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Dan Feng was born an alpha.

It was also the same for the previous High Elders and there is no reason why it should be any different now.

And Dan Feng has an instinct inside him, like any other alpha, that is to make an omega pregnant. As alphas, they can easily achieve this. Especially with the fact that they have the ability to knot. 

Except, there is one problem. 

For Dan Feng, at the very least. 

Dan Feng is a Vidyadhara and Vidyadharas? They can’t reproduce. In other words, he’s a fucking infertile, useless, piece of trash, alpha who can’t even breed his omega. He hates it.

But to be honest, it actually never bothered Dan Feng before. Even though he is an alpha, he didn’t care about all that stuff. To him, it’s disgusting. He wasn’t interested in anyone. Just the thought of having sex with someone made him feel sick to his stomach. Let alone impregnating them.

Until everything changed and that was the day when Dan Feng met a certain omega, and on that same day, he fell in love with the said omega, Yingxing.

Being an omega, it’s natural to want children though Yingxing was always so supportive towards Dan Feng, telling him that it’s fine if they don’t have children but Dan Feng can’t just go along with that. He really just can’t do that.

Dan Feng wants Yingxing to carry his pups.

So Dan Feng tried to knot Yingxing during sex again, again, and again, to no avail.

Yingxing did suggest for adoption if Dan Feng really wanted a child or that they could get for other alpha’s seed that is fertile. Dan Feng has never been angrier his whole life. He did not want that. What he wants is for his baby to be the one inside Yingxing, not anyone else’s baby.

And so, Dan Feng tried to knot Yingxing during sex again, again, and again, to no avail, either.

Sometimes, Dan Feng just can’t help but be jealous of Jing Yuan, too. Because Jing Yuan is an alpha himself but unlike Dan Feng, he’s certainly not infertile. And he knows Jing Yuan has feelings for Yingxing. 

Truthfully speaking, Dan Feng worried a lot that Yingxing might leave him and go to Jing Yuan instead. No matter how much he looks at it, Jing Yuan is definitely better. Jing Yuan is able to give Yingxing something that Dan Feng can never give him.

Every night, Dan Feng did his best. He never gave up, he will never give up.

The sound of bed creaking, skin slapping against skin, and moaning, occupy the room.

Dan Feng is being rough with Yingxing once more. There are voices in his head, as if reminding him the reason behind each hard thrust of his cock into Yingxing’s ass.

You are an alpha.

Show you’re dominant.

It’s because you just haven’t fucked him and filled him enough!

Screw everything, Dan Feng doesn’t even care anymore how many times he has to take Yingxing, how roughly he has to fuck him, how much he has to cum inside his ass. He won’t stop until Yingxing’s belly is round with his offspring. 

Dan Feng can see Yingxing crying beneath him, tears adorning his cheeks, indicating just how aggressive he is with him. The moans that once elicited Yingxing’s lips turning into screams leave no doubts about it. In the end, Yingxing is left with no choice but to just hold onto Dan Feng tightly.

Yingxing is going to be so beautiful, heavy with a baby. Dan Feng can’t wait to see Yingxing glowing with motherhood, to feel and hear their child kicking inside him, to lovingly caress Yingxing’s growing belly as he awaits the arrival of their precious baby. Such a scenario excites him. He swears he’s getting harder.

Dan Feng grits his teeth, remembering the awful truth that he’s unable to ever get Yingxing pregnant. That’s why in order to live the dream he’s always wished for, he must go on. He can’t stop. He needs to keep going. Pump Yingxing full of his seed and overflow Yingxing’s womb. 

With a loud growl, Dan Feng tightens his grip on Yingxing’s thighs and pushes himself deep into Yingxing, his cock expanding in size and stretching Yingxing’s hole more than ever, making Yingxing cry harder, scream louder, hold onto him tighter, knotting Yingxing for the umpteenth time. He honestly doesn’t know how many times he’s done this kind of thing to Yingxing. He always gets to this point whenever he fucks him. He’s desperate.

The knotting doesn’t subside within just a few minutes, it takes a while that by the time it’s over, Yingxing is unable to do much more than lay in bed, all worn-out, his body thoroughly spent as he tries to catch his breath.

Dan Feng takes a look at Yingxing beneath him. He realizes it only now that he is, in fact, hurting Yingxing. Every time he touches Yingxing, it’s like he’s trying to break him. He finds himself gritting his teeth again. Has he always been like that towards Yingxing? And Yingxing has to endure all the pain this whole time? He’s the worst. Fuck. Yingxing never even said anything just to make him feel better... He rests his forehead on Yingxing’s shoulder. You’re spoiling me way too much...

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. I never meant to hurt you,” Dan Feng apologizes. “I’m just...” so frustrated with myself, so disappointed with myself, so mad with myself! but the words get caught in his throat, replaced by the tears that trickle down onto Yingxing’s shoulder.

Yingxing wraps his arms around Dan Feng’s back and pulls him closer into a warm embrace, stroking Dan Feng’s hair, as if to soothe him. “There’s no need for you to apologize. I totally understand. You’re an alpha, too.”

Somehow, Dan Feng could feel the genuine smile that Yingxing had on his face as he said those words to him. That’s just how Yingxing is. He is always so kind and Dan Feng is so in love. “I’m also sorry that I can’t be like Jing Yuan.”

“Pfft,” Yingxing laughs. “What are you talking about? Jing Yuan? It’s fine, you know. I only have my eyes on you. I don’t mind if you can’t give me a baby at all.”

Dan Feng frowns, his thoughts filled with the harsh truth of his own infertility which weighs heavily on his chest, leaving him painfully silent. 

“Besides...” Yingxing continues but also stops there.

It makes Dan Feng turn his head to Yingxing, looking him in the eyes as curiosity overwhelms him. “Besides...?”

Yingxing cranes his head to the side, averting his gaze, crimson blush and slight pout across his face. 

Dan Feng slightly tilts his head to the left and blinks his eyes in confusion, giving Yingxing the “...?” kind of look.

“I get to be your one and only baby,” Yingxing murmurs.

“Ah.” Dan Feng doesn’t even know what to say but that’s so cute. He enjoys seeing how greedy, possessive, and selfish Yingxing is towards him.

“Uh, yeah... T-That isn’t so bad, is it...” Yingxing sounds rather awkward about it, though.

Dan Feng gently holds Yingxing’s hand just by the four fingers that makes Yingxing turn to him again and their gaze locked before bringing it up to his lips to press a tender kiss onto the back. “I promise I’ll be gentler with you next time,” he tells Yingxing then leaning closer into Yingxing’s ear, “I love you, my Yingxing,” he adds in a soft whisper, Yingxing’s hand still in his.

Right, at least Yingxing is his baby and that is enough.