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Hey readers! Here is the sequel to Heart of a Prime. If you have not read that one yet, please go and read it before proceeding with this one.

This story will be based around Age of Extinction and the Last Knight. Changes will be made to suit the flow of the story. Optimus Prime and my OC, Saphira, will still have a relationship with some minor Barricade x OC at the start of the story. This takes place 3 years after the end of Heart of Prime.

Rating for the story will involve: Violence, coarse language, blood, smut, sex scenes, assault scenes, medical torture, mental torture, trigger warnings and minor possessiveness. Please enjoy the second story.

Staring at the world around her, all she saw was metal rubble. Burns stained the surface of the metal as visual scars of war from the past. The air was cold and dry, and yet she was somehow breathing. This world appeared to have no trees. It was desolate, and there were bodies of transformers everywhere. This seemed to be Cybertron, but she only knew what it looked like based on what she has been shown. But this was no dream, this is a nightmare.

Saphira frowned as she gazed around in despair, searching for signs of familiar bodies in the hope there was a way to save them. That is what she felt like she had to do. She could see familiar bodies of decepticons laying around this place. She could see Megatron, Starscream and many others laying around. Their optics were dark, and their protoforms were completely bare from their shell, making them look a lot like skeletons.

Saphira knew who she was looking for. After all, she had been waiting for so many years. She needed to find him, and ask where he has been. She wanted him to come her, but it felt like he was nowhere to be found. After all, she had no felt anything from him in years. She craved to have that feeling back, but she could never find it. It always brought her a dead end. Sometimes bringing her to the body of Sentinel Prime and the Fallen, all of which haunt her upon seeing them this way.

“Keep running, that is not going to save you. And it won't stop me from getting what I want.” Saphira tensed upon hearing the deep, feminine voice fill the air. She stopped and looked around for the owner of the voice. “You stopped me once from achieving my goal. I will not allow it again. You are nothing but a parasite in my way.”

Saphira spotted the figure in the distance. A floating, feminine figure that she has seen only in her nightmares. She had no idea who this is, and why she has seen her a lot. “I don't even know you, or what you are. You are just some dark manifestation of my mind, as far as I am concerned. Leave me the hell alone, bitch!” She turned away from the figure angrily. “This is only a dream…”

The being just laughed and Saphira shivered, widening her eyes as the world ahead of her was blocked by a metal wall. “You keep saying that. But you will know who I am eventually, human. You should have stayed out of it the moment the autobots showed up. You wouldn't be here if you had made the right choice.”

Saphira clenched her hands as she was irritated. This figure has repeated that more than once. She did not know why. It annoyed her to no end. “Not like I had a choice. That fate fell into my lap. You're just annoying me with something that cannot be undone.”

She was forced to turn around, feeling the tendrils of the being holding her tightly as she was pressed against the wall. “It is true it cannot be undone, but I can prevent what the future holds. But I promise that I will destroy you. You are nothing but a little child. You will die, but not by my hand. But by the one who should have been following my orders from the start, but he turned his back on Cybertron for a weak sparkmate like you. A sparkmate who could not even protect her own sparkling."

Saphira immediately tensed and grimaced at the mention of her lost sparkling, feeling the pain of that loss rippling through her body. She had never forgotten the loss of her sparkling, and she wished that it had not been killed. “Shut up! I did not lose the sparkling, it was killed! Shut up!”

The figure just smirked with a light huff of amusement. “You know I am right, Saphira Dawn…”

“Stop it! Shut up! Let me go!!”

Saphira shot up with a shriek, opening her eyes to the dark room of her bedroom. She took deep breaths as sweat dripped from her forehead, and her heart was racing within her chest. She gripped the quilt around her body and she pulled it tighter around her body as she realized she had woken up. She looked around before glancing at the window. The light of the moon was filtering through the window, even though there was a fog outside and a light dusting of snow was falling.

“Saphira?” She turned her head upon hearing the calm, gentle voice. She looked at the door to see a pair of ruby red optics looking back at her with concern. “Did you have another nightmare?” She nodded and began to sniffle as tears fill her eyes. Sighing, he walked towards her and turned the lamp on, making her squint from the bright light of the bulb. “You've been having this nightmare for months now. Why do you keep dreaming about it?” He sat on the bed as she shrugged and pulled her legs up to hug them. “And now you have been sick for a few weeks. You need to rest, Saphira. You won't get better if you keep waking up like this.”

Saphira sighed as she hugged her knees tightly. Her emerald, green, eyes filled with tears as she thought about the nightmare. “I can't help it Barricade. I…I don't know why I’ve been having this dream. I really don't.” She sniffled softly and he smiled at her, lifting his hand gently to move several strands from her face. She gazed back at him, staring at the holoform of the former decepticon in front of her. “I’m sorry that I am worrying you, Barricade. I really am not meaning to.”

He smiled at her and leaned down to kiss her forehead gently, making her flinch slightly from the contact, though she allowed it as he rubbed her cheeks gently with his thumbs. “I know. I wish I knew why you seem to be dreaming of Cybertron, and seeing the dead decepticons and autobots, and I wish I knew who it was who speaks to you in the dream. But I assure you, it is nothing more than a nightmare.” She did not respond and he placed the back of his hand of her forehead. “Your fever is still very high. Are you sure you don't want to run into town to get the medicine, Saphira? You have been able to get the cash from your grandfather's friend, so I think you should buy it.”

She shook her head. “My face is all over the place right now, Barricade. I’m not sure why it has taken three years before the government has put out a warrant for people to report my location. It has been three years…and I turn…twenty-three tomorrow…” Barricade moved closer, and Saphira looked at him with a frown. “Please don't push yourself right now, Barricade. I am still not sure if I want to proceed, so don't kiss me. Alright?”

Barricade softened his expression as he had wanted to try and kiss her. Their relationship had changed in the past year. It wasn't heavily romantic, but the last three years have been hard on Saphira. Around four years ago, Saphira had gone through some of the hardest moments of her life. Optimus Prime, her sparkmate, had travelled to the moon to retrieve an old mentor of his. Sentinel Prime was brought back to Earth and revived, in the hopes that he would be another warrior to fight against Megatron. But it turned put that Sentinel and Megatron had made a deal. Which resulted in the autobots falsifying their deaths, and it caused Saphira to lose dignity and her unborn sparkling at the hands of Megatron.

A near year after that, on Saphira's twentieth birthday, Optimus and the autobots had brought Saphira to a location where Optimus had brought her way back when they had just met. He had stumbled across it on his drive, and both he and Saphira had fallen in love with it. It was a former emerald mine, and there were pieces of unpolished emeralds all around the area, and Saphira even found a large emerald in the shape of a heart to give Optimus. It was a wonderful present.

But for Saphira, that memory had been stained. For whatever reasons they were ambushed by the human military. They were forced to flee and separate, and Saphira tried to call William Lennox for an explanation. But he never answered. She did reach Charlotte Mearing, only to learn that Mearing had been stepped down from her position as Director of National Intelligence. That pretty much made them lose the only voice they had in the government. And, unfortunately, it was the last day both Saphira and Barricade had seen any of the others.

The only thing Saphira really had left were the two items Ironhide had given her. A bracelet that would give away Saphira's location at the press of a button. And a necklace that could transform into multiple weapons. And that weapon had actually been useful to Saphira. Mostly because she used it as she had been trying to live as self sufficiently as she could. As she and Barricade have fled into the center of the country. They were in Wyoming now, and that is where they've been for the last three years.

Saphira had been lucky enough that Edmund Burton, a man Saphira had gotten to know before going into hiding, had his servant, Cogman, inform her that a property had been purchased under Edmund's name in the state. It was a small farm that provided enough shelter for Saphira. She never told Barricade how she knew Edmund, as she didn't want to give away what her grandfather, Everett Dawn, had done as a job in his lifetime. Especially as that job had been past down to her. But as she has had to go into hiding, she hasn't been able to work on it. She at least knew that her wealth was being protected though. That was the reassurance she had from Edmund.

Barricade sighed softly, rubbing her cheek gently with his index finger. “I only want to make you feel better, Saphira. This nightmare you have been having seems to be mostly your mind. Especially since you stopped sensing the bond a year ago.” She frowned at him and immediately slapped his hand away from her face. “I can only assume that, when you stopped sensing him, your mind has been going through that stage of pain and grief.”

Saphira let more tears fall from her eyes. It was true, on her twenty second birthday, the spark bond felt like it had been cut off suddenly. Before that, she had briefly felt fear and pain, and now she did not know what it meant. She didn't want to know what it meant. While she had been sitting in this farmhouse for the last three years, she has been waiting for the other autobots to find her. During the first two years, Saphira could feel the bond between her and Optimus. It is a permanent bond that was for life. She did not feel his feelings all the time. But he would send her warmth, love and comfort through the bond. But he never came to find her.

She had pressed the button on the bracelet to alert the autobots to her position five times since arriving in Wyoming. But there had been no luck. She had given up on trying to get their attention. As far as she knew, they were either dead or never coming to find her. Barricade has tried to reassure her that they would be here if they could. He's tried reaching out to the other autobots, but he only received a message from Ratchet one year ago, a week before her twenty second birthday, and Barricade had actually been afraid due to the message. He never told her what it was, but he said there was a good reason why they weren't able to be here.

But on her twenty second birthday, something happened. Just before she blew the candle of the cupcake she had bought for herself for her birthday, Saphira felt cold. It wasn't an external feeling that could easily be dealt with. It was an internal chill, that scared her. And when she realized she couldn't sense the bond anymore, Barricade confirmed that was likely the case. This made her feel like her birthday was nothing more than bad luck now. Bad things seem to happen on her birthday, and she hated it. She didn't even want to celebrate her twenty third birthday.

But Barricade has been her rock since than. It was only two weeks after her twenty second birthday that Saphira had started to grow closer with Barricade. He was surprised as they had always remained friendly. But Saphira sought out his comfort, and he was happy to provide it for her. And Barricade was happy to know that she could love him. She did, but she still considered him a friend. Though he did wonder if that was still true, considering everything that has happened.

But in the last few weeks, Saphira had come down with the flu. And she hasn't been able to get over it. Barricade has done his best to help her. He's even learned how to cook rather well. Especially soups. Saphira has appreciated his help a lot as she often felt too weak to get out of bed. She only got out for the bathroom or if she wanted to walk around. Most of the time she was sleeping, or trying to sleep. The nightmare has hindered her recovery, and now she's refusing to get the medicine she needs.

“I would appreciate it, if you did not bring that up, Barricade.” She sniffled as her bottom lip trembled. “It still hurts to think about it. Especially…especially since we don't even know if…if…you know…” Saphira did not want to say it as it was too painful for her to say. “I can't do anything about this nightmare, Barricade. It just feels like…like I’m trapped and I can't get away from this.”

Barricade knew that. But he still wished she could be free from it. “You still need to consider whether you want me to get the medicine you need. You know I can modify my holoform, and you have enough cash. I won't take long…”

“But it could be long enough for you to leave me alone,” Saphira interrupts as she looked at him. She had become afraid of Barricade leaving and never coming back. That was another reason why she wasn't letting him go into town on his own. “I worry that you will be recognized, and they would find you.” She sniffled as she looked at his ruby, red, optics, dark blue, shoulder length hair, rectangular face shape and his broad, muscular body. “I don't want you to leave. Please stay…I will recover.”

Barricade was well aware of Saphira’s fear. She developed the fear of losing Barricade over a year ago. And that fear only grew once she lost touch with the bond. But he was tempted to just ignore her and go into the nearby town to get her the medicine. Plus, they were getting low on food. Saphira was not out of meat, as Barricade and Saphira had learned how to track and hunt the elk that migrate through Wyoming. And they have only had to bring down two elk to keep Saphira fed with enough meat for the last few years. It has helped with the deep freezer she owned.

As for other food, Barricade had actually made a special greenhouse that runs on energon. He had made an engine that didn’t need a huge amount of fuel to ensure that a greenhouse would survive in Wyoming. Generally, Wyoming was too cold to grow most things. But this greenhouse he made ran just fine. It keep the air inside warm to grow things all year round. Saphira did still have a garden around the house, so she could grow things like carrots, broccoli and a few other things that do grow in the cooler climate of this state. But inside the greenhouse, she could grow everything else she needed. Her knowledge of gardening helped Barricade learn the skill, and he has grown to enjoy it.

Aside from the greenhouse, he also made a small area to house some animals. Saphira was able to buy some chickens, a rooster and a couple goats a couple years ago, and they have provided her with eggs and milk, while also growing in number. Saphira had been happy with his inventions as it made life easier. Aside from hunting for elk, there was a river near the farmhouse that ran through the acreage. Here, as long as they break the ice, they can catch trout and there were a couple traps for the calico crayfish. It has been a great learning process, and she has not been to the store for many years. She stocked up in flour, rice and pasta, and she still have plenty available to her. She also had stocked up on shampoos, conditioners and so on. She just did not stock up on medicine.

Barricade smiled at the girl with a reassuring expression. “Saphira, the town is only thirty minutes away. It means I will be back in just over an hour when the sun comes up. This flu is not going away.” He flinched as she began to cough suddenly, and he moved closer to rub her back as she tried to settle her cough. “I honestly think it is getting worse. You were complaining about head congestion and not be able to breath. The flu seemed mild a few weeks ago. There’s only so much I can do. I am no doctor.”

Saphira shook her head as she grabbed his wrist tightly, letting out another cough. “An hour can turn into forever, Barricade. Just…I can’t lose you. We don’t know what happened to everyone else.” She sniffled as she thought back to them. “The last time I saw Sideswipe and Dino…and explosion blinded me…I am not even sure if they survived. I fear they didn’t.”

Barricade kissed her forehead gently, gazing into her eyes with his optics glowing gently. “Saphira, you know I don’t plan on leaving you. We have achieved so much in the last few years. You don’t even rely on anyone else. We have food to feed you, animals that have been easy to look after and they provide you with additional protein and calcium…” She sighed and leaned against him, feeling tired from the coughing fit. “At least we need to do is get you medicine. The herbs in the soup need help from the medicine, Saphira.”

She shook her head. “No…no…” She was blinking slowly as she leaned against him. “I know the others didn’t leave because they wanted to. We had to flee. But it is my birthday is tomorrow. Wait at least until after that day passes. I don’t even want to celebrate it.” She sniffled as Barricade smiled at her kindly. “Don’t even wish me a happy birthday. I only ever remember pain now on my birthday…I just want to forget it.”

“Alright…I can do that for you.” Barricade had planned a small surprise for her, but he could see that Saphira may not want it. He shifted to get off the bed, and Saphira panicked slightly. “I am not going to leave the property, Saphira. You are tired.” She rolled her eyes and sneezed suddenly. “Come on, get yourself comfortable and I will tuck you it. It is just after one in the morning.”

Saphira looked towards the window, surprised that it was that early in the morning. She sneezed again and sniffled before she began to move herself under the blanket again. She shivered as while she was warm under the covers, she often felt chills. “I am sorry that I am making you worry for me, Barricade.” He just smiled at her as he tucked her in gently. “I really am sorry…” She sniffled as more tears fall from her eyes. “But I am glad you are with me. Without you, I am not sure how I would have managed to cope all these years. Living here, alone, seems almost like a nightmare. Especially now…”

“Shhh, shhh…” Barricade cooed as he brushed some stubborn stands from her eyes as he smiled at her. “Don’t think about anything else right now. I will stay with you for a little while. It seems to be the only time you actually rest without a nightmare.” She could not argue with that. It seemed him being close to her, be it his holoform or full form, the presence of Barricade seemed to keep the nightmare away. Maybe it was just his presence, she did not know. She smiled at him and closed her eyes. “There, good girl. Let those worries fade away. Focus on sleep, and ensuring that you get enough of it to recover from this horrible illness.”

Saphira let out a light chuckle without opening her eyes. “I will try…I will try…”

Barricade said nothing as he watched Saphira quietly. He had been surprised when Saphira had made the advances to him in getting closer with him in their relationship. But she still kept him at arms length. He knew she still loved Optimus. She often stared at the sky when she could. He would hear her speak to the sky, believing Optimus was no longer here. But Barricade was not sure if he was dead. But something has happened to cause the bond to break.

Outside the farmhouse, Barricade’s full form was sitting by the shed, staring at the trees that surrounded the property thoughtfully. Snow was sticking the metal armor on his body, and the wind whistled through the trees loudly as it rushed by him, and kicked up the snow around him. Barricade had found that he enjoys living in this place. It was super peaceful here, despite how rough the weather can be at times. But with a small population here and a lot of wilderness, it was easy to stay hidden. He certainly has gotten used to a very quiet life.

He sighed deeply, watching the mist of air form from his exhale as the heat from his body met with the cool air. He was tempted to head into town to get the medicine against Saphira’s will. But he did not know if leaving would mean he would not be there if she wakes up again from the same nightmare. Barricade has been unable to recharge properly because of this worry. He wished he knew how to get rid of that nightmare.

Another thing that kept him awake was the last message Ratchet had sent to him. He decided to play it again. “Barricade, this is Ratchet. I am sending this message to warn you. We are terribly sorry that we have been unable to reach you and Saphira. But things have happened. After scattering from the ambush, the military have been homing in on our energon signals. And for some reason, they are working with someone. Someone we all have heard about, and fear. Lockdown. You and Saphira must stay hidden. And ensure she does not press the button on the bracelet. He will pick it up.”

That was the last message he heard from Ratchet. Barricade knew very well who Lockdown was. And he was concerned that Lockdown had come to Earth. He did not know what deal had been made, but it was a surprise the humans would even work for Lockdown. Especially as there was obvious signs humans no longer trusted autobots. Regardless, Barricade intended to keep them hidden. He did not want Lockdown to find him or Saphira.

In fact, Ratchet’s message was received sometime before Saphira had stopped feeling the bond on her birthday. It felt like a coincidence, but Barricade could not help but think something had happened. He wanted to tell Saphira, but she might have been tempted to press the bracelet. She kept it in a box with the necklace. She has not touched the bracelet in two years. So even if Barricade were to let Saphira listen to the message, she might not press the button. But it was best to not try fate. Especially since she was sick. And trying her hardest to be happy in general.

Disclaimer: Hey readers, so I am due to start a new job very shortly in the coming days. Because of that, posting new chapters may reduce a little bit. It is why I ended up finishing Heart of a Prime so quickly. I will ensure I get the current stories finished before moving onto any new stories I want to write, including sequels. Thank you for your understanding. Happy reading!

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Walking out onto the patio of a two-story farmhouse on a large property in Texas at dusk, a middle-aged man sighed deeply as she glanced around at the property that he has lived in for many years. Here, he raised his daughter after the loss of his wife so many years ago. Always determined to try and build something that matters to this world, that is what has been driving him forward for so many years due to his desire to make his daughter happy. Today, a real estate agent brought people to check the house again and he chased them away, but not before the agent basically broke the news to his daughter that he was stealing power from the neighbour’s property now. It was not something he wanted his daughter to hear, but it was too late now. Another thing that she would be disappointed in him about.

His name is Cade Yeager, and he has been struggling to find ways to make money from his passion on inventing. While he has managed to create many different inventions, none of them have been able to make him a lot of money. He had managed to get money here and there from his inventions, and the occasional cash that came from helping another person with an issue they might have that he would be able to fix. But it wasn’t really enough to get by. He has been lucky that they haven’t been forced off the property yet. And he also knew he was letting his teenage daughter, Tessa, down due to being unable to be the father she is wanting him to be.

As the cool evening wind brush over his skin, he gazed up at the sky and watched as several meteors skim over the atmosphere of the planet. It was the beauty of living in the country this way as you can really see the sky and the stars at night. High rise buildings often block them out, and being out here in the fresh air had always been a place he wanted to live. It was not complicated, and he had the space to create inventions. And someday he knew that one of his inventions will make him enough money to ensure Tessa would not want for anything.

Resting his hands on the railing of the patio, his thoughts went back to his wife. His heart had remained loyal to her for so many years. After all, he made a promise to her that he would get Tessa to her graduation. And he had almost done that. She was in her finals at school, and he knew she that she was going to do great in college. She was smart, and she could do anything she wanted to if she put her mind to it. Cade was proud of her. And he knew his wife was too.

He gazed at the stars in the sky and spoke softly, believing as though his wife could hear him. “Best thing that ever happened, Emily. She’s the best thing that ever happened. You’d be proud.” He smiled at the sky as his brown eyes look around at the farm around him. He only became distracted by a sound coming from the barn, and Cade immediately groaned in frustration, knowing exactly what the sound meant. “Oh, no…”

He quickly made his way off the patio and ran towards the barn to find out what was causing the sound of electrical sparks. The last thing he needed was to cause a fire. Especially since he had an old freightliner towed in that afternoon. Running into the barn, he spotted a small fire and grabbed one of his fire extinguishers to put it out. It was luckily a small fire that was easy to put out, but it was still irritating. He sighed and walked away from the table that had the small fire, and looked around his barn.

He placed his hands on his hips as he took deep breaths. “Unbelievable.” At the moment, it felt like the world was pushing down on him and he was stuck with no way to get out. “Unbelievable! God!” He looked around at all the inventions he had made, or had started making and now needed fixing, he just knew that he had to do something. “Something in here needs to make this family some money.” His eyes fell upon the dusty, old, freightliner he had towed in earlier. Cade found it strange that the truck was found in an old theatre in town, but it was something he decided to get while it was available. “Come on, you old wreck. Judgement day.”

Cade knew that this truck had been custom designed, based upon the flame patterns on the truck’s body. They were faint, but he had seen them. There was a lot of damage done to this truck, and he did not know what exactly this thing had gone through. The front of the truck had a massive hole in it from large missiles hitting it. Cade just hoped that this thing still had parts that were at least worth selling. He may not use the parts in his inventions, but the parts in the truck engine itself might just get them some money.

Cade huffed loudly as he grabbed his tools and some ladders to get started on this thing. This truck’s story was not really his concern, so long as it made him money. He knew that he should be in bed now, but his mind knew that he needed to do something. He had to do something. So that is why he would spend the night figuring out what this truck had to offer. And he had to at least start by making sure the important parts of the engine were mostly intact. That was the first thing he intended to do. Then he would move and check by hooking a battery to it to see if the engine still would run. At least it would be an excellent indication that the truck itself was worth something aside from the usable parts. He could sell the whole engine for big bucks.

Working through the night, Cade was determined to pull this thing a part. He climbed into the cab first to check the steering wheel, and it appeared to be in good condition. Though when his hand brushed over the center of the steering wheel, he saw a symbol that startled him. He was well aware of the attack that happened in Chicago, and the autobot alliance being scrapped after that, but he had not expected to see an autobot symbol. However, Cade brushed those thoughts aside because he did not think this truck was a transformer.

He tried to open the glove box to see if there was anything in there, but it would not budge. The glove box was almost like his had been completely sealed shut and no matter how hard he tried to open it, he couldn’t. But there was something inside the glove box, he could hear it rattling around when he tried to open the glove box. But he decided he would open the glove box later. He moved on to start checking out the engine.

When he opened the front of the truck, he saw that the internals of it was dusty. He had no idea how long this thing had been sitting in that old theatre for, but it didn’t matter. He began checking it closely and he was glad majority of the parts appeared to be in near perfect condition. With some cleaning, the parts would actually look like new, and he would certainly be able to get a lot of money from this thing.

He continued to check out the engine of the truck and he would eventually get a battery. It was morning by the time he grabbed a battery and Tessa would likely be up. For the moment, Cade hooked the battery up to the truck to charge it, and he was startled as flickers of blue sparks glowed from the truck and a voice spoke loudly from the radio. It was something he had not expected, but realized his suspicion that this is a transformer turned out to be correct.

“Calling all autobots!”

That was what the voice coming from the truck said loudly. Cade had no idea which transformer this was, but he knew it was at least an autobot. Cade could not help but feel excited because having a transformer here would actually be good for him. Cade had always wanted to meet one of the transformers to get familiar with their anatomy and systems to understand it enough so he could apply the same stuff to his own inventions. He was really happy that he got this truck from the town.

He heard the sound of a mini cooper driving down his driveway, and he knew Lucas had decided to show up at his house again. Cade had known Lucas for a long time, and he saw him as a friend. Lucas might have his moments when Cade just wanted to punch him, but he was a good friend. But hearing the sound of the car engine made Cade realize how much time he had spent in the barn taking a closer look at the truck, and Cade knew he had to tell them what they might have found the day before.

“Dad!”

“Coming!” Cade yelled back as he rolled back out from under the truck. He had been underneath it for a couple hours, and Cade honestly had no noticed the time flying by. But it didn’t matter. He ran towards the barn door knowing his daughter and Lucas were likely approaching the barn.

“Are you working with lasers?” Tessa yelled loudly in a bored, curious tone. “If so, I’m not coming in.”

Cade could not help but smirk slightly as he pushed the door for Lucas and Tessa. He was honestly more interested in showing them the truck given with what he has found about it. “You guys have never seen a truck like this before!” Tessa and Lucas frown at him as they were confused by what Cade was going on about. “Get in here! Lock that door!”

Lucas frowned as Tessa ducked into the barn and he walked inside. “Okay, dude…this is super weird. And it doesn’t have a lock.” He closed the door behind him as Cade ran back over. “It’s just a dusty, old, truck, dude. There’s nothing special about it. If the parts are good to sell, then I guess you struck a bit of gold.”

“Real funny, Lucas.” Cade ran over to where he had the radiator currently. “Look! Look at the hole in radiator! Look at the size of it. Something blew a hole in it!” He ran towards the truck as Tessa and Lucas walk towards the truck with frowns on their faces.

“Yeah, so?” Lucas said in a bored tone. “This thing clearly had seen some hard times, man. That’s not really something I am surprised about, given the state of that rusty, old, bucket is in.” He shook his head and glanced at Tessa. “I guess he thinks he struck gold.” Tessa shrugged with a slight smile of amusement.

“That is not it at all, Lucas! It’s not normal steel! None of it is!” Cade climbed the ladder and points towards the engine of the truck. “The shrapnel in the engine it ripped the connections apart.” He stepped onto the scaffolding he had along the front of the truck that was balanced on two ladders. “And watch, this took some Cade genius. You are gonna love this.” Tessa rolled her eyes as she watched her father grab the battery and the cables to hook up to the truck again. “When I hook this back to a working battery…” He put the clamps of the cables on the battery, and the truck would light up again with the headlights flashing.

“Calling all autobots.”

Both Tessa and Lucas listen to the voice coming from the truck, and their faces turn to fear. “Oh, yeah.” Cade was smiling as he held up the cables in his hands, looking at the two who were turning fearful of what they found. “I don’t it’s a truck at all. I think we just found a transformer.” Lucas took a moment to process it before he shouted and ran out of the barn with Tessa following. Cade frowned and moved to get off the ladder. “Wait! Guys!”

Cade jumped to the ground with a huff and ran after Tessa and Lucas out of the barn. He did not quite understand why they both had panicked and left the barn this way. Especially as the transformer clearly was not really in any kind of state to transform and do anything to them. He was a hundred percent confident about that. But given they did not know he found an autobot, and not a decepticon yet, that was understandable.

“Come on, guys!” Cade stopped outside the barn in the garage that housed an old, classic vehicle he still had been working on and taking the parts from. “There is nothing unsafe here, alright? Right now, that thing is just like a regular, old, truck. It has not moved, and it won’t move because of all the damage done to it.”

“Dad!” Tessa exclaimed fearfully as she stared at him in disbelief. “Are you out of your mind? You need to get that thing out of here!”

Cade sighed deeply and approached her as he tried to keep her calm and relaxed. “You don’t have to worry. I’ve been in there working all night and I’m fine! As I said, it is just like a regular, old, truck. It has been beaten up badly enough that it possibly won’t even be alive, so we are okay.”

“You know what?” Lucas huffed as he stepped in front of Cade. “Just because that thing in there has not hurt you, you don’t know if it is even dead! It could easily be allowing you to mess around and fix it so it can kill us all in our sleep! It’s an alien killing machine!”

Cade rolled his eyes as Lucas glanced back at the barn nervously. “Dude! It’s DOA! I have been telling the two of you, that thing has been recalled, totalled, done! You have no reason to panic.”

“Panic?! Oh, I am not panicking. No, no.” Lucas took deep breaths as he tried to calm his nervousness down. “Just because that thing is possibly a dud, does not mean we should not take chances.” He breathed in deeply and looked at Cade. “So, listen, there’s a number that you call. You’re supposed to call the government.” Cade immediately frowned as he listened to Lucas, even though he could already tell it was ridiculous. “It’s the American thing to do. You’re supposed to call, and if it ends up being an alien, then you win twenty-five thousand dollars.”

Cade rolled his eyes at the man. “You don’t win money!”

Lucas ignored Cade and he continued to speak about what he believes that they would get money. “And if you can capture it live, like tag it like a wild wildebeest, then you get a hundred thousand dollars.”

Tessa herself was rather intrigued by this and she seemed to agree with Lucas’s stupid idea. “Dad, we’re making the call!”

Cade shook his head and gave them a stern expression. “I’ve seen the commercial, they don’t say that. That’s not a guarantee.” Tessa was ignoring him, and repeating her line, while Lucas was trying to challenge him about not believing someone would lie to him about this. Cade was annoyed by the two of them, but he overlooked it for the moment. “Look, if that’s a transformer there from the battle of Chicago, I need to know how it works! I’m an inventor! This could be a game changer for me! If I can apply that technology to my inventions, we’d never have to worry about money again.”

Tessa was disappointed hearing this from her father. She would prefer it if Cade actually stopped trying to invent stuff, and focus on bettering himself and ensuring she could even have a future. “I’ve heard that before.”

Cade felt hurt when she responded to him that way, and he understood what she was thinking. But he was excited about this discovery, and he could not pass up the opportunity. “Look, Tessa, this is something I need to do. I can’t exactly ignore the opportunity that has literally presented itself to us right now. I know you are wanting to have help with your college, and I get that, but this could be exactly the key to getting us to that point, Tessa. You just have to trust me.” He turned and walked back into the barn. “And I intend on making that promise come true, Tessa.”

Tessa rolled her eyes and walked back into the barn, feeling a little less nervous since the truck had not moved or transformed at all since they had been talking. So she trusted that this transformer was not going to move at all, and she could relax a bit. But that still did not mean she wasn’t nervous at all. Tessa was worried that her father was too obsessed with this truck, and she worried that he was going to get himself in danger.

She wanted him get back onto the scaffolding and shook her head. “Twenty-five grand! It pays for my college, it pays for the house.”

“Besides, you used my money to buy the truck, right?” Lucas chimed in as he points at the truck. “So technically, it’s my truck. Don’t you think?”

Cade slide under a bar to stand on the ladder as he looked at the man with a stern expression. “You also signed a contract regarding all research lab I.P.”

“Research lab?” Lucas stared at Cade in disbelief at what he just said. “It’s a barn, dude.”

Cade did not like the way that Lucas responded to him and described his barn. Cade viewed it as his research lab, and even if it was a wooden barn, it was a place of his work. To him, it was gold. And he did not like anyone attempting to disrespect his space. He walked down from the ladder and walked towards Lucas who was a little nervous. He could see that Cade was angry, and he realized he probably shouldn’t have said that, but it also needed to be said.

“You signed it, and now you’re competing,” Cade said bluntly as he walked towards Lucas. “Any idea of yours is mine. Any thought you have, I own it.” Tessa scoffed in embarrassment as she watched her father berate Lucas while the man backed away from Cade. “So basically, I own you.”

Lucas frowned at the man in disbelief. “I don’t think you can own someone. That was like, a while ago, even in Texas.”

Cade ignored Lucas as he grabbed his apron and put it on. “Alright, bring the torch over and help me with the pulley arm.” Lucas groaned as he grabbed the torch and rolled it over towards Cade with a frown on his face. “I think the shrapnel took out its power core. Oh…” Cade grabbed a sledgehammer and walked towards the truck. “And Tess, you see this?” He hits the front of the truck several times with the hammer, making the girl jump nervously as she thought he was going to cause the truck to transform. He wanted to prove that he was safe, even if it meant making them nervous about it. “Would an alien killing machine let me do that?” He sighed and glanced between Lucas and Tessa. “Look, I’ll make the call, we’ll get the money. Just first let me see if I am right. You want to hide in the house?” Tessa nodded quickly as she definitely wanted to get away from the truck. “Go ahead.”

Tessa quickly left the barn to make her way over to the house. Cade thought it was ridiculous that everyone was acting fearful of this truck, but he understood. After all, transformers have essentially been made the enemy after what happened in Chicago, and it did not matter if they were autobot or decepticon. Cade only knew what was seen on the news about it, so there wasn’t much that he would understand. But he was aware of some familiar names at least.

He and Lucas worked on the truck for a little bit to keep checking the full engine of the truck. Lucas did not understand Cade’s enthusiasm about digging deeper with this transformer, and he was worried about what might happen. But given that Cade seemed to be feeling rather confident, Lucas went along with it for the time being. He watched as Cade removed a few things from the truck’s engine, and he could not help but notice something.

He leaned slightly and frowned as he saw what Cade was holding. “What is that? It looks like a missile.”

“It is!” Cade exclaimed as the missile jet activated suddenly and flew from his hands. “Woah!” He and Lucas watch the missile fly around the barn, hitting multiple things around the barn and zooming back towards them. “AHH! Get down!” Lucas jumped to the ground to avoid being hit by the missile as the missile flew out of the barn. Cade stared in shock as he waited to hear more explosions, but it seemed the missile was simply hitting things and not exploding. “Woah…at least it didn’t blow up…and hopefully it won’t.”

“As long as it doesn’t blow your house up!” Lucas exclaimed as he shook his head with a sigh. “Come on, man! This is stuff we don’t know much about. I don’t get why you insist on looking at this thing closely.” Lucas looked at the truck nervously and frowned as he noticed that there was a humming sound coming from the truck. “Um…Cade…I think removing that missile might have helped it.”

Cade looked at Lucas with a frown as he did not know what he meant as he was just in shock at the moment. Plus, he was worried that Tessa might have been hurt by the missile, so he was not really paying attention to Lucas much. He was just glad that it seemed like that the missile did not blow anything up, and he hoped that it would not. He did not need the government coming to him because of that.

“Dad!” He looked to the door as he heard Tessa’s fearful shouting. “There’s a missile in the family room!”

Before Cade could respond as he lifts his welding helmet, he glanced back as he heard the sound of air brakes hissing suddenly and sparks flying from the truck, and it began to transform. The whole barn rattled as the transformer began to transform, making both Cade and Lucas fall to the ground from the sheer force they felt in the ground and they scurried away from the transformer, glancing back as they saw him.

“I’ll kill you!” The transformer shouts, and it became clear that he was struggling to refocus as he stumbled on his feet, trying to get up and his optics saw that he was in a strange place. He stumbled forward and he noticed the humans scurrying around in the barn, but he could not quite focus on them. Lucas shouts as the bot caught himself on the ground as he slammed his hands down from stumbling forward. Energon spilled out of injuries from his body. “No! No!” He reached back, desperately reaching for any kind of weapon that he might have to defend himself. He managed to grab a gun, but he fell forward as he groaned and panted loudly in pain.

Cade managed to step away far enough, watching as the damaged transformer struggled and turned to see Tessa running in. “Dad! There’s a missile in…WOAH!” Tessa skids to a stop as her eyes land on the transformer, surprised to see he had already transformed.

The transformer managed to stand up, not without spilling more energon as he turned around while trying to find his feet. His optics were finally able to clear his vision and he glared down at the humans before him and he aimed his gun at them. “I’ll kill you! Stay back!”

Cade raised his hands defensively with a worried expression. “Woah! Don’t shoot, don’t shoot!” He pleaded loudly, hoping that the transformer would not hurt them.

Lucas stared at the transformer in fear from where he lay and he was fearful. “Call 911! Run!”

The man scrambled to his feet to run out of the barn, while Cade shook his head and gestured for him to stop. “No! Lucas, don’t run!”

The transformer swung his weapon and hit the barrel against Lucas’s forehead, making the man fall on his back and there was an immediate, red mark on his forehead. He groaned as Lucas felt dizzy and he knew already that he was going to need an ice pack or something to put on his forehead as his head was already throbbing painfully from the hit to the head. And he heard the transformer reload his weapon as bullets fall from the weapon.

“Lucas, just calm down and don’t move!” Cade ordered as the man stood up slowly with his hands raised.

The transformer glared down at the human, knowing he was not going anywhere. “Easy, human.”

Cade watched as the transformer’s body sparked and energon leaked from his body while he checked his weapons. The way this transformer had reacted seemed to be out of fear and defensiveness, which was something he had not expected. He didn’t think any of them would even fear a human, but it seemed something terrible has happened that it made this particular transformer uncertain about humans.

He glanced at Tessa who stood beside him as she stared at the transformer fearfully. “Stay here. He’s not going to hurt us.” Lucas glanced at him and points to his forehead. Cade shrugged at him. “You did try to run.” Lucas rolled his eyes and looked back at the bot.

Cade walked towards the bot, keeping his hands raised to show he was not a threat. The bot glanced at Cade as he approached. “Weapons systems damaged.” He took a few steps back, showing that he had a lot of distrust for this human.

“A missile hit your engine,” Cade explained to the bot calmly. The transformer was listening to him intently while watching him, keeping a close eye on his movement and body language. “And we took it out of you.” The bot groaned from the pain he could feel in his body, but he was alert. “You’re hurt really bad. I’m just trying to help you.” The bot frowned a little, not knowing if he should believe the man. “You’re in my home now, I’m an engineer. My name is Cade Yeager.”

The bot’s expression softened, mostly due to the pain and exhaustion he was feeling, despite being offline for a long time. “Cade…” He rubbed the back of his hand against his face. “I am in your debt.” He reached up to one of the metal beams to keep himself steady as he still felt weak in the knees. “My name is Optimus Prime.” Cade swallowed nervously as he realized he had the leader of the autobots here in his barn. He watched as Optimus’s expression turned to worry and horror. “My autobots! They’re in danger!” He groaned as he felt suddenly, losing strength in his knees, but he knew that his autobots needed him. A part of his helmet fell from his head and energon leaked from the side. “I need to go! I need to go now!” He rubbed his helm with a grimace of pain.

“How far you think you’re gonna get?” Cade asked the bot curiously, watching this autobot struggle to maintain his balance and strength. Cade felt sorry for him. He watched as Optimus intakes heavily and placed his hand on his chassis as pain washed over his face. “Tessa, come here, he needs our help.” He looked over Optimus’s body curiously as he knew that he did not do it to himself. “What happened to you?”

Optimus groaned as he responded to Cade. “An ambush, a trap, set by humans.” He coughed as he managed to move onto one knee. “I had been attempting to fine my way back to…” Optimus paused as he realized he did not know these people well enough yet to make a mention of his sparkmate by name. Not yet. “To my sparkmate.” He coughed again and intakes heavily. “I escaped and took this form.”

“But you’re on our side.” Tessa knew this from the stories she learned about the autobots. Especially since she knew it was the autobots who helped with Chicago, even if there was a ban on them. “Why would humans hurt you?”

“They were not alone.” Optimus forced himself back to his feet, hearing and feeling groans in his own body as he stood up in the barn, even though he was slightly hunched over. “My autobots can repair me.”

“Yeah, if you can reach them.” Cade looked down at the helmet piece that he fallen on the ground and leaned down to pick it up. “What about me?” Optimus groaned and looked away from him. “You’re safer in here than out there driving around in that condition. You won’t be in any condition to protect yourself if you need to.”

This man had a point. Optimus knew his body was weak and in desperate need of repair. He was lucky he had managed to make it out of the ambush he endured when he did. He did not even know how much time had passed since the ambush. Observing the man curiously, Optimus decided that this Cade seemed to be a man of his word. Optimus relaxed a little and he nodded, lowering himself back to the ground as Cade quickly go to work with helping to repair his body. As he did so, his mind went to his sparkmate, Saphira. He did not know where she was right now. He only knew the location when she had hit the bracelet button, but he did not know if she’s managed to get the other autobots to her. He hoped so. He could sense the bond, but it was weak. It was weak, and he knew it was strained for this distance apart. He wanted to find her, and know that she was okay.

Meanwhile…

Saphira shifted in her bed with a frown as she was starting to have another nightmare. But it changed this time. It was a new nightmare. She had no longer been dreaming about this strange female who was speaking to her, nor was she seeing the world of Cybertron. In fact, she found herself standing in the field. The field with rolling hills, green grass and wildflowers, and a large pond set at the base of some hills, with obvious signs of mining machinery cutting into the hills. And specks of unpolished emerald shards all around her. However, she turned to see the silhouette of someone she still loved someone she wished would come to her. But as she was about to try and run to him, a barrage of explosions covered of vision and Saphira fell back with a scream, staring at the explosions of fire and watching as it spread towards her, making Saphira shriek and wake up suddenly.

“OPTIMUS!” Saphira screamed as she sat up suddenly in her head, taking deep breaths. She stared at the wall ahead of her in disbelief. She had just had a nightmare about Optimus. She grimaced and sneezed suddenly before she began to sob.

And as she sobbed, she noticed something, which made her pause in the middle of sobbing. She felt something. Something familiar. A familiar feeling that she has not felt in many, long, months. Saphira did not want to believe it. But it felt like her bond with Optimus. It was as if it had reawakened somehow. She sobbed some more before she coughed and grimaced as her throat was sore and swollen. She did not know if she should feel happy to sense this feeling or not. But if this was an indication Optimus was still alive, she hoped that this was not a lie. After all, she was very sick, and she knew she might not actually be feeling the bond.

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The door to her bedroom opened, making Saphira jump as she took deep breaths before she began to cough. Saphira was still trying to figure out why she was feeling the bond. It disappeared exactly a year ago, and today was her twenty third birthday. She did not want to celebrate it, after all it was tainted by bad memories. And now she was confused. She had thought that she might not feel the bond ever again. But she has now woken up to the sensation of the bond returning. But it was not the same. And she did not know if she should believe that it was real.

Barricade had a concerned expression as he heard her scream Optimus's name before. He did not know what that mean. But he assumed it could also be due to the flu. “Morning, Saphira.” She glanced at him as she finished coughing, though her eyes were filled with sadness and confusion. “Are you okay? I heard you shouting his name before. I suspect it was another nightmare.”

Saphira shrugged as tears fill her eyes. “Well…it wasn't a normal nightmare…and it was not the nightmare that I have been having every day either. But this nightmare took place in the emerald field…before it was destroyed…” Barricade sat on the bed as he listened to her quietly. “And I saw his silhouette in the distance. I was so shocked, because I have not dreamt of him in so long…and here I am.” Saphira let her tears fall and Barricade gently wiped them away. “Then there was an explosion…the same explosions from the rockets launched from those tanks. I woke up after that, but…this is going to sound crazy, but I feel the bond again somehow.” Barricade widened his optics slightly as he listened to her. “I am not sure if it's even possible, or just my flu…”

“It is possible.” She widened her eyes in shock at Barricade's reply. “Are you still feeling the bond now?” She nodded. “It is possible if Optimus was not actually killed, but rather he fell into a deep, offline that practically made his body inert and unable to function. It is like a dreamless, death like sleep. It is possible for that to happen.” Saphira took deep breaths as she did not know how to feel about that, especially as she had accepted he was gone. “I probably should have told you this was possible, but I didn't want to give you hope.”

Saphira listened to him and pondered for a moment before she sneezed suddenly. “I am not sure how to feel about that possibility. If it's true…why is the bond weak? I cannot sense his emotions.”

“It is strained. The death like sleep can cause that in sparkmates. He would need to bond with you again to reignite it.” Barricade leaned forward a little and placed his hand on her cheek gently. “While I don't know what could have caused him to end up like that, I just know that you have found peace in the last year.” She frowned a little as she listened to him. “I do not know how you feel about knowing that though, Saphira. You do not seem excited.”

“Should I be?” Saphira sniffled as she let more tears fall from her green eyes. “Barricade, even if Optimus is still alive, I would prefer it is he were here. He has not gone through with his promise of finding me…even though I don’t think I can blame him.” She sniffled some more as she thought more about it. “But…it hurts so much, Barricade. And now, you and I…I have developed feelings for you too…and it makes me feel bad because of it.”

Barricade shuffled forward and placed his hand on her shoulder gently with a smile. “I know. But I would never force you, Saphira. I know you love me, but your love for Optimus is very strong. Even now, I know you still love him. You yearn for him. That is definitely not something anyone can fake, Saphira.”

Saphira nodded as she could not disagree. “Yeah, I still love him. I love him so much that it hurts…” She was interrupted by a coughing fit and Barricade rubbed her back gently with a concerned expression as he watched her have her coughing fit. It took a minute before she stopped and she caught her breath. “Damn this flu is extremely annoying…” She rubbed her throat and looked at Barricade. “I am glad that you are here.”

“I know. And I am here to tell you when you need reminding to do something. Like needing to take a shower.” She groaned a little and rolled her eyes. “You haven't showered for a few days, Saphira. I know you feel awful and probably don't want to do much, but you need to get refreshed. I am sure you will feel a little better after a shower and getting into new clothes. And if you want, I can run the water for you.”

Saphira pondered on the suggestion for a moment. She didn't particularly want to get out of the bed, even though Barricade does keep the house warm. And it was also true that she has not showered if a couple days. Mostly because her body was aching terribly, and she didn’t move much unless it was for needing to use the toilet. But he could also be right. A shower might be what she could need, and it might make her feel a bit better. She was also feeling a bit peckish too.

Saphira smiled at him and she nodded. “I wouldn’t mind it if you ran the shower for me, Barricade. And I also won’t mind some soup after. I am feeling peckish…and I think having some food will also make me feel better.”

Barricade was extremely happy to hear that. He stood up from the bed and walked towards the bathroom. “I will get onto the soup for you. I will heat it up once I hear the shower get turned off so it is nice and hot for you when you get back into bed.” He walked into the bathroom and turned the shower on before closing the shower door and walking back into the bedroom. He walked over to the bed to pull the blankets back and Saphira frowned at him. “You and I both know you won’t get up without someone making you get up, Saphira.” He leaned down and he picked up and carried her into the bathroom before placing her feet on the tiles. “I’ll grab you a change of clothes before I go out and let you do what you need to do.”

Saphira watched Barricade as he walked back into her bedroom to get her another pair of pyjamas. She was not surprised that Barricade had carried her to the bathroom to give her the nudge she needed to shower. She looked into the shower as she could smell and feel the steam from the hot water around her. She realized she was really looking forward to it, even though she had grumbled about it before. She was happy he had made her get out of the bed.

Barricade placed the new pyjamas onto the vanity and turned to Saphira with a smile. “I see you are already entranced by the warmth of the shower. I will leave you to it while waiting for when it gets turned off so you can have some nice, hot soup.”

“Thank you, Barricade. I did need this. Thanks for the suggestion, and the nudge.” Barricade nodded as he left the bathroom and bedroom so Saphira would be alone. She chuckled a little to herself and she undressed slowly and threw the dirty pyjamas and underwear she had been wearing into the hamper before stepping into the shower.

She gasped as the warmth of the shower hit her skin and she felt goose bumps for a moment, and she smiled. Feeling the water gently hitting her skin and washing away the sweat and dead skin from her body felt amazing. She felt her muscles relax and her sinuses clear for a short time, allowing her to breathe. It did not take away the pain she was feeling in her muscles and body though, but it was extremely helpful. This was definitely something she needed.

Maybe I should take another shower later…being this sick has really put a dent into my usual routine…ugh, well, at least this is nice.

Saphira may not follow through with her though on taking another shower later. She struggled getting up for the toilet, so a shower needed to be prompted. And Saphira did know it bothered Barricade a little bit since he wanted to get her the medicine for her illness. But she did try not to burden him, but he wanted to keep her happy and comfortable while her body battled the flu. She at least did not feel like she was at death's door. But it was taking a while to get over the flu.

Saphira's mind did wander to the thought of Optimus. Today, she turns twenty-three, and when she turned twenty-two, she swore he might have died due to the bond feeling like it disappeared. She had mourned for the whole year. Even though she had developed feelings for Barricade, she had still been grieving. And now he was probably alive. Saphira did not know how to actually feel about that. She knew she should be happy, but she didn't know if she could.

It was like when the autobots faked their deaths several years ago. Before the battle of Chicago, the government ordered the autobots to leave believing that Sentinel Prime and the decepticons would leave Earth alone when they gathered the necessary resources to rebuild their home. And the autobots did what was requested, but they faked it to prove that the decepticons will never leave Earth alone. Saphira had been upset about that too back then. And it almost felt like a repeat. She knew that Optimus had not told her about it because she had been compromised at the time, but that still did not mean she wasn’t affected by it.

Saphira did not want to get her hopes up about seeing Optimus again. As much as she was feeling the bond, she could not sense his emotions. If he was trying to see love through the bond, she could not feel it. She wished that she could feel it, as it would actually give her some kind of hope. But she didn't want to disappoint herself. The bond could disappear again. She actually was thinking that when she goes to sleep, she would wake up and the bond would be gone again. That is what she was thinking would happen, but if the bond was still there for longer than a week, then she might feel hope.

She didn't feel confident about it though. She missed Optimus, but she did not know how she would feel if he did come back. Especially if the other autobots show up with him. It would actually feel like a big slap across the face as she had been waiting for years for Bumblebee, Ratchet, Ironhide, Crosshairs, Drift, Hound, Sideswipe and Dino to show up. And she only had Barricade to rely on. She couldn’t blame them though. If they well and truly could not get to her because of something that has happened, she would understand. She just wished she knew.

Saphira cupped her hands and watched as water filled her palms before splashing the water on her face with a smile. She knew she could at least be very happy with this shower. She took a deep breath and took her time with shampooing and conditioning her hair as well. She had absolutely not hurry to get out of the shower. However, as she worked on her hair, she noticing she was becoming rather tired again quickly. It was not very unusual, since Saphira was very sick, and doing some of the most basic things exhausted her. Eating soup even took a lot of energy out of her.

So she did not spend a lot of time with her hair and she lathered her body in body wash before she let her body get rinsed off and turned off the shower. She stood in the shower for another moment, feeling the steam rising from her body before she got out and dried herself. She rubbed her eyes as she was very very tired, but she wanted to eat before she would sleep. She put her new pyjamas on and walked back into the bedroom and climbed into the bed.

She groaned as her whole body ached and her nose felt heavy again as she felt her nostrols clog up again. She hated the feeling terribly. She looked at the door, wondering where Barricade was, as the temptation to just lay down and fall asleep was incredibly strong. However, she did intend on ensuring that she would keep herself awake long enough to enjoy the soup. She needed to as the soups Barricade has made have been delicious. Though she has lost her sense of taste due to the flu.

The door opened five minutes after she crawled into the bed and Saphira smiled as she saw Barricade walking in with a tray in his hands. On the tray was a large bowl of soup and a small plate with a bread roll, and there was a glass that was half full with juice mixed with the berries grown in the greenhouse. Saphira smiled as she watched him walk over to the bed and place the tray gently over her legs, making sure she would not knock it over and that she was sitting up properly to eat the soup.

“This is so nice,” Saphira said as she eyed off the soup, bread and juice. “It’s a shame I can’t smell right now. But I bet it smells delicious.” She grabbed the bread and broke off a piece to dip into the bowl. “I must be honest, I almost fell asleep before you walked in, Barricade. I am exhausted just from taking a shower.”

Barricade was unsurprised by this as he watched her eat the piece of bread she had dipped in the soup. Each bite she took of food was always a victory in his mind. It meant she was getting much needed nutrition to fuel her body’s need on fighting the illness. “I am not surprised.” He placed the back of his hand on her forehead, and he frowned a little. “Hmm…let me get the thermometer.” He stood up and walked away to grab one, making Saphira frown a little while she worked on eating the soup slowly. He walked back over with a digital thermometer. “Sorry to interrupt your eating, Saphira, but I think I need to check your temperature.”

Saphira swallowed the bread she had been chewing on and grabbed the cup to wash it down before opening her mouth and letting Barricade place the thermometer in her mouth. She knew her fever had been sitting at a hundred and two degrees fahrenheit, so she didn’t think much of it. But Barricade did make it his mission to check often, especially since he was aware that a high fever could be fatal. But he had a reason based on his reaction before.

After waiting a moment, Barricade gently took the thermometer and looked at the reading before widening his optics. “Ooh…your fever has risen to a hundred and three, Saphira.” Saphira was surprised, though she did not say anything. “If it gets higher, it could get worse.” Barricade looked at her with a worried expression. “Saphira, I have to go and get you the medicine. You aren’t getting better, you’re getting worse.”

Saphira frowned at him. “Barricade, you know why I don’t want you to go to town. I know you could come back, but you also may not. And I don’t want to be left alone.”

Barricade shook his head at her as he watched tears fall from her eyes. “Saphira, I have been by your side these past three, whole years. Do you honestly think that I am going to just disappear when I go into town to get the medicine your body clearly needs?” She stared at him and looked away after a moment, showing that she did believe that could happen. Barricade sighed deeply. “Saphira, you are not making this easy for yourself. I am not going to abandon you. My own fear going into town is coming back and finding you dead from the flu. I know humans still die from it, and I want to prevent it. It should have been prevented weeks ago.”

Saphira sniffled and shook her head. “That is why we have to stay here together, Barricade. I will know if you leave, the rumble of your engine is still very loud.” Barricade softened his expression as he listened to her. “I know you want to get the medicine, but my body can fight it. I am strong, you just got to have faith that I will be okay, Barricade. You will see.”

Barricade did not know if he could really believe that. She has been sick for so long he honestly just wanted to ignore. But he did fear what she would do if he left. She could try to follow him, and that would be bad. Especially at this time of year. “Saphira, you have to trust me. I haven’t let you down in the past, and I won’t do it now.” She ate some more of the bread and soup as looked down at the bowl with a frown. “If your fever gets higher…I can’t help you. I can only try by bringing snow from outside and put it into the tub to place you in to lower the fever, but that is all I can do. I am not a doctor. If Ratchet were here, he would be able to help.”

“But he’s not!” Saphira snapped angrily at Barricade. “We don’t know where he is. We don’t know where any of them are.” She sniffled and let out some more sobs. “We don’t know who is still alive and who is dead. As far as we know, you and Optimus could be the only ones left. And I hate to think that the last time I saw any of them was on my twentieth birthday. It is a thought that I don’t want to have.”

Barricade knew this was a battle he was struggling to win. He wanted to just leave and get the medicine, but he was also scared of returning. He was somewhat in the same position as Saphira. He has seen a few cougars hanging around, and he knew that they would take advantage. He did not want to come back to find that she had been killed by them. Or wolves, or that she wandered into the forest and froze to death.

Barricade sighed deeply. “What compromise could we make?” She glared at the bowl as she kept working on devouring the soup. “I could take you with me, but you won’t allow it. You don’t have to come into the store, you just have to sit in the car and I can get you the right medicine. Although, I do think you need stronger medication than the stuff I can just buy. Which will require a prescription.” And Barricade had no way of forging one. “Which means, we are stuck. If you had said yes weeks ago, you might actually have the strength to get out of bed.”

Saphira listened to him and she scoffed after a moment of thinking. “You are helping me by staying by my side, Barricade. I still don’t even know if I am going to wake up and feel the bond again. I don’t have any hope of seeing him again. That is why I am scared of losing you.”

“And I will lose you if you let yourself get sicker, Saphira. I…I don’t even know what I will do if that were to happen. I might just let my body rust away into nothing.” Barricade really had no direction if Saphira was to die from the flu, and it was now a real possibility. The symptoms were not horrible, but they could get worst as well. And he worried about that. Because of that, his biggest fear was losing her. And he did not know how he would explain to Optimus if he did make it to Wyoming. “And even if you don’t believe so, Optimus will likely get here. If he is in hiding, which I assume he is, and gathering his strength back, his first mission will be to find you, Saphira.” Her frown deepened and she tensed as she listened to him. “And I know a part of you knows that too. He might be lucky if he is not spotted.”

Saphira pondered on that for a moment and looked up at him. “And how long do you think that will take? If he has no one helping him to repair his injuries and get his strength back, Optimus won’t be able to make it here. So how long do you think Optimus will get here?” She sniffled again and she shook her head. “I don’t want to talk about this anymore, Barricade. Just…let it go for now…I just want to finish this and go to sleep. I am tired.”

Barricade could see that this conversation was not going anywhere, and it was only upsetting Saphira. He well and truly wanted her to be well, and he wished she was not so stubborn about this. He wanted nothing more than to help her. But she had not allowed it, and now she needed stronger medicine to help her combat the flu. “Okay, I will leave the conversation for the time being, Saphira.” He stepped closer to lean down and kiss her forehead gently. “I am sorry if I upset you so much. Just know that I love you deeply, and I would do anything for you.”

“I know…I know.” Saphira finished off the bread roll and the last of the soup before eyeing off the juice. She didn’t drink much of it, but she knew she should have it. “And I am sorry for worrying you, but I am not…if someone else came here, I might feel okay. But I am afraid, Barricade. I am afraid of being alone.”

“I know. And I do not intend on leaving you alone. I will be here.” He kissed her forehead again and watched as she finished off the juice before he picked up the tray from her lap. “There we go.” He moved the tray onto the bedside table before helping Saphira to get comfortable in the bed and tucked her in. “You get to sleep. Hopefully that fever can come down a bit. It could be due to the bond coming back, so it might not be an alarm, but I will keep a close eye on it.” Saphira nodded as she relaxed in the bed and closed her eyes with a deep sigh. “I will be here, Saphira.” Barricade moved a strand of hair from her face gently. “Even if it hurts to see you letting yourself get worse.”

Ba’al sighed as he took the tray out of the room and closed the door quietly behind him. He was not sure what to do anymore. Saphira was likely getting worse. He had hoped that she would get better soon, but with the fever being higher, it meant she could get worse, and he did not know what to do. He was not a human doctor, nor was he Ratchet. He could only do what he could. He has learned more about human medicine, but it wasn’t enough.

Once Barricade cleaned up, he turned off his holoform and he walked around outside the farmhouse with a worried expression. He paced as he pondered on what to do. He could do so much. And with the possibility of the bond returning, proving Optimus was still alive, he actually hoped for Optimus to show up. While Barricade did truly love Saphira, he knew that Saphira really loved Optimus. It will hurt to step back, but a sparkmate’s bond was for life. He had to respect that.

Barricade considered attempting to reach out to Optimus, but he worried that he communication would get picked up and tagged. He could only hope that Optimus knew the last time Saphira had pressed the button on the bracelet. As Saphira has not moved from Wyoming, Optimus would start here and look for her. Of course, it did depend if he would come straight to the farm itself, but that would remain to be seen. With Optimus here, Saphira would definitely have someone else to support her.

Barricade knew with Optimus here, he could get medicine. But given she might need stronger medicine, he had no idea. He hoped that Ratchet was still alive to help. He would be the only one to know what to get to help Saphira’s body be cured from the flu. And while Ratchet had sent that message, that did not mean he was still alive. But Barricade hoped for that. If Optimus was alive, so were the others. So long as Lockdown has not done anything since than.

Barricade sighed deeply, looking at the house sadly as he knew he was at a loss of what to do. He really wanted to just leave to get her medicine, but he would not. She would hear him. He looked up at the sky as he hoped with all his spark that an autobot would show up. Someone had to be out there, not just Optimus. Saphira needed them, and she needed them more than she has in the past. Her life depended on it.

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Sitting in the barn owned by Cade Yeager, Optimus was deep in his thoughts. Cade had Lucas leave the property to get what he needed. Optimus could see that Cade was very willing to help him, but he also knew that Cade was unfamiliar with the anatomy of transformers, so it might take time for him to figure things out. If Saphira were here, he would hope she still remembers what Ratchet had taught her about transformer anatomy and medical needs. But she was not here. He could still feel the bond, but it was so weak that they could not sense each other's feelings, nor could he send comfort and love through the bond to her. He had no idea what was happening in her life, and he wished he knew.

Cade walked into the barn to put his apron back on and began by first analysing Optimus's body to start on the areas that appeared to need the repair the most. Optimus did guide Cade a little as he did know some medical information that Ratchet and other medical transformers had taught to him so that he could assist when medics weren't available. Cade appreciated the guide, and got set to work. Optimus observed him as the man gathered materials and used the tools he needed to begin working on fixing him.

Optimus did not yet know if there was another motive behind Cade's reasoning to try and help him. Optimus knew that the human could easily betray him if he wanted to. But the man seemed to be honorable, and he was not a soldier, which meant this human was more likely to feel sympathy than the humans who have been hunting him and his autobots down. And that brought some sense of safety.

Optimus intakes deep and let out a cough, making Cade look at him as the large bot coughed. “Take it easy, big guy. You don't need to be causing any short circuits to yourself.” Optimus just smiled a little and looked easy from him. “I see you got a lot on your mind. Since you might be here a while, I don't mind listening to your story.”

Optimus sighed as he rubbed his chassis gently. He was feeling a lot of pain at this time due to the injuries he still had, but it was at least manageable to him. “The damage to my system is making it a little hard to intake. With some repair, I won't be coughing uncomfortably.”

Cade seemed surprised by the response as he worked on straightening some metal pieces using heat to help him. “That's a surprise to me. So you can breathe, I always thought you could not.”

“We don't require oxygen like yourself. But I suppose we can breathe, it is just not like you.” Optimus tapped his fingers lightly on his chassis and looked at Cade with a curious expression. “And why would you have any interest in my story, Cade? My story isn't exactly filled with a lot of good memories.”

Cade shrugged and looked up at him with a smile. “I guess because when I first heard about you being here, I would have loved to have met you sooner. There's so much to learn from you, and that makes it worth talking to you.” Optimus seemed unconvinced and the man just chuckled slightly. “You seem like you got a lot of things on your mind anyway. I know what it's like to bottle everything up inside. I do it all the time, so my daughter doesn't have to worry about me more than she does right now.”

Optimus was interested now as he was surprised by how easily Cade seemed to understand. “I see. I will admit that I cannot fool all of my autobots when I am keeping something to myself. Ratchet, Ironhide and Bumblebee are not do easily fooled, as they have known me the longest. It is true I have a lot on my mind right now, Cade.”

Cade gave the autobot an understanding expression. “I assume you are thinking about the autobots.”

Optimus nodded. “Yes. I do not know how many of us are left. When we were first attacked, we had to scatter.” He pondered for a moment and looked at Cade curiously. “Tell me, what date is it?” The man raised an eyebrow in surprise. “When I fell into a deep state of recharge, it was June 2013. I am not sure how much time has passed.”

“Oh? Uh, well, then exactly a whole year has passed for you, man,” Cade responded with a smile. “Twelve months. It is June 2014, and my daughter is set to graduate soon.” Optimus widened his optics as soon as he heard that, and his expression turned into deep concern. “I assume that is not what you wanted to hear.”

Optimus rubbed the back of his neck as he frowned deeply. It explained why the bond with Saphira was weakened. He grimaced as he knew she must have thought he had died, and likely was feeling overwhelmed by feeling the bond again. “No…it is not what I wanted to hear.” He clenched his fist for a moment and punched the ground lightly in frustration, startling Cade. “But I was ambushed by humans. I was on my way back to the US to head to Wyoming…that was where I was going when I was ambushed.”

“Wyoming?” Cade could not help but frown as he thought that was strange. “There is almost nothing there, aside from one of the most beautiful national parks in the world. Why would you want to go there?”

Optimus tensed a little as he knew he had said too much. He sighed deeply and looked at the man. “There’s someone there who has been waiting for me. It was her birthday when we were first targeted by humans.” Cade listened to Optimus curiously as he was immediately intrigued. “I brought her to a place where we had first spent a lot of time together. It was meant to be happy. But it turned into a day of destruction. And today is her birthday.”

Cade stared at Optimus curiously as that was not something he expected. “I had no idea you had someone you loved.” The autobot nodded as he looked towards the window while Cade processed everything. “Well, I am very sorry this happened to you. You know, I know what that feels like.” Optimus turned his head back towards Cade curiously upon hearing that. “But I assume you believe your…I’m not sure what to call them, but anyway, I assume you believe she’s alive.”

“I know she is. She is my sparkmate.” The man nodded slowly and looked back at his work to continue. “The spark bond we have with our sparkmates are permanent. Unlike humans, where you wear a golden band around your finger that can be removed, our bonds cannot be removed.” Optimus closed his optics to picture Saphira in his mind. “The only way the bond snaps is if one of us dies. Right now, it is weak. But it is there.”

“I need…so you pretty much mate for life.” Optimus nodded slowly. Cade was very intrigued as listening to Optimus had been interesting to him. “Is it okay if I ask more about your sparkmate?” Optimus flinched and frowned a little. “At least she’s still around, man. I had a wife myself.” Cade points to a picture he had of himself and his wife holding a new born. Optimus looked at the image and his expression softened upon seeing it. “This is Emily. She was a high school sweetheart, and she was honestly, the best thing that happened to me when I was young.”

Optimus stared at the image as seeing the picture of the man in his youth with his wife and their daughter in the image tugged at his spark. He thought back to the sparkling that had been lost. He wished things had been different. “You look like you were happy together.” Cade nodded as he definitely was. “What happened to her? You speak of her in a past tense. I assume something happened.”

“It did.” Cade placed his tools down for a moment as he thought about it. “Emily…well…” Cade thought about the past and he sighed deeply. “Tessa was still very young when Emily passed away. She got very sick, and nothing that the doctors could do would help. Tessa was about six when her mother passed away.” Cade seemed to get emotional as he thought about his wife, but he managed to keep himself from crying. “And I made a promise to her before she passed away. That I would get our girl to her graduation.”

“And it would seem you have done her proud.”

“I don’t know. I have worked a long time when Tessa was young, and all I ever wanted was to be an inventor.” Cade turned to face Optimus while he picked up his tools to continue working. “And then sometime ago, I decided to try my hand at it full time. I made a few things that have potential, and so far, nothing has worked for me. I might have gotten Tessa to her graduation, I am not sure if Emily would be happy. I haven’t exactly been successful, so we are struggling.”

Optimus listened to the man patiently as he processed what the man was saying. “Is wealth and career really something that is considered a big success for humans?” Cade nodded and the autobot could not help but sigh. “I believe that because you have stuck by your daughter closely and ensured she has grown up healthy is a bigger success than not having the wealth you might be wishing for, Cade. We autobots have no use for money, so I guess I don’t fully understand it.”

Cade smiled at him and chuckled a little. “Well, I must say, not having desire for that is something I wish would be possible in this world. But unfortunately, things have just happened the way they are. But yes, wealth and career are considered successes by human standards. But I also see your point. Emily would be proud of me for keeping our daughter safe for this long. She’s literally the only reason that I keep going.” Optimus hummed as he would relate if his sparkling was alive. “Do you happen to have a child of your own?”

Optimus grimaced and frowned with a shake of his head. “No…my sparkling perished in the very early development stage. And it happened in such a brutal, violent way.” He looked away as Cade stared at him in shock. “My sparkmate was not responsible for what happened. But we had tried for so long, and we would have brought the sparkling into this world by now. But it was not meant to be.”

“Aw, man…I am so sorry.” Cade looked down as he continued working. “Seems like you and I have gone through a lot, man. You still have your sparkmate alive, and I have my daughter, but we have lost someone close in our lives. I can see it still affects you, even if that sparkling never had a name or a form.”

“It does. Mostly because I feel like I failed by not getting to her in time…and because of an action we had to do before we went to Chicago to finish Sentinel Prime and Megatron.” Optimus opened his chassis and pulled out the emerald. Cade was surprised to see it as he watched Optimus stare at it in his hand. The uncut, unpolished, scratched, rough, heart-shaped emerald sat in the palm of his hand. “I at least have something of her with me.”

Cade was certainly not expecting Optimus have a large emerald in his hand. Cade already could see it being worth a lot of money. But he saw the way Optimus was holding the gemstone. He was holding it with care and love. It was priceless to him. “Did your sparkmate give it to you?”

Optimus nodded. “Yes. By chance, she found this at the bottom of a lake at an old emerald mine. And she gave it me. She said it was like giving her heart to me.” He smiled as he stared at the gem. “I see her eyes when I look at this gem. They glitter under the sun as her eyes are the same shade of green.” He rubbed the gem with his thumb gently as he stared at it. “It showed how much she cared for me when she gave it to me. I have carried it for seven years now.”

“I see…so that thing is pretty much priceless to you.”

“It is.” Optimus intakes heavily again and he tried to open his chassis, only for it to catch on a joint and he grimaced a little. “I now see how damaged my body and system are due to the hit that I took.” He rubbed his chassis gently and he looked at Cade. “I know you are confident in wanting to repair me, but it is going to take you sometime to do that.”

“I know.” Cade was not bothered at all, tapping his hammer on the metal piece as he worked on it. “You took a hell of a hit, you know.” He gestured to the damage on Optimus’s body, and points at his chassis, as he could see the spark chamber within. “The missile just missed your power source.”

Optimus glanced at his chassis, rubbing over his spark gently as he was grateful that the missile had been removed. “We call it a spark. It contains our life force, and our memories.” He grimaced a little and looked at Cade. “Sometimes I do wish for many of the painful memories to be wiped from my system…but without those memories, I might make the same mistakes as I did in the past.”

Cade smiled at the autobot. “That sounds like something I would say, if I am honest.” Optimus smiled and nodded at him. “And here, we would call that a soul. Though I guess the spark also pulses like a heart does for us.”

“It does.” Optimus grunts as he placed his hand on the side of his head. “I am lucky that I am not leaking a heap of energon all over your barn. But if I had a bigger injury, bleeding out is something that can happen to us too. But we have energon, not blood.”

“That explains a lot.” Cade looked back down at the piece he was working on and walked over to Optimus. “Alright…” He looked to see what else he could start working on. He figured that fixing the chassis first was his priority. “Hmm…I might be able to fix your chassis since you’re having trouble putting that away.”

Optimus shifted a little so Cade could climb up his ladder to work on his chassis. “Your persistence in wanting to help me is admirable, Cade Yeager. I am curious to know why.” The man was a little surprised by his question. “You could easily turn me over to the authorities, and you have chosen to keep me here until I am repaired and strong enough to leave on my own.”

