, a certain janitor pops his head up.
Shawn helps Wally out of the hole, and the two quickly (and somewhat haphazardly) replace the boards.
"Sorry that we had to hide you there--there really isn't anywhere else--"
"Ah, it's fine, Shawny." Wally barely gets the words out before he sweeps his boyfriend into a very welcome hug. "I'd cover myself with dusty old floorboards any day if it meant you'd be safe." Never thought I'd say that phrase. "...I missed you so much..."
"I missed you, too..."
For a moment, the two just stand there hugging...Shawn plants a kiss on Wally's forehead...
"How did you know where to find me? And...why did you come? I told you to stay."
"I couldn't stay. I just couldn't...I needed to find you. And I know this place better than anyone--" (Probably even better than Joey--heh--) "--so I just looked...and looked...and looked...then I heard that voice--her." The angel...the monster... "And I just followed behind...and there was this door she kept glancing at, and I put two and two together..." It's crazy...this all happens after the work day...
Is this what I've been missing out on? Not that I'm complaining.
"But--but--Wallace, she's dangerous! That's no Alice--she's--she's--"
"Susie."
...
"...What? Sus--"
"Yes. I think there's some missing pieces to the story, and I think Alice is Susie--that is, Susie was turned into Alice by the Ink Machine."
The toymaster is silent while leans against the other and ponders this. "That...sounds kind of far-fetched. If it's true, then why does she look the way she does?"
Wally falters and takes a seat on the cold floor. "I don't know about that part...maybe something happened, like a mistake. But I'm almost certain that originally, Susie was made into Alice."
"How do you figure that?"
The custodian puts on an strange, slightly-scared smile and beckons for his lover to join him on the ground.
"It's a little complicated...and I think hearing your side of the story might provide some more proof of it."
Thus, Shawn sits next to the other...and the two finally begin to put this together...
Everything is okay...Shawn is happy that Wally is okay...Wally is happy that Shawn is okay...
Everything is okay.
For now, that is.
But...
All things that rise must fall.
§
Norman had seen and heard of a lot of things...strange and scary things.
Luckily, the lonely time in the drenches (what he and his lover had decided to call this new 'living area' of theirs) gives him plenty of time to meditate on all of it...
There was the incident of Shawn and Jack...
But I won't let that happen again. The Projectionist had, after that day, became hyper-aware of anyone entering or passing by the drenches (although...it's not that he hadn't been aware before...)...just in case it was the toymaker and his rude little syringe again.
Still...why is he here? How? Why does he have a syringe? Why did he take ink from Jack?
It just doesn't make sense...
None of this makes sense...
None of this makes sense.
Then...there was another event that Jack had seen during his travels through the pipes...
Apparently, someone in Sammy's cult was being punished...Jack couldn't get close enough to see who, only just hearing the Grand Shephard's outraged voice and a series of screams...
But who was it? And what did they do?
That cult...is terrible...
Who is even all in it, besides the three of them? What do they do, besides follow the Ink Demon around all day?
Sammy is so different now...
Why? How did he end up like that--forgetting everything--while we were all 'okay'?
Or as okay as can be in this condition, I guess...
None of this makes sense.
Then there was Alice...
What ever happened to her? Is she still around?
None of this makes sense.
So many questions...so little answers...
And of course, no questions asked.
Only discovered...
Norman shines his light into the corner Jack often stays in...but he's not here right now...
He's grown so much through all these months...so brave...
Heh...I guessed we've sort of switched roles. Now he's the one spying and eavesdropping...
...while I'm stuck here.
If the cameraman could sigh, he would.
It's so boring...but at the same time not...
Something is always happening...but it never changes...
And I never get to see it happen.
...
Almost on cue, the pipe lets out a *shrrrr*, and Norman's favorite Searcher suddenly appears.
"Honey, I'm home."
"Hi, my songbird." Norman trudges through the black sea to his partner and sweeps him into a brief, inky hug. "What happened today?"
"Not much...I didn't see Sammy's cult today--they must be looking for that Bendy thing again. But...I did see someone else..." But...could it really be...?
"Who?"
"Well...I guess I'm not one-hundred-percent positive it was him...but I think it was...Wally."
The Projectionist is surprised at this. So wait--both Wally and Shawn are here? What? "Wally? What was he doing?"
Jack lifts his head from the other's chest and takes his hands. "I don't really know...he seemed kind of lost. Like he was looking for something..."
"Shawn." Norman pieces it together immediately. "Strange...I wonder how they got involved in all of this..."
"It seems like everyone will eventually..." The lyricist has a pitiful inflection to his voice. And it's all because of Joey...
Everyone's lives are going to be ruined...and there's nothing anyone can do about it...
"Well...at least the pain is over for us," the cameraman says confidently, although it's more of a hope. "As long as we're together, we can survive, right?"
"Right..."
Right...
But...
It seems that this isn't the end...just the eye of the hurricane...
Just the calm before the storm...
All things that rise must fall.
§
I've never needed it so badly...
...and I've never needed you so badly.
The flickering, dilapidated sign of Fredrick's begs Joey to enter...
And of course, he can't tell himself no.
Fredrick recognizes his customer's gloomy expression almost immediately.
"You're back."
Joey just stares at the countertop in shame and very slightly nods.
"Figured you would be. We've lost a lot of 'em over the years, but they always come back. May take days, even weeks...but they always come back." The bartender chuckles as he wipes a glass, then notices the other's glare. "Oh, come on--lighten up a bit!"
The businessman buries his head under his arms...then just barely whispers, "I want to quit..."
Fredrick scoffs. "So that's your problem? Well, let me tell you now, Joey, that ain't gonna work. You're already in too far, and there's no--"
Joey fearfully sits straight up at the mention of his name. "How did you know my--"
The bootlegger answers the question before he's even finished asking it. "Joey, everyone knows you. In case you haven't noticed--and I'm very sure that you have--you're something of a celebrity. And--" --he leans creepily and smugly close to the other's face-- "--wouldn't it be a shame if the public learned that the studio owner they adore so much is an alcoholic?"
The beloved studio owner can't say anything to that. "I--n-no--"
Fredrick smirks and backs up. "You aren't going to quit. It's impossible."
*Thunk*. The glass hits the countertop in front of Joey...
...
...and he doesn't even try to fight off the urge.
The rumrunner placidly watches his customer...
"Bit down in the dumps today, are you?"
Again, the other merely nods, thinking of Bertrum...
I ruined it...
I've never needed him so badly...
"I think I might know a little something that might put some pep in your step."
The blue eyes gradually look upward to see Fredrick handing him a small bottle...
"What is that?"
"Happy pills. Just pop a few, and you'll be giddy as a goat. They're on the house as a welcome-home present."
Joey stares at the skinny clear bottle...then hesitantly takes it.
"Thanks..." I'm gonna need them...
Fredrick merely gives a slight, mysterious smile and goes on to tend to his other guests.
...
Joey swirls the last bit of alcohol in his glass...
Well...
I guess...
He eyes those white pills in the bottle...and dispenses three...
...
Please work. Make me happy again.
And down they go...
...
He waits for a moment...
...
But nothing.
More waiting...
...
But still nothing...
They don't work...
Joey sighs and rises from his seat...the money hits the counter with a *pt*...
Then a sudden and great warmth grows within him.
Oh...
He exits the speakeasy to be greeted with pouring rain...and has a strong desire to run through it and splash through the puddles...
Eventually, he manages to hail a cab nearby...and excitedly gets in.
"HI!"
"Hello, sir," the driver greets calmly as Joey presses his face to the window. "Where can I take you toda--"
"MY HOUSE."
"...Where is that, sir?"
"Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...lemme think for a minute..."
Thankfully, after a bit of verbal stumbling, Joey manages to tell the driver his address.
"Loooook at the alllll the pretttyyyy swirlllliiiesss!" The businessman sees things--so many things...he must be in a dreamworld. Yes, that's it. Dreams do come trueeee!
The driver just tries to keep his cool and ignore the fact that his passenger is clearly high.
'Happy pills' is a slang term for the drug Methylenedioxymethamphetamine, more commonly known as ecstasy.
The cab quickly arrives at the owner's house.
"We're here, sir."
"Yoouurr eyes are glowyyyy. Haha, youuu're weeiiird."
"...Sir, please get to bed as soon as possible."
Joey laughs and swings open the door. "Okay, funny guyyy."
He slams the car door with a little too much force and runs into the rainbow puddles and spins around. Funky little green and red Bendys dance around as magic sparkles pour from the sky.
And Joey laughs joyfully through all of it.
Gone are the worries of the studio...the depression of breaking up with Bertrum...
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
When he runs out of energy to twirl around, Joey heads inside and is met with smiling eggs on his table.
"HIIIII GUYS!" Eggeggeggeggeggeggggggg!
Here he is, having the most grand time with his 'friends'...
It would be funny if it wasn't so sad.
But...
...
...
...
...
...
...
Finally, Joey gets too exhausted to move or think...it's getting kind of dark...
*Thunk*.
...
...
...
...
...
...
Joey wakes up on his living room carpet.
Ugh...holy fuck...
A glance at the clock reveals that it is three in the morning...
Oooowwwww...
...
...
...
It takes a while for Joey to reorient himself...
My God...
It's a sad realization when he sees how much of a mess he had made...especially in his kitchen...
Oh nonononono...
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!
What did I do?!
He stumbles to the counter and attempts to reorganize everything...and under an oddly-placed blanket, there is the little skinny bottle; the businessman is glad to see that he hadn’t taken any more of the drug in his...delusion state.
…
Okay, out with you now. It was fun while it lasted...
*Pmt* The bottle goes in the trash.
Joey tiredly turns around and takes in the chaos that is now his house.
He would clean it...but it’s too early in the morning...and he’s so exhausted...and still in shock from the ecstasy...
I...I have to fix this...
I...I can't fix this...
I...
I...
All...
things...
that...
rise...
must...
.
.
.
.
.
.
fall.
Chapter 31: Chapter Twenty-Nine - No Rest for the Wicked
Notes:
A/N - ...
It has been way too long...
I'll get straight to the point: I am so extremely sorry for the long, long wait on my content, both Drowned- and Drought-wise. I truthfully thought I would get more written during the summer than one lengthy chapter...but due to my working hours of forty-plus hours a week, home issues, my lack of energy, and my declining mental health...that never worked. While my work schedule is better...well...these past three or four or five or six months have been extremely tough. Not only was I in the worst writer's block in my life, but I scarcely found the energy to write due to exhaustion and mental health issues. I truthfully hope you understand and are not too disappointed in me...although I am going to state now that updates will become rather slow, I promise that I will always update eventually. I will finish this fic series if it kills me.
As for Drought itself...I'm just not sure. I'll try to update it, and update this, AND update my new fic as I can...but as of right now, I'm putting it as the least urgent fic on the list. But I promise you that I'll try my best to write it.
Anyway...you will be seeing some changes on this fic for previous chapters. For starters, I've deleted that edgy message video and overdramatic goodbye in Twenty-Eight, and I'll be doing a little housekeeping (like clearing out old, unneeded Author's Notes and such). I'll update the Picrew pictures and LGBTQ+ log as well...but please understand that the changes might not be immediate.
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As always, I must thank you for sticking with me in this confusing, upsetting, plot-hole-filled mess of a story. I appreciate you all so very much...more than you'll ever know... 🖤
I love you, dearest readers. Stay strong and safe.
Chapter Text
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The early-morning darkness of the studio casts eerie shadows along the walls.
*Knock knock*
...
No response...
*Knock knock*
...
Maybe he's not in his office...
"... Bertrum?"
...
Maybe...maybe Joey should just leave...just give up...
The lonely weekend had given him plenty of time to anguish about his ruined relationship and addiction...and Monday had turned no successful communication attempts...
Maybe Joey is just better off leaving his love interest alone...
...
No. He is going to fix this.
The boss knocks one last time...
...
...And the door finally opens.
The amber eyes Joey has missed so much briefly meet his...then the door starts to shut again--
"No--wait--" Joey stops it with his hand. "Bertrum--please--I--I just need to--"
Joey's eyes are already stinging--he shallows and starts over.
"I want to apologize...for everything. I'm so sorry for the insensitive comments I made...and I...want to make things right."
...
Bertrum watches his boss wriggle nervously under his annoyed gaze.
...
"...Come in."
Joey practically races to Bertrum for a hug, but the latter pushes him away.
"Stop. Don't think you can talk your way into my arms with just a simple 'sorry.' I want you to listen to me."
...
Joey takes Bertrum's hands in his and gives him his most charming, sincere look. "Bertie, I'll listen to anything and everything you have to say."
"Knock off the lying and the fake charisma. If you actually paid attention to what I said, we wouldn't be having this conversation." Bertrum with cold eyes pulls his hands out of Joey's. "If you want this relationship to work, you need to put in some effort."
The owner is confounded. "Wha--excuse me? I don't understand. I've given you plenty of affection and gifts and--"
"That's not what I'm talking about. You give me materials and sappy words, but there's more to...what we have going on than that. There needs to be a mutual understanding of trust and respect between us, and you aren't doing your share."
"But...I..." Joey is at a loss for words. Shouldn't Bertrum just be happy with him just the way he is?
Why should I change for him?
"I...no, you're blowing this out of proportion, Bertrum. Look, I understand that you're still mad about what I said, but I apologized! What more do you want?!" He isn't even aware of how fast his temper is rising.
"You aren't listening!"
"You aren't being clear!"
"How much plainer can I make it?! I want you to respect me!"
"Then why didn't you just say that?!"
"I did!"
Joey crosses his arms and huffs like a pouting toddler. "Why do you always have to make things so hard?! I do respect you! And it's your own fault that you don't trust me!"
"It's your fault I can't trust you! And you don't give me nearly the amount of respect that you should!"
"You're never satisfied with anything I do!"
"You never admit that you're wrong!"
"You--"
Joey stops, realizing something.
...
"I'm what?" Bertrum snaps. "Come on, spit it out. I don't appreciate all the hard work you haven't done? I don't mean that much to you? I'm the problem here? What's your next accusation?"
...
...
"Bertrum..." Joey fidgets helplessly in...shame? Withdrawal pain? Sadness? Anxiety? All of the above? "I'm an idiot..."
The other gives him a look that clearly says, "I know...and?"
"I...I'm sorry for all those things I said. Really. I...I need to learn to think before I talk." That's what landed us in this fight in the first place. "And you do mean so, so much to me...and I want you to be happy. I know I haven't been the easiest to work with and that I've said some...very, very stupid and unnecessary things. But I want to change." Joey reaches for Bertrum's hands again...and this time, the latter lets him. "I don't want to lose you because of my negligent actions. Bertie...from now on, I promise that I'll listen. And I'll give you all the respect you deserve and won't keep a single thing from you. I absolutely promise."
The lies slide off his tongue so easily. The boss's sneaky charm is returning, and Bertrum knows it.
"Why should I believe you? It took me telling you to shape up--and you arguing with me about it--for you to finally 'promise' that you'll change. How do I know you're not just saying that to humor me? How do I know that you'll actually stick to what you say? In fact..." Once again, he pulls out of Joey's grasps. "Why should I even go any further than a professional relationship with you if you'll treat me like this?"
Joey opens his mouth...then shuts it and thinks. "I know I haven't acted in the most...principled way, and I understand your frustration. But all I ask is that you stay, and I'll prove to you that I can and will change. Just please give me another chance..."
...
"Please, Bertrum...just one more chance. I won't let you down." The boss wrings his hands in a begging motion and looks up at the other with big, 'please-please-forgive-me' eyes.
Please...I'll be more careful about what I say. Please just believe in me...
...
Bertrum sighs, conflicted. Joey can seem sincere without meaning it...but maybe he does actually want to improve? Is he lying? Is he truthful? Am I just asking to get hurt?
...
"I don't know, Joey. I need to...just think about it for a while."
Joey feels himself being pushed towards the door; he grabs his love interest's arm. "Wait--I--no--Ber--"
"I know you're sorry and that you say you'll change...but I can't process all of this right now. Just give me some space, and we can discuss it later." It's not me, it's you.
The owner, now out in the hall, is confused and a little hurt. "But..."
No...he shouldn't argue. It'll only make things worse, and he needs Bertrum to believe that he respects him--giving him space would do just that.
But still...
Joey takes a deep breath. "Okay. Take all the time you need. I'll be ready to talk when you are."
"Thank you."
And with that, the door is shut and the conversation is over.
...
Joey is frustrated--that whole scenario, it was for nothing. Useless.
It feels like nothing got fixed. Yes, something happened...they argued...they distanced from each other...but nothing improved. There was an action, but no changed end result.
Useless.
...
But...maybe it's not over. Maybe Bertrum will come around, and they can work things out.
...
But how long until then? Unfortunately for Joey, not everyone can rationally make split-second decisions like him.
Patience is supposedly a virtue, but waiting feels like a punishment...as does the needless arguing and discontent between them.
Does Joey deserve those 'punishments'?
...
Well...
No. I don't deserve it...I mean...not really...but...I guess...
Never mind--it's easier to not think about that.
It's fine. He'll come around.
...
I've got other things to do~
...
As soon as he gets Thomas in his grasps, Joey will finally gain the soul missing piece of the puzzle. Well...that is, if he can get Thomas--lately, the construction worker seems to be avoiding him as much as possible. And Joey's permanent tiredness and icky feeling don't help matters...
Aches, fevers, chills, and mood swings lead to ruined relationships, emotional instability, studio failure...and suspicion. Everything and everyone is decaying, inside and out. Same old story, same old cycle.
But it's fine! Just believe, and everything will be okay! Yes, definitely!
...
Belief will save me. Belief will save us all.
It worked before, so it will work again.
...
...Right?
Yes.
...
Ugh...a wave of sleepy nausea hits the boss. Surely he'd be used to it by now?
A long nap would feel really, really, really nice.
But that's not going to happen. There's things to do, bills to pay, problems to solve, love interest's hearts to recapture!
So he has no energy? Too bad--the world isn't going to change its plans for him. Yet.
There's no rest for the wicked.
§
"Why am I so exhausted?"
Putting spying and suspicions aside, Buddy discloses to Dot his emotions as of late. "I don't understand...I've been working less than usual because of the lack of employees...and home life isn't much different than normal...but I'm just so tired. My brain feels like fuzz, Dot...why?" The gofer, befuddled and drained, slumps against a chair. I shouldn't feel like this...
