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Kim Dokja is your average quiet teen in his sophomore year, but rather than people running away from him, students usually crowd him. Kim Dokja was obviously annoyed by this action, but who could blame them? Kim Dokja had a face that was beyond attractive, a slender physique, and amazingly long natural eyelashes. But Kim Dokja obviously didn’t think he could call himself “handsome” he thought he was on the normal looking side. Kim Dokja was quiet but he got outstanding grades on his report cards.

Kim Dokja enjoyed silence so he usually ran away to empty classrooms or the library where he could run away to fictional worlds in books. Kim Dokja appreciated the amount of books libraries could hold, Kim Dokja often visited the School Library to read and Kim Dokja usually had conversations with the Librarian, Persephone. He also likes reading web novels on his extremely ancient phone that he got when he was 5 years old.

Kim Dokja was at the back of the room reading on his phone under the table at second period, English Language Arts, when he suddenly heard the teacher gather everyone's attention. “Clap Clap, Now if i got your attention please look up here, this is the new student that just transferred. Now why don't you introduce yourself?”

The boy at the front looked around the classroom for a moment then suddenly opened his mouth “Hello, I’m Yoo Joonghyuk, I came from First Murim High School, I hope we can be great acquaintances.” The new student speaks in a nice calm voice that can probably comfort you.

Kim Dokja's eyes brightened up once he heard his name. The name came from his favorite web novel's protagonist “Three Ways To Survive In A Ruined World” (TWSA). Accompanied by his name his looks were the same as the protagonist, his eyebrows drawn by a single stroke, a nose and chin in perfect angles, and a combo of deep dark hair and eyes that made him look even more attractive. But the protagonist had a bad temper… let's see how this dude acts.

While he was admiring the new student, the new kid looked at him and suddenly Kim Dokja found his head looking under his desk at his turned on phone which was open to TWSA. While Kim Dokja was hiding underneath the table Yoo Joonghyuk walked over to the empty seat next to him. Yoo Joonghyuk pulled the chair making an extremely loud sound, making Kim Dokja jump at the sudden noise. “Hello,” the taller one whispered “What’s your name?”

Kim Dokja looked beside him to the person sitting next to him before suddenly realizing he asked a question. “Oh—sorry, I couldn't hear you, can you repeat that?” He asked.

“Tsk, I asked ‘what's your name?’ Are you deaf?” Yoo Joonghyuk asked in a mocking tone.

“For your first question; my name is Kim Dokja, and the second question; no, I'm not deaf.” Kim Dokja answered, keeping a low quiet voice but just enough to let the taller one hear.

“You’re so stupid… Why did I sit next to you.” The protagonist mumbled not letting the other hear.

“Ah, what was that? Joonghyuk-ah?” The reader teased but was actually curious about what he said.

“Don’t call me that, stop annoying me too.” Yoo Joonghyuk demanded, not wanting to entertain the one beside him.

“Ring Ring” the bell rings signaling the end of the second period. Yoo Joonghyuk was about to sigh but before he even could a group of students came up to him asking “if he was taken.” Yoo Joonghyuk did not want to entertain their fantasies and quickly opened his mouth “N-” He was then grabbed by the wrist and was suddenly taken out of the crowd following the one in front of him. Before he could even look who was leading him he was taken to a dark Classroom. The light suddenly turned on showing an empty Science classroom and the person that turned on the lights was the same person he sat next to, Kim Dokja.

“Why did you take me here? I would have dealt with them myself.” Yoo Joonghyuk retorts with a look that can kill you on his face.

“I thought you might need to get away from the huge group. You know that even after saying no they will keep bothering you, right Joonghyuk-ah?” Kim Dokja tells Yoo Joonghyuk trying to reason with him. “Don’t worry I’ve been in this situation multiple times.” Kim Dokja utters.

“I’m gonna be late to the third period because of your shenanigans.” Yoo Joonghyuk mentions after Kim Dokja uttered that useless piece of information.

“Oh—there's the first bell, we better hurry up to class then. I guess this is goodbye for now Joonghyuk-ah!” Kim Dokja opened the door and waved back before running to class Yoo Joonghyuk soon ran out of the classroom too going to his third period. Kim Dokja got to his third period, Math, a class with one of his friends, Yoo Sangah. She had long light brown hair past her shoulders, a pair of dark brown eyes that glow under sunlight, and a strange golden bracelet she had ever since he met her.

