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A variety of clips from user @forsuho

"I don't know what I'm doing." Sieun begins, staring at the bowl in front of him, "But you always told me I should eat more. And I–" Sieun paused, swallowed, grabbed his spoon,"I know you like Seolleongtang, so I thought I'd try eating it for you."

Sieun pushed the spoon through the soup, "It's from that place I got it from last time. You looked so happy when you were eating it." He lifted the spoon, broth dripping, "I was curious if I could figure out why. I never felt that way about food before but you always looked so happy eating." He stared at the soup on his spoon, nervously, "I..."

He sighed and shoved the spoon into his mouth quickly. He blinked back tears and sniffed as he pulled the spoon back out.

"It's good." He breathed out, "It's good, Suho-ya. It's good."

"I'm eating breakfast today, Suho." Sieun states quietly, "It's not prepackaged this time." He held up a plate of scrambled eggs, "I thought I'd try making something myself for once. Juntae-ah told me about scrambled eggs his aunt makes during his visits." Sieun set the plate back down and stared at the food in front of him, "I don't know if I did it right. Juntae-ah said they were easy and didn't require a lot of experience." 

He pouted at the darkened spots dotted around pale yellow, "I definitely burned it. You would laugh at me if you saw this." He sighed, picking up a fork.

He took a moment, shifting his fork through the eggs as if he was raking sand, "I wonder if you like scrambled eggs." He mumbles, "Maybe I'll ask Halmeoni next time I see her."

He picked up a small bite, holding it above the plate, "You're such a messy and quick eater." a smile quirked his lips, "I'd bet you'd be asking for thirds before I'd even have one bite." 

He took a breath and lifted the fork to his mouth, a small grimace graced his face as he chewed and swallowed. The bitter taste of burnt eggs filled his mouth and he forced back a gag.

"Mn. You'd make it better." He sighed, pushing the plate away, "Sorry, Suho-ya. I tried." He grabbed an apple from somewhere off screen, "I'll see you soon, Suho-ya."

"I'm going to make seaweed soup for the guys today." Sieun says, quiet and hesitant, "I hadn't made it since–" he took a shaky breath, "Gotak wanted to try it. He and Baku begged me after Youngyi told them how good I made it last time." He shot a deadpan look at the camera, "She didn't even eat any." 

He took out the ingredients, "Though, I remember you said it smelled good." His gaze drifted, "I wish you could have tasted it." 

"I'll make sure to make it again for you, I hope you'd actually like it."

It was quiet as Sieun went about making the seaweed soup.

"It's just a recipe I got online." Sieun says randomly, "I remember reading that the longer you let it simmer the better it tastes."

He stirred the soup a little bit, "Halmeoni said she has a recipe from a friend. Maybe I'll make that one with you."

He set the soup aside and turned back to the camera, "Suho-ya. I miss you."

"Come on, Sieun! Please taste it!" Baku waves the chopsticks in front of his face, the camera caught the unimpressed look Sieun was shooting his friend.

"No."

"Oh, come on, please! Don't you have that try everything once thing going on?" Baku pleaded.

"If I did, I still wouldn't eat that." He gave the chicken leg dripping with the new sauce Baku's dad had just released a displeased look, "How did you even get your dad to agree to that flavor?"

"Because I'm a genius!" Baku exclaimed.

"Because he guilt tripped him." Gotak said at the same time.

Juntae was stifling laughter with the fabric of his sleeves, eyes glinting with laughter.

Sieun opened his mouth to reply when Baku took advantage and shoved it into his mouth.

Sieun's eyes widen and he was forced to chew or choke.

"So? Good, right?" Baku crossed his arms smugly, almost poking Hyuntak with the chopsticks still in his hand.

"Dude, watch where you point that thing."

Baku stuck his tongue out at him and Gotak slapped his shoulder, Juntae leaned away when Baku threw a dirty napkin across the table.

Sieun meanwhile was chugging his soda, trying to get the sickly sweet taste out of his mouth, "I feel like I just swallowed a sugar factory." He managed to say.

"Cotton Candy Chicken will be the new big thing. Trust me!" Baku retorts with an insulted expression.

"Yeah, in the dentist industry." Sieun muttered with deadpan eyes.

"Rude!" Baku gasped as Juntae and Gotak laughed.

It was the middle of the night, Sieun couldn't sleep so he picked up the camera and blinked tired eyes.

"I should be sleeping but I can't, so I came to visit you." The wall behind him was white but there was a soft sound of beeping from off-camera that implied he was in a hospital, "Suho-ya, please wake up." Sieun begins, looking over the camera, "You look so pale and quiet. You've never been so still." 

Tears pricked at his eyes, "It's been almost two years, can you please wake up?" 

Sieun swallowed, sniffing, "I made friends that I think you'll like. Baku's loud and Gotak is almost as protective as you. They play basketball, I wonder if you like basketball." It was silent for a moment as Sieun got lost in thought, "You'd definitely like Juntae. He helped me with my insomnia. And he's pretty good at making sure I eat and take my meds." 

He swallowed, "Suho-ya, I really want you to meet them."

The camera fell as Sieun started crying.

"Please, Suho-ya. I need you."

*this video was not posted*

"Say it. Come on, please Sieun. For me?" A voice coos from off-screen. Sieun, who was sitting in front of two steaming bowls, the seat next to him empty, stared apathetically over the camera.

"Why do I need to? You're already here." 

"Because I want to watch it back later. It'll be cute. Come on."

Sieun sighs and finally looks to the camera.

"Hey, Suho-ya. I'm eating lunch today." A happy noise from off-screen again and the sound of movement had Sieun rolling his eyes, a smile twitching at his lips as he continued, "With a special person." He looks over the camera again, gaze shimmering with emotions, "You." 

At that, a grinning man with a twinkle in his eyes dropped into the seat next to him, "Hey, Sieun-ah! Hey, Sieun's followers!" He pulls Sieun into a hug, his expression softening as he turned from the camera to catch his eye, "I'm glad you're eating with me."

Sieun blinked back, smile finally appearing in full, "Me too, Suho."