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It started small.
Jay didn’t even notice it the first few times just a passing laugh, a soft nudge to the shoulder, Sunoo’s eyes crinkling with that infuriatingly pretty smile.
He was like that with everyone, sure, but something about the way he acted around Sunghoon always stuck in Jay’s chest like a splinter.
Like that time in the kitchen, when Sunghoon made some dumb joke and Sunoo laughed so hard he leaned forward, clinging to his arm for balance, head tossed back like it was the funniest thing in the world.
Jay had just walked in to grab water but the image stayed in his head way longer than it should have.
Or the night they all crashed in the living room after drinking, and Sunoo ended up passed out with his legs draped over Sunghoon’s lap. Jay couldn’t sleep at all that night.
He just laid there staring at the ceiling, jaw clenched so tight it ached.
Then there was the time at the lake house, Sunoo took off his shirt to go swimming and Sunghoon had the audacity to whistle at him.
Sunoo just giggled. Didn’t tell him off, didn’t ignore him. He just kept grinning, eyes fluttering like he liked the attention.
Jay couldn’t even enjoy the rest of the day.
He watched Sunoo like a hawk, counting how many times he touched Sunghoon’s arm, how close they stood, how familiar it all seemed.
And the worst part?
Sunoo didn’t even notice.
Didn’t notice how Jay’s attitude changed. How he got quieter. How his hands curled into fists whenever they got too playful.
It wasn’t that he didn’t trust Sunoo, he does trust him.
It’s that he didn’t trust himself not to snap the next time Sunghoon looked at what belonged to him, HIS boyfriend.
Skinship was very normal in their friend group but it only bothers him when it’s Sunghoon, it’s not the same.
Jay’s been holding it in too long, and now he’s stuck watching Sunoo giggle and flirt under the guise of innocent dares while Sunghoon plays along like he’s not aware that Sunoo is in a relationship.
The lights were dim. Someone had thrown on a low playlist. Empty takeout boxes littered the coffee table.
Sunoo sat on the carpet, legs crossed, cheeks flushed from having one too many fits of laughter, giggling into a throw pillow.
Jay watched him from the couch, one arm thrown casually across the backrest, the other clenched into his thigh.
Sunghoon sat to Sunoo’s left, just a little too close. Not inappropriate, no. But not distant either.
Their knees brushed. Sunoo didn’t seem to notice but Jay noticed everything.
“Okay,” Ni-Ki grinned, eyes gleaming. “Sunoo. Truth or dare?”
Sunoo hummed, lips puckering in thought. “Hmm… dare.”
Jay’s eye twitched.
Ni-Ki lit up. “Okay okay, kiss the person to your left.”
Everyone let out a dramatic ooooohhh.
Jay didn’t.
Sunoo blinked, turning slightly. “That’s Sunghoon.”
“Yeah it is,” Sunghoon said, trying to sound cool.
Jay wanted to choke him.
Sunoo hesitated, then laughed, leaning in to press a fast, light kiss to Sunghoon’s cheek.
Their friends cheered it on.
Sunoo hid behind his hands. “It was just a dare!!”
Jay’s jaw clicked. His smile stayed on, but his eyes? They weren’t able to hide how he was really feeling.
‘Just a dare, huh? You didn’t look like you hated it.’ Jay thought to himself.
The game moved on. Laughter filled the room. But Jay didn’t hear any of it. His mind was already elsewhere.
Planning.
Plotting.
‘So, he likes putting on shows? Okay.’ Jay was having a whole conversation with himself.
Everyone took their turns and now it was back to Sunoo.
“Truth or dare?” Heeseung asked him.
Sunoo, still feeling bold chose dare again.
Heeseung smirked. “Whisper something dirty into the person’s ear to your left.”
Sunoo blinked. “Again?” He glanced left.
Sunghoon.
Sunoo leaned in, cupping one hand to shield his mouth as he whispered something dirty enough to make Sunghoon’s eyes widen just slightly and his face flush red.
Whatever it was, it had impact.
“Wow,” Sunghoon coughed, laughing nervously.
Jay didn’t laugh.
He just stared.
‘What did you say? Why did he blush like that? Why are you acting like that with him?’ His mind was running wild.
He leaned back, arms crossed, one leg bouncing too fast to be casual.
And that was it.
That was the final straw.
When the laughter died down and the game wound to a close, Jay stood up calmly and stretched.
“Sunghoon, hang back for a bit. Need your help with something.” Jay told him and Sunghoon nodded and sat back down.
Sunoo was already halfway up the stairs, humming to himself with no idea what was coming.
The bedroom was warm, lit only by a soft amber lamp on the nightstand.
Sunoo sat cross-legged on the bed, a loose hoodie falling off one shoulder, thigh exposed just enough to tease.
He looked up when Jay stepped inside.
“Everyone gone?” he asked, voice light, playful.
“Almost,” Jay murmured, closing the door behind him.
