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Hi sweethearts, so this is my first fanfic ever written so I’m sorry if it’s not very good (it is posted on Wattpad under TJR1D22 and ao3 under Tj1D). The first few chapters are gonna be quite light-hearted stuff, but it will get deeper as the story progresses (I will put trigger warning). Also, L Pov just means louis point of view and H Pov is Harrys. Please tell me if you like it or where I could improve. I might also switch between the terms football and soccer sorry I’m Australian and we call it both <3. Also, this writing means someone is talking. Sorry again if it’s not very good I will try to update every week it might be hard cause I’m in school year 11, scary. Any way sorry for the rant. Happy Reading xxx.

L pov

4^th of October 2002 the Hayfield School Doncaster

Okay class coach voices rings into my ears followed by a high-pitched whistle god I hate those sounds. The rest of the team trudges over creating an uneven semi-circle around coach. Today we have what is called ‘team building exercise week’ it happens at the start of every season just before school starts up for a whole week!!! and God do I fucking hate these days.

Today team we will be diving into the world of ballet. Blank stares that seem to scream what the actual fuck. Ballet us the football team. Cackles of confusion surround me,

ummm coach what do you mean ballet you know this is the soccer team, right?

 More snickers, I was expecting Niall to say something he was never too good about hiding his opinions yes you heard me right the familiar hyena giggles abruptly come to a halt

WHAT Niall once again screeches.

Yes ballet, we the team will be doing ballet, many professional players have dabbled in the sport it creates a great sense of teamwork, balance, respect, and something you boys need more than anything flexibility. Groans once again meeting my ears. The decision is final boys go get changed Mr Bushell will be here soon with his students.

As I walk back to the change rooms complains float around me Niall next to me rambling on about how stupid this is,

can’t we just do stretches he states,

 what an opinionated best friend I have.  To be honest ballet doesn’t sound too bad, I don’t think I’m a bad dancer I did it before when I was younger before my father decided ballet wasn’t what he deemed ‘manly enough’ and ‘gay’ which honestly doesn’t make any sense to be honest. Ballet is a bunch of girls that I am around touching them around their waist and pressed up against them vs football which is a bunch of men tapping each other on the arses and getting unchanged in front of each other, which one sounds gayer to you dad? Anyway, we are heading out of the changed room now we are going to the assembly hall so we can start the ‘team building exercise week’ yippee.

Once we have reached the hall a group of boys are standing opposite us in black tight and white shirts, in front of them stands a tall man holding a cane.

 Say hello to Mr Bushell and our guest boys

coach says gesturing towards the arrangement of zebras standing in front of us hi a scatter of us replied. All together they bow and a monotone voice ring out singing thank you for having us. What! That was creepy and cool, shivers run up and down my arms. Okay whatever let’s just get this over with so I can go home.

Not even halfway through this class everyone is dead who knew something that sounds as simple as ballet could be so hard, but it is. I’m kind of enjoying this not going to lie and Mr Bushell seems pleased at what I am doing, I believe I have picked up the steps and positions fast then the other boys since I have done ballet before. My partner who I have learned is named harry seems bored with what we are doing, he keeps his head held high and doesn’t really talk much. He seems fun. Not.

So how long have u don’t ballet for? I question while at the bar.

Since birth he. mutters back.

How does that work?

Okay fine rolling his eyes technically since I was 2.

So, what 8 years

Yeah

Cool, I used to ballet before…

Before what

Before um football

Oh okay.

Do you like football?

Yeah, it’s all right.

You’re not too bad at ballet.

Thanks

That as far as our conversation goes, though for some reason I keep finding him staring at me, he’s cute though he’s shorter than me I asked him his age and he just said I’m in ballet 12 that confused the shit out of me, all the other ballet students seem older than him, his curly brown hair flops in front of his eyes. Shit his eyes they are gorgeous. Um what no thats not, anyway back to the steps.

That week absolutely killed us boy’s, god my muscles where so fucking sore the entire week I could barely walk properly. Yet it was fun and at the end of the week Mr Bushell ask to speak to me. Yes of course, sir I quickly blurt. I have been watching you over the last week and I believe you would be an excellence addition to our academy, if you accept my offer, I will get coach to email your guardian the details.

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AAAHHHHH Hi Sweethearts. This upload is pretty late, but I hope you enjoy it, I’m sorry it’s not very long (I only have 3 days to write it my next upload should be longer). I can believe at the time of uploading this I’m at 47 hits!! Also thank you for the kudos <3. Tbh I don’t really know where I’m going with this haha im just having some fun. Also did any of you listen to Taylor Swifts new album TTPD, I did, and I love it my favorite song is BUT DADDY I LOVE HIM, it's so good and unhinged, also like harry styles coded, if you listened what's your fav song? Also on another note, the other day was the anniversary 10 years of you and i, that is just crazy! Anyways hope you enjoy the chapter and happy reading sweethearts, if you have any feedback due to the fact this is my first writing pls tell me <3. Anyway, byeeee sweethearts.  

H pov

26^th of January 2012

What why on earth do I have to go there, I absolutely hate children disgusting creatures, and I don’t want to help them I have work I have to get back to! 

Yes, I know I sound crazy but wouldn’t you if you were being forced to help a bunch of stupid children in Doncaster with their ballet program. Yeah, you would be annoyed.

My name is Harry Styles, and I am the best ballet dancer in the world, yes it sounds obnoxious, yes narcissistic people say, but I have worked my ass of for this, so I deserve it. Yet now I am being shipped off to some hole in the wall place to help children of all creatures. Their sticky hands, disgusting turn outs, loud loud high squeaky voices, not to mention their sickled feet. Thinking about it makes me sick.

 See, I began out in Doncaster my old studio said I had already out learnt all the other students, so I was going to stay at a boarding school. Yes, the boarding school that I will soon be teaching at, yes, the Doncaster that I will soon be living in, so you ask why on earth am I complaining. Doncaster, hell on earth as I prefer to describe it, boarding school is not fun, I had no friends cause all the boys where at least 2 years older than me, nothing good came out of that boarding school, out of Doncaster, except for me well and maybe that other guy what’s his name, ahh whatever.

My lawyer is standing across the room from me suddenly getting out of his seat.

Harry, I have explained this 1000 times come on.

Blah blah blah, God does this man ever shut up.

He was going to get you locked away do you have any idea how that would look on your record yes, you’re an amazing dancer.

I eye rolled at that I think I tickled my brain with my cornea.

Sorry the most amazing dancer in the world your royal highest grand jete or whatever you people call it. But this would have ruined your career, and you know it.

God, I love Liam but oh how he doesn’t ever shut up.

 Fine, fine yes, I know when do I leave?  6 months in hell shouldn’t be too bad right? I mean that’s where I’m probably going after I die anyway, yet I don’t say that part out loud, I will never again talk about THAT out loud again.

Good, I’ll send the confirmation email you leave in 2 days, also Harry please don’t mess this up, I will be back to check on in 2 months, please don’t mess this up for yourself, I have to go love you mate.

