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As he woke up his body felt sluggish. He felt hands touching him all over. But when he looked down was no hands.

He took more awareness to his surrounding. His pants and underwear were In front of him. Not on him but in front.

He was in an alley. Dressed as robin. He sees 5 men walking away from him.

“ boy wonder more like boy blunder. Hahahaha” “ that ain’t funny j”
“Whatever, I’m getting bored.” “we should to teach this brat and Batman that this our city not theirs.”

Damian recalls. He doesn’t feel like moving but he needs to push. He tries to stand up even though his whole body hurts.

He had a nasty conclusion. Those 5 men had raped him and he let them.

“You’re the heir to the demon. how did you let this happen?” he imagines his grandfather saying this.

Once those men were gone He puts on his underwear and his pants. ( it was a huge struggle.) He almost felt like giving up but he pushes through.

He feels tired. His body hurts like hell. He wishes his mother was here. She would beat the living crap out of those assholes.

He wishes his father was here. He would join
His mother in beating those assholes

He wishes Richard was here. He would comfort him by hugging him.

He wishes Tim was here. He would gather all the evidence and make sure those motherfuckers get locked up forever.

He wishes Todd was here he would join father and mother.

He wishes he wasn’t such a failure. If he wasn’t then this wouldn’t have happened

“Why did it have to be me?”he whispers before he passes out

When he wakes up he’s still in that damn alley. It wasn’t a bad dream.( he wishes that he was back in the bat cave)He attempts to stand up. His body still hurting.

As soon as he tried to take a step he fell.

He realized that it wasn’t going to work. So he searched for his utility belt.

When he saw his utility belt he grabbed his grappling hook. And started to grapple his way home. Don’t get it wrong it still hurt like shit. However it made it slightly easier.

He made it to the batcave and stopped. If he went in there. They would see how weak he was. How useless he was.

But he needed help. He wasn’t one to deny his health.

He went into the cave ( limping ) expecting people talking or hearing keyboard typing. But nothing.

He looks at the time on the computer. 3 am

No one was awake. I mean even if they were
Why they be down here.

He made his way to the elevator. Even though it was killing him.

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After struggling to get to Dick room he’s finally there . He scared .no. A al ghul doesn’t get scared. He knocks once. He knocks another time.

No answer.

He decides to open the door. He sees Dick peacefully sleeping.

“ who knew Batman’s brat was such a dirty slut”

Damian tries to push the thought out of his head.

“Richard” his voice quiet and soft.

“Mmph. Huh. What’s going on?” Dick woke up confused. Dick turn on his lamp“ yes Dam? What do you need?”

“ I-I….. I can’t.” Damian couldn’t tell him. The shame was to much. He starts backing up. This was a horrible mistake.He starts running to his room which is a terrible idea.

When he enters it he collapse. He tried to tell him self that hes overreacting He deserves it for sneaking out.

He felt disgusting. Phantom hands moving down his body. Touching him in ways he never wanted to feel.

“Damian”

That scared him. He shouldn’t be afraid of his own name. Or was it his tone?Or was it dick? He shouldnt be afraid of his own brother

Should he tell Dick?

“Damian are you ok? What happened? You’re injured.” Dick looked concerned. If you saw your brother in his robin clothes which was ripped. Coming to you in the middle of the night .Needing to tell you something, you would be concerned.

“I-I went on patrol without Father knowing. And I got injured”Damian didn’t want to say the rest. It was too embarrassing. He was an Al ghul

Dick didn’t fully believe Damian. Dick looked at Damian for a few more seconds hoping for him to continue. When he didn’t he sighed.

“You know what, why don’t you take a shower, then I will look over and bandage your wounds. Ok? I would call Alfred however he’s sleeping and I don’t think we should wake him up right now.” Dick said softly, he did a soft but worried smile at Damian

Damian nodded he didn’t feel like talking. He felt like If he talked he might just spill everything.

“ I’ll stay in your room waiting for you ok?”

Damian nodded again.

As Damian tried to stand up and walk he almost fell

“Woah .careful buddy” dick caught him. Damian should beat the living shit out of dick for calling him buddy but he too weak to try.

