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If there was anything Sapnap saw himself doing, it was not this. He was a vulgar guy yes, he loved to joke about sex and dicks and pussy, loved to act like he knew shit. When in all reality...

Sapnap knew nothing, he was a precious virgin with little to no experience in any field along the lines of sexual stuff. He was honestly embarrassed when it truly came down to it, some of his friends were comfortable mentioning their sex lives but by god Sapnap could never. Everytime the topic came up he turned all sorts of shades of red with a terrible stutter. It was cute to most though so they kept their teasing going a lot despite Sapnaps constant detest.

Sapnap was a virgin and all of his friends knew it. So what made him do the very stuff he tried to keep away from? Money.

Being a college student was expensive, especially in America when the government hated you. A small dorm was also very expensive and so was just living, his current job not doing much for him. Any job nowadays couldn't pay enough, so this was his last option, especially when his friends encouraged it a bit. Some say it as a joke and others fully serious.

Being a camboy, was his plan,

going onto the more popular camboy streaming sites and starting up. His friends Ant and Velvet, a couple he might add, suggested he try it. They're a duo on some porn site and get a decent amount of views, very okay with the idea of sex and all that comes with. Especially sharing it with the world. That included their closest friends such as him.

The idea made him want to throw up though, he stared at his body in a mirror way too long too many times pointing out his worst features. Wondering just how anyone could possibly want this. He fully despised his body but maybe, just maybe, he was willing to risk humiliation and harassment for a couple of bucks. Some people liked the sad desperate ones. If it happens to work he can get enough cash to have what he needs.

Even his streaming friend, Sylvee, edged him on. Giggling in a call about how he'd be an absolute natural at it as a half joke, and with how people like the younger boys. Innocence. Complimenting bits about him he had never thought to even think of, blushing profusely and calling her names to make her shut up. Quickly changing the topic so they could continue their valorant match.

He'd been thinking about it a lot and to be honest, he's not completely against it, just insecure. Severely. The idea of people, random people, looking all over him in his most vulnerable just seems sexy but scary. Sapnap never explored his desires, never wanted to. He watched vanilla porn embarrassed and that gets him so far, too scared to try anything else despite it peaking any interest ever. Some things grossed him out such as the daddy and mommy kink, he still called his parents that which to then turn it sexual is gross but he'd do it if it brought money. He'd do so much for money..

What's wrong with him.

Again, as sexy as it seems and as useful, the whole idea seems beyond scary. He's had so little experience in life and immediately getting shoved into sex work is like 10 leaps ahead of the pace he wants to go. And if his college catches him? All his scholarships will be fucking gone and he can kiss his chances at college again gone. So as the week goes on sapnap debates. Even in the most simple settings his mind is occupied.
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"So, I'm saying how about we finish the project at my dorm? Or the Cafe down the street Ant works at?" Sylvee mumbled with some chips in her mouth. Paying little attention around her, mostly adorned to her phone. Scrolling and giggling at whatever pops up. Sapnap took sips of his soda and occasionally looked out the window or around the lounge they were in rubbing his thumb gently over his other hand. Too lost in his worries. Sylvee not really caring, just wanting her shit done.

Finally, after a too long silence from her usually loud friend, she put her phone away, slightly annoyed but curious and now attentive.

"So Sappy, what's the news with ya?" She teased eating more of her chips, leaning her head to the side a bit. Sapnap looked back to her, tapping his fingers a few times debating what to say.

"Uhm, I.. don't know.." Sapnap bit his lip and furrowed his eyebrows. He knew he shouldn't be stressing this much over it, but to him it's a big deal. Giving his body away for others' pleasures. Making a show online of purely sexual actions. It sounds like a lot.

Sylvee nodded slowly, raising an eyebrow with a smile before getting back to her phone. She scoffed quietly, eating more chips, uncrossing her legs under the table to let them rest.

"You're still thinking about the camboy thing aren't you? I already said Sappy Nap that you would be good at it and to just try it at least. I mean you can try hiding your face like some of the cam boys do. Just check em out." Sylvee suggested looking some up on her phone for him. Quickly tapping one live and her phone emitting very loud lewd noises to which Sapnap widens his eyes and practically pushes her away. Rushing to turn down her volume or shut it off, whichever comes first.

"What the fuck is wrong with you! We're in public you stupid bitch. Oh my god can you at least wait till we're back to the dorms?" Sapnap whisper-yelled, hiding his face in his hoodie. To which sylvee just laughed. They're both like siblings but right now Sapnap can't deal with public humility. Ironic a little.

"Well then answer my question, bitch." Sylvee giggled, waiting to see if he even heard her.

"Yeah the Cafe at Ant's work seems fine, do you wanna go like- like when Ant is working? Or?" The dark haired asked, biting his straw gently as he played with his hands some more.

"Yeah that seems more ideal because then we get free drinks so that's cool." And so the two finished their planning for their project. Making a small trek to their dorms which isn't too far. The two sharing tiktoks and stupid clips off Sylvee and Punzs streams eventually making it to Sapnaps dorm, he shares it as most do, though his roomie wasn't home yet so he's probably at work.

"Okay so back to the camboy business, here lemme show you some 'faceless' ones." Sylvee quickly pulling out her phone again and going to her closed tab knowing sapnap would have less retaliation now that they're alone. She scrolled through a couple of accounts, some live, others not. Some got unique when going faceless, using full mask, or the anime face ones, or cosplay, or just having their head out of the screen. There are plenty of ways to hide your face he learns but he's still scared of the risk.

"See, like you can totally hide and no one has to know! Except me and like your best friends of course." Sylvee rambled a bit more about his faceless options to probably help him relax more to the idea but being faceless gets you so far.

"I don't know Sylvee, listen I do want to do it, but I want to be completely rid of Sapnap. Sapnap cannot exist in any form." Sapnap stated firmly as sylvee nodded.

"Okay, well then I guess you could try cosplay or..OH!"

"What?"

"I have an amazing idea, okay listen. "

"Listening."

"How are you on feminine stuff? Like will you wear it?"

Now sapnap really didn't expect that question. Furrowing his eyebrows with a shocked expression he looks at her and takes a second of consideration. He's not opposed, femininity is sexy, he could work with that but whatever idea she's got has to be crazy.

"What do you mean?"

"Okay, ever heard of cross dressing?"

A totally new term to which he heard of like once. Oh boy.

"Uhm no, not really, and what exactly is your point?"

"Okay okay, Sapnap cross dressing is basically dressing as like another gender. What I'm saying is you could pretend to be girlish or a cross dresser, if you pretty yourself all up and pitch your voice there is no way in hell anyone would recognize you! It's a perfect plan." Sapnap reviewed her words in his head and he felt his interest peak so much, he's always liked the idea of feminine clothing but he's never really leaned to his desires as stated before. Fear holding him back. Hiding as a girl or pretending to be one sounds lovely he personally finds. The fantasy immediately took space in his brain. Sapnap felt himself shuffle a bit, being a little excited by the idea. Awakening a couple things he isn’t fully ready to dive into yet wants to.

"That could work, you're not so stupid after all. "

"Hey! Be a little nicer to me as I'm helping you with your porn career asshole!" The two giggled and then went back to business.

