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Two weeks into moving in with his boyfriend, Luo Binghe, Shen Yuan has come to the horrifying realization that he might actually be ... a massive fucking pervert.

Look, he's not saying that it's not normal to have a dirty thought every once in awhile! And he acknowledges that it's especially difficult if you have an insanely hot boyfriend who pretty much breaks all the scales of sexiness. If anyone had been in his shoes, of course they'd look at Luo Binghe and either agree that he is the most attractive man alive, want to sleep with him or both.

Luo Binghe just that hot. He has movie-star good looks, longish dark hair that always look perfect no matter the situation, a toned and muscular body that would put other men to shame, and a deep, sensual voice like velvet to your ears. Plus, he's literally the perfect boyfriend in Shen Yuan's totally unbiased opinion. He's sweet and charming, a gentleman, though once Shen Yuan got know him better, he has a mischievous side and enjoys teasing Shen Yuan. He always makes the most delicious food that Shen Yuan's pretty sure he's put on a bit of weight since dating him. And he doesn't mind that Shen Yuan is an otaku who gets way too into his interests; if anything, he found Shen Yuan's 'passion' rather endearing.

And the cherry to top off the whole 'Mr Sexyman' cake that is Luo Binghe, his prowess in the bedroom is out of this world.

Even Shen Yuan, who was certain he was definitely a 100% straight before they dated, had a sexuality crisis.

Anyway, the point is that it's fine to be horny every once in awhile, but the problem for Shen Yuan is that dirty thoughts about his boyfriend just. Keep. Coming.

No matter what Shen Yuan does, every time he's in the same room as Luo Binghe — or not, because it also happens when Shen Yuan thinks about him — his brain always leaps into those thoughts. Even when Luo Binghe is doing nothing in particular to warrant getting aroused over, Shen Yuan is always assaulted with his own desires.

It's not like he had a rough childhood. If anything his parents raised him to be a proper, polite and respectful gentleman! And it's definitely not because Shen Yuan's sexually pent-up or anything! In fact, he and Luo Binghe do it once every three days — way more action than when he was a single dog with no luck with women — so it's unlikely it's because he's not getting enough action in the bedroom.

It's horrible, absolutely horrible, that he can't figure out why he keeps thinking about dirty things. Maybe it's a sign, like some recently acquired. Or maybe he'd been a freak all along and never realized it until he moved in with his boyfriend —

"A-Yuan."

The sound of his voice breaks into Shen Yuan's thoughts. He turns around in his desk chair to look behind him and nearly falls off of it.

Leaning against the door frame and wearing nothing except for a towel wrapped around his waist, Luo Binghe looks way too good for someone who just stepped out of the shower. The ends of his hair are still damp, the dark strands sticking at in points and curling in loose and wavy tendrils. His toned body glistens, light catching on the faint sheen of moisture lingering on bare skin, dewy and flushed from the steam.

Goddamn, Luo Binghe is effortlessly hot for no reason! How on earth did a man like this exist? If Shen Yuan hadn't realized he was into men, he would've been chugging vinegar over Luo Binghe. A man as beautiful as him would've had no trouble sweeping others off their feet or having them on their knees for him. Shen Yuan would be on his knees too, if he wasn't busy staring — ogling — him.

"Oh, is A-Yuan working right now?" Luo Binghe asks, his voice cutting into Shen Yuan's thoughts. "Or are you ready for bed?" he follows up, noting the distracted, wide-eyed look on Shen Yuan's face.

"Yeah," Shen Yuan responds, all breathless and distracted.

Luo Binghe laughs. "Which is it?"

"R-ready for bed! Ah, just give me a moment t-to —" Shen Yuan spins back in his chair, nearly taking his kneecaps off on the desk drawer nearby. "I'll join you in a few!"

"Okay, baobei~"

As Luo Binghe's footsteps fade down the corridor, Shen Yuan exhales a huge, silent sigh, slumping forward until his chin hits his keyboard wrist rest.

Heavens, he did it again.

When Luo Binghe had been standing there, Shen Yuan's eyes had been raking all over his boyfriend's body, from the swell of those muscles, the perfect lines of his abs and the bulge underneath the fluffy fabric of his towel. Meanwhile, his brain had been going crazy with thoughts, about how he regretted showering before Luo Binghe came home, how he wished he was that towel, and how badly he wanted to be on his knees and —

Shen Yuan shakes his head, forcing himself not to revisit those thoughts. Now's not the time for that!

Back in their bedroom, Luo Binghe is getting dressed. Shen Yuan does his best not to look, but it's hard to give him some dignity when he can see those tantalizing back muscles flexing under smooth, taut skin as Luo Binghe tugs on his boxers. Shen Yuan is glad his boyfriend can't hear him gulping.

"Here," says Luo Binghe, passing Shen Yuan something when he joins him in bed, now appropriately dressed in pajamas. "It's been getting cold lately." A pair of fuzzy socks. How sweet and thoughtful of him to care about Shen Yuan's usually cold feet. Too bad Shen Yuan's thinking about how these were the same pair of socks he wore the first time he slept over at Luo Binghe's and, well, things happened on that couch.

Blushing, he squeaks out a "Thank you," before pulling them on.

As soon as he lays back onto the mattress, a pair of strong arms wrap around him. Shen Yuan's heart stutters as the warm and comforting scent of his boyfriend floods his nose and a familiar weight settles atop his chest. His hands come up automatically, fingers tangling in silky strands of hair.

Luo Binghe lets a small hum of contentment. "Missed you all day, A-Yuan."

"I missed you too, Gege," Shen Yuan murmurs, the tips of his ears reddening as Luo Binghe nuzzles into him, their limbs tangling together. "So, did you manage to sort that issue in the office this afternoon?" he asks as he strokes Luo Binghe's hair

"Mn. Turns out the paperwork was put in the wrong folder. That was on Mr Xu for not double-checking the intern's work and sneaking off to play golf instead."

As usual, Luo Binghe looks quite happy with his cheek pillowed on Shen Yuan's chest, eyes closed with a smile of contentment to match. Affection grips Shen Yuan at the sight of his boyfriend like this and he can't resist the urge to give him a squeeze.

Luo Binghe's eyes flutter half-open, still smiling languidly. Shen Yuan can almost imagine a pair of furry black ears on top of Luo Binghe's head and a tail wagging behind him, like a big dog.

"What about you?" asks Luo Binghe, letting his fingers slip under the hem of Shen Yuan's t-shirt. "How was that new update for that webnovel you're reading? It's update day today, isn’t it?"

"Yeah, it is. Read it earlier and it's terrible," Shen Yuan sighs, shaking his head. "Well, not that I expected it to get any better but, my god, you think this author just has some weird fetish for putting these characters through the grinder ..." he goes on a spirited rant, Luo Binghe nodding at times but otherwise listening to him attentively, his fingers tracing patterns on Shen Yuan's skin. "Anyway, enough about that story," says Shen Yuan, once he's run out of things to complain about the webnovel. "I think I'll drop it."

Luo Binghe snorts. "That's what you said last week," he points out teasingly.

Shen Yuan's face grows hot. "Well, I promise I will this time. I'll definitely unsubscribe," he says. Because Luo Binghe is staring at him, all amused and unconvinced, Shen Yuan reaches for his phone on the nightstand.

Twisting around so that Luo Binghe can see, Shen Yuan makes a big show of doing as he promised. "Done!" He shows Luo Binghe his phone then returns it to the nightstand.

Luo Binghe chuckles. "Gods, you're so fucking cute."

They continue chatting and cuddling for a little longer, entwined around each other. They would've fallen asleep like this, except they started kissing and touching and, well, things escalated from there ...

"Fuck." A groan shudders out of Luo Binghe as his cock slips inside Shen Yuan. "Fuck, A-Yuan, did you touch yourself today?"

Underneath him, Shen Yuan whines, burying his burning face into the pillow. He does his best to keep still, but between being able to feel the throb of Luo Binghe's cock inside him and the need to rut into the mattress for some relief, Shen Yuan is struggling. "W-why are you asking me that? You should've seen yourself this — ah — this morning.".

Shen Yuan hears a low chuckle from behind him when Luo Binghe nuzzles his nape. The featherlight brush of his lips and nose there zips all the way down to Shen Yuan's drooling cock, trapped between his tummy and the mattress.

"This morning?" Luo Binghe croons, kissing him there. He rocks his hips slowly into Shen Yuan."Remind me what I looked like this morning."

Shen Yuan whimpers, trembling at the pleasure radiating from his lower half. "H-hot," he mumbles into the pillow. Subconsciously he raises his hips higher and arches his back, just the way his boyfriend likes it. "I-I loved the way t-that suit — hng — looked on you."

"Oh? Tell me more."

Shen Yuan is so grateful that Luo Binghe is fucking him from behind tonight because his thin face wouldn't be able to handle his boyfriend's relentless teasing. Still, he bites his lip and pretends not to have heard that.

But Luo Binghe, ever the cruel bully, stops.

Shen Yuan whines at the abrupt pause, looking over his shoulder. "Gege, why'd you stop?" He reaches clumsily behind him, putting a hand on Luo Binghe's ass and trying to prompt him to continue. Luo Binghe refuses to budge, instead stares at him with an arched eyebrow. "You're such a bully!" Shen Yuan whines.

Despite himself, Luo Binghe laughs. He pulls his hips back, far enough that the tip of his cock threatens to slip out before snapping forward. A gasp punches out of Shen Yuan. Luo Binghe gives Shen Yuan's ass a playful squeeze as he shifts his weight on his knees, angling his thrusts into that sweet spot inside Shen Yuan. "But A-Yuan is bullying me too," he whispers, warm breath tickling Shen Yuan's ear. "I only wanted to know what you liked but A-Yuan pretended not to hear me."

The pace at which Luo Binghe's thrusting into him is leisurely, though their current position ensures that Shen Yuan feels every inch of his boyfriend's large cock hitting his prostate. The sensation of that, combined with the feeling of his own cock rubbing against the sheets underneath him is almost too overwhelming.

A high-pitched moan slips out of Shen Yuan, his fingers twisting into the pillowcase. "I — ah — you just looked sexy!"

"Hm."

"I mean you always do — oh, right there! But, s-something ... —" Shen Yuan breaks off burying his face into the pillow to muffle whines coming out of him. He knows Luo Binghe loves hearing him in bed but it's just too much that it's coming out of himself! "Gege, d-don't — make me talk while you're inside me!" he cries.

Luo Binghe laughs, reaffirming the fact that he loved teasing Shen Yuan. He leans down to kiss the back of his head, a tender gesture compared to the quickening pace of his thrusts, driving his cock deep into Shen Yuan's insides. "But I love hearing your thoughts," he purrs. "I love hearing you get excited about the things you love. I love the way you sound when you're —"

Shen Yuan's ears burn as Luo Binghe continues to whisper in low and seductive tones while the wet sounds of skin slapping skin fills the otherwise silent room. Tears glisten at his cheeks as the pleasure searing through him grows stronger and stronger each wave. He tries to choke back his whimpers when Luo Binghe when he feels himself growing close, his body tensing up. "Gege — ah, please — Gege!"

"A-Yuan," Luo Binghe grunts in his ear, hot and heavy. "Oh, my sweet A-Yuan."

It's everything yet too much. Shen Yuan's fingers twist into the sheets, a desperate attempt to hang on because he doesn't want this all-consuming pleasure to end so quickly. Just then, Luo Binghe sends one particularly hard thrust that causes Shen Yuan to arch his back with a cry.