“Hello Dokja-ssi!” The woman greets him immediately after he barged in the classroom, out of breath and disheveled hair accompanying his messy clothes.

“Oh hel-” he suddenly tripped on a pebble (where did that come from?) falling onto the floor, multiple people instantly pulled out their phones and took a picture of the jumbled mess lying on the floor.

“Need help over there?” Yoo Sangah asks, suddenly appearing in front of Kim Dokja holding out her hand.

“Thank you.” Kim Dokja reaches for the hand in front of him and almost instantly gets up and sprints to the seat next to Yoo Sangah which is also in the back. The teacher starts the lecture and the one with his head down is reading and the one taking notes is listening to Kim Dokja go on and on about the web novel he’s reading.

“Ring Ring” the bell goes ringing cuing the end of third period and the start of the passing period. Kim Dokja waves goodbye to his friend and leaves the Classroom stepping out to the noisy and crowded hallway, he follows the crowd and goes into the hallway that has a sign next to it with the words on it “Hallway A” where his hallway is located. Kim Dokja has no friends in his fourth period, Chemistry, so he silently walked over to his seat in the back next to the window showing the cherry blossoms. This time, maybe Kim Dokja will take a nap.

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“Knock Knock” “H-huh? What was that?” I swear I was sleeping just now… I looked left and right then finally looked up seeing that my Teacher was standing right above me. 

“Now if you don’t remember how school works let me summarize it for you; you learn in School not sleep, sleeping is for when you’re at Home, Kim Dokja. Since you have the nerve of sleeping in class, how about you solve the problem on the board.” 

Ah right… Mr. Nirvana is more rude than other Teachers… “Ah I'm sorry for sleeping in class Mr. Nirvana, I promise you that I won’t sleep again.” And that Teacher just smirked and continued teaching, it’s so obvious that he hates me! But… I'm glad that I woke up, my dream… it was about my past, I don’t like those dreams. I pulled out my phone wanting to read a web novel I just started, but instead I just looked at the black screen looking at my distraught look covering my face. How long did I sleep for..? I turned on my Phone looking at the time, oh shoot! It’s already almost the end of class… I should start packing my stuff. 

“Ding Dong” the lunch bell turns on telling all the students it's lunch time, I grab my black bag, zip it up and put it over my shoulders. A huge stack of Papers appeared on my Desk and before I could look who gave it to me I heard a voice.

“That’s your Homework for Today, I don’t want to hear anything about being ‘unfair.’” 

“H-huh? Sorry, mind repeating that?” Mr. Nirvana pushed me out of the classroom before I could finish my words and when I finally came back to my senses I was suddenly outside the classroom holding a stack of Papers. Wait! He gave me more Homework on purpose! Oh how I hated the fourth period, but at least it’s finally lunch. 

I dashed to another Hallway with a sign in front that had the words “Hallway B” the Hallway my Locker was located at. I struggled putting in the code two times before finally getting it open, my Locker had many books and TWSA merch I somehow found online. I shoved the large stack of papers into my bag, dropping a few in the process, I picked up the Papers I dropped and finally noticed the large group of people taking glances at me, so I shoved all my stuff into my Locker and rushed out of the Hallway going to the Cafeteria.

While I was grabbing my Lunch I spotted a table with multiple people walking to that Table after putting in my student number. 

“Oh look who it is! It’s the topic of the day, Dokja-ssi!” Jung heewon jokes waving over to me. Her appearance is nice with her long black hair (I remembered she used to have short hair that would only reach to her shoulders), her deep brown eyes that can soothe the soul, and a nice red Necklace holding a tiny Sword Charm. Jung Heewon is certainly a likeable person, and she also has a nice boyfriend named Lee Hyunsung sitting right next to her who gave her that wonderful necklace. Lee Hyunsung is an amazingly buff and tall person with short brown hair, light brown eyes, and Steel Earrings he got from his girlfriend. He is an extremely loyal person who is also kind, forgiving, and protecting those he cares about!

“Wha-what do you mean topic of the day? Oh and hello to you too!” I waved back at her, grabbing a seat next to Yoo Sangah and plopping myself onto the Chair.

