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1. The_Crown_Jewel Wed 25 Jun 2025 11:51AM UTC

   

   I like the poetry. I want you to write more, even after your birthday. I'll miss you. I like your writing and you story. You're the reason I continued some of my now favorite series. I'd miss seeing your profile picture pop up in my inbox. Please don't.

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2. Cigarettes_and_GIngerAle on Chapter 1 Tue 01 Jul 2025 05:20PM UTC

   

   Hey, I just wanted to encourage you to please not go through with this. It sounds stereotypical to say, but there's so much life has to offer. As someone who went through it and had thoughts exactly like yours (I'm talking a plan and all, even a date) I get how you feel. I know what it's like to feel hopeless and like nothing you do will ever be right or good enough or that there's any point to living. I've been there.
   I love seeing your comments come up on my stories. I appreciate each and every commenter and reader. Even if you didn't like my stories, I care because you're a person who deserves to live. I know things are probably really tough and hard right now. Again, I've been there. What you're going through right now and what you're feeling isn't permanent. I know it feels like it and it seems like you aren't going to come out the other side but you can and you will. Please don't do it.
   I won't say that this will for sure work for you, but here's how I ended up living: I found a tiny thing in each day I was grateful for. Just one. Sometimes all that meant was seeing that my show got a new episode or that my favorite author posted a new chapter, or even that the leaves outside were starting to change. One small thing. And I tried to find one small accomplishment I did each day. Yes, that included finding it in me to eat a meal, somedays it just meant I took a shower. Other days all it meant was I got out of bed and moved two feet. Any small thing you succeed in doing is an accomplishment.
   And in the meantime as my 'date' got closer, I started talking to a counselor. I never told her I wanted to die, but just telling her my other feelings and working through them helped me realize that maybe I didn't want to die yet. So I'd move the date another month. Then the next month I moved it to May, then August, the day after Christmas, New Years Day, until I didn't move the date anymore. The date disappeared. I still had awful thoughts about myself, and sometimes still I have a bad day and I slip up, but that's ok because we're all human. We're all going through something, every single person is. No one is perfect, no one has it all figured out. And if someone says they do? They're lying.

   The long and short of it: please don't kill yourself. Please don't hurt yourself. I hope I can keep seeing your comments on future chapters so I know you're ok. But please keep living. There are people who care.

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3. 1. JustALittleFr34k on Chapter 1 Tue 01 Jul 2025 07:55PM UTC

      

      Thank you for your concerns. Unfortunately, I've gotten used to getting up, getting dressed, and acting like everything is fine despite it not, so the achievements thing doesn't really work, and the counsellors in my life won't take "idk, man, emotions just happen/idk how this makes me feel" as an answer, which is my genuine answer more often than not, and lying doesn't get me anywhere, so y'know. Thank tou for caring, though. I'll keep you updated.

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   2. 1. Cigarettes_and_GIngerAle on Chapter 1 Thu 03 Jul 2025 12:43AM UTC

         

         Please do, yes. And I'm so sorry that you're going through that. I get how you feel. For a lot of people, you spend so long just going through the motions and putting on a smile that people don't realize how much you're hurting. I've been there too. It took me a while before I could finally admit to someone that I needed help because I spent so long telling everyone I was ok. You get good at pretending and making things look fine on the surface. But you're not alone. Other people have gone through what you're going through. It may not be the exact same because each person is a little different, but trust me when I say other people have been where you're at. I've been there. Like I said before, I even had a date and all planned.
         And I'm certainly not saying I'm an expert either, not by any means period. I'm not a medical or mental health professional. Emotions can be complicated. Emotions ARE complicated.
         Just please talk with someone in real-life/physically about how you're feeling. Please. Even just reaching out to Lifeline or the 988 textline. Like I said, I may not know you personally, but I don't want you to hurt yourself or to end your life. I enjoy seeing your comments and you seem like you have a fun personality! That and I know that you're capable of so many good things. So many, even if you can't see them right now.
         It may sound optimistic of me and like I'm a Hallmark card, but for every dark moment there's a lighter one. It just may take time. Just please talk with someone in your personal life. Please stick around, I believe in you❤️❤️

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4. C (Guest) on Chapter 2 Wed 09 Jul 2025 04:56PM UTC

   Life still has more in store for u, u are a strong and resilient person. No one sees the silent battles you fight everyday just to get through each day - what makes you strong. But what doesnt kill you does not always make you stronger, there is a limit to how much a person can bear, I am glad you got the support you need, and I believe if you put in the hard work, you will eventually reach a better place in life. Please do not give up now.

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5. The_Crown_Jewel on Chapter 2 Wed 09 Jul 2025 05:42PM UTC

   

   I am so happy you're still here. You mean so much to me even if I barely know you. Thanks for reading my works and I hope you keep posting more of your own.

   All my best wished for therapy, and it will get better. I know from experience.

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6. Cigarettes_and_GIngerAle on Chapter 2 Thu 10 Jul 2025 04:13PM UTC

   

   I'm so so happy you're ok! It takes a lot of bravery to keep going when you're in a dark place like that. I'm proud of you for choosing to keep fighting. Good for you, I'm glad you're still here!

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7. 1. JustALittleFr34k on Chapter 2 Thu 10 Jul 2025 04:22PM UTC

      

      Thank you! Also sorry in advance if you thought I was dead. Apparently too much Escitalopram is a good way to get high

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   2. 1. Cigarettes_and_GIngerAle on Chapter 2 Fri 11 Jul 2025 02:28AM UTC

         

         Hey, that's ok! I'm just glad you're alright and you're getting the support you need.

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