Chapter 1: A gift from me to you
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It had been seven weeks since Chuuya and Higuchi had sex, the two and gotten incredibly intoxicated after a party and celebrated their love together in Chuuya's bedroom. It had taken a bit but Chuuya began noticing weird things about himself, His breasts were swollen, he had to pee a lot, he was feeling nauseous and a little constipated.. and he also missed his period. Something he hasn't missed. It was concerning but he didn't think much of it truthfully, he carried on with work and taking care of his beloved girlfriend Higuchi. Though after a bit of time he realized he couldn't ignore this any longer. He took some tests and even got a doctor's opinion and it turned out he was pregnant.
Chuuya was... Well he didn't know what to think. He felt weird about it. Not upset but also certainly not happy to be having a living being growing inside of him. Not to mention the gender dysphoria that came with this pregnancy, he had already been trying to transition fully, this felt like another road block towards his transition. Not that he'd let this little shit get in his way. He didn't know how to tell Higuchi though, she had just started her own transition. He was worried how this would affect her mostly
Chuuya had settled on telling her during one of their weekly date nights. He sat her down at a nice restaurant, bought her favorite flowers and a brand new necklace. They sat across from each other, the candle light illuminating Higuchi's beautiful face, her blonde hair nearly glowing from the nearest beam of moonlight. "Higuchi.. there's somethin' I need to tell you.." Chuuya began, his gloved hand finding Higuchi's. "Me too actually." She spoke up, swallowing her food. She pulled her hand away from Chuuya's and glanced away. "Chuuya.. I've been thinking.. I really like you, but I don't think this is going anywhere. It's not you!! I promise!!" She spurted out, ripping the bandage off and breaking up with Chuuya here and now. Higuch looked guilty and pushed the necklace back towards Chuuya before standing up. "I'm sorry... I'll pack your stuff up and bring it by in a few days" she finished speaking before walking off, her high heels clicking against the hardwood floors as Chuuya stared down at the table. He grabbed the box with the necklace and opened it, inside was the pregnancy test and doctors notes with a silver heart shaped locket right next to the now torturous reminders of something that shouldn't exist inside of his body.
Chapter 2: You are what you eat
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The walls were crying. That's all Chuuya heard as he walked up and down his apartments hallway aimlessly pacing outside the nursery he decided to set up after he gave Higuchi her stuff back. He didn't want to go inside, he couldn't bring himself to acknowledge the fact he set something up for a baby that he may or may not love. After ten minutes of pacing he stopped himself. He calmed himself. And he slowly reached for the door handle. Just as he touched it he pulled his hand away as if the knob burnt his gloved hand.. he rested his head on the door and muttered to himself "I'm sorry.." before turning around and going to his living room. He grabbed his phone and did something he didn't even fully recognize, he dialed someones number... It rang for a minute until... "Chuuyaaa~" the annoying voice echoed in Chuuya's ear, the stupid way he sang his name.. shitty Dazai. "Shut up.. come over." Chuuya snapped into his phone, ordering Dazai around. The other male cackled on response to the unseriousness, at least in his opinion, of the situation. "Bossing me around? Alright whatever, I'll be over. Want me to bring anything special?" Dazai teased, Chuuya could hear Dazai getting ready, the zipper of his pants, the sounds of keys.. How obnoxious Chuuya thought to himself before spitting into his phone "No. Just your scrawny ass." He hung up and stared at his ceiling, his hand idly resting on his stomach. He was counting the seconds mentally. The seconds till he could get this mistake out of his body.
Chuuya looked up when he heard Dazai let himself into the apartment, Dazai waltzed around the living room carrying a bag of Sake and canned crab for later use. He also brought cheese for Chuuya. He flopped onto the couch next to Chuuya, a smirk gracing his chapped lips as he looked at his ex partner. "Did you call me over for what I think you called me over for?~" Dazai teased. He set the bag on Chuuya's lap and dug around before pulling out a molded block of cheese. "Why.....?" Chuuya looked confused, grabbing the mold cube from Dazai. "I'm lactose intolerant, I can't eat this shit, dumbass. Ad it's molded." Chuuya rolled his eyes, setting the block down on his thigh on top of the bag. Dazai laughed and leaned in, his warm breath ghosting over Chuuya's ear as he whispered "I want to eat it off of you.." he nipped at Chuuya's earlobe before soothing the stinging sensation by licking it. Chuuya groaned and leaned into Dazai's attention. "That's disgusting.." he huffed, tugging at his shirt to take it off. "I guess. But if you don't want to that's fine" dazai hummed against Chuuya's skin, slowly kissing the other males neck and working his way down as Chuuya got more and more nude over time
Dazai's fingers found their way to Chuuya's dripping sex, slowly circling his clit before sliding to his slick slit. Chuuya gasped and spread his legs wider for Dazai's access. He covered his mouth before deciding to announce something "I'm pregnant". Dazai paused and stared at Chuuya with a dumbfounded expression. ".. okay?" He raised his wet fingers to his mouth before licking them clean and pulling chuuya to his own lap "Does Chibi want me to be the daddy?" Dazai teased before leaning in and licking at Chuuya's sensitive nipples. His hand held Chuuya's hip while the other came up to cup his breast, massaging it as he kicked and lightly nipped at the rosy peak. Chuuya held onto Dazai's shoulders and pressed his breast more into Dazai's annoying mouth . "Shut up.. 'ts not what I mean.." he grunted out before holding onto Dazai's head "hahh.. never let go of me.." he gasped out, his gloved hand digging into Dazai's greasy dark brown hair
Chapter 3: Cope
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When Chuuya awoke Dazai was long gone. The cheese was in the fridge and Dazai's number was simply gone on Chuuya's phone, it's like it never happened. "Shitty dazai.. always running from commitment" Chuuya mumbled to himself, getting up to get some food. He felt so empty, so truly alone. He didn't even care as he grabbed a block of cheese, beginning to eat it as he looked at baby clothes.
block after block went down Chuuya's throat as he spent as much as he could on baby supplies. Seventeen blocks of cheese Chuuya digested, regretting it later as he later spent his evening in the bathroom, sobbing from the pain. It felt worse than usual, like his body was rejecting something, something he grew to love deeply.
as chuuya laid on his bathroom floor blood pooled below him as he stared at the miscarried fetus. It wasn't his fault, but he still blamed himself. It hadn't been THAT long.. but he still knew he would have loved this baby. He would have named them something meaningful, like.... Oh god.. he couldn't remember. He couldn't remember the names he chose. He laid there as a sobbing babbling mess. He dug for his phone and called Mori, needing assistance but not knowing who else to call