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Mikey's pov:

[God... Ever since the kraang invasion ended.. i keep shaking and hearing noises... There's literal yellow-ish light coming out of my fucking arms... I havent told anyone.. and im too much of a chicken to tell someone... I just hope this goes away as soon as fast as possible..]

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As he thought about this he realized he was spacing out in the living room watching Jupiter Jim with his brothers.

Mikey..

Mikey.

Mikey?

MIKEY!!

"Gah! What? What happened!?" He shouted, irritated that his brother, leo was poking his cheek as he shouted his name into his ear.

"Youre daydreaming. Again..." Mikey could see the annoyance in his expression, it made himself feel like he was just an annoying orange turtle that fucked shit up. (Idk why hes stupid and an overthinker)

"Whats gotten into you? Im getting worried.. im the only one who noticed your dumbass zoning out who knows where..." He said as he pouted, slightly angry that he didnt tell him about stuff he probably doesn't know about.

"Im fine! Seriously, im okay!" Mikey was also getting angry because of how fucking ANNOYING HE WAS..

Raph suddenly jumped into the argument "HEY! Stop arguing. You guys are seriously interrupting a show that has more value than you guys! So shut UP!" He said furiously. "You guys are ruining everything right now! Ugh... Just- both of you STOP acting childish!" He was always soft with his brothers. But took everything seriously when it was about Jupiter Jim.. hes such a dork.

They both went silent, both embarrassed. But also kind of afraid. Only because they've barely seen raph this angry at them.

"Whats up with them?" Donnie whispers to raph. Confused and.... Nevermind. Just confused, despite the fact that his smartass has the ability to build a tank.

"Just being little shits." Raph said with a hint of Exhaustion. Bro even gets tired tryna open a door.

"Yeah... Okay." Donnie knew some deep shit was up with this. Especially mikey.

Donnie's pov:

[Why is everyone so rude this night holy shit... And i thought i was the meanest here, goddamn...]

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Donnie suddenly notices a little bit, just a TINY bit of glow through mikeys hood's sleeve.

Donnie pov.. again..:

[What- ... What the fuck...? Did mikey eat a flashlight or shit?]

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"Mikey..? Whats that glowy thing on your arm-" He suddenly gets cut off my Mikey. Who answeres woth panick and nervousness.

"N-nothing! Its probably just the lamp from the ceiling, shining... Dont be silly, donnie!"

Mikey pov:

[Ohmigosh, ohmigosh, ohmigosh!]

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"Hmm.. mkay..." Said donnie, with a hint of suspicion. Stealing glances from mikey occasionally. As he kept glancing at mikey, leo noticed him and whispered to him. "Dude... Stop looking at mikey like that... Its weird. Youre supposed to be his brother, not a stalker." Leo said uncomfort and confusement mixed with slight disgust. "Hey! I am NOT a stalker...! I just think our dear brother, Michelangelo is acting a bit weird. Did you see the glowy stuff on his arm? Im not going crazy am i? Am i???" He whispered fastly and was waiting an answer. Clearly annoyed that leo thought he was weird and a stalker. "Geez.. youre scarier at night.. maybe you should stay in your room next time we have movie nights-" he gets interrupted by a smack in the head by donnie. He lets out a soft "yeouchh!" "What was that for?? Youre gonna ruin my perfectly shaped and chiselled head." Leo said with overly big confidence. Having no idea that he was gonna get bullied because of his triangle shaped head. (Bros dorito shaped ass better not cry when he gets bullied istg) "Okay, dorito head." Donnie smirked and kept glancing at mikey. Keeping an eye on him. Meanwhile leo, who was really offended by Donnie's words. Got mad and stopped talking to donnie. "Stupid turtle..." He mumbled as he continued watching Jupiter jim. Knowing very well hes a turtle too. Donnie kept looking at mikey. Something was off about him. It was like he needed something... Wanted something. But it what could it be?

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Its been an hour. And Mikey was itching to go to his room and draw his negativity away(It was like.. 2 am but whatev) he couldn't wait any longer. Plus, this was Jupiter Jim's millionth time making a movie. So mikey just brought up an act.

"Im heading to bed... Im tired." He said as he glanced at his rooms door with excitement and was unable to take his eyes off from it.

"Hey- How could you get tired in a jupiter Jim movie!?" Raph was furious and shocked. Being more of a drama queen than leo is.

"Raph just let him sleep. Hes been awake since 7 AM... Dont ask why i know..." (Insomnia ez) Said leo as he tried to defend his dear brother mikey, not even thinking about how they fought an hour ago.

"Fine... I'll tuck you to bed.." raph was annoyed. But was soft, at least a little.

Mikey frowned, and slightly nervous

"W-w-what?- NO!"

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"I meeaaann... I can sleep on my own, thank you.." Goodness he sucks at lying...

"Hmm.. okay... But if something goes wrong, tell us. Especially me. Okay?" Raph said, being a worried big silly (AND CUTESYY) turtle. He's spilnters favourite for a reason.. it- ... Its because of his kindness..

"Yeah, yeah. Buh- bye!!!" Mikey shouted in a hurry and a fake happy yet sleepy noise. He quickly leaves the living room.

