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09/13/11

8:45 AM

Finn Hudson and (Unknown Number)’s  Messages:

Finn: who is this?

Unknown Number: Shit, sorry, wrong number.

Finn: hello?

Unknown Number: This is Jesse, by the way 

Finn: Jesse as in Jesse St. Caramel High or whatever your last name is?

Unknown Number: yeah. And it’s “St. James” not Caramel High

Finn: well excuse me for not remembering. Shit, sorry. How um, have you been, Jesse?

Unknown Number: I’ve been doing okay. Vocal Adrenaline sucks but it’s whatever.

Finn: The New Directions suck too. Both our glee clubs can suck together 

Unknown Number: yeah, sure.

Finn renamed Unknown Number to “Jesse St. James”

Jesse: you’re probably busy, which means that I should go.

Finn: what if we met up at the Lima Bean sometime this weekend?

Jesse: I mean, I could try and see what I can do. Don’t give your hopes up…who is this?

Finn: oh, this is Finn Hudson.

Jesse: Rachel’s ex that suffered through too much from her, great. Well it was nice chatting with you, Finn.

Finn: yeah, you too, Jess.

09/13/11

8:59 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Dancing Chang: why isn’t Rachel lecturing us right now?

Tina: I don’t know

Mercedes: don’t jinx it, Mike 

Auntie Snixx: it is 9:03 on a Tuesday morning, disrespectfully shut the fuck up.

Tina: ugggghhhhh

Brittany: she had a test in first period so Santana’s cranky

Auntie Snixx: Britt’s the only one who gets me.

The rest of yall are fucking haters

QuinnFabray: no you hate everyone

Auntie Snixx: I hope you fail your next quiz so you don’t go to Yale, Lucy

QuinnFabray: don’t call me that 

Finn: guys, shut up please

before Rachel lectures us

Brittany: :(

Finn: it’s okay, Brittany

Brittany: no because Rachel needs to know not everything is about her

Auntie Snixx: don’t talk to my girlfriend, Finley

Finn: don’t deadname me <3

Auntie Snixx: I hate you and I hate your guts.

i only like your mom and step dad and Kurt

youre just weird <3

Finn: shutting my phone off now

Kurt: I swear on my mom’s grave why the fuck are you guys arguing at 9:15 in the morning.

i can’t with you idiots

except for the gay people

Blaine: he choked on air after typing that out 

Auntie Snixx: hobbit <3

Blaine: STOP IT. I’m taller than you :(

Kurt: I hope that everyone is aware that I don’t even care anymore

shit, Sam choked on his water

fucking idiot

Samuel: I hate you

Kurt: I hate you too <3

Samuel: at least I know how to fucking breathe properly <3

Blaine: he can he just refuses to 

Kurt: shut UP

09/13/11

10:15 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Finn: and if I wanted to skip biology would you encourage it?

Jesse: I would encourage it

why, who’s in your class?

Finn: my stepbrother’s boyfriend, Quinn, Santana AND Brittany, and then my blonde best friend Sam Evans

Jesse: don’t tell Kurt this but I forgot he was gay for a hot minute

Finn: LMAO?

Jesse: it’s top secret though, so don’t tell him.

Finn: okay

Jesse: you still don’t like his boyfriend do you?

Finn: it’s not that I don’t, it’s just that he overgels (which is gross), transferred from a private school, and he’s short and talented

probably more talented than myself

Jesse: Finn, when I was at McKinley, you were the most talented in Glee Club; even more than Rachel.

so don’t worry, you’ll see it soon enough.

Finn: I guess you’re right. 

Jesse: I always am 

Finn: but should I skip bio?

Jesse: I can meet you at the Lima Bean if you do?

Finn: okay

Jesse: I’ll leave in 5

Finn: sounds good, I’ll be there in 10

Jesse: awesome :)

09/13/11

10:35 AM

Santana Lopez’s and Finn Hudson’s Messages:

Santana: where the hell are you, stupid?

Finn

Finn

Finn

Finn

Finley Hudson

Finn 
Finn
Finn

Finn

Finleyyyyyyyy

never mind, fuck you

no actually, who were you texting?

finn

finn

finn

finn

finn

finley

finn

finn

finn

finn

finley hudson

i hope you’re not skipping

yeah never fucking mind giant

<3

09/13/11

10:50 AM

Kurt Hummel and Finn Hudson’s Messages:

Kurt: santana told me your ass is skipping

its not my fault you have issues with my boyfriend

bitch

finn fucking answer your texts

i swear on my mom’s grave

i hate you

i should be an only child

and WHO the fuck were you texting?

finnnnnnnnn

finny

finn i’ll never let Santana deadname u again

ur phone’s dead, isn’t it

or on dnd

i hate you

in a brotherly way though

have fun failing <3

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09/16/11

4:30AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Kurt: someone tell me why Finn JUST came home 

Auntie Snixx: it’s 4:30 am go. the. fuck. to. sleep.

Kurt: my alarm went off already <3

QuinnFabray: Jesus Christ 

Kurt: living off an hour of sleep 

can’t wait to get yelled at by my boyfriend in the morning because my sleep schedule is fucked 

Auntie Snixx: Kurt I swear to god

Kurt: Finn, who did you just get off the phone with?

Finn: none of your business…?

Kurt: bitch

QuinnFabray: I’m assuming Rachel 

and that’s who he’s been texting

Blaine: it’s 4:46 AM why are you guys awake?

Kurt: I couldn’t sleep <3

Blaine: oh my god

Samuel: go to sleep

Kurt: I’ve tried

living off the one hour of sleep I’ve already got

Blaine: that’s not okay though 

Kurt: I know, I’m just refusing to attempt to get more sleep 

and my alarm went off at 4:15 so why even try

Auntie Snixx: suffer then idk

im going back to bed

good fucking night

09/16/11

8:28 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Finn: goooooood morning I’ve been up since 4:30

Jesse: lol why?

Finn: I tried going to sleep after our call last night but my brother was already up and had been since 4:15 or something

its confusing

but I’m doing good!

Jesse: well, it’s good that you’re doing good.

always happy to know that

Finn: well yes!

and how are YOU doing?

Jesse: I’m doing good too

working after rehearsal

then probably taking a week long nap :)

Finn: honest to god that’s the thing I need

or caffeine

i can’t tell

Jesse: ah

well

glad to know that

Finn: I just don’t get WHY I’m so tired

maybe it’s because of my lack of sleep since we started talking

Jesse: Finn

are you trying to blame ME for your tiredness?

because that’s what it sounds like AND if you were, it’s a you problem.

Finn: uuuuuuggggggghhhhhhh

i hate you

now I know why Rachel and you broke up

she hates you

Jesse: no <3

i egged her

stupid 

Finn: shut up

respectfully 

but

no

Jesse: you’re insane

actually insane

Finn: well

yeah

so

Jesse: so?

Finn: idk

Jesse: okay?

Finn: yeah

09/16/11

12:03 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: no because seriously

who the fuck is finley talking to

Finn: stop DEADNAMING me

Blaine: then who are you talking to

Finn: rachel

Kurt: Finn Hudson

what the fuck?

Finn: you guys don’t and won’t get it

especially those that are gay

Auntie Snixx: istg

Finn: no hate I’m just saying

Kurt: then stop “just saying”

dumbass

Finn: no <3

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09/19/11

2:30PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: straight people are still legal?

Brittany: unfortunately 

We couldn’t get the money to make them illegal

we tried to though 

Mercedes: Britt?

Brittany: it was a sad day when we lost

Tina: Santana come get your girl istg

Auntie Snixx: we’ve been over this convo

and unfortunately 

you can’t get rid of the straights </3

QuinnFabray: oh my god

all of you shut up 

please

Rachel: you can’t try and make heterosexual people illegal, Brittany

And even you thinking so is rude

Samuel: I swear on Kurt’s mom’s grave

nobody gives a fuck

also why are you CONSTANTLY texting finn?

Rachel: what?

Samuel: yeah

because Finn’s been weird lately and he said he’s been texting and calling you

so

Rachel: none of that is true!

finn hasn’t reached out in months

we’re all aware of this

Kurt: you’re no fun

i hope you know that

Rachel: the feelings mutual

Kurt: you suck

nobody likes you

either say that Finn’s reconnected or don’t

just stop

Rachel: Finn hasn’t texted me in MONTHS

Samuel: UGH

09/19/11

3:45 PM

Finn Hudson and Samuel Evans’ Messages:

Samuel: be fr

because Rachel’s being Rachel

are you guys talking again?

Finn: I’m at the Lima Bean

Samuel: yeah, Kurt’s tracking your location

he’s a stalker but in a useful way

Finn: tell him to stop being a pest???

Samuel: answer the question and MAYBE I will

Finn: oh my god. okay well, I’m not back with rachel

and I couldn’t if my life depended on it

i dont need her anymore

Samuel: dude

kurt’s gonna be hella pissed if he doesn’t know

Finn: and I don’t care

Samuel: does this have to do with something I don’t know?

because you’re trans and santana’s deadnaming you all the freaking time

Dude

finn 

Is there something that you know that we don’t

Finn: why would it matter?

it’s not like you’d be able to help

you don’t even know this person.

Samuel: oh my LORD

okay

love you

Finn: love you too

09/19/11

5:30PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Finn: thanks again for the coffee

I enjoyed it

Jesse: you’re welcome

im glad

Finn: sorry if I was being weird earlier

stuff’s going down with the NDs and they’re all being weird

and saying that I’M being weird

Jesse: why would they say that?

Finn: because- well, I can’t really tell them that I’m back in contact with you because they’re all assuming I’m back with Rachel.

its really weird 

and I don’t like her in that way anymore.

Jesse: Finn

im going to hold your hands when I say this

ignore them.

they don’t get it, and they don’t get you either.

it’ll probably never change but that’s okay.

okay?

Finn: yeah

i guess you’re right.

thank you Jesse

you’re a good person when you’re not spying on us

Jesse: of course

<3

Finn: <3

Finn Hudson’s most recent searches:

Why am I reconnecting with my team’s enemy?

Why does this guy make me feel better about myself?

Would a guy stop talking to me if I told him I’m trans?

Am I in the wrong for talking to him as if he’s a friend?

When you converse daily, would he get suspicious?

I’m straight but this guy makes me feel something different

Is it gay if he orders my coffee and pays every time we hang out?

What if I’m gay?

If I take his compliments and he takes mine, is it a sign?

Delete Search History?

[Yes] No

Finn lays on his bed, his eyes fixed to the ceiling above him. He sighs deeply, trying to calm himself down.

None of those things he searched up were weird right? He was just curious.

If anyone asks him anything about it, he could just laugh awkwardly and hesitantly say it’s for a school project.

He then puts his pillow over his face, screaming quietly into it.

These aren’t normal things, Finn thinks.You  have a gay brother that you can also talk to about this. 

“Just don’t say Jesse St. James.” He tells himself.

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09/21/11

11:25 PM

Finn Hudson and Kurt Hummel’s messages:

Finn: just got home 

Kurt: go to fucking sleep

im not doing this tn

dumbass

Finn: I have a question

Kurt: answer tmrw, too tired

Finn: UGH

Kurt: not my fault

bitch

Finn: i hate you

Kurt: I know

good night 

finley

Finn: STOP

09/22/11

7:14 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Brittany: good morning to everyone 

especially Santana

ilysm Santana <3

Auntie Snixx: I love you mostest, Brittsy

Kurt: gay

Auntie Snixx: i hate you

Kurt: okay

so does everyone else

youre not special

Auntie Snixx: die

Kurt: no <3

Finn: guys

i havent been very honest lately

but

Samuel: you’re gay?

Finn: I’m bi

so

dont hate me please

Kurt: congragufuckinglations <3

ilysm finn

Finn: ily2 lil bro

Kurt: I take that back

because I’m older

and you continue calling me “little brother”

fuck you

<3

Finn: bitch

can I add someone here?

Samuel: YES

Finn Hudson added Jesse St. James to the chat

Kurt: EW

I mean

hi Jesse st. Sucks <3

Jesse: I do not miss you

Kurt: die

you should probably

most likely

get out while you can

Jesse: no I don’t think I will

Kurt: I hate you 

Jesse: well at least I’m not gay <3

Auntie Snixx: wait a damn minute

is THIS the bitch Finley’s been texting 24/7?

Finn, honey, you could do SO much better 

Finn: stop it, Santana

be nice

Auntie Snixx: “nice” isn’t in my list of vocab 

Finn: I hate you 

Auntie Snixx: hate you more bitch

09/22/11

10:37 AM

Finn Hudson and Kurt Hummel’s messages:

Finn: so

Kurt: no

Finn: c’mon dude

Kurt: no YOU come on, Finn

fucking IDIOT

Finn: so you’re mad?

Kurt: no

i just needed to do that

waking me up at almost midnight

Finn: i hate you

Kurt: and i hate myself too <3

anyways what’s between you and Jesse?

that isn’t a wall?

Finn: nothing!

we’re just friends.

i swear

Kurt: uh-huh

Finn: okay so MAYBE I might like him but who cares?

im bi 

I don’t care

he probably doesn’t realize anything

Kurt: Finn

I love you 

but seriously

sometimes I ask myself WHY you’re my sibling

but not in a bad way

Finn: oh my god

i love you too but STILL

sometimes i get the feeling you hate me 

Kurt: okay idiot

ily2

09/22/11

12:34 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Finn: I’m just letting you know so I know if you’re going to ditch me as a friend

im trans

ftm

so

Jesse: and I’d hate you for that because…?

Finn: idk

i just thought you would.

Jesse: Finn

that doesn’t make me hate you 

in fact, that makes you cooler

Finn: really?

Jesse: well, yes!

Finn: cool

09/22/11

2:13 PM

Kurt Hummel and Santana Lopez’s messages:

Kurt: Santana 

Santana: what?

Kurt: you and I are gonna be Finn’s matchmakers

you don’t get a say in this

say yes or yes

Santana: FINE

Kurt: yippee!