Sunoo tilted his head. “Almost?”
Jay crossed the room, fingers grazing Sunoo’s cheek. “I want to try something tonight,” he said softly, getting a blindfold from their closet.
Sunoo blinked. “Kinky.” He smiled. “Is this about the game?”
“Maybe,” Jay said. “You trust me?”
Sunoo nodded. “Always.”
Jay slipped the blindfold over his eyes, slow and careful. Sunoo giggled, shifting slightly on the mattress.
Then Jay placed the noise-canceling headphones over his ears, soft static instantly dulling the air around him.
Sunoo’s world went black and quiet.
He couldn’t hear.
Couldn’t see.
Just feel.
Jay took a slow breath, then he turned to the door and called Sunghoon up.
Sunghoon stepped inside. Frozen. Eyes wide.
“What the hell is this?” he whispered.
“Sit,” Jay said, voice calm, dark, and final. “You’re not here to speak. You’re here to watch.”
Sunghoon stared at him like he was crazy but something in Jay’s eyes made him obey.
He felt Sunoo lean into the warmth of his body and then a delicate hand grabbed his thigh.
“You know you really get on my nerves, Sunghoon. Maybe the first few times it’s okay but you keep crossing the line and testing me and I’ve fucking had it. If this is what you both need to understand, I don't mind teaching both of you a lesson. To be fair, you’re both disrespecting me” Jay told Sunghoon and squeezed the soft flesh in his hand.
“You’re gonna sit in that chair. Hands away from yourself and you don't move, you don’t do a thing but sit and watch.”
If this is what it was, then so be it. Jay needed him to understand this was not allowed anymore.
If Sunghoon wanted him to lay down the law then so be it, Jay doesn’t hesitate.
Sunoo was oblivious to what was going on around him.
The bed creaked as Jay shifted closer, hands slowly gliding across the inside of Sunoo's thighs until they rested right below his hips, applying pressure just the tiniest bit.
Honestly, he was upset with Sunoo. For doing those things and letting the jokes happen to begin with. Jay always hated doing stuff that makes the others uncomfortable, why can't he stop flirting and be better.
Sunoo gasped, lips falling open when a light touch caressed the top of his pants.
Jay pressed a hand against his stomach, loving how hot his skin felt, how much power he felt having such a sensitive body right below him.
Sunoo being sensitive was a bonus for him because he’s gonna use it to his full advantage.
He loved it, but right now he's beyond pissed off.
He cupped Sunoo’s face, his hands warm and secure. Then, slowly, gently, he tipped Sunoo's chin upwards so their mouths were lined up.
He waited. Watching Sunghoon watch him.
This would have been impossible to explain outside their bedroom walls. This need to exert some kind of power instead of just talking to Sunoo about it, not wanting to seem demanding or jealous.
But he is jealous and he refuses to feel like that anymore.
Once he was sure that Sunghoon looking at them, he went for the kill.
Jay sucked gently at Sunoo's bottom lip and then he parted them with his tongue, hand skimming Sunoo’s side, up his chest.
Sunoo kissed back, and something warm stirred inside Jay.
Lips against lips, the feeling of warm skin and sweetness surrounding them both in an intoxicating atmosphere.
Jay couldn't resist taking one of Sunoo's nipples between two fingers and twisting slowly until Sunoo moaned, he squirmed and broke the kiss with a gasp, mouth lax and eyebrows knitted together as if unsure whether to pull back or ask for more.
This was what he had craved from Sunoo. No holding back, nothing reserved just for himself. He needed to make sure Sunghoon saw it.
It's one thing to not let Sunoo give his full attention to someone, he understands that they don't have a lot of alone time these days with the group and their careers.
But it's also important for Sunoo to understand what being in a committed relationship meant and not throw kisses around freely or lingering touches and cuddles without talking to him first.
He’s made comments on it before but Sunoo always tells him it’s nothing. He likes the contact, it reminds him of home, it's innocent and so Jay accepts it.
Well, not tonight. He wants Sunoo to be apologetic and he’s gonna make sure that happens.
Sunoo has no idea what’s going on but he doesn’t hate it, just a bit thrown off by the fact that he can’t see Jay which is his favorite part about being intimate with him aside from the actual sex itself.
All he feels is his nipple being rolled between fingers and occasional soft kisses on his neck but then he feels something warm and wet against his other nipple and he cries out in shock.
It takes him a moment to realize that the tip of Jay’s had trailed it and he let his back arch into the warmth, biting his lip so hard he almost broke the skin.
Everything is disjointed for him right now. No direction, no sight or sound just sensation and he whimpers desperately because of it.
His world is off-kilter, his legs twitching as Jay palms him through his shorts and presses small kisses against his collar bone.
He reaches for Jay’s shoulder, only managing a weak grip, making his boyfriend smile to himself.
