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Steve runs to their room, slamming the door, before sliding down it. His head sinks between his knees as he tries to get his breathing under control. Tears burn in his eyes threatening to fall.His cheeks are red with embarrassment. Of course they are. He just embarrassed himself in front of a King. A man who's surprisingly close to his partner. The man who's supposed to be helping his best friend. His best friend who's in a lot of pain, who doesn't really know who he is. It's important to him that he gets all the help he needs.
Steve stands up the tears finally falling. He knows he can't be selfish about this. Sure he just found him but Bucky doesn't owe him anything. What kind of friend would he be if he let Bucky suffer all because he can't let him go. He's not even supposed to be holding on to him so tight. He has an amazing, supportive, and patient boyfriend. One who can only be patient for so long.
Loki teleports into their room and stares at Steve as he starts to pace. He doesn't know Loki is there yet as he starts to mumble to himself.
"Calm down, Steve. You need to do better." He chants softly.
"Darling? Are you okay?" Loki finally speaks and Steve's head snaps in his direction.
"Y-y-yea, yea I'm okay. I um...my emotions got the better of me. I'll be out in a second. I swear." Steve nods and shakes his head. Clearly not sure what emotion he's trying to betray.
"Can you breathe for me, Darling?" Loki takes slow steps towards him.
"Yea, yea,yep." He does his best to slow down his breathing. With Loki so close by he's actually able to start calming down.
They sit in silence, the only sound is Loki. Trying to get Steve to copy his breathing. He follows his lead soon enough and he presses his face into Loki's chest once he's close enough.
"I-I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me." he mumbles softly.
"I can think of a few things. I'm assuming jealousy is the main reason though." Loki shrugs.
"You're a dick." Steve mumbles and Loki chuckles softly.
"And I can feel yours. Your point?" Loki shifts his hips forward causing Steve to moan.
Steve bites his lip and the couple sit in silence. He press his faces harder into Loki's chest.
"Darling, what's wrong?" He rubs his back as he ask softly.
"I-I want to ask you something but I'm scared you'll leave." Steve confesses.
"Steve, I'm not going to leave you. You can ask me anything?"
"You left before, when I asked about you and Sam."
"You didn't ask about Sam. You accused me of cheating on you with him. You questioned how deep my love is for you. You questioned my loyalty to you. That hurts me in a way I'll never be able to explain. So you asking me a question is nowhere near the same Steve. Please ask what you need to ask, I promise I'll still be here." Loki presses a kiss to the top of his head.
"D-d-did you sleep with T'Challa?" He stutters out.
Steve holds his breath. His heart rate raising as he waits for Loki's answer. He's so convinced that Loki is going to leave now. That he's going to pull back or teleport away. So he holds him a little tighter. Scared that the moment he breathes. That the moment he lets go he'll be gone.
"Yes about six years ago. Before we got together. My family had...diplomatic business to handle with the Wakandians. While we were there T'Challa and I did have a fling. Is that all you want to ask?" Loki pulls back a little.
"How come you never told me?" Steve stares at him.
"Like how you told me about Bucky?" Loki looks right back.
"Bucky is different?"
"Is he? You never told me about Bucky till you started looking for him. You never once mentioned him, not even in passing. You told me about your mom and Peggy, but not Bucky." Loki pulls away completely. "Why didn't you? He's such a big part of your life and I just started to hear about him. Now that he's here, he's a lot more than you led me to believe. So yea, I didn't mention my history with T'Challa so you'd know how it feels. What it's like to see you clinging to someone you have history with." Loki crosses his arms.
"I have not been clinging to Bucky." Steve glares.
"The moment he enters the room, you're right by his side. I'm surprised you didn't follow Shuri and Sam when they went to look at his arm." He huffs.
"Loki... I'm sorry. You're right. It sucks watching you with T'Challa. If you feel the same way when I'm with Bucky then I'm sorry. Do you want Bucky to leave? He can stay in Wakanda. I-I don't want to make you more uncomfortable than I've already been doing." Steve shrinks in on himself.
