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1. not a star i see (it’s always you) by dprkives

   Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   15 Jul 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell
   • Phil Lester
   • Anthony Padilla
   • Dodie Clark
   • PJ Liguori
   • Sophie Newton
   • Charlotte McDonnell
   • Alternate Universe - 1920s
   • Freeform
   • Original Character(s)
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Rating May Change
   • Tags May Change
   • Warnings May Change
   • Post-World War I
   • Class Differences
   • Period Typical Attitudes
   • Jazz Age
   • i just really fucking love jazz
   • dan is a pianist
   • Smut
   • I tried to make it not horny but i failed sorry
   • Alcohol
   • Smoking
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • it's not all angsty i promise it's also like cute
   • (largely) no beta we die like phil’s entire family

   Summary

   Phil Lester returned from the Great War to find the London he knew in ruins. His family gone, his home lost, and society indifferent to his bravery. Drifting from shelter to shelter, with nothing but a box of old letters, medals and a past he can’t outrun, Phil’s life is quietly crumbling. Until one snowy night, a jazz club door opens to him. And with it, the enigmatic pianist Daniel Howell.

   Dan is everything Phil isn’t: charming, confident, famous. But behind that polished façade lies something— something that Phil cannot quite grasp. But he can’t seem to keep away from the other, wanting, needing to know more about him.

   As their paths cross and their lives become increasingly entangled, Phil begins to hope—foolishly—that maybe some dreams aren’t so impossible after all.

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   English

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