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09/24/11

11:06 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Jesse: idk what time you wake up at

Finn: I’m awake

I've been awake

I have a brother who wakes up at the fucking crack of dawn unfortunately 

Jesse: that’s…lovely

anyways

i was just gonna tell you 

Finn: oh dear

whenever someone says that, it usually means something’s fucked up

i deleted my search history 

Jesse: Finn

you’re incredibly stupid (affectionate)

but not what I was going for

Finn: oh?

okay

Jesse: I’m also trans

ftm

transitioned summer between seventh and eighth grade 

Finn: oh! 
that’s awesome dude

was your name still Jesse?

jessie*

Jesse: very funny

but yeah

my parents were chill about it too 

so

Finn: well

thank you for telling me this.

it’s very cool to know :)

Jesse: you’re adorable

Finn: S T O P

Jesse: no <3

Finn: UGH

mean

but you’re more adorable

(in a platonic way)

Jesse: well yes!

im still buying you a coffee 

Finn: N O

you should let ME pay for yours

Jesse: no

youre cute for thinking you could just do that though

Finn: I hate you

delete my number

Jesse: okay

Finn: WAIT NO!

09/24/11

1:15 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: I need to do something but Britt said she wouldn’t bail me out of Juvie if I commit a crime

Brittany: all I said was that I wouldn’t be much use of a lawyer

Auntie Snixx: ily

Brittany: ily mostest

QuinnFabray: lesbians

Auntie Snixx: buzzkill 

Finn: stop

also I’m going out later so if anyone needs me, don’t need me

Auntie Snixx: not like you’re needed…ever

Kurt: have fun on you’re date, Finn

Finn: I want you dead

JESSE AND I AREN’T DATING

its a friend hangout

friend date

idk

completely platonic though

Dancing Asian: jfc

don’t tell Kurt you want him dead because that is homophobic 

Finn: it’s not because he’s my brother

Kurt: I hope you don’t get in a wreck on the way to the Lima Bean

Finn: Jesse’s driving us

Kurt: YOU JUST SAID THAT YOU AREN’T DATING

LYING BITCH

I HATE YOU

Finn: WE AREN’T

HE OFFERED TO DRIVE 

BITCH

Blaine: DON’T FUCKING CALL HIM A BITCH

Jesse: who the fuck?

Auntie Snixx: don’t worry about him

he’s a hobbit 

Kurt: I hope both sides of your pillow are cold tn Finn

lying bitch

i hate you

<3

The drive to the Lima Bean is awkward. Neither of the two boys are talking and Finn thinks that he’s done something wrong.

”I can tell why you hate your brother’s boyfriend.” Jesse chuckles awkwardly.

Finn smiles softly. “Yeah. I mean, I might eventually like him though. Might take a while.”

Once the car’s parked, Jesse glances over to Finn, smiling back at him. “You’re adorable.”

Finn blushes and then opens his car door after unbuckling, stepping out of it and walking to the entrance of the Lima Bean. Jesse holds the door open for Finn, who smiles again.

”Thanks.”

Jesse nods and follows behind him.

The coffee shop is loud, like usual. Finn blindly reaches his hand out and ends up grabbing Jesse’s by a complete accident. He blushes again and whispers a soft apology, in which Jesse forgives him.

Finn likes this. His hangouts with Jesse are nice and he enjoys them a lot. 

By now the baristas have seen both boys enough to know their orders so they get to work on their drinks.

You’re still holding his hand. Finn thinks. He wants to let go but by the time he tries, both of their drinks are ready.

09/24/11

4:15 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: sorry again for holding your hand

Jesse: don’t be, it was accidental.

Finn: but I’m really sorry :(

Jesse: Finn Christopher Hudson, stop

i love you

Finn: I love you too (as a friend)

Jesse: no

i love you NOT as a friend

Finn: ?

Jesse: as like- idk 

a relationship with?

boyfriend maybe?

Finn: OH

I love you as a boyfriend too

Jesse: you’re adorable 

Finn: last I checked you were wrong. 
because my boyfriend’s more adorable

Jesse: shut UP

phone on the counter

youre making me blush

Finn: honestly good

I love you 

and I love knowing that you’re blushing

Jesse: I hate you

Finn: :(

Jesse: I could never hate you

Finn: so what are we then?

Jesse: boyfriends, maybe

obviously if that’s what you want

Finn: boyfriends sounds nice

so sure

Jesse: I love you idiot

Finn: I love YOU mostest

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09/29/11

10:30 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: I just watched a squirrel blink my full legal name in Morse code

i think that it’s trying to put me in court

guys, secret’s out. I escaped the Matrix

party’s over

his name is John

Kurt: everyday I’m reminded on why I shouldn’t know you guys exist

this is one of those many reasons

i hope you lose and end up in jail

Brittany: you escaped the Matrix, Sam?

thats crazy

Samuel: it was scary

John’s after me now

and possibly another million squirrels

Auntie Snixx: after graduation, I’m filing a restraining order against everyone here

fuck you bitches

except Britt 

QuinnFabray: Santana stop

Finn: oh my GOD

Auntie Snixx: I’m just saying

Kurt: I won’t visit you in prison, Sam

Samuel: I knew you hated me :(

09/29/11

11:12 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: so!

Jesse: yes?

Finn: I love you <3

Jesse: and I love you 

Finn: no because I love YOU more

Jesse: I’ll let you buy me a coffee

Finn: omg REALLY?

Jesse: maybe

no

Finn: ughhh

i miss you :c

Jesse: already?

Finn: fym already?

Jesse: we were on the phone late last night and you were asleep by 1:30 am and I stayed in the call until my phone died

Finn: oh 

well still

i miss you 

Jesse: you’re sweet

i’ll call later

okay?

Finn: awesome <3

ily

Jesse: ily mostest

dont do anything stupid while I’m gone

Finn: don’t check the ND chat then

Jesse: omg

okay

love you

Finn: lyt

Finn Hudson’s Twitter:

@Frankent33n05:

I miss Jesse 

10 likes, 2 reposts, 1 quote

replies:

@Sn1xxTana: you is gay

09/29/11

1:39 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Jesse: I’m on break and what the fuck

sam i wish death upon you

satan, that’s reasonable

kurt, honestly I could care less about you

Blaine: stop hating on my boyfriend bitch

Jesse: then YOU stop being a bitch to MINE

mine hates you

Kurt: Jesse

fuck off

dont speak to my boyfriend like that

fucking asshole

Jesse: maybe don’t have a boyfriend that hates mine <3

Kurt: I fucking despise you

i wish death upon you and your family

and I hope you know that

Samuel: woah

why’s Kurt hot when he’s aggressive like this?

blaine can I steal your boyfriend

Blaine: NO 

get your own

you can’t steal mine

Samuel: :c

anyways, John’s leaving me alone now

Jesse: WHO THE FUCK?

Finn: I feared this would happen

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10/03/11

11:05 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Jesse: I looked at your search history 

Finn: IM SORRY

my laptop was shut

i swear on Kurt’s dead mom’s grave

Jesse: ???

I was kidding?

Anyways I was thinking

Finn: ok

Jesse: I love you

Finn: ily2

Jesse: you’re adorable

Finn: no YOU are

<3

Jesse: istg

i cannot w you

meet me at the LB? I’ll let you pay.

Finn: FINALLY

i mean

yes

sounds great

Blaine’s over anyways

theyre so FUCKING loud

:c

Jesse: ew

but ok

ikwym

LB, back to my place, talk, sleep, whatever?

Finn: Jesse St. James

are you calling this our first official date?

Jesse: maybe?

if that’s what you want it to be?

because ily

<3

Finn: I’ll be there

ily mostest

<3

Jesse: ok

<3

Once Finn steps out of his car after parking at the Lima Bean, he immediately sees Jesse, who’s smiling.

It’s weird to him, but also nice. Now knowing that they’re both together. Finn makes his way to Jesse, holding his hand as Jesse’s fingers interlock with the taller boy’s.

”Hey, gorgeous.” Finn smiles. Jesse looks down, blushing.

”Stop.” He whispers.

Finn keeps ahold of Jesse’s hand, smile widening.

”You need to be stopped.” Jesse says.

”No I don’t.” Finn argues. Jesse looks up at him, still blushing and stands onto his tiptoes.

”Yes you do. You can’t go around complementing me when I’m supposed to be complimenting you, sweetheart.” Jesse then goes back to flat feet.

”Well-” Finn stutters. “What if I don’t want that to happen?”

”Then you get to suffer with my love and affection towards you.” Jesse giggles.

Finn shakes his head, frowning slightly. “I don’t want you to be the only one giving compliments.”

Jesse sighs deeply. “Well, we can talk about that. I got your usual.” He hands Finn his coffee. 

“So I drove here for no reason?” Finn questions, taking a sip of his drink.

”No, because we still have plans.” Jesse reminds him in a hushed whisper.

Finn wants to let out a sigh but keeps from doing so. He lets Jesse’s hand go as the shorter male walks to his car.

Finn does the same, noting that Jesse’s most likely on his way to his house. By the text he gets (From Jesse <3: parents are out of the house, place is empty. just for us ;) ) he lets out a sigh of relief, pulling his car out of the parking space.

The drive to Jesse’s place feels a lot longer than it actually was. Finn doesn’t know how or why it did but he’s thankful that he did follow Jesse’s car.

Once Jesse gets out of his car, Finn does the same thing and Jesse clutches his hand, squeezing it slightly.

He wants to say he loves Finn but he doesn’t know how to vocalize his words. God, this is easier on a phone.

”Let’s go to my room.” He says, leading Finn inside.

The walk up to Jesse’s bedroom is quiet and Jesse can’t really concentrate on anything but the silence. Once they both reached the room, Jesse steps to the side as he opens the door.

”It’s not much but,” he inhales. “It’s slightly bigger than my parent’s room?”

Finn smiles softly. “It’s great.” 

Jesse chuckles awkwardly as Finn makes his way to sit on Jesse’s mattress.

”It’s so comfy.” The taller boy giggles.

”So I’ve been told.”

Finn smiles and grabs at Jesse’s sleeve like a needy little kid. “You’re pretty.”

”Nuh-uh.” Jesse shakes his head, straddling Finn’s waist. “You’re the prettiest. My pretty boy.”

Finn noses at his boyfriend’s neck, holding Jesse’s hand as he does so.

It’s sudden but Finn’s lips find Jesse’s and both boys end up kissing. Jesse kisses Finn’s mouth deeply as Finn’s hands roam down to his thigh. Jesse moans softly at the touch.

Finn keeps kissing his way down to Jesse’s collar bone as Jesse continues moaning at it.

”You should probably see who’s trying to get your attention, babe.” Jesse suggests, pressing his face against Finn’s neck.

Finn pulls away from him. “It’s just Kurt texting me. I’ll be fine.” He assures him.

Jesse nods and starts biting at Finn’s neck, marking him with small hickeys and such. Finn moans out, pressing against him. 

Jesse smirks at Finn, taking his time to mark him up with hickeys. By the time Jesse asks if Finn’s okay with his shirt off (getting a nod from him), he readjusts his position, smiling at him. 

Finn looks to Jesse, quickly moistening his lips before attacking his boyfriend’s mouth with yet another kiss.

Chapter Text

10/09/11

4:30 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: why did Kurt just send me a whole ass essay on why he thinks Finn and Jesse are fucking?

Kurt: maybe because my dumbass of a brother has been IGNORING MY FUCKING TEXT

Brittany: don’t say that about finn

im sure he forgot to

Sannie, please go back to sleep

Samuel: sleep is for the weak

Kurt: dude

Dancing Chang: Kurt just said dude

I think he’s straight again

Kurt: jfc

every single time I talk to you guys I feel my brain cells dying

im nof fucking straight

Auntie Snixx: he can’t even spell “not”

that’s proof that he isn’t straight

Blaine: woah

why are we saying my boyfriend’s straight?

kurt are you cheating on me?

Kurt: ugh

i hate all of you

especially sam

Samuel: fuck

Auntie Snixx: Blaine you have no room to talk

Fucking hobbit

Blaine: STOP IT

Kurt: stop YELLING

bitch

Brittany: Santana has a point

Samuel: yeah well she’s also short

Auntie Snixx: I wish death upon you Trouty

good night to the gay people and them only

10/09/11

9:30 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: where am I?

Jesse: you’re still here.

im just downstairs

Finn: I’m asleep

Jesse: okay babe

sleepy Finn Hudson

im downstairs making breakfast

Finn: I’ll be down in a sec

Jesse: okay <3

ily

Finn: I love you MOSTEST

Jesse: that is a fucking lie and I hope you know that <3

Finn: ugggghhhhh

im coming down now

Jesse: <3

Finn falls off the bed when he wakes up. He’s wrapped one of Jesse’s blankets around him and struggles to get up. Once he stands, Finn realizes that the blanket is a bit shorter than he had remembered it being. He shrugs the thought away and makes his way downstairs.

Once Jesse comes into Finn’s vision, he smiles softly as he looks at the shorter boy. Jesse’s leaning against the counter as he watches the French Toast cook on the stove, humming Labyrinth by Taylor Swift softly to himself. 

“G’morning.” Finn says groggily. Jesse looks towards Finn, smiling brightly.

”Good morning to you too, Sunshine. Sleep well?”

Finn nods and smiles back at Jesse. He walks towards the other counter and leans against it. 

“Your bed is quite literally the comfiest bed I’ve ever slept in.” Finn beams.

Jesse laughs softly. “So you’ve said. Several times.”

”I might steal it.” Finn says.

”You will do no such thing, Finley Hudson.” Jesse teases.

Normally, Finn would tell whoever deadnames him to fuck off. Especially if that person were Santana Lopez. But instead, Finn looks at him, laughing.

”Well, maybe not steal it. But I’ll steal your blankets instead?” Finn suggests.

Again, Jesse laughs. “Fine.”  

Finn then realizes that the bread is burnt and grabs the pan off the burner as he dumps the now burnt French Toast into the garbage.