Cade had to think quickly on how to respond to Optimus. He knew that the autobot leader would be curious to know why he wanted to fix him, and he understood that. “I am not the government, Optimus. Simple as that.” Optimus hummed with a frown, looking down at the emerald in his hand. “Plus, you aren’t evil. You were disorientated when we took that missile out of you, so I can’t really blame you. Especially if you were in a panic just before you were knocked out.”

Optimus rolled the emerald gently in his hand and looked at Cade. “I do feel the need to properly apologize to your friend for hitting him in the head with my canon. You were right, I was disorientated. But I still hurt him without cause.”

The man shrugged and waved his hand casually. “It’s fine, Optimus. I don’t think Lucas will hold that much of a grudge against you. But I am sure he wouldn’t mind hearing an apology, since he was going on and on about his head hurting before I sent him into town to get things we need to fix you. It might even make him happier.”

Optimus was glad to hear that. He did feel he made a bad first impression, but he wanted to make things right. “As long as your friend does not believe I am evil, and we can make amends, then I believe I will have set things right with the apology.”

“I see. Very well. I am sure Lucas will get back soon, but I did send him to get a lot of stuff.” Cade shrugged as he grabbed his blow torch to continue working.

As Cade worked on fixing Optimus’s body, he quickly realized he had to learn the anatomy while he worked. Optimus gave him some aid, and it helped a lot. Cade fixed the side of Optimus’s helm and continued to work on the rest of his body, focusing on the chassis to fix the holes. But it wasn’t just the external that needed fixing. Optimus had to guide Cade in helping with his system itself. That kind of surprised Cade, but he took the time needed to work on the systems that needed mending.

The ones that needed work were his weapon systems, holoform system, internal cooling system and several other systems that he needed to have repaired. Optimus reassured Cade that only the really necessary systems, such as his weapon and internal cooling, needed the repair the most before the others. He would be able to wait to find other autobots to get them repaired. Cade accepted that, though if he could, he would definitely try to fix them.

Optimus found himself growing fond of this human rather quickly. He did not know why, but it seemed that he and Cade were able to find common ground. Cade lost his wife, and Optimus lost his sparkling, and both have had extremely hard lives to live. Even though they haven’t known each other for than a few hours, the friendship they were building was rather fast. And Optimus sensed he could trust this man. He hoped that trust would not be misplaced.

Lucas returned after a few hours with the items Cade had requested. Optimus could hear the mini cooper as the man drove it onto the property and parked by the barn. Optimus heard the door slam and watched the door was he waited for Lucas to walk in. “Alright, man! I got the stuff you ordered me to get!” The man huffed as he walked into the barn briskly. “I still think this such a bad idea you got, dude!”

“Calm down, man!” Cade walked over to Lucas to look at the items he brought. He checked everything and seemed to be satisfied. “You did good, Lucas.” He moved the items over to where he wanted to put them. “You don’t need to be afraid. Optimus is a really nice autobot. He’s been through a whole lot of shit.”

Lucas shrugged with a roll of his eyes. “I don’t really know why you feel the need to tell me. He’s still an alien, and we don’t know…”

“Lucas.”

Lucas gasped and stepped back with a start when Optimus spoke to him directly. “Uh…sorry, man! I don’t want no hard feelings between the two of us.” He had his hands raised as he spoke nervously to the autobot. “But you are still an alien, so I don’t know what your true intentions are…”

“I wanted to apologize.”

Lucas was shocked as he stared at the autobot in silence for a few minutes. He could not believe his ears. “Apologize? For what, man?”

Optimus gestured at the man’s forehead. “I injured you.” The man placed his hand on his head, feeling the lump that was still there from the hit. “I had not meant to hit you. When I woke up, everything was running so quickly that my processor was not functioning well. Had I not been so disorientated, I might not have hit you. So I apologize for the injury. I too want no hard feelings between us.”

Cade smiled and looked at Lucas. He could see that his friend was baffled by the apology Optimus had just given him. “See what I mean, Lucas? He ain’t that bad!” He chuckled as Lucas did not seem to know what to say. “Optimus is a nice autobot.”

“I guess.” Lucas rubbed the right side of his face thoughtfully before he responded directly to Optimus. “I accept your apology, man. You weren’t in the right mind. So thanks.” The man bit his bottom lip for a moment and looked at Cade. “Will there be anything else you need me to get for you? I kind of want to go home and rest my head now that you got your stuff.”

“Well…” Cade looked around as he thought about what he might need. “I’ll text you tonight to let you know if I need anything tomorrow.” Lucas nodded and looked at Optimus for a moment before he scrambled out of the barn. “Sheesh, Lucas! Come on, the autobot is not going to chase after you!” He heard no response, only the sound of his car starting. “Whatever.”

Optimus observed Lucas’s body language carefully when the man had reacted to his apology. He had noticed that Lucas seemed to be guilty for something, but he could not think of a good reason as to why. “Does Lucas always act like he is guilty of something?”

Cade snorted in amusement and looked at Optimus with a grin. “You noticed that already, huh?” He nodded and chuckled softly. “Yeah, Lucas has always been like that. For some reason, asking him to do something, or even when you apologize to him, he acts guilty. I don’t know why, it’s just who he is. I wouldn’t be worried if you noticed.”

If that was true, Optimus would be able to relax. But if it was not true, Optimus would not know what Lucas might have done. But Cade knew his friend better than him, so Optimus could really only go by what he has been told. So the way Lucas had acted with nervousness and a guilty expression was most likely just something he did. Optimus relaxed so that he could continued speaking with Cade while the man worked on repairing him.

The man worked all the way until it was late in the evening. Tessa came out of the house with a tray of food to give to her father, which the man appreciated. Tessa stayed for a bit to speak with Optimus out of curiosity as she was curious to know more about him. She was asking him general questions though, and Optimus was more than happy to respond to her. She seemed like a pleasant girl to talk to, and she held no kind of fear towards him like she had earlier, which he was happy about.

When Cade and Tessa returned to their house to sleep, Optimus could not help but open the door of the barn just enough so he could sit at the door and look up at the moon and the stars that were out tonight. His optics stared at them as he felt as though his spark was speeding through the sky to where Saphira was. He missed her terribly. The pain of not knowing how she was, and where she was was hard to ignore. He wished he knew if she was okay. Wyoming was his only clue.

But considering he was in Texas, he considered going to Saphira’s old house. He did not know if it had been seized by the government or not though, so that might be a bad idea. And she was unlikely to use that house, considering she might get spotted in town. And Optimus did not want that to happen. She was at least alive, and that was the main thing. He could only hope that she would not be too upset about how long it has taken him to get back to her.

I am so sorry, my sweet gem. I want to be beside you right now, and I had promised you three years ago that I would find you. I intend to fulfil that promise to you. I am sorry that it will be late. I just hope that there won’t be other complications, and we can be together again really soon. I hope you know I still love you. Stay safe.

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When the morning came around, Optimus was able to enjoy the sunrise as he sat in the barn. He was able to get some recharge during the night and he was feeling better now that he has had some rest. He was still in need of more repair though, so he was waiting for Cade patiently to come out from his house. Optimus did not pressure the man, as he knew that Cade had worked late into the evening and was very tired by then, so it was fine for him to enjoy his sleep as well. Optimus's mind never stopped thinking about Saphira. He missed her terribly, and he held onto the emerald again, knowing that it was the only thing he of Saphira currently.

Cade did make his way over to the barn while the few was still fresh on the grass, and he got to work straight away. For someone who has never dealt with an autobot, Optimus was impressed with how quickly Cade learned about his anatomy enough to fix him so that he was functional. Optimus was still unsure of the motive Cade had behind wanting to fix him, but he trusted this human.

Almost as quickly as he had trusted Saphira. He could not help but look back on the very first night she had met Saphira, and the night he, Ratchet, Ironhide and Jazz had arrived on the planet. He could not help but smile, remembering her curious, fearful expression when he had approached her and Bumblebee that night. That was the first time he saw her, and he remembered thinking his processor was fooling him as he first thought she was Elita's holoform.

But of course, that was not the case. It was just a moment of surprise, and Optimus was very glad that he had met her that night. She accepted their plight, and helped them. Optimus knew that Saphira was disowned by her parents as a result, along with not being able to go through college and having a normal life was no longer possible. Optimus felt a lot of guilt, as he knew if they were not here, her life would look very different.

However, Optimus did not know if she would even be happy, if her life was different. She would have still inherited her grandfather's wealth and estate, and she would have learned of the existence of transformers. But she wouldn't have gone through war and pain either. Especially with what Megatron had done to her. He will never forgive himself for not being able to reach her to stop him from violating her in such a way.

Cade looked at Optimus and noticed that Optimus was thinking deeply. “You should tell me more about your sparkmate.” The autobot frowned and looked at Cade uncertainly. “She sounds like a keeper, based on what you said yesterday. But for some reason, the way you said it, almost made it seem like that your sparkmate is a human.”

Optimus could see the curiosity in Cade’s eyes, and he understood as he shared details about his wife. But he was still not sure if he should trust Cade with information about Saphira specifically. Cade might be wanting to know, since the two of them have bonded over having lost someone close to them, and it was understandable. But Optimus was not sure on whether he should admit it or not.

He pondered for a moment before he responded. “Listen, Cade, I understand you want to know more simply put of curiosity, but I don't feel I can speak more about Saphira at this time. If, in time, I feel it is information that I feel you have earned I will tell you. But I only met you yesterday, and I have yet to know your true intentions.”

“I see.” Cade seemed a bit surprised, but he shrugged as he realized that the leader of the autobots was right. “Understandable. I guess she must truly be special though. The way you looked at that emerald yesterday reminds me of when I look at my wedding ring. It's a symbol of our love and bond, and for you, that would be the emerald. I hope she has something to remember you by as well.”

Optimus smiled slightly. He knew the only thing she might have was the necklace he had given her, but it might have been destroyed at the emerald field when they were first attacked. “I am afraid she only has our bond. You might have a gold band around your finger, Cade, but we have no need for suck trinkets. While I don’t need this emerald, it is all I have of her right now. I…I carry a lot of guilt for the last several years I have known her.”

“I see. You must feel like some things that have happened are partly your fault, right?” Optimus tilts his head slightly in surprise as Cade was right. The man smiled as he looked down while he focused on his work. “I must admit, there are times where I feel the same, Optimus. I look back to all those years ago, and there are so many things I would want to do differently.” Cade sighed deeply as he paused for a moment and shook his head. “I also look at my daughter, and all the decisions I have made up until now. There are so many things that I regret. She looks at me often with worry and disappointment. While I have managed to get her this far…I know that I am not the father she wants me to be.”

Optimus processed the words Cade had said silently and he smiled kindly at the man. “It is good to know someone understands the way I think and feel, Cade. You are right. There are many things I would change if I could go back, but I know that is not possible. I strived to do what I can to make things right, and I know that I have a lot to do when I do get to see her again. I have no doubt that she is going to be upset that I did not come back to her soon, like I had hoped.”

“Yeah, unfortunately there is not much you can do. I am sure she’ll understand, but the pain she would feel is also understandable.” Cade looked at the bot with a smile. “I am sure you know this, but you got to listen to her when you find her. Dismissing feelings will only make things worse. While I know, from what you’ve said, Saphira is a great sparkmate. But that won’t take away the pain. I honestly would expect her to try and push you away at first. And it will only be because she wants to protect her feelings.”

“I know. I am somewhat fearing that to be the case, even though I am fully prepared to listen and help her. I guess…I am just not sure what else will happen when I see her again.” Optimus sighed deeply and glanced down, noticing a bullet in his chassis that had not been pulled out. He grabbed a hold of it and twisted it out, flicking it away once it was out. “Cade, why are you willing to help me? You know that your military and government have outlawed my kind, and are actively hunting myself and the autobots. And that puts you and your daughter at risk. Why are you willing to help me knowing that danger?”

Cade just shrugged as he did not know what to say. “I guess maybe because you trust me to.” Optimus was unconvinced as he watched Cade picked up a blow torch and prepared it for use. “Okay, maybe that isn’t the best reason. I trust you, Optimus. And honestly, I feel like we are becoming fast friends. You and I seem to get along just fine. Besides, as far as I am concerned, the whole thing in Chicago was not your fault.”

Optimus flinched when the man mentioned the name of the city. “That might be true, but the blame has been put on us, unfortunately. Majority of the decepticons have been destroyed, as has Sentinel Prime and Megatron. Without them, I suppose it was easier to blame us, then the ones that have already been killed. Nonetheless…that is one of my regrets.”

“Understandable. I have never been in a war, so I don’t know what it feels like. But I fully sympathise with you.” He finished setting up the blow torch and turned it on. “At least you are feeling much better today than yesterday. I hope that means I have done a reasonable job getting you patched up at least.”

Optimus smiled at Cade and nodded to the man, letting him know that Cade had indeed done a good job to get it patched up. Optimus was still unsure of the man’s intentions, but knowing that Cade already trusted him was curious to him. Optimus knew that many people had trusted him quickly upon meeting him, but as there was a lot of news about him and the autobots being dangerous and banned from the planet, he did not know why Cade would want to trust him. But the two have spoken to each other a lot.

And they continued to speak as Cade worked on fixing more of his body. Optimus knew that Cade has done plenty, and he would be able to transform comfortably. The only things that needed repair were some of his internal systems, and that included his holoform system. That required autobot hands, and Cade wasn’t able to help him with that. Optimus was able to repair his weapon systems, though they still weren’t in the best shape.

They soon heard the sound of the mini cooper approaching the barn, and Cade knew it was Lucas. Optimus was still unsure about Cade’s friend. The way Lucas acted before he left the previous day seemed to be out of guilt, so that made Optimus worry that Lucas had done something, and it caused the man to feel guilt and regret for something. And Optimus did not want Cade to believe his friend had done something, but Optimus did believe that was the case.

“I’m back!” Cade rolled his eyes when he heard his shouting from his car. “I got some more stuff for you, Cade! I figured you might have needed it, man!”

“Took you long enough!” Tessa shouts at the man, and Cade smirked as he put his tools down and walked towards the barn door.

“My head hurts, I had to go to the doctor.” Optimus hummed as he listened to Lucas shout back his response, knowing it was his fault that Lucas had to see a medic for his head. “I got a welt on my head the makes me look like a fricking Star Trek character.”

“I hope you didn’t open your big mouth about how got it!”

Cade opened the door and saw that Lucas was grumbling as he was a little annoyed by Tessa’s comment. “She’s right, ya know, Lucas. The doctor would have wanted to know why you got that on your head. I hope you said nothing.”

“Of course not, dude! Who would believe me anyway?” Lucas stepped into the door and glanced up at Optimus with a slight start. “Morning, man. I hope that, uh, yesterday was just a bad start and we can try and get along today.”

Optimus smiled kindly at the young man while Cade checked the items that he had brought. “It was a bad start. Of course, no one here is to blame for it, Lucas. I am sincerely sorry that I caused harm to you enough that you had to seek out a medic. It was not my intention.”

“I know that now. But I still had to do it.” Lucas looked at Optimus curiously and saw how much work Cade had already done with Optimus. “Looks like Cade’s magic has done wonders to your body, Optimus. It’s not perfect, but I suspect he has helped a lot.”

Optimus nodded, glancing down at his body and admiring the work that had already been done. “Your friend has quite the talent for his craft, Lucas. Cade has provided enough aid to allow my body to function comfortably until I find the other autobots. I am afraid there is still much needed work to be done, and it must be done by an autobot.”

“No sweat, dude.” Lucas looked at Cade with a smile. “Too bad you can’t put that talent into making something that actually works.” Cade glared at Lucas, and the man chuckled as he threw up his hands defensively. “That was only a joke, man. Don’t take it seriously.”

Cade shook his head in irritation at his friend and walked away from him. “You need to stop making jabs at my work, Lucas. Not everything has worked out yet, sure, but something will work and all of my problems will be solved.”

“You keep saying that.” Lucas sighed deeply and watched Cade for a moment. “Anyway, I can give you a hand, so that way we can do some more work. And by the way…” He looked up at Optimus with a curious expression. “I guess you’ll leave as soon as you can, won’t you?” Optimus nodded. “Uh…I guess you won’t keep in touch, right?”

“It would be too dangerous for you if I do, Lucas. If your leaders knew that you are helping me, I can only imagine what they would do.” Lucas did not have a comment about that, as he knew that Optimus was likely right. “It is nice that you wish to remain in contact. It will be for the best if we do not.”

“Right. I get it.”

Optimus could tell the man was disappointed, even though he would have thought that Lucas would prefer it if Optimus was not in contact with the injury the autobot had caused to the man. But it would seem that Lucas has already come to realize that Optimus had no intention of killing or hurting any of them. He had reacted the way he did simply due to the fact he had just woken up, and the first memory he had was being ambushed by humans.

Optimus made conversation for a while with Cade and Lucas, as he was curious about Lucas as well. Optimus like the man, though Lucas still seemed to be hiding something, but Optimus could not quite put his finger on it. He assumed that it was fear, and nothing more. Lucas was a good man to talk to anyway, so Optimus was happy to get to know Cade's friend.

However, after sometime, Optimus's scanners picked up multiple vehicles approaching the property, alarming him. He looked at Cade as the man finished with a piece on his arm. “Cade, I am sensing incoming vehicles to your property.” Cade looked at him in surprise and he paused as he realized he could hear vehicles and a helicopter approaching as well. “It seems that they might have discovered my location. I doubt there is a place I could hide on this property, is there?”

Cade and Lucas glance at each other for a moment before Cade turned and points at the wooden board Optimus was on. “You might find space under there. There's a bit of a sinkhole under there, and it's there because of one of my inventions. But it might be deep enough for you.” Optimus stood up and stepped off the floorboard and reached down to lift it, looking inside. “You get in there, and Lucas and I will try to make it as inconspicuous as possible.”

Optimus eyed the sinkhole curiously. It wasn’t terribly deep that it would cause the building to collapse, but it was deep enough for him to crouch in. Optimus was not sure how confident he should be hiding in this shed, but he stepped into the hole and crouched down, lowering the board over himself and ensuring that it did not look like something was underneath it as much as possible. He also made sure to be comfortable, and ready to spring into action if needed.

He glanced up as he heard Cade and Lucas hurrying to cover the board with random stuff to make it look like nothing was here before Cade crouched by a gap in the board. “Alright, I hope this will not take long and they will go away. I am sure you’ll be able to hear everything. I am not really sure how they would have known you were here, but not much I can do.”

“I will remain unless absolutely necessary, Cade. I am hopeful that these people will leave your property quickly as well. Cover up more of the gaps, we don’t need them finding me while your back is turned.” Cade nodded as he covered the gap quickly. “Try and do your best to not seem suspicious, Cade. I have no doubt that they will be watching for anything that might indicate your connection to me.”

“I know.” Cade jumped off the board and ran over to Lucas. “Come on, man! Let’s see what these men want.” Cade heard Tessa shouting for him as they run towards the door. “Oh, god! I hope this won’t be too long. I wonder how they found out.”

Lucas shrugged as they run out of the barn, glancing down the driveway to see multiple black vehicles driving towards the house. “Um, I don’t know, man.” Lucas glanced at the cars with a worried expression. “But those cars look scary. I hope the guys in those cars aren’t scary.”

Cade did not respond to Lucas as he knew that he could not really answer that for him. He was more worried about what was going to happen more than what the men are going to look like. Especially as he knew that Tessa could also end up being hurt, and Cade did not want that to happen to his daughter. He watched as the cars drove around him onto the grass in front of his house, and there were also vehicles outside the fence and he looked up at the helicopter that was above them. This really was serious, and Cade took a deep breath, waiting to see whoever the big boss was.

Lucas was standing by the tree, watching the cars nervously as he did not know what was going to happen. Plus, Lucas had a gut feeling as to why they were here, and he didn’t want to say it out loud. He stared with his mouth open in shock, staring as armed men stepped out of the vehicles and began to spread out across the property. Watching the men, it was clear that the men were moving to ensure that they wouldn’t be able to get away easily if something were to go down.

Cade glanced over at Tessa with concern as one of them men walked over to the house and stepped up to the patio before looking back at one of them who had grey hair on his clean-shaven head, wore sunglasses and left his jacket unbutton, letting it flap in the wind as walked over to him. Cade could see the weapon in the man’s belt, which he knew that it could get used at any time. Cade kept his mouth shut, as he knew that if he said something stupid, it would be a dead giveaway.

The man walked over to Cade, brushing off his jacket lightly, while his sunglasses gave off a glare from the sun. “Mr Yeager, my name’s James Savoy, I’m a federal agent.” The calm tone that the man was taking with him was slightly eerie, as Cade knew it was a way to try and get his trust. “My men and I are trying to track down an abandoned truck.” Cade said nothing as James glanced around with a smug expression. “It’s a nice spread you got here. Too bad she’s for sale.”

“Well, thanks. She’s not.” Cade responded with a slight shake of his head and glancing at the other men. He gestured to one of his rusted down trucks casually. “Is that the truck you mean?”

James shook his head quickly without looking at it. “Afraid not.” The man paused for a moment before looking at Cade. “You know, Mr Yeager, we received a call from someone concerned about this truck.”

Lucas widened his eyes as he heard what the man had said, and he knew exactly what that was about. “Oh no…” He kept his tone as soft as possible, but he did receive looks from the men close to him.

“That wasn’t you?” James concluded without looking at the man.

Cade frowned a little as he was not appreciating the words being spoken to him right now. “Only thing I’m concerned about is you being on my property without my permission.” James just scoffed in amusement, completely not caring about what Cade had just said to him. “You know, we got a rule about people messing with people from Texas.” Cade turned his body to face the man in slight irritation. “And I don’t know what truck you’re talking about.”

“The kind that cost American lives!” James snapped, turning his head sharply to glare at Cade. He glanced at his men and shouted at them. “Search the property!”

“What do you mean, search the property?” Cade demanded, keeping a sharp eye on the man in front of him while James’s men hold up their weapons to begin searching the property. “You don’t have a warrant.”

James gestured to his face. “My face is my warrant.”

Cade glanced around with worry as he knew that it was possible that the men could find Optimus. He made sure to not make it obvious, but Cade glanced at Tessa as he could see that the soldier was still on the patio, and he had not moved. That made Cade worried as he did not know if they would try to use Tessa against him. He had no doubt that they would, but he hoped that would not be the case. He did not know how to deescalate the situation at the moment.

Lucas backed away from the tree with his hands up, glancing around with worry. “Wait, but if you guys do find a truck, we get a reward, right?”

Cade could not help but roll his eyes at the stupid question that his friend had just asked. He knew that there would be no reward, because the men were currently looking at them like they were criminals. Cade did not know who would have called the government about the truck, as he did not think anyone in town would have cared. But someone did, and somehow knew that the truck would be on his property, despite he could have towed it anywhere.

He watched as strange, dragonfly shaped drones were thrown into the air to navigate and scan around the property to locate the autobot. Cade was a little intrigued by the technology, as it was something he would have liked to invent himself. But he remained alert as he watched the men approach the barn, knowing it was the only place that would hide the autobot. Of course, the military would know this, given his property wasn’t that big.

Optimus had been listening in on the conversation that was happening outside the barn, and he could tell it was not going well. Even though Cade had not made a mention of any truck, it was clear that this James Savoy was going to check the property thoroughly for his existence. He heard the door of the barn opening and the soldiers walking inside. One of the robotic dogs reacted to the men, and the men did not seem to react much to the robot. They even made fun of Cade when they realized that he was an inventor. So far, they had not noticed him.

But Optimus kept a close eye as they approach the board he was hiding under. He knew that holding it up would keep it solid, so that none of the men would slip through and find him accidently. But as he could see through the gaps of the board, he was uncertain if Cade had covered it enough to keep the humans from finding him. After all, if he could see them, they could probably see him. And there was no way he would be able to remain hidden if that were the case. Even though the men looking through the barn seemed to believe nothing was here.

Outside the barn, one of the men had noticed something in a barrel and pointed at it. “Sir, we have a live armed missile in the trash.”

Cade was surprised as he thought the missile was a dud. Lucas was even more surprised. “Live?! I carried that to the trash! You said it was a dud, dude!” He glanced around when he noticed the men were looking at him with scrutiny. “I could be dead, right?”

Cade glanced around as he began to feel a little desperate, as the missile was a sign that Optimus was here. And Cade had not suspected they would find it. “Look, okay, yes, I found a truck, all right. I towed it back for the parts, I left it here last night. This morning, it’s gone!” Cade threw up his arms to try and show he did not know where Optimus was. “When, where? I don’t know, I swear to God! That’s as much as I know about him!”

Cade turned around to try and walk towards the house, as he has had enough of this and wanted the men to leave. However, his choice of words did not go unnoticed, and James turned to face him. “Mr Yeager?”

Cade turned around with a huff and a frown. “What?”

“Excuse me.” James removed his sunglasses, and Yeager saw the curious glare in the blue eyes looking back at him. “You just said him.” Cade stared back at the man, tensing as he had not realized he had said it, but the men had picked up on it. And he had nothing to really say to defend himself. “Take them down!”

“What?!” Cade turned in shock as men ran towards him, and the soldier on the patio grabbed a hold of Tessa’s arm and she screamed loudly as the man had grabbed her roughly, and forced her to walk towards the stairs of the patio. Cade looked back at James desperately as his wrists were pulled behind his back. “They don’t know about the truck! I know! Just let her go!”

James did not care for Cade’s words as he gave Cade a disgusted expression. “What kind of a man would betray his flesh and blood brethren for alien metal?” James glanced at the men who had a hold of Cade. “Get this guy out of my sight!”

“Let her go! They don’t about the truck!” Cade repeated again, glancing over at Tessa fearfully as he watched her being handled roughly by the man. She was screaming and trying to get out of his grip, but the soldier was not letting her go. “Let her go, please!”

“Alright!” James shouted loudly, glancing at his men. “Load up! Search the perimeter!”

Tessa looked at Lucas with a glare. “Lucas, you called, didn’t you?!”

Lucas flinched as he kept his hands up nervously. “No! I don’t know any of these scary guys!” Lucas glanced around nervously as he was yet to be forced to the ground by the men.

Tessa continued trying to push the soldier off her, but she was unable to get out of his grip and he was clearly hurting her. Cade managed to push the soldiers aside to try and get to his daughter to protect her as best as he could, but he was set upon by the men rather quickly. He was forced to the ground while she watched fearfully, screaming for him to help her. Even Lucas tried to fight back, but he was quickly subdued, and he was forced onto his stomach with a gun pointed at his face.

Cade did not see what had happened to Lucas was watched Tessa get thrown over the red cart to the ground with a lot of force. He had no idea why the men had done that, and he was even more alarmed when they pulled out a gun and pointed it at Tessa’s head. He struggled to try and get up from the ground, but James also aimed his handgun at Cade, showing that they mean business, and they were going to do anything that was necessary to get the answer they wanted.

“Now, you got ten seconds,” James warned Cade sternly, glaring at him while watching the man struggle and ignoring the girl’s cries. “Where’s the truck?”

Cade did not look at James as he was keeping his eyes on Tessa. “You’re gonna shoot my little girl?”

“If I have to.”

“Please don’t shoot me!” Tessa begged as she felt the barrel against her head. “Please!”

“Look, I don’t know!” Cade shouted at the man in a pleading tone. “I you everything I know!” He glanced to his left as he saw the dragonfly drone flying closer to him, knowing that it was a camera keeping a close eye on him. “He’s gone, he left! He was in the barn, I swear to God! Just let her go!”

Optimus listened to the pleadings from Cade Yeager, clenching his fists as he listened to the humans plead for their lives. Despite the fact that Cade and his daughter were being threatened right now, none of them were saying a thing about his existence, other that he was in the barn. Not that he is in the barn right now. That told Optimus what he needed to know about Cade. The man was a man of honour, and despite the fact he might lose his daughter, he was still prepared to protect his existence.

Optimus also knew that if nothing was done, Cade, Tessa and Lucas would likely be killed because of him. And these humans did nothing wrong, as far as he was concerned. He did wonder if Lucas had made a call though, as the man’s body language had been of guilt, which could be a sign he had done it. But the man likely would not have expected this to happen, and would probably be regretting it. The man would have done it out of concern for his friend.

Optimus flinched when he heard a gunshot, though he realized it had been shot at the ground as he heard Cade cursing at the men and pleading for them to let Tessa go. Optimus growled and glanced up at the men who were still in the barn, looking around. Though one of them looked at one of the gaps in the board, and Optimus knew that the man could likely see his arm. However, Optimus was not about to sit down for much longer. Not when he heard this James Savoy order his men to shoot the girl, making Optimus roar and slam his body upward through the wooden board, causing the men standing on it to be thrown off as the large bot intended on showing his existence to save Cade Yeager, his daughter and his friend.

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With the wooden board completely smashed, Optimus grabbed a wooden post by him and threw it at two men who were standing by the door. With his weapon system working enough for him to arm himself with his gun, Optimus fired at several other humans as he pulled himself out of the pit quickly, causing complete destruction and chaos within the barn itself. Optimus knew Cade would not like that his work has been destroyed, but Optimus was not about to allow Cade to lose his daughter to protect him. And it seemed that the loud noise and explosions within the barn had distracted the men, as he heard no gunshot.

While that was a good thing, Optimus knew he could not just stop now. He dove forward, breaking the front of barn and rolling along the ground before he stood up and began to shoot at the men who were shooting at him. “Here I am!” He roared loudly as he glanced at Cade, Tessa and Lucas who had managed to get away from the arms of the men to duck from the shooting. Optimus growled loudly, shooting at several men to clear the area as quickly as he could. “Cade! They’re going to kill you! Get out of here!”

As the three humans began to run, Optimus ran close to them to give them cover. The bullets hitting his body were ineffective, but it was like annoying little insects hitting the surface of his body. Though they were not his main concern. As Optimus shot at the humans while he ensured he stood between Cade, Tessa and Lucas and the agents, his scanners picked up a nearby Cybertronian. But he knew who it was immediately, and he knew they all had to get out of there.

Optimus dove to the side as the humans run towards the field and shot at the agents, though as he did so, he heard missiles incoming towards them. They had been shot from a set of grain silos, and as the missiles impact the ground behind the humans, one of the missiles hits and destroys Cade’s house. Optimus narrowed his optics as he knew this was because of him. They were all here because of him. And Optimus would try to do what he could to protect the humans, as they had already shown they were willing to help him.

Optimus looked across the field as his optics locked onto the Cybertronian who had been hunting him since he had arrived on Earth. Lockdown stood upon the silos, glaring at Optimus with the intent on getting Prime in his clutches. Optimus shot at the silos to destroy them and cause Lockdown to fall, so he would not be able to shoot more missiles for a short time and Optimus turned to gather the humans.

Though as he did, he saw a Chevrolet Sonic RS suddenly leap over the hill and hitting several of the agents in the head before it drifts around a dam to come to a stop. At first, Optimus thought this was an autobot. But he saw a human driving the car, and the driver opened the door for the humans to get in. Clearly, he was there to help. But the agents were closing in on the humans’ position, and Optimus could also detect vehicles fast approaching.

Optimus shot at the humans in the immediate vicinity surrounding Cade, Tessa and Lucas to give them a chance to get away before he ran down the road and transformed to speed away. With the humans now having a means of getting away from the agents, Optimus could make his way out. But that did not stop the agents coming after him, as a helicopter pursued him and fired missiles at him. The missiles hit the side of his body, but as Optimus would swerve slightly, the impact was not severe and he was able to get the humans in the helicopter to use all of their missiles and cause them to fly away.

With that, Optimus drove out of the farm onto the road and turned in the direction the humans were heading. While he knew Lockdown was chasing him, along with the agents, Optimus had to catch up with the humans. They would not just be a target of the agents, but also Lockdown. If Lockdown were to get his hands on the humans, they would endure unimaginable torture as they are forced to reveal the location of Optimus.

As he sped along the road, Optimus could see the Sonic RS driving across the hills of the farmland, and they were being followed by several, black, all-terrain vehicles. Optimus did not know how the humans were going to lose the agents, and he did not know who the driver was, but that did not matter. Optimus knew that as long as the humans were able to get away from the agents, they would be able to regroup. But with Lockdown approaching behind, Optimus couldn’t help the humans. Not at this time, even though he wanted to protect them.

And as the humans made their way into the cornfield, Optimus could really only see the dust the tyres were kicking up at this point. Optimus still wanted to follow, but his side mirrors caught view of black vehicles speeding up behind him. Optimus growled as he felt bullets on his body as the humans leaned out to shoot at him. Optimus braked hard suddenly, making the humans turn sharply, though only one was not smart enough, as the vehicle rammed right in the back of Optimus. He watched as the other two vehicles lose control as one began to flip and rolled and another hits a tree head on.

Making his way towards the nearby town, Optimus saw Lockdown approaching now. Even though Lockdown’s choice of vehicle was a Lamborghini Aventador, Optimus knew who it was. Optimus growled lightly, knowing that he would have to fight him. Lockdown was an expert in fighting, and he was not so easy to take down. And with Optimus still injured, he knew that Lockdown was going to use that as an advantage to attack Optimus at this time. And Optimus had no choice but fight, while still doing his best to keep an eye on the humans.

Meanwhile…

Cade held Tessa’s hand tightly as they ran across the field after Optimus had emerged from the barn. Cade was extremely relieved that Tessa had not been killed in front of him, as he was completely shocked by the fact that the agents were more than okay with killing a teenager just to get an answer. While Cade knew he could have saved Tessa by telling James Savoy about Optimus, the outcome may not have been any different. And this was a lose-lose situation regardless.

Cade, Lucas and Tessa do not look behind them as they hear explosions, and Optimus shooting at the agents. They were lucky at this moment that the agents were not shooting at them. But the agents were approaching all around them, and Cade had no idea of what they should do at this time. They didn’t have a vehicle to escape in, but Cade knew that they had to do something, or they would all be dead. Though he glanced over his shoulder when he heard their house being destroyed, and that hurt a lot. After he, that house was where he had raised Tessa.

It wasn’t until Cade was shocked to see a modified, Chevy Sonic RS leaping over a hill in front of them, and knocking down several agents that Cade was relieved. He thought it was an autobot, but he saw a man in the driver seat. He drifted by the dam and came to a stop, pushing the passenger side door open quickly. Cade did not know who this man was, but he was clearly here to help, and there was no way he would ignore that help.

“Come on!” The young man shouted urgently at them. “Hurry up! Get in the car! Let’s go!”

“Daddy, get in the car!” Tessa screamed as she opened the back door to climb in with Lucas following her quickly.

Cade slammed the door shut, and glanced at the young man beside him curiously, not knowing who he was. The young man was wearing a black, leather jacket, had a clean shaved beard and he certainly knew how to drive as he sped around the dam. While Cade did not know who this was, he certainly was grateful that this person was here, because he had no other options at this point, and he was certain all three of them would be in handcuffs right about now.

Cade held on as the man drove back the way he had come from to get them away from the farm. Cade glanced out the window to see Optimus had transformed and was making his way off the property. It seemed that the autobot leader had been making sure that they could get away. Cade was somewhat grateful, even though Cade knew that he nearly cost his daughter’s life with the choice he had almost made.

Though as they were speeding away, Cade turned back in shock as he spotted multiple all-terrain vehicles following them. Cade did not understand why they were being followed, as the agents were after Optimus. But that didn’t matter. They were all targets now, and he knew it. Cade did not know yet if deciding to bring the truck home for a close look at was a bad idea or not, but he was starting to feel like it was a bad idea.

“What’s happening, baby? Who are they?” Cade looked at the man in shock as the driver spoke to Tessa like he knew her.

“It’s the truck!” Tessa’s voice was full of fear as she responded to the man. “They want the truck!”

Cade was still confused by this in the middle of all this craziness as he began to get a little angry. “Who are they?” The young man asked again.

But Cade already lost his patience with the man. “Who are you? And who are you calling baby?” He glanced back at Tessa with a sharp expression before looking back at the man. The young man seemed uncomfortable to answer that, but Cade was not having any of it. “I know you heard me!”

In that moment, both the young man and Tessa shouted back at him at the same time. “I’m her boyfriend!” “He’s my boyfriend!”

Cade stared at Tessa in shock, as this was not the news he needed to add onto their problems right now. “What?!” He shook his head and let out a light huff of disbelief. “You’re not her boyfriend!”

“His name’s Shane and he drives, dad!”

Cade did not particularly care if the man could drive, he just was unhappy this man could be his daughter’s boyfriend. However, Cade glanced at the side view mirrors to see the agent vehicles speeding closer to them. He knew that this was what they needed to focus on rather than any potential boyfriend at this moment. After all, their lives were at stake, and as the agents were not giving up, they needed to get out of here.

Lucas himself was panicking as he was still glancing out of the window and looking back at the cars that were chasing them. He was certainly feeling guilty for causing this to happen, as this was not what he had intended to happen when he made the call. Now with all of their lives in danger, Lucas now understood, even if it was too late. He was just glad that there was someone there to help them, and he didn’t particularly care if Tessa had a boyfriend or not.

“What kind of cars are those?” Lucas looked at them as the wind blew through his hair. “They’re so scary!”

None of them responded as Shane continued to speed across the field while they were still being tailed. The vehicles were gaining on them, even though Shane was speeding through the field. But his car wasn’t exactly designed to travel across rugged terrain, so while Shane was not doing too bad, the agents were getting closer. Cade looked around to see where they could try to lose the agents, as they needed to figure it out.

“There’s another one coming up the back!” Cade shouted urgently as Shane swerved the car between two other vehicles, as the agents had tried to block them, but the young man managed to get between the vehicles. He looked ahead to see they were approaching a large cornfield and pointed towards it. “You gotta try to lose them in cornfield!”

“On it!” Shane nodded as he turns the car towards the cornfield.

Though Cade did not know if they could, because there were large gaps between the corn to allow the car to drive through without any of the plants getting stuck. And the agents could easily follow them that way, but depending on how much of a maze the cornfield was, they could potentially lose the agents for a short time. Though Cade was not sure if they would be that lucky, because the men were not giving up at all.

While driving through the cornfield, Cade spotted a helicopter, and he groaned loudly. “Now that is just great!” He glanced out the window to look back with a frown and shook his head. “Guess we can’t lose them here.”

Cade was glad that they were not firing missiles at them at least, but that wasn’t much of comfort, because they could do that at any time. Cade was trying to think about where they should go next, but they were heading towards the nearby town, which was not necessarily the best place to go and try to lose the agents. But there was not much of a choice, because the agents wouldn’t likely let them turn around to try a different direction.

While he was thinking of things they could, one of the vehicles sped out from the cornfield and hit the car on the left side, shattering the windows. They all let out a shout of surprise, due to not expecting that to happen. They were just relieved that the car did not flip over, as they would certainly not be able to escape if they were injured. While the car did slow down a little, as it had been pushed to the side slightly, before the agent turned their vehicle straight to keep chasing, Shane did not stop.

He drifts to the right to try and get out of the cornfield as they needed to get onto tarmac. As the car picked up its speed again, Cade glanced back to see the agent following close behind, and he was starting to get more nervous as they were very close to them at this time. They were not shooting at them yet, but Cade did not know how long it would be before they would be shot at, as he was certain their patience would be growing thin quickly.

Shane finally found a way out of the cornfield and turned the car sharply and drove ahead towards another farm. “He’s coming up behind us!” Shane glanced over his shoulder as Cade shouted, though he looked back ahead, knowing he could not do that. “Go!”

“I am going!” Shane shook his head a little with a smug expression on his face. He was quite impressed with his driving at the moment.

"Watch out, Shane!" Tessa exclaimed as she saw Shane was driving straight towards a high fence in front of them. “We can’t see over that fence!”

“We don’t really have much of a choice, Tess!” Cade shouted back at her, glancing over his shoulder to glance at the agents. “Keep going! Maybe we can lose them this way!”

“If those scary guys didn’t care about the cornfield, they won’t care about a random house!” Lucas shouted at Cade as he braced himself as Shane sped towards the fence. “Oh shit! We better not become paste right now!”

Cade and Tessa do not respond to Lucas as Shane drove the car right through the fence. They were relieved that there was no tree or building on the other side, and the wooden panels slipped off the vehicle as Shane sped through the yard. Though as Shane had to drive through the yard, he unintentionally drove over some children’s toys that had been left in the backyard. It was unfortunate, but could not be helped, as the agents followed them through the yard.

Though as Shane drove out of the yard and onto the driveway, there was a large tree surrounded by flowers in the middle of the dusty driveway, and as Shane began to drift around the tree, the agents began to surround them. This was not good, as Cade could not see a way for them to get out of here at this very moment. The agents were blocking the way off the property, and there wasn’t anything immediate that he could see.

“They’ve got used cornered!” Cade shouted as he held onto the handle of the side of the car, glancing around nervously, not knowing where to go.

“Nope! They don’t!” Shane responded confidently as he circled around the tree, creating a thick cloud of dust, which caused one of the agents to drive right into the tree, and he turned the car down the path and skidded around the vehicle attempting to block them. He sighed in relief when he had done that. “Alright! Let’s get out of here!’

Cade was a little bit impressed, but they were still being followed. He was glad that Shane was able to get the agents off their backs a little bit, but it still was not enough. He said nothing as Shane sped down the driveway before drifting onto the road and driving towards the town. Cade was certain that the local law enforcement would have been informed about a speeding, dangerous driver at this point, so they would need to be on the lookout for red and blue lights as well.

But down they were on tarmac, the car was not struggling with the rugged terrain, and Shane was able to drive faster as they approach the town. But so were the agents following them. Cade did look around to see if Optimus was following them, though it was hard to tell, because Shane was having to weave between cars to get away from the agents following them. They were lucky that they were not causing any accidents at this time.

Lucas looked out the window and gasped loudly. “They have machine guns with them!”

“What?!” Tessa turned her head to look before groaning loudly. “Well, that’s just great…and we have no weapons of our own.”

“I know!” Lucas looked again and turned to look at Tessa with wide eyes. “I really hope they don’t use it on us!”

The girl nodded in agreement while not knowing what they should do at this time. Cade was a tad annoyed at Lucas’s comment, but he said nothing to him. He was concerned that the agents had machine guns, because that meant they would not hesitate to shoot at them. Cade was worried that they would not get out of this, because he didn’t want his daughter to be killed from this at all.

As they speed into the town, Shane began to speak to the man. “Mister Yeager, this is not how I wanted us to meet, okay?” Shane extended his hand towards the man and Cade looked at him in shock. “I’m Shane, and I’m a completely…”

Cade grabbed the man’s wrist and slammed his hand back on the steering wheel. “I am not talking to you! Drive the car!” Shane agreed to the man’s request, just two cop vehicles attempted to block their way. “Watch out! Watch out!”

Shane drifts the car to the right sharply upon seeing the police cars, causing a truck to brake suddenly, as they almost drive into it, while Shane straightened the car and sped down the street. Though as he sped down the street, they were startled by hearing the sound of shots being fired at them. The bullets hit the ground and the side of the car, making them all flinch in fear upon hearing the bullets.

Shane kept his head ducked as he swerved to try and avoid the bullets raining down on them before turning sharply to speed along the next street. Though while they were able to avoid being shot, another vehicle sped up behind them. A large pick-up truck was now on their tail, and there was a man holding a rifle aimed towards them. They were certainly not giving them much breathing room, though Cade was glad they were not shooting at their tyres.

“Man, I don’t know how I’m driving this good!” Cade frowned and looked at Shane in irritation as the man seemed to be bragging about his driving skills. “It’s like, today, I’ve gone to a whole other level!”

“Road, focus!” Cade has lost a lot of his patience with Shane, even though he was the only one driving. “Stop talking! And by the way…” Shane glanced at the man briefly. “We’re being chased by feds! And they’re shooting at us! That’s why your driving’s so good! So stop boasting about it!”

“Dad!”

“I’m not wrong, Tessa!” Cade shook his head as he was still annoyed by the fact his daughter had a boyfriend.

But as they saw another car approaching ahead of them, they get tense again. “Shane, look out!” Tessa shouted, glancing around fearfully. “There are so many of them!”

Shane turned sharply down an alley way, hitting multiple bins and a pallet to get onto the next street. Once they were on the next street, Shane continued to speed down the street, glancing at the mirrors to see they were still being followed. Regardless, he began driving towards the industrial area of the town, as he knew that they needed to get away from the town center and avoid as many people as possible. But he knew it might be a bit difficult.

“This may be primarily my fault, okay.” Cade glanced back at Lucas with a frown, as the man finally admitted that he had made the call regarding Optimus. “They said they were gonna bring a check! I didn’t know they were gonna send a death squad!”

“Would you shut up, Lucas?!” Cade shook his head as he looked ahead. “I already knew you called them! And you decided that Optimus was not trustworthy even before you gave him a chance. He proved it to you, and you couldn’t even tell us so we could have avoided all of this bullshit!”

“None of that matters now, dad!” Tessa glanced out the window to see more vehicles closing in on them. “We need to get out of here! Do you even see Optimus anywhere? Could he have abandoned us?”

“I don’t know.” Cade did not know Optimus well enough to really give his daughter a proper answer. He wish he knew the right answer, but that was okay. “He has a lot more on his plate than us, Tessa. You heard him!”

“Yeah, yeah…I know.” Tessa did know that, but that still did not mean that she would be disappointed if they had been abandoned after helping him, even if it was something that Optimus had the right to do.

“Oh, no! They are going to block us in!” Lucas exclaimed as he stared ahead to see multiple vehicles blocking the road, with multiple agents getting out with their weapons drawn. “What are we gonna do?! There’s no other road!”

Shane glanced left and right before he took a deep breath. “Hold on! You are not gonna like it much!”

They did not question Shane as the man turned the car a hard left, aiming the vehicle at a building before speeding towards the windows. Cade tensed as he watched the people inside rush to jump out of the way before the car shattered the window and destroyed what looked like a charity event that had been happening. It was not the best decision Shane could make, but as he sped through the building, there was a wide enough doorway at the back for the car to drive through.

It did seem that they managed to lose them this time, but it might only be temporary. If they were able to get through the building, so could the agents. And while Cade was not sure how far they were willing to get to catch the four humans, he did not want to stick around and find out. And now they might be able to figure out a plan, but he was not entirely sure if they would have a lot of time to do that.

“We lost them!” Lucas seemed very relieved right now and relaxed a little. He looked at Shane with a light smile and leaned forward, patting him on the shoulder. “Good job, stranger from the cornfields.”

“Don’t congratulate me yet!” Shane responded with a shake of his head. “They might not have followed, but they know where we are. Now we are in this industrial place they will know we are here.”

Cade nodded in agreement, even though it pained him a little to do so. He glanced around as Shane continued to drive. “Alright…now we need to get out of this town and find some place to lay low for a while.” He turned to look out the back window, but he could not see anyone. “We are going to need to wait until this blows over.”

“What if it does not, dad? The government made the transformers illegal, and they think we are harbouring them!” Tessa brushed some hair from her eyes as she took deep breaths. “What if we cannot do anything but go to jail over this?!”

Cade did not know how to answer that. “I…I don’t have an answer.”

“So was it really worth it getting that truck?” Tessa snapped at him, and that made the man grimace a little.

Lucas kept his mouth shut as he knew that Cade and Tessa wouldn’t have been in this situation if he had not made the call. Sure, Cade should not have brought the truck to his property, and that he understood. But Lucas did make the call, and he was blinded by the money that could have been in his bank. Now he was a criminal, and likely would find himself in prison. The man certainly did not wish for that to happen.

Cade leaned forward a little as Shane sped around a bend as he spotted a Lamborghini, and ahead of the Lamborghini was a familiar truck. “There’s Optimus!”

Tessa leaned to see if it was Optimus and she was shocked. “He stuck around! But he’s being chased by someone! A decepticon?”

“I don’t know.” Cade watched as Optimus braked and transformed before he began to climb the building. The Lamborghini behind him transformed and they could seem this transformer following Optimus to the top of the roof. “I don’t think I want to know, given he’s determined to get Prime!”

They couldn’t really disagree about it. Shane himself was a little shocked, since this is his first time seeing an actual transformer, but he couldn’t really focus as he had to remain focused on getting them out of here. Especially as he knew that the short cut he had just made before wasn’t going to give them enough time to just park the car and run for it. They would easily be caught, and while Optimus being here might be a good thing, he was also a magnet for more trouble.

Lucas looked out the window and groaned loudly as he spotted the agent vehicles again. “The scary cars are back!”

Cade looked back and frowned as he saw cars speeding towards them. They were definitely relentless and he cursed under his breath that they were being followed once again. Cade looked up at Optimus, knowing that the transformer was likely too busy with his own fight to help, but he did hope that he could help if he found a moment to do so. Especially as they were quickly running out of ideas.

“Lose them at the factory, Shane!” Tessa shouted at the young man, who nodded in response, as he drove around the building.

They saw more cars blocking their path, which seemed to be one of their man strategies, before Shane turned the car into a large archway leading into a long roadway towards the factory. Shane hoped that Tessa’s idea would work, but there really was only one way to find out. Cade was hoping for that too. He flinched and glanced up as he heard the loud footsteps of Optimus and his enemy running above.

As for Optimus, Optimus grunts as Lockdown tackled him through a wall of bricks, making the autobot grunt in irritation. Optimus could hear the vehicle the humans were in speeding below, and he began to run from Lockdown. Despite being injured, he was able to move fast enough. But that did not stop Lockdown as he scrambled to his feet and followed Optimus across the building, shooting at him.

Optimus stumbled a little, causing him to drop his weapon, and he glanced back at Lockdown briefly with a glare before leaping over the gap to the roof across from him. Lockdown growled in irritation, and followed Prime across to the other roof, and followed Prime across the roof towards, what looked like some crane on top of the roof. Optimus narrowed his optics and turned to face Lockdown, punching the transformer in the side of the face.

Lockdown his and threw a punch back at Optimus, though Prime stepped back at avoided his attack. Lockdown prepared to shoot him, when Optimus briefly transformed his left arm into his axe and sliced the weapon from Lockdown’s arm and slammed the crane hook into Lockdown’s neck, surprising him. But not before Optimus threw him over the side of the building, and Lockdown grunts loudly as the crane managed to catch him, but the hook in his neck made him grimace due to how uncomfortable the hook felt, and he now had to get himself down.

Optimus had been keeping an eye on the humans while fighting Lockdown, and he could see that the driver was doing a reasonable job of keeping away from the agents, but they were still following them. Optimus did not know how many agents of Cemetery Wind were here right now, but that did not matter. These humans needed his help and he ran towards the side of the building, following the vehicles quickly.

“Cade!” He shouted at the man, making Cade glance up at the bot in surprise, as he had not expected Optimus to shout down at them.

Optimus jumped down from the building, landing on his feet with a loud thud, and ran towards frames of shipping containers where the humans were driving between and he threw his body forward. Optimus landed on top of a couple vehicles, destroying them upon impact, and he glanced back to see how many more were following the humans. There were still a lot, but Optimus managed to get several to follow him, and he transformed to try and lead the agents away from Cade. At least, take some heat off Cade, Tessa and Lucas.

Meanwhile, Cade was shocked that Optimus was able to find a moment to help them. That was good, but they were still being chased. He saw in the mirrors that Optimus was able to draw off some of the cars, but they were still being followed, and he didn’t know if there were even more agents on the way. Especially since this was a military organization, so they would certainly have the resources for more men.

“Take them upstairs!” Tessa shouted suddenly, making Cade look at her in confusion for a moment.

He looked ahead as Shane turned towards what looked like a parking garage or something. He drove towards the ramp that was leading them up the different floors, and Cade was not sure if this was a good idea. While this car seemed to be able to turn very well, there was a car close behind them, and this was not an idea Cade would have thought about at all. Especially since it seemed like they were only going to find themselves in a dead end.

“We’ll lose them on the fifth floor!” Shane shouted, glancing back briefly to see how close the vehicle was.

Upon reaching the fifth floor, Shane sped between the columns, though they now had a car either side of them. Cade glanced around nervously, not knowing what to do now. “Do that thing, Shane!” Cade frowned and glanced at Tessa in confusion.

“You know it!” Shane responded affirmatively without looking at the girl.

“What do you mean?” Cade demanded, glancing back at Tessa as he was very confused. “What thing?”

“What we’re about to do is going to be kind of scary.” Cade raised an eyebrow at Shane, as though this wasn’t scary enough already.

Shane changed gears on the car as he remained focused on speeding through space as fast as he could. They only had one chance, and he knew it. But as he focused on the plan, they began to hear bullets being shot at them. He ducked his head slightly to try and avoid being hit, while Cade, Tessa and Lucas cover their heads as best as they could.

“They’re shooting us!” Lucas screamed as he closed his eyes, hoping for this to end quickly.

“Tessa, grab my stick!” The girl nodded and crawled forward as Shane shouted at her. “Grab my stick!”

Cade turned his head to look at Shane in concern. “What?!”

Shane smirked a little and glanced at Cade as Tessa grabbed the handbrake. “She’s got the best hands in the business.” Cade did not know what the man means by that, but he couldn’t really question it right now. She glanced at the sideview mirror briefly as the agents were still firing at them. “Ready, Tess?” The girl nodded affirmatively. “Pull!”

Tessa pulled the handbrake hard and Shane turned the car, drifting it hard to the right, turning it towards an open window ahead of them. And there was a ramp leading up to the window too, which was unexpected. However, this was definitely not exactly what Cade had in mind at all. And that certainly terrified him and Lucas as Shane sped towards the open window without any hesitation at all.

“No fucking way!” Lucas shouted in fear, closing his eyes shut as he felt the car jumping out of the window. The man screamed loudly as he felt the car falling, into it landed on a ramp beneath them safely and Shane sped down it. Lucas reopened his eyes and smiled a little when he realized he had survived. “Oh! Yeah!”

Cade was relieved by this too, and he looked out the window to see one of the agent’s vehicles hitting the metal beams above them, causing the vehicle to explode upon impact and land on the roof. Cade realized this was something that Tessa must go to on a regular basis, since she knew about this move, and it made him quite frustrated to know this. After all, she never told him about it, and he assumed she had gone with her friends.

“Tessa! You are so grounded!” Tessa rolled her eyes at Cade’s comment, knowing there was nothing he could do right now.

Though as Shane sped away from the building, he noticed something was wrong, and the car was no longer fit to keep driving. “Shit! The rim’s cracked!” He came to a stop and unclipped his seatbelt, glancing at Cade for a moment. “Sorry! Guess that leap of faith ruined our mode of transport!”

Cade was about to respond when he heard a loud truck horn and looked in the direction. It seemed Optimus had been watching, and became instantly aware of their situation. “Optimus!” He unclipped his seatbelt and got out quickly. "Come on! Move, move!"

Tessa and Shane both get out of the vehicle as they began to run towards the truck. “My foot’s stuck! Wait, Cade!” Cade, Tess and Shane stop in their tracks when Lucas shouted, and turn to wait for a moment.

They watched him scramble before he was able to get out of the car and run towards them, shouting at them to wait desperately. Cade was about to run to grab him, when he glanced up to see the transformer that had attacked Optimus earlier. The green optics look down at the humans as he threw the crane hook from his body and he pulled out what looked to be some kind of grenade from his body.

“Lucas!” Cade shouted at him worryingly. “Lucas, above you!” The bot threw the grenade at them and Cade turned sharply. “Run!”

The grenade exploded upon impact, and began to spread a wave of lava and explosions behind them. The humans sprint as fast as they could as they felt the extreme heat behind them as the lava, explosions and fire spread quickly behind them. They did not even have time to look back at Lucas, as they could hear him screaming as he tried to follow them. But then his screams were cut off suddenly, leaving only the sound of explosions until they were able to reach the truck.

When Cade climbed up and looked back, he was horrified to see what had happened to Lucas. The man had not been able to outrun the explosion. He was in mid run, as his whole corpse was still standing. His clothes, skin, hair and eyes have been completely melted from his body. Some of his flesh and blood was still stuck to his skeleton, but the explosion had killed him instantly. And it was extremely haunting.

“Come on!” Shane shouted at the man, even though he too was shocked at what had happened to Lucas. “Get in! Let’s go!”

Cade reluctantly got into the truck and Optimus closed the door before driving away. Optimus himself was also very shocked by what had happened in front of him. While he knew that Lucas likely played a hand in the arrival of Cemetery Wind, and that he had almost gotten Cade and Tessa killed for it, Optimus knew that Lucas likely was afraid. Afraid of something bigger than himself, and that was why he made the call.

Optimus had no words for the humans at the moment. After all, it seemed that they had lost a friend. Optimus did not know who Shane was, but as he saw Tessa holding the young man’s hand tightly, it seemed he was known to her. Plus, he guessed that Shane was the one driving the car. If it weren’t for him, all of them would likely be dead. But one good deed did not blanket what has happened today. Optimus was able to at least get these humans to safety, leaving behind what they had called home for many years. 

Chapter Text

Driving away from the town, Optimus had decided to pick a side road instead of a main road to lessen the chance of being found by the agents and Lockdown. There was silence within the cab as the shock of what had happened was still fresh in the minds of the humans, and the loss of a friend was raw and painful. Optimus did not know Lucas very well, but he had observed Lucas to be a strange human, though he doubted that Lucas would have meant harm, even if he was the one to have contacted the agents regarding his location. Optimus understood that some people can make foolish decisions that can and will harm others.

While driving, Optimus was wondering where his autobots were. They had been forced to separate a long time ago in order to keep themselves from being in one spot and an easier target, and Optimus knew that Saphira was somewhere in the country as well. He only knew the ping of the bracelet she had been given was within the state of Wyoming, and he did not know if she was even still there. Though as long as one of the autobots were with her, Optimus would hope that she is safe.

However, while his bond with Saphira felt strained, he could feel she was weak. Something was wrong on her end, and Optimus guessed that Saphira might actually be sick. But he would not be able to know how sick she was, only based on the weakness he could feel. But that did not stop him from trying to reach through the bond to bring her the warmth and love she has been missing for so long. He just hoped that Saphira has not lost hope regarding their relationship.

Sometimes I cannot help but regret meeting Saphira. While the girl has been brave and willing to assist us autobots, it was never her war to begin with. She has almost died before, she has been hurt and went through losing our sparkling in the worst way possible. I know I still love her, but sometimes that is how I feel.

Now Optimus had more humans to protect. While he knew that if Cade had not found Optimus, this would not have happened. But he felt like he had unintentionally drawn these humans into this war and destroyed their lives. He was not sure if the humans will want to remain with him or not, but given what has happened, he felt obligated to protect them to the best of his ability. After all, this world has changed a lot since he arrived on Earth.

Tessa had been crying since leaving the town, as she was feeling extreme guilt for leaving Lucas behind. Her eyes were red and cheeks were stained as she turned her head to look at Cade. “Lucas, we just left him.”

Cade placed his hand on Tessa’s shoulder gently, squeezing to try and reassure her, knowing the guilt she was feeling as he too felt guilty. “He’s gone.”

Optimus had no words to say at this time, knowing that nothing he could say would be able to bring their friend back. He knew the feeling a little too well when it came to losing friends and family, so allowing these humans to grieve would be important. But he also knew that they might not have a lot of time to grieve for their friend, given the stakes were already high. But he kept that to himself, knowing it was a bad time to tell them.

After several hours of driving, and the sun was starting to set, they spot an abandoned gas station ahead of them. Cade leaned forward as he looked at it and shrugged a little. “Optimus, if you wouldn’t mind, we might be able to take shelter here at that old gas station. There might be food and water we can use, and maybe other stuff.”

“That might be ideal. I also need to think on our next move, Cade.” Optimus pulled over to the side of the road, stopping near the old gas station as the humans open the doors to climb out. Once the humans were out, Optimus transformed, surprising the three humans. He punched the ground out of frustration of the events of the day and looked at the three humans sympathetically. “My deepest sympathies for the loss of your friend. Stay here until I’m sure we weren’t followed. I also need to clear my mind for the next move. We are all targets now.”

Cade nodded as Optimus transformed again. “No worries, Optimus. I think we all need a moment for the next move.”

Optimus did not respond as he backed away from them and turned to drive back along the road to make sure they were not followed. Though Optimus mostly needed the time alone to clear his mind and focus on Saphira. He knew he needed to get to her, even if he needed to find out why Lockdown was being aided by humans. It was his main priority, even if it was not his first priority. He needed to find where the other autobots were to regroup before deciding the next step.

With the sun going down, the beautiful of the colours in the sky was calming to Optimus, even though he would love nothing more than to share it with his sparkmate. Everyone just felt different without her. Even when Optimus was forced to flee from Saphira in order to keep her safe, his world just felt colder. He felt home was wherever she went now, even if it was on a planet that no longer welcomed him. If there was a change for him to leave, he was not sure if he would. But that would remain to be seen.

As Optimus patrolled the area around the gas station, it became clear to him after some time that they had not been followed, and that was good. They did not need any further troubles on them while they now consider their next move. With that in mind, Optimus just drove along the road, watching the sunset until the sun went down completely, and the moon was now shining down upon the land.

Optimus took the time to pull over from the road and transform, walking away from the road to find a secluded area away from any prying eyes. He found a large boulder with a group of dead trees nearby, and Optimus sat down on the boulder before he gazed up at the sky. His expression was filled with longing and sadness, all the while staring at the stars as he remembered how Saphira’s eyes would sparkle a lot like the stars.

Optimus knew that Saphira would be missing him terribly at this time. There would be no question regarding that fact, and he missed her as well. As he stared at the stars, he could not help but almost feel as though his spark was flying high tonight to wherever Saphira was right now, and giving her the love and comfort that she has been missing for so long. He was not sure if she could feel any of it, but he hoped that she could. Even if it was just a small amount getting through the bond.

I know we are separated at this time, Saphira. It has been three years since we saw each other last. My love has not changed since the day we were forced to flee. I think of it so often. I think of the day we first met. I wish this never happened to you. You don’t deserve the pain you have been through. I know in my spark, there is much to rebuild between us. But I will always love you, even from afar. Until we meet again, my spark will continue to beat for you and I look forward to seeing your beautiful face again.

Optimus sighed deeply before opening his chassis slightly to reach in and grab the emerald from within and held it in his palm. Optimus was glad that he has been able to keep this gem from being lost or destroyed. While the value of the emerald was something he did not care for, its sentimental value was infinite to Optimus. Saphira gave it to him, and he cherished it so much. It was like he was carrying her heart with him, given the shape of the gemstone.

Optimus clutched the gem to his chassis, looking back up at the sky as he gazed at the stars. As beautiful as the stars and moon were tonight, Optimus could not find himself to smile. Even when he spotted a couple meteors flying across the sky, burning out completely in the atmosphere of the planet, he could not find it in his spark to find joy with what he was seeing. Not without his sparkmate by his side.

Optimus chose to remain seated where he was until dawn came. He looked towards the east as the golden light peaked over the horizon. He intakes heavily, knowing he had to return to the humans. He took a moment to take a scan of the surroundings, and he did not pick up anything. He then scanned further to see if he could pick up any faint autobot signals. It took a few minutes before his spark would leap with joy upon picking up the faint signals of four autobots not far from where they were.

Knowing this, Optimus had a lot more hope. At least they could regroup, even though he was not sure of the identity of the signals he was sensing. They were keeping their signals blocked to prevent detection from humans and Lockdown. They were luckily not the main target like Optimus was, so they were likely to be safe. Optimus just hoped that regrouping does not attract danger straight away, so that they could plan on finding Saphira as well.

Optimus opened his chassis to put the gem away before making his way back towards the road and transformed to drive back on the tarmac. He was glad that the roads were empty at this time of day, given that it was very early, and the area they were currently hiding in was rather scarce of anything. And he hoped that it would remain that way while traveling through the state to locate the autobots. But he would see if the humans had some kind of plan first.

As he arrived back at the gas station, Optimus quickly noticed that the humans had crates filled with supplies, and it appeared that there was some technology that they had found in the old station that might be useful. He opened the doors for the humans as they approached quickly. Optimus at least was glad that they were resourceful, and that was going to be beneficial for them while they work to figure out what has been happening.

“I had not realized that a gas station would hold so many useful things for humans,” Optimus commented as Cade placed a crate on the seat and climbed up so he could move it to make room for all three of them. “You are very resourceful, Cade Yeager. And that is a good trait.”

“Well…” Cade smiled as he glanced at the dash proudly. “I am an inventor, so I was able to find out some things. Plus…” He reached in and pulled out one of the drones that had been used to scour Cade’s farm. “I was able to tap into this thing. And create a remote control for it.”

“Why would you do that?” Optimus asked curiously. “I would fear that they would be able to detect it.”

“Nah, they won’t.” Cade put the drone away and leaned out to take the last crate from Shane while Tessa waited until there was enough space. “I made sure of it. I want to check to see if I can withdraw cash from my bank account. Though I suspect that my account has been locked, but there is no way I am walking right up to an ATM. They have cameras, so I need something else to get to one for me.”

“That makes sense.” Optimus wondered if Saphira was stuck with her wealth being locked as well. He would hope that it wasn’t, but he suspected it was possible. “I would like to also inform you that I have detected signals of autobots not far from our location. I believe it would be in our best interest to regroup with them.”

“There are more of you?” Shane was surprised by this and Cade gave the young man an irritated look. “Hey, I just want to be sure. I think we all should…in case it is a trick…”

“I fully understand your concerns, young human. But I am capable of understanding the difference with autobot signals verses lures. Especially as a lure would usually be odd, even if the signal might be correct.” Shane did not know what more to say, though he trusted Optimus. Once the last box was ready, all three humans climbed into the cab. “I will take you to a nearby ATM. Though I am unfamiliar with this area.”

“Don’t worry, Prime…I think I know where we are…” Cade looked around while Tessa gave her father an uncertain expression. She did not believe that he knew where they were. “I think there’s a small town not far…are you able to scan the area for a nearby town?”

“It would require me to scan the GPS systems your world has in place,” Optimus responded, and that made the humans uncertain about that. “However, it would not take me long to download the information. Give me a few minutes.” The humans glance at each other, a little worried that Optimus might unintentionally give away their location from tapping into the internet for directions. “We are forty-five minutes from the nearest town, and it has an ATM at the small, local store. I will bring you there so you can try get necessary funds.”

“Alright. We need some cash to at least get food.” Optimus did not respond as he drove away from the station onto the road to drive towards the town. “Do you know which autobots are nearby, Optimus? And would they really mind if you bring three, random, humans to their location? I doubt they would like having humans as company.”

“It will require explanation first for them to understand why you are with me, Cade. Because we have been hunted by humans, and the government wants us to leave this planet, trusting humans is unwise without reason. I trust you as you attempted to protect me, even though your daughter was in danger. And for that, I will ensure that you remain protected while I still have strength.” Tessa herself was still shaken by the day before, and couldn’t believe that Cade would not admit Optimus was in the barn at the time, though it might not have changed the outcome. “The autobots will trust me. And I do not know who is near, but I will alert them when we get close to them.”

“I suppose that is good. I am just unsure what we will do for food…water won’t be too difficult…” Cade looked at the boxes they had filled and brought to the truck. “We found a little bit of canned food that will still be edible…though not sure how else we will have to get food.”

“Unless we knew where to hunt and forage stuff,” Tessa remarked sarcastically, even though she was also concerned about food. Especially while they were on the run from the government. “But I guess we will think of something or hope we figure this out a lot sooner than later.”

“We won’t have much of a choice.” Cade winds the window down to let fresh air in as Optimus drove along the road. “This is a life that…I had unintentionally caused.”

“Do not blame yourself, Cade Yeager. We all face unintentional consequences for our actions, regardless of what they might be. I know that all too well.”

Tessa was intrigued by what Optimus meant by that as she could hear the pain in the tone of his voice. “It almost sounds like you have been affected deeply, Optimus. Was there something worse than the war in Chicago that made you feel this way?”

“Yes.” Optimus guessed with the time that they had to take while driving to the town would be enough for him to respond. “I had been telling Cade some of this for some time.” Cade glanced at the dash with a raised eyebrow, guessing that Optimus was going to speak of his sparkmate. “The very first day we had been attacked by Cemetery Wind was the day I also lost contact with my sparkmate. It should not have happened but it did. It was at the place that became special to use…but now it has been destroyed.”

“You make it sound like you knew it would happen. Why would going to a location make you feel guilty for the consequences that followed?” Tessa questioned curiously. “I am not sure if I understand.”

“I did not know. But choosing to go to the location still resulted in the consequence of many lives almost being lost. Maybe it would have been better or worse somewhere else, but it was more the date.” Optimus knew that the humans would learn that Saphira was a human. “Saphira will never forget that day either. After all, it is a day that...is the day of her birth.”

“Ah, that makes more sense.” Tessa smiled a little as she became curious about Optimus's sparkmate. “So who is Saphira? Will she be with the autobots who are nearby? How long have you been sparkmates for?”

Optimus was silent for five minutes as he pondered on how to respond to Tessa's question. The teenager did feel guilty, thinking that she had asked a bad question when he did not respond straight away. When he did, he startled the humans accidentally. “Saphira is a strong, beautiful person. One of the strongest I have ever met. She was thrown into our world when it wasn't my intention, but our paths have been entwined due to a family history regarding the history of our kind and your planet.”

Tessa raised an eyebrow at that. “She’s human?”

“I don’t think she is…though he never said it directly to me,” Cade responded with a shrug while he listened intently. “Um…if she is human…how the hell does that work? You said you lost a sparkling before it was born. Wouldn’t that be dangerous if Saphira is a human? Saphira is also an Earth name.”

“She is a human.” The three humans were shocked by this and were glancing at each other as they weren’t sure how to feel about that. “I understand the shock you are feeling. I did not tell you, Cade, simply because I still want to protect her. I have not seen her in three years. While it feels like I have carried her heart this whole time, I only know that the last time the signal she pinged from a piece a technology we had given to her was picked up in Wyoming. Three years ago.”

“Wyoming?” Tessa grimaced at the very thought of going to the state. “That place is freezing all year round. Why would she want to go there?”

“It is not as populated as the rest of the country, Tessa,” Shane responded to the girl in a calm tone, as he did not think that the state was that bad. “Sure, the weather there is unpredictable, but it would be the same living in Florida. It’s warm, but they sure get hit with storms and hurricanes. And besides, I am not entirely sure that the guys chasing us would want to freeze their butts off, so it’s a good choice.”

Cade nodded in agreement. “Though three years is a long time, Optimus. Do you believe she is still alive?”