Dick helped him balance.when he got him to his feet he noticed he was bleeding.down there. Dick thought of something but he immediately removed that thought out of his head. He decided to just ask Damian.

“ your bleeding” dick whispered softly

Damian was thinking of an excuse. It had to be perfect.

“ I went on patrol,remember? It mostly just a cut my lower back. There’s no reason to get worried over blood.” Damian put on his best performance. He started to wish he didn’t wake up dick.

Damian started to walk to the bathroom but it was very hard to walk with out limping.

He felt dick’s eyes watching him.

“ I can help you” dick want to say but he knew Damian was to much like Bruce to say yes. The thought in his head still remained. He hoped and prayed that, that wasn’t the answer. He decided to go wake up bruce

As Damian went into the bathroom he locked The door.

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Dick went to Bruce’s room. He’s hesitant to knock. What if he just overreacting and Damian just got injured on patrol nothing more.

However, dick wasn’t going to take a chance.Damian is his little brother.

Dick opens the door expecting to see Bruce sleeping. However Bruce is wide awake on his bed.Checking his laptop.

“Bruce?” Dick asked “what are you doing awake?”

“Security cameras showed Damian entering the batcave. Which means he snuck out,” Bruce sighs. “What am I going to do with that boy” Bruce whispers.

“ Speaking about Damian, Bruce I think something terrible happened to him.” Bruce gave dick a look to keep on going.

“ He came to my room like 35 minutes ago then ran out. I went to his room found him on the floor, he told me he snuck out and got injured and I think he not telling the whole truth. I told him to go shower, he stood up and almost fell until I caught him. Then I noticed blood. Down there. And he’s limping. You don’t need to be the world’s greatest detective to have an idea what’s going on.” Dick really hoped he was being paranoid.

Bruce furrowed his eyebrows. He hoped what dick was saying wasn’t true.

“He’s in room right?” Bruce asked his former partner. His tone was angry.

“ don’t tell me you mad at him? You ca-“

Bruce gave him a look telling him to shut up.He stood up from his bed. As he walked towards the he stop and said

“Go tell Alfred, get the med bay ready for him.” Bruce commanded and continued to walk towards his son’s room

Bruce prayed that this was all just misunderstanding.He would never forgive himself if Damian got raped. I mean he should have made the security higher or. Or. Or let him go on patrol with him more often.

Either way this was his fault.he stood in front of his son’s room and opened the door.

He wasn’t in there. Bruce assumed he was in the bathroom.

He didn’t know how to approach this situation. Does he immediately ask him what happened or does he comfort. He chooses comfort

He started pacing around for god knows long practicing his speech until he heard a creak coming from the bathroom.

“Damian?”.He turns to look his son in his eyes.Damian was wearing shorts and a T shirt. He looked uncomfortable.

Damian’s eyes was filled with shock at first then it turned into guilt.

“Damian what happened. Were you sexually assaulted? If you were I need to know who,when and where.”Bruce said on accident.

It was just a reflex. He wasn’t the best at communicating. I mean he’s Batman for crying out loud. Plus he wasn’t the one to give immediate comfort.No that was dick. Maybe he should have thought this out more.

Damian just looked at him with shock. Then his brows furrowed. “ Father how dare you walk in here and say such a thing. You know the shame I would have to carry if I was SAd? I would never let that happen.” Damian’s heart was racing a little too fast.

If Bruce found out what would he do? Would he send him back to the league. No. Bruce wouldn’t send back . He just needed to breathe.

Damian was angry, he should have never woke up dick. Bruce was probably going to make him quit being robin because he can’t even protect him self. What kinda robin can’t protect themselves?

“Damian liste-“ Bruce was talking but Damian could barely hear him.

He needed to think. There has to be a way to get out of this. His eyes slowly moved towards the window.

“Damian don’t.Even.Think. About it.” Bruce looked serious.He immediately knew what Damian was thinking.

“What? I’m just cold, father. I’m getting a jacket. Why don’t you trust me”He slowly walked towards his closet. His eyes still on his father.

Bruce stance was ready. It not that he doesn’t trust Damian it just that he knows what Damian can do.

