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Prologue

[Kanade's father sickness only got worse and it put him to his deathbed, Kanade could only cry to herself praying her father would heal, but those prayers remain unanswered and unconsidered by fate itself]

[One day, she woke up and looked at herself at the mirror, she didn't know how much she had cried last night, but it was enough to turn her eyes bloodshot, she could only wipe the still-wet tears pooling down her sad and soft blue eyes, she had breakfast, she took a shower and changed into her daily clothes, it was a saturday, that means no school in the way, she gave a small mental smile but it quickly faded...]

Kanade's pov:

I received a call from the hospital my father was in, I prayed to myself it was actually good news (but those prayers only shattered and flew away as soon as I picked up.

I heard a soft yet urgent voice, it was the doctor who was in charge of taking care of my father.

"Are you mr. Yoisaki's daughter?"

"Yes"

I replied trying to keep it neutral

The man replied

"Come at the hospital, we have to discuss something"

I felt a lump in my throat and fear mixed with anticipation washed over myself, I got out of the house and began to reach the hospital and immediately barged in my father's room, I saw him lying there, BARELY ALIVE, his eyelids barely open and looked too weak to speak

🔴 before character death [FEEL FREE TO SKIP]

The doctor looked at me and sighed.

"Kiddo I'm so sorry, your father doesn't have much time left, he has left like 40 minutes to live, his sickness could only get worse to the point we have left little to nothing to do than accept he will no longer be with us tomorrow"

My eyes widened and my eyes could only well up with fresh yet warm tears.

"N-no please, there might be a solution, no I can't accept his death easily, he is like the only person I have left"

I muttered shakily, trying not to break down.

"K-Kanade"

The voice of my father interrupted my silent sobs, I turned to him, he gestured to come near him and I obeyed, he tried to sit up a bit, I had to help him since there wasn't much left before he would leave me.

He lifted up his hand and wiped the tears in my eyes, giving a sad smile. I spoke up.

"W-what is it papa?"

He replied with a sad, weak but reassuring tone

"I wouldn't ask you more than to keep making music and believe in yourself, I may be gone but..."

he cupped my face, his touch was like the first time he met me, my mom was resting after a painful yet worth it birth, he was the first one to see me I could still hear his first words to me

"Kanade"

I snapped out of the flashback and looked at my father, having a confused look

"Nothing papa just... feelings"

He chuckled, just to light up the situation

"As I was saying, you still have me in your heart, your dreams, your hopes and your future goals, I love you Kanade"

I then replied, burying myself in his embrace:

"Thank you papa, thank you for making me discover my passion, thank you for helping me follow it even though you weren't there.
Thank you for everything"

I cried, he also held back tears, he knew I hated seeing him cry, I could feel his heart ache, and mine ached as well, as if they were connected.

Suddenly, his embrace became weaker and his last words were

"Sweetheart? Is that even you? You look like an angel, a beautiful one, with golden lights in long cyan and gold hair, a shiny golden halo and a melodious voice accompanied with the sound of an harp being stroken by the soft skin of her hands, I'll keep it in mind, at least my thoughts will be about you even if I'm dead"

He chuckled weakly and sadly, he then let out his last breath, his heartbeat became faint and I could feel his body temperature starting to drop, his skin becoming pale as the time went on and the heart monitor attached to him reached the end, only for it to let out a long and heart wrenching beep.

That sound alone was stabbing my already aching heart, I let out tearless sobs and silent cries.

The doctor sighed sadly

"I'm so sorry kiddo, I'm so sorry you may leave the hospital, we'll let you know about the burial date in a few days"

I left the room and returned home, taking off my shoes and running to my bedroom, going under the covers as I clutched my pillow, wetting it with my tears.

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[Due to Kanade not being able to be stable on her own, she was legally transferred to the Shinonome Household till she graduated from high school. She met Ena's brother, Akito who also had a band called Vivid bad squad, where he worked with An, Toya and Kohane. However that doesn't change Kanade's father's death affected her mentally, she would began harming herself and showing signs of procrastination, though she kept doing her homework she would just bedrot all day, in which worried Ena, Kanade though didn't want to share her suffering and just kept it to herself]

Ena's POV:

Kanade's state didn't seem to get better, Akito and I tried to interveine to let her get a grip on herself for her own good but it seemed useless, but despite that we never gave up.

We couldn't let Kanade's mental health get worse, we couldn't just stand there and let herself rot, we were going to help her or "die" trying, no matter what.

Kanade's POV:

I honestly felt trapped in myself, I wished I could let out the emotions that were bottled up inside me but it won't slide and I'm not sure why.

I'm so glad that Ena and Akito were there trying to reassure me that everything will be alright but for some reasons I refused their help, I couldn't bring myself to say "yes", and it made me feel guilty.

On a sunday evening, after we finished having dinner, I had a bit of motivation to go out for a walk but only because I wanted to go to the graveyard to visit my father's grave.

After 30 minutes of walking, I arrived, my feet were kinda sore from bedrotting for too long but I didn't mind, I couldn't let my lack of motivation prevent me from visiting my father's grave.

I surpassed the gate and entered the cemetery, there were tons of graves, after a bit of walking I identified my father's grave (and surprisingly, my mother's grave was near it).

It was heartwarming yet saddening, my parents grave being both together.

I crouched down and caressed both gravestones, feeling the cold stone against my index fingers along the engraved epitaph, it was kinda soothing yet chilling for me.

" Hi mom and dad, you guys may want to hear this"

I whispered softly, I then began to hum one of the recent song I composed with my band, the name was Melody Lit Sky (literally kanadetomosusora).

I hummed it quietly, almost like a if I were my mother singing a lullaby with a melodious voice.

I missed her voice, I missed my mom in general, she may not be here, but I feel like she would be proud of how far I got with me, my band, my dreams and pretty much everything.

I let out a sad sigh

"At least you guys are reunited again and that's good"

I caressed both gravestones again before I stood up and walked out of the graveyard, the soft ground sinking underneath my feet, they weren't that sore anymore, when I got out of the graveyard, I felt my phone buzzing in my left pocket, I pulled it out and checked the id's number.

"It's Ena"

I picked up and put the phone near my ear, I heard Ena's voice, she sounded worried.

