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INT. CATHOLIC CHURCH - NIGHT

The camera pans up to a wide shot of a Roman Catholic church. Monotonic drones interspersed with choral wails pervade in the background.

The camera cuts to a closeup of BLACKHEART in profile, in front of a large group of prayer candles. He lifts a lit long match to his lips and blows it out.

We cut to a brief glimpse of a painting of an angel and a stained glass window depicting JESUS CHRIST. They look down on the scene, powerless to stop what is to come.

A PRIEST enters, closing the door behind him.

BLACKHEART
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned...

He turns to look at the PRIEST as the camera pushes in on his face.

BLACKHEART
I’ve sinned a lot.

Kanaya: Oh Come On
June: Kanaya shush this is a really good part!

BLACKHEART steps towards the PRIEST, walking down the aisle calmly but with purp-

Kanaya: I Am Sorry June But You Cannot Argue That Line Was Effective

BLACKHEART
Where’s the contract of San Vin-

June: no it’s-
June: you’re not getting it see-

PRIEST
I don’t know what you are talking about.


BLACKHEART
Don’t lie to-

June: w8 Kanaya where are you going?
Kanaya: I
Kanaya: Have To Pee

BLACKHEART
You’ve been protecting it all these-

Kanaya: Please Continue To Watch Without Me

after a moment of digging around in the couch cushions I find the remote and hit pause. 8y then Kan is long gone, leaving me and a giggling Rose on the couch. I stand up and stretch my legs. sitting like a 8isexual really has its draw8acks.

June: she’s really not into this, huh?
Rose: The fact that she’s lasted this long is a testament to her affection towards you.

Rose moves the 8ucket of popcorn I left 8ehind into her lap, plucking out a small handful of kernels and d8ntily placing them into her mouth. it’s amazing how proper she can 8e, even still in her pajamas.

it’s weird to see her so casual so l8 in the morning. the sun is high in the sky and here we are, eating junk food and watching movies. I mean, that’s a normal day for me, but for her and Kanaya?

I’m…thankful for it though. 8eats thinking a8out the teal-8looded SHE'S GONE elephant not in the room.

June: I guess I appreciate the effort. ::::P
June: what a8out you, had enough?
Rose: Honestly? I’m quite enjoying myself.
June:
June: really.

I’m not gr8 at giving sardonic looks, nowhere near as good as she is, 8ut I do my 8est as I plop down next to her.

June: *Ghost Rider* is the movie that Rose Lalonde and I agree on.
Rose: I’m not a horny teenager desperate to impress her crush; I have no reason to lie to you.
Rose: And while I don’t share your interest in fetishizing the positive qualities of frankly terrible media, this movie’s particular fascination with bizarre Christian pseudo-mythology has lured me in.
Rose: Take the scene we just watched for instance. If we are to believe that Blackheart is a demon, a creature bound to oblige mortals to sin, how can he himself sin?
June: well no see, that's what makes the scene so good.
June: his father isn’t God, he’s the son of Satan, so when he says that he’s mocking his dad.
June: it’s like...su8text.
Rose: That...is the most generous usage of the word subtext I can possibly imagine.
Kanaya: Does Subtext Explain Why His Minions Look Like They Are Made Out Of Plastic

I jump a little as Kanaya settles onto the couch next to me, silent and jarring as ever.

June: heh no, I think they just didn’t have the money to m8ke it look 8etter. ::::P
June: they spent a8out half the 8udget just getting Nic Cage.
June: worth every penny though.
Kanaya: I Will Admit He Puts On Quite A
Kanaya: Performance
June: I can’t tell if you’re 8eing sarcastic.
Kanaya: Neither Can I
Rose: Oh darling please, if you enjoy the film so much do just come out and say so.
Rose: No need to couch your pleasure behind artifice.
Kanaya: I Have Done Enough Coming Out For One Lifetime Thank You
Kanaya: I Will Continue To Watch The Movie Out Of Care For My-
Kanaya: Out Of Care For June And That Is All That Needs To Be Said About That

Rose and I share a glance, acknowledging the fum8led word. not the first time it’s happened. Kan is usually pretty careful a8out what she says, so that’s saying something. 8ut I’m not in a space to open that can of worms, so instead I snag the remote and hit play.

as the movie continues and 8lackheart yells at a doomed priest on-screen, my mind wanders. it’ll 8e a 8it 8efore Johnny 8laze is on screen again. I’ve got time.