God, he loves seeing Sunoo so powerless, the fact that he trusts him enough to do this. It almost makes Jay snap but he restrains himself knowing this isn’t about him, but about the unspoken apology he wants from the one lying against the pillows, pretty as a painting.
Sunoo pouted, hands grasping at him blindly.
The touch did nothing to still his restless hands but at least it was some contact that made his hips jerk upwards, eager to find something.
Jay knew that and that’s exactly the reaction he wanted Sunoo to have, he wants him to long for him, resort to begging without realizing.
It was only a matter of time before that happened.
He didn’t know what to do when Jay’s teeth gently tugged at his nipple, leaving him gasping, eyes watering underneath the blindfold.
Sunghoon looked away, feeling guilty for witnessing this and realistically he could just leave but he doesn’t, as guilty as he feels, he still keeps his gaze focused.
Watching Sunoo shakily run his fingers through Jay’s hair as he nipped and sucked, the noise he makes go straight to Sunghoon’s groin.
“Jay, more please?" Sunoo’s voice came out small and he wasn’t even sure if Jay responded.
He did, just not with words.
Sunoo sucked in a deep breath and pressed himself harder against Jay, who had taken the chance to quickly reach his hands out, remove Sunoo's bottoms and press a warm, damp finger against the ring of muscle, lightly massaging the area.
It caught Sunoo completely off-guard, the noise that came out of his mouth was downright sinful.
His hand shot up to find Jay and in his panic, accidentally clawed into Jay's arm, so hard that little crescent marks were visible later.
He took it without comment. It's the least of Sunoo's crimes tonight.
Jay listened to the pathetic sounds slipping through his lips, it almost made him forget about his intentions but he wasn’t giving in just yet.
He watched Sunoo grind against his finger, wanting it to go further but it wasn’t gonna happen anytime soon, he wasn’t gonna give Sunoo what he wanted at all unless he deemed him sorry enough.
Sunoo released a drawn-out sigh, pressing against the bed, fingers fisted in the sheets and the muscles on his legs trembling.
A tiny whine escaped his mouth when Jay pulled back, letting him drop and lean on the mattress in pure disappointment and discomfort.
“Jay? What, um.. What did I do wrong for you to…why can't I see you?" Sunoo asked, Jay doesn’t usually deny him seeing his face or covering his ears like this, and he wants to remove the blindfold to know exactly what his punishment is, he wants to find out why Jay has to put him in such a state of agitation and then ignore his attempts to pull him close and kiss him.
What could he have done? They talked in the morning and he seemed alright.
Jay contemplated on taking the headphones off Sunoo so he could hear but eventually decided to spare him the humiliation in front of Sunghoon and also didn't want to ruin it.
He might consider taking off the headphones after all just to listen to how his voice got more hoarse once Jay does eventually decide to give him a chance at receiving some attention and love.
The clock ticked.
Sunoo was too lost in a haze to track time.
“You’ll find out soon” was all Jay said and to Sunoo it sounded muffled and garbled but somehow he still understood the tone Jay used.
It was all too confusing, but he wasn’t allowed a second to ponder before there were lips on his jaw and a hand splayed across his abdomen.
He cursed inwardly, praying to anything listening that whatever he had done wrong would be forgiven.
He was regretting thinking he could get away with anything without Jay noticing.
“You know this is your fault, right? Don't think I haven’t noticed things about you. You like this, right? Begging for attention and messing around, flirting just for your own enjoyment. It doesn't matter if you're mine, I just wish you wouldn’t act like you're someone you're not, be who I know you are. Be yourself around me and the others" Jay said, knowing Sunoo couldn’t understand a thing he was saying.
“And you irritate me the most, why do you have to go for him when I already have him?” Jay looks at Sunghoon. “You ever see me going for Jake when I know that you had a thing for him? So why him specifically, huh? Why can't you learn boundaries with anyone? Huh? Do you enjoy infuriating me?” Jay's tone was cold and firm.
He removed Sunoo's headphones for a moment, and this was the first thing Sunoo heard. "I don’t like punishing you outside of just purely having fun but you’ve crossed the line repeatedly and I want to make you learn your lesson.” Jay was unforgiving, harsh and stern, hoping that Sunghoon heard every word.
Then, he quickly replaced the noise-canceling devices back over Sunoo's head and laid a feather-light kiss on his forehead and a few on his neck.
Sunoo gasped, turning towards his kisses as if searching, wanting something deeper, his toes curling, hips moving back and forth with desire.
He was turned on and panicked at the same time, he had no idea what Jay was talking about but whatever it was he could tell it truly bothered Jay and honestly scared him a little.
A short time passed and he felt nothing at all. Jay wasn't moving, Sunoo's pleading gaze would've changed his heart if he could've seen it.
Jay was getting his fingers slicked, eyes traveling between the blindfold and Sunoo's arms wrapped tightly around the comforter in distress, sweaty chest rising and falling rapidly.
His cheeks were burning with red hues, strands of hair clinging to his dampened forehead.