"Kanade where are you, we're getting kinda worried"

She answered, I responded:

"Hey Ena, everything is okay, I was just visiting my parents grave, don't worry I'm safe, I'll be home soon."

I could hear her sighing in relief:

"Phew! We were getting worried about you and we were about to call the cops"

I chuckled slightly

"Ok ok I'm sorry I'm on my way"

I closed the call and put my phone right in my pocket, I began walking back home, it took me 30,minutes, I then knocked at the door.

Behind it, a relieved Ena was waiting for me with open arms.

"My god Kanade never scare us again"

She squeezed me tightly, I was kinda uncomfortable with how tight it was but at the same time it felt comforting.

Akito interveined by swatting me away from Ena.

"Ok ok I get she made us worry but can you at least let her breathe"

He scoffed semi-joking but in the end we both giggled.

🔴 Trigger warning for SH
(FEEL FREE TO SKIP)

I took a quick shower then changed into my pajamas, I slept into a room which used to be empty, until I arrived and got a bunch of furnitures and a lot of things from my house.

I sat down on the bed and turned on the lamp, I rolled up the left sleeve, revealing my self inflicted scars on my arm.

I thought to just suck up the blood like people would do on accidental papercuts.

It hurted so much, yet I couldn't stop inflicting those scars on myself.

I picked up a bandage and just wrapped my arm with it.

"I hope nobody notices"

I muttered, trying to hold back tears and hisses of pain.

I had no idea why I did that even though I was self aware of inflicting harm to myself.

After silently crying for 5 minutes I turned off the lamp, let my sleeve fall on my bandaged arm and just tuck myself under the covers hoping I'll have a good sleep.

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[This part will contain a bit of Kanamafu, Toyakito, platonic Ruikasa and Emusaki]

Kanade's POV:

I woke up and got out of bed, forgetting the events of last night, I got out of my room and was met by Ena, already dressed and smiling warmly as a tired and annoyed Akito follows her, he looked like he just wanted to stay in bed all day.

"Looks like someone is not a morning person, huh?"

I asked jokingly, Akito looked at me, his eyes narrowing and gritting his teeth in annoyance.

"Shut up!!"

He yelled while rubbing his eyes and letting out a long yawn.

"Damn chill"

Ena spoke up:

"Anyway breakfast is ready we will see you downstairs Kanade"

I nodded as I went to the bathroom and took a quick, warm shower, I put my clothes on and went downstairs where Ena and Akito were already munching on their breakfast, I sat near Ena, I picked up the cup and gave a few small sips of my drink till the cup was empty, I grabbed a piece of cake and munched on it.

"Never knew your mom could cook so good"

Ena didn't respond, she just gave me a small smile, while Akito was just busy munching on his food like he hasn't eaten in decades.

We grabbed our backpack and went out of the house, we began walking to school.

We arrived 10 minutes early so we just chatted a bit with the passing students.

I then bumped into Mafuyuu, she fell almost fell but managed to catch herself by grabbing onto an open locker.

"Oh my god, Mafu are you ok?"

I asked with worry, checking for any minor injures on her face, she chuckled

"Don't worry it's ok, accidents happens"

"I guess you're right, oh and also, meet me at the big tree in the backyard, after school though"

The bell rang

"Oh, guess I'll see you later Kanade"

Mafuyuu waved at me and ran to her class.

[Timeskip to lunchtime, they're in the backyard]

Tsukasa's POV:

I was munching on a tuna sandwich while watching
Emu and my sister, Saki hang out, they were besties to me, who knows, to be honest I don't care as I don't really have any interest in getting a partner and I'll let it be.

Rui suddenly came at me

"Heeeyyy Tsukasaaa"

I grunted in annoyance and glared at him

"No I'm not borrowing you my sandwich, learn to make your own lunch"

He got near me

"Ohh come on Tsukasa, one last time, you know me, just a small bite"

"Siiigh you know what"

I divived the sandwich in half and gave the other half to Rui.

"Cheers bud"

I chuckled, Rui joined me and took a bite

"Not gonna lie, it's like the sandwich just keeps getting better"

I rolled my eyes:

"Just feed yourself bud"

Akito's pov: (I gave him medium hair so chill)

"Toya be honest, would I look good with short hair?"

Toya smiled and kissed my cheek

"To me you'll look the same Akito-kun, always a gorgeous and handsome young man"

I blushed at his words and kissed him back, but on the nose.

"Hey, what if we kissed under the sunset with our feet, dipped in the immense sea water, maybe we can go for a walk on the seaside someday Toya"

"Akito I don't know, this is like the milionth time you asked me this question, again I don't know, I'll try to find a day out and maybe we can go there"

I smiled and I pinched his cheek, after that I gave a kiss right on his soft lips.

"You're the best boyfriend I've ever had"

Kanade's pov:

Today Mafuyuu was stunning, her long wavy purple hair was shining in the mid day sunlight, but for some reason she seemed so upset, who knows what was she upset about, maybe she would tell me this afternoon after school, I was kind of impatient to know what she had to tell me.

[Timeskip to after school]

Mafuyuu's POV:

I was waiting anxiously, tapping my foot in the meanwhile and checking the message my mother was sending me

Mom:

Why aren't you home yet?

Mafu:

Mom I'm busy with something, mama please I'll be quick

Mom:

You think I will buy that excuse, when you get home you will be in massive trouble young lady, just wait till your father comes home from work.

Mafu:

Mom, please

Mom:

ASAHINA MAFUYUU I'M YOUR MOTHER, I KNOW WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU, DISTRACTIONS ARE UNHEALTHY AND YOU KNOW THAT. YOU'RE COMING HOME AND THAT'S FINAL!!

That message was written in capital letters, mom was furious.

"Mafuyuu?"

I jumped, Kanade was in front of me and my phone was on maximum brightness

"Kanade!? You saw nothing! Ok?"

I stuttered with a tearful and terrified face, thankfully Kanade understood, after that I turned off my phone and put it in my pocket.

"L-let's be quick, my mom is just kind of strict"

Kanade nodded again, I took really deep breaths and calmed down

"So I think you do realize how close we are, like... really really close friends"

"Hm"

"And I was thinking... What if we took it to the next level?"