"Gege!" he sobs, spilling onto the sheets underneath him.

Growling, Luo Binghe chases after him, slamming his hips into Shen Yuan's ass at a brutal and urgent rhythm before he finally cums inside Shen Yuan. Warmth floods through Shen Yuan's insides, the sensation making Shen Yuan shudder and twitch around Luo Binghe's cock. Careful not to pull out, Luo Binghe turns Shen Yuan partly around, leaning down to press languid, openmouthed kisses to Shen Yuan's lips, jaw and neck.

"I love you, A-Yuan," he murmurs.

Even though Shen Yuan has heard it being said enough times, a blush still creeps up his face, his heart soaring like birds into the sky. "I love you too, Gege," he whispers back.

As always, following a night of rigorous bedroom activity, Shen Yuan naturally wakes up sore all over. He groans and wrinkles his nose when the various parts of his body complaining at the slightest of movements. It's absolutely sickening this is the consequence he must suffer in exchange for amazing sex.

"Good morning, baobei," says the cause of Shen Yuan's body aches himself, all playful eyes and cheeky grin, when Shen Yuan manages to hobble out the bedroom.

"Morning, Ge," Shen Yuan mumbles, rubbing his sore waist with a yawn. After a detour to the bathroom, he makes his way back to the kitchen where Luo Binghe is just finish making breakfast for them.

Looks like congee and youtiao are on the menu this morning. A simple and comforting meal to start the day; his stomach rumbles eagerly. Just as Shen Yuan is about to give a compliment on how good breakfast looks and smells, he takes one look at his boyfriend and it's game over.

God, does Luo Binghe look absolutely gorgeous in the morning. The sunlight pouring in from a nearby window must be a paid actor because it lands on Luo Binghe just right, casting him in a lovely, golden glow. His hair looks rumpled, but attractively so — unlike Shen Yuan's bedhead — and he's wearing a muscle tee that teases Shen Yuan with a glimpse of his wonderful, firm chest.

Luo Binghe making breakfast for Shen Yuan's tummy, while also being the breakfast for Shen Yuan's eyes — the duality of man.

Not wanting to be caught staring for too long, Shen Yuan tries to make himself useful by making them coffee.

"Did A-Yuan sleep well?" asks Luo Binghe when he comes up from behind him, placing a kiss on the back of Shen Yuan's head.

"Mhm. What about Gege?"

"Like a baby."

Shen Yuan doesn't mind when Luo Binghe acts all cuddly with him but, ah, sometimes if he's cuddly for too long ... well, from past experience, Shen Yuan knows neither of them will be able to hold themselves back. Especially now whena certain part of his boyfriend is pressed up against his cheeks, large even though it's flaccid for now. If Luo Binghe starts kissing or tickling him, Shen Yuan will inevitably move and then Luo Binghe will get hard and then he'll definitely want to bend Shen Yuan over the counter, chuckling in his ear about —

God, Shen Yuan needs to stop.

He clears his throat, giving the arms wrapped around him a few acknowledging pats. Reluctantly, Luo Binghe loosens his embrace but not without leaving a peck on his temple and a playful squeeze of his ass.

Shen Yuan lets out a small, flustered squeak.

They eat breakfast together at the little dining table in the kitchen while the tv drones in the background, enjoying each other's company. Naturally, weekends are the best but now that he's living with Luo Binghe, it's gotten better than best, if that was possible. It's all terribly domestic and sappy, even when they could be doing literally nothing, and Shen Yuan loves every moment of it. To think that, at one point in his life, he thought he'd never experience this and here he is living the good life.

They head out for groceries later that day.

"We can split up," says Shen Yuan when they arrive at the supermarket. One look at the busy aisles full of people and their carts and a small frown is already forming his face. "It'll be faster that way, I think."

"Hm, but we're not really in a rush for anything, are we?" Luo Binghe asks, pushing a cart along. "I don't mind taking our sweet time."

"It's ok, the sooner we finish doing the groceries, the more time we'll have later to chill together." Shen Yuan nods determinedly before checking their grocery list. "I'll just grab these ones here then come find you."

Before Luo Binghe has a chance to respond, Shen Yuan is already marching off, a shopping basket in hand. Luo Binghe watches him for a few moments in amusement before heading to the fresh produce section.

Shen Yuan makes good time picking up the items, internally patting himself on the back for being super efficient. Milk, eggs, instant ramen and ... ah —

Sneakered shoes squeak to a stop when Shen Yuan stares at the shelf before him. The supermarket must hate him because why on earth is his favorite snack on the top shelf? And not just on the top shelf, the last three packs shoved all the way to the back! How the fuck is Shen Yuan going to grab those?! Have they no sympathy for vertically challenged people like him? Why must people his height be punished for loving this particular snack?

Frowning, he puts his basket down and cranes his neck. Unfortunately, he can't see his snacks from this angle. For a moment, he briefly considers waiting until Luo Binghe comes along. But, ah, wouldn't it be weird to just stand here?

Cursing under his breath, he decides to try and see if he can grab those snacks. one hand braced on a lower shelf, he raises himself on his tiptoes and feels blindly around the top shelf.

His heart quickens when he feels his fingertips brushing something, only to slide further away when he inches forward.

"Fuck me," he hisses under his breath, straining a little more. Frustratingly, that doesn’t help. and Shen Yuan's about to grab that plastic crate nearby to give him a boost when someone comes up from behind.

"Need a hand?" A silky voice whispers, warm breath tickling over the shell of Shen Yuan's ear.

A gasp rises in Shen Yuan's throat as Luo Binghe presses up close. Despite the layers of clothing separating them, Shen Yuan swears he feels every inch of his boyfriend's solid and muscular body directly on his skin, feels the heat sinking through the fabric and into him. He blushes as Luo Binghe shifts and, oh god, the bulge ... Luo Binghe's bulge sitting perfectly between his butt-cheeks. Shen Yuan wobbles, stumbling back down onto his heels as his brain immediately launches itself into a wildly inappropriate memory with about his boyfriend in a similar situation —

"Let's save water," was what Luo Binghe said when he stepped into the shower.

Of course, Shen Yuan knew what that meant, especially with his boyfriend sidling up from behind him, enveloping Shen Yuan in his embrace as he kissed Shen Yuan's neck. Shen Yuan's face grew hot but he liked to think he was doing a pretty good job at being normal about the whole thing, even while being hyper-aware of his boyfriend's flaccid cock resting between his cheeks. Right up until Luo Binghe began to rock his hips slowly.

Shen Yuan sucked in a sharp breath and his hand, which had been reaching for the body wash nearby, ended up splayed against the wall. "G-gege," he gasped, clutching the arm around his waist.

Luo Binghe hummed in response and snaked another hand around Shen Yuan's left, caressing and kneading.

With the shower running over them, bathing them in a warm, soothing stream of water, the sensation of Luo Binghe touching him felt heightened. Pleasure tingles all over Shen Yuan, making his head spin and his breathing uneven. By the time Luo Binghe finds Shen Yuan's cock, he's already hard and leaking.

Shen Yuan bit his lip, suppressing the urge to whimper as Luo Binghe stroked him. Gently enough that it felt like he was teasing him, yet consistently enough to tempt Shen Yuan to start rocking his hips. He couldn't resist squirming, though, or arching his back little more, the little fidgety movements causing him to rub up against his boyfriend behind him.

Like Shen Yuan, Luo Binghe is hard as well. He lets out a low groan of satisfaction, mouthing at Shen Yuan's right earlobe. "A-Yuan," he breathes, the huskiness of his voice making Shen Yuan shiver despite the heat around him. "Does A-Yuan like that?"

Even with one hand braced against the wall and holding onto Luo Binghe's forearm, he still felt unsteady. He leans back into the solidness of his boyfriend behind him, practically melting. "Mn," he tries to respond but his voice comes out breathy and high-pitched. "D-don't stop."

"I won't," Luo Binghe whispers silkily as he unwinds his arm around Shen Yuan's waist. His cock slips downwards, its heavy girth parting Shen Yuan's plump cheeks before settling between his thighs. Instinctively, Shen Yuan presses his thighs together just as Luo Binghe utters in his ear, "I'll fuck you until you're begging me to stop."

"Is this what you wanted?"

Shen Yuan startles out of the memory at the sound of Luo Binghe's voice. It takes him a moment to notice the snacks held out in the corner of his vision. "Oh, yes! Thank you —" He turns around to face Luo Binghe, only to find himself caged in between his boyfriend's arms. His breath catches at the sensation of their fronts brushing each other.

At the telltale glint in Luo Binghe's eyes, heat erupts across Shen Yuan's. W-wait! In public?!

The corners of Luo Binghe's mouth curves upwards. He leans down, making Shen Yuan's heart flutter dangerously before purring, "You're welcome." Then he turns around as if nothing happened, leaving Shen Yuan grasping the shelves behind and struggling with a newfound problem in his crotch.

Oh, this devious man is really testing Shen Yuan!

Over his shoulder, Luo Binghe smirks at Shen Yuan.

The weekend comes to an end way too quickly for Shen Yuan's liking. All too soon he returns to the office where the ever-growing pile of work awaits him. This week's going to be a busy one as well, with some of his colleagues going on leave, making his to-do list for the rest of the week quite extensive indeed. There might even be overtime, which Shen Yuan hates with a passion.

Shen Yuan does his best to lock in that morning, clearing the important tasks first. He gets into the groove but that only lasts for two hours before he wishes he was elsewhere — preferably at home. On the couch or in bed with his boyfriend.

Just then, a specific notification chime from Shen Yuan's phone goes off. He perks right up, much like a wilted flower springing back to life after being watered. All of his current grievances with work evaporate as soon as he sees the texts from his boyfriend.

Bing-ge 😘🖤: hey baobei ❤️

Bing-ge 😘🖤: 3rd time's the charm, right?

Attached to his text is an image of a cake in the oven with Luo Binghe's hand flashing a thumbs-up in the lower right corner. Shen Yuan laughs under his breath. His boyfriend is really determined to get Shen Yuan's favorite cake right; his past two attempts have somehow ended up in disaster. Although Shen Yuan fully believes Luo Binghe's abilities, it's funny how despite being better at cooking Luo Binghe is horrendous at baking — the complete opposite of Shen Yuan, who somehow manages to mess up even frying an egg.

Shen Yuan: i'm sure you'll get it this time!!

Shen Yuan sent [Encouraging] sticker.

Bing-ge 😘🖤: thanks baobei 😘

Bing-ge 😘🖤: have you had lunch yet? don't forget to eat, ok? otherwise i will be very sad 💔

Bing-ge 😘🖤 sent [Sad Puppy] sticker.

Shen Yuan: yes yes i'll eat ofc!

Shen Yuan: how can i forget to! you literally made it for me!!

Shen Yuan sent [Hungry] sticker.

Bing-ge 😘🖤 reacted ❤️ to message.

Shen Yuan: and you too!! don't forget to eat, alright?

Shen Yuan notices Luo Binghe typing on the other end when one of his colleagues, Ning Yingying approaches his desk asking him if he's heading out for lunch. "I'm just about to," he says as he puts his phone away. From under his desk, he pulls out his lunchbox and gets up to join her.

They chat about their morning, heading to the company break area together. There, a group of female colleagues from the other departments wave them over to their table.

