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       Living in a relationship with four people had it's up and downs. Though, we could say it's the same as a two person relationship. Being four doesn't make it necessarily harder whatsoever. Admitting you love all of your partners the same, of course. 

Now what could make this relationship special was the presence of two neuro divergent young men. Kenma and Bokuto.

To make it funnier, those two had to be on opposite sides of the spectrum. Making it all the more complicated for Kuroo and Akaashi to adapt. 

While Bokuto always felt the need to move, and speak. He's unable to hold himself in his own body. Sometimes it crushes him, he'll start crying, saying he needs more space. On the other hand, sometimes everything is overwhelming and he'll need less space, hiding under tables or in closets. Compressing his big body into small spaces. Trying to stay close to reality when he feels himself slipping out. 

More rarely, he can go non verbal. Unable to get anything out of his throat. And coincidentally, his non verbal episodes happen when he feels overwhelmed and needs to squish himself into tiny spaces. 

He can easily feel overwhelmed by his own body. He tries wearing clothes that are as thin as possible, unable to stand the way hoodies or tight pants scratch again his skin. He prefers shorts, shirts, and even better, tank tops. He wears his hair up because the way it carresse his forehead is infuriating to him. But he loves his hair too much to shave it all off. 

Meanwhile Kenma is quiet. He doesn't move. He can feel overwhelmed if forced to move too much or talk too much, in contrast to Bokuto. The only way he can move freely is when he plays volleyball. His passion for the sport taking over his anxiety. And even then sometimes everything goes blurry, he can't hear, can't feel anything and he feels like he's going to die on court. 

He often goes non verbal, it's not always a soul crushing feeling. Sometimes he just doesn't feel like talking. He always tries to take as little space as possible. Sitting in a ball, sleeping all curled up on himself, hiding behind the collar of his jackets or hoodies. He rarely needs as much space as Bokuto does.

But he often needs physical space. In a way that he can't stand people touching him sometimes. It feels like his skin is burning off. It feels like he needs to itch off the feeling until he bleeds.

Kenma doesn't like tight clothes either. But he always needs to feel a sort of weight on his body. Which is why he decides to wear heavy, oversized clothes all the time. Hoodies, baggy pants, sweatpants, or furry socks. He can't wear his hair up because the wind hitting his face feels awful and makes him want to scratch his skin off. He needs his bangs on his forehead to survive.

When their episodes happen at the same time, it can lead to complications. While Bokuto needs to keep moving and jumps around everywhere, it gets extremely tiring to Kenma who just wants peace and quiet. 

When Bokuto wants cuddles because everything is overwhelming and he needs a shoulder to cry on, but Kenma needs space because touches feels like boiling water on his skin. 

When Kenma needs everything to be off, no lights, no sound, no weird smelling things, nothing that can stimulate his brain because it's already too much, but Bokuto needs to stimulate himself or he'll scream, panic, and maybe even cry. 

It can be difficult for the both. They're opposites in more ways than one...

That never kept them from loving each other. 

Surpringly enough, they understand each other more than anyone else. Both being on a spectrum helped. When Kenma doesn't know how to express his feelings, he goes non verbal, Bokuto understands. When Bokuto needs space but at the same time he needs a hug, people are confused. But Kenma understands.

Akaashi and Kuroo are neuro typical, sometimes it's hard to understand what their lovers need especially when they go non verbal and can't express their needs. But Kuroo has known Kenma since childhood, and Akaashi has known Bokuto since High school. They know their partners like the palm of their hands. 

In the end it always works out. 

Akaashi often ends up taking care of Kenma, his calmer personality being of good use. 

While Kuroo helps Bokuto with his extrovert and caring character. 

Obviously, Akaashi and Kuroo can have bad days too. Kenma and Bokuto are always here to help.

When Akaashi feels overwhelmed by the gigantic amount of work he has and he feels like ripping his hair out is the better solution.

Or when Kuroo feels a sudden wave of anxiety take over him and he can't process anything anymore.

The two special boyfriends are the first to help. Even if sometimes they can't read people normally, they can always read their boyfriends. They've learned. 

"Tetsuro and Keiji learned for me, why couldn't I learn for them ?" was what Bokuto liked saying. Kenma nodding in agreement behind him every time.

The main string of a relationship is communication, understanding. Especially if you date multiple people at once.

Now that we have some context, let's take a look at some situations:

       Bokuto is watching TV. He just came back from practice with MSBY. He took a shower and wore a headband to push his hair away from his face. He wore nothing but shorts. Shirtless on the couch.

The door slowly opened. 

"Hm ? Akaashi isn't done with work for another hour, Kuroo is in our bedroom and Kenma is supposed to be at a fan meeting. Who is..." Bokuto wonders in his mind. Until he finally sees a mop of fake blond hair passing by the door. 