"So you want to test out cross dressing? And like if you're scared about ur penis don't worry, there's this like kink called fem-? Feminine? Feminization I think, basically as a guy you pretend to be a girl and call your own body parts girl parts and junk. I don't know, like I said, do your own research a bit." Sapnap could not understand how Sylvee is so okay with just suggesting this stuff to her best friend. What the hell's wrong with her, yeah Sapnap and her are close. Like so close they've kissed before and gave each other hickeys to make exes jealous but seriously?

"Okay, yeah I'll uhm. Look into it but yes I want to at least try the cross dressing. From my 5 minute Google search as of now, it's a pretty popular thing and guys do it all the time. For fun and porn wise."

"See!! Nothing to worry about, seriously sap try it out. I can lend you some skirts and stuff but I don't think they'll fit because like I hate to admit this but you're a lot thicker than me. Look at your thighs! Holy shit." She complimented. So many people he's known have liked his thighs and a couple of his exs, he doesn't get the rage but whatever.

"Shut up, I can get my own stuff, also I'm not wearing a wig. Maybe I could if I start to enjoy the camboy stuff and do it for like a special but they're sucky and my hair is long enough anyways. Though I'll need you for makeup because god knows I can't do that shit." So that's settled. Honestly sapnap had no idea what he was worrying about, the whole thing makes him feel fuzzy and floaty? Safe even. He's not sure of these feelings but he cannot wait.

Maybe he's always been a little freak he debates but who cares he gets to indulge it all now and he's absolutely enthusiastic. The excitement keeps him giddy. Between his excitement his insecurities start to peek through but for now he will focus on the simple stuff he needs to get. Pushing back his problems as usual.

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Now here he was, in a dressing room trying on skirts and skimpy dresses in front of a sort of dirty mirror in some mall. Trying on his first skirt, he felt so nervous and so shaky. Slowly pulling it past his hips with some struggle, he zipped the side, and patted it down. All with a constant tremble, anxiety flowing all throughout his warm body. Stalling if he's honest. Eyes trained to the floor. The skirt. Anything but the mirror in front of him.

What he saw though had amazed him. Finally glancing up and he genuinely gasped. Looking at himself, made him feel fucking hot.

The skirt lifted a bunch in the back and showed off his ass nicely, the soft fabric rested on his thighs, and the skirt accented his waist so cutely, he could fall in love with how he looks right now. He felt good. Believed he looked good even. He loved skirts he learned this second. Loved his legs and loved his body. Doing many different poses to show off his ass or under the skirt better. Running his hands over his body. Debating taking photos at some point even.

Though the more he looked away from the skirt and to his actual body the more he saw things he had considered his flaws. Such as his pudge, hisi hairy body, how unperfect it truly was. He wanted to cry at that but pushed through so as to not embarrass himself pathetically in this mall, planning on buying some razors today and shaving. Hiding and changing for others as he usually would.

Sapnap sighed as his happy imagination was ruined by his actual body. His own terrible brain. He feels he’s gonna sob at the thought of himself naked on lives, but for now he tried on more skirts and some crop tops, even some leggings and thigh highs. Tempting himself.

He got really heated when it came to picking out a bra and panties. Sylvee said it was necessary to the aesthetic and although it turned Sapnap on so much he was incredibly anxious. It meant more commitment and more to giving into his weird 'to be' occupation. However, originally this was to give into the cross dressing vibe, but he's learned it's something he just enjoys sexually and in general. Yet, he's also scared he's gonna hate it. Convinced his mind is playing tricks on him. Hating his own body is like a hobby. He has too many problems with his body to truly believe it’ll all work. The idea seems less appealing the more he thinks of himself, the more he buys, thinking he also should have brought Sylvee for her opinion and especially her support.

Huffing he puts together at least 3 outfits and some extras together that way he has stuff to mix and match. So even if the cam boy, or 'cam girl' thing doesn't work out he can still enjoy the feeling he gets in those clothes in private. He does enjoy being a man and would never consider changing that but the idea of pretending is so sexy. To fake it and act like a girl. Be treated like one and called one. He's never wanted anything more! Smiling a little now, getting over some of his worries, he buys his clothes and some more to help blend in as a 'girl' finally he heads home. Only with a quarter of the things he needs Sapnap makes it to his dorm, quietly opening his door spotting his roommate awake. Rushing to stuff his clothes into his drawers and quickly get into bed, he honestly could squeal with his excitement. Though he hides it, and for now he will fantasize of the good this whole thing could be.

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Sapnap groaned as Sylvee put eyeliner on him, hand gripping tightly on his jaw. The two quietly bickering, Sylvee concentrating and Sapnap being himself. Mumbles of random events going on in their lives or anything they are mildly interested in. Sylvee doing her absolute best to make sure Sapnap was dollied up as perfect as can be. Smiling occasionally at something stupid Sapnap said, the duo having a very domestic dynamic.

"Shut up idiot, you're gonna ruin it and then you're gonna be stuck doing it yourself." Sylvee groaned, fixing some bits where Sapnaps flinching made her mess up.

"It hurts you stupid bitch." Sapnap frowned, allowing her to finish up, her gentle hands dabbing some lipstick and gloss onto his slightly soft lips. Her popping her lips to resemble him to do the same, his popping sound not as prevalent due to the residue on his lips.

He thanked her silently before rushing to any mirror that allows him to see his whole face once she finished. Stumbling a bit on his venture beyond excited for the final result. The second he sees himself, he forgets the small ache in his knee from falling. Stunned.

He looked soft,

pretty.

Delicate.

Easy to wreck.

Unlike his usual self.

He loved it! The pink and red on his eyes, his blush, his plump lips. His highlights, the sparkle. He felt good. Again. Like with the skirt. Sapnap made a small noise of excitement before running back over to Sylvee and hugging her. He looked so different!

"Thank you! I look so! So…!" Sapnap stutters slightly in an attempt to get his thoughts straight. Sylvee giggling as she hugs him back.

"Pretty? The prettiest of girlies?" She teased with some underlying truth. Unaware of just how much it may affect Sapnap.

"Yes, I'm gonna put on the outfits and you rate how much people would like it! Remember my first live is literally like in two days." Sapnap mumbled walking off to pull apart his sleepover bag. He felt himself get that nervous shake, thinking about it again. (Over-thinking to be more accurate.) Sharing himself in such a way to live viewers, to pretend to be a girl for sexual pleasure. It's so hard to wrap his mind around the idea, he loves it so much yet his anxiety still runs wilds. Never would he imagine he'd get to this stage but he's not against it the deeper he falls into the plan.

Gently biting his lip pulling his clothes to his chest and debating if he should even go through with it. Hesitation rampant. He's so far in but it's not too late to back out. Maybe..Once again Sapnap's confidence is lacking, even with beautiful makeup he feels bad. Bad about himself. He just doesn't understand.

Sylvee fast to take his attention away from his own toxic mind, hurrying him to try it all on. Voice loud pushing him quickly to put his clothes on.

Sapnap flushing a tad as he pulls off his shirt, pulling on one of his crop tops that was like a shoulder leaning sweater. Sylvee eyeing his bra, Sapnap excused it as getting 'fully into the mood.'

Then with the slowness that Sapnap pulled off his shorts; it could be debated as a strip show, it was sensual in some way. A very sexy build up. Especially with the treat underneath being panties that matched with his bra, Sylvee giggling to herself but standing by waiting for the reveal. Sapnap felt his face heat even more thinking about it all, there's gonna be a lot more blushing if this is him with his closest friend.