He was a beautiful image to take in and Jay would've loved nothing more than to make love to him but no, he didn't deserve it.
Not right now.
Not while Jay was so angry and frustrated over the way Sunghoon and Sunoo plays in his face, like he’s not the one being disrespected.
Sunoo was about to question Jay about the sudden stillness but then he felt Jay’s hand wrap around his dick and he whimpered loudly, thighs tensing as he bucked into the sensation that was so delayed it nearly made him weep.
Sunoo released the comforter, allowing his shaky hands to settle around his middle section, a shiver coursing through him.
A slight groan came from him as Jay dragged his lips from his abdomen to his navel, sucking in air and letting out shaky exhale while he leaned into him.
His hair was messy, locks tumbling from his face, his cheeks burning, body covered in sweat but he held onto Jay for stability, hands still moving nervously as he searched blindly for him.
Jay grinned, running his fingers through Sunoo's messy hair before kissing his cheek. "You think I will be easy on you right now? The lack of self awareness that you have is very upsetting. The last thing I expected from you" His lips trembled and he had trouble hiding the emotion. "You know, maybe if you hadn't been so easy, then this wouldn't have happened, right?" He asked him.
The idea was painful for him, Jay knows how much he cares for Sunoo and the thought of losing him was unbearable and right now Jay hates himself, his actions, his possessiveness, the fear that was overpowering him and the sadness was so heavy he almost apologized, taking Sunoo into his arms but he forced it down because he deserved this, a wake-up call for doing what he was doing, for not thinking about his feelings in any way.
Jay was sick of being tossed around and Sunoo treating their relationship lightly like Jay's not just gonna get tired of his bullshit, like it won’t effect him in the slightest.
Sunoo will apologize in due time, beg and cry for the release he needed but for now, it was all about teaching him what it was like to be with someone who knows exactly how much you belong to them, and Sunghoon was going to know that he will never get this close to Sunoo, not when he’s with Jay.
“Jay, if you keep.. I’m going to- cum" Sunoo barely managed to choke out before Jay let go of him and it was one of the worst disappointments of his life, he could hear himself crying out for him, nearly wailing when he sat there unmoving with no sense of comfort, leaving him a writhing mess with his fists curled tightly into the blankets below him.
“Babe? Why’d you stop? Come on don’t be like that” Sunoo complained, grabbing Jay’s wrist.
Jay pried his hands off and it was the exact thing he didn’t want Sunoo doing so he placed Sunoo’s hand back on his stomach and started the whole process again, palm firmly placed at the base of his cock and applying just the lightest of pressure and slowly stroking him.
He's never wanted to just sink inside and fuck Sunoo but man, he felt it with every touch that was met with a small hiss of shock or a stutter of a moan, Sunoo's desperate begging and sobbing becoming louder until tears rolled down his cheek.
"Please, I promise I will try my best not to- ah, to cross the line- again just please, don’t tease me anymore." Sunoo pleads, wetting the blindfold as he bites his lip, trying his best not to cum because of the overwhelming heat coiling in his stomach.
Tongue on tongue, Jay explores every inch of his mouth like he was eating him alive. Teeth biting his lip as his free hand gives Sunoo’s nipple some attention that gets him close but not there yet.
“I’m close. Don't stop, please." Sunoo arches his back, hoping the motion will put him over the edge, but it's no use.
Jay keeps going until he hears that familiar whine Sunoo does when he’s about to cum and that was his signal to stop.
"Okay, okay please please please! Just please stop leaving me like this. I want to cum" Sunoo felt his throat raspy and sore from how loud he had been but all that was blocked out and buried by the disappointment he felt. He couldn't believe this was happening.
There's no warning this time before Sunoo was met with a gust of air hitting the precum coated head of his cock, the tight coil that had formed in his stomach was instantly released by the sensation, his legs shaking almost instantly and his voice breaks along with a series of sob. "Just-please let me cum! Jongseong! Please" He begged.
If Sunoo was using his full name then he knew Sunoo was distressed and it made his heartache but this had to be done or else they will never know the extent of how he feels right now.
Just the sound of Sunoo was almost enough to break his resolve but his feelings and being jealous were fueling his urge to have Sunoo feel a tiny part of the pain he had experienced the moment the games and truth and dare happened, his insecurities peeking through like it usually would whenever they did their stupid antics.
“Why should I? Have you been considerate of me?” Jay asked even though he knew he wasn’t gonna get a response with those headphones on.
He helped Sunoo move around on the bed, laying him on his stomach and placing him in a spot where Sunoo is facing the direction of Sunghoon.
He grabbed the lube he had set aside and made sure Sunoo felt comfortable enough before continuing, being upset with him doesn’t mean he should be uncomfortable.
He looked at Sunghoon, his expression unreadable as he grabbed Sunoo’s hips and pulled them upwards so he was in an arch position, one he knew all too well.
