Comment on you’re the only motherfucker who can handle me

  1. trite Thu 08 Apr 2021 12:22AM UTC

    I am completely floored by this comment. It is by far the loveliest, most thoughtful comment I’ve gotten in this fandom and I want to carry it around with me at all times. ♥

    You touch on many, many things I mentioned to my beta while editing this fic. First, Poe unwittingly boxing himself into a role that isn't 100% about who he is but about who he's had to be, who he still feels he has to be, and who he is ultimately more comfortable being because of the expectations that come with it. Somewhat related, while I didn't intend for this to be a commentary on fandom's approach to Poe's character, I think it mirrors it to a point — Poe is fun, carefree, and supportive but his more complicated and/or undesirable traits aren't always allowed to come out. Those traits are my favorite of his, though.

    Poe doesn’t have to worry about what Hux will think because from his perspective, Hux already thinks the worst of everyone and everything so there’s no need to be perfect.

    This is exactly what I was trying to convey with the fic and I am ridiculously happy that it came through for you. In my mind, or in an ideal world, all my narrators are unreliable and all my protagonists are good at self-deception. I don't know that I always succeed a conveying it but that is always the goal. With this fic (and the title really drives that home) I really wanted to show that what drew them together and why they had a chance to be good together was that they could just be around each other. It was freeing for Poe to be with someone who didn't expect him to be perfect or who didn't depend on him in some way. This is tied to Poe's still somewhat uneasy approach to command. He can successfully do the job, while still doubting himself.

    Also, as you said Hux is a dick, which complicates things further, but ultimately it is about Poe wanting and accepting happiness in a way that isn't tied to a cause the way it has been for the past 6+ years. Happiness that isn't directly tied to a victory in a battlefield but that is instead exclusively about his needs. Selfishly so, and that's fine! Good, even.

    Anyway, sorry for the TL;DR reply but I am really flattered you took the time to leave such a thoughtful comment and I wanted to reply in kind. Thank you so much for reading and I'm glad you've enjoyed my fic! I will definitely treasure this comment. ♥

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