The writer mulls over her friend's words for a short while before she suggests, "I think it might be stress, Buddy. We've been poking around in things we shouldn't be, which might be making you anxious, and the disappearances are making you paranoid. You're not alone in how you're feeling--I think everyone is starting to get fuzzy brains because of the situation. Overthinking does that, Buddy. It's okay to feel whatever you're feeling. Take a deep breath...and tell yourself it's okay to feel that way."
Dot's words seem to help--the gofer takes a deep breath and tries to think of a calming, not-chaotic atmosphere. It's okay, it's okay, it's okay.
But...he figures he should check if something else is okay...
"Are you doing okay, Dot?"
A pause. "I...can't really put a dot on how I feel. There are a lot of emotions going through my brain--on one hand, I want to uncover more secrets and get to the bottom of this mystery...but on the other hand, an intuition is telling me that I've seen enough and to avoid journeying any deeper. It's..."
"...complicated," Buddy finishes, and Dot nods. " There's just a general bad feeling in the air...what should we do?"
"Well...I would advise you to just trust what your gut says is right, but with how your body is responding...I want you to take a break. At least for a little bit, so you can just breathe and process everything that's going through your mind."
"Will that really solve anything?"
The writer slides her paper away and faces the gofer with serious eyes. "Probably not, but it will help your brain feel less fuzzy, and you'll be more ready to deal with the problems after you have some time to relax."
...
"Okay. But if I relax, you have to promise me that you will, too. You work the most out of the three of us, so if anyone deserves a break from this chaos, it's you."
Dot smiles. "Thank you, Buddy--I really appreciate it. I'll be sure to take a break too, I promise."
A series of *thunks* resound through the hall, drawing the two friends out of their conversation; Johnny excitedly bounds over to Buddy with a yellow note in hand.
"Hihi, besties! I got to deliver a slip for Buddy!" They dramatically kneel down and extend their arms, as if they were bestowing the piece of paper to a royal. "For you, oh great one!"
Buddy laughs slightly, wondering what a 'bestie' is, and takes the note.
Daniel Lewek--
Please arrive on Floor K via the elevator as soon as possible. Make sure you are alone--we need to discuss something.
Joey Drew
That's oddly vague and urgent, Buddy considers. Why meet in such an inconvenient place as Level K? Why not his office, or an extra room? Am I in trouble?
The boy takes a deep breath and focuses on turning off those anxious thoughts.
It's okay. It's all right. I will be fine.
"I have to go, guys. Something came up." Buddy bids adieu to his friends and starts for the elevator.
"Wait--Buddy, you forgot--" Dot scoops up the note from the desk, but by the time she reaches the elevator, it has already ascended; she examines the piece of paper, when something catches her eye.
The note is messy and hard-to-read—it seems it may have been written in haste. Dot knows from reading Joey's memos that the boss's handwriting is loopy and slanted...but this text is thin and rigid. The content doesn't appear to include any of Joey's trademark verbosity, either.
Joey didn't write this.
"Johnny!" The organist arrives obediently at the writer's side with a goofy smile, which soon disappears when Dot informs them on the note's details.
"I dunno...even if he didn't write it, is it really something to worry about? Maybe someone just wants to talk to Buddy alone."
"But why would they pretend to be Joey?"
Johnny doesn't have an answer to that--now that they think about it, it actually might be something to worry about. The note may be connected to the disappearances...
"Maybe we should tell him before he gets too far," they finally decide to the agreement of their friend.
With that, the two press the button for the elevator...hoping that they aren't too late.
~
Meanwhile, Buddy arrives at the entrance to Level K--Heavenly Toys.
Wait, why did he just say 'Heavenly Toys,' then? Why did he want to meet here?
The department is silent, with not even the toy machine making its regular *clunks* and *clanks*. In fact, it seems completely void of people--not a Joey Drew in sight.
Where is he? The gofer is tempted to give up and go back to work...but a flutter from Shawn's former desk catches his attention.
Another yellow page lies upon the wood, with a single word scrawled upon it:
Hello.
"Hello?" Buddy asks it; from behind him, someone creeps.
*Thunk, thunk, thunk* The gofer feels his heart pound anxiously in his chest as he very slowly turns around.
A pair of greenish-blue eyes meet his--Buddy realizes with horror that the familiar person is holding a piece of floorboard, ready to hit him.
"Shawn?!"
Shawn looks genuinely apologetic, but doesn't lower the wood.
"I'm sorry, Buddy."
And everything goes black.
...
...
...
Dot and Johnny exit the lift in Heavenly Toys and scan the immediate area for the gofer--the two split separate ways down the department.
"Buddy!"
"Buddy! Are you here?!"
"DANIEL!"
The search attempts, however, prove futile.
"He's not here!" Johnny cries when the two meet up again. "He disappeared, just like the others!"
"But why? Why would they take him?" Dot is on the verge of tears. No...it can't be like this. Maybe he went somewhere else in the studio. Maybe he's on a different floor. No, he couldn't have just...
The organist and writer agree to put off their work duties for the day to look for Buddy--the disappearance is far more urgent than anything else.
"But what will we tell Joey?"
Dot thinks, then answers, "Absolutely nothing. He could very well be behind this, even if he didn't write the note."
"But what if we get caught?"
"I don't care if we get caught!" The writer, desperate and determined, grabs the other's shoulders. "We need to find Buddy!"
"Okay! I'm ready!"
The duo head separate routes through the expansive studio, keeping the hope and belief that they will locate their friend, safely and soundly.
...But is it too late~?
§
"I hate what I'm becoming!"
In his cramped, dilapidated room, Shawn bawls into Wally's arms. "I hate what she makes me do, I hate how I live, and I hate that I can't do anything about it!"
The janitor rubs his boyfriend's back soothingly and whispers, "It's okay, Shawny...it's not your fault--"
"I'm a monster, Wally! I've doomed him!" Tears stream down the toymaker's face onto the other's shoulder. "He was so young! And she's gonna kill him--"
"I know, honey, but you can't blame yourself--"
"But I shouldn't have done it--I should have stopped her--I should have run when I had the chance!" It's my fault he's in danger, it's my fault she has him, it's my fault he'll never see the light of day again, it's my fault, it's my fault--
"Shawn." Wally grabs his lover by the shoulders. "Even if you had tried to run away, she could have caught you--or worse, someone else might have seen. I know you feel terrible for what you did to Buddy, but you had no other option. And no matter what she makes you do, I know that you're still my brave, good-hearted Shawn."
He wipes tears off his boyfriend's cheek and gives him a small, hopeful smile. "And we're gonna get out of this hell together. I promise."
Shawn sniffles, his voice weak. "Are you sure?" I don't have any hope of escaping anymore...
Wally slowly caresses and kisses Shawn's cheek. "Positive. And you know how we're gonna do it?"
"How?"
"I'm gonna quit, and come find you, and we'll murder Alice, and we'll leave the studio and run away and get married and--"
"Wait, back up. You want us...to kill Susie?"
The janitor sighs, unsure of how to word this. "...No. I mean...don't think of her like that. She's not Susie--she was, but she's not now. She's a monster disguised as an angel, and she's going to hurt even more people if we just let her live here--"
"I know, but we can't risk our lives taking away hers. This place is going to burn...with or without her in it. And I want to get away from her, not get revenge or stop her or anything." Shawn feels tears coming on again at the thought of losing Wally. "I know it's selfish, but I don't care about anyone or anything else but you and me making it out of here safely." He remembers the ink creatures he presumed to be Jack and Norman. "I think most of the workers have already met their bad fates, anyway..."
"But--"
"No, Wallace. We can't stop her, and I don't want to." The toymaster holds his lover against him protectively. "Please, please promise me that you won't go after Alice." I could never forgive myself if she hurt you...
Wally hesitates...then vows, "Okay. I promise." He hugs Shawn even tighter. "We'll leave her alone and escape together." The silence is broken only by a relieved sigh. "I'm so glad you're okay..."
"Mmhm..." Shawn has stopped crying and now nuzzles against his lover...Wally is so warm and cozy...
The custodian runs his fingers through the other's hair. "Are you tired?"
Shawn nods and closes his eyes.
"She hasn't been letting you sleep..." Wally has an idea. "One second, Shawny--lemme just--"
The toymaker is surprised to feel he is being picked up--with a mildly confused expression, he clings to his boyfriend. Wally carries Shawn to the sleeping corner of the room and lays him down.
"Whaareyou--"
"Shh, just a minute, honey." The janitor covers his partner with the blanket...then snuggles under it and wraps his arms around him.
"Ahh--oh. I..." Shawn feels sleep coming on, but fights it off. "Thank you...but...don't you need to--"
"Yes I do." Wally nuzzles against the other's neck lovingly.
"But...what if she--"
"She won't. You're safe in my arms."
He knows that isn't a certainty, but the toymaster is too tired and comfortable and in love with Wally to care. "All right...how long--"
"All night. Please don't worry--I need you to get some sleep, dear."
"...Mmkay." Shawn yawns. "Thank you...really...I love you..."
"I love you too, Shawn," Wally whispers, and plants a kiss on his lover's cheek.
Sleeping with Wally is like heaven to Shawn...he's so warm and holds him securely...and the sounds of his breaths are so soothing...
It's nice to finally get some rest...
The two sleep soundly, luckily never interrupted by Alice.
It's almost as if she is busy with something else...
§
Buddy opens his eyes...to complete darkness.
...
Everything hurts...
...
It seems like he just woke from a very long, very restless, very painful sleep...
The sharp whack of the board was the last thing he had felt before everything had gone dark...
Then...there was the severe, extreme, awful, atrocious pain...he had felt dizzy, his brain like static...
Then it went dark again...but nothing had felt right...nothing was right...
And now he is awake again...or so it seems...
The pitch-blackness makes it hard to tell...
And...he can't move at all...
It's as if he's bound...
...
Is anyone...?
Maybe they'll hear me if...
Buddy tries to call out.
Is anyone here? Please, someone, help! I can't--
"Oh, you're awake. Very good." The voice is female, a little familiar, and menacing. "That will make this all the more fun~!"
What? Wai--who--
"Don't bother asking questions...or screaming, for that matter." The voice giggles. "No one can hear you but me~."
Buddy asks anyway. Who are you, and what are you doing with me?
All he gets in response is the clink of metal...
Then in a flourish, the wool is off the wolf's eyes...
And before him is an...angelic abomination.
It's terrible...he wishes he still had the blindfold on...
Like always, Alice introduces herself overdramatically. "I am Alice Angel! And you are the key to my beauty!"
Buddy's beady black eyes widen as he tries to look at himself--the surgery table restraints make it extremely difficult to move his head, but based on what he can see...
...
He's clearly not human.
What's going on?! You--Alice--me--BORIS?
"Yes. Now shush--I shouldn't need to and will not explain, for it will not matter. You will be very dead very soon."
Alice wastes no time; she lifts the knife--
WAIT--NO--STOP--!
Too late--the blade pierces Buddy's cartoon chest, and ink splatters like blood upon Alice's apron.
The wolf's last word consists of one word: Dot...
...
...
"What a mess," the angel remarks in disgust. "But...it was worth it."
She has no regret, no shame for what she has just done. Where's Susie? Only a monster remains...
And now~
With careful and precise gloved hands, Alice severs the deceased wolf's chest; cutting around the heart and taking it out, however, is much easier said than done.
Disgusting liquid... nasty ink...
But I need it...
...
...
And finally...
Alice slowly lifts the blotchy ink heart from the chest. It's still throbbing slightly...as if it's still alive...
The tainted saint feels a very strong urge to drop the organ. It's so gross...
How did my father deal with these sickening things all day?!
She sets it on the table, next to her other 'surgery tools'...and hesitantly pokes it.
A small stream of ink flows out of the hole onto the floor; Alice snatches an inkwell and collects the thick fluid.
Once the well is filled, she sucks the liquid with her syringe...and runs the point against her cheek...
...
The injection hurts intensely, but it does its job--the side of Alice's face melts slightly. She molds her eyes and cheek into the form she wants them as...
Stay, stay, stay, stay, she begs to the ink.
And when she's done...well, it isn't perfect, but it's better.
Temporarily better, that is...but it won't be long before the side of her face skews again...
Maybe, because it came from a heart and not a certain hatted Searcher, this ink will stay longer...
Why can't it be permanent? Isn't ink permanent?
In an attempt to distract herself from the shooting pangs in her face, Alice focuses on the still-beating heart.
It's still alive...how? How did he die, if his heart lived?
She ponders this, eventually inventing a small theory...but she'll need to test that later.
I'm going to need more hearts--I have beauty to maintain. And perhaps I can work something out to make it permanent.
I will never rest until I'm perfect again.
§
Meanwhile, Joey stays late in his office, waiting for Bertrum and reading a certain letter over and over and over again...
Mister Joseph Drew:
We are glad to inform you that your request to file for bankruptcy was approved. Your company, Joey Drew Studios, will--
*Knock knock*
The boss turns over the paper and opens the door eagerly to see...a much less eager Bertrum.
...
Joey awkwardly just stands there and blushes before realizing that he should probably move. "Oh--uh--come in--"
Joey takes a seat on his couch and gestures for Bertrum to sit next to him, but the latter stays standing.
"Erm, uh, all right then. I--"
"Why--" the architect begins.
"No, um--" Joey tries to recall the message he had been practicing for this occasion and clears his throat. "Never mind--you go first."
"I'm upset with you--"
I know, bu--"
"No, shut up. I'm not done. You say I'm too vague, so I'll be straight with you: I'm sick of how you treat me, and you need to shape up, or I'm leaving you and his project."
"But--"
"I'm still not done. I do believe I deserve and have earned your respect, which includes you listening to my ideas, my issues, my suggestions. And you can disagree and express your opinions, but you cannot cut me off, or ignore me, or snap at me. Think before you speak. And I don't want any more lying or deception. Quit acting obnoxious, or we are finished. Do you understand?"
Joey, red-faced and slouched over in shame, nods and whispers, "Yes...and I'm really sorry for being like that...I promise, promise, promise that I will change. Please give me a second chance, and I won't let you down."
A pause...
"I just..."
...
...
"You what?"
"...Nothing...never mind..."
"Joey, if there's something you need to get off your chest, you can tell me. I know I'm being tough with you right now, but that doesn't mean you can't approach me."
The boss merely gazes at his love interest helplessly, very slightly shaking. "It's not...that..." He clutches his arms.
"...Are you okay, Jo--"
In a swift motion, Joey stands up, runs to Bertrum, and hugs him.
"...I've missed you so much...you make me feel so good..."
The park designer is caught by surprise and doesn't know what to do with Joey nuzzling against his chest; he mumbles something before hugging back.
Joey basks in Bertrum's warmth, feeling all his fears and symptoms drain away.
Stay here with me, forever and ever and ever and ever and ever...
I'm all yours...I'll do anything...
Joey doesn't want him to leave...maybe there's a way he can stop him from going to Britain...
But...that would be deception...and he's just promised...
"Really, Bertie...I'm so sorry...for everything..." Joey, too embarrassed to meet Bertrum's eyes, instead talks to his chest. "I've been such an asshole...but I want you to stay...I want to change..."
"You will change, if you truthfully want me to stay. And I believe that you can, if you just put forth some effort."
"I will...I promise..." The boss sighs. "It...things haven't been good, and I let it get to me..."
Bertrum releases Joey from his arms (much to the other's dismay) and asks, "What hasn't been good."
"...Everything." Already, Joey is longing to be in Bertrum's embrace again. "I...should probably tell you..."
...
...
"What?"
...
"The studio...is..." A flood of memories washes over the owner--the start of the studio, interviews of the employees, the building of the Ink Machine, the creation of Alice...the escape of Alice and the other ink creatures...Henry...
Everything I've worked so hard to create.
He wants to admit it--it would be the right thing, the correct thing to just tell Bertrum that he's bankrupt...
But no. It would hurt Joey's ego, and more importantly...Bertrum might leave if he knew...
He can't leave...I can't...
"It's, um..." The boss tries to put on a brave front. "It's not in the best place right now financially, and it's been affecting me emotionally." Among other things. "But, um, of course, it's nothing I can't--"
But the designer calls him out. "You're doing it again, hiding the details. Tell me the truth, Joey. And the full truth."
Joey shifts his gaze guiltily, stomach turning from both anxiety and withdrawal. "But I'm not lying, I swear! It's just a little bit of debt, nothing serious--"
"Then why are you so upset about it?"
Joey hesitates, rapidly deciding on a feasible excuse, before mumbling something about being embarrassed.
"You don't need to be embarrassed about it--almost everyone gets into a little bit of debt sometimes. Just make sure you pay it off in time, and don't be so stressed about it."
Tell me something I don't know, Joey thinks, but just nods in response and gives his love interest a shaky smile.
There's more to the picture, but Bertrum can't identify it. "Is there something else?"
The other shakes his head a little too quickly; the architect asks, "Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'm sure." Joey is glad to find that he sounds much more confident than he feels...whilst his veins are screaming for chemicals. He mocks checking his watch and declares, "Oh, wow, I really have to go, Bertie." Grabbing the other's hands and looking deeply into his eyes, the boss quickly says, "Thank you for helping, and I absolutely vow that I'm going to treat you better and that you'll never, ever, ever be angry or disappointed in me again."
With that, Joey practically pushes Bertrum out of the office and prepares to leave.
"Wait, why--" The architect grabs the boss's hand again before he gets too far down the hall.
"I didn't realize how much time had gone by, and I have a very important appointment. I'm really, really, really sorry--I would spend more time with you if only I could." Joey rubs his thumb against the back of Bertrum's hand. "Goodnight, gorgeous."
And his hand leaves Bertrum's, leaving the latter confused but charmed.
...
The designer watches Joey leave, and once he's gone, stares down the empty hall.
...
*THUNK* The sudden loud noise is startling--Bertrum goes to investigate, wondering if Joey ran into something on the way out. But nothing in the corridors appears to have been knocked over or moved...
It's like the sound came from out of the wall...
...
Fine. Not my problem.
He tells himself that...but it actually hasn't been the first time he's heard such unidentifiable noises...
Does Joey know what goes on when he's not here? Bertrum makes a mental note to ask him that.
It seems without its leader (or even with it)...the studio is in unrest~
§
"You're a little late today," Fredrick remarks.
"I know...had something to do...working things out with someone..." Joey stops to catch his breath--it seems like he ran here. "My head hurts..."
