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Mizuki laid on the couch as they wrapped themselves tighter with the heavy blanket.
It’s all they seem to do these days after Ena died.
They remember it well. They just got married and after two years of warm and fond memories…it all had to stop
When they married her, it wasn’t a cookie cutter wedding. It only consisted of their closest friends. An had cried her eyes out once she heard she was going to be their flower girl
Rui had on the happiest smile when they asked him to be their right hand person, spinning them around and around happily until both got dizzy.
Kanade and Mafuyu were their maids as well, Kanade for Ena’s side and Mafuyu for their side. Both were incredibly happy for Ena’s side. (‘What an improvement from high school Mafuyu-Chan…” Mizuki said to themselves later on)
Mizuki had a pink wedding dress, Ena had purple. A silver band decorated their ring fingers and it was perfect.
The one who got the bouquet was Toya, who caught it in his lap after it had bonked off of Minori’s head (Poor Minori!) Everyone had laughed after seeing Akito and Toya’s faces so red even though they were already married before them. Toya ended up throwing it back at the crowd which finally landed at Airi.
“I TOLD YOU I’M GONNA BE THE NEXT BRIDE SAKI-CHAN!!”
“NEXT BRIDE?!? ENA DIDN’T EVEN THROW IT AT YOU!!! TOYA DID!”
“STILL COUNTS SINCE HE’S TECHNICALLY A BRIDE AND PLUS HE’S MARRIED!!!”
Mizuki had laughed through it all and watched as the girls fought for the bouquet
It was the most cherished memory for Mizuki
“Enanan!!! I’m home~!” They said after hanging out with Rui and An for the day
“In here.” They went inside the living room to hear instrumental of one of their songs
“Ooh~ We in the mood for Charles my honey bunches of oats?”
Ena rolled her eyes
“Never call me that again please.”
“Awww”
Ena takes their hands and arranges them on her shoulder and hips
“Won’t you dance with me Miz?”
Mizuki is smitten with how Ena’s eyes glisten in the fluorescent lights
“Why of course princess~”
They slow dance in the dimly lit room to the beat of the music
Mizuki feels tears on their shirt towards the middle of the song and becomes alarmed
“Ena? What’s wrong?” They stop and the one hand on her shoulder goes to wipe away Ena’s tears
“Mizuki…I have cancer…”
Mizuki tightly holds Ena in their arms as they both fall slowly to the wooden floor
“H-how…how long?”
“T-three months…I-I didn’t know…I’m so sorry..”
“No, no… Don’t apologize Ena…it’ll be ok…”
Ena sobs in their shoulder
“A-Akito! He’ll be devastated! The only fucking person in the whole damn family who cared about him and-and disappear! Airi-Chan, Mafuyu, Kanade! I don’t wanna die Mizuki! I don’t wanna leave you!”
“You won’t die…You won’t die…”
“I will…I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry.”
“W-what?” Mizuki says after a few minutes
“I went to the doctors today…I thought I had something wrong with me when I saw bruises all over when I hit into something…So I went to them and she said…she examined me and…I have cancer.”
Ena looks at them and teary eyes
“I don’t have much time left Mizuki.”
And with that Mizuki broke down in tears along with Ena, their happy ending shattering all over again.
Ena ruffles Akito’s soft hair as he holds her hand in his hair, Mizuki came in after she was finished speaking with him so to see even the most stubborn man they knew cry was heartbreaking
“Mizu…”
“Yes Enanan?”
“Promise you’ll wake up by my side and make me breakfast tomorrow morning?”
“Of course I would Ena.”
“Don’t forget about the list on the fridge ok?”
“Ok sweetie.”
“Mizu?”
“Hm?”
“I love you.”
“I love you too Ena.”
The constant beeps have been replaced with a steady sound that is unchanging.
The funeral wasn’t any better. Akito ended up silently sobbing into Toya’s shoulder after placing a bouquet at the tall grave with her name embedded in it as well as her cremated remains buried. When Airi put her own bouquet in it as well as a pencil with a heart shaped eraser, she broke down and fell to her knees crying in front of the grave. Everyone put a bouquet of flowers in for their lost friend.
It was raining that day. Outside for everyone and inside for Mizuki’s heart.
