I'm having my enrichment time in my enclosure. So SO sorry for the length of my comment but my thoughts were running like wildfire.
Absolutely adore the way you've written the corruption and toxicity behind the Tri-Commission here while also acknowledging Ei's own faults. In the end, others, including Sara, have to suffer due to their institutional issues, selfish members and well... everything else. Even the conspiring soldiers later on were such a neat detail when tied into the canonical treason many were complacent in (also to see how emotionally drained Sara is becoming over time).
Yoimiya was right. I shouldn’t be here. I failed…
Sara misinterpreting the true meaning behind Yoimiya's words is such a rivetting idea. Her social ineptitude strikes again and in the worst way for her own sanity. Their previous interactions were so bittersweet and nuanced, confiding something so personal, but it appears that Sara's prevalent self-blame (like in the new event) strikes again despite still being injured and mentally distraught. Mizuki book this woman an appointment I beg of you.
She choked back a sob. “Don’t neglect me, please…”
In the context of someone abused all their life, dehumanised, forced to repress her emotions, isolated, indoctrinated and groomed to be the perfect weapon this makes it all the more heart-wrenching. Considering how much Sara relies on her belief in the Shogun it just leaves such a visceral but lovely dread; if she can't rely on the Shogun, then she can't rely on anything. The war, the developing PTSD, her life so far: all for her god.
This ideal of the Shogun you write make it seem like she's an anchor that's been torn away from Sara suddenly; she's capsized with no end in sight.
It wasn’t a call to duty. But it was a call, one that promised a simple end to it all. No more pain, it whispered. No more humiliation. No more burdening others.
ABSOLUTE cinema. Everything up to the final line had me on edge. The monologue build-up, leading her to be the most vulnerable she's been since her original fall, the repeated idea of freedom or lack thereof; her wings may not be clipped, but she's in a birdcage. Also Sara thinking she's a burden 🥲💔 and the acknowledgment of how she's been humiliated continuously despite her efforts. To someone not spiralling suicide doesn't seem reasonable, but to Sara, someone who is at her wits end, this is an realistically impulsive last ditch response as she sees no other alternatives.
The dual foreshadowing and parallel to Sara's fall, this time by her own will, due to her warped, raw emotional state. Bravo, author!
Oh no please never apologise for long comments, I adore them!
There is something very much rotten in the Tri-Commission, and untangling that will no doubt be a task in and of itself. Unfortunately, Sara has to bear the brunt of the fallout of that, thanks to her position
Sara is a socially inept lil birb, and very prone to blaming her own 'deficiencies' when others should bear the blame. Sara desperately needs some therapy, yeah
Sara's obsession with the Shogun has always been the anchor she's clung to, and that tether's never been tested as sorely as this. Honestly this fic might need the 'religious trauma' tag soon lmao
I'm very glad the final bit hit as hard as it did. It was *really* important to get that right, to really sum up how dire a situation she's in mentally and how all of it has built up. It's not any one thing, it's all of it piling up on top of one another that's pushed her to this point
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