«Oh ? Kitten what are you doing here ? I thought the fan meeting wasn't done until-» He was cut short by a shorter man crashing into his laps. Only then, Bokuto noticed the loud breathing of the smaller. 

Kenma hid his face in the strong neck his little hands grabbing at Bokuto's short. Holding onto it for dear life. 

The shaky breathing indicated tears were about to fall. 

Immediately Bokuto acted. Kenma doesn't talk, certainly went non verbal. He turns off the TV, turns down the led lights of the living room to put them on the lowest set, catches Kenma in a bone crushing hug. 

At first he's scared he didn't do the right thing, but once he feels Kenma going limp on his laps, he understands he did exactly what he should have. Kenma needed a to focus on one sense. Feeling everything all at once was too much. Bright lights, loud noises, weird odors. Too much. He needs to focus on one sense and often enough it was touch. Bokuto gives the best hugs.

Adding to the gigantic space the fan meeting took place at, Kenma could only feel overwhelmed. Everything was too big for him. He couldn't curl up by himself and try to ignore everything that was happening around him. He's the star people came to meet. He had to stay strong in front of them. He managed to do it for a few hours but in the end je had to leave early.

Once the kitten can finally hear himself think, once he can finally see normally without everything being saturated by lights or blurry to death, he relaxes. Ending up falling asleep on Bokuto. 

"I guess that fan meeting didn't go too well..." Bokuto thinks before standing up. Carrying Kenma to their bedrooms. He quietly opens the door with his elbow, since his hands are holding Kenma's thighs, and walks in. 

Kuroo is sleeping in the bed, the only light in the room is a little star light they have on their nightstand. It's a really shallow, soft light that helps Bokuto sleep and doesn't bother Kenma and Akaashi who usually prefers sleeping in complete darkness. Kuroo can sleep anywhere with or without lights on, it didn't matter to him. He only let the light on in case Bokuto joins him in bed. Bokuto's heart warms up at the thought. 

The owl puts the kitten down next to Kuroo. Kenma is already wearing sweatpants and a large hoodie. He didn't need to change. 

After making sure Kenma is well installed, in his favorite curled up position and hidden under the covers, Bokuto checks on Kuroo. Opposite to Kenma, Kuroo is sprawled on the bed. In a star position. Drool falling on the pillow. 

Bokuto brings a hand to Kuroo's forehead. It's still warm, but less so than yesterday. Kuroo managed to get sick a few days ago, he stayed home to rest. 

Kuroo still has a fever, Bokuto guessed even before touching Kuroo because of the way Kuroo's skin is shining because of the sweat. The poor black cat felt so hot he had to sleep in underwear with the window open, and he still sweats like crazy. Bokuto felt a bit of pity. 

But at least he looked peaceful while sleeping...  

Just in case, Bokuto grabs the forehead thermometer and puts it to Kuroo's temple. 39°C. (102°F)

"Well shit..." The owl sighs. 

Bokuto leaves the room and goes back to the couch. He turns the TV back on but at a low volume to not bother any of his sleeping boyfriends. Still stimulating his brain enough not to be too worried about Kenma and Kuroo. To stay calm, (well as calm as he knows how to be) and collected.

They didn't need a third partner down and stuck in bed too. 

Later in the evening, the door opens again. Akaashi. 

«Hi Kaashiii ! How was work today ?» The gray haired man immediately gets up to hug his boyfriend. 

«Hi Koutaro. Work was tiring as usual. How was practice ?» Keiji finishes taking off his shoes, best he can while his tank of a boyfriend sticks to him like velcro.

«Rough. But I improved again ! I can hit Tsum Tsum's set from anywhere on the court !» 

«That's awesome Koutarou.» Keiji hugs his boyfriend back once he's finally out of his shoes and coat. 

They inhale each other's presence. Bokuto is happy, Akaashi's stress is slowly going down. 

«Where are the cats ?» 

«KenKen came back early from his fan meeting. I think he felt overwhelmed, he didn't talk at all when he arrived and fell asleep as soon as I hugged him tight. So I set him down with Tetsu in bed.»

«Okay, I'll check on them later.» Akaashi feels a tiny bit of worry. But it quickly stops once he knows Bokuto took care of Kenma.

«Tetsu isn't contagious anymore right ? He stoped coughing, he just has a fever. Kitten is safe right ?» 

«Yes Kou, Kenma is safe. Is Kuroo okay ?»

«I think he slept all day long... I don't know if it's good for him...» Bokuto looks at the ground. Concern clear in his voice.

«He's exhausted. That's what he gets for overworking himself... He'll certainly be up all night if he slept all day.» Akaashi quickly noticed Bokuto's worried look. «Don't worry, I know you're not much of a night owl. But I am, I'll be awake. I'll check on Kuroo.»