Love you too thank you I say as me and Liam hug.

see you in 2 months.

L pov

28^th of January

God where is he, me and Mr Bushell have been sanding in his office expect Harry Styles to have walked through that door 30 minutes ago. Yes, I know what you are thinking HARRY STYLES THE HARRY STYLESSS AAAAHHHHH! I would simply answer yes love, harry styles, the obnoxious, ass fucker, who is currently 30 minutes late to his meeting, if this rest of the term is going to be like this, I say just lock the man up already. Of course he managed to get out of the charges. Anyway, the ticking clock on the wall laughs at us, haha is screeches with each tick and Tok, Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha. How rude, I mean come on we are doing you a Favor here and your late, really. The sound of boots stopping down the hall crawls into my ears and suddenly I have the urge to fix my hair, suddenly feeling an overwhelming sense I can only describe as, well, very dirty.

Louis why are you freaking out Mr Bushell stares at me. shit.

What do you mean sir? please don’t push it.

Oh, louis he’s not that bad trust me. he probably doesn’t even remember you it was years ago.

All I can do is nod along because he remembers, he definitely remembers. A knock at the door. Who knew that was all it took to have my body tense up my breath hitch and my palm sweating enough to water an unnecessary house plant such as the one standing in the corner laughing at my fidgeting weeping palms.

Come in. Shit, that wasn’t loud enough I clear my throat, focus louis focus COME IN! Too loud, Lou, too loud, whatever.

The door swings open, there he is wearing black jeans that look a bit to small but I’m not exactly complaining, a black shirt, his hair is long. How on earth does he get away with that!? And gold Chelsea boot of course.  Those where his signature final touch to his outfits at least that is what every tabloid was saying. Good what a snob, who wears gold shoes? Like OKAY twinkle toes.

Yet as I stare at harry styles before me, I can help but to see the fragments of the kid he used to be when we were younger in the same boarding school. It drives me crazy how fast the time changes sometimes, it seems like only yesterday we were little lads running down these halls. Now it looks like he’s been running down the hall, he’s out of breath, pulling a puffer out of his pocket he breathes in, pressing down on the button, his hands are so big, his. quiet. Big. What how is he now taller than me? Anyway, just focus on the meeting.

 H pov 

Umm hi so sorry I’m late, there was a bunch of traffic heading from the airport.

I’m out of breath, tired, hungover and don’t want to be here, that’s why I’m not here on time, I want to scream. Scanning over the room it doesn’t look like anything has changed much, the dark oak still swallows you whole, never have I ever felt so tiny stepping into a room, filled with books on ballet on one side of the 4 by 4 cage that I will have to climb back into each day for the next 6 months, yay me. The typical office room, with Mr Bushells desk matching the walls centred in the middle lit by a yellow light that somehow brings a sense of warmth and calm to this hell. Next to him none other than Louis Tomlinson, great this is going to be fun.

No problem, Harry please take and seat me and Mr Tomlinson would like to talk to you about the plans for this term and your role that you will fill while you spend your time here. We are so glad you’re here to help the kids they are simply overjoyed.  

 Well, I didn’t really have a choose now did I, is what I want to say instead i pull an old chair covered in leather out from the desk and sit down.

Me and Mr Tomlinson have been talking and all our classes currently have teachers so you will be working to help Mr Tomlinson in his classes, you will also be sharing one of the boarding houses with him, till we can provide you with new accommodation.  

WAIT A MINUTE WHAT! Smile and nod. Smile and nod.

Perfect.

What do I mean perfect? Really, I’m going to have to bunk with him, if this torturous time couldn’t get any worse, I have to deal with that!  It's just 6 months, just 6 months.

Mr Tomlinson will lead you up to your room now, your bags will be brought up to you.

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L pov

I try and not to look to smug as I open the door, yet the face the harry is pulling is making it way to hard.

I knew that harry was going to be surprised when he saw the building, for one it changed a bit since he was last year, the same old wood features still stand tall, yet the new fresh layers of paint and new coats of polish on the floor made the place feel somewhat fancier for a small studio in Doncaster. Our room was the biggest of the bunch walking in, your immediately greeted by a large open pace, it truly is beautiful.

Oh

Really that’s it that’s all he says, well his face looks absolutely shocked which is still nearly throwing me into a fit of laugher, so I guess his small reaction is fine.

Are you going to go in or are we just going to stand at the door?  

Oh, right yeah.

I'll give you a quick tour of the place then you can unpack before dinner.

Okay

I don’t really want to give him a tour of the place, he could probably work his way around here just find by himself. While the areas big, the dorm only consists of 4 “bedroom” and I us that word lightly as really there is 2 bedrooms, a study/library, small dance studio, a kitchen of course and a dining area which leads out to a balcony. The dorm has an open feel due to big sliding glass doors that displayed a picturesque few of the forest, rapping around the home like a big warm, green hug, well that’s the way I would describe it.

As we walked in Harrys eyes dashed towards the kitchen counter, due to the renovation the kitchen was quite large, white wood and marble lay still and clean, a large island in the middle of the space, it truly is a lovely kitchen.

This is the kitchen

Really that’s the best thing I could have said, really louis the kitchen, he knows what a kitchen it’s that was the most obvious things I’ve ever said.  

It's nice

yeah.

It really is quite nice yet harry must have been to hotels which much nicer kitchen, well I would be surprised if harry had ever actually step foot in a kitchen, much less know how to make a meal.

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L Pov

16^th of October 2002 at the Doncaster Bushell’s Ballet Boarding School

Wow Harry you get to live here all the time, that’s so cool!

I love his room; the wood of the floors and walls feel like a warm hug and the view is amazing, a forest is literally in his back yard.

Yeah, it is

I like all your posters, is that a record player, sick

I was so excited; the week of dance had been fun. Harry just watched me as I ran around looking through the dorm room, it was absolutely massive, he lived here with another boy he was older and just left a few weeks before to go to a fancier school in London.  Lucky me, ill be boarding with harry now who is really nice once you get to know him, he’s just really shy.

H Pov (present)

Louis has been making me wake up at 5:30 every morning, as he likes to put it, help me get into the return. Sadly, I must listen to him, or no more dance and all the other consequences he was rambling on about yesterday. To be honest the last few days haven’t been that bad, the woods are a great place for a walk and all I’ve had to do is go to my old classrooms or set up my bedroom. I’ve also been planning, a lot, like a lot a lot, mostly just stuff I have to do with the class, it's pretty boring and tiring I’m not sure how he does this all the time. The rest of the time is spent in uncomfortable silence, like really awkward silence, what are you meant to talk about with someone you used to be best friends with anyway.

L Pov

God, will one of us just talk this is so fucking uncomfortable, we have been sitting here for 25 minutes in absolute silence. We are planning out our semester of school and now I wish I put some music on, maybe Stevie Nicks could make this situation better. The last few days haven’t been the worst thing yet again we haven’t properly started working together yet so we will see. Maybe I should say something to him, my stomach rumbles reminding me, I haven’t had breakfast this morning, unless you count a cigarette, which I guess I don’t.