Kanade's expression changed into a look of surprise.

"WHAT!? I mean... this wasn't in my mental bingo buuuutt..."

I stared at her anxiously, but suddenly a smile lit up on her face, she rarely smiled but seeing such a wide smile from her was something new.

"We can give it a try, it won't hurt, right"

At the most unexpected moment she approached me and kissed my cheek, I blushed

"Kanade?"

"Hm? I guess you didn't like it"

"No I... I actually loved it but... i never expected you to be completely ok with this"

"Well I'm okay about it"

I was about to kiss her back but suddenly my phone rang

"Oh sorry"

I picked up my phone and my heart sank the moment I saw the caller's id...

It was my mom

I hesitantly picked up the call and the voice of a furious woman yelled:

"WHY AREN'T YOU HOME YET YOUNG LADY, IF YOU DON'T COME HOME RIGHT NOW I'LL COME THERE AND PICK YOU UP MYSELF WITH FORCE"

Kanade was startled by my mom's voice, but didn't say anything, I replied

"Mom I'll come home right now"

I then closed the call and hugged Kanade and left without saying a word.

Kanade's pov:

I didn't want to say anything but something told me that something was going on behind closed doors.

It worried me so much and I just wanted Mafuyuu to be alright, she was in danger, her either her mom or dad were a danger for her.

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🔴 Child Abuse (verbal and slightly physical) this whole chapter will be all about Mafuyuu being a victim of abuse by her mom)
[FEEL FREE TO SKIP]

Mafuyuu's POV:

Once I reached my house's door, I hesitantly knocked on the door, the door opened abruptly, a furious expression burning up on my mother's face.

She dragged me on the couch pinned me there while screaming at me

"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN YOU SICK BITCH!? DELUSIONAL FUCK! WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN??"

My dad entered and looked at the scene with wide eyes

"Darling, what are you doing on top of my daughter?"

"She deserved it for lying to me about being at school when she was probably being with those distractions of her friends"

My dad replied in anger

"So what, can't she live her life without you underestimating her?"

He swatted me from my mother's hands and started arguing, watching the scene was horrifying, slapping, violent language, all of it was enough for me.

I was breathing heavily and I felt a pain in both my chest and head.

I immediately got to my room, closing the door while trying to find something to block the sound, thank goodness my mom didn't bring my headphones away.

I put them on and put some calming music to relax my nerves, the music was on full volume, there was still some yelling, but the music was muffling it a bit.

After 15 minutes, the yelling finally stopped and the house was silent again, I took off my headphones, but I was terrified of going downstairs, I didn't bother my empty stomach, so I just did my assignments, took a shower and just curled in bed, clutching my pillow.

I sometimes wish there was someone to save me, I'm thankful for my dad for always being by my side.

Then, a knock on my bedroom door was heard.

At first I was hesitant and my fear was about to rise up again, till someone spoke behind:

"Mafuyuu, it's me, your dad, please open the door"

I was relieved, I opened the door, my dad was holding a plate, there were two rice balls on it.

"Hey sweetie, I have these for you, you just shuffled in your room without eating anything so I just bought some leftovers, I used the excuse that it was going to be for my lunch at work"

He smiled warmly at me, I smiled back

"Thanks dad"

He placed the plate on my desk, I went to him and hugged him"

He sat down on my bed and we started chatting while I ate

"So, what was your mother mad about?"

I swallowed, but unlike my mom, he looked worried

"Mafuyuu, it's okay you can tell me"

I spoke up shakily

"I- I"

"I wanted to tell Kanade about my feelings but I knew my mom would kill me if I actually told her what happened, so I lied, telling her I was busy with a project"

"Please don't be mad"

"No, I'm not mad"

"Wait, really?"

"Mafuyuu, yes I'm honest"

Mafuyuu's dad pov:

I decided to stay in Mafuyuu's room for a while, letting her vent to me, her frustrations and more.

The more I listened the more I felt my heart aching.

My wife was barely nice to her, only if she did what she wanted to, to her Mafuyuu's friends were just a distraction, Mafuyuu's real dream, to start a band of her own, to her mother it only seemed worthless.

She wanted her to become a doctor, even though Mafuyuu never agreed to it, I was the only one supporting Mafuyuu's dream and I just hoped graduation comes closer, even though I doubted Mafuyuu would ever meet her freedom.

After letting it all out and letting her cry on my shoulder, I tucked her in her bed and gave a kiss on her forehead before turning off the lights and leaving the room.

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Kanade's pov:

As soon as I returned home, I took off my sweater and went to take a shower, I couldn't help but be extremely worried for whatever was going on with Mafuyuu's situation at home, this couldn't pass as nothing, I had to confront Mafuyuu's parents (either her mom or dad OR BOTH).

At dinner I looked rather upset, despite both Ena and Akito asking me if there was something wrong, I told them everything was fine, despite them suspecting things they then gave up and shrugged it off.

We then head to our bedrooms and closed ourselves in there, I couldn't help but feel guilty about not telling them why was I so upset... And gave myself a punishment

🔴TW SH acts FEEL FREE TO SKIP

I grabbed a razor and pulled up my leggings, I put the razor on my skin and dragged it across, I tried not to make any sounds but some quiet whimpers escaped my mouth, fortunately nobody heard it.

I then looked at the new wound and my eyes widened as I realized how big it was:

"Oh god how could I be so careless"

The blood was about to stream on the sheets and stain them but luckily I was quick and put a gauze on it, I wrapped my thigh in it.

"I'll just use sweatpants to hide it"

I sighed as I tucked myself in bed, letting my tears form and run down my face, I let put small, silent sobs till I fell asleep.

My sleep was going to be pleasant, right? I took those words back in the spawn of a few seconds as horrible nightmares haunted it.

Either nightmares about Mafuyuu's situation, what could be possibly going on in her home, it was impossible to have a good dream for me

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Mafuyuu's pov:

During breakfast I had a bad feeling in my gut, and the worst part is that it was bothering me for the rest of the moment and I couldn't tell what it was or why it was bothering me.

My dad just seemed to be upset about something, I was about to speak till my mom gave me a piercing glare like she was saying "don't you dare to say anything or else...".

That silenced me immediately, it was terrifying, even terrifying than the beating I was about to risk yesterday.