It might seem a little odd that Shen Yuan's the only man in the group — a few of Shen Yuan's other colleagues have commented on it in the past as well — but the truth is that Shen Yuan had been adopted by these 'office jiejies' (as they like to call themselves). He's not sure how that happened but it happened at some point when he started working here last year.

It is what it is. He doesn't really mind, truthfully.

Even though these ladies have a penchant for gossip and giggling over gay ships from various popular media, they're friendly and super nice, a lot better company than Shen Yuan's male colleagues for sure.

Oh, and Shen Yuan wouldn't have gotten with Luo Binghe if not for the jiejies' advice and encouragement either!

"Hehe, did your husband make lunch for you again? It looks so good," one of the ladies, Qin Wanrong, remarks when Shen Yuan lifts the lid of his lunchbox.

Heat rushes into Shen Yuan's face. "Ah, what are you saying!" Binghe's my boyfriend," he corrects them, flustered, but the chorus of giggles and knowing looks exchanged amongst the women tell him they aren't listening. "And yes, he made it this morning."

Luo Binghe had kissed his cheek and apologized for making something so 'simple' but it's definitely more intricate a meal than anything Shen Yuan could have whipped up on his own. Sitting on a fluffy bed of rice is a cutlet of salmon baked in a honey soy garlic sauce, accompanied by two thick slices of rolled egg omelette and a generous helping of spinach salad. It truly is a masterpiece. Shen Yuan can't help a swell of pride as the ladies admire his lunch with him.

"Well, you lovebirds might as well be married," Ning Yingying teases. "You two seem really crazy for each other."

"Plus, he's met your parents," Qin Wanrong adds.

"And you moved in with him after, what, a couple months of dating? " Sha Hualing points out.

Shen Yuan clears his throat loudly. "W-well my lease was almost up and Binghe's roommate had moved out right before so it made sense in terms of logistics ... —" He breaks off, blushing. "Besides, you all knew I knew him for a while! So it's not like I dropped everything to be with him!"

"But it really is sweet of him to make lunch for you every day. He must really love you," says Liu Mingyan with a sagely nod.

Shen Yuan blushes again and takes a bite out of his lunch to hide the sappy smile threatening to show on his face.

The ladies chatter amongst themselves, catching each other up on whatever they did on the weekend. Shen Yuan tucks into his lunch.

As always, Luo Binghe's cooking is the best, out of this world. The salmon and eggs are perfectly seasoned. The spinach is the right texture. Everything is practically tailored to Shen Yuan's tastebuds.

Shen Yuan does his best to savor every bite but all too soon, his lunchbox is scraped clean and his belly full. He wishes he could have seconds.

Remembering that he'd been waiting for Luo Binghe's reply earlier, he reaches for his phone in his pocket. There's a text from Luo Binghe waiting for him, putting an instant smile on his face.

Shen Yuan unlocks his phone to check.

Bing-ge 😘🖤 sent an image.

Since Shen Yuan's messaging app is on data-saver mode, he has to click on those pictures to view them. Thinking Luo Binghe had sent him updates on the cake, Shen Yuan taps on them. The images load. And a high-pitched shriek leaves Shen Yuan's lips.

The conversation at the table ceases immediately, the ladies turning to find a beet-red Shen Yuan fumbling with his phone. "Everything's fine! Nothing's wrong. Abs are — I mean, I'm absolutely normal, I just got jumpscared, that's all," he tries to say casually when someone asks him what's wrong.

The office jiejies watch as he hurries off without so much as an explanation.

"Did he say abs?"

"Yeah, I'm pretty sure he did."

They exchange looks amongst themselves before nodding and smiling.

In the men's washroom, Shen Yuan rushes into the furthest available stall. He waits for a few moments for the person washing his hands outside to leave before turning on his phone.

This time, without the risk of anyone looking over his shoulder, he feels less flustered than he had been when he saw that picture of his boyfriend.

It's normal for people in a relationship to send each other selfies, of course. Shen Yuan does on occasion — the nice, the normal and the unflattering ones — because it's fun and he knows Luo Binghe loves looking at them. And Shen Yuan loves looking at Luo Binghe's selfies too, even though his boyfriend barely takes them, and when he does, they're always either slightly blurry or look like a mugshot (an attractive mugshot, though).

This particular picture Luo Binghe sent, though ... either his boyfriend had always been great at taking selfies all along, or this was just one of the rare times he took a good one.

This picture was taken in front of the mirror at the gym, most likely after his morning workout. He's shirtless, drawing your full attention to his perfectly sculpted body, flushed with that post-workout glow and glistening with sweat. His sweatpants are slung low on his hips, treating Shen Yuan to the unobstructed view of his boyfriend's tantalizing abs and the accompanying v-line.

Shen Yuan has to take a moment to fan himself. He isn't proud to admit this but seeing his boyfriend all sweaty after a workout was doing things to him, physiologically speaking. His face, neck and chest feel too hot, and his heartbeat pounds in his ears. The more he stares at his boyfriend's picture, the more a certain part of him begins to throb with interest.

As if knowing exactly how Shen Yuan will react, Luo Binghe is smirking in his selfie, eyes half-lidded as he directs a sultry gaze right into the camera. If it was possible to set the place on fire with just one look, Luo Binghe was doing just that so effortlessly.

Shen Yuan wants to scream! Seeing his boyfriend look like Temptation personified feels like psychological manipulation and torture! He has to take several deep breaths to fight off the burning desire threatening to get the best of him.

There's a time and place for everything but not right now. There's a time and place for everything but not right now, Shen Yuan chants inwardly, clutching his phone. He tells himself the mantra is working, until he glances down at his phone again and realizes he had accidentally zoomed in onto Luo Binghe's crotch.

Inhaling deeply, he double-taps to zoom out but his thumb feels clunky, so he accidentally swipes to the next — there's another?! Oh, right, yes, Bing-ge sent him a couple — and Oh ...

Shen Yuan truly can't resist looking at his boyfriend's pictures.

Gods, he thinks, swiping through them forwards then backwards, I want him.

What he wouldn't give to be at home with Luo Binghe, enclosed in the warm and comforting embrace of his boyfriend's arms, instead of missing him in a toilet stall. He should be showered with affection and kisses from Luo Binghe instead of mentally preparing himself for a whole afternoon of staring at the computer screen and counting down the minutes. He ought to be pressed up right against Luo Binghe now, wrapped up in the haze of his boyfriend's comforting scent, their bare skin touching, instead of sitting on the toilet seat, staring at Luo Binghe's bulge on his phone screen.

Gosh, Luo Binghe's so big.

Shen Yuan remembers the few times he gave his boyfriend a blowjob. He wasn't good at it at all, though; he had always struggled to take all of Luo Binghe in his mouth so had to make do with the rest of it with his hands. Although, in his humble opinion, Shen Yuan's skills left plenty to be desired, Luo Binghe never minded that he was a total noob at sucking dick. He found it adorable, even! He would always pet Shen Yuan's hair, touch his cheek and talk about how hot Shen Yuan looks with his mouth full of cock. He'd even wipe away Shen Yuan's tears whenever Shen Yuan accidentally gags on him too.

Right now, Shen Yuan pictures himself kneeling before his boyfriend, his face close to the bulge of his boxers. Luo Binghe would be half-hard at first but he'll be fully aroused in no time with Shen Yuan mouthing him through his underwear. A damp spot would appear shortly, just right where his tip should be. Shen Yuan would lick it, adding to the wetness, all the while feeling his own cock between his legs twitch.

He'd take some time to trace the outline of Luo Binghe with his lips, occasionally glancing up to meet Luo Binghe's heated gaze, blushing before returning his full attention back to the growing bulge. Before long, Shen Yuan would start reaching for the waistband of his boxers. He'd tug them down, carefully — because the last time he yanked it down, his glasses got knocked off — until Luo Binghe's cock finally springs free.

Back in reality, Shen Yuan can't help making a tiny, desperate sound. Even with the coolness from the wall tiles behind him seeping through his back, he still feels like he's burning all over. The crystal-clear image of Luo Binghe's big, hard and throbbing cock blazes behind his eyelids, practically in 8K resolution.

"A-Yuan," Luo Binghe would whisper while stroking Shen Yuan's hair. "Look at how hard A-Yuan made me."

Shen Yuan would only whine in reply to that. His lips brushing the soft, velvety skin of Luo Binghe's cock, Shen Yuan would kiss his way up along the underside of Luo Binghe's cock until he reached the shiny, red tip. There, the salty taste of precum would —

"RUBY-CHAN!! HAIII~!! NANI GA SUKI?"

The high-pitched voices of Japanese anime girls yanks Shen Yuan back to the present. He jolts as the girls continue to screech in the background, their voices accompanied by an upbeat electronic track and footsteps approaching in the background.

Now back to reality, Shen Yuan stares down at himself with a slow dawning horror that, while he'd been fantasizing about his boyfriend, he had unconsciously unzipped his pants and stuck his own hand down his underwear.

A bead of precum tips the flushed head of Shen Yuan's cock. It slides off the edge and falls onto the floor between his shoes like a tear.

FUCK!

Up until those pictures, Shen Yuan had been doing so well not having dirty thoughts about Luo Binghe! A whopping three hours, mind you!

Oh my god I'm such a disgusting pervert ... Shen Yuan sobs internally while the anime girls continue to sing in the background about they love ice-cream and but prefer the listener more. Whatever that means. Which feels terribly cruel and ironic, considering his current situation.

After taking a few moments to wallow in his failure, he quickly tucks himself back in — thank heavens he's soft now — and exits the bathroom.

Shen Yuan: gege ............

Luo Binghe responds right away.

Bing-ge 😘🖤: yes?

Bing-ge 😘🖤 sent a [Cute Puppy] sticker.

Shen Yuan: don't you cute puppy me

Bing-ge 😘🖤: oh :(

Bing-ge 😘🖤: you don't like that?

Shen Yuan: NO I LOVED THEM VERY MUCH

Bing-ge 😘🖤 reacted to message with 🖤

Shen Yuan: sorry i didnt realize caps was on

Shen Yuan: i mean i loved them but it's just !!!

Bing-ge 😘🖤: just?

Chewing his lower lip, Shen Yuan types a response, deletes it, retypes, pauses to reflect on his message before deleting again. He lets out a huge sigh in the corridor, prompting a few people passing by him to glance his way in concern.

It's not Luo Binghe's fault that Shen Yuan got horny. Hell, the pictures aren't even that risqué! It looked like an ordinary post-workout selfie, not like those weird thirst traps Shen Yuan sometimes gets on his social media feed.

Skill issue, says an unkind voice in his head. Your boyfriend shows you a nice picture of himself and you were just about to jerk yourself off crazy thinking about his dick like a fucking horndog.

Shame suffuses through Shen Yuan. God, he really is the worst.

"Oh Mr Shen, there you are!" says a colleague when she catches him on his way back to his desk. "Could you have a look at this ..."

And just like that, Shen Yuan has no choice but to snap back to work mode.

He'll wallow in shame later on the way back home.

"I think this is the place, My Lord," Shen Yuan announces after double-checking the map. "The natural habitat of the Four-fanged Jade Hare." He turns as the Emperor of Three Realms comes to stand beside him.

The two of them make for an odd sight — the lofty demon lord with majestic curling horns accompanied by a smaller and unassuming cultivator — but the sight of the valley stretching below them, with its multicolored treetops and creatures that resemble aquatic creatures soaring in the skies overhead make the pair seem painfully ordinary.