”Just because I burned Jesus Christ onto a sandwich last year does not mean I will be letting you do the same thing, Jess.” Finn sighs.

”Well you were talking.” Jesse argues. “It’s not my fault that your voice is-” he stops himself.

Finn raises a brow. “That my voice is what?”

”Fuck you.” Jesse says. “I love you.”

”And I love you too.”

10/09/11

1:30 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Finn: what the fuck

Auntie Snixx: Finley, are you and St Sucks fucking yes or no?

Finn: no?

also don’t call me Finley

Kurt: dude

i hate you

you made me write a whole ass essay and send it to Santana for absolutely no reason 

I fucking hate you

Samuel: woah

big words for a short guy, Kurt

Kurt: I want you dead Sam

Samuel: Kurt’s back in his biphobic era

Kurt: all I said was that I want you dead

Samuel: also stop saying ‘dude’ it’s concerning and you’re gay

Kurt: I’m concerning and gay, yes I know

dude

youre the one that says that there was a squirrel outside your window and it blinked you legal name in Morse code.

dude

you’re stupid

Dude

i hate you

dude

youre Stupid

dude

i hate you

<3

Samuel: :c

someone save me rn

or I will cry

Kurt: cry about it

dude

fuck you

i hate straight people

Finn: straightphobia in the chat

Kurt: you and st Sucks are fucking

youre not straight

dude

stop lying to yourself 

bitch

<3

Chapter Text

10/12/11

5:30 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: Jesse St Sucks? More like Jesse St Fucks

Kurt: santana 

I am asking you

because I’ve actually gotten more than an hour of sleep

save it till we’re awake enough to fight w Finn please 

Auntie Snixx: fuck you

youre no fucking fun

bitch

what happened to the fun Kurt?

Or did he disappear because you’re actually straight?

Kurt: stfu

im not straight

because why would I have a boyfriend if I were straight 

#straightpeoplearegross

Samuel: kurt

shut up please

nobody needs this

go back to sleep

Kurt: fine

i hate everyone of you guys

except for Blaine

hes my favorite 

Auntie Snixx: the other day you said that you didn’t believe in favoritism

bitch ass liar

Fucking trusted you 

bitch

10/12/11

12:34 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: good morning to you and you only

i hope nobody treats you like shit (as a friend)

Jesse: woah

”as a friend” 

did you forget you and I slept together?

and made out?

Finn: no

its just that nobody in nds know and I’m kinda scared to tell them

[screenshot of Santana’s message from 5:30 AM]

Jesse: wow

okay then

shes hella weird 

and gross

<3

Finn: what if she knows something that I don’t 

like, yes, I kissed you

and yes, we made out 

and slept with each other 

and I’m not ashamed to admit that I liked it

Jesse: sweetheart

i love you 

Finn: i love you too

Jesse: I can pick you up later and we can talk about this then?

Finn: sounds good :)

Jesse: okay

i love you 

Finn: I know 

I love you too <3

see you later

Jesse: I’ll see you soon, love

Finn: STOP 

phone on the counter 

Kurt just walked past me and saw me giggling

Jesse: revenge

i could be scheming

but you wouldn’t know <3

10/12/11

1:13 PM

Finn Hudson and Kurt Hummel’s messages:

Finn: yeah

youre right

Kurt: about?

Finn: I am 100% not straight 

Idk how to describe it yet

but Jesse makes me really happy

Kurt: Finny

Youre an idiot

But as your brother I’m proud and supportive of you

Finn: thanks

ily bro

Kurt: ily2

Finn: it helps to have a gay brother

Kurt: sometimes I feel like that’s all I’m good for when it comes to you 

Finn: you help with relationship shit

Kurt: relationshits <3

Finn: well, YEAH

Kurt: as much as i appreciate you

i have to go but I’ll help you with your Jesse shituation later 

Finn: ughhhhh

i forget you have a boyfriend

Kurt: you mean the person that you hate?

for no fucking reason

Finn: he’s the reason we never get brotherly bonding time

Kurt: well I’m sorry that my boyfriend is better than you

Finn: Blaine’s also short

hes like- 5’5

hobbit sized 

I can’t deal with that

Kurt: first of all

fucking wild

secondly 

hes 5’8

so shut up

you’re like- 6’3

And you just hate Blaine because he’s better than your boyfriend

Finn: Jesse isn’t…my boyfriend. Not exactly anyways

with what Santanas saying

what if she sees something that I don’t?

like

idk why but I’m kinda scared

Kurt: Finn Hudson 

stop

you and Jesse are good 

and you’re going to work it out 

ignore Santana’s shit

focus on you and St Sucks

Finn: fine

ily

and thanks

Kurt: ily2

but I seriously have to go now

hope you figure out the situationshit between you and St James

Finn: I’m trying

3:30 PM

Finn: would now be a bad time to tell you that I made out with Jesse St James and slept with him but I’m still confused on this sexuality shit?

4:45 PM

Kurt: jfc

i’ll be home soon and we can talk

Finn: sorry

ly

Kurt: it’s fine

ly2 I’ll be home in a few 

10/12/11

6:37 PM

Kurt Hummel made a new group chat!

 
Kurt Hummel added Santana Lopez and Blaine Anderson to the chat

Kurt Hummel named the chat: Finn’s Stupid Gay Matchmakers

Blaine: stupid and gay? 
that’s homophobic 

Kurt: and your point?

Auntie Snixx: I swear on your mom’s grave

Kurt: stfu

Auntie Snixx: I’m not the one who lies over having favorite people

bitch

Blaine: stop telling him that

its depressing and disappointing 

Auntie Snixx: fine

whatever

Kurt: I hate you both 

I hope know that

Blaine: the fact that I get told this on the daily basis by whoever Finn’s dating, I’m not even surprised at this point

ily2 though

Auntie Snixx: stop being fucking gay

Kurt: both of you shut the hell up

in case you can’t fucking read

Auntie Snixx: WOAH

stupid gay matchmakers?

for Finn Hudson?

actually insane

i thought he was screwing St Fucks?

Kurt: he just came out to me 

officially

dont tell him I told you this because he’ll hate me

and I already hate myself

Finn just came out to me as bi and that shit went down when he last saw Jesse

Blaine: shit in what way

Kurt: just some really shit stuff

i can’t exactly explain it all but it’s whatever.

Chapter Text

10/15/11

6:27 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: John’s back

hes stalking me

Auntie Snixx: good

i hope John wins the court thing

Kurt: fuck all of you

im tryna sleep

QuinnFabray: it’s 6:30?

Kurt: and?

your point?

I was up all night binging greys anatomy 

fuck you guys

fuck Shonda Rhimes 

Finn: woah

who she kill off now?

Kurt: who HASN’T she killed off

Auntie Snixx: was it Callie

if it was Callie I will kms

i love Callie 

Kurt: Callie’s still alive

fucking Lexie though :(

she was so sweet

Brittany: NOT LEXIE

:’(

Kurt: all the good characters 

like- who’s next?

Derek?

Blaine: don’t jinx it

Samuel: I have every theory on why Mark Sloan will be next to die

Kurt: SAM NO

Samuel: I’m not saying anything though 

Blaine: Kurt has this…weird attachment to Mark for no reason

Kurt: jfc

end of conversation now

10/15/11

8:35 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: I got you flowers

a package of cookies

and some more flowers

Jesse: Finley

you didn’t need to

Finn: well I did

so

and I also have a hoodie for you <3

Jesse: it’s not even Valentine’s Day 

and my birthday isn’t for another month 

Finn: I know

but I love you 

Jesse: and I love you too

Finn: no

i mean

i I love love you

like 

as a boyfriend

i finally figured my sexuality out

thanks to my brother’s help

Jesse: Finn

i love you the mostest

and I’m glad that you’re figuring it all out 

I love you

and I’ll take everything you got for me <3

Finn: yippee

i love you the mostest

Jesse: that is a fucking lie

10/15/11

3:45 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: I just found out John’s in the mafia 

and is in fact 

the mafia boss

Kurt: Samuel Jessica Trouty Mouth FUCKING Evans

I already have to remind Blaine to take his meds

im not doing this with you

Samuel: biphobia in the chat

someone sound the fucking alarms

I’d rather get beat up by a squirrel than take my nonexistent medications

because I’m not seeing things

[Picture description: a photo of an innocent squirrel, standing on its back legs, eating an acorn as it looks at the camera]

Auntie Snixx: that is a normal fucking squirrel Trouty

get your eyes checked 

I swear on Kurt’s mom’s grave

Samuel: IT IS NOT 

THAT IS JOHN

AND HES IN THE MAFIA 

Kurt: okay?

im not helping you when you get beat up by a FUCKING SQUIRREL

Samuel: you’re just haters

and biphobic

which is ironic because Britt and Finn are bi

Kurt: stfu

bitch

at least my brother’s normal

Samuel: technically-

Auntie Snixx: fucking ENOUGH

Jesse St. James’ Twitter

@JesseStJames: Finn Appreciation Post number I don’t know anymore @frankent33n05

[This post has three pictures of Finn, just random Finn pictures]

15 likes, 1 repost, 1 quote tweet, 3 comments

comments:

@Sn1xxTana: crazy

@Qu1nnFabray: actual insanity

@Frankent33n05: ENOUGH

| 

1 reply

@JesseStJames: no, also I love you, and you’re gorgeous, and you’re perfect and I updated my bio <3

Finn Hudson’s Twitter:

im in love with him <3 @JesseStJames

[This post has a screenshot of Jesse’s new bio, which reads: pansexual, trans, loml @frankent33n05, better than u and a picture of Finn’s red face in another picture next to it]

13 likes, 5 quote tweets, 4 comments

comments:

@JesseStJames: well!

@JesseStJames: also wow

@JesseStJames: my boyfriend’s so pretty

@JesseStJames: also I’m in love with YOU

| 

1 reply

@frankent33n: I’m in love with YOU

Chapter Text

10/18/11

1:30 AM

Finn’s Stupid Gay Matchmakers:

Auntie Snixx: I know it’s 1:30 AM 

but idgaf

because I just know Kurt’s ass is up

Kurt: Mark Sloan fucking died

ima kms

Auntie Snixx: I swear on your fucking mom’s grave

stop

get sleep

Kurt: no <3

Blaine: it is 1:40 in the fucking morning

Go to bed

Auntie Snixx: ugh

hobbit

imagine being SHORT

Kurt: Santana stfu

stop dissing on him 

bitch

Auntie Snixx: dumbass

Just hope you know that your ex is better than you <3

Kurt: istg

i hate you

10/18/11

10:10 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: John has a family

Patricia, Patrick, Patrick 2, Patrick 3, Alvin and Patrick 4

Kurt: Jesus fucking Christ

sam at this point you’ve made a fucking cult

Samuel: I’m being so fr rn

im not off my meds

because im not your boyfriend

Kurt: I will go to your house

beat you up

And leave

so you suffer

i hate you

dude

Samuel: STOP IT

SHUT UP 

BLAINE COME GET YOUR FUCKING BOYFRIEND BEFORE I GET KILLED BY HIM

Blaine: no <3

this is fun to watch

Samuel: you’re not invited to my birthday part anymore

Jesse: what are you? 3?

fucking child

i miss finn :c

Auntie Snixx: that’s hella gay

Which is crazy

Kurt: santana

shut up

Auntie Snixx: UGH

i hate you 

10/18/11

11:11 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: I love youuuuuuu

Jesse: and I love YOU

Even more

Finn: you should come over

ill get Kurt out of the house

Jesse: and your parents?

Finn: they’re in DC, something to do with some shit or whatever

it’ll be easy though

ill like- tell Kurt to go see his hobbit boyfriend

Jesse: tempting

Omw

Finn: hells yeah

ily

Jesse: ily too

cant wait to kiss your face 

Finn: ENOUGH

Jesse: no <3

Finn: hurry up

i got Kurt out

im horny and I need my boyfriend

Jesse: if you let me fucking drive then I’ll be there faster 

to kiss your face and mark you up

Finn: uuuuggggghhhhh

im gonna cry

Jesse: I’ll be there in 10, beautiful

Finn: hurry the fuck up

drive fucking faster

speed if you must

just don’t pull a Quinn and text while driving

Jesse: you’re so needy

and so whipped

its honestly so hot and sexy 

Finn: UGH

Once Jesse arrives, Finn pulls him into a hug and Jesse reciprocates it. The shorter teen wraps his arms around his boyfriend’s neck and kisses his lips tenderly.

”Your lips are fucking intoxicating, Finny.” Jesse says, going back in for another kiss.

Finn moans and smiles. “Not my fault.”

”I need you like I need air to fucking breathe, Finley.” Jesse pulls away, rubbing his hair and then presses his mouth against Finn’s ear, just breathing softly into it.

”You should fuck me, Jess.” Finn groans. “You have no idea how badly I need you.”

Jesse tuts and smirks up at Finn, grabbing both of his hands and holding them.

“You’re such a sweet talker when you’re horny, Hudson.” Jesse says, pressing his lips against Finn’s neck, making the taller boy let out a moan.

”Fuck me.” Finn begs. “Need you so badly.”

Jesse falls back against the counter, crossing his legs over one another and looks to Finn, smirking. “You’re so adorable, Finny.”

Finn lets out a whine and Jesse’s response is through a cocked eyebrow.

”Stop teasing me and let’s go to my room while we have the time and space.” Finn presses his hands to Jesse’s shoulders and kisses his forehead.

”How long until Kurt’s home?” Jesse asks.

Finn shrugs. “I don’t know. I just told him to go hang out with Blaine and he didn’t ask for any details.”

Jesse nods, smiling to Finn. He wraps his arms around Finn’s neck and his legs around his waist, which Finn takes as a cue to take them to his room.

Finn lays there, motionless, Jesse laying his head on his chest. Finn likes this. This was always one of his favorite parts about Jesse.

Finn’s phone buzzes, causing Jesse to look up but Finn shrugs it off, hugging his boyfriend.

