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"All the seats are filled for next season." Says Lorenzo, and looks how his younger brother sits down.

"But we can look somewhere else and who knows what will happen." Says Lorenzo, trying to cheer Arthur up.

"For what? Let all the people see I really can't drive." Huffs Arthur.

"Don't be like that." Whispers Lorenzo.

Arthur had a rough season, and he has been putting himself down a lot in the last few weeks.

"No, I will be like that, Lo. I fucked up my chance. I don't even get a second chance and that's how much I messed up. I had one chance and I blew it." Arthur walks back and forth through his hotel room.

"You had a lot of bad luck."

"That doesn't matter, Lorenzo. I will never be like Charles as people want me to be. How they called me the next Charles and now Ollie gets that name. Do you understand how much that hurt. I tried." Says Arthur and his face fell on the end.

"I know you did. You fought so hard." Says Lorenzo and walks towards his brother.

"But it's not enough." Whispers Arthur and Lorenzo pull him into a hug.

"I don't even know if I want to keep racing."

"You only say that now because you are disappointed, but we are not doing that." Says Lorenzo and looks Arthur in the eyes.

"Don't give up." Says Lorenzo.

"Last year, Charles told me how excited he was with me getting a chance in F2 and who knows what would happen. That maybe we get the chance to be in Formula 1 together. How do I need to tell him I failed our dream, Lorenzo?” And then the tear leaves his eye.

He failed Charles.

"You didn't fail, Arthur. And Charles wouldn't think like that either, you know how difficult it is to get a chance in F1."

"Drivers do get it, they deserve it. Lorenzo, there is a reason why people call Ollie the new Charles now. I will never be like them."

"Stop that." Says Lorenzo a little angry and he grabs Arthur's wrist. "Stop putting yourself down and comparing yourself to others!"

"But it's the truth!"

"It isn't. Look at Nyck de Vries, he did end up in F1 even after doing other series." Says Lorenzo and Arthur laughs sarcastically.

"How did that turn out?'' Says Arthur and Lorenzo sighs.

"Don't give up. You don't have experience of karting like the other boys. You haven't been able to drive in championships, but you did end up in single seats, that shows how good of a driver you are."

"You only say that to make me feel better." Says Arthur.

"No worries, it is the truth."

"It isn't."

"Arthur." Says Lorenzo softly but Arthur shakes his arm off him and sits down.

He has to tell his brother and boyfriends.

Charles will be so disappointed in him.

And his boyfriends, Oscar and Logan. How will they end up? Arthur will be away doing whatever.

This year they were together a lot. Them driving in F1 and Arthur in F2, and some weekends Arthur went with Ferrari, so he was there too. But some weekend he stayed home, too angry to even see some racing when he had a shit weekend and he was done with it.

He had a few weekends where he was done with everything and wanted to stop. Sometimes racing is unfair, and you have to get up and try again, so he did.

And now he has no seat for next year in F2. He did speak with teams, knowing that he wouldn't stay another year with Dams. But the teams say they will speak with other drivers too, like usual so that wasn't a surprise. But knowing that no one wants you hurts.

Yes, his season was not easy, but he did some really good races, he did make overtakes and fought for places. Maybe he doesn't have a lot of points, but he sadly had some accidents too, his fault or not. Being stuck behind a crash, and you can't continue. Pit stops that went wrong, losing places or his tire that was not placed good in his car and he lost it on the way. People crash you out, like the scary one in Spa or the accident the made, touch another car or hit the wall.

A lot happened.

“Tutur.” Says Lorenzo and squats in front of him.

"I will disappoint a lot of people." It's the only thing Arthur can think about.

He lets his family down.

“You don't.”

"I will." Says Arthur and looks at Lorenzo.

"I won't be spending more time together anyone with Logan and Oscar." Says Arthur. "Or with you and Charles. I loved having us together on race weekends, everything falls away." Says Arthur and he slams himself on the thigh and gets up.

"I'm such a loser!" Screams Arthur and then slams the wall without thinking about it.

"ARTHUR!" Screams Lorenzo, mad and Arthur rest his head against the wall.

He's so angry at himself.

"Stop this!" Says Lorenzo and grabs Arthur to look at him.

"Stop this." Lorenzo repeated softly and Arthur shook his head.

"I'm so angry at myself." Says Arthur.

"But that doesn't mean you have to hurt yourself, that is not a good way to get this anger out." Says Lorenzo and grabs Arthur's hand, which is now angry red.

“Asshole.” Says Lorenzo, but Arthur couldn't give a shit.

"Just because you are mad doesn't mean you have to hurt yourself." Says Lorenzo, and takes a cloth and wets it, he then wraps it around Arthur's hand.

"I'm disappointed in myself." Says Arthur and Lorenzo's face soften.

"We'll continue looking, there are a lot of other series you can drive." Says Lorenzo and Arthur sighs.

"My dream with Charles is over."

"You don't know that." Says Lorenzo and Arthur shrugs.

"Can you tell Charles, I don't want to say it." Says Arthur.

"No, you are going to tell him yourself." Says Lorenzo and Arthur look down.

"He won't be disappointed, I know that." Says Lorenzo.

"That's not true because he doesn't have anything to be proud of about me. You can either be proud or disappointed."

"That's not true."

"It is. That's how it works. And I did nothing to be proud of, so he will be disappointed in me."

“Tur.” Sighs Lorenzo and Arthur looks away.

"Maybe I need to break up with Logan and Oscar so that they wouldn't have to put up with me." Says Arthur and then he feels a slap on his arm.

"Don't be stupid!" Says Lorenzo.

"They will still love you. They don't only love you for racing, Arthur."

"But I will be away from them."

"You can still come to race weekends, you are still a Ferrari academy driver. You have to come to race weekend if you want or not."

"I want that."

"Then we are going to look for another series and we are driving there. Showing everyone how good you are and show Ferrari and you don't know where it can end up to." Says Lorenzo and Arthur nods.

"We are not giving up, you hear me." Says Lorenzo and Arthur looks at him.

"I am proud of you, no matter how difficult the season was for you, I'm so proud of you." Says Lorenzo and wraps his arms around Arthur again.

"Please, be proud of yourself too, I know you can't right now but you have to, eventually." Says Lorenzo.

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"Hello you two." Says Charles and gives both his brothers a hug.

"What a race, do you understand how much it stressed me seeing you let Perez overtake you to get those extra points." Says Lorenzo and Charles laughs.