He was even slower pulling on his side slit skirt, nearly pulling up past his wonderful plush thighs. Slipping up the thick thighs. Sapnap occasionally glanced at Sylvee with such an innocent look she almost felt bad at how much she was gonna tease him for being so bashful.

Then lastly he put on a cute ribbon choker and some hair clips, Sylvee even curled his hair earlier. Sapnap, already wearing cute socks he stole from his other best friend Tina. She couldn't be here due to work though, which Sapnap and Tina are severely upset about.

Sylvee clapped as he posed a bit to feel better about showing himself off. The two giggling as it turned more silly, Sapnap posing in fake lewd positions whilst laughing away. Feeling much at ease with his bestie. Letting the worries wash away for now, the initial anxiety from earlier feeling like such a silly feeling.

"So how's this look? I look cute?" Sapnap sat back on the bed on his knees, feeling a tad more feminine sitting like such. Knees a little separated. Smiling softly as he patted his legs vibing to Sylvees lofi. The faint music sorta grounding him.

"Definitely, such a little sweetheart even. I should have given you some more blush and softer liner but like it still fits! If I were a man I'd jerk it to you. Also wait lemme send a photo to the gang hold still." Her tiny ramble only got Sapnap to register 'sweetheart' and he felt fuzzy. He adored pet names so much. So with the cutest smile he could muster he posed for the photo. Wondering silently at how far he could go to disguise himself or if being borderline femboy was all he should do. It was sort of humiliating to him that he so desperately wants to be treated like a girl, like he's not a man. Maybe it's the idea of not being man enough or good enough. Unworthy or perhaps he just wants to secretly slut out. Or maybe it truly is just for the money.

Shaking his head he asks Sylvee to take a couple more photos as he does different poses before getting into some more outfits he bought in preparation for his first live show.

The next few days were honestly just Sapnap and his friends preparing for his live. All his friends are supportive and Sapnap himself is unsure how to truly feel about it. Anxiety flooded his mind every second because the preparation made it all so real. His friends also bought more outfits and if they potentially bought him sex toys and skimpy garments that's between them and Sapnap. He stuttered out many embarrassed thanks, his friends buying him things such as condoms even to have in the background. Sapnap never thought that for his first show, things would be so intense. He was so overwhelmed he might cry, excitement and fear battling another and there wasn't a clear winner yet. His mind at battle.

This whole idea, he's still unsure how he so easily went along with it. Maybe it's that small dying passion in him, those desires he wants and never got to explore. Being born in Texas and having pretty stereo-normative parents, he's always shunned this side of him. The side that likes to be pleasured and to please. The side that likes 'girly things' in sexual senses, likes to be pretty. It's whatever though, he says lies that he doesn't care. He doesn't need to indulge.

He also got his nails professionally done, short light pink almonds. They're also not super sharp, saving him a lot of pain. They've got a bit of glitter too, sparkly pink acrylics. Sapnaps never felt so happy looking at them.

Sapnap has done so few things sexually as well, he's sort of oblivious to a lot of what everything is. He's still a virgin, having even only fingered himself twice, the embarrassment overwhelming the pleasure when he had. Jacking off not providing exactly what he needs or wants but he can still get off that way. Recently he has been watching lots of porn and cam shows to understand more what he should do though, asking Velvet and Ant for tips despite how humiliating it felt. The two of course not even batting an eye and providing the best advice they could. Sapnap really wanted to nail the whole thing though. He wanted this to work. He wants it to work. It's such a bizarre thing to study and research alongside his course classes but at the same time it feels right. College was never really the thing for him but that's why he's doing this, for college. Funny kinda.

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Today was the day.

Sylvee hugged him and wished him a 'good luck' after finishing his makeup, vanishing and promising to catch his live once she's home.

Sapnap shook so much playing with the leather fabric of his skirt, as he sat on his knees. Skirt riding up just like when he modeled for sylvee. Black stockings complimenting his thighs with a garter squeezing his plush gently, followed with a red sweater leaning off his arm to show off his bra strap. Enrapturing the innocent look. Then vibrant makeup with mixes of purple and blue with plenty of shimmery glitters. Sparkles shining in the dim lights reflecting on his glowing skin. Blush deep but still not overpowering on his cheeks and of course lipstick with gloss. Red tinted lip, faded on the inner of his lips. A pretty gradient. He also has two toys beside him along with cum lube which makes him shiver. They're mostly there for decoration but he just might use them. He's not sure on what he's gonna do, having practiced tons of routines just like footballers watching tapes. Watching porn just to practice erotic moves and such. Again his own pride fighting himself, as he lays with his back arched his hands are tightly pressed against his face to hide from a nonexistent audience. Still super lost despite all his research. Plus he didn't get too much time with his roommate Foolish being home a lot more recently.

It's making him go crazy. All this preparation and more, all for his one day. Velvet and Ant even give him a shoutout so that there will be at least people attending, it's not a lot but to a beginner it might as well be one thousand. It makes him feel more pressured and scared. He desperately wants to be a good boy girl for all the people expecting him tonight. He wants to please them all. So back to now.

Sapnap takes a second to really take a breath, his anxiety so fucking rampant. His heart felt so far from his chest with how loud and fast it was beating. He wasn't in his own body it seemed. Sapnap attempts to calm any of his nerves if possible right now. Shaky all around.

Taking another second to look himself over in a mirror nearby Sapnap begins touching up his hair and adding more gloss to his lips. Practicing expressions; feeling so obsessed with his look. It provides a distraction and makes him feel better. Focusing on his looks and presentation, giving him something else to put his hands to work on. He looked far from himself and nearly wanted to moan at the many scenarios running in his head. This new side of him felt his sexiest, he felt seriously aroused. Getting lost in just staring himself down, he'd fuck himself but to get back the task he did his best to turn his attention back to setting up for his show. Shaking his head and walking away from the mirror.

Sapnap set up his laptop, opening the site he's using and logging in, setting it just barely out of the camera's view. For easy access to all the features he needs, control the show and give the best quality that he can as of now. He took a good amount of time just understanding the settings of the set up too. He's really dedicated to this.

Sitting on his dorm bed in much anticipation, he texts Foolish saying he will have a couple friends over which is a complete lie but again he's very ashamed of anyone knowing except his closer friends but even then he feels some type of mortification. Hands shaking as he presses send and puts his phone off to the side playing quiet music to help set a mood. Once again making an attempt to calm down. Checking himself in the tiny frame on his laptop once more for extra measure then he smiles and takes a couple deep breaths before hitting 'Go Live'. Anxiety is still running wild but he can feel himself mask it all to become the pretty boy his viewers want. The pretty boy he wants to become.

The camera light takes years, it feels, to turn red, symbolizing that he's live. People will soon roll in. Fighting all voices in his head against himself. Instead opting to smile very shyly, feeling so out of place as he waits. Completing switching himself, still very shy and hesitant but this time without the anxiety. At least visibly. Magically he was able to mask. It's showtime.

Sapnaps stream is tagged with things such as 'femboy','crossdressing', and 'sub boy' to get the target audience he wants. He's even waxed for today, done all things possible to look his absolute best. He could grow it back too if people liked that more.

Sapnap promoted himself on Twitter with suggestive photos and teases of what today may be. It's astonishing just how easily he falls into this femboy role. How somewhat ready he feels to do this all. His friends and those friends of friends all giving him a hand to help out a beginner. Being kind and just wanting to offer to lift up a person.

