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Tommy has already started spiraling in exile but it reached its climax after a few months of his revival, he was left to wallow in his own misery and trauma. He was left alone by everyone and everything, nobody there to put him back on his feet, just him slowly losing his mind from the loneliness and the thought of finally like a broken toy being tossed aside. 

He was replaced with ranboo, and he truly wanted to be angry at the enderman. He truly did but ranboo never did anything wrong he didn‘t realize that he was Tommy‘s replacement. 

Tommy is nothing more than a child, a traumatized one at that. Tho everyone seems to think other wise, to some he‘s almost as a hero, destined to a tragic fate or a villain that burned down their world in flash just for his own enjoyment, who ruined everything and anything in his path, like a blazing wild fire anything but a child who made mistakes. 

But now Tommy himself doesn‘t see himself as a person or a child, only a sacrifice. So he gets his sword and while on his knees he pointed it at himself the same way Phil did to his brother, Wilton, to make a similar wound to ghoston's. Tommy smiled with teary eyes. Tommy knew dream couldn‘t revive him this time as he didn‘thave his body. 

He smiles sending the last message from him in chat, with a smile he looks up into the sky with his last words to the world ”let them be free from the mud on their shoes that is me and may I finally be at peace“soon a sharp diamond blade went through the blonds body as he spat out blood from his mouth.

 Tommy smiled now falling on his side while laying in his own red,warm blood he knew that this was the end of Tommyinnit the last thing he did was to sacrifice himself for a peaceful death for himself and life for the others. 

Soon everyone got 2 pings that a new message came into chat both from Tommy, at first they were not going to read them until they saw a second message now reading both. 

Tommyinnit:”goodbye dear friends, I guess it was never meant to be?“
Tommyinnit was impaled by tommyinnit

That day everyone lost something they never really treasured, at first they didn‘t care but now they realize Tommy wasn‘t coming back.

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It‘s been a year since Tommy killed himself, many went through grief in the months to follow after his death, most would see ranboo trying to do anything, trying to find a ritual to bring back Tommy, bargaining with themselves that what if they does something maybe they could bring back their friend.

Tubbo didn‘t believe Tommy was death for the longest time. He was so deep in denial it took him 7 months to realize Tommy isn‘t coming back the rest of the stages quickly flew after.

Phil didn‘t leave his home for Tommy‘s funeral, he didn‘t talk to anyone but techno and it was barely a sentence.

Barely even leaving his room just to eat.

Technoblade was angry, at himself mostly of course. He was a horrible brother to Tommy and truly a horrible person, he had a short temper for a bit where he wasn‘t as calm as before.

To the other dsmp members it took only a few months to get to the acceptance stage of grief. Of course when everyone finally reached it, everyone felt a numbness to themselves. It felt weird not to hear a joyish laughter or silly insults around them anymore. It was very quiet.

Most of the smp's members agreed to open up the smp's borders for people to visit so it wouldn‘t be as silent as it was. Of course it would have never helped fully because Tommy was such an important piece of the smp.

Today was the week of the day Tommy passed, the smp decided that on Tommy‘s birthday and on the week he passed away they would celebrate his life, it was mostly tubbo's idea but nobody disagreed with him.

And today was the 3th day of the celebration, in the few days many people that used to know Tommy from before and many of the thousands residents of the smp came by to help and to relive memories of the boy.

Tubbo was out of the smp to collect some materials that they have ran out, tubbo walked around the forest he was in then turned a corner of trees he heard giggling then he noticed a bit further away a figure with a cow licking their face.

”holly stop it! Hey I said stop licking my face, it‘s fucking gross“ the figure wore a dark blue cloak with golden details of flowers and a pair of red horns stick out of the hood and a red tail wagging while the cow just pushed it‘s face into the person‘s cheek.

Tubbo decided to shout at them since his curiousity got the better of them ”Hey! You with the cow!“ the figure turn around to reveal golden curls with slight white strands placed in the head of hair, sapphire blue eyes that are so very bright, there were a few freckles scattered around the boys face and a scar on his nose.