"What a view," Shen Yuan remarks as he rolls up the weathered old map that has been their guide for the past couple of weeks — or was it months? It feels like they've been traveling in search of this mysterious creature for quite some time yet not very long at all. "Although we need to find a safe way to get to the bottom — Oh!"

Shen Yuan finds himself swept off his feet and up into a pair of strong arms. Heat rushes into his face as he looks up into the amused expression of Emperor Luo. "M-My Lord!" he squeaks, hastily wrapping his arms around the Emperor's neck.

"Yes?" asks Emperor Luo.

"I mean this most respectfully but this is ... improper."

"Improper?"

"To me!" Shen Yuan tries to slip off but a low growl and the tightening of the Emperor's arms stop him in his tracks. With a small cough, he lets the Emperor readjust him. "This lowly one shouldn't be carried around as if I was your newly-wedded wife being carried over the threshold of our —" He breaks off with a squeak as Emperor Luo takes a step forward.

The corners of Emperor Luo's mouth curl up even more, his features the very picture of smugness. "Why must A-Yuan act so squeamish? It's not as if you are my little wife, no?" He catches the way Shen Yuan's face reddens at that. "Unless ..." Emperor Luo adds, his voice droppingto a low, sultry whisper, "A-Yuan wishes to be."

Shen Yuan quickly turns to hide his face in Emperor's Luo lapels, muttering, "Amuse yourself however you like. I won't answer that."

"Oh, but you already have. A-Yuan is like an open book, after all."

Shen Yuan smacks his shoulder but says nothing else.

They somehow make it safely down to the valley. At some point, they make camp near a flowing stream where Emperor Luo strips down to his under-robes and catches dinner for them while Shen Yuan sets their tent and bedding up, totally not getting distracted every now and then by a certain Demon Lord.

They have a hearty dinner of Emperor Luo's catch roasted over the fire. All too soon, it's time for turn in for the night.

"We'll try to find those hares tomorrow," says Shen Yuan as he tucks his journal into a qiankun pouch. "Although since it's mating season, they shouldn't be difficult to track. I also have some paper hounds from Master Liu to assist us — now what's with that face?"

Up until then, Emperor Luo had been watching Shen Yuan with a certain kind of look, one that makes him appear both soft, warm and perhaps even fond, before his nose wrinkled at the mention of that name. "This Lord's senses is more than sufficient enough for tracking those hares. A-Yuan need not use that man's gifts," he huffs. "Why hasn't A-Yuan discarded them, anyway?"

"Discard them?" Shen Yuan repeats incredulously. "They're a gift! And incredibly hard to come by too. This lowly one would be a fool to simply throw them away. And ungrateful too."

Emperor Luo rolls his eyes and mutters something under his breath.

Shen Yuan pretends not to hear it, because, really, what could Emperor Luo do about Master Liu's gifts anyway? They are useful, after all.

But then, he joins Emperor Luo in their sleeping roll. They've had to share since Shen Yuan's own roll had been destroyed when they were attacked by a horde of Bat-Eyed Horned Monkeys.

To be honest, Shen Yuan doesn't mind being pressed up against Emperor Luo for the whole night. He smells nice and Shen Yuan feels safer with the Emperor's arms wrapped around him. And Emperor Luo seems to sleep better too, even if some mornings it's harder to get up because Emperor Luo refuses to let him go.

Shen Yuan manages to drift off, if only for a moment, before he wakes up to ... Emperor Luo hovering above him?

"M-my Lord?" he squeaks, jolting fully awake. "My Lord, what's wrong?"

Emperor Luo responds with a warning growl, baring his fangs. His eyes are glowing red, matching the blazing light emanating from the demon mark, his zuiyin, spreading across his forehead like flames. A heavy flush creeps up his skin, sweat beading its surface.

"A-Yuan." The sound of his name on Emperor Luo's lips, low, rough and raspy, makes Shen Yuan squirm ever so slightly. His hands — no, claws, they've turned into claws — tug insistently at Shen Yuan's sleeping robes. A shiver runs down Shen Yuan's spine. "A-Yuan ... This Lord needs you."

Alarm shoots through Shen Yuan but it's knowledge of Emperor Luo's current condition and his own survival instinct that keeps him still. It seems Emperor Luo has gone into a rut.

Swallowing, Shen Yuan sits up carefully. He runs through a mental checklist of what might have triggered Emperor Luo's rut early but it's hard to stay focused when Emperor Luo is right in front of him, undressing him, feeling him up. His heart flutters in his throat, racing with adrenaline and anticipation so electric that Emperor Luo's touch, the heat of it seeping into his bones, makes him gasp and squirm at the tingling under his skin.

The little sound makes the glow of Emperor Luo's eyes flicker brighter.

"My Lord," he squeaks as Emperor Luo yanks his clothes off. "My Lord, wait —" he puts a hand on Emperor Luo's shoulder but he may as well have sat there for all the resistance he puts up when Emperor Luo leans forward.

Emperor Luo's lips are searingly hot against his own. Emperor Luo kisses Shen Yuan, though gnaw would be a more accurate word to describe the way he's doing it. It's all fangs and tongue, occasionally broken by hot and heavy whispers of 'mine', claws kneading Shen Yuan possessively.

Although Shen Yuan has, more or less, gotten used to being Emperor Luo's rut partner during their travels, his body has yet to stop reacting so readily to Emperor Luo's advances. Shen Yuan bites down on his lip but it does little to stifle the breathless noises slipping out of him. Nor does looking away make the sensation of Emperor Luo's mouth on his bare skin any less electrifying.

It's not like Emperor Luo has the capacity to listen to him in this state but Shen Yuan tries anyway: "T-try to be gentler with me, okay?"

Emperor Luo, who'd been in the middle of toying with his nipples, pauses. For a moment, Shen Yuan catches a glint of clarity behind those glowing crimson eyes. "Gentle?" That's the first word he's said since his rut that isn't the usual three of 'A-Yuan', 'mine' and 'mate'.

Shen Yuan seizes the opportunity. "Mn," he nods. "Not too rough. Be like ... uh —" He tries to think of something, anything he can use as an example, before something catches his attention Somewhere, between their bodies, Emperor Luo's cock catches Shen Yuan's eye.

It's fully erect, though with their current positions, Emperor Luo's cock dips heavily towards the ground, its tip leaking a clear fluid. It looks almost pitiful like that, looking like it was weeping from being neglected.

Just then, an idea occurs to Shen Yuan.

Since he still has Emperor Luo's attention, he meets his gaze and slowly reaches forth. His hand wraps around the girthy shaft and Emperor Luo releases a hiss in response. "L-like this," he says, adjusting his grip so that it's gentle yet firm, before stroking it. "Not too rough but ... just nice."

"Just nice," Emperor Luo echoes. "A-Yuan wants ... just nice."

Shen Yuan nods, some of the tension in his shoulders slipping away. "Try your best to go easy on me, ok?"

Emperor Luo's eyes are still trained on him, hanging onto his every word. He lets out a low growl. "This ... Lord will try." His gaze flickers away, just for a moment, before returning to Shen Yuan again. "But A-Yuan is ..."

Whatever relief Shen Yuan just gained condenses into anticipation. "Is?"

"A-Yuan is so irresistible."

Before Shen Yuan can react, Emperor Luo surges forward —

And Shen Yuan jolts awake, for real this time.

A moment of foggy disorientation clouds his senses as he blinks at Luo Binghe's sleeping features, the images of Emperor Luo's half demon features and his boyfriend's blurring together into one until ...

What had Shen Yuan been dreaming about?

He groans, wrinkling his nose.

Well, whatever that was he dreamt of, it had left a familiarly distinct sensation between his legs. For a moment, he debates on whether he should just ignore little A-Yuan and go back to sleep or get rid of it when Luo Binghe stirs.

The brief, unconscious movement tugs Shen Yuan back to the present, then to where his hand is resting. He realizes that his hand is currently in his boyfriend's boxers, holding Luo Binghe's morning wood.

Shen Yuan freezes and his eyes fly wide. His breath lodges somewhere in his throat as every fiber of his body goes into overdrive.

WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK! He screams internally, staring at Luo Binghe's face while his hand remains wrapped around his boyfriend's positively throbbing cock. Luo Binghe remains fast asleep, blissfully unaware of Shen Yuan alternating between guilt and shame for practically molesting his boyfriend in his sleep.

After about a minute, Shen Yuan forces himself to draw a slow but deep breath.

Luo Binghe doesn't so much as stir at the sound of his inhale.

With the utmost care that would be appropriate in disarming a bomb, Shen Yuan releases Luo Binghe's cock and slides away, further until he's out of bed. Then, he tiptoes out of the room.

When the door clicks shut, Luo Binghe's eyes open. He rolls over to his side to grab his phone from the nightstand.

5:07 am

Luo Binghe sighs. He wouldn't have minded if Shen Yuan had continued touching him!

In terms of getting a grip on himself, Shen Yuan isn't doing so well.

Today marks a month since moving in with his boyfriend and he has yet to gain full control of those horribly perverted thoughts about his boyfriend. At this point, he might as well look into getting a lobotomy. That would probably help, right?

Ok, in all seriousness though, he really needs to find some non-invasive way to stop being so dirty-minded about his boyfriend so often.

They're doing it more regularly now: nearly every day, several times a day on the weekends. In theory, that ought to help reduce the frequency of Shen Yuan thinking about sex with his insanely hot boyfriend.

Except it doesn't.

If anything, it makes it worse because now instead of trying to ignore his urges, all he has to do to make those thoughts stop is to reach for his boyfriend.

Which, he guesses, is technically one of the ways to stop thinking about sex but it doesn't actually solve the root cause of him thinking about it.

"A-Yuan? A-Yuan." Both the gentle squeeze of his hand and the sound of Luo Binghe's voice brings Shen Yuan out of his thoughts. With his head on Shen Yuan's lap, Luo Binghe looks up at him with his eyebrows knitted together in concern. "Everything alright?"

Shen Yuan jumps slightly, feeling bad that he zoned out in the middle of their date. "Oh, yeah. I was just thinking."

"About what?" Luo Binghe asks.

They're having a picnic at a park near their place, enjoying the wonderful atmosphere of spring under the shade of beautiful cherry blossom trees in full bloom. Shen Yuan notices a petal stuck in Luo Binghe's hair. He plucks it out and places it on Luo Binghe's forehead.

"I was ... thinking about you," he says.

The corners of Luo Binghe's mouth twitch the same time Shen Yuan blushes at how cheesy he sounded.

"Oh? Like what?" Luo Binghe asks.

Shen Yuan's fingers find their way back in Luo Binghe's hair, combing through the silky black locks. "Like ... things," he says, rather lamely. "Lots of things ... Ok, maybe just one thing."

"Care to elaborate?"

Shen Yuan's face grows hotter. "It's a secret."

Luo Binghe laughs. "Have I ever told A-Yuan I like how mysterious you are? I'm serious," he adds when Shen Yuan snorts and rolls his eyes. "It's cute."

"You're supposed to say sexy," Shen Yuan huffs. "Mysterious people are supposed to be sexy."

"Who says they can't be cute? Or both."

"Me, because those are two different things." Shen Yuan points out. "Like, conceptually speaking."

Luo Binghe smiles, the kind that makes Shen Yuan want to yell and run away screaming because of how unbearably fond he looks. He reaches for Shen Yuan's hand and pulls it down. At first Shen Yuan thinks he wants it on his cheek when Luo Binghe brings his palm to his lips. "A-Yuan is cute and sexy to me," he murmurs.