“I do. Our spark bond is still there, and I know she is alive. But…I do know something is wrong.” Optimus knew in his spark that reaching Saphira soon was his priority at this time, and he hoped that they would not be slowed down by any potential threats to them. “I am sure it is confusing, but unlike humans, the spark bonds we form between sparkmates is a permanent and intimate bond that stays with us for life. Through the bond we can sense each other’s feelings, and telepathy is also granted. But given I have been…out for a whole year, the bond has weakened. I can only try and send through comfort and love. And I know she is weak…I do not know why, but I think she is sick. I just wish she had someone with her, and she might, but I do not know who.”

“That must suck. You know something is wrong, but you have no idea what is happening. But…” Cade lifted his hand to rub the back of his neck with a grimace. “I would like to know something. How and why did you fall for a human? You are a lot bigger than us…so I am kind of horrified to try and picture how it would work…” Both Tessa and Shane begin to chuckle at him, and Cade frowned at the two of them. “Oh, grow up! I am surprised you both aren’t horrified by it either.”

Shane shrugged as he raised his hands. “Hey, man. Even if we think that it is strange that a transformer fell in love with a human, I don’t think it is really our place to judge or be angry about it. I mean…” He looked at Tessa and gave Cade a smirk. “Imagine if Tessa met an autobot instead of me. I don’t know how you would chase them away.”

The man rolled his eyes in irritation at Shane and groaned loudly. “Honestly, I think an autobot would be a lot more mature than you. She’s still under eighteen.”

“Saphira was sixteen when we first met.” Cade flinched and stared wide eyed at the dash, not knowing how to feel. Optimus was amused at Cade’s reaction, understanding that his protective side was showing. “Do not concern yourself, Cade. It took a long time before Saphira and I even proceeded into an intimate relationship. It really wasn’t until…she was seventeen, and Megatron had killed me, that I think the feelings were truly realized. But even than, it took a long time before she and I even got close to interfacing.” That made Cade feel a bit better, but he was still not sure how it worked. “I personally do not know why I fell for this human, but she was a broken girl when we first met. Her parents were absent through her whole childhood and disowned her shortly after our first meeting.” That made Cade feel for this girl, knowing how much he cared for Tessa and wanted to protect her, he never understood how other adults turn away from their kids. “I suppose it was Saphira’s personality. Her personality when I first met was completely different to the maturity she gained over the years. She used to race in underground car racing events, and I believe she started when she was fourteen. And her parents never cared, so she managed to sneak out, learned how to drive and earned money to buy the vehicles she used in the races.”

“I have heard about them races. They’re crazy!” Shane flinched when Cade glared at him suspiciously. "I never did any of that, if that is what you are thinking, Cade. Despite the fact, I have heard that the police ignore those races, because they aren’t racing the streets.”

“Even so, Saphira was driving illegally at her age. Though I guess she did well enough to avoid fines and jail.” Optimus hummed softly as he thought more about Saphira. “But…she was an amazing driver…I am unsure of your driving ability, Shane, so I am unable to compare her skills with yours. But she scared Bumblebee a few times…so I guess that does show the skill a bit.” Shane chuckled a little, unbothered by that, as he knew everyone had a different skill level. Plus his skills were based on his form of driving too. “But as for Saphira’s location…I am doubtful that she has moved from Wyoming. If you are okay with it, Cade, I wish to travel to Wyoming to locate her. She might be able to help with finances, as she has a lot of money she could help with.”

“Would it not be better if she remained hidden while we deal with being chased by the government and a strange transformer?” Tessa asked objectively, concerned that going to find this girl would put her in danger. “I hope I am not overstepping…”

“That concern is valid, Tessa. I am also thinking of leaving her alone, however…I cannot while I fear that if she gets weaker…it might take my presence to help her. Even though my holoform system is damaged, I am sure she will love to see me again.” Optimus was certain she would be excited to see him, and there was going to be a lot of emotions. “So my feeling on the matter is that I must find her again. Just know that Saphira will not hesitate to join in this fight…though it has been three years, and she would be twenty-three now. And I wish I was there for her.”

Cade listened to him and he took a deep breath. “Well…I think it might also give us a chance to create a plan as well if we make our way to Wyoming. But just to let you know, it is a big state. And she could be living on a ranch…which is probably the safest option…”

“I could believe that. Saphira’s never been interested in homes people consider luxurious. After all, the house she inherited from her grandfather was a farmhouse, and we lived there for a long time. I am not even sure if it is still intact. It is here in Texas as well…but we are quite far from where the farmhouse is.”

Cade smiled as he listened to the bot. “At least she sounds like she has good priorities. I am intrigued to meet this girl. After all, she managed to win the heart of a transformer…I guess you gave her something she was missing in her life, and she gave you something. And it’s worked somehow.”

“Yes, you are correct. Saphira didn’t even know what love was for a long time. I think she was scared of being in love at some point, which I can’t blame her due to not receiving any from her parents. And as for how she became pregnant with my sparkling, I don’t know how it has worked. But it did. It took a long time for her to get pregnant, so I am certain that when we try for another sparkling in the future, it will be another year before it occurs.” Optimus knew that Saphira would be a good mother to his sparklings, but he knew that thinking of any right now was not helpful. He would rather ensure there was no danger before that. Optimus checked how far they had to go, and he was pleased. “We have about twenty minutes before we reach the town.”

“Good. If you can, we should stop on the outskirts. I don’t really want to be in any view of cameras, even if it is a small town with not many people,” Cade said, looking back out the window and enjoying the wind against his skin. “And I feel like that the police might be warned about us, so if we can stay out of sight at the moment, I think it would be better.”

“That is wise, and I also agree with you, Cade. I do believe there will be some cliffs by the town, so we should be able to use them as a vantage point, and hopefully we will not be spotted.” The man seemed happy about that, and realized what town they were currently driving towards. “After that, we will meet up with the autobots nearby. I hope they will not move on before than.”

Optimus was not sure which autobots were nearby, and while he could find that out, it would ultimately reveal his location. He did not want to do that, and he would be able to contact the autobots without drawing attention when close enough. He knew Lockdown would be listening, so the closer they would get to the autobots, the safer they would be. Optimus just hoped they would not move on before they got there.

Optimus did not know if Cade will be able to get any money from the ATM from this town. He knew that the humans needed food, and he did not know if he would be able to help with that at all, but it would be a priority as Optimus wouldn’t just be worrying about protecting the humans. They needed food. Optimus was at least a lot more familiar with human food, thanks to Saphira, but he was not sure if he would be able to help. His holoform was damaged, and he couldn’t just walk into a store. But he was certain that the humans would figure something out. They had no choice unfortunately.

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Optimus drove towards the small town so that the humans may attempt to get money out of the ATM. The concept of money was still foreign to Optimus. He never really understood the need for it. He has seen how little Saphira had cared for money even when she inherited the wealth from her grandfather as she cared a lot more about how she spent her time. But that probably was a good thing. He has also witnessed how those who are rich can sometimes act, and Optimus didn’t find it particularly tasteful. But in saying that, for the humans, money was needed so they could get food and water at least. They didn’t really have anything with them, so they did need it.

During the drive, Cade was making some adjustments to the drone he had taken apart so he could ensure it was completely under his control when using it to try and get money. Optimus did not know if it really was a good idea, but it was something that could lead to whoever was working with Lockdown to hunt them. Optimus’s mind still thought about Saphira in this instance as he knew that what happened on her twentieth birthday really destroyed her world. He only hoped that she had someone with her, especially as he could still feel how weak she was.

As he approached the small town, Optimus noticed that there were many rocky formations around here, making it a good place to find a vantage point. And he began to pick up familiar signals that did not seem too far from the town. But it would still be another couple hours before they would get closer, but that made Optimus happy that he was even able to detect these signals, and knew what direction to go towards from here.

Upon arriving at the town, it didn’t take long for Optimus to locate a vantage point above a parking lot there had a small fast-food business, a public bathroom, ATM and a small store with general items. And big bold letters reading Hole in the Rock were painted on the cliff behind the small building and on the gravel in front of the fence boundary of the parking lot. At least this small place was able to make a statement with its name.

“Are you even going to be able to get that thing to fly down there, dad?” Tess questioned as Cade pulled the computer out to set it up with a generator they had found in the abandoned gas station. “I hope that you didn’t break that thing.”

“Don’t worry, Tess. Once I get all this set up, we should be good to go.” Cade wanted to focus on getting everything set up, and Shane got out of the truck to assist him. Cade looked at the young man with a frown. “And what do you think you are doing?”

“I figured you might need a hand. Just show me what you need, and I’ll do it. That way we aren’t here long enough to possibly get spotted.” Cade seemed unhappy at first before he simply nodded as an extra pair of hands would definitely help. Shane was happy because he hoped it would show he can be trusted around Tessa. “Tell me what to do first, and I’ll get started.”

“Just grab the computer first, kid. I can’t grab everything, and bring it over to where I’m setting all this stuff up.” The young man just nodded and grabbed the computer to bring over to Cade. “Though I do hope we aren’t locked out of our account already.”

Nothing more was said as the two men set up the computer so Cade would be able to control the drone. Cade had to do some more modifications so he could control it with the joystick while watching through the camera of the drone via the computer screen. It took at least twenty minutes for the two of them to set everything up, while Tess sat in the cab watching with a bored expression, though still seemed to be interested to see if her father would even get the drone to work again.

And to the girl’s surprise, Cade got it to work. He attached a few things to the drone before he began to fly it down towards the down. And the way it was shaped and flying, they could only hope that people would just think it was a giant insect flying over them rather than a drone. Most people probably would, but there was still a lot of cause to be cautious at this time. Cade concentrated as he carefully flew the drone down as Shane watched over his shoulder.

“This is not easy.” Cade was happy that he was able to guide the drone down to the town, but that was the easy part. Now he was getting to the hard part of getting to the ATM and attempting to even use it.

"You know, you don’t suck at everything, dad,” Tess commented in a reassuring tone as she watched intently. “It’s pretty cool you got that to work. If only the rest of your inventions worked.”

“Yeah, I know. Not much we can do about that now, Tess.” Cade remained focused as he took a deep breath. He was happy the drone was getting closer. “Now comes the tricky part.” He saw a man walking over to the ATM to use it. “Guess we got to wait our turn now.”

Cade guides the drone closer to the ATM and hovered it behind the man who was still taking his time with the ATM. However, the buzzing from the drone wasn’t very quiet, so the man turned and looked at the drone in surprise. Cade was just glad that the man did not try to swipe the drone, as that was generally the normal reaction by a lot of people. Though if it did get swiped, Cade would certainly be pissed since it might damage the drone, and they would have to start again. So it was just by luck.

When the man moved aside, Cade took the time to guide the drone closer to the ATM until he was able to slide his card into the machine. And as he backed the drone away, the alert came up on the screen to show that his account was locked, making Cade grimace as he knew that they were out of money and couldn’t really do anything at all. Which meant they would have to take drastic measures, even though he didn’t like it.

“I knew it.” Cade shook his head as he stared at the screen. “Bank account is locked. Now what little we had in there is unreachable. Damn it!” He took a moment to move the drove to angle it again as he also had attached a note to the drone so he could deliver a message. “They destroyed our house, now they won’t let us at least get food.”

“What does that mean for us?” Shane questioned curiously. “I’d try my card, but I think my account is locked too since all that happened.” Cade just shrugged with a shake of his head. “At least we found a few things we can eat from that gas station.”

“Yeah…but it won’t be enough. Which means we need to do drastic things.” Cade looked up as they heard sirens approaching the area and Cade shook his head again. “And they were definitely watching. Look how quickly law enforcement is arriving.”

“Yeah, detecting your card being used was certainly one way for them to find us. Without money though...but what exactly is the plan now anyway? We are kind outnumbered.” Shane turned a little to look at Optimus. “Do you have a plan, Optimus?”

“I do. There seem to be autobot signals nearby.” Cade turned and looked at Optimus as he was surprised that there would be any nearby. “I think it is just by luck that they are near. But as the signals I am detecting cannot be identified until we get closer, I can’t confirm if I am right. But Shane is right. We need others to help.”

“I am not so sure though, Optimus. I mean, I think we would be bigger target if we have more autobots here with us. Though I do understand you wish to know that they are safe.” Cade looked back at the screen as he was guiding the drone back to them, and it was not far away. “How many signals are you detecting?”

“Four.”

“Four? You don’t sound too thrilled. Were you expecting more?” Optimus just hummed softly in response as the drone finally reached them and Cade grabbed it before looking at Optimus. “I am sorry. I have no doubt that the other autobots you were hoping would have been of great help.”

“That does not necessarily mean that they have perished, Cade. They might just not be here.” Optimus was hopeful of that being the case and he wanted to get the bots as quickly as possible. “We should probably get moving. Even though we are not down there at the parking lot there, the police may spot us and we will find ourselves in another chase. I do not particularly want that at this time.”

“I know. That’s why I’m packing it up.” Cade looked at Shane as the young man began helping. “Good, at least I don’t have to ask you to get up from your ass to help.”

Shane just rolled his eyes as he knew Cade was still unhappy about his presence. Especially due to the fact that and Tess had been dating for many years. He still hoped to be able to get onto Cade’s good side and show that he was about good person for Tess. But this wasn’t the kind of situation that he thought would happen for any of them. It didn’t matter anymore. They were all in a life or death situation.

Optimus was patient as the two humans put their items back into the cab as he didn’t want to push them to move quickly. But the humans knew they had to leave the town quickly as they could get spotted at any time. Thankfully, they didn’t take long to pack it up compared to setting it all up, so once everything was packed into the cab, Cade and Shane climbed in and Optimus drove back to the road to head out of town to follow the direction of the signals.

“So…how long will it take to find your friends?” Tessa asked softly as she looked at the dash. “Since they are close, do you think they can help? I know humans have done wrong by you, but I hope they won’t dislike us.”

“It will take a couple hours to reach our destination. Unfortunately, I am unsure if there will be any stops along the way should you require a bathroom, so I hope you all are fine with that. But as for the autobots, they will definitely want to help. We all need to know why this is happening. And while my autobots will not harm you, do not expect them to be as warm towards humans as we once were.” Tessa nodded slowly as she understood, given what the autobots had been through. “Unfortunately, I do not know if remaining on this world is something we will consider moving forward.”

“And what about Saphira?” Cade questioned curiously as he knew she was a human. “She’s a human, isn’t she? Wouldn’t it put you in a tough position if you chose to leave this planet?”

Optimus was silent for a few minutes before he responded. “Unfortunately, yes. Though I am unsure what the future holds for us at this time, Cade Yeager. Even though leaving this planet might be of consideration to us, it does not mean we will go through with it. We do not possess a ship, so leaving without one isn’t going to be easy.”

“That’s fair. Unfortunately, we cannot build a ship for you.” Cade looked out the window and rested his arm on the door. “I’m sorry that you went through something terrible, Optimus.”

“It isn’t the first time I’ve had to fight for my own life, Cade. In fact, it is something that all of us autobots have been needing to do for many countless years. Even though we are not on Cybertron. But in this situation, it is different. While I am regretful of what happened in Chicago, we are not the ones who initiated the war on this planet. And your leaders clearly no longer see that line.” It was something that angered Optimus, especially with how many friends he had made among the military as well. He had no idea if Lennox was even still part of the military. “But even if we had a ship…I know I would find it extremely difficult to leave.”

“I guess that’s what happens when you have a human spark mate.” Tess smiled a little as she thought it was sweet, though she also understood that Optimus was torn. Shane was confused by the conversation since he had no idea about Optimus having a human spouse, so it shocked him to hear. “I don’t suppose you’ll be wanting to find her since we are on the road.”

“Definitely. That is the plan once we regroup with the autobots.”

Cade frowned immediately. “Hold up, what about this Lockdown? And the government who are after us. Shouldn’t we deal with that first?”

“That might be a priority in your mind, Cade, and while I do want to know the answers to the situation as well, I want to find my spark mate. I know she is alive, but I can sense she is very sick. If only I knew Ratchet was nearby.” Optimus didn’t even know if any of the autobots were with Saphira right now. He had hopes that there was, but he does not know. “I hope you understand that a plan will be made to find answers, Cade. But…there is something I need to do or I am going to regret it.”

Tess looked at her father to see Cade didn’t seem too happy about it. “Come on, dad. We shouldn’t be angry about it. You did bring the truck to our place.” Cade rolled his eyes and did not respond. “Besides…you would want the same if you had not seen mom in so long. And if there was a chance, you’d want to go to her.”

“Yeah, yeah…I do understand.” Cade nodded and he looked at Tess with a slight smirk. “I guess I am just…worried…” He looked back at the dash as he didn’t want to hold Optimus back. “We’re under your protection now, Prime. Wherever we go, I guess we have no choice anyhow. We can’t go home. So…you’re stuck with us.”

“I do appreciate your understanding, Cade. And again, I deeply apologize for the destruction of your home. I know it wasn’t intended to happen, but you did unknowingly involve yourself in this mess when you found me. Your daughter is right that bringing me to your farm was a bad idea.” Cade did feel guilty about it, and it was written over his face. But nothing can be changed. “However, you did save my life, Cade. And while a lot of destruction and pain occurred, I still appreciate your help. Without it, I do not think we would be alive right now.”

“True…” Cade took a deep breath and stared out the window. “I just…got desperate I suppose…” He felt Tess place her hand on his shoulder gently and he smiled slightly. “Thanks, Tess…though we can only move forward now. I dare hope that things will be good for us in the end of all this.”

Optimus couldn’t promise anything to the humans since he couldn’t predict the future. However, he did intend to do what he could to help them to ensure that they would not be without a home. It would be the same for Saphira, though her situation would be different. Given their bond, he wanted to be here on this planet for her forever. But he didn’t even know if that was something that would happen now. If the humans had not turned on them, maybe things would be different. But there was no way to change what happened.

With the hope of the autobots being nearby, Optimus drove along the road quickly, going over the speed limit a little as he was taking the side roads, in the hope to reach the autobots quicker. And he had no doubt that they would be shocked and happy to see Optimus’s signal showing up on their own radar, and the fact they would now have his assistance against Lockdown was going to be big for them. And they would also know Optimus will want to reach Saphira. Even if the last time she had pressed her watch to get their attention was so long ago.

Soon enough, Optimus got close enough to reach out to the autobots to alert them to his presence without Lockdown and humans picking up his voice over the radio waves. “Calling all autobots! Calling all autobots!”

The humans all flinched when they heard him, though they had been quiet for the last couple hours as they didn’t have much to talk about. But they did have some small talk while Optimus had continued to drive. As he drove around a bend, a white western star 5700 XE semi was driving on the opposite side and Optimus was pleased as he felt he was in a desperate need of a makeover. While he didn’t think the freightliner was a bad choice, a new vehicle mode was still a good idea.

As he drove past it, he scanned the vehicle and began to transform. The humans were alarmed as they cab transformed first, jolting the three humans a little as they were not expecting the sudden transformation, even if they now had a lot more room within the cab. While the humans were left shocked, Optimus focused on transforming as new fenders curve over his tyres, panels and exhaust pipes were replaced with newer, shinier pieces, the hood of the truck had been pushed forward and the old paint peeled off, leaving behind the deep, blue paint with red flames gleaming in the sunlight. For the three humans, it was phenomenal to witness, even if they could only see the cab and the hood of the truck transforming.

“Wow!” Cade whispered in shock as he glanced around and smiled. “Would have been nice to have a little bit of warning, Prime.”

Tessa nodded in agreement as she was in shock. Shane though was thrilled as he couldn’t believe what had just happened. “That was insane! It was awesome, but it was insane, right?!”

“Sure was.” Tessa took a deep breath as she looked around the new space in the cab. “We just…got a brand new truck…”

Cade nodded with a light chuckle. “I guess this is what a few hundred bucks can create.”

Tessa chuckled softly and rolled her eyes. “Sure, it definitely did do that. If only our own cars could do that, then everyone would be driving Ferraris everywhere.”

Cade grimaced and shook his head. “Yeah, not really into those kind of cars myself, but…it would be neat. But our cars aren’t autobots, so we are stuck with what we have.” He leaned forward as he looked around curiously. “I suspect we aren’t far from your friends.”

“No, we are close.” Optimus drove towards a bend ahead of them, though he veered to the right slightly to drive off the road, hitting a dirt road. “They are aware of my presence inbound.”

The humans just accepted it while looking around and trying to spot the autobots who were here. It didn’t take too long, as Cade spotted a large, bulky, military green autobot sliding down one of the rocky formations ahead of them. Optimus had seen him too, and he was pleased to see Hound. “Oh, yeah! Hell, yeah!” Hound looked down at Optimus with a big smile on his face and grabbed his gun to shoot in the air. “He’s back! He’s alive! Optimus is here!”

Cade smiled as that was a good sign, and he knew that Optimus would be happy that the other autobots would be happy to see him too. He didn’t know the names of these autobots yet, but he hoped that they would introduce themselves soon. Though there really was no hurry, given that the humans would be among the autobots for a while. And they all likely will have a part when trying to find answers about why humans are helping Lockdown.

He turned his head slightly as he saw another autobot, a blue and dark silver autobot standing on another rocky formation. Optimus himself was happy to see Drift as well as the bot had been relieved to hear Hound’s cheerful shout. “At last, there is hope.” Drift backflipped off the formation and transformed into a helicopter to fly towards their location.

“It seems that these autobots have been here for a while,” Optimus commented as he followed the path towards an area that was surrounded by the rocky cliffs, giving only a couple ways in, making it a protected area for them to hide. “Though I am unsure, but there’s evidence for that.”

“I guess if this is where they have felt safe for a while, there’s nothing to be upset about.” Cade leaned a little, noticing a black and yellow 1967 camaro on a hill ahead of them, watching patiently for their approach. “At least you were right on four.”

Optimus drove through the opening into the area surrounded by the rocky cliffs and they were met with Crosshairs. The green and black bot ran along side Optimus with a big smile as the autobot leader drove around him and came to a stop as the bot laughed loudly. “Yeah! Mister Leader of the Free Galaxy is back! I knew you’d make it! I never doubted.”

Drift flew down and transformed, landing and bowing respectfully before Optimus. “We got your warning.” He stood up and lightly tapped Crosshair’s shoulder, making the bot frown at him a little, though made no comment. “We have been waiting.”

Hound stepped down from the formation he was on with a gleeful smile. “Hell, yeah! Boom time! We got the gang back together. Well, most of us anyway.” He shrugged with a light chuckle as he approached Optimus. “Maybe we will find everyone else now.”

Cade looked around at the bots cautiously while he saw the camaro transforming, and he recognized the bot. Bumblebee was one of the bots mentioned by name on the news, so Cade knew him. Cade breathed in deeply and gestured to Tess and Shane to get out as he opened the door and leaned out, and he noticed the surprise in the optics of the other bots, though they ignored the humans climbing out of Prime’s cab for the time being as they were here to greet Optimus, not them.

Optimus transformed as soon as the humans were clear of him. Cade, Tessa and Shane move away some more, watching as Optimus transformed quickly and stood up, and they all noticed his appearance had changed, though that wasn’t even their main concern. “Humans have asked us to play by their rules. Well…” He glanced down at the three humans briefly and looked back at the autobots. “The rules have just changed.”

“Human beings…” Hound grumbled as he threw down his machine gun in frustration. “A bunch of back stabbing weasels. Most of them anyways.” He shook his head as he approached Optimus, tossing more weapons onto the ground casually. “And to think only a few years ago, we all were close buddies with them.”

Drift smirked slightly at Hound, amused by the wrecker’s comment. “Hound, find your inner compass. Loyalty is but a flower in the winds of fear and temptation.”

“What the hell are you saying?!” Hound barked in irritation.

“It’s a haiku,” Drift responded calmly without looking at Hound, keeping his optics towards the cliffs ahead of them.

Hound grabbed out his grenade and raised it while grabbing Drift harshly, pulling him in front of him. “Cut the crap, before I drop a grenade down your throat!”

Drift quickly pulled out his sword and pointed the blade at Hound’s throat, narrowing his optics at him. “Try it, you’ll be dead.”

Hound smirked in amusement immediately. “Oh, please pull it. Please do it.” Cade was staring at the autobots in shock as it seemed they were acting like a bunch of kids at the moment, so he didn’t know what to say.

Bumblebee was amused by what he was saying and he shrugged before speaking through the radio. “You know what, it’ll save us so much time.”

“Well, raise your hand if you’re thoroughly disenchanted with our little pleasant Earth vacation.” Crosshairs turned away for a moment before grabbing out his pistol with a quick spin of the weapon and pointed it directly at the three humans. “So who’s the stowaways?!”

Cade held up his arms as the three humans look at him in shock. “Whoa, whoa, hey, what’s with the gun?!”

Hound grabbed his gun too and stepped closer, aiming it at the humans with a glare. Optimus frowned at all of them, irritated that the autobots would even take aim at the humans who were with him. “Stop, Hound! Both of you! They’ve risked their lives for mine. We owe them.”

“Pfft, seriously?!” Crosshairs huffed and rolled his optics. “Oh, come on, Optimus. There’s only one human we all should even be considering right now, and that is your spark mate. We haven’t picked up a single signal from her for a long time. And you brought three more humans for us to look after. Pah!” Crosshairs put his weapon away and folded his arms. “I don’t like this. What did they do for us to even want to protect them?”

“They saved my life, Crosshairs. They brought me into their home and repaired the serious wounds I had been inflicted on by humans and Lockdown in an ambush twelve months ago.” Hound relaxes as he listened to Optimus, accepting the sincerity in Optimus’s tone. Optimus glanced around at the four autobots and he sighed deeply. “I am aware that Saphira has not alerted us to her position…but I can understand why. No one has reached her. But that is going to change.”

Bumblebee pumped his fists excitedly. “Guess this means we will be heading to Wyoming?” Optimus nodded affirmatively. “I can’t wait! I hope she is still there.”

“I hope for that as well. Especially since the bond between us has weakened due to my deep, unconscious recharge over the past twelve months. I cannot hear her thoughts, only sense how she is. And…she is terribly sick, I think.” The bots were immediately worried as they all still cared about her. Optimus intakes heavily to push back the worry in his mind. “I see Ratchet, Barricade and Ironhide are not present. Where are they?”

“We have not seen Barricade since the incident on Saphira’s birthday,” Drift responded calmly as he looked at his blade, moving it around with a sad expression. “I do believe that he might be with Saphira at the moment, but it is hard to know. Just as we haven’t seen Sideswipe or Dino either, though…I fear their fates have been sealed.” Optimus softened his expression as that wasn’t what he wanted to hear. “Ironhide and Ratchet were with us over the last few years. We got separated due to an attempted ambush by humans about eight months ago. We haven’t been able to reach them since as we’ve kept our signal strength low, and communicating long distance is very risky.”

Hound nodded affirmatively. “Drift is right, boss. We haven’t really seen anyone else since that day. We haven’t even seen the other wreckers either, so I have no idea what has happened to Leadfoot, Topspin and Roadbuster.”

“So…there’s been no sign of any others?” Optimus was very saddened as he began to ponder on their next move.

“Unfortunately, we are all that is left,” Drift responded as he sat down by some boulders.

“We have been very lucky. They’re picking us off one-by-one, so us being in a group has served us well. At least until that ambush. Ratchet was pushing us to go to Wyoming as well. Maybe that is where he and Ironhide have gone.” Optimus hoped so, though Crosshairs sounded doubtful at that suggestion. Crosshairs looked down as the three humans were gathering wood together to make a fire. “And I wonder if having these little burdens will even be worth it.”

“Calm yourself, Crosshairs. I understand your discomfort. These humans are still strangers even to me. But they helped me.” Optimus looked down briefly at Shane. “Even if one of them stepped in only as their home was destroyed by Lockdown.”

“Oh…so they have nowhere to go as well,” Hound said in realization and Optimus nodded. He intakes heavily, moving the cigarette his mouth around for a moment and looked down at the humans. “So what are your names, hmm? I’m Hound, in case you didn’t hear.”

“I’m Cade Yeager, and this is my daughter Tessa.” Cade gestured to Tess as he put a log down on the pile. He glanced at Shane and gestured to him. “This is Shane. He’s a…friend to Tess.”

“Boyfriend,” Tessa corrected in an irritated tone.

Cade just frowned at her. “We are not going to start that again.”

Hound chuckled softly. “Ouch. Looks like there’s a little banter between you all.” Shane nodded silently and Hound chuckled again. “At least Saphira never had to deal with a father like him.”

“That might be true, but I think she would have preferred that over to the parents she had, Hound. You know they disowned her a long time ago.” Cade looked at Optimus in surprise as that was not what he expected. “But there is no need to get between their own issue, Hound.”

“Yeah, yeah, I know. I just miss the lass. We were supposed to do some off-roading with Ironhide when those fragging humans showed up and destroyed the emerald field…” Hound sighed deeply as he glanced up at the sky while the sun was setting. “And we can’t get those years back.”

Bumblebee nodded in agreement. “We all miss her, Hound.”

Drift nodded in agreement. “Yes. The young lady was finally reaching the point of young adulthood. Despite everything she has been through, she was the strongest of all of us.” He looked down at the humans and smiled kindly to them. “My name is Drift.”

Crosshairs just huffed and shrugged. “I’m Crosshairs…and I highly doubt you need to know Bumblebee, but that’s his name.” Bee just rolled his optics at Crosshairs. “Don’t expect me to be too kind to you all just because you saved Optimus’s tailpipe. I only got enough room in my spark for one human now.”

Cade nodded with a frown. “Yeah, yeah, we got it, Crosshairs. But just so you know, we are not the ones who wronged you. You’re taking your frustration on the wrong humans.”

Crosshairs didn’t respond as he simply folded his arms and looked away. Cade guessed that they would get the cold shoulder from the autobots, aside from Optimus, Bumblebee and, maybe, Hound due to what they’ve experienced. Cade didn’t blame them, as he could tell they have been through terrible things that have made them furious about the current situation. And now it seemed that the bots were planning their next move. Which was to travel to Wyoming.

As for Optimus, knowing that they might see Saphira soon was exciting to him. But his spark hurt knowing she was weak. If one of the other bots were with her, Optimus would be so grateful for them being there. Barricade seemed to be the most obvious bot to be with Saphira, even though Optimus knew that Barricade has had feelings for the girl since meeting her. Which was partly the drive to his choice in becoming an autobot. And he grew to like being an autobot during the years they fought alongside each other.

However, there was still the possibility that Barricade was not with Saphira, and that she has been alone for so many years. That very thought hurt him. He never thought he would find a sparkmate on this world, so knowing she could be alone made him hurt for her. Especially with how weak she was. He hoped that she would be able to recover from whatever was ailing her. Because from what he was feeling, it was bad. And if Ratchet and Ironhide have managed to reach Wyoming, maybe they will find Saphira, or they already have. And that brought a bit of hope to Optimus’s spark. 

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As the night fell over them, the humans had been able to light a fire as the temperature had dropped and they needed some warmth. Optimus did open his chassis to give Tessa a blanket that the humans had found in the gas station. The girl appreciated it as she had not known if he would do it upon asking him, but he did. Now that it was night, the humans knew that they had no choice but to remain in the presence of the autobots. It was the only plan they had, and they had no choice but to go along with it.

Shane was not too thrilled about it though, as he had hoped Cade would have a different. “So that’s out best case scenario? Autobot witness protection? Not sure how that will work out since these guys are being hunted.”

Cade was irritated by Shane and looked at him with a glare. Tessa said nothing as she just stared at the fire. “Hey, speed racer, you’re welcome to eave anytime if you have a better plan in your mind.”

Shane took a deep sigh and shook his head. “Well, super dad…” He threw a stick into the fire and looked at him. “I don’t have a better plan, and just for the record, I’m not hiding with you. I’m hiding out with that big guy.” He pointed at Optimus who was watching the humans quietly.

“Then you should be okay with autobot witness protection if that is the case. Besides, anywhere we go, we are going to be looking over our shoulders a lot.” Shane just shrugged with a roll of his eyes as Cade responded to him. “Though at least they wouldn’t expect us to end up in Wyoming. It doesn’t have a lot of people there…”

“Yeah, because it’s cold and the weather so unpredictable there,” Tessa interrupted bluntly with a frown on her face. “I don’t know if I am looking forward to it since we have nothing to protect us from the cold except remaining inside the cab of an autobot. And I doubt they will want us to keep sitting in their cab when we find this Saphira.”

“I think we will be fine, Tessa.” Cade wrapped his arm around Tessa’s shoulder to hug her gently. “We can always drop in somewhere to find a few jackets and pants on the way. Given that it is autumn, there is always a chance that there is snow falling, even at this time of year.”

Optimus listened to the humans speak about the state as he had not been aware of the weather of Wyoming. He knew now the reason why Saphira would have gone there due to the small population living in the state, and the weather that would make searching for her undesirable. It was a good plan of hers, but that wouldn’t stop him from travelling there to find her. Even if they have to stop a few times on the way for these humans.

“Sensei…” Optimus looked at Drift when he was addressed. “With your fate unknown, Bumblebee has held command since Ironhide and Ratchet were separated from us, despite his complete and total lack of anything resembling warrior discipline.” Optimus was unsurprised that Bumblebee would try to take command, as he knew Ironhide would have been in command until he and Ratchet had separated from the group. Though it did seem that the others weren’t all happy about Bee being leader, or just acted like it as Bumblebee was sitting irritated by Drift’s comments. “He's like a child.”

Bumblebee stood up and walked towards Drift in a huff. “This child is about to kick your ass!” Cade, Tessa and Shane look at the two autobots as Drift was sitting near them and they were a bit concerned.

Drift was unfazed as Bumblebee approached. “He brings us shame.”

Bumblebee didn’t hesitate to kick Drift’s sword onto the ground, with Hound gleefully commenting about this being a cage fight, and Drift punch Bumblebee to the side. Though as the two began to fight, the humans scramble away as Bee did land very close to the log they had been sitting on and they weren’t about to be flattened by any of the autobots.

“What’s the matter with them?” Tess stared with a frown as they watch Drift pretty much toss Bumblebee to the ground effortlessly, while Bee was unhappy that Drift had been able to take him down. “Why are they acting like this?”

“Letting out steam, maybe,” Shane responded with a shrug as he stared at them. “Though…clearly they don’t care if we are underneath anymore. We almost got pancaked.”

Drift stood over Bumblebee and knelt down, lowering his blade beneath Bumblebee’s neck while looking back at the other bots with a frown. “Am I the lone sage who sees through this puppy dog eyes act? It’s beneath you.”

Bumblebee rolled his optics. “At least my little sister likes it.”

Drift huffed in amusement and irritation. “But of course, she falls for it every time…at least except for the time she didn’t take you to college. Too bad we weren’t here to help at that time.”

Crosshairs watched gleefully while tapping his fingers together. “Yes! I’ve been waiting for them all to dispatch each other so I can take charge with no trouble at all.” He could hear Optimus approaching from behind as Prime was not too pleased with the behavior, though he had not commented on it at this time. “Just me reporting to me.”

Cade huffed before glancing at Optimus. “Well, it sure looks like you’ve been missed in more ways than just being here, Optimus. Have they always acted this way?”

Crosshairs frowned at the human’s question as he was not sure he liked what he said. Optimus glanced between the autobots and looked back at Cade. “Not always. There were many times that my autobots may quarrel with each other like this. They aren’t hurting each other, Cade. Though I do encourage all of you, Drift, Bumblebee, Crosshairs, Hound to keep yourselves calm. You may end up drawing unwanted attention.”

“I understand, Sensei.” Drift bowed his head as he stepped away from Bumblebee. “I apologize for engaging in immature behavior.”

Bumblebee was amused as he stood up. “Well, good thing I went easy on you.” Drift didn’t respond aside from a sharp side eye from him, making Bee chuckle. “But no need to mess this place up.”

“Autobots…” The four autobots immediately gave attention to Optimus as he spoke to them. “We need to remain focused. Lockdown is hunting us, and humans are helping. We need to know why.”

“Well, listen, I don’t know why, but I have an idea about who.” Optimus was surprised that the man might know something, and that was good. “I was able to find evidence on the drone of who might be coordinating all of this. It still has some recordings on it that you could watch, though I will warn you, you may not like it.”

Optimus hummed softly and opened his chassis to gently grab the drone out and lowered his hand to Cade. “If it contains vital information that we need, Cade, we will push through with whatever recording is on the drone.”

Drift stepped towards Cade and transformed, surprising the humans that he transformed into a Bugatti. “Allow me to assist, Cade Yeager. I can help to project the recordings through my processor for everyone to see."

“That sounds like a good idea.” Cade walked over to the autobot as Drift opened the door and he sat inside to connect the drone to Drift. Though he didn’t know how at first until the record transformed to allow for him to connect the drone to the bot, which Cade appreciated as he connected it to him. “Alright…I hope this works.”

“Don’t worry, it will.” Cade didn’t feel the same confidence as Drift, though he did understand why Drift would feel that way. “I can make some adjustments if needed to fit any of the connections. But it will work.” It didn’t take too long, and Drift gasped as he felt the connection. “There it is.”

Cade sighed in relief as he turned on the drone to begin playing a recording and Drift began to project it. Optimus knelt down to watch with a stern expression. “As I said, you won’t like it. But this drone was used to record a few autobot raids.” Cade looked at the projection as it showed images of an attack on Leadfoot and another on Roadbuster. “It’s all in pieces, but watch what happens here.”

“Oh, that’s Leadfoot,” Hound commented sadly as they watch the recording of him being shot down and Leadfoot pleading for his life.

Optimus looked away as watching was extremely painful. Cade shook his head as he watched. “They rip him apart.”

“Savages.” Hound took off his helmet to place it over his chassis as a sign of respect. “Roadbuster got the same treatment too…I guess…Topspin is gone too…”

“And later this truck comes to haul them off.” They all watch the image of a truck with KSI written on the side of the trailer while they listen to Cade. Optimus frowned as he remembers Saphira mentioning she had once wanted to work for them, and now it seemed it was a good thing she never worked for them. “KSI, Kinetic Solutions. Defence, aerospace, government contracts, and they designed this drone.”

“So these government guys hunt you down and pass you off to this KSI?” Shane questioned as he glanced up at the recording. "That…that’s really messed up.”

“It definitely is. I guess they see you guys as machines, not something that is alive like we are.” Cade knew he himself had to learn that quickly when he helped to repair Optimus. “The company’s headquartered in Chicago, could be where they were taken.”

“Fantastic. Chicago.” Hound grumbled as he grabbed his cigarette from his mouth. “No way to get inside without a battle, and there’s a high chance of us being spotted. I don’t know if I even want to go back to Chicago, even if Drift, Crosshairs and myself had zero part of that battle.”

Optimus did not like this either. A lot of bad memories have stained Chicago for many people, including the autobots. And Optimus didn’t want to go back either. “You are right, Hound. But if that is where the company is and where our friends have been taken, we need to find out. And we need to know why they are working with Lockdown. Lockdown is not one to simply pass of trophies to someone else, unless said trophy is not worth his time.”

“I would say he would want to keep you if got his claws on you.” Crosshairs grimaced in disgust at the very of it. “So what now? We don’t exactly have a way to get into that place, even with our holoforms.”

“What about human help?” Cade questioned as he stepped out of the car and Crosshairs immediately glad at him. “You can’t get in, but we could.”

“What, are you two partners now?” Tessa mocked in irritation as she didn’t want to be part of this.

Cade frowned and looked at Tessa, understanding she was frustrated, but he knew that she was stuck in this as much as he was. “Sweetie, we’re targets now too. We need to know why or we’ll never get our lives back.”

“Even if we got the answers, dad, we may still never get it back. You do understand that, right?” Cade pressed his lips together and looked away from his daughter. “That’s what I thought.” Tess looked at Shane with a sigh. “Now I have no idea if I’ll even get to go to college.”

Shane shrugged. “We might as well try, Tessa.” He smiled at her and the two grasped hands to give each other some comfort and encouragement. “He’s right that we are targets. You wouldn’t get two steps into a college without being detained.”

“Yeah…” Tessa sighed deeply as she wished things were different. “But I guess we are going to get this Saphira first…might as well get all the help we can get.”

Optimus nodded as he definitely wanted to find Saphira first before even considering proceeding to Chicago. "And she has more experience dealing with this kind of thing than you. Though I am unsure how happy she will be to even see us.” Optimus intakes heavily and looked up at the sky. “Autobots, I have sworn to never kill humans.”

“Big mistake.” Optimus glanced back briefly at Hound for his blunt comment, which the autobot just smirked slightly at him for.

“But when I find out who’s behind this…” Optimus clenched his fists as he thought back to the emerald field, because whoever orchestrated that attack, could be the same person they would be facing now. And he has not forgotten it at all. “He’s going to die.”

Hound chuckled lightly and cheered loudly. “Hooah!”

“So…now that we know who might be behind it, are we going to leave for Wyoming tomorrow?” Tessa asked curiously as she folded her arms and shivered. “The thought of going there at this time of year is making me feel cold. Ugh!”

“Considering that state is at least twelve hours from here, I don’t think starting the drive there will be that bad.” Cade looked up at Optimus as the bot pondered on the plan. “We won’t mind if we leave in the morning, but it is up to you, Optimus.”

Optimus hummed softly as he turned to walk away. “We shall leave at dawn. If you need a place to sleep, I will transform to allow you to use my cab soon.”

Cade watched Optimus walk away and he could tell that Optimus had a lot on his mind. His shoulders were slump, and as Optimus sat on a boulder and gazed up at the sky, Cade took a deep breath and looked at Tess. “I guess we will have to wait.”

“You don’t have to wait if you need to sleep.” Bumblebee transformed and opened the doors for them as Trish and Shane smile in relief. They didn’t know why he was using the radio to talk though, but they didn’t question it. “You won’t need to wait on the boss.”

“Thank you, Bumblebee.” Tessa ran over to the camaro and leaned inside. “There’s plenty of room in here…”

“For one.” Tessa tensed as she stopped and looked at Cade in irritation. Shane said nothing as he knew her father would say that. “You two aren’t going to be sleeping beside each other Tess. Though I highly doubt the autobots will appreciate it if you would do anything further than just cuddling.”

Crosshairs grimaced immediately. “Ew. No, we would not.” He shook his head and looked at the two younger humans. “I’d do what he says, you two. Even though I still don’t trust any of you, you can sleep in a cab, but nothing else further than that.”

“We understand, right Tess?” Shane looked at the girl as she rolled her eyes. “It will be fine, Tessa. I think I’d feel awkward myself.” He glanced between the bots as he didn’t know where he would sleep. “Since Bumblebee has offered to house Tess, should I wait for you guys to give the okay?”

“Don’t expect me to do it.” Crosshairs glanced at Drift as he had remained in his vehicle mode. “Drift, what about you? You haven’t transformed yet, so are you offering?”

“I am. Unlike you, being hospitable is not shameful to my spark. You should show some kindness to these humans who have had their lives turned upside down due to Lockdown. We should give them a chance.” Crosshairs just shook his head and Drift sighed deeply. “Never mind him, Shane. Feel free to get in anytime you need to sleep. Sensei will allow us all to rest before the early morning. You all may still be asleep when we begin our drive.”

“Thank you, Drift. Though I think I might just sit and think by the fire for a bit.” Shane rubbed his hands together and looked at Tess who looked at him with a disappointed expression. “It will be fine, Tess. Go to sleep if you need to. We are all in for a very long drive tomorrow.”

Tess just sighed deeply as she got into the camaro and climbed into the back as Bee closed the door behind her. Cade was happy that Shane showed some respect and he looked towards Optimus. Seeing the bot just sitting and gazing at the sky reminded him of how he felt when his wife passed away. Cade never thought he would relate to an alien robot in someway, but here he was. He walked towards Optimus, not sure if he had wanted to be alone, though the other bots do not stop the human from approaching.

As Cade walked closer, he saw Optimus open his chassis to pull out the emerald and held it in his palm. The way he held it was like he was holding the most fragile piece of glass in the world. It was endearing, but it also showed the pain Optimus was clearly feeling. Not only due to the fact he had to witness autobots being killed through the recordings of the drone, and the fact that two other autobots have separated from this group with no news of their situation, he also clearly worried about what will happen when they reach Wyoming. Cade couldn’t help but sympathize.

“You should go and get some rest, Cade.” Optimus heard the human approaching, though he did not look at him. “It is a long drive to Wyoming, and I do not even know how long it will even take to locate Saphira. We can only narrow it down being a location away from the volcanic area of the state. But it is still a large area, and we don’t know if she has moved on.”

Cade sighed as he found another large rock to sit on and looked up at the moon. “It is okay, Optimus. I am not yet ready to sleep myself. My mind is racing too much that I can’t really calm it enough to sleep. I barely got enough last night.” Optimus glanced at the human briefly before looking back at the gemstone in his hand. “And I can tell…going to Wyoming is weighing on your mind? Or is it finding answers?”

“Both. Both are weighing on my mind, Cade.” Optimus gazed up at the stars and his optics soften as his spark felt like it was flying through the sky that night to Saphira. “I think you are the only one here who might understand how I feel. The other autobots have not yet found their sparkmates. At least, not the ones who are here.”

“I will try my best to understand. Though does this mean that some of the other autobots who were here before they were killed had sparkmates?” Cade did not know that, but it made the situation sadder.

“No, I am referring to the autobots who perished on Cybertron, Cade. However, it has been many years. It is possible some of the others have gained an interest with each other, though I do not know if that is true.” Cade doubted that any of the other four autobots here had any interest, so he agreed with Optimus. “I am just not sure what to expect.”

“Well…I don’t know Saphira, so I really cannot comment a hundred percent on whether or not things will go smoothly. But, I do understand humans.” Optimus turned his head to look down at Cade as he listened. “You worried that she will not be happy. Why do think that?”

“Because…just before the decepticons attacked Chicago, the government had decided to force us to leave by the ship we had at the time.” Cade remembered that. He and Tess had seen that news on the TV. “However, the decepticons will never leave this planet alone. I do not know if they have fallen victim to KSI, and maybe they have. It would be a good thing, even though the line between autobot and decepticon has been blurred by your government. So…I devised a plan. I had wanted to tell Saphira, but she had been compromised with a small spy thanks to Dylan Gould.” That didn’t sound good, even though the autobots had been able to deal with the decepticons at the time. “I know I should have told her, but it no longer matters. We had been able to hide within the first rocket that separated from the ship back into the ocean, and Starscream destroyed the main ship. Making everyone believe we were destroyed.”

“Oh…that would have crushed Saphira.”

“Yes…to the point she…made a foolish decision to go to Chicago with the desire to do what we wanted. Even though…she risked her own life and the life of our first sparkling at the time…which…” Optimus grimaced as the wave of guilt washed over his face and he clenched his right hand tightly. “Megatron took advantage of the situation before we arrived in Chicago…when she was captured, Megatron…he…took a lot from Saphira. Including our sparkling.”

Cade wished he had a beer at the moment as hearing this was heavy, but he continued to listen. “I’m sorry…why would Megatron even do that?”

“Megatron had been chasing Saphira ever since they first met. She had the All Spark with her when he chased her to the top of a building, and I think Megatron found the thrill of wanting her due to his own greed and desire to hurt me in the worst way possible. And Sentinel Prime let it happen.” Optimus has struggled knowing this within his own spark. After all, Optimus did blame himself for Saphira wanting to go to Chicago. And as a result, she could have died. “After the battle was over, Saphira was furious and hurt about how we faked our deaths. I know she ultimately made the decision to go, but I carry that guilt of knowing that she wouldn’t have gone if we had told her about it. And maybe our sparkling would be here today if not for that decision…though I had no idea until after that she been carrying our sparkling.”

“That kind of sounds like it was a no win situation if she had been compromised. I am sorry, man. I guess…this means you are expecting her to be angry again.” Optimus nodded and looked back up at the stars with a deep sigh. “Well…maybe this time it won’t be so bad. You haven’t faked your death, so…”

“And I had promised to find her. It has been three years, Cade, and I was out for twelve months. She would have thought I had died, as the bond would have weakened to the point of nonexistence to her. So…I imagine when I woke up, she would have not been happy. I can’t feel much of her emotions now. But I do feel a lot of weakness. That is why I want to reach her. She’s sick. And I think she’s been sick for more than a week, based on what I am feeling.” Optimus looked down at the emerald in his hand, gently caressing it with his thumb as it glittered gently from the light of the moon. “I do not know what to expect when we find her.”

“Yeah…and three years is a long time for someone to change.” That was also true. Optimus didn’t know how she has changed these past three years, but he hoped that she was still the same, fiery girl he knew. “Look, all we can do is go there and see for ourselves. Personally, I think she’ll be more unhappy about three random humans tagging along with you than everything else.”

Optimus smirked slightly and he shook his head. “No, she will definitely be angrier at us than being annoyed by your presence, Cade. She is not someone who takes nonsense very lightly. She had to be independent from a young age, and she did not know what love really was until…I came.”

“That kind of sounds like a fairy tale.”

“I guess in someway to her it was. After all, Saphira said it herself that she was glad that someone from the stars became her sparkmate.” Cade chuckled as he could definitely believe a human saying that. “But as you are familiar with humans, do you think we should find something to bring?”

“Normally I would say flowers, but we have no money.” Optimus hummed as he realized that he would be limited on that, so he had to think of something. “But…” Cade shrugged as he took a deep breath. “If we find flowers just before reaching Wyoming, we can gather them into a bundle for her. So long she isn’t allergic to anything specific.”

“She is not. However, maybe you’re right. Flowers will be a very small thing compared to others. I think she will not want it.”

“Maybe not. But at least it will be an action to say you are sorry. But…if she is really sick, you might not be able to do that straight away, depending what she is actually sick with. She could even be in a hospital right now.” Optimus widened his optics slightly because Cade could be right. However, he knew that if Saphira went to a hospital, she might find herself detained by the government, and he didn’t want that to be the case. “Hopefully it won’t be contagious since I don’t want to get it.”

“Then we will be the ones to get close to Saphira at the time, Cade. So you will not need to worry about that. But…I do wish Ratchet was here. He became an expert in human medicine, so his expertise would be needed.” Though there was still hope that they may find him. They had no evidence to suggest Ratchet has perished, so for the moment, there was still hope. “Especially since it would probably require a specific medicine.”

“Yeah, a type of antibiotic probably. And we have no money…”

“But Saphira does. She might have the money for it, so long can access it.” Optimus stared at the gem as he caressed it gently. “Though it does not matter. When I am closer, the strength of the bond will grow and my presence can help. So…I hope that it will help.”

“Probably not completely. I doubt it’s magical.” Optimus shook his head because it was not. But that still still didn’t mean it would help Saphira. “Good to know. Which means she will need medicine.” Cade wondered who would actually get the medicine though, since his face would be watched for everywhere, even in Wyoming. “But no matter what happens, we probably will find Saphira tomorrow. Maybe you should leave before the dawn.” Optimus looked at Cade in surprise. “I doubt it would be that difficult to transport three sleeping humans. Besides, Wyoming is about fifteen hours, so by the time we get there, it might be the afternoon if you chose to leave before the sun comes up. Or even now.”

“You have a good point, Cade. Though I will still give my autobots time to rest.” Optimus intakes heavily and opened his chassis to put the gem away. “Thank you for your sympathy, Cade. It is not easy for me to talk about deeper feelings. Though I am glad someone here can understand. Even if your own spouse has passed on.”

“Yeah…and I have not ever found someone else since either.”

“I understand. If Saphira were to pass…I don’t think I could bring myself to spark bond with another.” Optimus visibly shuddered, and Cade could hear the sound of him shuddering as well, at the thought of finding someone else who could be another sparkmate. “Especially when we have known each other for a small time. Saphira’s life is a lot shorter than my own, and I had wanted to live it out with her, and maybe find a way to extend her life. I still hope for that chance.”

“At least you have a chance for that, Optimus. If I were in your position, I would grab a hold of that and never let go.” Optimus nodded slowly as he would do that. “So…that is why I suggest that we get out of here sooner than later. That way you will not have as much traffic on the road as we drive towards Wyoming, and we will be there when the sun is still up. Otherwise, Saphira might end up being in bed when we show up.”

“You are right. Thank you, Cade.” Cade smiled at the bot as he was glad to be of help. Optimus glanced up at the stars again and relaxed. “If you would not mind, Cade, I would like to be alone. I need to clear my processor as much as I can to try and recharge myself. If you wish to sleep in my cab, I will allow it. Though I do not know if you will be awake by the time I rejoin with the others and fall into a light recharge.”

“I will do my best.” Cade stood up and brushed off his shirt and pants. “I am glad that I can be of help, Optimus. Though from what little I know of Saphira, she sounds like an amazing person. Especially with everything she would have had to put up with. That makes her a strong person.”

“Yes…she is…” Optimus smiled as he thought about her and began to replay moments in his mind with just himself and Saphira. “I shall make my way back to join the others soon.”

Cade said nothing as he walked away and left Optimus alone. He didn’t want to push the mech, as he knew that when someone needed to be alone, they needed it. Even Optimus. It was clear that a lot has happened, and Optimus just needed times to be alone to clear his thoughts and that was okay. It was necessary. Especially when wanting to return to someone who he loves deeply after many years. It wouldn’t be easy for Prime.

Which it was not. Optimus stared at the sky as he knew that Saphira probably looked at the stars too. He did not know what she would think when looking at the sky. He could only guess she would think of him. Optimus missed her presence terribly. He never thought he would miss a human like this, but his spark made up its mind after the All Spark had been destroyed. He did wish they had bonded sooner, but he doubted things would be any different as to what it is now. His spark ached to hear her voice again, to kiss her and to spend time with her again. He could only hope that Saphira will be open to him, but he had no idea how she will react when they finally reconnect.

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Optimus had decided to go with Cade's suggestion to leave earlier than he had considered. The other autobots were completely find with it since the humans would be asleep for part of the journey towards Wyoming. So as soon as it hit midnight, Optimus decided to leave this dusty location and head towards Wyoming. He also hoped that driving at this time would lower the chance of them being spotted, and it should. And with the lower traffic on the road as well, the autobots found they definitely had an easier time driving along the road without being spotted.

And none of the humans were disturbed. Cade was asleep inside Optimus’s cab, and the man made not sign of stirring even when the truck engine turned on. The autobots were all eager to get to Wyoming as locating Saphira was a top priority. And it was more important than going back to Chicago to find KSI, though Cade probably knew where the location of the headquarters was which will be very helpful when the time came.

Now that they were proceeding to the state, Optimus could only think about Saphira. He has not stopped thinking about her since his conversation with Cade, and he probably wouldn’t stop thinking about her until they find her. He did fear that she was no longer in Wyoming and she was living somewhere else in the country. But given that this state was the least populated in the country, and likely a place where the government wouldn’t look for her, Optimus was almost a hundred percent sure that the girl was still there.

I love you, Saphira. I wish I could take all the pain of the last three years away from you so you would feel happy again. There is so much I regret, but I know I can make things right with you. Our bond might be weak, but I know we can renew it again…and I hope you will want to.

Optimus did not believe that Saphira would have lost any love for him. But she definitely would have lost trust. And that was something Optimus would have to work on rebuilding. Especially since he was rebuilding trust she had lost after they had faked their deaths. He knew it was easier to blame the humans for all of this, but Optimus had his own actions to work on, and he simply wanted to make sure that Saphira will be happy.

He had no idea if she would come with them to Chicago though. He actually would be okay with leaving her in Wyoming if Saphira didn’t want to go. But he also knew she will not want him to go, given the history. He intended to at least spend time with her so he could enjoy her company, while also creating a plan to infiltrate KSI to find answers about what has happened. That way she wouldn’t feel like they would just drop in and leave again.

And Optimus did hope that one of the autobots had been with Saphira for the past three years. They had no evidence of what happened to Dino, Sideswipe, Barricade and Topspin, so there was always a chance they had been with Saphira the last few years. It would be ideal since she would at least have someone in her life and she wouldn’t have been alone this whole time. But that was still just a speculation at this time until they knew.

It was around dawn when the autobots reached the state of Colorado. The sun was still very low and the morning was just peaceful. Optimus enjoyed watching the birds waking up and flying around as they drove along the road as they were getting a lot closer to Wyoming. They still had many hours of driving to do before they would reach Wyoming, and they all knew that when the humans wake up, they would have to make some stops so the humans could use the bathroom, and figure out their need for food and warmer clothes. Optimus did wish he could help with that, but he could not. Plus, even though his body was mostly repaired, his holoform system was not. It functioned, but not enough to allow his holoform to look human. It looked like his full form rather than a human, so he was not much help.

The humans did eventually wake up once the sun was higher in the sky and the autobots were close to a small town so when they arrived in the town, the autobots pulled over so the three humans could use the public restroom. They were very grateful for that, and they were also glad that they didn’t have to sit and stare out the window for too many hours while the autobots get closer to Wyoming. Optimus predicted they would reach the state by late morning, so long they had no other stops.

Cade stood outside the restroom with Shane as they waited for Tess. The man was wishing he had a coffee at the moment as he was still half asleep, but he knew he could go back to sleep in the cab if he wanted to. “You got an idea of how we are going to get anything to eat, Cade?” The man looked at Shane who had a worried expression on his face. “I know this town has a gas station and tiny grocery store, but we have no money.”

Cade sighed deeply as he shrugged. “Kid, I honestly think we have no choice but to just…take only what we need from the store.”

“Steal?” Shane stared at Cade in shock as the man nodded slowly, and Shane could tell Cade wasn’t thrilled about it. “Great…I guess we have no choice. At least we might at least get a bottle of water. I am pretty thirsty.”

“Yeah, I think we all could use some hydration.” Cade yawned suddenly and covered his mouth as he yawned. “Aw, man. I really could go for a coffee…but we have no money for one.”

“I agree.” Shane glanced at the autobots who were parked by along the road by the restroom, and he looked at Cade. “How do you feel about going to Wyoming instead of going to Chicago?”

“We will be going to Chicago, kid, we just need to find Saphira. She’s Optimus’s spouse, and I think it is fair we just go along with them to the state. I think Saphira was probably the first thing he thought of when I had pulled that missile out of him. Besides…” Cade looked at Shane as the young man was still uncertain about going to Wyoming. “We don’t really have a plan yet, do we?” Shane shook his head. “So we could use the little extra time to come up with a plan. Otherwise, if we go to Chicago without any kind of plan, we are going to get our asses kicked. And I am not going to go through seeing my daughter having a gun pointed to her head again.”

“Right…I understand. That makes more sense.” Shane looked at the door to the women’s bathroom as he pondered on Tess at the moment. “I wonder how long we will be there for.”

“As long as we need to. It’s not like we can just get in and drive away without being thrown to the side of the road and left behind.” That made Crosshairs chuckle and both Cade and Shane heard him, making them smirk a little. “And you know they would do that.”

“Yeah, I know. They would rather ditch us.” Shane just wasn’t thrilled going somewhere cold at the moment. “I am just not used to the temperature of where we are going.”

“Nor am I, but I am sure if we can find a thrift store, we might be able to find something that had been left by one of the donation bins. I don’t think there is one here in this town, but maybe at the next stop there will be.” At this moment, Tessa finally walked out of the restroom and Cade smiled at her. “Feeling better, honey?”

Tess nodded. “I am. And look what I found?” She held up a fifty dollar note, surprising both Cade and Shane. “Someone must have left this, because I found it by the sink. I was just making sure it didn’t have anything disgusting on it.”

Cade smiled as that was a good thing. “Well…I guess we won’t be needing to do something drastic for food this morning. And I can get some coffee.”

Tess nodded in agreement. “Yeah, because I am starving.” Tess looked at Optimus and walked over to the truck. “Is it okay if we just head up to the gas station right there and get some stuff, Optimus? Now that we have a little bit of money, we’ll be able to get something.”

“Yes. You are in need of sustenance, Tess and I will not deny you the necessary time to purchase what you need.” Tess was grateful, and the three humans immediately began walking towards the gas station as the small grocery store here was not open yet. “Just be mindful we have several hours of driving, so be sure to fill up with what you need.”

“At least we just got very lucky,” Cade said with a proud smile. “At least you found it when you did, Tess. And maybe the gas station will have some hot food as well. Though if we have to just binge on junk food to fill up, we will just have to do it.”

It wouldn’t be ideal if they had to fill up on junk food, but there was little they could do about it since they were limited. And with fifty dollars, they had to really think about what they should buy. But bottled water was definitely on their top priority, so when they entered the gas station, they each picked out a large bottle of water each. At least they can refill them later. After that, they did find the gas station sold sandwiches and wraps, but no hot food. That was okay, as they bought several sandwiches while also grabbing some packets of chips, honey buns and ibuprofen tablets, and they were lucky that the fifty dollars was enough for all that. With all that, they returned to the autobots and climbed into the western star cab to relax and enjoy their sandwiches while the autobots pulled away to continue driving towards Wyoming.

Now that the humans seemed to be fine, Optimus had no doubt they would almost have a straight line to the next state. But as they did need warm clothes, he would be on the alert for locating a thrift store so the humans could find the clothes they would need. As getting closer to Wyoming, the temperature was cooling down, and Optimus did not want to cause the humans to freeze to death, as he didn’t want these humans to die on his watch. Especially since they’ve helped him.

Though luckily, at the next town they drove through, there was a thrift store with donations that had not yet been taken into the store by the staff on the outside. So when the autobots pulled up, Cade, Tess and Shane checked the bags to find jackets, long sleeve shirts and pants, though they had to use the small amount of money they had left at the local laundromat to clean and dry them since they stunk. This did mean they had to wait longer, but the autobots were patient, and when the humans were finished and had used the restroom again, they were finally able to just keep going.

After another hour and a half, the humans ended up falling asleep again, which was good and the autobots continued to drive. Though before they even entered the state, Optimus picked up signals suddenly and that surprised him, making him slow down suddenly, which made Crosshairs swerve suddenly as he had been right behind Optimus. “What in the world?! Optimus, why did you slow down so suddenly? I almost ran up your tail gate!”

“I apologize, Crosshairs…but I am picking up two signals.” Optimus focused as he was able to locate the two signals, and they were off the main road. “I think they might two autobots.”

“Oh, yeah…I’m picking them up now too,” Hound said as he had taken the moment to detect them. “They’re off the main road though. I think there’s a dirt road up ahead and if we follow that, we should be able to find whoever it is.”

“Should we, though?” Bumblebee questioned as he too had been eager to reach Saphira. “What if these two are decepticons?”

“Then we take the risk, Bumblebee. We could find two more autobots, and Hound could be of assistance.” Optimus spotted the entry to the dirt driveway, and he slowed down some more to prepare to turn. “Follow me lead, autobots, and proceed with caution.”

Optimus turned onto the dirt road and drove along it. This caused the cab to shake due to the rougher terrain, and the crunching of the rocks and dirt under his tyes caused Cade to wake up suddenly. He took a moment as he blinked and looked around in surprise. “Uh…this doesn’t look like Wyoming…is she just outside the state?”

“No, we have just picked up two signals that we are going to investigate. They could autobot or decepticon.” Cade widened his eyes in shock and considered waking Tess and Shane. “I do not believe we are in danger, Cade. But we are proceeding with caution. As we have dropped our signal strengths so much, identifying the owner of the signals is extremely difficult.”

“Right…but you were able to tell there were four autobot signals before. I guess we are too far to identify if these are autobot or decepticon right now.”

“Correct.”

“Right…best case scenario, we find more autobots. Worst case, decepticons.” Cade sighed deeply as he grabbed his water bottle to sip some. “I suppose this will just be another detour. I had kind of thought we would be in Wyoming when I woke up.”

“In this case, we could end up regrouping with others, so it isn’t a bad detour, Cade.” Optimus was hopeful that these signals were autobots. The location of these signals weren’t changing, so they were not on the move. “I think that will make this stop a better reason to have a detour, Cade. And if these are autobots and need help, Hound is a medic.”

“He is?” Cade was surprised as that never crossed his mind. “Could that mean he could help Saphira?”

“Yes, but he had not learned enough about human medicines when we had been attacked. He might be able to give the right medicine, but he does know that Ratchet is an expert. So Hound would be second guessing himself, even if he doesn’t want to cause more harm to her.” That made sense, and Cade hoped for the best. Optimus was silent as they got closer and he was now able to detect what kind of signal these were. “I can now confirm these are autobot signals. We are okay.”

“What? More autobots?” Cade turned his head to look back at Tessa who laying in the back as she sat up slowly as she had been woken up too. “Wait…why are we on a dirt road? Where are we going, dad?”

“Optimus detected two autobot signals. And we are going to investigate it.” Tess just sighed and yawned as Cade hands her, her bottle of water and the girl took it. “Don’t worry, all this shaking and the sound of the dirt under the tyres woke me up too.”

“I do apologize for disturbing everyone.” Cade was surprised and looked at Shane in the passenger seat to see he had been woken up as well. “I didn’t wish to wake you three, but I am not in control of the terrain under my tyres. However, we are not moving quickly in case the autobots ahead of us will become alarmed and flee. Though they have not moved during our approach.”

“I guess they might have realized there are friends on the way.” Cade leaned forward as he gazed ahead at the long road. He could see a very large, old, metal barn ahead of them and he couldn’t help but suspect that was where they were going. “I am going to assume that barn is our destination.”

“No, they are further up. But you do have a keen eye, Cade.” The man smiled though he didn’t know how long this would take. He suspected at least an hour since it took Optimus a couple hours to find the other autobots. “Try and relax, Cade. We have about twenty minutes I believe until we reach our destination.”

“Oh, joy…” Tess was less than pleased about the time it will take and laid back down. “I guess I’ll just try and go back to sleep.”

“Again, I do apologize, Tess. It is not my intention to disturb any of you.” Tessa knew that as she tried to relax on the back chair as Optimus continued to drive. “Though I should warn you that I may transform when we reach our destination. You can get comfortable again, but I would advise against sleeping at this time.”

“He is right about that.” Cade couldn’t help but be curious about who they might find as he was somewhat excited. “Have you got any idea who these autobots are?”

“No, and I think it is best that we do not speculate. It could be anyone, and I am willing to accept that fact. And knowing that, I want to keep my mind open.” That made sense. Cade did wonder if the other four autobots were thinking about who it might be that they would find, but maybe they were thinking like Prime. “All I know is that today will bring some more joy knowing there are autobots who are alive.”

“The more, the merrier,” Shane commented with a light yawn. “And maybe having more numbers together would make it harder for you to be defeated.”

“I will disagree. We were all together three years ago when we were first ambushed, Shane. And it forced us to split up in order to save our lives.” Shane was surprised and was immediately worried. “But as the humans are looking for loners, it might be possible we can have an advantage. Especially once we know who we are dealing with.”

“Right…I guess this means we are hoping to take them by surprise…” Shane grimaced as he didn’t like the odds, but they were still in a better position than before. “Well, I hope we can do a good thing this time around.”

“I am hopeful for that. It will be for all our sakes, and the sake of your future. While we autobots can find a way to leave this place once we are no longer hunted by humans or Lockdown, you are not able to have that luxury. So I intend to ensure this will not continue.” Optimus drove by the barn, and he scanned it briefly in case there were autobot bodies in there, but there was not. “I do believe that the autobots ahead of us are residing in another building.”

“It would make sense if they need to repair themselves from a fight.” Cade leaned forward to try and see where the next barn might be. “Hmm…too far from them at the moment, and too many trees blocking the view. So we might just stumble across it unintentionally.”

“Unlikely since I will know when we get close enough to be almost beside them,” Optimus responded, and Cade smirked slightly. “But it does seem they picked a place further along here to ensure they would not be found. Just as the other autobots had picked an area surrounded by cliffs and rocky formations so no one can see them.”

Cade could definitely tell that the autobots really take hiding seriously, and he completely understood why. As humans, they could hide easier than the autobots, so it made sense that the autobots would go out of their way to find somewhere to hide. Even if it was considered extreme, they had no choice but to find a place to hide so they would not be discovered by either humans or Lockdown. Which actually could also help them find Saphira, as she could had thought the same way.

As they drove closer to the location of the signals, Optimus grew more hopeful. Though he heard a loud, familiar engine roar to life before a black, GMC C4500 Topkick truck suddenly drove onto the path and faced them with headlights on. But the vehicle stopped immediately, and Optimus recognized the autobot instantly as well. Seeing him here was a welcome surprise, and that would answer who the second autobot would be.

Cade, Shane and Tess watch as the GMC transformed and the autobot smiled in shock. “Well, well, well. Do my optics deceive me, or have we finally found ourselves side-by-side again, old friend? Or perhaps this is a dream, and I am in such a deep recharge that you are here, Optimus Prime.”

“This is no dream, Ironhide. I am truly here, along with Bumblebee, Drift, Crosshairs and Hound. We are all alive and well. I do apologize for my absence, but I return to you now. And we were lucky to pick up your signals.” Optimus came to a stop in front of Ironhide as the bot relaxed. “I am going to assume Ratchet is here with you.”

Ironhide’s expression changed slightly. “Yes, he is. And thank Primus you are here. Hound!” He glanced around Optimus to look at Oskosh truck at the very back of the line, and Hound transformed when he was addressed. “I am glad to see you again, punk, but I am no medic like you or Ratchet. And Ratchet is in need of aid.”

“Right away, boss!” Hound ran around the other bots as they transform. Ironhide backed away to give room, and Hound immediately saw the large tractor shed that the two bots had been taking shelter in. They were lucky it clearly hasn’t been used in a long time. “Good place to park, Ironhide.”

Ironhide nodded as Hound ran to the doors to enter so he could assist Ratchet. “Yes, it is. I towed him here myself.” Ironhide glanced at Optimus as he saw the doors opening and the three humans getting out. Ironhide frowned immediately and rolled his optics. “Optimus, don’t tell me you are friends with these humans. We already have enough issues as it is, and we still haven’t been able to reach Wyoming because Lockdown and Cemetary Wind have been able to ambush us. I cannot count how many times we have failed.”

“That might be the case of the past, but now they are looking for me specifically.” Optimus began to transform once the humans moved away from him. “As for the humans, they risked their lives for mine, Ironhide. Cade Yeager found me during my unconscious state, a state that I have been in for twelve months.” Ironhide was immediately alarmed as that hasn’t happened to Prime until now. “Lockdown had a good shot at me when he and the humans ambushed me. I was able to flee, but…not far enough. Thankfully, Cade was kind enough to repair me enough. I still have some repairs needed, but they are minor.”