”I love you.” Finn mutters sleepily.

Jesse smiles, softly kissing Finn. “I love you the mostest.”

”That’s a fucking lie.”

”Says the one that’s bottomed twice.” Jesse says accusingly. He then giggles. “I love you though.”

Finn looks up as he hears the front door open, which meant Kurt just got home.

”Do you need me to go?” Jesse asks.

”No, Kurt knows about us being together so as long as he doesn’t-” Finn pauses, freezing when he sees Kurt. “Fuck.”

”What the actual hell?”

He’s not upset or anything, Kurt just wasn’t expecting to see Jesse in Finn’s bed.

”We kept our socks on.” Finn says immediately.

”Ew. I do not need to know about yours and St Fuck’s sex lives.”

Once Kurt leaves the room, Jesse and Finn look to each other, both their faces equally pink.

10/18/11

10:30 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: he’s NOT just a fucking squirrel, Santana

hes my pet now

and that includes his family

Auntie Snixx: idc

youre weird as fuck

Kurt are you doing okay?

Kurt: yeah

other than I fucking saw St Fucks in my brother’s bed

Finn: WE KEPT OUR SOCKS ON

Kurt: YOU STILL SHOULD’VE WARNED ME BEFORE I CAME INTO YOUR FUCKING ROOM

I DO NOT NEED TO SEE THAT SHIT

AND NOR DO I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR FUCK LIFE

>:(

Finn: YOU AND BLAINE FUCK ALL THE TIME

STOP BEING A HYPOCRITE 

Kurt: we actually don’t fuck that often

either way I hate you.

Chapter Text

10/23/11

6:54 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: Halloween is coming up

what are you bitches doing?

cause I was informed by Britts that someone’s house was free

Finn: uhhhhh

i have plans on Halloween actually

Auntie Snixx: oh you’re fucking with me, right?

you can’t be serious

Kurt: Finley

ditch the boyfriend

(because we all know he’s a whore)

Jesse: woah

again

Big language for someone that’s 5’10

Kurt: I fucking despise you

i want you dead

die

you stole my brother from me

Finn: bitch?

your boyfriend stole YOU from ME first

Blaine: sorry that I’m just better than you?

Jesse: imagine

being 5’7

Auntie Snixx: Jesse st Whore

i want you down 6 feet deep

Jesse: already was fingers deep

Wait shit

Finn: JESSE

Jesse: SHIT THAT WAS A TYPO THAT AUTOCORRECT DIDNT AUTOCORRECT THE WAY IT SHOULDVE AUTOCORRECTED 

Finn: my brother’s in this chat…

Kurt: actually foul

i hope you die

Sam let John out

Samuel: John escaped

probably went back to the matrix

where I was

spooky 

10/23/11

9:00 AM

Finn Hudson and Kurt Hummel’s messages:

Finn: sorry

Kurt: I do not

do NOT

need to know about your fuck life

i get you and Jesse are together

but for the love of your brother’s insanity 

keep your sex and shit OUT of the group chat 

fucker

Finn: sorry :c

ill keep him controlled

Kurt: it’s…fine

just keep it out of the chat

Finn: I promise

Kurt: thanks idiot

ly

Finn: ly2

10/23/11

12:14 PM

Santana Lopez and Brittany S Pierce’s Messages: 

Brittany: my phone didn’t blow up

it was in Lord Tubbington’s cat box

idk why

Santana: love

is that why you’ve been inactive 

Brittany: yes

he wouldn’t give it to me 

so I had to go searching

Santana: I love you so much Brittsy

Brittany: I love you mostest

Santana: …fine

Brittany: you’re still coming over, right?

Santana: mama’s cooking dinner and afterwards, yes baby

Brittany: ok!! I love you <3

Santana: I love you too!!

10/23/11

5:30 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Jesse: I sincerely apologize for saying that earlier

i love you

Finn: Jesse Something Something Hudson St James

I love you

but nobody needs to know about where your fingers are

Jesse: I’m sorryyyyyyy :(

and I’m sorry 

and you have every reason to hate me

Finn: Jesse

i could never hate you in my life

i love you too much

Jesse: STOP

phone on the counter

I want to kill your brother though

Finn: Jess

no 

Jesse: ughhhhhh

ily

Finn: ilyt <3

Chapter Text

10/25/11

4:14 AM 

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Kurt: I just googled how to sleep forever and never wake up

(for a friend)

why the fuck did it give me a crisis line?

Finn: because that’s like asking how to kys

basically like asking Google how to murder someone and get away with it

Kurt: that ruined my fucking night

that’s just fucking homophobic 

Auntie Snixx: istg

Who’s this “friend”

Kurt: me I’m the friend

QuinnFabray: jfc

Kurt if you somehow find yourself in a situation that puts you in a mental position you shouldn’t be in, I will not visit you

Kurt: wow

what the homophobia in the chat

I won’t write to any of you after graduation

fucking idiots

Samuel: after you graduate, Blaine and I will be dating btw

already planning this shit out

Kurt: you’re the one that hallucinates squirrels 

you aren’t going to “steal” my boyfriend after I graduate

bitch

He already has issues 

Samuel: :(

Jesse: everyday I suffer with having to ask myself why Finn is friends with you guys

Kurt: I want you dead

bitch

you stole my fucking brother

make sex “jokes” in a public chat

Jesse: wow

you were JUST complaining about homophobia in here

Kurt: that was to Google for being a useless piece of shit like always

fucking idiot

Auntie Snixx: wild 

actual insanity

Kurt: no just mental illness 

Auntie Snixx: I will fucking strangle you

Kurt: I was kidding what the fuck

Auntie Snixx: jfc

Go back to bed

Kurt: I can’t 

Auntie Snixx: fym?

Kurt: if I told you that Blaine and I just finished Heartstopper season 3 what would you say

Auntie Snixx: you’re fucking gay

you’re fucking gay

you’re fucking gay

blaibe is fucking gay

SHIT

Jesse: how do you mess up on his name that badly?

Auntie Snixx: silence, peasant.

Bitch is dead

Kurt: sorry I was fucking dying of laughter 

Santana I’m actually fucking crying right now

Auntie Snixx: good

because you can’t spell for shit

Samuel: omfg

6:30 AM:

Blaine: Santana I hate you

Auntie Snixx: well I’m not short

Finn: you’re 5’4?

Auntie Snixx: and you’re 6’3

not that much of a height difference 

10/25/11

10:10 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ messages:

Finn: what do you want for your birthday?

it helps when I know ahead of time so that I can be able to get more than one thing

Jesse: uhhhhhh

idk

I don’t really celebrate it anymore

Finn: what :(

Jesse: do you want some lore or something 

Finn: I just want to know why you don’t celebrate them

Jesse: woah

it’s almost like you want life information

Finn: it’s almost like you’re not telling me why you don’t celebrate your birthday anymore

Jesse: idk why really they just seem kinda childish? I really don’t know 

Finn: that’s actually valid

ily and I’ll be sure to get you something 

Jesse: I love you too

but you don’t need to get me anything

Finn: I still am

Jesse: of course you are

10/25/11

2:34 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club): 

Auntie Snixx: okay bitches 

Quinn told me that we can use her place for Halloween night

so be there on the 31st

Finn: I can’t go

Kurt: booooo

ditch your boyfriend 

hang out with actual cool people who care about you

we haven’t hung out since you and St Whore started fucking

Finn: well MAYBE if you hadn’t walked in on us

Kurt: YOU STILL SHOULD’VE WARNED ME BEFORE I CAME IN

YOU FUCKING IDIOT

Finn: omfg

i hate you btw

Kurt: that means nothing to me cause I already hate myself

Auntie Snixx: are you fucking doing okay?

Blaine: he just realized that he has one too many mental issues 

Kurt: it’s not one too many

depression, anxiety, etc etc 

Finn: Jesus Christ 

Jesse: all the more reason to hate him I guess?

Auntie Snixx: just because you’re the fucking male Rachel Berry and shit does not mean you can suddenly diss my best friend and make it seem like you don’t already hate him

hes already dying on the inside

Kurt: Santana ily

Auntie Snixx: no I still hate you

but I just needed to let that out because if I let it out on Blaine then I would probably be getting threatened by the fucking Warblers

Kurt: uggggghhhhhh

i still ly

Auntie Snixx: okay

Chapter Text

10/31/11

7:30 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: good morning peasants

(minus Brittany)

party’s at 7 tn

if you plan to help set up be there by 5 30

QuinnFabray: is there alcohol

Auntie Snixx: let me think

no because we are teenagers who aren’t legally allowed to drink

what the fuck do you think Lucy

QuinnFabray: jfc

i’ll still go

Finn: Kurt just said he won’t be nursing any hangovers tmrw 

Auntie Snixx: idc

where is heeeeeeeee

Kurt: literally right fucking here

Jesus Christ 

Finn, I’m going to expose your shit to your boyfriend because I feel like it

Finn: uuuuggggghhhhh

Okay

he needs Finn lore anyways

Jesse: Kurt why tf did you just send me a list on every single thing Finn’s done since 3rd grade?

AND HOW THE FUCK DO YOU BURN MAC AND CHEESE

Finn: it turned crayola orange :(

Puck cussed me out after it happened

Jesse: I cannot with you

10/31/11

9:30 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: a lot of that shit was done either on a dare or something

Jesse: so when you drove into a guy, that was on a dare?

let me add that your mom was in the car

Finn: I was just learning how to drive

Jesse: Jesus Christ 

what time am I supposed to pick you up at?

so we can go to Santana’s stupid thing later

Finn: uhhhhhhhh

6:45?

Jesse: okay

ily <3

Finn: ily2<3

Jesse: no 

that’s a fucking lie 

because I love YOU the mostest

Finn: I hope you know that I’d step on a lego for you

no I would WALK on legos just for you 

Jesse: oml

okay, 6:45

ill see you later lover

Finn: ily!

Jesse: ily2

10/31/11

3:00 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: okay so 

I already sent out a message to all the actual responsible people who swore to not drink

you know who you are

Kurt: ugh

Auntie Snixx: stop bitching

but anyways

yeah

If this party goes the same way our Alcohol Awareness Week did, I will kms

Brittany: Sannie no

Auntie Snixx: Kurt do you want to go commit vandalism 

yes or yes

Kurt: fine

Auntie Snixx: bet

But yea so 

this will be better than alcohol awareness week

because I say so

Samuel: jfc

i mean

yippee 

Auntie Snixx: be more fucking enthusiastic 

Samuel: I fucking cannot

Auntie Snixx: you yap about squirrels

you can be more fucking enthusiastic  

[IMAGE: a swing that says “I love Brittany S. Pierce” on it]

QuinnFabray: committing vandalism in your gf’s name is actual insanity

Auntie Snixx: I get you’re straight, but do fucking NOT rub it all in my face 

QuinnFabray: I’m actually not straight but whatever.

Auntie Snixx: I didn’t ask

10/31/11

6:45 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Jesse: just got here

Finn: omw down 

Jesse: I love you

Finn: I love YOU

Jesse: fucking wrong

Finn: no :3

Jesse: get down hereeeeee

i need to see you

Finn: and like I said

im omw down

Jesse: well hurry tf up

Finn: agh

fine

Jesse: finally

i mean

yay

Finn: I can’t w you 

Jesse: :3

Once Finn’s in the car, he’s greeted by Jesse’s soft gaze and smile. They both look to one another, almost as if they’re lost in each other’s eyes by the way that they’re staring.

”I still want to know how you managed to fucking burn Mac and Cheese.” Jesse states. Finn lets out a sigh.

”I don’t even know how I did that.” The Quarterback confesses. “It just kind of happened.”

Jesse laughs. “You’re adorable. But we’re still going to Satan’s stupid thing.”

10/31/11

7:00 PM

Sam’s camera roll currently consists of a few things. John the fucking squirrel, a few close up pictures of his friends, and more pictures of the squirrel.

He looks around him and sees Santana drunkly walking up in his direction. He laughs awkwardly but ignores her.

Jesse and Finn are the last people there, unsurprisingly. Nobody asks as to why, and most people are actually too wasted to even realize.

“Is this the squirrel idiot?” Jesse whispers, pointing to Sam.

Finn nods quickly. “Yeah, but he’s also one of my best friends so it’s fine.” He confirms.

Sam makes his way up to Finn, smiling brightly to him. He looks to Jesse, who’s glaring, and reaches his hand out.

”St. Whore!” Santana calls out, giggling as she stands up.

”Satan Lopez,” Jesse sighs. 

Santana glares at him, crossing her arms and huffs. “Dumbass. St. Fucks. St. Whore. Whatever the hell your real name is.”

Jesse wants to interject and say something but it’s too late as Santana’s already heading in a different direction.

Jesse and Finn follow behind the Latina as does Sam. Jesse’s soon to realize that he’s able to assume mostly everyone is either drunk or completely sober.

“St. Fucking Hudson’s here guys.” Santana says. “Let’s get this shit started.” She then falls against her girlfriend, still giggling as Brittany holds her in her lap.

About half an hour passes and either everyone else has drank or some other thing.

”St. Whore, go get Finn Hudsson lore from his brother.” Quinn slurs. 

Almost everyone nods and Jesse sighs. “Fine, fine, fine. I’ll go get some piece of his life to my knowledge.” Jesse stands, leaving Finn frowning as he parts.

Kurt rolls his eyes and goes into the Lopez’s kitchen with Jesse. He glares at Jesse and leans against the counter. “We should probably make this quick because I have a boyfriend that does shitty things when he’s drunk.”

Jesse nods. “Uh, what happened last year?”

Kurt starts talking about the Grilled Cheesus incident and how it had happened when his dad was in the hospital after his heart attack. He goes on about the most absurd things that he only found out about through Sam and a couple others while he was at Dalton.

”-And then he assumed that just because I was at Sam’s place every other night that I was cheating? He was like- homeless.” 

He continues about their duets competition from the previous year and how Finn had reacted towards both him and Sam.