Damian grabs a hoodie and puts it on. Damian knew if he started running he would instantly regret it due the pain, however Damian was no stranger to pain.

Damian ran towards the window and his father was right behind him. His body was telling him to stop but since when did he ever listen to his body.

He opened the window and jumped.

Bruce looked out of the window he sees his son climbing down the manors walls. Damn it! He should have caught him.

Dick came in

“B. I told Alfred to prepare. We might just be overreacting.”dick looked around “where is he?” Dick’s face was confused

“Suit up,wake up Tim and tell him to suit up. Call red hood and oracle.” Bruce commanded. As walked past dick and towards the door.

“ and tell them what?” Dick asked

Bruce stopped and turned.”were on a hunt for robin”.

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“So let me gets this straight Dick thinks that Damian got raped. So you go to his room and interrogate him and he runs away. And now all of us have to be looking for robin instead of sleeping because of your shitty idea.” (Jason empathizes the thinks that Damian was raped) Jason was tired it like what 5 am and he was in his red hood suit. He slept at 2 am due to patrol and woke up at 4 something to dick calling him

“I know I messed up. I wasn’t thinking straight.Maybe it because I only had 1 hour sleep.i don’t know.” Bruce admitted that he was being a terrible father, he usually never like that with his kids when ever he gets 5 hours of sleep however today he only 1 hour of sleep.

“ it’s not the time to be arguing.” Barbara yawns she’s tired too.” I’m looking at all possible options that Damian could go to.”

“ so he could go to,uh-“ Barbara starts snoring

“Great, just, great the only person who can help us is sleeping right now. Actually where’s Tim?” Jason said. He heard Tim was supposed to join them but he wasn’t here.

“ Hes probably is still sleeping,” Dick groans”,ok, new plan. I’ll buy all of us coffee cause we need it.” Dick started ordering coffee to be delivered at the manor.

Damian pov ( not really but focusing on him)

Damian was just walking up and down the streets of Gotham City. Every step hurt. He started to regret running away.

He’s a Wayne not a coward. Maybe he should go back. But then Bruce would interrogate him. However Damian wanted to find the ass holes. He needed to find them.

He could redeem himself if he did. He can prove he’s not failure. He’s going to kill them if he does then he can get his pride and ego back.

However the shame is too much. He let them rape him. He could have stopped it.He should have stopped it but instead he didn’t. He let it happen like a coward.

He finds a bench and sits down. He feels really dirty for some reason. He took a shower not too long ago so why does he feel dirty.

He feels disgusting. If only he listen to Bruce and actually stayed home. If he did. None of this would happen.

He’s tired. The running made him really tired even tho that not the longest he ever ran before.

He wanted to be in Richard’s arms, he didn’t like comfort that much however he would like it now.

Damian lays down on the bench carefully every movement hurting him like hell. He decided his going to stay here for a bit but he’s not going to sleep

Again Damian is tired however if he sleeps what if he gets raped or kidnapped or. Or. He think about more possibilities that can happen. He really hopes a normal criminal gets their gun and shoots him. so he won’t have to deal with the shame anymore.

Damian decides to close his eyes for a 6 seconds not for anymore.

Time skip (it’s now time 9 am)

Damian wakes up. His eyes still closed.He can tell he’s no more on the bench. What if he was kidnapped and they’re going to rape him and since he ran away from his family they’re not going to want to save him.

Damian eyes open wide up. His whole body shook up. From that sudden movement his body filled up with pain. Damian groans from the pain. In his head it was repeating one thing “ it wasn’t a dream”.

Damian took look around on his surrounding. He was in the bat cave med bay. They must have found him sleeping.

Richard walked into med bay.He had nicely folded clothes in his hands. ( I hc Damian as someone who folds or hangs their clothes he seems like some one who does)

Damian looks at Richard.He doesn’t know to respond.

He puts his head down so he won’t have to look at Richard. He notice blood on the medbay bed. Coming from him ( it’s coming from down there)

“ hey Dami, Ibrought you clothes so you can change into them” Richard said. His voice was soft. But also a hint of sadness and anger

He placed the clothes next to Damian and left the room.