Ironhide hummed softly as he looked down at the humans and crouched a little. “So…which one of you is Cade?” He gestured between Cade and Shane before Cade raised his hand briefly. “If what Optimus has said is true, you have done us all a great deed. And we thank you, punk.”

Cade smiled at him and waved his hand casually at him. “Don’t mention it…but…we did lose our home because of it.”

“I am sorry to hear that. That would explain why Optimus brought you along.” Ironhide glanced at Shane and Tess, and the girl immediately clung to Shane’s arm. Ironhide’s size intimidated her and she was nervous. “And who are these two? Let me guess, a couple of songbirds waiting for the spring?”

“What?” Cade looked at Tessa and frowned at her while taking a deep breath. “No, they are not. Tess here is my daughter, and Shane is…a friend of hers…”

“Boyfriend,” Tessa snapped as she rolled her eyes and looked at Ironhide as he smirked slightly in amusement. “Though I will say we don’t intend on being your enemy, Ironhide. It is a pleasure to meet you. We were on our way to Wyoming ourselves.”

“Yes, I figured that. We are at least close enough to contineu the journey once the old doc is patched up.” Ironhide looked at Optimus and gestured for him to proceed. “You should probably go and see him. Ratchet will be thrilled to see you, considering we both had to deal with Lockdown recently.”

“You were ambushed by him?” Optimus questioned as he walked forward towards the shed as he was interested to know what happened. “I am surprised you and Ratchet are even here. From what little information we have received, autobots have been hunted down by this Cemetary Wind and Lockdown, and when they are destroyed they are past off to a company known as KSI.”

Ironhide widened his optics in surprise. “KSI? Huh, that sounds familiar to me.”

“It should. Saphira once wanted to work for them a long time ago.” That made Ironhide grimace as he didn’t like that thought at all. “And…it would seem it is a good thing she never acquired the right qualifications to work there. And with the inheritance she had received from her grandfather, and the apparent job as well, she didn’t need to work for them.”

“Did she ever say what her job was?” Ironhide asked curiously and Optimus shook his head. “It would have been nice if she told us. Not sure why she had to be all secretive.”

“I am sure there were good reasons for it, Ironhide.” Optimus walked through the open doors of the shed to find Hound already tending to Ratchet. Optimus smiled as he was glad to see him, but it was clear that Ratchet had been severely damaged. His legs looked like they had to be repaired, his chassis was extremely damaged and his abdomen had damage hit from Lockdown’s weapon. “Ratchet.”

“Ugh…about time, Optimus.” Ratchet groaned with a smile as he was glad to see Optimus. He glanced at the door as Bumblebee walked in behind Optimus and Ironhide. “Hello, Bumblebee. I see you are still kicking around.”

“We all are, Ratchet,” Crosshairs said as he walked in with Drift, and the humans followed in behind them cautiously. “I guess you found yourselves in a worse situation when we got separated, hmm.”

“Yeah, unfortunately, yes.” Ratchet grimaced and looked at Hound with a sharp glare. “Careful, Hound!”

“Whoa! Easy, doc! I know what I’m doing.” Hound shook his head and focused on repairing the medic’s chassis. “You took hard hits, and you should expect this to be painful since we don’t have all of our usual equipment. So don’t start whining like a youngling.”

“Just so you remember your clumsy fingers may snap a piston if you aren’t careful.” Ratchet intakes heavily and looked back at Prime. “I guess we have faced worse though. Ironhide and I were stalked by Lockdown and the humans several days ago.”

“How did you escape?” Drift was very intrigued as he had thought that both had perished. “We all assumed you were gone, Ratchet. It is a miracle both of you are alive.”

“More like, Ratchet. It was my idea to fool Lockdown, and Ratchet just happened to be the bait.” Optimus looked at Ironhide as he didn’t like that. “What? Oh, you weren’t there, Prime. Besides, we all had to come up with our own plans, no matter how crazy they seemed.”

“So how exactly did you fool them?” Cade asked curiously, and Ratchet looked at the man in surprise as he had only just noticed the humans. “Oh, hi…I’m Cade. I was able to help Optimus from his injuries when we first met.”

“You did?” Ratchet looked at Optimus with a raised eyebrow and huffed. “I guess if you did, you did an okay job for a human.” Cade was surprised and chuckled as he figured that was as nice of a compliment he would get from Ratchet. “But I am surprised you didn’t check him over, Hound. A human can’t possibly repair all of our systems.”

“I’m not you, Ratchet. Optimus has only said his holoform system is not working properly, which likely requires part we don’t have. So he’s stuck with his full form in a miniature version.” Hound hummed as he continued his work. “If you want to check him when you are done, go right ahead. I don’t care.”

“Hmm, if it’s only the holoform system, that isn’t really the most important thing. So I guess he did do a good job. I highly doubt Saphira will care if your holoform appears human or yourself when we do finally reach her, Prime. I think she will be happy to see us all.” Ratchet grimaced again and glared at Hound briefly before looking back at Optimus. “As for how I am alive, as Ironhide said, we came up with a plan. Lockdown, when he kills another bot, he will take the spark from the chassis. So, Ironhide and I came up with a plan for me to fake my death from a short from Lockdown. We had to use a method that we don’t use very much.”

Optimus frowned and shook his head. “An immediate shutdown and reboot sequence…I am surprised you fooled Lockdown and the humans with that.”

“Well…it worked. That didn’t stop Lockdown from stabbing just below my spark chamber, probably for good measure, and he didn’t bother taking my spark for whatever reason. My limp body was all he cared about, even though I think he would had fished for information about you. And Ironhide…” Ratchet gestured to the bot as Ironhide smiled. “He shut off his signal completely so he could use the additional energy to shield his spark from detection. That allowed him to sneak and take myself away before the humans even noticed. Which took them about five minutes, according to Ironhide, but he had been towing my tailpipe out of there when they realized.”

“Sure did.”

Crosshairs huffed and looked at Ironhide in surprise. “I am surprised you didn’t put yourself in that position, Ironhide.”

“You and I both know I wouldn’t have been able to fake it and lay still long enough for Lockdown to stab my body,” Ironhide responded in a matter-of-fact tone and Crosshairs just chuckled in amusement. “I would have faked it long enough just to blow that sucker to pieces, and ripple his body into tinier pieces for good measure.”

“Which is why Ratchet was picked for that. It was very risky for you both to do, but at least it seems you were able to get away. Despite the fact Ratchet needed medical attention.” Ironhide shrugged as he didn’t feel regret for those actions. Optimus glanced at the nearby window for a moment and looked back at the bots. “And I suspect it was because of these humans you struggled to get this far.” The two autobots nod affirmatively. “At least we have been lucky this morning. They are using their resources to check areas away from Wyoming, and they would not be expecting us to travel this way. If Saphira is still here, we will find her.”

“I can confirm that Barricade is at least with her.” Optimus looked at Ratchet in surprise as he did not know that. “Barricade was able to get away from the fight before the rest of us, and he told me he would find Saphira and take her somewhere like Wyoming to wait for you. I sent him a warning about Lockdown’s involvement, and to not use the bracelet. Lockdown will pick it up if she did use it again, so we need to find his signal.”

“At least it will still show up as decepticon, so we’ll be able to find him easy.” Cade looked at Crosshairs in surprise when he made a mention that Barricade was a decepticon, and that also worried Tess and Shane. “I guess this means she had one of us for the last three years. And it had to be the other con who had feelings for your sparkmate, though at least he was never like how Megatron treated her.”

Optimus frowned a little as he was well aware of that, but he did not believe that Barricade and Saphira would have gone further than friends. The bond he and Saphira had would ensure that, and even if Saphira did feel love for Barricade, she would never want to betray the bond. “I’m sorry, but…” Optimus looked down at Cade as the man spoke. “Barricade’s a decepticon.”

“He was one. Being a decepticon is a choice, Cade. And Barricade chose to change sides a long time ago once he realized things would not be as good as things were promised. And while he did build feelings for Saphira, he never really acted on them. He has become part of the autobots. And…” Optimus gestured to Drift. “Drift here was also a decepticon at some point.” Cade, Tess and Shane looked at him in surprise as they would never have guessed. “But he chose to become an autobot as well. He couldn’t find it himself to part of something that created destruction in its wake.”

Drift nodded in agreement. “Sensei is correct, Cade. You need not worry about myself or Barricade. Both of us have worked to atone for our past. We cannot change what we have done, only what we can do moving forward. But…since Barricade is with Saphira, and if she is sick…” Drift looked at Optimus who nodded as he also thought of that. “Would he not be giving her medicine?”

“He should. Maybe he has, and she is still very sick.”

“Oh…” Ratchet stared at Optimus as he did not know that and he frowned a little. “Guess that means I am in need of being in top shape and ensure that my holoform is working so that I may help.” Optimus nodded and Ratchet smiled at him. “Alright. Well, as long as this bulky, clumsy, medic does not mess anything up here, I should be good to go very soon.”

Optimus was pleased to hear that as he knew that they were now not too far from Saphira. But it still felt like he was a long way from her, even if they were not far. He was still very worried about his sparkmate, and all he wanted to do was hold and comfort her. But he wasn’t about to just leave everyone behind, even if that was a temptation he was sensing in his spark right now. Not while a member was needing medical attention. All he could hope was that when they did find Saphira and Barricade, that she will be okay. Even if it would take a bit longer to aid her with whatever is ailing her.

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It took Hound roughly three hours to repair Ratchet's body enough that he would be able to function. Ratchet was very relieved that he had been able to do it, even if it took Hound longer to fix him than he would have liked. But that was partly due to Ratchet snapping at Hound if he believed that the large bot was doing something incorrectly, which would irritate Hound and he would deliberately move slow just to piss off Ratchet, to the point Optimus had to step in and order Hound to work on Ratchet properly and to ignore Ratchet's complaints so that he could be repaired.

Once Ratchet had been repaired, it was already late morning, which meant now they won't find Saphira until the afternoon. But that should still be okay. Ratchet was already thinking on what could be ailing Saphira at this time, but he knew he won't be able to make a proper diagnosis until they find Saphira and Barricade. So he could only speculate. He was definitely leaning towards flu and pneumonia though, as to him, it made the most sense due to what Optimus was sensing from Saphira. And all three humans knew that they would have to remain away from the girl until she was well.

When they got back onto the road to proceed to the state, the eagerness to even get there was high. Especially as the autobots have all said that Cemetery Wind have successfully prevented them from entry many times. But they were lucky that they weren't on a main road, so they should be able to bypass them and enter the state without any issue. But there was also the chance of Cemetery Wind being too busy dealing with Lockdown, so it seemed that this was simply a small window of luck and chance that they had been able to get to Wyoming. And leaving during the very early hours of the morning was a good idea by Cade.

As they entered the state, the weather turned very quickly. Snow was sticking to the ground and trees, and the autobots were vigilant about any icy patches on the road. They could drive over ice without slipping as easily as regular cars and trucks do, but they still had to be careful, as none of them wanted to lose control and hit the trees on the side of the road. It would be a nuisance and a waste of more time. But they did notice that the wind was blowing a lot and snow was falling the further they drove into the state.

"I am starting to understand the reason better as to why Barricade and Saphira came to this state," Optimus commented as they drove along the road. They have had to slow down a couple times as bears, elk and a few wolves have crossed their paths a couple times, and there has been a rumble of thunder from above, which suggested this was a light snowstorm. "If this kind of weather is considered calm, then I do not want to know what the worst looks like."

Cade smiled as he was staring out of the window with wondering what the temperature would feel like outside. "It can get pretty wild here. It is partly the reason why people don't live here, and there are only a few months out of the year where it is even calm enough for the sun to out a lot. But this place can be very beautiful too."

"I can see that. Saphira has always been drawn towards natural beauty. It is partly the reason why when I found that emerald field by accident, she fell in love with it. Not because of the gems, but...the location itself was beautiful." Tess smiled as listening to Optimus speak about how he treated Saphira in the past was lovely to her, and she hoped Shane would take some points from him. "Even after she inherited the wealth from her grandfather, she loved that farmhouse more than all the other properties she now owns. It is because it a house situated among nature, and while it does not hold all the luxuries in the world, she did not care."

"She sounds to be a very humble person. Even if she is now wealthy." Cade wondered if she has changed much from that, as he knew three years was a long time. So that would be interesting. "Was she like that when you first met her?"

"No, she was not. In fact, she was a very different person when we first met. Saphira was just going through life trying to find her feet at the time. As her parents had been emotionally unavailable, she found an unhealthy outlet and a dangerous way to make money at the time." At first, Cade was thinking something like a prostitute, and that made him frown slightly in concern. That was, until Optimus spoke more on Saphira. "When Saphira was fourteen, she found an underground community of racers." Shane raised an eyebrow immediately as he was aware of those. "Saphira had begun driving and racing from that time, and she ended up earning a lot of money and owned a few cars by the time we met her. She was...devoid of a lot of emotions at the time too. I think that was due to the fact she tried to mask her feelings because of her parents."

"Wow..." Cade was very shocked to hear that as he had no idea that was her past before she had met Optimus. And it seemed that the experiences she had been through with the autobots probably changed a lot in the girl to who she was when Optimus had seen her last. "I guess that means she must have been..."

"Difficult?"

"Uh, I wasn't going to say that." Tessa giggled softly as Cade responded quickly to Optimus. "I was going to say she must have been pretty full on. Especially if she was a racer." He glanced at Shane for a moment and smirked. "I wonder if she could out race you, kid."

Shane huffed with a smirk. "Well, I wouldn't know. But...if she was racing since she was fourteen, and she is older than me, from what I understand...I only have been racing for a lot less time than Saphira. So I think she would beat me...unless she's decided to retire during the last few years."

"Unless she has practiced with Barricade." Optimus would not be surprised either, since Barricade would be the only one with a vehicle mode Saphira would drive. He hummed softly as he thought back to when Saphira had to go to Egypt to save his life. "You should ask Bumblebee about it. She actually startled him when she took the wheel to avoid being caught at one point. She was a very skilled driver, and at one point, she was teaching military soldiers defensive driving."

"Oh..." Shane nodded slowly as he was starting to understand the skill of this girl. And then he shook his head and looked at Cade. "Yeah, she would probably beat my ass if we were to race. Especially if she is that crazy to the point she scared an autobot with her driving."

Cade chuckled as he found that pretty funny. "I suppose that's a good thing." Shane rolled his eyes and looked out the window again, frowning at the weather that was going on outside the cab. Cade looked out the window as well before looking at the dash. "Are you detecting Barricade yet?"

"No. I'm afraid the storm above us is causing a bit of disturbance due to the electricity. But we should detect him soon. And once we do, we will proceed to his location." That would be annoying, but they at least should find them sooner than later. "Due to keeping our signals minimal, the weather of this planet can affect our range. And that is a good thing. It further shows why Barricade and Saphira came to this state of this country."

"Oh yeah. A place where nature creates a wall for you is a wonderful thing. But at least we are in the right state." Cade flinched as he turned his head as a tree fell suddenly, though luckily not on the road, but he heard it and it startled him. "But...hopefully this wind will not get too strong. It looks freezing outside."

"I could tell you the temperature right now."

Tess shook her head immediately. "No thanks, Prime. We are at least warm in here, so thanks for providing that. But I think we don't need to think about how cold it is right now, because I just want to stay toasty and warm."

"Very well. I do hope that the home Saphira is living it will be warm as well." Optimus had no doubt that Saphira would be warm, but he didn't know if it would be warm enough. His desire to ensure she was comfortable was just too strong. Especially knowing that she was sick. "But I do trust Barricade. He would not let her..." Optimus paused for a moment as he began to detect a signal on his radar, and he immediately knew it was Barricade and opened his com link to the other autobots. "Autobots, I have detected Barricade's signal. He appears to be one and half hour northwest from our location."

"About time!" Bumblebee responded enthusiastically with a loud cry of joy knowing that they would find Saphira very soon. "But another hour and a half?! Ugh..."

"Keep yourself calm, Bumblebee. Our little friend has been protected for the last three years, and we are about to see her. It is a shame we do not bear any gifts to her as a show of apology." Optimus agreed with Drift as they did not have any kind of gift for Saphira. "Cade..." The man flinched when Drift addressed the man through the com link. "What gift would you give to a loved one if you had not seen them in such a long time? We do know that it is a custom on this world."

"Uh, well...I think a bouquet of roses would probably be a start. Though I am not sure if that is something Saphira would like, since I only know her through the stories you have told us about her." Optimus hummed softly as that would be something Saphira would like. But they had no way of obtaining flowers. "But I think the biggest gift will be yourselves. I wouldn't stress too much, Drift. Saphira is going to be in for a shock."

"Mmm, depending on how sick she is, she might not even be awake or coherent enough to even recognize who we are," Ratchet added gently as he listened. "Personally, I think if the fever is very high, we should at least accept we may have to wait a little more time before she acknowledges us. But at least your closer presence should aid her recovery, Prime."

"Oh, you know what? I didn't even think of that," Hound said in surprise and realization. "The doc is right, unfortunately. Hmm...though I do hope Barricade has been able to manage it."

"He probably has so far, but I know she is going to need antibiotics. Which means we will need money to obtain it. Hopefully, Saphira will have some cash we can use to pay for it. Otherwise...depending on how sick she is..."

"Do not even utter those words, Ratchet," Optimus interrupted the medic abruptly. "I refuse to accept that to be her fate."

"Sorry, Optimus...I know you do not want to hear that, even after all these years. But you should understand that human illnesses, even if they have treatments for them today, can still kill." Cade, Tess and Shane all nod in agreement, even though Optimus was very unhappy to hear that, and even see the acknowledgement. "However, I am confident my knowledge and skills will prevent that from happening."

"And I trust that you will, old friend. I will not believe that you will be unable to assist with her medical needs, Ratchet. Especially since I know she had learned about our anatomy for any future assistance you. She was quite the student under your keen optics." Ratchet let out a light chuckle as he could remember that well. And he had no doubt Saphira still remembered a lot of what he had taught her too. "So I know that Saphira will be okay. Even if it means waiting for her to be well enough to even realize that we have come back to her."

"She is going to think she is in a dream when that happens," Crosshairs commented with a light chuckle. "Or she'll think that she has died and joined us. Either way, I can imagine out overwhelming it will be for her when we do show up and she realizes who is there. Hopefully she will forgive us for taking this long to even reach her."

"It will probably take a lot of time before that will happen, Crosshairs. Saphira had been hurt so many times, so I will not take it personally should she decide not to forgive us for a long time." Even though Optimus wouldn't take it personally, it was obvious by the tone of his voice that it still hurt him to feel and say that. He would want her to forgive him, but he knew earning it might take a long time, and that was okay. "But we will be there for her, regardless of her feelings, Crosshairs. She is our family, and we owe it to her to be by her side."

"You mean, you owe it to her," Crosshairs responded in a slightly snarky tone, which made Optimus growl lightly. "I'm just kidding."

Optimus knew that he was not joking about his words, but he let it slide since they were now nearing Saphira's location. He couldn't help but feel excited, and he would want to speed up if it weren't for the current weather around them. And the weather seemed to get worse the further they drove along the road, which was worrisome, since the wind was stronger the closer they got to Saphira's location and the snow was falling harder. The rumbling of the thunder was much louder and the power lines were swaying from the wind. It didn't really look good.

This concerned the autobots as they didn't know how much of this storm would be affecting the property Saphira was living on. But Cade did inform them that the houses that were built in Wyoming were built to withstand the weather that were currently witnessing. While it was some reassurance, Optimus was still concerned about it. But if this is something Saphira and Barricade have gotten used to over the last three years, then he was willing to accept they were okay.

Though the bad weather was worrisome, they did not stop and continued to drive along the road, and they would find themselves on a very skinny road that was off the main highway. This road passed several farms on either side. Some looked abandoned, others were occupied. Which meant this place was very much out of the way of everything, so this was a great as no one would really look here. And there were a lot of pine trees between the properties, so it was hard to see each one.

And very soon, Optimus saw the gate entrance to the property. It had been opened recently, and there was evidence of snow being shovelled by something big. Barricade had detected them and he was waiting for them. Optimus felt his spark skipping a pulse as this felt surreal to him as he turned into the entrance and followed it up. Ahead of them was a single story farmhouse that seemed to have been around for a while. Smoke was rising from its chimney, showing that the fire was well lit.

There was a barn, which housed the chickens, rooster and goats that Saphira had obtained over the last few years. Though the animals were sheltered from the storm. The only thing that really stood out was a building that Barricade had obviously built with metal. It was the specialised greenhouse that he had built to grow the fruit, herbs and vegetables that Saphira has been eating. Though due to the low food stores, Barricade had been limited on what to feed Saphira. Especially as the chickens haven't been laying due to the cold.

Outside both the barn and house, and blue 1962 Shelby mustang sat with snow accumulating on top of the hood and roof. However, as the autobots drove closer, the mustang began to transform and turned to face them. Cade, Tessa and Shane all saw that Barricade still had red optics, even though the shade of red was ruby red instead of the deep, scarlet red that most decepticons had. So it made them feel uneasy.

Barricade smirked as seeing them made his spark happy. "I never thought that I would detect any of your signals today. Especially you, Optimus Prime. And here you are just driving up this driveway after three years. I would hope you have a pretty good explanation, though with the short detail I got from Ratchet's warning, I assume things have not gotten better since Saphira and I ended up here."

"I thought the saying was look at what the cat dragged in," Bumblebee responded as he mocked Barricade playfully as he spoke through the radio.

"Mmm...maybe...but since there's a been now buzzing around, I think swatting it is the best thing to do." Barricade chuckled as Bumblebee transformed and walked around Optimus as Prime came to a stop near the house. Barricade put his fists on his hips as he smirked at Bumblebee. "Yeah, I think this bee is going to sting."

Bumblebee was amused as he stopped in front Barricade. "But not too much."

Barricade chuckled as he gently fist bumps Bumblebee's shoulder before they both shook each other's hands as they were happy to see each other. "Nice to see that my old rival is still in tip top shape. It is so good to see everyone again." Barricade looked at the other bots as they transform. "Even if it has been so long. Seems like I was the only one to really get out of it all."

"Yes, it would seem that way." Ratchet walked towards Barricade while glancing at the house. "Though it seems like you have done well. But Optimus can sense something is wrong with Saphira." Barricade just nodded with a grimace and, at the same time, the front door opened. They thought it was Saphira, but it was Barricade's holoform. "I don't suppose you know, Barricade?"

Barricade nodded before glancing at Optimus as the doors open and he was surprised to see three humans getting out. This made him frowned in disapproval. "Are you kidding? More humans?"

"These humans saved Prime's life..." Ironhide began before Barricade interrupted him.

"I do not care! We are all targets because of some new government agency that was made to hunt us down simply because they blame us for Chicago's destruction. And now..." Barricade leaned down with a growl, glaring at the three humans who huddled as Optimus lifted his leg to step in front of them protectively. "Well...they don't look like much, I guess. But still, we aren't really in a position to add more humans. There's not much food here either, even though I just harvested some crabs and fish from the nearby river this morning."

"Not much food, really? Surely you could go and buy it." Ratchet began to form his holoform, and the three humans were looking at the holoforms curiously. "Why haven't you?"

Barricade sighed deeply and shook his head. "Saphira's been very sick with the flu for a couple weeks. She has refused to let me go into town to get medicine or food. And...she would follow if I tried. Even if she was asleep, she would follow. And I will not allow her to perish in the cold...even though I've been tempted to just go." Optimus was surprised to hear that and it worried him. "The fever has made her...paranoid. Very paranoid. I can't leave the property. But you will be able to. The chemist will still be open, even in this storm."

"Fine. Hound..." Ratchet turned to see Hound's holoform approaching the door. "You will accompany me. Optimus can come in as well. But everyone will need to give her space."

"What about us?" Cade asked as he, Shane and Tess shivered from the cold. "Can we come inside? We won't get in the way at all. We just want warmth."

Barricade growled softly as he glared at the humans. "Fine. I have just finished descaling the trout I have caught to make stew...there will be enough for you three as well when I have removed the bones as well." The three were happy to hear that, but they flinch as Barricade transformed one arm and aimed his blasters at them. "But I will be damned to even allow you near Saphira right now. I don't know you, so you better just stick to the living room and dining room."

"Barricade, that is not necessary to threaten them." Optimus placed his hand on Barricade's shoulder and the former decepticon relaxed. "Cade, Tessa and Shane will not do anything to compromise us. Just relax. But I understand your feelings."

"Fine...but you did bring them, Optimus, you are responsible for them. I don't care if anything happens to them. As long they eat only what is given to them, and use the spare bedrooms since you will all want one. That is as hospitable as I will be." Barricade stepped back before he transformed back into the mustang to focus his energy on his holoform. Barricade walked into the house to allow Ratchet, Hound, Optimus and the humans to follow. "Please be quiet though. Saphira hasn't been sleeping well due to nightmares she has been having constantly."

That was concerning, though as fever can create dreams that seem very real and Ratchet hoped that was all that would be. As the three humans follow, they were surprised by how the holoforms of each autobot looked in appearance. While they saw that Optimus's holoform looked exactly like his full form, though he was taller than an average male human, they were surprised by the appearance of the others.

Barricade appeared as a large, muscular, middle-aged man with broad shoulders and a well toned abs, as even though the weather was cold, they clearly didn't feel it as much since Barricade's holoform was wearing a dark blue shirt, which was tight and the visible muscles caught Tessa's eyes as she had not expected that the autobots would even appear this way. Shane himself noticed that the autobots were very attractive with their holoforms, as did Cade. But neither made a mention of it.

Barricade's face had a sharp, rectangular shape to it with a strong jaw and his ruby, red eyes glowed brightly as he would look at them and the autobots. And his hair was long and pulled back into a ponytail. The dark blue strands shined underneath the light within the house, making him appear very healthy. And yet, he would also be very intimidating for anyone shoulder they find themselves on the wrong end of Barricade's fury.

As for Ratchet, seeing him appearing as a man in his mid to late forties didn't surprise them. But his silver hair had a very clean cut to it and glimmered in the light. His face shape was slightly rounder than Barricade's face structure, and his jaw wasn't as sharp. However, Ratchet's eyes were very kind in appearance. His short, shaved beard seemed to create a border around his cheeks and chin and the bristles looked soft instead of prickly to the touch. His shoulders were not broad, but he still had a toned, muscular appearance to his body. He was wearing a medical shirt and black pants, which was not surprising to anyone.

Hound's holoform appeared to be similar in age to Ratchet's holoform. His dark, brown hair was shoulder length with small waves through the strands. His beard was long and a little bit messy, and was the same shape of brown as the hair on his head. The cigar in his mouth looked real, but there was no actual smoke coming from the cigar that would leave a smell or any kind of heat from it. It was just something Hound clearly chose to create due to the cigar he had in his full form.

He also appeared to have a bit of a bear belly which it was not too surprising, but he still had broad shoulders and thick, muscular arms. He could actually be mistaken for a Viking descendant due to his appearance. And even the shape of his face was similar. Though his eyes were a bit small, which kind of made him look adorable too. And unlike Ratchet, he was wearing a militant medic uniform which was a military green colour while the shirt was unbuttoned slightly with a white shirt beneath. It certainly did make the three humans wonder what Optimus's holoform would look like when repaired.

Barricade led the two autobots to the master bedroom on the other side of the house and he gently opened it. Inside, Optimus's optics were able to lay upon Saphira as she was sleeping in the king sized bed. The room was large and comfortable with an ensuite bathroom attached and a walk in wardrobe as well. The carpet was pleasant on the feet and it was clear some money had been spent to bring her some comfort that she would desire.

However, Optimus's spark ached as he saw just how pale Saphira's skin was. There was a light layer of sweat on her forehead and they all could hear how congested she was with each breath she was taking. Her lips were dry and cracked, and it was obvious she was terribly sick. She was shifting in her sleep as it seemed she was having the nightmare Barricade had mentioned, though they did not know what she was seeing in the nightmare.

Ratchet and Hound both walk over to Saphira while Optimus walked to the other side slowly so he could give them room. Ratchet's eyes glowed as he scanned the girl's body for the body temperature and to see just how far the flu had progressed in her body. He frowned with deep concern at the immediate results he was reading. "I can see why she has been sick for the last couple weeks. This is quite a bad case of influenza." Ratchet gently grabbed Saphira's wrist to time her heartrate. "Hound, I do not have any IVs. Do you have some that can still be used safely?"

"I do, Ratchet. She does look dehydrated, though I doubt it's because of a lack of care. Just her body is trying to fight this fever." Hound intakes heavily as he was also reading the girl's condition. "Bumblebee is bringing one of the bags right now. He is a bit impatient about waiting to see Saphira, despite the fact she isn't going to respond."

Barricade could not help but roll his eyes. "Oh, no. I hope he knows to..." He paused as he leaned out of the door for a moment to see Bumblebee skipping into the front door down the hallway. Barricade immediately put his index finger up to his lips. "Shush, Bee! And light steps!" Bumblebee immediately slowed down and calmed down the excitement that was visible in his eyes. In his hands was a full IV bag and a stand. "Thank you. Saphira does not need to be overwhelmed from seeing everyone while sick!"

Tess, Shane and Cade were sitting by the fireplace in the living room when they saw Bumblebee walking by. His holoform appeared to resemble a young man in his early twenties with short, clean cut black hair that was brushed to the side. He had a bit of a baby face compared to the other autobots, which Tessa couldn't help but feel a bit smitten upon seeing that. He was wearing a black and yellow singlet, showing off his muscular arms, abs through the shirt and lean figure. It intrigued the humans since they had not expected this at all.

When Bee reached the doorway to Saphira's bedroom and his eyes lay upon Saphira, his expression softened and he feared up. "It has been so long..." He stepped forward to hand the IV bag and stand to Ratchet and the medic immediately began to set it up. Optimus had remained standing on the other side of the bed. And Bumblebee walked to the end of the bed, looking at the girl sympathetically. "I hope she feels better soon."

"Once we get antibiotics and ibuprofen into her, hopefully we can get some results. But it might take time. I've already identified what antibiotics we will need." Ratchet gently attacked the IV line to Saphira's arm before hanging the bag as he knew she was going to need the fluids. "And we are going to need something for that congested nose and to reduce the mucus build up too." Ratchet turned to Hound with a stern expression. "I trust that you can keep an eye on her while I head into the nearby town."

Hound nodded affirmatively. "Yes, doc. I did have ibuprofen with me, but the tablets are expired. So I can really only keep an eye on her at this time, Ratchet."

"I know. But..." Ratchet turned to Barricade as he had been watching intently. "It won't be cheap. Is it..."

"Yes." Ratchet was surprised when Barricade interrupted abruptly. "Saphira was able to withdraw enough from her bank account before it had been locked. I was surprised she was even able to get the money from the bank, but it seemed they locked it only after the attack at the field." Barricade turned and walked out of the room. "I will provide you the funds. You'll just need to tell me how much the medicine is going to cost. And one of the others should head into town with the humans."

Ratchet followed Barricade out of the room as the former decepticon walked over to the room opposite the bedroom and walked inside. "Why would someone else go into town?"

"Because while there is plenty of dried herbs, rice, pasta, flour, milk, butter, venison meat and eggs, we are low on other things. There are vegetables in the greenhouse that will be harvested soon. We had a bad run before winter hit though, so we lost a lot of carrots, broccoli, cauliflower and other greens, which is why we are low on vegetables." Barricade walked over to the far side of the room and pushed on the wall, which a panel opened up and he reached inside to pull out a safe. "We need to stock up on vegetables, stock, canned tomatoes and a few other things. While I don't eat, of course, the food that we have will run out before the end of winter, and as there is only a short part of the year where there is no snow on the ground, it is a very big window."

"Oh, I see..." Ratchet frowned for a moment and he sighed deeply. "Well...I think when you want, Optimus will tell you what we are planning. We have found who have been hunting us. But...the headquarters are in Chicago."

"And what makes you think that Saphira is going to want to go back there?" Barricade unlocked the safe after putting in the code and looked at Ratchet with a frown. "As much as I want to rip Lockdown to shreds, I am not sure even I want to go back to Chicago."

"None of us do, Barricade. But...we have to." Barricade hummed and Ratchet told Barricade the price of the medicine and he gave the bot the exact amount, with a little more in case it did cost more at the nearby chemist. He pulled out a hundred dollar note so he would give to the humans. "And in all honesty, it will be for her future too, Barricade. There isn't much of a plan yet, but...there will be. We will be pondering on it with Optimus for a while."

"You can do that. I want no involvement, unless Saphira decides to tag along." He closed and locked the save before putting it back into the wall and closed the door. "After what she went through in Chicago, I am sure you wouldn't be surprised if she rejects the idea."

"A hundred percent. None of us expect her to want to come. But...she should know. It has been unfair to Saphira that we have been absent for so long. And no amount of apology or gifts are going to mend that. But I hope to try and make things right for the future."

"That is noble of you to say, Ratchet, and you will have an easier time than Optimus. She will be angry at him. You have no idea how she reacted when she felt the bond go cold on her twenty-second birthday, and when she felt it awaken again not long ago." Ratchet grimaced as that would have felt horrible, and he could only imagine her reaction. Barricade sighed deeply as he walked to the door. "Saphira grieved for the past year...and now...well, she hasn't had much time to think about it since she's been sick."

"You are right. At least you've been here for her, Barricade. And we are all grateful. It is good you are an autobot." Barricade smiled as he did like his choice of being an autobot being acknowledged by the other autobots. "And with you being officially free of Megatron's tyranny, I imagine the last few years have been incredibly peaceful."

Barricade nodded. "Yes...more than I have ever known in my existence." He walked out of the room and approached the master bedroom door. He saw Optimus had moved to Saphira's side and moved a chair closer to sit by her and hold her hand gently. The guilt on his expression was more than enough to tell how he felt. He hasn't said much since arriving. "And now...asking me to abandon this peace to go after some humans and an assassin is just...I don't think I would want to unless I have no reason to stay."

Ratchet hummed softly as he understood. "Very well. Bumblebee..." The scout turned and looked at Ratchet when the medic spoke gently to him. "Come with me. We have an errand to run, and you are required."

"Aw...I wanted to stay with Saphira..." Bumblebee looked at Saphira again and he sighed deeply before walking to the door. "But if you insist, Ratchet, I'll do it. As long as I am back quickly so I am here when she wakes."

Ratchet just smiled at Bumblebee as his sulking was endearing at times, so it was tolerable. He glanced back at Optimus who looked at him, though he already knew that Ratchet would be heading to town to get the medicine. Optimus did not intend to leave Saphira's side at all. Ratchet left the room and proceeded to inform Cade, Tess and Shane of the plan, and they were more than happy to help, as Barricade was still not happy with their presence at all. They were strangers, regardless of their involvement. But with medicine and more food on the way, Barricade returned to the kitchen where he had brought the trout to start deboning them, though he would glance at the master bedroom. His own spark ached as he still loved and cared deeply for Saphira. But he knew he could never replace her sparkmate.

As for Optimus, he remained in the room. So did Hound as he focused on monitoring Saphira's condition. She at least was not in a condition that would cause for alarm, so Optimus was happy about that. But that could change at any time. And as her body was clearly exhausted and needed the help of the medicine to fight the illness, Optimus did not expect her to be herself for a while, even if she wakes up. And he hoped that when she wakes, she will see him. He knew it would shock her, since she would see that his holoform as just an exact copy of his full form. So she might think it is a dream. And he was okay with that. All he knew that he did not want to leave her alone. He was here now, and all he could do was wait.

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A couple days pass by after Ratchet had been able to successfully purchase the antibiotics that Saphira needed, along with ibuprofen to help with the fever. And there was a really good response from Saphira’s body when he had given her the antibiotics, and with Optimus’s closeness to the girl, it showed that her body was fighting the flu even easier than before. But when she did wake during the last couple days, she was not coherent enough to recognise them. She would ask for Barricade to help her to the bathroom and for food, but when she would look at Optimus, Hound or Ratchet, it was like she was looking through them like they weren’t there. This was expected and Ratchet had to reassure Optimus that it would pass. Saphira’s mind was simply at a strange point when she would wake, but she would seem more asleep even when her eyes would open.

But she would speak about her nightmare. She saw the autobots and decepticons in her nightmare, along with something else that she had trouble describing. And Optimus felt awful, since it seemed to be same one, as when she would wake, she would wake with a start and call out to Barricade. It did hurt his spark, but as Barricade had been here for the three years, he accepted that this would be normal until Saphira would be fully coherent enough to recognise him. He just wanted her to know how sorry he was for everything.

But that would happen sooner than they though, as the fever finally broke after three days, and Ratchet reassured Optimus that she will be fine now. The antibiotics have worked, and she now just needed to recover from the flu. That will not take too long, and she would be up and out of bed soon. This was a great relief to Barricade too, since the fever was very high, and it worried him that she would die from it. Now that concern was gone, and all they could do was wait for her to recover.

Saphira licked the roof of her mouth as she woke up slowly due to how dry it felt. She groaned as the light of the morning sun was touching her eyelids and she couldn’t help but pull the blankets over her head, but when she did, she frowned as she noticed something felt strange about her arm. She sighed, thinking it might be her imagination as she stretched her limbs and rolled onto her back to look at her left arm, and she was shocked to see an IV line attached to her arm. The IV bag and stand were right by her bed, and Saphira stared at it and she yawned, thinking that this might be a dream.

I don’t think Barricade went into town, did he? But I feel so much better today. I think the flu is gone. But…wait…it would only be because of medicine that I am well again, I think.

She sniffled a little as her nose was still a little congested, and it was quite irritating to her. But it wasn’t as bad as it was. It would pass eventually, especially since she felt so much better than she had before. She rubbed her forehead and threw the blankets off as she needed to use the bathroom. She grabbed the IV stand, still confused as to who brought it here, and brought it with her to the bathroom as she didn’t want to pull out the IV without Barricade, in case he was the one to put it in her arm. But he wasn’t a medic. He only knew basic human medicine, so this was definitely done by someone with more medical experience. But she didn’t know who.

Once she finished using the bathroom, Saphira did wish she could take a shower. She felt sweaty in the pajamas she was wearing, but she wanted to get the IV removed first. She took a deep breath as she approached the door to see what Barricade was up to. As it seemed that there was a lot of snow on the ground, even though there was a little bit of sunlight, she suspected Barricade could be dealing with the animals at this time. It was in the early hours of the morning at the moment after all.

When she opened the door though, Saphira was startled as someone else had been reaching for the door handle. Saphira stepped back as she stared at someone she has not seen in three years. With a clean cut, silver hair and clean, shaven beard while wearing a medical outfit, it was the medic she didn’t know was still alive. As soon as he saw her, he smiled kindly at her and held out his arms. “Good morning, Saphira.”

Saphira was speechless as she stared at him. “R-Ratchet?” The bot nodded, as she stared at his holoform. “Is it…really you?” The bot nodded again with a light chuckle, and he was even more amused when Saphira suddenly reached out to touch his shoulder. She gasped as she realized he was here, and now it all made sense and tears fill her eyes immediately. “But…how? I thought…I thought…”

“It is alright, Saphira. I am alive. I have been through some very rough times over the last three years, unfortunately, and I have almost died more than a few times. But I am here, and I am very sorry for taking so long.” Saphira was still in disbelief as the bot stepped forward. “I am glad that you are awake and coherant now, Saphira. You’ve had us all very worried.”

Saphira shrugged as she knew that for a fact. “Yeah…I should apologize to Barricade…at least it seems you came in just in time to help me, Ratchet.” She stared at him some more before she squealed and threw her arms around his suddenly, surprising Ratchet as she hugged him tightly. “I’ve missed you so much.”

“And I did too but try not to dislodge the IV at this time, Saphira.” Ratchet rubbed the girl’s back gently as he hugged her back, knowing she was feeling highly emotional. “I am just glad that the antibiotics really helped you, Saphira. You should be feeling a hundred percent after another couple days. And we have a lot of catching up to do.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. “Yes, we do.” She sniffled loudly and looked up at him. “I…I guess that…” She paused as she noticed movement behind Ratchet and she gasped as she spotted another familiar medic with brown hair and messy beard. “What? Are you sure this is not a dream?" Ratchet chuckled as he glanced back while Saphira stepped back. “Hound? Really? Are you sure I am not dreaming?” Hound chuckled heartily as he had a big smile on his face. “Somebody had better punch…”

“Is she finally awake?!” Saphira stepped back from Ratchet as she was startled again, and her face turned to surprise and she gasped as Hound was shoved to the side, and another familiar holoform showed up with clean, cut black hair, a black and yellow singlet and a baby face appearance. Saphira was shocked as she felt like she really was dreaming. He stepped inside with his hands out towards Saphira. “She is! She is! Oh, little…”

“Ah, ah, ah!” Ratchet immediately turned and pushed the young man back, making him frown. “Do not even think about picking her up and spinning her around, Bumblebee. Not until I’ve removed the IV from her arm, or we are going to be dealing with an injury that could have been prevented.”

Bumblebee stepped back as he realized he had been over excited and immediately had a guilty expression. “Oh…sorry…I just heard her voice and…” Bee jumped as Saphira walked around Ratchet quickly and she hugged him tightly, making Bee smile and hug her back. “I am so, so happy, Saphira. And I am so sorry. But I am here now, little sister. Things have just…been heating up since that day.”

“I missed you.” Saphira sniffled as the tears in her eyes began to fall. “I have missed all of you.” She let out a light sob as Bumblebee rubbed her back gently and swayed a little to comfort her. “I…I thought I would never see you again…after the field was…annihilated…” She sniffled loudly again and she grimaced before sneezing into her shoulder. “Ugh…” Bumblebee looked down at her with worry. “Don’t worry…that should pass.”

“Yep, it should.” Ratchet placed his hand on Saphira’s shoulder gently and she looked at him. “I am going to apologize for this, but I do want to suggest that you should come over to the bed so I can remove the IV for you.” Saphira nodded as she stepped back, wiping tears from her eyes. “Luckily, you don’t need more antibiotics, but if you still feel discomfort, we have ibuprofen for you. Barricade is currently making you breakfast.” Saphira smiled as she felt her stomach growling angrily as she hasn’t eaten properly for a while. “I am curious how you managed to teach him how to cook, and look after the animals in the barn…which we didn’t know you had until Barricade showed us to them…and Bee got a firsthand experience at milking a goat.”

Saphira chuckled a little and shrugged. “Well…to be honest, I think when we moved to this farm, my passion for wanting to be self sufficient rubbed off on Barricade. He did help a lot, especially with that greenhouse outside, as this place is cold pretty much all year round, so not much can really grow here. But…it was something we got to learn together. And he learned how to cook because it isn’t the first time I’ve been sick. So…he got pretty good, and he actually, believe it or not, can taste food. He made changes to something in his holoform to allow him to taste. Obviously, he still can’t eat it, but since tasting is kind of needed when cooking, it became something as a necessity.” Saphira walked over to the bed and sat down while looking at Bee. “As for the goats, I imagine you were pretty surprised by it all.”

“Yeah…and I really hope I didn’t hurt them. Especially since I didn’t realize that getting the milk was…a strange experience…” Saphira chuckled softly as Ratchet lifted her arm to check the IV line for a moment before he turned the bag upside down to stop supplying fluid to Saphira’s body. Bumblebee shuddered as he thought back to it. “I don’t think I enjoyed it very much…which Barricade thought was funny…but I see he is very used to it.”

“Oh yeah, he is. It took Barricade a while to get used to squeezing the teat on the udders as well, but it doesn’t bother him anymore.” Bumblebee shuddered as it was obvious he had not been thrilled by the experience either, and Saphira found that amusing. “Well, you’ll get used to it, I am sure. But…” Saphira looked at her arm with a grimace as Ratchet gently grabbed the end and she looked at him. “That is going to depend on what the hell you guys have been doing for the last three years.”

“As I said, we have a lot of catching up to do. Brace yourself, this might hurt.” Saphira grimaced as Ratchet held the needle to pull it out quickly. She hissed as it stung and Ratchet quickly pressed a pressure bandage on it to stop the bleeding as soon as possible. “Though I bet you are wondering how many of us are here too. After all, Hound, Bumblebee and I are just the tip of the iceberg.”

“Wait, what?” Saphira looked at Ratchet in shock as she had not considered it. “Really? Who? How many? And…” She turned her head as soon as she soon movement at the corner of her eye and she gasped loudly as she stared at the doorway as the holoform of a familiar autobot stood there looking back at her with a guilty expression. Though his holoform was not human. It was like she was seeing his full form, but standing in her bedroom doorway. And despite his optics being soft as he gazed back at her, Saphira felt butterflies in her stomach as she stared back at him. And that was when she noticed the stronger presence in the bond, even if it still wasn’t complete like it used to be. “This isn’t a prank, is it?”

Bumblebee looked at the door and smiled, moving to the side to give room while shaking his head. “It is not.” Hound had given room as well as Saphira stared at the bot. “We would never do a prank like this. Especially after everything you have been through.”

Saphira stared at him for a moment before she frowned deeply. “No…three years…” She slowly clenched her hands as while she had been happy to see them, anger replaced those feelings. After all, she thought she and Barricade were all that were left. She thought Optimus had been dead for the past year. And now they were all here again. She clenched her teeth as the tears of joy turned to pain and frustration. “It took you three years to come to one of the most unpopulated states in America? I would have thought you all would have found me in about twelve months, but no…three years.”

“Saphira…” Saphira tensed as soon as he spoke and she glared at him. Seeing Optimus Prime again for the first time in two years made her feel excited due to the bond, but it also felt like a kick in the gut. “None of us can excuse our absense. But we can…”

“Shut up!” Optimus flinched as she barked angrily at him as her breathing began to turn erradic as anxiety was building as build. “I…I…” Ratchet was immediately worried since she was clearly on the verge of a panic attack, and he wanted to help her. “Get out…”

“Saphira, you need…” Ratchet began before Saphira pushed him back suddenly and stood up from the bed.

“I told you to get out!” She pushed Ratchet again, and his expression turned to guilt as he walked towards the door. “Please…I need time to think.” Ratchet sighed deeply and walked towards the door, while Bee stared at her with wide eyes. “You too, Bee…” Bumblebee looked down before turning and walking out of the room, brushing by Optimus as he looked at Saphira with a sad expression. Saphira glared at him and walked up to him, while her expression quivered between anger and sadness. “I thought you were dead…” Optimus looked away from her and she lifted her hand for a moment before she touched his right shoulder, making him flinch and look at her as she wanted to make sure he was real. “I grieve for you…on my birthday too…”

Optimus was silent for a moment before he spoke gently to her. “I can only remain apologetic to you, Saphira. I cannot go back and change what happened. The missiles that hit me did almost kill me…” Saphira was surprised and she became worried instantly as she listened to him. “For it is not just humans hunting us now. And unfortunately…it meant more pain for you. I am so sorry. You never deserved it.”

Saphira stared at him as she was still angry, but she had calmed down just slightly and she stepped closer to him. Optimus glanced at her arm as the pressure bandage had fallen off and the wound was bleeding, though she didn’t seem to care. “You have no idea how hard the last three years have been for me…Optimus, you know you and the autobots are the only family I have now. My parents disowned me, and when that attacked happened at the field, I also lost Lennox as a friend. I…I…and then…” She sniffled as she let out a sob. “When I saw the explosion that cut off my vision of Dino and Sideswipe…I thought everyone would be dead…but when you didn’t die, I thought we would be together again. But…you never came…” Optimus wanted to hug her, but felt it might set her off again, even though she placed her other arm on his left shoulder as she stared him. “And when the bond went cold…I…it felt like losing the sparkling all over again, but worse…”

Optimus’s optics quiver as hearing that felt like a knife to his spark. Knowing how much pain Saphira has gone through emotionally and physically made him wish he could carry that burden for her. And he wanted to rebond with her so he could do that, but he knew she probably will refuse him. At least for now, as it seemed they would need to rebuild their relationship. And yet, he could feel her love, even though the bond was faint. And she could feel his, and the sorrow he was feeling.

Saphira moved her hands to his cheeks as she stared in his optics and her expression softened slightly. “But…I do know you would have had good reason to not bring the danger to me. I am so hurt and angry…but I am also relieved…and I still can’t believe you are my sparkmate.” Optimus smiled slightly upon hearing her words. “And I love you, I never stopped loving you, Optimus. I love you so much that it hurts me deeply that you have been gone for so long. At least it wasn’t fake this time.”

Optimus grimaced as he knew she has not gotten over that, and he doubted she ever would. “I love you too, Saphira. I have held onto our love and our bond as tightly as I could. I despair knowing that I have cut so deep, and I wish I could take that away from you. I am truly, truly sorry.” Saphira’s bottom lip trembled as she frowned slightly again as she listened to him as he gazed into her deep, green eyes. “I will always love you with all my spark, Saphira. And these past three years have...have been hard for all of us. But it was all to ensure you remained safe, Saphira. I hope for your next birthday, you will be smiling again.”

Saphira sniffled some more as she took deep breaths as she listened. The mixture of pain, anger, frustration, love, joy and anxiety was really mounting on her. And as much as she wanted to push Optimus away, she couldn’t. She has longed to see him all these years, even if he hurt her. But she did believe him. Optimus has only ever lied once, only due to the decepticon on her wrist. And she couldn’t fault his words knowing that fact. But she was still hurting so much, and it was overwhelming.

However, she wanted to say something in response to him, but she ended up suddenly leaning in and kissing his metal lips. Optimus was surprised as he thought she wouldn’t, but she did. And the kiss was full of passion and desire, and Optimus gently wrapped his arms around her as he kissed her back with a low rumble in his chest. He could feel exactly what she was feeling, and he wanted her to relax, but he also was not going to push her to do anything she didn’t want to right now.

Saphira and Optimus kiss passionately for a couple minutes before she pulled away and stepped back from him, making him drop his arms from around her as she looked at him with a frown. She was still breathing erratically and she sniffled as she looked down while reaching for the door and held it. “I...I need time to myself, please...I can’t handle this right now.”

Optimus opened his mouth to respond, but she slammed the door shut, leaving the autobots out of her room. But they all heard Saphira crying from the otherside. Optimus sighed deeply as he placed his forehead against the door with his spark aching as hearing her cries made him want to hug her. But he knew she needed this. She needed to let it out and process in her mind. Even if it hurt his spark to be shut out, he would give her the time she needed to herself.

Ratchet was worried since he had not been able to patch her arm, and it was still bleeding. “I guess we overwhelmed her.” He placed his hand on Optimus’s shoulder gently as he gave his old friend a sympathetic expression. “I know that wasn’t the reception we would have liked, Optimus. But...it is understandable. Especially since we are all she has in this world now. We can’t blame her for the feelings she has right now.”

“I know. It burns my spark knowing she is inconsolable right now...but I fear she needs help calming down.” Optimus stepped back from the door with a frown before he turned to walk to the kitchen. Barricade had cooked some eggs, toast and hash browns and he was playing them up. “This is not something I would normally ask, Barricade, but as you have been here for the last three years...” Barricade looked at him with a sympathetic expression, with a hint of sadness in his face. “I think you can help calm her down. She is having a panic attack.”

Barricade sighed deeply and shook his head. “I did warn everyone to not overwhelm her. But I will do my best.” Barricade walked to the fridge to grab out some apple juice to fill a glass for the girl. He put the plate and cup onto a tray and lifted it up. Cade, Tess and Shane were at the dining table eating their breakfast currently, though they were quiet as they all had just woken up. “I am expecting her to be angry at me too. So don’t expect her to calm down too quickly. Listening to your spark pulse would be the best way to calm her down, but I highly doubt she would want that right now.”

Optimus nodded a little as he listened to Barricade while moving to not be in his way. Bumblebee was keeping clear too, but he was clearly upset as he wanted to help Saphira too. But he couldn’t unless she wanted to have company of any of the autobots. They hoped with a bit of time, she would calm down enough for them to talk to her about KSI and Lockdown. They wanted her to know about it, even if she did not go with them.

Barricade walked up to the door and his expression softened as he could hear Saphira’s crying. He sighed deeply and spoke gently through the door. “Saphira, I know you are going through a lot right now. But I’ve made some breakfast for you. I assume you are hungry after so many days of not eating properly. If you want, I’ll just bring the food in and leave if you want.” There was no response from Saphira, and Barricade hoped she wouldn’t skip the meal. But he stepped back when she opened the door and gestured for him to come, and he did before she closed the door behind him. Barricade noticed immediately she had the window open and she walked back over to it to get onto her knees and lean out to focus on breathing in the cold air. Barricade sighed as he placed the tray on the bedside table and walked over to her and placed his hand on her back. “Deep breaths, Saphira. Focus and try to relax, I’m right here.”

Saphira tensed as little when she felt Barricade’s hand on her back, but she relaxed a bit as hearing his soothing voice helped a lot. She focused on calming herself down, but it would take a few minutes of erratic breathing to even begin to calm down. Barricade rubbed her back gently to soothe her and she finally was able to calm down enough before she turned to him and hugged him tightly, burying her face into his shoulder while sobbing. He closed the window to keep the warm air from escaping and wrapped his arms around her as she sobbed.

“Let it all out, Saphira. You have needed this for a long time. I’m right here.” He kissed the top of her head gently, which made her flinch a little, though she made no comment about it. “If you want to talk about it, we can. But if not, that is okay too. This is a lot to take in.”

Saphira didn’t say anything as she continued to sob into Barricade’s shoulder. She really did not know what to say or feel right now. She was happy to see the other autobots, but she was also still really hurt and angry. It was hard to really feel anything at this point, so she just wanted to let it all out. And it has been pent up for a long time. She has cried herself to sleep more than several times over the last three years, but this was different. And letting it all out was definitely needed.

Barricade caressed her back and rocked her gently as she sobbed into his shoulder for at least thirty minutes before she even calmed down enough to get up and walk over to her bed. At this time, the blood from the wound from the IV had stopped, but she did know she needed to clean it up. But Barricade made her relax on the bed and she began to pick at the food and eat the eggs first while Barricade walked into her bathroom to get a cloth and rinse it under some water and grab a bandage.

As Saphira sat on the bed and Barricade returned to clean her arm, she glanced at the door for a moment and looked at Barricade. “How long have they been here?”

“They have only been here for three and a half days now.” Saphira was surprised as she did not remember them at all. “You were too sick to recognise them at the time. But Ratchet was able to get your medicine. I never left the farm once, as I knew you would know.”

Saphira smiled a little as he began to clean the blood from her arm gently and she cut some of the hash brown to eat next. “That explains why I don’t remember seeing them...I only really remember that nightmare. I swear I keep seeing Cybertron and something that keeps threatening me...I wonder if it was just the fever.”

“It could be that.” Barricade knew that dreams humans have can be very lucid when they have high fevers, so it was possible. “But I guess if you have it again tonight, then it might be something else.” Saphira nodded in agreement and looked down. “You don’t have to worry about anything at this time, Saphira. You are only just getting over your flu. You don’t need to worry about the autobots.”

Saphira couldn’t help but think about them. She didn’t even know who else was here. “I don’t know if I can stop thinking about them now, Barricade.” She glanced at the door again with a frown. “So are Bumblebee, Ratchet  Hound and Optimus the only ones here?” Barricade shook his head and Saphira widened her eyes. “Who else is here?”

“Drift, Crosshairs and Ironhide...”

Saphira gasped with a big smile forming. “Really? Ironhide too?!” Barricade nodded with a smile as he began to wrap the bandage around her arm, knowing that they wound would heal quickly. “What about Wheelie and Brains?”

Barricade shook his head. “I am afraid not. If anything, I don’t think any of us know what happened to them. I could only assume two possible. The first is that they were killed when the gondola was destroyed, or they got away. They are small enough to not be cared about by the humans. But finding them again probably would prove difficult.”

Saphira felt sad as those two little scrap bots were good friends to her. And she would have liked to hear about them. “I guess that means there is still a chance...what about the wreckers? Did they say anything about them?”

“Um...I am afraid that Leadfoot and Roadbuster...they were hunted down...” Saphira’s eyes fill with tears instantly. “They were able to confirm it unfortunately. Only because Optimus was aided by some other humans who were able to repair him...which is why he woke up and the you felt the bond coming back.” Saphira frowned as she didn’t expect that and Barricade sat beside her on the bed now that her arm was clean and bandaged. “Those humans are here, by the way. I don’t want you to walk out into the dining room and pulling a knife on them, since they haven’t done anything bad so far.”

“Riiight...” Saphira didn’t know how she felt about strangers in her house. But if they saved Optimus, she would hope they have good intentions. “What are their names?”

“Cade Yeager, his daughter Tessa and her boyfriend Shane. Though there is animosity between Cade and Shane, so that has been a bit annoying.” Saphira didn’t feel amused, even though she was also unsurprised since a lot of fathers were protective of their daughters. Barricade stood up to take the cloth to the bathroom to rinse out. “They seem like nice people though. Cade and Tess lost their home after they had repaired Optimus. Though not enough, since his holoform is damaged. Which is why his holoform appears the way it is.”

Saphira had wondered why when she saw Optimus, she saw his full form instead of the human form that he had for his holoform. She raised an eyebrow as Barricade entered the bathroom. “I assume you can change your holoforms to look like full forms?”

“Yes, we can. I can change to mine if you want.”

Saphira thought about it for a moment and shook her head. “No, not right now. Maybe another time. I assume Ratchet will fix him.”

“He will. He was just focused on you.” Saphira smiled a little as she was unsurprised by that. She looked at the door again and Barricade walked back over after rinsing the cloth so he could wipe her face to clear the tears staining her cheeks. “And I think they may stay focused on you for a little longer.”

Saphira let out a light chuckle. “I suppose I should expect that. They always try to put me first.” Barricade nodded as he knelt in front of her and began to wash her face. Saphira smiled as she relaxed some more and realized she still felt tired. She looked at the tray to keep eating as she was hungry. “Thank you, Barricade. You being here has been very helpful. My hurt is still hurting from the weight of the last three years. I worry that...it will happen again.”

That made her reaction make a whole lot more sense. She was happy to see the bots, but the last few years has impacted her so much that she was frightened that she would go through it again. Barricade did not believe so, but as he knew the autobots would have to tell her about KSI and Lockdown, and the fact they would be going back to Chicago, she would definitely freak out over it and she may have another meltdown. It hurt Barricade’s spark knowing this was her deeper feelings, but it could not be helped.

“I am afraid I can’t predict what the future will look like, so I can’t really reassure if things will be good. But...I would be surprised if it did happen again.” Saphira sighed deeply and grabbed the cup to support the juice and Barricade stood up now that her face was cleaned. “I assume you will remain in here for a while?” She nodded and he smiled at her. “Very well. I’ll make sure no one bothers you unless you want to be bothered. And you can finally take a shower. I know you probably feel the need for it.”

“Yes, I do.” Saphira took a deep breath and she looked at Barricade with a smile. “Thank you again, Barricade. I’m almost finished with my food and you can take the tray when I’m done.”

Barricade nodded as he took the cloth to the bathroom to rinse out again. He was very unsurprised by Saphira’s reaction to seeing the autobots again. It hurt his spark seeing her hurting this way, and it was like she was reliving the trauma of the last three years all at once. He didn’t blame her for wanting the time to think and gather herself before she would even emerge from her room again. But he did want her to see them all. And while it hurt him knowing that their own relationship would remain friendly, Barricade wanted Saphira to rekindle her relationship with Optimus. She needed to.

And when Barricade left her room with the tray, Optimus was still outside her room. He gave Barricade a thankful expression, though it was easy to tell exactly how Optimus was feeling. And Barricade couldn’t really give anything good to say since Saphira needed to spend time by herself. At least Optimus was giving that to her, even if it clearly hurt him that he had been shut out for a short time. At least he was here, and Barricade knew that Optimus would not ever let her go, and he hoped for them both to have a happier future together.

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Now that she was standing in the shower, Saphira couldn’t help but smile as the water washed over her body. She has not had a proper shower in days due to how sick she has been, and it felt wonderful to wash it all off. Her hair was in desperately need of a wash as well, since it was quite oily and dull. Being able to enjoy the shower gave her the time to relax completely after the stress she had felt before. But that certain did not mean that she has gotten over it. She certainly wouldn’t get over it for a long time. But as she stood under the warmth of the shower, it gave her a chance to think deeply about it all.

Now knowing that the autobots have finally shown up after three whole years, Saphira knew she should be really happy. She was, but it was hard to ignore the fact that she has waited and waited for so long, and she pretty much had accepted and grieved for the autobots, especially Optimus, for the past year. So them coming back now really was like a knife piercing through her soul and reopening so many wounds in a single blow. It hurt, but she still couldn’t shake the excitement and happiness of knowing they were alive.

At least I know that they are not lying that they have tried to come to this state. But...I don’t fully understand it. I am glad that they are here, but I am not sure how easy it will be for me to forgive them. My heart tells me to, but my mind refuses to accept them being here. I hated this conflicted feeling. But I know in my heart that I still love Optimus. I kind of feel stupid for even considering trying to build a closer relationship with Barricade...it is like a betrayal to my heart.

Saphira did feel that she was going to need the entire day to herself, but she may consider asking Optimus to either enter her room, or guide him around the house to the window of her bedroom. She did need to speak to him without any of the others presence so that she could understand some things from him. It was very important to her that she would do that. Especially since she needed to know what caused him to almost lose his life again over twelve months ago. But she did hope it wouldn’t be hard for him to speak of as she didn’t know how bad it was. Especially since he was out for twelve months.

But seeing the other autobots would be too much. She knew she has already scene Ratchet, Hound and Bumblebee, but she needed time before she would go and see Crosshairs, Drift and Ironhide. She didn’t want to seem rude to them, as she did miss them terribly, so she would definitely go and greet them. She just need to gather her thoughts so she would be prepared for the feelings to resurface when she did greet them. Even if Hound, Drift and Crosshairs didn’t spend as much time with Saphira as the others.

Saphira took a deep breath as she grabbed her body wash and poured some onto a loofah to lather into her skin. The floral fragrance tickled her nostrils and she smiled as she knew that she would feel fresh and clean, and she would put new pyjamas on once she had finished. She did think she might need to do a load of laundry, but that was not on her list of important things to do. So it would certainly be something she would another day.

As she lathered her skin, she thought back to the times when Optimus would be in the shower with her. And his hands would glide over her body as he would lather her skin while planting kisses on her skin. Saphira smiled as tears fill her eyes as she did really miss those times. Optimus has been the best thing in her life, even if a lot of pain has come from knowing him and the autobots. But she knew she would never want to go back and change anything. Not even after everything that has happened. Her love for him has not really faded at all, so she knew that she couldn’t keep away from him forever. Especially now that she knew he was here, her desire was stronger than it had been.

But I shouldn’t just move too fast, should I? I love Optimus...but my soul just needs mending...maybe I do need him to help me fix it.

Saphira finished lathering her skin as she pondered on what should happen now. She took another deep breath and concentrated. She knew that the bond was weak, but she did want to see if that could still communicate, even if they had to concentrate. “Optimus? Can you hear me? I’m not sure how weak the bond is...but I thought that I should try reaching out.”

Saphira waited and she felt a sense of surprise from Optimus suddenly, which meant that he likely heard her, and when she felt his relief and happiness over the guilt she could feel from him, that was her answer. “I did not expect that you would want to speak with me, Saphira. Especially since you wanted to be alone.”

Saphira grinned as she was glad and let the tears fall as she knew that the shower would wash them away. Hearing him through the bond made her feel butterflies in her stomach, even if his voice was a bit faint than it was. “To be honest, I do want to be alone, but...from the others. I am not sure yet about you, Optimus. I think I just...am overwhelmed. I want you, but I also want to be alone.”

“And I completely understand, Saphira. Barricade already told us you may remain in your room for the day. And we shall be patient with you.” Saphira knew that they would be, and she was absolutely grateful for that. She wanted nothing more than to just figure things out. “I can still sense your feelings, Saphira. They’re faint, but I can still feel them. I do wish that I could do more to help.”

“I think what I feel may take a long time to change, Optimus. I just wish we weren’t attacked on my twentieth birthday. It has soured my birthdays, and when the bond went cold, it only made my birthdays feel unnecessary.” Optimus felt terrible for that, and he hoped to make a bigger celebration for her on her next birthday. “But I do understand that it isn’t your fault. It is something my mind is still struggling to accept, but heart does. I love you, Optimus. I have missed you so much.”

Saphira felt the love Optimus had for her rush through the bond and she felt herself blushing. “I love you so much, Saphira. I have longed to hold you, to kiss you, and to treat you the way you deserve to be treated. While it has not been our fault, I still blame myself for your pain, Saphira. Just as I blamed myself when you walked into Chicago.” Saphira sniffled as the tears fall and she pressed her forehead against the wall. “I am sure you have many questions. But you are allowed to give yourself the time that you need, Saphira. I am patient. And while there are many things we have learned recently you do not need to know them right now. I want you to recover and just enjoy time with us.”

Saphira clenched her hands as she thought about the rest of the day and smiled to herself. “Thank you…though…could you come around to the window of my bedroom, Optimus? I would like to see your full form, please. And…I really do miss your company deeply. I am sorry for how I reacted before…”

“You have no reason to apologize, Saphira. You are hurting, and it is only natural for you to try and protect yourself, even if it seems foolish to do that now.” Optimus was surprised that Saphira would ask for him already. It seemed that even though she had lashed out, she still very much wanted his presence, and that was good. “And are you sure you want me to come around?”

“Please…I need it…I just…I am still angry and hurt because of you, but I can’t force myself to stay away, Optimus. We haven’t been together for three years and I just…want to hear your spark pulse again. I don’t remember what it sounds like, and I want to hear it again.” Saphira knew that sounded silly, but she has forgotten the sound of his spark pulse. Plus, as she was still thinking that this was a dream, she wanted to be sure this was real. “And I know that you will keep me warm even with the cool weather. That will not stop me from wanting to snuggle against your chassis, Optimus.”

“It brings my spark delight to know that, Saphira. I shall wait by the window for you. I’ve turned my holoform off for the moment, so if you want me presence in your room, I can turn it back on.” Saphira felt her cheeks heating up as she did consider that, but she may refuse. “Please enjoy your shower though. There should be no hurry for this, Saphira. I am not going to go anywhere. I am going to remain here as long as it is needed for you. Everything else can wait.”

Saphira did know that the autobots would have information of what is happening, but she truthfully didn’t want to know yet. Spending time with the autobots, especially Optimus, was more important to her than going back into a war. “Good. I am already enjoying the shower. I haven’t had one for several days. I just need to wash and condition my hair now.”

“Good. You deserve to spend as much time as you want Saphira. I am okay waiting a little longer for you. After all, it is fair. You have been waiting for me all this time.” Saphira nodded as that was true, and she intended on taking her time. “I am happy that you have been able to stay safe, Saphira. Finding a place like this must have been quite the luck.”

“Not really. There are a lot of these farms selling for cheap here, since a lot of people don’t really enjoy living in this state. So it was easy. But it’s size and the forest around the property was what made me pick this place.” Saphira grabbed her shampoo bottle to pour some shampoo onto her hand to begin lathering through her hair. “It was my idea to come here, not Barricade’s. None of the properties that are under my name would have been safe. But…they are being safeguarded by someone I trust.”

Optimus was curious as to who would be guarding Saphira’s properties, but he suspected she may not give a name to protect them in case they are questioned about it. But it was unlikely, since the bots were the ones that were targeted. “I am glad you have been able to think of that, Saphira. I know you never cared for riches, even after you inherited what Everett had left behind for you, but I have no doubt you would want to go back to the farmhouse in Texas.”

“Yeah…it was the place I would go to as a child and spend time with my grandfather…out of all the properties, I care about that one the most. But…as much as I know there is danger outside this property, if we can get rid of the problem, I can go home again.” Saying being able to go home again seemed foreign, since Saphira has made this farm her home. But she did miss her grandfather’s house. Plus, there was a lot of important stuff there that she didn’t want the government to get their hands on. “But I think I am just happy spending time with you for now…and everyone probably from tomorrow. I will ask about what is happening sometime later this week.”

“As you should. Just be warned, I am sure Barricade informed you of Cade, Tessa and Shane, but they may get a bit impatient and try to tell you themselves.” Saphira frowned as she was not yet used to these strange people in her house. “We have told them to give you space and time, and I think Cade understands more than the other two, due to him being more mature. But their home was obliterated, and they want to get their lives back.”

“Right…so I should be a bit understanding of that.” Saphira sighed deeply as she caressed her fingers through her hair as she massaged her scalp. “Not sure I like that you brought a bunch of strangers to my home though, Optimus. But…you wouldn’t have brought them if you didn’t trust them, so I will try and trust them too. Um…I am just not used to human company anymore.”

“I think you will like them when you meet them, Saphira. They are good humans. I know they are not William Lennox or Robert Epps, but they seem like good people to me.” Saphira didn’t even know what has become of her two friends. She knew Epps had wanted to retire after being tired of being shot at by decepticons, and she didn’t know if he has officially retired. And she didn’t even know what has happened to Lennox. She assumed he may have been stepped down like Mearing had been. “And they know that they are being watched by a lot of autobots. Barricade himself has ensured that they understand they are to not complain, or eat a lot of the food you have here on the property. So far, they have followed those simply instructions.”

“Good. Barricade still has his very intimidating, decepticon aura, so I am unsurprised.” Saphira began to rinse the shampoo from her hair while she chuckled as she thought about Barricade and how he could still intimidate just about anyone. “But I am sure the others aren’t too thrilled either. I don’t blame them. New faces can bring more trouble than what we would want. But…I think I will introduce myself to them tomorrow…I’m staying in my room, and spending time with you. I hope Bumblebee will forgive me…I didn’t want to push him away, and his…well…reaction tugged at my heart.”

“He will. He got over for leaving him behind when you went to college, Saphira. So I am sure he will be fine with this. He is upset I get to come around though. Bumblebee tried to follow.” Saphira felt another tug at her heart as she did miss Bumblebee. He was a big brother to her, and having him around really made her day. Especially now that she knew he was alive. “So I would expect him to want to give you a big hug tomorrow.”

“And I will gladly accept it.”

She finished rinsing out her hair and grabbed her conditioner to put into her hair next. She sighed deeply as the mixture of emotions that was still running around inside her. It really made her feel a lot of anxiety, which was another reason why she had asked Optimus to come around to her bedroom window. She hated the feeling of anger, betrayal, hurt, panic and many other emotions inside her, but she has not been able to push it away.