"Yeah... Uhm... Goodnight..." Leo said quietly./p>

Opens his door. And makes a 360 jump on to the bed. Snatching his notebook and crayons, pencils, and erasers. He took off his hoodie. And threw it somewhere to the room. He took his arm warmers off (or whatever its called idk) and began drawing some doodles like cats, dogs, houses, lots, LOTS of squares and cubes. As he drew on the pad of paper, he tried ignoring the fact that light that came out of his arms and glowing veins shine to his eyes.

He couldn't help but have the urge to smash everything he sees. Why wasn't this working? Why was he not happy??? Why??? He drew everything he could think of! He drew scribbles! Anything! WHY WASNT ANYTHING WORKING!?!?

He threw the notebook and felt tears run from his cheeks. He was scared, and alone. Alone because of how no one he knew related to this situation. Because of the fact that his dumbass didn't tell anyone. Alone because he feels like he DESERVES
TO
BE
ALONE!

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25 minutes later, he was scrolling through his phone, trying to fill his mind with fun stuff and make himself shut the fuck up. He kept scrolling, as he did. He saw a video. A VENT video. The video was a girl buying pencils sharpeners. (If ykyk)

He was confused at first. He opened the comments. And saw one of those nerds that explained videos and shit.

Mikey pov:

[Self harm..? How- ... How does that feel? Do i... Do i have any pencil sharpeners...?]

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He went dug inside the drawrs, Cupboards, anywhere! And found 4 pencils sharpeners. He quickly searched "how to take a razor from a pencil sharpener" on YouTube. He took cissors and unscrewed the pencil sharpener's razor's screws.

"Cmon... Cmon...!!!"

One of the big razors pop off. He feels delight and excitement coursing through his tiny peanut brain.

"yes!!" His face suddenly drops, forgetting the fact that he was supposed to be quiet. Because if your forgot, he lied to raph and the others, that he was gonna go to bed. He wraps the razor in a paper and puts it in his pocket. He hides all the evidence of what he did to the pencil sharpener, and acts all tired and sleepy, he opens his door, and walks slowly to the bathroom.

He wears his hoodie. walks to the bathroom door. As he reaches his hand to the door knob. He suddenly flinches. He heard a voice.

"mikey..?"

He quickly turned around with nervousness to see who it was. And it was-

... Oh.

... Its just leo.

"Mikey.. i thought you were asleep.. did you lie?" He said with suspicion, and a hint of anger and disapproval.

Mikey quickly set up a lie. Knowing that leo was too naive to fall for anything, he acted all soft and sleepy.

"Oh.. i just woke up.. jus'... Gonna go to the bathroom..." He tried to sound as tired as possible. He could see leo getting more suspicious.

Leos pov:

[Hes up to something- !... Oh wait... Maybe hes just looking at his phone... I'll let it slide, little brother, dont worry]

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"Okayyy... We're heading to bed. Well, more like they are.... Goodnight mikey!" He said as he went to his room, sipping dark and roughly sour-ish coffee.

"Yeah... Goodnight..." He went to the bathroom, locked the door and sar on the cold, chilly floor. He pulled out and unwrapped the razor. He looked at it with glee and pleasure. Thinking about how it'll feel to have his flesh get cut with just a swift slide of a razor.

He stretched his flesh on his right upper thigh. And pressed the razor against it. He was a little nervous. He took a deep breath.

"Okay... Okay... You can do this mikey. Just- do it!-" he whispered. His voice interrupted by his grunt as he slid the sharp razor against his thigh. He felt pain... Yet... Another feeling he couldn't name... Couldn't find... Then he found it. It...

It was pleasure, satisfaction, glee...

He cut his other thigh. He keptch switching thighs. He kept cutting, and cutting, and cutting... He couldn't stop... He couldn't let the razor go, couldn't let it fall from the tip of his fingers. He felt pain, and felt his blood spill out...

He needed it.

He loved it.

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Its been some weeks since mikey started cutting himself. He was secretly out of his room at 1 am. He was sitting on a random ass building. Just questioning his life. He thought abiut how the others would react if he told them what he did...

"What the fuck!?"

"What is wrong with you!?"

"Oh my god..."

"Youre insane...!"

He couldn't stop thinking about it.. he hated it, he hated everything. How he looks, how he talks, how hes annoying, how he cant shut up, how he keeps cutting, and how hes such a stupid FUCKING. TURTLE..!

He layed back on the cold floor. He just needed someone to talk to i guess? But everyone annoyed him. He wanted everyone to just shut the fuck up. He started to pull his hair with anger as he screamed. He cried. A lot. It was cold. Freezing cold. He didn't bring a hoodie. Good thing he brought his razor... He felt exhausted. So he just cut his wrists until something happened.

2 hours of cutting. His arms looking like he got out of world war 2. He suddenly heard a noise. A van, a white one to be a exact. And white vans are sketchy (mikey logic). He quickly put his arm warmers on and put the razor in his pocket. He crouched down to not be seen. He waited the car door to open. What if it was the footclan? Maybe a krangified human? That worried him. Because it could be anything. He kept waiting.. again... He sighed. Thinking that they're probably gonna sleep in that van or whatever. He was about to pull out his razor from his pocket. But the car door opened. He flinched at how loud the door was opened. He saw a black figure. Wearing a cape with a hood. Holding a big heavy box. That was suspicious. (I mean duh). He watched as the black figure opened the back of the van's doors. He was confused.. what the fuck was this guy up to..?

