Eeeeee—!!!! Gosh, when this was posted I saw someone reblog the link to the fic on tumblr, and I had checked the ralsusie tag that very morning (as I do a couple of times every day because you never know) and hearing about this made me super excited, specially having read the first fic of the series and knowing how it wrecked me. So, more of that? sign me up.
And boy is it awesome, and devastating as well. Perhaps last time I was a little too emotional and taken off guard so my rambling was way less coherent and full of hyperbolics (not that I wasn't feeling to that extent regardless, tho), and I remember throwing the word depressing into the mix. Because yeah, I mean, it's heartbreaking, but this is, and now I'm gonna phrase it correctly, a good ending despite the tragedy. They tried, Susie tried, Kris tried, Ralsei ended up putting them first and took a fatal blow like he was initially fully prepared to do; they did what they could but not all cards weren't dealt in their favor, inevitably. And still. There's a lot that can be salvaged from what was saved, healing that comes with further growth. Asriel has been doing a fair amount of healing on his part for a long time even when he didn't know exactly what happened to Dess, I'm glad he's there to share his insight with Susie when she could use it.
And what was interesting to me as I was reading is that, in some ways, both Asriel and Susie share some resemblances to Ralsei and Dess respectively, which is very sweet. Not the same people by any means, but the little hints are there, the reminders, yet another instance of lost loved ones never going away. Asriel's reminiscing of Dess also clutched at my heart, and the parallels between the relationship he has with the nickname she gave him, and the part of Susie that she's struggling to come to terms with after Ralsei is gone are so good, very well crafted.
Every time Susie lost her cool I felt my throat seizing; how her feeling out of place and out of touch with her surroundings when dealing with the worst of her grief ends up bleeding into different aspects of her life, feeling guilt over taking up space, over imposing or being a burden, over how she believes she's just fucking things up— dammit, it hurts to see her like this. Thinking about how she has this distinct dynamic with Ralsei in deltarune so far, how they really influenced one another and complement each other, the ever-growing ease between them, the support, the care, the concern; the more daring and true they've become ever since first meeting each other, and thanks to each other, the idea of having to grapple with losing someone that was essential to expressing more of yourself is a scary thing. I'm here and seated to see how that goes after the whole exhange with Asriel, I want to see Susie learn how to be her whole self again, to tackle all those wonderful experiences that've come to a standstill within her and to bring them to the forefront once again.
And I still want to give her a hug. Ah, shit, even thinking about the hugs is now making me sad.
PS: the entire time Susie was talking about Ralsei and her first impressions and her various frustrations with him I was laughing out loud, utterly fried me, they're so precious I love them so fucking much 💕💕💕💕
Glad you enjoyed! There's so many little odd parallels between Ralsusie and Dessriel, it's so fun to write about them both.
I recently voiced this idea in a youtube comment, but I thought it'd be worth abbreviating here: the distance between Susie and Ralsei is, perhaps, smaller than the distance between any of the other major cast members. They're so close to one another that, when the distances do appear, when they hastily erect barriers in the wake of breaking ones, that it hurts all the more. It's so raw, the type of connection that's scary to have, and scarier to risk.
Worry not, Susie shall eventually get her hug! It might just take some time for her to get there.
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