Harry

More award silence.

Hello, harry

What? Oh yes.

Do you want to go get breakfast there is a cafe down the road

Yeah sure

That answer was slightly surprising.

Okay I’m just going to get a jacket.

Also, maybe my mind because why did I just do that. Is he a lot less rude than the start of the week. Yes. Is this till going to be awkward now that I have actually thought about it. Yes.

H Pov

I have absolutely no idea why I just agreed to go to a café with louis Tomlinson, but it looks like I did. Yay more award silence just in a different location.

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hi sweethearts so i dont have a full next chapter, sorry, my mental health has been really bad of late but im slowly trying to get back to it. im sure by now all of you gave heard about liam, im am truly heartbroken i have loved one direction since 2010 and i was like 3/4 years old, i simply cannot fully fathom and comprehend the fact that he is gone. im lucky to have a great support system surrounding me and other directioners that are helping me through this hard time for all of us. if you need to talk my tumblr is @tiily-jane-2007 not even about this but about anything at all in general. thank you to all who have read this is so far it means the absolute world to me.

To liam payne,
thank you, thank you for coming back to the x-factor and for making one direction with the other boys, thank you for the laughs and the cries, the music. you will be remembered ive lost a piece of my heart and childhood today, hope you are looking down on us, we love you, i love you may you rest in peace. <3

from tilly-jane

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hi sweethearts, im still deeply sadden by the recent death of our beloved liam. it hurts. my chest is tight and eating feels like an absolute chore. remember to look after yourself, stay cool or warm wherever you are in the world, stay hydrated, try and sleep, if you need a break hope of your device (i know its all over mine), go on a walk if it helps, lay down if it helps, whatever will help you please please do it. remember to reach out for help if you need it. i check Tumblr like 24/7 its @tiily-jane-2007. if i don't answer it might be because im asleep (i live in Australia btw) so im definitely not ignoring you i check Tumblr all the time. you can message on here if you need to. writing has really helped me its the only thing keeping me going tbh, writing this book and doing my lyric writing as well. The one direction boys mean the absolute world to me and i want to wake up and this be a sick nightmare. its hard to put it in proper words. 

once again thank you for all the support, kudos, reads, re-reads, following me along, be kind to yourself, you deserve it im proud of you for just being alive today cause thats hard sometimes <3. 

i hope you like this chapter, its the longest one i have written yet (1000< upwords) which i know compared to others is not too big but its my first fanfic and its the only thing making me feel the slightest bit okay atm.

shout out to my friends and my one direction family, Millie and Indie we have given each other the most supportive shoulder to cry on. love you loads. 

happy reading sweets <3 

• TW: depiction of panic attac

Chapter 6 (same mistakes)

L pov

Harry. Harry!

Oh my gosh can this kid listen. Stay calm louis, you where the one that invited him here. Why did you invite him here.

Huh

What do you want

Oh, um a blue berry muffin and an iced coffee

Okay,

I turned back to the blue, hair they/them badge wearing barista, this food is going to be good.

 can I please get what he said, also an English breakfast and a vanilla cupcake. Go find us a table.

After Harry walks to the table I pay the person at the front as I mentally prepare for whatever is going to happen when I sit down at my inevitable doom. Okay, so maybe I’m being slightly dramatic, but me and harry haven’t talked in years and we don’t necessarily, like each other. Whatever fuck it.  I head to the small two-seater table at the back, the café is beautiful plants frame the stained glasses windows which sit still hugged by a dark brown oak wood.

Thank you for paying for me

Ah yeah, all good

I don’t know why we have started to be nice to each other. Or why I paid for his overpriced coffee, but I did. Or why I’m about to sit down at this table with a man I haven’t talked to in years. Or why we are here right now, but here we are so I may as well make the most of it, shouldn’t I? Also, what am I meant to talk to him about, last I heard he’s to stuck up to even look in the direction of ‘people like me.’ Once again whatever fuck it.

Ssoo, um how have you been

Damn this is horribly awkward right now

Yeah, yeah I’ve been good

That’s good

Holy shit this is bad, really bad, I can feel the tension in the air, the tension in the room, fills my lungs, the pain of the situation rushes through my once still body. The room feels small now, the stain glass on the windows stares at me taunting me with the freedom of the outside. No absolutely not, this cant happen now, not in front of him, never in front of him.

Lou. Louis

No don’t move don’t say anything please. I want to say but the word won’t come out of mouth. I can feel my legs mimicking the quickening of my increasing heart rattling the table, my hands put down my cup, as the hot tea hits my skin. Count down from ten, count down from ten. Ten, Nine. Breathe just breathe.

Louis are you okay! What’s wrong

Really now this is happening now. Breathe. In and out. In an out. Its okay I’m fine. Breathe. Back from ten. Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one.

Louis what’s wrong, wait, is this, okay, its okay, count down from ten and breathe with me

I stare hollow at harry as he counts back from 10 breathing in and out. How did he remember to do that?

Louis are you okay

Umm… yeah, im fine, sorry

Fuck! Did I really need to have a fucking panic attack now, shit this is embarrassing.

No. do not apolog.

Okay, umm, aah thank you

No problem, are you sure your okay, we can leave

No, no its all good.

Damn it, why did that have to happen now, I haven’t had a panic attack in months. The air

around me is thick with unsettlement.

Listen harry I promise I'm fine, its normal, you know that.

Okay, let's eat then we will get back.

Okay.

H pov

Lou. Louis

Louis are you okay! What’s wrong

Oh shit, louis is sitting across from me, the table shaking his bouncing legs following the rapid exhales of his breath. Shit, okay is he, 

Louis what’s wrong,

yep, I know what’s happening now okay,

wait, is this, okay,

I remember he used to get them a lot before, well never mind now.

it’s okay, count down from ten and breathe with me

I watch the rise and fall of his chest as he lets out another staggered breath. I forget how scary his panic attacks get, forget how he shakes, the colour draining from his usually golden face. I don’t think I'll ever be as scared as I was since the first time it happened; it came out of nowhere I had no idea what to do. That was the first time I felt truly useless. I promised to myself that, that would never happen again, that I would never let him down in a time when he was already at rock bottom. I asked some doctors what I could do to help, read books. I wished I never had to use that information again, then again not all wishes come true. The life behind his eyes slips for a second and it steals mine, I forgot how to breathe for a second, shit I forgot how scary it is after as well.

Louis are you okay

Umm… yeah, I'm fine, sorry

Fuck, I can tell in his voice he’s embarrassed, I wished he wasn’t, wish he could talk to me, wish he was comfortable enough to, but not all wishes come true. That’s what I want to say, no, no say scream. Instead, I say:

No. do not apologies.