«Thanks Kaashi you're the best...» 

After that, Akaashi goes completely limp into Bokuto's arms. 

«I'm not tired but gosh I'm so sore...» Bokuto holds his Kaashi up. Having a strong boyfriend means you can let go at any time, Bokuto will always be here to hold you. 

«Wanna take the other room ?» 

They have three rooms, in case someone wants to sleep alone. Like when there's tension between them, or when someone is sick.

When they decided to start living together, they quickly realized they wouldn't be able to stay all together all the time. Especially with two neuro divergent boyfriends who might need to be alone.

Sometimes they need a break. Being in a normal relationship can be tiring, so imagine this, but with three boyfriends. It can really be exhausting. That's why they decided to buy a house with more rooms then necessary.

Akaashi agreed to go rest in another room. 

«I need to change first.» The shorter male says. 

Bokuto doesn't give him times to move and carries him to the room, throwing him on the bed. 

«Kou I have to change.» He tries getting up but is quickly stoped by Bokuto. 

«I'll grab you clothes, stay down.»

Akaashi obliges. 

A few minutes later, Bokuto entered the

room with clothes in his hand. Or well, cloth. One cloth. A shirt. 

«Kou, I need pants.»

«No you don't, it's my shirt ! It covers your thighs !» He is taller and more muscular than Keiji. His shirts arrived at Keiji's mid thighs. 

When they first got together, Bokuto was tall. But he grew even more along the years and now Akaashi truly feels like he's dating a tank. Two tanks if you count Kuroo.

Though Kuroo is still a smaller tank. While Kenma is a tiny car. Keiji would say he's a normal sized car. 

"Why am I even thinking about this..." Akaashi thinks, stopping his mind from wandering into car's theories.

«Kou...»

«Please Kaashi ! You look so amazing and pretty and beautiful and gorgeous and cute in my shirts ! Please please !» Bokuto begs and Akaashi smiles at the praise. 

He starts taking off his own shirt, under the watching eye of Bokuto, who would never miss an occasion to see his boyfriend's bare skin. Even if he's already seen it all. 

Then Akaashi's pants fly off. And he stands in front of Bokuto, in only his underwear that leave little to no imagination. Bokuto almost drools at the sight, Akaashi purposefully acts as if he was struggling to find the right side of the shirt. Just so he can stay half naked for a bit longer. He'd be lying if he said he didn't like the way Bokuto always looked amaze to see him. 

At some point he puts on the shirt, he notices it's a shirt with Bokuto's name to the back of it. One of his MSBY jersey.

«Really ?»

«My name looks so good on you Kaashi !» Bokuto walks towards the black haired man and wraps his arms around his waist. Lifting the shirt a little bit. «If I wasn't so tired I would've taken you right now.» Sometimes the owl is too honest, not that Akaashi minds...

Akaashi presses his body against Bokuto and he's sure he can faintly feel something hard against his stomach. The owl is already half hard. 

Keiji invites Koutarou to lay down in bed. They spoon, Akaashi little spoons. Sometimes when Bokuto needs to be in tiny spaces, Akaashi spoons him. But usually, Bokuto spoons all of his boyfriends. 

And now Akaashi is sure he can feel something poking his back. 

«You're hard Kou.»

«I know, you look too pretty in my shirt, sorry Kaashi.» Bokuto hides in Keiji's neck. Planting little kisses in the back of it. 

«I don't mind. Do you want me to help ?»

«No don't worry, I'm too tired I think I'll just try to sleep.» 

And in a second Bokuto was out. «Practice really must've been rough.» Akaashi thinks before closing his own eyes. He doesn't sleep, not tired yet, he just rests in the silence and warmth of the room. Warmth of Bokuto's strong arms around his waist and torso. 

Akaashi didn't count but he thinks a few hours passed when he heard noises down stairs. Someone's awake. 

He looks back, Bokuto is snoring and drooling, deep in sleep. Meaning Akaashi can move out of the strong grip without risking an emo mode. 

Akaashi leaves the room, careful to turn the light on. Making sure Bokuto , wouldn't wake up in the dark. It could end pretty badly, speaking from experience...

Akaashi assumes it's after midnight if the street lights are off. They live in a part of the Osaka where the lights aren't kept on all night long. 

Quietly going down stairs, the only light on is the kitchen, and that's where he's heading. 

«Tetsurou ?» Akaashi calls out when he noticed an almost naked black haired man drinking a glass of water. 

«Keiji, hun.» 

The shorter man walks in the kitchen. Inviting Kuroo in a hug. Kuroo has his back against the counter while Akaashi is pressing him further into it. 

«How are you feeling ?»

«I'm sweating so bad... It's not even that hot in the house.» Tetsurou looks at the little screen on the kitchen wall that indicates "19°C" (66°F). 

