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ichika is getting ready for his highschool graduation, everything is in place and feels perfect. graduating with all of your friends throughout the years, including the love of your life, feels amazing. its such an honouring feeling. ichika tries on his graduation outfit once again to see how it looks, and he really does feel confident in it. so confident that he actually wanted to show his mother.
ichika steps out from the bathroom and walks up to his mom.
“do you like it?” he says with a voice filled with so much excitement.
“you look like a boy.”
ah. why does each conversation start with ichika’s identity?
“you couldve said it looked nice.” ichika says sombrely. why does she always have to be like this?
“here, let me see.” blink. her hands were on ichika’s chest. and then they werent when he quickly backed up.
“why’d you do that?” his mom says, with an angry tone.
“i dont want you touching me like that.” ichika’s says right after, glaring at the woman who had betrayed his trust. yet again.
“im your mother. im allowed to touch you like that.”
ichika is silent. he brushes past to use the bathroom.
he is panicking. holding back tears. hands shaking. he had been texting shiho, his boyfriend, just before that incident. just before his own mother’s hands were touching him. ichika opens his phone and starts typing.
5:53 pm
s: i love you
5:56 pm
h: oh
h: okay no im sorry, i love you too
its only been 3 minutes? that only lasted 3 minutes?
s: are you okay?
h: my mother grabbed my chest
ichika quickly responds. he needs his hoodie. he needs the comfort of shiho. he needs to get out of these damn clothes and into something that hadnt been contaminated with those disgusting hands.
it had all happened so fast. her hands were on him and then they werent, but ichika can still feel her fingers grabbing onto his chest. her hands on his thighs. everything is too much. he feels gross, he feels disgusting, he feels dirty. ichika cant understand why it happened. why it had to be her. why it had to be his own mom. ichika is now crying. sobbing even. he hadnt cried in weeks, maybe months. but this, out of everything, had to make him bawl his eyes out.
why?