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1990
Your step-mother and your father were talking with the many guest that were at your house for the annual stark Christmas party little did they know that it would be their last. You were hidden somewhere playing with your new expensive toys. Being a stark came with having poor parenting but great presents
‘Anthony pick up your sister for the photo’ howard told his first born that was drinking even if not of age, he was rather bored having to deal with all this boring adults, and promptly ignored his father request
‘anthony’ his father called him gain
‘yes dad?’ he asked rolling his eyes
‘pick up y/n we need a family photo for the news’
‘and we should never anger the press’ he said draining his glass
‘what did you say son?’ his father asked him giving him a stern look
‘I said I’m going to find the kid’ replied tony putting down his now empty glass on the table
Tony searched for you in the room without luck. then he remembered that you liked to hide under the tables where no one could see you but where you could see everyone you told him once. a little spy he had thought . he spotted your toy under the table and lifted up the tablecloth
‘kiddo dads want you for a photo’ he told you
‘I hate photo Tons’ you replied unimpressed still playing with your toys
‘come on’ he tried again
‘I don’t want to’
‘I got you a present for you’ he said as you suddenly looked at him, he now had your attention
‘If you behave and make dad happy I will give it to you, otherwise I will sell it, capish?’
You nodded at him
‘we have a deal?’ he said lifting his pinky to you to entwine yours with in a pinky promise
‘yes’ you replied getting out of under the table and raising your tiny arms telling Tony to pick you up
He rolled his eyes and picked you up bringing you to his parents
‘here they are’ said howard faking a smile for the photo as he picked you up from tony. After the photo he immediately set you down
‘Maria the kid’ he motioned his hand toward you as he spoke with some investors not even looking at you
‘let me mum’ said tony annoyed by how his father had treated you, he picked you up again bringing you away from the crowd
‘let’s go honeybun I promised you your present’ he said as you hold on to his shoulder to not fall
He brought you to the Christmas tree setting you down and giving you a big box
‘merry christmas little one’ he said smiling, thinking how you were the only good thing that came out of his father terrible manners and extra-marital affairs
You tried opening the box but was failing terribly so he helped you
Your eyes light up as you saw the robot he had gifted you, one made by him himslef
‘thank you Tons’ you giggled hugging him, he patted your hair ‘anytime kiddo’
1991
Your dad and your step-mum had died 9 days ago, you had got out the hospital 6 days ago. And now there was a tony stark in college with a three years old sister to take care alone. And it was Christmas your favorite holyday.
He had cancelled the annual stark party and had denied anyone to come home. It was just you and him and some take out food
‘mum usually made us chocolate on Christmas’ you wined not liking the food he had ordered
‘well mum is not here, you are stuck with me and I don’t know how to anything ‘ he said snapping at you.
You had been having tantrums all day, you did not like the breakfast he had made, you waked him up as santa had left only a present under tree and not your usual many. You wanted cookies but there weren’t, you would not play alone but wanted him to play with you.
And he was so done with it especially as he was trying to process that you two were now orphans something that a small child like you could not understand. You could not understand that he was now your legal tutor. Him. someone who barely knew how to take care of himself. He was too young to be a father and he still had not found the courage to leave you to a babysitter all day especially not so soon after you had left the hospital after your parents car crash where you had miraculous survived.
You started tearing up. Prompting him to change expression immediately at the guilt.
‘honeybun I’m sorry- I didn’t mean too’ he tried saying as you started crying
‘I want mum and dad’ you said sobbing as tony picked you up as you hugged him
‘I know I miss them too’ he said hugging your tiny frame
‘why don’t we watch that movie you like ‘Home alone?’ we could make some traps in case the bad guys want to get in the house’ he said trying to cheer you up
‘ ‘kay’ you said wiping your tears and looking at him
He placed you on the sofa next to him, giving you the candy canes you had asked him before. Then he started the movie as you smiled again and laughed with him as the bad guys suffered terribly funny traps.
‘you know that I will always be there for you right ?’ he asked you as you watched the movie
‘I know. you are my big brother’ you said as you fell asleep on him
he smiled at you and picked you up and bringing you to your room. He tackled you in bed putting your new toy next to you. As you turn in your sleep grabbing it and keeping it close
‘merry chrtimas kiddo’ he said kissing your forehead before going back to the living room and opening a bottle of vodka
Early 2000s
you laid almost passed out on the floor rug. high and drunk. tony next you curled against a bottle of champagne while Chris your childhood best friend and first love, that you will tragically loose in a couple of years becoming the reason why you joined shield and then became an avenger. Was holding on you, his head snuggled against your neck and his arms around your waist.