«You took a shower ?» 

«...» 

«Come on, it'll refresh you.» Akaashi grabs Kuroo's warm hand and guides him upstairs to the bathroom. 

«Stay with me ?» Kuroo tries. Usually Akaashi prefers showering alone. It's his personal time. Kuroo knows that, but it doesn't hurt to try.

«You're lucky I didn't shower yet.» For once he agrees to shower with his boyfriend. Mostly because he wants to make sure Kuroo will actually shower. But also because his sick boyfriend needs attention, Akaashi can't see himself refusing him that...

Plus, when he came back home, he immediately followed Bokuto upstairs. He didn't take his usual shower. Now was a good time.

That's how Kuroo and Akaashi ended up cuddling under the warm water. Kuroo loves boiling hot showers, even with a fever. 

They didn't kiss as they usually would, Kuroo is still sick. He's not contagious but Akaashi can't be too sure... 

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       Akaashi came back home from work. He entered the house and wasn't greeted by anyone. Thank god... 

Today had been a particularly bad day. Akaashi is an editor for a weekly manga shonens company. His job is to read the stories writers give the company, correct any grammar mistakes, sometimes change parts of the plot that doesn't make sense, give propositions to make the story better or more interesting. Literature had always been his passion and he loves his job. 

But today, he received way too many stories at once, all of them were awfully written and full of mistakes. Akaashi wouldn't say he was annoyed, everyone makes mistakes, but he would say he was frustrated. He had to use 200% of his focus to correct those stories and make them better. He worked overtime to finish all of his work because he can't stand leaving unfinished stories on his desk. 

He was tired. To say the least. When he stepped in the house, he knew he wouldn't be able to handle anyone. He just hoped no one would bother him... He wouldn't have as much patience as he usually does.

Thankfully, no one greets him. Kenma is streaming, Kuroo is still at work and Bokuto went out with his team to celebrate their last victory. 

Akaashi is alone. And he can finally breath out. He grabs a glass of ice water and goes upstairs in one of the rooms. He can faintly hear Kenma in the gaming room. He's getting angry at his games, asking chat if they know how to proceed in the game because he can't find a solution to this enigma. This is why Akaashi chose the bedroom furthest away from the room his little boyfriend was in. 

Kenma isn't usually loud, but "Kodzuken" is. 

Keiji locks the door and sighs. Closing his eyes. Trying to calm the mess that was his brain. He can feel the migraine eating at his head. He can physically feel his skull. It's awful. He stops thinking about the pain and let's his body fall into the bed, burying his face into the pillow. 

He feels himself slipping out. He's slowly falling asleep, still fully dressed. But of course, it couldn't be that easy. 

«I'M HOME !» Kuroo screams. Akaashi groans. "Can't he be more quiet ? Fuck..."

Kuroo is apparently playing a game of "Who can make the most noises while taking off his shoes" from what Akaashi can hear. 

Then he stomps upstairs, still as loudly. And because Akaashi really can't have anything, Kuroo enters the room Akaashi is in. 

«Hi honey ! How was work today ?» Kuroo half screams. 

Akaasji simply growls. Too lazy to answer. 

«Oh my god so many things happened today at work ! You know I worked with Komori's volleyball team right ? With Suna ? Well I was just walking around their gym, and I swear I saw those two making out in the locker room ! Everyone thinks I'm lying but I'm not crazy I-» Kuroo talks loudly about his day while changing into his pyjama which consisted of a simple pair of shorts, and a shirt he's going to take off to sleep anyway. He usually talked about his day when coming home, happy to see his boyfriend's and happy to tell them about all the great things that happened. 

And sure usually Akaashi liked listening. But today, he really didn't feel like hearing Kuroo talking. 

«Kuroo. »

«Oh, yeah ?» 

«Can you... Not talk ?» Akaashi groans, rather rudely. Kuroo's smile drop. Akaashi would feel guilty if he wasn't so frustrated.

«Sorry ?» Kuroo gives Akaashi a confused look. Usually Akaashi liked listening. 

«I need calm, what do you not understand ? You're not helping. At all.» Akaashi lets out in a monotone voice, way deeper than his usual voice. He sounds obviously angry. His migraine was getting worst and he couldn't handle anymore talking. 

«O-oh. Sorry Keiji I didn't know. Welp, I'll let you rest !» Kuroo stutters at first. It's unusual for Akaashi to be this rude. 

"He must be very tired." Kuroo thinks. 

In the end he gives Akaashi a kind smile as he leaves the room. Trying act as if Akaashi's rudeness didn't hurt him at all. 

"I shouldn't feel bad. He has a right to be tired after all..." Kuroo tries to rationalize. 