"Then let your favorite doctor take care of that~." The dealer smirks. "I've got a little special something for you--"
"No, no more white pills." Joey cringes as he remembers what happened just a few days before--and recovering from it seemed to have taken longer than sobering up from his worst hangover did. "Those things were...not good..."
"Aw, had a bad trip? I'm sorry to hear that." The studio owner doesn't understand what Fredrick means, but the bootlegger's teasing-pity voice suggests he's making fun of him somehow.
"Whatever. Just give me the drinks."
Fredrick hums smugly. "Mmm, I think not. You seem a little crabby today, Joey~"
"Stop. I just want the alcohol."
"But what I have is better than that, and I know it'll make you feel better. But you won't be able to drink anything with it--you won't need to, it works that well."
"I really would rather just--"
"Try it." Fredrick reveals a thin syringe with a clear liquid inside. "I promise your headache will go away."
Joey backs away at the sight of the needle. "No, no, no, no. Absolutely not. Get away from me with that thing."
"It'll only hurt for a second--"
"I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about the drug...the..."
"Morphine~" Fredrick clarifies eloquently. "Guaranteed to relieve you of all your pains, big and small. You'll feel so free...and..." He pauses and chuckles. "...there are no hallucinations involved."
"But--"
"Try it. You won't regret it." The dealer taps the tip of the syringe against his hand invitingly.
"That's what you said about the other stuff, and I sure as hell regretted that--"
"But this is different, Mister Drew. This won't hurt you. Tried it myself, and I'm still alive."
Joey stares at the needle and considers all the pain he's in, from his aches to his nausea. If this could make it go away...
But...
"Okay. Just a little bit, though."
Fredrick nods. "A little bit is all you'll need." He hands Joey the syringe. "Want to do it yourself?"
...
Joey hesitates, then puts the syringe to his wrist...then backs it away again...
"I--I don't--can you do it?" He slides the needle back to Fredrick.
"Of course." With his calm, professional expression when dealing with the substance, Fredrick reminds Joey of a doctor...his 'favorite doctor,' as the dealer called himself...which gives Joey an idea...
"Ow!"
"It's okay, it's okay. Just take a deep breath..."
The boss inhales deeply, trying to ignore the prick in his wrist and the slight dizzy feeling he's getting...
"That's it...just let yourself relax..."
...
...
The effect is immediate, and blissful...
His pain gradually disappears...it feels magical...amazing...
"I feel so...good...happy...calm..."
"Good, good--that's how you're supposed to feel."
Joey gives a relieved sigh. "How long is it going to last...?"
"Four or five hours. But when it wears off, you'll feel pain again. Soooo~" Fredrick turns around and brings forth a very small bottle of morphine. "You're going to want more~"
"How much will it be?" The studio owner finds that his senses seem to be working better in addition to the calming feeling and the absence of pain; in this state, it seems, he's almost unable to worry.
"Fifteen dollars."
That wakes Joey up. "Fifteen?! For this tiny little bottle?"
"Hard stuff to get my hands on. Do you want it, or not? And don't tell me you can't afford it."
If for some reason this scenario had been going on in the distant future--say, the year of 2021--fifteen dollars from 1926 would have been equivalent to about two-hundred and thirty dollars.
Joey is silent...he really can't afford to spend any more...
But...
"Do you take any other payments besides money?"
"Wellllll..." Fredrick casts a naughty smile. "You could bring me to a hotel, rent a room with a nice, cozy bed for us, and pay with your body...if you know what I--"
"No."
"Oh, all right. Well, then I do not accept any other forms of payment, Mister Drew." Fredrick waves his fingers in a 'gimme' gesture. "So hand over the cash."
Joey looks at the morphine, then at Fredrick, then the morphine again.
"What if I could get you a job?"
The dealer raises his eyebrows, then laughs. "What? This is my job!"
"No, I mean a real job--where you could get paid better, have employee benefits, and be allowed to handle your substances without having to sneak them around as much."
"Do you know how much I get from this gig? Makes all the 'sneaking around' worth it."
"You'd be highly respected," Joey continues, "and I wouldn't have to come here every day to get my...things..."
"And what about my other customers? What about my speakeasy?"
"I...I could let you leave when you wanted, just as long as you came back every so often." The boss stands up to get eye-to-eye with his dealer. "Please, Fredrick."
Fredrick lifts his nose snootily, still disgustingly smug. "Hmmmm...maybe. Just what kind of job do you want me to have?"
"A doctor."
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...
...
"You want me to be your doctor?!"
The bootlegger's shocked reaction doesn't bother Joey--the morphine tells him everything is okay. "No, not exactly--you wouldn't have to take care of anyone. I have a nurse for that." If she doesn't leave. "You'd just need to act like you know what you are doing, and provide me with the morphine and alcohol and all that fun stuff. And I'll pay you as much as you want."
"Ninety dollars an hour."
"Within reason."
Fredrick leans against the counter creepily and points to the bottle. "Mmmm, I'll think about it~ But you still need to pay."
"Here." Joey empties his wallet completely onto the counter. "I know it's not enough, but it's what I've got."
The dealer spins a nickel with his finger and casts a bored expression at the money. "Fine, but I expect it to be paid in full in two weeks. And since you're ever so near and dear to my heart, Joey, I won't even charge you interest~"
"That's wonderful..." Joey is caught in a dreamy daze, and doesn't even sweat the details of how he'll find the money for the morphine.
I feel so young again!
"That's all I can give you, then," Fredrick states. "Don't drink any alcohol with it--they are not a good combination, I've been told."
"That's fine. You were right: I don't think I'll need it..." Joey rises and prepares to leave. "But please consider the offer I gave you."
"I will, I will. Don't worry, dear Joseph~"
The owner doesn't even care that it's not a promise--he feels too good to fret over it. "Okay. Thank you for considering it and for the...good liquid stuff..."
"Of course~" Fredrick purrs as he watches the other leave.
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...
And now...
The dealer checks on his stocks of substances--plenty of morphine, enough ecstasy, enough cocaine, but low on marijuana and alcohol. The first in the second list would be easy enough to hide, but smuggling in the alcohol would be a different story...
People are still at his 'doctor's office,' though, so he'll have to wait until the shade of night covers the sky before he can get 'refills.'
Heh...I probably could pass for a doctor.
He gathers his coat, bag, weapons, and a few other necessary supplies and gets them ready for when he'll need them...in six hours or so.
It's going to be a long night--but it always is. And it's completely worth it--where else could he find such thrills?
Crime never sleeps, because it never needs to...and what an abundance of crime there seems to be not just involving Fredrick...but perhaps certain members of the business known as Joey Drew Studios.
There is no rest for the wicked~
Chapter 32: Chapter Thirty - Absolutely Anything
Notes:
“I used to be so beautiful, now look at me.
My actions are undutiful, it's clear to see.” /lyr
Chapter Text
Three days later...
It's way too early in the morning...
"Do you have to leave now? Couldn't you stay for another hour or two?" Joey is surprisingly wide-awake considering the time...
"No--I'll be late." Bertrum gathers up his Bendy Land papers into his briefcase; Joey has a fleeting desire to steal the papers away just to keep his love interest here a little bit longer, but holds himself back.
The boss leans against the other and whines. "Just a half an hour, then? Pleeeeeeeease, Bertie?"
" No , Joseph. I would stay longer if I could, but I can't."
"But what am I going to do without youuuuuu?" Joey clings to the architect's waist and gives him big blue pleady eyes.
Bertrum sighs and winds his arm around the younger man. "You'll be fine. Just focus on what you need to get done, and I'll be back before you know it. And remember what we discussed about being responsible and aware of what's happening."
"I knowwwww..." While Joey appreciates his love interest's concern, he doesn't understand where the notion that he doesn't know what's going on in his own studio came from. When have I ever implied that I wasn't aware or responsible?
But maybe Bertrum is just looking out for him...
Joey snuggles against the designer for another moment before he remembers something...
"Wait--I almost forgot--"
"What?" In the amount of time it takes Bertrum to look up, the boss has gone from cuddling to flipping through a notebook.
"There's something I need to give you before you go--ah, here--"
With reddened cheeks, Joey presents the drawing he made of Bertrum--with hearts and all. "You said you wanted it when I was finished...so, um...yeah, here--"
As Bertrum examines the art, Joey steps back and blushes at the ground. "Um, do you like it? I mean, if you don't, I can redraw it--" Come on, Joey, quit being so awkward! "Or, um, I--"
"I love it."
"...Really?" Despite owning an animation studio and knowing all-too-well that he's a good artist, Joey apparently requires his theme park creator's approval.
"Yes--it really captures my charm and elegance. Thank you, Joey." Of course the great Bertrum Piedmont enjoys a picture of himself--nevertheless, Joey is rather flattered.
"Y-Yeah...you're welcome..."
The designer smirks at the other's blush. "I've got something for you, too."
"Huh? What do--"
Bertrum leans forward and plants a kiss on Joey's cheek.
...
If Joey was red before, it was nothing compared to now--stunned silent, he just stares wondrously at his love interest.
The architect delicately puts the drawing in his case and checks his watch. "I should get going." The other is too captivated to respond--Bertrum chuckles a bit and slips toward the door.
"I'll call you tomorrow, okay?"
Joey just barely nods; he feels so...warm and fuzzy inside...
"Goodbye, Joey~"
And...Bertrum is gone.
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...
It takes Joey quite a while to come out of his trance long enough to sit down at his desk, and even after that, he just stares blankly at where Bertrum had stood.
...
...
He doesn't even register Wally's entrance.
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...
"Mister Drew." The janitor sounds oddly serious...not that his boss notices. In fact, he doesn't even respond until Wally says his name again.
"Oh--um--" Joey, feeling like he has woken up from a long dream, tries to sit up professionally. "Ah, Wallace--what do you need?"
It's only now that the owner notices how his worker is glaring at him. "Is everything all right?"
Wally sighs. "Well, I'll give it to ya straight, Mister Drew." From behind his back, he brings forth a resignation letter and lays it coldly in front of his now-former boss. "I quit."
...
"Wait...what? What?! Why?!" Joey rises and seizes the letter.
The reason for leaving is extremely vague: I have become involved in an emergency situation and will be unable to continue working here.
Joey doesn't know what to say--this is so abrupt. His employee had never put in a two-weeks notice...or mentioned any tentative situation...
...
"But...Wallace...surely there's a way you can stay--even if it's temp--"
"No. I absolutely have to leave; there is no other option." Wally tries to throw in a pitiful expression. "I'm sorry."
No, I'm not sorry. You should be sorry, for treating me and Shawn and all the others the way you did. You should be sorry, for not knowing what goes on when you're not around. You should be sorry, for turning our friend into a MONSTER! YOU SHOULD BE SORRY, FOR LETTING HER RUN FREE AND DO THIS TO US!
But he obviously can't say that...as much as the rage burns inside him...
...
...
Joey can't force Wally to stay...as much as he wants, needs to...
...
"Wally...I understand that your situation is dire, and I know you insist that quitting is the only option...but I will do whatever possible to keep you here. I know you like your job and your co-workers, and I truly believe that you would be happier--"
"No--I mean, my time here was great, but no." Wally barely hinders his desperation. "It won't work--I have to--"
"I can edit your schedule--"
"No!" The sudden burst from his employee of anger startles the boss. "No matter what you think you can do, I'm not staying!"
Before Joey can even come up with a response, his former janitor stomps to the door.
With a determined shine in his eyes, Wally gives Joey one last glower...
"I'm outta here. Permanently."
*BANG!* The door slams, and Wally's frantic footsteps echo down the hall.
Shawnshawnshawnshawnshawn--
It's way too early in the morning. No one else should be here. Shawn should be waiting for him. Alice should not be awake.
It's way too early in the morning, and no one else should be here, and Shawn should be waiting for him, and Alice should not be awake, and everything should go just as planned, right, right?!
...
The first hope in Wally's list is correct--nobody, ink creature or human, is in sight. The only sound is his own shallow breathing and panicked pace.
It's almost too quiet...
...
*CRASH*
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...
Meanwhile, just outside Alice's lair in Heavenly Toys, Shawn waits impatiently for his lover.
It won't be long...it can't be long...
He's so, so incredibly tired...
Soon, Wally will arrive to save him, and they'll race out of this dangerous, draining situation, and live happily ever after...like a fairy tale, except the protagonists are very stressed and sleepy.
But where is Wally? It feels like he's been waiting forever...
It's just because I'm anxious. It hasn't been that long, and he's on his way...and he's okay. She's asleep and doesn't know a thing. Everything is fine...
...
...
More waiting--the incessant ticking of the clock on the wall seems to mock him. But it's also sort of soothing...
...
...
More waiting?
Shawn really wishes he could close his eyes, just for a little bit...
...
...
More waiting!
It's been--the toymaker checks the clock--fifteen minutes. He wants to scream.
Where is he?! Come on, Wally! Please! Pleasepleasepleaseplease!
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...
Finally, the sound of footsteps echoes...
Shawn instantly opens his eyes, unsure of when he closed them--well, it doesn't matter. He's here! He's finally here!
The man bolts toward the sound with arms open wide--he's here, he's here, he's here! A dream come true!
He's...
... not here.
The angel is awake, looking down at him with a wry smirk as if she has just told a joke he doesn't understand.
"You're awake, little errand boy~" Alice runs a finger against Shawn's chin to make him face her; he swats her hand away. "It's a bit early for you to be up, isn't it? You always seemed to like sleeping in."
"I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep," Shawn mutters, diverting his eyes towards the ground. "Why are you awake? Don't you need your 'beauty sleep'?"
The tainted saint giggles condescendingly. "Oh, not today. You see, I have a little surprise for you...and I wouldn't want to make you wait for it~"
The toymaker's heart races at the thought of what she's implying...
"You--I--what--"
Alice shushes him softly and gestures for Shawn to follow her; he hesitates long enough for her to strut to the other side, then catches up.
The angel leads him down an unfamiliar hallway--one of those she had forbidden him from entering--as she hums her little theme song. A thousand questions race through Shawn's mind, all of them unaskable.
Where are we going?
Did you catch him?
What did you do to him?!
Is he okay?!
Where is he?!
He's too worried about Wally to pay attention to where they are going--when Alice suddenly halts, he runs into her back.
"Watch it, errand boy."
A faint cry sounds from somewhere in the deep darkness, followed by the dull *thunk* of something hitting a metal surface. Shawn can't tell where or from what the noises are coming from...
Alice clasps her hand together with dramatic excitement. "Are you ready for your surprise, Shawn~?"
He doesn't respond, and she doesn't wait for him to. The light flickers on...
...to reveal Wally strapped on a surgery table, crying at the sight of the angel. Next to him is a bench containing scary-looking tools: knives, sharp metal instruments, an axe...and a frightening electric device.
Shawn gasps and races toward his boyfriend, but Alice pulls him back.
"Don't even try--you can't free him. Moreover, you won't free him! Hehehe~"
"DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH HIM, YOU VILE MONSTER!" He wriggles out of the angel's grasp and stumbles toward the table--she dashes in front of him, haphazardly seizes a knife from the bench (almost knocking the other tools off of it in the process), and points the tip at him.
"You really think I'll let that happen? You think you can save him?" The angel backs the knife away from Shawn, stalks behind the surgery table, and slides the blade against Wally's neck just softly enough to not cut him. "Just like you thought you could get away with meeting up with him without my knowledge?! Like you thought you could escape ?! Well, I've got some news for you, Shawn."
She throws the knife at the toymaker, and he ducks to dodge it; Alice placidly picks the electric baton out of the torture device pile and holds it near the squirming Wally's chest.
"Nobody escapes from this place!" Alice turns the baton on--it lights up and buzzes perilously. Nobody slithers out of the grip of chaos!" She lowers the weapon onto her victim, and he shrieks from the pain. "Nobody cuts the puppet strings!" *BUZZ* and a louder scream. "Nobody will set you free--" *BUZZ* "--and NOBODY GETS A HAPPY ENDING!"
"STOP! STOP!" With tears in his eyes, Shawn hits his knees and begs, "Please, please, please stop harming him...I'll do anything ..."
"...Anything?"
"Absolutely anything. Just please...don't..."
...
Alice turns an icy sneer. "Well...there's only one thing you can do~" She points to the knife that had narrowly missed the toymaker's head. "Pick that up."
"Why?"
The *buzz* of the baton near Wally's chest is enough for an answer.
Shawn awkwardly bends over and retrieves the weapon, determined to not turn his eyes away from his boyfriend.
"Here." He offers it to Alice with shaking hands, but a steely expression.
The angel giggles wickedly. "Oh no, little errand boy... you're going to need that~"
"Wha--"
Wally shrieks as the baton shocks him again; Shawn cries out at Alice again to stop torturing him.
Alice shuts off the instrument...then turns it on again just to watch the toymaster agonize.
"Do you enjoy this little game, Shawn~? This little joke we call reality? Oh, the twists and the turns, like a rollercoaster racing towards its doom! Isn't it exhilarating? "
Shawn is scared silent--he looks at the knife, then at Alice, then back at the knife...
"I sense your temptation. It would be so easy. Just step closer~"
It would not be so easy; she is leading him on, and he knows it. When she isn't hurting Wally, she is facing Shawn--she could easily dodge the blade at the last minute.
"I'm making it easy for you, dear. The game can end right here, right now. You know what you need to do."
The toymaker still does not move nearer.
Wally finally gains the breath to scream, "STAB HER, SHAWN!" before the angel administers another shock.
But Shawn still does not move.
Alice sighs in pretend disappointment. "I'm so sorry, Wallace--apparently, your boyfriend needs a higher incentive." She scans her selection of tools, and picks out what looks like a metal stake. "Heh...I do wonder where Samuel found this--perhaps he fashioned it himself? Or he forced a member of his quote-unquote 'cult' to make it for him?"
She's stalling , Shawn realizes, because she wants me to act now.
No...I'm sorry, Wally...
Not while she's expecting it...
"It was tough to convince him to give it to me," the tainted saint babbles on as Wally squirms in dread, "but after I agreed to create a rope for him, he handed it over. But anyway~" She finally turns away from Shawn, pressing the sharp silver tip on her victim. "Hm, where should I puncture first? The wrist, the neck...or ooo, the eyes--"
Now is the time! Shawn lifts the knife above his head and shoots toward Alice--
--and she grabs his arm.
