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"I figured I'd surprise you." Raven says looking up at Lexa with a smirk.
"With a plastic penis?" Lexa has an eyebrow raised and a surprised tone that Raven can't help but find amusing.
"God, why are you always so literal?" Raven responds teasingly. She's laughing so Lexa knows she's joking. "Plus if you want to get technical it's silicone, so it's actually rubber."
"It's quite literally a penis made of plastic and rubber. Silicone is a mixture of the two." Lexa says looking very pleased with herself. "Besides you told me before that you love how straight forward I am."
"It's a sex toy, Lex. And I do love your straight forwardness," Raven says stepping closer to Lexa with the strap on still in her hand. "Now put it on so we can get straight to the sex."
"Look, Rae. I'm not too sure-"
"Are you telling me that Miss. Lexa Commander Woods has never worn a strap on?" Raven cuts her off teasingly.
"Uhhh...yes." At that Raven starts laughing. Lexa glares at her half heartedly, slightly embarrassed by the line of discussion.
"Oh, shit you're serious." Raven says sounding shocked.
"Being a lesbian doesn't mean I'm automatically well versed in the world of sex toys, Rae."
"No, of course not!" Raven rushes to clear things up. "I just assumed you were at least a service top in the past. I mean you're all power suits and business moves I guess I kind of just, assumed?" Raven says more as a question, trying to smooth things over. "Plus you get kind of dominant when you're in Commander mode." Raven says teasingly before wiggling her eyebrows and placing a quick kiss against Lexa's lips.
"You know I hate when you call me that" Lexa says trying and failing not to grin.
"Yeah, but you love me." Raven responds, emphasizing the statement with a kiss.
"To the moon and back." Lexa says, leaning in for a soft kiss.
"How about this..." Raven starts, playing with the hem of Lexa's shirt. "You put it on and we'll try it out and if you don't like it you can just fuck me with your fingers instead."
Lexa shivers as Raven's breathy voice caresses the skin of her neck, her fingers just barely touching her abdomen underneath her shirt.
Lexa nods. Taking the harness from Raven's hand. She's already pantless, Raven's doing from moments earlier. Lexa easily slips her boy shorts down her legs and off.
After a few mishaps and some assistance from Raven, Lexa gets the harness on. She feels her cheeks heat up at the view of the dildo standing tall from between her legs. The heat heightens when Raven reaches for the shaft and strokes the length of it.
"It's definitely bigger than I was expecting," she says with a breathy laugh.
"You think you can take it all?" Lexa asks with an eyebrow raised.
"Oh so now you're getting cocky?" Raven laughs back.
"This is what you wanted, right?" Lexa jokes back.
Raven nods, looking up to Lexa from where she's sitting on the bed. Beckoning the woman forward with her finger.
Raven quickly pulls her panties off as Lexa goes to hover over her. When Lexa goes to wet the strap in her arousal Raven is sure that the woman is going to be a natural. Lexa's amazing at sex, why would this be any different. Except it is.
As soon as Lexa bottoms out her arms give despite them being toned from her frequent visits to the gym. They both brush it off and she gets back onto her arms, holding herself up with more ease. Her first stroke is sloppy at best, it doesn't quite hit the spot for Raven but she still moans. She rubs Lexa's back and encourages her to keep going.
"Just push a little deeper, baby."
Lexa groans in response and tries to follow directions but her thrusts still aren't meeting their mark. Raven puts her hands on Lexa's ass and tries to push her forward in an attempt to make the woman hit the right spots inside her but something just isn't right. Raven can hear the frustrated huffs and groans that Lexa emits as she tries to find a good rhythm with her hips. It's not long before Lexas hips are stuttering and her pants turn into light moans. Raven reaches up and pushes a finger into Lexa under where the strap on is sitting. At this point Lexa is pretty much sitting still inside of Raven with the exception of shallow thrusts in response to Raven's ministrations.
"Wait no, I want you to come first." Lexa gasps out. Despite her words Raven pushes another finger inside her and then she's seeing stars. When her mind is less foggy she realizes she's still inside of Raven doing pretty much nothing aside from pushing her hips as she rides out the aftershocks.
Lexa doesn't quite know what to say. She's embarrassed and wishes she had been better. She knew this was something that Raven wanted, something she desired, but she couldn't deliver.