"I had to try." Says Charles with a smile.

"You drove really good today." Says Lorenzo.

"Thank you, Lo. You okay Art, you've been quiet." Says Charles and Arthur nods.

"All right." Says Arthur and hides his hand in the pocket of his hoodie.

"Okay, if you say so." Says Charles and grabs something to drink.

Arthur sees Lorenzo looking at him with one eyebrow raised and Arthur looks away. Their brother had a race an hour ago, let him reset first, right.

His hand is hurting him a lot and he'a kinda pissed at himself for losing control like that. But at the same time, he doesn't really care, it's not like he needs to race anymore.

"Don't lie to Charles." Says Lorenzo and Arthur looks up, like Charles did too.

"What?" Asks Charles.

"Not now." Says Arthur and Lorenzo nods.

"Tell him."

"I told you not now." Says Arthur.

"Hey, If you're not ready to tell me that's okay." Says Charles.

"He needs to know, Arthur." Says Lorenzo and Arthur sighs and looks at his lap.

How does he need to tell Charles this? How can you tell your brothers you failed?

“Tur?” Asks Charles and Arthur looks up.

"Is this about your seat?" Asks Charles and Arthur nods.

"Did you get one?" Asks Charles and Arthur feels his face fall when he sees the little smile on Charles his face. He's about to ruin it.

"I don't have a seat for F2 next year, Charles." Says Arthur, and he hates to see how the smile gets off Charles his face.

"What?" Asks Charles softly and stands up to sit next to his younger brother.

"Are you okay?" Adds Charles and Arthur shrugs.

"I failed." Says Arthur and Charles pulls him into a hug.

"I'm so sorry." Whispers Arthur against Charles his neck.

"What? You have nothing to be sorry for, you deserved a second chance." Says Charles.

"Well I didn't, otherwise I could have got it." Says Arthur.

"I'm sorry I ruined our dream. That won't happen anymore." Says Arthur and Charles his eyes widened.

"What? Arthur no don't talk like that! You didn't ruin anything."

"I did, you are always talking about how cool it would be to drive together in F1, but I ruined that. It won't happen anymore because I'm such a bad driver. I will never be like you as people have said I can be. I can't be like you. I failed, again. I won't stop disappointing everyone every time." Says Arthur.

"You didn't disappoint me, ever. How can you even say that!" Says Charles and grabs Arthur's hand.

"You didn't have an easy career, you had such a hard way up, and you still ended up in F2, and you are not done yet." Says Charles.

"I don't have a seat."

"Don't give up. That's nothing like you." Says Charles.

"Well maybe it is, I don't even know what to do next."

"Pick another series, show how good you are and Ferrari will help you with that. You are not a Ferrari academy driver for nothing." Says Charles

"If they don't drop me." Says Arthur and Charles sighs.

"He can't see a bright side right now. Everything is dark and hopeless." Says Lorenzo and Charles looks at him

"He's putting himself down a lot in the last hour." Adds Lorenzo.

"Don't do that. You're still young, Tur." Says Charles.

"You were in F1 with my age." Says Arthur with a laugh of disgust with himself.

"But every driver had another path. We didn't have the same."

"No, because you won and I failed."

"Arthur." Says Charles softly.

"I don't even know what you two want me to say. I did have a bad season, you can't deny that." Says Arthur

"You had bad luck."

"It's not all about bad luck, Charles. I didn't drive well. I had no control over the car. I made stupid mistakes. You can't blame everything on bad luck, because that says something about me. I wasn't' good enough, otherwise I would have gotten wins, or podiums. The podium I had was with luck because Martins touched Dennis. I didn't do anything. Looks at Ayumu, he had an amazing season, I was nothing." Says Arthur.

“Tur.”

"I don't want to hear it Charles, I just want to go home." Says Arthur and without thinking he pulls his hand out of his hoodie pocket to fold his arms over himself.

"What happened?" Asks Charles and grabs Arthur's hand softly.

"Nothing."

"He slammed the wall." Says Lorenzo, and Arthur looks at him and then at Charles his shocked face.

"Arthur, that is no way to handle things." Says Charles.

"Like I don't know, it just happens, don't make it a big thing."

"Slamming a wall is big, Arthur."

"It's not, it's not broken or anything, stop overreacting." Says Arthur.

Charles looks at Lorenzo, who gives Charles a worried glance.

"I will grab my stuff and go to the hotel, Logan and Oscar can be there too soon." Says Arthur and stands up to grab his backpack.

"Maybe it would be wise for you to stay with me and Charles tonight." Says Lorenzo, and Arthur stops grabbing his stuff and looks at Lorenzo.

"You kidding me? Why?" Ask Arthur.

"You are disappointed, which is understandable and we can look further."

"I don't want to look further right now. I'm just done with this season and I want to go to be with my boyfriends. I don't feel like watching other series now, next week, okay?" Says Arthur and Lorenzo nods.

"You have to look Art, before everyone is full."

"And then? I don't have a seat, shit happens." Says Arthur and continues packing.

Charles shakes his head to Lorenzo to let him know that he shouldn't try. They know how Arthur is.

He's a bit subborn, maybe more than a bit but that's okay.

"I just want to lie in bed with Logan and Oscar and sleep this year off."

"Gonna sleep for a month?" Cuckles Charles.

"Can I?" Asks Arthur with a cuckle.

"It will get better." Says Charles and Arthur nods.

"And otherwise I will be the brother of, and the wag of Oscar and Logan." Says Arthur

“Wag.” Laughs Charles and Arthur smiles.

"Does Logan have his seat for 24?" Ask Lorenzo.

"No, I haven't heard him talk about it yet." Says Arthur.

"So maybe Logan doesn't have a seat for next year too?" Asks Charles and Arthur looks up.

"Oscar picked put some boyfriends didn't he." Says Arthur.

"But I thought you said they would let Logan sign for another year." Says Lorenzo.

"Logan won't get a straight answer, we have to wait and see. It's probably between him and Vesti." Says Arthur.

"Oh poor Logan."

"He deserves a second chance, he's doing a lot better now, he's learning." Says Arthur.

“He is.” Says Charles.

"Why can't you think like that about yourself?'' Asks Lorenzo and Arthur looks up.

"I didn't get better." Says Arthur

"And don't say I did because otherwise I would have gotten a seat." Interupted Arthur Lorenzo when the older man opens his mouth.