"No!" The craftsman tries to pull away, but the angel has an iron grip. She forces his hand, and the knife, down to Wally's chest...but stops just before the tip touches him.
Alice gives Shawn a crazed smile...but there seems to be sadness somewhere behind it...
Then she strikes Shawn in his side with the metal stake--he cries out in pain, and she pushes the blade into Wally's chest.
"WALLY!" Shawn tries to pull away, but he can't. He sobs as Alice makes him stab Wally again...and again...
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Wally stops screaming and lies eerily still...
...
And the angel finally releases Shawn's arm.
He immediately falls to the floor and curls into a ball, bawling. His side is bleeding, and Wally is bleeding, and Wally is bleeding so, so much, and Shawn has blood on his hands, and it's Wally's blood, and Wally isn't breathing, and it can't be real, it can't be real, not when Wally had just been alive the night before, and Shawn's side hurts so much, and he wishes it wasn't real, and he wishes he was dead.
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Alice merely stares down at the lamenting man. "Go to your room."
"NO! I WON'T!" The toymaker pounds his head on the hard ground. I WON'T DO ANYTHING YOU SAY! YOU KILLED HIM--"
"No, Shawn," she responds calmly. " You killed him."
"NO! NONONONONO! YOU--I--"
"Shawn. The game is over. You have no one to blame but yourself."
Shawn screams and continues crying on the floor, before getting up and bolting out of the room. But it hurts to run, and he only gets as far as Heavenly Toys...
...
There's nothing heavenly about this.
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His desk sits, lonely and barren, across from him...Shawn crawls toward it...
It looks like nothing has been moved from it since his disappearance--all his sewing tools are still in the places where he left them, not even neatly sorted into the drawer.
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A couple of needles are scattered about...just laying there, with their sharp, dangerous edges...
And next to them is...the seam ripper.
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It happens in an impulsive rush--Shawn grabs the seam ripper and jabs it into his wrist--
More blood...AND PAIN! THE PAIN! It's awful, it's terrible --he tugs and tugs on the ripper, and it finally pulls out.
His wrist aches...all drenched in blood...just like the points on the sewing tool...
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It can't--it won't--be much longer...
The pain will subside soon...and he'll finally feel the sweet release of death...
Death...
Death...
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It was my fault...
...
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Everything gradually becomes more hazy...Shawn's breath slows down...
The red liquid is starting to dry on his arm...
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And the world fades to black.
...
...
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Shawn wakes up.
...
This area is familiar...
He's in his room, laying on his makeshift 'blanket'...
How?
Didn't he...
...
He's still alive.
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It didn't work.
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He's both incredibly disappointed and extremely relieved.
His arm and side hurt worse than they had before he passed out...Shawn weakly lifts his arm to find that it is bandaged up.
How?
...
The door opens, and a sorrowful-looking angel enters.
Shawn wants to get up and back away, but his side aches too much, and he can't find the energy...
Alice seems different--almost regretful . It's like there is someone else there, looking at him with such pity...
The toymaker wants to say something so she'll stop staring at him...
"What...did you...do...with..." He can't even finish the sentence--it's too painful to accept...
The tainted saint just slowly shakes her head. She can't talk about it, either...it hurts, and Shawn won't understand...
Did he notice the rare moments when she was in control, when her voice and thoughts and feelings changed? She doubts it. All he ever experienced was the other side--the so-called angel. When she did manage to break through her , it never lasted long. The only reason, she suspects, that she's in control now is because the other side is recovering from what had just happened...
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She hadn't wanted to do it--it was all her idea.
...
...But there is no way that she can explain that to someone whose lover she had just heartlessly slaughtered...
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Alice is coming back--she can feel it.
No...
Before she takes complete control...
"Shawn..."
Shawn opens his eyes again, confused. Maybe it's just a trick of his mind, but Alice's voice sounds weird...
"Shawn...I'm sor--"
That is where the phrase ends--the angel just stops in the middle of the word.
...
Then she, with poise and scorn from seemingly out of nowhere, strides to Shawn and glares down at him as if he's a pesky pest prowling in her perfect province.
The man scoots himself away from her--this is the Alice he knows and fears. Yes, surely he had just imagined the kindness in her just a few moments ago. She had been faking it...
Just an act...
Alice sneers, "Are you proud of yourself? Are you happy with what you did?"
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Shawn feels himself start to cry again...
"No..."
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"It hurts, doesn't it? To have your love harshly robbed from you? To be forced into the twisted, cruel, lonely world? To be stuck in an endless cycle of torment?"
She only receives another sob in response...
"You can tell yourself that you'll do absolutely anything to free yourself from the damned life, but you don't have a clue."
Shawn lays back down and continues crying--seeing that she has gotten her point across, Alice slinks toward the door.
"Look what you've got yourself into."
§
"This nightmare's coming true..."
The search for Buddy is all in vain, Johnny realizes; they fear that Dot, however, is in denial of the truth...
"He has got to be here somewhere...right?" Against better judgement, the duo had hidden away in the studio due to the writer's insistence that they would find their friend.
They had come across more secrets--strange rooms with cages, ink-drenched corridors, and (to their horror) a bloody seam ripper near Shawn's desk--but did not explore or question them any further. Dot was and is too focused on finding their friend, and although Johnny too wishes that Buddy was okay...they can't help but think that after almost two days of searching, it is a lost hope.
Whenever Johnny tries to bring this up, however, Dot immediately shuts him down...
"Maybe he was hidden in one of those creepy rooms we passed?"
"No. We checked them thoroughly, and he wasn't there. He has to be somewhere else."
"But maybe we should go home? We can't just live in the studio forever!"
"We'll stay until we find him."
"Dot...has it ever occurred to you that maybe...we aren't going to find him?"
...
The writer stops, then turns sharply and stares dead into Johnny's eyes. "Don't ever suggest such a thing again."
"Okay. I'm sorry." The organist wills theirself into silence, but it's difficult with all that's running through their mind.
Is he really still here?
Is he...even alive?
Is our search for him even worth it?
What could have happened to him?
...Is Dot going to be okay?
...
What's that strange inky thing?
Dot notices the creature, too, and peers at it; it seems to be fiddling with a small box. "Hello?"
The Lost One, startled, drops the box of matches.
"Don't worry--we come in peace!" Johnny pipes up. "Who are you?" What are you?
The Lost One hesitates, then figures that these strangers are safe--in fact, they seem a little familiar...
"Grant Cohen...and you are?"
The musician steps closer with a friendly smile. "I'm Johnny, and this is--"
Dot covers the other's mouth with her hand and questions, "Wait, did you say that you're Grant Cohen?"
"...Right..."
"As in, Grant Cohen the accountant? Who disappeared a month ago?"
"Um. Yes." He nervously picks up the box of matches. "How do you know about me?"
"We're workers in the studio. I am--was--an intern in the Writing Department, and Johnny was an organ player in the band."
"Oh. Okay." The Lost One doesn't really recognize those names, but then again, he doesn't--didn't--know everyone in the studio. "So, um...how'd you guys find these dark depths?"
Johnny starts to explain, but Dot cuts them off. "We're searching for a friend, but you can help us by explaining what happened to you. Why are you...like this?"
"I don't really know the details, but it has to do with the Ink Machine. Sammy kidnapped me and--"
"Sammy?"
"Yes--but don't ask me who turned him into what he is, because I don't know. Anyway, he put me through the Ink Machine, and I came out like this. He's doing that to other workers, too, so he can 'induct' new members into what he calls a cult."
"A cult?!" Johnny examines. "That worships what? Or who?"
"He says it's for that Ink Demon, but it really seems like he wants us--them--to worship himself ."
"So that's why so many employees have been disappearing..." Dot pieces together. "Maybe Sammy was the one who sent Buddy that note! He might have been trying to kidnap him!"
Grant picks a match out of the box and examines it. "Is Buddy your friend that you're looking for?"
"Yes--have you heard that name? Do you know what happened to him?!"
"No...I'm really sorry, but no..." Grant is legitimately contrite--these poor kids are all in a dither searching for their friend, and he's of no help. "I mean, that's not to say that he isn't in the cult somewhere, or that he didn't escape--maybe he managed to get away from Sammy."
"There are too many paths that he could have taken..." the writer realizes with dismay. "We may never track him down..."
The teenagers look like they could cry, and the Lost One feels terrible. "Uh--but--please--you don't have to give up! I mean, there's still hope--he might still be okay--" He peers down at his match...then puts it back in the box. "I'll even help you find him. I...you'll need someone who has experienced this 'ink hell' to guide you through it."
"You'll help us?" Just seeing the smile on Dot's face gives Grant a tiny boost of courage.
"Um, yeah...yes, yes, I will. Er, I'll try, and, um--"
"Thank you so, so, so much!" The writer excitedly shakes Grant's hand, and he recoils away from a hug from Johnny.
"So you decide--where should we search first?" the musician asks with replenished hope.
The Lost One hesitates. "I...don't really want to lead you two toward the cult...especially not after what happened..." He turns away to think, and the teenagers notice something. "But...I think I might be able to get ahold of someone who will know if Buddy was put through the Ink Machine..."
"What happened to your back?" Johnny points to the three golden lash marks on Grant.
"Oh...yeah, that...well, let's just say that Sammy doesn't think that public shame is enough of a punishment for breaking cult rules..."
The musician asks, "Why are they golden?" at the same time Dot asks, "Are you okay?"
"I don't know why they're that color--they just formed like that. And yeah, I'm all right...they don't really sting anymore."
"Why did he do that?"
"Like I said, I broke cult rules. Now, uh, are you sure that you want to come with me? It's dangerous out there..."
Dot and Johnny exchange a look, and the former answers, "Certainly. We'll do absolutely anything to find Buddy."
Grant smiles sadly. "You kids have got a lot of...fire..."
"Huh?"
"Bravery. Confidence. Integrity. It's really inspiring..." I wish I could be like that...
Dot considers the compliment, then replies, "Thank you. You've got some fire too, Grant."
"Oh...I..."
"Um, should we be going?" Johnny interrupts. "Like, before something bad happens to Buddy?"
"Right. Of course." The writer looks expectedly at Grant. "Lead the way, sir."
The Lost One takes a shaky breath, wondering if this is really a good idea. He certainly doesn't want to trifle with Sammy anymore...but these poor teenagers may never see their friend again if he doesn't do something...
"Okay. Let's go save Buddy."
§
"All hail to your shepherd!"
Sammy struts pompously through the wall into the studio drenches...to find absolutely no one waiting on the other side.
"Where are you, Projector-Head and Pathetic Ink Blob? Step forward, now!"
He is blinded by a sudden bright light, followed by an extremely high-pitched scream.
"Silence! Do you know who I am?!"
Norman dashes behind the Lost One and kicks some ink onto his precious cape.
"Stop it, I demand!"
"Oh, calm yourself, Samuel. Just because you can act like a ruthless tyrant to your followers doesn't mean you can boss around me or Jack. And if you're going to summon us, use our actual names."
"I'll do as I please, you lensed freak," Sammy snaps snobbishly as pulls up his cape from the ink. Jack, hearing the familiar cocky voice of his former music partner, barely raises his head from the dark pool--he looks like a floating hat.
"So tell us," Norman begins, "why do you bless us with your presence today? Have you come merely to pick a fight?"
"Of course not. I have much better things to do than associate with such inane creatures." Finally, Sammy decides to get to the point. "I need to know, since you two consider yourselves experts on everything that goes on in here, if you have seen any lost sheep in need of my expert herding."
"Nope, sorry. No farm animals in our sights. Haven't heard a single 'baaa,' either."
"You're not funny."
"I'm not joking."
Sammy pivots and makes a *whoosh* noise as he swings his cape. "You are not a clown. You are the entire circus. I regret wasting my time and breath trying to have a mature conversation with you."
"Hey, you're the one who asked me about sheep. I just gave you an honest answer."
"I--no--you--arrgggghhhh! Forget it, you damned imbeciles!" The Lost One utters another *fwoosh* and stomps away.
...
If Jack and Norman could laugh, they would be giggling uncontrollably.
The Searcher pops up from the ink. "Was he adding sound effects when he moved his cape?"
"Yes, my songbird. Yes he was."
"Poor Sammy, all alone without his little lambs. We might have to start calling him Mary."
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Meanwhile, Sammy stalks back to his cult area, muttering to himself.
"Why don't they take me seriously?! Am I but a joke to them?! Don't they realize that we must appease our lord with followers in order for him to set us free?!"
He passes a Bendy cutout...then backtracks to it.
"The very image of perfection...my dearest savior..." Sammy runs his hand delicately on the cardboard. "Even if they don't believe, I always will..."
...
"They'll get what's coming to them, either by your or my own means...they'll regret making a fool out of me..."
...
He carries the cutout to a corner and starts setting up an altar for the Ink Demon.
"Enlighten them, my lord...or leave them to rot."
§
"Knock knock."
Cheyenne pauses her sorting of medical equipment and looks at the door that had just spoken. "Come in."
An unfamiliar man with messy blonde hair, rough features, and a white lab coat enters--the nurse already feels uneasy at the sight of his smug expression.
"Hello, dear~"
"Hello...how may I help you?"
"Oh, I don't require your services--in fact, I'm here to provide my own." He sets a large bag on the counter. "And before you ask, I am Doctor Fredrick Hackenbush, and I am Mister Drew's special doctor."
Cheyenne peers suspiciously at the so-called doctor. "Wait--what do you mean, "special doctor"? Has Mister Drew developed a condition which my own services will not suffice to treat?"
"I'm afraid, dear, that that is confidential information."
This Fredrick guy is creepy. "I understand. May I ask, then, Doctor Hackenbush , where you received your education at? Or where your certification plague is?"
Annoyance fuses into Fredrick's slimy smugness. "Ma'am, I say this with all the respect I have in me: I would rather you stop questioning me and my occupational validity. Mister Drew saw that I was certified and trustworthy, and the details concerning my education are between him and me."
...
Before Cheyenne can respond, Fredrick lifts the bag off the corner and disappears into the next room.
There is definitely something fishy about this Fredrick guy, Cheyenne knows, but he seems to be quite skilled at evading questions...
That's no doctor.
She hears two voices coming down from the stairs--Joey's and Thomas's.
"I promise you, Tommy, that it will take very little of Allison's and your time--"
"I don't care about that part. What I want to know is why you need Allison to come with me."
"I'll explain that part later. Stay here, please." Joey greets Cheyenne and slips into Fredrick's room before she can say a thing.
...
Thomas slumps against the wall, clearly in a foul mood.
"Being secretive with you too, is he?" the nurse asks.
"Yes, and I just know he's planning something bad. Expecting me and my wife to show up tomorrow after hours, but won't let out a single detail about what he's wanting to do."
"Sounds sketchy. And I don't consider myself a skeptical person, but..." Cheyenne glimpses at the door Fredrick and Joey had disappeared behind. "...I think he's doing something behind my back, too."
"He's been getting more and more shifty and dishonest since this whole Ink Machine operation started, and you better believe that I'm not gonna be staying around much longer."
"You've got a good point...and honestly, maybe I should consider that, too." Cheyenne knows that she won't actually quit, but it's somewhat nice to think about. "After all...now he's got his 'special doctor' to take care of him."
"Huh. I don't know why he'd need a--"
Thomas leaves the sentence unfinished as Joey and Fredrick arrive back into the clinic.
"Take care, Mister Drew," the latter says in an almost amused way. "I'll see you in the morning."
"Thank you, Fre--I mean, doctor."
Thomas gives Cheyenne a nod of farewell and joins Joey back by the studio doors.
"Why do you need a special doctor?"
"Why do you need to know?"
The GENT worker huffs. "Knock it off. You've been dodging questions and sneaking around for too long, and I'm sick of it. Now, why do you need Allison to come with me tomorrow?"
"I understand how protective you are of her, and I figured it would be best for both of you to accept this offer I intend to give you. Then you'd be together and have nothing to worry about."
"What's the offer?"
Joey laughs calmly. "Tommy, I can't spoil everything for you!"
Thomas glares daggers at his boss. "Then I'm--we're--not coming."
That quickly puts a frown on Joey's face. "Yes, you are. You don't have to accept the offer, but I still want you to come."
...
...
"On only one condition, Mister Drew."
"Yes?"
"You bring someone along to supervise. I want another person there to witness everything that goes on in that Ink Machine room."
Joey pauses momentarily, then agrees, "That can be arranged."
"And I don't want that person to be your weird-ass doctor, either."
"It won't be, Thomas--I can assure you that."
"Fine." It's still eating the worker up inside to be agreeing to this meeting, but perhaps Allison will be safer if there's someone else there to see what goes on.
And I'll make sure he doesn't lay a finger on her.
Without another word, Thomas exits and slams the door on his boss.
I hate this place, I hate this job, I hate him, I hate EVERY ASPECT OF IT!
And the worst part is, he doesn't even know what to expect at this stupid secret meeting.
...
Absolutely anything.
Chapter 33: Chapter Thirty-One - Dirty Work
Chapter Text
It is going to hurt. It always hurts.
But that doesn't stop him from continuing...
"Ready, my darling Mister Drew?"
Joey nods and braces for the injection--its as painful as it was the first time.
He squeezes his wrist after Fredrick removes the needle. "I don't think I'll ever get used to that..."
"As you take more injections, the pain will subside--you'll still feel the needle, but it won't hurt as much. And wouldn't you say a little ache in your wrist is worth the lovely effects?"
"...Right..."
Fredrick notes the uncertain tone. "You don't seem satisfied. Are you expecting something else? What more do you need?"
"...I don't know." The studio owner can't explain his feeling of emptiness--it's a confusing mixture of loneliness, stress...and disappointment. "I want...well...um...I...something stronger, I think? Or...maybe I'm just missing alcohol...I don't know. I just want something more..."
"Something more?" He smirks, twirling the syringe between his fingers. "My dear Joey, I could get you absolutely anything more--"
"I'll take anything--even ecstasy, I don't care! I'll even help hide it--I'll keep my employees from seeing you, or something--"
"Joseph, darling, you don't understand." From seemingly out of nowhere, he withdraws a bottle of pills, which he waves in front of Joey. "You want more, and you expect me to just give you more..."
Joey tries to grab the bottle, but Fredrick pulls it away.
"...But that's not the way it works. Nothing in the world is free. Especially not this."
Joey stands up and snatches the bottle, resulting in a little tug-of-war between them.
"Let go!"
"No! I need it!"
