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"Dazai! Get your ass up!" Kunikida shouted in Dazai's ear, dropping a pile of paper on his already crowded desk, "Dazai, you have to get ALL of these papers done and dusted by Friday!" Kunikida had already said that twice this week he was always met with a quick, 'leave me alone Kunikidaaaa-' today but, he was met with silence, Dazai just stared at him.
Atsushi piped up, "Dazai? Are you alright?" He stood up and walked over to Dazai, he put his hand on Dazai's back, "Kunikida, maybe give Dazai a break he seems quite distraught.."
"Yeah, okay umm I'm sorry Dazai" Kunikida apologised for shouting in his ear, "Do you need me to go grab Yosano?" He awaited an answer, a nod anything. Dazai stayed still as if in his own world.
During that, Dazai was reminded of a day, 3 years ago
Mori was sat at his desk, Dazai walked in the door. "You called for me?" Dazai was been called into Mori's office often, so it wasn't out of the ordinary anymore.
Mori looked up, "Ah, yes I have something to tell you.." Mori spoke happily, not very unusual but still, off.
"Yes, what would that be?" Dazai was expecting a mission or an 'errand'. Not a full blown, OFFER TO TAKE OVER THE MAFIA.
Dazai was shook, he was only 18. And was already being asked to take over?! Sure, he hoped for it down the line but, Now?! He at least wanted to be married before.
"I will sign a document, showing that's it official, but.. You mustn't tell ANYONE." Mori pick up a pen and took out a already printed out contact, "I have one requirement before you take over." Dazai nodded. Mori continued, "I wish for you to infiltrate Fukuzawa's latest hobby, of course to do that we'll need to make it seem absolutely watertight, that you left the Port."
"Yes, I will do it as long as I can tell Chuuya," Dazai didn't want to keep anything from Chuuya, they were due to be married soon, well that would now have to be postponed, Mori agreed under the circumstances that if Chuuya couldn't keep his mouth shut, then he would lose his position as an executive.
2 hours later
Dazai and Chuuya are back home in their apartment, Dazai asks Chuuya to sit down.
"What's happening, Osamu?" Chuuya has almost never seen such a concerning look on Dazai's face.
"Well you see I'm err, I'm leaving the mafia..-" Chuuya shot up and grabbed Dazai by the ear, he yelled. Dazai was shocked, Chuuya had never really raised his voice at Dazai, other than when they were younger,
"STOP! please," Dazai didn't like the memory of being shouted at by Mori when he was younger, it reminded him of all he went through before he met Chuuya and felt hope, Chuuya stopped. He was angry and worried, he had NEVER seen Dazai teary eyed, he knew something had happened between the Boss and Dazai, but this worsened his thoughts.
Dazai explained what he meant, shielding his face. Chuuya apologised profusely, he explained how when Dazai said that, it just pushed a button in his head.
Chuuya hugged Dazai, still apologising.
Dazai forgave Chuuya, but never spoke about his past. Chuuya accepted that today wasn't the day to pry into Dazai's clear trauma around being yelled at.
Back in the present
"Yosano!!! Come here there's something wrong with Dazai," Kunikida shouted, Yosano walked into the room expecting a suicide attempt gone wrong person usual. Instead she was met with a blank stare on Dazai's face, she stood there. It reminded her of all the soldiers she saw in war, it freaked her out.
"Yosano?" Kunikida said confused, Yosano snapped out of it and dashed over to Dazai. She nudged Atsushi away, and grabbed Dazai's face.
"Dazai are you alright? Can you hear me?" Yosano asked, hoping for an answer. She got a single nod, it gave her hope.
Dazai snapped out of it, "I can hear you, I'm fine" Yosano took a breath, observing his face checking for any signs of injury, as she had no idea what had happened. The only thing she could remember was his face. The face that had brought her straight back to her past as a nurse in the war, it looked as though he was one of the soldiers that had just come back from battle after seeing awful things. Most of them came back having either PTSD or just completely shut down.
Know one knew anything about Dazai's past, but now this really confirmed to them that it was something bad enough to leave him like that..
30 minutes later
Dazai was lying down on the sofa, he hadn't said anything about why he had completely shut down yet. And he wasn't planning to.