I’m sitting cross-legged on the couch. it’s small. two people sit comforta8ly on it. with three there’s no way to avoid some incidental touching.

8ut we’ve kinda moved past incidental at this point. Rose’s hand is intertwined with mine, sitting on my knee. my other hand is less suited for affection, 8eing made of metal and all. 8ut Kanaya quickly gets around that issue 8y putting her arm over my shoulder, giving my shoulder a tight squeeze.

this is so wild.

I, June Eg8ert, decided a decade ago to play a 8eta for a weird game with my friends.

from that one choice a whole lot of lususshit happened, and…


now I’m here.


a god and a girl.


with enough Vriska in me to make me happier than I’ve ever 8een and enough to make it a pro8lem.


sitting 8etween my moirail and her wife.


cuddling 8oth of them.

oh.


hadn’t thought of that 8efore.


I’m in the middle.


for most of movie Rose was there 8ut after we readjusted-

w8.


where is Rose’s hand-


oh.


she just put it on the inside of my thigh.


delic8ly. 8ut defin8ly with purpose.


what do I do?

what do I do?

what do I do?

the movie’s still playing. Nic Cage is on screen now 8ut I am way too distracted to care.

do I acknowledge it?

am I reading too much into it?

I defin8ly am. what the hell is going on in your mind Eg8er-

oh.

Kanaya just moved her hand.


her fingers are in my hair a8ove the 8ack of my neck.


and she’s scratching my head ever so slightly.


her nails are sharpened to points.


the slightest scratch feels amazing.


and the thought of what she could do if she went harder settles into my mind.


what does this mean?


ok no, I’m defin8tely reading too much into-

Rose tightens her grip.

ever so slightly.

running her thum8 8ack and forth.

then Kanaya wraps her fingers around my hair.

sending shivers up my 8ack.

and pulls.

I can’t keep my eyes open.

pinpricks of pain erupt from my scalp

and it hurts and it feels amazing and-

which only makes the sens8tions harder to ignore.

shit I can’t help it.


a quiet moan falls out.

Kanaya: I Believe That Makes Me The Winner

w8 what?

everything comes crashing down at once. eyes fly open, gazing at a paused television. when did they pause it? was I really that distracted?

on 8oth sides of me sits a smirking girl. I am 8eet red.

June: w8 what the heck is going on???????? >::::X
Rose: Oh June, it’s quite simple really.
Rose: When you went on your third bathroom break earlier-
June: fucking spiro...
Rose: -my darling matesprit and I made a little wager.
June: wagering on what?

how does Rose look so evil while she’s smiling????????

Rose: As to who could make you emit an...erotic vocalization first.
Rose: Without getting noticed.
June:
June: ::::O
Kanaya: And As I Said I Am Undoubtedly The Victor
Kanaya: Though I Must Say You Provided A Challenge My Love
Rose: A competition is not fun unless both are masters of their craft.

I have no idea how to feel a8out all of this. I feel like I should 8e…I don’t know, mad? I’m 8eing o8jectified, after all. used, kind of. 8ut I’m not, not really. I would 8e if it were anyone else, 8ut with them?

it’s actually hot????????

Kanaya: Oh Look Rose
Kanaya: Clearly Someone Is Enjoying All The Attention

oh shi-

I shift to attempt to hide the growing tent in my sweatpants, 8ut it’s already too late.

