Chapter Text
Rain's pov:
I yawned and stretched my back and arms as i walked down the hallway of the campus.
"Man, that lecturer gives such boring lectures," I muttered.
"I know right?" Sky groaned as he rubbed his neck.
He's the only one who doesn't even try to make it interesting.
He doesn't care if no one understands or listens in his class. He can just say he taught us and that it's not his fault we failed to study properly.
I swear i wouldn't be passing his classes if it weren't for p'Phayu's help.
"You're going to the garage?" Sky looked at me as we went out of the campus.
"I'm going to stop by my place and get freshened up before going there." I replied.
He nodded.
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I stopped infront of my house when i saw another car parked near it.
It was a black Sudan.
I frowned.
Who's that?
I've never seen that car before.
I pulled up near my house and got out.
There was no one in the car when i went a bit closer to it and looked in.
I looked toward my house.
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I froze in my tracks when i saw the person who was sitting on the steps infront of the door.
She was playing with her phone and smoking a cigarette.
I could recognise her easily even though it's been 7 years since i saw her.
Her brunette hair was now blonde, her makeup was still as thick and flashy as i remember, she looked slimmer than before but not that much, and she was wearing the same type of revealing and tight-fitting clothes as i remember her wearing before.
I went a bit closer before stopping again.
This time, she seemed to have noticed me.
She looked up at me and smiled, getting to her feet.
"It's been a while."
I kept quiet, just staring at her.
"Aren't you going to invite me inside? I've been waiting out here in the heat for 2 hours now." She dropped the cigarette and crushed it under her heels.
"What are you doing here?" I asked in a flat tone.
"Of course, I'm here to see my son." She scoffed, crossing her arms.
I'm surprised she's not high or drunk right now.
I barely remember any moments when she wasn't either of the two before she left.
"I don't see him." I looked around before looking at her again.
I could tell that irritated her.
"Is that how you speak to your mother?" She frowned.
"Since when have you been my mother? I don't remember ever having someone who i called that." I tilted my head.
She gritted her teeth. "Seriously? You're still holding a grudge against me? I already went to rehab. What more do you fucking want?"
Now it was my turn to scoff.
"You went to rehab and stayed there for literally a week before running off to god knows where. You think i don't know?"
She clicked her tongue at that.
"I'm not going you any money to buy more alcohol or drugs. So put that idea out of your mind and leave." I stepped to the side and pointed toward the exit.
"Is this how you speak to your mother?" She gritted her teeth in anger.
"I don't have a mother. Leave before i call the cops on you fo tresspassing." I said firmly.
"You wouldn't dare." She crossed her arms.
I took my phone out of my pocket and typed in the polive station's number.
"Yes, i would." I showed her the screen.
She was about to say something but was cut off by the sound of a bike.
I could recognise that sound easily.
P'Phayu's bike.
It stopped near the house.
"Leave already." I growled at the woman who was still standing infront of me.
"What, is that your lover or something?" She scoffed.
I gritted my teeth.
I didn't want him to ever have to meet this woman.
I thought she would never return into my life after she abandoned me 8 years ago.
But now...
The situation is the fucking worst.
I looked toward the gate as i heard his footsteps.
He stopped after noticing us, looking between us with a confused expression.
"Seriously? You couldn't even get a girl?" She clicked her tongue.
I glared at her.
This bitch...
"You have no right to be commenting on who i date. Get the fuck out before i call the police."
She rolled her eyes, flipping her hair over her shoulder.
"Fine, I'll leave for now. But don't think this is over. I'll be back. And i expect to be treated with the respect i deserve." She gave me a short glare before leaving.
P'Phayu stood to the side as she went out without glancing at him.
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I sighed deeply and scrawled my hair after her car pulled away and drove off.
Fuck.
I haven't even told him about her yet.
Hell, i haven't told him anything about my past yet.
And now...
I looked toward him when i heard him come up to me.
I could tell he had questions just by looking at him.
Well, i can at least give him one detail right now.
"That was the woman who gave birth to me." I sighed.
He was visibly surprised by that as his eyes widened and his jaw dropped.
"That was your mother?"
I barely bit back a harsh comeback to that.
I can't just let my anger out on him.
"Yes, she's the woman who gave birth to me." I repeated in a firm tone.
He seemed to get the clue and slowly nodded.
"I know you want to know why i talked to her like that. I want to tell you too. But can i just have some time? I promise I'll tell you. It's just, if i tell you about her, I'll have to tell you about my life as well. And i don't think I'm really read for that conversation yet." I turned to face him fully, looking at him pleading.
I could see as he softened.
"It's ok. I can wait. I haven't forced you to tell me about your past before this, and i won't do it now either." He patted my head gently.
A relieved smile formed on my face.
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"By the way, why did you come here? I thought you would be at the garage." I asked as we went inside.
"I took the day off from the garage." He replied.
I blinked surprised. "Really?"
"Yeah. So we're going out for a date today." He smiled.
A wide smile formed on my face immediately
A date!
"Now go get ready. We'll go for lunch first." He pushed me toward the stairs.
"I'll be right back!" I yelled and ran up the stairs.