He is squirming in his seat, no, please don’t make it awkward louis, it’s not I promise you it's not. He says he is fine, like a broken record, told what track to play. You don’t have to pretend, I want to say, no, not say scream. I wish he didn’t pretend around me, but not all wishes come true. Now I sound like a broken record, the wishes, dissipating in my head as the tension floats around the room, as we finish our food and walk back to the room. I wish, I wish, I wish. But not all wishes come true.

Flashback

I walked into the locker room, he was there on the floor, shaking, fat tears painted his cheeks in salty sadness.

Ummm, hi, are you okay? Your name is louis right I met you in the gym earlier. R..are you okay.

He looked up to me from the floor, his already drowning blue eyes were brightened by the ocean of tears, he didn’t answer, his breathes became shorter and shorter.

LOUIS WHATS WRONG YOUR SCARING ME!!!

Why wasn’t he answering

LOUIS. SOMEONE HELP PLEASE

His coach barged into the bathroom, as he limp body hit the floor.

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Hi sweethearts, sorry i wanted to upload this chapter quicker but ive been lowkey shit lately. anyway moving on, if you need to reach out pretty please do my messages and tumblr are always open. i hope you injoy this chapter harrys pov will be coming later this week (hopefully if i dont end up in the mental hospital). 

L pov

Thanks for dinner harry

No problem lou.

Oh, he hasn’t used that one for, well, yep. I can see his shoulders freeze.

Oh, ah sorry.  Louis no problem louis.

Why is he acting so weird about this.

Hazza

His head turned so fast I thought it was going to fall off.

Yes

Thank you for dinner

Why are you repeating yourself?

Come on kid, pick up on it.

Hazza, thank. You. For. Dinner. Hazza.

Oh! No problem lou.

God, I forgot how his eyes light up like that. A small giggle breaks free from the cage of his blushed lips. Fuck! Anyway…

You ready for tomorrow?

Yeah, I think so, I looked over the notes I believe I can do all that stuff.

he pauses for a while

it just what if the kids don’t like me, I’ve never worked with kids before and I don’t want them to hate me, and you know I’ve never really liked children to much, they are sticky.

hahah, hazza it should be fine, I remember how you were with my siblings

shit maybe i shouldn’t have said that, his shoulders flinch.

you will do amazing the kids in my classes are kind, just be patent and remember they aren’t like you, they are like 11 not everyone is a prodigy. we will just manly be doing introductions today as it is the start of the year and everyone is new.

okay yeah that will be fine I can do that. definitely.

yep you can, anyway its getting late I don’t want to be tired for tomorrow, get some sleep Haz, goodnight

god i love the way his face lights up at that nickname.

okay, goodnight lou

i forgot how soft he is.

H pov

he called me hazza, he called me hazza, he called me hazza, he called me hazza, vkvbkfvrsvukscv, he said sleep "haz" jvkvbdv, okay speak speak

okay goodnight lou

L pov

hi class come in and we will get to introductions

the kids shuffle into class, wow this is a timid class.

Haz stands next to me, he looks more nervous than the kids themselves

hey Haz, you okay

what ah yeah I’m fine. Okay! lets just go

wow okay he didn’t have to be so fucking rude, I thought something might have changed. we have been getting along well since the cafe incident, think I’m going to call it. now this, god he is so fucking confusing

fine. don’t act like that in front of the kids

please don’t make this harder than what I thought it was going to be because I was finally, finally had come to terms with and as one could say, exited and or happy to have you here. why are you ruining it. what happened from you making a breakfast muffin and cracking your stupid jokes this morning to this. that’s what I wanted to say. But I don’t. so instead we walk into the classroom in still silence. walking to the front of the room.

the dance school is old, and the classes rooms are quite tiny, which is of course fine, as the school only accepts 10 new students now after the old boarding house was sold, the old floors were updated last year but to preserve the original timber the walls are rapped with the darkened oak wood. the scuff marks from old shoes can be seen why you look up closely.

harry and I are now standing in front of the room looking at the wave of new faces. I notice a few kids from there audition tapes. harry is looking like a scared lost puppy to my right, left leg over the right and his polished black Chelsea books are hooked around the other ankle. he’s playing with the black ring hugging his ring finger of his right hand. his obnoxious long hair swaying in front of his eyes, as his broad shoulders are hunched unbelievingly high and forward. okay so I don’t think he wants to introduce himself, all good.

hi everyone, my name is Mr Tomlinson, but you can call me sir, I know you have multiple teachers, and it gets confusing. outside of class, around campus, at the creek, anywhere outside of the premise of the building. louis, louis is absolutely fine.

the children sit cross legged on the floor. they seem to be paying attention. then I realise they aren’t looking in my direction but to a smidge to the right. oh, right, harry.

and of course, Mr style, or sir, you may call him, is here as well, he will not be here for the whole of the term so far, but please enjoy the time with him, I’m sure a few of you recognise him, you will learn a lot from, Mr styles so please pay attention.

first let’s go around the room and we will have everyone introduce themselves. do your name, favourite style of dance, favourite colour, everyone here is age11 and do you have any pets, just because i like animals and if you say yes. please show me a picture.

some of the kids’ chuckle, I like this class, this year should be good.

Oh also say who is someone you look up too.

H pov

okay I can do that. name will that’s easy, fav colour pink or gold, favourite type of dance, well the answer is obvious for that one isn’t it, pets, nope, someone I look up to, I don’t know.

louis is telling the class his answers. Back to reality harry.

okay class so as you know my name is Louis Tomlinson, my favourite colour is red, type of dance of which would be my number one is very obviously ballet, and I have a dog, well it doesnt live here, honestly it my mums.

he leans closer to the kids, they are automatically pulled forward, like a south and north faces of a magnet.

but he does love me more, but don’t tell my mother.

the whole class gives a sharp nod. wow he’s really good at this okay, so maybe I’m a little nervous. then I hear a voice from my left.

okay sir, your turn now.

okay deep breath you got this. Okay.

umm hi everyone, my name is Harry Edward Styes, my favourite colour is, well my favourites are pink and gold, my favourite type of dance is ballet, I don’t have a pet. yep, I believe that is all.

okay good they aren’t throwing things at me. i give awarded thumbs up from lou and wait for him to move onto someone else.

L pov

okay this is all good harry is doing a lot better then what I thought he was going to do and the kids seem to like him but I also think that might be because he is a bit of an icon at the moment isn’t he. Well definitely in the dance world and in the media I mean can I blame them pretty face and perfect lips, and eyes and dimpl.. okay will maybe I’m getting a bit carried away now but you have to agree that man is pretty and maybe I’m tuning out some of what these children are saying just so I can listen to this man speak is there a problem with that. Okay, yes maybe and maybe I’m staring but I’m not going to fucking judge, so why should you? anyway so the last girls name to go is violet her favourite colour is black she has a bird, i need to ask about and her more about that, and her favourite dance style is,  what did she say ummm improvisation ahh yes that is amazing okay well that was number 10. Moving on

thank you everyone. Ill run you through the daily schedule and what will be happening for the rest of the term, then this class is finished. okay kids so this is your main class in the morning you will come here after breakfast is you haven’t picked up your time table go to the office after class please, you will be able to pick it up from there Mr bushelle is a lovely man so that will be nothing above slightly easy. okay so this week we will try and settle in as you guys are young and very far from home so don’t worry to much this week. Next week though we will be cracking into it. The first thing we are focusing in ballet this term is strength we need you guys to be able to hold yourself and each other up okay.

the class mutters a quick yes.

perfect, we also have Mr styles here to help as you may know Mr style is an amazing dancer, and the class will greatly benefit from having a  true professional who is currently heavily involved in the industry here.