Sapnap keeps his bubbly behavior going as more people roll in. Having been lost in thought he finally comes back from autopilot watching the little eye symbol in the corner increase in numbers in real time.

Most people get at most 1 viewer or 3 as their first live show but he has 30 already and it's steadily growing. He waves and says things in a voice which is not his, much more preppy and sweet. So sickly sweet, the stomach aching sweet.

"Disclaimer I'm new, this is my first stream but nice to meet you all, hehe…I'm excited for today. I hope I can satisfy the lot of you." Sapnap says giggly, twirling a strand of his hair. His head slightly turned down as he looks up at the camera.. giving the effect that the viewers are bigger than him. The chat already going crazy at the facade, making sapnap giggle more. His desire of himself growing, the desire to make them all happy growing.

"Aren't you all so sweet." He mumbled his face beginning it's ascent of red. The blush on his cheeks seeming useless now. The chat excited and rapidly going off once again, sending in 'tokens' which is the website's tool for giving money to cam people. They're as well as sending in emotes or crude messages. Horny people will be horny. Many were eager for him to just show himself off or whatever he had planned. People in chat thinking they can demand stuff of him and although Sapnap isn't fully against it he'd rather it be someone he's having sex with. He shivers again at his thoughts. People not yet sending donations, waiting to see the next course of action and what he's got planned. The money is ready, people are always ready to flaunt pretty people, they're just waiting to get more out of him.

Sapnap makes idle conversations with sheepish replies and actions. He did take some requests, hiding half of his face as he kissed the dildo next to him. Giving it a few pecks and even a tiny lick before tossing it a good distance away from him as if it burnt him.. Chat aweing at the boys' amateur reactions. He's so so shy….People imaging it were their own that he was leaving wet lipstick marks on. His gentleness and nervous persona makes everyone rush in with money fast. He was just adorable to them, people could tell he was new at this in the best way possible. Innocence sells.

Sapnap felt hot with all the words getting spewn at him from the now 80 something viewers. Pretty and Cute being the top, things such as cock slave and pretty little hole also really riled him. He never knew that this many people objectifying him would feel this amazing. His panties felt tighter the more he interacted with his viewers; wet too. All the pretty clothes on him felt like acid in a good way. Occasionally glancing to see himself on his laptop sighing happily seeing his slightly smeared lips. His dick twitching.

Finally it reached the point where people went on as normal. Sending donations and requests, lots sending it. One in particular made Sapnap stumble, they wanted him to choke on his own fingers and imagine it were something better. He knew what others wanted his fingers to be. Sapnap swallowed as he slowly dragged his hands over to his lips. Gently pulling on it, showing off his plump lips. Narrow hazy eyes staring from the camera to his own fingers. Giving his viewers a look that asks, "Do you really want this? Do you want it that bad?" Lips slightly parted, the gloss shining. Chat urging him on, their patience running low the more he lengths this out, more compliments raging through chat and token donations. Some daring him to, others telling the precious boy to take it easy. Donos told him to be a good puppy, and if that word didn't motivate his body in many ways. Getting called things he's never even been able to imagine till now. The attention just driving him mad the more he got, getting high off it. The feeling is unlike anything ever.

He tapped a finger so softly to his bottom lip, dragging it down so gently just to smirk shyly at the camera before slowly putting two fingers in his mouth. The two resting on his warm tongue for a moment, Sapnaps eyebrows upturned making this look even more innocent, sucking on his fingers making small whimpers as he sends them farther back into his mouth. Embarrassment sending steam through his skin, this wasn't who Sapnap was but God did he want it to be. He was humiliated in a way he loved. He wanted fingers in his mouth choking him, he wanted people to choke him. Use his body and what it offers to their wants.

Spit started to make its way down his fingers as he began sucking three of his fingers. Nails dragging nicely across tongue, then he gagged once his fingers had got too far in his mouth. Tears formed in his eyes from the reaction, shutting them closed quickly pulling the fingers out followed by a long line of saliva. He was panting gently. Eyes staring directly into the camera, hair falling gently into his face. He was beautiful like this and all his viewers would agree. So riled up, barely able to handle a couple of fingers, eyes screaming "fuck me!"

How would he ever survive if this is barely the beginning, and it's only sucking his own fingers.

Sapnap coughed a little then looked to chat, almost everyone calling him good and so adorable. His quiet voice thanked everyone, feeling after that it's time to give everyone what they wanted. Wiping away the access spit he blew a timid kiss to chat and then looked to the side a bit.

Sapnap bit his lip and stood up gently, caressing his thighs as his entire bottom half was in frame clearly now. Garters and thigh highs on display, his skin squished so perfectly. He then did a couple poses trying to look as lovely as he could before lifting the skirt timidly.

He revealed his panties scared but proudly, lacy and revealing. Gasping quietly with the new chilling air against his length. Sapnap was big enough with a wide dick. He had a pretty one too yet people in chat immediately turned that around. They weren't focused on how big it was, they focused on how useless it was. Hed purely be fucked so whats the point,, what a waste. They called it his clit. Oh no he wasn't a man anymore, he's a sissy to them or a big fleshlight. His cock in fact leaked a great deal over that, his eyes watering at the fact people were seeing him like this yet he stood there flashing everyone willingly. Asking if he was good enough with trembling words. Asking and begging for praise. And the viewers provided for the sweet boy girl they had just met. Willing to compliment and praise him but at the same degrade and break him down.

Sapnap then slipped off his skirt, pulling it off slowly, taking his time with the zipper. His skin fleshes out as it falls to the ground fully after such a long moment. The small thump it makes, makes Sapnap shy in on himself once more. He was allowing everything to be on display. It made him struggle to think clearly, Sapnap gently kneels and removes his sweater along. Baring the lacey garments he was wearing. Biting his lip trying to cover himself up barely, hands close to his chest.

Sapnap apologizes as he notices his actions, he's sorry for being so bashful and quiet; feeling they deserve someone more confident to watch. His viewers disagreed, showing that once again they loved him and loved this innocent pretty streamer he was portraying.

Sapnap was so easy to adore, to love and want to see more of. The viewer count kept going up to back up that fact. He is similar to a siren except he's just standing there and is alluring enough attention easily. He exists and people are going crazy. This is unusual and sapnaps show exceeds the expectations he ever thought could be possible for a first stream or ever. He wants more. The god damned attention he gets makes him feel so floaty, so soft, so kneedable. He is the viewer's tool and pretty object to idle about, he is theirs always and forever.

Now Sapnap only had his bra and panties on along with the garters and thigh highs. It's a lot but doesn't feel like it for sure. He stands and shows off himself for them, they're his priority and they're allowed to stare and ogle. Swaying just a little asking what they'd like to do with him. The ideas flashing by taking his breath. Swallowing hard, he waits just a second.

Still looking unsure he begins rubbing his body in suggestive ways, groping himself and making noises to go along with it. Soft looking hands that people just want to hold and grab, run along his sides stopping at his chest. He grabs his chest, it is full enough to act as genuine boobs. Chat screaming about wanting to suck them, to mark them. He unclasps the bra clips and lets it easily slide off. He smiles genuinely and chat surprises him once again with how much they can donate and love and appreciate him. Attention whore.

