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fucking fearless

Summary:

lexi and fez meet at a new. years eve party the whole night is a whirlwind. the two of them both notice and acknowledge their feelings for each other.
(this story is a cannon - divergents)

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Chapter 1: new years

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Everything was moving in slow motion, after Fez handed me my phone back. I watched him pull off his green cable knit sweater and set it down beside me. He sent me a small smile before looking back over in the direction of Nate Jacobs. Before I could even put two and two together, Fez was over at the bar pouring some vodka into a cup. I could see him and Nate exchange a few words before Fez hit Nate over the head with the bottle of smirnoff. He started to hit and kick and beat Nate to the ground.

I could see the blood start to flow from the wounds on Nate's head. Everyone around the two started to gasp and some of the girls started to shout. I saw Cassie and Maddy push through the crowds of people. No one stepped in to help Nate. Fez looked up and around at the crowd, his eyes landed on me and he frowned. I could tell from the look on his face that he didn’t want me to see him like that.Then he turned around and made his way over to the open door. The pair of them made eye contact before he disappeared into the crowds of people at the party. Everything started to pick up and move fast after that. Before I knew what I was doing, I grabbed his green sweater, not wanting him to lose it. Secretly I hoped that he left it for me to take, so I had a reason to go and see him.

Cassie, Maddy and Mckay took Nate to the hospital. He looked like he was in pretty bad shape. I was surprised that he didn’t put up a fight, when he realised what was happening to him. If I was asked to bet on who would win in a fight before tonight I would probably give my vote to Nate but after watching Fez… My vote has changed.

I decided to go home, and walked out of the party. It continued to roar on, even after the fight. I got into my car and put His sweater in the front seat of my car. Turning my car on, and giving it a minute waiting for it to start to warm up. It was taking a few to many minutes, so I decided to hell with it and pulled Fez’s green sweater over my head. Immediately, I started to warm up. pulling out of my spot, I started to drive home. While driving home I started to think about everything that happened in the last 4 or 5 hours.

I spent almost the whole night sitting on the couch talking and rattling off weird information. Fez kept talking to me the whole night. I wasn't sure at times but I started to think he was flirting with me. For the first time in a long time I felt like I was able to let go and allow someone to see the real me, without worrying what they would think of me. It took me by surprise that he called me fearless. I've never thought or seen myself as a fearless person. That was more of Cassie's area of expertise.

“You’re fucking fearless lexi.” in that moment i could feel my pulse start to race and i felt a warm blush shoot up to my cheeks and spread down and around my body. I couldn't help but stare into his icy blue eyes. I Could feel my palms warm and grow moist from the anxiety and the feelings that started while sitting there with Fezco. Even thought nearly 30 minutes before he beat the shit out of Nate, he made me feel safe in the sea of people, getting absolutely fucked out of their minds. Even though he hurt Nate, I knew that he could never turn on me like he had on Nate.

During the drive home, I could smell weed, cologne and … vanilla was it? From the sweater. I started to make a pros and cons list about texting Fez and letting him know that I was the one who took his sweater home, keeping it safe for him. I pulled into my driveway, making sure not to block my mom's car in the driveway. All of the lights in the house were off, suggesting that my mom passed out somewhere in the house too drunk to make it into her bed, like every other night.

I made my way to my front door, quietly putting the keys in the lock and opening the door. I closed it without making a sound. Mom was passed out in her chairs with half a glass of wine still in her hand. I sat my purse down by the stairs before going over to her, taking the glass and setting it down on the coffee table in front of her. I grabbed the knitted blanket from the back of the couch, on the other side of the couch and draped it over her. I walked into the kitchen, turning on the light. I made my way towards the fridge, grabbing a bottle of water. I made my way back over to the front door. I looked over to my purse sitting on the stairs.

I really wanted to go to the convenient store that Fez operates and runs. I thought better of it and decided that the text would suffice. I started to head upstairs to the room that Cassie and I shared. I threw my purse on the couch, separating our rooms. I walked over to the mirror on my desk. Looking into the mirror I could see a girl but for once she didn't look like me… well it was me but it was different from the millions of times i have looked into this mirror. There was a shy smile plastered on my face, my cheeks were pink despite the fact that I didn't apply blush before leaving for the party.

I was still in the clothes from the party, Fez’s sweater was still keeping me warm. Moving away from my desk and mirror I walked into the middle of the room and kicked off my shoes. I started to unbutton my jeans, and shimmy out of them when my phone went off. kicking my jeans off and rushed over to my bag where my phone was. Just as I found my phone at the bottom of my bag, another ping came from my phone, it lit up and I saw that I had two text messages from two different people, Cassie and Fez.

I opened my phone and read Cassie's message first.

Cassie: I'm still at the hospital, probably won't be home till tomorrow morning. Maddy said that she’ll get me home later. Hope you got home okay!

I responded to her telling her that I was going to bed and that I would see her in the morning. Even though I was upset with her, I'm just glad that she has maddy and that they will find a way back to their homes together. I clicked out of the chat and then clicked Fez’s chat.