The car was full of the same boxes. Maybe its illegal stuff? He always wanted to know how those things tasted or smelled like. Even though it was unhealthy. He wanted to do it anyway.

The guy was waiting for someone. Who the hell meets at 2 am? Like 25 minutes later. He saw a tiger yokai walking towards the suspicious man. The yokai whispered some shit mikey couldn't hear. The suspicious man nodded and opened the box he was holding. It was some white cylinders and orange tubes with white powder. Ooh! Orange! Mikey loves that color! Those stuff MUST be good then!

The tiger yokais eyes widened as he smiled with sinister.

"How much?" The tiger said with excitement..his voice was deeper than mikey thought.

"Thousand dollars. This shit aint easy to find, or make." The suspicious man talked with seriousness. As he waited for the money. Mikey was surprised. He made those? Thats so cool! He was itching to check them out!

As he was watching, some other guy was stealing those boxes. But he got caught by the 2 men. The guy ran for his life as held 2 boxes in each arm. The men ran after him as they shouted.

"GET BACK HERE YOU LITTLE SHIT!" (Tiger yokai)

"FUCK!" (Suspicious man)

Mikey watched with wide eyes. He was about to help them. But the he realized. This was the PERFECT time to get one himself!! He slid down the room with his skateboard. And fell onto the top of the van, he was about to fall.

He shouted "Superhero landing-!" As he landed with one leg, but he lost his balance. And fell down to his back, letting out a little"oof!". He shook his head, fixed his hair and looked down, there were a lot of boxes... So he just took 1. He opened the box. And was already holding the orange tube. He wondered what it would taste like. He opened the lid it the tube. And it was..

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"W-wait.. is that-... Cocaine...!?" He shouted, shocked to even hold one. He didnt know what to do- ... Wait.. he DID know what to do. He KNEW those were cocaine. He knew everything! Why was he acting like this now!? He looked st both sides of the alleyway, to not be seen by any person. He then took a giant sniff of cocaine. And it was.. surprisingly great and relaxing... Just like it was with the self harm. He sniffed more and more... He sneezed a lot from the powder. But he felt so cool and dizzy. He suddenly heard the 2 men come back. He quickly tried to climb a building. Holding onto the box like his life depended on it.

He sat down. And smelled more cocaine. He groaned with relaxation. And layed down on the cold concrete floor of the building. He exhaled. He held himself in his own arms. Like a little hug. He suddenly felt a burning sensation in his eyes. He quickly opened the camera app on his phone. And saw how his hair was messy, his nose covered in white powder, and his eyes red and teary from the cocaine he sniffed.

"Ew.. i look so fucked up... What the fuck am i gonna do now-" he flinched as he heard screaming and crying. He quickly looked down. And saw the guy that stole the boxes getting abused by the 2 men. The tigers claws were pressed against the boys eyes. The boy looked 16 - 17. Mikey was scared. He closed his eyes and covered his ears. Too much of a chicken to help the poor boy.

As he cried harder wishing for it to end his heart beating as fast as it could.... And the screams suddenly stopped... He slowly opened his eyes, hoping the boy was okay. He looked down.... Only to see blood. It was everywhere. The poor boys eyes were misplaced, and both looking at somewhere else as the eyes mixed with the blood. Making things look scarier.

He was shaking. Couldn't speak, couldn't cry, couldn't call for help. Nothing! He looked like he saw a ghost. He ran away with the box, crying and running for his life... After 2 hours, he stole a hoodie and a grocery bag from a shopping mall. He snuck back to his room, slowly and quietly opening his window. And entering his bedroom.

He got under the covers. And put the box under his bed. He then rested his head on his comfy heart shaped pillow. He couldn't sleep. He was still scared as hell. But then he remembered he could listen to music! Hes so silly.

He put on his headphones. And opened a song, Cum n' Cocaine. He loved that song. His brothersndont really have any idea what he listened to, so he was fine. As he continued to listen. He looked outside, wondering if he'd ever see those guys again... Meh, who cares. He kept listening to the song. Closing his eyes and moving his leg with the rhythm of the song. Cum n' Cocaine.

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December 17, 2025

Mikey was sleeping silently, ignoring the shouts and screams, i guess leo and raph were fighting. Again. He kept moving around, trying not to wake up (idk how my brain stopped when i was writing this). He kept hearing stuff like "Why wont you trust me!?" Or "Youre not listening to me! How are we supposed to save you!?". It was really annoying.. who the fuck fights in 7 in the morning? Well, i guess these two are.

Mikey groaned, waking up and rubbing his eyes. He shivered from the cold, was his room always this chilly? Whatever. He stretched for a minute, and wore his orange mask. He didn't have the energy to clean his face, or brush his hair. He was a mess, but he didnt really give a shit. He wore one of Ralph's shirts he stole. As he walked through the hallway, he felt the cold tiles under his feet.

Mikeys pov:

[Bruh.. why is this place so cold? Oh wait... Its December... Shit... It better snow.]

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He went to the living room; where his dad, splinter, was sleeping loudly. He didnt really wanna wake his dad up, maybe he can make his own breakfast... Yeah... Probably.

He went to the kitchen, and saw leo and raph fighting. He sighed with frustration, why cant they just shut up already? He decided to try to shut them uo by interrupting them with a "Goodmorning."

"Goodmorning guys! How was y'all's dreams?"