Toya wrapped a hand around Akito, placing his hand on his shoulder and letting him cry into his shoulder while his other hand was holding an umbrella
Pale brown umbrellas. That’s what Airi wanted for everyone to have at the funeral. Ena had always argued that it was yellow not brown.
Now she wasn’t here to argue anymore was she?
Airi’s tears never stopped, she tightly holds Shizuku’s hand as she sobs. Her closest best friend who she called her sister is gone.
Kanade’s tears were silent but Mizuki knew how depressed she felt. Mafuyu too, they knew. Kanade had left her share of flowers.
White Egret Orchids.
“They mean my thoughts will follow you into your dreams. Ena will always be with us.” Kanade explained
Mafuyu’s flowers were different.
Pink Carnations and Purple Hyacinths
“Remember and regret. There’s many things I wanted to say to Ena. I guess…I guess I’ll never say them.” Mafuyu and Kanade stayed by Mizuki’s side
The rain pelted them as they stood for what seemed like hours in front of her grave until it suddenly stopped. The three turned around to find a small smile from Tsukasa and Rui with a big umbrella
“See? I told you it was a good idea to get a big umbrella.” Tsukasa said to Rui
“Hm~ I guess so my star. Come on you three, you looked soaked and we’re going to the nearby bar.”
Mafuyu grabs Mizuki’s wrist and follows them. Mizuki has a ugly horrid jealousy welling inside their heart seeing how everyone still has each other and yet they don’t.
Akito has Toya to cry on, to sleep with when nights get cold or lonely, to hug and kiss him when he breaks down. What about them?
Airi has Shizuku when she can’t sleep, when she doesn’t have anyone else to talk to, when she remembers that her friend is not here anymore. What about them?
Oh and they’re so guilty about this one. Jealousy of their own friend. The one who’s been by their side since middle school.
Rui.
He has Tsukasa. He has someone who can warm his heart up and make him fall in love over and over again. He can talk to him whenever he wants, he can cuddle him or call him whenever he needs. He can…he can dance, sing, and whisper sweet words to him whenever he wants.
The burning jealousy goes even to Mafuyu and Kanade. They have each other. They can talk about her without having to be careful. They can emphasize with each other, do all sorts of things to move on.
What about them?
Sure, they still have the sekai, they all frequently visit the Vocaloids. But will they truly emphasize with them?
No. Not in the way that Ena did. Never.
Mizuki took a sip of the fine wine, anything to get their mind off of her. But it doesn’t work. All around them are people mourning her loss.
A warm presence snaps them out of it
“So. How…how does it taste?”
They look into her blue eyes while putting their head in their arms on the table
“Good.”
“I heard from Rui-Kun that Toya-kun bought it. He got two more bottles for everyone else…he doesn’t drink as well as Akito.”
“Neither did Ena. Always complained that it was too bitter.” They laugh for a second before taking another sip of the glass
“You can drink but, please not too much. It’s not good for you.”
“Wanna take my mind off her.”
“You know you can’t do that Mizuki. She’ll always be in your mind. It’s unhealthy.”
They look at her before swiping all the liquid away from their glass
“…fine.”
Kanade takes the glass away and gives it to some random person, Mizuki can’t care right now. Everything is too foggy for them.
“Did you lock your door?”
Mizuki nods ever so slightly but Kanade can easily see it
“Good, I’m going to take you home with us today.”
“W-whyy…” Mizuki slurs out
“You’re drunk Mizuki. Remember? You can’t take alcohol well.”
Mizuki smiles softly at the memory of Ena mirroring her words
“Mizuki, I don’t wanna drinkkkk” Ena exaggerates her words out at the table
“Come on! It’ll be fun! Drinking contest between the Kamiyama kids! Plus Kohane!” Mizuki nudges her shoulder
Akito, Ena, Rui, and Kohane sit on the opposite side of the table
“Is…is this a good idea?” Toya asked Mizuki
“Nope!”
“We all don’t even drink-“
“Akito! Shhh!” They exclaim
“3, 2, 1, Go!” The other four shout
They all down the glass and wait 10 minutes but nothing happens
“Can I have water now? It tastes bitter!” Kohane exclaims
“It’s interesting…Fufufu, mind if I take a bottle home to try to make an alcohol robot?”