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hi my sweethearts. first of, THE MOST IMPORTANT THING EVER HAPPY 33RD BIRTHDAY LOUIS TOMLINSON AND MERRY CHRISTMAS. louis has saved me in a way that it so special even though he doesnt know me he has helped me so much and im so proud of where he is going. i got the brisbane riverstage jumper for myself for christmas just to thank myself for making it through the year and to 17 years old. not going to lie i got really emotional while opening it. so thank you louis tomlinson thank you for being there for me since i was 4 through your lyrics, laughs and amazing person you are you have changed me, thank you lou and happy birthday.

so i know i have been really m.i.a i did end up in the mental hospital, i have been going through a lot for a very long time, im finally getting the help i need but im not 100% there yet. sorry that this chapter is super short im on holiday so im going to try and pump out a shit tone of writing because i truly do love it a lot sorry this is a really short chapter but it is only pt1 ;) !

L pov

okay class I’m glad we have all had a great first week. remember enjoying your weekend get some rest next week’s work is going to be a bit harder. I’m glad you have all seem to have settled down now. if you have any questions about this terms curriculum or what will be coming up in the next few weeks, or any other queries please come up after class to talk to either myself or Mr styles. class dismissed. the class chorus together a monotone voice of goodbye, some of the students’ mutter have a good weekend, or some form of goodbye or the way out the door.

well, the first week of class went well don’t you think? told you, you had absolutely nothing to worry about.

I sway my hip to my right bumping into harry. I think turn to look at his face. oh.

hey hazza are you alright.

oh hi, yeah im fine.

you sure you seem upset.

I SAID IM FINE LOUIS

oh okay

what on earth was that. we have been fine all week, he makes us breakfast and dinner everyday, we talk, walk to class together, all the kids seem to absolutely love him. what happened since the start of the lesson till now. Jesus he’s fucking confusing.

H pov

oh, sorry louis that was my phone going off, i really need to take this.

all good H, just go outside we will start from the beginning when you come back inside.

I leave the classroom and pick up the call from Liam

hey Liam what up.

Hey, harry, I have some bad news.

Oh what is it

They want you to stay there till the end of the year.

LIAM, I CAN’T STAY THERE TILL THE END OF YEAR I HAVE THE PROFORMANCE IN DECEMBER OF THE NUTCRACKER

Harry, I know please calm down I’m trying to negotiate, but since he cant dance in the nutcracker this year he thinks you should be able to.

Liam you know what happened this isn’t fare.

I know harry, I know, if we told them what happened...

No absolutely not.

Fine harry but this will probably be happening whether you like it or not

Fine bye.

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okay soooooo i know i said that the next chapter would be coming soon. IVE DECIDED ITS NOW! its christmas day and im hiding cause im really fucking overstimulated yippeeee :( so i wrote this so far my chapter have been not the longest this ones only like 1200 words but im trying to get them to be longer the next one might be a while so i can really make some processed. :) happy readings sweethearts <3

H pov

Walk out quietly so he doesn’t hear you! Shit, fuck, okay kicking the wall didn’t help idiot.

Harry are you okay?

Fuck. I look up from the floor and meet louis eyes, glowing in the dusky suns low lit room.

Yeah im alright louis.

Please leave me alone just this once, only this once though.

Are you sure harry because you have been acting weird since you got that call the other day, and I just wanted to check in on you. I know we don’t talk as much as we use to but even if, like I don’t know, want to, I can always yah um, you know, like I umm, im always here to talk.

Oh, thanks. Just a hard week

Maybe telling him something wouldn’t hurt, and really want to tell him the worry in his eyes is making my heart clench. but then again what happened with, whatever, no harry don’t go there. Wait hes moving closer,  louis is moving closer!

Is there anything I could do to help

God! Why is his hand touching my arm, fuck! Wow, his eyes are blue, like I forgot how blue they were, oh hes looking at me! Oh, um, right speak, just speak!

Aaahvvj

What the actual fuck was that!

Aahhh, no Im, im, okay thank though.

I can feel his hand burning the side of my arm and I know for a goddam fact im going to be able to feel it later. I remember the time louis and I  have been like this, all butterflies in shit. Not anymore Harry, no!

Flashback

Harry are you sure you want to tell them; I know you said they were fine about you coming out but what if they react differently about this?

God! Louis eyes looked so worried; I want to kiss that away tell him that everything will be fine. Honestly though I don’t know if we will be, we should probably tell my parents about us. I mean we have been dating for four months. honestly, I can’t tell him my parents will react how we want them to, because if I’m truly honest, I don’t know If they will.  

Louis baby I don’t care if they don’t want me with you, I want to be with you. That’s all that matters.

Okay, he breathes in and out.  let’s do this

Louis grabs my hand as we walk into my house together.

Father, I am home, there is someone I would like for you to meet!

My farther saunters out of his office, yet his high, menacing pinched brow, and dark judgement eyes, don’t make his appearance into the foyer a simple stroll, his presents don’t feel like a happy welcome home, instead it feels like judgement, he looks me and louis up and down like a wolf stalking its next pray.

Hello harry, its good to have you home.

his words cut through the dead air, matching the outreach of his arm as I take my hand in his in a handshake that says, who is this, why are you home, it doesn’t feel like its good to be in this house. Huse,  not a home may I add.

Um, dad this is…

I pause for a second and look at louis and my head has to turn a bit further than anticipated, as my normally bold and outgoing boyfriend has managed to slowly slide most of his body behind me. Louis sharply nodded so I carried on.

This is my boyfriend louis

No.

What do you mean no dad

Not anymore harry your grades are dropping, once again, not like im surprised, but I have said it before and I definitely will say it again, no boyfriends, no girlfriends, none, not till your grades can finally be up to my standards.

I hang my head in defeat, I forget sometimes being gladly away from home now, that even a slight looks my dad gives me will make me surrender in any situation, guess that good old fear for you.

okay

one thing people always think, well the two people who have actually seen me with my dad. louis now being one of those to is, wow harry maybe you should stick up for yourself, but even those two people don’t know that my dad will get his way. No. matter.  what. After I said okay louis face visibly dropped.

Say goodbye harry, don’t make it hard on yourself. Do you understand me.

My dad’s eyebrow raised, and I knew exactly what he meant. My dad turned around and slammed the door to his office.