Tubbo froze instantly at the boy who looked like a happier and less scarred version of his Tommy. The boy smiled brightly and stood up coming over to tubbo, the cow following right after the boy.

”hello! Nice to meet you my name is Theo, the awesomest person ever“ The cow sat down as it waited for the other boy to speak while Theo held his hand out to have a handshake. Tubbo stood there, still in shock at seeing quite literally another version of Tommy. The boy tilted his head at seeing the shock expression.

”You good?“ tubbo tried to speak but wasn‘t able to. Theo frowned before he started just to walk away, with the cow, holly following him while Theo talked to her.

Tubbo didn‘t notice that tears ran down his cheeks as he watched the boy disappear from sight. When he felt the tears he touched them with the top of his finger.

Tubbo started to walk back to the smp looking like a mixture of sadness and numbness.

Ranboo noticed this when he saw his husband like that they quickly rushed to him and started comforting the ram hybrid. Tubbo just broke down to sobs and hiccups, ranboo led him home.

2 days after the incident, ranboo informed everyone that tubbo isn‘t feeling well so he won‘t be around much. the others agreed to give him some space, not wanting to go and make him feel worse.

While Sam was walking by the border of the server land he heard a very faint strumming of guitar and singing. He decided to check it out to see who it could be. After a 10 minute walk he saw something that wasn‘t possible.

A boy that looked so unnervingly like Tommy but with the red horns and tail of a devil.

The boy sang happily while a cow next him muzzled her snout into his side.

„They all laughed as he turned around slow.“

„They said you ain‘t welcome around here anymore.“

„You just might as well go“

The music was calm ish. While the boy continued singing.

„he wiped the blood from his face as he slowly came to his knees,“

„He said I‘ll be back when you least expect it“

„And Hell‘s coming with me“

„And Hell‘s coming with me“

The boy didn‘t sing for a bit as he continued playing the music on the guitar in the same pace, before he started playing it faster and it sounded more energetic.

„There is a hill at the bottom of the valley“

The boy‘s voice was more ruff, and loud but he kept the smile

„Where all the poor souls go when they die“

„And if you listen real close, you can hear em' like a ghost“

„saying you‘re never gonna make it out alive“

Sam continued to stare in shock at the Tommy look a like singing.

„There is a town at the bottom of that hill“

„they got a secret that they keep like a slave“

„They got a black magic preacher, we‘d do well to let him teach ya“

„or you‘ll be heading up that hill to the grave“

The boy took a quick breath before continuing.

„And it is well with my soul“

„You line your pockets full of money that you steal from the poor“

„and on your way down the hill, you hear me ring that bell“

„I‘d pay the devil twice as much to keep your soul“

The boy stopped singing and just continued strumming the guitar. Sam stood out of sight now slowly walking towards him and hiding behind a tree.

„There was a drifter passing through that little Valley“

„See he had promised he was coming back to town“

„they didn‘t know him by his face or by the gun around his waist“

„but he‘d come back to burn that town to the ground“

The cow‘s head was on the boy‘s lap now while the blond sang loudly.

„First there was fire, then there was smoke“

„then that preacher was hangin' by a rope“

„And then they all fell to their knees“

„And begged that drifter begged him please“

„As he raised his fist before he spoke „

The boy raised his head and tail as he sang while Sam watched this in horror and awed at seeing the boy who looks like the boy he thought of as a son. The demon hybrid's voice sounded like when at first he started singing in this tempo.

„I am the righteous hand of God“

„I am the devil that you forgot“

„and I told you one day you will see, that I‘ll be back I guarantee“

„That Hell‘s coming with me, Hell‘s coming,hell“

„Hell‘s coming with me“

The boy stopped singing as he played the seemingly old guitar, Sam saw the cow lift it‘s head up to look at the boy while he just smiled before singing once more.