Once her hair was conditioned, Saphira turned off the shower and stepped out, quickly drying herself and shivered from the change of air temperature and grabbed her hairdryer to dry her hair. She was glad that her hair was soft, silky and shiny again. And her hair was quite a bit longer than it had been three years ago too, as Saphira has not been able to get it cut. But she has managed to maintain it enough that it still looked healthy, and she loved her long hair anyway.

When her hair was dry, Saphira walked out of the bathroom over to the set of drawers in her room, though she stopped as she looked towards the window and her cheeks turn red immediately as she could see the western star truck sitting outside the window facing her and she felt shy, covering her chest with her arms as she ran over to the drawer to grab a new pair of underwear and pyjamas. She knew she shouldn’t feel shy since Optimus has seen her naked before, but it has been years.

Once she was dressed, she grabbed her robe for an additional layer of warmth against the winter and walked over to the window. She stared at the truck in awe as seeing him again was still so much like a dream. She thought about pinching herself, but it wasn’t worth it. She opened the window slowly, and her hair gently brushed back as the wind blew through the open window, and she gazed at the truck and she smiled, lifting her hand to grab a strand to twirl in her finger.

She jumped as Optimus began to transform slowly before her, and Saphira stared at him as her eyes never left him. Watching every part move as he transformed before her was something she had always loved. It took her back to the first time they had met, and it was still by far the most amazing experience she had ever experienced in her life. And she will never, ever get over seeing this.

Once he was fully transformed, Optimus gently knelt down and left down towards the window. Saphira giggled as tears fall from her eyes. “Wow…it…it honestly feels like we are meeting for the very first time again.” She sniffled as she moved closer to the window and Optimus gently moved his hand to the window so she could climb out. “Especially since I have noticed you look very different. Almost more like a knight than you were before.”

“I hope that still appeals to you, Saphira.” His voice rumbled gently as she climbed out of the window into his hand and he immediately brought her close to his chassis. The warmth from his body radiated over Saphira’s body, and she immediately snuggled against him. “You are still as beautiful as I remember you.”

Saphira giggled softly and she went silent as she listened. She pressed her ear against his chassis, and within the chamber, she could hear the gentle pulse of his spark. It was strong and healthy, and she closed her eyes as she listened. “Yes…you are as handsome to me as you were before, Optimus. I just don’t have the luxury of changing my appearance without drastic measures. But I know I don’t need that.”

“No, you do not.” Optimus closed his optics as holding his sparkmate again in his hand filled him with so much joy and love that he could not explain it. “You are the most important thing to me, Saphira.” He opened his chassis slightly, and Saphira looked up as he reached in and she immediately had a big smile on her face when he pulled out the emerald. “I made sure to keep a piece of you with me…and I never once allowed for it to be damaged.”

Saphira sniffled as she wiped tears from her cheeks and she looked up at him. “I knew you still had it. Even if there was some cracks or chips, it wouldn’t matter.” She wrapped her arms around his fingers and hugged them, holding them against her as wanting to him close to her was strong desire. “Even if you lost it, Optimus…I wouldn’t be mad. You are here…and I am still struggling to even believe it.” She caressed the back of his fingers and he rubbed her back gently with his thumb. “I had imagined how it would be like when you would come back…but…I am glad you are here, Optimus.”

Optimus gently lifted her closer to his face and she looked at his optics as they soften while gazing back at her. Seeing the girl curled in his palm while looking back at him with so much love moved his spark. “I am also glad I am here. I am also…in a state of shock and disbelief. Seeing you again after three years…I haven’t felt such an experience like this until now.” He moved her closer and he gently kissed the top of her head. Saphira lets go of his fingers and turned to get on her knees and place her hands on his cheeks, staring directly into his optics. “And…I do not want to go through it again. I have missed you, and I love you so much. I’d ask for your forgiveness, but I know I need to work on it. So…”

Saphira placed her hand over his metal lips gently, making the autobot stop talking and she giggled before leaning in so she could kiss him. Optimus’s optics flicker as feeling her small, soft lips against his felt wonderful. She hummed as she breathed in his unique scent, and she caressed his cheeks gently. “Yes, you do need to work on it. But…I just want to spend time with you, Optimus. It…I am afraid…” Optimus widened his optics as the shakiness in her voice as she said she was afraid while she looked at his optics. “I am afraid that…when I wake tomorrow, you will not be here…and this was just a cruel dream…”

“Oh…” Optimus kissed her gently and she kissed him back passionately. Hearing her fearful tone as she was clearly afraid of the next day. “Do you really believe that?” Saphira leaned back and she shook her head, but he could tell that wasn’t a confident no. “Then I promise that when tomorrow comes, I will be here. I will remain outside your window, and if you wish it, have my holoform keep you company. That is…if you are okay with my holoform…”

Saphira smiled a little at him. “I think I like it a lot more than your human holoform, Optimus. Because it feels more authentic and…well…it’s you. You aren’t wearing a human skin, so to speak…but…” Saphira thought back to the bot’s holoform, as she imagined his very broad shoulders, muscular body, strong jawline and just an overall strong presence, it made her shudder with desire as she thought back to that. “If Ratchet can fix it, I wouldn’t mind if you could switch between appearances.”

“I will definitely heed your suggestion on that.” He kissed her again and he shifted a little as the wind changed direction and he wanted to shield her from the cold, though Saphira was not shivering at all from the cold. “However, I still promise to be here, Saphira. You are the most important thing to me in my life, and that is nothing I want more than to make you smile every day. And I am sorry that I haven’t been here to do that.”

“I think just by being here with me is enough to make me smile, Optimus.” She ran her fingers over his cheeks gently, feeling the metal against her skin and she still couldn’t believe he was her spark mate. “You don’t have to do anything special. Because you are special…to me in my heart…”

“Good.” Optimus turned his head slightly as the wind was picking up some more and he looked at the window for a moment. “Though I think the weather is going to be harsh on the two of us right now. I would love to hold you for the entire night, but…”

“Yep. There’s another storm coming in.” Saphira looked at the sky as the clouds were dark and she tensed as she felt the rush of cold air suddenly through her robe, making her huddle against him. “Oof…that feels so cold after a hot shower…” Optimus moved his hands around her and she looked at him. “You can let me go back inside now, Optimus. You can turn your holoform system on now.”

Optimus smiled at her as he lowered her to the window and she was quick to step back into her bedroom and shivered. She turned to close the window, only to pause as she saw Optimus’s holoform climbing through the window, making her blush as she realized hot attractive he was when he stepped through the window. She bit her lip and looked at his full form as he transformed back into the western star, and she looked at his holoform as Optimus closed the window.

Saphira knew her heart had been racing the whole time, but she couldn’t help it. She loved this autobot so much, and she just wanted to spend time with him. Optimus turned to her with a smile and stepped closer, gently moving his arms around her as he pulled her against him. Saphira gasped a little as she stared directly into his optics. “You are so…so handsome…” She moved her hands along his hips, feeling him shuddering lightly under her touch. “Are you sure you won’t pinch me?”

Optimus let out a light chuckle and he suddenly had a playful expression form on his face. “I think I certainly can oblige to that request.” Saphira raised an eyebrow before he suddenly playfully pinched at the sides of her waist as he suddenly began to tickle her, causing Saphira to giggle and tried to squirm away from him. “No, no, you wanted me to this. You need to be patient, my sweet gem.”

Saphira squealed and giggled as she squirmed in his grasp and she placed her right foot against his stomach to try and push away from. “Stop! Stop! I need to breath, Optimus! You know how ticklish I am there! AH! Stop!” Saphira giggled and gasped as she ended up lowering herself to floor through her squirming and laughing, and Optimus gently followed her down. She grumbled as she frowned at him playfully. “Why don’t autobots have ticklish spots? I really need to get revenge for…AHH! Stop!”

Optimus chuckled lightly and leaned down to kiss the crook of her neck, making her gasp and turn her head slightly to allow him to kiss her neck. “We aren’t organic, that is a simple answer. Plus…” He hummed lightly and leaned back a little to look at her eyes. “You don’t have metal fingers.”

“Yeah…I got to figure that…AH!” She squealed again as he tickled her again. “Stop! I’m going to pee if you keep doing that!” Saphira squirmed some more before Optimus finally relented and leaned back as she laid there giggling a little and she looked at him with a big smile. “And I expected Bumblebee to do that before you.” Optimus shrugged and held his hand to her so he could help her to her feet. Saphira ran her fingers through her hair for a moment before turning on her heel. “I’ll be right back. Now since I have to relieve my bladder, thank you very much.”

“And I shall be waiting.” Optimus walked over to her bed to sit down as the girl ran into the bathroom to relieve herself. “At least you are feeling a lot better. I hope you have not felt your fever at all.”

“No, but I am feeling a bit of a headache. Are those ibuprofen tablets by the bed at all?”

Optimus looked at the bedside table for a moment he nodded. “Yes, they are. Though you will need water to take them, won’t you? I can get Barricade to bring you a glass.”

“That would be wonderful! Thanks, Optimus.” Saphira smiled as she sat on the toilet and Optimus walked over to the door. “Though…I hope you will just open the door to ask him, and not go out.”

“I won’t leave the room, Saphira. You have my word.” Optimus opened the door, and to his surprise, Ratchet was standing by the door and he held out a glass of water. “Ratchet? How did you know that Saphira needed water?”

“Because I am not a fool. She might be recovering from the flu, but there will still be some light symptoms bothering her. And you both haven’t been very quiet. We all heard the laughing before.” Optimus smiled at the medic and he grabbed the glass. Ratchet leaned in, though he did not ask where Saphira was. “However, I am glad that you two a finding a way to mend some things. And, uh, Saphira…” Ratchet paused as he heard movement in the bathroom, but he didn’t walk into the room. “Barricade said he is going to make some soup. Apparently, there are tomatoes you need used.”

“That sounds fine to me. And if there is any bread and cheese, tell him to make some grilled cheese to go with it.” Saphira stood from the toilet and flushed it as she thought about it. “Mmm…now I’m craving it…”

“I’ll make sure he knows.”

Saphira walked out of the bathroom, looking at Ratchet with a smile. “And I apologize for shoving you earlier…”

Ratchet waved his hand casually at her. “Don’t worry about me, Saphira. You take the time you need. I better make sure Bumblebee gives you both the space.” He grabbed the door handle and closed it.

Saphira smiled as she walked back to the bathroom to wash her hands quickly as Optimus walked over to the bed to place the glass down on the bedside table. “I shouldn’t be surprised that they heard us. I was laughing a bit too loud.”

“I had not considered that they would. But now we know.” Optimus sat on the bed and waited patiently before Saphira walked back out of the bathroom and she took off her robe as she didn’t need it anymore. She adjusted her pyjamas and walked over to grab the tablet box to get out two tablets and took them with water. “What do you want to do now?”

“Hmm…” Saphira swallowed the water as she thought about it before she shrugged and looked at Optimus with a smile. “How about we just…lay under the covers together? I just want you to hold me…please…”

Optimus smiled as he immediately stood up and pulled the blankets back. Saphira blushed as she felt butterflies in her stomach again. She put the cup down and slid into the bed, and Optimus covered her gently before moving to the other side to climb in, sliding underneath the blankets and shuffling close to her and wrapped his arms around her. Saphira shifted to lay against him with her cheek on his chassis. Even though his spark pulse couldn’t be heard in his holoform, she still found comfort relaxing this way.

The two didn’t say much as they laid together in the bed. Optimus rubbed her back gently and Saphira would caress his chassis, staring at his optics as they were pretty much silent. Even through the bond. They were both sending their feelings of love and joy through the bond, which as all the communication they needed. Though Saphira did end up falling asleep against him, as she was still tired, even though she was not sick. But Optimus refused to leave her side. He wanted to keep his promise to her so he could ensure that she would wake and see him again. That way her fears could be soothed, and she would be able to relax. And now that they laid together, Optimus only wanted her to be happy. And his love for her was stronger than it was before.

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The familiar scene of metal rubble around her of a broken world filled her vision. The scent of the ash filled her nostrils as she gazed around at the destruction that surrounded her. She had become used to seeing it each time she would fall asleep. And while it hurt to see the destroyed bodies of body autobots and decepticons, Saphira still had no idea why she would see this dream. The being who kept speaking to her had a clear motive, and yet, Saphira did not understand why are all. At least not yet. She was certain that the motive would become clear soon enough.

“So it seems he has come back to you after all.” Saphira grimaced as she heard the cold, melodic voice echoing behind her, sending shivers through her body and goose bumps covered her skin. She didn’t flee, as there was no point. Especially as she did not care too much anymore. “You may think it is a victory just because you are his sparkmate. But make so mistake, I will have him under my control, Saphira Dawn.”

“Will you please leave me alone? I do not know you, and I do not understand why you are angry at me?” Saphira turned slowly, and he eyes gaze upon the owner of the voice. A Cybertronian who was hovering above with a metal dress that seemed to be mostly metal tendrils. The crown of her head was sharp as the blue optics glare at Saphira. “I don’t understand why you have some kind of vengeance against me when I did nothing to you.”

“It is true you did not do anything to me directly...but...you prevented me from saving our world. Cybertron is in greater ruin ever since you prevented Sentinel Prime and Megatron from completing their mission for me.” Saphira frowned as that was new information, as she didn’t know Megatron had these orders. She thought he did it on his own accord. “I merely needed to be rid of the old Primes, including the Fallen, and the Cube to succeed. You have helped unknowingly. But your bloodline is so stubborn.”

“My...bloodline? My grandmother never mentioned anything like you.”

The femme chuckled coldly as she approached Saphira. “I am not referring to Everett. No, I am referring to someone who fought alongside someone a long time ago. Back in what you would know as the dark ages.” Saphira didn’t know anyone from back then, so that confused her even more. “But alas, that part of your history is gone. That does not mean I don’t forgive it. Now that Optimus is awake again, I will ensure he is returned to me and we can proceed with saving Cybertron together.”

Saphira bit her lower lip as she listened to this femme. “Okay...I’m surprised that you never said all this before...but I still fail to see why I am at fault. I only stopped Sentinel because this is my world. Is that not fair? We are allowed to save our own world too.”

“Yes, it is fair. That is why...” The femme gestured behind her, and Saphira flinched and stepped back in surprise when she saw Optimus walking out of the dark from the ruins behind the femme. However, the aura coming from him was anger and hate, and the dark, violet optics glaring down at her sent shivers down her spine. “I am merely rolling the next move. So be prepared, Saphira Dawn.”

Saphira had no idea what this femme meant. But she couldn’t help but wonder what was happening away from the farm. The autobots may not just be facing the military anymore, and Saphira suddenly felt the sense that there might be something else. This creature in her dreams was arrogant, smart and confident, which meant there could be another plan already happening, and Saphira had no idea.

But as she thought about it, she glanced up at Optimis as he stepped forward. His anger seemed to vibrate from him, and it was like he was not Optimus at all. But a completely different bot with the strength to kill anyone in his way. Saphira wanted to say something, but his fists raised up and slammed down, making Saphira screamed loudly in fear and shock.

“Saphira!!” Saphira shot up in her bed with her eyes snapping wide open. Glancing around frantically, she didn’t realize where she was at first, but it took a moment for her to see Barricade, Ratchet, Bumblebee, Hound, Crosshairs, Drift and Ironhide piling into her bedroom. There were a pair of strong arms around her and she turned her head to see Optimus looking at her with a worried expression. “It is alright. I am right here, Saphira. It was only a dream. It was not real.”

Saphira was shaking and breathing erratically as she looked around at the autobots. She had not realized she had screamed loudly enough to get their attention. But she didn’t feel any shame about it. Just fear. She began to sob and she turned to Optimus, wrapping her arms around him and holding him tightly as she cried into his chassis. Optimus caressed the girl’s back as she sobbed, hoping to soothe and calm her down.

It had been three days since Saphira had woken up to see that the autobots had returned. She was recovering very well from the flu, and she has been feeling more like herself with each passing day. The nightmares that had plagued her during the flu had gone, but it seemed that a new nightmare had been brewing, and it frightened Saphira due to the new knowledge that had been given to her, whether or not it was even true, that did not matter. It just terrified her so much.

She had met Cade, Tess and Shane during the last few days, and she wasn’t sure what to make of them at this time, since she didn’t really interact with them very much. The one thing she definitely noticed was how Cade behaved towards Shane and Tess. Being overprotective of his daughter over the fact she had a boyfriend seemed pretty insufferable to her, and she was glad that her own dad never really cared. But even so, she was the sparkmate of someone who was millions of years older than her, so she had a much larger age gap than Tess and Shane.

Optimus caressed Saphira’s back gently as her blood curdling scream before she woke up had startled him, and everyone in the house. It was early in the morning, and the three humans were at the door with concerned expressions as they had not expected Saphira to scream the way that she had. And it frightened them too, but they realized it was a nightmare. But it still worried them since it alerted everyone.

“She hasn’t screamed like that before.” Barricade was frowning in concern since the scream startled him as well. “When you came back and her nightmares seemed to go away, I thought she would be able to have a good sleep. Though I did think it was just a symptom of her flu. But...” Barricade looked at Saphira as the girl continued to cry without looking up at anyone. “It must have been a whole lot worse.”

“Hopefully it will only happen once. After all, she needs the sleep. She’s recovered well, but she shouldn’t lack in sleep.” Ratchet knew there was no medication to stop nightmares, but he was aware of nutritional supplements to help for a more comfort sleep. “She woke everyone up.”

“Unless she got told about...” Cade began out of curiosity before Barricade turned his head with a sharp glare and Cade immediately stopped. “Oh...she has not been told yet...”

“No, and now is not the time to say anything about it.” Ironhide leaned against the doorway, though he had to lean lightly. He was the largest of all the holoforms standing in the room. He was bold and had a very muscular body, and the dark grey singlet with an autobot symbol tattoo on both shoulders gave away some of his rough personality. Though the three humans have learned he was a very kind soul, he just was a very skilled fighter. “I think we should leave Prime to it. I do not think any of us are going to be very helpful by standing here and staring at her.” Ironhide turned and looked at Cade. “And you three should go back to bed. We have several hours before the sun comes up, so no use just looking like fools.”

Cade nodded in agreement. “Yeah...you are right. Come, Tess. We should give them space, or we are going to pile on unnecessary stress.”

Tess said nothing as she and Shane walk away with Cade to go to their rooms to go back to sleep. Or try to, even though it was still very dark outside and snow was falling again. It should be very easy for them to go back to sleep once they have settled after being startled awake by Saphira. None of them blamed the girl, since her screams really sounded like she was being murdered, so they could not complain. At least Optimus would be there for her.

The autobots left the room as well to allow Optimus to comfort Saphira as she was still trembling and crying. He did not dare to ask her what she had seen in her nightmare at this time, as he knew she would not be able to say any clear words at this time. However, he did hope she would tell him. Whatever was troubling her was causing the nightmares, and it wasn’t because of any illness. Especially as Optimus had thought he heard whispers echoing through Saphira’s room just minutes before she woke up. It surprised him, and he thought his processor would need to be checked by Ratchet. However, it now seemed too much of coincidence to ignore for the time being. Even if Optimus would not mention what he had heard just before.

It took Saphira at least an entire forty minutes before she even remotely calmed down, and she wanted to get help to the bathroom as she felt the need to relieve her bladder. Optimus obliged happily and helped her to the bathroom to relieve herself. It was difficult since Saphira refused to let him go, even to allow for privacy. She was really frightened, and it worried Optimus since she was reacting like Megatron had just tried to attack her.

When she was finished with using the bathroom, Optimus brought Saphira back to her bed and sat under the blankets with her, holding her against him as she worked on calming herself down. Barricade did come back to the room, but only to bring a glass of water, which Saphira thanked him for, but she did not reach to drink it just yet. She was still needing to calm down enough before she would even be able to reach for it and drink it without any problem.

After another ten minutes of Optimus holding the girl and soothing her as best as she could, Saphira reached for the glass to sip the water due to feeling dehydrated and leaned against Optimus. Optimus kissed her forehead gently and she smiled a little. “Are you feeling better?” She nodded and sniffled a little as she sipped some water. “Did you want to talk about your nightmare? You woke everyone up with that scream.”

Saphira grimaced and looked at Optimus. She had been aware everyone woke up because of her, and she felr terrible. “I should apologize to everyone later for that. I...I didn’t even know I was screaming that loudly that I scared everyone. I just...I do not know what I can say about the nightmares I have been having, Optimus. Especially since they don’t even feel like normal dreams.”

Optimus hummed softly as he caressed her back while she rests her cheek on his shoulder. “Do they seem more like a message or foresight rather than an actual dream?” Saphira looked at him in surprise before she nodded with a shiver. “Though it does not forbode well it would seem…but I do believe telling me may help, Saphira. After all, if it is something important, you should tell me.”

“Would you not think I am crazy if I did tell you?” Optimus shook his head and kissed her cheek gently while wiping tears from her cheeks with his thumb. She shivered as she swallowed nervously. “Well…you probably will when I finish telling you about it…so…” Optimus shook his head again and she took a deep breath. “Uh…I don’t even know where to start…but I guess I should say that I see Cybertron in my dreams…” Optimus widened his optics as that definitely was not on the list of things he expected her to see. “It…It is in ruin in my dreams…so much destruction, and the obvious damage that had been inflicted on your world due to the destruction of the pillars. But there were also bodies of both autobot and decepticons…that was in my original nightmare.”

Optimus could now fully understand why Saphira felt very unsettled by this now that he knew what she was seeing. Even if it seemed silly that autobot and decepticon bodies would be present there. “Interesting…especially since you are seeing the destruction of the world from the damage it would have had inflicted on it. I assume my body was there…”

“Not in the first nightmare. And…it is strange, because the bodies of the autobots and decepticons had no casing on them. It was just their protoform…so it was like seeing their skeletons.” Saphira felt Optimus shudder slightly as that visual description didn’t sit well with him either. “But in the second one, you were there. But…brainwashed, I think…” Optimus frowned and he kissed her forehead to reassure her that wouldn’t happen. “But at the center of every dream is this…strange femme. She is a lot smaller than you, around the size of a human roughly, maybe bigger…but she has a long, metal dress that is made up on tendrils, and she knows me by name.”

“I know of no femme or Cybertronian, for that matter, of that appearance. Though that is very specific…” Optimus hummed softly as he listened to her. “Aside from knowing you by name, what else does she say?”

“Well…she said I am in her way. And apparently…she’s the reason for…wanting the All Spark gone, along with the Fallen, as she had been able to instruct plans to Megatron and Sentinel Prime…” Optimus frowned deeply and he shook his head as that sounded unbelievable. “I don’t know if I believe that either, Optimus. But…for some reason, she mentioned that my bloodline has always been a problem. Going all the way back to the dark ages.”

“That dark ages? Is that…not like during the time when humans did not have all the technology you have now?”

Saphira nodded. “Yes. It would back so many thousands of years ago…so I am not sure who in my bloodline has caused trouble…though considering the Fallen had been here so long ago with the other Primes, would that not mean other Cybertronians have been here and met with other humans too?”

“Hmm…it would be possible. However, without actual evidence of the past, I am afraid I cannot say whether it is true.” Saphira thought about Edmund, since he might have some answers, but she couldn’t really contact him right now. Optimus kissed her cheek again and Saphira turned her head slightly to kiss his lips, making them both sigh happily as they kiss passionately. “It does seem that your dreams could be warnings, Saphira. Though…I do want to know what caused you to scream like that…”

Saphira shuddered as she looked away from him and she grimaced. “Well…forgive me for this, but…you were in my most recent nightmare. But there was something extremely different about you. It was like I was seeing, but it wasn’t you. The aura was cold, angry and hateful…and your optics were a deep violet…” She shivered as she kept her gaze away from Optimus. “And…because it was so dark, it was to see if it was you when your fists…raised above me…”

Optimus softened his expression as he tightened his arms around her and hugged her. “Saphira, I am sorry you saw that. I think the terror of everything that you have gone through mounted into a single moment. But I would never hurt you like that. You know that.” Saphira nodded as he kissed her cheek gently. “I know I have hurt you too emotionally that I would never physically hurt you. I long to repair our bond as well…” Saphira turned her head to look at him when he mentioned the bond. “It is weak, and while we can still feel each other’s feelings and barely send thoughts to each other, it seems it is because we are side-by-side it feels a bit stronger.”

Saphira had not thought about repairing the bond for the last few days, and now that he’s mentioned it, Saphira thought about it. “I had not…considered repairing it…I am still hurting so much, Optimus, and bonding with you again seems terrifying. Especially after everything…” He kissed her lips gently and Saphira pressed her body against him to kiss him. “But…it would be like a renewal of vows…in a far more special way than a mere celebration…” Optimus kissed her lips again, and she smiled as him cutting her off this way was just sweet. She chuckled a little as she leaned back slightly. “Um…you will have to let me think about it, Optimus. After all…it has been three years since you and I have been able to get intimate…and, I think I will need time to process that.”

“I know. I am not going to pressure you, Saphira. But just know, I mean what I say about staying beside you. And strengthening the bond we have to what it was, or even stronger than it was before, is something I want as a way to show you how serious I am.” Saphira blushed as she believed him and he kissed her again, holding her close to him. “I completely understand your fear, Saphira. It is rational. I will not force you to not ignore it, my sweet gem.”

“Thank you.” She sniffled as a few more tears roll down her cheeks. “I kind of feel like I am disappointing you as well…but I guess I am not.”

“You have never disappointed me, Saphira. You have often amazed me by your kindness and bravery. I love you for everything you are, Saphira. And…” He gently grabbed her hands into his and he held them together. “I have no doubt you will continue to amaze me. You are the strongest human I know. And I cannot be more proud.” Her blush deepened and she kissed him again as she tightened her grip on his hands. Their kiss became passionate very quickly and she felt her heartrate increasing. Optimus smiled and he gently pulled away from the kiss. “You should try and go back to sleep yourself, Saphira.” She whimpered softly with a frown, as she didn’t want to sleep. “I will be right here with you. I promised you that I will be by your side each day.”

“I know…and I think I am ready to find out what has been happening outside the farm. After all, I need to know why Cade, Tess and Shane are here. I’ve heard bits and pieces when they speak to each other, but that’s it.” Optimus was unsurprised that Saphira would have overheard something. While the humans have been quiet about it, they weren’t quiet enough, and Saphira has overheard a little bit. “And while I am afraid to know what has happened to you guys, I know that if I don’t know, I am going to regret not knowing it.”

“I wouldn’t expect anything less.” Optimus ran his fingers through her hair as she looked at his optics, staring into them with a smile on her face. “I have no doubt that the information we will tell you will frighten you. But I hope that…when you know everything, we can move forward. We haven’t started planning anything since we know you need the time, Saphira.”

“Good…because I don’t want to be excluded.” Saphira kissed his cheek gently and lifted her hand to caress his cheek, feeling Optimus lean his head to the side to press his cheek into her palm. “Though…” Saphira frowned a little as she thought about it. “I don’t suppose I could get a snippet of what you will tell me?”

“And give you another reason for a nightmare? I think you can wait.” Saphira rolled her eyes in amusement as Optimus shifted to tuck the blankets in around her. “I know you have a lot of questions, Saphira. And we are more than willing to answer them for you. But I want you rest. You will understand better when you have had a full night sleep.”

“I guess you are right…” Saphira yawned suddenly as weariness finally came back and she rubbed the side of her right eye. “And it looks like my body agrees with you, Prime. Right on time, too.” Optimus grinned at her in amusement and shifted so that she would feel his arm slide underneath her back as he wrapped it around her waist, and so she could rest her cheek on his shoulder. “Thank you, Optimus…I honestly thought I would have been afraid of you, but my mind knows that what I saw in my nightmare was not you.”

“I think that the bond may also have a part of it.” Once Optimus felt satisfied that Saphira was comfortable, he relaxed next to her and caressed the side of her waist and kissed her cheek gently. “Rest easy now, Saphira. If you struggle, my cab is still right outside your window. And maybe you may rest easier within a familiar space.”

Saphira blushed as she has yet to even lay inside Optimus’s cab. It was something she has missed doing, and she has yet to even really think about it. It actually was a good idea. She might even ask Optimus to go for a drive, just the two of them, around the countryside of Wyoming to spend time with him away from the other autobots and the humans. That was something they used to do. And it was a habit that was hard to get rid of.

“I will consider it. It has been years since I even set foot in your cab…I kind of feel…silly for not wanting to be within the warmth of your amazing form.” Saphira shivered as she thought about spending time with him there. “Maybe…if time allows it, we could just take a drive. Yellowstone Park isn’t far from here, and we could sit and watch the wildlife while we enjoy each others company.”

Optimus’s smile softened as hearing that made his spark warm as the familiar sense of wanting to spend time with him away from others filled him with joy. “I would like that, Saphira. But I agree...if we have time. Though I do hope that we may find it in the midst of this mess.” Saphira nodded and she finally closed her eyes. “If I had the power to influence your dreams, Saphira, I would. I love you with my entire being. And I wish I can protect everywhere, even in your dreams.”

That sounded so amazing to Saphira. She did wish for that too. Then her dreams would be filled with endless, romantic adventures with Optimus. She missed those terribly. She knew she could only remember them by looking back to the past at this time, but if she could dream about them every night because Optimus was filling her mind with those dreams, she would love that so much. And she would definitely wake with the desire to spend time with him all the time.

Optimus kissed Saphira’s cheek as he could feel the girl’s body relaxing as she fell back into a deep sleep. He hoped she would be able to find enough rest for the last part of the night so that she may feel well rested. He did not know if she would have the nightmare again or not, but that would remain to be seen. But he was confident that she would not, and he would definitely allow her to sleep in for as long as she needs as well.

Though as Optimus relaxed next to her, he glanced up as he heard whispering again, and he realized that the whispering seemed to be directly inside his processor. He groaned a little and immediately ignored the whispering while trying to push the sound out so it would not irritate him and distract him from Saphira. He closed his optics in an attempt to recharge for the rest of the night himself and not focus on the voice that still whispered to him for a few minutes before he fell into a deep recharge. His arms remained around Saphira as the two would stay like this for the rest of the night with no nightmares waking Saphira up again.

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When the sun filtered through the windows that were covered in ice from the snow during the night, it was like a golden ray filling the room itself. Optimus had been awake from his recharge for the last half hour just enjoying the sight of the sun filtering through the clouds, even if it potentially was going to only be temporary and the clouds would cover the sun again. It was beautiful, and Optimus wanted to share it with Saphira, but she was still sleeping. And she had been sleeping very peacefully beside him since falling back asleep, and he was very glad that she was able to catch up on the rest she needed. But Optimus also has never had to wake Saphira up for anything, so he didn’t want to start that, unless it was absolutely necessary.

When Optimus woke up from his recharge, he was glad that the whispers he thought he heard earlier was gone, and Optimus guessed that it was probably just nothing more than something on his mind. So he didn’t worry about it, as there was a lot more to worry about than something whispering inaudible words at him. Especially when Saphira learned more about who was hunting the autobots. And Optimus knew she will not like learning about Lockdown, since he has zero allegiance to either autobot or decepticon.

Optimus smiled as he felt Saphira shifting against him and he kissed her forehead gently as he could sense she slowly waking up beside him. Saphira grumbled a little against his shoulder and he looked down at her as she stretched her legs. She took a deep breath and sighed deeply, smiling slightly as she was obviously slowly waking up from the deep sleep, and she was trying to extend that out a little bit longer, which he did not blame, nor did he pressure for her to wake up sooner.

Though she turned her head and opened her eyes slightly before she kissed his chin, and he smiled at her. “Morning, Saphira.” She yawned again as she rolled her shoulders and arched her back. “Take your time, my sweet gem. The day isn’t getting away just yet. Take it nice and slow, my sparkmate.” Saphira nuzzled against his chassis as she rolled slightly and she stretched her arms out. “The morning is very peaceful right now, so enjoy the stillness as you wake, my sweet gem.”

Saphira was still smiling as she nuzzled against his chassis. She still felt like this was completely surreal to her due to the fact that it has been three years since she has been able to lay next to Optimus and just hug him. She did worry each time she would fall asleep that he would not be there when she would wake up the next day. She knew that worry won’t go away for a long time, and she could only proceed forward and hope that each day she would have Optimus by her side.

Saphira yawned again and kissed Optimus’s cheek gently. “Did I sleep in too late?”

Optimus shook his head. “Do not concern yourself over something so small, Saphira. You needed the sleep, so you just take your time waking up.” Saphira nodded a little before she sniffed the air as the scent of food was coming from the door. “I suspect that there will be breakfast waiting for you at the very least. Especially since you are noticing the scent.”

“I smell eggs at least…” Saphira yawned again and ran her fingers through her hair with deep, content sigh. “Not that I am in a hurry to have anything right now. I have everything that I need right here beside me.” She moved her hand to his cheek to caress as he stared at her with a loving expression. She frowned after a minute and chuckled a little. “Aside from needing to relieve myself first thing in the morning, per usual.”

“I do not know the displeasure of that need.” Optimus shifted so that Saphira could get out from the bed so she could make a dash to the bathroom. “So I cannot understand that at all.” Saphira smiled at him and playfully pushed on his shoulder, making Optimus hum in amusement before she stood up and walked to the bathroom. “I’ll make sure to welcome you back in when you are done in there, Saphira.” He moved the blankets so that it would still be very warm underneath them when Saphira would return. “That way we can spend the time together under the blankets again.”

Saphira giggled a little as she blushed at the thought. She definitely wanted to snuggle against Optimus again, especially since she had only just woken up. She just had to deal with needing to use the toilet first and she would be back in bed very quickly. And she wanted to spend time with him before she would learn more about what has happened. She wanted to know more, and if they had some idea of a plan of what to do next. She didn’t know if she would even like that yet or not.

Once she finished using the toilet and had flushed it, she washed her hands quickly and walked back over to the bed. Optimus lifted the blankets for her, and she smiled as she slid right in. She was very happy and thankful for the invitation. Once she slid in, she snuggled against Optimus as he tucked the blankets around her and the two of them begin to kiss as they wrap their arms around each other. Saphira pressed her body against his as they kiss slowly at first, but it became more passionate and Saphira could sense desire from Optimus, though she knew he would remain controlled.

She was also feeling a lot of desire too for Optimus, and she would like to be intimate with him. But Saphira was not sure yet about it, though she was definitely leaning towards it. She’s missed him all this time, but it did feel a lot like it would be her first time again. It’s been a long time since she has had any intimacy, so it was kind of intimidating to her again, even though she knew Optimus would not hurt her. Though it could also be that his holoform looked like his full form that intimidated her, even if his human holoform was just a different form of holoform.

Optimus hummed softly as he moved his lips from hers to gently run them over her right cheek before kissing gently. “Mmm…maybe we shouldn’t get out and talk about what happened…I could stay here all day with you…” Saphira giggled as she blushed a deep red as she would definitely love that as well. “But it would definitely be unfair to keep you in here, especially since you want to know what has happened.”

“Yeah…but it can wait…” Saphira rubbed his cheeks gently as she stared into his optics and moved to kiss his cheeks and shuddered as Optimus nipped lightly at her cheek. She felt goose bumps forming over her skin and she giggled a little. “I just want to…” Saphira paused for a moment and sat up as she heard a low sound from outside, and she immediately knew what that was. “What was that? That was from the barn…”

Optimus sat up as he was surprised as well. “Um…I don’t know. But I hear Barricade shouting…” Saphira immediately threw the blankets off and ran over to grab her robe. “Saphira? I am sure Barricade has it sorted…”

“You wouldn’t understand, Prime. There are a bunch of chickens and a couple goats in that barn! I need to know if they’re okay.” Saphira opened the door to run out of the bedroom, and Optimus was left shocked and feeling a bit unhappy that there was an interruption. But he didn’t call out to Saphira as she ran through the house to the front door, almost running straight into Cade as he was walking to the door too, and she slammed it open to see the barn doors were open and Barricade had run to the boundary of the property. “What the hell happened, Barricade?!”

Barricade glanced back at Saphira with a frustrated expression and he threw up his arms with a growl. Saphira stared at him as she made her way towards the barn as Bumblebee was looking in the barn and looked back at her with sad eyes. “Coyotes.”

“What?!” Saphira looked at Bumblebee in shock when he told her what happened. “Is that a joke? How the hell would coyotes get into the barn with all of you sitting outside?!” Saphira stormed over to the barn door and gasped as she saw the bodies of the chickens and one of the goats laying on the ground. Saphira stared in shock as she clenched her hands. “I don’t understand. How did you guys not even notice the fucking coyotes?!”

“We are deeply sorry, Saphira…” Drift knelt down as he bowed his head in an apologetic way. He glanced up as he saw Optimus walking around from the back of the house as he wanted to see what had happened. “Sensei, we failed Saphira. Coyotes got into the barn when we weren’t paying attention until we heard the chickens and goats panicking. There was a pack of them killing all of the animals in the barn, and they dragged one of the goats out to the forest.”

Saphira took deep breaths as she was very unhappy about it at the moment. Especially as she loved having the animals around, and she was looking forward to spring when the animals could leave the barn so they could enjoy the free air. But she didn’t think this would happen. Saphira bit her lips and shook her head. “This shouldn’t have happened.”

“We are very sorry, Saphira…” Ironhide stepped closer to the barn, looking inside at the millions of feathers that were scattered throughout the barn, along with the blood and bodies of the animals. “We are at fault. We were talking to Barricade about something and keeping him distracted just before we heard the animals going off. We…we weren’t able to do anything about it, I am afraid.”

“Ugh…and Barricade is very good at keeping predators away…he stopped the coyotes a few weeks ago…” Saphira rubbed her forehead as she was frustrated. There was still some milk left and enough eggs to last to the last part of winter, but she would now need to find more animals if she would stay on the farm. Barricade walked over to the barn with a guilty expression and she looked at him. “Guess this is why we don’t have distractions…I should have gone with my idea of getting a livestock dog, and maybe this wouldn’t have happened.”

“I am very sorry.” Barricade looked back towards the trees with a frown as he was disappointed in himself. “I wish I could replace them quickly, but…it probably is a bad time to go looking for some more goats and chickens…”

“Yeah…it is.” Saphira looked into the barn and took a deep breath before she looked at the bots. “Do you guys mind helping me clean up this mess? Might as well throw the bodies out into the forest so the coyotes can take them, and we can clear out the feathers and blood.”

“We can do that for you.” Crosshairs leaned down and looked into the barn, and realized how big of a mess it was, as he had not noticed before. “Oh…that is a lot of feathers…I didn’t realize chickens lose a lot like that.”

Saphira nodded. “Yeah…they do…especially when they are panicking…” She shook her head with a frown before she flinched in surprise as Crosshairs holoform formed beside her. His lean, muscular figure was always nice to look at as he appeared to have well-toned muscles and his holoform resembled a man in his late thirties with smooth, shoulder-length black hair wearing a long, green jacket resembling the appearance of his full form. Saphira smiled at him as he placed his hand on her shoulder. “But if you guys are okay with cleaning this up, that will be one less thing off my plate. But I wish we didn’t have to deal with this right now.”

“We did not want to deal with it either, Saphira.” She looked at Drift, smiling as she saw his holoform which was the form of an Asian made with short, clean black hair while wearing a traditional, Japanese ninja outfit that had dark blue trims. He too had a lean body, but his muscles were hidden by the outfit he was wearing. He looked into the barn as he took a deep intake. “I think we should make a start, Crosshairs. It is partly our fault for keeping Barricade distracted, so we should be the ones to clear it.”

Crosshairs nodded. Hound and Ironhide also form their holoforms to help. Barricade looked into the barn and looked down at Saphira. “I failed…I am sorry. I had been focused on making you breakfast in the house while the bots talked to me that I didn’t even notice the coyotes. I hope you will forgive me.”

“It’s fine, Barricade…” Saphira shivered as she noticed the cold air around her and she folded her arms. “It wasn’t your fault, and it could have happened to anyone. We can only get it cleaned up now, and just move on.” Saphira turned around to walk away from the barn and looked up at Optimus who had a sympathetic expression. “Sorry…I didn’t mean to dash out of the house…”

“It is okay, Saphira. Those animals played an important part while you lived on this property. So I completely understand why you are upset.” Optimus crouched down slowly as the girl approached him. “Though I think you should go inside and have some breakfast, Saphira. That might help calm you down.”

“Yeah…you are right, I should do that…” Saphira looked back at the barn for a moment and looked at Optimus. “Uh…would you mind turning your holoform on again and join me in the kitchen? I would enjoy the company.”

Optimus smiled and nodded. “I will definitely be there, Saphira. I haven’t turned off the holoform yet, but I will make sure to not keep it in the bedroom waiting for you.” Saphira smiled at him as she walked towards the house. “And I will also ensure that no further interruptions are made on this farm.”

“It’s fine, Optimus. Unfortunately, I am living in a place where there are cougars, wolves, coyotes, bobcats…so…” Saphira shrugged as looked back at him. “It is always a risk that they will go after the livestock that we have. I have been lucky only due to Barricade being fully aware…though I suppose it was bound to happen eventually when he wasn’t aware.”

Barricade was still guilty and he formed his holoform to ensure that the barn would be cleaned. He had not ever wanted this to happen as he wanted Saphira to enjoy living on this property, but now they’ve lost the animals. He didn’t even know if Saphira had been told about KSI and Lockdown yet, though he didn’t know if she would even stay once she hears about it. Her love for Optimus has not changed, despite that she was still angry about the last three years. She and Optimus were simply making up for lost time…even if that would take a long time to do. At least, that is what Barricade was thinking.

“I am sure Barricade will make up for it, Saphira. Besides…” Optimus glanced towards the greenhouse and he smiled a little. “Barricade said that the onions are almost ready for harvest, along with some peppers and…” He paused for a moment with a frown and looked at Barricade. “I forgot what the other one was…”

“Cabbages, though not all of them, since we plant them in stages to extend the harvest. But…” Barricade smiled as he looked down at Saphira. “Which might mean for cabbage and onion soup…”

“Mmm…that actually sounds good.” Saphira stopped for a moment as she thought about it. “I haven’t checked the plants for a while…” She turned on her heel and gestured to Optimus. “I’m not sure if you have seen inside it yet, but if you want, bring your holoform with me. Barricade did a fantastic job making this building so we can grow food all year round. It really helps out a lot here." Optimus smiled as while it might not be a huge interest to him, he always knew Saphira was enthusiastic about growing her own food. So this really wasn’t a huge surprise to him at all. “Though…we had a lot of issues a few months ago, so we had to replace a lot of the soil in beds and plants, which is why there wasn’t much food when you showed up. So…we are behind. We’re lucky that some things have survived, and are going to be harvested.”

“At least it does explain why you were low. I guess it is just the cycle of things on this world too.” Optimus watched Saphira walk up to the curved entrance to the door and his holoform formed behind Saphira. She glanced back as she sensed the closeness of the holoform and she smiled at him as she opened the door. “It still fascinates me how something small, like the seeds, can grow into something beautiful.”

“I know. I love watching the seedlings grow myself. It always makes me feel a sense of peace and satisfaction.” Stepping into the greenhouse, it was a large, round space with fifteen large, raised garden beds, a seedling rack, a large space for corn, pumpkin, squash and melon plants, and many smaller raised garden beds that had herbs growing in them. There were plants growing here, and many were still young seedlings. Saphira walked over to one of the beds where there were radishes, and she smiled as they were growing very well. They were one of the quicker vegetables to grow, so she was unsurprised. “Even though in here the light and temperature is artificial to keep the plants in here happy and strong, I am still grateful for it.” She looked up and around at the garden beds with a smile. “At least no pests can get in here.”

“No, they cannot.” Optimus walked around the space slowly as he looked at the different garden beds. While he had learned about gardening when they had lived in Texas with Saphira, he was not an expect. He could tell that this has been well tended to, and that Saphira still enjoyed spending time in here. But he has distracted her, and her being sick wouldn’t have helped. He found a stone bench in the middle of the greenhouse and took the moment to take a seat, looking at Saphira as she walked around with a smile. “I suspect you just wanted to look at the plants growing in here to help calm down.”

“Yeah. I need it. I do not like that my animals are gone…but I can’t do much about it. There was no use in crying, honestly.” Saphira walked over to the cabbages, and she smiled as she could tell which one would be harvested today. She definitely would want to make some soup with it. She turned and saw Optimus sitting on the bench and walked over to him. “But that doesn’t mean I wasn’t irritated. It was a task that should have been easy…but again, no use in being too upset about it.” She sat down beside Optimus with a deep sigh and laid her hands on top of her thighs. “I hope that Barricade won’t feel too guilty. I will get over it.”

“He seems like he takes a lot of his duties that has been built here seriously. I suspect you both have simply built quite the relationship.” Saphira looked at Optimus in surprise before she looked away, and Optimus sensed the guilt from her, making him frown a little, and he sighed deeply. “You do not need to feel guilty, Saphira. I know you and Barricade had a connection from the start, and you became good friends. I do not doubt that some feelings may have stirred in my absence.”

Saphira had not anticipated that Optimus would even suspect that to happen, but she couldn’t really hide it. “I’m sorry…I…you were gone, Optimus…and I thought you were dead…” Saphira tried to fight the tears, and she tensed as he slid his arm around her waist slowly. “You should be angry. I feel ashamed that I even considered it. But…I always kept him at am arms length…because I just didn’t want to be hurt again. And...I feel like I betrayed you.”

Saphira tensed as Optimus pulled her closer against him, and she was surprised and confused that he reacted this way. She didn’t look at him as she felt very guilty. “I am not angry, Saphira. I am not surprised you would find comfort with Barricade. Even if you both have kissed, you haven’t betrayed me, Saphira.” He kissed her neck gently and she let out a light sob. “It is okay, Saphira. You have not betrayed me. I love you, and I know that you would have only ever allowed basic forms of comfort from Barricade. I know he knows it, even if he feels differently.” Saphira looked at him as she couldn’t believe her eyes. Optimus smiled as he gently placed his fingers under her chin and ran his thumb over her lips making her shudder gently. “I know you feel guilty, Saphira, and i understand those feelings. But understand that still love you. And I am not angry. Do you feel any anger or disappointment from me?” Saphira shook her head and Optimus gently leaned down to kiss her, making Saphira whimper slightly as she kissed him back. He wiped the tears from her cheeks gently. The fact that Optimus was not angry at her felt unreal to Saphira. She thought he would be angry, so this really showed how much he loved her and a testament to his personality. It only made her love surge, and the guilt grew some more too. “That is why you should calm your guilt, Saphira. I love you, and I am not going to hold it against you.”

Saphira didn’t know what to say at all. She kissed him again as she really wondered what she did to deserve Optimus’s love and affection. Even though she did believe that he wasn’t angry, she still felt guilty. And she has felt guilty ever since she and Barricade had grown closer, even though she had enjoyed the comfort and care Barricade had given to her over the last few years. She would be grateful for it, even if it did make her feel guilty.

Saphira placed her hands on his cheeks to caress gently before sliding them around his shoulders so she could hug him. She let out a soft whine as Optimus lightly nipped on her lips during the kiss, making her smile slightly. She leaned back for a moment as she stared into his optics. “Sometimes I think I don’t deserve you...you...I don’t know how to feel or think now that you...well...I suppose Barricade probably didn’t hide his displeasure of your presence here too...”

“No, Saphira, I simply know how Barricade had always felt about you. His recent actions and reactions have nothing to do with me being aware of what might have happened over the last three years.” That made sense, but Saphira had no doubt Barricade hasn’t been shy about it, even if he had not said anything directly. “So you do not need to condemn Barricade for anything like that, Saphira. I am not angry at either one of you.”

Saphira sniffled as she still couldn’t believe it. “Yeah…I am glad you are my sparkmate, Optimus. Any other person probably would…freak out, overreact and storm out…but you won’t.” He shook his head and she swallowed some saliva as she was really full of emotions right now. “Damn…you falling from the sky really was a fairy tale from the start…at least for me.” Optimus nodded in agreement as she kissed him again while pressing herself again him. They kiss for a few minutes before she leaned back and wiped the tears from her cheeks. “I got to stop crying. That’s all I seem to be doing almost everyday…but I am so emotional…”

“It is okay, Saphira. You have been through a lot, and it is to be expected.”

“Yeah…” She sniffled as she composed herself as she looked at the door for a moment before turning to Optimus. “So…maybe now is the time for you to tell me what has been happening outside the farm.” Optimus grimaced and she smiled at him sympathetically. “We already agreed you would tell me about it, Optimus. And I need an explanation as to why the bond went cold for twelve months.” She moved her hands to his, grasping his palms tightly as she gazed into his optics. “And while I do want to talk to the others about it, I think I would like it to come from you.”

“Very well. Just know that other pieces of the story can be filled in by the other autobots, and Cade Yeager.” Saphira just nodded as she knew that speaking to the three humans about it was inevitable. Optimus intakes heavily and he proceeded to speak. “When we were attacked three years ago, I was able to take most of the attention of the military at the time away from the other autobots…though I am sad to say that I do not think everyone would have made it, though it is not yet confirmed.” Saphira already had guesses as to who due to seeing the explosion of a missile in front of her blocking her view. “I did my best to fight back, only to disable the humans as much as I could, as I wasn’t sure what was happening myself. But I overheard, through the radio, that there was approval from the government to eradicate our existence on this planet. Even if we are autobots. They believe we will continue to bring destruction to your planet.”

“Yeah…I think I overheard that on the radio too, but I don’t really remember. And it angers me, since they were the ones who tried to send you away from the planet.” Saphira tightened her grip on Optimus’s hands a little as she frowned. “So…what happened after?”

“I knew that I was being hunted. As after you pinged your location to us, I tried to reach you many times. As did the others as well. But the military still have the energon sensors, so they detected my presence. I found myself being attacked multiple times a week, and I had to try and resort to extreme measures to get away, and to ensure I would not lead them to you. But…” Optimus paused as he thought back to over twelve months ago. “Something changed. Someone paired with the humans to hunt me down. His name is Lockdown.”

“Oh…another decepticon?”

Optimus shook his head. “No, he bears allegiance to no one. He is an assassin, and a bounty hunter…” Saphira widened her eyes immediately and she became worried. “When I fell into a deep, unconscious recharge, Lockdown had successfully hit me with his rockets after an ambush set by humans chased me out of New Mexico. I had changed forms at the time, hoping they would not find me. But that did not happen. And I ended up, somehow, in a small town in Texas. That is where Cade found me.” Saphira rubbed the back of his hands with her thumbs as she listened to him quietly. “He brought me back to his barn on his own farm, and there…he was able to remove the missiles from my body to wake me up, not knowing that I was still alive.” She smiled as that likely would have scared the human in that moment. “I was disoriented when I first awoke, and…I may have unintentionally caused a brief bad impression at the time, but Cade recognized my situation and he offered to help me.”

Saphira raised an eyebrow as that made her wonder why. A human wouldn’t do it without a reason. “Did he ever say why he wanted to fix you? Was it really just out of the goodness of his heart?”

Optimus hummed with a slight shrug of his shoulders. “He has not told me why he had wanted to help me, but he was able to do a good job for a human. He had learn about Cybertronian anatomy quickly, which was very rough, but he got the job done. He wasn’t quite finished when…Cemetery Wind, which is the organisation who are hunting us, swarmed the property with Lockdown not far behind. And as a result…” Optimus let out a low growl as he frowned, thinking back to the incident. “They threatened to shoot Tessa for my location, and I had no choice but to reveal myself to save their lives. But…that also caused their house to be destroyed.”

“And you were able to get away.”

“For now. As much as it is peaceful here, we will eventually be found…” Saphira frowned with a shudder as she did not like that. She would hope they could hide here a long time without being found. “It might take time, but I highly doubt that Lockdown is going to be very patient. We do not know what exactly he has offered to the humans, but I do not believe it is good. Especially…it seems that when one of us are killed, they are hauled off by the company you once wanted to work at.” Saphira’s frown deepened as she at first didn’t remember. Until Optimus said it. “KSI.”

Saphira widened her eyes in shock before rolling her eyes. “Of course…fuck…and their headquarters are in Chicago…”

“You knew that?”

“Of course, I did. Kinetic Solutions Incorporated have smaller offices around the country, and a few overseas, and their headquarters was one of the few buildings that did not have a lot of damage from the decepticons, though I would be wondering why they didn’t think to move it after all that.” Saphira shifted a little as she looked down at the ground with a frown. “They would have collected all of the decepticon bodies, including Megatron. And they would have Sentinel Prime and Wheeljack too…and any of the ships that were taken down. Their connections with the government would be as deep as Hotchkiss Gould Investments was with NASA.”

“So…would you have an idea of what they would use that technology and the Cybertronian bodies for?”

Saphira thought about deeply for a moment before she shook her head. “Maybe…but it seems impossible…the CEO of that business likes to push boundaries and create things that are considered out of this world. It could be…no…no…they would have no way of building a completely autonomous robot, since you guys are born…”

Optimus tensed with a shudder of disgust at the thought of this company studying the bodies of the fallen Cybertronians and using that as a means to create their own robots. But Saphira was right about the fact that if they did, those bots would be robots. And not living beings like the autobots and decepticons were. “Do you think it is even possible? Cade has managed to snag a drone from KSI during the raid at their property, and we might use it for…” Optimus flinched as Saphira stood up suddenly and began walking briskly towards the door. “Where are going?”

“I want to see this drone and talk to Cade. I…I have always thought KSI was a good company when I was younger, but…” She grimaced as she shook her head. “Now I’m pissed.”

“I understand. But wait…” Saphira stopped and turned to look at Optimus as he had stood up and approached Saphira. “We are planning to potentially go to Chicago and go to KSI directly.” Saphira tensed as she listened to him. “And…I do hope that you would come with us.”

Saphira stared at Optimus as she could see he wanted her to go. But the trauma of everything that happened to her in Chicago four years ago has not gone from her mind. Especially after what Megatron had done to her. “Um…I don’t know, Optimus. That is a lot to ask me to do, even though I do want to know about it but…you are asking me to go to the place where…” Saphira paused as her breathing turned shaky. “Where we lost our sparkling. Where…so many things happened.”

“I know…and I wouldn’t ask if I didn’t think you could come with us. And I know this means, if you decide to remain, we will have to be apart again for a short time.” Saphira shook her head as she didn’t want Optimus to leave. “Ultimately, it will be your decision, Saphira. No one is going to force you.”

Saphira clenched her jaw as she thought about it. “Uh…I am not going to give you an answer for a while. You might have to give me a few days to think. But…I hope you will stay for a lot longer than just a few weeks…even though I would want to be selfish and tell you stay for the next fifty to a hundred years…even though I may not live that long.”

Optimus smiled gently as he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her forehead. “That is okay, Saphira. You are free to have the time to think about whether or not you want to come with us over the coming days. I know it may cause some of the others to get impatient, but I will ensure they will not give you a hard time over it.”

“Thank you, Optimus.” She kissed his lips gently as she loved just how understanding Optimus was with her. “Your patience is impeccable.” Optimus grinned as he took that compliment to his spark. “And I love you. I am not sure how many days exactly I need to think this over, so…at least three…” Optimus did not say anything as he understood. “Well, I’d better go and see this drone Cade was able to snag, and see what is on it for myself.”

Saphira turned to walk to the door again as Optimus followed. “I will warn you that you may not even like what is recorded on the drone.” She glanced back at him as she opened the door to step out. “It was hard for any of us to watch.”

Saphira had a hunch it would be autobots on the recording being destroyed and taken by KSI. She nodded as she understood the warning, but she still wanted to see it and to take a closer look at the drone itself too. The technology from KSI had always amazed her, but now she couldn’t help but feel angry that she had even wanted to work for them. Not after what she has heard, and she would certainly like to put a dent in their research.

But it would mean she would have to go back to Chicago. Saphira has not had nightmares about Chicago for a few years, but she has had them many times. Though, it was mostly about Megatron holding her down and beating her while he assaulted her and tore her womb to the point she had lost the sparkling. That pain she had gone through was not something she has forgotten, and she will never forget it. So asking her to go back was terrifying to her. But she was also terrified of Optimus leaving her alone again. So right now, she felt like she was standing in a crossroads with no idea of which way to go. That is why she needed the time to think.

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“At least you know now what has happened, Saphira. Even though it isn’t easy to think about, especially since that the autobots had worked with the government for many years before all this happened.” Cade was sitting at the dining table while Saphira took a closer look at the drone. The man had been surprised when Saphira asked him to look at it, and when she told him that Optimus told her what has happened, he was happy. In his mind it meant they could start making plans. “And you used to want to work for them. I’m sorry that you had to find out they aren’t that good.”

Saphira just shrugged as she held the drone in her head and looked at Cade. “I think a lot of businesses have some kind of skeletons in their closets that most people won’t find out. Just like Hotchkiss Gould Investments. It seemed like a good company, but it wasn’t. And now it no longer exists.” She held the drone to the man. “Can you show me the recordings on this?”

Ratchet’s holoform was standing in the kitchen with Bumblebee, and Optimus was also standing by the dining table. Ratchet frowned as he looked at Saphira with concern. “Um, I am not so sure that is a good idea.”

“I already warned Saphira that she would not like the contents on that drone.” Optimus looked at Cade as the man looked at the autobots. “If you can get the drone to play it’s recording, you should.”

The man nodded and stood up. “I’ll connect it to the TV so it will be a clearer picture. Unless one of the autobots want to project it.” The three autobots shake their heads as they didn’t want to do that. Cade smiled as he walked over to the TV to connect the drone to it. “This will take a little bit to do, but I will not ruin your TV.”

“I don’t care if it ruins the TV, I just want to see what is on it and who is being destroyed.” Saphira knew she wouldn’t like it, but seeing it would help her on her decision on whether or not she would go with them to Chicago. “It is too bad you guys were dragged into all this.”

Tessa shrugged with a light scoff. “Yeah, if my dad had not dragged that truck home, we would still have a home.” Saphira frowned at the girl while Optimus grimaced as he still felt bad for them losing their home. Tessa noticed and she smiled at her. “I didn’t mean it...”

“Don’t try to make it seem like you didn’t mean that. Besides, from what Cade has told me, he’s tried to do his best at making something that would get you guys money.” Tess just sighed and Shane placed his arm around the girl’s waist to try and comfort her. “You should be happy you even have a dad who cares about you. Mine disowned me after they got pulled into custody after I met the autobots. Do you think I’ve ever blamed them for it?”

Tessa shrugged as she looked down at the table for a moment. “Um...well, I don’t know...”

“I never did and never will blame them. My parents were emotionally absent my entire childhood, and they never actually did things a normal parent should. They stopped cooking me dinner once I started going to school, so I was forced to grow up.” Tess listened to Saphira quietly, even though she seemed to not believe Saphira. And that annoyed Saphira. “When I hit fourteen, I got into underground races. They allow anyone in as long as they can drive. And I definitely learned how to drive. Since my parents never cared about what I did, I didn’t have rules or structure. Maybe that is why I enjoy spending time with the autobots, because I am a very reckless person.”

Bumblebee chuckled in amusement as he knew Saphira can be very reckless. She has shown that many times, but she has shown a lot of maturity and understanding, so he knew she wasn’t completely reckless. Maybe when she is behind the wheel again, she will show recklessness again, but they would have to wait and see on that. Especially as Saphira probably would rather sit in Optimus’s cab and spend time with him over wanting to drive a camaro.

“You haven’t come across as reckless to me,” Shane said in a soft, understanding tone. “You seem very mature and level, honestly.” Saphira smiled at the young man as that was a nice compliment. “And I think that is a given due to the fact you met the autobots and have been through some much. And you are a sparkmate to Optimus...though, I’m curious about that.” Saphira raised an eyebrow with a slight smirk. “Was there like a ceremony with a white dress and a party?”

Saphira began to laugh as the misunderstanding of how she is even Optimus’s sparkmate was too funny to her. This made Ratchet and Bumblebee laugh as well, which Shane looked around at them in shock. He seemed to think that he was right, but he was clearly embarrassed now as Saphira covered her face with her hands as she laughed. Optimus was the only one who was not laughing, but he was smiling in amusement.

Tessa frowned as she did not like that Shane was being laughed at. “Seriously? I don’t see what is so funny. Shane is just wanting to know if you had a ceremony.”

Optimus shook his head. “Not a public, ceremony, Tess. For bonding with a sparkmate does not require a party involving many people. While we do congratulate a couple, we hold no celebration. And I know Saphira wouldn’t have wanted one either.” Saphira definitely wouldn’t have enjoyed a big ceremony as it wasn’t something would have ever wanted. Optimus looked at Shane as the man was still embarrassed. “Do not feel discomfort, Shane. I understand that your customs are different to ours. So I do see why you would believe that we would have a big celebration.”

“That didn’t mean we didn’t congratulate you after the bonding was complete,” Ratchet said with a smile. “But a big celebration is usually reserved for things like spark days and important days of Cybertron. Though...we haven’t been able to do that for a long time...”

“Alright...I suppose I understand...” Shane looked at Saphira as she had finally stopped laughing, though she was looking at Optimus with an obvious blush, and he was still curious. “But I don’t understand how you became his sparkmate...”

“It’s a very, very intimate thing, Shane.” Shane widened his eyes when Saphira responded while interrupting him. “I don’t need to go into further details than that, but it is a very intimate experience...one that I haven’t forgotten...” She looked at Optimus again with a smile. “And I have zero regrets about becoming your sparkmate either.”

Optimus stepped forward to lean down and kiss Saphir, making the girl sigh happily as she kissed him back. Tessa smiled and looked at Shane. “If only it were that nice for us.”

Shane nodded in agreement, though looked over at Cade who was frowning at them and it looked like he was done. “Um, looks like Cade is done, Saphira.” Saphira turned and saw Cade was indeed finished and she quickly stood up. “I wouldn’t be that eager to see the recordings, Saphira. You are not going to like it.”

“But I have to watch.” Saphira sat on one of the recliners and gestured to Cade. “Can you play the recordings, please? I know I will get mad, but I need to see these recordings for myself.”

Cade nodded as he pressed a button the begin playing the recording. Immediately, it began to show an attack on Leadfoot, and Saphira immediately softened her expression. Seeing him fleeing from the humans as he was shot at and he was forced to stop, while begging for his life, hurt a lot. She didn’t spend a huge amount of time with the wreckers, but despite their skill in battle and the occasional hot headed moments, they were always very sweet, and she often enjoyed their company.

Topspin was shown next, and Saphira whimpered. And he found himself in the same position as Leadfoot. She knew only Roadbuster might not be on here, since he might already be gone. He did give Sideswipe and Dino cover when they were trying to get Saphira to safety. Though at the end of each recording she would see trucks with KSI written on them to haul off the destroyed remains of each autobot. There was nothing on this recording that showed decepticons, but that didn’t mean they weren’t being hunted.

Saphira felt Optimus’s hand on her shoulder and she reached back to hold his hand as she stared at the screen in horror. “Well...even though you told me about it...it is still very hard to watch...especially when they beg for life. And...now they are treated like spare parts...” Saphira breathed in deeply as she watched the screen and shook her head. “And we do not know what they are being used for, other than the greed of a billionaire who just wants to keep making more money with whatever innovations he can make. Even if it is something that should be made.”

“I guess now this means we need to figure out what to do when we get there.” Saphira looked at Cade as the man disconnected the drone from the TV. “I can modify the drone to have a connection to the autobots so they can what it sees, as a human will be able to get into KSI…”

“Yeah, but you need a key card to even get into the building,” Saphira interrupted gently with a shrug. “Even so, the key cards have a picture of the faces of all employees there. So…you don’t exactly have that on you, Cade. Getting into KSI headquarters isn’t straight forward.”

“I never said it was, but I am surprised you know all this.”

Saphira smiled at him and shrugged. “Because I had researched the company a lot before I had thought of working for them at the time. And I highly doubt a lot of that has changed. KSI is strict on its security, and they had a lot of armed guards throughout the building. Especially as some of the technology they create would be considered classified.”

“Right…well I guess that makes sense. Still…we need a plan.” Cade sat on the couch with a sigh, placing the drone onto the coffee table and looked at Saphira. “And since you seem to know a lot about KSI, you would be the best one to think of a plan.”

“Yeah…” Saphira did not disagree about that as she would know enough about KSI to come up with a plan. But if the headquarters were anywhere else but Chicago, it would be made easier. “Look…I’m not yet sure if I even want to go to Chicago yet, Cade. After all…a lot of pain and terrible memories were built there…”

Cade nodded in agreement. “I…I am sure that it was…”

“No, I don’t think you really understand.” Cade frowned a little as Saphira responded as she tightened her hand around Optimus’s hand, and he saw the visible fear in her eyes. “It wasn’t the pain of the war itself that hurt me, Cade…it was so much more…and…” Saphira grimaced as she shook her head. “And…it was all because…I thought the autobots were dead and I made a stupid decision to walk right into the city…which…” Optimus knelt by the recliner and kissed her cheek gently, making the girl smile a little as she was thankful for some comfort. “I don’t want to talk about it, but…it resulted in the loss of our…sparkling…” Cade softened his expression immediately and glanced at Tess as he knew he would hate losing her, especially as he almost was forced to watch her being shot in the head. “I need a little time before I even give an answer to whether or not I’ll come. But if you want to start making a plan, do it without me.”

“Oh.” Cade was speechless for a moment as he thought Saphira would want to be a part of the planning. “With everything I have been told and seen regarding you, I would have expected that you would want to come…” Saphira frowned at him immediately. “You clearly care for them. Do you not want to…do something about it?”

“It isn’t simple, Cade. You do not live with what I do. Even Optimus feels that pain of what happened in Chicago, since he feels it is partly his fault for it.” Saphira stood up from the recliner as she didn’t want to talk about it too much. “I understand you think that I am brave…but…you haven’t experienced what I did, Cade. It tears me up whenever the anniversary…of that comes around…especially as I still sometimes dream of that so vividly, and I hate seeing it in my dreams.” Optimus wrapped his hand around her waist and she looked at him sadly and looked back at Cade. “Look…I do understand you want to find out why. I really, really do. But…it isn’t easy for me. I just need a few days…”

Cade widened his eyes in shock. “A few days?” Saphira nodded and Cade sighed deeply as he was unhappy about it, but when he looked at Optimus, he could tell that Optimus would give Saphira that time. “Well…that does give us time to figure some kind of plan…and we are kind of stuck with the autobots anyway, so…unless there is a car somewhere here…”

Saphira smirked at him slightly. “I highly doubt you would be able to make it very far without them, Cade. You, your daughter and Shane will probably find yourselves in jail. And I doubt you would want that.” Tess shook her head immediately as she did not want to go to jail. “So, yes, you are stuck here. The only vehicles I now drive transform, and even then, I’m the one driving.”

“Until you take the wheel and scare the hell out of us,” Bumblebee commented and Saphira giggled softly. “I can’t tell you how many times I think back to Egypt and you scared me, and I am pretty sure Simmons would have almost needed a change of pants.”

Saphira snorted in amusement. “You are probably right. He wasn’t thrilled about my driving skills either. But it’s okay, Bumblebee. I am not sure if I will even do that again. I haven’t really been behind the wheel in a long time, so I think my driving is quite a bit rusty.”

“That could always change.” Bumblebee winked as he was silently offering to allow Saphira to practice with him. “I am sure you miss the adrenaline.”

“Uh, not really. I get adrenaline elsewhere anyway…” She waved her hand slightly and she looked to the front door as it opened, and Barricade walked in holding two cabbages. “Oh, shoot! I forgot to harvest them while Prime and I were in the greenhouse…but then I got a bit too worked up about what has been happening outside this property when Prime told me what has been happening…”

“Meh, don’t worry about it. And the barn is almost completely clean too.” Barricade walked towards the kitchen with the plants to wash them. “And the onions are actually not ready yet. But I think we still have a few left along with one sweet potato. It will still make a good stew, if you still want that.”

Saphira nodded and walked over immediately. “It sure will. Plus, we still have enough dried herbs and spices to make it really shine…” She walked over to the pantry to grab a jar filled with stock that they had made sometime ago. “And we have plenty of stock here too, so we will be fine.” She looked at Shane, Tess and Cade. “You guys don’t mind about this stew, do you? I generally enjoy very hearty foods since living in state.”

“Nah, it actually sounds pretty good myself.” Tessa stood up from the chair and walked over. “Maybe I can help. I could peel the sweet potato and cut it up. I feel a bit…bored without anything to do, since I don’t know what I should do here.”

“Sure, if you want.” Saphira walked over to a wooden stand to open the top of the crate and reached in to grab the sweet potato and the onions. “And there are plenty of onions in here, even though they’re a tad small.” She gave Tess the sweet potato before walking over to Barricade. “Swap with me.” Barricade looked at her in surprise and saw she was holding the onions out to him. “They don’t make you cry, so could you cut them up, please? I’ll wash the cabbages and start filling the pot.”

Barricade smiled at Saphira in amusement as he took the onions. “True…but they will make you cry when I cut them. You already know that, Saphira.” Saphira playfully elbowed his side before walking over to the sink to wash the cabbages quickly while Barricade set to removing the outer onion skin. “At least you are well enough to cook. I’ve enjoyed making soups and stews when you were sick...but...it was lonely.”

“I know. And if we ever get to enjoy Christmas this year, we can maybe look at baking a gingerbread house or something. I haven’t had one of those in years.” Saphira looked at Optimus and gestured for him to come over. “Want to help?”

Optimus smiled with a shake of his head. “I am afraid I lack the knowledge in being able to cook human food. I think I will not be as much of help as you think, Saphira.”

“I know. Plus, stews are very easy to make. So you wouldn’t need to worry about doing something wrong, unless you add too much salt into the pot.” Optimus shook his head quickly, though he was amused by the girl. “So come on, join in.”

Optimus sighed deeply as he walked over and wrapped his arms around her waist, making Saphira tensed as little and turn her head to side eye him. “Are you sure I can’t just watch?”

“You could...but...” Saphira pressed her lips together in amusement as Optimus kissed the back of her neck. “If you distract me too much, I am not going to be very happy. I enjoy cooking, and I would like to focus on it, please.” Optimus hummed softly as he kissed the back of her neck again with a light nip, and Saphira breathed in deeply in slight irritation. “It is a good thing I love you.”

