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It was a cool and crisp Friday morning in early November. Ryan had woken up to the loud buzzing of his old and outdated alarm that he would always hit to snooze. He wasn’t pleased to go to school as he had skipped the last 3 days without a real excuse. The only reason he was going to school today was because he had a presentation to do with someone which also happened to be his midterm. His partner for the project was a scrawny guy named Brendon, whom he made do most of the project, of course. Ryan had known Brendon since middle school, they were friends and sometimes Ryan would treat Brendon like a total ass, but that’s just who Ryan was.
No matter how shitty Ryan treated Brendon, he still stuck around, which Ryan found hysterical, since he knew he could treat Brendon how he wanted, but still enjoyed having someone who wouldn’t get pissed and leave him for doing so, which is what many people had done to Ryan because of his not so kind attitude. He also liked Brendon because he felt that he was one of the few people who understood him. Whereas Brendon liked Ryan for many reasons, if you were to ask him about Ryan, he would probably go on a 10 minute rant about how nice, funny and smart Ryan was, and if you haven’t already guessed it, Brendon was infatuated with Ryan. Of course, Brendon would never admit this, but anyone with half a brain could tell that Brendon had a fat crush on Ryan just by the way he looked at him while he was talking, always lost in his words and agreeing with everything he said. Brendon was willing to do anything for Ryan. Ryan brushed off the things his other friends would say to him about Brendon, constantly telling him to “stay away from him” and constantly giving Ryan shit for hanging out with someone who they all called ‘a faggot’.
Ryan always ignored all of that because he enjoyed his time with Brendon and how he always listened to everything he would tell him. Along with that, Brendon would always check up on Ryan when he wasn’t at school, making sure he was okay, and overall asking how he’d been.
As Ryan was getting ready for school, he got a phone call from no other than Brendon. Ryan was in the shower and couldn’t answer his phone, so like always whenever Ryan wouldn’t answer, he made sure to leave a voicemail. When Ryan got out of the shower and changed into the clothes he would be wearing that day to school, he picked up his half broken flip phone and listened to the voicemail Brendon had left him.
“Hey Ryan, i was just wondering if you’d be making it to school today. Not to be invasive or anything but i know you said you were sick but our midterm is today and i really need you here so we can both pass it. Anyways, text me what your plan is, I’ve been worried about you.”
The voicemail ended and Ryan opened up his messages and started typing away to Brendon that he was feeling better and that he would be at school today. Of course, Ryan wasn’t feeling better as he was never actually sick in the first place, he just needed an excuse so he didn’t have to go to school and do any of his project.
Ryan put his phone in his front pocket before grabbing his backpack and heading over to the bus stop, which is where he would always be on the days he did go to school. While he waited for his bus, he looked over and saw Brendon heading towards him, smiling, visibly excited to see Ryan again after three days.
“Ryan! I missed you” Brendon said putting his hand on Ryan’s shoulder
Ryan smirked, looking at Brendon as the bus approached, “Of course you did”
The two boys got onto the bus together and went on their way, talking the whole ride to school about what Ryan had missed, with Ryan asking Brendon if he could get help on the work he had missed, knowing he’ll probably just make Brendon do it all for him anyways.
Once they got to school, the two got off the bus and Ryan saw his friend Spencer, who was one of the people that didn’t like Ryan hanging out with Brendon, since they all believed he was gay.
As Ryan and Brendon parted ways Ryan walked over to Spencer so they could go on to their first period.
“Dude, I told you already, you shouldn’t hang around Brendon, he’s a faggot, he’s gonna turn you into one too” Spencer exclaimed to Ryan
“You sound like a dumbass” Ryan said, elbowing Spencer in annoyance because of his comment
Spencer replied, “whatever im just watching out for you”
Ryan rolled his eyes in response as they went on their way to their economics class. A few seconds later, they both made it into the room right as the bell rang and sat down, with Spencer sitting right next to Ryan.
“So, tonight, you going?” Spencer asked Ryan while still putting down his stuff
“Going where?” He replied back confused
“To Brent’s party, everyone’s gonna be there, so you should too” Spencer told him
Ryan was reluctant but decided on it, “I guess I’ll go, I have nothing else to do tonight”
Just after Ryan finished up talking to Spencer, their teacher stood up and started lecturing everyone. Ryan was dreading having to spend the hour and a half in the classroom, remembering the reason he had skipped the last three days. He sighed and just went on to wait for it to be over.