Ranpo had arrived back from making a mockery of the police and had been sitting over in the opposite corner talking to kunikida.
Kunikida quietly told him about what had happened while he was gone.
Ranpo was aware of his 'past' in the mafia of course, he just wasn't aware of his present aswell. So when he was told he assumed it was a reminder of his time with Mori.
He walked over to Dazai and sat down beside him, "I heard what happened" Ranpo wanted to be cautious when asking Dazai anything incase he were to close himself off, and answer no other questions.
"Yeah, I'm okay now." Dazai had felt much better, but didn't appreciate the fact that now everyone in the Ada would know about his issues with yelling. And just to add on to that Ranpo was obviously trying to pry into Dazai's past person usual, which would just be a hassle for Dazai to have to stop now.
Dazai stood up and grabbed his coat, "Hey, Atsushi want to head out for some chazuke (tea over rice)?" Dazai wanted to get out of the agency and stop the constant stares from his coworkers.
"Sure!" Atsushi loved food, and spending time with Dazai. He and Dazai went out for lunch.
After Dazai and Atsushi are finished eating
Dazai and Atsushi were walking back to the Agency when Dazai heard a familiar huff of a short ginger.
"Hey, umm I'm going to stop at the shop so you can head on to the agency" Dazai pointed at a small corner shop near to the sound he had previously heard.
Atsushi nodded and started making his way back alone. Dazai headed over to the 'shop', he turned his head to make sure Atsushi was still walking back and slipped down the alley next to the shop.
"Ohhh, Chibi where art thou??" Dazai knew his companion was around here somewhere.
"Ahhh there you are mackerel" Chuuya popped up from round the side of the alley, he loved surprising Dazai at work.
"I've been wondering, what's the plan for tonight?" Dazai had been told before he left for work this morning to dress up for a special occasion later tonight.
"Ohh, you'll just have to wait and see, Osamu.." chuuya had something planned to celebrate tonight, as tonight would be the last week leading up to Dazai's 'rejoining' of the mafia, and reveal of his secret mission + new title!
All the Ada would know is that one of his suicide attempts lucked out, finally. And the port mafia would be told of the True reason Dazai left.
2 hours later
"Honey, I'm homee" Dazai arrived back to his and Chuuya's apartment, he was met with a note on the coffee table:
| 'Hey Osamu,
| Go put on something nice! I got called | in a wee while ago, so I'll be back about | 7.
| See you soon, <3'
Dazai looked at his watch 6:45, he'll be back soon. He walked into his and Chuuya's shared closet and got himself dressed.
He noticed that one of Chuuya's very fancy black suits was missing from it's hanger, Dazai chuckled to himself, "guess I know what he's wearing tonight"
He heard a knock at the door, he walked over and looked out the peep hole,
It was Akutagawa?! But I he saw Dazai here that would completely foil his mission.
Dazai stepped away from the door but one of the floor boards made a creek..
"Nakahara? That you?" Akutagawa tried to open the door.
Dazai ran to the closet and hid amongst his clothes. He heard another pair of footsteps in the hallway.
It sounded like talking, muffled of course but then he heard the door click open and heard a once again familiar huff.
He remained hidden, "Nakahara, I heard a strange noise in here just minutes ago I swear." Akutagawa seemed to be still here, great.
"I'm telling you Akutagawa, it's just me here." Chuuya glance round the room, and noticed that the note he had left for Dazai was sitting on the coffee table still, he reached over to try to grab it quickly.
He grabbed it and slid it in his pocket, "okay, Akutagawa I have a job really early on, would you mind leaving now?" Chuuya tried to quickly get him out of the apartment he knew Dazai was hidden somewhere, probably the closet I mean that's where he hid most his life
Akutagawa apologised and left, "Dazai come out of the closet." Chuuya asked
Dazai sprung out and half shouted, "Im bi!" Chuuya laughed he knew one of them was going to make a joke about that.
Dazai and Chuuya headed out to the street. "Okay now will you tell me where we are going?!!" Chuuya shook his head and kept walking.
On the way to this mysterious place, Dazai started rethinking about what happened at work today and wondered if he should tell Chuuya..