Barricade was smirking slightly, though his expression did have a bit of sadness written on his face. No one noticed as they were focused on the cooking or everything else. Barricade was fine with that as he didn’t want questions being thrown his way, especially from Cade, Shane and Tessa since they wouldn’t understand, or had some unnecessary comments about what his feelings might be. He was happy Saphira and Optimus were back together, but he has always admired Saphira since the time he met her. He did wish he wasn’t a decepticon when he had met her, but he couldn’t change that.

Optimus did make sure to not distract Saphira too much as she began to cut the cabbages, though he did help when the onions did inevitably cause her to cry. Tessa was also crying from the tears, but they managed as Barricade was very fast with cutting the onions into small pieces and moved them into the pot. Once the onions were added to the pot, he sprinkled dried basil, oregano, thyme, sage and garlic in before Saphira added the cabbage, and Tessa added the sweet potato. With that, Barricade poured the stock into the pot before putting it on the stove to turn on.

Now that was done, they had to wait a few hours, and Saphira had to think about what she should do while they wait for the stew. Optimus whispered in her ear to spend some time in the bedroom again. It sounded like a good idea, but she also knew that she had not spent a lot of time with the other autobots. So she wanted to spend time with them, and Optimus was okay with that, even though she could tell he had wanted some alone time. But she knew they would have plenty of time alone later when she would go to bed.

So right now Saphira had moved to sit by the fireplace and the holoforms of the autobots were quick to pile in. With the barn cleared, Drift, Crosshairs, Ironhide and Ratchet were also able to pile into the house, and she was thrilled. “I am curious about what you guys have done in between being shot at by Cemetery Wind and Lockdown. Surely, you found something interesting to do.”

Crosshairs shrugged with a shake. “No, not really. I think we were just more focused in trying to hide away as much as we could. When we had moments of peace, we just rested to gather our strength. But…” He turned his head slightly at Bumblebee and smirked at him. “There have been a few times Bumblebee tried to tussle with Ironhide before we got separated.”

“Really?” Saphira giggled softly as she already knew who would have won. “Not sure why he would try, but I guess Bumblebee would have given a good effort.”

“He most definitely gave a good effort. But all I had to do was push him down onto the ground, and he would be flailing like a damn fish.” Bumblebee hunched a little as he was clearly embarrassed by this story, though he was smiling about it as he probably had a lot of fun regardless. Ironhide walked over and suddenly wrapped his arm around Bumblebee, making him shriek and struggle as Ironhide ruffled the hair of his holoform. “See what I mean? I don’t have to do much at all, punk. You’re embarrassing yourself too, Bumblebee.”

Bumblebee squirmed against Ironhide and he quickly got out of his grasp. “Nah, no, you are just happy to embarrass me in front of Saphira. That isn’t funny.” Ironhide just grinned at him and Bumblebee rubbed his hair in frustration before looking at Saphira to see she was giggling. “I only tussled with him because I was bored, and the others complain too much when I try it with them.”

“That’s fair, and understandable. Though I imagine, aside from all that, you were trying to figure out what to do next.”

Drift nodded affirmatively. “Young lady, it has been extremely difficult as we no longer have a ship to leave this planet for our safety. And I doubt now that we would be given one even if we asked with the promise to never return.” Saphira wasn’t sure how she felt about the fact that the bots would even want to leave this planet, but she also understood. They aren’t welcome here anymore. “And while the quiet moments were granted, they were far and few between. We have been seeking shelter and safety for many years. It is only now that we have found a lot more peace here in this cooler climate, and I am tempted to remain, even if we plan to storm KSI’s headquarters. But I know we cannot hide here for long. We could only make possible plans for the next move and try to come here at the time.”

“I see…so you never really had much fun…”

“No, sadly, no.” Ratchet shook his head solemnly as his expression softened. It was clear that the bots were tired, and wanted to stop running, but they had no choice but to go towards the danger. “And I fear that things will get very messy. I do not believe anyone will die or be seriously injured, but with all of us together, they are going to hit us harder. Especially Lockdown, since he is after Optimus specifically.”

“But who would send Lockdown for Optimus? You said he’s an assassin and bounty hunter, so obviously, he’s been promised a reward.” None of the bots seemed to have an answer, even Optimus, so they did not know. Dread filled Saphira as she pondered on the femme she has seen in her dreams, wondering if there was a connection. “Do you maybe…suspect who might?”

“Lockdown would get that reward from anywhere. He travels to other worlds throughout the universe, so he is not bound to Cybertron. He owns his own hoard of creatures to defend his ship from intruders. But as he travels from each world, my name probably came up somewhere else…but I would have no clue as to where or why.” Optimus had that question on his mind, and would probably ask it at some point, but he didn’t feel it was needed at this time. “Which probably should make us all concerned since this world would now be on the radar by another world if that is the case.”

“Eh…I doubt it.” Crosshair folded his arms as his expression turned to disgust. “Nothing would drive away another world more than a bunch of humans.” He glanced at Cade, Tess and Shane who were sitting on the couch as well. “No offense to you three, since you guys have turned out to be okay. A little annoying, but okay.”

“None taken, and you are probably right,” Tessa said in agreement with a light chuckle. “I would like to think that is why we have never had a reply to our messages into space. Especially since you guys came to Earth without responding to it.”

“Oh, that weak message we picked up on entry into this planet wouldn’t have been picked up by any of our instruments until we got close enough. So no one is ever going to pick it up, and if they did, they wouldn’t be able to respond at all.” Drift shifted to sit on the ground and crossed his legs. “Your leaders might think it is strong, but…in comparison to technologies on other worlds..."

"Yeah, we understand." Tessa nodded in agreement and amusement. “I am not ever going to work for NASA anyway. Good money, sure, but I do not have the mental capacity to want to work there."

"I don’t blame you,” Saphira said as she pulled the recliner leaver to lift out the leg rest. “By the way, you are seventeen, aren’t you?” Tess nodded and grimaced, thinking Saphira was going to ask about Shane. “You would be thinking of college about now, right?”

Tess nodded and looked down. “Yeah…though I wasn’t able to get financial aid, so I am not sure what I can do…”

“Maybe a trade? They usually are pretty good.” Tess grimaced and shook her head immediately. “Okay…um…I did try astronomy when I went to Princeton once, but that was a total disaster. And I also have to thank the decepticons for ruining that, even though I learned I didn’t need to go to college for any degree sometime after. My grandfather had willed his position to me.”

“What is that anyway?” Cade leaned forward with keen curiosity. “Optimus mentioned you have a job, but it is a secret. Is it really a secret?”

“Uh…” Saphira was surprised before she looked at Optimus with a frown. “I am surprised you would even mention it to him, Optimus.”

“Sorry, I didn’t think it would be an issue. But I am in agreement with Cade’s question. You haven’t told us anything about the job.” She sighed deeply and shrugged, looking down as she knew telling them was out of the question. “Especially since we are all here…”

“It doesn’t matter right now, Optimus. I can’t really do anything for my job because I am outcast from society just like those three are…” Saphira gestured to them as she spoke with a frown on her face. “I would tell you, but I made a promise to my grandfather. His last wishes are part of the reason I can’t tell you. I know you would say he’s dead, but I loved him so much and I will honour him. When the time is right, which is it isn’t, I will tell you about it.”

“Well…must be some secret society or something…” Saphira flinched slightly as Cade leaned back, and he smirked a little when he saw Saphira’s reaction. “Hmm…I must be on the right track if you reacted like that.”

She rolled her eyes. “It isn’t going to hurt any of you if you do not know. Plus, no one is in danger because of it. So please…just leave it. I don’t want to talk about it anymore…um…” Saphira quickly began to think of what subject to change the conversation to and she looked at Ratchet. “I also had been thinking I need to renew my knowledge about your anatomy and medicine. Do you think we can go over it again?”

Ratchet was surprised, but he beamed happily with a nod. “Of course, we can. Though with the little equipment we have means I can’t go over everything, but I know you will pick it up again. And Cade…” He looked at the man who was surprised when he was spoken to. “I admire that you did a good job with Optimus without any prior experience to our anatomy or medical needs. Maybe you should join in. You’d benefit from it.”

Cade rubbed the back of his head as that seemed awkward, but he thought about it for a moment and he nodded. “Sure, why not? Might as well do something, but I guess it’s a bit late. The days are so short here, but it has been nice. And that stew is starting to smell really good too.”

“I mean, we could start in the barn now that it is cleaned. It wouldn’t be too much. And Hound can supervise since he knows a lot too, despite how clumsy he can be.” Hound rolled his eyes at Ratchet in amusement without saying nothing, only chewing lightly on his cigar. “It is not that late, if I am honest. Though that depends if you want to stay by the fire, since the snow is starting to fall again outside.”

“I think we will stay by the fire.” Cade shifted a little as he was not used to the weather of the state, and it was pretty obvious too. “But I will definitely take you up on learning about it, Ratchet. I have always been intrigued by transformers, and learning how to repair one better than I did with Optimus sounds very exciting.”

“At least you’ll have a teacher, dad,” Tessa teased lightly with a chuckle and she looked at Ratchet. “I am curious, do you think that it is more or less complicated than human medicine?”

“Um…” Ratchet was surprised by the question and he frowned to ponder on it. “Good point. Each of us have very different means of treating things, and both Cybertronian and human medicinal practices can be very complicated. But…human bodies aren’t really complex like we are…so I am going to have to go with our medical practices

are definitely more complicated.”

“Yeah, I realized that quickly when you began teaching me, Ratchet. But I love every minute of it. I still can’t believe I even picked it up as quickly as I did. But…maybe it is…” Saphira smiled as she gazed at the autobots. “My love for every autobot here that made it easier for me to be motivated.”

“Aw, shucks…” Hound acted very flustered as he tugged on his beard a little while chewing on his cigar in a way to look like he was acting shy. “That is really nice, Saphira. Now I feel as light as a butterfly.”

“Pfft, you wish…” Barricade chuckled at the bot’s words as everyone was amused by Hound. “You will just obliterate the flowers they are trying to fly on if you stepped on them.” Hound didn’t disagree, but he was amused. Barricade looked at Saphira with a knowing smile. “But it is good to know why you were able to pick it up so quickly.”

“Yeah…” Saphira looked at Optimus and she blushed. “But it is definitely also because I fell in love with Optimus…and if there was a situation I could help with, I would hate to not know. So that is another reason why.”

“And it makes my spark flutter to hear that.” He leaned down and kissed Saphira gently, and she chuckled gently. “At least you haven’t found yourself in a position like that. You’ve been traumatized enough already.”

“Yeah, well, I think I will find something else to be horrified about in the future.” Saphira thought about KSI for a moment before she closed the leg rest of the recliner and stood up. “I’ll be right back. Need to use the bathroom.”

Optimus watched Saphira walk towards her bedroom knowing she would go to her bathroom. He considered following her, but he decided to give her space. He didn’t want to distract her from spending time with the other bots, as he knew that would happen. So he would allow her the time to relieve herself and rejoin the others to talk about other things for a while as she has always enjoyed that. He didn’t know if there were board games anywhere, since they used to play a lot of them before, but he doubted it.

As for Saphira, she used the time in the bathroom as an excuse to think about whether or not she would go with the autobots to KSI. She was definitely leaning towards yes, but she also felt like she had not spent enough time with them yet to want to go. So the few days excuse was more of an excuse to spend time with the autobots. Especially as she wanted to spend a lot of quality time with Optimus. And the chance to strengthen their bond again played on her mind. But she was fearful since it would be like she was virgin again, but she knew Optimus would be gentle. He was the first time, and he would be again. And she couldn’t help but feel butterflies and squeeze her thighs at the very thought of it.

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The next day came around after spending the afternoon of the previous day with the autobots and humans as Saphira had just wanted to enjoy time with them. She enjoyed herself a lot, even after she had retreated to her bedroom after enjoying a couple bowls of the stew. It turned out very delicious and filling. And there was practically none left, so it really hit the spot. Especially as the night temperature went down a lot and additional wood was added to the fireplace. Luckily, chopping wood for the fire was generally Barricade’s job in winter due to him not feeling the cold, and now Ironhide, Hound and Crosshairs have decided to help, so there was a lot extra fuel for winter.

Now that the next day had come around, Saphira had gone out to the barn to renew some of her memory about Cybertronian anatomy and medical practices. It turned out she didn’t forget a lot, but she wanted the refresher anyway, so that way if the time did come, she would be confident and equipped to handle it. Cade joined in as well, and he picked it up very quickly, especially as he had a basic understanding through helping Optimus. Saphira did wonder why this man failed at making something that would bring in a fortune since he seemed quite intelligent. But it seemed he might have been focused on making the wrong things, which was why a lot of his inventions have failed.

Though after a couple hours of going over it, Saphira decided to challenge Cade, Tess, Shane and the bots to a snowball fight. And it was accepted. Only Optimus, Barricade, Ratchet and Drift decided to not join in. Saphira was surprised Barricade didn’t want to join in, as they both have had numerous snowball fights before. But she did not question his decision too much as she figured he might have just enjoyed it when it was just the two of them. So it was understandable.

Saphira laughed loudly as she ducked when a snowball flew over her head that had been thrown at her by Bumblebee. She gathered snow into her hands to make a snowball and throw it back at him, hitting him in the chest. She laughed as he gathered more snow with a smirk to throw another at her, and she yelped as Ironhide managed to hit her in the cheek, making her look at him with wide eyes.

“Oops, sorry, punk. But you need to be looking at your surroundings.” He winked at her and flinched as several snowballs hit his chest and he sighed deeply, shaking his head. “Ugh…it is always me who is the bigger target.”

“Well, you do have the biggest holoform, Ironhide,” Crosshairs remarked mockingly as he ducked when Tess threw a snowball at him. “Even more so than Hound.” Hound threw a snowball at Crosshairs hard, and hit him in the back of the head, making Crosshairs stumble and turn to look at him in shock. “Oh…you didn’t like that, did you?”

“Huh? Pfft, nah, I knew you were just talking trash.” Hound rubbed his hands together, flinching a little when Shane threw a snowball at him, and he brushed the snow out of his beard and leaned down to scoop up some more snow. “And you’re quite the target yourself, Crosshairs. After all, nobody wears a fancy jacket in the snow.”

“Ha, ha, real funny…HEY!” Crosshairs snapped his head towards Saphira as she threw a snowball at him, and it hit him in the cheeks. It irritated Crosshairs a little, making Saphira giggled and run away with Bumblebee throwing several snowballs at her, making her squeal loudly. Crosshairs huffed in amusement. “I see what this is. Picking on Crosshairs, huh?”

“Nah…” Ironhide lightly tossed a snowball at Tess, hitting the girl in the shoulders and making her giggle before Cade threw a snowball at her and Ironhide at the same time. The snow ball hit Ironhide’s face, making him huff in surprise and rub the snow from his face, making him put his hands on his hips. “We are picking on everyone today, Crosshairs. Except for the boss, of course.”

“We sure are!” Cade threw another snowball at Shane, hitting him right in the forehead and making him almost fall backwards onto the ground, making Cade chuckle. “Oh yeah, we are definitely picking on everyone today.”

Saphira squealed as Bumblebee threw more snowballs at her and she ducked, though one hit her on the top of her head and she threw some more at him. They had run to the side of the barn and they were now throwing snowballs directly at each other, and it was a lot of fun. She did try to duck for cover behind the camaro, but Bumblebee quickly moved his vehicle form so she wouldn’t use him as cover. She found it very amusing.

“You are not going to use my tailgate as your cover!” Bumblebee mocked, laughing as a snowball hit the top of his head and he threw another at the girl. “That is very unfair!”

“I know! I did it out of habit!” She squealed and ducked as Bee threw another snowball at her and she giggled while running from him. “At least you are a big target if I decide to cover your windscreen with snow.”

“No, you won’t!” Bumblebee threw another snowball at Saphira, hitting her in the right hip, making her giggle and scoop up more snow. “That would be very mean if you did that. I would be upset and sulking over your shoulder for a week.”

“Oh, just like when I said you couldn’t come with me to college?” Saphira questioned in a fake, pouty tone and Bee threw a snowball at her cheek, making her giggle. “Uh oh, I hit a mark!” She giggled as she threw another snowball at him and she ran towards the back of the barn. Though she was distracted as she saw Barricade. She stopped as he was sitting away from the barn, crouched in front of the pine forest and seemed to be starring at it. Saphira took deep breaths and winced as Bee hit her with another snowball, but she didn’t react to him. “Um…when did Barricade move over here?”

Bumblebee looked at Barricade as he was surprised as well. “Um…I don’t even know. We were playing so much, I didn’t see him get up and walk away. Especially since I thought he would remain in his full form so he wouldn’t be hit by a snowball.” He stared at Barricade’s back and it was clear that the former decepticon was not paying attention to anything. “You don’t think he wants to go after that coyote pack, do you?”

“I hope not. It isn’t worth it.” Saphira took some more deep breaths and she looked at Bee. “Why don’t you go and play with the others?” Bee looked at her in surprise. “I’ll be back to play, I want to see what is in Barricade’s mind.”

“Uhhh…” Bumblebee frowned a little and leaned back a little to look around the side of the barn and looked back at Saphira. “Is that…even a good idea?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well…” Bee looked at Barricade with a sympathetic expression and looked back at Saphira. “We aren’t silly as we know how he feels about you.”

Saphira rolled her eyes with a deep sigh. “I appreciate the concern, Bumblebee, but please understand that I care about Barricade. He has been here for me for the last three years…you weren’t.” Bumblebee flinched as that hurt him and his expression changed immediately. “I’m sorry if that hurts you, but it is true. I do love Barricade, but not in the same way as you think.” Bumblebee’s shoulders slump slightly and he just nodded as he understood. “I know Barricade is probably struggling a bit with Optimus being back…though…I probably am at fault for a bit of what he is feeling.” Bee raised an eyebrow at that and she smiled at Bee. “I’ll be fine. Barricade doesn’t need to be watched like a hawk anymore. Unless you suddenly think he is going to be a decepticon again.”

Bumblebee shook his head. “No, no, I do not think he’ll be evil again.”

“Good. Because he has a good spark, just like you.” Saphira walked away from Bumblebee and stepped up to the wooden fence that was between her and Barricade. “Go and have fun with the others. I’ll make sure I get back to finish off our game, and maybe convince Barricade to join in and see if he can kick your tailpipe.”

Bumblebee smirked immediately and shook his head. “Nah, I’ll be the one to kick his. I’ve already done that so many times.” He turned with a slight skip as he was still excited about the snowball fight, but he also did not know what would happen with Saphira and Barricade. “And if he does anything to you, I’ll be sure to dent his tailpipe so he can’t sit for a whole year.”

Saphira tried to not laugh so loudly and she waved her hand at him after she climbed over the wooden fence and slid to the other side. Bumblebee walked back around the side of the barn and she sighed in relief, knowing he wouldn’t continue making a fuss. Saphira turned and looked at Barricade. He was still crouching with his back towards the barn and facing the forest. She didn’t know what he was thinking, and she guessed he was thinking so deeply as he had not even heard her or Bumblebee.

Saphira walked to the right of Barricade, looking up at him as she approached slowly. She didn’t have much of a choice since the snow was deeper on this side of the fence, and she could only move as fast as she was able to. Though as she looked at his face, she could see he was in deep though with a solemn expression. It seemed he needed to have a moment to himself, and she hoped she was not going to ruin it. But she wanted to speak to him.

“Barricade?”

Barricade flinched, blinking his red optics in surprise and looking down to see Saphira looking up at him with a curious, concerned expression. He glanced back to see that the snowball fight was still going on and he looked down at Saphira. “You should be over there having fun like you had wanted to, Saphira. You don’t need to be over here…now your pants and shoes are going to be soaked from the melted snow, and you’ll freeze.”

“That doesn’t bother me.” Saphira lifted her right leg and stepped forward before glancing at the trees for a moment. “But…I wasn’t sure why you were sitting here specifically. Don’t tell me you are thinking about going into that forest to find the coyotes that killed the animals. I don’t think that is a good idea.”

Barricade smiled and huffed in amusement. “I suppose I did pick a peculiar spot to sit…but no. I don’t want to follow some mutts into the trees here…” He waved his hand at the pine trees casually as he spoke gently. “I just wanted a place that was a bit quieter. I am not used to so much noise after so many years of just quiet. I am surprised you aren’t feeling the same way.”

“Well…I guess I am and I am not. But I am happier that so many of the autobots are still alive. I mean, I see all of you guys as my family now, so…” Saphira shrugged a little as she walked closer to Barricade. “I guess I am tolerating all the noise because of it. But is that really the reason why you are over here, Barricade?” Barricade sighed and looked away from her. “You know you can talk to me, right? We have been through a lot over the last three years, and there is nothing that can really get between our friendship.”

“Friendship.” Saphira heard the sad whirs in Barricade’s body and she softened her expression, knowing he was hurt. He closed his optics for a moment and looked down at Saphira. “I suppose…that is all you really wanted over the last year too…despite the many times we had kissed…” Saphira nodded and looked away as she did feel guilty for that. Especially regarding Optimus. “I guess I should have accepted that when I realized you didn’t want anything more than the comfort I gave you in your time of grief…I’m sorry that I was trying to be selfish during that time.”

“I probably didn’t help with mixed signals as well. I am also sorry. But you are…well…my best friend, Barricade. We may not have started out as friends, but I am glad you are my friend.” She placed her hand on his knee gently and he looked at her. “I am sure you thought we could have been something, but I don’t think it would have ever happened. I know the kisses had been nice, but…they didn’t mean the same for me.”

“I know that now.” Barricade looked back at the pine trees for a moment and looked back down at Saphira. “I guess I am…feeling sad. I am happy you and Optimus are back together, but I did enjoy our time.” She smiled at him as she understood. Barricade was silent again for another moment before he grumbled and stood up, making Saphira back away for a moment. “Ugh…I can’t do it…” He transformed suddenly, and Saphira was left staring at the mustang that remained facing the forest. “I am not sure what you could do to even help me…”

Saphira smiled as she grabbed the handle to open it, only to realize Barricade had locked the door. “Hey! Are you seriously going to shut me out? Talking to each has helped in the past, so why not now?”

“Because…uh…does Optimus even know?”

“He isn’t stupid, so yes. He figured it out, actually.” Barricade hummed softly in surprise, though he made no comment. Saphira tugged on the door handle again and put her hands on her hips. “Come on, Barricade. Let me get in. Are you going to be so stubborn now?”

“I’m not being stubborn…” Saphira didn’t believe him as she stared at him with a slight smirk on her face. “You don’t understand, Saphira…I appreciate that you were worried about me. But I really would like to be on my own.”

“Are you sure though? Because it really seems like the opposite. I saw it in your optics, you can’t hide it from me.” Saphira sighed deeply as Barricade still refused to unlock the door for her. “I still love you, Barricade.” The made him growl lightly as he knew she didn’t mean romantic love, but it still made him feel good. “Without you here, I am not sure if I would have made it this far.”

Barricade was silent for another minute before speaking. “What do you mean by that?”

“Uh, well…without the autobots, I am not if I could ever live a normal life. So…if no one found me when you did, I…I am not sure what I would have done…”

“Oh, shut up, don’t tell you mean you might have killed yourself or something, because that would have ensured Optimus’s defeat too.” Saphira shrugged as she didn’t know what she would have done, but that could have been a possibility. “I don’t think you would have done that, Saphira. Especially as if Optimus had felt you die, he would probably allow himself to be taken by Lockdown. He wouldn’t want to live himself, as the sudden death of a sparkmate…well…you already felt how traumatic can feel, even if the bond only went cold.”

“I know…but…I don’t know what would have happened if you had not shown up. You are my best friend, Barricade.” She walked away from the door to the front of the car and knelt down in front of the bumper. “Do you really hate yourself enough that you would shut me out?” She placed her hands on the hood as Barricade was silent. And it was a loud silence and she shook her head. “Don’t hate yourself, Barricade. I actually hope that you find a sparkmate. You are clearly longing for that kind of relationship. Maybe…another girl will come along and steal your spark. Or, maybe, another bot.”

“I don’t know…you set a high standard, in my opinion. I guess…after being under Megatron’s rule as a decepticon and being free…I can’t help but look back on things and wish they were different. Maybe if I was an autobot from the start, maybe…I don’t know.” Barricade sighed deeply as he felt Saphira rubbing his hood. “I don’t get how you can show affection to me…it…” Saphira leaned back in surprise, staring at him as she had not thought he would say that. “You should reserve that kind of caress for Optimus, not me. It hurts me that you would do that, and know that we won’t be sparkmates.”

“Oh…I’m sorry…I didn’t mean to make you upset…” Saphira had not realized that she was unintentionally hurting him, and it made her upset. “I’m only trying to help comfort you, Barricade…it isn’t because…I guess you must feel differently if you feel that way.” She didn’t remove her hands from the hood, even though she had stopped rubbing gently. “But I will always care deeply for you, Barricade. To me, you come second from Optimus.”

“Second? Really?” Barricade chuckled as that came as a big surprise to him. “I thought Bumblebee was second from Optimus to you.”

“Maybe he used to be, but hasn’t been here for three years. You took his spot.” That made Barricade laugh some more as he seemed happy to know that. Saphira smiled at him and resumed rubbing the hood gently. “And it all comes down to the fact that you haven’t let me Barricade. Not once. And I am grateful for your presence. So please, don’t shut me out. I hope…” Saphira leaned slightly to see if anyone was watching, but they were not. “I hope that when we go to Chicago, you’ll come.”

Barricade stopped laughing suddenly when he heard Saphira say they would go to Chicago. “Oh, you made up your mind already?” Saphira nodded. “But…Optimus said you needed a few days…”

“I do…only to ensure that we spend some quality time together…”

“Oooohhhh…it’s a ruse…” Barricade chuckled lightly in amusement. “Does this mean I have to keep that piece of news to myself? Or shall I whisper it into Optimus’s ear?”

“Do that, and I may grab my little necklace and turn it into a weapon to shoot at your tailgate…” She winked at him playfully as she was not serious at all, making Barricade chuckle lightly. “But please don’t tell anyone else. I…especially since there are some things that Optimus and I need to do before we go.”

“Let me guess, repairing your bond?” Saphira nodded a little, which Barricade didn’t react to. He wasn’t surprised at all that was a plan Saphira had, but he had not expected it to be so soon. “Well…I guess it will be necessary for you both. It will give you seamless communication with him. But…what are the chances you’ll end up with sparkling again?”

Saphira shuddered immediately at the thought of being pregnant again. She hasn’t gotten over the last one, and she was frightened of going through another. “Well…it took a long time before I even fell pregnant, Barricade. So I am not really expecting anyone from just one night…” Saphira knew that one night was all that was needed, but she had doubt that would even happen. “Plus, the first time we bonded, there was no sparkling until a year after…so that kind of gives me a timeline.”

“Right…that means you don’t have to worry about that.” Saphira nodded in agreement. Barricade sighed deeply and he reversed from Saphira suddenly, making her almost fall on her face from the sudden movement of the car and Barricade chuckled at her. “Sorry, probably should have warned you.” She nodded as she watched him transform again back into his full form and crouched down low enough so his face was not far from her. “And…I hope you understand, Saphira. I…my love for you is definitely beyond friendship…” She lowered her eyes from him immediately. “But…being your friend has really been the best thing I could have done. I made good decisions, and I am no longer a puppet for a warmonger like Megatron.” She smiled and looked back at his optics. “I am now trusted by the autobots, and I will gladly put myself on the line to save the others. Just as I did with Sentinel tried to kill Ironhide.”

“And that solidified your allegiance and trust with the autobots when that happened. Especially as what you have said is true. Though…I do wonder if you might know anything else about Megatron and whatever made him do what he did?” Barricade raised an eyebrow as he was surprised. Saphira smiled at him as she didn’t want to tell him about her nightmare. “Just out of curiosity.”

“Hmm…a bit odd you would ask me that right now…but…” Barricade paused for a moment as he thought back through his processor to try and see if there was anything that might stand out to him. “Not from Megatron. But I do vaguely remember something from Sentinel. I was passing by a small storage room before Sentinel would leave the planet on the Ark, and I overheard him talking to someone. I did stop to see, and he had a hologram of a sort speaking to him. Some kind of femme, but he must have known I was there as he turned it off when I tried to listen and he walked out of the room.” Saphira shivered a little as that disturbed her and she folded her arms, making Barricade gently scoop her up from the snow, thinking she is cold. “I am not sure if that will be relevant anymore now that both Sentinel and Megatron are dead. So you probably don’t need to worry, even if I am curious as to why you asked the question.”

“I was just curious in case Lockdown was part of those plans.” Barricade shook his head and Saphira smiled at him. “Good. And I am glad that I became a source of light for you, Barricade. I’m sorry that I don’t feel the same way for you. And I do hope you will find someone. You really do deserve it.” Barricade just hummed softly and glanced away from her, only to look back at her in surprise when she kissed his cheek gently. “So I hope that you will be okay. You are my best friend, and I cherish everything that we have. So please don’t hate yourself. It hurts me to know you feel that way. And if I have to, I might just find someone to drag over to you to be your sparkmate.”

Barricade huffed in amusement and shook his head. “That is a little too extreme. I will never force a bonding onto someone. That would very bad, and I wouldn’t get the joy of courting and romancing that person.” Saphira giggled softly and he smiled at her. “But…I appreciate the thought. It does make my spark happy that you will support me if I ever find a human or a bot to love.” He moved her closer to kiss her forehead gently. “But as I said, you have put a high standard for me.”

“Well…if I could clone myself, that might also be good.” Barricade shook his head immediately as that sounded like a bad idea to him too, which made Saphira giggle at him. “But…that would also be bad, since a clone can…it wouldn’t be as good as the original.”

“Exactly. And who knows, maybe someone will exceed my expectations.”

“Did you ever have anyone in mind before we met?” Saphira asked out of curiosity and Barricade widened his optics briefly before shaking his head. “Really? No one? Pfft…not sure I believe that.”

“Well, you should. There really wasn’t much of a chance to find someone either. When the war began, all thoughts of mine were focused on the war and appeasing Megatron.” That made sense, and it also made Saphira feel sad for Barricade, since that sounded awful. “Before all the war…I was a racer. That was my life on Cybertron before I was a decepticon. Kind of like you.” Saphira giggled as that definitely was similar to her. “Maybe that’s why I was also partially drawn to you…though I am not sure.”

“At least we can now both agree that we are just good friends. Nothing more, nothing less. And no more kisses on the lips.” Barricade nodded in agreement. “Otherwise, I will feel horrible for hurting Optimus, and I feel like I’ve hurt some many of you already.” Saphira sighed deeply and she shivered a little as the wind brushed by before she smiled at him. “Anyway…care to join in on the snowball fight? Bumblebee thinks he could stomp your tailpipe.”

“Oh, does he now?” Barricade raised an eyebrow and glanced back for a moment as he pondered on it. “Hmm…well…since that seems like quite the challenge…” Barricade chuckled softly as he considered it before he stood up and turned to walk back towards the barn. “I suppose if Bumblebee has decided to challenge me for an intense snowball battle, he had better be ready. Especially since it will be in our full forms, so snow will get stuck up his tailpipe.”

“Oohh, he is going to definitely be down for that. Maybe even the other bots…OH! Maybe Ironhide and Hound…”

“Oh, geez…that would last so many days if that were to happen…” Barricade chuckled lightly as he could see those two getting extremely competitive, and that would last a long time. “Don’t you remember their week long wrestling match? Yeesh…not sure if you really want that to happen again.”

“Maybe you are right…though it would still be so funny to see.” Saphira glanced down as Barricade stepped over the fence and walked around the barn. She looked ahead to see Optimus turning his head to look at them with a smile on his face. She smiled back at him and looked up at Barricade. “But you should still join in. Because you still got to beat me too.”

“Mmm…not sure…”

“Aw…come on.” Saphira pouted as Barricade shrugged and lowered the girl to the ground by the barn so she wouldn’t be hit by a random, flying snowball. “It would be a lot of fun.” Barricade looked up at the bots and humans for a moment before he flinched as Saphira quickly used his moment of distraction to scoop up a snowball and threw it right as his face, making him step back in surprise and look at her with a bewildered look. Saphira giggled and turned to run. “Now you have to get your revenge for getting snow in your optics…WAH!” Saphira jumped to the side and fell onto the ground, looking at Barricade who was grinning after he threw a large snowball and hit her side. Saphira smirked at him and stood up quickly. “Come on, I dare you to join in.”

Bumblebee’s holoform ran over to Barricade and crouched a little, picking up some more snowballs. “You heard her, Barricade. She’s daring you. Do you dare, or are chicken?” Barricade just smirked before Bumblebee fell forward suddenly, and turned in shock to see Barricade’s holoform standing behind him. Bumblebee looked back at Barricade’s full form as the bot shrugged while walking closer and transformed to sit next to the green corvette. “Aw, that was dirty…” Bumblebee chuckled as he stood up and moving his arms a little to show he was ready to play. “Now this is war.”

“Hmm, it always has been…” Barricade responded calmly while spreading his arms a little before turning to run as Bumblebee began throwing the snowballs at him. “Good luck getting me back, Bumblebee!”

Saphira chuckled as Bumblebee chased Barricade as she knew those two rivals tended to be extremely competitive towards each other, so she decided to keep out of it. She stood up and brushed off the snow, only for Ironhide to throw a snowball at her, and she began to join in again, and she would eventually team up with Bumblebee, which surprised Barricade, and the they would continue to throw snowballs at each other for another hour before snow would start to fall, and all four humans became too tired to continue. But this resulted in Bumblebee and Barricade to continue until Optimus stepped in and told them to stop and calm down, which they did.

Saphira did still feel bad for Barricade. She cared very deeply for him, and wanted him to enjoy life, even though she knew he has wanted a sparkmate like her. Saphira hoped someone will come along and snag his spark. She would not be jealous at all, since she wanted him to be happy. At least he also knew that she wanted to go to Chicago, and he wouldn’t tell the other bots. And she knew he would go with her, as she didn’t know how she would feel if Barricade decided not to go. At least they were able to talk. Saphira was certain that they really needed it. Especially as they needed to clear up the air and accept they both are really close friends, and nothing more. 

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Romance Smut ahead in this Chapter

Another couple days pass by, and Saphira had still avoided the question of whether or not she wanted to go to Chicago. Only Barricade has not asked the question, which the bots believes that Barricade didn't want to go unless Saphira would go. Which was true, as Barricade would remain here if she hadn't wanted to go to Chicago so he could continue supporting her like he has the last three years. But Barricade already knew Saphira wanted to go, she was just waiting and wanting to spend time with Optimus and the autobots. He actually teased her a few times about it, which Saphira found amusing and annoying at the same time.

Currently, it was evening and Saphira had just entered her bedroom after enjoying another cabbage stew, and she was feeling very content. Though her mind was thinking deeply about what she wanted going forward. She knew that she had to give an answer. The three humans were also getting annoying. Cade was exasperated earlier, and he pissed off Saphira, and Barricade too, due to him expressing irritation at the autobots for not pressuring Saphira into making a decision, even though the autobots had given her the time she needed. Barricade was angry Cade didn't seem to under the trauma Saphira had been through, and why she would want that time, even though she had already made the decision and Barricade was aware of it.

Saphira looked at the window and smiled as she could see the western star parked outside the window like he has been almost everyday. She sat on the bed and picked up a brush to brush her hair while she thought about Chicago and KSI. She was still frightened about going back to the city, even if she wanted to go because being involved with the autobots has always been that way from the start. Aside from when the autobots worked and fought alongside the military, and would go on missions, almost every important moments have been with the autobots. And she wasn't about to miss this over some trauma she has experienced.

She placed her hand absentmindedly on her stomach as thinking about the past and her sparkling played on her mind. She did often wonder what her sparkling would have looked like. It would have been a hybrid since it would have her DNA, but she still wondered what it would have looked like, and if it would be able to transform like Optimus could. That was something she would often think about. She had not even had a chance to think of names either.

Saphira took a deep breath and continued to brush her hair, though she saw Optimus holoform forming by the window and she smiled a little. "Are you okay, Saphira? I noticed you might have been thinking about our sparkling." His expression softened in concern as that was a pain he knew would never go away for Saphira.

Saphira sighed deeply. "I was...I do it a lot actually. After all, it is hard to not think of what...what they would have been like. What they would have looked like, and...I am sure you think of that too. We never even got to talk about names...but you didn't know when...you were forced to deceive the world. And me..." Optimus walked over to her and sat down slowly next to her. "And to think there was...nothing left to...even bury it..."

"That might be true, Saphira. I too have thought of those things. But...there is only one thing we should find comfort in." Saphira frowned slightly and looked at Optimus. "There will always be a small part that was left behind in you, Saphira. Even with the way the sparkling was...destroyed. There will always be a tiny little piece left behind."

Saphira felt tears in her eyes as she had not thought of that. "You never told me that. Why?"

"I don't know...I guess I had been grieving that year too, and...it slipped my mind. But for all Cybertronains, when a sparkling fails in a carry, there is always a small piece of them left behind. And, even though you are human, I am going to believe that too."

"Is there even a way to know?" Optimus shook his head and Saphira sighed deeply with a slight sniffle. "So you are basing that on assumption and belief...alright...but that actually doesn't bring me comfort if there is no proof. If anything, it just upsets me." Optimus wrapped his arm around her waist and she looked down. "And I am actually pretty scared if...if for some miracle, we end up with another..."

"I do not doubt that fear in you, Saphira. But if we were to have another sparkling, I promise that I will not allow anything to happen to you or out sparkling. However, as you and I already have experienced, I highly doubt we will conceive another so soon." Optimus rubbed her side gently as he leaned in and kissed her cheek. "So please do not worry about the future. After all, we still have yet to make a plan to go to Chicago, and..."

"I am coming." Optimus was surprised when Saphira interrupted bluntly and his mouth hung open for a moment in shock. She looked at him with a confident expression. "I have made a decision. I'm coming. But...I don't want to miss on important things before we leave. I already have some ideas of what to do when we get to Chicago, and I'll have to apologize to Cade for holding out for so long."

Optimus smiled at Saphira and tightened his arm around her to hug her against him. "I am glad you have decided to come with us. I not surprised by that decision, even though I know how hard it would have been for you. And just know we won't force anything on you, unless necessary." Saphira smiled at him as she was glad that he was happy. "And Cade should have kept his opinions to himself. An apology isn't necessary from you, as he should be apologizing to you."

"I guess...but he only did it out of frustration, so I do understand." Optimus did too, but it didn't excuse the man for his behaviour. "Anyway...we can tell the others tomorrow that I've made a decision. Especially since I intend to spend time with you tonight, Optimus. I know it might take a couple days to make a plan before we leave, but...I just want to focus on you."

Optimus smiled at her as he agreed with that. "Good. I also intend on spending as much time as possible with you, Saphira." He kissed her lips gently as he shifted closer to her. "I love you, and I want to make you feel loved. I want to repair the bond, and make it stronger than ever." Saphira blushed with a smile against his lips as they kiss again. "If you will allow me to bond with you again, we can do it tonight." Saphira shivered as she knew what it meant. "I will be gentle. I know it would be almost like the first time we were intimate together, Saphira. I will not hurt you."

Saphira felt the butterflies and heat in her stomach, making her core twitch as the feelings of desire grew. "I know you will be gentle...I am just nervous about it again. I know that I shouldn't be...but..."

"I know. And it is okay." Optimus moved his lips along her cheek, sending shivers down Saphira's body. He could sense her growing desire, and his own was growing as well. His optics soften as he looked into her green eyes, filled with love and passion for his sparkmate. "I will wait for you to tell me if it is okay. I will be here by your side the entire time, and you will feel the euphoria we once had together."

"I'd like that...I have missed it..." Saphira leaned back as she gazed over his body while a deep blush formed on her cheeks. "And with your holoform how it is as well...at least I can explore it and find everything new...it almost makes me want to crawl over your full form someday..."

Optimus shuddered as that certainly was an idea that excited him. And he could make it happen for her. "I don't think I would say no to that, my sweet gem." She giggled as he moved his lips slowly down her cheeks. Feeling his metal lips trailing her skin caused goose bumps over her skin. He began to kiss the crook of her neck, and she turned her head slightly so he could kiss and nip at her neck easier. "At least it seems your imagination is still as wild as ever."

"Yes, it is..." As Optimus nibbled on the skin of her neck, Saphira rubbed her hands over his shoulders slowly. The way they curved and connected to his chassis intrigued her. The change in his appearance was something she had not expected when Optimus returned. He looked like a knight, and she was okay with that. But it still very much intrigued her. She moved her hands up the sides of his face to tease the antennas on each side, making Optimus flinch slightly. "Ooh, sensitive, huh?"

Optimus leaned back with an amused smirk. "Yes...my antennas are very sensitive to the touch..." Saphira looked towards the truck with an amused expression and looked at Optimus as he let out a low chuckle. "Even more so in my true form. I didn't think it would even be noticeable in my holoform, but it is." Saphira reached up to caress them gently, and while Optimus shuddered, he relaxed a little. "But that does feel very nice..."

Saphira was amused as how Optimus seemed to melt under the caress of his antennas. It clearly was what he would consider a sweet spot, and she was extremely amused. She never thought this would happen, and she leaned closer to kiss him, making him moan lightly against her lips. It seemed doing this heightened these feelings in him, and she couldn't help but think she might take advantage of it, and Optimus could already tell that she would by the expression in her eyes.

Saphira moved her hands down to his cheeks, and he relaxed a little now that his antennas weren't being touched. She moved her hands down to his chassis, feeling the shape of his chassis curiously and Optimus laid down, and she followed him down. She shifted to lay on top of him so she could kiss him easier. She caressed his chassis with her thumbs and he rubbed the curves of her body, teasing the base of her shirt as a warning he would move his hands under her shirt to feel her skin.

She was excited about it, and she also noticed Optimus was taking his time. She was completely fine with it. She wanted to take it slowly, and it would be more exciting too. Optimus brushed his hands over her breasts gently, tickling her nipples in the process, making her shudder and let out a light moan of surprise, though the blush on her cheeks deepened. She shuddered as Optimus did it again, and she chuckled lightly as she knew he was doing it to tease her more. And she was fine with it.

Saphira shifted down a little, brushing her stomach over his crotch, and she realized there was something there. She sat up and looked down, surprised to see there was a panel over where his member would be, and she smiled, knowing that it was the same as his full form. "Hmm...I guess you like teasing me further...though...I've never seen your length in your normal form."

Optimus smiled in amusement as he was unsurprised that she took interest. "I suppose I do...but that plate is necessary. It keeps us all decent and modest, so I don't consider it teasing..." He flinched as she placed her hands on the plate and began to caress. "Now that is teasing, Saphira..." Saphira giggled as she watching his legs tense and she leaned down to kiss his lips. "Hmm...you have always loved playing the dangerous game...I'm glad that hasn't changed."

"I mean...if I was okay with driving cars the way I did when I was younger, then I suppose going towards danger has always been in my blood. Ironic, isn't it?" She giggled as she kissed him again and and caressed his shoulders gently. He hummed gently in amusement in response to her and she shivered as he began to tug on her jacket to slide it off her shoulders. "At least the house is warm enough to take off some layers..."

"We can always move into my cab if you are too cold..." Optimus glanced towards the window with his optics, and Saphira giggled softly. "Especially since...we don't want to bother the other humans, considering the walls might be a bit thin...so taking it out to the cab eventually will make a lot of sense..."

"Yes, it will. Especially since I want to renew the bond in the cab." Saphira shuddered as the jacket fell to the floor and Optimus began to lift her long sleeve shirt slowly, making her shudder again and she leaned down to kiss the crook of his neck passionately, allowing him to pull her shirt up halfway and caress her hips and waist gently. "But..." She sat up a little and looked at Optimus's optics. "I could use a shower first."

"Mmm...I guess so..." He lifted her shirt up move, lifting it over her bra and she moved her elbows a little, as she felt a little shy, though she didn't move them to hide her bra, knowing Optimus has seen her naked before. It has just been a long time. "But you will need my help, I think. Shall I join you?"

"Hmm..." Saphira rolled her shoulders and playfully moved her chest side to side in a snake-like taunt, making Optimus tilt his head with an amused smirk. "I don't know..." She leaned back and looked down at herself. "You managed to get the jacket off, but the shirt is halfway on...mmm...maybe...I should do it myself..."

Optimus sat up immediately, grasping her shirt gently as he kissed her lips suddenly, cutting her off from speaking and making her giggle in amusement. "I think I do a better job than you, my gemstone..." She giggled softly as he kissed her again and he pulled the shirt up some more and she raised her arms, allowing him to pull the shirt off, and she laid them around his shoulders, pressing herself against him as he let the shirt drop to the floor. "Mmm..." Optimus shifted again and Saphira gasped loudly in surprise as he slipped off the bed while managing to slip his arm under her leg and back to lift her up, making her giggle once she realized he was going to carry her to the bathroom. "Shall we continue in the bathroom?"

"It's colder in there..."

"Not under the water is on and both the heat and steam fill the room." Optimus walked towards the bathroom and she began to kiss his neck again, and lifted her hand to his right antenna, making him flinch and look at her with a smirk. "It is a good thing I like it when you touch it, Saphira. Anyone else might have ended up on the floor."

"Oh? I would pull you down with me..." Saphira fluttered her eyelids as Optimus huffed lightly in amusement. "That way it would be completely fair, but we may not be able to get up. Our attraction is too strong."

"Indeed." Optimus's optics quiver as Saphira kissed his neck again and rubbed his antenna to continue the caress. She moved her head to the top of his head, caressing the centre of his forehead, and she laid her head on his shoulder as she felt peaceful for the moment. But when he walked into the bathroom, Saphira shivered with a light gasp as the air in the bathroom was very cool compared to the bedroom. Warmth did flow into the bathroom, but the tiles were cold to the touch. "Allow me to start the shower." Optimus gently closed the lid of the toilet to sit Saphira on it before turning to the shower door to open and reach it to turn on the water. "The temperature shall heat up soon." Optimus turned around with a smile, though the smile wavered for a moment as he saw Saphira had tears in her eyes and she was breathing a little quicker than before. "Are you okay?"

Saphira nodded and looked at him as he walked over with a worried expression. "Completely. I...I have forgotten just how amazing this is...how amazing you are, Optimus Prime." Optimus was relieved as he smiled at her. "I know it might have been just a few days already...but I am so happy you are here...sure, I still hold a lot of resentment about the last three years..." Optimus grimaced immediately as he was well aware of that fact. "But...I love you so much, Optimus. So much..." Optimus wrapped his arms around her and kissed her, making Saphira moan lightly as she kissed back passionately. He caressed her back gently and she rubbed his back, feeling the metal patterns at the tip of her fingers. "Your patience and understanding...I am so glad that I met you. Before I met you, I was happy to be single. I didn't care for a man. But...you are way better than a man."

Optimus was smiling as he listened to her. "Because I am not one. I am glad that I became someone you needed, Saphira. When you saved my life by choosing to extinguish Megatron's spark with the All Spark instead of mine...I did not expect you would choose my life over his. But...your instincts in that moment showed courage and I admired it..." She giggled as she had not forgotten that moment. Especially when she had stood on the edge of the building when Megatron offered to keep her alive, but she never accepted it. And she was slow glad that she didn't. "From there, learning about your past, you grew on me. I know your appearance is similar to what Elita's holoform was, but that has never been a valid reason for my attraction to you."

"I am glad. I would feel awkward if it seemed like I was...trying to live up to someone's life when I had no idea who they were." Saphira let out a soft moan as she shivered while Optimus teased the clip of her bra as it tickled against her skin gently. "But I do wonder if there was some attraction even before..."

Optimus tilted his head slightly before glancing away, which seemed to giveaway the answer. "Well...maybe there was...especially when approaching you for the first time after arriving on this world..."

"Oh, yeah...when you emerged from the mist was...I wish I could live that moment again." Saphira couldn't help but remanence in that moment. After being chased by Barricade and learning Bumblebee was not going to hurt her and he was an alien, it really felt like it was a dream. But she was glad it was not. "And when you transformed for the first time, and I got to witness each part move to the right places on your body...I wish I could relive that again. But I know...great things can't happen twice like that."

"Perhaps not in the same way, but they can happen twice. Especially if and when we have the time to do it." Optimus kissed her again and unclipped the bra, feeling the strap fall loose around Saphira's body and she shivered, squeezing her thighs together. Optimus knew she was filled with desire and he wanted to give it to her, but he would be patient. After all, she requested to repair the bond in the cab, so he would save it for then. "You still have goose bumps over your skin..."

"Because you are giving me goose bumps...your caress...your kisses..." Saphira shivered as Optimus gently grabbed the straps of the bra and slipped the bra off, making her shiver some more and she pressed her breasts against his chassis, feeling the warmth from him holoform, even if it wasn't as warm as it was from his full form. "And of course, it is still cool in here, despite the steam filling up this place."

Optimus chuckled lightly as he placed the bra down and moved his hands to caress her curves slowly. Saphira was as beautiful as she was before, maybe even more so, in Optimus's mind. Even though she had lost some weight from the flu, it wasn't bad enough that it had been noticeable, but due to being a cold location, the loss of the weight quickly can be very bad. Especially during the winter. But all Optimus could see was his beautiful sparkmate, even with her jeans still on. It didn't bother him at all.

"Let me give you more goose bumps..." Optimus leaned to kiss Saphira's neck, making her close her eyes and roll her head back as he slowly moved down to kiss her chest, tugging lightly at her skin and watching as her chest rose and fell quickly and listening to her quick heartbeat of excitement within her chest. "I want to show you how much I love you, Saphira...every single day of my life, I want to show it to you."

Saphira knew that wouldn't necessarily be possible, but she did know he would do his best. Feeling his lips trailing down her chest to the top of her breasts made her legs twitch a little and moved her thighs a little as he trailed down slowly. She clenched her jaw and let out a soft moaned as Optimus nipped and tugged at her right nipple, making her feel like she was spiralling, and she was looking it. Optimus moved slowly to the left breast, while kissing between the soft mounds, and he was smiling as he could feel the goose bumps against his lips. It amused him at how he was able to make her body react.

Moving his lips beneath her breasts, he shifted his legs so he lean easier and kiss her stomach. Watching her skin flinching at the touch of his lips kept him smiling. He knew she was completely in a trance as he kissed over her stomach. She whimpered a little as he gently circled his lips around her bellybutton, teasing the rim of the bellybutton with light nibbles and sending tingles through Saphira's body. She did not expect that kind of teasing, but she liked it, and she realized she was leaning back a lot that her head was resting on top of the buttons of the toilet, making her smile slightly in amused.

As Optimus began to kiss lowered towards her jeans, he began to tease the button and zipper, making her thighs quiver in excitement and anticipation. She did tease Optimus though as she gently shifted her thighs, pressing them against his arms and he smirked in amusement without making a response to her teasing. He gently elbowed her thighs to move them apart again as he unbuttoned her jeans and pulled the zipper down slowly, making Saphira sighed softly and she let out a low whimper.

She almost felt like asking Optimus to take her right than and there, but she had to contain herself. She could sense Optimus was feeling the exact same way as her, and he was probably feeling it worse than her. Especially since she touched the crotch plate. Her heart was racing and she swore it would break out of her chest at the moment. She twitched and whimpered as he rubbed his hand over her crotch, daring to leave the jeans on for the moment and making her wait longer. She bit her lip as she felt the twitches in her sensitive core as the familiar touches to her body lit the fire in her stomach.

She looked towards the shower before looking back at Optimus. "That shower is looking really nice right now..." Optimus glanced at the shower briefly and he could see the steam within the shower, creating a cloak that was simply inviting them. "You are keeping me from it...and it's cold..."

He hummed softly as he pressed firmer against her crotch to tease her further. "It does look extremely inviting...but it can wait a little longer, sweet gem. You don't get to get up just yet. I am sure the cold isn't that bad while you sit there on the cold porcelain lid." Saphira giggled as she grasped her own breasts and lifted her feet a little from the ground with a whine as he circled the tip of his fingers around her sensitive button. The fabric brushed against it roughly, but it felt wonderful. He began to finally to tug down her jeans and she lifted her hips so he could slide them down. Her dark, purple panties underneath were left on at the moment. He looked over her almost naked form and sighed deeply. "You are so beautiful, Saphira..." He stopped pulling the jeans for a moment to lean down and kissed her stomach. "So beautiful."

Saphira was smiling as she listened to him while he kissed her stomach. She was glad he still saw her as beautiful. A few times over the last three years she had wondered if she really was beautiful. But even Barricade has reassured her that she was indeed beautiful. Inside and out. And Saphira was glad that he would say that, as in the times she would doubt herself. She knew it was just because she has been away from humans until now, but she has been self conscious of her appearance before, though it was never so bad that she would do drastic things to herself.

Optimus leaned back and pulled the jeans down, shifting a little to move her legs together to slip the jeans off her feet. Once it was off, he folded the jeans to place them by the bra, and gently pressed Saphira's thighs apart again, moving closer on his knees while running his hands over her legs and thighs towards her panties. Saphira's eyes flutter as she kept them closed as she felt his metal fingers move closer to her core. She flinched and whimpered as he tickled her crotch by brushing the very tip of his fingers over the top of her panties. She shivered and chuckled in amusement as she knew he was still teasing her and enjoying her reactions to him, but she was not inclined to stop him. She didn't want him to stop.

Optimus circled his fingers around her core, amused by the twitching of her thighs, and ran his fingers over her thighs to the top of her panties to rub gently. She whined softly as he rubbed his fingers in a circular motion slowly, feeling the twitching beneath the fabric. He let out a low purr as he was glad she was taking this in her stride. But he did know once he brought her to the truck and they would get intimate, she might change and get nervous. He didn't want her to fear him, so he hoped this would help ease her into it.

Saphira sighed lightly in relief as Optimus grabbed the straps of the panties and tugged them down gently. Saphira felt a bit shy, moving a hand to her crotch as Optimus closed her legs to pull her panties off her feet. Optimus hummed softly in amusement to her shyness, and it was very adorable to him. He placed the panties down and spread her legs again, leaning forward to kiss the back of her hand, making her grip her right breast with her other hand. Optimus gently placed his right hand on her wrist, rubbing along it slowly before gently pulling her hand away and he leaned closer to kiss the top of her core. She shivered and whined as his lips were so close to her button, and she waited for him to caress it.

But he did not. He leaned back, and waited for a few moments for her to realize, making her sit up slightly and look at him in surprise. "Why did you stop? That was so good...keep going, Optimus. Please."

Optimus grinned in amusement at her pouty tone and expression as he stood up, gently closing her legs before sliding his arm underneath and moved his other around her waist. "My sweet gemstone...you still have a shower waiting for you. We are letting the water just run if we keep going." He kissed her lips gently as she giggled and he lifted her up and turned to the shower. "There's plenty of time to keep going. We cannot be too eager."

"Yes, we can." Saphira looked at the shower as he opened it and stepped inside. She gasped as the heat of the steam enveloped her body and he gently placed her on the ground just before the shower stream. "That feels so..." She was cut off as he turned her around to face him and Optimus kissed her, making her let out a soft moan of surprise. She smiled before stepping back and tensing for a moment as she jumped away from the stream. "You only put the hot tap on?! No wonder it is so hot in here!" Optimus just grinned at her with a playfully expression and reached around to the cold tap to turn it on. Saphira realized he had done that deliberately as a joke. "Seriously? I never thought you were a prankster...but only with me I guess. At least if I had to, I could dive right into the snow if any blisters began forming."

"A good thing you were only under for a moment. I wasn't trying to scald your skin though." She giggled at him while shaking her head. "Plus...you did say you were cold..."

She rolled her eyes and kissed him passionately. "At least I'm not the only one who likes to play dangerously." She felt a rumble in his chassis as she kissed him passionately. The water behind her quickly changed to a more manageable temperature and she stepped back, sighing as the water hit her back. Optimus followed her and they hold each other's hands while kissing passionately. "Oh...this is bringing me back to when we bonded in that amazing motel...we were in the shower like this too..."

"I feel the same." Optimus watched Saphira tilt her head so that the water would wash over her hair and it quickly became drenched from the water and the strands stick to her skin. "But this time, it will be different. I love you, Saphira."

"Yes...and it will be dreamy like before...I love you, Optimus Prime." She tilted her head back and closed her eyes as he kissed the front of her neck, making her shudder under his caress and love.

Saphira was completely in a trance now that they were in the shower. The warmth and steam around them almost felt like a small piece of heaven. The steam built a walk around them, making it seem like the world had fallen away and they were the only two left. And while she knew they would have to leave the shower to move to the truck, she didn't care. Optimus's caress has already lit the fire within her to hunger for more, and the desire to bond with him again was stronger then it was the first time. And Chicago was way at the back of her mind right now. It was almost non-existent in her mind, just as it should be.

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Smut in this Chapter

Saphira moaned as the metal lips against her lips kissed them passionately. Her back was pressed against the glass of the shower with the water of the shower gently splashing against her legs and steam circled around them like a cloud. Saphira held her arms around his shoulders caressing Optimus’s back gently, feeling every pattern of his body and the exhaust pipes behind his shoulders. Having his holoform look exactly like his full form has been amazing, and she is glad that the holoform system was damaged. It allowed her to kiss and caress Optimus like this was his full form, and she hopes that if and when the holoform gets repaired, he would choose this form more often whenever he would turn the holoform on.

His hands caress her smooth skin on her shoulders as he gently held her against the glass. They had moved from under the shower as the water was getting into Saphira’s eyes while they were kissing and it had been bothering her. Optimus was amused by the minor complaint, but he was fine with shifting so that she would be more comfortable. And they have been kissing passionately for at least five minutes. He loved Saphira so much. The love he was filling through the bond was so strong, even with the desire mixed in. He could feel hers as well. He couldn’t wait for the seamless feelings that would be able to express to each other when the bond has been fixed. It was going to be grand.

“Mmm...Optimus...” Optimus smiled as he felt her murmur against his lips as she spoke, and he leaned back as she gazed into his optics. “Is it silly that I still think I’m dreaming?” His smile widened slightly and shook his head, as he knew that Saphira would still be questioning if she was truly dreaming or not. He didn’t blame her. “It feels like one right now.”

Optimus kissed her again and lifted his right hand to her cheek to caress. “It feels like a dream for me too, sweet gemstone. I have longed to spend time with you...and while I have missed twelve months due to being unconscious, I would often look at the stars at night and I would see you.” Saphira giggled at she blushed at the compliment. “I would like to imagine my spark would fly through the sky to your heart...but I know it didn’t happen...”

Saphira chuckled softly as she kissed him and ran her arms back over his shoulders and placed her hands on his chassis. “Maybe not physically. But the fact that you have looked at the sky and thought of me when you would look at the stars fills my heart with joy and love. I never knew that. If only things were different.”

Optimus nodded in agreement as he kissed her passionately. Saphira moved her fingers against his chassis, feeling the curves and bumps of the design of his chassis and she shuddered as caressing his body was always a delight. She moved her hands down to his stomach slowly while extending her fingers slightly to tease him towards the crotch plate. She felt the rumbling in his chassis and the light purring against her lips, making her amused as he enjoyed the teasing she was giving to him right now.

Optimus kissed some more before he leaned back with a smug expression. “I think we should proceed with the shower, Saphira. We have been doing nothing but caress for...I am not sure how long...” She giggled softly as she blushed listening to him. “Allow me to wash your hair and body with my hands.”

Saphira shuddered in anticipation and stepped under the shower stream to ensure her hair was drenched enough for the shampoo. “That sounds divine, Optimus...” She ran her fingers through her hair and flinched as Optimus wrapped his arms around her from behind and she gasped as he grinds against her rear, making her grind back. “As long as you don’t find yourself distracted.”

“I am constantly distracted by you, Saphira. It is not hard when a beautiful sparkmate is in my presence...especially after three years...making up for lost time might be very difficult, but I can try.” Optimus kissed the back of her neck and moved his lips down, making her shiver and she jumped as she felt his hands over her butts briefly before sliding up the curves of her body and moving around to her breasts. “You are so beautiful...your skin is so soft...I always have to touch so lightly, as your skin feels so delicate like a feather.” Saphira sighed softly as he rubbed his thumbs around her nipples and gently tugged at them. “Especially now that my holoform system is damaged. But I know you love the feeling of my hands roaming your body...just as I love yours. It drives my processor crazy.”

Saphira closed her eyes as Optimus slowly kneeled behind her, leaving trails of kisses and nips down her back. She felt weak in the knees at the moment and she wanted to let herself fall, but she didn’t want to startle Optimus. Even if he was the reason why she was feeling weak in the knees. She could easily imagine how he would caress her should she move herself onto the ground and allowed him to take full control, and she somewhat wanted him to. But she kept herself contained as best as she could, even though the bond really wasn’t hiding the desire she was feeling well at all.

Optimus stood up just as he finished kissing her lower back and hugged her against him again before he slipped his arms from around her body walked over to the shower shelf to grab the shampoo bottle. Saphira watched him with a smile as he poured some of the shampoo into his hand and walked over, standing behind her again. She shifted from the stream of the water as he reached up to her hair and she closed her eyes slightly as he began to lather the shampoo into her hair with his fingers gently. It was a heavenly feeling as Optimus was making sure he was very careful with Saphira’s scalp. And to her, it was heavenly.

The tips of his fingers tickled slightly, but not enough to irritate her scalp. She didn’t move at all as Optimus took his time massaging the shampoo through her hair. She knew he loved to touch her hair due to how soft it was to the touch. She did wonder what fascinated him about her hair specifically, as the autobots did not even have the concern of having to wash, treat and brush hair like humans do, so she didn’t really understand the fascination. Or maybe there was a beauty about her hair that he loved about it, and he simply wanted to show her the care from the bottom of his spark. And he didn’t have to do much to show that to her.

Saphira tilted her head slightly as his fingers moved around her head gently. He didn’t say anything to her, but it was not needed with the love pouring through the bond. Saphira moaned a little and stepped back, surprising Optimus as she pressed her back against him and she smiled, knowing that he had not expected that. But he did not say anything, and proceeded with massaging the shampoo into her hair until satisfied.

He grabbed the shower head from the holder and gently moved the head close to her hair. Saphira closed her eyes in case soap found its way into the corners of them. Optimus gently moved his hand around to her chin to gently tilt her head back to prevent the soap from running down into her eyes. He didn’t want to cause any kind of discomfort to his sparkmate, as he knew she would be very unhappy with him if he let that happen.

Optimus watched the soap run from Saphira’s hair and he gently moved his fingers through her hair to help rinse the shampoo out of the strands. He felt the softness between his fingers and he could smell the rising floral aroma. It was very pleasant, and being a part of the process of ensuring that Saphira’s hair would be clean, soft and shiny was very enjoyable. He made sure that all the shampoo was out of Saphira’s hair due to it being very long. Once he was satisfied, he put the head back up and grabbed the conditioner bottle.

Saphira reopened her eyes and smiled, heading him squeeze of the conditioner into his hand to begin massaging it into her hair. Saphira sighed happily as she felt Optimus massage the conditioner into the strands of her hair. She knew that while he has never had hair, he was exceptional when it came to lathering shampoo and conditioner in her hair. Maybe it was from observing how she did it, but Saphira loved it. And she couldn’t wait for him to lather her skin with body wash. It made her excited to feel his hands over her skin. And she knew that was probably why he would do it last.

It didn’t take long for Optimus to finish massaging the conditioner into her hair, and Saphira shuddered in excitement. Optimus wrapped his arms around her from behind and kissed the back of her neck, running his hands to caress her breasts and stomach again before stepping away to grab the loofah and pour the body wash onto it. Optimus hummed softly and began to lather the body wash onto her skin, and wrapped his left arm around Saphira’s waist to caress her stomach slowly and teasing her by rubbing her lower abdomen, making her squeeze her thighs in anticipation.

Saphira wanted to press herself against him, but she had decided to wait patiently as she knew Optimus would take his time. His started with the back of her shoulders and moved her hair gently to prevent her hair from being covered in soap. He let out a low purr as he moved the loofah around and lathered her skin, making her shiver and her legs twitched and quivered as she urge to just sit down was getting too hard to ignore.

Saphira turned slightly to look at Optimus with a smile. “I want to sit on the ground while you lather my body…” He looked at her in surprise and she giggled at him. “You are making me weak in the knees, Optimus…and it’s getting too hard to stand…so I think I am going to sit and let you caress my body with that loofah and your hands…”

Optimus smiled at her and he understood. “Allow me to help…” He shifted his arms to her waist and back immediately, and Saphira let herself drop, which somewhat startled Optimus, but not enough to be alarmed. He moved Saphira to sit by the tile wall, making sure she was facing it so he could continue washing her back. She giggled as she thought that was funny as she rested her cheek on the tile wall and watched Optimus as he got onto his knees to lather her body. “You are driving my processor wild, Saphira…”

She giggled softly. “And you drive my heart wild too…” She lifted her right leg up slowly between Optimus’s legs and rubbed the back of her calf against the crotch plate gently. Optimus grunted lightly, glancing at her eyes with a knowing smirk as she gave him a mischievous grin. “But we can’t help it…”

“No…we cannot…” Optimus’s optics flutter from the girl’s caress against his crotch plate, which was causing the pulse of his spark to beat wildly. And he ran the loofah down Saphira’s back to her legs, gently pushing her right let down. “But…you might have to be careful in this position, Saphira. If you keep teasing, it will be hard for me to contain myself.”

“A threat, huh? Well…we always find ourselves in danger…this is no different to me.” She giggled and shivered as Optimus ran his right hand over thighs gently before moving up between her legs, rubbing over her core. “Ooh…fuck…” She shivered and rolled her head, pressing her forehead against the tiles. “That feels…or I just haven’t touched for so long it feels so good…”

“I think you simply have missed my touch.” Optimus pressed his fingers between the sensitive lips of her core, rubbing between them as Saphira let out whines and moans of pleasure. “I love you, Saphira…” He kissed her back as he splashed some water over her body to wash off the soap.

Saphira shifted onto her side and lifted her thigh as he moved the loofah around to her stomach. Her eyes fluttered as Optimus lathered more of her skin, while caressing between her legs. She was breathing deeply through her moaning and she looked at him as he was clearly still focused on lathering her whole body with the body wash. He glanced at her as she smiled at him and lifted her right hand to place on his cheek to caress with her thumb gently.

He tilted his head slightly to press his cheek into her hand as she caressed gently before moving her hand down slowly to his neck. She shifted a little to sit up some more as she gazed directly into his optics, and he gazed into her eyes. He never stopped lathering her body as he moved to lather her left arm next. She watched the steam circle around his strong, handsome form and she was so glad she could enjoy this with him right now.

Moving her hand over his chassis, she paused a moment to caress gently. She loved caressing his chassis due to how smooth and strong it felt against her fingers. She circled her fingers gently and jumped as Optimus dared to tease the entrance to her canal with his index finger, making her blush a deep red as she glanced down in surprise. She had not expected that, and felt a slight sense of nervousness, as an intrusion was something she hasn’t had for a while. But she knew Optimus would ensure that he would take those fears away.

Optimus had senses her brief moment of fear and he leaned forward to kiss her gently, while circling her entrance and feeling her legs quiver again. She smiled against his lips as he sent comfort and love through the bond. “Do not fear, Saphira. I will not hurt you. I love you, and I want you to enjoy this with me. And I know you will, my sweet gem. I promise to take my time enticing you, and calming you enough…and you will enjoy it.”

Saphira knew that she would but it was just a natural reaction after so long. She loved Optimus with all her heart, so feeling nervous when he would touch her in a way he had used to felt wrong to her. But she couldn’t stop the nervous feeling from something teasing her entrance. With Optimus’s patience and caress, she had no doubt that she would be okay. Especially as she trailed her hands down Optimus’s stomach towards his hips, and feeling the light vibrations of his body.

Optimus moved the loofah to her right arm to lather it, even as she trailed her hand down. He knew where she was going and he was okay with it. He was teasing her sensitive core, so it was only fair she would do the same with his. And he knew that by doing this, it would help with some of the fear she was feeling about the intimacy they both would partake in soon. But he wouldn’t push her, even if it was part of the bonding process.

When Saphira felt the edges of Optimus’s crotch plate, she smiled as the vibrations in his body grew stronger and he visibly shuddered. He kissed her again and began to kiss her cheek and trail down to her neck while moving the loofah to her legs again to rub over them. Saphira moaned softly as she felt his kissing and she moved her hand over his crotch plate, pressing her palm against the flat, smooth surface. She could feel heat rising from it and vibrations underneath. It was slightly amusing and she began to feel around the plate to find where she can remove it. It didn’t take long for her to find the clasps holding the plate in place, and she cautiously removed them slowly. Optimus’s body quivered in anticipation as he finished lathering her body and placed the loofah down to rub his hands over her body to gently rub in the soap, and splash water on her skin to rinse it off.

When she felt the last clasp, she held the plate gently when she removed the clasp and pulled the plate off. She had been so focused on Optimus’s optics as they were locked on each other before she leaned to kiss him and he shuffled forward, making her lay back to press against the tiles, which felt cool to her skin and made her feel goose bumps form over her skin. She moaned softly as she placed the plate down to the side and moved her hand between his legs, feeling a long, thick, serpentine shape of a throbbing length in her hand.

She couldn’t help but look down, though the sudden movement caused herself to hit her forehead against Optimus’s chin, making her grimace in surprise, and Optimus leaned back immediately. “Oh, I am terribly...” Optimus paused when he heard the sound of laughter instead of crying from Saphira. She wasn’t hurt, she was just surprised she had done that. “Oh...you aren’t hurt?” She shook her head immediately. “It looked like it did.”

“Trust me, you would know if it did. I was just in a hurry to see your...” She looked down as she ran her hand up and down his length, and she now saw a dark red length that was different to the shape of a human length. It was slender and smooth, and it seemed to be a little sharp at the tip, but when she touched it, it was soft. “Spike.”

Optimus was intaking and exhaling heavily as her caresses along is length were gently, and he glanced down briefly with a smile. “I realize that. And it is amusing too...mmm...that feels good...”