"So if Logan doesn't get the seat, he didn't get better." Says Lorenzo and Arthur stops moving.

"He proved he did." Says Arthur.

"You don't make any sense." Says Charles.

"I don't have to." Says Arthur.

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Arthur has been a while in their hotel room already. Logan and Oscar are both behind schedule, so it will take longer than they thought.

Arthur has made pasta, but now the question is whether his boyfriend will even eat here.

He sits on the counter and in the meantime he carefully stirs his food every now and then, but he doesn't pay much attention.

All he can think about is what he can do next year. F2 is out of the picture, and he didn't really think about what he wants to do next. Formula E, Super formula? Other car series, there is a lot but he still has no idea.

He checked on his phone which series were going on and what their calendar looked like. He follows many other motorsport series himself, so he knows how some formats work or what he would like to do as well. Maybe he didn't think about it, but now he is searching, there is a lot he can do apart from F2 to focus on F1.

F1 is not going to happen anymore and it breaks his racing heart. His dream is done.

He also thinks about how to tell his boyfriends. Will they break up with him? Knowing he won't be there a lot next year can be a hard challenge for them. Besides Logan and Oscar are the perfect couple, they don't need Arthur.

But Arthur does need them.

He never felt love like this, he never knew how good it could feel or how happy that someone can make you feel by only seeing their face, a phone call or just a simple text when they are not together.

He never understood how Charles could be so obsessed with Pierre, but now he does know, missing them hurts.

He now knows how it feels that you want to be with that person or persons in his position. Or how he wants to call them, text them when they are apart, or how he wants to see their faces. Their faces make a lot of things better.

The feeling in his stomach when he thinks about them or when they say something to him, and he gets shy.

He wasn't a shy person, but maybe he was the whole time, but no one brought it out of him. He hates it and loves it.

His boyfriends love it because they make it clear when it happens.

Love scares him too.

How he could do everything before, he now thinks about what his boyfriends will think about it. He's not ashamed of them, but mentioning that he had two is still difficult for him, not knowing what other people will think about it.

They talked about coming out, and that is a point that really does scare Arthur. Letting the whole world know that he is in a relationship with a man not one but two. Like coming out as a driver is a big thing but having two, it's extra.

But it is also the only thing he wants.

Showing the world how much he loves them and being their wag in the paddock.

Not only being the little brother of Charles Leclerc.

Wag, terrible word, but it's all Arthur wants.

He doesn't like the rumors of his boyfriend being with a girl, he wants to be that person.

But thinking about how maybe his boyfriends can come to watch his races too if he has a seat somewhere. They could support him now being in the same race weekend. But when Arthur is away, it becomes noticeable why they are there.

What if people see them together?

He doesn't want to think about it.

He doesn't want to think about how he won't be on the same race weekends anymore as Charles, Oscar and Logan.

He will lose them three in a way.

He doesn't have Charles with him when he needs advice for his racing. Or when he just needs his family around him.

He won't have Oscar and Logan with him when he needs a hug or to forget everything and only think about them.

He had a lot of those moments this year, and he really liked the idea of walking towards the other paddock and knowing that there are three people there for him, who will always help him.

And Lorenzo, he will stay with Arthur and is always there for him. But he needs his space too, and seeing how happy he is with Charlotte through the weekend. Arthur doesn't want to burden him.

“Tur, hello.”

Arthur starts and looks at Oscar's smiling face.

"You're back." Says Oscar and set a step forward to wrap his arms around Arthur's waist.

"What were you thinking about, baby?" Asks Oscar while he press a kiss against Arthur's neck.

Arthur feels his breathing on his neck while Oscar moves his lips around Arthur's neck without putting his lips on it.

"About everything and nothing." Says Arthur and closes his eyes when Oscar press a light kiss again.

Safe in his arms.

All the thoughts he just had left his head and he focused on Oscar.

"I was calling you, and you didn't respond. And then I saw you in the kitchen." Oscar said and Arthur's eyes widen, and he jumps off the counter.

"The food!" Says Arthur and stirs his soup and pasta.

Oscar laughs in the background and Arthur breathes a soft sigh of relief when he sees that his food is not burnt. Luckily he was smart enough to put the sauce on low.

"It smells really good." Says Oscar and wraps his arms around Arthur from behind. He rests his head against the back of Arthur's neck.

"How was your day?" Ask Oscar

"It was okay." Says Arthur and leans against Oscar.

"Are you alright? You're not yourself." Asks Oscar and tightens his arms around his waist.

"I'm tired."

And don't feel like talking.

"Do you need a hug?"

"You are hugging me right now."

"A proper hug." Says Oscar, and Arthur turns around and presses himself back against Oscar. He puts his arms around Oscar's neck and rests his head against his own arms and Oscar's head.

"You can talk to me, you know that." Whispers Oscar.

"I'm just exhausted and happy this season is over." Says Arthur and Oscar press a kiss on his cheek.

It's not a lie. Arthur is really happy his season is over, even when it is his last in F2, he couldn't do this much longer.

"I love you." Says Oscar.

"Love you more." Arthur says and raises his head to look at Oscar and places his hands on Oscar's cheeks.

"I'm really lucky to have you two." Says Arthur, and Oscar grabs him by the hips to press him closer.

"We are lucky to have you." Says Oscar, and Arthur signs and rests his head against Oscar's one.

He feels so tired. And now that Oscar is with him, all he wants is to be hero.

"I'm here for you." Whispers Oscar and Arthur close his eyes.

It's feels like Oscar knows, but he doesn't.

Oscar gently rubs his back and gives him plenty of time to recharge. Arthur's in control if he wants to let go or not.

“Honey.” Says Oscar softly and Arthur takes a deep breath.

"The food." Says Arthur and leaves Oscar's arms. He felt the tears coming in his eyes and he needed to get out of that situation. He doesn't want to get emotional.

"Arthur." But Arthur ignored him and went further with the dinner.

"Can you give me the overmits? The pasta is ready, and I want to get the water from the pan." Says Arthur and Oscar take it out of the drawer and give it to the older boy.

"Thank you." Arthur says and he closes his eyes tightly and then opens them again. The tears are out of his eyes and he picks up the pan.

"Can I help you with something?" Ask Oscar

"No, I think it's done." Says Arthur.

He is trying to cook, he's not that good but he's getting better.

"It smells good." Says Oscar and Arthur smiles.