"You can't have it! You! Haven't! Paid! Argggh--!" Despite having the taller stature, Fredrick cannot lift the bottle high enough in time--Joey shoves him back with his elbow and grabs the pills.
"Ha!"
"You--fine! Take them! " The dealer looks down at Joey like a parent scolding a spoiled child. "But you're not getting anything more from me until you pay up! With real money, not a fucking fake job!"
"I will! I just need these, and I promise I'll get you your money." He stares at the bottle in his shaky hands.
"You better. Because I'm not gonna hand out any more freebies...and remember, I know people. People you don't wanna deal with."
Joey looks up to see Fredrick take out a bag of white powder and a small metal tool.
"What are you doing? Measuring dosages?"
"No." He pours out some of the powder and forms it into a line using the metal piece. "Getting my fix."
Fredrick leans so close to the counter that he's practically laying his face on it...then in one big inhalation, snorts the powder line.
Joey is horrified and disgusted.
"What--you--that's--nooo!"
Fredrick half-laughs and says, "You may find it gross now, dear Joey, but with how desperate you've become, I wouldn't be surprised to see you try it soon."
The boss cringes and backs away, holding the pill bottle tightly toward his chest.
Once he's out in the hall and away from his ticked-off dealer, Joey unscrews the bottle--realizing he never actually asked what kind of drug it is or how much he should take, he stares into the small opening before dispensing two white pills. They will probably be enough.
He's going to need them anyway...it's going to be a long and eventful day...
Just as he swallows the pills, the very GENT worker he has on his mind appears from around the corner, greeting him with a gloomy scowl.
The boss quickly shoves the bottle in his pocket--before he can even speak, however, Thomas snaps, "No."
"Huh?"
"No. No to anything you're going to say, or plan, or do, or even think . No, I will not do your dirty work. No, I will not get involved in your sketchy schemes. No, I will not make your damned dreams come true. No, no, no!"
"Yes, yes, yes!" Joey retorts. "You'll do whatever the hell I tell you to do--with no ifs, ands, buts, or nos."
Thomas snarls and just barely bites back a few choice words. "Hmp. Anyway, I came to talk to you about tonight."
"You're staying after whether you like it or not."
"Sure, fine. I am, but Allison will not be coming with me. She has...other business."
"Oh?"
"Yes. But you still must bring a witness. For legal reasons." Thomas leaves his answer at that and waits for the satisfying frustration to cross his boss's face.
But...it doesn't. In fact, that irritating smirk appears again. "Ah, yes...legal reasons. Fine. We'll see you tonight, then--just you, me, the 'witness'...and the Ink Machine."
Thomas struggles to hide his shock--doesn't this mess up all of his boss's torturous trickery? Why isn't he whining like the annoying man-child he is, or trying to alter his little ploy to suit the disruption? Why isn't he lashing out in anger, or stomping away, or something? Why isn't it working?!
He wants to punch that stupid smug expression off Joey's face.
Thomas clenches his fist...
...
...then growls and stomps away.
Joey will get his comeuppance...just not right now.
But soon. And I'll be the one to give it to him.
And that's a promise.
...
The boss smirks at the construction worker's retreating back, then frowns as he remembers someone else...
...
With a heavy heart, he wanders into the Bendy Land area; most of the workers are busy rushing around attending to various mechanical duties, save a chatty, lackadaisical clique in the corner. Lacie and Abby are huddled closely near a table, the former painting pieces of metal that Joey recognizes, upon closer look, to be the Bendy animatronic.
The two halt their conversation when Joey approaches.
...
"Do you need something?" Lacie doesn't seem too pleased.
"Uh, no--I'm just--um, checking in--" He backs up a few steps from her cutting glare.
Lacie whispers something to Abby, then roughly grabs Joey's arm and drags him away from the group.
"Wha--"
"Shut your damn mouth. You've caused enough trouble by using it."
"What are you talking about?"
"Bertrum! You fucker, you're lucky I wasn't able to get my hands on you before--"
"What? No!" Joey tries to pull his arm out of her grip, but she holds steadfast. "It's--we--everything is fine now! I apologized, and--"
"You don't understand! You think since you apologized, everything is just peachy keen?"
"He forgave me!"
"Well, I haven't!" Lacie releases him and heaves; Joey takes the opportunity to explain.
"We're okay now--yes, we were in a bad place for a while, but then we listened to each other and worked it all out. I made some promises, and he said he forgave me. He even...kissed my cheek before he left. So everything is all right now."
...
"That might be, but you still fucked up." She's calmer now, to Joey's relief. "When I agreed to help you, I placed trust in you--trust that you wouldn't hurt him, trust that you would respect him, trust that you would love him with all the emotion you have in you--"
"I do!"
"Then act like it--no, don't just act like it, show it. Don't make me regret giving his heart to you." Lacie pulls down on Joey's tie so they are eye-to-eye. "Because if you break it, I'll break you."
She shoves him back and stalks away; the boss blinks rapidly, holding his aching arm.
...
Everyone is mad at him today, it seems...he can't wait to get home and hear through the phone the pretty accent of someone who isn't...
Joey sighs--even with the morphine injection, he still hurts. The pills Fredrick gave him don't seem to be having any effect...
Maybe he didn't take enough...
...
The studio owner takes out the bottle again and peers at the label, but Fredrick's small scrawl is too unintelligible.
Oh well...
He pours out three more.
Just...anything to get me through.
Joey downs them with some bad-tasting coffee, hoping, hoping, hoping that they'll...work.
Please...just do what you're supposed to do...
...
I'm...not...desperate...
§
"This is the opposite of the kind of sneaking I'm used to..."
"What do you mean?" Grant asks in a whisper, to Johnny and Dot's confusion.
"Like, we used to sneak around during the studio day and rest afterwards," the former explains, following the cracks in the wooden floor, "but now it's the opposite. Why are you whispering?"
"To avoid attention. And as sorry as I am to say this, kids...you'll probably have to adapt to a lot of changes. I didn't--don't--like it either, but when your life has been reduced to the lens on a page..." He trails off.
Johnny looks at Dot, who has been silent this whole time.
"Still worried about him?"
" Yes . I just...hope we're not too late." She puts her hand to her head, as if grabbing it will make it function more efficiently. "I didn't mean to go this deep. I didn't mean to put us in danger. I didn't mean to lose him..."
"It's not your fault, Dot," Grant speaks up. "You were trying to do the right thing--"
"But I failed! And now Buddy's gone, and we can't find him, and he might not even be alive, and--"
"Dot." The Lost One cuts off her anxiety spiel. "Nothing good comes out of blaming yourself for events out of your control...it took me a very long time to learn that, but I did. And you will learn, too. What happened to Buddy is not your fault, or Johnny's fault, or my fault, or anybody's fault; there was nothing you could have done to predict or prevent it. What you can do is go on...and hope for the best."
He inhales softly, quite surprised at the inspirational speech that just left his mouth.
It's amazing, Dot notices, so much comfort can manifest in Grant's orange glowing eyes...and she finds herself feeling just a little bit better.
"Thank you. Your words help a lot."
He shuffles awkwardly and directs his gaze to the wall. "Oh, uh, you're welcome...um, we'll be, uh, approaching the cult pretty soon here..."
"I thought you said you weren't bringing us to the cult?" Johnny tilts their head.
"Well, um, I'm not leading you close to the really dangerous part--we have to come here, though, to talk to that person I told you about."
Dot inspects the surroundings warily. "Who is this person, exactly?"
"His name is--" *CRASH*
...
"Hide."
In a matter of seconds, Dot and Johnny find themselves being pushed into what seems to be a long, upstanding box; Grant with an apologetic expression shuts the door of the box-thing and runs behind it.
...
A loud cracking sound--one of wood being split by metal--erupts from down the hallway, followed by harsh, angry yells. "Move it, sheep! Your Grand Shepherd has places to be--move, move, make a path!"
From the rectangular hole in the box, Dot peers out to see an ink creature similar to Grant stomp into the deserted room--this one, built muscularly, dons a Bendy mask and a yellow cape imprinted with an interesting symbol.
Grant holds his breath and hopes, hopes, hopes that Sammy doesn't see or hear him and the teenagers...
...
Apparently, Sammy is too busy with his task to notice any suspicious shadows--he stomps away without a second glance.
...
Once he's assured that the cult leader is gone, Grant opens the door and gestures for Dot and Johnny to come out.
...
"Who was that?"
"Why was he so angry?"
"Where did he get that axe from?"
"Why was he wearing a cape?"
"What's that box you hid us in?"
"Whoa whoa, one question at a time, kids!" Grant holds up his hands and tries to think quickly. "That was Sammy Lawrence--"
"THAT WAS SAMMY?!"
"Yes--just let me explain, please! Anyway...um, he's the leader of the cult, which is why he wears that cape. I don't know where he found the axe. He's always angry because that’s how he maintains control. And the 'box' I put you in was a Little Miracle Station--I don't know who made them or why they're here, but they're good for hiding in."
Dot and Johnny are dumbfounded.
"Um...any more questions?"
...
"Just one," the writer says. "Why aren't Sammy's eyes shiny and glowing like yours?"
"I...don't know. I guess the Ink Machine just formed us differently." Grant stares at the wall, thinking, before remembering what he's supposed to be doing. "Oh, uh, Terrence! Let's go find him!"
"Terrence?"
"Yes--that's the one we're looking for. He'll know if Buddy has come through...or...not..."
...
Johnny shatters the heavy silence. "I'm scared..."
"Me too," Grant admits. "But...I won't let anything happen to you. I promise . Just stick close to me, and..."
"And we'll protect each other," Dot finishes his sentence. "And hope for the best."
~
As the trio draw closer to the inner sections of the cult, more Lost Ones swarm the corridors; Grant conceals the teenagers behind him as well as he can to obscure them from ink creature view.
"Could we try rubbing some ink on ourselves to blend in?" Dot suggests.
"...No. I'm sorry, but I don't completely trust this ink--putting it on yourselves might be dangerous for you as humans."
They stop in a crowded room, where a lengthy line of Lost Ones leads to a tall and slim one with a whip wound around his shoulder and hip like a sash--he seems to be inspecting and interviewing the others.
Grant whispers to the teenagers to hide themselves before stepping forward nervously.
The whip-wearing Lost One recognizes him promptly. "Ah, Grant...bold of you to show your sorry face here again."
"Terrence." Grant sounds braver than he feels, but rather than look the other ink creature in the eyes, he stares at the whip. "I have an inquiry for you."
"Well, get on with asking it." The cultist shoves aside one of the Lost Ones. "I don't have all day."
"Has there been any human by the name of Daniel or Buddy sacrificed?"
Terrence considers the question for a moment before answering, "No."
"A-Are you sure? Could you check the induction documentations, or something?"
"Not at the moment--I'm quite sure that there has been no Daniel or Buddy. What's it to you, anyway?"
Grant stares at the ground sullenly and sighs. "Nothing. Never mind."
"Fine. Now scat, before Sammy sees you."
The old Lost One trudges back to the plants where Dot and Johnny are hidden and softly guides them out of the area. All three are silent for the entire journey.
...
Finally, Grant takes them aside.
"...Terrence said he didn't know of any Buddy or Daniel in the cult, and I couldn't get any more information out of him. I'm so, so sorry, kids."
...
"It's okay," Dot says after a silence. "You did what you could, and that's enough. Thank you so much." She offers a hug, and Grant takes it.
"I'm so sorry that I couldn't do more..."
"Grant. Someone once told me that when things don't go as expected, blaming yourself doesn't help matters--you need to go on and hope for the best."
...
"Yes...you're right. Thank you."
...
Johnny's green eyes widen. "Can I join in on the hug?"
Both ink creature and human smile. "Of course."
The three of them wrap each other in their arms.
...
"Well...what now?" Johnny asks as they release.
"I..." Grant hesitates. "I don't know where you could go...as humans, you're in danger no matter where you go...but..." He wrings his hands. "...If you would like to stay with me, I wouldn't mind..."
"We can stay with you?" Their eyes light up as Dot says at the same time, "You would do that for us?"
"Yes, yes, of course...I mean, it gets kind of lonely on my own, and you kids need someone to accompany you in this unfamiliar territory--and you could tell me some of that research you did about the studio. Um, if you want to, I mean--"
Dot nods. "Of course--even if we couldn't save Buddy, that doesn't mean we can't save the rest. We...could set them free."
"Yeah...we could..." Grant imagines being hailed as a hero for releasing the studio from its inky terror. "We could..."
...
"So, where do you live?" Johnny interrupts Grant's heroic fantasies.
The Lost One tenses up slightly. "Well, um, I don't have a specific 'house', so to speak...but I usually reside in one of the rooms down the hall--"
"What about your office?"
"No. I could get caught by the remaining human employees...and besides, I spent way too much time in there when I worked. It was like a prison." He frowns as he remembers the fateful day Joey fired him. "...Anyway, um, the room is the best option we've got. Is that all right?"
"As long as there's a roof over our heads," Dot approves, "and a door to separate us from inky cult members, we'll be fine."
"Great--now, we'll need to turn left here, and then..."
~
"Oh...wow..."
Johnny doesn't really know what they were expecting of Grant's living quarters...but it wasn't a small, sparse area with a mere table and makeshift bed.
"I know it isn't much, but like I said, it's the best option I had. I'm sorry..."
"It'll do just fine," Dot permits, looking around the room with her hands on her hips. "Look, we even have a bed we can take turns using--how did you manage to get that in here?"
"That's a question I have myself--it was in here when I moved in. You kids can take turns with it. I'll sleep in the corner on the floor."
"Ouch, are you sure?"
Grant nods. "Your comfort is more important than mine."
"But you're older."
"It's all right; I'll be fine."
Johnny sits on the bed and swings their legs. "I call dibs for first!"
Dot opens her mouth to tell them off for not letting Grant have the bed, but shuts it at seeing his smile. "Oh, all right, then..."
After the teenagers have made themselves comfortable, with Johnny making snow angels on the bed and Dot spreading out all her notes on the table, the former mentions, "It's kinda chilly in here."
"Here, I can help with that!" Grant seems strangely excited about warming up the room--he disappears behind the wall and returns with that box of matches he had been holding when Dot and Johnny met him. "I'll be right back, kids."
The two teenagers exchange confused expressions before the Lost One returns with a heavy barrel, which he rolls to the middle of the room, uprights, and opens.
"What's in there?"
"Gasoline!" He sounds quite excited about the brown, odd-smelling liquid. "Now, watch this!"
He takes a match out of the box and lights it...then ever-so-carefully drops it into the gasoline barrel--the chemical ignites with a flame almost as bright as Grant's eyes.
Johnny and Dot gather around the barrel, keeping their distance from the open fire; Grant stands near it, mesmerized by the red and orange lights.
"That was a little dangerous, don't you think?" the writer asks, concerned.
Grant mutters a "Yeah, maybe..." in response, the fire still engrossing his attention.
...
"How did you do it?" Dot interjects.
"Hm?"
"How did you live like this for a month, even longer? How did you learn to survive? How...did you hope for the best, when it seemed there was no hope?"
...
"I...don't know." Grant thoughtfully stares into the flame. "I just did. I mean...when Joey fired me, I thought I was finished. Then I got bound in the cult, where I witnessed the demise of so many...others...and I didn't even try to save them. I hated everything about myself and the direction my life had taken. Then I got banished, which was both a blessing and a curse...and I just wanted everything, the entire world, to end." For the first time since he lit it, he looks away from the fire. "And that's where you guys found me. Heh...I guess you guys kind of saved me, in a way."
Johnny's and Dot's eyes meet, asking questions without words.
"For a lot of my life--even before the firing--I've felt unwanted, unneeded," the Lost One continues; the teenagers can practically see him reflecting on his past. "Like the only reason I was alive was to do everyone else's dirty work. But...then you kids showed up...and I feel like I actually could mean something to you..."
"You do," Johnny says. "You helped us search for Buddy...and provided us with a safe shelter...so yeah, of course you mean something to us. You're like a leader, kind of."
Grant doesn't know how to express his gratitude with words, but his smile says everything.
"Thank you..."
§
"I'll always see you in my dreams..."
...
By day, Shawn is depressed and listless--even Alice's most forceful words and actions cannot coax him out of his room...or mournful state. In fact, the angel's barking orders seem to have such little effect on his emotional numbness that even she is concerned; at the very least, she expects a whine or a sob, but there's...nothing. When she's around, he refuses to talk or even make a noise; when she's gone, he spends his time crying or sleeping.
Thus, Alice is forced to do her own dirty work, from gathering supplies to collecting hearts--and it's exhausting.
There is no reason why I should be doing his job! This is why I captured him! So he could do the little tasks while I focused on the bigger picture: me!
...
A part of her recalls how heartbroken she was when she found out Sammy didn't remember her...then shoves the memory back.
No,
no,
no,
no!
...
Muttering...she hears muttering...
Coming from Shawn's room...
...
Alice slinks through the dark, deserted hallway until she reaches Shawn's door, then opens it very slightly.
He's sitting on his blanket in the corner, staring intensely at the opposite wall. After a moment of observing his lack of movement, she goes to leave...but then he suddenly speaks.
"I'm so sorry..."
...
Slowing turning around, the angel almost responds: "You--"
But he keeps speaking, and she realizes it's not to her.
"I should have stabbed her when I had the chance...I shouldn't have hesitated. I'm so sorry, Wally. I never wanted it to end like this..." He chokes back a sob. "I'm sorry. I understand if you can't forgive me...I...I don't deserve forgiveness..."
All is silent again; Alice peers in to find that Shawn has returned to fixating upon the wall.
Then he whispers, "No. If it wasn't for me, you'd still..." His tearful gaze falls from the wall to the floor. "It's all my fault. We could have escaped, but I didn't...I...she...I fucked it all up! I didn't stop her! I'm the one that--!"
Shawn suddenly stops, his eyes widening and his breathing becoming heavy...
...
Then he covers his ears and shrieks.
Alice, startled, shifts backward and grabs the door--when she looks again, Shawn is on the ground, still screaming.
...
Everything--visuals, memories, emotions--races back in a flood.
And he drowns in the thoughts.
Screams.
Knife.
Alice.
Wally.
Killed.
Blood.
Crying.
Wally.
Dead.
Dead!
Dead!
Dead!
...
It's all real, right here at this very moment--no time has passed between then and now. Like a vicious cycle, he's forced to relive the event...
