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Changbin and Felix have been together for a while now, both are successful at work and relatively satisfied with their personal lives. But they differ widely in the way they each deal with stress, luckily, there's an intersection in their "interests"
At work Changbin is the perfect example of professionalism and politeness, gracefully dealing with situations that have led previous colleagues to resign on the spot.
He's constantly praised for his adaptability and openness that have saved the company from serious problems more than once.
All of this, plus his charming personality, has made him a favorite by both his colleagues and superiors, and granted him a very well deserved promotion, leaving him in a position where he can work from home most days and go to the office only to attend the big meetings. Not less important, it also left him a significantly larger paycheck.
At home, however, his dynamic with his partner, Felix, is not what most would expect.
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Since his late teens Changbin found some of his interests to be shameful and mortifying, he kept them well hidden, and his curiosity tightly repressed.
It wasn't until finding Tumblr in his early 20s that he came across a community of people with similar interests, or "tendencies" more precisely.
It led to a lot of reading, and some private exploring.
It also led to a lot of frustration given that his cravings, as he had started to call them, required the love and care of a 2nd person, but it all demanded a level of vulnerability that couldn't be shared with just any partner.
He would have had to start by explaining how most of it wasn't even sexual for him, it was just a coping mechanism. And he didn't know which option would be met with more disgust.
Which is why before making things serious with Felix, after knowing he could trust the younger man, he decided to drop all pretenses and open up about it all.
Call it fate, as Felix does, ever the romantic one. But much to Changbin's surprise Felix' reaction had been a gasp and a squeaky "omg can I hug you!?"
To which Changbin noded dumbly, first out of surprise and then out of... he doesn't have a name for it (yet), but he just knows he's unable to deny Felix of anything when the freckled boy smiles so big and bright.
He had not been expecting such an enthusiastic reaction to basically coming out as an age regressor; had, even less, expected for his boyfriend to know about Littles, about age regression, about age play and to be also interested in it all, but as a Caregiver.
That day they talked for hours, about how they felt about it all, what age did Changbin usually regress to... there were so many questions, he had never regressed in front of someone else. Or so he thought.
As Felix looked back on their relationship it all made so much sense. The way Changbin would act in private when tired, how clingy he'd get after particularly intense sex, how whiny he'd get after an extra difficult day at work. Changbin had never fully regressed in front of Felix, but all the signs of him slipping a bit into a different, maybe younger or simpler, headspace had been there once they became more intimate.
Felix' comment about it caught Changbin by surprise, he thought he had always been so careful. He felt his face warm up in embarrassment and couldn't meet Felix's eyes.
"Oh man there's THAT look again" was all Felix had the time to think before his mouth moved to talk of its own accord.
"You don't need to be embarrassed, babe. I think you're extra cute when you're like this"
"This", instead of "that", was all Changbin could focus on, he was slipping out of embarrassment and he got caught. Before he could think of how to react his body just fell forward onto Felix's chest as a shy whine escaped him.
Felix hugged him immediately, shushing him while rubbing soothing circles on his back.
It was late. Late enough to be in bed, thankfully they had the next day off and could sleep in, Felix decided then and there to call it a day.
Not wanting to move Changbin too much he decided on lying down on the sofa they were in, and moving Changbin to lay on top of him.
Much to his surprise he was able to easily arrange Changbin in a more comfortable position and the older boy only reacted with a sigh and taking a thumb to his mouth.
"We'll need pacifiers asap" added Felix to his now ever growing mental list of "Things to get for Binnie"
Felix woke up alone on the sofa, to a muffled "fuck" from Changbin who was sitting on a chair across the coffee table. "Baby?" Asked Felix in an even deeper voice.
Changbin didn't look at him, just kept his head down, hands and voice shaky as he quietly said "please don't call me that"
From his voice Felix noticed Changbin had been crying
he also noticed the steaming hot coffee mug on the table looking untouched except for a small coffee puddle next to it.
"Are you ok? Did you burn yourself?" Was all Felix thought to ask.
All the answer he got was a "I'm not a baby, you know? I don't need to be babied, I'm just having coffee" In between sobs
"I wasn't supposed to slip like that, I don't know what exactly it is you're into, I don't know if this is a sexual thing for you or not, we didn't talk about limits, we didn't talk ab..."
"Changbin stop!"
At that Changbin closed his mouth tightly.
"You're panicking, take a deep breath, and relax your jaw.
Look at me, please, love. I'm not upset. It's the best sleep I've had in weeks."
That finally earned him a look, even if it was a glare. "Don't lie, I'm too heavy to sleep on top of you like that"
Felix scoffed at that with a "no, you're not. Can you please sit next to me? I want to hold your hands"
Changbin moved carefully, red rimmed eyes full of disappointment and frustration.
"I now know you didn't mean to slip" started Felix after grabbing Changbin's hands in his own. "But I want to thank you. We haven't been together for that long and I didn't know you trust me this much. Please, believe me when I say I'll do my best to never break that trust"
Changbin lifted his gaze enough to look at Felix's chest instead of just his hands.
Felix took that as his sign to continue
"I want you, Changbin. I have for a while now. All of you. I care about you, and I want to take care of you, Little or big, be it that you feel like a blabbing baby or a frustrated 26 year old man. Be it sexual or not, I want to be the one to take care of you."
Changbin was left speechless at the honesty in Felix's voice and the unshed tears wetting his eyelashes.
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Changbin had been partially slipping in front of Felix for weeks, it took them some more weeks of talking on and off, plus many more of trying different things, for Changbin to allow himself to fully regress the first time in front of Felix.
Felix never thought he'd feel so happy and satisfied just from taking care of his little Binnie.