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I never realized what I had, that is until I lost it all. I took everything for granted as a child and now it has become my biggest regret as an adult.

I still remember how the night followed us during the mission and how you were so full of energy, always so restless and could never go to sleep when you needed to most. I would scold you for it, saying that you needed energy for the rest of the mission. Yet, you never let up…I remember how the breeze felt on my skin that night and the way you were still so full of life.

“Kakashi..?”

“What is it now, Obito?” Kakashi couldn’t help letting out a sigh since he knew Obito would most likely pester him for the rest of his night watch.

“..do you maybe want to look at the stars with me?” Obito asked hesitantly.

“What?..Are you serious? You should be sleeping and I’m on nightwatch tonight. I can’t leave my post for something as childish as looking at the stars.” What was Obito thinking? Is he really that moronic to think he would let himself get distracted by something they see constantly?

Obito was silent for a bit before he spoke again, “come on Kakashi! Don’t you ever get bored?”

“Not when I have other people’s lives in my hands.”

“You’re so dramatic. What could possibly happen in a few seconds?!”

“An enemy nin could sneak up on us and attack us, that should be easy to understand even for a dead last like you.”

“Ugh forget it idiot Kakashi..you’re hopeless” Obito decided in that moment to turn his back towards him, but just as quickly, Obito turned back around to face him. “Come on Kakashi, it’ll just be a few seconds pleaseeee”

Kakashi scoffed at him, “why can’t you look at them on your own, it’s not like it’s any different.”

Obito’s cheeks suddenly went red, “well, you know-“ “No, I don’t know” “jeez, let me finish idiot Kakashi”

Obito turned his head away a little as he continued, “it’s just you know it feels a lot better to do it with someone else..like when you eat with other people..it makes the experience slightly more fun..”

“That’s stupid.”

Obito winced, “oh come on Kakashi..I’ll leave you alone for the rest of the night if you do it”

That’s a very tempting offer, but “how do I know you’re not lying?”

“Come on idiot Kakashi I swear it on my grandmother’s life!”

Kakashi thought it over for a bit..on one hand Obito would pester him about it for the rest of the night, but…on the other hand, Obito would leave him alone if he indulges this quick request. The answer is obvious, “fine, but it better not take long and we have to stay close to the others”

“Of course, I’m not that reckless you know!”

“Could’ve fooled me”

Obito got out of his sleeping bag and went to grab kakashi’s hand. “Come on, we’ve got to be quick”

Kakashi still remembers how warm and safe it felt to hold his hand that night…a stark contrast to Obito’s hand the day he was crushed by the boulder.

They laid upon the grass, what could possibly be interesting about a few stars. Kakashi heard a bit of shuffling coming from left side, he turned to see that Obito was now looking at him.

“See, doesn’t it feel better than being by yourself?”

“Not really”

Obito stuck out his lip and started pouting. “Hmph, I guess should’ve expected that from you”

Obito turned back around to stare at the sky. “The stars…they’re always so pretty on nights like these..I just can’t help but admire how brightly they shine.”

Oh Obito, if only you knew.

He couldn’t help but stare at his face…how could Obito always smile so brightly? Kakashi could feel his heart skip a beat and his cheeks flush a bit from the thought.

“What do you think idiot Kakashi? Aren’t they beautiful?”

“That’s a stupid question”

“Its only stupid to you, you idiot”

Kakashi turned backed to look at the sky..I guess they were kind of pretty.

“You know Obito..”

“Hm?”

“We really need to get back to night watch..”

“Ah..you’re probably right let’s go back”

Obito quickly got up and reached to help Kakashi. He couldn’t help but stare at his hand before finally accepting it.

“Let’s go we don’t want to get in trouble, right Kakashi?”

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Obito had always shined brightly like a star..but stars burn out…

He could still vividly remember how Obito looked when he was pinned by the boulder. How Obito hadn’t cried the one time he was meant to cry and how Obito smiled at him and Rin as if it weren’t his last moments alive. His voice rough, but unwavering as he gave Kakashi his eye. Obito..you idiot..why would you save someone as hopeless as me? Obito didn’t deserve this, but that’s how the world is..it kills indiscriminately. What a cruel world.

Kakashi laid upon the grass again..only this time he was alone and this time he was at the training grounds. Obito..you were right..you were right about so many things. Kakashi touched his cheek softly, where the scar has now healed over.

“Obito..can you see them..the stars?..through this eye?”

No response..

“Obito..I admit it..it does feel better when you’re with other people..so please just come back you idiot”

Nothing..who was he kidding..Obito can’t come back..no matter how much he pleaded and begged.

His hand felt empty and his heart felt heavy..tears ran from Obito’s eye..

“Damn it..damn it, DAMN IT..just come back you idiot” He grasped at the grass beside him..

“..Rin misses you..”

I miss you was left unspoken..

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Obito had always shined brightly like a star..but stars burn out… leaving a black hole in its wake to suck up everything around it.

You’re the biggest idiot I’ve ever known, Obito. How could you let yourself be used like that by Madara? How could you abandon us..abandon me. Those were the few thoughts that ran through his mind as he fought on the battlefield. He knew the answer to those questions. It all led back to one thing..Rin. Kakashis biggest regret alongside Obito, was breaking his promise to him. Once the war was over, he still couldn’t help but feel regret. Obito had died once again for him..the person who had broken every promise with him. The reason he had even ended up in this position. Obito, you’re such an idiot.

“It’s been a while hasn’t it…since I’ve last looked upon the stars”

Kakashi somehow found himself laying against the grass once more.

“I don’t have your eye anymore..so I can’t show you how everything has progressed since that fight..” he could hear his voice crack a bit.

“Hey Obito..are you..watching over me? Do you..still love the stars?” His throat felt like it was constricting and his eyes felt wet.

Kakashi knew that Obito had grown to be bitter, angry, and resentful..everything he wasn’t when he was young. He probably hated the stars..but Kakashi can dream that maybe Obito would’ve loved to see them…once more..with him.