If anyone else had said that to Shen Yuan, he would've gagged audibly. But these sappy words coming from Luo Binghe? Terribly romantic. Shen Yuan manages to hold his ground for exactly a millisecond before his expression cracks. He crumbles and Luo Binghe watches on smugly, not at all minding that Shen Yuan is squishing and pinching his cheeks in a futile attempt to get his emotions under control.

Heavens, see what Shen Yuan has to deal with?

Just a few sweet words from his boyfriend and he's already folding like a fucking lawn chair!

Is it normal to feel like this?!

Surely Shen Yuan would have already gotten used to Luo Binghe flirting with him now that they've been dating for more than half a year!

And yet here he is, enacting his harmless little act of revenge on his boyfriend to deal with his feelings. Even if seeing Luo Binghe's handsome face get squished into weird little expressions, it does little to dampen the tingling where Luo Binghe had kissed him. Hell, even other parts of him are tingling too, in response to the way Luo Binghe had looked at him when he said those words earlier.

His dark eyes, half-veiled by long lashes. His voice, low and sultry. His kiss, light as a feather but electrifying where his lips had touched Shen Yuan's skin. And that smirk he gave too — the kind that never fails to both fluster and seduce Shen Yuan.

As much as it pains Shen Yuan to admit this, he really wants his boyfriend. Carnally, if that wasn't clear enough. In a nasty, disrespectful way that'll leave Shen Yuan trembling and gasping for more.

Just like what Luo Binghe did to him last night ...

Broken whimpers slip out of Shen Yuan as he tries his hardest not to cum. He can't, he absolutely can't, but Luo Binghe isn't making this easy for him. His body quivers like a leaf in the wind. Although it's a futile exercise, Shen Yuan strains against the tie keeping his wrists above his head; Luo Binghe sure knows how to make a good knot. A deep flush creeps halfway down his chest.

"G-gege, please," he gasps. "Please."

Even though his vision is obscured by a blindfold, Shen Yuan can almost see the wicked delight dancing in Luo Binghe's eyes. Of course his boyfriend is enjoying being a bully to him.

"Please, what?" Shen Yuan hears Luo Binghe whisper. A warm breath ghosts across Shen Yuan's nipples, made wet and sensitive by his boyfriend's mouth. A sharp breath hitches in Shen Yuan's throat when Luo Binghe sucks on one of his nipples again. "A-Yuan knows I can't read your mind, right?"

Shen Yuan whines, twisting but it's no use. Besides being tied to the bed, Luo Binghe has him in place — one possessive hand on his waist, three fingers pumping deep inside him, and the weight of his presence atop Shen Yuan, reminding Shen Yuan he has nowhere to escape on this bed.

"A-Ah!" He stiffens as Luo Binghe licks a hot, broad stripe up over his armpit. His sudden movement causes him to drive down onto the fingers inside him, causing a sudden burst of pleasure to lance up his spine. "Gege!" he cries out.

A warm breath puffs over his skin. Then Luo Binghe licks him again, this time on the other side and Shen Yuan arches his back at the sensation once more. "E-enough! No more!" he pleads, struggling against his restraints. "Cock! Cock now, please!"

Luo Binghe is laughing at him, he must be, because Shen Yuan can feel his wolf-like grin, a warning sign of the wicked ways he'll play with Shen Yuan tonight.

"A-ah!" Shen Yuan jolts, now very aware of the tightness in his pants dangerously close to Luo Binghe's head.

Luo Binghe's eyebrows arch then furrow. "What's wrong?" he asks, starting to sit up.

"Nothing!" Shen Yuan exclaims and quickly pushes his boyfriend back down on his lap. Luo Binghe stares at him. "I just — remembered something. Er, it was a theory I had about ... one of the characters from that webnovel I read last night," he finishes lamely, pushing his glasses up his nose. "Gonna jot it down before I forget."

Pretending not to notice his boyfriend, Shen Yuan pulls out his phone and opens his note app, trying his best not to look busy.

Heavens, and all this over a few sweet words and a kiss?! I really need to get help!

Back home later that evening, Shen Yuan gets about an hour himself while Luo Binghe is at the gym. Not that he can't do a quick search online when his boyfriend is home, but Shen Yuan wouldn't be able to live with himself if Luo Binghe caught him looking this up. Shen Yuan's embarrassment could very well kill himself!

At his desktop, the cursor moves across the screen towards the search bar.

is it normal to be horny for my boyfriend

He pauses for a moment before adding one more word, just to narrow down the search results.

is it normal to be horny for my boyfriend gay

He scrolls past the first couple of results — an online gay test, a dating site for gay men and a gay porn site — before ending up in a familiar place. Of all the sites he could seek advice from, the most logical place for him to find it is in the forums for gay men.

Before things became official between him and Luo Binghe, Shen Yuan had consulted this particular website many times. Of course, at the time, Shen Yuan hadn't thought himself gay but had ended up here anyway after clicking on a few posts that sounded similar to his situation at the time — straight guy developing feelings for another guy; how to deal with it; what does this mean about his sexuality because he still think's he's straight except for the guy he's into, bla bla bla — those kind of things. It made sense that there had been other guys going through the same dilemma as he is now. One of the few times it's reassuring that he's never had a unique experience in his life.

This time around, however, Shen Yuan can't seem to find any posts that are even remotely similar to his current situation! The results that have come up so far all seem to be describing one-sided relationships, how differences in libido are affect couples, and this one post about a really messy on-off situationship ...

Agh, is there really nothing similar to his situation?

How uncommon could his situation be? If there were plenty of 'straight' guys who've turned gay, surely there'd be a handful of dudes like him who struggle not to spread their legs when their partners breathed, right?

There's no way Shen Yuan was a unique case!

Or maybe no one's bothered asking because they're normal and managed to figure it out by themselves, says a nasty little voice in his head.

A twinge goes through him at that. Leaning back in his chair, Shen Yuan blows long exhale as he spins himself slowly.

Well, regardless if he's just too silly to figure it out or if no one had experienced what he's going through now, he needs answers. Before things spiral out of control and Luo Binghe breaks up with him once he realizes how dirty Shen Yuan's brain is.

Shen Yuan's eyes flicker to the corner of his desktop screen to where the time is. Agh, he spent too long trawling through all these posts! It won't be long till Luo Binghe comes back and Shen Yuan will be forced to stew in his thoughts unless he does something now.

With a sigh, he drags himself upright and begins to type.

is it normal to be horny for your boyfriend all the time?! — @cucumbersalads

just thought i'd make a post since i wasnt able to find anything here that were similar to my situation. i'll keep things short and snappy as im writing this all this before my boyfriend comes back home from the gym.

for context, im 25M and my boyfriend is 27M. we've been dating for 7 months. before that, i thought i was straight until i met him so being in a gay relationship is all very new to me. i also dont think i'm, like, a really horny guy in general but i don't mind when my boyfriend wants some (which is fairly often since he has a high libido). anyway!

a couple weeks ago, i moved in with him. things are going super well, im really loving every moment of living with him and i think he does too, hopefully. it's all been super romantic and domestic and i wouldnt trade it for the world. sometimes i feel like we're pretty much married atp haha. HOWEVER, i do have one (1) thing that's been bothering me since we moved in.

i just ... can't stop getting horny around him?! like i said earlier, im not usually this horny and it's different if my boyfriend's the one initiating but ... he could just be doing something normal like idk getting dressed before work and my brain would make these super weird connections with the past times we did it or how badly i want him inside me.

(im censoring my thoughts for this post so im not breaking any rules but @moderators feel free to remove this post if this is too much!)

even when he's doing absolutely nothing, i still get horny!

to give you guys an example: earlier before my boyfriend went to the gym, i watched him scroll on his phone for like 2 seconds and my brain was all normal at first thinking how good he looked in that black compression shirt, how nice and fluffy his hair looks, how nice he smelled when i passed by him before it went right into some stuff we did the other night and also going 'i need him between my legs, we could get a better workout that way' like ????? hello???

and it's not just when im around him. i even get horny when im not near him! like that time he sent me a really nice post-workout pic and all i wanted to do was suck him off! or right now while im writing this, i just thought of him at the gym, working up a sweat and looking all hot and sweaty like the time he .... ok i'd better stop there before the @moderators delete my post and i dont get my answers T^T

anyway, it's like there's just something about him thats making me feel like im in heat 24/7!

maybe it's because he's been such a wonderful boyfriend to me that i think if there was a boyfriend olympics, he'd win gold ALL THE TIME. or that he's super hot, like really really hot, basically the hottest man on earth. or he's FANTASTIC in bed too, so like maybe all the times we've been doing it has gotten to my head. or all of the above.

BUT ...!!!!

i'm 25 years old!!!! i should have more control of my emotions and thoughts and all!! i SHOULDNT be constantly thinking about how badly i want him to fold me in half and have his way with me! i feel bad that i keep sexualizing him in my head and i bet if he knew what i thought about him, he'd think i'm a massive fucking pervert. or worse, he'd break up with me. like be honest, who would want their boyfriend to see them as like . some living, breathing, walking sex toy, right??

not that i think he's my living, breathing, walking sex toy, i think he's more than that but i just keep thinking about how badly i want to have sex with him at wrong times and it just feels WRONG

anyway sorry if this is all disorganized, i might just delete this later when i get the chance to but anyway i just wanted to know if it's normal to be horny for your boyfriend practically every fucking second???

@Xx_dafeiji_xX: lol gay

@cucumbersalads: what the...! how did you find my alt?? also youre so rude???

@Xx_dafeiji_xX: ur literally in a forum for gay men

@cucumbersalads: WELL THATS TRUE BUT LISTEN . I DONT THINK IT'S NORMAL TO BE SO ?? DAMN HORNY ALL THHE TIME?? plus we do it regularly! like we used to do it once every 3 days but now it's almost every day and im still thinking about every time we did it. is something not right with me?

@Xx_dafeiji_xX: yeah, ur not right. ur out-gay-ing all the men here. you should be considerate and only be gay within acceptable levels on the forum

@cucumbersalads: .... fuck off if youre not gna be helpful! stupid airplane!

@Xx_dafeiji_xX: just saying :P

@cucumbersalads: STOP .

@Grass_Is_Greener: Congrats on moving in with your boyfriend! That's always a big step in any romantic relationship. Just from what you've written, I personally don't think it's anything to be concerned about. I know it's your first time being involved in a relationship with a man, but to me it sounds like you're attracted to your boyfriend, which is completely normal! It also sounds like your boyfriend is just as attracted to you as you are to him. You'll be fine, don't sweat it too much and just enjoy the time you have with him.

@cucumbersalads: ok well ... if you say so ... but personally i feel bad for having these thoughts about him all the time. like i dont act on them but it's just .. i feel like i should stop, y'know?

@caocaocao: maybe you should try CBT? it helped for me personally

@cucumbersalads: ... cock and ball torture?? well ... that's a strange way of managing but i guess i could try that

@Grass_Is_Greener: @caocaocao Apologies, but do you mean Cognitive Behavioral Therapy?

@caocaocao: no, i do mean cock and ball torture lol

@cucumbersalads: er .... ok wait @caocaocao who should be CBT-ed tho ... me or my boyfriend?