"Now hope that it tastes good too."

"Of course it does." Says Oscar

"I'm here!" Logan's voice rings through the room and Arthur can't help but notice how happy he sounds.

“Kitchen.” Shouts Oscar back and then the door falls open and Logan runs towards the slightly smaller boy and picks him up while he spins around and laughs.

Arthur smiles when he sees his boyfriends.

Logan pressed Oscar against the wall and put his head against his neck.

"You're stuck with me for another year." Says Logan and looks that up.

"Really! Finally!" Says Oscar happy and wraps his arms tighter around Logan.

"I knew you could do it! Logs I'm so happy for you." Says Oscar and Arthur leans back against the kitchen.

"I did it." Says Logan, a lump forms in his throat.

"I really hope I don't fuck up this chance." Says Logan and Oscar grabs his face and makes him look at him.

"You won't, you know the car better now, next year will only get better." Says Oscar. and Logan puts him down and press a kiss against Oscar's lips before he turns around and walks towards the older boy, who smiles at him and his arms open for Logan.

Logan wraps his arms around Arthur.

"You deserve it Logie." Whispers Arthur in his ear. Logan laughs and Arthur's smiles get's bigger.

He loves to hear Logan so happy.

"I'm so proud of you." Says Arthur and Logan looks at him.

"I couldn't have done it without you two. You always cheered me up and when I wanted to give up, you talked some sense into me.

"Of course, you are an amazing driver." Says Arthur and Logan press his lips against Arthur's one.

"I love you." He says towards Arthur and then looks around to Oscar. "And you too." He says and Oscar smiles and walks towards them and wraps his arms around the two boys, as far he could.

Logan pressed in the middle while leaning against Arthur.

Oscar and Arthur make eye contact and Arthur smiles.

"Next year will get so much better." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"It will."

"We will be in the same race weekend another year, the three of us, how fun is that. I loved it this year." Says Logan and that is when Arthur's face falls.

They won't.

Arthur pressed his face into Logan's shoulder so Oscar didn't see his face change.

All the warmth and happiness he felt were replaced by the sad feeling.

"I have to pee." Arthur says and leaves Logan's arms and then walks towards the toilet.

"What's up with him?" Asks Logan while he and Oscar follows Arthur with their eyes until he's out of sight.

"No idea. Since I arrived he's been really quiet. He didn't say much, and we have been hugging for a while. He didn't let go. He said he was tired but happy the season is over. But something doesn't feel right."

"He did have a tough season."

"I know, but I thought after this weekend he would be happier. He did two really good races. He did some really good overtakings and all that." Says Oscar.

"Maybe he is just tired, and it will be better for him tomorrow. We have seen how difficult this season was for him." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"I hope so, I don't like seeing him so sad." Says Oscar and Logan wraps his arms around Oscar.

"Next year will be better for him. He was just a rookie, and we know his path to F2, it was not easy. He's still learning the basic things he didn't get to learn in karting." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"Let's get the table ready so we can eat." Says Oscar and Logan let him go and they start grabbing the tableware.

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He knows he has to get out again, to talk to his boys but he's sitting here, he doesn't want to move. The door is locked and Arthur has put the toilet seat down and is sitting on it. His elbows rest against his thighs and his head rests on his hands.

He's going to disappoint them.

Logan sounds so happy knowing they could share the same paddock again and Arthur will disappoint them.

He's not good enough.

Arthur won't be staying in F2. Maybe he will be there some weekend if Ferrari academy doesn't drop him, but he doesn't know that yet.

He will be there for sure, he still loves F1 and watching races, and being there for Charles. But it won't be the same.

It's not like he has just done a race or needs to prepare himself for qualification.

He no longer has to go to the sim to practice for his F2 car.

He no longer has to walk from F2 paddock to F1 and then back. He will be, because he still made some really good friends, like Dennis. He doesn't want to loose contact with him, or with Jak and Ollie.

He had such a good time this year, he shared the grid with so many nice drivers, and they will stay, and Arthur leaves.

Everything will be so different next year.

"Tur!" He hears Logan shouting and Arthur stands up from the toilet. Even when he did nothing, he flushed the toilet and washed his hands.

He walks back to the kitchen and sees that the table is already covered.

"It smells amazing Tur." Says Logan and they sit down.

Even though Arthur was very hungry just now, that feeling is gone, he doesn't want to eat. He knows he has to, but even think about it makes him gagging.

Logan and Oscar have already finished, Arthur takes the pasta and puts a little on his plate, the same with the sauce and ignore the looks his boyfriends give them.

"It's a shame for Vesti, no?" Says Arthur to start a conversation.

"It is, I would have given it to him. But Theo had a good season as well." Says Oscar and Arthur nods.

“Who won best rookie?” Asks Logan

"Victor Martins." Says Arthur and he nods.

"Ah right. I thought Ollie."

"Almost, his car stopped so Victor has more points now." Says Arthur.

"And where did you end up?"

"Place 15." Says Arthur, and takes a bite of his food.

"You had a really good race today." Says Logan and Arthur nods.

"It was fun, I tried." Says Arthur

"You did well." Says Oscar and Arthur can't give him a smile.

He didn't do good, otherwise he would have gotten a seat for next year.

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"Something is going on with him. This is not only tiredness." Says Logan when they are already in bed. Arthur is still brushing his teeth.

"Maybe it is, Logs. He almost slept the whole night." Says Oscar.

"It's not like him."

"Maybe it all got a bit much for him. He's still busy with his seat for next year, we don't know what is going on inside his head." Says Oscar

"He doesn't talk to us anymore." Says Logan, and Oscar open his arms. Logan lies down and lies against Oscar.

"He slept the whole evening and still we couldn't wake him up. He's brushing his teeth to go back to sleep again. Just during the summer holidays when he was having such a hard time, he was energetic, running everywhere, and we had to fight him telling him to shut up because we wanted to go to sleep. He's always so energetic, and now he's nothing." Says Logan.

"Log don't panic okay, we know Arthur. He can go from 100 percent energy to zero in a minute. Tomorrow will be better." Says Oscar, and Logan turns his head as far as he can to look at Oscar.

"I hope so." Whispers Logan and Oscar leans down and press a kiss against his nose.

"It's Arthur, Sar. He'll get over it."

"Yes, that's true. His career is not going that easy, this will also be fine." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

Arthur comes out of the bathroom and Logan opens his arms for the older boy, who flops down on the bed and crawls against Logan.