Saphira smiled as she was very glad. Optimus was still rubbing his hands around her body as she caressed his spike in her hand. She twisted her hand around the length as she moved it up and down. She stared at it and she was glad that the shape of it would make it easier for it to enter her canal. She gasped as she felt the muscles within clenching with eagerness at the very thought of inviting it within her tight entrance. She didn’t know if she would still be nervous once they both are ready, but she probably would be. It was not going to be unusual, but Optimus would guide her through it like he had the first time.

Saphira glanced at Optimus when he suddenly leaned forward and he kissed the crook of her neck, making her sigh softly and tilt her head as he nipped and pressed his lips together, making her giggle a little as it tickled to her. He groaned lightly as he moved his right hand to her left breast to caress gently while moving his left hand between her legs. She shivered as his fingers and palm caress over her sensitive core, before he rubbed his fingers between the soft, sensitive lips. They quiver against Optimus’s fingers and she moved her legs wider slightly in anticipation.

Optimus was amused as he felt her legs widen for him. He shuddered some more as she rubbed her thumb over the tip of his spike, and he intakes deeply as he kissed and nipped her neck some more before moving down her chest. He circled the entrance to her canal with his index finger, and Saphira flinched with a spike of fear within her again. Optimus was unsurprised, but he teased the entrance to her canal to allow her the time she needed. And it took a few minutes before the nerves faded, until they would come back when he would press his finger into her canal briefly and moved it back out.

Saphira whimpered as she was getting frustrated with herself and she felt she was going to ruin the moment. She moved her hand from his spike, which Optimus didn’t seem to have a problem with as she moved her hands to the back of his head. As Optimus was kissing her chest right above her breasts, she gently held his head against her chest, which made Optimus smile and chuckle at her, as he could hear the racing heart within her chest.

Saphira took deep breathes as holding him close seemed to make her feel a bit better, especially as he pushed his finger into her entrance again. She felt better and she smiled to herself as the fear was melting away. “Sorry…I’m making this harder unintentionally…” Optimus hummed softly as he kissed the side of her left breast before he leaned back, and she let go of him and they look at each other. “But thank you…I am…ooh…” She whimpered and gasped as he pushed his finger deeper into her canal, and her fears were all washed over with pleasure. “Oh…O-Optimus…”

Optimus cut off Saphira by kissing her lips, and Saphira let out a moan against his lips with a whine as he slowly began to move his finger back and forth, making her whole body quiver. She reached down to his spike again to grasp it, making him shudder and he grasped her other hand with his free hand, rubbing his thumb over the back of her hand to give some extra reassurance to help any leftover fear to fall away. His effort to ensure she would not feel any fear made Saphira feel more special, and she was so glad this was happening.

Saphira stroked her hand along Optimus’s spike roughly as he slowly increased the pace of the movement of his index finger in her canal. She and Optimus continued to kiss passionately as they were now feeling the pure ecstasy of the love they had for each other. And Saphira was just overly thrilled with how gentle Optimus has been. She loved him so much, and that he has been able to put up with her nervousness and had to take his time just was something she would never be able to get over.

Saphira whimpered as her legs quiver as Optimus continued to move his index finger and rubbed his thumb over her sensitive button between her sensitive lips. She moved her lips away from his so she could catch her breath. She turned her head away and Optimus began to kiss her cheek, making her smile. “O-Optimus…we should go to the truck…uh…” She tensed as Optimus stopped moving his finger for a moment, only to caress the muscles within, making her twitch and tighten her grip on his hand and spike. “Uh…I-I almost w-w-want you to take me right here, right now…” Optimus smiled against her skin as he felt the same way. “But…ah…I think…y-you are pushing me to the edge already…”

“I know, just as…uh…you are pushing me to mine…” Optimus tensed slightly as Saphira’s grip around his spike tightened a little more as she stroked roughly. Small droplets of the pale, translucent interfacial fluid dripped from the tip and washed away from the water. “Uh…and I think we should before we wash up and dry off so I can take you to my cab.”

Saphira nodded in agreement as she couldn’t ignore the plight of her body wanting to release. And Optimus was making sure she would go through with it. She moaned deeply as she took deep breaths, and rolled her hips as her muscles clenched down in Optimus’s finger while he resumed moving it and he continued rubbing her sensitive button between the lips of her core. She wanted to hold back the need for release, but she couldn’t for too long.

Saphira’s whole body tensed and Optimus pressed his thumb firmly on her sensitive button, making her gasp and her whole body shuddered violently as she let out whines of pleasure, and she didn’t realize this caused her grip on his spike to tighten more, but Optimus didn’t find pain as she felt the hot interfacial fluid spraying from the tip onto her hand and arm as she tried focusing on breathing.

She locked her eyes with his optics as the two of them could not help but gaze at each other with love in their eyes. Saphira stared at him as she caught her breath before she kissed him passionately. Optimus moved his arms around her after moving his hands away from her core and she moved her arms around his too as they hug while he shifted both of them gently under the stream of the water and Saphira sighed as the warmth of the water was welcoming.

Saphira leaned back from Optimus with a smile. “You might have to help me to my feet…they are so weak…” He grinned at her and kissed her lips again. “You really know how to make me feel…so special to you, Optimus…I want to bond with you again…and…if only there was a way to stop it from happening again, I would love to know.”

“Hmm…unfortunately, I do not know. If you were a Cybertronian, maybe the bond wouldn’t be weak. But I am afraid I cannot turn you into one, and even if it were possible, I wouldn’t want you to find yourself in the same position as us.” He kissed her again before he shifting to stand up. “But I do believe this second time should make it more permanent. It will feel stronger this time, just as a warning. But you will still be in euphoria.” That sounded wonderful. Optimus grabbed both of her hands to help her to her feet. “Now…time to get you dry so the water won’t turn into icicles upon leaving the warmth of the bedroom.”

Saphira giggled softly as she doubted that would happen, and she turned to look for his crotch plate, but it wasn’t where she left it and she frowned. “Um…where is the plate?”

“I turned that part of the holoform off. It isn’t necessary right now.” Saphira looked at Optimus in surprise as she didn’t think that he could do that. He winked at her before he reached around to finally turn the shower off. “Don’t worry, it is something we all can do if we want.”

Saphira giggled a little as that was definitely not expected. “Well…I like that you continue to surprise me, Optimus. I never thought it would be possible to find someone who could do that, but here I am.” Optimus opened the shower door, and as the hair rushed in from the outside, Saphira shivered immediately. “Ooh…it’s cold out there…”

Optimus chuckled as he reached out to grab a towel and wrapped it around her body before he leaned down and scooped her up, making her shriek as he held her in a bridal style and carried her out of the shower. “I’ll make it quick, especially since we will be opening that window to get to me cab.”

That was true. It would be so much colder outside, and Saphira wasn’t really looking forward to it, but it would be quick at least. Optimus lowered her feet onto the bath mat and quickly dried off her body, and his own holoform at the same time. Her hair would need to be hair dried with the dryer, which Optimus would turn on after drying it as much as he could with the towel. While he was making sure that Saphira wouldn’t be cold for too long, he wasn’t rushing either. It was nice, and Saphira was happy.

He did grab her robe to put on her to protect her from the cold, even if it wasn’t the best thing to wear right now. Once her hair was dry, he picked her up again and carried her to the window. Saphira looked to the window to see Optimus’s truck still parked close to the window. She shivered in excitement and anticipation as she knew what was going to happen. She couldn’t wait for them to be bonded again, and she would ensure that she would support Optimus through to Chicago. Even if they had no idea what would be ahead of them.

Optimus opened the window and the rush of the winter’s chill made her shiver and clutch tightly around Optimus’s shoulders as he stepped outside quickly. The door opened and he lifted her up onto the passenger seat, and Saphira quickly climbed into the back to escape the air as his holoform quickly climbed inside and closed the door. Saphira shivered some more as she waited for her body to adjust to the warmth within the cab, and she looked at Optimus as he stepped closer to her, and her heart was racing again. The desire and love in his eyes made her blush a deep red, and she couldn’t wait. He leaned forward to kiss her passionately and she laid back on the chair as he gently positioned himself between her legs, though he only wanted to kiss her for now as they are both completely in a trance with each other. And the vibrations around Saphira from Optimus’s whole frame around her was amusing, and she could hear the loud pulsing from his spark beneath the seat. It was wholesome, and she was glad that they both will renew their bond very soon.

Chapter Text

Sex Scene in this Chapter

Saphira moaned softly as she caressed her hands along Optimus’s back as their lips were locked in a passionate battle with each other at this time. They both were in a complete trance with each other and Saphira enjoyed the sound of the pulses from his spark beneath the seats as they take their time kissing each other passionately. Inside this cab, she was safe. She was safe from everything that would try to harm her and Optimus. She loved him with her entire being, and she wished that there was a way to lengthen her own life. She knew her own life was much shorter than Optimus’s, but maybe this renewal of their bond would do that. But she did not know at this time.

Optimus’s arms had slipped under Saphira’s robe and were wrapped around her back. They had not yet bothered to remove the robe as they both were just focused on each other at the moment, and Optimus also did not want to rush it. But the strong desire he could feel from Saphira through the bond told him she would be ready when the time came. For the moment, he simply wanted to kiss and hold her while she would enjoy the warmth from within the cab.

And Saphira was also completely okay with the fact that Optimus just wanted this moment with her. She didn’t want to rush into it either. She knew it would make her nervousness rush back if she rushed into it, so it was good they were taking their time. And she was excited about it, but there was always the nerves in the back of her mind. But she knew Optimus would ensure she would forget about her nervousness just as he had done before.

Optimus moved his hands around her stomach and slowly slid them up to her shoulders to gently move the robe off. Saphira smiled against his lips and immediately moved her arms so he could slip the robe off. He moved the sleeves of robe slowly off her arms, making Saphira chuckle softly as the sensation was both pleasant and a little ticklish at the same time. Once the sleeves were off, Saphira wrapped her arms around Optimus’s shoulders again as they both continue to kiss passionately. Optimus’s optics were soft as they gaze into her eyes. Saphira loved his optics as the way they would change shade and brightness depending on his mood was fascinating to her.

Optimus ran his fingers up Saphira’s arms and down the curves of her body, trailing the shape gently to her hips, and ran them back to her breasts. Saphira shivered in delight and she smiled against his lips. His thumbs circle around her nipples to further tease her, and she moved her right hand down his side, trailing slowly towards his spike again, though stopped as she reached his hips, feelings the ridges of the metal plates as she rubbed her fingers around the surface slowly and gently. Optimus let out a low rumble, which came from both within his holoform and the full form around Saphira, making the cab vibrate lightly.

Optimus pulled his lips back from hers, making Saphira whimpered lightly while she took deep breaths and gazed back at him with love in her eyes. He stared at into her eyes silently for a few minutes before his smile turned remorseful. “You really are something, Saphira. Not many would find it in themselves to forgive like you have.” Saphira smiled at him, hearing the remorse in his tone. “I can’t help but…but think that I am not worthy of you…especially with all the things that have happened.”

Saphira moved her hands to his cheeks, cupping them gently with her palm, and stared at his optics. “I think I should be saying that. After all…I’m a human. I’m…I’m not like you…” Saphira’s smile softened as she stared at his optics. "I'm not a transformer…so…I am not strong, like you. Hell, I’m not strong like a soldier…I might be brave, but I think it’s more foolish bravery than what it should be.” Optimus hummed softly as he listened to her, gently moving his right hand down her hips to her thigh, rubbing gently on the inside and feeling her legs quivering gently. “Which is why I think I am not as smart as I would like to believe. But…the one thing I do know is that I am very lucky. I am really not worthy of someone like you, Optimus. Maybe the Primes who protected the Matrix so long ago might believe that I am, but…I still think that I am not worthy.”

“Hmm…” He moved his hand gently to Saphira’s damp core again and began to caress over it slowly. “I think when we feel that we are unworthy, we are simply humble in ourselves…” Saphira let out a light moan as her core was extra sensitive at this time, but her eyes were locked on his optics. “We both feel unworthy to each other. You feel unworthy due to who you due to being a human, and I feel unworthy due to what has happened because of meeting me...it shows where we are on the inside. You will always be my sparkmate, and feeling like I am unworthy maybe something I feel, but my love will never fade.” Optimus kissed her lips again, feeling her smiling against the metal lips as they kissed passionately for a moment before he moved his lips from hers briefly. “But as much as we both feel this way, our destinies had been intertwined long before we met, Saphira. And I think that alone shows we are meant to be together.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. “Yes...it seems that way...” Saphira thought back briefly to her dream as she pondered on the fact that her ancestors could have met older Cybertronians long before Everett came into contact with Jetfire. Especially since the being in her dreams seemed to know more about the past of her ancestors than she did. “And despite the big differences between us, I am so grateful that you and I are together, Optimus. As unworthy as I am as a human, I am glad that my personality and everything that I am within is a bigger reason to be worthy than the creature that I am.”

Optimus kissed her lips gently with a smile, agreeing with everything that she had said. “Same as myself, Saphira. I love you so much.” He pressed firmer against her core, rubbing between the lips of her sensitive her and Saphira shivered with whimpers of desire. “You are so beautiful...” He leaned back to gaze over Saphira’s body, causing her to blush and run her hand down his side and between his legs, feeling Optimus’s throbbing length against her hand. He shivered and the cable shuddered lightly around them too. “My sweet gemstone.”

Saphira whimpered softly and her thighs shuddered as she felt Optimus’s fingers teasing her entrance again. She didn’t feel nervousness at this time. She rolled her hips against his hand, feeling the desire to feel his spike within her growing, even though there is some nervousness still within her. But as he teased her entrance some more by pushing his index finger in slightly and pulling back out to teasing some more, Saphira just smiled while she stroked his thick, long, throbbing spike with a firm grip.

Optimus groaned deeply as their lips lock together again and resumed their passionate battle with each other. Saphira closed her eyes as she focused on relaxing her body so that she and Optimus could move forward with the bonding process. She knew her body was anticipating it right now, despite the anxiety she was feeling within her. However, Optimus was paying very close attention to her feelings at this time through the bond. And she thoroughly appreciated it.

Saphira moved her lips away from Optimus’s to take a deep breath after a few minutes. She quivered as Optimus’s teases to her entrance continued, and she grinds a little against his fingers before he pushed his index finger into her entrance and into her tunnel again. Saphira whimpered and arched her back, clenching her muscles on him and tightening her grip around his spike as she felt her pleasure spreading through her veins. It tingled and her cheeks were blushing deeply as she smiled while she endured the feeling.

She looked at Optimus’s optics for a moment and she suddenly shifted, pulling her legs up as she sat up. The movement surprised Optimus, and he pulled his finger from her canal as she shifted herself around, laying between Optimus’s legs and looking up at him with a teasing smirk before looking at the throbbing spike now in front of her face. Optimus smiled upon now realizing why she had changed position, as he had worried at first, but he relaxed as he leaned back a little as he enjoyed the caress of his throbbing, sensitive length.

Saphira stared at the dark, red length for a couple minutes while stroking it before opening her mouth to lick the tip and all up and down the entire length of the spike. Rumbles and purrs of pleasure vibrated around her as she took the time to give some pleasure to Optimus as she felt she had not been giving her fair share. And she knew he was completely fine with it too, and she was glad that he was.

Once she licked the entire length, she placed her lips around the tip and slowly lifted her head to engulf the length, causing Optimus’s whole being to shudder around her, and she smiled as the hot, throbbing length glides over her tongue. She licked it as she began to suck and move her head. She watched Optimus bracing his holoform against the seat with his hands, and his optics were flickering and quivering from the pleasure, especially after already having released earlier.

Optimus huffed and intakes heavily before he leaned down slowly, careful to not move his length from Saphira’s mouth or move his hips, as he didn’t want to unintentionally hurt her. Despite the serpentine shape of the length, it was still very thick and strong, so it would be easy to hurt her unintentionally. Optimus gently placed his hands on her thighs, and she immediately spread them for him and he rubbed his fingers over her quivering core. He felt her shuddering beneath him, and he leaned down to kiss the sensitive button while slowly pushing his right index finger into her canal again.

Saphira moaned and rolled her hips upward slightly as she kept herself focused on her task. She moved her head up and down along his length while sucking on the throbbing length. She did taste some of the hot, sour droplets of interfacial fluid on her tongue, which made her grimace slightly, but she did not stop what she was doing at this time. Her eyes were half closed as Optimus’s finger moved slowly within her canal while he nibbled and kiss over her quivering core. She loved the teasing from Optimus, but the way he caressed and ensured she would feel it as gently and as sensual as possible was something else.

Optimus moved his lips to her abdomen, kissing her skin gently as he continued to move his finger within her canal, feeling the muscles around it clenching down on him. Optimus could tell that Saphira’s body was ready for him. But he wanted her heart to be ready for him. And her eagerness to pleasure him and desire for him was definitely a sign, but he knew that he needed to support her through the bond. He kissed over her skin and kissed her thighs as well, feeling them quiver in anticipation.

Optimus rolled his index finger in a circular motion within Saphira’s canal, and she moaned against his throbbing spike in her mouth. He smiled while the cab around them vibrated from the rumbling and purrs within. He intakes heavily, glancing down at Saphira with love in his optics. “Saphira…my sweet gemstone…I think we have prolonged it enough…” Saphira looked at him and she nodded, gripping his spike as she sucked hard one last time before slowly sliding it out of her mouth. Optimus’s optics quiver and he let out a light chuckle. “Thank you, Saphira…I did not think you would be bold today, but I am glad. You make me feel…all sorts of feelings…”

Saphira smirked as she couldn’t disagree. “You make me feel the same way, Optimus. Ohhh…you really know how to…caress me…” She shivered as she rubbed his spike before he shifted, pulling his finger from her canal and she whimpered softly. “O-Optimus…I-I…” She felt nervousness fill her being as he gently shifted between her legs. Once there, he rubbed his hand over her core again and she gazed into his optics. “I…I have kind of forgotten what this will feel like again…but…I-I am nervous…”

Optimus leaned down and kissed her lips, gently cutting her off as he knew she was nervous. He could sense it through the bond, and he wanted to soothe that fear from her. “I know. It has been a few years since we have been able to do this. It is only natural for you to be nervous about something you haven’t experienced for some time.” Saphira smiled as she listened to him speak lovingly to her. “But you know I would never hurt you. I love you so much, Saphira.” He kissed her lips again, grabbing the girl’s hand with his while his other hand rubbed over her core. “I am right here with you. I am all around you, and I will always be with you through the bond.”

Saphira’s eyes fill with tears as she listened to him and she swallowed, trying to push the nervousness away. "I know...I love you so much, Optimus. And despite my nervousness, I want you.” He smiled as he listened to her. “But…be gentle…um…I know this won’t be my first time with you, but…it will still feel a bit like it.”

Optimus kissed her lips again, moving his hand from her core as he shifted his hips and Saphira tensed upon feeling the head of his length against her core. He gently moved his hips to caress the length along her core as a way to try and get her past her fears. “I will be gentle, Saphira. I love you with all my spark. Seeing you hurt…if I were the one to be inflicting pain upon you, I would shame myself for the rest of my life. So I will never hurt you.”

“Aside from maybe the occasional misdirection,” Saphira responded teasingly with a smirk and Optimus rolled his optics as he knew exactly what she meant. “But I highly doubt that is going to even happen again.”

“No…it will not.” Optimus kissed Saphira again and he gently tightened his grip on her hand gently, and moved his other hand up along her curves gently. He was still moving his hips gently to rub his length against her core before she flinched upon feeling the tip against her entrance. “I promise to not do something like that again without telling you, Saphira. I love you…and I embrace your whole being to bond with me again as my sparkmate.”

Saphira took deep breaths as she felt the head of his length against her entrance, and she focused on relaxing as much as she could. She wanted it, but she was also nervous. She smiled at Optimus as he gazed into her eyes. “I embrace you as well. Proceed, Optimus…” She gasped as Optimus immediately and gently pushed his length into her canal. As soon as it began to fill the tunnel, Saphira gritted her teeth and threw her head back. “Oh, fuck! Ooh…I definitely have forgotten…y-you seem bigger…”

Optimus let out a low chuckle of amusement as he slowly pushed his length deeper into her canal. Saphira moaned and panted as her canal was filled with the length, and he stopped only when he couldn’t push further. “Indeed, though I do know my human form of my holoform may have felt different too. But I doubt you remember that.” Optimus did not dare move his hips as Saphira was focused on keeping herself calm, though her nervousness had faded some. “You are so beautiful…take your…”

Saphira placed her index finger on his lips as she looked at his optics and smiled at him. “Optimus…I need you…I maybe nervous, but I should be fine if you…proceed…” Optimus stared at her eyes as he focused on the feelings through the bond. Saphira definitely felt the desire for this, but it was the nervousness she was feeling that made Optimus worried. However, she was also confident as she kissed him and he slowly began to move his hips, making Saphira moan against his lips and pull away. “Ooh…” Saphira immediately felt the pleasure within her core as he slowly thrust his hips. “That feels…so good…”

Optimus was pleased as he had worried about how she would react upon him moving his hips. But as he thrusts gently, her nervousness was melting away enough for Optimus to feel more relaxed and he kissed her. He made sure to keep a hold of her hand too, caressing the back of her hand with his thumb as they kiss passionately. Saphira’s light moans against his lips at least reassured him that this was okay, and he would wait for her.

Saphira began to grind her hips against his length, encouraging Optimus to move his hips faster against her, which he quickly obliged. When he began to thrust faster, Saphira threw her head back and arched her back with whimpers and whines of pleasure. She felt her nervousness melt away completely and she smiled as she completely indulged in the pleasure and love from Optimus. And she felt happy tears filling her eyes as she was so glad that she agreed to renew their bond.

“Optimus…” She grabbed his other hand with hers, and they both slip their fingers between each other as they gaze lovingly at each other. She glanced at his chassis as it was started to glow again. “Now that is familiar…”

Optimus nodded in agreement as he leaned down at kissed her lips again. “Indeed…though it might be a little more different…”

Saphira raised an eyebrow, only to jump in surprise as the floor beside the chair seemed to open suddenly, and Saphira gasped as she was met with the bright light and warm of Optimus’s spark. She stared at it in shock and looked back at his holoform. “Optimus? What…this is…” Saphira gasped as she felt the sense of a familiar warmth spreading through her body, though the feeling was stronger and it tingled straight down to her bones. She shivered and goose bumps covered her whole skin. “Ooh…th-this is…AH!” She suddenly wrapped her legs around Optimus’s waist, making him smile now that she was really holding onto him. “O-Optimus…w-w-wow…my mind…it feels like…I-I am seeing...the sun around us..."

Optimus purred gently as he kissed her lips again. “That is just my spark reaching out to your heart, Saphira. It will feel like that, but you will not feel like you will be blinded. Except by love.” Saphira giggled softly as she endured the kisses he was giving her. “Focus on it as best as you, Saphira. I love you with all my spark. And feeling each other intertwining with each other again…ah…it is beautiful to me…and you are so beautiful. Your veins are even glowing slightly from it.”

Huh? My veins?

Saphira looked at her right arm out of curiosity, and she widened her eyes in surprise. Optimus wasn’t kidding. She could faintly see her veins glowing a gold aura, which was not what she expected. She looked down at her chest, and she saw the light was stronger there. She smiled as it was not expected, but it was pleasant and she loved it. She could feel that this bonding was stronger, and she loved the feeling of this heavenly feeling.

She looked up at Optimus and kissed his lips passionately again, pressing her body against his and grinds against his length as he thrusts his hips into her. Her muscles clench down on Optimus’s spike, and she could feel the hot, throbbing length within her canal. She loved him so much, and she wanted to complete the bond as quickly as possible. But she also wanted to feel the time it takes for Optimus to bond with her. She was very happy right now, and she kissed him with as much passion as she could give.

Optimus felt the passion and desire within his sparkmate. The burning fire she had for Optimus was so strong. He kissed back with the same passion as their lips fight passionately against each other, only pulling back when Saphira needed a moment to catch her breath, before resuming their kissing. Saphira moaned and whimpered against his lips as they kiss. Feeling Optimus’s metal lips against hers always felt pleasant. Despite being metal, it was still soft. Even in his full form, the lips were soft and she loved feeling them on her lips.

And the energy spreading through her whole being really felt amazing. She was doing her best to focus on reaching back out to the bond as well, in the hopes she would do her part in making their bond stronger than it was before. After all, she did not want to feel the bond going cold again. She loved Optimus so much, and feeling the bond go cold and thinking he had perished hurt her, and she would never forget that feeling.

Saphira moaned as she felt her pleasure rising again within her, and she whimpered softly against Optimus’s lips before pulling away to take a deep breath and gaze into his optics. “O-Optimus…I love you…y-y-your spark around me right now, it…ah, ooh…” She shivered as Optimus was moving his hips a little faster again, catching her by surprise, but she was thoroughly enjoying it. “Ooohhh…y-y-you are driving me crazy…yes…harder, please…”

Optimus purred softly as he complied with her request and Saphira let out a loud moan of pleasure. He himself could feel his own pleasure rising, and releasing into her was a desire he had within him. But he was still taking his time. Well, as best as he could, since Saphira was grinding hard against him, even with her legs still locked around his waist. And he could sense her growing need to release too, so he was mindful of that as sharing the release at the same time was always great.

Saphira tightened her grip around Optimus’s hands as the intensity of the pleasure she was feeling was growing, and she grinds her hips against him as hard as she could while also moving her hips in time with Optimus. Saphira moved her lips from his as she needed to breath and she giggled as Optimus kissed over her cheeks and neck as he didn’t want to stop kissing her, but  he didn’t want her to not breath. She closed her eyes to focus on the bond that was strengthening within her.

The feeling of the bond growing stronger was a feeling that was extremely hard to describe, since the bond almost carried a magical element to it. But it was really an essence of Optimus’s spark that was reaching out and connecting with her body. Even in her brain was rewired only due to the connection she had with Optimus. And she was excited as they should now have telepathic communication with each other once the bond was complete. Saphira was glad that they would be able to communicate seamlessly now, and she couldn’t wait for renewal of the bond to be complete.

Saphira opened her eyes slightly to gaze at Optimus’s optics. His optics locked onto her eyes as soon as he saw that she reopened them and he smiled at her lovingly. Her cheeks heating up as she gazed into his optics. He is so handsome, and Saphira’s smile widened as she stared at him. “I love you, Optimus Prime. Thank you...I am so happy to renew the bond with you...” She tensed as she was struggling to hold back the need for release. “Ah...I need to...I want...I want to be bonded completely now...ah, oohhh...my body feels like it’s on fire...in a delicious way.”

Optimus let out a low chuckle of amusement and lowered his head to her right breast and extended his metal tongue to lick over her nipple. The metal plates on the tongue made it feel rough and ticklish on her sensitive nipple, making her shudder and whine in pleasure. “I can feel everything you are feeling, so I agree, my sweet gem.” She gave him a grin as she was amused by the teasing. He growled lightly and shifted his head back up to kiss her lips before she pulled away to focus on breathing. “I love you too, Saphira Dawn. You are my...sparkmate...my whole world just wants to revolve around you. I gladly pledge my spark to you once again, my sweet gemstone. Prepare yourself...”

Saphira yelped lightly as Optimus began moving his hips faster, and she shuddered as being able to focus on the bond became near impossible. She whimpered and moaned loudly as feeling each hump he made into her canal sent sparks of pleasure all through her body. Her muscles clenching on his spike couldn’t stop him, and she bucked her body against him as she felt her release rising and she struggled to hold back due to the intensity of the pleasure.

Optimus was grunting lightly as he too was feeling the intensity  and now that the bond was already stronger and her own feelings of pleasure seemed to melt with his, it made the entire experience feel even greater than he has ever felt in the past. It was the intensity that was making him hold back as much as he could. But she was bucking underneath him, the movement of her body against his spike made it harder for him to resist, and they both look at each other with intense gazes of love and desire.

They said nothing, as they didn’t have to. Optimus leaned down to kiss Saphira’s lips again for a few moments before leaning back and his optics quiver in pleasure as he tightened his grip slightly around Saphira’s hands. He was mindful to not crush them as he could still do that. She wasn’t paying attention to that as she focused on the growing pleasure while breathing deeply through her whimpers and moans. She bucked again as she pleasure finally reached its tipping point.

Saphira arched her back, pressing her shoulders into the seat, moaning loudly as she shuddered violently. Optimus groaned as he felt the muscles clenching tightly around his spike and he pushing the tip as far as he could and his body shuddered, feeling the rush of interfacial fluid spraying from the head of his spike into Saphira’s womb. She smiled as she felt the hot fluid deep within her body, and she took deep breaths as she felt relief, but also happiness. His chassis stopped glowing, and the floor had closed, so there no glow from his spark chamber.

But that didn’t matter. Saphira took deep breaths as Optimus intakes heavily while he gently laid his forehead on her right shoulder. She smiled as she thought it was quite adorable for him to do that. And as she relaxed, she gasped as she realized just how clearly she could feel Optimus’s emotions. She could feel his weariness, his contentment and love just as though it was her own. She knew it was his because she was only feeling weariness right now. But she immediately filled her side of the bond with love, making Optimus turn his head slightly to kiss the crook of her neck.

“It has been done, Saphira. I love you.” Saphira widened her eyes in both shock and happiness to hear his voice in her mind. It was so gentle and cautious with how he spoke as he didn’t want to startle her. It made her so happy. “It feels so much stronger now.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. “I still can’t believe it...I...wow...everything feels clear...better than it was before. We should have done this at the emerald field before it was destroyed...maybe it would have saved us a lot of time.” Saphira turned her head slightly to kiss his cheek and she relaxed her head back. “But we can’t change the past...my goodness...my whole body is tingling...it feels so strange, but good. I love it!”

“I feel the same. And yes, we should have done that. I love you, Saphira. I...” Optimus paused as he let out a low grunt as he felt another small ejaculation from his spike, which surprised him. Saphira giggled as she felt it too and he leaned back with an embarrassed expression. “Uh...that doesn’t normally happen...but you are still squeezing a little on me.” She nodded as she definitely was. Optimus began to slowly pull his spike out of her canal, making her moan softly and whimper as she didn’t want to feel empty. “Do you want to stay here, or shall I carry you to bed?”

“How dare you ask me that.” Saphira grinned at him as she responded sarcastically, and Optimus smiled back her. She whimpered as he pulled his spike free from her canal. “But seriously, I don’t want to sleep in my bed when I am at home with you right now. I’m staying here...and I don’t care if I overslept. I’m so tired...but I’m happy.”

Optimus kissed her cheek and he leaned back as he gazed down at her. “I shall at least get the blankets from your bed. I imagine you want to snuggle next to my holoform for the whole night.” Saphira nodded immediately and she watched Optimus shuffle to the door as the passenger door open. “I shall not take too long, my sweet gem.”

Saphira shivered as the rush of the cold air filled the cab quickly before Optimus closed the door. Once it was closed, Saphira shifted to get herself comfortable and rubbed her stomach as she could still feel the heat within her womb. She chuckled softly and looked up at the dash with a smile. “And tomorrow...we can start planning our heist into KSI’s headquarters. At least everyone will know my answer.”

“Indeed. Though focus on enjoying your rest, Saphira. There is no need to even worry about tomorrow. It will come, but there is no need to think of it.” He was right. Saphira stared at the window as she knew his holoform would return quickly, but she closed her eyes as she couldn’t fight the need for sleep. Optimus was amused as he watched her start to fall asleep. “My sweet gem...sleep well. I shall keep you warm from the snow.” Saphira smiled as she listened to him. She found herself listening to his spark pulse as well, and she calmed down so much. “I hope your dreams will be filled with love. I know mine will.”

Saphira did not respond. Optimus sensed she had fallen asleep and that was completely okay with him. He brought the blankets out of the room with his holoform and quickly opened the door to throw the blankets onto the front seats before closing the door and reforming the holoform within the cab. He was gentle as he wrapped Saphira’s body with the blankets. She murmured softly on her sleep as he tucked the blankets around her body and kissed her lips gently. He was careful to not wake her as he didn’t want her to wake unnecessarily. With her now comfortable, Optimus gently moved his holoform to lay beside her and wrap his arms around her, holding her against him. He kissed her cheek gently, feeling happy that they both had bonded again. And it was definitely much stronger than before.

You are a fool to love a human, Optimus. She should never have become your sparkmate. She is preventing you from unlocking your full potential.

Optimus flinched in surprise as he heard a feminine voice speak in his mind. It was so sudden it reminded him of just after destroying both Megatron and Sentinel Prime four years ago. It was the same feminine voice who had spoken to him at the time. And he thought his processor was hearing things. But it has happened again, and it concerned him. Especially as this time  the voice held anger towards him. And he did not know why due to not recognising this voice. He looked at Saphira as he wondered if the voice he heard belonged to the same femme Saphira had seen in her nightmares. Deciding that was ridiculous, he pushed those thoughts aside and relaxed next to his sparkmate and kissed the back of her neck and closing his optics. He felt a strong sense of peace right now, and while he knew they would be travelling to Chicago soon  he didn’t want to think of that right now. Especially now that he has renewed his bond with Saphira.

Chapter Text

Waking up the next morning felt like waking up from a dream. The feeling of peacefulness and love filled the very core of her soul, and Saphira could not help but feel like she was not just waking from a dream, but into a dream. The sensation of the bond still fresh in her body has left her feeling happy, relaxed and protected. It was as if nothing and no one could ever come between them again. And maybe this time, that will be the case. But Saphira did not think of anything that would separate them as her mind was in a pure bliss and she could only think of the love she had for Optimus Prime. Feeling the blankets around her that she knew Optimus had retriever for her and the warmth of the cab, and the sound of a familiar spark pulse beneath the seats made her feel like she was on cloud nine. She didn’t want the day to change, even if she had already made the plan to speak with the others about going back to Chicago.

Opening her eyes slowly, she could see the fabric of the backseat of the truck in front of her. She smiled as the unique scent rising from it was not the same as the fabric in manmade vehicles. It was Optimus’s scent, and Saphira always found it calming. She knew it was a unique scent and hard to describe, though as she had grown used to it for so many years, it made her feel a deep sense of comfort to breath the familiar scent again. Saphira was just happy she could wake up and feel this way again, despite the fear that something may tear them apart again. She would hate that.

She smiled as she felt the warmth of a familiar body sliding behind her and wrapping his arms around her waist. His soft, metal lips kissed her cheek and trailed gently down her skin to her neck. Saphira felt goose bumps over her skin and she tried to not giggle as the lips were tickling her skin gently, which felt deliberate. “Good morning, sweet gem. I know you are awake.” Saphira just hummed a little as she stretched her limbs and moved her right arm over her face. “I am sorry for bothering you, Saphira. You are so beautiful, my sweet sparkmate. You slept very peacefully throughout the night. There was a bit of a storm last night. I’m a bit covered in snow.”

“A bit?” Saphira turned her head to look towards the mirrors and she saw snow that had gathered along the window and the glass was covered in ice. She yawned a little and covered her face again. “Well…I highly doubt the cold bothers you that much. It’s not cold enough here to freeze you for many years like it did Megatron.”

“That is true. But the snow is a little deep. Just letting you know.” Saphira giggled a little as she guessed he was offering to carry her through the snow, so that was okay. Optimus lifted the blankets a little to kiss down her back and Saphira arched her back with a light whimper. “You are so beautiful, Saphira. I wish we could remain isolated for the rest of our lives. If it weren’t for…humans who do not want us here.”

“Yeah…I do wish I knew what happened to the others…Lennox…Robert…I know Mearing lost her job. Hell, we don’t even know what happened to Simmons.” Saphira took a deep breath as she thought about it all. She rolled gently onto her back, making Optimus move to prevent her from hitting him and she looked into his optics. “I do sometimes wonder if we would be in the same predicament, even if we weren’t bonded.”

“I think so, Saphira. We were destined to come to this planet and meet you. Which means, no matter how it would play out, this was how it was going to be.” Optimus tilts his head a little as he became curious. “It almost sounds like you regret meeting me.”

She shook her head. “No, never. I think…looking back on everything, even before I met you, Optimus, my life was hard. My parents…well…they gave food, a bed and shelter, but I don’t remember them telling me they loved me. I don’t even know if they ever did. Only Everett did. And…even though I learned a lot of skills, I realize getting into the underground racing community probably was dangerous. It gave me the means to make a lot of money, and I learned how to drive in such a way that I even startled Bee in Egypt several years ago…” Optimus smiled as he remembered that. Even though he was dead at the time, the way Bumblebee told the story was still interesting. “Even if I did not meet you, Prime, I don’t know if my life would have gone much different. I think I would still be racing…and…I might have completed college, but…I don’t know if it would have much meaning without you. Even if you weren’t my sparkmate, my God, this…all these years has been…well, they weren’t boring. And I love you with all my heart, Optimus.”

Optimus hummed gently in amusement as he leaned down and kissed Saphira gently. “I love you too with my whole spark. And you are right. I think back to when you almost crashed into me when you test driving a car after we were allowed to visit you. And…I think you might be right.” He caressed her cheek gently with his right index finger as he spoke with his voice gently purring with each word. “And these past years have been very full of different things. Amazing things, bad things, painful things…but most importantly, love. And finding a new purpose. Without Cybertron, I have had a hard time figuring things out for myself and my autobots. You being here has helped a lot, Saphira. You have no idea how much you have helped me to be grounded.”

Saphira blushed as she was glad to know that. “I am glad…I guess we both have helped each other. I had not really thought about much about how you feel about living on a new world. But…I am ashamed of my own kind. I mean…they blame so much on you, when…some of the current issues is their fault.” Saphira sighed deeply and kissed his lips again as she arched her back some more and yawned a little. “And we are about to plan to go back to Chicago. I can’t help but feel worried about it.”

“I worry too, Saphira. We both have terrible memories of that time. However…” Optimus gently brushed a strand of black hair from Saphira’s face and kissed her forehead gently. “We can take comfort that both Sentinel Prime and Megatron will not be there this time. I am not sure about this KSI.”

Saphira nodded slowly as she also agreed on that. “Yeah…and I am also kind of ashamed to know a bit about that company. But…it will benefit us. Even though I am thinking of reasons why they might be taking the remains of autobots and, possibly, decepticons as well.” She shivered as she thought about it. “I hate that they are treating them like machines to be torn apart…and not living beings who need respect.”

“Unfortunately…evil comes in all shapes and sizes, Saphira. However, it is Lockdown’s involvement that has me more concerned. He is here for me, that I know. But I do not know who sent him here for me.” Saphira hated that a lot. Knowing that some other bot, who did not identify as an autobot or decepticon, was here as a bounty hunter for Optimus. It made her worry that things might get bad, and leaving this farm really felt like a bad idea. But Saphira knew hiding here forever was not an option. She would go with Optimus only to support him, not because she wanted to leave the property. “And I believe that finding more about KSI’s involvement can also lead us to why he is here. He’s made a bargain. And the humans have taken the bait.”

“Sounds normal to me.” Saphira shifted to sit up, and Optimus leaned back to give her room and she stretched out her arms. “Joshua Joyce, he’s the CEO of KSI, has been involved with things like high end technology for the military and such. So…if Lockdown has promised something that he can use to make advances that are…deadly…” She shook her head with a roll of her eyes. “Maybe I haven’t been a millionaire for too long or I just don’t care about that kind of shit.”

Optimus chuckled lightly. “I don’t think having a lot of wealth has anything to do with this, Saphira. Though…I guess since you know humans, I suppose if it does give him more wealth, he will chase it. I will never truly understand humans and money. At least for you, it is a benefit from your grandfather.”

“Yes, that is true. But right now, I can’t access that money with all this happening. Though I do know that it is safe. Still…you are right. This would be some kind of invention that they are planning to make, and it will make him richer. Money goes straight to the head sometimes.” Saphira looked at the window and noticed she couldn’t see outside at all. She was kind of glad, because it made it seem like there was nothing outside. “Regardless…I am not too keen on going into the house and announcing to everyone we are going to plan to go to Chicago. But…I am coming because I want to see what happens. Especially if…something does happen, at least I’ll be there.”

“I know, Saphira.” He kissed her cheek gently and she smiled, turning her head to kiss his lips. Optimus wrapped his arms around her to hug him against his holoform. “But I have confidence that going to Chicago will not result in a tragedy like what we have endured before. I think we are going to find ourselves learning about an arrogant man, and more about his bargain with Lockdown.” Saphira doubted it would be that vague, but that at least was the basis of what will happen. “We don’t have to go in right now, Saphira. I know you will want to pack some essentials to go, and I think maybe another night to sleep on it will be a good idea.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. “I was thinking the same thing, honestly. I don’t think going to Chicago the night after we renewed our bond is a good idea. But…” She smiled as she thought about the travel to the city. “Maybe we might get lucky with a few stops along the way.” Optimus chuckled lightly as they kiss again and she wrapped her arms around his shoulders, letting the blankets drop from her naked body. “It’s a bit over sixteen hours away…so…we might get away with three nights to find somewhere to stop. And I don’t really care if that annoys Cade.”

“I think Cade will be fine, Saphira. He seems to be a reasonable person, despite his strange behaviour around Tessa’s boyfriend.”

Saphira giggled as her smile widened. “Would you not feel the same if, say, we were to have a femme and she finds someone far into the future?”

Optimus pondered on the question for a moment and he hummed a little. “Maybe…though it does seem like Tessa kept the truth from Cade about the existence of Shane. So I would be very disappointed too. But…I am not sure, if I am honest. I haven’t really experienced what it is like to raise a sparkling yet.”

Saphira giggled again as she was sure Optimus would be overprotective. She could see it. She kissed his lips again. “I think it will just be a matter of…if we will be lucky at some point. At least, there will be no Megatron to…you know.”

Optimus nodded as he felt Saphira shuddering at the memory. He knew she will never forget that day. Which was why she felt this way about Chicago, and he understood her anxiety she was feeling even this morning after their bond renewal. But he would be there with her. Optimus kissed her again before raising an eyebrow. “Barricade just told me he’s made some breakfast for you. Some scrambled eggs and toast.”

Saphira was unsurprised, as Barricade has gotten good at cooking now. And the food he has made was always good. “I guess I better have something while it is hot…I really don’t want to leave here though. I’m comfortable sitting here with you all day, Optimus…but I did say I will speak to the others about…Chicago. Ugh…I hope I didn’t ruin your mood, Optimus. I know I spoke about Chicago so soon, but…” Saphira was cut off as Optimus gently placed his index finger on her lips.

“It is okay, Saphira. I am not mad, nor disappointed. You can sense that.” That might be true, but Saphira couldn’t hear his deeper thoughts either. Optimus kissed her lips again while rubbing her back gently. “The trauma you have experienced is what is causing you to speak your mind. I think it is okay. It is best you speak it from your heart than keeping it to yourself.” Saphira was glad that Optimus was not feeling disappointed about her reaction, and she rested her cheek on his shoulder, and Optimus gently rubbed the back of her head. “I love you, Saphira. And while I may not have been there physically to save you and the sparkling the time, I went through a lot of pain too. Sentinel almost killed me…and knowing he let you go to Megatron cut deep. I don’t want to go to Chicago either. I would always avoid if I had a choice. But we don’t. I’ll be by your side, as will the others, Saphira. Just as I know you and the other autobots will be with me.”

“I know. And I will…try not to let the past cloud my judgement. I know what we will be doing is different…and you aren’t faking your death this time, so I should be okay.” Saphira looked at the windows again as she really did not want to leave the cab. She wanted to spend eternity like this, but it would not be possible. She breathed deeply as she wrapped the blankets around herself. “I don’t suppose you could go into my room and grab me some new clothes? I get the feeling it’s a lot cooler outside than it was last night.”

Optimus kissed Saphira’s cheek gently and hugged her gently. “I could do that. Or I could wrap you in multiple layers of blankets, like before, and carry you inside.” Saphira giggled with a blush as she turned her head to look at his optics. “Though I do understand why you want to stay here close to my spark, Saphira. If I had it my way, we would be enduring daily blissful feelings of love and peace for a whole year without any interruption.” Saphira’s blush deepened as that sounded wonderful. “Maybe we will find that time after, but we have to find out what is going on.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. “I know.” She glanced at the windows again as she thought about letting Optimus carrying her to her window. She nodded as she decided that she would like that. She knew that the house would be warm, so she wouldn’t need to worry. It would be for just a short time. “Okay, Prime. As long as you can keep me from freezing my toes off, then I guess you can do what you did yesterday. I may take a hot shower later too, if you want to join me.”

Optimus kissed her lips gently and nodded. “I shall very much enjoy it alongside you. I would have recommended a shower before, but you don’t want your breakfast to get cold. And we don’t want to cause the others to wait too long to talk about a plan.”

“Yeah...I am kind of curious to hear what Cade has to say. I already have a good idea of how secure the building is, so...getting in will be interesting.” Saphira was happy to listen to the plan that the other humans would have come up with before she would tell them what she thought and to tweak it so they wouldn’t go in and do something stupid. Saphira shifted to place her arm around Optimus’s shoulder while he tightened the blankets around her. “At least I can say that our bond is stronger. Nothing can come between...though, so you think Lockdown will care that I’m your sparkmate?”

“No, he won’t. He actually probably despises the fact that I have a human sparkmate. As far as I know, he has never had one. Nor does he have an interest in finding one. He is usually a solo hunter, so having a sparkmate is something he might see as a weakness.” Saphira wasn’t sure if she should not be surprised by this, but the way Optimus spoke about it seemed to imply that Lockdown was happy being a loner. And given his occupation, it made sense. “I do not know what would happen should we encounter Lockdown, but understand that he will not show any kind of mercy unless it benefits him.”

“Understood. He doesn’t sound like someone I’d want to meet. But...I hope he doesn’t find himself infatuated with me like Megatron was.”

Optimus chuckled lightly as he lifted her from the chair as he held her against him firmly. “I very much doubt that would happen, Saphira. You are beautiful, but Lockdown would most likely view all humans as disgusting. I wouldn’t take it personally.”

Saphira chuckled and shook her head. “I definitely will not. I don’t want to go through another sense of dread like I did with Megatron. Maybe Lockdown has more self respect than Megatron.”

“I can confirm that he does, even though we have not fought very much.” Saphira glanced at the passenger door as it opened and Optimus’s holoform shifted closer before he jumped out of the cab. She almost yelped, only to see that the snow mound beside the truck was very high. She giggled as she was surprised that Optimus didn’t transform to dig it away the snow and shake off what had built on his hood. As soon as his holoform was on the mound, Optimus main form began to transform. “I’ll clear the snow for us to get through.”

Saphira looked at the window to see that the snow was covering the glass and she chuckled a little. “I’m surprised you did not do it earlier.”

“I was tempted when I came out of recharge. But you were still asleep, and I did not want to wake you. I know you would be used to our transformation around you, but as it has been a few years...” Saphira glanced up as his full form finished transforming and crouched to push away the snow from the window with one sweep of his hand. She was amused by the snow falling off his body. “I thought that I might unintentionally scare you.”

“Aw, you are so thoughtful.” She kissed his cheek before she shivered and rested her cheek on his shoulder. “Alright, I’m freezing right now. Can you please hurry?”

Optimus smiled as he walked over to the window quickly opened it before stepping inside. Saphira glanced back over the holoform’s shoulder as she heard Optimus transforming back into his vehicle mode, which she was amused since he didn’t really need to. But she made no comment about it since she knew he just wanted his whole being to be near her as much as possible. And it was one of the ways he could do it.

Optimus walked over to the bed to sit Saphira on it before he turned to walk back over to the window and closed it. Some snow had slipped into the room, but it was melting very quickly. Saphira felt better now that she was inside her room, and she rubbed the blankets happily and watched Optimus walk to her wardrobe to get her clothes for her, which made Saphira giggle softly in amusement as that was sweet of him. She shuffled to her bedside table to grab out a fresh pair of panties and a bra to put on.

She let the blankets drop from her body as she put them on, and she looked over at Optimus as he had picked out a navy, long sleeve shirt and denim jeans for her, and a dark, grey jacket should she feel the need for it. He turned to see Saphira had her underwear on, and she was watching him with a smile on her face. Optimus hummed lightly as he was so happy to be here with his sparkmate. He walked back over to Saphira and she blushed as she saw the desire and love in his optics.

When he got close, she reached for the clothes and he held them back, waving his index finger with a shake of his head. “Allow me, sweet gem. You are still not fully awake yet.” Optimus leaned down and kissed Saphira’s cheek as she giggled, relaxing her arms as she was happy to allow Optimus to dress her. Optimus placed the shirt and jacket down onto the bed before he crouched, and Saphira extended her legs to help. Optimus glanced at her legs with a smirk. “I dare hope you are not tempted to tease me, because you may end up missing a hot breakfast otherwise.”

Saphira snorted in amusement and rolled her eyes. “I wouldn’t dare to do that…” She giggled as Optimus slipped the jeans over her feet to pull them up her legs gently. “It is tempting, because that would give us another excuse to spend another day or two together. But that would be selfish of us.”

“And we would be right to be selfish to spending time with each other, Saphira.” Saphira’s smile softened in amusement as she also agreed. Optimus slid her jeans up to her knees and she shifted a little so it was easier for him to slide them up her thighs to her hips. “The three years we have been separated has earned us the right to that. If it weren’t for these circumstances, of course.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. “Though it is tempting, I must say. But with three extra humans here, food is very low, and we might as well use this time to just plan and go. Though…I still hope for a few stops where you and I can get some much needed alone time.”

“If you insist on it, we shall. Though I am sure the other three humans won’t mind rest stops along the way.” Optimus pulled her jeans all the way up and he made sure they were on properly before zipping and buttoning them. He looked at her eyes as he stood up and leaned forward to kiss her, making Saphira moan against him lips. “And I think a slow approach to Chicago is wise. It will give us time to gather our thoughts and feelings in preparation for entering the city. Especially you, Saphira.”

“Yes, that is why I ask for it. I am sure Cade will see it as stalling, but…it won’t be to me.” Saphira watched Optimus grab her shirt and she lifted her arms, allowing him to slip the shirt over her head and through her arms. She giggled a little as the tips of his fingers tickled her sides as he pulled her shirt down, and she could feel how messy her hair is. “Plus, he’s not really in charge here. You and the other autobots are the only ones here with wheels.”

Optimus chuckled lightly with a nod of agreement. “You are correct, Saphira. We are in charge.” He sat beside Saphira now that she was dressed and he reached for her brush to begin brushing the bristles through her hair. “However, regardless of who is in authority, I am not an unfair Prime, Saphira. Cade has as much right to an input as you and myself. It was my fault that his life is now gone. It was my fault that his child no longer has a home. He might have brought me into his home, but…my presence still attracted our enemies.”

Saphira shook her head as she listened to him. “You really put so much guilt on your shoulders for something that was not even directly your fault. I don’t really understand that side of your, Prime. But…that is who you are.”

Optimus chuckled lightly as he understood that Saphira did not understand him fully. And that was okay. He did not expect her to. “I am a leader, Saphira. And being a leader, it means that a lot of responsibility falls upon me. Even if indirectly. After…” He leaned a little to look at her eyes while he continued brushing her hair. “When you walked into Chicago when you thought I was dead, that was my fault too. I always blame myself for it…and…everything that happened afterwards.”

Saphira placed her hand on his cheek as she looked into his optics. “Even though I was the one stupid enough to go into Chicago, you blame yourself…though…I suppose I kind of agree. But I was compromised with that stupid watch con that Dylan stuck on my wrist. So…I can’t really blame you for not telling me at the time, Prime. But at least we have learned from it. So I think the fact you carry a lot of self blame on your shoulders is bad. We can’t go and change the past. And rewriting a wrong does not always happen either. We can only just try.”

“I suppose it is. But…you are also not a leader like I am, Saphira. What I do and feel comes from a place of leadership. I think you will never truly understand it. But I also know, as a sparkmate, I am responsible for you.” He kissed her lips gently and glanced at her hair with a smile. “Shall I braid your hair for you?”

Saphira shook her head. “No, I like leaving it our. If I can find someone to trim it a little, it really needs it.” Optimus seemed surprised as he loved how long her hair was and she giggled at him. “Oh, relax, Optimus. It will be fine. Human hair needs a trim to keep it healthy. My hair is healthy, but I haven’t had it trimmed in three years. It will probably be another while before that happens, but it is okay.”

“I see…you had me a little worried. I love the length of your hair, but if you did decide to have it cut, I will look past it. At least you haven’t considered changing the colour of your hair…” Saphira giggled at him and shook her head, even though she had put on a wig to try and disguise herself before. “I am not sure if I could see your hair as another colour.”

“Well…if I had the wigs that I used to disguise myself in Egypt, at least that would be one way to find out. Though, admittedly, blonde hair and green eyes would be nice. But there is no way I am bleaching my hair.” Saphira breathed in deeply and caught the scent of scrambled eggs that had seeped into the room, and she felt a growl in her stomach. Optimus smirked as he sensed her hunger and she blushed from the embarrassment from noticing Optimus had sensed the hunger. “I did not realize just how hungry I am. Though…I guess we worked it up from last night.”

“I am not surprised.” Optimus kissed her cheek gently and put the brush before before running his fingers through her hair. “I sensed your hunger before you even woke up.” Saphira widened her eyes in shock and he let out a light chuckle. “You may not have noticed because the bliss from renewing our bond likely was casting a shadow over your hunger. Don’t worry. If Barricade has learned to cook as well as you say, I am sure it will be delicious.”

“It smells delicious.” Saphira sighed deeply as she arched her back and stretched her arms with a light yawn before she stood up. “I guess we should make ourselves known for the day. And get to planning our Chicago heist.” She chuckled a little once she said it. “I can’t believe I said that.” Optimus chuckled lightly as he stood up and they both walk to the door. “I suppose with the loss of my animals, at least I won’t have anything to leave behind, only an empty house.”

“Indeed. But I suspect you want to return to your grandfather’s house if we have the chance.” Saphira nodded as she did want to return home. This house has served its purpose in Saphira’s eyes, and she really wanted to return to her farmhouse in Texas. She couldn’t help but think it was ironic since it seemed like Cade could have been her neighbour and she wouldn’t even know it. “Well, I am sure it will still be there waiting for you to return, Saphira.”

Saphira smiled as she already knew that it was. She knew the state of her wealth and estate was in good hands. She did wish she knew more than she did now though. Especially since when they were attacked, she was completely confused as to why and what changed the minds of the government. But at least there might be some answers when they go to Chicago, no matter how much Saphira was afraid to go.

Opening the door of her bedroom, Saphira stepped out, with Optimus following her. Saphira breathed in deeply as she knew that her decision was final. She breathed in the scent of scrambled eggs with a smile as they approach the kitchen. She noticed that the other autobots were not in the house, so it seemed only Barricade and Optimus’s holoforms were here. That was okay. She knew that she would involve the others shortly anyway.

Cade, who was sitting at the table wearing jeans and a black jacket, looked up from his cup of coffee and smiled at Saphira. “Good morning to you both. Barricade has taken care of breakfast already, as I am sure you have noticed. For someone who doesn’t eat food, he’s a great chef.”

Barricade huffed in amusement as he filled a plate with the scrambled eggs and two slices of buttered toast. “Thank you, Cade. It was Saphira who helped me, though.” He walked over to the table to place the plate down and he looked at Saphira. “We have a little bit of orange juice left, Saphira. Did you want the rest of it?”

“Yes, please.” Saphira smiled as Optimus stepped around her quickly to pull the chair out for her. “Aw, thank you, Optimus. You didn’t need to do that.”

“Yes, I did. I always want to.”

She chuckled softly as she sat down as Barricade grabbed the juice from the fridge. She breathed in the scent of the eggs again as she looked at them. “Mmm, that smell delicious. I’m quite hungry right now.” Barricade chuckled as he was unsurprised. He could already tell that the two had a stronger bond now. He filled a glass with the last of the juice and set it in front of Saphira. “Thank you, Barricade.”

“You are most welcome, Saphira. You are lucky that the food is still hot.” Barricade walked away to clean up the utensils he has used. “Though I would have annoyed Optimus until he convinced you to come out to eat something anyway.”

Saphira chuckled softly as she was unsurprised as she dug her fork into the scrambled eggs to take a bite. She licked her lips as she definitely realized she was starving and she intended on enjoying the breakfast. “Did you see how deep the snow is outside, Saphira?” Saphira looked at Tess when the girl spoke and nodded. “Is that normal around here?”

Saphira nodded again. “It sure is. But that is okay. The house can hold up fine. But we also are not going to have to worry about it anymore.”

Cade raised an eyebrow in surprise. “Why? We are still here, so unless the autobots can turned the seasons around suddenly, I think we will get more snow tomorrow.”

Saphira chuckled a little. “Because I have been avoiding this conversation for a little bit, Cade. Mostly because of the past I have endured alongside the autobots.” Barricade glanced back with a softened expression as he knew exactly what she was about to talk about. “We will need the other autobots listening in, but…” Saphira’s face faltered a little as she swallowed the piece of egg and took a deep breath. “We need to finally talk about Chicago, Cade.” Cade widened his eyes in surprise before he smiled. “Don’t smile, Cade.” The man flinched and frowned as he didn’t expect that. “Chicago is not a place I wanted to go again. But it seems that city is cursed. So I have no choice. I am not going to stay here and not know what happens to my family again. I am going to come with you to Chicago and find out what we need to know about KSI. And, hopefully, more about their working relationship with Lockdown.”

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Cade, Tessa and Shane were happy that Saphira finally came to them and told them that she was now willing to discuss proceeding to Chicago to infiltrate KSI. But Saphira knew that entering the place of business was not easy. Being owned by a muilti billionaire with ownership of many assets throughout the world, this place was secured well. It was not a secret, government facility by any means, but what was done inside the walls of the building could be considered classified depending on what areas the staff worked in. So getting in was not going to be easy, and Saphira knew it.

After announcing her desire to go with the autobots to Chicago, the other autobots formed their holoforms as Barricade informed them that they would need to be involved. Bumblebee was pleased, as he voiced about not wanting to even go to Chicago if Saphira did not go. He has been deeply regretful of not being able to reach Saphira too, and he didn’t want to leave his best human friend alone again. This wasn’t a surprise to Saphira, since they did build a close bond when they met.

Cade brought out the drone he had managed to take from KSI and modify to ensure they could use it and not KSI. Saphira was interested, because the insect design of it was interesting to her. “Now that we are all in agreement to go to Chicago and find out what this KSI wants with the autobots and why it impacts us, I hope we can figure out a plan. Do you know where their place of business is, Saphira?”

“Yes. Though it could have changed after the destruction of the city, though I doubt it. Locating KSI is not going to be the problem, Cade. It is getting in. And why did you bring that drone out, anyway?” Cade smiled confidently and Saphira frowned at him. “Don’t get overconfident, Cade. Just because you were able to do some little modifications to that little thing and be able to control it, doesn’t mean you can use it to get us in there.”

Cade nodded slowly as his smile faded a little. “It won’t, but using this might help us get in anyway. You said that the staff have ID’s that they scan in when they get into work each day, right?” Saphira nodded. “We are going to need to replicate their ID cards somehow.”

“How?” Tessa asked with a concerned frown. “Getting a plain card and printing out the ID on it may not get us in. Wouldn’t it be some kind of electronic card or something?”

“You won’t need to worry about that part, Tessa,” Ironhide responded to the girl confidently. She looked at the holoform as Ironhide was leaning against the doorway with his arms folded with a smirk. "We can made a plain card that will not be any different to what they use in that building. But to get into the building, the ID on the card would need to match what is in the system. So Cade is right about using that little drone to help get us in.”

Shane raised an eyebrow. “How? By scanning the card and flying into the building for us?”

Ironhide huffed and rolled his eyes. “No, genius. By using the camera on the drone, Cade can take a picture of an ID of one of the staff members. That will allow us to recreate the ID onto the card to allow you into the building.”

Cade nodded in agreement. “Yeah, that’s why I am going to use it. I am not that stupid to fly a random drone through the entire building. That would literally be a big, buzzing signal to say we are there.”

“But there is still the risk of being caught, Cade,” Saphira said as she listened quietly. “You shouldn’t fly the drone into the building, it would probably get shot down. But…” Saphira paused for moment before she looked at Optimus. “Is it possible that you guys have a map of Chicago memorized in your processor by any chance? I know you can get information directly from the internet when you need to. But if you can create a projection…”

Bumblebee nodded as he stood up and changed his holoform from appearing human to his full form. Saphira raised an eyebrow as seeing the change happen so suddenly and smoothly was interesting to her. His optics glowed as they project the image of the whole city and he glanced at Saphira who was smiling. “Show us where…” Saphira pointed immediately to a tall, white building near the center of the city and Bumblebee immediately shifted the projection to a close shot of the building. “It does look like it is pretty new, Saphira. I think they rebuilt their building.”

“Yes, they did. It was a lot smaller before the attack. But it seems they were able to expand.” Saphira stared at the building curiously as she looked around it. Not only was the building large, it had a large car lot that seemed to lead to a garage at the base of the tower. “It looks like Joshua wasted no cent repairing and expanding the place. Anyway, if you are going to use that drone to scan an ID to get into the building, Cade, you are going to have to fly it outside the building. If you can find someone as far from the entrance to the building as possible, that would be better. There are security cameras everywhere.”

“Oh, right, cameras. I forgot. Getting in would mean we need a disguise…but…” Cade looked at Saphira with a curious expression. “Do they know what you look like?”

Saphira frowned immediately. “Yes, Cade. They know exactly what I look like. If you were going to suggest that I go in there, no thank you. I am already taking a risk of being spotted by travelling with you guys through towns to get back to Chicago. Though I don’t know if they’re actively looking for me. It’s not like Fallen is asking for me this time.”

Bumblebee and Barricade chuckle while Optimus was a little unimpressed by her response, though he was also amused. Bumblebee elbowed Saphira’s ribs gently. “You could always get a wig again.”

Saphira rolled her eyes and shook her head. “I could, but they would be looking at the face, not hair colour, Bee. They would know that changing hair colour is possible but changing my skin colour or face shape is impossible. Sure, I could also get some coloured contacts and put them in, but I am not sure if they would be fooled.”

Bumblebee chuckled in amusement and Saphira realized he was teasing her, which made her smile and roll her eyes at him. “You should have known I was just teasing you, little sister. But you are right in your response. Though...” Bumblebee looked back at the projection and hummed a little. “When one of you humans do sneak into the building, where should they go for the main lab?”

“Um...” Saphira stared at the building for a moment before she leaned back and rubbed the back of her neck. “Um...I am not sure. It’s a completely new building, so the main lab would be on a different floor. But...the higher the floor, the more classified research is occurring...hmm...my suggestion, if you can find a staff member with the highest title, or as high as you can find, Cade, you should be able to get up to the eighth floor. It appears to have about ten, and they may still have the underground lab too. They had it under the old building. So...maybe that is where we will find...Leadfoot...maybe Sideswipe, or what’s left of him...” Saphira grimaced as she didn’t want to find pieces of her family, but she knew that it might be inevitable. She flinched when Optimus placed his hand on her right shoulder gently. “Whatever might be there, we might need to get in there too.”

“At least we got a way in.” Tessa looked at the projection and her expression softened. “But...will we find all the answers here?”

Drift shook his head. “It is unlikely, Tessa. There are too many questions that we have that one location will not answer. And I highly doubt this Joshua Joyce will have the honour in him to tell the truth.”

Tessa groaned a little as that was not the answer. She wanted all the answers to be in one place, but it was not going to go that way. Saphira knew that too. But it would answer some questions, and there might be even more questions afterwards. As much as that will be an obstacle, it was still important to cross it to move forward.

“At least I don’t think they will be expecting us to show up at their headquarters. So...hopefully the element of surprise will be on our side. Though...with Optimus found by them...well...I guess we won’t know until we get there.” Saphira stared at the image of the building before she sighed deeply and looked at Bee. “You can turn it off now, Bee.” Bumblebee nodded as he turned off the projection. “The one thing we should think about too is what happens after we leave KSI. I don’t think they will just let us walk in and out without consequences. But...it will be hard to know what they will do until we see what they have done to our friends.”

“Well, we already know KSI is focused on creating the most advanced technology in the world. To them, the autobots and decepticons are just technology.” Optimus grimaced in disgust as he did not like that there humans who did not see him as a living being. But it was something he could not control the humans to believe. Cade rubbed his chin thoughtfully. “But it is hard to know what they are doing. At least you did not end up working for them, Saphira.”

Saphira smiled and nodded. “I agree. Now that I know what they have done, I would end up leaving if I were working for them right now.” Saphira stood up from her chair and looked at Barricade as she lifted her plate. “Thanks for the breakfast, Barricade. I’ll start packing some necessities for the trip. And Cade...” She turned to the man as she addressed. “Since Chicago is at least a sixteen hour drive, you won’t mind if we take a few pit stops along the way over the course of three days, will you?”

Cade was surprised though he pondered on it and shook his head. “No. I understand why you would need to prepare your mind to return to the city, Saphira. So I think that is fine. So I guess we can break the drive down to about...five or six hours each day.”

Saphira nodded. “Yes. That is what I am thinking.”

“And what about food and clothes, dad?” Saphira raised an eyebrow when Tessa spoke. “We don’t have any money. Are we going to have to shoplift? I don’t want to do that.”

“No, you don’t need to do that. I have cash, so going hungry is not going to happen. But I don’t want anyone buying expensive bags or watches, because I’ll be pissed and ensure that we get that money back one way or another.” Cade, Tessa and Shane were surprised Saphira would bring cash for them all to use, but they were glad. Saphira chuckled when she saw their expressions. “I’m not about to let you guys starve. I still haven’t worked out if I am going to like you three or not, but you helped Optimus and I’ll make sure you will be fine. So no stealing is necessary.”

“Thank God.” Shane smiled and looked at both Tessa and Cade. “I was really worried because since we can’t access our money, we would have no choice. At least we can relax now.”

“One less thing to worry about.” Cade looked at Saphira as she walked away. “You can control the cash if you want, Saphira. It is yours after all.”

“It is fine, Cade. I can divide some up for you three to use, and Ill still have plenty left.” Saphira turned to Optimus with a smile. “And I’m out of summer clothes anyway, so I will definitely end up with new clothes.”

Optimus chuckled a little. “I am not surprised. You’ve lived in a cold climate for a long time, and with how quickly you had to flee, I understand you had to adapt to the environment. But I do know you will only get what is needed.”

Saphira nodded. “I will.” She glanced around the room for a moment and hummed a little. “I’m going to go for a walk before I pack. I kind of want to say good bye to this place and clear my head.”

“Is that even wise?” Crosshairs asked with a worried expression. “I would think that the coyotes, wolves, cougars...”

“I will be fine. I’m not going to walk into the forest. I’m just going to sit on one of the fences at a paddock and...admire the forest. I just need to put my jacket and snow shoes on.” Saphira breathed deeply as she felt a sense of sadness wash over her. She immediately felt Optimus’s love and reassurance, which made her smile. “Thanks, Optimus. It is just a bitter-sweet feeling that I have about leaving this place. I’ll be fine. The crisp, cold air helps me relax and think.”

“I know, and I fully understand. Do you want company?” Saphira thought about it as she entered her room to grab her jacket and put her snow shoes on. She glanced at the window to see the truck still sitting there and she smiled at him before shaking her head. “I see. But then...you aren’t ever alone now with our renewed bond. However, I will not interrupt your silent farewell to this lovely place. And the peace you have had over the last three years.”

“I appreciate that. If I do want company, I’ll ask.” Grabbing the dark grey jacket from the bed and slipping it on, Saphira glanced around the bedroom she had become comfortable sleeping in over the last three years. She smiled as this place became a comforting place, even though the first year was hard. She grabbed her snowshoes to put on and she looked back at the window. “At least, I will say, Cade seems to have a level head on his shoulders. Not so sure about his daughter and her boyfriend.”

“He does. I am glad that he does, because we cannot afford having someone who may struggle with a plan like that. Though…you are right about the other two. They may struggle to find their courage.” Saphira nodded in agreement as she stood up and walked to the door. “And you are sure no predators will bother you?”

“Aw, I appreciate your concern, Optimus, but most of those animals do tend to prefer hunting at night. Plus, wolves will be tracking the elk herds migrating across the mountains, the bears will be hibernating, the coyotes will come out at night and the cougars…well…not likely while I am close to the house. We will see one before it even gets close enough to swipe its claws. I’ll be fine.” Optimus just huffed a little in her mind and Saphira giggled. “I am pretty sure I can handle a cougar if I can survive being killed by Megatron.”

“That is not very reassuring, Saphira.”

Saphira glanced back at the window a smile on her face as she gazed at the truck. “And I think you are being a little too overprotective, Optimus. I’ll be fine. You will be watching, so if something was going to happen, you will be here.” She stepped out of the room and closed the door behind her. She saw Barricade standing near the hallway with a small smile on his face. “Are you okay?”

The former decepticon nodded. “I am. I guess I am feeling the same as you about leaving this place. I’m almost tempted to just take a drive around, but…I know you just want to hang out on the fence for a little bit to think about this place.”

Saphira was not surprised he felt the same as her too. “I know. We both have…spent a lot of time here, and it became home despite waiting for everyone.” Saphira looked towards the dining room for a moment and looked back at Barricade with a smile. “And I suppose we pushed the past to the back of our minds. Though…I am glad that you have been here, Barricade. I am not sure how my life would even be without you.”

Barricade was happy that he played a part in this, even though he knew he would never be her sparkmate. “Me too, Saphira. I am glad that I turned from the path of the decepticons. If it weren’t for you, I am sure I would be dead right now.”

“Maybe. But we will never know. You are part of my family like everyone else is, Barricade. And I love you like a brother.” Barricade’s expression softened and he looked away from her. Saphira chuckled before she threw her arms around his shoulders, surprising the bot as she hugged him tightly. “And if I have to go up to every man, woman or bot to find someone to make you happier than I can, I will do it. You deserve a sparkmate for yourself, Barricade.”

Barricade hugged Saphira back as he did appreciate her comfort. He knew she loved him, but not the same way she did as Optimus. And it was something he has accepted. It still hurt his spark, but he loved her enough to not push it. “Thank you, Saphira. I doubt we will find someone for myself, but I appreciate the thought. Just know that it might take a thousand years before I find the one who would share my spark.”

“Fine by me.” Saphira released him from the hug and looked at his ruby, red eyes. “And besides, at least you now have a chance. I am sure if I had a sister…there might be something there between you…” Barricade rolled his eyes him amusement and she giggled again. “But of course, my parents never wanted more than on kid. But you still have a chance. After we figure all this current issue out, of course.”