He wants to drag this show on as long as he can. He doesn't want this to end, Sapnap isn't ready for this to end. He loves his viewers, it's been an hour and some more but he doesn't care.
Pretty whines coming from his pretty mouth, he's back on his knees showcasing it all. Knees spread so his dick is out. A constant questioning and pure look on his face. He asks what they want. Watching donations pass by as they begged for the panties off. Happy to serve, he straightens his legs in front of him, lifts them to slip off his underwear. Smiling whilst he holds them between his pointer and thumb finger. Then rests up on his elbows. Glancing at chat between his spread legs, he drops them to the side and sits back happily with them open. Sapnap grabs at his thighs now, gripping and then letting them go. Rubbing them and squeezing them together. They're perfect, many say. Squishy and so so soft. He might faint at just how warm his cheeks are getting. This is so unlike him, feeling so submissive and ready for complete strangers. He loves it, loves the rush in his brain. He's addicted already.

Sapnap gropes his own boobs a bit, squishing them together. He tries to paint images for his viewers, asking if this is what they'd do. How would they handle him. He begs and whines for them. Sapnap never thought he could act like this, be like this. Yet he fits the role so easily. He felt so hot, so so hot. He keeps his upper body propped by his elbows smiling as he watches chat be vulgar and gross about his beautiful body and his lewd actions. Sapnap couldn't get enough of this.

Sapnap hasn't taken any time to pay attention to himself really so once he finally gets up on his knees to turn around and show off his ass, he groans as his very erect and tender dick moves. He gasps and realizes his own situation. Instead of turning around he sits on the edge of his bed and moans as he grabs his cock.

He finally takes in what he looks like. Sapnap is a mess, makeup smeared down his cheeks, face super red, he is truly the definition of hot and bothered. Looking on the screen and seeing himself is a sort of revelation. Shock truly overtakes him.

This is Sapnap.

Holy shit.

His cock is leaking like crazy, red and tall. Precum drips down and he's ready to just let loose. Because of his self neglect he is just about to burst. Sapnap is twitching all over and especially his dick. He's on display fully. His thighs are still being squished by stockings and the garters but really he needs nothing else. He could wear whatever and show whatever whilst money or views rolls in no matter what. Chats paying big money all for this and Sapnap's shaking visibly as he strokes his legs up and down preparing himself for whatever. Asking if he's doing good, getting even more money and praise because he's existing. He then puts his legs behind him and sits back on them, spread still. He feels so good. He waits for chat. He waits for instructions. He waits. He is theirs.

Sapnap is such a good boy, for his chat. Moaning just from the many people he knows are watching or jacking off to him. They're doing it to him. He's so happy he begins to grind gently against his sheets, they tell him to keep going and he does. He obeys. Sapnap picks up the pace the more people ask, moaning loudly as the friction feels so relieving to his tired and desperate cock. The pleasurable sounds rolling just off his tongue.

Finally Sapnap lets himself bring a hand to his dick and gently stroke, whimpering from how it genuinely hurts to touch it but in a fantastic way. He's shaking, he's crying and there's glitter and mascara falling down his cheeks, but he does not care. His eyes burn, he's so exhausted yet he goes on. Stroking up and down guiding himself to his own pleasure. Sapnap watches chat, he sees the chat and he loses it, screaming out in pleasure as he cums. Hand still stroking every drop out that he can. He's sobbing and struggling to breathe. White spurting from his dick, gasping for air he pulls his hand away after a good minute of cooling down and wipes his cheeks. More makeup smearing but it's all mostly washed away with his tears.. Breathing hard, Sapnap looks up to chat with tired eyes and smiles weakly asking if he did good. He wants the praise. He needs it. With that his viewers agreed happily, they would scream it if they all could. His stream hit just barely over 200 viewers despite it being his first. That's insane to him. He is so proud and can't wait to tell all his friends.

Sapnap is beat. He closes his eyes and collapses forward onto his bed, blushing profusely in shock he did such a thing. Live mind you. He states how much he appreciates everyone who joined and donated and just his love for them all. Laying on his side, curled up some he blows a lazy kiss waving bye to chat and ending quickly.

It settles in more as soon as all the eyes are off him.

Sapnap just jerked himself off, to nearly 200 people. Sapnap presented his body in a way he never would have before or ever even. He quickly cleaned his area and himself, getting more shocked at the whole scenario. He didn't just do that. Did he? Shock setting in.

Feeling like it truly was a dream. The haze in his mind still lingering but the horniness is gone. Panic replacing the horniness. He slaps his cheeks gently to try and wake up if possible. Shaky and tired he takes it all in. What the fuck!

He shuts his laptop, changes as fast as can be, hides everything and lays in bed. Staring at the wall. His eyelids fighting to stay open. He can't believe that just happened, it was like someone else took control. The worst part was he loved it, more than anything, that was the best jerk off he had. It scares him truly. He shouldn't be doing this, it's weird and gross to want to continue this. Yet it's all he wants, it's all who he wants to be. Fuck.

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Sapnap felt genuine shame for the next couple of days. He couldn't interact with people like normal even if he wanted, it felt like they all knew though that was just his anxiety talking. Even with his roommates, Foolish and Corpse, (Nicknames given somehow in some way that he's not sure of, but it's what he calls them) felt so odd.

He doesn't understand how pornstars just go on with life. He's not even famous but he feels like he can never show his face ever again, what's worse is that he loved it. Sapnap fucking loved the role he played on his stream, nothing has ever felt more rejuvenating and freeing. He feels so flustered even at the memories that flash through his mind every second of the day. He feels like a pervert having sex and masturbation on his mind all the time.

He can't get over it, which is what makes it awkward to interact with people. Sapnap is so embarrassed to even attempt to ask Velvet and Ant how they do it, he just cannot. It feels near mortifying, just as when he had first asked for tips before he even did anything. Porn is all he thinks about. Specifically him and making porn.

Sapnap won't say he doesn't want to do it again, he yearns for it even though it's something he feels disgraceful for himself. In pure disbelief of it all. How did he do that?

Sapnap will admit he's gone back to the stream and read through the chat a plethora of times, nearing unhealthy amounts, but they make him so happy and confident. No one has ever talked about him in that way, to be fair that wasn't even really him, just a persona of him. Yet it still felt so gratifying to be referred to as such. Flustering himself every time he went back over it. Is it so wrong to love yourself, even in such a bawdy manner?

What is more attention grabbing is that 200 people saw him, over 200 actually. All live and in person.

That's probably the most unbelievable part, 200 on someone's first live is nearly unheard of. He got incredibly lucky, so his next stream will probably hold a way smaller proportion of that. Definitely not 200 people like last time. Yet Sapnap would be beyond happy with whoever stays and watches. Any eyes watching him are valued!

His social media has also seemed to gain a huge following. Lots of other sex workers especially. People he watched videos of over and over to get down their moves. It's so surreal. So exciting! It feels like being recognized by a celebrity but porn edition.

Sapnap is currently tapping on the side of his phone with his still-intact acrylic nails. Going over the stats of his stream, smiling to himself, nearly wanting to kick his legs and giggle. He bites his lip, tasting the slightest bit of his lip gloss. He would never get over this, not ever, it was probably the best thing to happen to him.

Plus the numbers rolled in, he made a whopping 300-something dollars from his stream, not counting the extra from his pics that he posted afterwards.

Even with all this good, it won't completely wash the indignity that coursed his veins. As mentioned, it's a bit hard to talk to regular people knowing his actions. His internal battle never rests. Sapnap feels conflicted.