Logan lies with his back against Oscar's chest and Arthur has his head on the mattress against Logan's chest. Logan's arms pull Arthur's body against him and wraps them around his middle.

"Good night." Says Arthur, and he already closed his eyes again when he laid down against Logan.

Logan feels how Oscar press a kiss against his forehead and then he leans over Logan to press a kiss on Arthur's forehead.

"It will be okay." Whispers Oscar and Logan grabs his hand.

"Good night." Says Oscar.

"Night." Says Logan.

Arthur opens his eyes after a while, and he can't see much in the dark, but judging by Logan and Oscar's breathing, they are sleeping.

Arthur tilts his head more upwards and his nose brushes Logan's cheek. He rests his forehead against Logan's head and focuses on the breathing he hears.

Soft breath caresses his face and Arthur closes his eyes and leans back against him.

Arthur didn't feel tired anymore, even though he had trouble waking up and after brushing his teeth, he woke up well with the cold washcloth over his face.

He feels restless. The comfortable feeling he has had since this afternoon just stays there, he was happy he fell asleep on the couch. You don't feel anything when you're sleeping.

His heartbeat feels irregular, and even his breathing feels uncomfortable. The what ifs stay in his head, and it makes him anxious.

He couldn't tell the boys, even if he had the space to say it during dinner, he couldn't do it.

He's so scared that he will end up alone. What if they do decide it is better to go further with the two of them.

If I pour my heart out, can you keep a promise? 'Cause the situation is like a mountain that's been weighing on my conscience.

If he's being honest, he's so scared of the future.

He grabs Logan's arm around his waist and lifts him up. Above his head there is a pillow that is not being used and Arthur grabs it. He shifts his hips back so that the kisses are between their bodies, and he places the kisses under Logan's arm and then puts him back down.

He slowly sits up and gets off the bed.

"Art." Whispers Logan.

"I have to pee, be right back." Says Arthur softly and the other boy relaxes again. He didn't know if Logan was really awake or more woken by the movement.

Arthur really had to go to the bathroom, but then he didn't go back to bed. He grabs his phone from the bedside table and sits on the floor, with his back against the bed.

He turns the screen light down and taps Whatsapp when he sees that Charles has sent him a message.

Charles: Hey, I don't know if you have seen X or Instagram but a list came out who's probably gonna drive where and people notice your name missing. It is useful if you stay away from social media for a while.

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Arthur doesn't like social media, he's not on there very often since 2021. A lot were said about him and he kept reading, wanting to see what people thought about him. Charles and Lorenzo made him delete Twitter, like it was called back then, and Instagram too for a bit. But Instagram wasn't as bad as twitter was.

But he has to know.

He pressed on his Apple store and starts downloading

He wants to know where everyone is going to drive.

He enters his name and password, and then it loads it to the home screen. Notifications fly in and text fills his eyes.

He presses the search bar and searches for F2.

He soon finds the account with all the predictions who's going to drive.

Jak Crawford and Juan Manuel Correa for Dams.

They really deserve that, they are both amazing drivers who really deserve to drive in F2. And even though Arthur feels sad, he can't help but be happy for his friends.

He prints out the page and goes to the comments.

There is not a lot, only two, one about PHM and the other one is about him.

"Where is Arthur Leclerc going?"

He won't get anywhere with this.

He goes to the search bar again and types in his name.

Charles wasn't wrong, there is a lot talking about him. Asking where he is going, where his name is on the list. How does he deserve a second chance.

But not everyone thinks like that, lots of people don't.

'Good, he needs to make space.'

'No talent.'

“Surname merchant.”

"He's only there because his last name is Leclerc."

"Arthur if Charles wasn't his brother:"

"Arthur hasn't had any speed all year."

"Arthur Leclerc is bad, he is only there because of Charles, he shouldn't even be in F2, he makes a lot of mistakes and is slow."

"Arthur Leclerc needs to make space."

"Arthur can't be a rookie, he will always make those mistakes so the name rookie doesn't suit him.

"Arthur Leclerc waste of space."

"We are finally getting him out of our faces, thank god for that."

"Arthur's finally leaving? The grid is safer now!"

“Arthur Lecrashing.”

"Arthur is dangerous for other drivers, we don't need him on the grid."

"Surname merchant Leclerc is gone!"

"Imagine how disappointed Charles would be in Arthur."

"What is Arthur going to do next year knowing he will fail that too?"

"We can finally see pictures and races of F2 without his ugly head."

"He washed a seat for someone this year."

"Imagine not being Charles Leclerc's brother, he would have been nowhere."

"I don't understand how many people like Arthur Leclerc, how?? I don't see it."

"Arthur Leclerc will always be a rookie, because he doesn't get a second chance haha."

"Arthur Leclerc fans are only there for his looks, there is nothing else that you can be fan of then that."

"Arthur doesn't deserve anything."

"Can Arthur finally stop racing? I have seen enough of him, he's not going anywhere."

And it went on.

So much more to read.

It hurts him to know that people are so happy he's gone. Maybe it is for the better then. Maybe he was so terrible and did waste the seat in Dams.

He wouldn't have gotten so far without Charles, his older brother helped him so much with how the car works, what he can do better, or when he didn't understand where he lost so much time, Charles would explain it to him.

He would have been nowhere without Charles.

He would never be as good as Charles.

Arthur closes his phone and leans his head against the bed. A tear runs down his cheek.

Maybe he is waste of space.

Arthur didn't sleep that night, not much. He did sit on the floor for a good few hours to read everything, every minute something new came up and he couldn't stop himself.

While there used to be a lot of sweet messages, the number became fewer and the comments only got worse.

It hurts him to know how many people are happy he's leaving. Of course, he knew that not everyone liked him, being they think he's a surname merchant, but that so many people didn't like him was new for him.

Finally, he turned off Twitter and put his phone back on the bedside table. He lay back in bed and put the blanket around him.

He was cold, his ass hurt from sitting on the floor, but he couldn't make himself care, he deserved it.

He lies with his back to his boyfriends and Arthur couldn't stop his tears anymore that were treating in his eyes. They roll on his cheek and he press his hand on his mouth to silence the sound that he can't help but make.

It's too much for him.

All the emotion he tried to hold in no longer works and it comes out.

He doesn't like to cry, it makes him feel helpless, weak and stupid.