”Jesus Christ,” Jesse finally says. “Yeah, he’s a bit of an idiot.”

Around another half hour passes and they both head back to where everyone else is.

”You guys took forever.” Blaine whines.

”It was only an hour and a half. I had to catch St Whore up on Finn’s shit from last year.” Kurt reassures. “It’s fine though.”

”No you actually took fucking forever.” Santana agrees.

Chapter Text

11/01/11

Santana wakes up to a pounding headache. Squinting her eyes, she realizes she’s not with Brittany. The bed is barely recognizable to the Latina. Santana lets out a groan, lying back down against the mattress. 

“You’re up,” Quinn says, looking to Santana.

”Fuck, what happened?” Santana demands. She immediately sits back up.

Quinn lets out a sigh and leans against the doorframe of her bedroom. The blonde keeps eye contact with Santana, whose brows are furrowed.

”You were drunk. Well, actually, you were nearly wasted, and fell asleep after the party ended. Brittany didn’t know what to do and she was too scared to wake you up so you could leave. I let you stay here.” Quinn explains.

”Shit,” Santana runs a hand through her brunette locks. “I fucked up.”

Quinn nods. “Yeah. I think Britt went home with Sam last night.”

”This isn’t good, Lucy.” Santana yells, pulling the blanket off of her. “I can’t believe I fucking slept with you.”

Quinn sighs again. “I slept out on the couch.” She reassures.

“Does it look like I give a fuck?” Santana glares at the blonde. “Fuck, fuck, fuck!” She keeps running her hand through her hair.

Santana wants to text Brittany an apology, but she’s scared. Even though Quinn had said that they did nothing, the fact that she had hurt Brittany in such a way is what hurts her the most.

11/01/11

10:54 AM

Santana Lopez and Brittany S. Pierce’s messages:

Santana: I’m so fucking sorry Britt

quinn and I did nothing I swear

i love you

im sorry

12:15 PM

Brittany: you say this

but you really expect me to think that it won’t happen again?

Santana: Britt, please

i love you

Brittany: and i love you too

i just…need time to think

i’ll let you know when i can talk again

Santana: I’m sorry

Brittany: you’ve said that

im saying that I’ll let you know when I’m ready to talk again

11/01/11 

4:50 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: 29 days and counting

Jesse: cute

i still don’t need anything though

Finn: uuuuggggghhhhh

you’re no fun

Jesse: woah

i thought you loved me

Finn: I do

Uoure just being weird

Jesse: uoure

adorable

Finn: shut UP

it was a typo

Jesse: it’s still adorable

Finn: I’m getting you nothing for your birthday 

Jesse: I don’t need anything  anyways

I’m gonna break up with you on YOUR birthday 

Finn: don’t you FUCKING dare

Jesse: :3

Chapter Text

11/03/11

10:14 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: where’s Santana

Auntie Snixx: shut up 

you’re actually so fucking annoying and a pest 

Samuel: :(

Auntie Snixx: nvfm 

I miss britt

Samuel: did you two break up?

cause I didn’t steal her from you

Brittany: it doesn’t matter, Sam

Santana and I are going through it

QuinnFabray: jfc 

Auntie Snixx: don’t Quinn

You’re only making this shit worse

and are practically the reason it’s happening.

QuinnFabray: I DID NOT SLEEP WITH YOU

YOU PASSED OUT ALMOST AN HOUR AFTER KURT AND JESSE CAME BACK AND YOU WEREN’T WAKING UP WHEN BRITTANY WAS TRYING TO FUCKING WAKE YOU SO I HAD YOU STAY AT MY PLACE

YEAH, MAYBE YOU WERE IN MY BED

Kurt: what the FUCK

Lucy Quinn Fucking Fabray

QuinnFabray: OH MY GOD

WHAT MATTERS IS THAT SAN AND I DID NOT SLEEP TOGETHER

I SLEPT OUT ON THE FUCKING COUCH

Blaine: oh my God

Is Brittana breaking up

Brittany: i don’t know 

san, is this true?

Auntie Snixx: yeah

we didn’t fuck or sleep together 

I was trying to tell you that but you needed some time 

Jesse: holy shit

that’s insane 

Auntie Snixx: shut up St. Whore

11/03/11

11:09 AM

Santana Lopez and Brittany S. Pierce’s messages:

Brittany: if what Quinn’s saying is true

then I’m sorry that I didn’t listen

Santana: it’s fine

and what she said is true

and I’m sorry too

i love you 

Brittany: I love you too

Santana: no because I love you most

im such a shitty girlfriend

Brittany: you’re not shitty

and actually I love you more

Santana: Brittany Susan Pierce you’re wrong

Brittany: no :3

Santana: I’ll repay you 

with sweet lady kisses

because I love you 

Brittany: okay!!

Santana: I love you

and I’ll never drink again

Brittany: the last part is a lie and I know that

Santana: no

i swear I will never drink again

and if I do, I won’t pass out at Lucy’s

11/03/11

3:25 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Auntie Snixx: Brittana is back on bitches

#getsomeonewholovesyou

Samuel: John is still here

Kurt: Sam 

you fucking ruined the moment again

Bitch

Samuel: well I wasn’t the one that was complaining about getting 2nd in fucking MarioKart

Kurt: the game’s homophobic 

which is ironic because there’s like- 4 or 5 Rainbow Roads 

Auntie Snixx: you’re actually all insane

and I hope the days go faster because I want to graduate soon and never have to talk to you bitches again

11/03/11 

7:58 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Jesse: out of curiosity 

what are you doing after you graduate?

Finn: uhhhh 

Get into an acting college and/or go to the army and redeem my dad

why?

Jesse: huh

im applying for NYADA after winter break 

Finn: that’s so cool!

I know Kurt’s been talking about applying for there too

and you guys kind of bonded at the party

Jesse: he just gave me very needed Finn Hudson lore

Finn: still

i love you!!

Jesse: random

but I love you too

its cool that you’re planning on getting into acting with redeeming your dad as a second choice

Finn: yeah

i try

sometimes i feel like i try too hard though.

Jesse: baby 

you don’t try too hard

youre doing great

and that’s what matters

Finn: what if i get held back this year? Or worse, what if i have nowhere to go after graduation and change my mind on the army thing?

Jesse: Finn

thats 7 months from now

you have time

i love you 

Finn: I love you too

27 days 

Jesse: you need to be stopped immediately

or I will break up with you on Valentine’s Day

Finn: that’d be ironic

Still

27 days

 
Jesse: phone on the counter

stop 

Chapter Text

11/07/11

12:30 AM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: it’s almost Christmas 

Kurt: Samuel Jessica Trouty Mouth FUCKING Evans

i will kill you

vecause its not almost Christmas

im not going to fix that

fuck grammar

Auntie Snixx: real

Finn: go to bed 

Kurt: no <3

Finn: istg

i hate you

Kurt: I know that 

feeling’s mutual

Finn: ugggghhhhh

Kurt: not my fault you have an ugly boyfriend 

Auntie Snixx: LMFAO

He’s a whore

Jesse St Fucking Whore

Jesse: love to know I’m respected

Finn: at least I don’t have a short boyfriend that overgels 

Kurt: you and Jesse have a 2 inch height difference 

and stop dissing my boyfriend 

bitch 

Finn: hater

Samuel: Finn Hudson will begin to cough in 3 days

Brittany: woah

11/07/11

10:12 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: hi my love

Jesse: hi lover 

Finn: sorry about what all happened earlier

Jesse: it’s fine

im used to that type of shit

Finn: whyyyyy

Jesse: not for you to know

Finn: you tell me stuff that could contain life information, and leave out ALL context

Jesse: it’s a thing that I tend to do 

sorry

Finn: it’s fine

just that I might want to know some of it too

Jesse: and I’ll tell you soon

okay?

Finn: okay

i love you 

Jesse: I love you too

ill see you later

Finn: okay

:3

Jesse: :3

11/07/11

3:14 PM

Lima Losers (Glee Club):

Samuel: guys, Artie and Mike are matching my freak

theyve joined to believe that John is a mafia boss 

Kurt: the only sane people in this chat

how dare you 

Artie: sorry :(

Kurt: no I started losing my respect for you when you forced me to watch the DC movies 

Dancing Chang: sorry Kurt :(

Kurt: sigh

We lost all our sane people

Auntie Snixx: NO

MICHAEL CHANG I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU

artie’s been dead to me since sophomore year 

but MIKE CHANG

NO

Dancing Chang: :(

sorry Tana

Auntie Snixx: we’re no longer on nickname terms 

fucking traitor

Dancing Chang: NOOOOOO 

Artie: :(

sorry Santana

Auntie Snixx: >:(

fucking pissed as duck

FUCK***

Kurt: PISSED AS DUCK LMFAO 

Auntie Snixx: I will bury you alive 

I mean what

Kurt Hummel renamed the chat “Pissed As Duck”

Kurt: we needed a new chat name anyways

Lima Losers almost as if the entire town hates us

Auntie Snixx: i swear on your mom’s grave

Blaine: woah i missed a lot 

because some of us actually have lives

Finn, you suck, I don’t over gel

Jesse, you’re still a fucking bitch

Santana, if we were straight, you’d be my girlfriend 

Sam, it’s not almost Christmas, it’s almost Thanksgiving 

Kurt, ily

Jesse, you’re a whore

Sam, you’re a fucking idiot

Mike, how dare you betray us

Artie, same goes to you

fucking traitors

Santana, I take that back, don’t bury my boyfriend alive

Kurt, the new chat name I love you

Santana, stop swearing on Kurt’s mom’s grave

Jesse, nobody respects you

Everyone that isn’t Kurt will start coughing in 3 days

Jesse, you are a whore 

Chapter Text

11/11/11

11:11 AM

Pissed as Duck:

Brittany: what a time!

Samuel: WOAH

11:11 on the eleventh day of the eleventh month of 2011!

that’s crazy!!!

Kurt: sam

youre crazy

Samuel: no :3

Kurt: ew

why do i know you

Samuel: because 

you just do 

Kurt: I hate it

June should hurry up and get here faster

Blaine: stop antagonizing Kurt, Sam 

Samuel: no <3

Kurt: I want you dead

Finn: woah

okay 

uh calm down

im not good at this uhm

Jesse: Jfc 

everyone shut up 

for the sake of Finn’s sanity

Auntie Snixx: gay

Jesse: you’re one to talk

11/11/11

12:13 PM

Jesse St. James’ and Blaine Anderson’s messages:

Jesse: I know we like- never fucking talk 

and when we do we bitch at each other

Blaine: woah

this was unexpected and random

Jesse: I still hate you

and your boyfriend

youre both weird

Blaine: is this why you’re texting me?

or do you actually have a reason to?

Jesse: uhm so my mom’s actually in town

and she was like- a really shitty person while I was growing up

Blaine: so was my dad

sorry, continue

Jesse: anyways

My mom was on a shit ton of drugs when I was a kid 

which lead to her and my dad divorcing 

my dad got custody

just like, what do I do?

Blaine: I don’t know

I’m not much of help when it comes to this uhm

talk to Finn about it?

Jesse: I physically cannot

Any time he tries to ask about my shit, I start panicking and saying that I’ll eventually tell him

Blaine: Christ

yeah I really don’t know 

sorry

Jesse: it’s fine

uh I’ll deal

bye idiot

11/11/11

3:24 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Jesse: hi love 

Finn: hi :3

Jesse: I just wanted to let you know that my mom’s coming to town 

Finn: oh?

Jesse: yeah

She does not know we’re together

I’m too scared to tell her because she’s weird about if a guy dates another guy

Finn: :(

Jesse: I know

she was only fine with me transitioning because she knew it was what made me comfortable 

she just doesn’t know I’m pan

Finn: baby

i love you

i’m here for you forever and always 

you don’t have to tell her we’re dating if you don’t want to

just breathe, okay?

promise?

Jesse: I promise

sorry, I thought I was gonna have an anxiety attack 

Finn: there’s no need to apologize, love

Jesse: my main fear is if she’s high and beats me 

Finn: she’s abusive?

Jesse: in a way…yes

i already spoke to Blaine about it though

(he wasn’t much help)

Finn: you can come here after or call me if you don’t feel safe

Jesse: okay

love you

Finn: I love you too :3

11/11/11

8:45 PM

Jesse wants to leave. He wants to see Finn. His leg is currently shaking uncontrollably as he bites at his nails.

”Jesse,” his mother, Nicole says, “You’re acting strangely.

He wants to deny it, say he’s acting fine. But he doesn’t say anything. 

“Sorry.” Jesse whispers.

Nicole shakes her head, exhaling deeply.

Jesse notices she hasn’t changed a bit. From the looks of it, his mom had only gotten worse from the painkillers and the other stuff she was taking as he was growing up.

Jesse’s scared. “You are safe, you are loved, you are enough.” He whispers to himself.

Jesse then gets up, making his way to the bathroom. 

Once he’s there, he grabs his phone out. He thinks about texting Finn, or even calling him.

He presses on Finn’s contact and calls him.

[Phone call: from Jesse St. <3]

F: “Are you doing okay?” 

a pause

J: “Yeah, um, I’m just…worried.”

There’s silence before Finn speaks again.

F: “Do you need me to pick you up?”

J: “No! No thank you. Please don’t. I’m fine it’ll pass.”

F: “Jess, I’m worried about you.”

another pause, this one slightly longer, Jesse’s crying.

J: “What if it slips out? That I have a boyfriend? Finn, I can’t think about anything but this.”

F: “Jesse, I’ll pick you up if something happens, okay? Shit, Kurt needs me. I love you, please keep me updated.”

Jesse sighs, putting his phone back into his pocket. He then washes his face and exits the bathroom.

You are safe, you are loved, you are enough. 

Chapter Text

11/11/11

10:32 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ messages:

Jesse: I may need you to pick me up

Finn: okay, what’s going on?

Jesse: just anxiety, and my mom’s high. It’s scaring my younger brothers and I.

Finn: omw.