“You don’t know yet? Wow you are one thick fella, so to sum it up there are rumors going around saying you and the new kid are dating.” Han Sooyoung states with a huge grin on her face. “And I doubt that could happen with you” Han Sooyoung mumbles. Han Sooyoung is Yoo Sangah’s girlfriend, she has short black hair that reaches her shoulders, light brown eyes, and a Pen she always keeps on her ear. 

“ You believe those little rumors? It’s fake like 99.9999% of the time. Anyways, this whole table is filled with lovebirds, it makes me feel like I will be forever single… oh but did you know that the new kid has the exact same name as the protagonist of TWSA!”

“Rumors are fun okay? And that trashy web novel? But seriously how do you like that when my work is right there.” Han Sooyoung blurts out.

“Don’t say that about Dokja-ssi’s favorite web novel, y’know how much he loves it. Sorry about that Dokja-ssi, she's a bit mad because her teacher gave a D for her writing report.” Yoo Sangah talks trying to calm down her girlfriend and fix her mistakes.

“Oh it’s okay! Now if you excuse me I'm going to go now.” I stand up to throw away the Food that hasn’t been eaten yet (which is a large amount), I wave the group goodbye and walk away to leave the cafeteria. After a couple of minutes I arrive at the School Library, a place of silence and shelves filled with Books, one of my favorite places.

 I walk in the Library, through the 2 wood Doors side by side, the librarian notices me and beckons me to come over. 

“Hello Dokja, you’re early today, anyway read these Books, I loved it and I think you would too!” The kind librarian in front of me had a Nametag on her desk with the name “Librarian Persephone”. This librarian had ginger colored hair tied up using a clip decorated with flowers, eyes matching her hair color, a wedding ring (pretty sure she said she was married to a man named Hades), and multiple golden jewelry over her body. 

“Oh really now? I’ll give them a try! Thank you Mrs. Persephone!” A happy smile soon appeared on my face right after I snatched the books on the desk, I walked over to a corner in the Library to read the multiple Books I was given.  

“Excuse me.” A rude stern voice came from above, I looked up to see… wait Joonghyuk-ah?

“Oh hello Joonghyuk-ah! You go to the Library?” I whispered to him trying not to annoy others, but it is nice to see him.  

“Why did you have to be here…” the taller one mumbled to himself. “Yes, I do go to the Library to get gaming guides. Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to go now.” He told me whispering too but in a stern voice again.

“Wait, what was that firs—where are you going? Talk with me.” I told him, I held his wrist tightly in my hand, using my hand to pull him back. “Now tell me what was that first part?”

“It’s nothing, now if you… actually never mind what do you want from me.” It sounded like he was demanding an answer. 

“Oh it’s nothing, but you mind being my friend?” I somehow gained the courage to ask this question.

“What type of question is that? Anyway I have no time to entertain your little games.” He got up and walked away, I was left with no wave back. How rude is that? And calling my question a little game? It seems like this protagonist is also rude like the TWSA one.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          -YOO JOONGHYUK POV-

Seriously, who does that kid think he is? Making me late for class? And it’s only the third period… I can't believe I'm going to be marked tardy for my first day of School. Hallway B was it? I found my way to the Hallway with a sign in the front with the words “Hallway B”. I can't believe how different this School is compared to my old School. I dashed into the Classroom right before the last bell rang.

The Students in this class kept taking glances at me for some reason while I walked up to the teacher. This was my third period, Coding, and I'm pretty sure the teacher’s name was “Mr. Sun Wukong" is such a weird name, like that Kim Dokja kid. “Hello, I'm new here, where can I sit?”

“Oh? Ohhhh, you’re that new kid, Yoo Joonghyuk right? Just pick wherever.” He had such a weird look, he had like bronze or gold colored hair, tan colored eyes, and a weird golden bracelet with a staff charm on it.

“Thank you.” I walked down the classroom to the 2nd row closest to the back near a window showing the beautiful ice blue colored sky. I keep feeling people drilling holes into me with their eyes, such weird people. I can’t believe I transferred to such a weird school… their names… it feels familiar but I can’t put my finger on why. Eh, I don’t really care, especially— wait why do i keep thinking of him, oh well, it couldn’t be that important.

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“Ring Ring” the bell goes telling every student that 2nd period has ended and the start of the passing period has begun. I grab my laptop and shove it into my bag before saying goodbye to the couple of people I actually had a conversation with before leaving the classroom. The hallway is always crowded during passing periods, as I pushed my way through the crowd I finally found the hallway where my next class is located. The hallway had a sign in the front too with the words “Hallway D”.

