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007n7 shouldn’t have been doing this. He was drunk and handling a blade, this wasn’t safe.

He didn’t care though, he was just mindless cutting. He couldn’t remember where that damn vein in his thigh was.

He heard alcohol thinned the blood, so he drank a ton.

People always described blood as “sticky”, “warm”, or “wet”. 007n7 never understood that, when he bled he never felt the blood. Never felt that warm wetness people described.

The only time he registered it was when he ran his fingers over the bleeding wounds.

He rubbed at his eyes, he had been awake for about.. twenty minutes? Noli was probably still asleep.

Probably wouldn’t find his body until it was too late.

He had left a note, something small. Feelings and words weren’t his thing.

He moved his arm back up to continue cutting, he didn’t like seeing his arms bare.

007n7 always had something on them, bracelets, gloves, didn’t matter.

But now he didn’t want to dirty them, didn’t want to ruin the only bracelet he cared about with blood.

He winced at the pain, glancing down.

Shit that was deep.

‘That’s where an artery is.’ He vageuly recalled.

He was glad, he could finally end this. He was tired of everything, tired of feeling useless.

A part of him was upset, upset that he was leaving Noli. But this was for the best, he’d stop being a burden this way.

He was confused and anxious. Why was he anxious? His mind felt all fogged up.

He couldn’t really feel the tile under him, that wasn’t good. Or was it?

The last thing he really registers is the bathroom light buzzing.

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Noli and 007n7 were cuddled up next to eachother on their bed.

They were drunk as shit, probably wouldn’t mix well with the pills they took.

They had been planning this for months, planning to kill themselves together.

007n7 had always talked about ending himself. About how he was tired of being alive, and how tired he was in general.

Noli had proposed an idea.

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“Let’s do a double suicide.” They turned their head to look at 007n7, who was currently washing blood out of his jeans. “What?”

They sat up, talking louder so their partner would hear them. “A double suicide. We both kill ourselves at the same time.”

007n7 paused and turned the sinkk off, turning to stare at Noli before a grin crossed over his face. “Hell yeah. That’d be sick.”

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That was months ago, and now they were doing it.

It was the most romantic thing they would have done. What was more romantic than leaving to the afterlife with the person you cherish the most?

“Y’know.. I’m kinda glad I met you.” Noli breathed out, they were content with this.

The red staining 007n7’s skin was beautiful.

Noli sat up, they were getting dizzy and that was good.

007n7 looked so peaceful dead, content. He had gone a bit earlier.

Noli made sure they were wrapped around 007n7 when they passed themselves.

They were both content and happy. Why live in a world where you’re both judged?

They were peaceful with death, glad even.