"Hey, don't look like that. It's fine, you can't be perfect at everything off the bat, right?"
Lexa doesn't respond. She just slips out of Raven, loving the way the woman gasps in response. She takes off the harness and throws it off to the side.
"Come here" Raven says bossily.
She pulls Lexa over her and embraces her tightly, rubbing her hands soothingly over her shoulders and down her back.
"Umm maybe if you want I could try to put it on? Maybe if I get the hang of it it could help you figure it out?"
Surprise flashes over Lexa's features and her cheeks go red. She quickly shakes her head. "I- don't want that type of penetration."
"Hey, that's ok." Raven responds soothingly as she continues to rub Lexa's back. "It's not really my thing either. Plus, I want your fingers now."
At that, a smirk appears on Lexa's lips. She may have dropped the ball with the strap on and came quick like a horny virgin, but this was familiar ground. She knows she's capable of pleasing Raven with her mouth and fingers.
Lexa wastes no time in trailing her hands down to Raven's center. Her pussy is soaked and two of Lexa's fingers slip in easily.
"Shit" Raven gasps at the sensation. After a few thrusts Lexa uses her thumb to circle Raven's clit. She smiles at the quiet moan Raven lets out in response. She adds a finger and Raven bits her lip at the stretch, grabbing onto Lexa's wrist to still her movements as her body shakes with an orgasm. Lexa continues to circle the woman's clit with her thumb, kissing her neck as she shakes lightly with aftershocks.
When Raven comes down from her high she opens her eyes to see Lexa with a contemplating look on her face. She reaches up to caress the woman's face, kissing her softly in an attempt to stave off her concerns. Raven had never been good at talking out emotions but she was good at action and she hopes Lexa knows what she's expressing in this kiss. Just in case she pulls back and looks at Lexa lovingly.
"Hmm, that was perfect."
~~~
Except it wasn't.
And although Lexa isn't nearly as cocky as Raven, the incident hurts her pride. Raven found that her girlfriend didn't take well to not being good at something, and obviously this was no exception. Lexa had begged Raven to try again and after a week she gave in. Maybe it would be better this time and they could add the strap on into their sex life.
But it wasn't better.
It was arguably worse. Lexa had become sexually frustrated and irritated with herself for not being good at something. Raven tries her best to reassure her, but Lexa convinced herself that she was incapable of pleasing Raven the way she wanted to be pleased.
"I mean men do it, how hard can it actually be?!" Lexa yelled after another failed attempt.
"Lex, most men are not good at it anyways. We don't have to do this if it doesn't feel right, I love the other ways we have sex." Raven is trying her best to quell the woman's insecurities, but she can tell she's too worked up.
"Maybe I'm just as incompetent then" she huffs out.
"Babe, first off we're not talking about anyone besides you and me. I love how we have sex, we don't need this particular toy to make things 'good.' Two, when we first got together I was so scared that I wouldn't be able to please you because I'd never been with a woman. Yet look at us now. We all have insecurities, but we shouldn't use that to compare ourselves to others and put ourselves down."
She steps forward to grab Lexa's face. "I love you. I don't care if we never use any toys. I like having sex because it's with you, plain and simple."
"Rae, I apologize." Lexa says looking ashamed. "I shouldn't have spoken to you the way I did. I don't care who you were with in the past. I just want to be good enough for you. You were never with a woman before me, yet you have me at your mercy in every way when we have sex. But I cant even please you with the one thing you've asked to add to our sex life."
"Hey, none of that. We've only tried twice. Some things take time. I know this is hard for you to believe but you can't be perfect at everything from the start." An amused smile forms at the edges of Lexa's lips. "Besides, if it doesn't work for us, it just doesn't. There's plenty of other things we could try."
"I love you so much, Rae. I want to try any and everything with you." Lexa says before kissing the shorter woman's cheek. "Sorry for being an ass."
"All is forgiven. I'm just glad we're on the same page."
~~~
Raven is definitely surprised when she comes home from a long shift at the lab to find their apartment dimly lit. It smells delicious, Lexa definitely cooked something. Raven's stomach growls as her mouth waters at the thought of what her girlfriend may have prepared. The lights are off and the dinner table is illuminated with candles, which are also placed around the living room.