You had spent the day singing karaoke, playing pool and drinking too many shots, wine and smoking pot and probably some magic mushroom too.
‘we really should stop celebrating like this dear’ chris hummed in your neck completely broken by the excessive amount of alcohol you all had taken even though you both were way underage. But this is what big brothers are needed for, buy alcohol for themselves their little sister and her boyfriend.
This is how you celebrated. Most families watched movies and had a dinner. The orphans like you that had lost your family a week before Christmas years ago instead passed out drunk with your bother that hated the holidays even more than you and your boyfriend that would be with you always even indulging the starks bad habits.
‘I think you are right’ you told him as you caressed his hair
‘I swear if you two even think of doing the dirty next to me I’m going to block all your credit cards’ mumbled tony not daring to open his eyes
‘don’t worry. we don’t have the strength. Next year less booze tony’ said chris hoping to find some medicine for the headache in his pockets
‘merry f*cking Christmas kids’ said tony throwing at you and chris some pills for the headache
2015
You were all at the avenger compound expect hulk that was missing and thor in asgard.
So it was you, your bother tony, pepper, your boyfriend steve, sam, Rhodes, your best friends nat and clint. It was the day before Christmas tomorrow sam would go in lusiana and clint to his family bringing nat with him. you and tony did not celebrate christmas so this was the most you would do.
‘hey are you okay?’ steve asked you. you were on the balcony alone looking at the city lights, you needed some time for yourself.
‘yah. Just some holidays sadness’ you told him facing him placing your arms around his neck as he hold your waist.
‘you know I’m here for you right?’ he asked you gently looking in your eyes
‘I know, thank you’ you said kissing him as he brought you closer
‘ironic I asked santa for you to dump the captain and yet he is still here’ said tony interrupting you and steve while he sipped his drink. you and steve rolled your eyes at him, your hand falling to steve chest while he still hold on to your waist
‘ah. Ah. Ah. So funny Tons’ you told your brother
‘come on kiddo, it’s time for the christmas karaoke. You don’t want to disappoint Rhody’ said tony motioning for you two to follow him.
before going back inside you and steve exchanged a laugh as you pecked his lips as he smiled at you through the kiss
‘merry Christmas steve’
‘merry chtistmas y/n’
You then headed inside back to the party, hand in hand. You thought that maybe just maybe Christmases were not so bad Afterall not when you had your brother, a boyfriend and an amazing group of friends that were basically family.
Little did you knew that this would be the last Christmas of the avengers
2019
Morgan was less than one year old and it was her first Christmas so Tony and pepper (more pepper) decided to end yours and tony’s hate for Christmas to start brand new.
The problem is you and steve were back together, after the snap you found your way back to each other mostly because of guilt. so you would bring him too home for christmas and also nat as was alone being clint on the run. Tony adore Nat the problem was Steve. He still was suspicious of him, not because of bucky but of because he had lied to your face in your three years together.
Still they went along at the christmas day. With Steve even smiling as he held Morgan, something which was not very common for the captain nowadays.
You looked at your broken family everyone had lost so much and you felt guilty as most of the person you loved instead where there. you were back with your boyfriend the only person you had managed to open your heart to after loosing your first love. your brother was happy and had now his family something you always had wished for him. and you had still your best friends rhody and nat, even though you were missing Clint you at least knew he was alive, something that could be said for half of the universe.
After the dinner which had survived Tony judgmental comments and the general sadness of a world post snap you and tony were putting away the stuff in the kitchen.
‘do you think we finally recovered our christmas trauma?’ you asked tony as you two washed the dishes
‘us? Never’ he said splashing you with water
‘Tons! You are a father now you should be responsible’ you wined at him as the water hit your face
‘I became a father the first time the week before Christmas a long time ago. Was I responsible then? No but still I made a great job’ he said serious
He was right when your parents died he became a father more than an older brother. He raised you. And this was his way of making a compliment to you, that you where his greatest parental job.
‘was that a compliment to me? Because you managed to make it about yourself’ you laughed at him throwing him a towel that he dodged
‘you are, and always was a great father Tons. Morgan is lucky to have you. Trust me I know. also you just decide to put aside your hate for Christmas for her. That is hell of a personal growth and parent duty’ you told him now serious too,
He smiled at you and brought you in his embrace, you hugged him tight. Your brother, your anchor.
‘merry Christmas honeybun’ he told you kissing the side of your head
‘merry Christmas big brother’
2024
Christmas 2024 would be different as you had Bucky now
Your first Christmas with bucky out next week