Louis ill walk you out

Once we got outside louis lost it

WHAT THE FUCK HARRY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK WAS THAT. YOU SAID, YOU SAID NOTHING WOULD CHANGED THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE, YOU, HOW COULD YOU. YOU JUST GAVE ME UP LIKE NOTHING. You.

Louis started crying fat tears rolling down his cheeks like a never-ending fall of a water fall. His voice cracking and softened.

You said you loved me harry, we... we have gone through much, and how, just tell me how you could.

I couldn’t meet his eye as I spoke the last words to him.

Bye louis, I love you.

Oh you actually, wow, um, you actually mean it. Whatever, fuck you, bye princesses.   

Louis left after that. My heart broke into a million pieces, and louis picked up every piece and drove away with it. He knows, he knows, I, I love him, and I understand why he left me I would have to. I just, my dad. Yet did he really have to say princesses, that, that was the thing that took the final blow, he knew he knew how much I loved it when he called me that, I felt safe and understood, made me forget about my dad, about well everything. The fuck you didn’t matter, the slam of his door, the way he didn’t look back as he speed of didn’t matter, it was the hurt that possessed his damp eyes as he said bye princesses. I never in a million years want to have to hear the name princesses ever again.

Present time h pv

Harry don’t do anything stupid, its just his hand just his gorgeous tanned, nope, nope, nope. Louis looked up at me through his lashes.

You sure

Yep, yep, im all good.

Okay if your sure then, would you mind if we go over the plan for the week coming, on Sunday

.

Yes of course! Does 3pm at the coffee shop work, I have a meeting before that, after we can come back and ill make you dinner.

A warm smile spread across louis face.

Yeah that sounds great.

L pov

Sleep louis, just get to sleep, I keep repeating to myself. Yet every time I closed my eyes, I could still feel the tingling in my hand from where it met harrys arm. Shit, this is going to be fun.

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also thank you, thank you, thank you so so much for 1005 reads ahhhh <3

hiiii sweethearts! first of thank you! second, happy new year! 3rd new chhapterrrrr! so to be honest my mental health has been going downhill again, and myself isolation is so bad I literally don't do anything, that includes me hobbies :(. here is this chapter it is a tiny bit lengthier, next chapter I'm thinking about doing a bit of like author character things like in a lot of old fanfics, what do u think? i want to get back into writing more i really do enjoy it. anyway here is the next chapter we have some flirtinggg? happening maybe? it's complicated! 

HAPPY READINGS SWEETHEARTS <3

H pov

I walked into the same café Louis, and I sat at the first time we had a meal together when I came to the school. Looking around the place the afternoon loungers scattered around the dimly lit room, louis sat at a table at the back looking through his planner, his pinky stuck out as he drank his tea. Placing the cup back on the saucer his head lifted as he met my eyes, waving me towards the table.

Hey Hazza.

He exclaimed as I slid across from him in the corner booth, the dark purple seat held onto the dead slumped weight of my tired body.

Hey Lou.

His head shot up that worried expression plaguing his eyes. His smile suddenly dropped and I could feel his eyes roaming my face.

You  okay?

Yeah, I'm fine Lou just a long day, I'm tired

Oh,  I'm sorry, we can do this another time

No, no it's okay, let's just do this

Louis flipped to the next page in his book apprehensively, a dusting of worry still plaguing his eyes. I just smile back at him, that seems to calm his worry for now, giving me a slight smile back.

Okay, well the first week of class when honestly amazing harry, the kids really like you, like really like you, I know you were nervous but all of them look up to you so much.

Oh ahh thank you 

Wow okay the kids didn't hate me, bit surprised by that if I'm being personally honest. Both the surprise of not being absolutely despised and louis complement. It might make me blush, maybe, just a slight little bit.

I was thinking this week step it up a bit especially in the strength department a few of the kids were started on point at their old studio but I'm worried they don't actually have the skills and technique for it yet

The whole time Louis was talking his face was slowly turning more into a frown, both of us knew how dangerous dancing on point can be if your body isn't prepared and your skill level isn't up there yet. Too many incidents of hearing about other studios not training their dancers properly, it's sad really, many can't dance for the rest of their life, I know Louis would hate it if that happened here and I did also notice small things some of the kids were doing incorrectly.

Yeah I noticed that too, few of their feet just weren't fully getting over the box properly as well as their ankles quite a few were wobbly. 

Great we will add that to the schedule

Louis flipped open his large book to another page our schedule neatly laid out

I had another idea of something we could maybe incorporate like I don't know maybe once a week. It has really helped me a lot with my training and starting the kids now I think could be very beneficial

sure harry what is your idea. Okay at least he will hear me out 

ummm, yoga

louis slightly tilted his head looking like a confused puppy

I know it sounds a bit strange but it's very good with flexibility and control within your body. It will help the kids be able to identify when their movements are wrong. like being more in touch with their bodies and stuff 

The whole time I'm explaining my idea my hands are under the table fidgeting; I can feel Louise's gaze at the top of my head. mainly because I'm nervous about what he will say and eye contact with the dark oak wood table seem much easier than knowing if louis looking at me intriguingly or with disgust

ummmm okay. Well, I'm not sure about that.

right 

I should have known honestly that he wouldn't be super on bored louis if you could say, still a bit more traditional when it comes to ballet. a lot of people usually are.

 I know this will help the kids though I've used it and its helped me tones, just wish you would see it the same way.

Why cant he see where I'm coming from!

Harry, are you mad? please don't be it's just, that will be a lesson we are taking up and while i love the idea, it's just there could be, other thing we could be doing 

okay 

harry come on don't be like this 

its just i know this will help louis i know it will i want them to be the best they can, can you think about it 

fine harry, we will come back to it at the end.

it's not a no, which means it's halfway to a yes. 

okay moving on

louis ran me through the schedule that he would think would work, everything looked amazing and it was no surprise that the school keeps him, he's a great teacher. I'll at least give him that.

how does all of that sounds Hazza 

yep that sounds get Lou 

Both of us gave the table a shy smile at the nostalgic nicknames. 

ummm i did want to ask you one more thing before we leave 

okay i should have known this was coming. i love the sound of yoga harry 

I feel there is  a but coming after and that means that you don't really like the idea of it Lou. you know, you could just tell me straight up no. 

i wish he would just be honest with me,  

no no harry  

I honestly don't want to look at him right now. I just want to leave. I know I'm only here because my judge told me so but the first week has not been too bad and the kids seem to at least like me a bit, and louis said he thinks I'm doing an okay job. 

Hazza please listen 

I am still sitting, head hung low hands out in front of me resting tired on the table. I'm also tired of this one way conversation I think.

please Harrys look up please.

Louis' hands reached out to mine, for someone who is quite petite his hands are quite big. I noticed that he had tattoos on them as well, they are quite a bit more noticeable than the collection he had once started when we were younger. i slowly raised my head meeting his eyes

harry i think it's a great idea, i really do, it's obviously help you are... a ummm.. a great dance 

wow did he really have to sound like that was the hardest thing to admit.