@caocaocao: u obviously! your boyfriend's not the one being a horndog unless he's the one having trouble keeping his cock away from you all the time

@cucumbersalads: WELL it's not my boyfriend's fault! he just has a high libido. me personally, i could do with more self-control

@caocaocao: well maybe you should both be CBT-ed

@Grass_Is_Greener: Well, regardless of what you'll try, please know @cucumbersalads that there is nothing wrong with you

@cucumbersalads: thanks grass-gege

@Grass_Is_Greener: You're very welcome! All the best with your boyfriend!

@ba1zhans: you just sound like youre really into him

@cucumbersalads: well, does it sound like im too into him?

@ba1zhans: wdym

@cucumbersalads: like surely normal gay guys dont think about having sex all the time, right? not that i identify as a gay guy .. more like half gay but anyway, you get what i mean?

@ba1zhans: well i dont speak for all gay guys but im pretty sure being sexually attracted to your partner is very normal. i would be concerned if you weren't the slightest bit attracted to your partner.

@cucumbersalads: oh well if you say so ....

@FemboyLuvr: LMAO this catholic level of guilt for being attracted to your boyfriend, i cant imagine being this conflicted it's too much!

@cucumbersalads: ???? you think my situation is funny??

@I_Luv_Twinks6969: i mean it does sound very fanfic-y

@FemboyLuvr: @I_Luv_Twinks6969 right exactly what i thought too! camping here to see the replies this shit is too good XD might actually use this for my next fic actually

@I_Luv_Twinks6969: oH what fandom if you dont mind me asking!! and DM me when you post it heheh i'd love to read it!

@cucumbersalads: wtf gtfo and stop exploiting me for your fanfic inspiration you sick and twisted fujoshis THIS IS A REAL WORLD SITUATION NOT A FANFIC SCENARIO .

@Hairy_Capybaras: I saw your replies to other comments about doing it more regularly and I was wondering if doing the opposite might help? Like taking a break from sexual activities .....

@cucumbersalads: i dont think that would be helpful. also i dont think i could stop my boyfriend from jumping me.

@Hairy_Capybaras: You do know you can always say no, right?

@cucumbersalads: well, yes, but no i can't say no to him! i mean .... i literally can't, it feels wrong! besides, he has a high libido too what else can he use to blow off steam besides me?

@Hairy_Capybaras: If he can survive before meeting you, he can survive going a bit without you.

@cucumbersalads: that's too cruel! i can't just deprive my boyfriend like that wtf what if he gets erectile disfunction!! use it or lose it, as they say

@Hairy_Capybaras: ... That's not how it works.

@cucumbersalads: well to you maybe ... 

@blacklotus: cute. i also just moved in with my boyfriend around the same time as you did with yours too. it feels like a dream come true being able to be near him all the time. although i also have trouble keeping my hands off of my boyfriend because of that. every time i look at him, i can't seem to control myself either. he has no idea the effect he has on me. and it's just too easy now because he's always near me, always within reach.

@cucumbersalads: out of curiosity, does your boyfriend ever ... say no? or think you're weird for being horny for him all the time?

@blacklotus: no. he's always pretty happy about it, even if he doesn't say it. he prefers me initiating, mostly because he gets embarrassed easily which i think is really cute of him.

anyway, your post reminded me of him. he's also like you, in the sense that he gets way into his head about things sometimes. said he was straight until he met me. we're also the same ages (i'm 27 and he's 25). and we also used to do it every 3 days before almost every day now. what a coincidence, right?

anyway, for what it's worth, i think you should be honest with your boyfriend. i think he'd appreciate it if you expressed your desires instead of beating yourself up over it.

@cucumbersalads: do you really think that would be a good idea? what if he thinks i'm weird?

@blacklotus: if i knew how horny i make my boyfriend for simply existing, i don't think anything in the world would be able to pull me out of him. im also really into the thought of him sexualizing me haha i think it'd be hot

@cucumbersalads: .... oh well, ok! if that's your kink, then i guess! but anyway, thanks! i'll try telling him tonight and seeing how it goes .... fingers crossed

@blacklotus: it'll be fine ;) i'm sure he'll love it

@cucumbersalads: thank you i hope so!

@caocaocao: ???

@Xx_dafeiji_xX: hmmm.........

@FemboyLuvr: very interesting conversation going on here, are you sure you two dont know each other in real life

@I_Luv_Twinks6969: like i said, this feels very fanfic-y. im gna bet my left kidney @blacklotus is @cucumbersalads boyfriend

@cucumbersalads: wtf is wrong with you ppl GET OUT

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Chapter Text

"Gege?"

Luo Binghe glances away from the book he was reading to Shen Yuan beside him. Judging from the tone of his voice, and the way he was fidgeting, there must be something he wants to talk about that's been on his mind for some time. "Hm? What is it, A-Yuan?"

The tips of Shen Yuan's ears are slightly red as he turns to Luo Binghe. "Can we talk about something? It's kind of important," he says.

"Of course." Putting the book aside, Luo Binghe turns his full attention to Shen Yuan. He lets his boyfriend take a moment to gather his nerves, noting the way Shen Yuan picks on a loose thread on his shorts.

Shen Yuan has a tendency to overthink even over the smallest of things, marinating in his thoughts until they can no longer be kept to himself. Seeing his nervous little habits, Luo Binghe wonders what Shen Yuan wants to discuss, and whether it's as serious as Shen Yuan himself thinks it is.

"Hypothetically speaking," Shen Yuan begins, "if your boyfriend, who isn't me by the way —"

Ah. The corners of Luo Binghe's mouth twitch but his expression remains otherwise the same.

"— was lowkey always ... thinking about ..." He trails off and the tinge of red spreads across his cheeks. "If your boyfriend was always thinking about d-doing that with you all the time, what would you ... what do you think?"

Luo Binghe opens his mouth only for Shen Yuan to continue rambling.

"Like, I know it's normal to think about that from time to time, but do you think it's weird at all? To just be dating someone and find out they constantly have their brain in the gutters when they're around you, even when you two are doing totally normal things. Like, what kind of weirdo would be constantly thinking about doing you-know-what?"

Luo Binghe struggles to contain his amusement, a chuckle threatening to rise from him. "Sorry, I think A-Yuan lost me there for a moment." He knows he is, as Shen Yuan often describes it, being a bully but he can't help it. It's not his fault Shen Yuan's so easy to tease. Especially when he's so afraid to say 'sex', despite always being subjected to Luo Binghe's insatiable appetite.

Shen Yuan splutter, very red in the face now. He chews his lip, picking on the thread again until Luo Binghe reaches out to hold his hand. Some of the tension appears to leave Shen Yuan's shoulders. "Sorry," he mumbles. "What I mean to say is ... do you care at all if I was a bit of a pervert?"

This time, Luo Binghe cracks a smile, letting out the softest huff of amusement. Shen Yuan looks up, his brown eyes wide, and Luo Binghe's composure nearly cracks then and there. He manages to rein himself at the last moment though, squeezing Shen Yuan's hand. "I think I should be asking you that question."

"You're not a pervert," says Shen Yuan, almost right away. Luo Binghe arches an eyebrow the same time Shen Yuan catches himself. "Well, not all the time," he amends, pushing his glasses up his nose and Luo Binghe laughs. His response seems to light something in Shen Yuan because now he's perking up, continuing with renewed confidence.

"Actually, no. You are a pervert! Jumping on me all the time and taking advantage of me. Plus, you're insatiable! I always wake up sore the next day after we do it." Shen Yuan huffs, though it's more lighthearted.

"Mn, tell me something I don't know."

Shen Yuan shoots him a luck, to which Luo Binghe can only respond with a cheeky grin of his own. He shakes his head before adding, this time in a gentler tone,"In saying all that, though, I don't mind you being ... like this."

Gods, Luo Binghe wants to kiss him. Wants to do more than just kiss him right now. But he needs to hear Shen Yuan confess before that can happen. "Then ..." Luo Binghe begins, letting his voice drop to a low, sultry whisper. He can hear the subtle hitch in Shen Yuan's breath as he leans towards him. "You should ask me again."

"E-eh?" Shen Yuan blinks at him but Luo Binghe holds his gaze. Shen Yuan opens his mouth, closes it then opens it again. He glances away, lashes veiling his eyes as he considers his next words. Even though Luo Binghe knows he's only flustered, Shen Yuan looks coy and seductive, blushing and avoiding Luo Binghe's gaze like that.

"Do you care if I always think about ... h-having sex with you?" asks Shen Yuan, hesitant and nervous yet so endearing.

Luo Binghe doesn't reply. At least, not verbally. Instead, he wraps an arm around Shen Yuan's waist and pulls him close.

A small squeak, followed by the rustling of sheets before they find themselves in a new position: Shen Yuan straddling Luo Binghe.

Shen Yuan's eyes grow wide, staring down at a smirking Luo Binghe. He tries to get up but hands land on his waist and stop him from fleeing. Realizing that he's essentially trapped, he splutters, "N-now, hold on just a moment!"

"Why?' Luo Binghe drawls. He traces the curve of Shen Yuan's ass before kneading them. So soft and round, he thinks as Shen Yuan squirms atop him. "I think we should turn the tables for once. Let A-Yuan be the pervert for once."

Shen Yuan goes bright red at the suggestion.

Luo Binghe smirks. "Why don't we start off with what you normally think about?"

"W-well ..." Shen Yuan shifts, the small movement causing his ass to brush against Luo Binghe's hardening cock. "I always think about having sex with you. Or how much I want to," he mumbles, flustered.

"Yeah? Tell me more." Luo Binghe slips his hands under the hem of Shen Yuan's sweater and feels him shudder. "What did you want me to do? Or what did you want to do to me?"

"Oh, lots." Shen Yuan admits shyly, meeting Luo Binghe's lips for a kiss. "I usually think about what we did last. But I sometimes fantasize about you ... doing things to me." He pauses, fidgeting. "There was something new I thought about earlier. Something to try if that's alright."

"Of course. What is it?"

Shen Yuan takes his time to answer, though Luo Binghe doesn't mind, not while they exchange leisurely kisses with each other. He feels Shen Yuan up, relishing the soft gasp Shen Yuan lets out and the way he melts at his touch. "I was thinking maybe I could try sucking you off again?" he finally says.

Shen Yuan's voice is so soft with uncertainty that Luo Binghe would have missed it if they weren't so close. But Luo Binghe catches it and hearing that causes his cock to twitch with interest.

"Yeah?" he hums. "Only that?"

"While you eat me out perhaps."

Luo Binghe loves the sound of that, as proven by the way his cock throbs at that. After all, he likes eating Shen Yuan out, likes the way he whimpers Luo Binghe's name and tangles his fingers in Luo Binghe's hair, likes the way Shen Yuan goes all soft and pliant for him. Then again, Luo Binghe likes doing anything that'll have Shen Yuan writhing in pleasure.

"A-and I also wanted to try riding you too," Shen Yuan adds. He pulls away to search Luo Binghe's expression. Knowing him, he's probably looking for the worst reaction.

As if Luo Binghe wouldn't be eager, excited or aroused by the things he just said.

As if Luo Binghe wouldn't be thrilled about fucking Shen Yuan like that.

As if Luo Binghe isn't crazy about Shen Yuan.

A smirk tugs at Luo Binghe's lips when Shen Yuan realizes that himself. Still, because he is the sweetest ever, Shen Yuan clears his throat and asks, "Is that okay?"

