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When Your Mind’s Made Up

Summary:

In another lifetime, Church helps Astarion ascend before impulsively following his lover into darkness — vowing that neither of them will ever have to be alone again. But when the warlock wakes up from his transformation, he realizes far too late that the person he trusts and loves the most has become yet another inescapable patron. And so, when the battle against the Absolute demands yet another transformative sacrifice from the tiefling, he finds himself wondering…

What more does he have to lose?

(A companion piece to “Mirror, mirror,” but previous reading not required.)

Notes:

(See the end of the work for notes.)

Chapter 1: The Visit

Notes:

As mentioned in the summary, this fic is a companion piece to “Mirror, mirror.” However, you do not need to have read the other fic to understand/enjoy it (…but it *will* just hurt more if you did.)

Happy reading!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

“I had a dream last night.”

“You so often do,” the elf murmurs into the hair of the tiefling, who frowns. 

“I had a dream that we got everything we ever wanted...”

“Ooh, do tell.”

“…a safe home. A table full of food. A room flooded with the sun…” the tiefling trails off. “But you left… you went somewhere — I don’t know where. And I couldn’t taste the food. I couldn’t feel the warmth of the sun. And I kept looking over my shoulder because something was off. I knew something was wrong, but I couldn’t see it…

“…but then I saw it, watching.”

“‘It?’”

“A mind flayer… oh for fuck’s sake, don’t laugh at me!” the tiefling grumbles as he pushes his lover’s face away from where he snickers against his horns. 

“I’m not laughing at you, darling, it’s just… gods, not the mind flayer we know and hate, right?”

“No,” the tiefling frowns. “A stranger, but… familiar. It walked… floated… up to me, and it rested its hand against my cheek.

“I didn’t feel scared, but I still couldn’t move. I couldn’t speak. But it spoke to me.”

The elf humors him. “…and what did it say?” 

In their own little corner of the Elfsong, nestled against Astarion’s chest, Church pauses for a minute. He thinks to himself, desperately trying to recall the intangible threads of his fretful dream.

“It said… ‘you are here.

“‘I called you home.’”

 

Notes:

I have been haunted by the desire to write this story ever since I finished “Mirror, mirror.” Today, my brain chose violence, and the little drabbles I’ve been collecting in its document have finally woven themselves together into a proper fic.

This isn’t canon for this series, mind you, but it’s an alternative universe similar to the one portrayed at the core of “Mirror, mirror.”

Enjoy? :’)