I hear you, Harry I just.

he let out a long breathe, 

 I really don't know how Mr Bushell and the other teachers would react, we are the youngest here and most of them are, well, you know, more old-timey in their teaching ways. Maybe we could work something out cause I can tell that you care about it. I really do and I think it will help the students a lot. It's just we need to get approval for that because it's not a part of the curriculum yet.

oh right okay okay.

my head went back to hanging. I really wish this wasn't the case but I know the school board and it's true they probably wouldn't allow it.

wait!

Louis jumped up from his chair due to my sudden outburst causing a giggle to escape my lips. his hands moved from on top of mine and would it be terrible if i said i kind of miss them.

i have an idea  Lou

yes harry 

okay so i know you said that the board wouldn't approve it because they are a bunch of small old minded fucks

louis hand rested on his stomach as he through his head back laughing 

just abbreviating. so we can get them to approve that but what if we i don't know, lie just a little bit.

louis smile turned into a confused and slightly worried expression 

Harry, what do you mean exactly when you say we should lie?

now he looks less confused, and a shit tone worried.

okay well  i am  guess you know why i am here correct

louis replied with a sharp nod his mouth pulled into a thin line, at least he is hearing me out 

okay well how about i say to show the judge that i really am trying my hardest i need to show a wide range of involvement. The judge didn't actually say that but that's not gonna hurt anyone and Mr Bushell does not have access to my file. so we say blah blah blah, obvious involvement, showing i can, i can get no other punishment, blah blah blah. Then BOOM! i will create a club, more specifically, can you guess it, A YOGA CLUB!

louis face is still holding the same expression as when i started my plan 

I  don't know harry, if someone find out that we are lying couldn’t that not, like effect like I don't know your case or something.  You don't want that.

no Lou it is fine it's not even I lie well not totally, the judge did say I have to show up and stuff, so I guess that's close enough.

Louis still looked apprehensive there was only one more thing to do!!! puppy eyes, nickname, and begging, lets just say i know the way to a man's heart, that man being louis Tomlinson, watch this! 

i lower my head looking up through my eyelashes, a slight pout started to form on my lip 

that louis knows exactly what I'm about to do, i look flashes across his face the yelled, don't you fucking dare harry styles. 

Hazza don't

His tone held a strong warning that read, don't you dare go there. I wasn't wearing my glasses. 

please louis please, I'll be good i promise, pretty please 

harry stop it 

no louis please i need it 

Louis started to shift slightly in his seat, to anyone else he would look uncomfortable but i can tell by his slight smirk threatening to break through his lips and his darked eyes, he doesn't actually mind it, at all. 

Louis, please let me do yoga please I need to be more flexible, please Lou just for you I'm doing this to help you.

okay 

I dropped the act straight away.

WAIT REALLY!

yes,  harry okay 

thank you, Lou thank you! I won't let you down, ahh this is going to be so good; the kids are going to love it!

I can feel my face light up just thinking about it.

okay we are going straight home after and I'm cooking you dinner 

oh,  right now

Yes! louis it has gotten late, and I'm hungry 

Louis once again shifts in his seat, oh maybe he likes my show before as much as I remember.

Lou

yes Hazza 

pleasssseee can we go home now so i can start  working on yoga pleaseeee. 

I may or may not have dropped my voice just a tiny bit lower and added a bit more breathiness to it this time. a smirk spread across his face, oh that was not the reaction I was expecting, oh shit what is he gonna do.

Okay, fine princesses whatever you want

Don’t, don’t call me that. I could feel the blush rapidly spread across my once smug checks and my heart quickened. Louis stood up from his side of the booth and swaying his hips gracefully as he made his way over to my side, I followed his every movement with my eyes locked on his. Leaning over to where I was in the corner, while I was trying to get my head rate to slow down. He whispered in my ear

Sorry princesses don’t I wouldn’t want to make you all hot and bothered, well not here at least.

My mouth dropped open as louis winked, laughed and casually said.

Come on you said you would  make me dinner, I feel like chicken!

Then he strutted towards the door in his usual floppy manner while I followed behind him like a lost dog, and who has to know if I once, maybe twice admired the way he looked from behind in his tight black skinny jeans. It was just a joke though. Just a joke, right?

L pov 

Fuck that was hot, good idea i walked out Infront of him, otherwise he would have known just how hot. It's fine that was just us joking, just joking, right?

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LOUIS WAS AT ZAYNS SHOW IM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT. from being in primary school in 2015 finding out zayn was leaving and crying with my friend to 10 years later when THEY ARE HANGING OUT AGAIN. this is amazing so i decided to post a chapter. also the updates might start becoming later but I'm trying. it's my last year of school, I'm very exited. enjoy this chapter, thank you for reading i never thought this would get so much traction, i love you all so much for reading and supporting me, happy reading sweethearts <3

Author to character: 

Hi, I'm your host TJ1D and you are watching me lose my mind, today we will be interviewing louis and harry the two main characters from my fanfiction star struck. Let's get into it! Are u ready for this episode of 28 questions. 

To start off real simple, how are you feeling today?

L answer 

I'm doing alright fanks, I'm doing alright. 

H answer 

Hi, I'm good, thank you for having me. 

Thanks for coming in!

Glad you are both doing alright, the second question for you is how would you describe yourself in 3 words? 

L answer  

Oh shit alright um, caring, sarcastic, and um fuck this is hard. Let's go, teacher, I can't think of anything else.

Good choices

H answer 

Well i guess before anything else I'm a Dancer, i can be a bit indecisive, oh and i'm a romantic. 

We had done personality but how would you also describe yourself if you were a colour?

L answer  

Gonna have to go with something nice like lavendery purple.

H answer 

Oh um maybe… dark blue, I guess?

Okay those are the simple questions lets get into the juicer stuff

L answer

Ha alright. 

Louis how do you currently feel about harry?

I'm not going to lie, I was annoyed when he first came back here, he left me and I honestly didn't want him back, he has been alright lately and the kids seem to really enjoy having him here.

Thanks 

Harry, how do you feel about louis?   

H answer 

Louis is a very kind person, even after everything I did he was still somewhat accommodating to me staying with him and he lets me plan the lessons which I like.

Thank you, so your  accepted having harry back around. Do you like when he cooks for you though louis?

L answer  

Yes , I can't cook for shit and he is surprisingly still good at it.

Seems like you really like louis harry, don't get shy now, do you like cooking for louis?

I, ah, yeah… I really do, I like cooking and I guess it's another way to get closer to Louis again.

Ahhh okay, little bit of bribery there I see, nice one.

If you had to describe the other in 3 words how would you do that?

L answer

Harry is very shy when you really get to know him, he is domestic and a great dancer. I fear he will get mad if I don't add that.

H  answer 

OH… well he's very kind, and patient and he's a very good teacher.

haha , good answer, if you had to describe the other as a colour what would it be and why?