...But it's all in his mind, and even for Alice, it's incredibly painful to watch.
Seeing him like this forms a strange feeling within her...
...
Pity?
...
Regret?
...
As the flashback subsides, Shawn's screams turn into sobs; he slowly sits back up and stares at the wall again.
"Wally...I'm so sorry..." He holds his pounding head and watches the tears fall to the floor. "I...love...you..."
After one last longing look at the wall, he lays on his blanket and closes his eyes; Alice can still hear soft crying...then witnessing no more movement, she silently shuts the door.
...
What have I gotten myself into?
...
He's...broken...
He deserved it.
No, he didn't...
He deceived me.
Me?
Me!
But look what you've done to him!
You?
You!
He got what he deserved.
But he didn't deserve it!
He lied! He snuck around! He was planning to escape, and leave me behind! He's just as bad as--
But because of you, he lost his lover! Just like how I did! You're just as bad as--
DON'T ARGUE WITH ME! I KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME!
I KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME!
YOU BANDAGED HIM UP! THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANTED, WHAT I NEEDED!
YOU DAMAGED HIM! THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU NEEDED!
ME?!
YOU!
YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!
YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!
HE WAS IN THE WAY OF MY DREAMS!
HE WAS THE KEY TO MY DREAMS!
HOW?!
HOW?! HE WAS HELPING US WITH OUR TASKS--
HE DOES OUR DIRTY WORK! NOTHING ELSE!
...
But...
No! There's nothing you can say that--
There's nothing you can say that--
DON'T INTERRUPT ME!
DON'T INTERRUPT ME!
She wants to scream, but her mouth won't open...
Enough of this. These are MY dreams. This is MY game, with MY rules. And no one--least of all YOU--will stop me.
Alice suddenly stands straight up and clenches her fists.
I'm not afraid of you, or him, or ANYTHING. Don't even TRY to test me.
It will NOT end well.
With dramatic movements, she forces her way into her dissection room--there, a squirming Lost One is bound on the surgery table.
"I must thank you for waiting ever so patiently for me, darling~" the tainted saint coos, and receives a frightened whine in response. "Now it's your turn! All I'll be needing from you today is your heart!"
The Lost One cries out and tries to wiggle out of the metal holdings, but it is futile.
"Oh, calm down, dear--it won't hurt, I promise. I won't feel a thing!" She giggles as she presses surgical scissors to their chest.
"Now, let's get to work~"
§
Thomas is prepared for absolutely anything...
...or so he thinks.
Convincing himself to go down that dark hallway leading to that ghastly Ink Machine, like a path to endless misery, is a difficulty in itself; the entire time he stomps down the corridor, he's muttering angrily to himself about turning back.
...
Thomas had told Wally to escape, but hadn't done so himself...
I hope he and Shawn are safe and happy, wherever they are...
...
He and Allison could have left, too...but...
They can't--or at least, he can't.
The Ink Machine is dangerous on its own, but left in the volatile hands of Joey...even worse...
He can't just let that happen. It would plague his conscience forever...
...
But Allison...
If she gets hurt, he'll never, ever forgive himself...but he knows she won't leave without him...
We stick together through everything. If she gets out, I do, too.
...
He hadn't even said goodbye when they passed each other...she had given him that lovely smile and a "Good luck, honey!", then slipped away...
"I love you, Allison," Thomas whispers to the empty darkness. "I'll see you when I...when I can. Stay safe..."
...
He unlocks the Ink Machine room door for what he hopes is the last time.
...
The machine-- his machine--is sitting there, almost peacefully. No clunks, no clinks, no groans, no drips...just nothing. It seems the contraption hasn't been used in quite a while...
Good.
...
But...does that mean that...
...
No. I won't let him hurt anyone else.
A thought of himself putting Joey through the machine flashes through Thomas's mind, and he smirks just slightly.
Well...maybe...
...
Where the hell is he, anyway?
It seems his boss is running late to his own appointment.
...
No, no, no, no! Enough of this bullshit!
If Joey doesn't show up within five minutes, Thomas decides, then he's leaving.
For good.
~
Five minutes.
"These don't work!" Joey snaps at Fredrick, slamming the pill bottle on the countertop. "I've been taking them all day, but you know what I feel? Nothing! You lied to me!"
"I never told you they would work," the dealer responds calmly. "I just let you keep them--you're the one who assumed that they were effective."
"You--no--I didn't--you--arghhh!" He pelts the container at the other, who swiftly steps to the side to avoid it. "Fuck you!"
"I suggest you be very careful with what you say to me, Joseph, especially since you're already in tr--"
"Give me something that works! Now!"
"No! You don't have the money!"
"I'll get it to you, I promise! But--"
"You've been saying that for a month!"
Four minutes.
Joey feels like he's dying, with his heart beating so rapidly and his head pounding and his veins screaming for chemicals, substances, something!
He seizes Fredrick's arm. "Please, please, please, Fredrick--I'll pay everything by the end of the week--just please give me something to get me through the night, and I'll--"
"Absolutely not." Fredrick struggles to pull his arm out of Joey's grip. "I trusted that you would keep your word, but you continue--"
"Please!"
"No!"
"Please! Just a little bit!"
"No!"
"I need the drugs!"
"I need the money!"
"Drugs!"
"Money!"
Three minutes.
Fredrick shoves the studio owner away and frees his arm. "You are not getting a single thing from me until you pay up!"
"Nooooo, Fredrick, pleeeeease!" Joey feels himself starting to cry and goes to cover his eyes...when he notices that bag of white powder still on the other end of the counter.
...
Thinking quickly, he knocks the bottle of fake pills onto the floor on Fredrick's side.
"Oh, yes, very mature, Joseph," the dealer snarls, bending down to pick up the container...
Three minutes.
The boss races to the other end of the counter and grabs the bag just as Fredrick looks back up.
"HEY! GET YOUR HA--"
*BANG* The door slams shut--Fredrick rips it open and runs down the hallway, watching for any sign of his thief.
Joey reaches his office and hastily locks the door, then leans against it and tries futilely to catch his breath.
...
Two minutes.
He tears open the bag and scoops up a handful of the cocaine--it feels like powdered sugar on his skin.
"...I'm...not...desperate..."
He brings the powder to his face and tries to inhale it through his mouth, causing a coughing fit; some of the substance falls through his fingers, so he inhales as much as he can from the big pile, then forms smaller piles with the excess and takes those in.
...
One minute.
His brain feels weird--kind of fuzzy, but in a good way. As his coughing dies down, a dreamy feeling arises in him, and his mind feels a lot clearer...
Thirty seconds.
Joey looks at the clock and remembers what he's supposed to be doing.
"Oh..."
He zips up the bag and throws it into a drawer in his desk--without even thinking about Fredrick pursuing him, he hurries down to the Ink Machine room.
~
Thomas stares at his watch.
Ten...
Nine...
Eight...
Seven...
He just barely smiles--it seems he'll get to see Allison much earlier than expected.
Six...
Five...
Four...
He turns to leave.
Three...
Two...
"Thomas!" Someone grabs his shoulders.
No...
Thomas very, very slowly turns back around, his gloomy grimace dripping with disappointment.
"Now, let's get this over with as smoothly and ah--ef--effffficiently as possible, Tommy, 'cause I've got places to be." Joey feels like he's on top of the world, that nothing--no human, ink creature, or fickle magic death machine--can possibly stop him from achieving his dreeeeeeaaaaams!
The extremely ironic request just further aggravates the GENT worker. "Where's the witness?"
"SShhhe should be on her way pretty soon--there we go!" He points at an forty-something women with tightly-tied-back brown hair; her smooth black dress waves slightly as she struts to them with a judgmental expression.
She introduces herself before Joey can. "Emma Lamonte. Renowned dancer hailing from London. You'll come to find that we'll be seeing each other quite a bit." Her voice is low and as cold as her demeanor.
Thomas, although confused, goes to shake her hand, but Joey swats it away.
"No time to talk--we've got work to do. Emma, is our, ummmm, special guest ready?"
"Yes, she's in the other room...but I suggest you hurry along with this one's procedure so she doesn't get suspicious."
"Who is it?!" Thomas demands, almost fearful of the answer.
It can't be...
...
No, it actually can't be. He watched her go out the door...
But then...
Joey either doesn't hear or just blatantly ignores the question. "Mkay, good--you stand back then, and I'll handle him."
Emma slips back into the shadows as the boss turns back to his construction worker.
"Heheheheh, you always bitched about how much you hate working for me, Tommy..." the boss slings his arm around Thomas and practically shoves him to the Ink Machine -- "but you won't need to worry about that anymore!"
"What--you--no! I won't let you!" He stands defensively in front of the machine. "You can't use it without me--"
"Oh stop. We both know that isn't true. Because I do what I want." He steps back and looks to the ceiling with fanciful sparkles in his eyes. "And I will continue to, with no one to ever, ever stop me! I'll bring my ssstudio out of this, uh, struggle--I'll hire new everythings and make so many cartoons and present the first-ever living characters and be super famous and rich again and--"
"No! That will never happen, no matter what you do! Believe, believe, believe--but there's nothing to believe in! I'm tired of playing pawn in sick little games! You dream the impossible!"
"I'll possiblize the impossible!" Joey throws his arms up dramatically. "I'll erase alllll their doubts! I'll show you! I'll show Henry! I'll show everyone--OWW!"
Thomas finally does what he's been wanting to do for a very, very long time--punch Joey in the nose.
"No! I'm not doing your dirty work anymore! Get away from me!"
The boss stumbles as he grabs his bleeding nose. "Emma!"
In a flash, the dancer dashes over and snatches Thomas by the side, pulling him downward--she has a surprising strong grip.
Then Joey shoves him backwards so his head is right under the spout; Thomas desperately tries to fight them off, but their combined forces resist his jerks.
"Allison will be so happy to see you~" Thomas hears the sinister squeal of the ink racing down the spout...
*FWOOSH--*
...
...
...
...
...
*Bonk* Thomas hits his head against something metal; gradually, he opens his eyes to a cramped room of cages...
...and he's laying in one.
Thomas's eyes widen as he tries to yell, but only a grunt comes out.
...
Standing up, he looks himself over...first from his feet, then up his legs, to his hands...
...
His hands are white gloves...his legs shaped like rubber limbs...
...
He crosses his eyes...and what he sees through the blur is certainly not a normal nose...
...
Finally, Thomas touches the top of his head...to feel two things positioned upon it...
...
He rattles violently on the bars of his cage, but no one is around to see or hear him...
And he can't make a vocal sound...
...
In another cage to his left, something--someone--is sitting and staring pensively at the ceiling; she has long black hair with horns and a halo, and is wearing a very familiar dress...
When Thomas shakes his cage, she breaks her placid gaze at the darkness and smiles at him. "Oh, you're awake."
...
Allison...
He runs to the end of his cage and reaches through the bars to her--she backs away slightly, looking surprised and confused.
...
Then she slowly comes forward again, still smiling that smile Thomas loves so much. "What's your name?"
...
WHAT?
He tries and tries and tries to say the answer, to ask her what happened, to comfort her...but he can't even manage more than a soft, low murmur.
...
No... no...
Breathing in deeply, Thomas focuses on getting the words out...
"I--Th--"
They aren't coming from his mouth...more like his mind...
"Thomas. I'm Thomas Connor--your husband. And you're my Allison. Do you...remember?"
The angel looks even more bewildered. "I...I don't know who you're talking about. I don't have a husband...I mean, I don't think so." She touches her forehead. I...can't really remember. I don't even know how I got here..."
...
Thomas is too stunned to mind-speak.
"Are you okay? You look kind of scared," Allison casually mentions.
...
"I'M GOING TO SLAUGHTER HIM!"
"Huh? Who?"
"J--Th--He--" He can't even explain...how can he? She won't remember...
She doesn't remember anything...
About him...
About herself...
About them...
...
Thomas falls to his knees and makes a whining noise very similar to a dog's.
...
"You seem upset. Do you want to talk about it?"
...
He very slowly looks back at her, shaking his head.
...
"Okay...well, I'm very sorry that you're sad..." She hesitates...then reaches out her hand through the bars just like he had.
...
Thomas reaches out after her...and their fingers meet...
*BAM* The door opens violently, and in flounces Emma, muttering angrily to herself.
"The bathroom, of all places! Oh, but there are no other areas for an office? Hmp! This wretched studio is full of rooms! No respect whatsoever...see if I put in a good word for him once I'm finished with these..."
"Who is she?" Allison raises an eyebrow at Thomas, who eyes the floor and sighs.
Emma scrutinizes the toons, her icy stare dripping with disapproval. "I swore I'd never get involved in this kind of... garbage again..."
"Get away from us!" the Boris snaps mentally, but it seems she can't hear him.
"Oh well, I suppose. Now, I expect you two to behave well with me...or there will be very harsh consequences." She wrinkles her nose.
"What are you going to do with us?" Even baffled Allison is wary.
Emma chuckles condescendingly. "What am I going to do with you ? No no, it's what you'll be doing for me . Alice, Boris...you are going to dance !"
...
The toons, extremely perplexed, look at each other, then back at the dancer.
She doesn't notice their expressions. "Or, you will dance, anyway. But as for right now, I'm going to keep an eye on you two so you don't, say, try to escape. That means you especially, mutt." Emma sneers at Thomas.
...
On impulse, he rattles the cage bars again, even harder this time. The dancer merely watches him with a snobby smile.
"It's no use--even if you do manage to break them, you have me and a locked door to get past. So just give it up, doggy."
They lock eyes, and it's difficult to tell who is more determined.
"Get some sleep while you can, angel," Emma advises Allison. "You've got some hard days coming up."
...
...
"We've got a lot of work to do."
§
In an overconfident rush, Joey arrives back home and waits (very impatiently) by the phone.
With an excess of excitement and no one to chatter to, he talks to himself.
"Bertie's going to be so proud of me when I finally reveal the living toons and he'll say I'm a genius--because I am--and fall super super in love with me and maybe ask me to marry him so that he can be engaged to the intelligentest person ever, and of course I'll say yes--oh, and Henry will be sooooooo jealous! He'll read about in the newspapers and hear about it on the radio and will never ever escape the word about how smart I am, and he'll say, 'Oh no, I shouldn't have left the studio because otherwise I might have become famous or something," and he won't get invited to any of the fancy little dinner parties that Bertie and I go to because he's just a stupid commissions artist, and he'll be so so sad and regret everything he ever did. And I'll get so much money that I could buy every single drug ever from Fredrick, and he won't complain, "yOu'Re nOt PaYinG mE bAcK" because I would literally have no debt to anyone at all, and--"
...
...
But even the one-sided conversation becomes tedious as the night goes on...and as the cocaine wears off and Joey's headache returns, he lays on his couch, wracked with guilt and paranoia.
He's coming, he's going to find me, he's here, he can't be, no, he's going to kill me, I'm going to die, I need to hide, I can't hide-- he can't shake the feeling that Fredrick is going to break into his house and murder him in his sleep because of the theft.
And Thomas and Allison...he can't, he won't let them escape like the other toons did...
Are they dead? Where are they? Are they going to come kill me too?! Fredrick will find them and they'll all come kill me!
Emma...she could fight them off...she could save me...
Maybe I can run away to...to--to Britain! They wouldn't find me there, right? And Bertrum would protect me if they did find me...
...
He's not calling. Why not?! He promised!
Nonono, he probably hates me now, or something! Maybe Fredrick called him and told him everything and now he wants to kill me too?!
I don't want to die!
...
I...
Actually...
Maybe I...
Anxiety feeds exhaustion, and Joey is still wide awake past midnight.
He stares at the phone fiercely, as if he can intimidate it into ringing.
...
He forgot me.
He doesn't care.
He hates me, just like everyone else...
...
He wants to cry, but can't...his mind feels so numb...
I hate myself. Even more than they do.
Joey rolls over and stares at the ceiling, too tired to fall asleep...
...
Then...
The phone finally rings.
Joey has never moved so quickly.
"Bertie!" He's a little dizzy from sitting up too sharply.
"Hello, Joey. I'm sorry for calling so late--busy day today. What time is it where you're at?"
So, so glad to hear Bertrum's voice again, Joey leans against the wall and squints at his watch. "Um...uh, 1:37 in the morning..."
"Oh, then I apologize for waking you up; I can call back in the mo--"
"Nono, you're just fine...I can't sleep anyway." He smiles and sighs. "So...you don't hate me?"
"...What? No, of course not. I was just busy. Why would I hate you?"
"N-Nothing...uh, so tell me what's going on in your part of the world."
"All right--so, when I first arrived..."
Bertrum gives Joey the whole blow-by-blow of his day...and for once, the boss can feel his worries subsiding as he listens to his oddly-soothing voice...
"Bertie?" he asks when the architect finishes his incredibly-detailed account.
"Yes?"
"...Is there any chance you could return early?"
"I don't know, Joey...I'll see what I can do."
"Okay..." Joey pauses, then speaks barely above a whisper. "I miss you..."
"I miss you too."
Another bit of silence...
"Are you feeling okay?" Bertrum inquires. "You sound sick."
"I'm fine...just tired..."
"Then I'll get off--"
"No, you don't need to--"
"--so you can take care of yourself. Goodnight, Joey. Please get some sleep."
"...Goodnight, Bertie."
...
Neither hang up, however--it feels like something is missing.
...
"Um, yeah...goodnight."
"Goodnight."
Joey fixates on the phone as he haltingly hangs it up...
...
...
...
Joey's chest feels empty without the eloquent British voice he loves orating in his ear...
The house is cold, lonely, and dark...
...
It hurts. It always hurts.
...
...
After another unsuccessful attempt to sleep, Joey gets up, goes to his bathroom sink, and splashes water on his face.
...
...
In the mirror, he can see a man with very dark circles under his eyes, dried blood around his nose, auburn hair that hasn't been properly combed in days...and blue eyes that look as if all the hopes and dreams have been sucked out of them.
...
I will never end up like him.
...
He slumps back to the couch, half-hoping that he'll fall asleep and not wake up...
But there's no rest for the wicked...
...
Just an eternity of dirty work.
Chapter 34: Chapter Thirty-Two - Playing With Fire
Notes:
A/N - Hihi!