“You will never get the chance to do this, EVER” Jay sneered and then turned his full attention to the man lying down on his stomach, hands resting on his lower back with his knees and thighs trembling slightly.
Sunoo could feel him lining up against his hole, hands tight around his waist but that didn't stop the heavy breaths leaving him.
He bit his lip and gasped, the feeling of being edged for too long making him painfully sensitive to the touch, squirming impatiently and almost collapsing when Jay slid the rest of the way into him.
"Don’t do anything else with other people, only me from here on out, okay? Not a single interaction. Understood?" He said in a low tone and it was firm enough for Sunoo's heartbeat to jump just a little.
He was embarrassed, and ashamed. Why would Jay feel this way? And why was that the only thing he heard clearly through the headphones?
The slide inside was slow and when the tight muscle opened for him and he cursed, trying to ease Sunoo's discomfort by circling his fingers along his sides in a gentle massage before pressing further.
Sunoo squeezed his hands in the pillows, back stiffening at the feeling.
For Jay to be gentle like this when he was so furious didn't make any sense in his mind at the time.
But in a split second he forgot everything once Jay bottomed out, leaning over and trailing kisses from his back and all the way up to his shoulders but once his face got close to Sunoo’s lips he didn’t kiss any further, Sunoo whimpering out in disappointment.
"Why- why are you- you going so slowly? You never do that" Sunoo stuttered through gritted teeth, hoping that Jay would have mercy on him.
"Sunoo, you have to learn, no matter the occasion, the way you carry yourself isn't nice. To go for him despite knowing how you belong to me. All it's done is tear a huge wound into our relationship, one that hasn't healed and I need to show you this, to let you understand why your actions are not welcomed anymore. This is you learning. Hopefully, this makes it clearer" Sunoo shivered at the cool contact his skin made against Jay's, he was hearing everything he said, it was a little muffled but the way he spoke, his anger, his sadness.
Sunoo could imagine the things Jay could have been feeling this entire time, his breath caught in his lungs.
This isn’t what Sunoo signed up for, Jay has never spoken to him with this type of conviction.
It was so terrifying, knowing he caused all this mess, hurt someone he loves because he never stopped to look at things in a way that didn't include him being selfish and going along with stupid ideas.
Sunghoon would always find a way to crawl into his line of thoughts and pull him away from Jay, but he allowed it because he knew there wasn’t anything serious between him and Sunghoon.
And now it's the reason he's sobbing into their bedroom pillow as Jay pushes into him with the slightest of touches, something he would have adored otherwise.
Sunoo moved with the motion, burying his face in the pillow, thighs tensing as his hands fisted the sheets, nearly ripping the material.
"How could you ever compare me to him? He'll never feel what I make you feel because I know this is the only place he can't ever touch or be in, Sunoo. You're mine and no matter what he'll do, his chances with you will be shot." Sunoo cried even more after those words.
Something about Jay's voice and the way he's thrusting into him without his vision or clear sounds to distract him was almost too much for him to take, he wasn’t in a place of mind to process all the things Jay was spilling, how he felt so much, and his vulnerability is being brought out in full display but at that moment it doesn't matter because Sunghoon is hearing everything.
Which Sunoo still doesn’t know that.
Sunoo knows him, Sunghoon would always take up too much space and he had forgotten that in their game of truth and dare, how he laughed inappropriately and enjoyed it.
A shiver of panic rose through his skin as realization sank in. Sunoo felt guilty and scared as a heavy sob slipped from his mouth.
How many times did he neglect to take care of the issues that can arise because of his carelessness.
They had no intention to make it happen but it did and all that matters is he remembers his role, who he is to them and how it could impact the group dynamic.
Sunoo reached in between his thighs with a shaky hand and began rubbing his palm along his cock, hips following the rhythm set by Jay, fucking into his palm while Jay's hold on him kept his pace steady and deliberate.
The things Jay is saying should upset him, should disgust him to be called possessive but Sunoo, honestly, likes it a little. Not the part where he hurt Jay’s feelings but the possessiveness.
He wasn't aware of it in the moment as much because he was too emotional but the things Jay was telling him, in terms of wanting him all to himself. It sounded so nice.
"Please touch me." It came out in an uncontrollable whisper as he arched his back more, sighing as he closed his eyes behind the blindfold.
"Pardon?" Jay said and Sunoo swallowed his saliva nervously.
"Please touch me?" He repeated himself shakily, hoping he hadn’t heard the words correctly the first time.
“No" the sound of his voice sent shivers up Sunoo's spine, almost cumming on the spot from how dark Jay had sounded.
Sunoo just whined loudly as he rubbed his thumb at his slit, drawing circles on it until he was bucking back towards Jay's thrust.
"It hurts please I can't cum by myself" He moaned.
Sunoo was still unsure as to why Jay is so determined to do this to him, why he wouldn’t let him just apologize and work things out through a regular conversation.