I could hear him chuckling from behind me.
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"Have you been keeping up with all your assignments?" He asked as we were eating.
I nodded. "I don't have any due for the next 3 weeks. Already finished all of them. And i finish all the homework i get on the day they're given."
He nodded, satisfied. "Good. You're doing well."
I smiled as I felt giddy at his praise.
He's the only one who compliments and praises me like this.
I've never been praised for anything before.
No matter what i did, it was always what i was expected to do.
No one bothered praising me or complimenting anything.
But with him, it's different.
He praises me for keeping up with schoolwork, completing assignments on time, getting good grades, and being good.
It's really new but i love this feeling.
It makes me feel all giddy.
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Of course, happiness never lasts for long.
Something always has to happen.
This time, it's in the form of the woman who gave birth to me 19 years ago.
She had the nerve to show up at my house the next day, and act as if nothing had happened the day before.
P'Phayu was also with me since he had stayed the night.
It was 10:15 am.
She was standing at the doorway, looking me up and down.
"What do you want now?" I groaned combing back my hair.
Thankfully, p'Phayu was upstairs, getting dressed.
"I did say that i would come back." She crossed her arms, leaning sideways against the doorframe.
"What do you want? I'm not giving you any money." I crossed my arms as well.
"Why can't i come to see my son without a reason?" she scoffed.
"Maybe because you abandoned him in a fucking apartment and disappeared off to god knows where 8 years ago. And haven't contacted him at all, all these years after that." I cocked an eyebrow.
She clenched her jaw.
"I had my reason for that."
Now, it was my turn to scoff.
"Yeah, you definitely did. For example, there were loan sharks going after you wanting their money back and drug dealers wanting the payment for the drugs they gave you."
She straightened up at that and cleared her throat.
"Get the fuck out of here. I don't have a mother." I glared at her coldly.
"So this is the thanks i get for raising you?" She glared back at me.
This bitch can't be serious.
"Don't fuck with me. You didn't raise me. I raised myself off your leftovers." I growled.
"Sun would never have been so disrespectful to me." She clicked her tongue.
I clenched my fists tightly as i felt pure anger boil up inside me in a second.
"Don't you dare say his name. Not after what you did."
I could still remember him as if he was with me just yesterday.
My baby brother.
The one who passed way too early because we were unfortunate enough to be born to a useless woman like her.
"He was my son. I can say his name as much as i want." She huffed.
"Don't fuck with me, Erina. You left him to die. You have no right to be calling yourself his mother." I hissed.
"How dare you call me by my name?" She clenched her fists tightly.
"Oh that's what you got out of those sentences?" I scoffed in disbelief.
"I sacrificed years of my life for your sake. And this is the thank you i get?" She hissed.
"Tell me one thing you sacrificed for us." I snapped back.
I could tell she tried to come up with something but couldn't.
"Exactly. You didn't do shit for me nor did you ever do anything for Sun. You have no right to be calling yourself a mother. Now get out of my house." I pointed behind her.
Her face went red with anger and embarrassment.
"This isn't over. Just wait and watch. You'll pay for this disrespect." She growled out before turning and storming out.
I went to the door, closed and locked it as i watched her storm out the gate.
Wasn't that a nice way to start a morning...
I sighed deeply and turned around but froze when i saw p'Phayu standing at the bottom of the stairs staring at me blankly.
Did he hear our conversation?
His expression was blank so i couldn't tell what he was thinking.
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A minute or so passed in tense silence as we just stood there, silently staring at each other.
He was the first one to break the silence.
"You have class in an hour, right? Go get dressed. I'll make some light breakfast."
I blinked surprised.
He's...
Not going to ask?
"What are you waiting for? Do you want to be late?" He added when i kept quiet and didn't move.
I snapped out of my surprise and quickly shook my head.
"Then go." He gestured toward the stairs as he went to the kitchen.
I couldn't help the small smile that formed on my face as i went upstairs.
He really...
He's not asking and is willing to wait until i bring it up myself...
Man, i scored the jackpot with him...
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The rest of the day was pretty uneventful.
I went out with Sky and the others for a short lunch after we finished our classes.
We all went our separate ways after that.
P'Phayu was busy with work so he said he wouldn't be free until later that night.
So i decided to head home and catch up on some homework and get some sleep in the meantime.
But of course, things went downhill from there.
The moment i was in the silence of my house, my thoughts automatically went to that woman.
The memories of the first 11 years of my life kept flashing in front of my eyes.
Anger, hatred, bitterness, pain, longing, loneliness, frustration.
So many emotions swirled in my chest.
But one of them was more potent than any of the others.
Anger.
The fact that she's back now, demanding her rights after abandoning me like that.
It makes me so fucking furious.
She never did anything for me or my brother when we lived together.
I had to do everything.
I took care of my brother and fed him what little i managed to get with the little money left after she used almost all of them to buy drugs or alcohol. And i had to take care of her as well. I had to make sure she didn't freeze to death somewhere outside after getting drunk or high out of her mind. I had to make sure she didn't starve or dehydrate.
I did everything.
And yet...
She has the nerve to act as if she did anything?
What a fucking joke.