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    She practices smiling in the bathroom mirror. A real smile. The kind that reaches her eyes and changes the shape of her whole face.

     

    It feels awkward, like wearing clothes that don't quite fit. But when she thinks about Bob's cactus growing a new flower, about the way Ava's eyes crinkle when she laughs, about Skittles and soft hoodies and the freedom to sleep until 10 AM, the expression comes a little easier.

     

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    antonia dreykov figures out what she wants, in her own terms. post-thunderbolts

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    11 Aug 2025

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    “I didn’t know you smoked.”

    “It’s this,” Bob blows smoke into the New York City skyline as Walker moves to stand next to him. He’s not in his uniform and his bent shield is nowhere to be seen. It’s just the two of them above the city, “Or meth.”

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    Bob thought his life ended in a lab in Malaysia. He was wrong.

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    Or, how Bob learned to live with himself, others, and the life he found himself in. But, not necessarily in that order.

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    11 Aug 2025

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    “Did you want to talk about anything?” she asked before she could lose her nerve about it.

    “What, um,” he said, and immediately there was the guard on his face, the mask. “What did— what do I— what do you think I might want to talk about?”

    Yelena swallowed. The doors were still open. “Oh, I don’t know. Uh, like the, uh, crazy things my dad says. Like, maybe if you wanted to talk about that, I thought, you know, you could come in and we could talk about that.”

    Bob didn’t move for a moment. His dark eyes were fixed on the floor, on the crack between the elevator and the floor to her room. On the void between, tiny and endless, a crack of pitch blackness in the building that eyes never saw and a finger couldn’t fit into, but a void all the same. “Do you… want to talk about that?” he asked, his voice quiet and low and cautious.

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    In the aftermath of the Void, Bob and Yelena work through some stuff together.

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    06 Aug 2025

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    “The love he feels for Yelena is so big and startling. He is certain life is worth living because he can feel like this about her. And he doesn’t need her to feel the same way, he just notices how nice it is to love her. He’s on therapy session 23. He wonders when he’ll stop counting.“

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    05 Aug 2025

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    Sometimes on good days, when his dad wasn’t screaming and shouting at everything that moved, he’d put Bob in the truck and drive out on the 72 and go fishing with him in the evening. Flashlights in the dark, streaking dim across expanses of black water, muggy air, mosquitoes. Little red eyes looking back out of the water. They’d sit and guess how big the gators were from the distance between the eyes. You’d better watch yourself out here, Bobby, his dad would say sometimes, and pretend to start to push him forward over the boardwalk with a big hand splayed on his back. And he’d laugh and laugh, like it was funny.

    Bob had never thought it was funny. But he’d learned early on to laugh along.

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    When Bob tries out a new solution for his wellbeing, he's advised by Barnes to keep to a schedule and avoid any variables. But this means pulling away from the New Avengers (and Yelena) for a while, and even though the results are fantastic, all that pent-up need for connection and affection has to go somewhere when the adjustment period is over.

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    03 Aug 2025