Rose: So she is, isn’t she?
Rose: Well it’s not quite fair of us to tease her like that and not give her a reward for being such a good sport. Wouldn’t you say, darling?
Kanaya: We Are In Agreement There
Kanaya: Provided A Reward Is Something You Are Interested In June
June: I...uh...ah...

my thinkpan is going a thousand miles a minute and also not moving an inch. two pairs of eyes are 8oring into me. 8ut they don’t make a move, w8ing for my go-ahead. I take a deep 8reath.

June: ...pleas-

I

I

I don’t even have the word

out of my mouth and

they’re all over me.

Rose’s kiss is deep and slow and passion8.

her hand is in my hair and locks me in place and-

even if I wanted to get away there’s no way I could and-

K

K

Kanaya is sucking on my n

n

neck not as hard as she could not 8reaking skin 8ut the flash of pair tangles itself in my 8rain and it is so hard to think and-

s

s

someone gra8s my dick I don’t even know who and not 8eing a8le to know somehow makes it hotter and-

f


f


fuck their hands are all over me all over me all over me gra88ing and groping and moving and


ove r s t i m u l 8 t i n g


and


e


e


everything goes dark around the edges

Rose releases her kiss.

I’m gasping for air.

Rose: June are you alright?

their hands are off of me. they give me space.


I wasn’t 8reathing.


I didn’t realize.


I didn’t care.


I just didn’t want it to stop.

June:
June:
June: y-yeah I’m good.

Kanaya comes 8ack from the kitchen. I didn’t even know she’d gone.

I inhale the water she gives me.

June: just need to remem8er to 8reathe heheh. ::::P Kanaya: Ironic Considering

wh8t the fuck is th8t supposed to mean????????

why 8re they l8ughing 8t me????????

w8.

8reath like the aspect.

that’s

actually a pretty good one.

Rose: I’ll be sure to give you ample breaks in the future.
Rose: May I suggest we use this pause to transition to a more appropriate location?

the two of them look to me. deep down I know it’s 8ecause they’re worried a8out the com8o of my PTSD and my omniverse-shattering powers. 8ut it comes out as genuine care from them.

June: that...sounds really nice.
Kanaya: Say No More

8efore I can even protest, Kanaya scoops me off the couch and into her arms in one fluid motion.

not that I’m arguing. 8eing picked up is gr8.

the trip gives me a second to think.

that all happened really quick.

I mean it’s not like we haven’t 8een going this way for a while, and this is the first time Rose and Kan and I have had a day together in weeks.

8ut still.


am I okay with this?


am I in a place to say yes?


no matter how hard I try I can’t get why we’re all here together out of my head


SHE'S GONE


don’t think a8out her don’t think a8out her don’t-



8reathe.



I know if I asked them to stop they’d do so gladly.



8ut I don’t want to stop.



I’m not going to let

HER

ruin this for me.



I want this.



I want them.

then she’s putting me down on the 8ed.

then she’s on top of me.

then she’s kissing me.

more insistent than Rose. short 8ursts with pauses to 8reathe in 8etween.

on each exit she 8ites my lip. harder each time. her fangs 8arely graze it 8ut 8efore long they’re raw anyway.

I taste 8lood.

is it mine?

is it 8ad if I hope it is?

Rose: I can barely leave you two alone for a second.

I catch Rose out of the corner of my eye, water glasses in hand. I give a weak wave as she moves out of view.

Kanaya: You’ll Forgive Me For Indulging In Her Without You
Rose: Will I, now?
Kanaya: I Suppose You’ll Have To
June: s-sorry a8out that Ro-

oh fuck her hand is on my throat.

Kanaya moves over,

and Rose gets on top of me where she once was, straddling my stomach.

her hand never leaves.

not pressing hard.

just sitting there.

Rose: I suppose I can’t blame you for being eager.
Rose: Not with this little tempting morsel here for the taking.

wh

what did she call me?

her smile widens. I 8lush harder.

Kanaya: It Seems She Likes Being Called That
Rose: It does, doesn’t it?

she leans down, hand still carefully positioned to provide just enough pressure to 8e notica8le. from this distance I have to pick an eye to look at. every time I can’t 8elieve how pretty they are.