The events play on repeat in his head, anxiety forcing him to think that everyone knows, when really in this huge world; there is about a grain of rice of people who know compared to the bags of rice of people who don't. His concern grows still, anxious as ever.

Talking to Foolish and Corpse is very uncomfortable; especially since he knows he did it in their shared space. They shouldn't know but they could, and that frightens him. He waits for the day they call him out for it, the day they out him and laugh at him for it. Ridicule him and not in the good way he wants from the two, the kind of ridicule where they ruin his life like some high school bullies but this time it's because he's a freak who posts his nudes online for money.

Sapnap keeps his tapping, it's a satisfying sound but has become an anxious quirk since he's got them. Neither currently notice either, busy with their own things.

He keeps worriedly glancing over at them. He will say he's had some close calls when it comes to him wearing his 'girly' items and his nails raised questions but Corpse paints his nails so there were more questions about where he got them done and for what occasion. They honestly don't mind, Sapnap knows they're not bigoted mostly, and based on Corpses' music that he's put out so far he would say he's very open-minded. Very crude so no issues there. Foolish seems like the typical jock stereotype but he's an architect major and pretty kind, a cute puppy in the pathetic way. Though he's on the football team which, if you're like sapnap, you'd distance. No matter how hot.

Still he would prefer if his 'girly' side and 'regular' side stay separated for now besides a few things which has led Sapnap to wear crop tops more or only huge t-shirts with tiny shorts underneath. It's comfortable, what can he say, the issue is he's showing lots of skin he doesn't normally show. His two roommates have started making comments on his lack of body hair, it was really embarrassing having to admit he shaved for fun. It's not like it's weird or anything, just not what they expected. It's a drastic switch from the Sapnap they first met. Though they didn't even care, like Sapnap thought so, they just complained on how much of a hassle that has to be for the younger.

So really Sapnap has no reason to worry, he's the one making their interactions weird. Overthinking to the point it's a problem. He is glad they're not weirded out like some of the guys on campus, he's gotten called some things when going out in a crop top. Sylvee has been a big help in helping him feel more confident, it's a big step. She says to just wear what he is comfortable in with his roommates. Of course all this goes so far.

Sapnap shakes his head gently then puts his phone down, hands balling up in the sheets. Lost in thought. His eyes drift to where Foolish is working out, some abs workout. He swallows the spit gathering in his mouth as he oogles. Foolish is ripped, then adding on being sweaty and it's the perfect show for any peeping eyes. All his worries vanish for a bit, both a blessing and a curse that horniness! He really could drool over this gorgeous man any day, every part of him grateful he gets this view and alone mostly. It's shameful, thirsting over the athlete so openly but it's understandable he justifies. Sapnap also justifies it with how Foolish shares his own lustful glances.

Sapnap is a shy, anxious, ball of anti-socialism but he is no idiot. At least not this time. He can recognize when he's getting checked out, though Foolish is somewhat of a 'himbo'. There's a chance Foolish isn't aware of his own staring. They could have something going on but again anxiety. Sapnaps a virgin but he wouldn't mind getting laid, especially to Foolish. He's a big boy who could definitely take care of Sapnap really well. Hes open to admitting he fantasizes about the stronger, too many times has he gotten off to the other and the idea of being railed against a wall by him held up by pure strength.

He's snapped out of his trance once Corpse calls out to him, blinking a bit as his head snaps to the source of sound.

"Are you done eye fucking Foolish? I need your opinion on this." His smooth yet deep voice captures his attention quickly. He clears his throat, quick to his feet and nervously shuffling to the curly haired.

"Shut up, I wasn't. Just spaced out."

"Yeah thinking about dick, now tell me what you think." Sapnap pouted as he put on headphones and listened to Corpses next song. It was softer than his usual music, he lit up knowing it was easier on his throat. Sapnap smiles brightly once it finishes, of course it's not a full song yet but what it is now is very nice.

"I love it! You did really good Corpse, your range is really impressive. Be sure to let me be the first to hear it other than Emma. I mean it! And soon you have to put me in a song, let me sing a few lines." Sapnap giggles, handing the headphones over gently, then offering a fist bump.

"Thanks, and I don't know we'll see.." Corpse smiles through the mask, but you can see it in his eyes. Corpse appreciates the younger's joy, his brightness. It makes him special in some sort. At some point though he takes notice of how Sapnap is near sitting on his lap, the brunette is leaning into his side to get a view of the producing app. His ass jutt out as he crouches into Corpses space, hovering barely over the other's thigh and if he did sit he'd be fully in his lap. The younger stays unaware though this time as he plays Corpse's song, looping it to truly memorize it before its release. Unfortunate for Corpse though as it's like the horny has passed on from person to person.

Corpse isn't the type to only think sexual thoughts but Sapnap isn't just anyone. Those lacy panties of his also just urge him on. Sapnap isn't sly at all, the two have debated telling him how many times he's accidentally flashed them but they've decided against it. Makes it their perverted secret. Foolish and Corpse also have a bet on if they can get into Sapnaps pants. They don't focus on only that, but if it happens then it happens they hope. Corpse would pull the other onto his lap right now and dry hump them together if he could. Spread his hands across Sapnaps hips and fuck him. Taking a deep breath he backs up to give the younger room for both their sakes, staring at the computer screen. The picture of Sapnaps ass is engraved into his brain. Being this close to it drives his sensibility down the drain.

"It's really good, you know …I'm your biggest fan." Sapnap winks then finally leaves his space to go sit down again. Shorts ridden up, pretty panties revealing. Both roommates watch him from behind as he walks around, picking up his area, preparing for a late stream once his roomies are out. Corpse rolls his eyes as Foolish looks at him with a, "Well who's eye fucking who now?" As if they both weren't simple minded and ogling.

There's a heavy tension that settles in their room, immense sexual tensions that only layers the longer the year goes on. Who knew being roommates could cause so much stir.

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"Do you like the music chat? He's an upcoming artist, not really like me I know but he sounds good. I enjoy a deep voice." Sapnap keeps a sultry tone. His hesitancy to hit start on his stream today went longer than last time, even with all his so called counseling with his friends. Still he
perseveres, wearing a thong that holds onto his hips and low hanging shorts showing off his happy trail and edge of his long. Then he also sports a tight cropped tank top, his hair pulled into a messy yet styled ponytail. Sapnap wore lots of neutrals with glitter and his usual glittery lipgloss with the faintest pink tint. For today's stream he got a hotel and packed a few decorative items along with his toys as usual.

Sapnap had decided he wanted to make a community, consistency was key. Plus it would be nice to have familiars or just a certain group he knows to satisfy than try to maintain everyone who comes. It has been a couple days since his last stream, though it felt like weeks. Treacherous weeks of insecurity and shame. Yet Sapnaps come to embrace it, he still feels scandalous but he loves it. Playing someone else but someone that's still him in a lot of ways is everything, he gets paid to indulge in all his sexual desires. To express himself! Sapnaps life purpose is to bring pleasure and serve, so that's what he will do. Even surpassing all his personal turmoils if that's what it takes.

"Chat I can't love you enough! Getting my channel as a hot topic for the week, you're too good to me and we've barely met. Let me get to know you guys a little, I want to know your dislikes..your likes..your turn ons..C'mon tell me please?" Sapnap gives them his pretty, innocent, puppy eyes. His words became shy and needy. Sapnaps anxiety flared quietly, with each donation it would calm for a few minutes. Yet seeing himself caused it to rise, getting ready nearly sent him into a panic attack with his overthinking.