I finally go through the doors of my fourth period class, Cooking, with 4 minutes to spare! 

“Hello, are you new here?” The tall woman who I assume is the teacher asks me.

“Ah? Oh yes I am, Are you the teacher?” I ask her.

“Oh, yes! I am! I’m pretty sure you know my name already but my name’s Ms. Uriel! Nice to meet you and welcome to Cooking class!” Ms. Uriel also had a weird look, she had platinum blond long colored hair, deep emerald green eyes, and a shirt with wings at the back of it.

“Oh, and can I use any stove?”

“There are assigned stoves for every student, I’m pretty sure I put you closer to the front of the room.” She tells me pointing at the stove she’s talking about.

“Thank you.” Now taking a deeper look around the room, it seems a lot of the stuff here has an angel wing design, for example, the aprons, gloves, mugs, ETC… What a weird type of design to go with, I guess she just adores this type of design. I make my way to my assigned stove, once I was at my stove the last bell goes on signaling that it’s time for the fourth period to start.

“Ding Dong” Is that the bell for lunch? I guess it indeed is looking at how everybody is so relieved. I clean my stove in a swift move, pick up my bag, and walk out of the classroom going to my locker. I found that the hallway where my locker is located had a sign in the front of it with the words “Hallway B”.

 I found my locker and it had the number “284” on it. I quickly put my code in; opening the locker with a swift movement to reveal my empty, boring locker. Maybe I should put some decorations in. I shoved my bag into my Locker tearing some papers in the process (but I couldn’t be bothered to care about them). I go to the Library not wanting to eat lunch (forgot to pack some and can’t eat others food for the life of me), 

I reach the school library which is a gigantic library especially for a school one. I make my way to the game section where there are many books for game combos, game recommendations, and guides for certain games. But then I noticed someone on the floor right in front of the shelves in the section. “Excuse me” I walk up to the person being in front of him.

“Oh hello Joonghyuk-ah! You go to the Library?” The man that was in front of me moves aside letting me grab the books I want. 

“Why did you have to be here, this is so stupid, and you’re so annoying.”

mumbled to myself trying not to let my emotions get out of control. “Yes, I do go to the library to get gaming guides. Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to go now.” I told him, walking away after grabbing my books hoping to not see him again today.

“Wait, what was that firs—where are you going? Talk with me.” He suddenly

grabbed my wrist, with a firm grip I could not walk away. He suddenly pulled me back with a heavy pull, getting me to sit down right next to him. “Now tell me what was that first part?”

“It’s nothing, now if you… actually nevermind what do you want from me.” I tried to politely ask him.

“Oh it’s nothing, but you mind being my friend?” I swear I heard a giggle come out of his mouth , how dare he treat this question like a joke? I have no intention of gaining fake friends, I know what fake friends can do.

“What type of question is that? Anyway I have no time to entertain your little games.” I told him trying to make my intention clear, then I got up and walked away from the one on the floor. 

“Ding Dong” The bell turns on telling its students that lunch has ended and the passing period has started. I shove my way through finding my way to my locker, I struggle Putting the code in but after a few tries I get it open, grabbing my bag and closing the locker. I sprint my way through the empty hallways that were once crowded with three minutes before the final bell rings. Once I get in the doors of my fifth period, History, I see someone I offended earlier.

-Kim Dokja POV-

History has to be the worst class, the Teacher, Mr. Dionysus, a teacher who barely teaches and sets a huge amount of homework, oh wait, is that Joonghyuk-ah? I waved at the tall man coming in, it looked like he was stopped by the teacher to have a conversation. Oh, is he coming to sit next to me? Yoo Joonghyuk sat right next to me with a harsh stern look across his face.

“Hello Joonghyuk-ah! Why are you sitting next to me? I thought you didn’t want to “entertain my little games” Trying to copy his voice from that moment.

“ Tsk, that teacher said that there were no more seats so I have to sit next to you now.” 

“Oh wow, could this be fate?” I jokingly said with a grin slowly appearing on my face.

“Kim Dokja.” He said with a deep mad tone “Silence, this class is already loud enough.”

“Ahhh. So about my question earlier, still thinking about it?” 

