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• I Have no Interest in the Value of Life (Vomit, Embrace, Pleasure and Euthanasia) by desert_houseplant

  Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)  

  • Mature
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Multi
  • Work in Progress

  21 Oct 2025

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Hinomori Shiho/Hoshino Ichika/Mochizuki Honami/Tenma Saki
  • Hinomori Shiho & Hoshino Ichika & Mochizuki Honami & Tenma Saki
  • Hinomori Shiho & Hinomori Shizuku
  • Azusawa Kohane & Hanasato Minori & Hinomori Shiho
  • Kamishiro Rui/Tenma Tsukasa
  • Hanasato Minori/Hinomori Shizuku/Kiritani Haruka/Momoi Airi
  • Hinomori Shiho
  • Hinomori Shizuku
  • Hinomori Shiho and Shizuku's Parents
  • Hoshino Ichika (Project SEKAI)
  • Mochizuki Honami
  • Tenma Saki
  • Tenma Tsukasa
  • Kamishiro Rui
  • Azusawa Kohane
  • Hanasato Minori
  • Original Characters
  • airi is mentioned but like. idk if shes gonna show up yet
  • Pre-Relationship
  • for polyneed
  • ruikasa is only briefly mentioned
  • this gets dark guys. read the fucking tags.
  • Self-Harm
  • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
  • Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
  • Implied/Referenced Drug Use
  • Depressed Hinomori Shiho
  • Hinomori Shiho Needs a Hug
  • Hinomori Shiho-centric
  • He/Him and They/Them Pronouns for Hinomori Shiho
  • THE SELF HARM IS GRAPHIC. DO NOT READ IF THIS TRIGGERS YOU.
  • Depression
  • Psychosis
  • Hallucinations
  • overall not a fun time for shiho
  • theres also some depersonalization and derealization
  • but thats about it
  • idk if this is dark enough for dead dove tbh
  • I Wrote This While Listening to Car Seat Headrest's Music
  • i love you will toledo but only in a gender way i want your gender will toledo
  • oh. also
  • Suicide Attempt
  • and! and.
  • Unreliable Narrator
  • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
  • ok so imadding it.
  • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
  • for literally all the tags lmao
  • this is based oof my own experiences and my friends experiences so it should be accurate
  • pls tell me if i fucked smth up
  • Vomiting
  • Underage Drinking
  • Underage Smoking
  • Underage Drug Use
  • Recreational Drug Use
  • Drug Abuse
  • a lot of drugs guys...
  • Out of Character
  • for shizuku bc we dont have a lot of angry shizuku in canon
  • author has no plan and its causing him ✨problems✨
  • References to Christian Religion & Lore
  • bc i have religious trauma and dont have the means to do in-depth research
  • curse you screen time limits
  • Delusions
  • for ichika
  • bc schizoaffective disorder
  • i forgor this one
  • They/Them Pronouns for Hoshino Ichika (Project SEKAI)
  • Everyone Needs A Hug
  • they all suffer mwahaha
  • Author Projecting Onto Hinomori Shiho
  • UNRELIABLE NARRATOR AGAIN SO NO ONE MISSES IT
  • Blood and Injury
  • imaginary gore but still gore

  Summary

  Failed. Failed again.

  The boy hunches over his trash can, heaving up the contents of his stomach. Painkillers gleam from where they land in the bin, glimmering up at him like a mockery of his misery.

  Why can't it all go away already? Why was he still here after everything?

  He dry heaves, and grabs for his box cutter again.

  One more try.

  Or: Shiho Hinomori and his complicated relationship with being alive.

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  15,348

  Chapters:

  9/?

  Comments:

  68

  Kudos:

  52

  Bookmarks:

  7

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  950