Sapnap twirled a piece of his hair as he giggled at something passing by in chat. Fluffing his ponytail and bangs to add more allusion.

"You guys really are something, I know I'm new. A real amateur, so thank you for being patient with me, just want the best for you all." He mumbled cutely, spreading his legs from how he sat. Shorts incredibly tight and showing off his tiny bulge. Also bunching up into the space where his thighs and hips meet, showing off all his pretty skin. His thighs became a big favorite for his audience so he makes sure to try to give them some spotlight.

All his chat talked about was how pretty he was, his tits looking particularly perky today, and how he seems more confident and engaging. They all talked as if it were a one on one conversation, that's what made it silly to sapnap. Of course he loved it, he loved the attention, loved the way he was adored. Sapnap wiggled a little under the eyes he couldn't even comprehend, his hands fidgeted with his top that now had a strap falling down his shoulder. The nerves never ended, the pleasure never died.

"I hope I'm good enough for you guys. Even if everything I do isn't over the top." Sapnap sheepishly whispered, head tilted with eyes staring up. Pure. What a pure, innocent little girlie. Oh how cute, how easy.

He slowly grinded against his sheets, eliciting a quiet sigh. Eyes fluttering shut from the simple stimulating actions. He really was easy to arouse, to be fair he isn't all that familiar with this type of touch so it makes sense. A couple of fingers and a hand being all he's used. Sapnap hadn't much of a plan of what he would do and show, just how he would act. The sexual things all could come by improv. He's good at that, somewhat. Sapnap kept up his grinding, making a mess of the bedding and his own shorts. His little needy noises built up with every second he goes dry humping like a mutt in heat again.

"Ah- I just hope I can give you guys a nice s-show-!" Sapnap barely gets out, stopping his movements to look at chat. Staggered breathing as he gives himself a moment to recollect.

"You are all so eager, makes me so happy! How about I give a little cowboy action, ride a cutie?" Sapnap laughed, sitting up to his knees, flushing lots as he takes in his image on the camera. His eyes drift away to save some face, landing to his bag of goodies. A blue backpack filled with the new toys he's bought specially for the stream, his pleasure in mind but not a main focus at all. Today he's got a nice tan dildo, thick veins and quite a charmer. Of course he isn't ready for something super big so it's only a 5 inch but he would love to get to something much bigger. He smiles as he grabs it and brings it onto screen, it's quite textured with a bright pink tip. It felt real, then with a special feature. A tube with a pump extended from it. Cum lube! The second thing he brought out. Doing some cutesy shake with the items in hand, clearly excited looking ever precious.

"I hope you're as excited as I am, this is gonna be my first time with this type of thing! Let me prep real quick cuties, then I'll get to ridin'." Sapnap was quite chipper, this one was definitely for his pleasure. Though improv-ed as it was the first he pulled from his bag. Sapnap kissed it leaving glittery pink lip marks all over, just like his first stream he gave a fake blowjob to the dildo. Rubbing it gently across his lips and smearing his lipgloss all over himself. Rubbing it against his cheeks and pumping it very lightly to get some on his face, even smacking a couple times. Shame seeping in but the want of it being a real man growing.

Sapnap was a nice cherry red, humiliating to do this but he wanted it. He loves their degrading words so much, he never knew how greedy he could get with such regard.

'Fucking slut, wants so many dicks in her face'

'I'd do anything to let him use my big dick'

'Gorgeous whore you give the best shows for a beginner'

'I love sloppy bitches'

Sapnap took it all with pride, took it with shame. Just took it. Embraced it. Offering an alluring smirk and started a very weak and messy boobjob. He had b cup tits, he was pudgy in all the right places, Sylvee complimenting his curves once. Sapnap agreed, pulling his tanktop down to his stomach rather than completely off just to show his urgency. Pushing his boobs together and making the squish of the dildo and his fat look as appealing as he possibly can. It was. It really was.

Donations started picking traction, special gifts being sent in bulk. Many came in and the views went up. Turns out his predictions were wrong, he had at least 180 viewers from what his blurry vision could see.

Heat lit him up inside and out, endless and burning. Sapnap was beyond eager, far gone in his horniness. Groping continued, a theme remains so far. Touching himself in his sensitive spots, perky nipples out and exposed. Gasping when he plays with the sensitive buds, whimpering like no care. Uncontrollable moans and begs, he really can't control it.

"Oh-! Heh, I can start now since you're all so impatient. I guess I am too- I am nothing but a cheap whore looking for a fuck.. isn't that what you'd all like." Sapnap bites his hand gently then gets to work actually prepping, sitting on his knees once again so his thong stays viewable. A bright pink contrasting a lot with his black cropped tank top. A bit of a trashy whore many comment, a lousy little fleshlight. They roll in with every variation of every demeaning erotic phrase they can.

Sapnap puts the toy down temporarily, digging his fingers into his shorts waistband. Hooking it, ready to pull. His teasing little smile, trying to hide behind cute eyes and lies, edges everyone on. They want it, beg for it, scream and desire. Sapnap shakes his ass gently and yanks his tight shorts half down his thigh. Tank top still resting bunched on his middle, thong and his little clitty hidden behind that neon pink. Up and twitchy, precum already leaking down and dripping everywhere. His shorts would have to be replaced, unfortunately. His thong too but what's it matter really?

Sapnap was a disheveled girl, just a wreck wanting to cum. Just a little slut longing to be full. He swallows briefly and turns around. Beautiful ass exposed, in perfect view as Sapnap pulls the garment to the side to show off his pretty puffy hole. Barely stretched and fluttering. Moving with his shorts half off is hard, making it a bit of awkward movement once he lays on his stomach so his ass stays in the air. He's already out of breath, face shoved into the pillows, a single hand pulling his cheek to the side along with his thin thong straps so his hole is exposed more. Sapnap giggles some more imagining what he looks like, bringing his other hand to fully spread himself open. The faintest whine comes from him.

"I'm- hah.. I'm sorry I can't see chat right now." Sapnap half laughs before shaking his ass teasingly some more. He's been teasing a lot he notices, they seem to love it anyways so it's whatever. Near drooling and biting his lip he finally starts fingering himself. Only one finger right now, it's an easy push forcing some noises out of him. He gets real noisy from the simplest things, truly expressing how inexperienced he is. How untouched he is. Choking up on hot air

Sapnap prepared a little bit already by fingering himself in the shower before coming to the hotel, so he's a little loose luckily. Though Sapnap is a bit of a needy whore, whether he knows it or not thus shoving in another finger and trying to work a third right beside it. He bites the sheets he's shoving himself against, muffling all his pretty little noises. Chat dings with every 'token' and gift sent to him, it sounded muted. Opening himself up the bigger priority right now.

Spit wets where he bites, body jumping from surprise as if he's not in control. Hands unfamiliar with all this territory, his brain transformed to a new mindset. A sudden switch occuring the more he scissors himself open, turning to mush and practically useless if it weren't for the audience he has to entertain. It's hard to pay attention to anything, to care. His gasps stay a repetitive tone.

The dildo isn't incredibly big so Sapnap, once again, rushes. He forces his body to move and sits up. He peeks over his shoulder, pink with tired eyes and a tiny smile. Makeup smudged all over the sheets, black and glitter and colors smeared on his eyes just a tad. He grabs the lube, the 5 inch dildo, and sits up. Finally facing the camera with a pure dazed look, using the back of his hand to wipe his lips he gives a single glance to his camera. Eyes glossed over and full of something so devious.