"Quiet Mikey! Im arguing here! Are you blind!?" Leo shouted, that made raph angry, how could he shout at him like that? What kind of brother does that? (They do but whatever)

"HEY! Dont talk to him like that! He just said goodmorning! Be a good brother and say sorry, right now!" Raph was like a mom. Sometimes annoying, too caring, kind, stubborn, and boring. As he waited for leo to apologise, he crossed his arms and put on an angry scrunched up face. Leo sighed, knowing he wouldn't get out of this, and he definitely could fight with 2 people in the morning. So he gave up, and apologised.

"Im sorry, mikey."

"Sorry for what?" Raph said, with an angry expression, trying to tell him that the sorry wasnt good enough.

Leo groans, but decided not to make a big deal out of it. And continued his apology.

"Sorry for being rude... Goodmorning." Leo was annoyed, but he was slightly guilty, and looked like he was saying the truth

"Its okay leo... i know you wouldn't really shout at me for no reason..." Mikey muttered, atleast loud enough for them to hear. He was very tired, so much. He looked around at the counter, then asked.

"Is there any coffee?"

Leo and raph were surprised, they never saw mikey ask, yet drink any coffee. So they asked him why he asked for one.

"Why? Are you gonna make one for donnie or something? That really sweet yknow. But donnie already got coffee before you woke u-" Leo was gonna finish his sentence, but mikey cut him off with a hint of annoyance.

"No. Im making it for myself. Why would i do it for him?" He said acting nonchalant. But in reality, hes raging and angry about how they thought he was making it for donnie.. bruh.. what is up mikey fr?

"Im right here, Michelangelo..." Donnie was drinking coffee, he was looking at him with annoyance and hurt. But he didn't really show how hurt he was. He couldn't let the gang know he was a softie.

"Morning. Thanks for the coffee." Said mikey as he snatched Donnie's coffee mug and drank it. It was bitter, yet tasty. But very hot, didnt really matter to him though, he just needed/wanted energy.

Donnie was shocked, and angry. He shouted "my coffee! Micheal, you little shit come here!"

Mikey quickly ran away with the coffee to his room. And locked it. He was feeling cutesy and energetic. He decided to draw. He grabbed his pou plushie (this came to my mind when i looked at my pou plush lmfao) and sat on his chair, when he was drawing, he noticed how it looked so wobbly. He suddenly remembered, the light from his arms... Shit... Had to ruin his day.

He took his arm warmers off, and the lights were coming from his veins too. And damn it hurt. He grunted with pain, it hurted so much that mikey could scream. But he couldn't, he mustn't. He cant let them know.

He squeezed his fist, as the other hand was holding his arm to hold something instead of screaming. 15 minutes later, the pain was finally over, he exhaled as he continued to cry. He was so scared. What was happening to him?

He suddenly remembered, the box under his bed. He ran over to the bed and looked under the bed, trying to find it. He moved his arm around to see if he could feel the box. And 10 minutes later, he found it. He got excited and quickly pulled the against him, opening the box in a hurry. He opened the lid of cocaine, and sniffed it aggressively (weirdo fr). He felt relaxed. And tired. How did that coffee only last for an hour?

Whatever.. he closed the box and put it back under the bed. His room smelt like shit, he smelt like shit. So he opened his window, prepared what he was gonna wear, and went to take a bath.

While he was outside his room. He heard some muttering. It was his family, even splinter. They were talking about something, their faces was down and sad, so it was definitely something bad.

They saw mikey, they were caught, so they tried to act like nothing was happening. Leo was eating a pizza with splinter, donnie was drinking coffee, and raph was whistling. Gosh, they sucked at lying.

He tried to ignore it. And went to the bathroom to fill the bath tub with warm water. He thought about those ball thingys where you but them into the water and they sizzle into pieces. (I seriously forgot the names, but they're usually used while in the tub.) he wanted to know if they had any. So he went to the hallway and shouted for anyone who would hear.

"Guys! Do we have those ball thingys for the tub?"

"Yeah! Its under the sink!" Raph shouted, he kinda sounded worried. But mikey didnt think much of it. He went back inside the bathroom. And took those ball things and opened the water for the tub to fill. Half an hour later. The tub was full, and he threw the ball in, he watched it sizzle as he got in the tub. It was calming. And satisfying.

He felt the warm water touch his scars, making them slightly burn. He scrunched his face as he felt that pain. But didnt say anything about it. He just wanted to relax and enjoy the silence.

He looked at his hands that were under the water. The light was shining through the water, it looked cool, but worried and scared mikey. He quickly closed his eyes. Trying to forget the light, the cuts, the addiction, everything.

Its been an hour, and mikey was still in the tub, refusing to get out. But the water started to get cold. As cold as him.

Even his brothers banged on the door, shouting for him to get out.

"Cmon mikey! I gotta pee!" (Leo)

"Micheal come out right now or leos gonna shit his pants!" (Donnie)

"MIKEY!? MIKEY! ARE YOU THERE!? DID YOU PASS OUT!? MIKEY!!" (Raph)

He sighed, wraped himself in a robe and opened the door. He was furious, who the fuck, dare to interrupt him while hes so busy 🤨.

He opened the door, angry asf. Ready to shout at them with all his might.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT!?"