How can you cry about what people think of you, how weak is he!

Arthur knows it's not only that. Thinking about how this was his last race weekend with Charles, that he can't walk to the other paddock anymore when his race is done. There is no race for him anymore.

Or how he will be away a lot from his boyfriends, knowing they have each other still, and it's only a matter of time until they dump Arthur.

He would dump himself.

If he were one of them, he wouldn't want to be put up with the time difference or how they wouldn't have much time for each other anymore, because they have lots of races and even Arthur has no idea what he wants to do, he will probably be away too.

He will see them so much less.

Just like Charles.

Charles and Lorenzo have always been by his side and another fifty percent is missing, maybe a hundred if Lorenzo also does something else, as Arthur would encourage him. He has very nice diplomas that can take him a long way, and now it's time to use it.

Going with him would waste a lot of Lorenzo's time.

Plus, Charlotte would love to have Lorenzo more around her, so he can do that now.

Arthur is thinking about quitting racing. He can't race so why would he keep going. Why would he keep disappointing himself again and again.

He's so tired of that feeling.

He doesn't want to be a disappointment, and he's only proving to everyone that he is one, and it needs to stop.

Maybe he can still do school. He's not that old yet. Start a study of something, that can be an option. He still needs to make money so stopping with racing means getting a job too.

It can be better for him.

It's worth a try, no?

♡●♡●♡

Arthur did fell asleep, not for a long time but he got himself two hours of some sleeping before he woke up again.

Logan had his arms wrapped around Arthur again, spooning him from behind. He lies closer to the American boy and feels Logan press a kiss to his neck.

They remain silent. He knows Logan is awake because of the movements. How he makes his grip tighter around Arthur's waist and the soft kisses are placed against his neck every so often.

"Good morning." Says Oscar with a rasp in his voice. Arthur smiles.

"Morning." He says back and Logan groans

"I don't want it to be morning." He says and Arthur and Oscar let out a laugh.

"Morning to you too, grumpy." Says Oscar and Arthur hears a kissing sound.

"Can we just lay in bed all day?" Ask Logan.

"We can't. We have a flight to catch this afternoon." Says Oscar and Logan grins again.

“Don't wanna.” You say and press his face back against Arthur's neck

"I wanna stay together." Says Logan

"Arthur, do you have to stay for testing?" Asks Oscar.

"No, I'm going home." Arthur says and he feels himself tense.

"That's better, free time." Says Oscar

"Yeah I guess so." Says Arthur.

"Do you need to go to England?" Asks Arthur.

"Yes, I will go to MTC so it will be a busy day again." Says Oscar

"I have to go to Williams factory." Says Logan and Oscar groans.

"We can't even be together." Says Oscar and Logan shakes his head.

“Woking to Wantage is a ride.” Says Logan and Oscar groans.

"I really can't wait until we can be together again, the three of us, just alone and doing whatever we want." Says Oscar.

“Soon.” Says Arthur

"Yes, two weeks." Says Oscar.

Oscar and Logan still have a few duties for their team. Ending the year with all the people from the factory, last sim races, viewing dates and team meetings.

Arthur has nothing. No team, no data, no preparing for races, he's done for the year and who knows how long.

"And do you have talking with teams, Tur?" Ask Oscar.

"Some here and there." Lies Arthur.

Well it's not really lying, he has to talk with teams to get a seat somewhere.

If he wants a seat.

"Teams are now focusing on closing the year of with their factory and then starts some talking, most are already signed tho." Says Arthur.

His stomach starts hurting, like someone punching him straight into his tummy.

He's lying to his boyfriends.

Arthur sits up and feels Logan's hand on his body.

"I will go to the toilet." Says Arthur and stood up to leave to the bathroom.

When the door is closed, Logan turns around and looks into Oscar's eyes.

"So I guess Arthur will be busy in the coming weeks." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"It's weird how he doesn't tell us which team he signed or will sign to. Like why is he keeping it a secret?" Ask Oscar

"Maybe it's not certain yet." Says Logan.

"I don't think so, if you see how he is progressing, teams do want that and it was only his rookie year." Says Oscar.

"Yeah, true. It will be okay." Says Logan and press a kiss against Oscar's cheek.

"And he has Ferrari duties too I think. Academy don't give you lots of free time." Says Logan.

"They don't. I can't wait to go on our holiday. We really do have two weeks off from racing." Says Oscar

"Can't wait." Says Logan.

"When do your team have to play? That was in the morning right?" Ask Oscar.

"Yes, it starts around 12 I thought." Says Logan sits up.

"Where's my phone?" He asks but he couldn't find him.

"Arthur, I will use your phone for a minute!" Schouts Logan and the older boy comes out of the bathroom with his toothbrush in his mouth.

"What?" He asks and Oscar laughs.

"I want to look up when they are going to play today. Can I use your phone?" Logan asks and Arthur nods.

"Thanks." Says Logan and grabs it from the nightstand. They know each other's PIN code from the phones but don't open each other's phone without permission.

Arthur walks back into the bathroom and Logan sits next to Oscar, who has also sat up and is leaning against the bed rail.

"Miami, would love to go back there again but then for the beach." Says Oscar.

"Yes, we never spend there with the three of us."

"We did meet your parents?" Says Oscar.

"Yes, but not at my home."

"No, that's true." Says Oscar.

"They play five to twelve." Says Logan and pushes the page away from Google.

"His phone needs to be charged, knowing Arthur he will forget that before his plane goes." Says Oscar.

"How? He charged his phone at dinner and then almost exclusively slept, how can his phone already be so low on battery?" Says Logan and then he sees what is open.

Instagram, contacts and X or Twitter whatever you want to call it.

"I thought he deleted everything?" Says Logan and Oscar look up.

"Instagram not but he didn't have twitter anymore." Says Oscar and Logan press on the twitter page.

And quickly words fill his eyes.

He looks at the search bar and sees the words.

“Arthur Leclerc.”

"What?" Says Oscar softly and looks at the screen.

Surname merchant.

Hate.

Ugly.

Seat.

"Oh Arthur." Whispers Logan when he reads the tweets.

“Did he read them?” Asks Oscar and Logan looks at him.

"He did download X back for a reason." Says Logan and then looks back at the phone.

"He doesn't have a seat?" Says Oscar and then the bathroom door opens again, and the two boys look at Arthur walking out.

He stops walking when he sees the two looks on his boyfriend faces.