Sapnap lifts himself up to his knees once again, setting the silicone toy under him, pulling the thong aside again, and slowly dropping down. He takes a sharp breath with the tip prodding his entrance, biting his lip the further it pushes in. The bed creaks as he is fully sat on it, eyes glancing from below himself to his computer that makes a ding. Tokens keep going up in amounts as he sits there with the dildo fully flush to him. Sapnap can't help laughing quietly as he does the tiniest circle of his hips, moaning as he goes. He feels so good, fingers could not compare at all with how amazing it is. He is faint and almost floaty, lost from his body. Nibbling on his bottom lip Sapnap waits for his chat to tell him to move, they quickly got the message as a huge donation rolls in and tells him 'get to riding whore', fifty bucks. Can't argue with that.

He slowly lifts back up, legs already burning due to how he's sat and immediately drops seconds after. He cries out at the impact, this is only 5 inches. It's pretty girthy but god it should not be ruining him so early. Maybe that's just the virgin in him. Sapnap whimpers with another few rolls of his hips, the pressure in his body providing perfect delight. Sapnap whimpers more, picking himself up just to drop back down much faster than before. After a couple of paced dropping he works into a speed. A speed that manages to soundly show off the squelches of his hole and the lube. He's sorry for whoever his neighbors are because he is not holding back at all, he doesn't believe that he even can. His moans just bounce off the walls and add the humidity, sweat beading all over him. The workout is worth the pleasure. Everything is worse this feeling. Sapnap wishes he faced the other way so he could hold onto the head rest, legs quickly wanting to give out. He can't though, he feels himself close. Tiny cock bouncing in every move but also dripping with cloudy precum. Sliding down his shaft to his just as wet thighs and balls.

Sapnap blindly reaches for the cum pump, readying it for when he cums. Broken out noises, squeaking loudly but dropping off the harder he presses down. Really pushing himself to his limits, Sapnap speeds up just barely, grateful for his strong legs as he nearly falls over from satisfaction. Sapnap leans forward, hardly able to keep himself up with his legs alone. Voice scratchy but with some final euphoria it gives out as he cums. He falls down the dildo fully with a nice plop and squeezes the pump, attempting another moan as it fills his insides full.

Choking up on spit he tries to regulate himself from his panting, eyes trailing where he squirted cum all over. Spreading all over his front, the bed, and dribbles down his dick. It's a lot of white now that he realizes and it is kinda embarrassing to cum puddles but he's sure it's hot to somebody. He scans over chat and puts on a tired smile, brushing his sweaty bangs aside to see better, thanking all the compliments and gifts he was given whilst he had his moment. He really didn't want to get up but he thought it would be nice to show off his ass aftermath, groaning as he sits up on tingling thighs and went back to his beginning position. Ass up with underwear pulled down completely, if Sapnap could cum again he would. His ass was painted with the lube, then from him getting up he got it all over himself. His hole pushed it out letting it fall down between his thighs and balls, making a pile on his real cum.

Sapnap lets out an exhausted giggle and pulls a check to the side, moaning quietly from the feeling and the fact more plopped out. He clenched the sheets as more of nothing else to do then gets ready to end.

"Oh I know guys, the worst time has arrived. I don't want to but I've got to go." Sapnap puts on a pout, eyebrows downturned with a little lip jutted out. Words fly by as some say their farewells and others try to bribe him to stay. He smiles cutely and waves as he closes out.

"I'll try something longer next time, cuties, let's also have a little gossip session. I want to share some more about myself with you guys. Well for now goodbye guys go follow my other things till my next stream!" Sapnap ends quickly and falls back, in an area where there isn't a mess. He is fatigued, so tired he really doesn't know if he can stay awake but he doesn't want to feel gross later. Aftercare alone always felt bad, especially when in that moment the allusion of hundreds of eyes looking at you felt so real. Sapnap was no sound, his golden high quickly vanishing as he took in his surroundings. He tears up a little which is surprising since he usually doesn't cry easily.

A shaky breath weasels out of him and he curls up.

"This is really sad but it's what I wanted to do. Maybe I should talk with ant and red." Sapnap says out loud to himself, to make it more of a promise so that he actually does. The money is good but he's not gonna wanna keep up with it if he just feels fucking terrible afterwards.

Still he recovers as quickly as he can, shuffles to the bathroom and prepares his undoing. First his makeup, using only 3 wipes to get it all off, and almost laughing in bizarrement at how much mascara is running down his face. His phone plays his actual music taste which makes him do a little dance as he undoes his hair and clothes. Grimacing at the dried cum on everything, he can't save these clothes unfortunately. With a shower already started he jumps in and just enjoys the warmth. He closes his eyes and stands under the stream, content with the feeling. His head is leaned to push his hair back and he lets out a deep sigh.

"Holy shit." Is all he mutters, once again taking in his actions. Shaking his head with an adorned red from both the heat of the water and shame. He will never get over that feeling that comes after. Sure it's probably some of the best sexual pleasure he's had his whole life so far but at the same exact time there were over a hundred eyes documenting him in that vulnerable state. Sapnap starts to actually wash his body and hair, humming to his music as he does so. Mind debating his choices for future streams, landing on the idea of cosplay or some more bimbo acting. As for toys he's already building up a collection so he'll just do something he hasn't yet and test it out for the 1st time ever live. Maybe he'll reach out for some ideas from others. He isn't sure but he wants some time, taking a longer break in between streams despite it still being one of his first. He needs to put some focus back on school, as if that wasn't the whole reason he did this in the first place. Not the reason he kept up with it but that didn't matter.

Sapnap also wants to maybe look for another job or just something that he can use to excuse his porn business. No way is he uttering to a normal person about his 'job' so he needs a coverup. He can do that sometime after his classes tomorrow or maybe ask someone for any place hiring.

Sapnap finishes his shower and couldn't be happier than a cat sunbathing. He felt clean and refreshed, Sapnap got a room with two beds so luckily he had a clean bed to lay in ready. He had changed into some regular basketball shorts and an oversized tee shirt, letting himself just breathe before he picked up the other area. Sapnap checked his account to see what he all got, about 468 all from today minus what the website takes. He then goes through chat overlooking the parts where he was faced away, most just dirty talk and compliments. Though a couple gave some good ideas of what he could do for next time such as testing multiple dildos or acting out more cumshots with the cum lube. He almost closes the site before seeing his inbox pinging with a single one. A hot pink surrounding the tiny notification, curiosity flooding his mind. It's also weird because this is a separate DM system for the streamers so they can easily communicate without having to scroll past their viewers and potentially mix them up.

Sapnap takes longer than he should've just staring at his phone, nervous, for some reason. Shaking his head gently he taps it and sees who the message is from.

Dream.

Sapnaps heart stops realizing exactly who that is. Fear creeping all throughout his limbs. His eyes run across Dream's message, his anxiety makes it hard to even comprehend the words. All fuzzy and jumbled nearly unreadable.

Once it settles in he calms because it's such a simple message, sweet.

Dream: hey newbie :)
Dream: youre pretty good for a beginner but if you dont mind i wanna give you some tips and help you get into the community a bit more
Dream: if you dont mind that isyou dont have too xp see you next stream cutie :)