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"Mikey! Youre okay!" Raph said as he ran in to hug him. He held him tight but got a little wet from mikeys wet hair. Meanwhile mikey was surprised. He really expected him to shout at him or something. But no, he just hugged him, and it confused mikey. Leo quickly got inside and pushed them out of the bathroom, and locked the door. Mikey let out an "ew..."

"Micheal, you dumbass...! ... Are you okay?" Donnie sounded angry at first for shouting at them. But then got worried, because he thought something happened to him. What a nice brother. Unlike leo...

"Yeah.. im okay.." mikey was still tired. Why the fuck was he so tired? Meh, not my problem.

After a lot of worry dissapeared from his brother's minds. He could finally go to his room. As he changed into his outfit. He keot looking at his scars, and kept touching them. Like someone else was touching it. Like a person that cared was caressing his scars with their thumb.

After wearing his pajamas. He sat on the bed. Looking at phone and playing block blast. He was still cold. So he got in bed and played block blast the whole day, even missed lunch.

It was 10 pm. And dinner was ready. Raph shouted "dinners ready! Leo, donnie, mikey! Cmon!" He sounded excited, i bet he tried something new (talking abt the food). Mikey heard footsteps of leo and donnie, but donnie didnt leave just yet. He opened Mikey's door.

"Mikey, cmon. Stop looking at your phone and eat dinner, you skipped lunch, cant skip dinner." He said with slight worry, but mostly with impatience.

Mikey groaned, he wasnt hungry. But he didn't want to break Raphs heart. So he accepted it. And answered with a "Fineeee... I'll be there in a minute-"

"No. Youre coming now. No buts, no groaning, no 'why not', and no talking back!" Donnie shouted. He wasnt gonna let mikey lie to him. Mikey got angry.

"GOSH! I SAID I'LL BE THERE IN A MINUTE! WHATS YOUR PROBLEM..." He shouted as he stood up and pushed donnie away when walking through the halls. Donnie got angry aswell and scrunched up his face and shouted from behind.

"Watch that tone, young man!" As donnie shouted, mikey was imitating donnie while he was walking to the kitchen.

When they sat down on the table. All eyes were on mikey. As mikey was putting food on his plate, he notcied this. And confronted them. "Whats up with the staring?" He blurted out, clearly annoyed and confused.

"Oh, nothing.. just- ... Dont you think thats a little too much-?" Said leo. Not knowing how his words affected mikey and his mental health. Splinter got angry, and smacked leo in the head with his tail. Causing leo to let out an "ack!" Leo pouted as he rubbed his head, where splinter hit. Splinter gave a cold look to leo and quickly turned to mikey with a soft and warm smile.

"Don't listen to him, orange. Eat as much as you want!" He said, as he tried to make mikey gain his confidence.

"Okay..." Mikey still ate less that night. He couldn't believe it. How could leo say that to him? It broke his heart, he felt overweight and ugly. He just wanted to be normal. But stupid leo ruined everything...

After mikey ate his food, he was about go to his room. To yknow, cut himself, the usual. But raph snatched him and put him on his lap. And began talking to him. "Mikey. Youre not going anywhere. We have to talk, family matter." Raph said with full on seriousness. He was always serious, but mikeys never seen him THIS serious. The others were serious too. Waiting for raph to start. Raph sighed.

"Are you okay? Youve been angrier than normal-" he got cut off by donnie.

"Yeah, its like your doctor delicate touch instead of mikey-"

"DONNIE..! Ahem... Anyways. And your eyes are always red, youre always tired, and you keep looking at your phone. (Me fr). Im-" sighs "we're all worried. Youre not hiding anything, right?"

Mikey pov:

[Shit, shit, shit!! They can't find out...! Okay.. calm down mikey, act cool...]

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"Raph, i promise you, im not hiding anything-" he gets cut off my leo, who sounded worried and guilty.

"Did we- ... Did i do something?" Mikey was surprised and also guilty. Guilty about how he was thinking about leo an hour ago.

"What? No, no! I just want you to be a nicer brother to me. Is that okay?" He asked gently, waiting for an answer.

"Of course, little brother." He answered in a calming and loving tone. Donnie suddenly spoke out of nowhere.

"Yeah, im leaving. Its getting boring.. and plus, i dont have time for this. Mikey can deal with his own problems, he's 15."

Donnies words put a frown on raphs face.

"Hey. No one wants your negative energy here, donnie." Donnie was offended by that, and angrily spoke.

"Me!? Negative!? Are you even listening to yourself!? Im the science guy! Im the smartest and best person here!" Leo scoffed. "You sure, buddy? Because IM the best."

"Whatever! All of you are dumb! Stupid dumb little dumb dumbs..." He mumbled as he left the kitchen. Raph sighed with annoyance. And glanced at mikey who was silent the whole time. "Hey... We should go to sleep. Okay? Donnies... Whatever he did was not what we needed..."

"I second that. So not cool." Said leo as he agreed.

"Well, okay.. then... I'll be in my room.. uh.. goodnight?" Mikey said softly as things got utterly akward.

They all smiled at mikey (YOU THOUGHT I FORGOT ABOUT SPLINTER DIDNT YOU), all saying goodbye as mikey went to his room to process wtf just happened.

It was 3 am. And everyone was asleep. Well, except mikey and donnie. Mikey was listening to music and drawing, as usual. His eyes still red from cocaine. He was kinda tired. But he kept drawing, and drawing. He didn't want to sleep, sleeping was boring. Knowing that donnie was still awake, he continued his "work" instead of hanging out with donnie, as if he even wanted him.