For the first time, Jay doesn't respond, it scares him and as a natural response he tried to reach for Jay but his hands were swiftly pinned behind him, being held by both hands and Jay is making him weak for the touch he craved, desperate for the slightest affection.
"We both know you don't need me to get you off, this is part of your punishment." Sunoo tried to resist but his strength didn’t last very long and he caved.
He went with the sensation that had grown stronger, focusing on how Jay is hitting places that leaves him feeling strange all over.
“I do.. I do need you. If I could see your face.. look at you, then I'd know better" He breathed out as his brows knitted.
Jay picked up his pace, hitting right up into the bundle of nerves he had already become very acquainted with during the many years he and Sunoo had been together.
It makes Jay's stomach turn but in a way, he has a chance of getting even. It's petty and unhealthy, but Sunoo needs to learn and fast.
There was something about how vulnerable Sunoo looked with those headphones halfway blocking his senses, the way Jay was taking complete control and no matter how many tears Sunoo shed they went ignored, he was breaking him and loving the results.
Sunghoon sat there in shock. This was happening, this was real.
A sick dream almost because it's wrong to watch this unfold right in front of him.
Jay took one of the pillows and stuffed it between Sunoo's thighs. "Fucking use it or do it your way, just don't touch yourself. Your punishment isn't over" He told Sunoo as if this was nothing more than a chore, a responsibility.
Sunghoon felt kind of bad for being here in the first place, not understanding the purpose of having him witness this at first or why it's supposed to be relevant to his learning experience but he got the the memo… loud and clear.
Sunoo can never be his, Jay has his mark all over him and that is evident with him like this.
Crying, shaking, in pain, in pleasure and desperate with a man who doesn’t falter one bit when Sunghoon hears what he's saying to Sunoo.
When Jay picked up his pace and Sunoo gets louder, his face covered the pillow in hopes that he'll be spared but just then his blindfold slipped a bit and he made eye contact with Sunghoon, his eyes widened and Jay doesn’t bother correcting the situation.
Sunoo frantically shut his eyes closed and hid his face.
“Jay! Did you really have to- bring him into the room while doing this?!" Sunoo yelled, confused why his punishment had gotten even worse.
"Yes, you like him so much apparently. Why can’t he see what I do to you? Show him Sunoo, how you really act" He moaned in his ear and Sunoo stopped speaking, hips still going with the movement.
"Jay no, it’s embarrassing- please!" He whispered.
"Oh, now it's too much?" Sunoo whimpered at his words.
Sunghoon wanted nothing more than to slip his hands in his pajama pants and pump himself until he was on the verge of his own climax.
He knew he had messed up by going for a person already committed to someone but it doesn’t excuse this treatment in front of him like Sunoo's done something beyond horrible.
At this point he doesn’t know if Jay's truly upset about Sunoo interacting with him in ways outside his boundaries as a person in a committed relationship. Or, the fact that he's showing his side that had yet to be revealed until now, jealousy.
Jay doesn’t seem the jealous type but Sunghoon had proved otherwise, his demeanor changing and the shift in the air was uncomfortable and odd but his reaction was not unjustified.
"How does it feel Sunoo? The reason you're in this predicament." Jay murmured the words so softly into his skin as Sunoo attempted to jerk back.
“Babe. Please tell me we can move on- from this punishment now. I learned" He pleaded, tired of not being able to look Jay in his face completely or kiss him like he did every night and morning.
It's like torture, only receiving a small taste and none of his attention.
Jay was purposefully distancing himself to deliver his words even if Sunoo can't understand, to make an example out of him, an eye for an eye, an insult for an insult.
“You learned? Good" He heard and Sunoo perked up a bit.
"So, this means I can take the blindfold all the way off? That you're not mad anymore?" There was excitement laced in Sunoo's voice, an undertone of desperation.
Jay didn’t respond, he just decided to finally touch Sunoo again, the way he knew Sunoo wanted him to.
He doesn’t even consider himself capable of such sadism or uncharacteristic behavior but this was definitely something.
His hands wrapped around Sunoo's erection, rubbing over him teasingly, precum spreading like the most addictive lubricant, to the tip and down along the sides.
"How can you tell if someone loves you truly? There is an obvious indicator, Sunoo. I've shown it to you, but you always put it right to the back of your mind as soon as another person catches your eye. Do you really like Sunghoon that much?” Jay asked, almost as if he was taunting but there laid a genuine question in his tone.
“No~ I just love you and I’m sorry.” Sunoo started. “I don’t want him to see me like this" Sunoo whimpered under his breath.
He’s never been so humiliated and turned on at the same time.
Jay took off his blindfold completely and took off the headphones that were basically already off his ears.
“Sunghoon, you can go. If it happens again, next time you won’t have eyes to watch with" Jay glared.
Sunghoon felt threatened. This is not a situation that should ever escalate to that level of detail ever again.
No other attempts.
No other dares.