"Did you sleep last night?" Asks Logan and Arthur looks at his phone in their hands.

"Yes." Says Arthur, but he couldn't even convince himself with how it comes out of his mouth.

"Arthur, don't lie." Whispers Oscar.

"I did sleep."

"For how long?" Ask Logan.

Arthur keeps looking at them, not giving an answer. He doesn't want to lie.

Logan puts the phone down on the bed and reaches out to Arthur.

"Come sit with us." Says Logan, and Arthur walks towards the bed and sits in front of Oscar. Logan stops leaning against Oscar and sits closer to Arthur.

"What's going on?" Asks Oscar and Arthur look down.

This is not how he thought it would go. But he doesn't need to tell them.

They have read it now too, so no more time to hide it.

Logan and Oscar both take one of his hands and Arthur feels the tears burrowing in his eyes.

"I uh-"

“Breath.” Whispers Logan, and Arthur feels irritated. They read it, and yet they let him say it.

"I was talking with teams, but I haven't heard anything back. The chance of me being in F2 next year is not big." With difficulty Arthur got the words out of his mouth.

It feels like he had load in his stomach.

"I'm so sorry, Art." Whispers Oscar and Arthur look up.

"I failed." Says Arthur and both boys shake their heads.

"No you didn't." Says Logan.

"Don't say that." Says Oscar, and Arthur looks at them.

"But I did. That's the truth! I have no seat, I was terrible this year so of course, no team wants me to waste a seat on me." Says Arthur, and Oscar shook his head.

"No, no that is so not true. Arthur, yes, this was a difficult year, but you don't waste a seat. Your season was with ups and downs, you had bad luck, made rookie mistakes like everyone does but that is okay. You did okay." Whispers Oscar and Arthur shook his head.

"I didn't." Whispers Arthur.

"I failed Charles, I failed Lorenzo, I failed our dream of us two on the Formula 1 grid, like it was our dream and I failed. I failed you two." Arthur lets out a sob and Oscar presses Arthur against him.

Arthur's face against Oscar's chest as everything comes out. The tears he was holding ran down his cheeks.

"I wanted to make everyone proud and I didn't. I'm such a disappointment." Sobs Arthur and Logan sit behind Arthur and wrap his arms around Arthur too.

Arthur hates and loves the warmth he feels.

It's all he needed.

But it's something he doesn't deserve.

"I'm so sorry." Says Arthur.

"Don't ever be sorry for something you can't do anything about. Don't be sorry, please Arthur, this is not your fault." Says Oscar and an ugly sob leaves Arthur.

"Baby." Says Logan.

"Next year will change so much and I don't want it to change. I don't want to be away from you two, or from Charles. I loved this year so much, we could have been together and next year we won' t. If I did better than that, we maybe would have had another year." Says Arthur and Logan press a kiss against his skin.

"Nothing will change between us. You are driving in another series and we won't share the paddock, but our relationship won't change, Arthur." Says Logan and Oscar push Arthur away a bit so they can look into each other's eyes.

Oscar places his hand on Arthur's cheek and wipes away some tears.

"We love you, that won't change." Whispers Oscar and new tears leave Arthur's eyes.

"I love you too, so much, both of you." Says Arthur, and Logan press a kiss against his cheek.

"We will get through that." Says Logan, and Arthur looks at him.

"It will be a problem, missing you all the time, we will be in different time zones. I don't know how it would be." Says Arthur softly.

"Can we survive that? Can our relationship go through so much? I will give you two so many problems, and I do understand if you want to break up because long distance is never going to work, and you have each other. You can make each other so much happier without me-" Arthur who was finally calming down started to sob again.

"I don't want this to ruin us." Sobs Arthur

"It won't, Arthur, honey, I love you so much. Don't even tell us that we have to break up, or that me and Logan can make each other more happier without you. We are not two but three, there can't be two, never." Says Oscar and grabs Logan's hand too.

"Oscar is right, we are three, never two. No matter what happens, we can survive that, I'm sure of it." Says Logan.

"How are you sure? I can ruin a lot."

"Stop staying you will ruin us. Yes, It will be different, but me and Logan will do everything to have contact with you. When you have races and we don't, I will go and watch you no matter where you are, I'm coming." Says Oscar and Arthur has tears in his eyes again.

"You two have such a busy schedule, I can't ask you that."

"It's not asking, it is us doing so. No matter where you will be driving, when we are free, we will come. I will tell Williams that I'm not available on these dates. Plus sim racing are mostly on Monday or Tuesday so on the other days I can come. So is Oscar." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"I will change my days to Monday and Tuesday, Mclaren won't mind." Says Oscar.

"And you are still with Ferrari, and you have Charles here too. So we will see each other a lot, I'm sure of that." Says Logan and Arthur nods.

"I will keep Ferrari academy so far I know. So I will be at races with them when I'm free." Says Arthur.

"We will find our way through it, I'm sure of that." Says Oscar.

"I love you two too much, I don't want to lose you." Says Arthur and they wrap each other in a hug again.

"We won't be losing each other, I promise." Says Oscar.

"Promise." Says Logan, and Arthur let out a laugh or a sob. It could be both.

"Promise." He says and leans his head against Oscar's shoulder.

"I don't deserve you two." Whispers Arthur and a kiss is pressed against his head.

"We are here, that is your answer, Arthur." Whispers Oscar.

♡●♡●♡

It has been a slow morning as their flights are later in the day. They lay in bed for a while, not even necessarily talking, but knowing that we were together.

He's not alone.

Logan was the first person to get out of bed. He said how he would like to make his family's pancakes because we never had any and this was the perfect morning to make them. He went to the store to grab everything while Arthur and Oscar were still having a hard time getting out of bed.

After the delicious smell of pancakes entered the room, the two boys started preparing themselves.

Arthur finished earlier and when he walks into the kitchen Logan is baking his pancakes. Arthur walks over to him and wraps his arms around Logan's waist and rests his head against his shoulders.

Arthur is attention-starved today.

All he wants is to hug or be hugged by his boyfriend, and he doesn't want to think about how they both need to fly to England, and he will fly to France late this evening.

He doesn't want to miss them. He wants to stay with them, fall asleep and wake up in one bed. He wants to eat breakfast with them tomorrow too, and all the days after that.

After all, long story short, he's not ready to be alone and get into his overthinking mode.