As I walked to school, I got either mocking, sad or confused stares, all those stares were making me feel overwhelmed, I wish I could just disappear in a black hole and forget about everyone around me.

There were people even shouting insults like "you look so emo" or "attention seeker"

None of them knew how it is like to have a mother, A MOTHER, a person that's supposed to love you and support you but is instead someone who forces her expectations and dreams on her daughter in the harshest (otherwise abusive) ways.

🔴Self harm [FEEL FREE TO SKIP]

I literally cried my eyes out in the school bathroom stall during break time, I even hid a small blade and a nail in my pocket, only to pull them out and harm myself.

I couldn't do it at some since my mother would just take it away from me, she should but she would just say I'm crazy or that I'm trying to attire attention, but I wasn't.

I was even ashamed of my scars, I saw them as really disgusting impurities, an half were self inflicted, the other half was from my mother.

I let out a shaky sigh, I didn't even try to hold back the tears that were currently in my red eyes.

I used the nail first I scratched my arm for 3 times, leaving 3 fresh bleeding vertical scratches, I then pressed the nail in my wrist, and painfully taking it out while trying to not make any noises, by biting on the right sleeve of my shirt.

It left a really big bleeding hole, gladly I had bandages and quicky patched the hole.

🔴feel free to skip

I then picked up the small blade and immediately slashed in horizontal, one time considering I was a bleeding mess.

And after that I patched the wounds up.

And then a knock on the door, which startled me but I recognized the voice.

"Is anyone here?"

"Kanade?"

I put everything in my pocket and exited the stall.

Kanade was looking at me with a shocked look on her face, mixed with a bit of worry.

Her eyes suddenly fell on the bandages on my left arm.

"Mafuyuu, are you alright?"

I nodded quickly but my red swollen eyes betrayed my response

"Mafuyuu, it's ok you can be honest"

I couldn't help but trust Kanade, I then took off the bandages (including the recet ones) and let her look at my scars, it took her a second to find out which ones were recent and which ones were old.

"A-are you m-mad at me?"

I stuttered, just letting myself sob, till I broke down and couldn't hold it anymore.

"Please Kanade you have to understand, I can't control it"

She pulled me into an hug.

"Shhh I'm not mad at you Mafu-chan, I would never be"

"May I ask you something?"

Kanade pulled away and started asking.

"Is everything alright at home?"

And I froze, I shook my head quickly.

"I-I"

And then I let it all out, whatever was bottled up was now out of my chest.

"My mom is abusive, she would force her dreams on me and would phisycally and psychologically hurt me if I don't align"

Kanade's eyes widened, tears spurting out of her eyes, and her gasp was so loud it reverbered in the whole bathroom.

"Kanade? Are you alright?

She pulled me in a tight hug and started crying, I cried too, we cried, she gave me soft kisses on the cheek. Before stroking my purple hair.

" Mafuyuu, I just can't explain how much it hurted to hear it, I'm so so so sorry, I don't get how you get to deserve this when you clearly don't"

Those words were just so kind and positive to be honest.

I spent the whole break time crying and venting to Kanade, it was making me feel loved, not even my own mother would provide this heavy comfort for me, but I'm glad that my girlfriend did, or maybe my soon to be girlfriend.

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🔴 Physical child abuse for this part, feel free to skip

Mafuyuu's POV:

Today my mom decided to come pick me up, big mistake.

The moment she arrived she saw Kanade about to kiss me.

"WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING!?"

She screamed very far away, as we heard it we froze.

"Mom you weren't supposed to see this"

I yelped in panic as she stomped in the grass furiously, as soon as she was near us, she slammed Kanade towards a tree, I noticed a drop of blood down her head and she seemed unconscious, my mom didn't care and slapped me, Saki was near us, so were Ena, Emu Tsukasa and Akito. Without any thought Akito stumbled inside the fight.

"WHAT THE HELL WOMAN?"

"GET AWAY FROM HERE BRAT"

She pushed Akito away, letting him land on his back with a thud.

"AKITO!!"

Ena screamed as she approached her brother with a terrified face, tears spurting from her eyes.

"Onii chan, are you alright?"

Akito tried getting up but was in pain

"AHHHH!!!"

He cried as Ena supported his back, gently lifting up his shirt, revealing a huge blue bruise.

My mom gave a smirk and yelled

"Well maybe don't stick your nose where it doesn't belong kid, you could've avoided getting that bruise"

Ena fought back

"THE  KID YOU'RE REFERRING IS MY BROTHER, YOU AREN'T MAFU'S MOM, YOU'RE AN OUTRAGEOUS MONSTER, KANADE WAS RIGHT ABOUT YOU."

Her eyes widened furiously

"What did you just say to me you little-"

She interrupted herself, suddenly turning at me, she lost control over herself.

"Y-you, you told them about it right"

She slapped me so hard, a hot red mark was left on my cheek

"M-mama n-no"

And she slapped me again, Ena ran into the fight, leaving Akito to Saki, Emu and Tsukasa, who were constantly rubbing his back and putting a wet wipe on the bruise, hoping it would soothe the pain.

Sadly Ena wasn't in time as my mom dragged me away in the car, I couldn't help but cry silently.

"STOP CRYING BRAT, YOU KNOW YOU DESERVE IT, I'M JUST SO GLAD GRADUATION IS  COMING SOON, I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WERE ACTUALLY HIDING YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH A PARENTLESS WITCH."

I felt my anger raise up the moment I heard the word "witch"

"DON'T YOU EVER DARE TO CALL HER A WITCH, SHE SAVED ME FROM YOU, YOU WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO ME, I'M JUST SO GLAD THAT AT LEAST HER AND DAD SUPPORT ME EVERYTIME YOU BRING ME DOWN TO THE POINT I JUST WANT TO FLY AWAY"

she stopped her tracks and pulled my hair, forcing me to look at her eyes

"ASAHINA MAFUYUU, THAT IS THE WORST THING I HAVE EVER HEARD FROM YOU, I YOUR MOTHER, WENT THROUGH 2 HOURS OF IMMENSE PAIN, ONLY TO BRING YOUR USELESS LIFE TO THIS WORLD, AND YOU JUST DARE TO SAY THAT, YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT YOUR PAIN, YOU'RE SO SELFISH YOU NEVER CONSIDER YOUR POOR MOTHER, THE ONE WO GAVE YOU THE CHANCES TO ATTEND SUCH A PRESTIGIOUS JOB AND YOU, YOUR UNGRATEFUL ASS REFUSED IT"

"MAMA YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD, I TOLD YOU MY DREAMS, I'M SUPPOSED TO FOLLOW MY OWN DREAMS, NOT WHATEVER EXPECTATIONS YOU HAVE, ARE YOU TRYING TO ENSURE YOU'RE GOING TO DIE ALONE OR WHAT?"