Rose: Now June.
June: y-yeah?
Rose: Before, when you were accidentally asphyxiated during our kiss, was that something you enjoyed?
June: I...I think so.

while we talk I see Kan readjusting out of the corner of my eye. I feel her hands snake into my hair. her nails scratch into my scalp. I can’t help 8ut shiver at the sens8tion.

Rose: Would you like to try?
June:
June: ...yes.
Rose:
June:
Rose:
June: wha-
Kanaya: Oh You Simple Girl
Kanaya: You Know That Isn’t How It Works

that 8reaks me out of my stupor.

oh…that’s defin8ly 8lood on her fang.

Kanaya: And The Rules Are Not Relaxed On Account Of Circumstance

a single nail drags down my cheek, leaving white-hot fire in its wake. instinct makes me try to squirm away 8ut her hand on my scalp and

Rose’s on my neck holds me perfectly still. I can’t move.

oh.


I’m helpless.


oh.

Kanaya: Good Girls Ask For What They Want
Rose: Oh don’t be coy with her darling. Rose: What she means is-

her grip

tightens.

just the slightest 8it.

Rose: Good girls beg.

oh.


aaaaaaaah.


they’re w8ing. they’re looking at me. 8ut the sounds won’t come out. Rose has my voice in the palm of her hand and try as I can’t get it out


come on Eg8ert COME ON-

June: (please?)
Kanaya: Oh That Won’t Do
Rose: I must agree with my paramour there. Rose: A tiny whimper won’t suffice.

her thighs are getting tighter against my 8ody. they are…really strong wow aaaaaaaa-

June: p-please Rose please.
Rose: Please what?
Kanaya: Do Be More Specific Darling
June: f-fuck please choke me Rose please choke me!
Rose: Really? Is that what you want?
June: please yes please!!!!!!!!
Kanaya: Now Dear Don’t Play With Your Food
Rose: Very well.
June: pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasep

l

e

a

s

e

Rose moves 8ackwards, straddling my pelvis.

at the same time she hooks an arm under me, pulling me up to a sitting position 8eneath her.

the whole time she keeps her hand on my throat.

only once I’m upright does sh


e


start


cho


king


me.


everything narrows.


my vision.


my thoughts.


my sens8tions.


she’s not even doing it that hard.


8ut it’s all I can think a8out.


the pressure.


the fuzziness 8lanketing over everything.



I’m coming apart.



not



in a 8ad way.



8ut in a way where every second lasts forever.



every sense of self held in the palm of Rose’s hand.



it’s



so



so

and then, from 8ehind, Kanaya sinks her teeth into my neck.

and everything explodes.

now I’m here.

now I’m more present than I ever have 8een.

the sharp pain of her teeth in my neck cuts through my mind like

like

fuck I can’t think in metaphors right now.

it’s just

such a sharp pain

and

the most amazing sens8tion.

Rose is still choking me.

the pain and the shadows fight against one another.

I’m caught in the middle.

suspended over a chasm of nothing.

then Kanaya releases her 8ite.

Rose loosens her grip.

she’s trying to talk to me.

it’s so hard to listen it’s so hard.

I just want to enjoy the fog but I have to answer.

Rose: June.
Rose: Are you alright to continue?

oh.

she looks worried.

that was a lot and now I’m not talking so that’s fair. gotta respond.

June:
June:
June:

nope can’t talk right now. 8ut they know this happens. so a thum8s-up is good enough.


we take a second to rest.

Rose moves to my left side.

Kanaya moves to my right.

I’m in the middle again, a 8eautiful girl on each side.

comforta8le.

safe.

then after a long while the silence is 8roken.

Kanaya: June Please Reject This If You Are Not Completely Ready For It
Kanaya: But I Would Very Much Like To Feed On You
Kanaya: Do I Have Your Consent

if a thum8s-up could have exclam8tion points, this one would.