Lorenzo will be there tomorrow, so they probably will be looking and calling teams. He needs to go attentive some other series who are driving now or are busy forming a team.

He's late for Formula E, for Indycar maybe even for Wec.

There is so much, and he has no idea how much the grids are already formed.

It's stupid how he had high hopes for another season. Why would he deserve a second chance.

He regrets that he did not look beyond Formula 2, why did he focus so much on it?

“Babe.” Says Logan, and Arthur starts up and looks at Logan, and he forces a smile on his face.

"Don't even try to fake a smile around me." Says Logan turning around and wrapping his arms around Arthur.

"I was just thinking." Says Arthur.

"I know, but thinking is not good right now." Says Logan, and Arthur groans and puts his head back around Logan's shoulder.

"I have no idea what kind of seats are still open. Like in Formula E or whatever. There is so much." Says Arthur

"I know, I can't even imagine what is going through your mind right now." Says Logan.

"The fact that I disappointed Charles, our dream as brothers in Formula 1 will most likely not happen anymore and that is my fault. He did is 50%, and I failed." Says Arthur, and he feels the pain in his stomach to even say it.

"It's weird how many dreams can fall away by not having a seat." Says Arthur and Logan nods.

"I'm so sorry, baby." Whispers Logan while he hugs Arthur closer.

"Are we hugging again?" Asks Oscar and walks inside the kitchen. He goes behind Arthur and wraps his arms around the older boy.

"What is going on inside that pretty head of yours?" Ask Oscar.

"A lot. Where can I race, are there still seats. I disappointed a lot of people, and I'm not even looking forwards to look with Lorenzo tomorrow to see where I can race. This is always the most fun part of the year, and now I don't even know where to look or where to begin. There are a lot of questions." Says Arthur

"Start with calling your academy, maybe they know some places from Ferrari in other series. Maybe you can drive somewhere in a Ferrari." Says Oscar and Arthur nods.

"That's a smart plan." Says Arthur.

"Even when I love this cuddle so much, my pancakes are burning." Says Logan, and Arthur laughs and let him go to give him space to turn around again.

"It will be okay, Arthur. This will be a new chapter for you, an exciting one. Even how much we love Charles, it could be your chance to be Arthur and not be the little brother of. Outside Formula they don't care that much." Says Oscar.

"You are probably right about that." Says Logan.

"It's a blessing and a little curse to have the same surname as Charles but-"

"Don't even try to put yourself down again." Oscar interrupts him and Arthur leans against the kitchen.

"It's the truth."

"No, you think so. Tur I don't like it when you put yourself down like that." Says Oscar and leans against Arthur.

"Stop that." Says Oscar and leans close with his face to Arthur's.

Arthur pouts and Oscar smiles and kiss it away.

"I'm cooking here!" Says Logan and Oscar start laughing and let go of Arthur's lips.

“Cock blocker.” Says Oscar and Logan smiles.

“Gladly.” He says and Arthur rolls his eyes and grabs the counter top and then jumps up to sit on it. Logan drops his hand and looks at him.

"It's not hygienic for you to put your ass here on the counter." Says Logan.

"But you love my ass. Never heard you complain before." Says Arthur and Logan rolls his eyes but can't help his little smile.

Arthur has them wrapped around their fingers.

Oscar stands between his legs and places his hands on Arthur's waist.

He rests his head against Arthur's chest, and they return to cuddling.

"First ones are ready." Says Logan as he puts the syrup on top of the pancakes.

“Let me taste.” Says Arthur and opens his mouth. Logan laughs softly and cuts off a piece of pancake and brings the fork to Arthur's mouth and Arthur bites it off.

"Oh my god, Logan these are so good!" Arthur says and Logan smiles.

"I know, my mom lives to cook, and I loved these little pancakes as a kid." Says Logan

"I can imagine." Says Arthur, while Logan gives a piece to Oscar who opens his mouth for the fork.

"Logs, how come you never made these before!" Says Oscar.

"Because I always want to eat more of these than my diet says I can't." Laughs Logan.

Arthur's phone rings, and he hops off the counter and walks to the table to grab his phone.

"Need to pick this one up." Says Arthur, and then he walks away.

"Shall we prepare the table to eat together later?" Asks Logan and Oscar nods.

Together they set up the table with plates, while Logan turns over his pancakes and makes the next one. He already has a good plate, but like he just said, it's not possible according to your diet, but now it's their first day after the race and they can have something sweet.

"It's a long phone call." Says Oscar after a while and Logan nods. Arthur is still not back.

"How do you think it will be?" Asks Logan

"After?" Ask Oscar

"If we have a race, and he won't be with us a lot anymore. I really loved this year, being so close to you guys." Says Logan.

"I don't know, but we will figure it out. I know we can." Says Oscar and Logan nods.

"We can." Says Logan.

"And he probably will be with Ferrari still, so he's going to be with us more than we probably think." Says Oscar.

"I hope so." Whispers Logan. And Oscar puts his arms around Logan's neck.

"He looks so disappointed, I want to make him smile but every smile is so fake." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"We need to be there for him, his dream to Formula 1 is going so little. And where ever he is going, he will find his spirit again, he's a racing driver Logs, now he's disappointed, but he will be okay." Says Oscar.

"I really hope we can go to some of his races as well, that will be so much fun." Says Logan and Oscar nods.

"Hopefully we can." Says Oscar and gives a small kiss on his lips.

The door opens again and Oscar lets go of Logan as he sits on Arthur's tear-stained face.

"I don't know it anymore." Whispers Arthur before he starts to cry again.

Logan and Oscar go over to him and pull him into another hug. Both boys are in shock, not knowing what happened why Arthur is crying.

"Let's sit down first, come to the couch." Says Oscar and they walk to the living area.

Arthur sits down and leans against Logan's body.

"What happened?" Oscar asks as he sits in front of Arthur, his hands in his to keep the close contact.

"I'm no longer a Ferrari Academy driver." Says Arthur, and then he lets out a laugh softly through his tears.

"What I could expect because I'm not going to drive in Formula anymore, so I'm no longer a junior, but it still came as a clap." Says Arthur.

"Arthur, I'm so sorry." Says Logan.

"I don't even know why I'm crying, like we all know this so why did I think- stupid me." Says Arthur

"Your head is already full, of course you didn't think about this." Says Oscar and Arthur looks at him.

"Everything is falling apart." Says Arthur and Oscar gets tears in his eyes.

"And it's time to build it up again."