"SILENCE"

She screamed with crocodile tears

Kanade's POV:

I woke up on my bed, feeling my head bandaged, the first thing I saw was Ena, she helped me sit up on the bed as I regained my senses.

Akito was sitting on the bed, shirtless, a giant black bruise on his back, he may have bumped on it while trying to save me and Mafuyuu. Near him were Emu and Saki, constantly rubbing his back, applying a iced bag of peas on the bruise while trying not to give Akito too much pressure.

At the corner of the room, Tsukasa, pacing back and forth, trying to hold tears, it seems that the fight was so violent it overwhelmed him, but it was understandable.

Ena spoke up:

"We took you to the nearest clinic, thank goodness it was just a bleed out"

I shivered, the thought getting something worse than a bleed out terrified me to the core.

Ena looked at Akito:

"Akito isn't in the best condition either unfortunately, but it isn't anything serious either, it's just that he is not great at handling the pain, so we're trying our best."

Akito screamed, interrupting Ena

"AGHHH!! THAT WOMAN DID A NUMBER ON ME, IT'S WAY MORE PAINFUL THAN THE TIME EMU JUMPED AND LANDED ON TSUKASA'S BACK"

Emu covered his mouth

"We're not talking about that"

Tsukasa's face turned red

"I'm on Emu's side"

I chuckled, but then my face turned serious:

"Ok jokes apart, we can all agree how Mafuyuu's mom is just terrible as hell, I mean how the hell a woman like her get to raise a child.

They all nodded in agreement, Akito spoke up

"And she definetly kicked my ass, like I don't think I'll be able to feel my back for the next couple of days, damn it, that woman's a monster or something, who knows? Anyway we need to take Mafuyuu away from her"

Ena nodded but still was in doubt

"But how?"

Akito remained silent, just like all of us

Tsukasa spoke up

"There must be a plan"

But despite that, we didn't know if we would succeed, considering the police services in our city weren't really reliable...

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No one's pov:

Mafuyuu was bought home, her mother was furious and decided to lock her up in her bedroom for the rest of the evening without food.

As Mafuyuu laid in her bed silently crying she suddenly heard the sound of paper cracking underneath the pillow.

She lifted the pillow up only to find a letter.

Mafuyuu's pov:

I realized the letter was from my father, I opened it and started reading

"To my only and beloved daughter"

"Mafuyuu, I loved you and will always do, I'm sorry but your mom kicked me out of the house and managed to divorce with me, I wish I could've taken you with me but sadly and not surprisingly, things didn't go as I wanted, please stay strong, that woman is no joke and has fully lost control of herself, just so you know she doesn't define you, you're strong Mafuyuu, maybe even stronger than me, all I hope is that we'll meet again soon"

"-By your lovely father"

The letter ended, I felt my heart clenching at those words, my mom just caused one of the closest people I had to go away, on their own.

I felt tears welling up in my eyes, I just let them flow because it was useless hiding my despair, I clenched the paper tight and close, near my aching heart.

I just laid my face on the pillow and cried on it, staining it with all the tears that were bottled up.

I spent like 20 minutes crying silently till I finally had the courage to lift my head up my pillow, all wet with tears, my face also wet with tears and when I looked at the mirror, mu eyes were bloodshot abd puffy. How cute, your body showing signs that you recently had a breakdown and to let everyone know.

"Shit"

I muttered angrily, now how do I hide it, my mother wouldn't like to see her poor (now worhtless and influenced) daughter like this.

I honestly never knew why my mom wanted me to be a doctor instead of a nurse, I mean they are pretty much the same, not really but similar.

Why was she so dragged about some differences?

Why can't she acknowledge I have a life too?

Why can't she be just like my dad? And why she had to kick him out?

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Akito's POV:

Today was SO AWESOME!!

It was our graduation day, I could finally focus on my band and lay back while planning my future with Toya.

I was energetic today, way more energetic than other school days which is obvious.

We were into some elegant outfit (the thing I liked the least because I wanted to wear my special streetwear outfit that I bought last week)

My bruised back was slowly healing, it was still hurting a bit but I tried to ignore the pain.

Ena's POV:

We were inside the auditorium everyone looked so elegant. I could see Saki, Shiho, Shizuku, Mizuki, Tsukasa and the others in really stunning outfits, we were going to have a party this evening. We all were so excited.

But I noticed something's off, Mafuyuu didn't look very happy, she was pretty much ignoring everyone and she seemed to wear everyday clothes. She also looked like she just finished crying.

I approached her, her expression neutral, I asked:

"Mafuyuu, aren't you excited for tonight's celebration, even your girlfriend Kanade is excited"

She lowered her head in response and spoke

"Sorry I'm not coming, and don't call Kanade my girlfriend"

That last part appeared more rude and harsh, almost as if I insulted her.

"My mom said no"

I furrowed my brows

"Still listening to that abusive woman, come on Mafuyuu"

"LEAVE ME ALONE"

she yelled in a rude tone, at the end I just gave up and turned my back, not even looking at her a last time.

Mafuyuu's POV:

I felt extremely guilty of all those words, how could I be so cruel? I was slowly getting manipulated without noticing.

I was about to reach Ena to apologize, but I felt an invisible force pulling me back, telling me to just leave it like this.

I felt tears welling up in my eyes, I covered my face with my hands and just let them flow

"How could I? I'm so stupid. I probably just lost my friends. This is for mom's good, she'll finally love me, after I bought all the distractions out of my life"

I muttered quietly, I just ran to the bathroom and hid in a stall, letting out sobs.