Eventually the bell had finally rung so Ryan could get up and out, until he remembered he had his midterm presentation next, which caused him to let out a sigh, but the thought of Brendon being by his side while presenting comforted him, knowing that he didn’t have to be in it all alone, because that was one thing he hated the most.
After waving goodbye to Spencer, he went on his way, eventually meeting up with Brendon at his English class which was across campus, but of course Brendon waited outside for him, even if he was late. As they walked into the classroom together Ryan wrapped his backpack on the chair and sat. Brendon did the same next to him and they sat in silence until Ryan suddenly broke it, remembering he was gonna ask Brendon something.
Ryan turned to Brendon, “Hey so, you going to Brent’s party tonight?” he asked
Brendon thought for a second and replied, “I was thinking about it but im not sure.. I mean if you’re going than I’ll definitely be there” Brendon smiled, looking straight into Ryan’s eyes
Ryan paused, keeping the eye contact with Brendon longer than usual, staring into his big glossy brown eyes
He stumbled his words a bit before speaking up again, “Yeah I’ll— I’ll be there” he told Brendon
Brendon smiled again at him, which made Ryan felt something he never had before, he didn’t know what it was or how to explain it, but there was a feeling that had been lying dormant inside of Ryan, ever since he met Brendon.
The class begun and Ryan and Brendon looked away from each other as their teacher started calling up names to present their midterm presentations. Ryan could only hope that some people would take so long, class would be over before the went up. He stayed watching his classmates present, taking small glances at Brendon every so often, noticing Brendon would be doing the same, but everytime they accidentally caught themselves looking at each other the both of them would immediately glance back forward at the others presentations. As more and more minutes passed, the 2nd presentation finished, and the teacher called Ryan and Brendon to go up and present. Ryan sighed heavily as he was handed one paper to read, while Brendon generously took the rest, knowing how much Ryan dreaded presenting.
Ryan noticed and appreciated this gesture, mouthing “Thank you” to Brendon after he finished reading his portion of the presentation. Brendon gave him a thumbs up and a smile in response. Ryan smiled back, quickly looking down at his shoes as he didn’t want to be seen getting all flustered in front of the entire class.
After they finished up, they both went back to their seats to pack their stuff as class was about to end.
“So, I’ll see you tonight right?” Ryan asked Brendon for confirmation
“Of course, but make sure to call me when you’re about to leave your house so I can be there at the same time. I don’t want to miss out on anything” Brendon replied
“Alright, I will, See you there” Ryan said, parting ways with Brendon to head over to their next classes, both excited to seeing each other that night.
As the day went on, Ryan sat in his final class, eager for the last bell of the week to ring so he could get home and get ready for the party he would be seeing Brendon at.
He didn’t know what it was, he had never felt this excited to see Brendon before. It was like something had woken up inside him and he wasn’t sure what the feeling was, but he knew he had to figure it out. Eventually, the bell rung signifying school was over, at last it was the end of the week. Ryan rushed out of school and immediately went onto the bus and made his way home. As he sat on the bus pondering about the day. Then, he saw Brendon sitting his bus stop, the current bus he was sat on was at a red light, so he kept his eyes on Brendon who was looking down at a book he was reading. He didn’t know what it was but for some reason he just couldn’t take his eyes off Brendon, the way he looked on his own, the way he laughed at everything Ryan said, the way he—
Before Ryan could think further, the bus came to a familiar stop at the one near his house which forced him off the bus and back home. On this day he walked home faster than usual to get home and get ready for the party that night. He didn’t know if it was a themed party or not but he didn’t have the energy to dress up even if it was, he was too worried about Brendon being there. He also thought about what his friends would say if they saw Brendon and him together, knowing they’ll probably be drunk and not having any filter on what they say. He didn’t want to worry too much about this now as the party didn’t start until 8, so he decided to just take another shower to pass the time until then.
The time now was 7:30, and Ryan’s friend’s were constantly messaging him if he would be at the party in which of course he responded back yes to all of them. Ryan continued to lay down in his bed playing out scenarios in his head of what could happen later. He really didn’t know what to expect with his new found feelings for Brendon. He didn’t want to admit it at all but he knew he was attracted to Brendon, he had never had a crush on any other guy ever and it all felt so new and weird to him, he wondered if anyone he knew liked any guys in their life and was wondering to himself if maybe this was just something that happens sometimes. He hated himself for feeling this way but he couldn’t control it. Tonight he wanted to figure out what his feelings really were.