He kept drawing, but he still couldn't stop thinking about why donnie was so rude to him. What did he every do to donnie? "he's just not used to having emotions!!'. Bullshit. Donnie suddenly got angry at mikey for no reason. What the fuck was up with him? As he kept drawing, he got bored from it as soon as he realized hes been drawing scribble the entire time. He decided to confront donnie.

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As he walked through the halls to Donnie's lab. He felt excruciating pain in his arms. It was those weird ass lights from his arms. They were getting bigger. This panicked mikey. he had an idea and quickly ran to the bathroom for bandages. He shuts the door, and tries to find bandages.

Mikeys pov:

[Cmon.. cmon..! Where are the fricking bandages!?-]

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[Found them.]

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He quickly bandages his arms. The pain was definitely not bearable. He quickly took medicine (yk the ones we use for pain like headache and stuff). He sighed, wishing that everything will be okay soon (it wont😇).

He left the bathroom, and walked straight to donnies lab. Before he was gonna knock, he thought about how he should start the conversation. But as he was thinking, he heard a voice. It was sheldon. Wait.. isnt Sheldon supposed to be asleep? Since he's donnies.. son? Drone? I dont know.

"Hey, mikey. I thought you were sleeping.. wait... Dont tell donnie im awake!" Sheldon panicked, worried that he was gonna get caught.

"What? No... Why would i?" Mikey asked.

"I dont know.. arent you snitch?" He said snickering, knowing that Mikey's gonna get mad.

"Shut up... Be grateful im not even here to snitch on you. And i would never!" Mikey shouted back at sheldon.

While mikey was getting irritated and arguing with Sheldon. He forgot that they were detected by donnie cameras. Donnie opened the lab doors with frustration. About to scream at mikey for being so loud.

"Mikey! What are you doing here awake with my so- i mean drone? Sheldon??"

"Dont yell at me! You've been acting angry all day! Why are you so rude to me-" he gets cut off by sheldon.

"Donnie! Mikey called me a short grape built goblin!" Seriously? Short grape built goblin? Way to lie your ass off sheldon.

Donnie gasps dramatically, how could mikey do this to his drone and definitely not his son!? With anger. Donnie asked if mikey really did that.

"Mikey... Did you call him a.. whatever you said!?" Mikey scoffs.

"Are you seriously gonna believe me? Or your robot!?" He shouted. The word "robot" triggered donnie and made him furious.

"Hes no robot! Hes a drone! And yes! I believe sheldon, not you!" Mikey was heartbroken, surprised, and VERY ANGRY. His voice was more quiet and gave a sad vibe. He was more softer.

"Why are you such an ASSHOLE to me? What did i ever do to you?" He felt like he was betrayed, he never expected donnie to say something like this.

"Asshole!? I'm angry, not an asshole! And im angry because youre so arrogant and have zero caution! You have lack of personality, you always think raph is gonna do every mission, and worst of all, YOURE ANNOYING!"

...

And thats when donnie woke everyone up. There were footsteps heard. Mikey was on the verge of tears. Was he really that annoying? That weird? He just wanted to be a good little brother.

"Oh." Mikey blurted out. He couldn't say anything else. He felt like his heart got ripped into pieces. He was never gonna forgive donnie for what he said.

As he felt tears run down his cheeks. Sheldon realised how much he fucked shit up. He tried to talk to mikey.

"Hey.. mikey..?" He expected a "what do you want!?" But mikey didnt say anything. He just turned his head to Sheldon, with teary, red eyes and trembling mouth. Sheldon felt guilt and regret. He wished he never said anything.

"Mikey... Im.. so sorry-" he mumbled to mikey. But went quiet when raph and leo came in.

"What's going on!? Im trying to get my beauty sleep-" Raph shouted, but saw mikey who was about to cry his eyes out. He held mikeys shoulder.

"Hey, buddy... Whats wrong...?" He said calmly with a hint of worry and slight anger. Donnie answered raph with a cold mutter.

"Mikey here woke Sheldon up in the middle of the night just to call him words and bully him! Come here Sheldon..." Donnie opened his arms, waiting for Sheldon to come inside his lab. Sheldon, with worry and guilt, slowly walks next to donnie. Donnie sighed and slightly annoyed about how he just stood next to him rather than hugging him. He dropped his arms down. And looked at the others.

"Tell Mikey to shut his mouth and go to sleep!" He screamed as he shut the door in their faces. Raph suddenly talked out of nowhere

"Woah, Why'd he shut the door that hard?" Leo had the perfect idea to make a pun.

"Maybe because he was feeling DOOR-ibly frustrated! Get it?" He chuckled. But raph growled at him and quickly turned to mikey.

"Mikey. Why'd you bully Sheldon out of nowhere? Thats not like you." He asked with a worried and surprised expression.

Mikey sniffles and answers with a high tone of voice.

"Its nothing... Lets just all go back to sleep.. i don't want dad to see us like this..." Raph and Leo looked at eachother woth worried and sad expressions. Then they looked back at mikey.

"Alright.. sure you can sleep alone this time?" Leo asked.

"Yeah... I'll just sleep with the tiny unicorns hueso gave me..."

Raph chuckled.