But his anxious character isn't helping right now. He can't help but think he burdens Akaashi. He wonders if he also burdens Kenma, the smaller boy often tells him to talk less loudly or to directly "shut up". Is he also bothering Bokuto ? Sure the owl often talks as loud as he does, plays into his jokes, and laughs with him when no one wants to. But Bokuto is also very kind. Maybe he's just faking it so Kuroo doesn't feel bad ? 

He thinks about all those times he talked loudly without a care in world to Akaashi. All those times Akaashi smiled at him as he did so well. "Did he smile because he pities me ? Maybe his patience ran out and he doesn't love me as much anymore." Akaashi was known for his immaculate patience after all. And he's sure he saw Akaashi frown many times. He didn't think much of it at the time. But was Akaashi already tired of him back then ? And he didn't notice ? It's his fault.

Kuroo over thinks as usual.

He sits on the couch and turns on the TV to try and think about something else. 

       Bokuto enters the house much later in the night, the party was amazing. The house is plunged in the dark. Except for the living room, where the TV is still playing. Bokuto entered, expecting to see his boyfriends watching a movie or something like that. But what he sees, isn't really what he expected. 

He sees Kuroo, sitting on the couch. It looks like he's watching TV. But he's not. And Bokuto knows that. 

Kuroo is looking at nothing. He's looking Infront of him, but the look in his eyes shows he's not focused on the TV at all. He's lost in thoughts. He doesn't look sad, or angry. He looks neutral. He looks... lost...

Alone, in the dark of the living room. 

"something happened." Bokuti thinks. "Where are the others ? Why is Tetsu alone here ?" 

He looks upstairs and he can faintly hear Kenma talking. He's talking to his chat, he's certainly going to end his live soon. 

But he can't hear, or see, Akaashi. 

«Tetsu ? Hey...» Bokuto slowly walks over to his boyfriend, trying not to scare him. It seems Kuroo didn't even notice Bokuto. 

He puts a hand Kuroo's shoulder. The slightly shorter boy jumps. Tetsurou looks at his side with widen eyes.

«Calm down, it's just me.» Bokuto smiles. Kuroo slightly relaxes and gives Bokuto a smile. 

An obviously fake smile, but a smile. 

«Are you okay ? You seemed lost in thoughts.»

«I'm okay. Thanks.»

«It wasn't really a question... I know you're not okay. Do you want to talk about it ?» The owl takes a sit next to Kuroo. Putting a hand on his thigh in a comforting manner. 

«Bo, I'm okay.» Kuroo insists.

«Right... Tetsu we talked about this. You know you can trust me with anything, you can trust us.»

«I know. I just... I don't want to bother.» The black cat said that last part much more quietly. Whispering.

«Sorry ? I couldn't hear you...»

«I... I don't want to bother you. Or them.» "them" being their boyfriends. 

«What ? You're not bothering anyone. Where did you get that idea ?» Bokuto frowns. He doesn't want his boyfriend to feel insecure in their relationship. 

«...»

«Tetsurou...» Bokuto knows he won't get much more informations out of his boyfriend for the moment. And he doesn't want to force him to talk. He wants Kuroo to talk by himself. He wraps his arms around his lover. 

"whatever happened, it must be too fresh for Tetsu to talked about it." The owl thinks.

«You are not a burden. You'll never be.» 

       Akaashi wakes up from his nap. He felt calmer than earlier. His head hurts less and he feels less tired. 

He looks to his side and is greeted by Kenma. Who sat next to the bed, only his eyes could be seen from over the bed. 

«Keiji.» The kitten spoke calmly. As he usually did.

«Kenma ? Hi ?»

«Hi, slept well ?» 

«I did actually. Did you wake me up ?» Akaashi moves to lay on his side, facing Kenma.

«Yeah, sorry. We kinda need your help...»

«What's wrong ?»

«Uhm, I don't know. Kuroo doesn't look too good but he refuses to speak to me or Koutarou. Usually you're good at making us talk so, can you try with Kuroo ?» 

«I guess I can try.» He wasn't as tired anymore. But he couldn't help the groan that left his mouth when he got up.

Akaashi joined Kuroo in the bedroom, he was sitting on the bed with a worried Bokuto. They didn't talk, it seems Kuroo didn't want to talk. Kenma stayed outside of the bedroom and eyed at Bokuto who joined him. Leaving Akaashi and Kuroo alone. 

When Kuroo noticed Akaashi standing in front of him, he looked like he closed up even more. His face changed from neutral to slightly panicked.

Akaashi wondered, "did I do something wrong ? Why did he change when he saw me ?" 

Akaashi closed the door. Now alone with Kuroo, he sat next to him. Kuroo instinctively moved away from Akaashi, it was so slight it was almost invisible. But Akaashi always noticed those kind of things. 