His phone buzzed, interrupting him and his thoughts. It was Brendon calling him, and that’s when he noticed the time, 8:21. He had been daydreaming for almost an hour, totally forgetting about the time. He immediately picked up his phone and answered Brendon’s call
He nervously spoke up “Hey, sorry, wasn’t looking at the time. I’m on my way to the party right now”
Brendon laughed a bit at his words, “it’s funny hearing you even apologize, it’s rare you ever do that”
“Yeah well.. whatever, are you gonna be at this party or not?” Ryan said annoyed at the fact that Brendon picked that up from him
“Yeah I’m leaving now, I hope I see you soon Ryan..” Brendon said eagerly
Ryan took a second before replying again “Yeah, I hope to see you too.. anyways, I’ll be leaving now, see you there Brendon”
Ryan hung up after hearing Brendon say bye back and all the sudden a wave of reality hit Ryan, he realized the party was now and anything could happen tonight. He put his black zip up hoodie on and made his way out the door. As he started walking to Brent’s house, he heard a voice behind him yelling, it was, to no surprise, Spencer running to catch up to him.
“Ryan” he said out of breath, holding on to Ryan to keep his balance “Thank god im not the only late one”
Ryan scoffed, “Does it really matter what time we get there?” He moved away so Spencer would get his hand of his shoulder
“I guess not” Spencer said “But you don’t need to get all pissy about it”
Ryan punched Spencer in the side “Fuck you, Im not pissy at all”
Spencer laughed, “Yeah, you are. And you’re especially pissy when it comes to that little friend of yours”
Ryan gave Spencer a confused look, “What are you talking about”
“You know exactly what Im talking about” he laughed out
“I don’t have time for your bullshit” Ryan said angrily, “let’s just get to the party”
As they kept on walking, they eventually made it to a lit up house packed with people, some dressed up, others wearing the same clothes they’ve been in all day. They walked inside and were greeted with the heavy scent of alcohol and cigarettes. It was nothing new to them though, as they both would frequently go to parties. Ryan told Spencer he would be going to the bathroom, but really he was going to sneak around and look for Brendon. Spencer nodded and walked into the sea of people. So with Ryan losing sight of him, he made his way to the bathroom and to no surprise, the door was locked. He didn’t mind because he knew he just wanted to wait until Brendon got there. As he sat there waiting for Brendon, the door to the bathroom opened, and there he was. Face to face with Brendon. He was a little surprised as he didn’t expect to find him that quickly, both Ryan and Brendon were still facing each other saying nothing, until Brendon broke the silence
“I didn’t think I’d find you this quickly” Brendon said, smiling at Ryan
Ryan looked down and smiled, then looking back up “I was thinking the same thing, but im glad”
“Me too” Brendon said, still staring at Ryan
Ryan quickly looked around, remembering his friends could be anywhere. He hesitated to speak again “Hey uh, you wanna go upstairs and get away from everyone? I don’t want anyone to interrupt our conversation”
“Yeah sure” Brendon replied, letting Ryan lead him wherever he wanted to take him
Ryan looked around one final time, making sure nobody he knew was around. He then grabbed Brendon’s hand and quickly found his way up the staircase. He opened the first room door, just a crack to see that two people had already taken advantage of the empty space. He walked further down the hallway of doors, eventually finding another empty room, seemingly a guest bedroom that consisted of a bed, a desk, and a chair. Brendon immediately walked over and sat on one side of the bed, breathing a sigh of relief. Ryan made his way to the other side and sat down on the bed, leaning against the fluffed up pillows. The room remained silent for a few seconds until Brendon again broke the silence
“So, you wanted to talk to me?” Brendon said, curious to why they were in the room
“Yeah, I also just really wanted to get away from everyone. I didn’t really want to come here just to get wasted like my friends are probably right now. I just thought it would be more enjoyable to talk to you” Ryan said, regretting his last few words
Brendon smiled, feeling a flustered by Ryan’s response “Well, I really like talking to you too” he said, looking back up at Ryan
Ryan didn’t know how to respond back to Brendon, he just stared at him, admiring his features, and only then did Ryan realize the way Brendon looked at him, his longing gaze that took Ryan so long to understand what was really behind his eyes. He wanted to make a move on Brendon but didn’t know how to initiate it as he had never been in a situation like this with any guy before. Sure, there had been a few girls Ryan had short flings with before, but that was nothing serious compared to this. This felt like the real thing, the amount of pressure he felt made this feel like the moment Ryan’s existence had been leading up to.
