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Yes! I feel it! Right there-don't stop!
Take me to the precipice, to the very top
Feeling this, pain with my pleasure
Fills me with joy beyond measure
Over and over, again and again
Choke me, say my name
Am I addicted, so what, who cares!
Just keep pulling my hair
No, don't leave, I can go once more
I know you want an encore
My tired, broken body, yearning for rest
A thing that it will never get
Oh yes. I know you're not queer
And yet you're still here
No! Don't go! I'll hide your shame
Take it, for it's yours to claim
My body, yours to abuse
Yours to treat poorly and misuse
I won't be needy, nor do I seek joy
Just like you said, just a toy
Why did you leave me in an empty bed
Stuck one again with the thoughts in my head
Screaming at me, that dreaded word
Just 4 letters, my stomach stirred
It builds up, inside it grows
Isn't there someone who knows?!
Someone who cares, someone to see
Am I deserving of love? Will I ever be free?
Screaming, shouting, begging, *please*
Isn't there someone to give me ease
Endless cycle, going insane
Take my body, fuck my brain
Is that all I am? A toy-no soul
Am I even in control
Oh, yes, we can go again
Ignore my useless pandering
Again, and again. Bones and joints ache
You don't know how much of my soul this takes
Whittle me down, 'til I'm just skin and bone
Whatever it takes, so I'm not alone
On my favourite fountain, you broke it, you know
And yet I still don't want you to go
I don't wanna be alone, please stay
Don't leave me, don't go away
Another one gone, but I must not cry
It's my fault regardless, I need to try
Harder, push further, to make them love me
(That is, if I am even deserving of love to that degree)
I think no, can you even picture
Me, feeling love, growing closer
To a man, who sees more than a hole
Who sees me as a person, not a goal
But that's impossible, my soul too impure
This, sex, is all I'm good for
So, take me to that high once again
Fuck me, make me feel pain
Then toss me aside when your done
And I'll move on to another someone
Someone who will do the same
Play me like some game
But, you seem like you actually see me
Is that true? Am I crazy
No way could you actually care
Beyond the soft skin you see there
No, you're just like the rest
And I'm just another conquest
To be disposed of, when not in use
Please someone, prove that untrue
Show me love, kindness and joy
Kiss me, remind me that I am just a boy
Show me what it feels like to love
Give me what I've always dreamed of