Fez: Yo fearless

Blushing at his words, I started typing.

Lexi: Hi Fezco:)

Three small grey dots started to appear. Another message appeared in the chat.
Fez: na lex, you can call me fez

I let out a girlish giggle and a cheesy wide smile started to form on my face. Deciding to wait a few minutes before responding to fez. I pulled off his sweater and the shirt underneath, so I was only in my bra and underwear. Then I pulled off the covers and made my way over to the dresser on my side of the room. I pulled out some grey sweats and walked back over to the bed. I pulled them on and fezs sweater. It was warm and oversized.

My phone started to buzz, thinking it was Lexi. I picked it up and said “I'm already in my pj’s, I'm not picking you up.” “na fearless, it's me fez.” I almost dropped my phone in shock. Why didn’t I check the caller id? “Oh my god i'm so sorry i thought you were Cass, uhh what’s up?” He took a few seconds before he started to talk. “I jus’ wanna to say that, i'm sorry you had to see me like that, you know. I didn’t know I was gonna meet this beautiful girl… i hope i didn’ fuck up the first impression.” my heart instantly warmed and i started to smile into the phone. “No you didnt fuck anything up. I had a great time and I umm… have your sweater.” “oh shit, for real. I'm glad you grabbed it. Thanks… I'm over around your block wanna go for a drive?” “umm sure i guess why not i just need to change and..” “nah im parked outside just come out in what you're wearing.”

I ran over to my window, ripping back one of the curtains I looked outside. His car was outside my house. He waved and smiled. He could see me through the window in his green sweater. My phone was still pressed up to my ear while looking at him outside my house. “Looks better on you Lex. Come on and give it to me another day.” “Okay fine let me just get my purse and leave a note for my mom. Be out in a few.`` I hung up, closed the curtain and ran over to my bag. I started walking down the stairs, while taking the braids out of my hair, letting it fall down my back. I scribbled a note letting her know I got home from the party okay but I was going back out and would be back later. Leaving it on the island counter and walking out the door locking it behind me.

Fez had the car running, and I opened the door to see him smiling over at me. Feeling a blush bubble up on my cheeks I sat down in the passenger side seat and closed the door. Once my seat was on he started the car and started driving. “I'm glad you wanna hang out with me” “of course i want to. I had a great time earlier.” “I'm glad. Wanna go get some burgers or something ``''mmmm yes.” he smiled over at me and turned off my street. He pulled his phone out from his pocket and passed it to me. “My code is 6825. Play whatever you want.” following his instructions i typed in his password and started to look through his playlists and picked a random one. I picked a random song, only knowing the song from some of the parties I had been dragged to over the years. Turning his phone off I placed it in my lap. Looking over at him I could see his wide smile spread across his handsome face.

Right now in this car with this man felt like a dream, I almost felt the need to pinch myself to remember that this is actually happening. We pulled into a McDonalds drive thru. He ordered himself a big mac before asking me what i wanted. “Can i get a cheeseburger please” “i need a cheeseburger with two medium fries” the drive thru cashier gave us the price of the order and we drove up to pay and get our food. I pulled out my wallet and tried to hand Fez a $5 bill. He looked at me incredulously “nah Lex, it's on me. I got you, when your with me.'' When he wasn't looking I left the 5 dollar bill in one of his cup holders, hoping he would find it later. We drove around for a few minutes before pulling into the parking lot of a park. He turned off the car after finding a spot. We were the only people in the lot. Fez unbuckled his seat belt then looked over at me, and I did the same. I took out the burgers and fries from the bag and handed them over to him. He smiled and thanked me. “I'm the one who should be thanking you again. You didn’t have to do this.” “I know I didn't but like I said earlier tonight Lex, I was starting to miss you.”

I could feel the crimson blush heat over my face and that girlish giggle was back. He looked over at me and took one of my hands in his and said “I really enjoy being around you, you make me feel smart and teach me things I would never know.” He took a fry and ate it. I started to unwrap my burger and took the top of the bun off. I pulled the pickles out and looked up at Fez asking him if he wanted them. Put out his hand and took them, shoving them into his burger.

The two of us ate in silence for a few moments before Fez broke the silence. “So ms. fearless how come you are in my sweater?” surprised by his bluntness I gave a small cough before giving him an answer. “Well I threw it on after I left the party because I was cold and well it was really comfortable, so I put it back on to sleep in. I'm really sorry I should have put a shirt underneath before I left so I could give it back.” “I told you not to worry about it. Looks better on you anyways… keep it.” I looked at him wide eyed. This was a really nice sweater. How come he’s just giving it to me? I looked down to my fingers and started to twist them not knowing what to say. “You don't have to filter yourself with me. I don't care what you say. I want you to be comfortable around me.” I nodded my head to his words before speaking my mind. “How come you are doing all of this?” “I don't know if you make me feel some type of way and I have never felt it before… it feels good.”