Only their affection for each other.
With that being said Sunghoon felt the tension clear and he left the room. Not giving a second glance.
After that Jay continued with more passion and determination than ever, his words going in one ear and out the other for Sunoo.
That was, until he saw his expression and suddenly that coil that had unwound so many times today was coming to him with full force again, he squeezed Sunoo harder and sucked at his ear, nose trailing the outline of his cheek and jaw as he slid his palms against the soft skin underneath him, caressing whatever he could.
Finding his now neglected nipples from earlier and toying with them as Sunoo choked out.
“Not there, not there-"
The combination was enough to pull his orgasm out, it was the first one he couldn't control at all, gasping, eyes widened and searching for some anchor.
"J- Jay-" His back curved, eyebrows furrowed in agony as he gripped Jay's forearms for leverage, fingers sliding slowly, breath ragged as he dropped his head between on the pillow and gasped, coming apart.
Jay followed suit, Sunoo squeezing him to perfection and he had no choice but to spill inside of him.
Then, as if someone pulled a lever, Sunoo remembered that Sunghoon had seen this display, almost watched his climax leave his body and spread over the spare pillow Jay placed between his legs.
The realization was so powerful, so intense, and so mortifying he nearly fainted.
A shame he wouldn't soon forget.
There is nothing but humiliation coursing through his system.
Jay carefully slid out, peppering kisses along his back before looking at him, leaning down and brushing away the few tears that remained on Sunoo's face.
"Jay" Sunoo started again, voice hoarse and it's like everything just hit him.
The stress, the heat, Jay's behavior and the thoughts he had while Jay left him on edge so many times it's not even funny, everything just crashing onto his shoulders, his breath still erratic as he opened his mouth, a dry cough escaping his lips.
"I’m really sorry..for being rude and thoughtless. I can't say how many times I wish I could take back my actions. Forgive me." It's sincere, apologetic, and full of sincerity.
His heart was aching at the thought that he did something to break Jay down and not have him want to look him in his eyes the whole time.
"That wasn't nice or easy but.." Jay looked down. "Just talk to me and be mindful of me. I care a lot more about you then you know. Don't hurt me, don’t do things like that without thinking about how I might feel." Jay told him softly.
"And I’m sorry too, I may have gone too far. I've just had enough." Jay explained, hands placed lightly at the sides of his torso, lifting him carefully before tucking his arms around him protectively.
The warmth is a relief from the cold the rest of his body feels after experiencing the heightened waves of pleasure.
"Thank you.." He heard whispered in his ear by none other than Sunoo, a smile tugging at his lips.
“Was Sunghoon watching the whole time?" Sunoo asked, attempting to fix his hair that had gone in all directions.
"Yeah he was, I realize now that maybe I shouldn’t have done that but only if you were in the same headspace that I was in. I wanted you to be sorry but I don’t want that anymore. I never like being upset with you."
He felt a hand cupping his cheek and a slight smile tugging at the edges of his own, the emotional drain on the both of them wasn’t an ideal atmosphere, but this wasn’t an ideal occasion.
But he's glad the fight had been resolved.
He helped Sunoo wipe up and cleaned both themselves up before lying down beside his boyfriend, he gently traced his thumb around Sunoo's soft lips and smiled.
“I feel like we’re not done talking. You think Sunghoon is gonna keep quiet about tonight?" Sunoo asks him.
"Does it bother you?" Jay asked.
"In a way yeah. A little" Sunoo confessed.
"Do you like him still?" Jay is serious again but not angrily serious.
"Honestly. At one point in my life maybe I did but I promise that I haven’t had feelings for him while I’ve been with you. I’ll admit I like having someone to joke around and play-flirt with but I would never let anything happen between me and him, I can’t leave you. The thought alone makes me ill and I don’t want to ever be disloyal to you" Sunoo looked serious but shy as his gaze dropped.
"You don't? But when you act that way around him I-," Jay couldn’t even finish the sentence.
"I don’t know, I just liked someone to goof around with, it was inconsiderate of me to ignore how you may feel about it and I was really selfish. I really am sorry… maybe I deserved the punishment after all. I feel terrible” Sunoo looked at Jay and offered a small smile.
"Promise?" Jay's tone lightens and Sunoo knows it's because he forgives him and no hard feelings or grudges would come between them.
Sunoo just nods quickly before cuddling him. "I really really love you, a lot. I need to start treating this whole thing seriously"
“I’m glad you know what you did was wrong and you’re owning up to it. So I have to do the same, correctly. I should’ve just pulled you for an conversation instead of using all of my insecurity on you. I love you. Thank you." Jay kissed him.
It was just a firm press of lips at first, his grip still solid as his weight pressed Sunoo into the sheets, and then, Jay ran a thumb across Sunoo's lower lip before replacing it with his lips once again, a soft peck turned heated quickly.
Sunoo gripped his hair, sighing against the warm kiss.