“Lex, one day you're going to burn the building down with these things!” She yells jokingly. She doesn't get a response so she continues taking her shoes off. When she looks up she's shocked by the view of Lexa standing in the hallway. She's dressed in a crisp dark green button down, black slacks, and dark green loafers. Her hair is pulled over one shoulder and the top few buttons of her top are undone. If Raven weren't so tired she'd jump her immediately.
“Welcome home, babe.” Lexa says as she walks over to the couch. “I knew you wouldn't want to go out so I thought I'd prepare a surprise date night here.”
“You’re such a fucking sap.” Raven says getting up from the couch to give Lexa a kiss. She's glad she hadn't taken her brace off yet.
“You deserve to be romanced” At that Raven blushes. No one has ever made her feel as special as Lexa does. Raven pecks her lips again, smiling into the kiss.
“Ok, just let me shower really quick and put on something that isn’t a lab coat-”
“You look perfect as is, Rae. Plus I don't want our food getting cold.” Raven nods and let's Lexa lead her to the kitchen.
Lexa prepared chicken parmigiana, one of Raven's favorite dishes. She nearly inhales her plate of food. Only stopping to respond to Lexa and drink wine. When they're done Lexa tells Raven they'll worry about dishes later. Raven squeals when Lexa scoops her from her seat and carries her bridal style to their room.
“I wanted to try something tonight.” Lexa voices after she's placed Raven onto the bed.
“Oh yeah, what's that?” Raven asked with a raised brow. Lexa can't help but kiss her forehead. She takes Raven's hand and places it on her crotch where she's wearing the strap under her slacks.
“Are you sure?” Raven asks hesitantly. Lexa just nods in response.
Lexa wastes no time in stripping Raven of her clothing. She carefully removes and discards her brace before pulling her pants and underwear off. Raven begins unbuttoning Lexas shirt, but has to stop briefly as Lexa pulls her shirt over her head and unclasps her bra.
When they're both fully nude Lexa grabs the dildo and puts it at Raven's entrance. They look at each other intently, Raven nods, and Lexa pushes into her.
As soon as Lexa bottoms out Raven can tell that this time is going to be different. Lexa is pushing into her with long, deep thrusts that seem to reach the depth of her entire being. She pulls out almost completely on each thrust before pushing back in and up into Raven, making her toes curl.
“Fuck baby, you're so deep.” Raven moans out. “Don't stop.”
They continue like that for what feels like an eternity. When Raven blisses out it's with Lexas lips on her own and the woman deep inside her channel, stretching her, and hitting spots that no one else has before.
As soon as she comes back to herself she’s burning for release again and craves a different pace.
“Harder, Lex.” She orders as she tangles one hand in the woman's hair, the other gripping tightly onto her ass. Lexa follows instructions and soon the pace is brutal and hard and rough. Lexa begins panting and grunting with the effort of her thrusts. Raven screams when Lexa hits that spot inside her and her walls flutter in response. She feels Lexas hips stutter and her thrusts become more erratic.
“Come with me,” Lexa gasps out. And as if she spoke it into existence Raven climaxes at her command. Lexa comes too, pushing into Raven in a shallow, circular motion as her body shakes.
Raven grips onto Lexa’s hip with one hand and rubs her back with the other. Content on having the woman still inside her in their post coital state.
“That was incredible,” she whispers as she kisses Lexa’s neck.
“I figured I needed to find what worked for me.” Lexa responds softly.
“Yeah, and what's that?”
“Romance. I needed there to be a deeper connection for me to get it right.” Raven smiles. “Do you remember our first time?” Lexa asks thoughtfully.
“What kind of question is that, how could I ever forget?” Raven teases. “You rented out a planetarium for our date and then cooked chicken parmigiana. There was no way you weren't getting some after that.” They both laughed.
“It was perfect because there was romance. That's my love language I guess. I just needed to incorporate it here for this to work.” Lexa says smiling as she ticks a strand of hair behind Raven’s ear.
“You're such a sap.” Raven says before kissing her softly.
“Yeah, I guess I am. At least I'm your sap.” Lexa smiles.
“And I guess I'm a sap for you too.” Raven whispers. “But you can't tell anyone.”
“Oh, never.” Lexa laughs.