«Kuroo, what's wrong ?»

«Nothing, I'm okay.» Kuroo didn't look at Akaashi. He avoided him as much as he could.

«You don't look okay...»

«But I am. I don't understand what's wrong with everyone today ?»

«Maybe if all of your boyfriends are worried, it's for a reason ?» 

«...»

«Kuroo please. I just want you to be okay...» 

«I know but I don't want to bother anyone. I'll be okay.»

And there it was. Akaashi starts to understand. Kuroo isn't okay, but he feels like talking about his problems is going to make him a burden. Not good. 

«Kuroo, you're not bothering us.» Akaashi grabs Kuroo's hands in his own. 

The taller boyfriend mumbles something. 

«Sorry ? I didn't catch that...»

«I said, that's not really what you said earlier...» 

«What did I-» Akaashu stops mid phrase. Realizing. 

"I did that. Oh god... I didn't mean- I-" Akaashi mentally panics. He knows Kuroo can be insecure. He knows about Kuroo's anxiety. He knows all about this, they've talked about it before. And yet, earlier today he told Kuroo he "wasn't helping" but Kuroo understood that as "you're burdening me".

"what do you not understand"

Akaashi feels a strong wave of guilt. 

«Oh my god Kuroo I'm so sorry... I didn't mean- I didn't want to push you away so rudely, I was just so tired I-» Akaashi now loudly panics. 

«Don't apologize Keiji. It's not your fault really.» Kuroo slightly chuckled. Nervous laugh. «I overthink all the time. You're allowed to be tired and I shouldn't make it my problem.» 

«Kuroo, even if I'm tired it's not an excuse for me to be that mean to you...» Akaashi felt bad. There's a lot of things that were left unsaid at that moment. A lot of things Akaashi didn't tell Kuroo. But Akaashi knows what he was thinking about when Kuroo was talking to him...

"God why is he so fucking loud..."

"How does he not get the message ? I don't want to talk."

"Can't he go bother someone else ? Gosh..."

A lot of mean thought, Akaashi regretted thinking this way about his lover. In the end he translated all of his thoughts into a simple 

"Can you not talk ?"

«I mean, I understand I can be annoying sometimes. I talk too loud, too much. Kenma told me before. I understand really.»

«You don't talk too loud or too much. I was just exhausted. It doesn't have anything to do with you. I was in a bad mental space. I'm sorry I lashed out on you...» Akaashi has never felt such a strong feeling. He felt guilt, and anger. He made his lover overthink. He made his boyfriend even more insecure than he already was. 

But at the same time, he felt protection. He wants to make sure his boyfriend is okay. He wants to protect his lover from every bad thought invading his mind. 

And he's glad. Glad Kuroo talked to him. Usually the black cat prefers keeping everything to himself. 

«Keiji...»

Akaashi wraps his arms around Kuroo. And Kuroo finally relaxes. 

Akaashi whispers apologize in Kuroo's ear. 

In the end they laid down together in the bed. Akaashi spooned Kuroo. Kuroo hid his face in Akaashi's chest. Kuroo fell asleep. Akaashi didn't. 

The owl knows Kuroo isn't feeling better yet. It'll take time before Kuroo let's go of his deeply rooted insecurities. But Keiji knows, with the help of his boyfriends, they'll get Kuroo out of all that anxiety and insecurity.

Right now, Kuroo is peacefully sleeping, soon, Bokuto and Kenma will join them. They'll be okay...

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       Kenma is a rather popular streamer named Kodzuken, with over 2 millions subscribers. Streaming on Twitch most of the time, he always puts the rediffusions on youtube.

Obviously, his content is mostly gaming. Meaning the only things he talks about are games, other streamers, and ideas for future streams. He always keeps his private life, well, private. 

It had never been a problem. But everything changed when Kenma started living with his 3 boyfriends.

His office is one of their bedrooms. It's not soundproof in any way. Meaning his boyfriends can hear him stream, but Kenma can also hear his boyfriends. 

1. Bokuto:

       Bokuto had been the quickest to make himself known by the viewers. Not that it suprised Kenma. Bokuto had always been loud, it was bound to happen. 

For context, Kenma has a planning. He sends his planning on the groupchat he has with his boyfriends every week. That way, everyone knows when Kenma is busy and when he's not.

At some point, Kenma took a day off and decided to move the stream to another day. But he forgot to tell his partners about it. And he hadn't bothered changing the planning either since he did a community post to let his viewers know about it.

That day, Bokuto barged in the house and screamed. 

«KITTEEEEENNN ! I WON ! WE WON !» Kenma heard him running upstairs, he didn't have time to react. Bokuto was already in their room. 

«Kitten did you hear me ? We won against Tachibana Red Falcons !» Bokuto ran towards Kenma. He was about to wrap himself around his lover when Kenma put an arm out.