As I got out of the stall, my stomach was rumbling loudly, I haven't ate since 2 days ago, when the incident happened, I clutched it tightly, it was aching so badly, I wanted something to eat, I didn't have the courage of asking anyone.

I looked at the mirror, I gagged the moment I saw my face, wet with tears and my eyes were super red and swollen, I felt disgust at myself, I looked away, not wanting to see that "horrible crying monster" in the mirror.

I splashed my face with some cold water, hoping it would cover up.

🔴Self harm FEEL FREE TO SKIP

I suddenly felt an unbearable urge, the urge to... Hurt myself.

I lifted up the sleeve of my gown, looking at all the scars I inflicted on myself, I opened my mouth and bit the part with the most recent scars, scratching it with my teeth, it was painful and I was trying hard not to make noise, I took out my arm and looked at how much blood spilled.

My hand slid down to my pocket, I took out a razor, without a second thought I caused a painful wound to appear on my arm.

I suddenly realized that I didn't have any bandages nearby

"Shit!"

I immediately tried to look for toilet paper, only to find out there was left only a few pieces, I didn't care though.

I picked up the paper and placed it vertically on the arm, I looked for a tissue in my pocket and fortunately there was one, I wrapped it around my arm and pulled up my sleeve.

I then got out of the bathroom like nothing happened, they just started giving out the diplomas, I just sat down on my seat and waited for my turn.

When my turn arrived arrived I walked on the stage and got my diploma, forcing a smile to everyone.

Not surprisingly my mom didn'y really show any sort of excitement knowing I finally graduated.

She was just talking about unwanted plans for the future and I couldn't stop her.

I was supposed to stay at home, locked up in my room, my freedom was over.

My connection to the outside world was cut off.

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🔴: THE CHAPTER WILL CONTAIN THE MENTIONS OF ATTEMPTED SUICIDE (AND SELF HARM) AS IT GOES ON, FEEL FREE TO SKIP THIS ONE IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE

No one:

After graduation, Mafuyuu has been closed in the house, attending a really prestigious university (but being homeschooled)

She was forced to overwork herself even skipping meals, and if she refused she would recieve a scolding and a beating.

Kanade, decided to stay at Ena's house for a while till Mafuyuu would come back, but sadly it never happened.

Kanade started thinking that Mafuyuu has lost interest in her, her number was fully blocked, it was like Kanade was zoned out of Mafuyuu's life, her life being trapped with her manipulative bitch of a mother.

Anything could happen to her while she was in the hands of that woman.

Kanade could not think of anything but Mafuyuu's safety and health.

She thought it was too late to save Mafuyuu and that she would only have to join her parents.

Kanade's pov:

I bought a bottle of painkillers from the drug store, I knew I couldn't use the one we already had, considering Akito was still dealing with his back pain.

Once I got out of the drug store I hid the bottle in the pocket of my sweater and I came back home like nothing happened.

I checked the time: 8pm

I sighed, I picked up a sheet of paper and a pen and I wrote down:

"Hey Ena or Akito"

"Now that you saw this and the terrible heartbreaking scene in front of you, let me tell you something I hid from both of you. I must say that my father leaving after my mom wasn't like the best experience, something you both already understand. But let's say that I didn't have a good mental health, ever since my father went to the hospital, I cried myself to sleep, till I woke up with bloodshot swollen eyes, still full with tears. And the death of my dad did not make my mental health any better,no matter I was trying to recover, I started self harming, cuts and bruises, mostly on thighs, knees, ankles, wrists even on my hands and feet. Moving on, I think you guys know how attached I am to Mafuyuu, heck she was even meant to be my soon to be girlfriend, but her mom, her bitch manipulative ass of a mom was a big obstacle, and now I don't even know if Mafuyuu still loves me or if she got completely brainwashed by her mom, why do I say this? When I tried sending a few messages and calls to her, just to assure she was alright, she would just tell me to pick up and after like the 3rd call I made, she blocked the number. I guess I lost Mafuyuu too."

I felt tears welling up in my eyes as I wrote this, but I tried holding them back:

"Anyway, I want to apologize again for what you have seen, Ena, you are a special person to me, I'm just so sorry I rejected yours and Akito's help, but I couldn't bring myself to say yes for some reasons, please, tell Mafuyuu I still love her despite this, tell her I forgive her, and tell her my apologies to her"

"Goodbye, I still love you all"

I ended the letter with my signature, I folded it and left it on the desk.

Tears were slowly falling but I tried to wipe them, I pulled out the painkillers bottle and opened it up.

At first I was hesitant, maybe there was still hope, maybe I could still get an happy ending, but I shook those thoughts away.

Before starting the whole process I gave myself a last cut on the knee.

I picked up the bottle again and picked up a pill, I put it in my mouth and swallowed it,I didn't feel anything at first, the taste of the pill was bittersweet, almost like a candy.

I then swallowed a second pill, I started feeling mild dizziness and slight difficulty breathing, but that didn't stop me.

I took my 3rd pill, now I could feel me struggling to stay conscious as my breathing started to slow down more.

After the 4th pill, I felt my legs giving in but I fell on the bed, holding onto the nightstand, I then took 2 other pills and I gave in, passing out, yet looking dead.

Ena's pov:

I entered Kanade's room, only to be welcomed by an horrifying sight.

Kanade, laying on the bed, looking lifeless, I approached her carefully my horror increasing as I touched her neck and left hand... THE SKIN FELT COLD AND CLAMMY, HER LIPS AND HER FINGERNAILS WERE GREY.

There was also a note, when I opened it my eyes were wide open, I felt them water up aswell

"No no no no no THIS CAN'T BE"

I muttered and repeated as I read the letter, I immediately went to Kanade's body and checked for any signs of life, I shook her to wake her up.

I then noticed a bottle of painkillers in her hand, the bottle seemed new, they were the same painkillers as the ones Akito was taking, there were 24 pills in the open bottle she was holding. She took 6.

I screamed and it reverbered the whole house, my mom rushing in with a worried look:

"Sweetie what-"

And she froze at the scene, she immediately picked up the phone and dialed the emergency services number, Akito also rushed in, only to be jumpscared at the sight of Kanade's probably dead body.

We heard the conversation between our mother and the other end

"Please help, my daughter's friend has overdosed"

The other end responded, we heard the voice of a woman, was calm yet alarming.