L answer 

Harry is very green, with a splash of pink. I don't know why, but he reminds me of trees with flowers, like jacaranda. Maybe it’s cause he's tall haha.

H answer 

Blue, like his eyes, like an ocean blue, calm, yet strong, something you could get lost in.

wow , okay harry. this is our next question for you what's one regret you have in your life? 

H answer

Letting my dad run my life, he made me lose myself, it also made me lose louis. 

Oh harry i'm so sorry 

no , it's um, it's okay.

L answer 

I know this wasn't my fault, but the accident, I wish I could still dance like I used to.

I am so sorry louis. Damn! I just must bring the mood majorly down, to lighten it up a bit. Who is your favourite person?

L  answer ‘

My family, but outside of that, there is this bartender I met the other week, great lad, awesome artist, his name is zayn, hung out with him last night actually, first new friends i've made in a while.

H pov

Well… I don't know many people because I guess I'm busy a lot, but at the moment it's definitely Liam, he's been a rock for me. 

It's amazing that both of you have nice people around you, your next question is, do you enjoy what you're doing at the moment?

H answer

Ummm… at the start i wasn't, i'm not the biggest fan of kids, just because i don't know how to react around them, and some of them are dirty, i love babies though, they are so cute and tiny. Anyway i'm getting of track, i like being here, it is really nice being back at the place where my career started 

L answer 

Yes, it's not how i thought my life would go but i love it, i'm still close to my family, i get to teach which i love doing, and i don't mind having some company.  

I'm glad both of you are enjoying life at the moment. Through these moments I'm sure you have collected a lot of things and memorabilia. What is your most prized possession?

L pov

My most prized possession, my student, seeing them succeed and be able to make a career out of ballet is the most amazing gift life has given me.

H pov

My journal, I got it after I performed in Paris, with the ballet over there, extremely talented dancers, after I was walking the streets and saw a vendor selling it. I love it so much. 

That's adorable. What's your biggest strength and next your biggest weakness? 

L pov

My biggest weakness is my stubbornness. My biggest strength is, i don't know actually, haven't thought about this, i'll have to go my resilience.

H pov 

My biggest weakness is I can't stand up for myself, especially when it comes to my father. My biggest strength is my flexibility paired with my strength in my movements, I think, that's what makes me a good dancer. 

Thank you. Our net question isssss…do you have a favourite quote?

H answer 

Oh yes, it's written on the inside of my journal, “work hard. play hard. be kind.”

L answer 

“Live life for the moment because everything else is uncertain” . It's a quote I heard once, I don't remember from who, but I think I live my life by that in a way.

Both of those are great, what is something that makes you smile? 

L answer 

In my personal life, my family and friends, at school, whenever the kids finally understand a step or movement, they are working so hard on, their faces light up and it's truly a beautiful moment to see.

H pov 

Ummm I like to dance of course, oh! And baking and photography!

Talking about making you smile, does your current situation/ living situation make you smile or frown? 

L answer 

I don't mind living with Harry, it was a bit awkward at the start because of the whole, well you know, him dumping me years back, it's fine now, and I get dinners out of it which is a plus always!

H pov

I like it, even though I guess it does count as my punishment, I like it. Louis is really nice even considering our history and it's been nice helping the kids for the last week. 

If your life was different what would you be doing at the moment? 

L pov

I don't like to think about that, i like what i am doing, but i guess i would still be dancing 

H pov

Oh i've never been allowed to think about that, it's only ballet for me 

Oh alright.

Let's get into some fun questions now. What's your idea of the perfect date? 

L answer 

I think it depends on the person. It has to be something that we both enjoy doing. I would like food involved, but I hate the movie date thing. I want to get to know the person, and spend time with them, especially on the first date.

H answer 

I don't really get to think about that either, but I think something private, so we can know each other. I would also like to cook for them, I like doing that for others.

Oh! I find it funny both of you don't know each other's answer. Let's get into some easier questions, quick fire round GO! Are you a day or night person?

L and H answer 

Night 

Favourite food?

L answer 

Anything i don't have to make, but pasta is one of my favourites, burgers as well  

H answer 

TACOS 

Do you have any pet peeves?

L answer 

Table manners, mind yor manners around a table man, stop eating with your mouth open, fucking pisses me off 

H answer 

People who spit… sorry haha, like spit on the road, or footpath, it's disgusting, just rude. 

Do you sing in the shower?

L answer 

Sometimes 

H answer

HA! yes 

Blushing just a bit there Harry. What's your favourite song? 

H answer 

I love all songs by fleetwood mac, i also don't mind a bit of miley cyrus, but i'll listen to anything 

L answer 

Oh, anything by oasis man.

Do you have any pets? 

L answer 

I got a dog at me mums house 

H answer 

No i would love a dog though 

Do you have siblings? 

L answer 

Yes, there are 7 of us including me, i know it's a lot, love them though.

H pov 

Yes, my sister gemma.

For our last few questions today we are going to dig just a bit deeper okay, first question is, what was the first thing you noticed about the other one?

L answer 

haha , alright, at first i didn't like him, thought he was a bit of a posh ballet boy, pissed me off for the first little while, but he ended up by towards the end of the first day being quite nice, though i think the first thing i noticed before we interacted, was his hair, he's a bit of a curly sue. 

H answer 

Oh that is the easiest question, his eyes, have you ever looked at them, like really really looked at them, it's truly the most magnificent colour i think i have ever seen. I haven't and don't think I will ever meet anyone with such gorgeous eyes, they just captivated me, and then he talked and I thought he was just a simple football lad haha. Just a football lad with beautiful beautiful eyes. 

Yes Harry, I have definitely seen his eyes, they are the most gorgeous pieces of art that I think will ever exist, and based off the answer from both of you on our  last questions, I think it's safe to ask, do you like the other one?

H pov

Yes , I will always like Louis, I will even always love him, he was my first love and helped me get through my ballet school years,  and for that I will forever be so so grateful especially for Mr Bushell saw the potential in him. I know i hurt him by leaving and dumping him because of my father, but yes i will always love louis, what is not to love 

L pov 

Even though he hurt me more than I think anyone has ever hurt me before, yes I like Harry, I think I acted like he didn't while he was away because it was easier. Easier to pretend I think he is just high and mighty, and a popstar ballet brat, because it was easier to pretend I didn't care than have to face the music and act like I care about him as much as I do. So yes i like him, i think down in my heart i will always love him, he was my first love, we grew up together, and i'm glad we have got to reconcile, at the same time, it's not the same. Yet i'm glad he is back here, i missed him. 

Thank you very much. I have one last question for you before I presume the chapters. Did you enjoy your interview today 

L answer 

Yeah it helped me figure out some stuff I was confused about. It was als fun 

H answer 

Yeah it definitely gave me some things to think about. 

Well once again thank you so much for answering my questions today and letting me pick at your little character brain. I've been your host TJ1D and you just watched 28 questions with harry styles and louis tomlinson, the characters from my fanfic star struck