«Bokuto, I'm streaming...» 

The owl's eyes widen. 

«You are ?» Bokuto looked at the screen, he noticed the amount of chats that were talking about him. 

RandomUser360: Wtf is that Bokuto Koutaro ?! The volleyball player 🤨 ?

KodzuFan: WHAAAATTT KODZUKEN KNOWS BOKUTOOOO ?! WHAT IN THE MULTIVERSE ?! 

LayLay_67:Who is he ? He's so hot 😆

Kay_GB: Kitten ? 👀

JeJe_456: was he about to hug Kodzu ?

KO_DZUKEN: Bokuto calls Kodzu Kitten ? Ooooh 😏

JacobReal: guys, Bokuto calls everyone nicknames let's not jump to conclusions 😅

Bi_monster: why he kindaaaa 👀👀👀

HeyHeyHey: OMG BOKUTO KOUTARO I'M YOUR BIGGEST FAN

Greg: Chat going crazy again

«Yeah... I am.» Kenma quietly answers. 

«Oh.. well uh, I'm just gonna go.» Bokuto chuckles in embarrassment, scratching the back of his head as he waves goodbye to the camera. 

Once Kenma is alone again, he makes sure no one gets the wrong idea. 

«Guys calm down, he's just my roommate.» Biggest lie he's ever said...

A few seconds later, his phone vibrates. 

In: 4K's lovers 🗣️

Kou is online

Kou: Sorry for crashing your live Kitten 😥

Ken is online

Ku is online

Ku: KenKen is live ? It's not written on the planning

Kashi is online

Kashi : Kuroo why are you not working ?

Ku: uuuh, okay bye !

Ku is offline

Ken: Sry I forgot to tell yall, my bad

Kou: Is this not going to bring you troubles ? 😢😞

Ken: No dw, told them u were my roomate

Kou: Okayyyy tell my fans I love them💪✨

Kou: and I love you Kitten 😘❤️💖🥰

Kou: I love you all ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Ken: Love u 2 ❤️

Kashi: ❤️

Ku is online

Ku: Love you too ❤️😻

Ku is offline

Kou: lol 🤣

Kou is offline

Kashi is offline 

Ken is offline 

Kenma smiles at his phone before putting it down and going back to the game. 

He takes a quick look at chat. 

« "Are you texting your roommate ?" Yeah actually I was.» Kodzuken answers one of the questions in the chat. Purposefully ignoring some of them like:

"Is he your lover ?"

"Why did he call you kitten ?"

"was he gonna hug you ? That's so cuteeee"

"Historians will say they were roommates..."

2. Kuroo

       They adopted a cat. About three month after they all started living together, Akaashi was coming back home from work, and he found a kitten. He carried it home and they decided to keep it after making sure he didn't belong to anyone. They called him Ninja. 

It was Kenma's idea because he's an orange cat. It reminds of Shoyo. 

Now that cat was causing Kenma problems. 

«Kenma... Sorry to bother, is Ninja here ?» Kuroo appeared from behind the door. 

«Uh, yeah he's on the bed. Why ?» Kenma takes off his headphones. Wondering why Kuroo would enter the room if he knows Kenma is live. 

«He has a vet appointment, remember ?»

«Ah shit, wait let me grab him for you.» Kenma does as he says, getting up to grab Ninja and give him to Kuroo. 

It's a quick interaction, in less than a minute Kuroo is already gone. But it doesn't matter because chat is going crazy again... 

Kodzufan: another one ? 🤨

Laylay_67: omg he's hot tooo 😻

JeJe_456: how many roommates does this man have 😭

RandomeUser360: "roommate"

HeyHeyHey: Wait I know him he's from the volleyball association ! 

JakeyJakey: @HeyHeyHey really ? kodzu really attracts volley people lolll

HeyHeyHey: @JakeyJakey IKR ? Between Ninja Shoyo, Bokuto and Kuroo, Idk what to think anymore 🤣🤣

Bi_Monster: goshhhhg he's so hotttt 😍😍😍

Greg: I can already hear people making edits of this guy they saw once in a Kodzuken live...

Lololo_56: @Greg guess what

Greg: @Lololo_56 oh no...

«Alright sorry about that guys, my cat has a vet appointment.» Kenma looks at his chat quickly and sighs. «No he's not my lover either guys... Just a roommate. Again.» And Kenma is lying again.

« "how many roommates do you have ?" I have three roommates.» Kodzuken reads some questions form the chat. « "why do you know so many volley people" well, I used to play volleyball in high school so...» 

A few minutes later, #kodzuken is trending in Twitter. 