Looking at Luo Binghe like this, all wide-eyed and nervous, his lips slightly swollen from the kissing and cheeks flushed red, Luo Binghe is seized by the violent urge to push Shen Yuan down and have his way with him. He knows Shen Yuan will let him too, even if they're supposed to be acting out Shen Yuan's fantasies, because he loves it most when Luo Binghe's in control.

Luo Binghe barely manages to exercise restraint then — Shen Yuan always makes it so difficult for him to — although his tongue slips at the last moment: "A-Yuan, you could treat me like a dildo and I could die happy tonight."

He is serious about this, of course. Yet he laughs at Shen Yuan's mortified "Binghe!" His amusement swells further when Shen Yuan smacks his shoulder in amusement.

"I could never!' Shen Yuan exclaims. " T-that's—! That would be so ... so ... "

"Hot," Luo Binghe finishes. An indulgent smirk tugs at his lips when Shen Yuan shoots him a look. "I promise I'm into it. A-Yuan can use me like that. In fact, I'm encouraging A-Yuan to."

"Ok, fine. But stop me if you don't like what I'm doing, alright?"

Luo Binghe can hardly refrain from pointing out that there would be no universe he could exist in where he'd be against Shen Yuan pleasuring himself on his cock. Instead, he hums in assent.

Shen Yuan kisses him first, nice and slow, gently cupping Luo Binghe's cheeks. His lips are soft, warm and sweet, the perfect taste that Luo Binghe will never grow weary of. He can't resist nipping Shen Yuan gently at one point, earning a little gasp.

As always, it doesn't take long to turn Shen Yuan on. With Luo Binghe eagerly reciprocating his advances, Shen Yuan is already panting against him. There's already a small tent in his shorts when he pulls away.

Their clothes come off in no time, Luo Binghe's first before Shen Yuan's. At Luo Binghe's request, though, Shen Yuan leaves his glasses on.

"Y'know, I'm starting to think Gege has some kind of kink with me wearing glasses when we do it," says Shen Yuan as he kneels between Luo Binghe's legs. "Like 80% of the time, you want me to keep them on."

"Oh, A-Yuan just noticed?"

Shen Yuan smacks Luo Binghe's thigh, earning another laugh.

A pair of small hands slide down Luo Binghe's chest, feeling the swell and dip of his muscles. Although Shen Yuan doesn't mention it — and is too shy to — Luo Binghe takes satisfaction in the desire and appreciation blooming in Shen Yuan's gaze. A pleasant heat simmers through his body where Shen Yuan touches, intensifying when those lingering hands are replaced with a pair of soft, warm lips on his skin. The sensation goes all the way down to his neglected, throbbing cock. Luo Binghe has to take deep breaths to remain still. Difficult is the struggle to exercise restraint while lust urges him to pounce.

Meanwhile, Shen Yuan remains oblivious to it all, ever so clueless about the effect he has on Luo Binghe. A lovely shade of pink tints his nape as he makes his way down Luo Binghe's body. On all fours, he lowers himself, creating a lovely arch with his back until his ass is raised high behind him.

The sight almost too much for Luo Binghe to behold. Oh, to be behind Shen Yuan now and grabbing him by his small waist. To be buried deep within A-Yuan's warm hole, to have his lover writhing and begging for —

"Wait," says Luo Binghe.

Shen Yuan, a breath away from Luo Binghe's cock, blinks up in confusion. "Was that no good?" he asks nervously.

"No, it was perfect. But A-Yuan should turn around. So I can eat you out while you suck me off."

"Oh! Yes, right," he mumbles, quickly sitting up.

Luo Binghe chuckles as he lays down. "Did you forget about that?"

Shen Yuan flushes a bright red. "W-well, I was focused on making you feel good."

"You always make me feel good."

"Sweet talker," Shen Yuan mutters but Luo Binghe catches a smile at the end of it when he turns around.

Luo Binghe almost groans in delight when Shen Yuan's ass appears in full view. A pair of perfectly round cheeks with a small birthmark on the right one. Shen Yuan's cock hangs between his thighs, flushed and hard, with precum dripping from its tip.

Head sandwiched between Shen Yuan's legs, Luo Binghe can think of nowhere else he'd rather be in this moment.

Meanwhile, Shen Yuan tries not to get too distracted by the sensation of Luo Binghe groping him. After all, he should be focussing on Luo Binghe's cock, which is practically right in front of him. His face burns with a mix of shame and embarrassment for being in such a humiliating position, even though he can tell Luo Binghe is pretty much enjoying having Shen Yuan's ass in face.

A pair of hands kneads his cheeks and spreading them apart. Shen Yuan clenches instinctively, partly at the sensation of cool air and also in anticipation. However, Luo Binghe doesn't jump right in straight away. A hot breath tickles across the back of his left thigh and featherlight kisses are peppered along —

Stay focused, Shen Yuan reminds himself.

Although Shen Yuan likes to think he's well acquainted with Luo Binghe's cock, especially with how often it's inside him, his boyfriend's cock somehow looks bigger than he remembered. Of course, it might just be its proximity to his face — plus, it's been a while since he last sucked Luo Binghe off — but ... this thing is truly massive. His fingers don't even meet when he wraps a hand around Luo Binghe's thick, veiny cock. It throbs at his touch as if in greeting, its tip shiny and bright red.

A long time ago, Shen Yuan might have been intimidated by Luo Binghe's size. But not anymore. Right now, as arousal and desire intertwine inside him, he gives it a few languid strokes, just the way Luo Binghe likes it, before lowering his head.

Truth be told, he has no idea what he's doing.

The amount of times he has attempted to give head to his boyfriend can be counted on one hand. He's not very good at this and Luo Binghe's size does not make it easy for him. However, Luo Binghe has sucked him off plenty of times and he did pick up a few things from his previous (unsuccessful) attempts.

From the base, he starts off pressing soft, wet kisses to Luo Binghe's cock, going up along the shaft. Precum smears across his lips when he reaches the tip. Opening his mouth, he swirls his tongue around it, teasing but never fully touching the slit. A flicker of satisfaction passes through Shen Yuan when Luo Binghe tenses underneath him.

Emboldened, he takes his boyfriend cock into his mouth — or, at least, attempt to. He manages to fit a little past the head of it before he can feel his throat starting to close up.

The low groan from behind him gives him the push he needs to keep going. Shen Yuan bobs his head up and down, one hand stroking the rest of Luo Binghe's shaft while the other plays with his balls.

Luo Binghe, who had been indulgently licking his hole, merely teasing Shen Yuan, falters every now and then. Although it'd be nice to see the look on Luo Binghe's face, Shen Yuan can't deny that he's getting excited over feeling Luo Binghe physically react to him. This must be how Luo Binghe feels when he's teasing Shen Yuan; now Luo Binghe's getting a taste of his own medicine.

Delighted, Shen Yuan continues playing with Luo Binghe's cock, moaning around it just to rile his boyfriend up. His throat even relaxes more, allowing him to take Luo Binghe deeper into his mouth without gagging.

But just when he thinks he's pulled ahead of Luo Binghe, his boyfriend pulls him right back.

Sucking Luo Binghe off and being eaten out are two different things. All in all, Shen Yuan's glad that he's managing to give Luo Binghe head despite the bodily distractions. However, he realizes one thing too late:

Shen Yuan is still at the mercy of his boyfriend's whims.

A thick, slicked-up finger teases the edges of his hole. At the same time, a large hand wraps around his drooling cock. Shen Yuan only has a moment to suck in a breath before Luo Binghe turns the tables.

Luo Binghe's finger slides easily into Shen Yuan's hole. He pumps steadily, making sure to massage that spot inside Shen Yuan. Gasping at the stimulation, Shen Yuan tries to move, but the hand wrapped around his cock prevents him from wriggling away. Luo Binghe strokes him long and fast, matching the rhythm of his finger.

Eyes squeezed shut and limbs tensed, all Shen Yuan can do is whimper helplessly. Even his hands, which were supposed to be jerking Luo Binghe off, struggles to move in rhythm or maintain a consistent grip. Luo Binghe's cock, now out of Shen Yuan's mouth, throbs against the side of Shen Yuan's cheek.

Pleasure races up Shen Yuan's spine, overriding whatever signals his brain sends to the rest of his body. Because of that, his hips begin to move on their own accord now, grinding back against Luo Binghe's fingers — he added a second one just a moment ago — or forwards into his hand.

Below Shen Yuan, Luo Binghe groans, "I wish I could see A-Yuan's face right now. A-Yuan likes this, don't you? Look at the way you're rutting into my hands."

"A-agh, Gege!" Shen Yuan knows he won't be able to last long at this rate.

Despite this, he tries his hardest to continue sucking his boyfriend off as much as he can. He takes Luo Binghe's cock in his mouth once more, bobbing his head as far as he dares while stroking the rest of it. His broken moans squeeze past the cock in his mouth. A few times he ends up gagging, distracted by Luo Binghe and once succeeding in making Luo Binghe buck up into his throat.

It's the small wins that count, right?

However, and as always, it's Shen Yuan who comes first. Letting go of Luo Binghe's cock, he only has a moment to moan when he arrives at his climax. He whimpers helplessly, trembling as his orgasm wracks his body. Semen dribbles from his cock, splattering onto his boyfriend's chest.

Luo Binghe doesn't stop, though. In fact, he somehow manages to turn their positions around so that he's on top. Now free, Luo Binghe's thick and heavy cock flops onto Shen Yuan's face, smearing his glasses with precum and saliva over the foggy lens.

As Shen Yuan struggles to catch his breath, Luo Binghe plunges his fingers back into Shen Yuan's hole. However, he replaces the hand on his cock with his mouth. And then, he sucks.

It's nearly too much for Shen Yuan to bear. He sobs, writhing, as the last waves of his orgasm is wrung out of him.

He's pretty sure the overstimulation causes him to black out briefly. One moment he's trying to blink out the stars swarming his vision underneath Luo Binghe. In the next, Luo Binghe's face swims into in view. Luo Binghe must have moved him and taken his glasses off. Luo Binghe's face appears blurry before him and his cheek is pillowed on Luo Binghe's firm chest. Luo Binghe's arm is looped around Shen Yuan's body, holding him close. A finger traces idle patterns on Shen Yuan's body.

When Luo Binghe notices Shen Yuan is awake again, the corners of his lips tug upwards. "Hey, A-Yuan," he purrs, all seductive.

For a moment Shen Yuan thinks Luo Binghe looks like his wettest dreams come true. And then, his eyebrows knit together and the open attraction on his features is replaced with a frown.

"You." Shen Yuan pinches Luo Binghe, not hard enough to do any damage but enough to get the point across. "I thought I was supposed to be the pervert tonight. You said I could use you like a dildo but I ended up being like a pocket pussy for you!"

A chuckle rumbles through Luo Binghe's chest. "Oops," he says and, of course, doesn't sound apologetic. "Sorry A-Yuan, I couldn't help myself."

You never do, Shen Yuan wants to say. Then again, he liked what they did. Even if he didn't get to suck Luo Binghe dry like that fantasy he had in the shower earlier, he still enjoyed himself. But next time, he tells himself, no more 69 until I can suck dick properly! Not until he can do things without getting distracted by Luo Binghe messing around. Maybe tie Luo Binghe's hands for good measure too.

In the end, Shen Yuan responds with a soft "Hmph," and tries not to giggle when Luo Binghe kisses him in apology. "Did you come at least?" he asks, wrapping a leg around Luo Binghe's waist.