“I thought I already told you but it looks like you couldn’t hear me so i’ll say it one more time. No, I have no intention of agreeing to your question.”

“Wow, rude, Joonghyuk-ah you should learn to how to be ki-”

“ Shhhh, don’t talk to me and you do know the bell already rang and class is starting, right?” He whispered to me, hearing the teacher start talking while Yoo Joonghyuk was whispering to me.

“Ah? It is? Thank you for telling me Joonghyuk-ah.” He nodded and focused on the teacher, what a goody two shoes. And the bell already rang? It feels like our conversation went so fast. I sat in my seat sleeping with my hoodie over me acting like a blanket and the teacher sure didn’t mind it. 

“Ring Ring” I jolted up hearing the bell, the first thing I saw was Yoo Joonghyuk packing up. “Joonghyuk-ah what’s you next class?” I ask him opening my bag slowly and then shovel up the multiple papers on my desk and shove them into my bag.

“Fine, if you really want to know, my next class is chemistry with a teacher named “Mr. Nirvana” It sounded like he was talking like he was being forced too.

“Ohhhh, really? Be careful Mr. Nirvana is like one of the worst teachers… to me atleast.” I told him, bringing my bag to my shoulder and walking to the door. “Well I guess this is goodbye for now, Joonghyuk-ah!” I yelled at him while walking out of the door and arriving in the packed Hallway. I follow the crowds and after a bit of steps I arrive at my next classroom (that I'm pretty sure is in hallway A).

I open the door leading me to my sixth period, Music. I play the piano in this class (I have been playing the piano ever since middle school) and get compliments every now and then. I put down my bag next to the piano and start practicing, my fingers gliding over the keys. People keep taking quick glances at me while I play, I wonder why they do that? 

“Wow, You’re so good at playing the piano, Kim Dokja was it?” Who is this..? I stopped my practice to inspect this student’s face.

“Ah, yes, it’s Kim Dokja and thank you for the compliment! What’s your name?”

“Y-you don’t remember..? I-It’s not that important anyway.” The random student dashes away taking quick peeks at me every two steps.

As the student walks away the teacher starts walking to the podium of the room with a baton in her arms and papers in her hands. I stopped practicing wanting to take a break before actually playing with the class. The teacher, Ms. Aphrodite puts down her papers on the podium, holds the baton in her hand and lifts her hands in the air signaling everyone to rest their instruments. And in the next second everyones in their playing position and by the move of her hand everyone starts playing the music piece in front of them.

“Ring Ring” the bell turns on indicating that the end of class is here. I put my music papers into my bag, a shadow slowly darkened my eyesight around my bag. 

“You did a wonderful job today.” I looked up and saw Ms. Aphrodite, she’s kinder than most teachers in this school.

“Ah really? Thank you!” I smiled really big at her compliment, Teachers complimenting your work is the best.

“Well you should hurry off to your next class, the final bell is about to ring if you didn’t notice.” I looked at the clock on the wall, I was so stunned I stood still for a few moments.

“Ah right! Thank you Ms. Aphrodite!” I quickly grabbed my open bag which I still haven’t closed yet and sprinted out of the classroom. I’m losing myself in conversations more… Oh look at that I’m here at my last class!

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“Ding Dong Ding Dong” The last bell goes on for about five minutes before turning off and then the intercom turns on with an announcement “All extracurricular activities are canceled for today. Goodbye all students and enjoy your weekend!” What day is it again? I slowly closed my bag and left the classroom, for some reason the hallways were a bit empty. It might've been because I left this class a bit late today. I take my phone out of my pocket and press the right button on the phone (which is the turn on button) reading left to right “Mar, 17, 2017.”

I walked to my Locker which had the number “220” on it. I put the code in my locker and quickly opened the Locker trying to get out of school as quickly as possible. I grabbed a few books that I stored here earlier at lunch, I slammed the Locker shut after that I started walking to the end of the hallway. I noticed someone familiar so I secretly tiptoed to him and put my hand on his left shoulder.

“What are you doing?” He put his right hand on my hand and then he looked back. “Oh. It’s you.” He lowered his hand and I removed mine.

“Wow your locker is also on this floor?” I looked at his Locker number that said “284.” I swear those numbers are similar in some way. “ 284? Eh? What a strange number, don’t you agree?” No answer “Oh c'mon… Okay at least answer this question: wanna walk to the gate together?”

