This entire week has been working against me and stealing away my reading time but I am finally here and holy shit this is so worth the wait!!!
Firstly I just. I love the premise of Martin visiting Jon's office regularly, knowing how creepy it is but doing it anyway because it helps in that little, painful way that’s exactly what he needs to keep going. The description of him soaking in the feeling of Jon's presence, using that as a comfort after a hard statement, is just perfect
And how much he’s aching being apart, but doesn’t actually want to talk to him??? "Deliberately avoiding him has been both the hardest and most natural thing Martin has had to do since Jon woke up from the coma..." ^^Shooting me would be kinder
I love the way you've written his reaction to the statements too, with his own emotional fog making them worse. It's not something I'd considered before, but I love the idea that the Eye is actually able to bleed more fear from him the deeper he falls into the Lonely, just because he's not used to feeling much of anything anymore
And Jon... oh, Jon. Of course he would get angry at himself for something as natural as getting horny in the middle of the day thinking about the guy he loves. I can feel the sheer shame and embarrassment rolling off him from being "weak" and needing to take a break and fantasize about a better day. I want to give him a hug so bad, but I suspect Martin has something better to offer him in the next chapter ;)
As for Martin himself, I am cackling at how quickly the situation spirals out of his control. Poor guy has like. a minute, maybe less, to go from "It's cool, I'm being a little creepy but hey I'm used to that by now" to "Oh fuck oh fuck oh FUCK JON IS GOING TO- HERE??? NOW??? RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME????" And I love how quickly he goes into "welp, I guess this is happening. I will literally die of regret if I don't get a better look." I fully support his choices here, he needs some good things in his life right now XD
I can't wait to see where this goes next. I've been watching the chapter count creep up all week and vibrating with excitement about what's in store for these poor pining fools <3
OMG OMG OMG I'M SO EXCITED!! I've been out and about with my family all day and then found all these sitting in my inbox, when I tell you my heartbeat actually jumped xD I'm going to read all these later in bed, as a treat (no innuendo intended, though there is something to be said about the satisfaction a full inbox brings) and hopefully also find time to answer them properly!! I can't believe the time you've put into these essay length comments😭🙌🏻❤️
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