He doesn't want Bucky to go but it'd be for the better right? It'd make Loki happy which would make them happy. They would be able to work things out easier. So Steve stares at Loki who sighs.
Loki hates the idea of Bucky leaving. He knows it'll hurt Steve in a way he'll probably hide. If he kicks Bucky out, Steve will start to resent him. So he huffs and shakes his head.
"No, Bucky can stay here. I don't mind Bucky being here. I just want you to be more mindful about how you act with him when I'm there. I get it Steve, he's your first love. You can't hide that. You can't help but cling to him. You gravitate to him, but can you just gravitate to me when I'm there." Loki begs, his eyes pleading.
It makes Steve take a step back. He stares at Loki and the moment his eyes drop Steve is right by his side. "Yes, yes. Loki of course. I'm sorry, I'll be by your side. I promise."
Loki nods and kisses his forehead.
"I'm sorry I got so jealous, I didn't mean to cause a scene." Steve mumbles.
"You don't need to apologize for your emotions. I promise there's nothing between T'Challa and I. Everything that happened between us was in the past. We have no interest of starting it up again. We're passed that point in our lives." He rubs his back.
"You swear?" Steve hesitates to look up.
"Yes Darling, I'm yours and your mine. All I need is you." He stares deep in his eyes, making a promise with his eyes.
"Only me?" Steve whispers, a hesitancy grows in his eyes.
Loki runs a hand down his back grouping his ass.
"Only you, you're mine Steven and I'm yours." Loki leans down and kiss his neck. "All mine." He sucks a big hickey along his neck. Smirking as the bruise develops quickly.
"I'm yours." He smiles and looks down. Running his hand over the mark.
"Are you ready to go back out?" Loki motions to the door.
"A-Are they still there?" He stares at the door.
Loki closes his eyes and projects himself to see the four still at the table. They're talking about what exactly they'll be doing to reverse Bucky's brainwashing.
"Yes, they're still here. Do you want to wait? I can ask them to leave." Loki gives suggestions, seeing the nervousness he suddenly gains.
"N-no, I want them to see it. I want them to know I'm yours." Steve nods.
"Would you like to mark me?" Loki smirks.
"It's not about me, handsome. Let's go." Steve opens the door for him.
Loki walks out and takes his seat in front of Shuri. He looks back and watches as Steve takes a deep breath then walks out. He heads to the kitchen first and comes back with a bottle of wine. He pours everyone a glass. Making the hickey the center of attention. When he sits down Bucky is glaring at the mark. It takes everything in Steve's power not to look at him. He actually shifts closer to Loki. This makes Sam and T'Challa smirk.
"T'Challa, I want to apologize to you and Shuri. It was rude of me to storm off like that. We appreciate the help you guys are willing to provide Bucky with. Thank you." Steve smiles.
"Of course Steve, we accept your apology. I also want to apologize. I didn't know that James had entered you and Loki's relationship. If I had picked up on it sooner I never would've suggested separating you guys. So just be clear, you're all welcome in Wakanda and can stay there while James gets his treatment." T'Challa beams.
Sam and Loki immediately start laughing while Steve and Bucky both blush like crazy. Both their faces are as red as tomatoes. Steve starts to shake his head doing his best to deny the King's statement. He stumbles desperately over his words while Bucky just looks down. Steve takes a deep breath before glaring at Loki. Who meets his eyes with an amused smirk.
"Lo, why are you laughing?" Steve whines a little
"That's simple Darling, your reaction is funny. You should see how red you both are." He chuckles softly.
"You know we're not together. You should be denying it, not laughing." He huffs out of annoyance.
"We're not." Loki nods his smirking coming back. "But I'm not afraid of a poly relationship or threesomes." Loki shrugs.
Steve's jaw drops. It's never something they've talked about. They never had to. They never needed to. So...so why is he bringing it up now?