And as for Brendon, he knew what was about to happen. Ever since Brendon layed eyes on Ryan he was a fool for him. He had been waiting for this moment for what felt like his whole life, the realization of Ryan finally catching on and possibly reciprocating these long term feelings of Brendons… it was too much for him to take in. Ryan’s eyes started moving down from Brendons, leading down to his lips Ryan just couldn’t resist anymore, how could he? He leaned in vigorously toward Brendon and at last, kissed him. This caused Brendon to make a small muffled and desperate whine, causing Ryan to pull back, but not before Brendon immediately pulled him back in, their kiss colliding once again, making the both of them feel complete.
Not long after the beginning of their make out, Ryan’s hands explored Brendon’s form, wanting to feel every part of him that he was missing out on. His hands dragged from his waistband, up to Brendon’s neck and the back of his head, Ryan’s fingers intertwining with his hair, forcing him more into the kiss. Not many words were exchanged leading up to this, but they both knew what they wanted. Ryan’s personal guilt of doing something the people around him would consider to be wrong outside of the moment turned him on for some odd reason, but not more than Brendon did. Ryan slowly slipped his tongue into the other boys mouth which made Brendon shutter, and release a small whimper from his lips as he pulled a bit away from Ryan.
Brendon’s whimper echoed throughout Ryan’s body and made him feel more desperate than ever. As he and Brendon were still pulled away from each other, he pushed Brendon by the shoulder straight down onto the now wrinkled sheets of the bed that wasn’t even his. He hovered on top of Brendon who was just looking straight up at him waiting for what’s next to come. Ryan stared back into the needy look upon his face, and after a few more seconds of staring at each other, just taking in everything that had just happened. Ryan couldn’t hold back anymore, he again pressed him mouth onto Brendon’s without any breaks. They felt the heat of each other rubbing against their bodies and every kiss was more messy than the next. Eventually, Ryan moved down and started sucking on the gentle skin of Brendon’s neck, causing Brendons body to jump with pleasure each time Ryan got more intense.
“Fuck— Ryan” Brendon quietly muttering out
Ryan silenced Brendon by planting another kiss directly onto his lips and then moving his hands down to the hem of Brendon’s shirt. Ryan pulled away from him in the middle of their shared kiss and sat him back up against the headboard of the bed.
“Ryan— please don’t stop— i need you so bad” Brendon whispered to him breathlessly
“I know you do” Ryan said grinning at him, taking Brendon’s shirt and lifting it up little by little, but not until the sound of a locked doorknob being messed with snapped them both back into reality.
Ryan quickly let go on Brendon’s shirt, letting it drop back down and cover his body. He got off from being on top of Brendon, shifting back to the other side of the bed. Brendon fixed his hair and brushed out the wrinkles from his shirt. Eventually they heard a click, signifying the lock was picked. As the door slowly opened Ryan didn’t know what to expect. He tried his best to look as normal and put together as possible for whoever were to walk in. The door finally finished opening, only to reveal two people neither of the boys had ever seen before, seemingly looking for a room just like they were. The couple turned around after seeing the room was occupied and awkwardly walked back down the other way of the hall and Brendon laughed nervously after they exited from both of their sights.
Ryan groaned in annoyance “They just fucked everything up”
Brendon looked at Ryan, who was visibly pissed off, “Well.. if you’d like we could go somewhere else. Just not my place cause my folks are home, probably asleep”
Ryans face lit up with a realization from him, “My dad isn’t home all weekend, so we can go to my place.. only if you’d like” he grinned
He smirked back at Ryan, “yeah, I’d really like that”
Ryan got up from the bed and tilted his head, insinuating for Brendon to come with him. He immediately got up and walked out the door with Ryan, walking down the stairs and quickly out the house. The front yard was full of wasted teenagers and people trying to get rides. Ryan put his hood up and grabbed Brendon’s hand, swiftly making his way out of the parties vicinity. Brendon and Ryan interlocked fingers and made their way to Ryan’s house to continue what hadn’t yet been finished.