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12:24 A.M.♥️ red angel 🧸: hey
12:24 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: can i vent to you or bad time?
12:26 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: no dude i can listen anytime
12:26 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ok, thanks man
12:26 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: lately it’s been rough as heck
12:26 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: yk
12:28 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: the walls feel like they’re closing in.
12:29 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i don’t know where my motivation to live and everything went but its gone now
12:29 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i feel terrible everyday at some point
12:29 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: my anxiety actually sucks
12:31 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: and saving the world doesnt even feel like it’s worth it if i have to go through this
12:31 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i hate it
12:32 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i feel horrible for everything that i
12:34 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i feel horrible
12:35 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: can relate to that. everyday just feels slow and stuff right? nothings real anymore
12:35 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: exactly
12:35 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: I dont even know anymore man
12:40 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: what messes me up is that it probably won’t get better from here..
12:41 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: dude don’t say that
12:41 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: you dont know that
12:42 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i guess
12:42 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: the dreams just get hard to manage sometimes yk
12:43 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: of course i know. you’d know that i know firsthand that nightmares suck
12:44 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: well no not nightmares
12:46 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: wait
12:46 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: nevermind.
12:47 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: ??? wdym
12:47 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: nothin
12:49 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ugh theres this audio that goes “i dont wanna be here, i dont wanna be anywhere” and i relate to it a lot. specially after those stupid jerk wads of gum.
12:50 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: dunno, it feels like my own brain is against me?? like ima just lose control again
12:50 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: and i feel like im already dead when that happens
12:51 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: sounds like shit bro.
12:51 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: yup 👍 :/
12:57 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i wish i wasn’t sentient so none of this mattered and I didn’t have to feel kraang tentacles and hear kraang and think about kraang and try to live my life like i dont care about kraang. im tired of pretending i dont care and that it didnt get to me. im so tired of myself
12:58 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: like you don’t wanna die, but living is fucking exhausting so you’d rather just be in a limbo
12:58 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: yeah
12:59 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: honestly at times like this
1:00 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i wouldnt mind death, i wouldnt mind if something just struck me down right now
1:02 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: I mean
1:02 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: raph
1:03 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: the offer’s always open
1:03 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: if you can’t take it anymore
1:06 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: jsyk
1:06 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: nah.
1:06 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i aint killin myself
1:06 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: that’s not right, I dont believe in that.
1:07 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: what about mikey n donnie? what are they gonna do if we’re both gone?
1:09 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: anyhow killing myself over something like this is dumb. raphs better than that.
1:10 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: its just that im so tired all the time
1:11 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: it doesn’t even matter how muhc sleep I get though, and you know i get plenty
1:11 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: *much
1:12 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: im literally just tired all the time, my head hurts constantly and so do my stupid knees
1:12 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: and my back!!! i feel like im forty instead of seventeen!
1:13 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: PREACH
1:13 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: everything always hurts
1:14 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: twinning‼️
1:16 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ugh just wish that my brain would shut up sometimes…… like it feels like my thoughts are thoughts from the kraang sometimes and that freaks me out dude!!
1:18 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: not good for my mental health!
1:19 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: have u tried talking to dr feelings??
1:20 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: dude you of all turtles should know this..
1:22 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: you do not SEEK OUT dr. feelings. dr feelings comes to you and strangles the life out of your emotions
1:23 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: just meant he was better with emotions but ok
1:24 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ooooh snap
1:24 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: am i makin you uncomfy?
1:24 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: with all the venting and feelings crap
1:24 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: lil bro im so sorry ill talk with dr feelings instead
1:25 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: NO!!! im not uncomfy i swear
1:25 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: im not mad or anything
1:26 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: no ones mad ok
1:26 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: i swear on JJ
1:27 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: dang you gettin serious thennnn
1:30 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ok
1:30 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: thanks
1:31 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: uh i feel like im okay now
1:32 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: you 100 percent sure??? i can take care of your chores for ya and cut you up some strawberries
1:33 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: and like if you get all paralyzed and dont have the motivation to get outta bed ill clean up your room n talk to you
1:33 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: know it helps me when my room is less cluttered
1:35 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i mean…. strawberries wouldnt be too bad right now. i can handle my chores and room rn though, don’t worry
1:35 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: “don’t worry” lmao says you
1:36 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: LOW BLOW!! illegal move
1:36 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: you gonna do anything about it?
1:36 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: shudduppp
1:36 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: just get your sarcastic butt down here and we can watch some markiplier or smth…
1:37 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: dont you watch him??
1:37 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: yuh but we can watch that JJ analysis video you said youve been wanting to watch instead
1:37 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: i mean would you wanna??
1:37 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: bro, big guy, big brother, youve GOTTA take dr. feelings advice and actually do what you wanna do for once
1:38 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: markiplier seems interesting though!! i can watch the JJ video anytime i want
1:38 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ooooo didnt know poppy playtime had a chapter 4
1:38 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: i watched that dude, it’s kinda scary
1:38 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: we’re doing the JJ one whether you like it or not
1:38 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ok fiiinne
1:39 A.M. 💙💙neon the leon✨✨: ill cut you up some strawberries and be in your room in like two seconds
1:39 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: kinda ominous
1:39 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: ty though <3
1:39 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: for the vent sesh n all
1:39 A.M. ♥️ red angel 🧸: :)