Barricade shook his head and lifted his right hand to playfully ruffle the girl’s hair, making Saphira push his hand away and quickly fix her hair. “It is okay, Saphira. I know you feel the need to fill the need for a sparkmate for me. You feel a little guilty that I have feelings for you, don’t you?” Saphira’s smile faded immediately and she looked away. “Don’t be. It is something I need to deal with, Saphira. Plus…I think I also had unrealistic expectations. It is nothing to do with you. So don’t burden yourself with wanting to help me with something that will eventually come naturally.”

“I will try not do. I just…know after everything you’ve been through too…you deserve the same happiness as Optimus…and so does everyone else, for that matter. Though, for the moment, I don’t really see the others yearning for it like you.”

“This is true. But…that doesn’t mean they won’t feel that way eventually. And I hope you will not burden yourself with helping them like you want to do with me.” Saphira shook her head, as she wouldn’t feel that with them. She knew that the other autobots didn’t feel the same about her as Barricade does, which was the reason why. “Good. You need to not have a lot of things on your mind, Saphira.”

“Alright…you are right, Barricade. But…I do have a lot of things on my mind. Which is why…” Saphira turned on her heel and walked towards the front door, making Barricade hum in amusement and follow her to the door. “I am going to clear it. Not everyone likes the icy, cold air, but it works for me. It keeps me a little more grounded, even if I am freezing my fingers off. I won’t be out there too long. So you won’t need to worry about frostbite.”

“I am not worried about that. I know you will come in when the cold seeps into your shoes.” Barricade watched the girl open the front door and walk outside. His holoform did not follow, but Saphira did look at the mustang that was sitting next to the other autobots. “At least this will excuse me to figure out what to make you for lunch.”

“A soup is always nice and hearty in this weather. There are still plenty of tomatoes, dried basil, leeks and some oregano that you can use, Barricade. That might even cover dinner too. Especially since we should just use what we can before we leave tomorrow.” Saphira breathed the cold air in deeply and watched the mist as she breathed out. “But I certainly won’t be picky, Barricade. If it helps to take your mind off things, just like I’m about to, go right ahead.”

“Thanks, Saphira. Though it is a bit early since you just had breakfast. So I won’t bother about it until a little bit later.”

Saphira just chuckled as she looked away from Barricade and walked towards the wooden fence posts of one of the paddocks. She looked around the property slowly to take it all in as she didn’t want to forget this place. It was a small, but quaint farm. And she was happy that she was able to live here. Eventually, if things can get back to normal, she will sell it as she wouldn’t need it anymore. But that could be several years from now, and maybe they will come back here anyway.

She climbed over the fence into the paddock and dropped into the snow, glancing down with a chuckle as she could see that it was deep. She walked across the paddock to the other side and climbed the fence before she swung her legs over and just sat on the top of the fence, putting her hands into her pockets as she stared at the forest ahead of her. The sun was filtering through some of the clouds that were covering the sky at this time, but she couldn’t feel warmth due to the light wind blowing through her hair.

Some of the trees still had leaves on their branches and she could see them moving in the wind. Saphira smiled as she could see snow that had gathered on the thicker branches, and some icicles had formed on the base of the branches. The icicles glistened from the little sunlight, which made the forest sparkle gently. Saphira did not have a camera, but she would definitely take a picture of it to keep as a reminder. But she knew that they may come back here, so it was okay.

Though as she stared at the forest, her mind went to thinking about Chicago. She was very nervous about going back to the city. Sure, there was no Sentinel Prime there anymore and she would not have to face Megatron again. But she did wish that they were going to a different city. Any other city but Chicago. But KSI clearly did not want to move, and there was nothing they could really do about it. They could only proceed forward.

She couldn’t help but move her hands deeper into her pockets to place on her stomach. Remembering how her sparkling was killed in such a brutal way was something she would never forget. And it hurt even more to know that Lennox and Robert found her in the state Megatron had left her. Saphira shuddered because she knew that it would have been horrific for them to see. And she had no doubt they might have thought she was dead at the time.

She rubbed her fingers over her stomach as thought about whether or not she would have another sparkling again. Saphira shuddered because as much as she did want that, she was also very afraid. Because something else could happen that might cause her to lose another. She shook her head as she knew it might take years again before she would even be pregnant again. But she did know one thing was for certain. She would take extra precaution if she were to get pregnant again, and ensure that the sparkling would be safe right up until birth. Though even after, Saphira probably would be extra protective. And so would Optimus.

At least I am able to find my courage again to go with the autobots back to Chicago. The burden of the pain I still carry from losing my sparkling hurts so deeply each day. And it never seems to get better. But at least I am able to go back to that city with the autobots. I would never go back on my own, but I am glad that I will not be in the dark again. Hopefully…we will find the answers we are looking for. Even though I worry that the strange metal femme…she’s been plaguing my dreams for a long time. I wonder…how much of this has to do with her too. Maybe Lockdown knows her and that is why he is here. After all, that femme speaks about Optimus with such venom in her voice. Even though I knew nothing about her until the last few years.

If I could speak to Edmund, he might know something. He and my grandfather knew things about Cybertron due to connections from the past that both planets seem to have had. I wonder…if Everett was even the first in my family to meet a Cybertronian. I vaguely remember my grandfather telling me about how our family history, on the Dawn side, goes back centuries. But maybe I am just thinking too much. My mind is racing. I’m scared, and hopeful at the same time. Especially since…we clearly have a new enemy to face. One from within this world, and another from Cybertron again.

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It was the middle of the night currently and Optimus’s holoform was laying under the covers next to his sparkmate. He had offered her to sleep in his cab, but she had denied the offer due to wanting to sleep in her bed before leaving in the morning. He was okay with that as there was plenty of time for her to take refuge within his cab over the next several days. He was awake as he couldn’t find recharge due to thinking about the mission. Plus, he was worried about how Saphira would handle this situation. Going back to the place where so much pain and trauma was inflicted was a lot to ask of anyone. Even him. But Optimus was doing it for his own people.

Saphira had packed a bag with her essentials as she didn’t feel the need to take a lot. Especially as she would buy new clothes on the way to Chicago anyway. She asked had taken all the cash she had brought with her to this house as well. She didn’t tell Cade how much exactly, but she told Optimus it was over five grand that she had. She had a lot more three years ago, but it was unsurprising with the passing of time, she has used that money for things when needed. Optimus himself has already ensured that the money would be safe, even though Saphira did already give Cade, Tessa and Shane some money so they wouldn’t have to ask her all the time for cash. She gave them two hundred and fifty dollars each. And they believed that is what she had too.

Optimus was proud of Saphira for being able to figure out how to survive the three years he has been absent. At no fault of their own they had been separated for so many years. And Saphira has shown she can take care of herself, even though she showed it even as a teenager. She learned to be resilient and independent from a young age. She was already self reliant when they had met, and she had a very strong stubborn streak at that time. Now that had definitely changed. Her stubbornness was a lot less noticeable. And that was okay. She’s matured so much.

But Optimus did feel bad for her. After all, she should not have had to do that. She should not have found herself in underground races where she would have broken many laws while making money. It might have been an outlet for the girl’s need to fit into the world, but Optimus knew that it was also a part of her struggles. Her self reliance was also not as strong as she would have believed at the time. Optimus knew it, and she did eventually. Especially since the autobots showed she had needed someone like them in her life. Now she had them in her life.

Optimus smiled as he rubbed Saphira’s arm as she remained deep in her sleep. Everything that they have learned over the time they have known each other was something Optimus would never regret. He kissed the back of her neck gently. The unwavering love he had for this human was something he once never thought he would have. But he was glad that he found love in Saphira. A human, not an autobot. And he did not care that they were two different species.

You should care, Optimus. You are a fool. Your love blinds you to the truth of who you need to be. You have forgotten your place, and I am going to make sure that you will be reminded of it.

Optimus flinched and rolled away from Saphira as he frowned. There was that voice again, and now Optimus knew that he was not hearing things. This voice in his mind had a strange sense of familiarity to it, even if he has never heard the voice until the recent years. Hearing this voice deeply concerned him. He did not know who this voice belonged to, and he did not know if the owner of this voice was even someone he could trust.

You can trust me, Optimus. It is you who has allowed a human to make your spark weak. If it weren’t for her, you would have repaired Cybertron by now. You would be home. But you are now stuck on a world where the humans have now decided you are not welcome. What makes you think Saphira will not turn on you in the same way?

Optimus glanced at Saphira before he frowned as he knew that would never happen. Everything that was happening now was also affecting her. She didn’t have a job, she couldn’t return to her grandfather’s house and had no access to the wealth she had inherited from her grandfather, so she was in the same place as they were. And Optimus had let go of Cybertron years ago, despite the fact that it hurt him deeply. He accepted Earth as his home, despite everything that has happened.

You are right, your human sparkmate has lost everything because of you, Optimus. She is still young. Someday, she may decide she no longer wants you. She may decide she wants to return to the life she wants. One away from you. And I know she will. She is unworthy to be your sparkmate. I can severe the spark bond for you, so you will not have to share a bond with that ungrateful human. And believe me, her close bond with that former decepticon is only the start, Optimus. You saw how she made him weak. She has done the same to you.

Optimus growled as the words began to sound like venom in his processor. He pushed those words out of his mind because he knew they were not true. He was already well aware that Saphira and Barricade had love between them, but he also knew that it was only a love of friendship. Barricade clearly had feelings for her, which the former decepticon has not hidden. But Saphira has not returned the same feelings to him. Only friendship. So there was no doubt in his spark at all.

Optimus intakes deeply before glancing at Saphira as she whimpered in her sleep. He observed her for a moment before she rolled onto her back and he saw that her expression was filled with fear and pain. And he sensed it through the bond. He knew quickly that she was having a nightmare, but he almost could not help but feel like it was a coincidence that this was happening right after he forced the words of the voice from his mind.

He placed his hand on her shoulder to shake her gently. “Saphira, wake up. You are having a nightmare.” She whimpered and he felt her body tensing as she curled a little while frowning in her sleep. Optimus felt the pain through the bond and it hurt him. “Wake up, Saphira. I am here. What you are seeing is not real. It is a nightmare. Wake up, sweet gem.” Optimus moved his hand back when she rolled towards him, and he caught her right arm as she had thrown it towards him and he gently lowered it down. “Saphira…it is okay…” Optimus kissed the girl’s forehead and he could feel sweat forming on her skin. “Wake up…” Optimus leaned back as Saphira suddenly shot upright and her eyes open wide as she let out a scream, which Optimus quickly wrapped his arms around her and she looked at him in surprise, which stopped her from screaming too loudly. “I am here, Saphira. You were having a nightmare.”

Saphira’s bottom lip trembled as tears stream down from her eyes and she threw her arms around his shoulders tightly and sobbed into his chassis. Optimus held her tightly and caressed her back as she cried. He could feel her whole body trembling, and he wished she did not have a nightmare. They would leave in roughly five hours and she needed more sleep. He would be fine with her sleeping in the cab on the way if she needed it, but he still felt awful she had a nightmare before proceeding to Chicago.

Optimus could not help but feel angry for Saphira. If this voice he heard was the reason she had a nightmare, he certainly would not like that at all. Though until Saphira had calmed down enough to tell him what she had seen, Optimus could only comfort his sparkmate. At least it seemed his voice reached the depths of her mind to wake her from the dreadful nightmare plaguing her mind. And that was important to him. He kissed the top of her head as she continued to sob uncontrollably.

It took Saphira about fifteen minutes of wailing before she began to calm down. Optimus did want to get a damp cloth to wash her face and bring her a glass of water, but he had to be patient. He continued to caress her back to give her the comfort she needed. Her trembling did not fade away though. Whatever she saw in her nightmare was something she probably wanted to forget, but it was too much to push away right now.

Saphira leaned back slowly and looked at Optimus’s optics. His spark tugged when he saw her eyes were red and puffy from the extreme crying she just had. His expression softened and he wiped some tears from her cheeks with his thumb. “I am so sorry about whatever you saw in your nightmare, Saphira. I am here now. You are safe.”

Saphira sniffled and looked away from him as the pain in her eyes also filled with shame. “I…I…I saw Chicago…four years ago…again.” Optimus’s expression softened more and he tightened his arms around her gently. “But…it was different. I saw the shadows of Sentinel Prime and Megatron…and that voice…that femme who keeps haunting me, haunted more again.”

“I’m sorry. I suspect that the imminent travel to Chicago filled your mind with the past.” Saphira grimaced and shook her head, making Optimus frown a little. “Are you sure?” He softened his expression again and kissed her forehead. “Sweet gem, it is okay. I had already suspected you have a nightmare of Chicago. Especially about…that incident…”

“It…It wasn’t. Well…not exactly…” Saphira sniffled again as she let out another sob. She took deep, concentrated breaths to calm her racing heart as much as possible. She shivered as the images of what she saw in her nightmare filled her mind again before she tensed and covered her mouth suddenly. “Shit…” She pushed Optimus away suddenly as she slid out of the bed.

Optimus was confused before he sensed the sudden rush of needing to purge within him. He grimaced before he got out of the bed to follow Saphira as she ran to the bathroom and fell to her knees as she heaved into the toilet. Optimus walked over quickly and knelt behind her to rub her back and gently pull her hair back as she emptied her stomach contents into the toilet bowl. He suspected that whatever was in her nightmare made her stomach turn, and he was sad for her that she felt sick.

Saphira closed the lid when the heaving stopped and she took deep breaths as she waited to see if she needed to heave again. But the feeling went away, and she pulled herself up to sit on top of the lid. Optimus stood up to press the button before kneeling by her as he gazed at her eyes. “Do you feel better?” Saphira nodded. “Do you want water?” She shook her head and Optimus smiled a little at her. “Very well. Though…it is early morning, so I don’t suppose it will happen every morning for the next several months, will it?”

Saphira looked up at Optimus in surprise and saw the slight sarcastic expression in his face and she rolled her eyes. “Ha, ha, ha…that was not morning sickness, Optimus. And, quite frankly, it doesn’t occur the very first day after conception.” Optimus’s expression softened and she sighed deeply. “No, I was sick because…of the nightmare. But…even so…” She glanced down at her stomach a little and looked back at Optimus. “I am truthfully scared of being pregnant again.”

Optimus sighed deeply as he knew that. He gently grasped her hands as he knelt in front of her. “Because you think you failed the first time.” Saphira nodded as more tears run down her cheeks. “You already know you are not, Saphira.”

“Yeah…but I still went into the city. I was blinded by anger and grief…I did not use my head. I did not think about my sparkling. Only you. I was selfish.” Saphira breathed deeply as she shook her head. “And knowing how I could fail so miserably…I didn’t even get to tell you…”

“We both are guilty of keeping secrets, Saphira. But we cannot keep looking to the past. The pain and suffering we both continue to feel is something we have to carry. But…it also tests us, Saphira. I have centuries of pain and suffering on my shoulders…” Saphira turned her head to look back at Optimus. “I know my own pain and suffering cannot be measured in the same way as yours. Because there is no way to measure someone’s pain and suffering no matter how it was inflicted. I often want to yell stop. All this violence that we face converts us to its cause, no matter the century.” Saphira tightened her hands in his as she smiled as she listened to him. “But we cannot keep a hold of the past as the way forward, Saphira. You know you will never do it again. And…” He lifted his right hand to wipe a tear from her cheek gently. “You would make a great mother. A far better one than your own. I know it in my spark.”

Saphira’s smile widened a little more. “Thank you, Optimus. I…I hate that I cry and share my burden with you. I know you have a lot more experiences where…you have been wronged. And I see it in the way you fight. But war is ugly.”

“Yes. War is ugly. It takes no prisoners. But it is a fact that I have come to understand, even if it something I have long wished for it to stop.” Optimus intakes deeply and exhales slowly. He gazed into her green eyes and lifted her hands to kiss the back of them. “What did you see in your nightmare? Aside from Megatron and Sentinel Prime.”

Saphira tensed her shoulders and she looked away from him. She shivered as she thought about the nightmare. “It was horrible…I was walking through Chicago…I could see the ships, the smoke, the ghosts of the people who were killed…I even saw a twisted, zombie Dylan who snarled and…” Saphira grimaced as she shook her head. “Touched me, and I couldn’t move my arms. I could only move my legs and head…so I couldn’t stop him. The sky was red, the moon was black and the sun…I didn’t see it. But Cybertron…it was like…a mirage in the sky. And yet, it looked red hot like an iron blade fresh out of the fire.” Optimus listened intently while also feeling disturbed from what she was saying already. “I was running through the streets. I was calling, but no words escaped my mouth. Even when I tried to speak to Dylan. And then…their shadows arrived. And I don’t mean like the shadows on the ground…but…their physical forms with a cloak of darkness around them and their optics were red. Redder than the shade of red Megatron’s optics already were. And they chased me while chanting some kind of strange language.” Optimus raised an eyebrow as that was odd to him. “I think it was Cybertronian, but I don’t know. It sounded evil to me…especially when their voices didn’t sound like them. But like…ghosts or demons or something. But…I ran through the city until I climbed a pile of…I think it was cars…and I turned, only to…to…” Saphira bit her lower lips and clenched her eyes shut. “I can’t…I can’t…”

Optimus stood up to gently wrap his arms around Saphira’s body. She sniffled as she wrapped her arms around him tightly and he kissed her cheek gently. “If it is too much to say, than you don’t need to say it, Saphira. It is okay. I’ll get you some water and wash your face clean from tears so you can return to bed, sweet gem.”

She shook her head as she didn’t want that right now. “No…I…just need a moment…it is why I was sick. Because…what I had seen next…and heard that femme mocking me and telling me I don’t deserve you and that I am unworthy of you…”

Optimus placed his thumb on her lips gently to cut her off. “Don’t say anything more, Saphira.” She looked at him with sad eyes and it broke his spark. She was in a lot of pain. “Of course, you deserve me. I will always believe that. Don’t let someone tell you otherwise.”

“I know…but…I am afraid that…she might do something to us. And I can’t help but think Chicago will be another catalyst. But we still have to go there.” Saphira took a deep breath and leaned into Optimus’s hand as he wiped away another tear rolling down her cheek. “Still…at least it will not be like what I saw in my dream. After I reached the top of the pile of cars and turned…there was…a flood…” Saphira shivered with a grimace. “But it was not water. Dylan did not follow me up the pile. He was struggling and drowning before I saw him sink…and I realized something. I was also wearing the same white dress that Dylan forced me to wear when…I was in that hotel…” She paused as she felt her throat tighten as she was struggling to say what she saw. But waited until she could finally say it. “The…flood…it was blood…” Optimus widened his optics in shock. “But…when Megatron and Sentinel walked through it, I realized…where that blood was coming from…and then I heard a wail…a baby’s wail. But it…wasn’t human, so it was a sparkling wail.”

Optimus frowned as he shook his head. “You don’t have to say anymore…” Saphira frowned at him as she did want to finish it. “I can tell it is ripping you up…”

“That is why I have to say the rest. Or you will not understand why I was sick.” Optimus did not care about that, but he could tell she was going to tell him anyway. He didn’t want her to, but Saphira was needing to tell him. It hurt him too, but he was there for her. “Well…I turned to see where that sound of the cries were coming from…and then I saw the river of blood flowing down the pile of cars…and the streaks of it between my legs…” Saphira gagged a little as she thought about it and Optimus gently moved her off the toilet and lifted the lid in case she would get sick again. “And then I saw it. A tiny arm stick out of the river…trying to reach for anyone to help. It was a protoform hand with…it looked like a membrane or something around it. And I tried to run, but my legs wouldn’t move. I looked down and melted metal covered my feet. I couldn’t move. But the cries turned from regular wailings to…well…uh…” Saphira swallowed nervously and more tears fell from her eyes. “To something being tortured. I tried to block it out. My arms were still stuck, but I closed my eyes to try and block it out. Until I heard her tell me that this is what I deserve for failure…and then the scream became so loud before it was cut off with a sickening crunch…” Saphira wrapped her arms around her stomach as she shook her head. “Something that reminded when I felt the snap inside my womb…from Megatron…then I woke up with you trying to speak to me…”

Optimus rubbed her shoulder gently as he rested his cheek against hers as he couldn’t believe her nightmare. “I wish I could take that memory out of your mind, Saphira. I am so sorry. I…I guess part of this was because of where we are going soon. But also…this creature in your mind. I am so sorry.”

“I know. But I worry that she will reach out to you…” Optimus flinched as he had not told Saphira about what he has heard in his mind. “The way she speaks is like…someone of ethereal nature, but with the venom of a snake.” Saphira sniffled loudly and turned her head to look at his optics. “I have no doubt that if she spoke to you, she will try to deceive. Just like Sentinel did. But worse.” She placed her hand on his cheek as she stared into his optics. “I hope if she has spoken to you that you will not listen to her. I fear that…she will try and tear us apart…or worse, use you to destroy this planet for our hand in stopping the rebuilding of Cybertron.”

Optimus kissed her gently with a smile. “I promise that I will not listen to her, Saphira. I love you with all my spark to know that I will not walk away from you. Especially with how strong our bond is.” He gently slid his fingers between hers with both hands and she blushed as the feeling tickled, and it was so sweet. “If this is a danger that we will face in the future, we will face it together, Saphira. And we shall restore our place in this world. I do not want you to remain a fugitive for the rest of your life. I am sure that we can do it.”

“I hope so…” Saphira grimaced as she felt her stomach twisting again. “Hold that thought…” Saphira pushed Optimus away again as she turned to the toilet to begin heaving again. Optimus was quick to pull her hair back and caressed her back gently. She did not heave as heavily as before, which was a good sign. But Optimus was still worried about her. Saphira groaned as she leaned back when her stomach settled. “I do not like being sick…I was sick for so long before you got here…”

Optimus chuckled a little. “You will be fine. I am sure now you will feel much better and come back to bed.” Saphira nodded as she did feel better, and she doubted she would sick anymore now. She closed the lid and he pressed the button again before he gently picked her up from the floor. “The stars are out tonight. The sky is clear, though it only just became clear. You might feel calmer by looking at the moon and the stars tonight, sweet gem.”

“Sounds good to me…” Saphira yawned a little as she had calmed down enough to begin to feel tired again. Telling Optimus her nightmare hurt, but it allowed her to let it go a little bit. “Staring at the stars really does sound nice…at least they are calm.”

“Well…” Saphira immediately looked at Optimus with a smirk as he was about to respond. “Never mind. You are right. Despite how much gas and heat that can be found in the stars, yes they are as calm as they can be.” Saphira giggled a little and looked at the bed as Optimus lowered her on it. “Rest my sweet gem. If you don’t wake tomorrow, I will ensure food is packed and I’ll carry you safely in my cab. We will make sure the other humans don’t bother you. They may try to request my cab due to the space.”

“I’m sure Ironhide won’t mind hauling them tomorrow.” Saphira arched her back as she stretched her arms and yawned again. “That really took a lot out of me. You might want to hurry before I fall asleep again and miss out on some fresh water and gentle cleansing of my face.”

Optimus chuckled lightly. “I’ll at least make sure you get some water.” Optimus leaned down and kissed her cheek gently. “I would rather you sleep, Saphira. We have a long journey, even if it is broken down into three days of driving. So try and get the rest you need. I’ll be back with a glass shortly.” He kissed her cheek again before turning and walking away.

Saphira watched him walk to the door and open it before he walked out of the room. Her smile faded and she rolled onto her side to look at the window. She could see Optimus’s cab sitting where it has been for the last couple days. She smiled at him before her eyes glance at the moonlight. She couldn’t see the stars from where she was laying, so she rolled to the other side where the smaller window by her bed gave her a better view of the stars. She sighed deeply as she gazed at them and she felt a little better.

After the nightmare, she had no idea what to expect. It could be just a nightmare, even if it felt very real. It was probably a cruel taunt. And Saphira despised the pain it caused her. She did not like that such a nightmare happened the very eve of the journey to Chicago. Saphira wished that her dreams were filled with love and happiness. And she did not know if she would see it again over the coming days. She hoped not. But she could not control what she saw in her sleep.

However, she took comfort knowing Optimus would be there. So would Bumblebee, Ironhide, Barricade, Ratchet, Crosshairs, Drift and Hound. They would all be there. They were her family and she was content they were there with her. She only hoped nothing would take them away from her. She looked back at the door as she heard Optimus walking back in and she smiled as he brought the glass of water over to her. Grateful, she sipped the water before placing the cup onto the bedside table and stared at the stars some more. This allowed her to slip into her sleep again just as she felt the lukewarm cloth on her skin as Optimus cleaned away the sweat and tears from her nightmare. It was only a few short hours before the sun would rise. And it would be time leave this farm to continue forward.

Chapter Text

Saphira opened her eyes after having a very deep sleep. She was glad because she had no dream or nightmare this time, do she felt very well rested. Though as she blinked slowly, she realized she was not in her bed. She was on the backseat of a familiar cab. The warmth radiated around her, and she then realized she could hear the gentle rumble of a truck engine and she could movement beneath her. She rolled onto her back as she rubbed her eyes before she looked towards the window, and smiled as she saw Optimus was driving along a highway.

Saphira did not know what time it was, but it was clearly in the middle of the morning. Saphira rolled back to face away from the window as she didn’t want the light of the sun to shine directly on her face. She stretched her legs and arched her back as she yawned again. She felt quite content right now, and she was happy they were on the move, even though she would have liked to watch her farm fall away into the horizon.

Her smile widened as she felt familiar, gentle, metal lips kissing her cheek. She closed her eyes briefly as she stretched her arms and legs again before she opened her eyes and turned her head slightly to see Optimus’s holoform looking down at her. “Good morning, sweet gem. You have been in a deep sleep since early this morning. I tried waking you earlier, but you were stubborn.”

Saphira huffed and rolled her eyes as she rolled onto her back. “Or I was just in such a deep sleep that it would take extreme measures to wake me up.” Optimus smiled as he leaned down to kiss her lips. Saphira let out a soft moan as she shifted to sit up and lay back against the seat. “I can’t get mad at you for not wanting to wake me when I wouldn’t. I am glad I am with you at least.”

Optimus kissed her lips again and sat beside her. “And I you. We have only been travelling for about two hours so far. You have been asleep for five. So we haven’t been travelling for too long, sweet gem. I just want you to feel rested enough to continue.”

“I do. Though...two hours...so the next town should be in the next...” Optimus nodded as Saphira clenched her thighs together. “I hope for sooner because I really need to use the bathroom. It might have been a bad idea to drink that water.”

“I can sense it. Are you able to hold it?”

“Um...yes...but it won’t be comfortable. Plus, I want to get something to eat. I doubt there was anything that could be saved for me, even if you wanted to.” Saphira shifted uncomfortably as she pressed her hands on her thighs to try and help her hold the need to relieve herself and she looked at Optimus. “So I hope that we can get there quickly. Otherwise…I am going to be shrieking at you to pull over and I don’t care about the snow outside.”

Optimus kissed her cheeks gently as he wrapped his arm around her shoulders. “I have already informed the others that you are awake and we should be there very soon. I’ll make sure to not make you laugh either. We don’t want any unnecessary accidents here.” Saphira nodded in agreeement. “I am glad that you did not have that nightmare again, Saphira. Did you dream at all?”

“No. There was no dream that I remember. It was just a dreamless sleep.” Optimus immediately seemed sad for her, though Saphira smiled at him. “Don’t feel bad about it, Prime. Dreamless sleeps are better than nightmares plaguing the mind. I feel more well rested because of it.”

Optimus still wished for her to have good dreams, but she also made a good point. “I suppose you are right. After what you told me early this morning, I replayed it in my mind once more. I wish I could protect you in your dreams, Saphira. The bond might be strong, but...there are some things I can’t do even with it.”

Saphira huffed in amusement. “Well, of course. Being bonded with each other does not grant us infinite abilities. That would be quite odd. But I do think you can connect deep to my sub conscious with concentration, Optimus.”

“Yes, I can. I was not thinking of that when I saw you were having a nightmare.” Optimus knew his mind was thinking of the voice in his mind when Saphira had her nightmare, which he felt guilty about. “Though I suppose I will know for next time that you have a nightmare. Only if I am awake. I did not recharge at all last night.”

Saphira softened her expression as that showed her how worried he was like her. She smiled at him and leaned closer to kiss his lips gently. “At least I know where your mind is too, Optimus. I am glad to not be the only one who is worried.”

“I am not sure if it something to be glad about. Especially as Barricade is also very worried. He was quite vocal this morning about it. He’s actually at the back of the line right now.” Saphira was surprised and she already felt worried about Barricade because that was also unsurprising. “Barricade is worried since he has been with you the past three years. He naturally feels the same as you and I.” Saphira nodded in agreement and Optimus kissed her cheek gently. “He is more worried about how you will handle it.”

Saphira sighed deeply as she moved the blankets in her hands thoughtfully. “I suppose I should speak to him about it. Though…I think he already knows that I will be okay. I just need these extra few days on the way to the city to gather my mind and prepare myself mentally. I guess he thinks I’ll have a mental breakdown.”

“Yes, he does. I am surprised you knew that.”

“It’s not hard to figure out, Optimus. If you were in his position, you would feel the same. Though…you probably already had thought of that.” Optimus chuckled a little and nodded, because he did think that. “But…I had already recognized that we would not find a city that has been destroyed, and there is no Megatron there. So there is no possibility of a breakdown…unless I have another nightmare like I did last night, of course.”

“I suppose you are right. Barricade has been your support for the last three years. You have gotten pretty close. And you have remained loyal to me.” Saphira glanced away from Optimus as she knew she’s still kissed Barricade, and a part of her felt guilty for it. Optimus smiled at her and kissed her cheek gently. “I know you’ve felt some love for Barricade and have kissed him before, Saphira. But I also recognize that you needed someone there, and you were hurting. So I am not angry at you. Nor am I angry at Barricade. Now you both are close friends.” Saphira still felt guilty even if Optimus was forgiving. “And I also heard from Bumblebee that you apparently plan on being a matchmaker for Barricade.”

Saphira looked at Optimus with wide eyes and she tried her hardest to not start laughing. “Um…yeah…I do plan on that. Um…is that a problem?”

“No, I think that is very noble of you, Saphira. I know Barricade loves you, and would love to find someone like you, though you shouldn’t have to help him find someone he deserves.” Saphira shrugged and Optimus chuckled a little. “However, I do understand you probably feel like you owe it to him.”

“Yeah, I guess I do. I mean…he fell in love with me, but I never really felt anything like that for him. It does make me feel guilty that…I am someone he would want to have a sparkmate, but there is only one of me out there.” Optimus chuckled again as her good heart to help Barricade find someone he could love amused him. Even though he knew that it could take years before Barricade would ever find someone. “I know it won’t be an instant thing, but…I do want to help.”

“Your heart is so big for someone so small.” Saphira blushed a deep red at the compliment and Optimus kissed her cheeks again. “I am sure you know that even though you want to help Barricade, that it will take a long time to find someone. Plus, I highly doubt forcing someone to be his sparkmate is a good idea.”

“I would never force someone, Optimus. That would be wrong of me. But…that does not mean I would not push them in the right direction.” Saphira could see the amusement in Optimus’s optics and she rolled her eyes at him. “You know I am trying to not laugh, Optimus. If I laugh, I am going to…make a mess, and I don’t want to do that. I am not going to have you complaining about it after.”

“I am aware. I am doing my best.” Optimus kissed her cheeks again gently. “Will you want to change out of your pyjamas in the meantime? Or will that only make you feel the need for it more?”

Saphira glanced down at her pajamas and she sighed deeply. “I guess I better change…I forgot that would have to. I am so used to wearing my pajamas regularly. Oh well…and no, it will not make me want to pee even more. But I am curious, since you said that you can sense that I need to go, does that mean you can feel it too?”

“Um…sort of. It was not like that before, I admit.” Saphira hummed a little as she pushed the blankets off and shifted over to the bags, where she had put her clothes in and Optimus had put into the cab for her, and began to grab out what she needed. “It is strange to me. I don’t have that need. So feeling it is weird to me. But…” Optimus grimaced as he thought of something. “It also means, with the stronger bond and the fact that I feeling more things from you…I’ll feel the cramps you get every month a lot more.”

“Optimus!” Saphira snapped as she was fighting herself from laughing suddenly. “Why would you say that?! I told you I am trying to not pee!” Saphira was really trying so hard to not laugh, even though giggles were getting through as she was pulling her pajamas off, and she was also having a hard time concentrating on changing into new clothes. “Aw…shit…you just had to say that right now of all time. At least I wasn’t eating or drinking anything.”

“Sorry…that was my mistake for not considering how you would react to that…you found it amusing the first time you realized that I could feel the pain from your cramp, so…” Optimus felt guilty for causing Saphira’s laughter, and he knew that she needed to go even more. “I apologize…though I suppose I can see why you find it funny…”

Saphira giggled while groaning and shifting uncomfortably due to the building pressure that she could feel. She knew Optimus probably did not mean to make her laugh, but it was somewhat annoying she had just told him to not make her laugh, and then he went and did so. Optimus couldn’t really do much though aside from ensuring she would calm down so she would be able to hold it for a little more time.

But now that she had laughed, it was harder for her to even hold her need to relieve herself. So Optimus did pick up speed a little so he would bring her to the town quicker. This did get questions from the autobots and other humans, but when they learned the reason, they understood. Saphira was just glad that they weren’t that far, but waiting to get there felt like hours to her.

She was really struggling to hold once they arrived in the town and Optimus came to a stop near a gas station. Saphira did not waste time as she literally jumped out of the truck and ran to the public bathroom. Optimus would follow if his holoform was repaired, but he had no choice but to wait and watch. But that didn’t mean he wouldn’t let Saphira down as Cade walked over to the truck after he got out of the camaro when he saw Saphira dashing over to the bathroom.

Cade looked up at the cab with a smile. “I now see why you needed to pick up speed. At least she will feel way better.” He stretched up his arms with a deep sigh. “I don’t suppose you have any idea of where we will stop for the night?”

“No, not yet. I know Saphira has already suggested finding a place to camp, as I don’t think stopping at a motel is a good idea should your identification gets picked up on.” Cade nodded in agreement, as that would be a bad idea. “However, since we are not in a big rush, I don’t think we will need to leave this place for a little bit.”

“Sounds good to me. I think I spotted a thrift store before, so I think I will see if Tessa wants to come along to check it out. And point Saphira in the direction too, since there might be summer clothes available for her to buy.”

“Good. She needs clothes for the warmer climate. And…” Optimus opened the passenger side door for Cade. “She forgot her bag. Can you bring that to her?”

Cade nodded and climbed up into the cab. He saw the beige bag and grabbed it from the back seat and climbed back down. “I imagine she’s feeling quite hungry right now. I am curious…” Cade glanced towards the station and looked back at Optimus as he closed the door. “How she really feeling about going to Chicago? She seems okay, but I imagine that she is only putting on a front for myself, my daughter and Shane.”

“She’s not excited, I will admit. We both have terrible memories of Chicago, and it is the last place we wanted to go back to. But she does understand that there is no war there right now. And we will be there with her, so it will not go the same way as it did last time. However, that does not mean I don’t feel guilty. After all…I am not sure what to expect and she’s already had a nightmare about it.” Cade was not surprised. Saphira has shown signs she has been traumatized deeply, and he has seen it. But Cade wasn’t even a friend to Saphira yet, so he couldn’t really help. “I wish I could take it all from her mind. But at least there is one less thing for her to worry about. Being pregnant again.”

“Right…but…you renewed your bond with her, right? Barricade has said that, and so did Ratchet.” Optimus just hummed lightly in response, and Cade took that as a yes. “That involves you both intimate, which…it is possible, you know.”

“Perhaps. But we did not even get successful with the first sparkling for many years, Cade. And I think looking at the past, I do not believe she is right. But it is a possibility, but I do not wish to say it. She’s scared of being pregnant again.” Cade softened his expression as he was also unsurprised by that. The story was horrific to hear, and Cade could never imagine being there. “But it is too soon to know, Cade Yeager. Even Saphira said so last night. We both won’t know for a while, and I think it is best we focus on KSI and Lockdown.”

“Yeah…I guess.” Cade took a deep breath and looked back over at the building to see Saphira finally emerging from the bathroom and he smiled. “I’ll take this over to her and let her know about the thrift shop. I think we might be here an hour or so before we move on.”

“That will be fine, Cade. You will not hear a peep from us.”

“Eh, maybe not from you, boss, but maybe from us.” Cade turned on his heel in surprise and widened his eyes slightly when he saw Ironhide’s holoform walking over. “I have something that Saphira left behind at the house anyway. She clearly forgot them, and that is okay. I made a few little modifications to them already.”

“What are they?” Cade questioned curiously and Ironhide held out his right hand. Cade looked at the palm and frowned when he saw a plain, gold bracelet with a woven design and a gold chain necklace with a teardrop, emerald pendent. “Um…shouldn’t Optimus be the one giving Saphira jewelry?”

Ironhide chuckled lightly. “Yes, and he has. But these are not the ordinary jewelry that you know. Nah, I made these with the intent of protecting her. Though…not sure if she will take the bracelet after the last three years, but she should.” He looked towards Saphira as she was walking towards them and he nudged Cade to walk towards her. “Don’t just stand here, punk. Get those little legs moving.”

Cade almost stumbled a little from the nudge, as Ironhide’s holoform was very strong. “Sheesh, man. Your holoform almost pushed me over.”

“What?” Ironhide chuckled again in amusement. “Hey, punk, I think you should know that by my size and these muscles. No normal human really looks like me. I think you should notice the amount of people already moving away because they’re afraid of me.” Cade glanced around and he did notice some people were looking in their direction and they did seem worried, even though Ironhide was just walking casually. “And they are right to be.”

“I don’t know if that is a good thing, Ironhide. We don’t need unwanted attention.”

“Pssh, this is nothing, punk. We are just gentlemen walking towards a gas station, nothing more.” Ironhide looked towards Saphira as she began to jog towards them. “Good morning, punk. You seem to be nice and refreshed. Optimus ensured that I would not throw you into the snow this morning to wake you up.”

Saphira smiled at Ironhide and rolled her eyes at him. “I am sure you would have suggested it, but I think Optimus and Barricade would have stood in your way.” She glanced down at Ironhide’s hand and she frowned immediately. “Ugh…I did not realize that you found them. Um…but I guess you decided to bring them.”

“And I can tell by your expression you did not want to bring them. That is okay. I swiped them before we left and I was able to make a few modifications to them.” Saphira’s frown deepened a little as she folded her arms and stopped in her tracks. Ironhide smiled at the girl and looked at the necklace and bracelet in his hand. “I know these bring up bad memories. You thought the bracelet was not working, so you decided to put it away. And you feel it will not work again. But I promise that it will.”

Saphira groaned a little as she looked away. “It is not the fact that I don’t believe that it works, Ironhide. It is more the fact that it took three years for the rest of you to show up. And...I don’t want it because I worry that it is false hope.”

“It still ensured that we found you, Saphira. You know that.” She groaned again even though he was right. Ironhide placed his right hand on her shoulder gently. “You don’t have to wear it right now, punk. But you should at least know the modifications to the bracelet.” She didn’t respond to Ironhide, so he knew she both did not want to know but she also wanted to know at the same time. Especially since Optimus did feel that Saphira should still have it. “The frequency of the bracelet has been changed. Human technologies should not be able to detect this on their scanners. It was like that before, but I’ve strengthened it to, hopefully, make it invisible to decepticons and Lockdown. Though...I’m not confident with Lockdown, so long as you only press it if we get separated again.”

Cade stared at the bracelet and smirked in amusement. “I had wondered how protective you are of this girl, but now I know. I would love something like that for Tessa.” Saphira raised an eyebrow sharply as she looked at Cade in surprise. “What? After what happened to us, I think it’s pretty obvious that I would want to protect my daughter.”

“Yeah...but she is almost an adult, right? So...she is past the age where you should be holding the leash, Cade. But...I guess you will do what you need to. But...” Saphira grabbed the bracelet from Ironhide’s hand and held it to Cade. “Here, she can have this one.”

“Oh, no, no...” Ironhide snatched the bracelet with a slight frown as he glanced between the two humans. “I can make one for your daughter, Cade, but this one is specifically made for Saphira so we can find her. There are buttons on it that she can press if needed. So you can’t have it, even if Saphira offers it to you, punk.”

Cade smiled at him while raising his hands. “That’s totally fine with me, Ironhide. I didn’t want her bracelet.”

Saphira just rolled her eyes and looked at her bag in Cade’s hand. “Can you give me my bag, Cade? I’m starving and I am going to raid the shelves in that gas station.”

“Okay, but what about that necklace Ironhide has?” Cade held the bag out which Saphira quickly took it from him and glanced at the necklace again. “Is that one important or not really?”

Saphira was about to respond when Ironhide spoke up quickly. “It can transform into a weapon to defend herself with.” Cade seemed to not believe the autobot at first with the expression on his face. “Oh, I see you don’t believe me, punk. We can prove it to you…”

“Not here, Ironhide!” Saphira hissed and snatched the necklace from his hand. “I’ll take the necklace so you don’t go trigger happy on it.” Saphira leaned a little as she saw Bumblebee and Crosshairs pulling away. “Where are they going?”

“Oh, they’re just keeping an eye on Tessa and Shane, that is all. They’re going to a thrift store that the humans spotted on the way in. You may find something for yourself there.”

“Good. I didn’t even think to ask. I am still waking up.” Saphira turned to begin walking back to the gas station. “If you want to meet us with your daughter, Cade, feel free to do so. Or you can come in and get something. Bottles of water would be ideal.”

“That actually is a good idea. I wasn’t thinking about that. Plus, wherever we camp tonight, we are going to need food.” Cade followed Saphira and he glanced at Ironhide as he turned to walk back to his vehicle form. “You aren’t coming, Ironhide?”

“Nah, I’m not about to bore myself by looking around inside some human building for food. Besides, I will provide just scare everyone out of the building. Even the ones who work there.” Both Cade and Saphira chuckle at Ironhide’s response. “You two punks take your time. I would prefer to not waste three days, but it is for your benefit that we take time to get to Chicago.”

Cade chuckled as he followed Saphira before he walked a little faster to catch up and walk beside her. “I suppose he is right. All of the food we eat do not interest them. I’ve never seen them eat anything.”

“Because they don’t eat food to survive, they have energon. They make a synthetic energon to sustain themselves. It’s the only food they can have, honestly.” Saphira looked at the necklace in her hand and sighed deeply as she shifted the bag to her shoulder so she could put the necklace on. “I probably should have grabbed the necklace...it’s the only thing I would have grabbed.”

“Well, you should still have the bracelet. I understand you don’t want it due to the past, but you can’t blame them, Saphira. They’ve had a hard few years like you. Probably harder, since they have had to hide to survive.” Saphira did not disagree, but she still felt resentful enough to not want the bracelet. Cade was sympathetic to the girl though. “I would feel the same in your position, I suppose. You at least have the best family around you.”

“Yeah...I do. I do miss those who aren’there anymore. Sideswipe, Mirage, Leadfoot, Roadbuster and Topspin...hell, I don’t even know what happened to Wheelie and Brains. They were idiots, but those little scrap bots were good friends to hang out with.” Saphira did not think the scrap bots were dead, so she hoped their size and insignificant signals would make it easier for them to hide. “But there are the humans I considered family. Lennox and Robert...especially since I saw Lennox like a dad. He is way better with his daughter than my biological father ever was...and it hurts that...he probably can’t contact me anymore.”

“I am sorry.” Cade gently placed his hand on her shoulder and Saphira immediately shrugged him off. “Listen, I know you don’t trust me yet. But you should know that I have your back. And I think you’re the bravest person in the world.”

“You hardly know me to even make that comment, Cade. I appreciate it though.”

Cade smiled. “Maybe, but there’s plenty of stories that the autobots have told that has made me believe you are very brave. Um...Bumblebee even told me about when you were chased by some humanoid decepticon out of Princeton.”

“Oh, fuck, of course he did. That was very uncomfortable. Especially since that decepticon made some very unwanted, flirtatious advances on me at that time.” Saphira shuddered at the very thought. “It was uncomfortable. And I already had Simmons make some remarks before that too.” Saphira sighed as the doors of the gas station opened automatically as the enter the building. “Somehow, I’m a magnet for that type of thing.”

Cade grimaced as that was something he worried for his daughter too. As far as he knew, it hasn’t happened, but Tessa may not tell him if it does. “I don’t think you are, Saphira. And I don’t know who this Simmons is, but I would give him a black eye for you.”

Saphira huffed in amusement. “No thanks, Lennox already pulled a gun on him for it. Especially since I wasn’t even eighteen at the time.”

“Good. I support that one thousand percent.” Saphira chuckled as she glanced around to see what was available to buy. “But I hope you know that I think you are brave.”

“Well...thanks. I do like you, Cade. I think you’re brave too. Even if you are forced into it.” Saphira stopped at a shelf as she looked at some canned salmon and tuna, and she grabbed a few as her stomach growled angrily at her. “Time to get some food. Maybe there’s a cafe here somewhere with a breakfast menu. I don’t want just to have junk.”

“There should be.” Cade walked over to the fridge to grab several bottles of water. “And thanks again for ensuring we can buy stuff.”

“It’s fine, Cade. I don’t mind.” Saphira grabbed a packet of crackers to put under her armpits as she looked around for more things. “I think I am going to take my time. Especially since we are camping tonight.”

“I think I’ll do the same. Good thing we aren’t in a hurry.”

Saphira just nodded as she took her time grabbing some things she would want and need. Even a loaf of bread as that would definitely get shared between the four humans. After buying what they wanted and needed from the gas station, Saphira brought her stuff back to Optimus, while Cade took his stuff to Ironhide. After that, she did go to the local cafe and she was able to buy a breakfast burrito with a coffee.

Knowing that they were getting closer to Chicago did make Saphira feel more worried, but she tried to not let that bother her. So she took the time to think about where they would stop. And going into the thrift shop to find clothes she needed was also a welcome distraction. But they were not going to spend the whole day in the town, so it wouldn’t take that many hours to keep her distracted. But she was excited about later that night as she did intend to spend time with Optimus again. But also have a bit of fun with the other autobots.

Happy New Year Readers!

Chapter Text

After spending just over an hour and a half in the town, the autobots finally rolled out with the humans. Saphira was satisfied after having her breakfast and getting some new clothes for herself, along with the other three humans. She was now relaxing in the passenger seat of the Western Star as she was singing along to some songs on the radio. She’s realized how many songs she has missed since arriving on the farm, and she was glad Optimus could connect to the internet without giving away their location.

Optimus was enjoying the sound of Saphira’s melodic voice. It has been so long since he has hears her singing, and he was glad she was finding enjoyment along the road. Plus, Saphira felt the need to keep herself from thinking too much, and music from the radio was probably one of the few things she could do. Though Saphira had thought about where they would stay for the night. There were many places they could camp, but the more secluded, the better in her mind. Even though the autobots were not uncomfortable about keeping their holoforms hidden from prying eyes.

“I have not forgotten just how beautiful your voice is when you sing, Saphira.” Saphira glanced at the dash in surprise when Optimus complimented her and she blushed. His holoform was currently off and that was fine by her. “It makes my spark leap with joy knowing you can enjoy music again. I had no idea you did not hear music until now. I am surprised Barricade never offered to use his own radio.”

Saphira brushed a strand of hair from her face. “Well…I never really asked him, if I am honest. My mind was on you, Bumblebee, Ratchet, Ironhide…everyone…so music just didn’t feel right to listen to or sing along with at the time, Optimus. My…heart just wasn’t in it, Prime. It was hurting, so...music was not something I wanted to listen to. Plus, you are right, Barricade never offered. But that is okay. He was focused on…well…” Saphira grimaced as she thought back to the last three years. “Ensuring I was okay. There were many times I have a breakdown and I insulted him so much. I hurt him so much. I never meant it, but I was hurt. And I missed you and everyone else.”

“I had no idea. Barricade never mentioned it. I should…”

“No, you don’t need to apologize, Optimus.” Saphira placed her hand on the dash gently as she interrupted him. “I was the one who acted like that. It isn’t you who had to apologize. I’m just glad that Barricade had the patience with me. I still remember what he was like before he changed sides.”

“As do I. Though he and Bumblebee did have their own private squabble between each other. After all, before the war, he and Barricade were friends a long time ago. Then the war started.” That made a lot of sense as to Barricade and Bumblebee acting competitively to each other. Even in the first time Saphira saw the two fighting each other, it looked personal. “That is why Barricade probably was quick to anger. But now he has calmed down. And you are the reason for that. I am sure he is grateful.”

“Yeah, he probably is. At least he made the conscious decision to change sides before the events of Chicago.” Saphira didn’t know how different it would have been if Barricade did not change sides. She breathed deeply and looked at the trees as they roll by. “It feels so good and strange to be on the road again. Your new truck mode feels quite different to the peterbilt you were before.”

Optimus hummed a little in amusement. “Perhaps if we pass by one, I’ll scan it to return to that form.”

“That’s not needed. I didn’t mean it in a bad way. I think the western star is quite a nice truck. Besides, you are still you. Just like when I change clothes...or take them off...I’m still me. So...it’s not that different really.”

“You are right. New vehicle modes make us no different.” Optimus changed the radio station as the current one was starting to lose signal and all that could be heard was white noise. “I should ask this question. When we get to the city, where should we hide? You can’t use motels or hotels, so...”

“Oh, fuck...I haven’t thought of that. And truthfully, I don’t know...but there should be some buildings big enough that have been abandoned from the battle.” Saphira wouldn’t even have a clue of where to look first. But finding a place to use as a refuge for the night before approaching KSI seemed reasonable. “That might be the first thing we will do when we get to the city. That way we aren’t just parked out in the open for all to see.”

“I agree. Sorry that I might have bothered you about it.”

“It’s okay, Optimus. It is better for you to ask sooner than later. I’ll talk to Cade about it. He might be a bit rash about going to KSI straight away, when that would be a bad idea without a place to rest and plan.” Saphira glanced at the stereo and smiled as an Dancing Queen began to play. “I haven’t heard this one in years. I can’t believe I actually miss something that I didn’t listen to for three years.”

“You definitely don’t know what you take for granted until it is gone.” Saphira nodded in agreement. “Human music is nice to hear. Not all of it. But I do enjoy listening to it.”

“I know. Though I don’t think I’ve ever asked why type of music you like...though I think you generally prefer the music I listen to.”

“Yes, I do. But I have found the instrumental music to be better. No words can still tell a story.” Saphira couldn’t help but agree. She also loved instrumental music. No words were needed when the music carried the mind into imagination. “Though I suppose my preference does come from the fact we don’t have the same music as humans do. It is unfortunate the radio does not play that kind of music.”

 “No, but you could access the internet and play it from there instead, Optimus. We don’t have…” As Saphira was talking, she heard the radio fill with white noise for a minute before an instrumental began to play, and she immediately knew it was from Two Steps from Hell. “Ooh, I love this piece. Two Steps from Hell make amazing soundtracks and they even have a Christmas soundtrack, and only they can make it feel like someone is riding in battle on Christmas Eve.”

“I don’t think I have listened to their music yet. But it does sound rather pleasant to me.” Saphira was glad because it was one of favorite artists to listen to. “And it is already turning this drive into something more than just an average road trip.” She glanced to the driver seat as Optimus’s holoform formed and she smiled at him as he looked at her. “I’d make a suggestion that we find some random, hidden oasis among the trees to pull over and spend time together, but we have company.”

Saphira blushed and glanced at the window to see Bumblebee behind Optimus. Cade, Shane and Tessa were all together in the camaro, and they looked like they were having some kind of conversation. “Yeah…but we can always make it as an excuse that we can stay there tonight. Though we should just find a regular camping spot. We won’t find any camaras or need out ID to stay there.”

“Which, from the little research I have done for this area of the country, there is many places. I am not sure which would be the least popular. The less people around, the better it would be.”

“Personally, I would not worry about it, Optimus. People aren’t going to realize who you are since they would be there spending time with each other. But…” Saphira hummed a little as she knew that Optimus was partly right. “Given there is eight vehicles of different makes and models, most which are considered exotic and expensive cars, it might cause some interest if we turn up…so you are right about that, Optimus. But given it is almost winter here, the temperature gets cold at night and these places aren’t going to have a lot of people camping at this time of year. We would be considered crazy, if anything.”

“I suppose you are right. I had not really considered that part of the equation. So we might be lucky.” Saphira nodded and Optimus smiled at her. “It must show that I still have a lot to learn about this world.”

“Nah, it just shows you aren’t native and did not grow up in this world,” Saphira responded sarcastically and Optimus rolled his optics in amusement. “But it’s okay, Optimus. Little things like that are easy to overlook and not think about. We will be fine. I think we should pull up for the evening soon anyway. We will have the rest of the afternoon and evening to spend. Luckily, we have a few things to eat tonight, and we might find some more things tomorrow the next place we pass through.”

“And what about a bathroom? You will want that, won’t you?”

Saphira nodded. “Which is precisely why we can find a campground. A lot of the time there might be a public bathroom and showers. It might be chilly when using them, but it is a major reason we should go to them rather than a random spot on the side of the road.”

“Hmm…are the bathrooms soundproof?”

Saphira immediately smirked and shook her head with a deep blush. “I am afraid not. Plus, we might not be the only ones at the camping spot either, Prime. But…” She leaned towards him and kissed his cheek gently. “I do like how you are thinking. I had not thought of it, but…maybe tonight? Since we get a few days until Chicago, we might as well make the most of each other’s company.”

“I have already made a silent promise to ensure we have that time together. Though, you should give time to spend with the others. You have hardly spent time with Bumblebee, Crosshairs, Ratchet, Drift, Hound and Ironhide since we came to you.” Saphira sighed and leaned back as guilt washed over her face. “Bumblebee himself has been very sad you hardly spent time with him. He’s understood you needed the time and space for the time being, but…I am sure you can understand why he would be upset. He sees you as his little sister, after all.”

Saphira smiled and glanced at the side view mirror. “I know it just means I am his best friend…”

“No, he legitimately sees you as a sibling. And you have been separated for three years, Saphira. He’s told us when he first met you…or rather, forced you to purchase the car you thought was a normal vehicle…” Saphira giggled as she remembered how Bumblebee forced that incident to occur. She would never forget that. She couldn’t believe that he actually had done that, now that she knew him. “Maybe you should spend time with him over the next day or two.”

Saphira had wanted to spend most of the days with Optimus, but he was right. She had neglected spending time with Bumblebee. After all, he was the first autobot she met. And she had not really thought about how he was feeling when he was there at the farm, and she didn’t interact with him much, aside from the snowball fight. “I had wanted to stay with you, Optimus. As calm as I look, I am still worried…”

“I know. But you know I will be with you even if you are with Bumblebee. If you need to talk to me, just talk through the bond. Bumblebee will not hear our conversation at all.” Saphira knew that. She just wanted his physical comfort. Though she also knew she needed to spend time with the others. It wouldn’t be fair on them. “I know your need to stay with me comes from a place of worry and fear, Saphira. But don’t forget who was also by your side when I was not. Before we became sparkmates, who was there with you? Who spent a lot of time with you? And let’s not forget the endless amount of time you spent with the doctor about our medical needs and anatomy.”

“Yeah…true…now that I think of it, Ironhide spent more time with Lennox than he did me…but I do miss spending time with him too.” Saphira glanced ahead as she noticed a sign indicating a campground ahead. “Hmm…maybe we should check this campground out, Optimus. It might be the place we stop for the night.”

“I agree.” Optimus opened his com link to the other autobots. “Autobots, we are approaching a campground where the humans can rest for the night. Be sure to remain on your guard now, even if we are further inland than Cemetery Wind would be expecting us to be.”

“Understood, boss. I imagine the humans are itching to stretch their legs, even if there are no complaints from Bumblebee,” Ironhide responded in a slightly sarcastic tone that made Saphira chuckle.

“Nah, they just need another pitstop,” Bumblebee snapped back quickly, and Saphira giggled more as she listened to them. “I think this place will have a public toilet for them to use.”

“Just a quick look at the internet will tell you that,” Crosshairs said nonchalantly. “And it does. Lucky for us. Optimus, are you sure that we will be spending two or three nights before going into Chicago? I think one is enough.”

Saphira frowned a little as she knew Crosshairs was not the most patient autobot of the group, but hoped he would understand. Before she could respond, Optimus responded to him. “I know you want to get this done, Crosshairs. But I hope you can find patience and understanding. You already know why we have additional nights before we will reach Chicago. I understand the frustration of not knowing, but we will know soon. It will not take as long as you think.”

Crosshairs sighed deeply. “I’m sorry if I am bothering Saphira about it. I do understand, Optimus. I am not very good with patience sometimes. I also want off this planet, so I guess I’m just feeling the need to get there as soon as possible.”

“I understand your sentiment, Crosshairs. Perhaps, when we stop at the campground, you can find something to do to take your mind off it. I know Saphira is thinking off something too.” Saphira nodded, even if it was specifically to spend time with Bee. “I cannot suggest much else, I am afraid.”

“Well...I suppose if we still had the volleyball equipment from her farm, I wouldn’t mind going against Bumblebee, Ironhide and Ratchet again. That is a lot of fun, and I win every single time,” Crosshairs responded with a gleefully time.

“Ha! You wish you were as good as me, punk!” Ironhide responded quickly. “You don’t hit the ball that hard.”

“That’s because you only need to tap it, Ironhide,” Ratchet chuckled in amusement. “But what do you think, Saphira?”

“Um...I won’t know until we get there. That will help make a decision for me when I see what the place looks like.” Saphira looked at Optimus’s holoform curiously. “Are you able to kind of check through the internet? If it has a lake, we might be able to do something by it, since it will be way too cold to swim in.”

Optimus did not respond as he did focus to connect to the internet to check what the nearest campground was. Saphira waited patiently as she did want to know. Optimus hummed a little after a few minutes before he responded. “I am afraid I cannot find information regarding this particular campground. Maybe it is not something that has a lot of information on. The only way to figure out would be to go into the town that is only five minutes away from the campground.”

“I see…I guess it will be a surprise then.” Saphira was not unhappy that there wasn’t any information, but that was okay. Not every campsite had to have a lot of information. “I mean, when you found that emerald field by chance, I highly doubt there was any information on that one.”

Optimus chuckled lightly. “I suppose you are right. I came across it by chance when I was looking for a place to clear my mind. And I knew you would love it after I found it.”

“Exactly. We will have nothing to worry about. And maybe, if we are lucky, we might get it to ourselves due to the time of year.”

“I think there will be a couple people,” Cade spoke through the com link. “But I agree about less people. Though, going into the town here might not be a bad idea. We could go and buy some potatoes to roast in a fire.”

“Mmm…that actually sounds like a good idea…though we should get to the campsite first before considering that, Cade. But hot, roasted potatoes sound good to me.” Saphira watched as Optimus turned onto a road to the left and began to follow it. “Hopefully, it will have some nice views, even if it is just of the pine forest around us here.”

“It already seems beautiful just on the drive in.”

Saphira nodded in agreement. The road was just a dirt road as the autobots drove along it. It was not wide, so it certainly would be hard to bring a caravan in if someone wanted to bring one in. The branches of the trees gently brush against the sides of the autobots and Saphira couldn’t help but smile. It was very similar to the drive into the emerald field, and she missed it deeply. She knew they would not likely find another place like it, but it was okay. She at least had good memories of it.

As Optimus drove into the open space, they would find a brick building that had a lot of leaves and branches in the gutters. This building had a toilet and shower sign on them to show this was the public bathroom for people staying here. Down the small slope from the dirt road led to many flat areas and round, metal campfire pits that were spread around for convenient use of for campers, and several wooden tables. It would seem that they were currently the only ones here, as there were no other vehicles or tents around. Though there were tyre tracks in the ground leading towards a bank of a nearby river with a view of a mountain. This place had a lot of overgrowth, so it gave a very sheltered feeling. But it was beautiful.

Saphira gasped as a small herd of deer ran by, and she watched them with a smile. “I already like this place. A lake, wildlife, trees and loneliness, even if I never feel alone in a place like this. I bet it will smell so fresh when we get out.”

“I can confirm that it does.” Optimus came to a stop as he did not want to go down the slope. “If no other humans show up, I will be comfortable enough to transform and walk around. That lake looks pleasant to sit by.”

“It does.” Saphira turned to his holoform with a smile. “Though even though there might be others here sometime, you could just roam with your holoform. You can turn it off if we hear someone else.”

“I could, yes, but I do think it is best to remain hidden, Saphira.” He leaned closer to kiss her forehead gently and ran his fingers through her hair. “But it won’t be forever, Saphira. I also want you to enjoy time with the other autobots. And get to know the other humans.”

“I know.” Saphira chuckled as she kissed him. “I can always come back if I want to feel your arms around me…but if we do get this place to ourselves, maybe you could park by the lake. I would very much like it.”

Optimus grinned and nodded in agreement. “That does sound like a good idea.” He kissed her again before he gently nudged her towards the door. “Go and explore, Saphira. Cade has already decided to go and get some potatoes, and Crosshairs has decided to go with him.”

“Ah, he’s doing that to do be too bored. That’s okay.” Saphira shuffled to the door as Optimus opened it for her. She tensed as the rush of cool air filled the cab and she shivered, grabbing her jacket immediately. “Yep, I can feel why people aren’t here right now.”

Optimus was immediately empathetic as he watched Saphira get herself ready so she was as warm as possible. “I apologize…”

“What for? You can’t control the weather, Prime. It’s just normal at this time of year, Prime. Besides…” Saphira began to climb out of the cab. “I will be okay. There’s no snow, it is not raining, so there will be no concern of freezing to death. If I feel cold enough, I’ll come back. But for now, it will be fine.”

Optimus smiled at her as she reached the ground. “Very well. You know your tolerances of the weather. The cab will be nice and toasty when you decide to get warm, Saphira. And…” Optimus paused as he spoke to her through the bond. “From what I have read, apparently you warm up faster by taking your clothes off. And I think they are right.”

Saphira blushed a deep red and giggled at him. “I agree…I might just go through with it…” Saphira shrieked as a pair of strong arms wrap around her suddenly and lifted her up, making her glance back to see Bumblebee. She giggled as she held the arms of the scout’s holoform. “Bumblebee! You scared me!”

“Sorry, little sister. But I am thrilled to be here! This place is beautiful! Not as pretty as your farm, but it’s beautiful.” Bumblebee put her back down and Saphira turned to face him with a bewildered expression. He giggled at her lightly. “You know it isn’t the first time I’ve done that. How many times did I pick you up and chuck you into the dam at your grandfather’s property?”

“Too many to count. But you aren’t going to do that today, because I am not going to freeze my butt off tonight.”

“Oh, relax, Saphira. I might act like a youngling sometimes…” Optimus let out a hum of amusement and Bumblebee glanced at the truck. “Oh, I see you don’t agree.” Saphira giggled and Bumblebee rolled his eyes. “I won’t chuck you into the lake. I would feel awful if you got sick again. Barricade probably would bust my aft if I did that.”

“Especially since I had to deal with her being sick while you weren’t here.” Barricade walked over with a smirk and wrapped his arm around Bee’s shoulders. “I would certainly make sure you can’t sit or stand for a few days if you did do that. But I would hate to do that since we will need everyone in full condition.”

“Yes, we will.” Saphira breathed in the fresh, cool air with a smile on her face. She walked down the hill, hearing the crunch of the grass underneath her feet as she walked towards the lake. “I guess we got very lucky that no one is here.”

“It is also Wednesday, so we are on the wrong day.” Saphira glanced to her right to see Shane and Tessa also walking towards the lake. He had his arm around Tessa’s shoulders as the two huddled together. “Time of the week is important for regular campers.”

“Yeah, you are right. At least we can pick whatever fire pit we want and cook some potatoes. If we had some butter, that would be even better. And…” Saphira smirked as she couldn’t help but tease them a little. “With Cade out with Crosshairs, at least you both don’t have to look over your shoulder.”

Tessa rolled her eyes at Saphira. “You had to bring that up. I don’t get how it amuses you.”

“It doesn’t, actually, but maybe because I never had a dad who cared enough to be that way with me. Plus…” Saphira glanced back at the autobots, smiling as she saw every holoform, except for Optimus. "Once I met the autobots, I didn’t need that.”

“You say that, but you do seem to yearn for a little bit,” Ratchet commented as he followed them with a smile. “You saw it in Lennox for a while until we lost contact. Though I am not sure who else you would look to as a father figure.”

“It is more than just a parental figure she would be wanting, Ratchet. But rather someone for guidance,” Drift said in a calm, gentle tone. “She has that in Optimus. She also has that with Barricade, yourself and myself…”

“And me, punk!” Ironhide snorted with a loud huff. “Just because you like to think you are all so calm and well balanced and I like to fire my canons before I say hello, that doesn’t mean I cannot give guidance.”

Drift did not have a certain expression at that response, but he also did not engage as he looked at Saphira to keep speaking. “Am I right about my assumptions, Saphira?”

She nodded. “Yeah. You are. Plus, I still also have echoes of the words my grandfather has told me and the things he’s left me as well. So I have no need for a father or mother.”

“I would say you are lucky, but I guess you can’t really miss something you never had,” Tessa said slowly before she stopped for a moment and shrieked, backing away from Shane with a grimace. “Oh, no, no, no…I don’t like those things…”

Saphira frowned as she saw what Tessa was shrieking about. It was an opossum with babies on her back. The opossum was startled by Tessa and scurried back into the forest. “Are you kidding me? That mother was just on her way. You didn’t need to scare her off.”

“Eh, I don’t like those things. They creep me out.” Tessa shivered and Shane offered his hand to her. “At least it’s gone. Better than having a rabid animal trying to nip at us.”

“There are none, and we are here walking in a space where they live. So if you can’t handle opossums, raccoons, squirrels…” Saphira glanced at the tree as she spotted a couple squirrels moving between the trees. “Birds, deer and any other animal that might come by here, I question how you survived on a farm.”

Tessa frowned at Saphira. “I might have lived on a farm, but we didn’t exactly have anything that might consider us actual farmers. I just don’t like opossums, and I also do not like raccoons. I hope nothing else shows up.”

Saphira rolled her eyes at the girl. “I think you have way more things to be afraid of than a mother opossum passing by and a squabble of raccoons that may show up to try and steal our food. How old are you again?”

Shane frowned at Saphira. “She’s allowed to afraid of something, Saphira. You don’t have to be mean. She’s seventeen.”

“I know she is, I am just saying she might need to pull it in for a bit. I mean, I was sixteen when I met the autobots. And you what I went through?”

“Meeting the autobots wouldn’t have been that scary, would it?” Tessa asked with a frown.

“Actually, I mean, when I first met them, I was terrified and amazed at the same time. I mean…” Saphira noticed Bumblebee and Barricade had expressions of guilt as she spoke, but she kept speaking. “When I met Optimus at the time, the main reason was I had something that they needed. Something that would save the whole world. I mean, can you imagine how I felt when the burden of saving the entire world fell upon my shoulders? At the time, I was more worried about the cars I was fixing up for races…and I got pulled into that action and I ended up being arrested by a government asshole, forced to watch Bee get pulled down and taken away, and I was brought to Mission city where I first met Megatron, and almost died more than a few times. I mean…” Saphira shrugged with a chuckle. “I wouldn’t change it, because I have the most absurd, but amazing memories to look back on. But you being afraid of a tiny mammal who is just trying to mind her own business with her babies is the least of your concern, Tess.”

“Well…” Tessa grimaced as after hearing that did make her understand why Saphira thought that Tessa was being overdramatic over a small animal. “Yeah…you are right. I was being overdramatic…I was just chased and bitten by one as a kid. It’s irrational, I know, but…”

“There is no shame of being afraid of something, Tessa. We are all afraid of something. Even we autobots.” Ratchet lightly tapped his chest as he spoke and he looked at Saphira with a smile. “And just remember, Saphira, your experience shouldn’t really be a picture of what it should be for everyone. I know you’ve been through a lot in a short time, but you can’t expect their experience to be the same as yours. The only similarity is that you and those three humans have been thrust into something that is not of your own making.”

Saphira nodded as she agreed. “Yeah, you are right.” She stopped upon reaching the bank of the lake and she smiled. “I guess I am just used to being around other people who have been through war and such. So I am not used to ordinary people.”

Bumblebee chuckled a little and wrapped his arm around Saphira to hug her suddenly, making her giggle at him. “You got that right, little sister. How about a little competition?”

Saphira looked at him curiously. “A competition? What kind?”

Bee winked at her as he leaned down and picked up a pebble. “To see who can skip a pebble the furthest. I know Ironhide won last time, but…”

“I’ll win again, punk.” Ironhide picked up a pebble and threw it, skipping the pebble eight times, making him clench his hand angrily. “Ugh! That’s much less than before.”

Hound chuckled loudly as his playfully elbowed Ironhide. “Well, this is a competition, Ironhide. You win some, you lose some.”

“Sounds like a good idea to me!” Shane had leaned down and picked up a pebble before throwing it to skip the stone ten times across the water. He pumped his fist excitedly. “That’s the most I’ve ever done.”

“Alright, you’re on. Might as well before we should gather some wood for the fire and figure something else out.” Saphira picked up a pebble and looked at the autobots and humans. “We get ten throws each. Get the most skips, you win. Even though Hound or Ironhide will win.”

Ironhide and Hound glance at each other competitively, and Saphira knew that they were in for a fun time. She did wish Optimus could turn on his holoform, but it was okay. They might get very lucky. For the time being, they had a lot of fun skipping pebbles before it turned into charades followed up by a competition to see who can gather the most wood and kindling for the fire pit. It was fun, and both Cade and Crosshairs returned with the potatoes to wrap with aluminium foil to cook them in the fire pit.

And they would be indeed very lucky. No one else came to the campground, even after the sun went down, so the autobots were able to transform and relax out of their vehicle modes. And the promise Prime had made to park by the lake for both himself and Saphira was fulfilled, and as the moon rose to reflect light off the water, it led to the both of them to engage with each other until Saphira fell asleep to the comfort, warmth and pleasure from her sparkmate. And Optimus was able to find recharge as listening to the rustle of the trees, the sound of the water and light movement of animals moving around at night was calming to him. They now had two more nights before reaching Chicago.