“To be completely honest, I was down for the whole hidden sensory thing but when I heard you talk I could hear that something was off and that you weren’t just doing it to experiment in bed or something. I’m used to you being a calm person until you explode, which I’ve never seen. It was just- really surprising." He shook his head, unsure of how he even managed to get through that.
“I was in my head, I won’t do it again” Jay said truthfully.
“I’m not saying we can’t do that again, I’m fine with the blindfold and the headphones, I’m even okay with the edging just tell me before hand why we’re doing it. And even if you don’t tell me why just don’t do it because you’re upset with me, I don't like seeing that side of you" He whined.
Jay laughed slightly and then gave a quick peck, a kiss was so much easier than words at the moment.
“I’m sorry again. I did feel for you a little bit, there were some moments where I just wanted to hug you and tell you that you were forgiven because of the sounds you were making were literally driving me insane" Jay teased him.
Sunoo stuck his tongue out at him and rolled his eyes, playfully shoving him to the side.
“How am I supposed to look or interact with Sunghoon? He saw me whining and screaming your name- literally crying for you!" He buried his face into Jay's chest. "Oh gosh, we never talked about if someone catches us" His voice was muffled.
"And since when have you cared about that?" Jay asked as a playful smile grew on his face.
"Since like 5 minutes ago!" He buried himself further into Jay's chest and he allowed it. “We haven’t talked about voyeurism, it’s a really hot concept but not when it’s our own friend. I may have been too ‘flirtatious’ with him but like I said nothing more would come from it, I would never want him to see me when I’m clearly begging for you or something, how am I supposed to even react the next time I see his face. Gosh, this is too embarrassing." Jay is struggling not to laugh and Sunoo is 2 seconds from going back to his dormitory or maybe living at the company from now on, either choice seems fine to him.
"Relax, we can think about the fall out of all of this another day. You forgive me though, right? I feel like an asshole now. My poor baby" He moved to nuzzled him but got a punch to the shoulder.
"Jay. You made me literally scream and cry in front of our band mate. Maybe ask if I forgive you in the morning” Sunoo groaned as he pushed Jay away.
“Okay then, well I don’t forgive you either until morning” Jay countered, fighting to hold Sunoo against him.
“Babe stoppp. I wanna lay this way” he pouted but was reluctant and stayed in Jay’s arms anyway. “And fine, we won’t forgive each other until morning because then maybe all of this will make sense tomorrow" he mumbled into his chest.
"Tomorrow seems great." Jay said as he finally managed to tuck an arm around Sunoo and relax, his fingers dancing lightly around his lower back.
The peaceful silence, their embrace.
Tomorrow could wait because they needed a night together, undisturbed and unbothered.
“You still love me tonight though, right baby?” Jay decided to annoy him one more time for the night.
“Jay.. go to sleep.” Sunoo said.
“Do I need to edge you again? You said you love me when I was doing that, you wanna change up now?” Jay smiled but was cut short when he saw a glare on Sunoo face.
A blush covered his face and he turned away quickly, burying himself into the sheets, silently swearing up and down he was going to kill Jay.
Not that he wouldn’t, especially considering how Jay is probably gonna use those new-found memories as blackmail in the future.
“I love you, okay? Tonight, in the morning, and everyday after, now stop saying embarrassing things.” Sunoo hoping he’d hush and go to sleep.
“Or what? What if I don’t?” Jay prodded him.
Sunoo smirked to himself. “Or I’ll bring Sunghoon back in here with a blindfold and a camera, have him take all my pictures while I beg for you like the exhibitionist that you apparently think I am. Now go to SLEEP, thank you, love you” Sunoo kissed his cheek and turned the other way, high key scared of Jay’s response.
Sunoo hoped Sunghoon wouldn’t talk about this night to anyone else.
He wanted to erase his existence as a punishment for Sunghoon but Jay didn’t even blame him, it was really his fault and his insecurities that took over and Sunoo respected his choice to move past it.
However, he doesn’t completely blame Jay and liked what happened to a certain extent, it wasn't anything he would hate doing again.. just not with Sunghoon or any of their friends.
But Jay is his lover and he’s staying beside him regardless, he just has to be more considerate and after tonight he’s NEVER EVER crossing any boundaries again.
Jay eventually let him be, the punishment was long-since complete and he loved him the same, he needed no confirmation or anything more.
That night was the exception, that he needed Sunoo to fall into a puddle and cry for him, to feel sorry and it worked but now he knows to do it in other convenient ways.
Something to keep as a memory, maybe for a later use but not necessarily in the way of punishing him in any way.
All is forgiven and they moved forward with their relationship.
Sunghoon on the other hand refuses to be alone with them in the same room, even when they invite him in for group outings, he rather passes it off than to face them and that doesn’t seem like something Sunoo regrets too much.
Though sometimes he feels guilty, Sunoo thinks it’s for the best and Jay is beyond content with that :)