„And it is well, with my soul.“

„You line your pockets full of money that you steal from the poor“

„And on your way down the hill, you hear me ring that bell and I said“

„Hell‘s coming with me“

The boy held up his fist as he stopped playing the guitar ”wo!“

The cow mooed at the same time as the blonde, he smiled, laughing and stood up,bowing for the cow”thank you, thank you dear holly for your wonderful timing“ the cow just laid it‘s head on the green grass.

Sam walked up to the boy tapping his shoulder still very much in shock, the boy jumped and shrieked before he just looked pissed off ”hey dude, don‘t fucking go sneaking up on people, you almost gave me a heart attack!“ Sam stayed quiet for a few seconds thinking on what to do.

”I‘m sorry kid, my name is Sam, how ’bout you?“ the boy still looked upset but smiled ”first I am no kid, and second my name is Theo, the great.“

Sam chuckled slightly at this, okay this boy was way to similar to Tommy in looks and personality

”that‘s your full name or something?“

The boy shook his head with a pride smile and tone ”no it‘s Theo ruby Icarus Starlight“ Sam hummed and noticed the cow now being at the boy‘s side, Theo giggled the cow just licking his hand while he petted it.

”so what are you doing so far away, last I know the server were near is quite far away from any other server.“

Theo proudly had his hands on his hips ”I‘m a traveler, and I‘d say a damm good one, right holly?“ the cow just looked at him before mooing, Theo sputtered in offense.

”hey! That‘s fucking rude, holly we both know I‘m a good traveler.“ Holly just nudged her head to his side as Theo rolled his eyes, lightly waging his tail. ”anyhow, nice to meet ya mister sam. Oh! Btw do you know any place to stay for like two or three emeralds that allows cows, I need some times to prepare for my next adventure but sadly I don‘t have much on me right now“

Sam smiled, ruffling the boy‘s hair as he scrunched his face up. Sam heard of reincarnation maybe this boy is the prove. Tho he looked about the same age as Tommy. ”you can stay with if you want, I have enough space for you and holly was her name?“ Theo‘s eyes lit up ”holly is her name, and are you really letting me stay?! Most just call me a nuisance and shoo me away.“

Sam smiled ”yeah you can stay as long as you need.“ The boy smiled, pulling out of his bag hidden by the blue cloak a paper with an ’I own u’

”here, I would rather not have you being scammed, and there‘s no buts in this. Now lead the way, boss“

Sam lead the boy, who mid way decided that holly is faster than him and decided to ride her to the server who seemed in awe by everything.

Tho still very much excited telling Sam about his travels until they heard a gasp in front of them ”ranboo” Sam smiled while the enderman hybrid looked at Theo and Sam.

Theo smiled happily with a small wave ”‘ello! My name is Theo, this is holly“ holly when her name was mentioned mooed. Ranboo continued to stare before running off leaving a confused Theo and Sam who knew that ranboo is going to tell everyone about the boy who looks exactly like Tommy just without the scars, but with two red horns and a red tail.

”what was that about?“ Theo looked at Sam who just laughed and led Theo to his house.

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Tommy sat in a void, this one being very different than the last one. This void felt calm, it felt nice and it was all a pure white. Tommy didn‘t move much since he arrived he didn‘t want to because maybe he gets to stay here for a bit longer, maybe this is where he permanently stays. 

Of course like the last void it‘s mostly empty, but Tommy isn‘t alone. When he died he had developed somethings, voices. They aren‘t like techno's, screaming for blood and violence. They chat with him, tell him stories, give comfort and answers when he panics, they‘re just nice and comforting. Yes most of the times they‘re chaotic, annoying and mischievous but don‘t plan on hurting people. 

The blonde doesn‘t know how long he sat in this void of white. He thinks about a week or so, maybe more. 
The voices or well chat/inniters were just chatting with each other while he tried to sleep. 

Nap time baby! 
Sleepyinnit
I‘m Booooooored, 
Bye inniters! 
e/rainbowchat
e/hidechat

Tommy hummed slightly, before feeling a weird pull. He remembers feeling something like this befor- IS HE FUCKING GETTING REVIVED?! Chat went crazy as Tommy stood up, these strings felt different from dream, they glowed a bright purple. 