"Don't worry about that." Luo Binghe nuzzles into his hair.

"Ok, but can you tell me if you did?"

"Did what?"

Shen Yuan shoots him a look which Luo Binghe returns with an innocent blink. "Gege ..."

Luo Binghe smirks. It's so unfair how that smile is making Shen Yuan feel weak. "Why?" he asks, voice low and sultry. "Does A-Yuan want a second round?"

Shen Yuan doesn't reply, not taking the bait. The sheets slip off from his bare shoulders as he sits up. Luo Binghe's dark eyes glitter with amusement and satisfaction as Shen Yuan moves to straddle him. His hands automatically come up to steady Shen Yuan by the waist. Luo Binghe opens his mouth, probably to say something cheeky, but Shen Yuan stops him with a kiss. This time, though, he doesn't start off shy and chaste.

They make out, hot and heavy. Out of curiosity, he tugs on Shen Yuan's lower lip and a soft groan leaves him when Shen Yuan bites him back. A spark ignites within Luo Binghe and the next thing he knows, he's pulling Shen Yuan close, arms wrapping possessively around him.

"I didn't make you come, right?" says Shen Yuan as Luo Binghe mouths at his neck. "I wanted to make you come."

"A-Yuan can try again," Luo Binghe croons. "I'm not against that."

"Pervert. Gege just wants to fuck me again," Shen Yuan mutters but he's the one rocking his hips, rubbing his half-hard cock rubs against Luo Binghe's abs. Luo Binghe's own cock swells as its slides between Shen Yuan's plump cheeks. Soft, breathy noises escape Shen Yuan's lips and flutter into the air between them. His fingers tangle with silky black locks at the back of Luo Binghe's head.

Luo Binghe can't help smirking. This boyfriend of his, acting all wide-eyed and innocent and easily flustered by Luo Binghe's advances when he's just as horny. This little vixen. It would have been one thing if Shen Yuan was intentional about his behavior, but the truth is that he isn't the slightest bit aware. Luo Binghe is absolutely endeared by this, of course.

Shen Yuan's breath hitches when Luo Binghe's lips find their way to his chest, latching onto one of his rosy nipples. Luo Binghe hears a gasp and the hand in his hair tightens. He plays with the sensitive little nub, flicking it with his tongue and nipping it. His cock twitches at the sound of Shen Yuan whining, a pleasant tingle racing up his spine when nails scrape lightly against his scalp. He moves to the other nipple, giving it the same treatment while Shen Yuan pants above him.

Luo Binghe's arms tighten when he feels Shen Yuan try to move away, only to hear, "I'm just getting the lube." Still, he clings stubbornly, leaving Shen Yuan no choice but to fumble for the nightstand drawer.

The cap of the lube bottle pops open.

"Gege."

With great reluctance, Luo Binghe finally pries himself off Shen Yuan to look at him.

In the soft, dim lighting of their bedroom, a lovely shade of red tints Shen Yuan's cheeks. His hair is adorably ruffled, cowlicks here and there. He also seems to have put his glasses back on at some point. "I'm going to ride you," he declares. Then he blushes, embarrassed, and adds, "Just in case you've forgotten!"

Luo Binghe laughs, leaning back against the headboard. "Now why would I forget about that?" he asks and grins at the huff in reply. Fair enough. He did sort of forget earlier this evening but he'll do his best to give his boyfriend some of the reins from now on.

Shen Yuan squeezes out a generous amount of lube, spreading it along his fingers before reaching behind himself. Luo Binghe watches him with a mix of fondness and desire as Shen Yuan slicks himself up in preparation. He makes quick work of it, still relaxed enough from earlier. He applies some more lube onto Luo Binghe's cock next, stroking a few times.

Throwing shy glance in Luo Binghe's way, Shen Yuan positions himself over Luo Binghe's cock. Luo Binghe helps him, one hand on Shen Yuan's waist to steady him while the other holds his cock in place. Anticipation bubbles within Luo Binghe as Shen Yuan rubs the head of Luo Binghe's cock at his hole, letting it catch on his rim and smearing precum all over it.

And then, without any warning, he sinks down.

There's nothing in this world, Luo Binghe believes with every fiber of his soul, that can ever hold a candle to the feeling of being inside Shen Yuan.

Both of them let out noises of satisfaction as Luo Binghe's cock slides into Shen Yuan's warm and wet hole.

"Fuck," Shen Yuan exhales shakily once Luo Binghe is completely inside him. "You're in so deep."

"Just where I need to be," Luo Binghe purrs and smirks when Shen Yuan blushes at that. He does his best to sit still and let Shen Yuan acclimatize. But his fingers dig a little deeper into Shen Yuan's sides as his boyfriend wriggles around to find more comfortable position.

After what feels like an eternity of sweet torture, Shen Yuan finally finds a position he's happy with: hands on either side of Luo Binghe's head and his knees folded against the mattress. His eyelashes quiver behind his glasses as he catches his breath. The flush on his face has now crept down to his collarbones. His cock weeps between his thighs, dripping precum onto Luo Binghe's stomach.

Beautiful, Luo Binghe thinks. If only he could take a picture of this somehow, keep it in his folder for all the pictures of his cute boyfriend, to look at when he misses him.

Shen Yuan catches him staring and turns red, flustered by the attention. "I'm going to move now," he announces.

"Go ahead."

Shen Yuan begins to rock his hips, starting off slow and steady, testing out the waters. He bites his lip but it does little to prevent the noises slipping past his lips as he fucks himself on Luo Binghe's cock.

Watching Shen Yuan's features grow slack with pleasure and feeling himself slide in and out of Shen Yuan's hole, Luo Binghe feels like he's going insane. There's nothing he'd like more than to grab Shen Yuan now and thrust his hips up into that hole, to go as deep as he can into that incredible heat wrapped around his cock and make Shen Yuan scream his name in ecstasy. He only allows himself the privilege of gripping Shen Yuan by the waist, partly to steady Shen Yuan but mostly as an anchor to prevent his own lust from sweeping him away.

But when Shen Yuan finds the perfect angle, Luo Binghe watches his boyfriend go from an endearingly shy and prudish man who almost never acts on his desires to a whore very quickly. "Fuck," Shen Yuan moans, bouncing on Luo Binghe, his little cock flopping with the movement.

Greedy, Shen Yuan once called him fondly, and it's true that Luo Binghe is when it comes to him. However, Luo Binghe would argue that, in his own way, Shen Yuan is too. When Luo Binghe's hips buck upwards to meet Shen Yuan in the middle, Shen Yuan moans louder and moves faster, driven crazy from the stimulation.

Sweat rolls down his flushed body, dripping onto Luo Binghe. His eyes appear hazy and drunken and his voice sounds so sweet moaning like that. "Ah, Gege! Gege feels so good!"

Unable to hold himself back anymore, Luo Binghe yanks Shen Yuan down. Their mouths crash into each other, hot and messy as they exchange sloppy kisses and swallow each other's moans. Luo Binghe feels like a beast now, consumed by the raging heat of his desire for Shen Yuan. The hands on Shen Yuan's waist grip hard enough to leave bruises in the soft, pale flesh. "Fuck, baobei. Fuck," Luo Binghe growls, thrusting hard into Shen Yuan. "A-Yuan should see how you look on my cock. A-Yuan looks so fucking hot riding me, bouncing on my cock like a greedy little slut. A-Yuan likes it, right? Likes using me like a dildo?"

"Yes!" Shen Yuan sobs. "I love you, Gege! I love, ah, having sex with you! Please — please don't ever stop!"

"I love A-Yuan too," Luo Binghe grunts, biting Shen Yuan now. "Fuck, I love A-Yuan so much I wish I could be inside you forever."

Shen Yuan claws helplessly at whatever he can get his hands on — the headboard, the sheets, Luo Binghe's arm and Luo Binghe's hair."I can't," he cries. "Gege, I can't. I'm — I'm gonna—!" He doesn't even get to finish his sentence before coming again tonight, spilling between their bodies.

The wet slap of skin on skin continues, joining the sound of the bed creaking haphazardly underneath them.

Luo Binghe stops long enough to flip them around so that he's on top, Shen Yuan practically pinned in a mating press below him. Growling, Luo Binghe fucks him, driving his cock so roughly and deeply that Shen Yuan will definitely feel him for days.

When Luo Binghe finally comes, filling Shen Yuan to the brim, Shen Yuan is whimpering and tingly from the overstimulation. Laying there limply, Shen Yuan begins to drift away to soft, languid kisses as his boyfriend's cum oozes out from him.

Guess my boyfriend's a bigger pervert than I am.

When Shen Yuan wakes up again, it's just after sunrise. He shifts under the covers, only to wince when a familiar ache locks around his body. There's even something dried and sticky between his legs, gluing bits of the bedsheet to his thighs. He turns his head to the side and finds Luo Binghe facing him, eyes closed and breathing evenly.

It's not very often that he wakes up before his boyfriend does. Shen Yuan's hardly a morning person. But he can't deny there's a certain kind of specialness when he wakes first.

Shen Yuan watches Luo Binghe sleep for a little longer, a familiar warmth swelling rapidly within him. Carefully, he brushes away a few strands of hair away from Luo Binghe's face. His fingers trace the side of his boyfriend's face, lightly so as not to wake him, before coming to rest on his lips. Luo Binghe doesn't stir at his touch, which gives Shen Yuan a little bit of courage to do the next thing.

Scooting close, Shen Yuan lets his lips brush Luo Binghe's forehead.

Luo Binghe remains fast asleep.

Shen Yuan manages to resist the urge to giggle to himself and turns around.

There's a couple of notifications from the night before on his phone, mostly texts from groupchats though the ones from the forum catch his eye. He doesn't bother reading them but he pulls up his post from before.

is it normal to be horny for your boyfriend all the time?! — @cucumbersalads

He cringes. Ah, what had been going on in his mind when he wrote this? Or what had he been thinking the past couple of weeks being worried that something was wrong with him? So silly, he thinks, sighing. Finding the Edit button for the post, he scrolls to the bottom of his post and types.

edit: ok so ... i talked to my boyfriend last night and uh long story short, we're cool now :) although i think he's a bigger pervert than i am ... anyway, thanks everyone for your comments!

As Shen Yuan hits Save, an arm snakes around him and something warm and solid presses up from behind him. "Morning," Luo Binghe mumbles into his nape, voice husky with sleep.

"Morning, Ge."

"What's A-Yuan doing so early?"

"I just woke up," says Shen Yuan as he holds Luo Binghe's hand. Their fingers twine together. "I was editing a post."

Luo Binghe yawns, hooking an ankle around Shen Yuan's under the covers. "What post?"

For a moment, Shen Yuan almost tells Luo Binghe about it. Then he changes his mind. If he found it silly, illogical even, in hindsight then Luo Binghe would too. Plus, his boyfriend might tease him for getting so far into his head about this, and Shen Yuan would really like some face! He returns his phone to the nightstand, cheeks warm. "It's nothing. Just a silly post I wrote but it's ok. I know better now."

Behind him, Luo Binghe snorts, a knowing smile playing on his lips. He has a feeling about what that post might be. After all, everything on it had been rather obvious to him. The timeline, the descriptions, the way it was written, the username. But, for Shen Yuan's sake, he doesn't voice his thoughts aloud. For now he pulls A-Yuan closer to him and relishes the way Shen Yuan snuggles back into him, their bodies fitting perfectly together.

"Ok, baobei. I'm glad you figured it out."