"Ma'am please us what happened"

My mom gave the phone to me and I spoke, trying not to burst in tears

"I entered the room only to find my friend, laying limp on the bed with a bottle of painkillers in her hand, she was trying to commit"

The voice grew more alarming yet was still calm

"Ok, tell me your friend's name, age and how many pills she took"

"Her name is Kanade Yoisaki she turned 18 three weeks ago, and she took six pills"

"Ok now let me speak to your mom"

I gave the phone to my mom and she put it near her ear

"Ma'am now follow my instructions, lay her on the ground and make sure her torso is bare and dry, open a window and start doing cpr, don't hang the call until help is here"

"Ok"

I took off any clothing above till Kanade's chest was bare, I then laid her on the ground and opened a window, all three sat on the ground my mom being near to Kanade's body while me and Akito took distances.

The operator gave my mom instructions on how to do cpr, 30 compressions and 2 rescue breaths.

My mom quickly started following the indications.

After 20 minutes the ambulance finally arrived and my mom distanced.

Kanade's pov:

I suddenly felt life in me, I opened my eyes and saw Ena's crying face with bloodshot swollen eyes, Akito was watching the whole scene while also trying to hold back tears, ms. Shinonome, trying to steady herself and two paramedics showing relief as they switched their gaze to the others.

"We got her back in time."

I was put on the stretcher and rushed in an ambulance, it took me some minutes to regain consciousness.

I then spoke up

"What happened?"

One of the paramedics warmly smiled at me.

"You have been bought back to life, ms."

I still felt my mind messed up

"Mind telling me your name?"

He asked gently, I replied.

"M-my name is K-Kanade, Kanade Yoisaki"

He gave me a kind smile

"Kanade, that's a nice name, you can call me Hiroshi"

I nodded

"You are now being taken to the hospital, relax and don't stress yourself everything will be alright.

I nodded again waiting.

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Kanade's POV:

I had to stay at the hospital for a couple of days, in the meantime I had checkups, therapeutic talks and more.

In a rainy afternoon, Ena came to visit my room, she would come back with gifts like either small chocolates she bought from the cafeteria, get well soon cards and more stuff.

This time she came with a packet of gummies, which were my favourite (I liked those frizzy candy, melon was my favorite of the above)

She placed it all on the nightstand and she sat near me. She let out a long sigh before speaking up.
Her voice was kind and serious.

"Kanade, can I ask you something?"

Her eyes switched to my scars, I knew I could no longer hide it so I sighed.

"Yes Ena, those scars were self inflicted, I guess you probably read the letter"

She nodded, this only made me tear up

"I'm I'm so sorry Ena, I'm so sorry for making such a stupid decision"

Ena got up from the chair and hugged me tightly shushing me while she let me cry on her shoulder.

"Hush, it wasn't your fault, don't blame yourself Kanade, I won't shame you at all"

Her words were so reassuring I immediately calmed down.

She opened the packet from me, I took one candy and chewed in my mouth, enjoying the sweet and sour melon flavor.

"How did you know I liked them frizzly and melon"

She chuckled and smiled

"Well we've known eachother since we were eight, how could I forget"

I chuckled back

"Yeah yeah I guess you're right"

I suddenly went lost in thought, thinking about Mafuyuu, I frowned, Ena noticed it.

"Kanade, is there something wrong?"

"Well... Mafuyuu, I really miss her"

Ena frowned softly too, she caressed my shoulder

"I know I know, but you two will meet again, I just know it"

Ena's POV:

I was being extremely kind to Kanade since I had finally the chance to freely help her.

Kanade was worrying about Mafuyuu everyday, we just had to pray to ourselves.

We left the hospital after 6 days and returned back home

Kanade was feeling better now and she was planning to move out and live on her own, she decided to live back in her old house, before her father passed away a few months ago.

We helped her pack up her things and we arrived to the house, we offered a bit of help to clean up the house, it has got a bit dusty but we could manage that.

Once we finished Kanade made sure she could handle everything on her own, we left the house, waving to her and wishing the best for her future.

Kanade's POV:

It was already evening, all that packing stuff out made me tired as hell, I still couldn't believe I was living on my own,  it was strange but I knew I'd get used to it.

I took a quick shower, noticing how long my hair has got, I was considering cutting it, I liked having long hair but it surely needed a cut.

I picked up a pair of scissors and cut them till the half of my back.

It felt refreshing to say the least.

I then had something simple for dinner, maybe I should start cooking too.

And talking about food I had to go grocery shopping the next day as the fridge was barely full and most of those products were just expired or spoiled.

And I'll probably have to find a job too.

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No one's POV:

Mafuyuu overworking caused a big damage on her mental health, she didn't only passed the day bedrotting and just letting her mother scream at her for missing her lesson for being "too lazy", she was too tired to even care anymore.

Her mom clearly fed up, decided to kick out Mafuyuu.

Mafuyuu's POV:

And I was kicked out, on one hand I was relieved, would not have to live with pressure anymore from my mom, but I was worried about where to go.

Pretty sure Kanade already went to live on her own after living for a few months in Ena's house and I'm not sure where my dad even went after he was kicked out.

I just picked myself up not noticing how bruised my body was because of her constantly hitting me if I didn't do something right, it was night time, so I had to hold back any squeals or whimpers every time I made one wrong move that could trigger pain.

I walked for an hour and a half walk (maybe?), my phone was on the verge of dying so I just had to rely on my calculations, then I saw a familiar house nearby, I just realized it was Kanade's house, and the lights were on... But how?

I thought Kanade left the house after her father's death, maybe someone moved in there.

I couldn't help but let my curiosity win, I reached the door and knocked, to my surprise, Kanade was at the door, she was already wearing pajamas and her hair seemed to have changed a lot, not gonna lie it made me kinda sad to see her hair cut off, but I guess she grew out of it, and it didn't matter she still looked pretty.

"Mafuyuu?"

I got startled for a second after hearing her calling my name.

"Hello Kana-"

"What happened to you?"

She noticed the bruises on me.

"Kanade I can explai-"

She dragged me in and closed the door.

"My god Mafuyuu what did your mom do to you"

She asked me, my state really broke her heart, she hated seeing me, HER GIRLFRIEND, in such a horrible condition.