Damian grabs the clothes and walks towards the bathroom and changes.

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Damian walks into the main part of the batcave. He sees Dick, Bruce, Jason, Tim, and Barbara talking mostly likely about him.

Their conversation stops when they see him.

“Damian I apologize for how I approached you. I didn’t take it with causation. I think it was because I was tired but that’s not an excuse. Im so sorry Damian” Bruce looked at Damian he was sorry and guilty.

Damian was shocked at first then he remained in his normal resting face
“Father, theres no need to apologize. I should have never ran away, it was childish.”Damian didn’t understand why his father was apologizing.

Bruce wanted to argue back that he mess up however he didn’t what to start another fight so he kept his mouth shut.

The room was quiet. Everyone wanted to ask if he was raped and if he was who did it however no one knew how to approach the matter.

Damian knew what everyone was thinking. He took a deep breath and spoke “Father you know question you asked before I ran away. The one about if I was raped? Well..” he looked at floors he didn’t what to look at any of them” I was.” He whispered painfully. He closed his eyes

Barbara put her head in her hand. She and Damian weren’t the closest however no one deserves to be raped.

Bruce closed his eyes tightly, he didn’t want the tears to escape.When he finds the monster who raped him, the only person who’s going to be able to pull him off is Superman and Superman is in Metropolis.

Tim’s eyes were glassy, he cover his eyes with his hand. Even tho him and Damian’s relationship isn’t the best he would never wish this on him. He going to find this monster and make him pay.

Dick started to cry silently .He’s the one that told Bruce that Damian could have been Raped. So why is he crying? He wish this never happened Damian and it happen to him instead.

Jason was beyond furious, what kind of person can do this?. Only monsters do this.

Damian looks at all of them. Jason look mad probably mad at him. Bruce,Tim,dick, and Barbara were probably so disappointed in him.He wanted to run back in his room and start crying.

Tim wanted to hug him. But again his relationship with Damian isn’t that good. And knowing Damian he would instantly say no. Maybe later.

“Damian there’s things we need to know so we can catch the person who did this” Bruce wiped his eyes quickly he couldn’t cry.

“ Really Bruce? You going straight to questions. Your not ev-“ Jason yelled

“ Fathers right,Todd”

“What?!” Everyone but Damian said that. They all looked at him confused.

“We need to find the people who raped me .We need to make sure it doesn’t happen to any one else. You can ask questions.Plus I’m not embarrassed or anything” Damian was lying of course he was embarrassed. He doesn’t want to tell them anything because of the shame. However he has to think about all the other people who can get raped by them.

Tim’s face turn into shock to disgust then anger. “ what do you mean people?! I thought it was just one person.” He yelled.Turns out multiple bastards raped his little brother.

Barbara was disgusted how could multiple people do this to a kid that look less then 12 even in his robin suit. “How much people was it Damian?”. Her tone was rough.

Damian looked at the wall. He hated the tone she was use using. It reminded him of his grandfather and of one of those rapist their time was just like that.

“ you said you weren’t embarrassed Damian. Answer the god damn question Damian.”Jason yelled at Damian because he cared about Damian and he couldn’t risk his brother health.

“Damian please . Just answer her question.” Dick was practically begging Damian.

“ There was 5 people walking away from me.There might have been more but I don’t know.” Damian whispered but everyone heard. He felt like a disgrace he doesn’t even know if they were more than five people. Tim grabbed a piece of paper and pen from his jacket and started writing.

“Did they give you any drugs that could have possibly made you not fight them?”
Tim asked. He knew that Damian must have been in injected with something. There no way he would fight.

“ No, I wasn’t on any drugs.” He was but he didn’t know that. “Tim look at him with searching eyes but didn’t say anything, he wrote something down away.

Dick went to where Damian was standing and started to rub back . At first Damian flinched and his shoulder tightened but then he relaxed.

“ Two more questions Damian. This ones really important. Did you….collect the DNA?”
Tim carefully asked.

Damian felt so useless. How could he forget the one thing that could redeem himself?He closed his eyes so tightly he might not even be able to open it again.