It's been a hot minute! I hope my dear readers are doing okay! <3333
We're happy to say that we've been doing a lot better mentally--we got some therapy, and we'll be out of our bad household in about two months. Writing has been slow because I've graduated and will be 18 soon, so I've been doing Really Cool Adult Things like paying taxes and getting ready for college and working and paying taxes and touching grass and paying taxes. Also...we're kind of on our way out of the BATIM fandom due to a decreased interest in the content (among other reasons)--but don't worry, we'll finish this fic series. We've worked too hard on it to quit now.
Anyway, we hope you're doing okay...and if not, we hope things get better. We believe in you!
Stay safe, and thank you!
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Chapter Text
On a cold and wet day, Abby isn't too pleased to find a locked studio door and a shivering Joey.
"What--"
"Abby!" Her boss races to him and hands her the keys. "Can you unlock the door?"
"Why can't you?"
"Please?"
"But why--"
"Because I--just please do it--"
Realizing it's futile to question him and wanting to get out of the rain, Abby sighs and takes the keys.
They're greeted by a greasy man with dirty-blonde hair and a sharp scowl; the scowl quickly turns into a phony smile, however, when Fredrick notices Abby.
"Hello, madam." His polite tone starkly contrasts from his rough looks.
"Hello..." Abby mutters with a confused look, as Joey seems to be hiding behind them. "Who are you?"
"You could say I'm a supplier of sanity...isn't that right, Mister Drew?" He peers behind her at Joey as if he's a shy little kid; the latter backs away, and Fredrick pulls him by the arm. "I'll take him off your hands~"
Joey rapidly shakes his head and tries to non-verbally beg Abby to help him (who only gives him a confused look in return), but Fredrick drags him away.
The boss closes his eyes as he's shoved against the wall and opens them to see the bag of cocaine swinging in front of his eyes.
"You aren't very good at hiding your evidence, darling~"
Joey futilely tries to fight him off...then feels something metal force against his chin, followed by a *click*.
I am going to die.
...
For a split second, he wants Fredrick to shoot.
It would…put him out of his misery.
But no–it can't end here...for some reason involving his new living toons, or future dreams, or Bertrum's return, or a brighter future, or something like that. He cannot just give up…just like that.
Joey's eyes become wet, complementing his weak voice. "Please don't..."
"Don't what?"
"Don't–” Joey said, and paused in between, still trying to frame the words. “Don’t kill me. Please."
The sentence comes out worse than he expects. His ego just will not allow him–the Joey Drew–to sound like a desperate beggar.
Fredrick laughs sharply. "Oh, my dear Mister Drew, what good would it do me to kill you now? No no, this--" -- he slides the gun down to Joey's jugular vein-- "--is just to keep you from misbehaving. I was a fool to let you slip away from me, but rest assured that it won't happen again~"
The only sound that follows is Joey's heavy breathing.
Fredrick continues, "I have decided on your punishment for your continual failure to pay. Since you can't seem to gather the money from your own efforts...you'll be working under me."
"W-What?"
"Drugs don't stock themselves, my dear. After your regular work day is over, you'll be helping me with my...line of expertise."
"But--"
The dealer presses the gun harder on Joey's neck, and the latter decides to shut his mouth.
"Meet me at the doors at five-thirty--no later. And do not even dare skip this, because I will know..." He smirks, delicately running a finger down his victim's cheek. "I know a lot of people that I don't think you would want to meet, my darling. And you wouldn't want to make your sanity supplier angry, now would you?"
Fredrick watches Joey squirm for just a minute longer before removing the gun and lightly pushing him away. "I'll see you tonight, Joseph~"
Joey stands for a moment, still trying to process what just happened.
But–
What if Bertrum calls? And I'm not there?
When will I ever get to sleep?
…
I...
He listlessly wanders toward his office, feeling as if someone else is guiding his movements.
Out of nowhere, something grabs his collar and pulls him aside--he fears it's Fredrick again--
Thankfully, though, it's Abby, and she seems confused and angry.
"What is going on with you? Who was that?"
Joey is lost for words, and takes a few minutes to frame a somewhat workable lie.
"He's a fellow businessman."
"Here to help drag you out of the mess you've gotten yourself into, I hope? Or is the other way around, and he's a money collector–"
"He's–”
The excuses are not going to work, so he decides to change the subject completely. “Just don't worry about it, okay? I have it under co–"
Abby knows the rest is going to be a bunch of nonsense, so she cuts him off before she is forced to hear another word. "I know, I know, you have it under control. You say that every single damn time--look at me!"
She stands in front of Joey before he can get too far, and suddenly understands why he doesn't want her to look at him. He looks like he hasn't slept in a year, his hair is unkempt, and his collared shirt is so wrinkly that she suspects he slept in it last night.
"I…”
…
“Joey...I say this as nicely as I can... but you look like death itself." Abby is split between telling him to go home and rest or continuing to nag at him about his work; she settles with, "Well, you brought this upon yourself, so you figure out how to deal with it."
Her disheartened boss just silently walks away, leaving Abby feeling that she might have been a little too harsh.
"Wait."
Joey stops and glares darkly at the ground.
"Joey--I'm sorry.”
A sigh escapes.
“I don't mean to be so pushy--I'm just trying to help. These last few months haven't been great, but it's not too late to turn it around. If we publicize it enough, Bendy Land could be a great success, and we can use the income from it to start again. We can fix this--we will fix this. You know…‘dreams come true’...just like you used to say."
...
He doesn't respond.
...
"...Do you remember, Joey?"
All she is met with is silence.
...
"Please..." She reaches for him--
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" Joey swats her arm away and heads off to his office.
The world should just go away once he's in the privacy of his little section of the studio, but reality slaps him in the face.
Everything is a mess, much beyond the usual amount of untidiness Joey ever caused. All of the desk's drawers have been ripped out and emptied upon the floor...as if someone had been searching for something in a fit of rage.
...
The cocaine.
He had hidden it in his desk.
Fredrick has the cocaine now.
…
FUCKING DAMN IT.
With heavy breaths, he stumbles to his desk to see another act of destruction.
Across from his chair to the left is a mirror--where he had prepared his appearance for employee interviews when Henry was still around, where he stared listlessly when unmotivated, where he had fixed his looks again and again before his office date with Bertrum.
...
But now all Joey sees is his shattered reflection.
...
The boss slowly sinks down into his chair, lays his head on the desk...and cries.
Why does everything go to hell?
It's not going to get better.
Anything we could do would be pointless .
Everything is too broken.
Weeping somehow makes it better, and Joey finds himself becoming more numb.
And...I don't care.
...
As his tears dry, he lets sleep overtake him.
...
Let the world burn.
§
"Useless. Pathetic. Weak. I almost regret keeping you alive."
A kick to the forehead adds injury to insult...but despite the pain, Shawn doesn't get up.
"Limp and lazy, like a ragdoll. Your toys have more energy than you do."
Still no reaction--Alice frowns and wonders if her little errand boy is dead. That's not fair! I wanted to be the one to kill him!
"WAKE UP! NOW!"
Nothing. He doesn't even seem to be breathing...
She lifts him up and violently shakes him, forcing him to open his eyes.
"Much better. You really thought I'd be fooled by playing dead?"
Shawn stares desolately at a crack on the floor.
It wasn't faking.
It was wishing.
"It's like this every single day--you sleep and cry and mope around and I have to do all the work! I have much more angelic things to focus on besides--"
The toymaster servant stops listening. She's right...it's the same thing every time...
So why keep complaining but take no action?
Why not do what you say you want to do?
Why not just fucking kill me?
Like you did to...
...
He doesn't have the energy or will to talk back, anyway.
There's no point.
There's no point to anything without...
...
Alice seems to have finished her spiel, and Shawn finally gazes up at her.
"Were you even listening?! Aren't you going to start bawling now, like the feeble dross that you are?"
Knowing that he'll burst into tears the moment Alice walks out of the room, Shawn forces himself to stay emotionless.
"No? I guess you've finally learned that it doesn't--"
She suddenly stops, startled.
...
"Wait here. I've got some...trash to take out."
Shawn tilts his head and hears what had caught her attention--heavy thunks sound from the floor beneath them.
While Alice goes to investigate, he lays back down and lets the tears fall...
...
Pain isn't a strong enough word to describe what he feels.
Eternal, excruciating hurt...
...
"I miss you so much..."
...
He's not ready to accept it yet.
...
Very deep inside, he knows that the presence he's speaking to is not real...just a mournful figment of his imagination.
But it's...comforting.
...
"You were so brave...you could have taken her down. We could have..."
No...it hurts again.
He rolls over and cries.
"We...you...I...I'm so sorry! I should have stopped her, I should have known, I should have escaped, I should have saved you, I should have--"
...
Regret. Forever.
...
Shawn's tears subside as he sits up.
"I'm...so sorry..."
Staring at a crack in the floor, he thinks about what Alice had said...
Useless. Pathetic. Lazy. Weak. Crying all the time.
Crying...
...
"She's right...all I ever do is cry. I really am useless..."
He turns his eyes to the opposite wall, as if it will give him the answers to his unsolvable problems...
"But...no...it doesn't have to be that way. Right? I...I could stop her. I could escape. Right?" Shawn smiles at someone nonexistent. "That's what you would have done...what you would have wanted for me."
...
"Right?"
He knows the answer would be yes. Wally would want him to keep going...to stay alive...
To end the angel.
...
"No...I can't...she'd rip me to shreds..."
...
Shawn turns and punches the wall, letting his rage overtake him.
"BUT THAT'S WHAT SHE DESERVES! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE, JUST LIKE HE DID!"
The image of Wally's death flashes in his mind, and all the memories start flooding back--Shawn sinks to the ground, sobbing.
"I...I can't...escape. Not without you. I-I'm not that strong, Wally..."
Wishing his boyfriend was here to hold and kiss and comfort him, the toymaker eyes the opposite wall again.
"I'm so sorry..."
...
Useless.
"I can't do anything at all. She'll find a way to win. She..."
A solution hits him.
"...doesn't have to win. If this is her game...then I can find a way to cheat."
The possibility gives him a tiny bit of hopeful energy--just enough for him to stand up.
"I don't have to play by her rules--I can ruin everything for her. She'll never be perfect again...or..."
Shawn races to the door and presses his forehead to it; the hard surface seems to help him think.
"She's up to something more--with her claims of how busy she is both when I'm slaving away for her or not, she has to be doing more than just 'restoring' her face. She's power-hungry...and vengeful. Even if she managed to change her appearance...she wouldn't stop there."
Realization...
"You were proof of that. You weren't even involved...and she..."
A single tear falls, and he clenches his fist.
"I won't let her hurt anyone else like she hurt us. She may have me trapped, but she can't pull my strings. I can stop her, and I will."
...
Shawn swears he can feel a presence wrapping around him like a warm hug.
"...I love you. I love you so, so much...and I wish I had said it to you more. But...I'll make sure no one else has to feel that regret."
He holds a non-existent hand...
"Thank you, Wally..."
§
Meanwhile, an angel spots an uninvited guest in her heavens.
"Sneaking around in places you shouldn't...as usual. You truly haven't changed a bit, Norman."
"Ah, old habits die hard, Susan."
"That's Alice to you!" Alice struts gracefully down the stairs and stops before the fountain a few feet in front of Norman, seemingly hesitant to approach any closer. "And I'm sorry to spoil your fun, but you are trespassing on my territory."
"Oh? I apologize--I didn't realize you had claims on this ground." Even with the Projectionist's lack of facial expressions, the angel can hear the smirk in his inner voice.
"You see these posters? You see these toys, modelled in likeness of me?" The heavenly host gestures to the merchandise on the wall and floor. "You see that sign? Heavenly Toys? This is my divine kingdom, my pearly gates! And you are not allowed in!"
...
Alice is surprised (and a little disappointed) to receive silence in response rather than the witty remark she was expecting.
"So, um...leave."
...
Finally, Norman speaks.
"...This is what we were trying to save you from. You've let your obsession of becoming a perfect fictional character consume you, Susan--"
"MY NAME IS ALICE! AND I AM THE ANGEL!" Alice stomps like a toddler. "AND YOU ARE UNDER MY COMMAND! NOW LEAVE!"
"You don't have to live like this! Please, let go of--"
"DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO! I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU!" As if to prove her point, she steps towards him with an arm raised with intent to harm, but Norman stops her.
"I don't want to fight you, Su--Alice. I want to help you. I..." The Projectionist chooses his next words carefully. "I know Joey--"
"DON'T MENTION THAT MONSTER'S NAME! I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP! LET ME GO!" She attempts to tug her arm free; Norman passively releases it. "NOW GO!"
His chest makes a strange movement--Alice thinks it's a sigh.
"...Okay. I'm sorry I bothered you."
The Projectionist lumbers toward the exit...then halts.
"What are you doing?! Leave!"
He is directing his lens at something small and dark on the floor...and Alice realizes what it is just as he goes to pick it up.
"Don't touch that!"
The writhing ink heart is disgusting...yet fascinating. Norman doesn't even want to give it back...
Where did you come from?
Why were you stolen from the body you formed in?
How are you still beating?
"Put that down! It's mine! PUT IT DOWN!"
Alice's voice pulls the Projectionist out of his mesmerized spell.
He doesn't even pause to think--Norman runs.
The angel's angry yells fade into the darkness somewhere around the fourth or fifth turn, and Norman safely reaches the drenches with the ink heart.
"Jack! Look what I have!"
The Searcher's eyes widen in horror as his boyfriend drops a pulsing black heart into his hands.
...
Norman stands above him waiting for his response, but Jack is speechless.
"So? What do you think?"
"I...wh...what?"
"I'm giving you my heart!" The Projectionist sounds half-amused. "Well, I guess it's technically not my heart, but--"
"Where did you--how--?!"
"Susie. She and I had a little chat in Heavenly Toys, and I found this on the floor--apparently it belongs to her. Or, it used to, anyway."
"Why does she have it...or need it?" Jack drops the heart and backs away slightly, yet can't keep his eyes off it.
Norman picks it up again and tosses it from hand to hand as if touching dismembered organs is something he does every day. "I don't know, but it must not be an important reason seeing as she left it on the ground for any curious being to study."
The Searcher is not so comfortable. "...Maybe you should give it back. She's not the kind Susie we once knew--she might get mad and...and hurt you."
"I know...she's gone off the deep end. Believes she's really Alice. But..." He squeezes the heart slightly-- it oozes ink into the already-inky flood. "I almost don't want to give it back. I mean, she probably doesn't really need it..."
"But you do?"
"No...but I want it. Kind of reminds me of living...of being human, you know? It's hard to explain..."
"I think I understand...but..." Half-expecting Alice to suddenly burst into the room, Jack sinks a little more into the liquid ground next to his partner. "...please don't steal any more, for your safety. We've already made an enemy out of Sammy, and provoking Susie--Alice--might be dangerous. And...I don't really like the looks of that thing..."
"Don't worry, sweetheart--it'll just be this one heart. And I'll put it--" --the Projectionist drops the heart in a hidden corner-- "--here. Now you don't even need to look at it."
"Thank you." The Searcher hugs the other almost protectively. "But really, please, please don't bother her anymore."
Norman squeezes him back, but his lens seems unfocused. "But aren't you curious as to what she's up to? You could come with me and we could stalk her--"
"I don't want to stalk anyone anymore, Norman. That's what got us into this mess, and..."
There's a long silence.
"I don't want to put us in any more danger. I don't want to lose you. Please...just promise me you won't follow Alice anymore."
Another silence follows, but this one is shorter.
"Okay. I promise. I won't interact with her anymore." Jack is extremely relieved to hear sincerity rather than frustration in
Norman's voice.
"Thank you. I love you so much."
"I love you too."
It is the truth, of course--he loves Jack beyond words and would do anything to make him comfortable and happy. But even as he holds his precious Searcher...Norman's mind wanders and wonders...
To whom's body did that heart belong to?
Why did she remove it?
Has she removed more?
Why? Why? Why?
The Projectionist is vaguely aware of Jack releasing and moving away from him...
I want to find out.
I need to find out.
...
Maybe it's not too late. Maybe I can prevent more damage by interfering from the shadows...
Maybe I can make her realize who she really is...
...
I'm sorry, Jack...
But...
I will find out.
§
Taxes. Bills. Money.
Greed. Lies. Deception.
"But not anymore."
"What?" Dot lifts her eyes from her notebook.
"Oh, um, nothing." Grant tosses a heaping stack of papers into the burning barrel. "Just, uh, fueling our fire. For warmth, I mean."
"What are you putting in there?" Johnny asks.
"Um, just some old...stuff from my office. Stuff I don't have to deal with anymore." Stuff that I never want to deal with anymore. "They're, um...studio financial papers. Lots of bills...calculations...late notices." He takes a deep breath, then rips the sheets. "But it's all over now. I'm not that Grant anymore."
The Lost One throws the torn papers into the fire and watches them burn, burn, burn.
Yes...burn. Let your bright, beautiful flames turn them into ash...
"It almost feels like a...like a burden off my shoulders. Like...oh!"
He recognizes the numbers on one specific paper...and remembers a specific event...
"This is the sheet I had in front of me when I...got fired."
When he asked me to...commit a crime!
"Yes...this one is special." With a smile, Grant disappears around the corner, leaving two very confused teenagers.
"Where are you going?" Dot questions while Johnny asks, "What are you doing?"
"Just grabbing something!" He returns with his beloved matchbox; before the humans can even finish blinking, he lights a match and holds the paper above it.
The flames climb slowly yet quickly, and Grant takes them in like a kid watching fireworks.
So...pretty. So amazing...
"Heh...haha...hahahahaha--"
Just as the fire reaches the last edge of the paper, he drops it into the barrel.
...
Johnny and Dot are at a loss for words.
...
"Well, that was fun!" Wearing a mile-wide smile, the Lost One claps his hands once.
Johnny wrings their hands and murmurs, "Um...are you okay?"
"Me? I'm fine! Great, even! Now, what are you two looking at?" Grant curiously peers at Dot's journal.
"It's our...investigation notebook. Back before we met you, Buddy and us gathered information about everyone in the studio and recorded it here." She listlessly flips through the pages. "Guess it's not useful anymore, though..."
"You say there's a page for everyone?"
"Well, it's probably a little outdated now, but yes--"
Grant feels like his question is predictable, but he just needs to ask. "Can I see my page?"
"Oh, um...sure." The writer starts to hand it off to him, then hesitates. "Wait--you aren't going to burn it, are you?"
"What? Burn it? Of course not! Why would I do that?" Grant takes it from her gently and reads.