Oi what??? 
EEguwlafyckkkk
NOT AGAIN!
Reviveinnit  2.0?! 
..... Shit
Jump in the catalak, we‘re getting revived BITCH!!. 
Reviveinnit

Soon Tommy opens his eyes confused, he sat up muttering ”what the fuck?“ he looks around, is he back from the death? Tommy‘s lying in a field of grass with  hyacinths, daffodils, yellow roses and daisies. 

Tommy felt weirdly healthy? He looked at his arms that missed a large amount of scars. Chat seemed to realize what happened. 

Oooooooh shit. 
We‘re so back! 
Revival? I think not!!! 
REINCARNATEINNIT! Poooog
What are we supposed to do now!? 

Huh? Reincarnation? Maybe that‘s what happened to him? Tommy quickly notices a small pond near by and rushed to see his reflection. Soon enough he sees his new body? 

He looks oddly similar to his old body, this one just had devil horns and tail, barely any scars just a few scratches on his knees and shoulders, and the one bigger scar on his nose. Tommy‘s hair didn‘t have the white strand of hair anymore and he had a few freckles scattered around his face. 

He realized he wore a comfy blue cloak, flowers embroidered in the cloak. The black and yellow striped shirt reminded him of a bumblebee. 
He as well noticed the brown bag with flower prints besides him. His shoes were comfy red sneakers and his shorts had to do of pockets. 
”this is so fucking weird, man.“

Theoinnit
Theoinnit
Theoinnit
Theoinnit
New skin unlock!! 
Wait so is this just a start of a new arc, fuck yes, Theoinnit! 

Tommy huffed at chat ”if this is a new arc then I can‘t just have my first name changed and leave the last one.“ Chat chittered in agreement before Tommy exclaimed proudly ”well I think my name will be Theo ruby Icarus Starlight!“ 
That got chat to shut up instantly, did Tommy actually get rid of them this time? 

Nah, we‘re not leaving. 
That‘s the worst name ever! 
I‘m not even surprised anymore
Shit name. 

Tommy could have only hoped that they wouldn‘t say that. ”hey! It‘s my name so I get to choose it, dumbasses”

Nuh uh
Well baby‘s don‘t chose their name so
It‘s dumb
That‘s not very pog Mr innit!
Are we still aloud to call you Tommy or? 

Tommy sighed ”yes you can call me Tommy, but I‘m Theo to everyone else okay?“ chat chittered a bit. Before he thought of something ”hey chat? I never asked you in the void but do you have a material form or you all are just a whole ass bunch of annoying voices?“

Hey we‘re not annoying you‘re annoying! 
We do we do
...first we‘re not annoying and we do
Eeeeeeeeeeee
We‘re fucking sparkles/mini stars, bitch! 

Tommy nodded, so his chat is just sparkles/miniature stars. Cool, very pog definitely not the weirdest shit he‘s heard since he just gotten reincarnated. ”alrighty then, let‘s go exploring or shit.“
Well then Tommy‘s or well Theo‘s adventures begin. 

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Okay Tommy knows it‘s stupid to accept living with Sam. But listen, the only things keeping him company is holly who is a very sassy cow and the voices just screaming at him. He knows he practically could get himself retraumatized, but he has been traveling for like a year now and he just needs some rest. He‘s going to leave when he is able. 

He doesn‘t need to interact with the others except for Sam, so he can happily ignore them. Well not really since ranboo probably told everyone about him, well Theo since he isn‘t exactly Tommy anymore. 

Tommy is just hoping they won‘t go seek him out, he knows how to act if he does bump into them. Aka just be confused as fuck and shit but he does not want to deal with that shit. he hopes it doesn‘t happen while he‘s in Sam‘s backyard playing with holly. 

Chat have been bumbling about stupid things or just being chat. 
So what if we commit ✦treason✦
No, no treason, treason bad
Why do wasp exist, they‘re horrible demon spawns
Pooooooooooog
*unhinged screeching*

Tommy continued to brush Holly‘s fur. Chat had been way more... Chaotic than usual? Well he can‘t really do anything, besides its more entertaining for him when he‘s bored. 