“…bland. 0/10” Akito states
“IT’S BITTER! MIZUKI!”
Mizuki laughs before they switch sides
An, Mizuki, Tsukasa, and Toya switch sides with their partners
“Akito, if I say anything bad, please don’t record.”
“I can’t do that partner.”
Toya whines at that before putting his hands on his face
“HAHA! Mizuki and I will crush this!”
“I’ll try my best!” Tsukasa states
“Go!”
After downing their own drinks, they wait again and…results are interesting…
“OH FUCK TOYA?!” Tsukasa yells when he sees Toya in his arms on the table
He pops out with a pink blush on his face and a silly smile
“Heh…I don’t drink for this reason….”
Mizuki and An are singing some random song that sounds like…Newly Edgy Idols..?
“They failed for sure. Tsukasa is the winner!”
Tsukasa poses before they all hear Toya’s head thud against the table
“Toya!” Tsukasa shakes him
“Mmmmmm lemme sleep…Akito can wake me…with a kiss later…”
“BITCH THIS AIN’T NO SLEEPING BEAUTY?!” Ena shouts at him
“And that’s my cue to take him home. We are never doing this shit again.” Akito says as he stands up
He helps Toya stand up but-
“Akiiiii…say bye firstttt”
“Yeah Aki~” Rui teases
He rolls his eyes
“Bye everyone. See you soon.” He tries to pull Toya out but he stands still
“Legs…tired…” Akito glares at the other four who see to be watching him. In one swift motion, he picks up Toya like he did at their wedding and everyone cheers. Ena takes pictures of them for blackmail
As the two make it out the door with Mizuki and Ena at the door watching them get to their car safety they hear some words
“You’re never drinking again.”
“Mmkay…”
Ena flicks Mizuki’s head and they dramatically yell
“E-naaaa!!!”
“C’mon, let’s go home. I’m driving.”
“Huh? Whyyy??”
“You’re drunk Mizuki. Remember? You can’t take alcohol well.” Ena scolds them
She waves to the other three who are currently fending off a heavily drunk An
“BYE MIZUKIIIII!!!” An waves frantically to them
“BYEEE ANNN!”
Driving home was surprisingly quiet. Mizuki slept in the car, the moment they got in
“Mizuki?”
“Mmmh?”
“I love you, but please don’t get drunk again. Your drunk singing sucks ass.”
“Mmkayyy…love you too..”
Mizuki’s tears well up in their eyes again as they make their way down Mizuki’s face. Kanade hugs them tightly
“We’ll all be here for you Mizu.”
Mizuki sobs and laughs in her dress
‘You’ll all be here for me huh? But you can’t bring her back, you can be here but not by my side like she was.’
Ena’s voice strikes them out of their head
“All life is ridiculously pretty
Being upside down and godlike
It's an unprecedented failure in human history
That's what "I" am”
Mizuki gasps out and is hopeful until they remember Ena is gone. Tears well up again and they wipe them constantly
‘It’s just my phone…’
They look at the caller id
Lil Brosef
Mizuki puts their phone down besides them
‘Sorry Akito. Don’t wanna talk today either.’
TODAY 5:54
Lil Brosef: Happy birthday, just gonna let u know Rui is def gonna come over and haul ur ass somewhere in 2 hours. Don’t say I didn’t warn u
They play Ena’s last voice mail again
“Hey Mizuki! I’m shopping with Airi-Chan and her friends right now but-“ Small snickers and laughs are heard “Guys!! I just wanted to say, I love you. Yeah yeah, I was forced to say it in front of them, lost a bet. But,” Her voice tunes to a softer sounding tone “I really do love you. These past years with you have been the best, I love you a lot Mizuki. I gotta go now, bye!”
Mizuki sighs out, not having enough energy to press the stop button on the voicemail. They know that all there’s left is silence because Airi took her pho—
“Oh and!”
Mizuki quickly sits up, startled by her voice
“I don’t know if I’ll tell you this before…But, I want to say I left a list on the fridge. Read for me won’t you?”
The voicemail ends with a click and Mizuki puts frantically puts their phone in their pocket and turns on the bright lights.