 
Jesse: thank you. You’re a lifesaver. I love you <3

Finn: i love you too <3

Jesse: :3 

Finn: :3

Jesse puts his phone back into his pocket. He breathes in deeply to keep him calm. 

“It’s fine.” He reassures himself.

His younger brother, Jade, goes over to him, realizing his panicked state.

“Jesse,” he says.

”Jade, I’m fine.” Jesse tells him.

Jade shakes his head. “You’re not. Your boyfriend’s here though.” He replies in a whisper.

Jesse nods, standing up. He heads to the door, whispers something to his younger siblings, and then leaves.

”Jess,” Finn looks to him.

Jesse glances back, tearing up as he does. He doesn’t even know the full reason as to why he’s almost crying.

”I’m fine.” Jesse says.

Finn wants to argue and say that he’s clearly not if he’s almost in tears when he’s in the car.

“I’ll take you back to my place, okay?” Finn says.

Jesse nods, sighing deeply as the car starts.

11/12/11

5:05 AM

Pissed as Duck:

Samuel: good morning idiots

and gays

and everyone else

Kurt: Sam, stfu

Samuel: wow

so if you text the group chat at a god forbidden hour, it’s fine. 
but if I do it?

Artie: it’s because nobody cares

and Kurt has a messed up sleep schedule as is

Samuel: ugh

Auntie Snixx: shut UP trouty

Blaine: everyone just go back to bed 

Kurt: I would if I could

Auntie Snixx: I’m reteaching Brittany history

because Lord Tubbington said that none of what we were taught was factually correct 

and that we learned about people who weren’t real

Brittany: a failed painter started WW2? How is that believable

Auntie Snixx: see?

Kurt: she has a point though.

Auntie Snixx: you’re all useless

and this is why Puck barely passed 

Kurt: woah

homophobia 

Jesse: all of you gay people go tf to sleep

i cannot deal with your shit tn

Samuel: again

homophobia

Kurt: I will kill you Sam

Samuel: NO 

Kurt: then stop being a fucking MENACE to society

Samuel: no :3

Kurt: kms

Chapter Text

11/17/11

2:27 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ messages:

Finn: gm :3
the idiot that is named Kurt Stupid Hummel is up and I can hear Taylor Swift’s music coming from his room

Jesse: oh lord

okay

That’s an issue :c

Finn: not really!!

he does this shit constantly :3

Jesse: finny

hes infuckingsane

Finn: I know :c

but it’s truly fine

Jesse: sigh

i love you 

Finn: no because

i love YOU

Jesse: IMMEDIATELY WRONG

i hope you know that :3

Finn: you win

i guess :3

Jesse: we can talk at a much later hour, go sleep

Finn: no promises but I’ll try :3

loves you 

Jesse: loves you too Lover

11/17/11

10:00 AM

Pissed as Duck:

Samuel: good morning to you peasants 

Kurt: no

i don’t want to do with your homophobic ass today Sam

Samuel: woah

im not homophobic 

im literally bi

Auntie Snixx: *bye-sexual

Samuel: :c

Auntie Snixx: >:3

Kurt: Finn’s homophobic 

which is hella ironic

Finn: I’m NOT homophobic 

im just saying don’t wake the fuck up hella early just to play Taylor Swift’s music

Kurt: bitch

sorry that you have no GODDAMN taste in music

fucjing idiot

im not fixing that

again

fuck grammar

Finn: oml

you’re actually a fucking menace to society

Kurt: Finn hates gay people

finn we’re no longer on speaking terms

fuck you

Jesse: woah

dont say that to him.

Auntie Snixx: St Whore <33

Jesse: ugggghhhhhhh

i hate all of you

Auntie Snixx: feeling’s mutual thank you

everyone loves me btw

Kurt: can confirm

Jesse: that’s because you’re both gay

Samuel renamed the group chat “St Hudson is Hella Gay”

Kurt: LMFAO

also any queer people get to swear on Blaine’s dad now

he told me :>

Auntie Snixx: FUCK YEAH

WE GET TO SWEAR ON HOMOPHOBIC ASS BITCHES

I want to beat your dad up Blaine

Blaine: thanks?

I think?

Auntie Snixx: :>

Blaine: :>

Brittany: Blaine’s dad is homophobic? 

I thought he just hated Blaine in general?

Blaine: unfortunately he’s actually a shit parent 

but that’s fine

because we’re now hating on him back :>

Samuel: homophobic people get to be hated back

yippee :>

Auntie Snixx: we love hating on homophobes in this economy :>

Kurt: it’s actually the best thing to do ever :>

Chapter Text

11/26/11

8:14 AM

Jesse St James created a new chat!

Jesse St James added Blondie Fabray and Finn Hudson Hater to the chat!

Jesse named the chat: ‘A Trio Of Mental Illness’

Jesse: this is needed btw

Quinn: ???

fucking hello?

Kurt: bitch???

don’t fucking add me to a chat and have no context for it other than this is needed

8:45 AM

Jesse: it’s because we’re walking mental illnesses 

so stfu

haters

11/26/11

9:18 AM

Finn Hudson created a new chat!

Finn Hudson added Kurt Hummel, Santana Lopez and 2 others to the chat!

Finn Hudson named the chat: Mission: Jesse St. James’ Birthday Party Celebration 

Kurt: stop adding me to chats with no context for it

Finn: no :3

Kurt: fucking killing myself  

Santana: you’re too gay to die Kurt

Kurt: i swear on my mom’s fucking grave

Santana: :>

Kurt: kmfuckings

Santana: sigh

Brittany: unicorn :(

Kurt: I wish I couldn’t be joking around about this shit cause it’s actually hella funny

Santana: no you’re just mentally ill :>

Kurt: don’t out me like that :(

Santana: :>

11/26/11

12:13 PM

St Hudson is Hella Gay:

Quinn: guys I think I’m hella mentally ill

Kurt: yooooo

same

Jesse: Finn’s booking me my first therapy appointment

which is…lovely

ily finny

Finn: :3

ily2

but I’m still worried about your mental state 

Jesse: finleeeeyyyyyyyy

:c

Finn: stillllllll

Kurt: STOP FLIRTING IN THE FUCKING GROUP CHAT

Jesse: we could sext here if you’d rather?

Kurt: stfu

Finn: Jesse

he kinda hates us

Kurt: I’m going to fucking kms

Jesse: hella ironic since you’re gay

Kurt: not my fault you stole my brother

anyways I’m scheduling a therapy appointment for myself so I don’t kms instead

haters

Jesse St Whore will cough in 3 days

Jesse: homophobia 

Kurt: die 

Chapter Text

11/30/11

3:22 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ Messages:

Finn: happy day of birth :3

Jesse: Finley 

it’s almost 3:30 AM

please sleep

Finn: I’ve tried already 

and tis your day of birth

ilysm 

Jesse: sigh

ily2 

Finn: :3

Jesse: :3

okay I can’t sleep now

youre gonna pay me through birthday LB trip

Finn: ofc ofc

uoure my favorite person 

Jesse: and you’re mine

my favorite person

and my best friend and lover 

Finn: :3

11/30/11

10:10 AM

Mission: Jesse St James’ Birthday Party Celebration:

Finn: hi gays

Kurt: crying rn

and yes, I’m sure we’re all VERY well aware that it’s St. Whore’s birthday

I don’t care but if it makes you any happier, I’ll act like I do

Finn: yippee!!

alright cool

love you 

Kurt: yeah

ly2

11:12 AM

 
Finn: and the party’s at his place from 6-11

Kurt: kmfuckings

Finn: :c

Santana: fucking cry about it :>

11/30/11

3:14 PM

Kurt Hummel and Jesse St James’ Messages:

Kurt: happy fucking birthday 

Jesse: Finn told you to text me, didn’t he

Kurt: no comment

blocking you now <3

Jesse: fuck you too

Kurt: I’m telling both of our boyfriends

happy fucking birthday

have fun being a year closer to death

Jesse: die <3

Kurt: I want to <3

unfortunately Blaine tells me he doesn’t want to start funeral planning until after our wedding though </3

Jesse: real

11/30/11

6:15 PM

Finn enters the St James household, handing Jesse a bouquet of assorted flowers. The shorter teen smiles, quickly pressing a kiss to Finn’s lips. Finn smiles, reciprocating the kiss. 

“Hi, lover.” Jesse says, still smiling as they both pull away from each other.

”Hi,” Finn giggles, pressing another kiss to Jesse’s mouth. “And a happy day of birth to you and you only.”

Jesse then laughs. “You’re an idiot.”

Finn shrugs. “I try my best though.”

Jesse nods. “I know you do.”

The two then take a moment to just look at each other, both getting equally lost in their gazes.

”People are arriving.” Jesse says, looking down.

Finn sighs and lightly traces a finger against Jesse’s hand. “I love you.”

Jesse smiles. “I love you mostest.” He pulls away and goes to the door.

Santana and Brittany are standing outside, Santana’s arms crossed around her chest as she glares at Jesse. Brittany nudges her girlfriend and then hands Jesse a homemade birthday card.

”Thanks, Brittany.” Jesse says, smiling softly to the blonde.

Brittany nods, entering the house with Santana. She rubs her thumb against Santana’s arm and smiles softly to her. 

“Happy one year closer to death, St Fucks.” Santana mutters. 

Jesse shakes his head. “Yeah, thanks, Satan.”

Santana rolls her eyes, falling against the couch cushions.

Santana’s Twitter:

@Sn1xxTana: I want to commit vandalism. @KHummel wya bitch

12 likes, 2 quote tweets, 1 repost, 1 comment

Comments:

@KHummel: literally just trying to sleep cause I’m running off 5 hours of sleep <3

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1 reply:

@Sn1xxTana: bitch you need a better sleep schedule ASAP

Only an hour passes and there’s alcohol. Santana refuses every time she gets offered a drink, she refuses it, and lays her head on either Brittany’s shoulder or her lap.

“Sannie,” Brittany says, pressing a small kiss to her girlfriend’s forehead. 

Santana looks up to the blonde. “Yeah?”

“I love you.” Brittany smiles.

”I love you too.”

Jesse then looks to Finn, who’s smiling at his boyfriend. 

“I’ll um be right back.” Finn says, getting up and leaving the room.

Jesse takes this as a chance to jump onto Finn’s back, so that’s what he decides to do.

”Boyfriend attack!” Jesse exclaims. 

Finn laughs, continuing to walk. Jesse starts to whisper some things to Finn and the taller boy stops in his tracks and starts to head to Jesse’s room instead.

11/30/11

9:59 PM

Santana Lopez and Kurt Hummel’s messages:

Santana: hi gay

i know you’re trying to sleep (or so you said)

but I’m pretty sure that your brother and that whore are fucking

so Britts and I are coming over

might even bring the one that is Trouty Mouth

Kurt: istg

I can’t sometimes

Santana: cry about it

Kurt: kmfuckings

Santana: you’re too gay to die :<

Kurt: I swear on my mom’s grave

yeah you guys can come over

Santana: FUCKING BET

Kurt Hummel you’re my savior

Kurt: okay

whatever

that’s chill I guess

Santana: yippee :>
be expecting two and a half gays

Kurt: and a half?

murder?

Santana: I wish

but no 

I meant Trouty by and a half

Kurt: figures.

alright see you whenever you get here

Santana: they’re definitely fucking

Jesse’s hella loud 

Omw

Kurt: bet

Chapter Text

12/01/11

4:32 AM

St Hudson Is Hella Gay:

Auntie Snixx: hi gay people

here’s the fucking shit

There are 24 days until Gay-mas  

Finn: we’re very well aware

Auntie Snixx: stfu homophobe

Finn: I’m not homophobic???

Auntie Snixx: didn’t fucking ask

anygays

The idiot that is of Samuel Jessica Trouty Mouth FUCKING Evans decided to be an idiot and ask if bald people have to wear hair nets

Samuel: it’s a question that needs an answer 

stop being biphobic

Auntie Snixx: no :>

12/01/11

6:12 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ messages:

Finn: hey gorgeous, I’m not gonna be on my phone much of today because I’m going to be busy :3

i love you and will talk asap

9:30 AM

Jesse: sorry i was asleep

lover :c

ily2 and talk to you soon

VA has rehearsal anyways

10:14 AM

Jesse: are you okay though?

finn?

finny?

12/01/11

11:38 AM

Santana Lopez’s and Finn Hudson’s messages:

Santana: bitch

Jesse St Fucker’s fucker

Did you leave your phone in one of your jean pockets and put it in the washer?

dumbass

fucking answerrrrrrrr

nvfm

bitch

>:c

1:13 PM

Finn: tf?

”Jesse St Fucker’s Fucker”?

Santana: that’s my new contact name for you :>

Finn: I was trying to come out to my mom????

Santana: OH!

sorry

continue :>

Finn: Jesus Christ, Santana

Santana: >:3

12/01/11

4:15 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ messages:

Finn: sorry

i was coming out to my mom and Burt

because I finally know and have come to terms with my sexuality 

Jesse: omg

thats good, right?

they’re happy for you?

Finn: they are

the most accepting people ever actually

Jesse: then well yay!

im proud of you :3

Finn: stop it!!

Jesse: no :3

Finn: sigh

youre adorable but you’re also an idiot 

Jesse: good

because good

Finn: I can’t with you sometimes.

Jesse: >:3

gonna kiss you next time we see each other

Finn: jesse charles zachariah st james

Jesse: finn christopher hudson

Finn: I can’t with you sometimes

Jesse: you should call me

i want to congratulate you for being brave enough to come out to your family

Finn: fine fine 

calling now

Jesse: yippee!

[loml finny hudson <3 is calling]
answer?

yes/no

12/01/11

6:18 PM

St Hudson Is Hella Gay:

Kurt: Finn shut up please

we don’t need to know what you and Jesse are doing just please shut up

i hate having a room next to yours

Auntie Snixx: he’s doing gay shit isn’t he?

Kurt: when isn’t he though?