“No. I Forgot. I’m sorry “ Damian had to hold the sobs and the cries in. He already failed by getting raped the least he could do was collect the DNA.

“ Hey, don’t beat yourself about it. Most people if they’re in that kind of situation would have focused on getting out not collecting dna. Ok?” Jason gave a sympathetic smile.

“No” he pulled away from Dick in a way that startle Dick.

“I’m not like most people I’m supposed to be the heir to the demons throne!Not some rape victim!” Damian ran to the elevator to escape.

“I’m going to after dami-“ dick was trying to say until Bruce interrupted” he’s my son dick . I will talk to him. But first you guys are going to find out who did this.”

“ I already have a lead.” Tim started typing on the bat computer. “. “ already?” Barbara said she’s looking at what Tim is typing.

Bruce started walking to the elevator but he enter he said.” Find the rapist”. “We will B. Trust us.” Dick said

A minute later Tim started talking“ It must be a gang associated with drugs. I kn ow Damian said that he wasn’t drugged but I don’t believe him. Barbara. Jason. check to see if you can re trace Damian steps so we can see where he was raped. Dick your with me. We’re going to see if we can identify these bastards. However we will mostly need a rape kit from Damian”. They all nodded and started working

With Damian and Bruce

Damian was sitting on his bed. His head was in his knees. He was crying. Sobbing even, he hoped and prayed nobody followed him. “Damian.” Bruce eyes were full of tears but he didn’t let one single tear down. He was standing right in front of the door way.

“Father I’m sorry. I’m such a failure. I’m supposed to be robin not a useless idiot.” Damian blamed him self he wanted to end his life so he wouldn’t have to worry about the shame and feeling useless.

“Damian can I hug you?” Bruce asked and Damian nodded.

Bruce kneeled down and hugged Damian. Damian buried his head in his father shoulder and started crying and sobbing.he would never admit that he cried on his father shoulder.

“ This is all my fault. I’m so sorry Damian. Forgive me please.” Bruce begged Damian to forgive him since it’s his fault Damian got raped.

“Father it’s not your fault. It’s mi-“

“It’s not your fault either Damian. It’s the people who raped you fault”.

“We’re going to catch them father” Bruce cringe at the word “we’re”.

“ Damian I don’t think you be robin for a bit. Or ever again.”. He said ever again really quiet so that Damian wouldn’t hear him.

What?

“What?”

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“Look it’s a little to dangerous to let you out again as robin, Damian. I don’t want the same mistakes happening again.” Bruce look at Damian trying to make him understand. Damian wiped his tears really quick and looked at Bruce angrily.

“Father, that was a mistake I won’t repeat! You can’t take robin away it’s not fair!” Damian face was red from embarrassment and anger. He pulls away from Bruce

“Look I might let you out in like a month. Ok? There’s other things I need to tell you that you may not like.”

A month? Damian can’t stay at home for a month. He wished he just stayed home instead of sneaking out. Not the time right now tho, he will definitely discuss the fact that he might never have robin back with his father another time.Now what is father talking about that he might not like what he’s going to him?

“Have you ever heard of a STI and a STD test before?” Bruce asked. He knows Damian has heard of a STI and STD before however he doesn’t want to go and say “ you might have a STI and STD from being raped so you have to take a test”. That’s terrible idea

“Father of course I heard of a STD and STI test. .” Bruce tries not to look with any empathy or pity cause the moment he does that, Damian is going to freak out that he might have a STI or STD.

Damian brows were furrowed and he was squinting. At first he was confused then he became angry.

“You’re trying to insinuate that those men gave me STI. Father I can insure you-“

“Damian it’s a possibility. If you do have one it needs to treated as soon as possible. You’re going to have to take that test. You also going to be brought to medical examiners so we can see what the men did to your body ” Bruce made his tone final. He thought that Damian was going to argue but Damian just stayed quiet looking regretful.

Damian didn’t want to do the test. The thought of being exposed again like that made Damian want to throw up.Damian hated himself for getting raped ,was is wrong with him. Oh my gosh why didn’t he do something about. Why did he lay down and just let it happen. Is he stupid or something?

