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007n7 shouldn’t have been doing this. He was drunk and handling a blade, this wasn’t safe.
He didn’t care though, he was just mindless cutting. He couldn’t remember where that damn vein in his thigh was.
He heard alcohol thinned the blood, so he drank a ton.
People always described blood as “sticky”, “warm”, or “wet”. 007n7 never understood that, when he bled he never felt the blood. Never felt that warm wetness people described.
The only time he registered it was when he ran his fingers over the bleeding wounds.
He rubbed at his eyes, he had been awake for about.. twenty minutes? Noli was probably still asleep.
Probably wouldn’t find his body until it was too late.
He had left a note, something small. Feelings and words weren’t his thing.
He moved his arm back up to continue cutting, he didn’t like seeing his arms bare.
007n7 always had something on them, bracelets, gloves, didn’t matter.
But now he didn’t want to dirty them, didn’t want to ruin the only bracelet he cared about with blood.
He winced at the pain, glancing down.
Shit that was deep.
‘That’s where an artery is.’ He vageuly recalled.
He was glad, he could finally end this. He was tired of everything, tired of feeling useless.
A part of him was upset, upset that he was leaving Noli. But this was for the best, he’d stop being a burden this way.
He was confused and anxious. Why was he anxious? His mind felt all fogged up.
He couldn’t really feel the tile under him, that wasn’t good. Or was it?
The last thing he really registers is the bathroom light buzzing.