"So my mom pretty much kicked me out and t-those few months were a living hell"

I explained, frowning considering that talking about it in front of her was extremely unpleasant, she could sense that too.

She bought me in the bathroom sitting me on the toilet.

"Mafuyuu, it's ok if you are uncomfortable and you don't want to but can I take off your clothes, just to check you"

I nodded, I could only trust Kanade at that moment.

She slowly took off my shirt, my skirt, undershirt and dirty socks.

The sight of my body bought horror to her eyes.

The bruises, the fact my ribs were slightly visible hell even the self harm scars.

"Kanade I get it you're disgusted, I'm so sorry you had to see this"

I just started to cry at that moment, but Kanade shushed me softly, bringing her finger to my mouth, tapping on my lips.

"No Mafuyuu, I would never find you disgusting I'm just disappointed, not in you but your mother"

She whispered in my ear.

"I kinda need to take a bath"

I sighed softly, the way I was drown on the wet ground and laid on it kinda stained me with dirt and mud.

Kanade nodded, she went to the bathtub and turned it on making sure the water was warm enough, she closed her eyes and turned away so I could undress completely.

I left the remaining robes on the counter and entered the bathtub, hiding my body in the foamy water still feeling slightly ashamed of it, I closed the curtain and let myself relax in the water.

Kanade's POV:

When I opened my eyes Mafuyuu was already in the tub, I went to my closet and picked a pajamas I bought recently at the mall, just letting Mafuyuu wear my own clothes till she would be able to finally get her belongings from her house.

Once Mafuyuu finished showering, I gave her a towel that she wrapped around herself, she got out of the shower and dryed her hair (kinda had to help her)

She then spoke up:

"I want to cut my hair too"

I just had to accept her request, I grabbed a pair of scissors and let her decide a hair cut.

She decided to cut her hair short, she wanted to style it almost like Shiho did, so I just trusted the process.

After a few minutes she looked in the mirror and I could see hearts in her eyes, she loved it so much she kept stroking it, I smiled, the fact I managed to make her happy was making me proud.

She suddenly hugged me tightly and kissed me on the lips

"I love you so much Kanade, I don't know how do I deserve a girlfriend like you"

I blushed hardly, I looked like a tomato.

"M-me too M-Mafuyuu"

After we took care of the bruises and got her dressed, we went into the bedroom, she looked at it in wonder.

"Wow! So this is your bedroom, with all the albums we made, you must be really lucky to have all of this"

I chuckled and we entered in bed, we hugged eachother just like a happily married couple and went to sleep.

"Good night darling"

I whispered, too sleepy to even realize I just called her "darling" she chuckled

"Goodnight you too, love you"

And we blacked out like two lights.

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Mafuyuu's POV:

It's been a few days since I've stayed at Kanade's house, it was way better than living with my mom.

Suddenly I get a message on my phone, to my surprise it was her again.

The message read

"Mafuyuu, I know you won't see this but I'm sorry, I'm sorry for how much of a shitty mother I was to you, I never realized the damage I did on you and I realized it way too late, I got distracted by my ideas for your future and never had the chance of hearing you out. Again, I'm so sorry, please come back"

And the message throve me off why she suddenly missed me, why is she suddenly realizing what she did to me, the damage was already done.

I replied choosing my words

"There's no way you decided to apologize after the damage was done, you think I'm going to forgive you easily after what you did, or even, forgive you at all? Please leave me alone, don't try to bring me back to you mom, you failed me and there's no turning back"

I blocked her number, but I know she won't give up from here.

I decided to call the local police, I don't care how unreliable it was but I had to put an end to this story and faster.

I dialed the number and waited for someone to pick up.

Finally after like 3 minutes someone picked up the phone.

"This is the police how can I help you?"

A man with a polite voice spoke up

I replied

"I would like to report"

The man spoke again

"Is everything alright ma'am? Tell me your name"

"I'm Mafuyuu, Asahina Mafuyuu, yes I'm currently alright"

"Ok noted, tell me what happened"

I took a few minutes, to gain confidence and spoke up.

"I was abused by my mother and she kicked me out of the house a few days ago"

He was starting to get worried

"Ma'am where are you now?"

"I'm at my partner's house"

"Ok ma'am tell us your location and your mom's adress"

I told them everything then they closed the call, I sat down on the couch, trembling with anticipation. After a few minutes someone knocked at the door.

Kanade got it and she was startled by the cops.

"Ma'am, are you Asahina Mafuyuu's partner?"

Kanade nodded, still confused about what was happening, I reached the door. Once I saw the police, I took off the bandages on my arms, revealing healing bruises that didn't look and weren't self inflicted.

After gathering proofs they went rushing to my mom's house.

They arrested her and charged her with child abuse.

A few days after the arrest, the police told us she confessed everything and that she won't be free for a really long time, in which I was relieved.

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Mafuyuu's POV:

It's been a few years, me and Kanade are now happily married and I finally became a nurse, we adopted a little girl named Junko, she had dark blue short hair and black eyes.

Despite my job as a nurse I still had time to work for the band while also taking a ton care of myself and my mental health by staying with my wife and daughter.

Ena announced us she will have a baby boy soon, Akito and Toya had two adopted daughters named Hime and Kira, Emu and Saki are about to get married.

A lot of things happened in the span of a few years, but this whole change made me so happy, it's like I was reborn, after a ruthless abusive life I was finally free.

(Now have small final moment that took place on Emu and Saki's wedding)

Everyone was sat at the table, laughing and chatting.

Akito was just holding Hime in his arms, Hime was feeling kind of playful, gently pulling her father's short locks while he was sitting there, both annoyed and enamored.

"Can you stop pulling papa's hair now, just for a few seconds?"

Of course Hime didn't listen, babbling and snuggling in her father's arms while Ena was laughing at both of them, holding a sleeping baby boy in her arms.

At some point An's father who worked at the place they were eating in shout.

"Ok everyone time for the photo"

All of them fixed themselves, Emu and Saki being at the center of the photo.

"Ok everyone 3-2-1"

And the camera made a "snap" sound, the photo was out.

It was a memorable moment, all of them together.

Definetly something impossible to forget