"Alright, little man. Go sleep. Have goodnight, guys."

they all go to their rooms blah blah blah. Mikey cries his eyes out on his pillows, hugging the unicorns. While crying, he suddenly felt a knock on his door. He wiped his tears, and looked into the mirror if it was obvious if he was crying. He then opened the door to see Sheldon. What was he doing here? Mikey sighed and asked.

"What do you want, Sheldon?" He was a little annoyed. Was he gonna call him a poosey😼 or something?

"Hey... I uhm... God, this is weird... Im sorry.. wanna.. play mario kart..?" That surprised mikey, he did NOT expect this. He went quiet a little and said.

"Uh, sure?"

Sheldon smiled, glad that he forgave him.

"Cool! Can i come in?" He asked, not wanting to invade his privacy without permission.

"Oh, sure."

"Thanks!"

...

They both fell asleep on the floor while playing mario kart.

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It was 7 am. And Sheldon woke up inside Mikey's bedroom, on the floor. He didn't remember anything. What the heck happened? And why the fuck was he inside Mikey's room? He looked around, and saw mikey also asleep on the floor, snoring loudly. He groaned woth disgust, who the hell snores that loud? Whatever...

He stood up, and was about to leave. But felt a weird smell from under mikeys bed, he couldn't quite think of a substance that gave off this disgustingly heavy smell. He checked the places that he expected the smelly thing to be in. But nothing. He was about to give up, thinking it was just mikeys smelly ass. He was looking through cabinets, and remembered that he forgot to check under the bed. He crouched down and pressed his head against the floor. The lights from his metal shoulders flashed on, and as he looked around under the bed, he muttered to himself the stuff he saw.

"Skateboard.. weapon.. gloves.. smelly box- wait.. smelly box?" He thought if this was the thing that gave off a strong smell. He pulled the box out from under the bed, it had some weird scratches and white stuff. He didn't really think anything of it though. He carelessly opened the box...

"W-what the fuck...!?" He let out a shout with it and woke up mikey. Mikey rubbed his eyes and sat up. Only to see Sheldon holding the box full of cocaine and weed. He got caught, he started to panick. He snatched the box away and hit it behind him.

"H-hey buddy! It was really fun last night! Am i right?" He said with worry and nervousness. Trying to hide everything. And i mean EVERYTHING, he did.

Sheldon didn't buy it. He got mad, and concerned. Was mikey using cocaine? Why? Is he depressed? Wait- wasn't he depressed in the first place? Eh. Who cares. Not my problem. He firmly asked a question, curling his hands into fists. Getting angrier by the second.

"Dont act like i didn't see cocaine in that box. What the fuck are you doing with those disgusting shit!?" He screamed, loud enough to attract attention from the others, who were in the living room. Mikey shushed him.

"Shhh! I promise you. Im gonna explain everything.. just.. trust me?" He held out his hand. As he slowly got a broken Jupiter Jim leg piece behind his back. About to strike.

Sheldon got suspicious, but felt like mikey wouldn't be that crazy to do something insane. (What a dumbass). He was about to hold mikeys hand. But he suddenly felt mikeys hand trying to gouch out his eyeballs. He screamed in pain. Why the fuck did donnie add pain into his programming? Mikey put the Jupiter Jim's leg into Sheldons other eye. Pinning him down as he stepped on the Jupiter jim leg with his feet. He closed Sheldons mouth with tape. He kept pressing against Sheldons eyeballs. He could feel Sheldons screams again his hand (hes covering his mouth even tho he taped it). Mikey started to chuckle a little. And muttered into Sheldons ear.

"Its a shame no one will know you saw it~" he said in a playful way. Knowing it was gonna freak Sheldon out more. Sheldon was screaming and crying. He couldn't see anything, couldn't be heard. He could only hear. Hear Mikey's laughs. He could only realise how easy he was to kill. How he was pathetic. How he was slowly dying. Mikey puts on a confused face.

"Never thought an emotionless robot would have a "tragic" death" he said as he giggled. he never enjoyed pain as much as he did right now. He could feel Sheldons eyes breaking, making him blind. after knowing that he finally went blind. He got the Jupiter jim leg and ripped it through Sheldons wrists. Making his wrists stuck against the floor. Basically he got his wrists nailed on the floor but the nails are a Jupiter jim body parts lmfao.

Sheldon was screaming at the top of his lungs. It was like a horrir movie. Losing the ability to feel his body parts one by one. This was NOT on Sheldons bucket list. He slowly started to give up. He wanted to stop feeling pain. As he was gonna sigh and relax, he felt mikeys hands punching through his neck. Making him unsble to be heard. He let out an unbearable and unhearable scream. He was never gonna forgive mikey for this. He mouthes the words "See you in hell." As he finally shut down.

Mikey sighed, he started to think about how he was gonna clean this shit up. He groans with annoyance, and starts to puts the remains of Sheldon into a black plastic bag. He cleans up the place. after 3 hours of cleaning. He threw out the trash. And acted like he woke up at 10 am. He left his room and acted sleepy and all. Raph and Leo were playing a game, while donnie was panicking, wondering where Sheldon was. He got nervous and just took coffee and went back to his room after giving them a "goodmorning!"

He went back to his room. Sat on his chair, and started to just casually draw while thinking about the choices he made in his life. Lets just hope he doesnt get caught. But he wasnt lucky today. Because donnie found Sheldons dead body outside in the city. He started sobbing and crying like a little baby. While the others were comforting him. Mikey was behind them, staring at donnie. He should've burned the body, or atleast whats left of his remains.