He brushed the dried mud off Holly‘s brown fur, for some reason holly just wants to annoy him. ”holly stop going into mud, I can‘t keep cleaning your fur every day.“ The cow mooed, either smugly or happily.

Tommy huffed out an unamused laugh after getting the last piece of dirt. He stood up and cleaned off his cloak while holly just stared at something behind him. He looked behind him and saw tubbo, the only thing tommy could think was ’well shit’

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Tubbo stood face to face with Tommy‘s lookalike, it was weird and fucking nauseating in tubbo's opinion. Seeing someone who looks exactly like your death best friend isn‘t something nice. The blonde just looked at him with a tilt of his head, wearing a confused smile.

”oh hello! You‘re the person I saw at the forest right?“ theo was his name if tubbo remembered correctly, walked over to him while the cow followed behind him. Tubbo gathered all his might and nodded ”y-yes, I am. My name is tubbo, yours is Theo, correct?“

The blonde nodded, the cow sitting down besides him

”correct! I am the great Theo and this is my best friend, Holly the cow.“ Theo pointed at ’Holly’ who mooed when her name was mentioned.

Tubbo nodded, almost on the verge of tears. He couldn‘t handle another second so he turned around and left, not knowing that when he left Theo slumped down in relief.

Tommy is glad to say the least of not having a longer interaction with tubbo, he felt a little bad for lying but he can‘t have his second chance taking away.

He got better in the white void, not fully okay but not wanting to die again after being reincarnated was a good sign of getting a tiny bit better.

But he really should be more careful of not being out in the open. Ranboo, tubbo and Sam have already seen him, tho have to yet to figure out who he really was.

Chat just continued to chatter

Tubbee sadd, noooo :(

Nooo! Clingy duo my beloved

...........This is depressing

Chat isn‘t wrong, this is a bit sad in Tommy‘s own big man opinion. A sad sight indeed

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A week has passed since that day Tommy saw tubbo, he tried his best to hide and not get caught by anyone else, and he succeeded on doing so. 

Tommy started already drawing plans on where to go and how to leave without being noticed, he looked at his map looking for a village further away from the smp. He could work from some villagers for emeralds so he could afford supplies. 

He quickly noticed a villager on the map that would be about a week away from the smp. This could work, this village is far enough for him to get there safely and not be immediately tracked down, and as well be able to do some jobs for emeralds. 

He left the room he was in, he walked out to the backyard of Sam‘s house to see Holly licking the fence. Tommy blinked slightly at seeing his friend doing that shit. Chat is as well as surprised as he is. Holly after seeing tommy just prances over to him and licks his face, leaving Tommy‘s front hair up. 

The blonde smiled and hugged the cow, burying his head in her fur. ”hi Holly.“ The voices cooed at the soft sight

SOFTINNIT
Awwwwwwww
Fluff time
No angst today, only fluff with Holly
Poggers

Tommy chuckled at hearing them, Holly was practically his comfort cow or something like that shit. When Holly decided to lay down Tommy laid down as well. He used Holly as a pillow while he covered himself with the cloak like a blanket. Soon enough Tommy fell into a hazy cloud of unconsciousness. 

When he woke up it was still light out, tho the sun was setting and it would soon dark out. Tommy slowly sat up and stretched his arms. Holly woke up after feeling that Tommy moved, she looked up at Tommy before going back to sleep. 

He smiled then stood up glancing at the orange and red hue casting over the land from the sun setting. He frowned a bit at how the sun was already starting to go away, like he hadn‘t spent most of the day outside besides going for a nap and looking for a village on his map. 

He walked back into Sam‘s house to go get ready for bed and think of how to leave before it‘s to late. 

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Hi guys, so I will not be continuing this fic, I might do it in the very far future, but currently this is where the fic will stay unfinished since I have no idea how to like continue it, sorry about that. :[