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WHERE IS MY MIND?
INTRODUCTION: (TW: Death, Gore, Nudity)
> “FILE 00: LAMENTATION”
“Instead of lamenting and keeping on saying “I should’ve not done that,” “What if I wasn’t a selfish asshole who left his best friend to die,” and “If only I wasn’t the type of guy to leave his best friend for a girl from a dating sim,” I guess I need to move on, but what if moving on wasn’t enough... I have to make things right...”
- Yuu Arikawa
(LOCATION: HAVEN-9, REVENANT PRIVATE SECURITY HQ)
Regret... guilt... shame... three words... Three strong words... Three strong words of what I’m experiencing now. My name is Yuu Arikawa; yet my name, my age, it’s not important for now, what’s important is that I’m a fool... a stupid one... One that prioritizes his delusions over his brethren... One that chose himself over his fallen comrades... There is no undoing it, no “Load from last save” prompt, no “Select chapter” prompt, I guess non can be undone here, life autosaves frequently and all my poor decisions and actions have consequences... I should’ve never left Ichika to die back at Haiti yesterday...
(LOCATION: HAVEN-9 MORGUE, REVENANT PRIVATE SECURITY HQ)
(Seeing Ichika’s lifeless, nude body before her autopsy, Yuu just crying)
Yuu: *Ichika... I’m sorry... When I said I wanted a new best friend... I didn’t mean it... I-I... I just said that so you would leave me alone whenever you would make me do a stupid dare... Please... please forgive me...*
(As Yuu returns to his living quarters, he just blames himself, crashing out as he returned, blaming himself)
(LOCATION: HAVEN-9 LIVING QUARTERS, REVENANT PRIVATE SECURITY HQ)
Yuu: *FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! YOU YOU BROUGHT THIS UPON YOURSELF!!! YOUR FRIEND HUNTER IS IN A COMA AT SICKBAY AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ICHIKA IS DEAD!!! THAT’S WHAT YOU GET FOR NAMING YOUR GRANDFATHER’S RIFLE, A HEIRLOOM GIVEN TO YOU, A PERFECTLY-MADE MOSIN-NAGANT AFTER A GIRL FROM A DATING SIM AND TALKING TO SOME...I DON’T KNOW? A RUSSIAN GUY WHO LIVES IN A SUBWAY WHO IS ALSO CLEARLY FROM A FALLOUT GAME SET IN RUSSIA? WHAT THE FUCK!!!!*
(Yuu slams his desk, causing some of his displayed figures to fall over, still not calm, still blaming himself, lets his anger out on his Mosin-Nagant 91/30 that he named “Nikki,” after that, he gets a note in his room, slid under his door)
Yuu, still angry, blaming himself: *NOW WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?!*
(Yuu reads the note, note says:)
I hear you want closure, make things right, can’t accept that Ichika is dead, you want to fix it? Go see me at sickbay
- Akane
(Yuu just shrugged, a bit calm, but still a bit mad)
Yuu: *Fine, FINE! If this will make things right and fix it, then I want to fix it...*