The place is dusty, incredibly dusty. But, it’s not messy. Everything has stayed where they’ve been for months. Mizuki couldn’t bear to see any of Ena’s plushies, opting to throw them on the couch and cover them with a blanket. They go to the fridge which has been left unused for months as well. (Akito and Rui meet up every two days to get food with Mizuki to make sure they don’t die. Mizuki thinks that’s their only meal every week until they see them again.)
They wipe the dust away from the fridge and pulls the cat shaped magnet off the light yellow envelope underneath all the drawings
“My dearest Mizuki Akiyama, are you seeing this? I hope you are.” is written in her handwriting with a glittery purple color on the back of the envelope
Mizuki sobs as they never thought they would have anything handwritten from Ena again
They gently open the letter, instantly smelling the perfume she always wore. Pulling out the piece of paper inside
Amia.
Me writing a letter to you? Bit strange isn’t it? Writing a letter to you after I’m dead, hiding it underneath all my drawings, and expecting you to actually look at the fridge. Lemme guess… You read this on your birthday, 27/8 right?
‘Right you are again Ena.’
That being said, if I’m right…Happy birthday! I’m so sorry I couldn’t celebrate with you physically this year. I really wanted to see you panic about being 30 next year. Ha! The look on your face when a foreigner kid called you old was gold! Happy 29th birthday Mizu. There’s so many things I wished we could have done together. Ok, ok, stop picking on you I know, I know, but it’s so fun! Now I get why Akito and you tease me so much.
‘No, you oath. Keep teasing me.’
Speaking of which, I wrote a letter to everyone but you are a special occasion. As my last present, I sent you seven letters for the next seven weeks. Ok, maybe writing this next to Mafuyu isn’t such a good idea. “Seven days is 1 and a half months” my ass. Back on topic though, you gotta do what I say for these letters! They’re very important to me. Maybe to you too. You’ll know when you’ll find them but I helped you with one of them. It’ll come in tomorrow. I don’t want you to cry over me for so long! That’s so boring and sad! Wear some flashy clothing, go buy some clothes with a friend, try new food with Rui or Toya (Note: Don’t get squid for Toya! He hates it! He’s not a picky eater but he’ll trade that with Akito’s carrots anytime. I see them!!!)
First things first though, FUCKING SHOWER. BRUSH YOUR DAMN TEETH. DRINK WATER. and call the girls and maybe if you’re up to it Rui or An! Hold on, or call somebody who you rarely talk to instead of those three and the girls! I don’t want you looking like Mizook instead of Mizuki in front of our friends.
I wanted to remind you though, I miss you a lot wherever I am. Just remember that.
I love you.
Also, please invest in a fucking dust cleaner and working vacuum and throw the old one out. Buy new lightbulbs and make sure you’re drinking water.
Dreadfully yours,
Enanan
P.S I love you.
Mizuki wipes their tears away and laughs at how Ena-like it is. They fold the letter up and put it back in it’s envelope
They take a shower for the first time in weeks
‘You know, I should try talking to someone beside them…’
“Uhm…Hello Toya here, is anything needed?”
“Hey, what would you think of having a small little date with Rui and I today?”
“Mizuki-kun?!”
There are questing murmurs and outbursts on Toya’s side. His group must have been rehearsing for a show.
How happy Ena was when Akito told her that his group surpassed Rad Weekend. They weren’t going to stop there, no.
“So Toya-kun?”
“A-ah! Yeah! Sorry, was distracted. W-what time?”
‘Distracted with me, that’s why.’
“Hmm how about.. thirty minutes from now? The Cat Cafe on 31st?”
“Yeah, I’ll be there.”
“Put me on speaker ro quick.”
They hear affirmation from Toya a moment later
“Hi Akito, An, Kohane.”
“Mizuki! We miss you!!!” An shouts
“Man you’re loud!”
“Shut the fuck up!”
“How have you been Mizuki-Kun?”
“Fine Kohane.”
There’s some back talk and some small chats before they all say their goodbyes
Mizuki then hangs up the phone
Mizuki dresses up without being forced for the first time in weeks. When they get out the bedroom, they see Ena laying on the bed.
Ena’s soft brown eyes open and she smiles at them
“I just wanna say.
P.S I love you.”
When Mizuki blinks again, she’s no longer there.