Kanaya: Exceptiona-
Rose: Now dear, I know you are hungry.
Rose: But our sweet treat has been very good.
Rose: Perhaps before you perform your coup de grace I may...indulge in her?

sweet treat.


ohhhhhhhh.

Kanaya: Very Well
Kanaya: I Suppose I Can Be Patient
Kanaya: For June’s Sake

Rose looks to me.

I nod as vigorously as I can. we take the opportunity to disentangle ourselves from one another.

Rose passes me water, which is welcome 8ecause I have 8een doing a *lot* of gasping and moaning and that stuff dries your throat out like no8ody’s 8usiness.

while I’m drinking Kanaya undresses. I almos-

I d-do choke on my water a 8it at the sight.

8y the time I catch a glimpse of Rose again she’s undressed as well, curves everywhere and a8solutely radiant.

god I’m gay.

I…really don’t want to think a8out my 8ody right now 8ut-


c’mon Eg8ert you’re not gonna 8e the only loser who keeps her clothes on at the three-way.


no. I’m not.


it takes me an em8arassingly long time to shuffle my clothes off after my pants get caught in one of my socks.

8y the time I’m done Kanaya has positioned herself at the head of the 8ed, sitting upright, legs open. her thighs are…crazy yeah that’s the 8est word I’ve got for it.

with a single finger she 8eckons me closer and

oh yeah that image is gonna 8e with me forever.

I move in and when I’m close enough she gra8s my face with my hand and kisses me and pulls 8ack and the way she’s looking at me it’s like-

Kanaya: Artists Would Struggle To Capture A Beauty As Grand As Yours June

and while THAT drills its way into my 8rain Kan takes the opportunity to spin me around.

I end up sitting 8etween her legs. her arms rest on top, her palms on the 8ack on my hands, lacing her fingers through mine. her 8reath tickles my ear.

Kanaya: Isn’t My Wife Exquisite June

y-yeah.

there is nothing in this world hotter right now than Rose Lalonde, making her way up the 8ed towards me.

Rose: You flatter me darling.

when she makes it to me she presses in for a kiss. long. relaxed. she has all the time in the world for me.

Rose: Right now I’m only focused on the beautiful girls in front of me.

that’s-

that’s me!

I’m one of the 8eautiful girls.

god.

I love 8eing one of the 8eautiful girls.

Rose: And this beautiful girl has certainly earned what is coming to her.

then her head dips down.


and pleasure radi8s from my 8ulge.






it’s


the first time


she’s done it


to me.


it’s graceful.


long strokes with her hand and her


mouth


on the head. it


feels-


it feels-


amazing can’t think of 8etter words.


My 8ody tries to squirm with the pleasure it can’t help itself.

8ut Kanaya holds me still


with thighs holding my waist and with her


strong


arms


holding mine down.


little 8u88les of panic shoot up from 8eing immo8ile 8ut


I feel so safe in her arms.

and so 8lissful under Rose’s touch

that


that


nothing else


matters.








I’m pushing in to Rose’s touch.


8ucking my hips.


I can’t help it.


And Kanaya doesn’t stop me.


I


didn’t even know I could make the sounds I’m making right now.


desper8.


high-pitched.


More


whines than moans.


I need it.



I need more.



I’m



I’m

June: (I’m close.)

my eyes fly open.

Rose’s catch them.

she smiles.

Rose: I believe that is your cue, my love.
Rose: Enj-

Rose finishes her sentence.

Kanaya makes her move 8efore I can hear it.


I can


*feel*


her draining the 8lood from my neck.

she goes 8ack to touching me.

I’ve 8led 8efore 8ut this is different.


I’m not 8leeding it’s

going faster and faster.

the 8lood’s 8eing


sucked


out of me.

I’m pushing harder and harder against

it feels like

her touch.

like

my whines are now screams.

my words aren’t good enough to

desper8 cries.

descri8e 8ut

I’m so close.

she’s

taking my life away.

I need it.

taking my thoughts away.

I need it.

taking my soul away.

I

taking

need

everything

Rose’s hand is on my cheek.