(🔷 Means verified btw. and I refuse to say X)

TWITTER:

Kaysho_46  @kaykay

New Kodzuken lore just dropped: 

(Insert 10 seconds video of Kodzuken saying he used to play volley in highschool)

🔷YakuMorisuke🇷🇺 @morimori

Replying to: @kaykay

They finally found out lol 

🔷HaibaLev 🇷🇺@lionKing 

Replying to: @morimori 

Took them long enough, also, HI YAKU-SAAAANNN 

🔷SunaRin @donttalktome

Replying to: @lionking

Kenma is not gonna like the attention this gets him lollll 

🔷OsamuOnigiri 🍙@bestonigirishop

Replying to: @donttalktome

He's gonna hate it lol @kodzugame I'll send you free onigiris 

🔷MSBY_Atsumu🦊@tsumtsum

Replying to: @bestonigirishop

Send me 2 plsss 🙏

🔷OsamuOnigiri 🍙 @bestonigirishop

Replying to: @tsumtsum

Starve 👍

🔷MSBY_Atsumu🦊 @tsumtsum

Replying to: @bestonigirishop 

Only reason you're verified if because of me anyway 🙄

🔷OsamuOnigiri 🍙 @bestonigirishop

Replying to: @tsumtsum

Die 👍

KitaShinsuke @kitashinsuke

Replying to @bestonigirishop

Go fight someplace else 

🔷MSBY_Atsumu🦊 @tsumtsum

Replying to: @kitashinsuke

Wtf Kita has twitter 😥 don't look at my tweets pls 

🔷AranOjiro  @falconaran

Replying to: @tsumtsum

Too late, we're very disappointed... 

🔷Toruuuuu  @oikawatoruu

Replying to: @falconaran

bahahhaa why are you talking to Tsumu like a disappointed dad ? 🤣🤣

🔷AranOjiro @falconaran

Replying to: @oikawatoruu

It feels that way tbh, Kita can agree

Kaysho_46  @kaykay

Replying to: @falconaran 

Wth is happening in my replies 💀

Kuroo  @volleyballassociation

Replying to: @kaykay

That's my fault, sorry (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)

3. Akaashi

       Akaashi is quiet. And he knows not to bother Kenma when he's streaming. But today is an exception. 

Kenma is doing a 24 hours stream, which isn't a bad thing. But it's Kenma. He always forgets to take care of himself. 

"He hasn't eaten yet..." Akaashu thinks.

The black haired boy made lunch a while ago. Thinking Kenma would take a break to eat at some point. But 2 hours passed and Kenma still isn't here. Akaashi checked on Kenma before he started streaming, he didn't have any food with him. 

He tried sending a message but Kenma didn't even see it.

"He's more important than a stream, I'm gonna bring him a plate." 

knock knock 

Kenma hears a knocking on his door. He turns around and sees Akaashi with a platter in his hands. 

«Sorry to bother, I noticed you didn't eat yet. I brought you a plate, a drink and snacks for later. So I don't have to bother again.» Akaashi smiles kindly from where he stands at the door. 

Kenma takes his headphones off and walks towards Akaashi.

«You didn't have to. Thank you Kaashi.» Kenma smiles kindly at Akaashi. Wishing he could kiss him right now. 

«If you don't come down by yourself, I'll bring you another platter for dinner.»

«I'll try not to forget. Thank you.» Kenma takes a mental note to kiss and cuddle Kashi when he'll be done with his stream. 

Kenma sits back down and...

Koko: omgggg the third roommate ! 

Laylay_67: why are all of his roommates so hoooottttt 😫😫😫

HeyHeyHey: Yoooo that's Akaashi Keiji ! He played with Bokuto in high school 😆

JacobReal: @HeyHeyHey how come you know literally everyone ? 

HeyHeyHey: @JacobReal lol, I looked up the list of Fukurodani players on internet because I wanted to know who used to play with Bokuto 😅

Kodzufan: wooowww all of his roommates are pretty 🥹

Bi_Monster: where does he find them ? I need a pretty boy too 😞

«Yeah guys, third roommate reveal... Woow...» Kenma falsely cheers. He looks at his phone and finally notices the messages he missed earlier. 

Kaashi: Did you eat yet ? 

Kaashi: Babe ? 

Kaashi: I cooked lunch you just have to come downstairs 

Kaashi: if you don't come down I'll have to bring it to you...

Kaashi: Alright I'm coming 

Ken: Sry, my phone was in silence mode

Kaashi: it's okay, don't forget to eat 

Ken: yeah dw, I love you Kaashi❤️

Kaashi: love you too Kenma ❤️

      For now, Kodzuken's viewers can only theorize on who might or might not be Kodzu's boyfriend. Kodzu being gay wasn't a secret. Making it all the more easier to assume one of them was his boyfriend...

Little did they know, ALL OF THEM are Kodzuken's boyfriend...