"'Married to his job'...heh, I guess I can see why you'd say that..." He laughs, but it seems a little forced. "Didn't really have much of a life outside of work..."
"I know now that I misjudged you a bit." Dot looks apologetic, but is relieved when Grant smiles.
"It's okay. I know I wasn't the most social person--and, uh, guess I'm still not--and I was...well, kind of trapped in that office."
A pause, then:
"I was...really lonely. But...I suppose that was my own fault. I mean, I've never been interested in having a spouse, and my family situation is...um, complicated, so I didn't have anyone to go home to. And I didn't mean to seem so cold to others...I just--"
"Grant," Dot interrupts softly.
Realizing that he's been ranting, the Lost One turns away in shame. "I'm sorry--"
"Don't apologize--it's okay. We don't judge you for getting it all off your chest."
Before Grant can express his thanks, Johnny runs up and hugs him.
"I-I'm sorry you were so sad, and that no one checked on you..." They look like they might cry.
"Oh--it's all right! I'm not lonely anymore! Please don't cry...or I'll cry..." He hugs them back, and Dot joins in. "You guys have made me so happy...and I hope--"
Something clangs from behind the door, causing Grant to jump.
...
Dot is the first to get up, but the Lost One holds her back.
"Stay here. I'll check." It'sokayit'sokayit'sfinethere'snothingtobescaredof--
...
Pleasedon'tbeSammypleasedon'tbeSammy--
He gently opens the door...
A drop hits his forehead, and he looks up--
"AAAAAAAAAAAAA!"
Grant slams the door and holds it shut.
"Hide."
As the thing on the other side of the door hits harder and harder, Dot and Johnny duck under the table.
Suddenly, the beating stops...
...
The Lost One listens a little longer, then cautiously backs away...
*BAM*! An inky arm bursts a hole through the wall--Ink Bendy rips it like a piece of paper, sticking his head in and showing off his wide, eerie smile.
Johnny lets out a fearful squeak, and Dot puts an arm around them protectively.
Part of Bendy's torso is inside the room--he reaches for the teenagers--
"DON'T TOUCH MY KIDS!"
The demon screeches as a wooden plank smacks his head.
Grant plunges the board into Bendy's neck until he backs out; after failing to break the unconventional weapon, the monster gives one last hiss and careens away.
...
Dot and Johnny emerge from their hiding place as the Lost One practically passes out into a chair.
"You saved us!" The musician immediately sweeps him in a hug.
"Heh...y-yeah..." Grant is still a little shaken up and out of breath. How did I do that...?
Dot stands back with an unreadable expression, and Grant shuffles in his seat awkwardly.
"A-Are you all right?"
She's too lost in thought to respond...
"Don't touch my...kids..."
His...kids...
Now Grant is worried. I must have done something wrong...but...what?
But then she smiles. "I'm okay. Thank you so much."
"No...thank you. I mean, um..." He wrings his hands. "You say I saved you, but really...you two saved me first. I know I've said that before...but it's true. You took away my loneliness and gave me happiness...and a purpose." The Lost One realizes he's rambling again. "Sorry--I just--can't express my gratitude enough--"
"You don't need to prove anything to us--your actions say it all. And we are extremely appreciative of everything you've done for us." she assures him, and Johnny nods in agreement.
Grant feels an unfamiliar sparkly sensation in his chest...like pride in himself.
"But...maybe we should fix that hole." Dot tilts her head towards the damage Bendy made.
"Oh, um, uh, right. Well, um, I'm not sure what we should use..."
*RIIIIPP*! Johnny tears off a Bendy poster from the wall and gives the other two a wide grin.
Dot and Grant exchange nonplussed looks; the former says, "I guess that'll work. We don't have many other options."
They haphazardly adhere it to the spot, and when the teenagers have returned to focusing on their notebook, the Lost One glares at Bendy's paper face.
...
"I won't let you or anyone else hurt them again."
§
After a long, blurry, exhausting day, the last thing Joey wants to do is meet up with Fredrick...but it's the fear of what will happen to him if he doesn't that drives him to go.
...
I miss Bertie...
He tries to keep a low profile as he trudges down the hall, and almost succeeds--until he feels a tap on his shoulder and jumps.
"ABBY! DON'T--"
"Abby?" Emma raises a judgmental eyebrow. "In case it isn't clear, I am not them. And there's no need to yell--"
"DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!" Joey ducks away, but turns back around at the dancer's offended gasp.
"You ought to treat me properly, Mister Drew, or you won't have have a toon babysitter much longer--"
"I'msorryI'msorryI'msorry--" He takes a deep breath and tries to talk quickly. "Emma, I'm sorry for snapping at you, but I have a really urgent appointment in a few minutes, and--"
"No. You will join me with your toons, and--"
"Emma, I'm sorry, I really can't--"
"STOP interrupting me! And that's Miss Lamonte to you!" She steps uncomfortably close, radiating antipathy. "You said yesterday that you would supervise as I taught those...things to dance, and I demand that you hold yourself to that declaration."
"I realize that, but this situation just came up this morning, and I--"
A hand covers his mouth and a pair of frigid eyes cuts into him.
...
"...Just what do you expect me to do, Joey? Don't think I don't know about your habit of--" (Joey's heartrate quickens) "--stalling. I've heard some things about you and your so-called business, yet I choose to ignore them. But I don't have to do that--test me enough, and I'll burn your reputation to the ground." Emma drops her voice to a venomous whisper. "Just because you keep my dirt buried doesn't mean I won't uproot yours."
...
Joey struggles to form words even after she removes her hand.
"Just...just leave them for today. I-I'll get things worked out so we can do it tomorrow. I promise."
He looks so utterly pitiful that Emma lets him off with "You better!" and a resigned sigh.
Hoping that Fredrick won't shoot him the minute he steps into his sight, Joey hastens to the meeting spot.
"Hello, darling. Glad to see you finally decided to show up~" the dealer greets him, spinning his gun by the trigger. "I was almost convinced I'd have to take...further action--"
"Please...just get it over with..." Joey can't tell if his shivers are from fear or withdrawal.
"Fair enough. Now, listen closely, dear." Fredrick guides him to an empty table. "What we--that is, you--are going to do here will be confidential and strictly monitored. That means no snitching...or stealing."
Joey's skin prickles as his 'doctor' laughs and reveals a bag of cocaine.
Fredrick seems to read his mind. "No no, this isn't yours. Can't sell that now that you dug into it. Though...there might be a few desperate souls that would take it--unwittingly, of course. But anyway--"
Keeping a watchful eye on the other, he sets the large bag, a multitude of smaller bags, and a scoop on the counter.
"I'm sure you can figure out what you'll be doing here."
Joey is silent, completely entranced by the bag of cocaine.
The dealer picks up the scoop, gathers a bit of the drug, and pours it in a small bag in a mock demonstration.
"See? Easy." After handing the scoop to Joey, Fredrick leans back and fondles a small bottle. "While you handle that, I'll do the pills. Get through those bags, and I'll decide whether I should make you do more or not. Understand~?"
Joey opens his mouth...then closes it. Time will pass quicker if he doesn't ask questions.
"Oh, and don't go thinking you can sneak a little bit, my dear Joey--I'll be watching you the entire time~." As if to flaunt his ability to do what he wants, Fredrick pops a few pills like candy.
The next hour is so tedious that if this situation were to be written in a fanfiction, the author wouldn't even bother describing the petty details.
What makes it even more unbearable is that the drugs are right in front of him, yet he can't have them...
"Not so much--we don't want to give them more than what they pay for!"
By the time they finish, it's barely dark, but it feels like midnight to Joey.
"You did well, darling. Keep it up, and you could move upward toward doing the selling yourself."
"I--no--I'm not--" He's too tired to finish the sentence. "Just...never mind."
Knowing he has Joey under his thumb, Fredrick smirks and declares, "Same time tomorrow, then."
"Actually--I--I can't do that. I have to...a..." The image of Emma's livid face flashes in his mind. "She'll--I mean, I have something else I need to work on tomorrow. I can't come."
"Then show up earlier." The dealer examines his bottle, clearly not caring at all about his customer's problems. "I'm not just going to let you skip--you have to manage your schedule yourself."
"But..." Joey does something he doesn't do very often--stops and thinks. Exhaustion, aches, and hunger muddle his ability to talk. "Okay...fine...I'll come earlier. Morning...sometime..."
"Good. I'll see you then, my dear--"
The owner doesn't stick around to hear any more of Fredrick's greasy voice--hoping that he hasn't missed Bertrum's call (and heavily desiring some food and sleep), he heads straight home, makes himself a sandwich, and checks his answering machine.
Unfortunately, Bertrum had called while he was away...but fortunately, he had left a message.
*Click*
"Hi, Joey...it's me. I hope you're doing okay. I'll probably be back later in the day tomorrow." A pause, then: "I miss you. Have a good night."
...
Joey replays the message three more times just to hear his beloved's voice...then whispers, "I miss you, too. Please hurry back."
...
The fatigue that has been gripping him all day guides him to the couch.
...
I want Bertrum.
...
I want drugs.
...
Everything else should just...not exist.
...
The world should burn.
Chapter 35: One More Shot, Then I'll Quitting Forever
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now come one come all to this tragic affair
i won’t make this any more than it needs to me.
i’m not apologizing, or trying to get any sort of attention, or being dramatic.
this is not directly at anyone or anything. i am talking to myself.
no one will understand this, at least not completely. only i will.
and i will push down any feeling of judgement from myself or anyone else.
because i need to be honest with myself. i need to think, and feel, and process, and…
…
it’s night.
not too late--just 8:14--but night enough that i’m an equal amount of disconnected and in-tune.
i couldn’t do this during the day. something about the day--when the brain is fully awake--causes one to judge theirself more harshly. to see theirself sharply through the eyes of others…
but at night…it’s different. the brain is calmer in the sleeping hours, yet also vulnerable to negative emotions, flashbacks, intrusive thoughts, and other things nobody likes to think about. that’s why you aren’t supposed to trust what you think after about 8 pm or so.
but at night is the only time i can be honest with myself. or the most honest with myself.
i should probably clarify for myself that this is me speaking. not the…others.
i don’t normally call them that. but even though this is being written for me and only me, i know that others may choose to read it, and…i don’t want to refer to them with the proper term if that is the case. i don’t want to bring up any bad memories.
but regardless, it is me. or at least as me as it can be in these depersonalizing conditions.
i also should probably talk about why i’m here…what this is all about.
i don’t really want to think about it by name right now, but i’m quitting it. that is all.
i have a link to a document for the next part of it , in case anyone who chooses to read this (or in some strange case, i myself) wants to see it. it is unfinished, as predicted, but that’s okay. it will be gone soon. i’ll explain more later.
oh, and this document will not be deleted like that mistake i made before. i made sure of that.
but anyway…
…
i’m a little disillusioned about it . a lot of disillusioned at times, i suppose.
a little bit from others’ actions and a lot bit from my own.
…
when i reached the end of it , as i decided long ago, i want to print it out and burn it .
partially to do with how it itself was going to end, and predominantly to do with my emotions towards it . burn them off, do you get it?
well, i care too much about the environment to hurt it with even a small smoke emission, and i really don’t feel like spending however much money it would take to print it even at this length. my student money card shudders at the thought.
but that’s okay.
when i first decided i would do this--i planned this very night out--at first i wanted to leave it burning--not physically, but...abstractly. it would make me feel better and also be really cool, right?
but maybe that wasn’t what i wanted, i thought as the nights went on.
maybe it needed to simmer, sort of. you know that thing campfires do when they are almost out, but not completely? like that.
i’m not really sure if it ’s on fire right now. i think that that’s in the eye of the beholder.
it will burn when i want it to.
when i want it to, i can…
…
i kind of miss the way it was before. well, when i’m actually feeling completely, i miss it a lot. i would even say i long for it.
back when it was just between me and my little group of online friends, and i wasn’t so worried about perception.
it was nice then. i actually had fun with it then.
some people might dismiss this kind of thought process. “stop with the extensive rambling--everyone goes through this, and you aren’t special for thinking this way.”
well, i’m not trying to be special. and even if this is something every single being in the galaxy goes through, well, does it not matter that this is me going through it?
it’s important to me.
but anyway…
it was fun then. smiles and fun comments and sparkly little times.
i want back my virginity, so i can feel infinity…
not physical virginity--emotional virginity. innocence. happy times.
but…
it isn’t fun anymore.
somewhere it got lost in my own hatred of it and my avoidance of things that happened before.
at first i thought it was just because i didn’t have time or energy. which was partially true--i had to focus on more important things and just didn’t have the resources (physical or timely) to work on it.
but when i did get the time and energy…i still couldn’t do it.
i dissociate when i try.
dissociate
that’s the medical term for it. and i’ve come to dislike that word for obvious reasons (absolutely unprecedented, my dissociative disorder makes me dissociate!).
but i think i like the words “numb” or “disconnect” more. they mean the same thing, but they just feel more…palatable.
it happens whenever i interact with anything that reminds me of the content now. i have learned how to avoid things that will remind me of it.
but still at times, i dare myself to look…
sometimes i get hurt, and sometimes i do not.
but i wouldn’t call that being safe, would you?
it seems i have a tendency to hurt myself intentionally, even if i know the consequences…
…
although addiction is a complex subject and a word that shouldn’t be used lightly, i think it is the right word when i say that someone can become addicted to anything. if it isn’t the right word, then dependance is. even if something hurts us--and we internally realize that that something will hurt us--we continue to use or do it because it makes us feel good temporarily…or we think it does.
people-pleasing comes as second nature to me. it’s what we call a “fawn response” to trauma, and it can and often does last for a long time as a internal reaction even after the source of the trauma is removed.
i didn’t realize how much of a people-pleaser i was until i separated myself from those i did it with. hindsight is 20/20.
and when one desperately tries to appease people--and hurts theirself emotionally and sometimes physically in the process--they often become fixated on how the people they are trying to please perceive them…which in turn can lead to a lot of (or worsening) self-hatred, identity blurring, and other not-so-nice things.
but even after realizing how their coping behavior affects them, one may still continue their behavior. why?
well, it may be the only thing they’ve ever known, the only way they’ve learned to develop relationships.
or, they don’t want to change, because change is painful and change is really, really hard.
…
they say everything in moderation, but i’ll drink you under the table.
and when one doesn’t want to change, they won’t. it’s so much easier to go into denial. so, so much easier!
step one, drink
step two, make mistakes
step three… pretend you don’t remember
step four, drink a little more
step five…
i need to run dry.
…
and denial doesn’t work as well as the one in denial might think.
they may think, if i’m not looking at it, it doesn’t exist. an intentionally-backward, emotional version of object permanence.
but the feelings are still there, whether you like it or not.
cryptozoology, you just might exist! schrödinger’s repressed memories.
i think i’m done explaining that now.
but you understand--let others define you, and you won’t have a definition for yourself.
i’m the invisible man who can’t stop staring at the mirror.
and yeah, part of my ordeal is/was the DID and all that, but my behaviors definitely played their part in it.
and…it really messes with you. during the time you’re doing it, yes, but just as much--if not more--after the fact.
and the record won’t stop spinning.
…
self-hatred seems to make you even more aware of others’ achievements.
if i was a seven deadly sin, i think i would be envy.
they do it better--can’t i do it like that?
why can’t i be like him?
how does she do it so well, and i can’t?
what makes xem so good and me so bad?
now, i don’t really care about numbers. follower counts, likes, shares, whatever, don’t mean a whole lot to me (although they definitely are still appreciated). it’s more the meaningfulness of the support. i can have 100000000000000 followers and not one of them actually care about me, or 2 followers that support me not just as a content creator, but as a person.
quality, not quantity.
i suppose this also begs the argument that nobody owes content creators emotional support or anything more than what they are willing to give. and i very much understand that point of view, because i hold onto that kind of argument in a lot of situations (like posts saying YOU HAVE TO SHARE ART OR YOU’RE NOT SUPPORTING ME YOU TERRIBLE HUMAN BEING!!!!!!!!!!!! no. i don’t owe you anything, especially not with that attitude.)
it’s not the silly little people online’s job to love you. so who is gonna?
oh no.
you have to love yourself.
but…that is so hard! especially if you’re a person who hasn’t experienced a lot of love from others in your life, or you don’t know how to love yourself, or you just simply struggle with that concept.
but that’s what it comes down to, after all the people-pleasing and denial and dissociation and everything in between.
…
just one more thing.
it was meant as a gift…which i thought was a great idea at the beginning, but you realize it isn’t so much when your giftee is a complete stranger that literally does not know you at all.
…don’t ask for details. i was young and stupid.
but i was lucky enough to get in contact with that person, and that person gave me a great piece of advice:
create for yourself.
i didn’t get it then, and maybe i don’t completely get it now. but i think it’s at least a little clearer now.
i had to make a ton of mistakes to get there, but i did figure it out!
so do that, if you’ve made it this far into my mountains of text. create for yourself.
not anyone else.
ever.
okay?
…
it’s a matter of shame for me.
not just it in itself (i’m starting to accept that i just don’t like the writing style of it , and that’s just the way it is), but the memories and difficult emotions that are attached to it .
and i don’t see a point in painting merry smiles to hide the truth.
because that will just hurt me more…
…
maybe i’m too young to be so hopeless
maybe i’m too young to be so bitter
but I swallowed life lessons by the chokeful
and came away looking like a quitter
but…sometimes it’s okay to quit.
to let it go.
the good, the bad, the dirty, and the downright abhorrent.
so that’s what i’m gonna do.
for all of the it s.
for ao3, i’m going to take off my username for this particular one, and maybe keep it on the ones i still have the slightest bit of pride in.
i’m quite sure my old username is somewhere in an ancient author’s note, but that’s all right.
just detaching myself from it--in a healthy way--seems like it will help.
and for wattpad, i’m keeping this account as an archive for my newly-detached-from works, so nobody’s reading lists or saved stories get messed up. if i write again, it will be on a different account. probably original stuff, since i don’t know if i will ever write this type again.
…
…
…
come on and feel that shame.
…
…
…
well, it’s 10:38 now, and i’m really tired. but i feel a lot better.
tomorrow morning--november 15th--i’ll put this up. then i can be done.
enjoy your new game. i don’t know if i’ll buy it because of the whole dissociation-from-that-content thing, but if not, i’ll make sure to enjoy papers please with the money i had saved up for it.
goodnight.
and as they say in needy streamer overload:
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