Auntie Snixx: valid

also congrats for coming out as bisexual finley

we love and support you :>

Kurt: he was nearly crying btw

he actually thought that Carole was going to hate him or something

like she has a gay stepson

Finn: woah Kurt you’re gay?

thats insane

I thought you were genderfluid

Kurt: I’m figuring shit out

also Blaine’s in this chat btw 

so if/when he sees all this he’s going to either be hella confused or something

Finn: shit sorry

thanks Santana

Auntie Snixx: woah

kurt you’re genderfluid?

don’t just start a convo like that and then make us change the subject 

Kurt, pronouns

pronoun check

Kurt, pronouns

Kurt: I hate you

finn, this is your fault by the way 

Finn: sorry :c

Kurt: it’s only fine because you just came out to Carole

Samuel: wait

kurt you’re genderfluid

Kurt: someone change the subject before I kms

like I’m not even kidding

im still trying to figure it all out anyways

Chapter Text

12/04/11

7:12 AM

St Hudson Is Hella Gay:

Jesse: woah

a lot of shit went down without me?

Kurt’s genderfluid???

Kurt: can you guys stop saying that?

I haven’t even figured this out for myself, and even when I do, it’s not like I’m going to tell you of all people 

Jfc

Jesse: pansexual-phobia in the chat

Kurt: die

12/04/11

9:30 AM

Santana Lopez created a new chat!

Santana Lopez added Kurt Hummel and Finn Hudson to the chat!

Santana named the chat “Furtana Shenanigans”

Santana: :>
Kurt this is mostly for you not to worry about what Hobbit’s going to say if you’re genderfluid :>

Kurt: thanks?

it’s not that I think Blaine’s going to be upset it’s that I don’t want people talking about it before I can figure this shit out.

Finn: sorry :c

Kurt: I really don’t care.

just let me figure this out please and thank you 

Santana: for sure for sure

Kurt: I think I’m genderfluid anyways

its all kind of confusing y’know?

Like, I’ve been called a girl by Karofsky and Azimio 

I’ve been told that I’m girly

I’ve been used to it

For now pronoun wise is he/they please

Santana: gotchu

Finn: alrighty

sorry again

Kurt: don’t be

im just trying to figure this shit out

Santana: :c

Kurt: sigh

Santana you should move in

Santana: I should :>
and I might

Kurt: FUCK YEAH

Santana: LMFAO

okay thank you gay and bisexual

Finn: :3

Kurt: no thank YOU Santana Lopez

always there for me 

ily platonically

Santana: always :>

12/04/11

4:30 PM

Santana Lopez and Brittany Pierce’s Messages:

Brittany: Lord Tubbington tried to put a fork in the toaster

i think he wants to plan out my end

Santana: Britt????

Brittany: yeah idk

it just seems weird

Santana: that cat

crazy creature

Brittany: very

Santana: i love you 

Brittany: I love YOU

Santana: :3

Brittany: :3

Santana: you’re my favorite person

Brittany: you’re my favorite person

i love you <3

Santana: I love YOU <33

Brittany: <33

Chapter Text

12/09/11

3:13 AM

A Trio Of Mental Illnesses:

Jesse: let’s say hypothetically

i were to come out to my parents as pansexual?

what are the chances of my mom beating me?

Kurt: omfg

let Finn be there at least

Quinn: why are you guys up

Jesse: because why the fuck NOT, Quinnie

Quinn: I wish death upon you Jesse

Jesse: good to know

thanks Kurt

Kurt: yeah, yeah, whatever

im going back to bed now 

12/09/11

6:08 AM

Finn Hudson And Jesse St James’ Messages:

Jesse: hi Lover, I’m going to be away from my phone for the day. I’m coming out to my dad :3

Finn: :c

good luck Jess :3

lmk if it’s too unsafe because of your mom or something

12/09/11

9:46 AM

Jesse sits on the side of his bed and looks forward. He knows that he’s ready. He’s just worried.

Jesse then makes his way down to the kitchen, wishing Finn was there with him.

Just breathe, Jesse. He thinks. 

“Hey, dad.” Jesse says. “I need to tell you and mom something.” 

Jesse’s dad nods, sitting down with Jesse’s mom on the living room couch.

You’ve gotten this far, Jesse. Just these next few words and that’s it. Just breathe.

”I need to get this out somewhere and I hope that you can both understand it.” Jesse starts. He then looks to the ground, inhaling deeply. 

Nicole looks to her son. “Well then, what is it?”

Jesse looks back up. He’s almost crying but he tries his best to keep himself calm. “I’m pansexual. I have a boyfriend. I’m sorry.” It escapes his mouth so quickly out of panic and Jesse then faces the ground again.

Neither of his parents react at first. They just sit there in silence for a minute. 

“We still love you, Jesse.” His father, Jared replies.

Jesse then looks to his mom, which was most of his fear for this confession. He wants to ask her something.

Just breathe, Jesse. He reminds himself. Jesse then grips at Finn’s jacket that he’s wearing for a search of comfort. Just fucking breathe.

Nicole stands up, looks towards Jesse and slaps him across the face. It’s too quick for him to react and stings immediately.

By now, Jade’s in the room, covering his eyes with his hands quickly and runs to the other room.

Jade gets onto Jesse’s phone and immediately calls Finn.

F: “Jesse? I thought you were away from your phone for the day?”

[a few seconds of silence and crying]

F: “Jesse?”

J: “Jesse got hit by mommy. H-he’s on the ground. I-it’s not safe.” 

F: ”Jade? I’m on my way. Go get Jesse and I’ll be there as soon as I possibly can.”

J: “Okay.”

[the line disconnects]

Jade runs back down and finds Jesse now standing next to their dad, face clear of tears.

”I’ve tried parenting you, Jessica. Not only are you trans but now you’re telling me that you have a boyfriend?” Nicole exclaims. “Where did I go wrong with you.”

Jesse’s lip trembles and he’s shaking again. He wants to stand up for himself but before he can, Finn gets let in by Jade.

”F-Finn.” Jesse whispers. 

Finn hates seeing Jesse like this. He hates it when his boyfriend is sad and upset. 

“Hey are you his mom?” Finn asks Nicole, who nods. “Great. I’m his boyfriend, I’m the quarterback on my school’s football team, and my stepdad is a congressman. I also happen to have a brother who’s gay and not that you need to know but my family tends to be very accepting and supportive of our sexualities.” 

Nicole glares at him. “So your parents are okay that you’re a sinner?” She asks, disgusted.

Finn nods. “Hell yeah. Actually, nobody in my family is religious. But they’ll care for Jesse either way.” 

Finn grabs hold of Jesse’s hand before continuing. “And I’m proud of Jesse for being who he is. So,” he faces Jared. “We’ll be leaving now.” He turns back to Nicole. “One day you’ll realize how stuck in the past you are, Mrs. St. James. Then you’ll be sorry.”

Both Finn and Jesse then leave and Jade looks towards Finn, hugging him before leaving.

“I’m sorry,” Jesse whispers. “For everything, for pulling you into this. For being…a failure.” 

Finn puts his hand on top of Jesse’s, frowning. “It’s not your fault, Jesse. You were trying to come out and have support at home.”

Jesse starts crying again. “But I knew she was going to act like that. I don’t get why it’s always towards me or what I even did to her.”

Finn then kisses away a tear from Jesse’s face, looking at him. “It’s not your fault though, Jess. Your mom is just stuck in the past. It’s not right.”

Jesse then sighs. “I’m just sick and tired of trying to please her.”

12/09/11

8:39 PM

St Hudson Is Hella Gay:

Jesse: never come out to homophobic people

worst decision of my life

Kurt: do you need to talk to someone?

Jesse: no Finn and I talked the whole way back.

thanks though

Samuel: I’m releasing John and his family on all homophobic or who we assume are homophobic people

starting with on Blaine’s dad

Blaine: what

Samuel: oh nothing for you to know about

Blaine: okay?

Kurt: speaking of coming out

i’m hella genderfluid 

fuck gender honestly

Auntie Snixx: HELL YEAH KURT

GENDERFLUID BEST FRIEND 

FUCKING HELL YEAH

FUCK GENDER NORMS

Auntie Snixx renamed the chat “Fuck Gender Norms”!

Kurt: santana

ily

Santana: wrong 

ily2

Finn: GENDERFLUID SIBLING

FUCK YEAH

Blaine: GENDERFLUID BOYFRIEND

partner?

Kurt: idc 

Auntie Snixx: Kurt pronouns

Kurt pronoun check

Kurt: SIGHHHHHH

any with a preference of he/they ig

Auntie Snixx: HELL YEAH

12/09/11

11:35 PM

Nicole St James and Jesse St James’ Messages:

Jesse: I’m here to say this

i don’t know WHERE you went wrong in raising me

but i have a boyfriend and I’m happy

Nicole: you’re going to go to hell

Jesse: fine, better than seeing you

Im moving out of the house.

Dad already knows

disrespectfully, fuck you, mom

Nicole: that’s no way to speak to your mother, Jessica.

Jesse: stop calling me that

I don’t go by fucking Jessica anymore

fucking deal with it

Nicole: I will continue to call you by the name I chose for you

Jesse: oh my god MOM

Nicole: I named you Jessica, that’s how I will address you 

[this contact has blocked you]

Nicole: Jessica

[this contact has blocked you]

Nicole: one day you’ll learn that I was right and then you’ll come crawling back to me saying “mom you were right”

[this contact has blocked you]

Chapter Text

12/13/11

9:34 AM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Auntie Snixx: But in all seriousness 

is St Whore okay?

Jesse: firstly

i cut off contact with my mom 

secondly

stop calling me St Whore

Auntie Snixx: ugh

youre no fun

Jesse: I hate gay people

Auntie Snixx: WOAH

most people that are in here are some sort of queer

dont be homophobic 

Jesse: kmfuckings

Kurt: I’m going to kmfuckings

Auntie Snixx: stop it

suddenly this got hella depressing

Kurt: good to know that I’m doing my job correctly 

Samuel: no?

because who’s the one that “hallucinates” squirrels

Kurt: jfc

Quinn: I can’t with you people

Auntie Snixx: okay whatever

12/13/11

11:32 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Finn: guess who just got yelled at 

Jesse: what in the world did you do now

Finn: dude idk

Jesse: “dude”

as if you forgot that you saved me from my abusive mother, have made out with me on numerous occasions, etc

Finn: :c

we don’t talk about your mom after what she did to you

Jesse: istg

still wtf did you do

Finn: caught Santana and Brittany making out in an empty classroom

i might need to bleach my eyes out 

Jesse: Finny, 

honey, no

that’d be hypocritical 

Finn: sigh

I love you 

Jesse: I like you too

Finn: BITCH?!?!

Jesse: YOU CALLED ME DUDE 

so I’m not going to say that I love you back

Finn: no New Year’s kiss for you then

Jesse: BITCH?!?!

I love you 

Finn: i love you too

was that so hard

Jesse: you’re fucking insane

Finn: last I checked, I wasn’t my brother

Jesse: I hate you

Finn: fine by me 

bitch

Jesse: you’re not invited to my funeral

Finn: like you can decide who comes

Jesse: Finn…

Finn: OKAY SHUT THE HELL UP

Jesse: no <3

12/13/11

1:25 PM

Furtana Shenanigans:

Santana: Brittany’s making me apologize

so Finn

im not sorry

Finn: it’s fine I guess

Kurt: Finn I thought you’d be used to it by now

Finn: I’m going to cry

Kurt: okay

i dont care

doesnt affect me

Finn: I hate you

Kurt: I hate myself too

youre not special

everyone hates me 

Santana: I’m not going to your funeral Kurt

Kurt: idgaf

12/13/11

5:19 PM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Jesse: Finn called me dude

Kurt: is St Hudson breaking up?

Finn: I said that I was sorry

and that I caught Brittana making out in an empty classroom

Auntie Snixx: oh you fucking bitch

Finn, ima beat you up istg

Finn: I didn’t do anything?

Auntie Snixx: because I want to

Sam, let John out

Samuel: on it asap

Jesse: I’m gonna kmfuckings

Finn: N O 

Chapter Text

12/18/11

8:35 AM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Auntie Snixx: hi shits

Jesse: me included?

Auntie Snixx: no just you

anyways I’m spending Christmas with my family 

as a good daughter does

and my abuela’s going to be there

Kurt: don’t do anything stupid

Auntie Snixx: ignoring you

anygays Tis the fucking season to be straight

Samuel: *str@!ght

Auntie Snixx: you’re next on my hit list

Jesse: you have a hit list?

Auntie Snixx: yes and you’re on it now too

K we have two other people 

Kurt: bet

Samuel: :(

Auntie Snixx: no

12/18/11

12:12 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ Messages: 

Jesse: hi lover :3

Finn: hi :3

Jesse: what are you doing for Christmas this year

Finn: if I told you, I’d ruin the surprise 

Jesse: :c

okay well

i love you 

Finn: and I love you too :3

Jesse: you’re my favorite person 

Finn: you’re my favoriter person

12/18/11

2:29 PM 

Santana Lopez and Brittany S. Pierce’s Messages:

Brittany: how do I mail myself to you 

because I want to be your Christmas gift 

Santana: Britt

you can come over whenever 

Brittany: I love you 

Santana: and I love you too

Brittany: you’re my favorite person 

Santana: and you’re my favortist person ever

Brittany: <3

Santana: <3

12/18/11

6:30 PM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Auntie Snixx: okay bitches

Party on the 31st 

Samuel: yippee 

Kurt: kmfuckings 

Auntie Snixx: don’t do that

Chapter Text

12/25/11

2:20 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ Messages:

Jesse: I know that you’re asleep

but I just wanted to tell you that I love you 

Finn: I am NOT asleep 

and I love you too

Jesse: go to sleep asshole

Finn: woah

ive been asleep for 7 hours 

Jesse: sigh

okay just don’t do anything stupid

Finn: I can’t 

I don’t know how to be stupid anymore.