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December 20, 2025.

2 days since Sheldons death. Mikey was reading Jupiter jim comics, kicking his feet in the air while laying on his bed. He came to a part where the villian was crying over a person. That kinda reminded him of donnie crying for Sheldon. He scrunched up his face for a second. The thoughts making him tense even though he didn't regret anything. As he continued reading his comics, he heard a loud crash and a painful groan. Sounded like someone invaded their home. He quickly got his weapon from under the bed and ran across the room to the living room, slightly tripping and breathing heavily.

He finally arrives to the living room, and sees one of their enemy, Hipnopotamus (idk how to write his name). He was trying to "destroy his old enemies for good" or whatever. He then looks at the broken wall, there was also leo laying down unconscious. Did hipnos fatass did some weird "magic" again? God.. he looks like a yassified germ.. ew...

Warren was again, making his intro.

"I, am Warren Stone! You're greatest and most evilest ENEMY!" He did a classic evil laugh

He was gonna get his brother; but Warren, the weird man worm, flew into his face. Mikey groans woth annoyance and picked Warren up and threw him into a wall. Then he quickly ran to leo. Trying to wake him up.

"Leo! Leo, are you there? Can you hear me? Leo!" He shouted with worry. His shouting caught his brothers attention. Raph was fighting with hipno, but as soon as he heard mikey shout leos name. He instantly knocked out hipno and ran to mikey. Meanwhile donnie was stomping on warren with disgust. He very soon came after raph. Raph also tried to wake him up.

"Leo!? LEO!! WAKE UP!!!" He screamed with a scared expression. As started shaking leo by holding his shoulders, his voice slightly breaking. Whilst mikey was hyperventilating , trying to call april and splinter who were at the grocery store. Donnie was biting his teeth and shaking violently. As if waiting for something GOOD to happen.

As raph kept shaking, he saw a slight redness on Leo's shell, realization stuck him as he thought to himself with fear.

Raph pov

[No.. this cant be happening. Leo cant die. Not on my watch."

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He quickly turned leo around to look at his shell, if there was any damage. And there was... A lot. He could even see, no.. Feel the pain he had in his shell, cuts and bruises all over his body from the wall breaking against him with force. Everyone was horrified when they saw his shell. Especially mikey. He wasn't just sad, though.. he was filled with pure rage. Thinking about how painful and slow hipnos death was going to be. He held his weapon tight. Sniffling and shaking. He turned to hipno. And slowly started to talk.

"You.. Youll pay for this!" He screamed as he ran over to hipno. He raised his weapon, and attacked. Blood splattering everywhere. he kept hitting... And hitting... and hitting... He could feel the blood splat some on his face, he kept smashing hipnos face with the weapon as hipno screamed in pain. Raph and donnie were terrified. Mikey killed hipno. He was insane. Raph slowly walked up to him with fear.

"Mikey... What... What have you done?-" He asked with horror. This was too much, even for mikey himself. But he was cut off my hipnos screams. While donnie was standing there, traumatised. What the fuck was wrong with mikey? He scared him, he scared everyone. Meanwhile, warren, was shouting and crying for hipno. Hugging him and sobbing.

"Hipno! Answer me! Please! What... What have you done!? You monster!" He yelled at mikey, but mikey? He didn't give a single shit, and before warren could say anything, he got smashed by mikeys weapon. There was blood everywhere. As the blood dripped from the weapon, mikey slowly started to realise what he has done. And no one moved a single inch. It was silent.

But the silence got interrupted by Splinter and April entering with rush.

"Guys we're here!-" April suddenly stood quiet. Covering his mouth as she dropped her baseball bat on the floor. What the fuck was going on!? Meanwhile splinter was screaming leos name and kneeling next to him, trying to pick him up. Raph got closer to mikey, while Mikey's hands were shaking. It was clear he was scared. He couldn't believe it... He killed someone. Hes a murderer... He was a villian.

"You- ... Youre insane..." Donnie muttered, scared as hell. Mikey suddenly looked at the others, his face slightly covered in blood, which made the others more scared as mikey tried to come up with lies. Trying to get out of what he did.

"I-i didnt mean to.. its just- something snapled and i attacked them... But i promise you. Im not evil. I would NEVER, hurt you.. you believe me. Right..? RIGHT!?" He said with worry. He didn't want them to see him as a crazy murderer. He was the youngest, the most innocent person. Always. Mikey stood up, and quickly stood somehowere else away from donnie. As he was looking anywhere, trying to find somewhere to escape. He saw a hole on the broken ceiling. He suddenly heard Leo's painful grunting.

"Mikey.." Leo said weakly. Trying to stand up, but stumbling and falling into raphs arms. Thats when mikey saw leo being scared of him for the first time. And it broke his heart to see leo, everyone, to be scared of him. Why did he do that? What was wrong with him? He started to sniffle and walked backwards. The blood was everywhere, making bloody footprints. Mikey let out a deep, shaky exhale.

"Im sorry... Im so sorry- i panicked and i-i was angry- im sorry-!" He started to panick even more as his eyes went from the broken hole to the others expression. He was about to escape. But heard donnie mutter something.

"Leave."

"W-what..?"

"Leave. And dont. Come. Back."