“Damian”

“ Why did it have to be me?!”Damian punched a wall. He usually calmed down his anger though violence. Damian was too angry to hear his father calling his name.

He wished he went after those men. He wished it happened a week after he came to the manor. He would have killed them in-fact the second.But no. Since it’s been like 9 months he’s been in the manor, he became softer and adapted to his new ‘family’ kill rule.

What would grandfather say? Would he say he’s a failure? What would he do? Damian hopes ra’s kills him that would be the best idea. So at least he doesn’t have to feel the pain and the shame any more.

He feels dirty. He should really take a shower. Maybe it will help him relax.

He just realized he’s crying. (He’s cried more then 1 once today what a baby) Tears flowing down his face.

He would love to wipe al his tears but he can’t. They just keep on falling down.

He feels someone hugging him. It’s his father. He hears a noise. Sounding like a sob. Damian realizes it’s coming from him.

Bruce hugs Damian and shush’s him like he’s a kid . Damian would have pulled away instantly say he’s 10 years old and not a kid but today Damian doesn’t mind it.

Bat brothers and Barbara

“Another dead end!. Ugh!” Tim threw a sheet of papers he had on the floor. Then slammed the desk in frustration. Nothing. Barbara was also pissed off too. Every single lead they had was a dead end.

“Any luck?” Barbara asked dick and Jason. Jason shook his head no in frustration.

“Yes actually”. Dick said. He walked up to the bat computer and everyone quickly followed.

Dick connected his screen to the bat computer.

“ I was able to track where Damian was assaulted. Gotham park alley.Cameras show a couple being harassed by two men in gotham park alley. Seconds later Damian comes and fights the two men and the couple runs.Then three more men come into the scene and tases Damian. After that they inject him with syringe. Then” Dick hesitates and pauses the video” it shows the 5 men removing Damian’s clothes.”

Jason thinks for a second. Then says “Can we identify the couple? Maybe they can give us a description. Later we can ask Damian if any of the men have tattoos left any any marks .”

“ I think we can.” Barbara starts typing “ It will take a second.” Barbara turns towards everyone “Did you guys tell Al yet?”

“ He coming back in two days. He’s on vacation. We don’t want to disturb his peace.” Dick was about to continue talking until he heard a ding coming from the computer. Barbara quickly turned around

“ The couple has been identified as Mary blogger and Herny blogger.actors. Have a criminal record for helping scums steal from poor families.”.Tim said actors in such an angry way.

“They probably were paid to pretend!” Jason was angry. More than angry. How could some one agree to something like that

“If I did something like I would probably try to skip town, move some where unknown .” Dick suggests

“When Bruce comes down here we’ll will explain everything and then get into positions. Dick and Tim you’re going to go to the actor’s home and interrogate them. Jason and Bruce will go collect evidence.”Barbara said while typing on the computer.

“Why can’t me and Bruce interrogate the actors and Tim and dick collect evidence?”

“Yeah I rather collect evidence” Tim agreed with Jason.

“Because, if I let you and Bruce interrogate the actors you both are going to get super angry and kill them or break their skull. Even though they might deserve it we must always remember ‘justice not vengeance’. At least dick and Tim might just beat them and give them like two broken bones.”.Barbara was talking to Jason in a calm way so he won’t lose his temper,ever since the incident with joker happened he been more vengeful and murderous.

Barbara missed the old Jason. The one who would comfort her when she was devastated about being paralyzed. She was heartbroken over his death. Then boom he comes back a crime lord.

“Whatever” Jason just his rolled eyes.

“I think maybe we should do a movie night before we go on patrol To lighten up the mood a bit. I’m going to go ask Damian.”. Dick hoped and prayed Damian would say yes. Damian was never really close so dick doubts that he will any closer after the incident but he should at least try.

“Ok.”.”Sure”.”fine by me”. Barbara, Tim, and Jason all said at the same time.

“Great. I’m going to go ask Bruce and Damian.” Dick headed towards the elevator.

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Hey. I’m not quitting this fic, However I’m experiencing writers block for this fic so in a month or two I will upload another chapter. I’m going to work on another fic for the time being.