“No thank you.” A loud sound came from the locker door slamming close “please leave me alone.”

“Aww why not? Fine I’ll just follow you.” Kim Dokja told him, keeping his ground. “Anyway I’ll tell you about my day since you’re so grumpy. So first…”

And before I knew it we were already at the school gate “I guess this is goodbye for today Joonghyuk-ah” I waved at the disappearing man. I start walking to the train station with my eyes focused on the novel that’s in my phone, after a while I arrive at the train station. I look around for seats but find none, leaning on the wall, all my attention is now on when the next train is coming “7:00” and look back at my phone “6:50”. So 10 minut—Never mind then. I walk closer to the driving train that’s slowly slowing down, once it stops as well as opening its doors. Once I walk in I start walking to an open seat, it’s a bit late so there are less people right now, I sit down as well as putting my bag on my lap and falling asleep with my phone in my pocket.

“Next is XXX, the doors will open on the left side, please watch your step while getting off.” The train announces waking me up at the same time, the doors on the left side open exactly like how the announcements said it would, I walk out of the train with my bag on my right shoulder. I turn on my phone while walking out of the Train Station looking at my battery percentage “51%”, looking at the sky while walking home you could clearly see that it’s night time. I stop at a Convenience Store and buy a couple of onigiris for my dinner, after leaving the Convenience Store I continue my walk to my Apartment.

I approach the door of my apartment with my key in my hand, I open the door very slowly, tired of the day I had. I ate one of the onigiris, putting the rest away in the fridge (there’s more onigiris in the fridge too). I took a quick shower, changed, and then fell asleep on my bed.

-Kim Dokja’s dream-

Slaps come from right and left painting my face deep purple and red spots “smack smack” , a tall man is in front of me but I can’t seem to remember who he is. And all of a sudden a knife in my hands is in the taller man, I pull out the knife to see deep dark red metallic liquid spewing out of where the knife once was creating a river. The liquid is cold, and a metallic smell started coming from it, this strange liquid coming out started to make puddles. 

“Dokja.” A woman was suddenly holding my head. “Starting now, we’re going to read everything again.” She told me. “What your father did… was so bad that he deserved to die.” “This was self defense.” She reassured me “No matter what happens, never forget that you were the victim. Okay?” I looked over at the body now laying on the floor, blood was still spilling out of the wound making the space around it colored in dark red liquid, bugs surrounding the body like it’s the last source of food on earth. The body soon rotted with green covering the body, it also lost more blood, and gained more bugs by every second.

I blinked and the scene changed yet again, the woman that was once holding her hands around my head was being escorted into a car with flashing blue and red lights. While I looked at this scene I felt something wet rolling down my cheek that tasted a bit salty. I blink again, finding myself in a classroom and people throwing punches at me, painting my face yet again with deep purple and red spots, but people watched and didn’t do anything.

“Don’t go close to him, y’know what they say… people who have toxic father’s become toxic.” I heard these whispers coming from left and right filling up my head “Did you know his mother was a murderer?” A book appeared in my hand making me mad for some reason “Since his mother is a murderer he must be the son of a murderer.” 

“How does it feel being the son of a murderer, Kim Dokja.” It seems like every time I opened my eyes I would get hit from left and right. But after I opened my eyes one more time I found myself standing on a classroom window, letting the breeze hit me. I let myself fall but I could not close my eyes. Once my body fell on the floor the deep red liquid ran out of my body like a waterfall, multiple bruises painted my body. As I closed my eyes I saw a red truck, people coming out of the truck came to help me.

I yet again opened my eyes and found myself in a bed with multiple bandages wrapped around me and a red liquid bag on a hook connecting to me. I blink, the next thing I see is a novel on my phone with the title “Three Ways to Survive in a Ruined World” . After seeing that novel every time I opened my eyes I would find myself in extreme pain and repeating “I am Yoo Joonghyuk” the protagonist from TWSA. 

-Real life-

But this time when I opened my eyes I found something rolling down my cheeks oh wait, these are tears. I couldn’t stop these tears from falling down my face. Oh right, today is that day. Today, the incident, guilt, all of these are reasons for that dream. I walked to the kitchen after standing for a while, I grabbed a cup and filled it with water from the sink. I drank the glass of water, I put the glass down and walked back to my room to get more sleep… Now fully aware of what today is.