"I can attest to that." T'Challa winks and Steve can't help the anger that starts to bubble up in his chest.
That is until Shuri hits the back of his head. "Gross. Will you shut up, we know you're just trying to make him jealous again." she glares.
He feigns a gasp of shock and surprise. "Jealous, I would never. I'm just extending an invitation."
"One we'll have to reject." Steve crosses his arms.
"Of course, your crossheirs are on James afterall. I completely understand." T'Challa chuckles as he stands up. "I believe our business is done. James, Steve, it was nice to meet you both. We'll be back in two weeks to get James on the weekend." T'Challa smiles.
"Bucky didn't joi-"
"Bye brother." Loki cuts Steve off.
They all hug and say their goodbyes. The Wakandians leave and Sam stops at the door.
"I'll be back in a week Buck. If you need to talk sooner Steve and Loki have my number so just ask one of them. I'll get out of here so you guys can figure out your throuple." Sam laughs as he rushes out the door.
Steve groans softly as he locks the door. He turns around and Loki still has an amused smirk.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" Steve sighs as he walks towards Loki.
"No reason, Darling." he glances at Bucky who still hasn't moved.
"I'm sorry for reacting like that."
"You're okay." he smiles.
"I don't think T'Challa likes me." he looks down.
"Don't worry about it Darling. T'Challa was just messing with you. He likes you when he teases you." He chuckles as he rubs his arm.
"Why didn't you say anything?" He asks softly.
"I did and I meant what I said. If our path goes that way. I'm willing to work something out when the time comes." Loki states.
He didn't originally want to bring it up. But he logically knew that if Steve chose Bucky polyamory could be an option. He's more than willing to share Steve then lose him completely. Sure he didn't want to bring it up until he had to. So far Steve has never denied wanting Bucky. He's just been denying that there was something going on between them. Even though it's not the way he wanted to bring it up. He might as well leave it on the table. Make it clear that it's at least an option.
"Loki..." Steve gets quiet.
When he looks in his eyes he sees that uncertainty. That pleading look he had in the room. He doesn't understand why Loki is so convinced something is going to happen. That he's going to leave him. All he's been saying is that he wants Loki. Is it a lie? A lie he's not aware of. Loki knows when people are lying it's a power of his. So maybe Loki can tell he's lying and Steve just doesn't realize it. It feels true to him. He hates the idea of Loki leaving but he also hates the idea of Bucky leaving. Is that why?
"It's okay Darling. When the time comes we'll talk about it." Loki starts to walk away.
Steve grabs his arm and stops him from walking off. "Loki, I only want you. I'm sorry if I haven't made that clear. So I'll make it clear now." With that Steve drops to his knees and looks up at Loki. "I belong to you Loki. Only you." He kisses his hand.
"Steve, you don't need to prove anything." Loki sighs a little.
"But I do. You're still questioning my love for you. I want to change that. I don't know if you know something that I don't. If my words hold a lie I haven't realized yet. But right now. At this moment all I want is you." his tone begs Loki to believe him.
"Only me?" Loki asks softly as he looks deep into his eyes.
"Only you." Steve raises up and starts to undo Loki's pants.
"Steve, wait-" Loki gets cut off as Steve is already taking him in his mouth.
His eyes fall shut as he rests a hand on Steve's head. He moans out and it crosses his mind that he should teleport them to their room. That Bucky was still at the table and might still be there. So he opens his eyes to check. To see if Bucky left or not.
He's still there, not only is he there he's also watching. He makes eye contact with Loki. First he jumps but when he sees no anger, he tilts his head. He leans forward with a blank stare. Loki presses Steve's head, forcing him to take him deeper. Then he wink at Bucky before closing his eyes again.
He's pretty sure Steve did it on purpose. That there's no possible way he forgot Bucky was there that fast. So who is he to ruin Steve's romantic gesture. He can't deny the amount of pure pleasure he gets from watching Steve choose him. Then with Bucky willing watching. Their throuple might not be as impossible as he once thought.