Sam stole all the stupid and took it with him when he started hallucinating squirrels

Jesse: I love you 

Finn: I love you too <3

Merry Christmas 

12/25/11

4:30 AM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Auntie Snixx: I know I said I wasn’t going to be texting until AFTER New Year’s 

but some hella shit came down involving Jesse

Jesse: tf?

Auntie Snixx: [Link: A Most Recent Article About How Jesse’s Sexuality & Relationship With Finn; Having a News Reporter Talking With His Mom About It And She Says “It Destroyed My Family And My Youngest Now Fears Her”]

Jesse: Jade doesn’t fucking fear me

but what the FUCK

12/25/11

4:45 AM

A Trio Of Mental Illnesses:

Kurt: holy FUCK Jesse got hella outed by his mom

Quinn: “[…] she’s a disgrace to the St James’ family and I never want to see her again”

shit Jesse I’m so fucking sorry

Jesse: it’s fine

Kurt: no the fuck it’s not???

Jesse: I’m dealing with it though and I’m trying not to think about it

Not like I’m seeing her over Christmas

12/25/11

6:24 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ Messages:

Finn: I saw the article as soon as I woke up this morning 

are you doing okay?

7:16 AM

Finn: Jess?

8:43 AM

Jesse: I’m doing fine

Just stressed but I’m handling it 

Finn: :c

i love you 

Jesse: ily2 

9:32 AM

Jesse: am I a disgrace?

Finn: what? No of course not

Jesse: ok

ily and I’ll see you soon okay?

Finn: ily2 and okay

text your therapist if you need to 

Jesse: I already am

youre my new therapist 

boyfriend therapist

Finn: the things I do for you though

Jesse: :3

Finn: :3

dont die please

Jesse: no promises :3

Finn: what am I supposed to do if you die and leave me

Jesse: suffer

Finn: sigh

i love you 

Jesse: I love you too

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12/31/11

9:30 AM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Auntie Snixx: party at mine and it’s at 9 tn

But I’d still like to ask

Jesse are you doing any better?

Jesse: no St Whore or St Fucks?

insane

But yeah I’m doing better

finn makes everything better

Auntie Snixx: shut up I’m actually TRYING to be nice to you 

Jesse: well thanks?

I think?

Auntie Snixx: it’s just glee club and like nobody else btw

No need to worry about anything

Jesse: yes there is???

Auntie Snixx: we all know you’re pan and trans and with Finn. You’re literally fine

Samuel: John wants to come with

Auntie Snixx: I’ll hang John on the ceiling fan if you bring him

Samuel: I’m calling animal control 

Auntie Snixx: like they’d pick up for you 

   
Samuel: :(

Auntie Snixx: you’re dead to me 

12/31/11

4:13 PM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ messages:

Jesse: I love you 

Finn: sudden and random and unexpected 

I love you too

Jesse: I’m gonna pick you up in a bit

Finn: okay

I’ll see you in a bit then

Jesse: yes you will :3

Finn: :3

Jesse: :3

i’ll see you in a few 

Finn: don’t text and drive I’m not ready for a funeral

Jesse: :3

Finn: sigh

12/31/11

7:45 PM

Santana Lopez and Brittany S. Pierce’s Messages:

Brittany: my girlfriend’s so pretty

Santana: you may think that 

but you’re prettier

Brittany: :(

but you’re the prettiest

Santana: wrong

youre the prettiest

12/31/11

8:56 PM

Once Jesse and Finn arrive to Santana’s place, they’re greeted by Brittany standing up and waving at them to come in. Jesse clutches at Finn’s hand as they both walk further into the house.

”You’re sure that you’re doing okay?” Finn asks as he glances at Jesse.

Jesse nods slowly, inhaling deeply as he pulls himself together. He still looks to the ground and then back to Finn. “I’m fine. I’ll be fine.”

Sam arrives shortly after 9 and eventually, everyone’s there. Santana’s giggling in Brittany’s lap as her girlfriend’s arms are wrapped around her middle in a protective way. Santana interlocks their fingers and stares into the blonde’s eyes for a second. 

Jesse looks to Finn as he stands up, smiling softly to the taller teen. Finn smiles back and almost gets lost in his boyfriend’s gaze. 

12/31/11

11:53 PM

Santana Lopez and Jesse St. James’ Messages:

Santana: hurry tf up queer it’s almost midnight

Jesse: give me a second, Jesus Christ Santana

Santana: hurry tf up then

we want to watch St Hudson kiss

Jesse: omw.

12/31/11

11:58 PM

Jesse comes back into the Lopez living room and Santana’s arms are crossed as she looks to Jesse.

Jesse shrugs and Brittany keeps looking at the clock, waiting for midnight to hit.

Finn and Jesse look and each other again, fingers intertwining as the clock hits at midnight.

Both boy’s lips touch and part after a few seconds.

”You could’ve made out and I would’ve killed to watch.” Sam interjects.

”I will murder you, Evans.” Jesse argues, scowling at him.

Chapter Text

2/14/12

6:16 AM

Instead of the usual screeching of his alarm, today Jesse woke up to the feeling of arms sneaking around him, and a heavenly voice whispering in his ear.

"Happy valentines baby" Jesse turns to gaze at his beautiful boyfriend. Taking his time to admire him.

"You too, lover" Jesse responds, his face breaking into a warm smile, as Finn rest his head on the crook of his neck, peppering it with lazy kisses.

"Wanted to make your morning special. At least until we have to leave for hell." Finn says in between his kisses.

"Oh you did. This is just enough y'know. You don't need to do any big presents or anything, all i need is you, next to me." Jesse assured him, hand going up to caress Finn's cheek.

"As sweet as that sounds, I am not NOT doing anything today. It's our special day okay? Try and stop me."

"I guess I just don't understand the concept. Why does there have to be a special day? I love you all day every day of the year right? why does this one day matter?"

"It's not about that, it's-" Finn rolls him over, looking into Jesse's eyes as he declares his next words.

"Of course I love you everyday, but I can't devote my everyday to you, as much as I want to, life gets in the way 

yknow. But today is about letting everything aside so we can just love eachother, nothing else. Not that we would forget but it's nice to remind eachother that this is important to us both."

Jesse stares at him in wonder, left speechless at how much emotion Finn just poured out.

"Please say something."

"I might have a new favourite holiday." Finn giggles, leaning in to steal a kiss, then many more. 

2/14/12

Fuck Gender Norms:

6:47 AM

Kurt: [image attached: Finn and Jesse cuddling in bed, shot throught the crack of the door]

ew

do you guys see what i have to put up with everyday

Auntie Snixx: ew 

Valentines Day should be for the lesbians

Samuel: isn't that just lesbian day

Brittany: every day is lesbian day if youre awesome enough

Finn: KURT WTF STOP SPYING ON US

you're just jealous cause your boyfriend doesn't live with you

Samuel: BURNNNN

Kurt: stfu sam

i'm gonna burn your pancakes this morning

Samuel: :((

Finn: i'll make you new ones sam

Samuel: :))

Auntie Snixx: oh god hudmel house is no longer

Finn: i CAN cook!!

Auntie Snixx: why do i not believe you at all??

Jesse: yes he can i can vouch

Auntie Snixx: ofc you come in 

yes youre so fucking in love we get it

EURGH GET A ROOM

Jesse: we're already in a room

Finn: yes he's texting next to me

Kurt: stop fucking and come down then

im not cooking for an ARMY alone

Auntie Snixx: seriously how many of you are there

how do you put up with that kurt

Kurt: I CANT

UGH

Blaine: dw kurtie

omw :3

Kurt: :3

1:16 PM

Samuel: do we have glee today??

Kurt: no

even if we do im cancelling it rn

im NOT spending my valentines listening to shoes 

Finn: i have plans

cant come anyways

Kurt: of course you do

Finn: you have a bf too??

Kurt: yeah but mine doesn't suck

Finn: well mine does

and he's damn good at it too

Kurt: MY FUCKING GOD I SWEAR 

Auntie Snixx: FINN UGH

STOP

im muting yall im gonna go hug brit

Brittany: yey <3

san says we wont be coming to practice also

and she hates all of you

Samuel: so...

no glee??

Kurt: NO

go find some lonely people to flirt with sam

Samuel: cant

im being tracked

Kurt: ...

Jesse and Finn's Messages

3:43 PM

Finn: im waiting by the car

you

Jesse: i know

coming

dont die while i walk there

Finn: no promises :))

Jesse: think about all the cake you get to eat today baby

Finn: youre all the dessert i need baby :))

Jesse: OH MY GOD

i'm there in a minute.

Jesse is met with the sight of his boyfriend, smiling down at his phone.

"Texting anyone handsome?"

"Yes. Very much so. I'm lucky to call him my boyfriend." Finn responds, grinning ear to ear.

"Oooh sounds like a catch then. You're not so bad yourself. I would totally ask you out if i wasn't taken myself." Jesse  jokes back.

"Such a pity. We could have been a cute couple." Finn giggles. It's Jesse's favourite sound on this earth by far. He snuggles closer to wrap his arms around Finn and kiss his reddened cheek.

"You're cold love."

"Not as cold as my heart before I met you." Finn flirts easily, it wasn't like him to be this smooth. He was usually shy with his flirting, tripping over some words, but Jesse found it incredibly cute.

"You're on a roll today, finny. So... flirty." 

"It's the atmosphere. All the couples, and red hearts and decorations everywhere." 

It doesn't make sense to Jesse, it feels like just another day, but he doesn't ask. He knows it's special for Finn, that he wants to treat Jesse today, fine by him, he's never one to say no to more attention. 

In a way Jesse understands, he also loves drowning his partner in love and affection, he just does it whenever he can, not a particular day. But Finn has been one to love every holiday anyways. Jesse never did, at least not before, but seeing Finn so happy, Jesse's heart melts away. 

So he goes along, pretending to believe that holidays aren't 

just made up by people to create fake sense of something special for people that have none in their life. Jesse doesn't need that anyways, he has his very own something special.

He hugs his boyfriend tight, kissing his smiling lips, and his happiness is infectious. Jesse feels himself smiling right back.

Chapter Text

6/05/12

8:14 AM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Auntie Snixx: guys this is my last time saying St James is a whore :c

Jesse: I will not miss it btw

Auntie Snixx: fuck you

Jesse: I have a boyfriend 

Brittany: I thought pansexual meant that you’re attracted to pans

Artie Abrams: Jesus Christ 

Auntie Snixx: Watch it Abrams or I’ll wheel you into oncoming traffic 

Kurt: jfc

im not going to miss anyone except for Finn, Santana and maybe Blaine

Blaine: :c

Finn: guys this is our last time seeing each other

Jesse: and then army boyfriend

Kurt: don’t die

Finn: I won’t :3

6/05/12

9:10 AM

Finn Hudson and Jesse St James’ Messages: 

Finn: i love you

Jesse: ily2

and the mostest

forever and always 

Finn: no because

because because BECAUSE

i love YOU the mostest and forever and always and forever and ever 

Jesse: :3

Finn: :3

6/05/12

12:54 PM

Probably for the second time ever in Finn’s life, he’s actually nervous. Terrified even. He’s hours from going out into the real world and it’s scaring him.

The first time he was terrified like this was when his dad didn’t come home from the army.

So make that three times. Because also when he and Jesse first confessed to one another.

Finn’s taking in everything within McKinley to remember. The halls, the people, everything. 

He looks around, sighing deeply.

Finn knows he needs to take in these last few hours, that the clock is ticking down and had been since he first walked into the school.

He knows that he’s going to the army to redeem his father, as that was his post-graduation plan if he didn’t get accepted into an acting school.

Jesse was accepted into NYADA not too long ago. Both teens were almost crying when Jesse had told Finn.

Just these next few hours, Finn. Then you’re free…sort of. 

6/05/12

2:13 PM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Finn: and a huge thank you to Mr Schuester and the Glee Club!

Kurt: stop

I get you’re excited

but when did Mr Schuester EVER notice anyone besides you and Rachel?

Auntie Snixx: Yeah Finn

bitch

Finn: what

Kurt: never mind

we graduate in like- 45 mins

then i can kmfuckings

Finn: if I don’t die you can’t die either

who’d I go to when it comes to sexuality problems?

Kurt: again

kmfuckings

Finn: :c

6/05/12

3:00 PM

The auditorium is packed. Each and every seat filled with families and friends.

Finn’s behind the curtain shaking as Santana’s fixing her mascara.

Kurt’s there, biting his nail and leg bouncing.

”We’re actually going to get out of here.” Finn says to them.

”Unless they keep your diploma and make you retake a class because you were fucking blackmailed into joining glee club.” Kurt glares at him.

Finn’s brows furrow. “Don’t be so uptight. Jesus Christ.”

”Don’t know him.” Santana laughs.

Finn glares to Santana. “Nor do I but please for the love of our sanity, don’t be bitches until after the graduation ceremony.”

It’s then that Principal Figgins starts listing off the names of the 2012 seniors, who make their way to grab their diplomas and wave to their parents and friends.

Once Finn’s out their, he makes eye contact with Jesse, who’s got his hands in the form of a heart and mouths an ‘I love you’ to Finn.

All the seniors are now holding their diplomas, getting applauded by teachers, friends, and family. Finn notices how his mom is practically in tears over this and he smiles as her.

6/05/12

9:35 PM

Fuck Gender Norms:

Kurt: we FUCKING graduated bitches

never setting foot in that school again

I hope that John burns it down

Samuel: John is a well trained squirrel and will do no such thing.

Auntie Snixx: I’m keeping Alvin as a pet btw

Samuel: sigh

alas he had to go away

Blaine: so like- what now

not to ruin the moment but what now

Jesse: Now I have an army boyfriend who just graduated and make my way off to NY without you losers

Auntie Snixx: ima say it again

St Hudson Is Hella Gay

and good night to you bitches minus Britt and K 

Brittany: :3

Auntie Snixx: :3

also Jesse is still a whore and shit

Jesse: there it is

Auntie Snixx: okay NOW good night bitches minus Britt and K

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