I open my eyes.

Kanaya is still


feeding.


slowly.

I can see drops of myself across my stomach.

.

savoring it.


savoring me.


I’m worth savoring.

Rose: Such a gorgeous girl.

she kisses me.


I kiss 8ack as 8est I can.

then


Kanaya releases.

I slump forward into Rose’s arms.

we stay like that for a while, my face in Rose’s shoulder.


every now and then my whole 8ody shakes.


should I 8e worried a8out that?


pro8a8ly not.


I did just put myself through a lot.


she holds me tight, just how I like.


her shampoo smells nice.


lavender.


I think.








fUCK THAT’S COLD!!!!!!!!

June: AH!!!!!!!!
Rose: Ow!
Kanaya: Oops

shit shit I just head8utted Rose owwwwwwww.

Kan looks apologetic, holding a wet rag stained with red.

Kanaya: I Should Have Warned You
Kanaya: It’s Important To Clean The Wound After Feeding
June: eeeeeeeegh don’t worry a8out it. ::::p
June: you okay Rose?
Rose: Considering what we just put you through, I’ll consider it fair retribution.

Rose clam8ers off my lap, and Kanaya returns to cleaning the wound. after drying it she gra8s two small circular 8andages out of a 8ag that’s filled with a ton of them, using one to plug each hole.

June: holy cow you guys are well-stocked.
Kanaya: They Are
Kanaya:
Kanaya:
Kanaya:
Kanaya: Regularly Used

I can’t help 8ut snicker as Rose pushes a glass of water into my hand. I down it in one continuous gulp.

June: man, uh-
June: having your 8lood drunk makes you thirsty huh?
June: I thought that would sound less weird than it did in my head 8ut it didn’t.
Rose: You’d be surprised at how normal it becomes after a time.
Kanaya: With Enough Repeated Occurrences Anything Can Become Normalized
June: yeah I guess that kinda goes for a lot over the past few years huh?
Rose: Speaking as someone who regularly dies for carnal satisfaction, I must concur.

fuck.

I wish the memory of who she does that with SHE'S GONE didn’t sting so much.


I


I


I wish she was here.


why is Rose looking at me like that?


oh yeah.


I’m 8ad at hiding my emotions.

Rose: Oh June darling, I’m sorry.

oh.


I’m crying.


of course I’m crying.

Rose: I didn’t mean-
June: no it’s okay.
June: I know you didn’t.
June: I just-
June:
June: fuck.
June:
June: I miss her.
Rose:
Kanaya:
June:

I feel Kanaya em8race me from 8ehind.


Rose does so from the front.


I’m in the middle.


the pressure makes me feel safe.


it makes me feel less alone.


it doesn’t change that she’s gone but-

they’re here.

they’re here.

they’re here.

I wipe the tears away and 8low my nose on a tissue Kan gives me.

June:
June:
June: do you think we could finish the movie?

EXT. FIELD - DAY

JOHNNY BLAZE and ROXANNE SIMPSON walk through a field of flowers, returning to the tree where JOHNNY left ROXANNE all those years ago. They gaze into each other’s eyes longingly as acoustic guitar plays in the background.

JOHNNY
Sure wish things could have turned out different...

ROXANNE
No, this is what you are. This is what you were always meant to be. You’ve got your second chance. Go out there and make the best of it.

JOHNNY and ROXANNE kiss passionately. The music swells as the camera pans over to show the carving in the tree - J&R FOREVER - faded but not forgotten.

Rose: Darling, are you crying?
Kanaya:
Kanaya: No
Kanaya:
Kanaya: Maybe
Kanaya:
Kanaya:
Kanaya: They Could Have Been So Happy Together
Kanaya: If Only He Was Not Such A Fool
Kanaya: And Was Not So Talented At Culling Evildoers While Riding A Motorcycle
June: that’s what makes it 8eautiful...

The camera pans out as JOHNNY and ROXANNE savor their last kiss. For this one last moment, they have each other.