I could feel my heart melting again at his words. His phone started to vibrate in my lap. I picked it up and handed it back over to him. He looked at who was calling before answering. “Whats up Ash” the phone was loud enough that i could hear bits and pieces of the conversations. “Bro you need to get your ass home. I ain't dealing with this drugged up whore no more. She's pissing me off.” “Ash im fucking out.” “bro i dont give a fuck, ill kick her ass out” Fez rolled his eyes and ended the call. He looked over at me and said “wanna go back to my place, maybe watch a movie or something” “sure that sounds fun” “i uhh should warn you Lex, we have a guest staying with us… she uhh is the girlfriend of a buddy of mine. Shes fucking annoying, dont listen to her.” i laughed a little thinking that she couldn’t be that bad. He looked over at me while driving out of the parking lot and laughed before saying “you laugh now”.

After 10 minutes of driving, he arrived at his house. The area looked familiar, realising it's only about a 10 minute walk away from home. He lives just a few streets over. Fez got out of the car and I followed behind him. He pulled out his house keys then opened the door letting me go in first. I kicked my shoes off and walked in further to his home. A young boy, assuming that was Ash, I've only seen him a few times and never talked to him. He looked over at the door and did a double take. “Who the fuck is that?” “yo ash, be nice fuck. This is lexi.” “i dont want to hear y’all fucking. Deal with that bitch over there, i'm done taking her shit.`` Then Ash picked up the bowl of cereal he was eating and took it into his room, closing the door loudly. “Don't listen to him. He just doesn't like people. He might warm up to you eventually.” “Does that mean you want me to come back here?” I gave him a shy smile and he shook his head smiling. “I'd like that, if that's okay with you?” “I think I would like that.” a girl stumbled into the kitchen where we were standing. She looked at Fez then at me. “I thought you were fucking that druggy from earlier, who is this.” I understood what Fez meant earlier in the car and I looked over at him and he gave me a knowing look. I looked back over at her and smiled. “I'm Lexi, nice to meet you. Rue is just a friend of Fezs’.” “ohhhh m’kay got it. So what are we doing tonight? I'm bored, and that little man boy won’t hang out with mee. He called me annoying.” “just go watch some fucking tv and go find some weed. Lex and I are gonna hang alone.” I looked down at my fingers and blushed. Fez walked over to me grabbing my hand, pulling me into the hallway. He gave me a quick tour before ending it at his room. “If you're uncomfortable chilling in my room, we can chill in the living room. Just Faye is staying there and well you've seen her. I nodded and laughed a little before saying “yeah that's fine i understand what you mean.”

He pushed open his door and walked into his room. I followed him in, he walked over to his closet and pulled out a pair of m&m pj bottoms. I started to giggle when I saw them. He looked over at me and smiled “what you don’t like the M’s. there my favourite pair. “It's cool if i change in here quickly” feeling my face warm up i nodded and said “that's fine, its your room fez.” “Lex make yourself at home sit down, relax.” I walked over to the other side of his bed and propped up the pillow before settling in. He pulled his pants off. I snuck quick glances over at him, hoping he didn't catch me. He pulled his pj’s on before sitting down beside me. He reached over to his side table and grabbed the remote to turn on the tv. “What do you want to watch?” “It doesn't matter to me. You can pick.” “you sure?” “Of course!” He flicked through Netflix before landing on the office and chose a random episode.

After a few minutes of watching Fez looked over at his side table then grabbed something off of it. It was a blunt, he lit it then took a hit before blowing the smoke out of his mouth. He looked over at me and then said “sorry lex..” “fez i've smoked before, a few times.” he pulled the blunt away from his mouth and said “for real lex? Damn keeping me on my toes i see.” he held out the blunt for me to take from him. I took it and inhaled, blowing out the smoke. I did that a few more times before handing it back to him, who was looking at me with a weird look. “What?” “You don't know how hot that was.” I smiled back at him. He put the blunt down on the ashtray, before turning back to look at me.

I could feel the sexual tention pouring into the room. One of his hands came up to tuck a few strands of hair behind my ear. He left his hand there for a few moments. The two of them both started to lean forward, meeting in the middle. His lips were soft, I could taste the weed on his lips. As the kiss deepend, he pulled me in closer to him. His hand went to travel down my side. He pulled away looking at me to make sure that what he was doing was okay. I smiled and pulled him back down to kiss. He let out a low groan and started to kiss down my neck. I could feel him leaving small hickeys down my neck, not caring about them at the moment.

Just then the door opened. Ash walked in, with his hand over his eyes. “Yo bro, rues’ at the door with some guy. They want to buy some weed. She wants to talk to you.” “tell her I'm sleeping.” “I tried that, why do you think I'm here. She won't leave.” i put my hand on his shoulder, he looked over at me and i said “it's fine i'll just stay in here. I'll be fine” he gave me a smile and looked back over at ash. “Fine fuck tell her ill be there in a minute.”. Ash walked out of the room. Before fez could stand up to leave i pulled him back to me and gave him a quick kiss. “Lexi Howard, what are you doing to me?” he smiled and got up, closing the door behind him.